#i feel. so stupid-always
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you mean nothing to me
#transformers#transformers one#megatron wins custody au#megatron#bumblebee#b 127#maccadam#ough they make me so sad#i have soo many thoughts about them...#my AU is not happy at all sorry#bee isnt a decipticon hes basically factionless at the moment he just wants to be with megatron#megatron just hates him so much#bee reminds him of everything that he hated so much about himself#hed think about bee down there in sub level 50 for so long and he would just get so angry#his eyes that r still blue and remind him of the autobots of the miners of elita of orion#why wont they change color#why are they still blue#is he going to leave to join the autobots...?#his stupid son that he hates so much but he actually really does 😭#he just has so many mixed feelings on him#and bee is always trying to be a voice of reason and it just frustrates him even more#bee by no means has any decipticon values...#he doesnt agree with megatron he just didnt want him to be alone#i have so many brain worms that i want to share with all of u...
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i bring you: my casual clothes tankman design (and steve too) i am so normal about found family tankdad
happy pride month lol
#pico's school#tankmen#fnf fanart#fnf#fnf pico#moon art#feel free to roast me for my weird design decisions#or ask me questions abt my design decisions! pls talk to me about my art it would make me happy. my askbox is always open#tankdad#friday night funkin#pico newgrounds#pico fnf#friday night funkin'#tankman#sergeant john captain#tankmen captain#tankmen steve#steve tankmen#daddy dearest#fnf daddy dearest#newgrounds#i posted sketches of him to ng last year but he looks so much better in these that the old pics make me cringe lol#this was a lot of time and effort for what amounts to glorified doodle sheets but. listen.#had to introduce him to y'all properly before i potentially go stupid go crazy with him#cw smoking#cw alcohol#edit: yall goin nutty damn. someone on ng called him a dilf too its fucking over#1k
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I find the fact that the confrontation at the end of UTRH is often summarized as Jason asking Bruce to kill the Joker for him fascinating.
Because that's not what happened.
Jason holds a gun up to Joker's head, gives Bruce another, and tells him that if Bruce doesn't do something (shoot Jason), he will kill Joker.
Jason doesn't give the gun to Bruce so that he would shoot Joker. He isn't expecting Bruce to pull the trigger on the clown. He's asking Bruce to do nothing. To be inactive. Because that will still be a choice, and despite having done nothing, everybody clearly agrees that Bruce would still, at least in part, be responsible for Joker's death.
...And to me, this moment is a kind of- microcosm, of the rest of Jason's point. Because after being captured and carted off to Arkham, the villain will escape again, and will kill more people. The only way to truly prevent that from happening would be to kill them; Bruce refuses to do so, and I respect his right to choose such a thing for himself, but it is still a choice, and if we agree that Bruce's inaction during the confrontation would leave him at least partly responsible for the Joker's death, then we must also agree that his inaction in permanently preventing the Rogues from killing more people means he is also, partly, responsible for all of those deaths.
#my dc posting#batman#dc#bruce wayne#jason todd#joker#uhh is this like analysis or meta#anyway. to me this is the message that scene sends#if we say bruce doing nothing would mean he assisted in the murder of joker then bruce doing nothing about the villains means he is also#responsible for those deaths#ANYWAY yes b4 you come at me;;#bruce's belief in rehabilitation and that everyone can get better is central to his character#and i love it and no i dont actually think he should kill the rogues or whatever#but the question there is. Are you fine with the future victims your decisions will cause?#Are their lives worth the slim chance any of these people will get better?#batman says yes theyre worth it. red hood says no theyre not.#thats the fundamental moral difference there#its why jason challenges the batman status quo#which is why he cant be harnessed well after his initial return bc comics can never truly escape that status quo#anyway i sure am having some thoughts for someone not that smart so if you disagree please tell me!!! just be civil or ill just block you <#...anyway this is another thing BTAS succeeds in bc i always feel like yes these villains do deserve yet another chance#despite what theyve done. bruce's belief in them doesnt feel stupid and naive#its abt what you yourself can live with. bruce can live w the deaths of the ppl the criminals he doesnt get rid of kill#and jason can live with killing those criminals and preventing further victims
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Question about your changling AU, where did you learn about the ins and outs of Fae and Changling myths? I'm interested in learning too but not sure where to start lol
some of the lore I have for the AU I crafted myself, otherwise I read a lot of old faerie tales growing up and my mom, for some reason, knows an awful lot about shit like that, so some of it is just innate from her. otherwise i just read a lotttttt of books around the concepts of these things when I was younger because I was fascinated with jim henson's worlds
#replies#look into old myths and legends#read old books#start with uhhhh. uhhhhhhh#the princess and the goblin. the moorechild. shit like that#i read a lot of robin mckinley's works growing up which lean more into the silent side of magic shit#where magic is very much an unknown element. and defining it is not only risky but generally stupid#so sometimes shit happens. and you can make a cause and effect. you can do research. but there is always folly when playing with fate#so i feel like how I write magic tends to be a little more esoteric and odd#not so much chanting spells and giving exact definitions#more of. magic being a force like gravity. whos effects are usually not seen without it in action
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also hi one last thing i’m thinking about jegulus both being de-aged by a potion mishap but instead of being at hogwarts they live together so now they’re just two three year olds with no supervision and no idea where they are and james immediately goes and writes a letter in his very sloppy handwriting because that’s what effie taught him to do and then he sits on the couch and makes reg sit with him because she also taught him to stay exactly where he is if he’s lost so she can find him
and then effie and monty rush in and there’s just two toddlers there and no explanation whatsoever about… how the fuck they got that way
#and reg would want sirius so he would be there#it would mainly be stupid#by mainly i mean completely#but i like silly and stupid#and like james is always right next to reg#and trying to make him laugh because i feel like reg was a loud and smiley kid but not around adults#so when effie and monty are there he’s quiet as he’s been taught#and james is trying to just make him laugh#also since sirius is an adult reg would be quiet around him#which sirius would Hate#i could keep going#i need to be up at 8 am#i need to sleep#jegulus#regulus black#james potter#the marauders
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The Four Herberts of the Apocalypse




(in celebration of Medic's legal first name)
#I am once again shitposting about tf2#herbert west#reanimator#medic tf2#tf2 medic#tf2#team fortress 2#herbert von krolock#tanz der vampire#I was always convinced it was a stupid name for a vampire but for medic it kinda fits#considering when and where he was born it's just a normal ass name to have#(I feel like I'm back at writing my essay pointing out that historical context is important xD)#also I have no idea who this polar bear is I just saw a few people mention him and I needed a fourth herbert so here we are
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Day 8: yearning
#my art#badsansuary#utmv#sans au#killer sans#dust sans#self insert#something something people loving despite the pain#something something you wish you could too#something something you think you do but how can you be sure when you don't feel it#do you think stage 2 killer ever wants to love like everyone else?#but it's easier said than done when it's too painful and confusing to put up with everything that comes along with it#i tried to put some thought behind it all but i'm just making myself look stupid#i'm always so amazed by how some people can write him#like anó#i like the fanon interpretation of him but i do want to make a mix of the two? if that makes any sense
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since tumblr always has to suffer my personal vents and breakdowns and rants and annoyances you get the most wips and pics of unfinished stuff, im sure that makes up for it
the (unfinished) shiekah arm concepts that made me want to explode and i dont think im gonna work on again
#ganondoodles#art#zelda#ganondoodles rewrites totk#botw2#wip#calling it wip but i dont think i can go back to it#i tried to keep going on this for so long bc i have had the idea in mind for so long and it seemed fun#well ...... turns out that was a lie#thought to myself maybe i can do like one of those cool concept art things where they just go for interesting shapes first#and then refine it to actually work#but im not made for it#tbh im not sure what im made for#(i dont think posting wips im not posting elsewhere actually makes up for my annoying mental health spirals..)#i hope its not too small#was intending to go for version H but only got to do one variation#the outer casing can be customized with several designs#theres a guardian arm that extends and stretches to form the hookshot in the bulky part as well as the stored magic#there is always something on it to glow bc it also subtly shows how low your magic meter is#and if it runs out the blue parts turn orange like other shiekah tech in stand by mode#wanted to draw all that on here too#but .... ill need to start over when im doing better ....... WHEN im doing better and can draw again#speaking it into existence#(....man how all those “designs” look is so ... i feel even stupider for getting so extremely frustrated over it ...)
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I feel so unwell


The sadness on Apollo's face too... Oh I am sooo not okay

#a final farewell...for he knew Hector was doomed to die 💔#will I ever stop being sad over Hector's death? No actually#like wtf was Homer thinking#I'm actually feeling so upset being reminded of Hector's death and I feel stupid for that aksjeks#Hector I will always love you 🥹#Achilles#Apollo#Athena#Hector#mine#vase paintings
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✨💕 The winner of the DGP is———! 💕✨
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#kamen rider#kamen rider geats#kr geats#hyperbattle dvd#azuma michinaga#keiwa sakurai#ace ukiyo#neon kurama#tsumuri#fanart#comic#comics#comic portfolio#artists on tumblr#nichiyoubi no noraneko#as i said on my wip post - excelent dance drawing practice#yes i literally described the entire dance in my alt captions lkjhgfd#i asked my jp teacher if its cringe to write in japanese in a left-right comic and he said its okay so here i am#on my way to continue fooling my non kr followers into thinking micchi is the protag#btw im locked away from twt due brazil reasons so hope y'all feel special seeing this here or on bsky#BTW question to the chosen ones that are reading my tags until here:#is there a sort of etiquette rules regarding making ship kamen rider art?#i ask bc its the first in a very long time i do fanart of characters portraited by actors so i'm not really sure whats ok and whats not#stupid question i know but i'm always for the 'better safe than sorry'
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No one understands guilt better than a girl with emotionally immature parents
#personal#actually bpd#bpd#bpd vent#actually borderline#bpd thoughts#vent#actually traumatized#actually cptsd#emotionally immature parents#like my dad just stole my moms phone AGAIN to text me some BULLSHIT#as he always does. and I was mean because wtf#and now I feel bad cause he's trying to be nice even though 6 seconds ago he called me a spoiled asshole#I told him that if we never speak again he can look at the last chat we had where he basically called me a useless bitch#soooooooo 🤦♀️ unfortunately.....he never learns. I told him he should have never called me a stupid bitch when i was 5 yrs old#because that STUCK with me. so hard. and his response was well maybe you were being one#excuse ME?
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So for some more details:
- I am fairly time-poor with a huge amount of commitments: Grownup Job Senior Promotion, three small kids on summer holidays/starting school, writing a novel fanfic for sick friend, peak growing/harvest season at allotment, etc. so im only offering “what I can actually deliver” at this time
- swan comic is a new idea, people like those don’t they? Not sure of how fundraising mechanism would work here but maybe taking prompts?
- not sure how essay would work but it’s probably my best/most appealing skill?
- material items in exchange for a minimum fixed amount. So offline I’m most known for material works. I’m not a BAD printmaker / craftworker and for this I would be looking at designing a sort of limited print run of greeting card style original hand printed prints. I know you guys aren’t familiar with this work from me, so this would involve a bit of trust that An Art from me would be worth at least £5 lmao. However it’s kind of nice to get something real in the mail right??
- super worried about fandom auction so this would be mostly a register of interest that I’d take to more experienced people and use as leverage to start an auction; I’m not in a great place to provide much actual legwork here. I also have huge guilt from like 2000-something where someone paid A HUNDRED AND LIKE 20 DOLLARS to charity for earthquake survivors and I DID NOT FINISH THE FIC AND I HAD to write to them, weepingly, apologising forever about it, and they were so graceful, they forgave me and wrote off my fandom auction contribution, but I had never watched the tv show they requested and was in the process of romancing dr glass and it all went SO wrong, this MIGHT heal my scars of shame from fandom auctions generally OR might make them worse. It itvery hard to write fic actually it’s my worst skill pls don’t pick this
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I will dance like a monkey and get sick kids out of Gaza. What would you like to see most?
#drunk tag btw!#I am sloshed on pimms and need to post this anyway.#pls forgive all nonsense and consider this a transmission of my pure feelings into your loving heart.#why are so you so often drunkposting elodie you ask me. and I say. well.#I am raising children in the uk#so we are always messaging each other to pool the children in#feral Wolfpack#while we sit back and drink something dreadful someone has made#and my hobbit liver is now locally famous so there’s a lot of elodie finish this off will you with reference to stupid things#like homebrew pimms.#hey quickpoint here#hi#gin is not posh. it’s just moonshine. help me explain this to yt British people next time you’re over thanks
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We can make fun of Ninjago’s lessons all we want however I would be lying if I’d say I haven’t repeated “When there is no calm outside of you find the calm inside of you” during stressful situations (exams) and that it didn’t helped.
#it makes NO sense esp not during exams i know#but somehow in the completely silent exam room with 50+ people it just. helps.#i think it might honestly be the feeling around me of everyone being stressed#(aka the ‘’no calm outside’’)#and this always helps me to remember breathing#it’s so weird wth is this lego show doing to me#ninjago#lego ninjago#dragons rising#ninjago dragons rising#cable stupids
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theres people that build the entire map of botw in fucking minecraft and im sitting here for the 100th time within less than a year crying bc i cant draw a line how i want
#ganondoodles talks#and yet i have more and more in my head#i keep thinking of more and more things i want to draw and show and it keeps piling up#i have always been drawing “at a loss” bc my body is fundamentally unable to keep up with my head#so theres tons of things that just kind of died bc i couldnt get them on paper fast enough#but now it feels even worse#bc i cant get anything out#its not like a clogged drain that drains like half a liter over 5 hours like it used to#its fully clogged but the tap is turned way up so its just getting more and more and nothing gets through#and im tied to a post forced to watch as it rises and spills not able to do anything about it#its so dumb#i know i have enough skill to do the shit i want to do right now#but it just blocked- unavaible- paywalled perhaps but who do i pay and with what#all that is already bad enough but i also have to feel really stupid about it#stairs i have walked up before but now im just standing in front yelling and crying#getting invisible walled by myself but also dont know how to get rid of it or cheat it- which is stupid#shouldnt i know how to get through??????????? yes. yes i should.#maybe i should just not allow myself to even open the browser at all so i can at least stop making these posts#better for everyone probably
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seeing a lot of neve hate already today, specifically that she doesn't do a good enough job fixing lucanis. have we considered what lucanis brings to the table for her? why is it her job to fix him? is he such a pathetic non-actor in his own life that he can't fix himself? so many people on here are transparent about their view of women as emotional support accessories to men, it is very cringe + you should be embarrassed + i think lucanis dumps your rook for her post-game anyway
#it kinda feels like the people saying this do not like or respect lucanis as a person#do you think he's stupid? is that what's happening? i don't get it#ya'll need to decenter men so bad. free yourselves from this mind prison where men are always the priority
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Looks like you found one of those golden retriever girls! Good luck with that, Tamarack
(Fake screenshots! These are fan made based on incorrect quotes and not in the game)
#our life#our life 2#our life now and forever#olnf#olnf tamarack#tamarack baumann#our life tamarack#incorrect quotes#fan edit#fan made#not canon#mc annabeth#annabeth is soooooo jason mendoza coded it's crazy#like she's not stupid but she is kinda dumb and happy most of the time and she loves tama more than anything#this quote probably works a little better in step 3 but i don't have those sprites so maybe I'll redo this when i do#also tama is the ONLY person allowed to call her annie! everyone else calls her beck or maybe annabeth if they're close#i need the step 2 angst so bad it's not even funny. i need it and i need it right now#like none of my mcs are having a good time in step 2 but becks arc is about how hard it can be to always be the positive and upbeat one#and that maybe her two best neighbors take that for granted sometimes and need to let her feel negatively wo making her feel guilty#sunshine characters breaking down/snapping my beloved
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