#i feel so powerless
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It's terrifying to feel my body continually atrophy and worsen. I hate living like this, it's agony
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My dad is in Orlando and milton is heading right for him
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I don't wanna be in a world where genocide is justified. I don't wanna be in a world where people cannot live freely without fear of being killed, where people cannot live freely in their own homes. I don't wanna live in a world where propaganda rots everyone's brains and makes them believe that the oppressors are the oppressed. I don't want to live in a world where Palestine is wiped off the face of the Earth because of disgusting, blood thirsty leaders. I don't wanna live in a world where Palestinian people can't be free. Everyone deserves to live, no one deserves to die because they fought for their land.
#i feel so powerless#i wish i could do more for the Palestinian people#they dont deserve this#from the river to the sea palestine will be free#Palestine
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What are you supposed to do in this godforsaken country if you need a life saving procedure that costs TWO. MILLION. DOLLARS. Where are you suppose to get that money.
Genuinely asking. What are you supposed to do.
What am I supposed to do for my friend??? Watch him die???
Is Gofundme the only option? To extort money from my other friends and loved ones? To sing and dance for strangers, and hope his story is more marketable than someone else’s?
If any knows any resources for sickle cell patients in Virginia please please send them to me.
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do.
#sicklecell#sickle cell disease#sickle cell anemia#sickle cell awareness#please help#help#what do i do#How do I help#i feel so powerless#medical bills#healthcare#Scholarships#Casgevy#Lyfgenia#gofundme#go fund him
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#i feel so powerless#so useless#i can't do anything right#i can't help#i can't do anything that matters#and i'm so selfish for even complaining#this is stupid#i'm sorry#i'm so sorry#i wish i could be useful. i wish i could bring smiles on people's faces#just as much as they bring a smile on mine. i wish i could give the world back everything its given me#i feel too lucky and it disgusts me.
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we have no protein in this household -_-
#fuck am i supposed to eat for dinner? 5 yeast rolls? get real#and unlike the rest of this house i have no means of obtaining the missing ingredients#i cant even make the decision to order food bc i have no money of my own and have to wait for some member of my family to tell me i can#and no one has answered my texts for an hour#i feel so powerless#im completely dependent on other people and i hate the feeling#i want to be able to do things without having to ask for permission first
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#i feel so much guilt with everything unfolding in gaza#i feel so powerless#there are so many ppl dying and i can’t do anything but pray#oh lord i pray for your mercy please save the palestinian people my heart is breaking
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i can't believe i grew up at the heart of some of the evangelical zionists. when i moved away i thought i was never gonna hear about any of that craziness again. i thought it was fringe beliefs and i had no idea how far reaching some of it is. there wasn't even anyone i could talk to about it outside from home that even knew what the fuck i was talking about if i ever brought it up, i usually never did because no one i met outside of home held remotely any of the same beliefs, even if they were also a christian.
i grew up terrified of the thought of ww3 breaking out and the second coming of christ happening because Israel is supposed to be the epicenter of the war that triggers it or something like that and i was afraid of the so called being "left behind" because that's all i had been taught. like i attended these huge events at mega churches that played out the scenarios of the post second coming. people dressed in military garb carrying fake weapons throughout fake streets entering fake homes and fake executing christians for praying in their homes and mark of the beast and much more.
i thought this was all "normal" by the way. i had like no clue of the outside world so to speak. i thought id never have to think about any of it again once i moved away. seeing zionism and israel talked about on here started breaking cracks some number of years again, i think when the march of the return protests happened, that was when i actually started to learn about palestine. the people of palestine are conveniently left out by the protestant evangelical zionists, they simply speak of israel and her "enemies". i did not know much about palestine before this but i knew much about israel, i know many many people who personally went to israel often. they spoke so much of israel and of the land, never mentioning palestine or palestinians. sometimes they would speak of praying for israel and her people because of the terrorist attacks or the attacks from her enemies how the US protects israel because the US is a godly nation or whatever.
i dont really know the point of this post, i never expected any of the above to ever be relevant, i didn't know how horrible the world was until i left home. it's crazy all the different things i was led to believe growing up.
i don't have the language to express what i wish i could. i just know it's all so wrong what's happening, so very terribly wrong. others have expressed it all much better than i ever could. the moment i heard about the hamas video i knew what was to come, i knew israel had been waiting for something like that to justify against palestinians and of course the US was so ready and willing to back it all up.
#i dont know what to say ive always been afraid to talk about any of this because i dont know how anyone will interpret this#im not zionist or religious#i feel so powerless#palestine should be free and israel should stop sieging gaza i dont know the things to say this is way out of my knowledge#trying to learn and understand the truth of everything#it feels wrong to not talk about this but i dont even know if i should i dont know theres so much i dont know#ok ill try not to delete it this time#i cant hide and keep everything to myself forever
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y’know if you asked me in 2008 i probably would have said that i didn’t think the u.s. was going to do, or enable somebody else to do, another genocide in my lifetime, and i certainly wouldn’t have thought the democrats would be the ones enabling it
well ha ha ha ha ha
#i feel like I’m losing my mind sometimes#i feel so powerless#like gaza is being wiped off the face of the earth and I’m just sitting here. I’m just sitting here.
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homeless and so fucking scared lol
#I really don't know what to do#avoiding sleeping at night bc it feels safer to during day#trying not to drink anything so I don't have to pee bc there are never public bathrooms :( but dehydration is so bad for me#idk im gonna cry. brushing my teeth in a bar bathroom#I need more blankets but can't fit anymore in my car#idk what to do. thank god I have my car but it's still so fucking terrible and unsafe and i feel powerless
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the responses i’ve seen to shiv’s ending seem very quick to write her off as just another sad victim of the cycle, which isn’t without truth BUT!!! that is not even remotely the summation of shiv’s story.
i don’t think she votes yes to “save kendall” or to try to finally set her brothers free. and i don’t think her main concern was that ken was becoming their dad. she absolutely noticed and didn’t love it, but that was not her motivation in betraying him. she was thinking about herself.
it’s tempting to make a martyr out of her as she is the only female child and we see her suffer the onslaught of misogyny that comes with that. but to make her into a saintlike figure who got beat takes away the power and intelligence behind her decision.
at this point she’s stuck between two non ideal choices, but she recognizes that they have accidentally made her the single most important player in the game. because while she can’t have the outcome she’d prefer, she has the power to decide the fates of everyone else. the written off lone woman now holds in her hands the fate of every man in her life.
so she thinks about the long term benefits of both options and realizes that one side leaves her completely without any leverage.
her brothers have proven to her multiple times in the last few days alone that they will cut her out and walk all over her the first chance they get. siding with them leaves her nothing to bargain with. she would just have to hope that ken would actually take care of her. and that level of vulnerability is not only unacceptable to her, it’s stupid. and shiv fuckin roy is not stupid.
so she thinks about the other side and about what she actually wants for her life. and against her better judgment, it’s becomes unfortunately clear that she wants tom. the way she wants him is not altogether loving or even good but it is necessary to her. she sees relationships as having winners and losers and she chose this man specifically so that she could be confident in her ability to win. except now he’s grown some balls and made himself unavailable to her.
she may not like the way her husband is evolving but she already placed her bets on him, so she’s sure as hell not losing to him now. there’s also a part of her that feels intrigued by this new man she’s married to. it’s interesting to have a sparring partner in him instead of having to looking for excitement outside of their marriage.
so for maybe the first time ever, she processes what tom has said to her and thinks about what he actually wants.
he needs her to prove that she cares. he needs to know that she is capable of sacrifice. if she can’t find it within herself to do this for him, then she will lose him, and by extension, she will lose.
siding with tom gives her the opportunity to once and for all make a grand-stand gesture of love, but more importantly, it creates leverage for her. never again will he be able to hold the moral high ground over her head. never again can he say she doesn’t love him. never again can he call her selfish or uncaring. above all, he can never betray her again, because she just removed all of his moral justification for turning on her. he doesn’t realize it yet, but she’s just taken back all the power in their relationship. just in a more subtle way than she’s used to operating.
and just like that, she has the ceo of a multi billion dollar company in her pocket, while situating herself as the only descendant of logan roy to still be playing the game, having removed her brothers from the equation permanently. she may still be far from the top but she’s creating a path for herself to climb.
so yes, she’ll let tom play king for a day, and she’ll have his baby and say “congratulations,” and play the gracious wife, but tomorrow is a new day with lots of room to maneuver. and when her husband puts out his hand, she’ll place her own on top. but she won’t grasp it because she doesn’t need to.
#🐺#shivy’s gonna be just fine#okay this ended up being a very long post but#i feel like someone needed to point out her wins#also i’m fully aware that remaining in the toxic world of the family business is not a win rly but#i think her ending is being interpreted as powerlessness#which it is NOT#she chose her spot. she’s calling shots#she may not have won today but she sure as hell didn’t lose#let’s not work so hard to sanctify her that we remove everything about her that makes her such a brilliant character#succession#shiv roy#siobhan roy#scn#tv
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sin eater
#sorry its been a minute!!! the horrors. you understand.#anyways yall ready for another gloom tag essay because here we go!!!#im constantly thinking about the ramifications of uzi literally eating cyn and her now being apart of her.#specifically how it impacts uzi mentally. like dgmw i LOVE the silly cyntail shenanigans in fanart (ive also contributed to this) however#when i really think about it in relation to uzi's arc i go crazy insane#uzi is a character who is grasping for control after a lifetime of not having it.#she has no control over how her peers treat her. she has no control over khan neglecting her for reasons that arent her fault.#she quite literally has no control over the solver taking her over and making her do monstrous things against her will#which solidifies her feelings of being a freak monster who everyone was right to outcast and mistreat.#because im Unwell i interpret her calling herself god as a way to convince herself of having control- and to lock away feelings of impurity#if anyone is in control- if anyone is loved and cherished despite any and all wrong doings- its a god.#and that all comes to a head when she eats the heart of cyn thereby destroying the AS- a literal manifestation of a corrupted god- for good#finally taking back control from the entity that had been terrorizing and traumatizing both her and her loved ones. but did she really?#cyn is apart of her now. powerless sure- but that doesnt take away the horrors she wrought previously#and even so- has uzi ever stopped being just a host? do you think shes terrified of cyn regaining power out of the blue?#do you think uzi ever stops feeling like a monster?#“sin eating” was a thing that happened where someone would consume ritual foods to take on the sins of a recently deceased person#thus absolving said deceased person of any sins and putting them onto the sin eater. being a sin eater ensured eternal damnation.#and i just think about that a lot. when applying that (symbolically ofc(somewhat literally. she very much is a cyn eater)) to what uzi did.#“gloom you're reading way too much into this” THE LITTLE GOTH ROBOT. MAKES ME INSANE IN THE HEAD. OK!!!!!#gloom.art#murder drones#murder drones fanart#murder drones uzi#uzi murder drones#uzi doorman#uzi md#md uzi#uzi fanart
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he has something special for you 🪳
#i feel so powerless when it comes to backgrounds help me#very happy how it turned out and if you think it's messy and imperfect that's exactly how i wanted it#asa emory#the collector#slashers#slasher fanart#fanart#artists on tumblr#*doodles
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The girls are plottinggggg
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wen chao#wang lingjiao#Realizing she was supposed to have an upper lip mole was a cold slap in the face. So sorry ma'am. I won't forget again.#They are evil dumbass 4 evil dumbass and I think we are all missing out on the sheer potential of the comedy between these two.#They have way too much power and are using it for the wrong reasons - which makes them truly great villains.#And when things don't go their way they become piles of whining sludge.#Wang Lingjiao is forever fascinating to me even though we only get crumbs about her.#She's a servant girl who's greatest asset is her beauty and her attractiveness.#Meaning she's had a life being in the gaze of people with significant positions of power over her.#I can't help but read her childishness and petty tantrums as someone who has finally been given the chance to not feel powerless.#If she was a more virtuous type we might 'like' her more but honestly...I don't think she would have survived to this point.#WLJ has only known power hierarchies her whole life. Probably accused of seduction before she even understood what that meant.#I love contrasting her with mianmian because they have similar(ish) backgrounds but different approaches to moving forwards#But WLJ's story is about flying too close to the sun and mianmian's is about going too close to the water.#Like the sea mist dragging her down into complacency - all the sect powerplays are mandatory to 'go along with' if she wants to climb-#-the social ladder. Yet she is the cautionary tale (and a foil to JGY as well) she leaves before sacrificing her own morals.#Mianmian flies away with her wings only slightly plucked while those who sacrificed everything to reach for the top crash and burn.
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Hello! If you are still taking prompts, literally anything from your flower soulmate au for Zutara 👀💜🌸
Aahhh this took quite a while but I had too many thoughts and ideas for what to draw
I went ahead and made another comic and I'm just gonna ramble for a bit qlfjlqkwqk
I think I mentioned this before, but Katara didn't like her soulmark flowers for a quite some time because they remind her too much of painful memories and her inability to protect those dear to her. So for the longest time she would pick them off her face and pretend they weren't there. It wasn't til she worked things out with Zuko that she started to accept the flowers as a part of her and she didn't feel the need to pick them anymore
#zutara#zuko#katara#atla#soulmark au#my art#art requests#katara's flowers remind her of kya's death because right before she sees her mother's dead body she witnesses how hydrangeas erupted from#the crown of hakoda's head and immediately wither away and ever since then she just associates soulmark flowers with that awful memory#when she gets the flowers on her face that don't go away it's like having a constant reminder of that memory#and a constant reminder of how she wasn't able to protect not just her mother but her soulmate as well#so the flowers make her feel like she's powerless and helpless#it's like a wound that never heals!!!#the eglantine roses are a symbol for a wound to heal!!!#the way she feels about the flowers kinda sorta parallels how zuko feels about his scar#the last comic i drew for this au it was katara's scarred hands reaching for zuko's scarred face#but this time it's zuko's flowered hands reaching for the flowers on katara's face#idk i just think that's kinda neat
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Cuties I’d like to mention: liking forcefem or other gender-blending kinks doesn’t invalidate your gender! You don’t want to be a girl just cuz you like forcefem, you like forcefem cuz you want to be a girl!!!!
I had this fear for so so long, it’s normal! “What if I only want this dress, or this skirt, or this makeup for kink”, I avoided touching myself in girl clothes just because I was so scared It’d make everything kink that I would be nothing but a “sissy”, but that wouldn’t (and won’t) happen!!! I like being forced into the role of a kinky-girl because I am kinky-girl!!!
So cuties please don’t let *any* kinks you have make you doubt who you are as a person!
#aa for people into detrans the same applies!#the only reason it’s so so powerful#and so kinky#so humiliating#is because you *are* trans!#you *are* the gender your transitioning to#but if you’re like me and like being powerless#well nothing feels more pathetic then having your gender taken away!#it’s hot!#and valid!#keep being you cuties!#.#not forcefem#i-like-talking#serious talks#..#come by my DMs if anyone would like to talk about this :3#since I had this fear for a while myself#and it *sucked*
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