#i feel like i'm either at a 5 or -5 no inbetween

[positively-bi]

I want to talk about being aroallo for a little bit. Before I start, I want to make it abundently clear that there's nothing wrong with sex that doesn't involve emotional intimacy. There's nothing wrong with one-night-stands. There's nothing wrong with sex with strangers you're never gonna see again.

However, I guess I'm just feeling kind of bummed about how romantic love seems to be the only kind of love people are capable of associating with sex. Like either you're having no strings attached casual sex or you're having romantic sex and there's no inbetween which just isn't true for me. I lost my virginity to my best friend and it was deeply emotionally intimate and wonderful and I felt very close to them but it wasn't romantic. I'm aromantic. I care immensely about them but as a friend. The way I care about them affected the sex we had. It was emotional, it was personal, it was intimate. None of that is negated by the fact it wasn't romantic. I just wish this was talked about more idk.

Anyway, sorry if this was a bit rambling, I've just been thinking. Aroallos, you're incredible and awesome. Everybody else, go give your local aroallo £5

[schizoidcel]

## BOOTHILL x READER ★

🤍 ﹒ HEADCANONS ! ! . .

－ notes ̽ ۪⠀written before his release + gn reader huhu. yall i swear ill get to the lcb requests but im brainrotting too fucking much right now boothill is colonizing my mind so enjoy these thoughts i had and will throw into the tags

︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶༉‧₊˚.

He's a little spoon and NOBODY can convince me otherwise period.

We know damn well hes touch starved. So ofcourse he'd wanna be nuzzled up inbetween your chest and chin

Will teach you how to ride a horse. He definitely has a favourite (his name is Sebastian 🌚🌚)

Very protective over him though. You will not ride on that horse until you are months into the relationship

He gave you another horse to practice riding on and an extra horse incase the other "knocks your socks off" ... Whatever that means

You named them Yee and Haw and he was so conflicted with his emotions that he considered getting a routine check up on his body

Will tease you if you completely fuck up immediately.

He grabs your hands to gesture on things you should be wary about while being on the back of a horse, knowing it'll mess your brain up and lead you to not pay attention to a single thing coming out of his mouth

On the other hand if you're able to handle it in a short amount of time, he'll start flirting with you

"I'm doing it, Boo!" "Nice work, honeybunch. Think ya can manage ridin' somethin' else?" "Dude"

It's one or the other. You will not escape the Boothill down bad programm

Boothill also acts like a himbo to mess around with you.

On another note, you called him Bootyhill once and he's still shook up. Whether /pos or /neg is up to interpretation

While we're on the topic of nick/pet names, he calls you things you've never heard of before .

Or even if you did, they're things you expected never to be called 😭

What the fuck is a doodlebug Boothill

Type of man to get flustered when you flirt back. He just starts bugging out

Will play it cool though, but the faint blue on his cheeks says otherwise

Also a fan of headpats. No, he's not ashamed. No, he will not tell you.

Expanding on the no shame, Boothill takes it to the extreme

No filter, no mask, no nothing. Touchy EVERYWHERE you go

Even if he can't really feel it, he just feels more at ease when you both are near eachother or touch one another. Man wants to protect his partner, after all

It dosen't matter if you're able to protect yourself, the gesture just makes him feel more comfortable and calm

Also has a hair pulling kink woah. Let's keep it sfw everybody

Forehead kisses ❤️ or just kisses anywhere on his head in general. Kiss behind his ears and he will overheat

He let's you play with his hair<3 It's one of his favourite passtimes with you

Braid it, tie it in a ponytail, give him buns, pigtails, curl them, decorate them with hairpins, clip bows in his strands it don't matter PLAY WITH HIS HAIR ⁉️

He relaxes SO MUCH it's insane. Genuinely just one finger goes into that hair of his and he melts

This plays into the little spoon factor

You'd tease him about it but he takes pride in it 😭

Has a weird obsession with biting. If you complain that it hurts he goes "What, want me to smooch the pain away?" and he does this fuckass face :3 while you're just staring at him dead in the eye (you say yes btw)

If you're ticklish, he's hell for you

Tickles you in the most random times possible.

And you know it's even WORSE with those cold ass metalic hands

You're cuddling? The sides of your torso are not safe. You're currently occupied with an activity involving your hands? Your armpits are not safe either. He's laying on your bare stomache face down? He starts blowing raspberries.

You know damn well he uses the feathers of his hat 😭

Sticks it up your nose to make you sneeze too. Usually to wake you up or some shit

You could have the most volcano eruption alert level 5 sneeze and he'd still say "Aww, ya sneeze like a kitten!"

One last note this man is a whiney loser bottom not sorry

the word ill is in boothill for a reason the way im laying in bed all sweaty ANYway 🌚😵😵😵😵

ૢ་༘࿐ thank you for reading ! Ⳋ᧙

[sympathytea]

[ID in alt] Zam! The Prince in Yellow himself! This is mainly a design I mocked up to make writing him easier on my brain since having a physical image for me to reference and describe is significantly easier on my brain than not having one. Uh reason he doesn't have the trident this fic is (so far) taking place inbetween ep 4 and 5 rather than like. post finale ok? ok. more fun stuff under the cut (maskless included, along with other details on the fic that i'm writing!!!)

[ID in alt] Kept seeing everyone draw him half blind? Love that for him. I'm assuming that's a reference to his LifeSteal designs either way i think the concept is sick and wanted to work with a character that has that detail worked into the fic as something they need to work with/around since this is a combat heavy series which I'd imagine wouldn't be easy to do with one eye, but not impossible. girlboss is gonna have it rough in the fic though tried to make the scar more obviously trident-shaped? since that's where I'd imagine he'd get it assuming he was sent to the sword civilization against his will? rather than to actually retrieve the eternal sword on his own accord like Tabi was. idk hopefully s2 don't fuck me up some expression testing + additional notes on behavior

(excuse him he's been shaved for this, also IDs in alt) disclaimer uh. very minimal research was done for his behaviors. i'm not a medical professional but i did find a giant thread full of folks who had half-blindness who did mention the head tilt thing as a thing that they did, facial paralysis is from the injury assuming the trident went deep enough to do nerve damage thus the whole 'one side moves other side doesn't' my apolocheese for inaccuracy I'm sure that the tilt thing and the facial paralysis thing are probably a bit too extreme to some folks but due to my artstyle being very exaggerated, this too had to be exaggerated for it to be something noticeable, otherwise its completely hidden despite me being mostly focused towards expressions i have made a decision that might seem jarring to some to..limit the faces of characters in my fic. mainly because all of them are hiding or masking something underneath, it just suits them well to have this be a trait that everyone in pvp civilization shares in various ways Characters like Evbo, Julie, Tabi and Parrot are more obvious masking via emotional repression rather than a physical mask that they wear Wemmbu, Ferre, The Guard Friend and Zam mask due to wearing some form of face covering but once that face covering comes off then they start to be a bit more honest, not having anywhere to hide MinuteTech masks via..other means. More on him specifically later when i get around to designing him. he's fascinating is all im gonna say There are of course other characters in this fic, Marty and Ellie are two iron-sword level specific OCs I made for the sole purpose of being evil, and they are shockingly the only two people in the fic that are full on honest with themselves and others. They have their shit figured out (so I wont feel bad killing them off hehe) PVP Language guy and the similar Wooden Plank guy are the two non-main characters turned major characters that due to their species, literally don't have a face nor a proper voice for others to understand what they are thinking, but if you give them a way to talk, then they will! This project be warned: gonna take a long time. I'm notoriously slow at pumping good quality stuff out. I'm working on like 4? other character refs at the time of writing this and I am nowhere near finished with any of them. Dear god.

Thats all for now, though. Until I post again!

[toyboxwizard]

FRANKIE UPDATES!!

It's been a while since ive made an original post, let alone on my Familiar and her vessel!! I'm not a very outward person on the internet, but I've been accumilating images and hopes for this ongoing project.

It was frankie's (at least her current vessel/form's) 5th birthday this august! I've officially spent 5 year maintaining and crafting this beast! Shes my longest ever project and devotion in a few senses!

on the left is an old picture of her, on the right is a fresh one with her leg update!!

I decided to give her bigger rabbity feet and to increase how digitgraded she was! You cant see it under her pants, and I'm embarrases to say that I never took *proper* pictures of what her legs looked like inbetween straight legged and now, but hopefully these pics can help you visualize!

I have also widened her tummy, butt and chest which i dont feel like showing in too much detail at the moment (but i do have dedicated pictures of unlike her prior legs 😅) but I plan on making her torso longer as my next 'growth spurt' project, which will include her mid torso and her shoulders and neck (and will probably promptly transition to me redoing her arms (which i ALSO need to take dedicated pictures of before i redo them!!))

After her body's growth spurt, I'll be doing my most challanging craft for her yet - *making her a new, larger head.*

The first two pictures in the trio above are older, but not too old and are a great front and back of her head! Yes the plushie eyes are put on haphazardly. When i make her larger head, i plan on making them all inset with *eye lids* around them on both the back of her head and for her main eyes in the front. Still havent made blueprints for that, but i have plenty of spare eyes to test with!

The third image is of a dog skeleton decor skull i got to make frankie a bigger jaw with. As you can see from the middle picture, her mouth opens! Thats because she has a Feisty Pet jaw mechanism! I got a second F.P. jaw and I want to figure out how to combine its hardware with the dog jaw before putting it in her larger face. I have already taken apart and tinkered with the hardware as much as i can currently and I'm excited for the challange!! Ill nedd to not only find a way to attach and make the parts move together, but I *really* need to play dentist and give it better teeth, gums, and construct a whole muzzle around it! Very excited!

And lastly for now, sacrifices!!! The first image are a bunch of thrifted toys i have either used on frankie already or i have made plans on how to use them in her growth!

The second image is her sitting next to an unaltered bunny which is the original type she was! This bunny will also be a sacrifice, but in the future I will get a third bunny which will stay whole and unaltared : )

[im-not-batman]

For the ask WIP game

Spideypool falling please 😊

Oh I LOVE this one!

It's a 5+1 of spideypool falling for eachother and then Falling For Eachother. Featuring Dadpool because I'm a big fan of his work (Ellie).

"It really creeps me out when you do that, Webs." Wade said, sinking deeper into Peter's beat-up couch and kicking his fluffy-sock-clad feet up onto the other half of it that Peter was perched above. "I like sitting up here, sends all the blood to my brain so that I can beat you quicker," Peter reasoned and as if on queue the tinny TV speaker announced yet another victory. "You're such an asshole, Baby Boy," Wade smirked up at him, sounding more proud than annoyed. He threw a couple of M&Ms up for Peter to catch in his mouth, "do the other heros know how much of an asshole their comrade is?" Around his mouthful of chocolate and peanuts, he grinned, "I save all my worst bits for you, Wade." It was true too. He always felt like he needed to pose and posture around his fellow superheroes. Even though he'd come into his own as Spider-man over the last ten years, he still yearned for their approval and strived for their respect. Around Wade though, there was no need to pretend he was any better than he actually was. He didnt feel the need to constantly be on his best behaviour. Peter let his sass and sarcasm, disdain and irritation, good moods, bad moods and everything inbetween run rampant around Deadpool. And he never felt like he was being judged or evaluated. Just admired. Ecouraged even. "I'm touched," he said, throwing up another handful of M&Ms. This time Peter didn't react quick enough, lost in thought, and missed them.

Instead Wade caught the chocolates in his own mouth. Which shouldn't have been a thing but Peter's brain was making it a thing. He couldn't figure out if it was the ease with which he caught them – Peter's attraction to competency rearing it's ugly head – or the fact that the M&Ms were intended for his mouth and were now in Deadpool's. Either way, Peter's brain was doing some sort of horny gymnastics to rationalise it as tonsil tennis by-proxy. He watched Wade's throat bob as he swallowed. Peter's concentration was decidedly broken. He slipped. Usually that wouldn't be an issue; usually he'd have fallen from a much greater height and thus had more time to catch himself. But he was hanging from the ceiling this time. Granted, it was a relatively high ceiling, but not high enough. He let out an indecipherable jumble of a scream/shout/warning and Wade managed to dive out of the crash zone in time to not be knocked out by a 170 pound moron. When Peter didn't feel the heavy, throbbing pain of head trauma, he managed to gather his wits enough to realise that his head hadn't made contact with anything.

After another moment, he realised that Wade had seemingly managed to get his hand between Peter's skull and the floor. He still found himself uncomfortably contorted - half on the couch, half off, in a sort of human pretzel situation - but Wade had reacted in enough time to keep his head from cracking against the ground. And he was still holding him that way.

Peter's brain stopped working again. "Sorry," Wade said, trying to right the hero so that he was no longer lying at a downward 45 degree angle with legs akimbo, "Dad reflexes."

Peter wanted to scream. "You're apologising for saving me from a concussion?" Peter attempted to tease but it fell flat when he saw Wade's face, "Are you okay?" He let out a choked laugh, "Am I okay?" He asked incredulously, "you just fell eight feet." "And yet you're the one looking a bit loopy," Peter half laughed but wasn't able to keep the worry from seeping into his tone. "You scared the shit outta me, thought you were gonna go splat!" Deadpool justified. "From that height? Child's play. If I'd splatted, I'd have deserved it." It was a joke but Wade didn't seem to find it funny. "You should look after yourself better, Petey," he looked like he realised he was being too serious then, and his demeanor visibly shifted, "you don't regenerate, so you gotta look after that sinfully gorgeous meat suit of yours."

Ty ty for the ask! I really wanna get back into writing these two, I love them so much 🥲

Send me an ask with which of my WIPs from This Post you wanna hear about!

[alteredsilicone]

Warframe main quest tier list 2025 (link)

In-depth explanations:

LOVE IT:

The Sacrifice made me fall in love with the game, Whispers in the Walls reignited my love for the game, 10/10, nuff said

Enjoyed+:

The Hex didn't hit me the same way that WITW hit me but the overall update and everything around it is good, so I have to put it in a separate category, 'cause purely rating only the quest itself seems like doing it a disservice.

Duviri Paradox is the same - I actually did not quite fully enjoy the quest and it was a little different than I anticipated, but boy do I love the setting of Duviri and the characters and everything around it.

8/10 (Hex is closer to 9, Duviri is closer to 7)

Enjoyed:

All the cinematic quests that Warframe is known for and Heart of Deimos, I think it's the strongest of the faction quests. Quality all around, little to comment, everyone loves Second Dream, War Within. New War is more of a fun romp, it's a big Marvel-esque spectacle but you can enjoy it as a popcorn movie and I love the Void/Wally bits.

8/10 but closer to a 7 than a 9

Not bad, not terrible:

Quests that either didn't particularly move me or missed the mark in terms of what they were trying to achieve.

Vox Solaris is like an inbetween in terms of quality, better than Saya's Vigil, worse than Heart of Deimos. Now in 2025 you can compare how all the faction quests have evolved, but I feel like Fortuna and the Solaris have a blueprint of a really, really, really good story that is unfortunately left behind due to the life service model.

6/10 but closer to a 7; Ticker gets a crown and a star though and Eudico has a special place in my heart, she was my first Loid

Jade Shadows created a lot of controversy but it just left me a "not enough" aftertaste, the Jade fragments helped but I think they're more of a proof of what the quest did not manage to get across. I did not care about Stalker before JS and I do not care about him now. 6/10 but closer to a 5

Tutorial/Prelude:

No formal rating since they either introduce mechanics or set up the main story so they're not particularly moving.

THE WASTED POTENTIAL (the great despair?):

Angels of Zariman will always be my disappointment of 2022 <3 I really expected a LOT, for THIS to be the real Operator/Drifter lore dump but it kind of ended as a wet fart, the ARG was really hype but god damn did it crash. I also really disliked the Holdfasts at first but now I'm okay with them. DE really needs to bring back them and the Zariman to make them more relevant. No rating since a disappointment is a FAILURE in enjoyment, but the quest isn't terrible on a purely objective sense.

Showing its age:

really old quests that also get no formal rating since they just serve to show how the other quests have improved so much more.

[melit0n]

So...maybe I got a bit hyper focused on all the FX Sleep Token uses in their songs. Other than one that I already pointed out (Vore) having listened to a couple of other songs, I realised they do this a lot. Hope these make sense!

Part One includes: One, Two, Jaws and TWTYW (below the cut!)

Part Two -> Sundowning and This Place Will Become Your Tomb

Part Three -> Take Me Back To Eden

+ If I've missed something, feel free to add your own thoughts!

Note- some of these are FX, others are sound mixing and music bits I wanted to mention. Any song you don't see mentioned are songs that I couldn't find anything to pull out of them.

Thread The Needle

- Throughout almost the whole song (cutting off at some points during the breakdown and chorus) there is a soft humming, that sticks to one note the entire time (which I believe is a B note? Don't quote me on that lol).

- At 2:04 to 2:30, and then reappearing at 3:46 to 4:06, there are notes that mimic a calm heartbeat. Which, considering the lyrics at this point are "We can spend the night in" and "Just look and where we're lying", it creates the image of lying with a lover, with your ear pressed against their chest. It makes the song feel personal, in my eyes. It also creates quite a distraught feeling when the heavy breakdowns follow immediately after.

When the Bough Breaks

- At about 5:40, a chord starts up that sounds like a muffled bell tolling, which, considering this song can be interpreted as how love, especially the toxic kind, can bring you pass the point of no return, with a willingness to be in pain for the relationship to continue, suggests an end to it all. A bad one.

- Just gonna slip in a quick compliment to Vessel's beautiful falsetto and head voice vocals in this one!

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Album Notes: To me, this whole album feels sleepy. Like, as a listener, I feel like I'm in that odd inbetween of awake and asleep. It's the same in Two, but much lesser so in their later albums. The songs use very minimal instruments; basically just sticking to synths and beats other than the breakdowns. And, speaking of breakdowns, they're kind of like the wake-up call to the song. You can live in blissful peace, lay in your lover's arms as you slowly fall asleep, gift compliments back and forth to eachother, but it all ends. Everything is nothing in the face of this ancient deity. I heard someone describe the Sleep Token albums as the five stages of grief, and I can definitely see that. Definitely denial.

Calcutta

- From 0:00 to 0:20, there is a very hard to hear, high pitched clinking noise (I suggest putting on headphones if you wanna hear this one!), which almost sounds like the clinking of two glasses.

- From 5:25 to the end of the song, you can hear Vessel using his head voice! I thought it was an instrument at first, but it's just him having a lil' scream. I want to say it's a muffled whistle scream, but it's not croaky enough to be one from what I can hear, so I'll just say it's some vocalisations. What I can be sure of, is that he sounds like a Banshee and I live for it.

Nazareth

- At 2:38 to 3:10, a very simple beat comes in, along with a bunch of other muffled beats that bounce around if you have headphones on, which, having spoken to my friend, she says sounds a lot like a deeper pitched gunshot (which I said she's just pulling at strings, but I'll put it in either way) being mimicked by a drum beat. Considering the lyrics around this time, it's fitting.

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Album Notes: Similar with One, Two also uses the minimal amount instruments, other than the breakdowns, but they use backing vocals a bit more in this album, especially with Nazareth and certain parts of Jericho. To me, this one feels a lot more angry. Not towards a person, perhaps, but more so towards Vessel himself (which is mainly shown in the lyrics). If we're still rolling with that five stages of grief, then I can definitely see this as anger.

Jaws (Single)

- The (what I think is distorted crash cymbal or just a cymbal) noises from 0:00 to 1:45 kind of sound like when you knash your teeth together.

- Just wanted to note the absolutely lovely lyric that is "Stand under the stained glass and, I will know it's you."

Personal Notes: One of the first songs that got me into Sleep Token, so, it holds a special place in my heart. Will never not swoon at "Show me those pretty white jaws, show me where the delicate stops".

The Way That You Were (Single)

- There is (obviously) the organ the resonates throughout the entire song, which, in some chords, mimics the typical Church Wedding song (Here Comes the Bride). By association, when people thing of organs, they think of Church, and, therefore, Weddings and funerals. To me, it makes the song a whole double edged sword (especially with the lyrics being asking someone about their inner pain, how they can fix it etc.). In the end, did this end in joy, or death?

Personal Notes: By far my favourite single. Comfort song all the way. Despite it being my favourite, it will always hold a bit of an unsettling undertone for me.

Thank you for reading through all my thoughts and feelings, whoever you are. Remember, the night belongs to you; worship <3.

[bvlvnhan]

Ji-Hwan has caused Caio so much distress and if I was him, I would push Ji-Hwan down a flight of stairs. After freezing them.

But he's not going to do that....yet

Some part of me feels like he has some hidden fear of Ji-Hwan ( and... lowkey always has been afraid but mistook it for admiration. and ignored it when that admiration faded ). Like...it's not "lock up when he sees him" but rather... a "compelled to listen and tell the truth. compelled to behave" sort of reaction when he has to interact with him ( which, mind you, isn't as often anymore across multiple verses ).

in the main verse, i try to keep it a little flexible because the whole "maybe inhuman. maybe not" thing is apart of his character but also i'm not sure if anyone wants to go full tilt down that highway. Caio's been alive for a hot minute regardless tho

if we lean heavily into it, he's 150-ish. Human life expectancy is past 150 and there are tons of anti-aging technology around so like... not unusual but def a little weird.

if not, then he's pushing 60, you will pry that from my cold dead hands. still abnormal but... you know. don't ask no questions

and either way, is contact with Ji-Hwan varies based on when Ji-Hwan wants to speak with Caio... not the other way around.

it's frequent in lives 1 to 4. a little shaky in lives 5 and 6. scarce in 7, 8 and 9 because Caio finds out Ji-Hwan cloned him multiple times. and nigh nonexistent in 10 . make no mistake, he knows where Caio is most of the time, sits on the board of the hospital Caio works at, and ensured that Caio never moved that far away. his little project is always within reach when he desires that contact or wants to "check in".

there is no fear on Ji-Hwan's end because Caio "isn't going to do anything". He knows that if he were to call Caio, the man would answer. It's a bit harder for him to run his experiments and what not on Caio since he left the military but like... if he needs to, what's Caio going to do? Caio always gives in and always listens. He's aware that Caio isn't a fan but what does it matter? Caio doesn't say no and has never once raised a hand against him. foreshadowing is a literary device in wh--

and for Caio, the way he feels about Ji-Hwan is very complicated, i think. He doesn't like the man but... isn't at the point of hatred, if that makes sense ( like if you kill him, caio will mourn in some way ). he's somewhere inbetween, trying to make sense of his entire life and questioning each and every memory that he's had up until this point.

the only constant--even as infrequent as it is now--is Ji-Hwan. he is aware of how much control Ji-Hwan has over his life... but like... the thought of stepping out of that barely occurs to him. if it does, it's either because of outside influences or because Ji-Hwan does something else that's completely reprehensible or targets someone that's not him.

does Caio like feeling like a little project? no.

but would he subject himself to that to prevent others from being in his position? yes he would.

so the fear is less... that he's afraid of what Ji-Hwan will do to him. in fact, he is leagues more wary of what Ji-Hwan could do to others when motivated.

[emmaelt]

On ADHD and time blindness

Time is such a funny concept to me.

It is going to be 2025 quite soon, and yet I am still stuck on the fact that it is next year and thus must be really far away. This concept of years feels so slow to me, but actually years are more fluid than I think they are, not blocks of their own but interconnected and only separated by the gap between one second and the next.

I have an issue with delayed gratification - it's so hard to motivate myself for some concept of the future that I can't even begin to grasp, that makes it so I want the thing now.

The other thing is that time doesn't always feel like it's taking the same space. One 5 minutes can stretch indefinitely, and the next can be so fast I don't notice it passing. I know this is about how distracted I am (bored is slow, engaged is fast) but also about my energy levels, the weather, where I am in my cycle, who I'm with. I'm not sure if this is an 'that's how everyone feels!' thing, or just a me thing.

Dr Devon Price talks about how neurodivergent people see time in chapter 6 of the book 'Unmasked', and introduces Rose's spiral rather than linear progression as the concept of time. It's been really interesting for me to understand that time does not have to be linear, but also really shocking for me to realise that actually I have never seen time like that! Time either is extremely slow, or it is much too fast. I simultaneously feel as if I have been 34 for years, and that I was just in Japan celebrating my birthday with my friends. There is no inbetween. I also feel 5, 16, 27, and 34 all at once. In fact, I actually also feel about 107, but I think that's because I didn't know I was neurodivergent until this year...

I get 'waiting mode' like many neurodivergent people, but mine has a tinge of rush to it, where I either cannot do a single thing or I must do all of the things. For example, I have an appointment with my personal trainer at 11am, I need to leave by 10:30, and I am a morning person - therefore I must have done all of my chores at lightning speed before 9am so I can sit and wait for an hour and a half? Why can I not pace them out and not exhaust myself? Why can I not do anything closer to the time?

There's also a part of me - that I think has always been there but was made worse by the events of 2015 (mainly the results of the American election) - where I feel as if the world will end before the thing I'm waiting for happens. This fatalist approach makes me mourn the things that I therefore think won't ever get to happen to me in particular, as well as to the world... I want everything to happen now so I don't miss it. The other part of it as well is that I am not expecting my brain to allow me to enjoy the thing by the time it does eventually happen - e.g. I am currently hyperfixated on Bridgerton, and season 4 may come by the time my brain decides I am no longer allowed to watch things again.

Going back to spiral time, my brain makes connections between supposedly random (to others) things, that feel so correct to me. Perhaps it's neurodivergence, synesthesia or similar. Certain months have connections - February and November have the same vibe to me, like siblings. June and December, though the weather is so different, feel the same somehow. I have it with numbers, textures, colours. I think it's also why I like certain harmonies in music over others, certain chord structures feel correct.

[bubybubsters]

Dear Bubybubsters,

The elves and I have been brainstorming for ideas to save you from your inevitable eviction on Christmas and just wanted to ask one more round of questions before we go into hibernation (yes we work in our sleep):

Do you have any favourite poems, books, movies, folktales/myths or quotes you’d like to see a fic inspired by?

Any personal headcannons for azris or azriel and Eris respectively?

How do you like azris to show physical attraction? ❤️‍🔥

Where do you think Azriel and Eris’ favourite things about each other are?

How do you feel about a fic about doomed love? Or right person, wrong time?

Sorry I haven’t been checking in as often but someone changed everyone’s doorbell to “Welcome home, alphahole” and I’m trying to fix it. Any ideas who did it?

Don’t get evicted,

SS ❄️

Hi santa! What you're letting them evict me on a holiday? isn't that illegal or smth? 😤 (also sorry for answering so late... my sick brain wasn't working.)

1. umm not really, i'm sure that was very helpful hehe

2. there was one i saw where azriel was like the "golden retriever" and eris was the "black cat" in the relationship... can't find it but it was really cool and it'd be intriguing to see how that'd be written.

3. Umm I feel like both of them might be touch starved and they'd either take physical stuff really slow or really fast with no inbetween

4. eris: i feel like he likes az's hands and neck+thighs the most. azriel: umm idk maybe he likes eris's chest (i always feel like eris has chest freckles)

5. Ooooo! The angst, oh god the pain... Those are both so 😘

Sorry if i'm not very helpful 💀

Oh i think i saw one of your elves going around and changing the doorbells... golden hair i think?

Love

me 😝

[devilbombers]

Hhhhiiiiii!!! This is the same anon from the yuri ask!!! 1st thank u soo much for answering my question 💕 & 2nd PLS DO GO OFF about how u feel negatively towards yuri PLSSSSSS!!! *clutches on to your shoulders like a mad man* it's not that I don't want to feel bored with yuri I genuinely WISH I could find a good yuri series but it's sooo hard & at some point u do get kind of tired of digging through all the other garbage yuri series that's out there & when u do find a good yuri series it's either some obscure yuri series that nobody's ever heard of that came out in the 90s/00s or the series got canceled due to poor sales/the publishing company just didn't give a fuck about it in the 1st place. Which is y it ALWAYS grinds my gears when I c ppl b like "would u himejoshis stop bitching because your yuri series aren't as popular as the BL/yaoi genre, y don't u just make your own yuri series/write your own yuri fanfics 🙄" like BRUH WHAT DO U THINK I'M TRYING TO DO?!?!? Sorry I actually have standards for the media I consume & not consume the same uke & seme toxic yaoi skinny twink series for the 500 millionth time in a row

I could cry over how much i understand you. (you are right and you should say that abt bl) this world is too cruel. Real Himejoshis like us need to stick together 🤝 i can send you all 5 series i can think of thats actually good if youd like.

tyvm for indulging my manic frusturations. This is certainly gonna be a long post saurrrr ill have to put it under a read more lmao. You asked for it so the gloves are completely off with this one and i thought abt it again and i actually dont care if anyone thinks im wrong.

I've come to the sad realization yuri can only REALLY be categorized like the following:

#1: yuri that is boring

unfortunately the usual case with 90% of yuri especially with new series

usually plays upon overused tropes making everything abt it lack any uniqueness to it

it is such an epidemic its forced himejoshis to become resigned to accepting these things into their hearts and even pretending its the shit when really its just shit 😭

its hard to give examples bc this makes up almost all yuri i can think of

#2: Non-Existent yuri

A series with really gay girls but they dont ever explicitly say theyre in love.

ex. dungeon meshi

Most himejoshis will on in the hill of saying they love subtext but we all know and especially themselves know that isnt true

#3: Yuri that is unserious as fuck

Theres a lot of drama yuri out there but it is always so fucking unserious it just ends up being funny as fuck instead

ex. Onii-Sama E and my girlfriend isnt here today

quite often this type is also associated with erotic media. But theyre so goddamn unserious it dosent matter how sexy either of them are, it immediately makes them so unsexy the minute they start talking.

i would only say ive succumbed to believe i love this genre bc i love to laugh at it sm

#4: Yuri where one or sometimes BOTH of them are dead 💀

i literally dont care i hate the "bury your gays" trope so much. it just aggravates the shit out of me bc what is even the point anymore then

great example of this is Alien stage

personally i feel like the only yuri that can exist like this and is actually genuinely good is obviously PMMM (i will fight everyone on the planet over this IDC)

#5: side character yuri

sort of a popular trend. kind of goes hand in hand with non-existent yuri but personally i think they count as different entities sometimes

extremely minor plot points or concurrent small interactions between side characters thats kind of gay as shit

theyre either EXTREMELY GAY or just a little gay theres no inbetween (either way, people will lie one way or another to say its really good)

despite the fact this yuri is quite ephemeral or absolutely nothing some ppl will still call this media wholly yuri for whatever maniacal reason

#6: YURI THATS TOO FUCKING SHORT

Unfortunately the best type of yuri also happens to be too goddamn short (usually limited to oneshots, anthologies, manga series no more than 25 chapters)

All my favorite yuri happens to be like this and i always scream at god for making life like this

If i hate anything in this world its liars, so i probably hate other himejoshis very much bc i keep constantly reading suggestions people hype up on the internet and ultimately being disappointed every single time because its never as good or unique as anyone says.

Its easy to say i hate them but its probably pity. I pity my fellow man that i consistently watch them fall for yuri underneath a wooden box held up with a stick and rope.

With all this being realized; its hard to ignore the truth of it all when trying to get into yuri regardless of it. So ive finally decided to stop listening to literally anyone anymore and ive ultimately stopped seeking it out bc im tired lmao

[cannibalcreepers]

Hii! I was wondering if you’ve ever ranked the Wrong Turn movies yourself? I don’t really count the 2021 reboot cuz it doesn’t have the boys in it, but if you want to count that one you gladly do it. Also if you’ve already ranked them that’s fine and you don’t have to do it again if you don’t want to.

Promise you my dear, that 2021 movie wont be ever ranked in with the Wrong Turn franchise, I don't recognize it as part of the series either lol. But! I will do two rankings, my personal and a non-bias one Personally: 4, 2, 1, 5, 3 and 6 are my Best to Worse. I adore the 4th film, it's my favourite, my comfort movie, my baby, also its the one with the best looking One-Eye, cute as FUCK in that movie.. 2nd is also a fave, love it so much and how it brings in the new side of the family, 1st if a classic, it's the original but I do enjoy fun over seriousness, so the 2nd goes above it. Now with the not-so great side of the films, I enjoyed the 5th with its story and how they handled it as an inbetweener for the 4th and 1st films as well as enjoyed the fun kills but that's all. I'm not a fan of how they handled the characterization of my boys or Maynard, nor the designs of them it truly looked like they didn't put a lot of heart into it. The 3rd is okay and the kills cool, but it felt very bland and flat, hated the story, hated the protags, hated that Three-Toes didn't last long and it just sucked. I hate the 6th film all together, hate the designs, hate the new villains, hate the story, hate the acting, felt the kills were boring, I'd tear it up and re-do it completely if I could. Apologies to fans of this one, but it really sucks its the only horror movie I've ever skipped scenes in and I've watched some real fucking shit-ass low-budget snoozers of some horrors all the way through. The (attempted) non-bias: 1,2,4,5,3,6. The 1st is a classic, it is what brought us the Wrong Turn films and out of every one of them its the most realistic is design and story, it is simply more real in the looks of the brothers, how they are as people and the story of it all, which is what makes it scary cause they were not originally mutants with special healing and strength qualities, just really violent cannibalistic hillbilly-bastard men that could have been inbred (them being inbred is more solidified in the 2nd movie) Its simple and gritty, it stands on its own and really would be fine without the other movies which is why its S tier. The 2nd, is were it broadens the families story out more, though doesn't explain everything as there still needs to be mystery to this family, but it does bring more characters that are family members and I love that it's natural! This is where the 6th WT movie and also where some other horror movies fail when bringing in new family characters when it comes to sequels or prequels where new family members fuck up the dynamic or just make zero sense on where they relate to the original films. The 2nd film is also where it brings the more comedy side of Wrong Turn, but doesn't come off entirely strong so its easier to ease into. It also is the one that brought more lore with how they're related via incest, the involvement of Maynard as well as brought in new lore such as the idea of mutation and that they can take more damage and have more strength to them. The 4th is where we return back to the three brothers and delve into their history more, this is actually where we get a more solid idea of their ages and personalities, the three brother become fleshed out more and really feels like the movie is more about them than their victims we're supposed to be following. It's definitely the one that brought the comedy out the most and made it enjoyable, the new designs on the brothers are also still very nice though they lost their realistic-ness features it is happily not distractible and still appealing. It still has amazing kills, happily does not lack in that creativity, really a good place to find out more lore and it fits nicely in the story line as a beginning.

The 5th is a mix of good and bad, with being the inbetweener of the 4th and 1st film, it filled in the blanks of how the boys got where they are a really good idea, the story is pretty solid and can be seen as fun, it only fails in the design and handling of the characters, with most the victims being bland and boring, though some more interesting than others (the old drunk man and cop lady) but they went a different route in how the three brothers were as characters, in both looks and personalities, as well as how Maynard is in personality and character which is very different from the past films. But the cannibals change personalities is all it failed in, other than that it is a good fun movie with good deaths and a solid lore story that relates from the steps of 4-5-1-2-3. The 3rd, though meant to be the "ending" of the Hillikers/Odets family, leaving an opening of 'mystery cannibal?' at the end. It does have some really nice kills, very creative but that is where it ends. The main idea of the story, though is an idea is one that feels out of place, uninteresting and at times even frustrating. The designs have become more poorly, though is not the worse of the films, it is more a movie that doesn't give a satisfying end and at times loses your interest. It does relate to the 2nd film with having connections, so it does well with keeping up with lore.

The 6th is difficult, since it doesn't fit anywhere realistically or naturally with the 1-5 lore. The acting is poorly, the designs of the brothers are horrendous and the characteristics of the main three boys are the most different and out of place of all the films, it brings in a cult-like lore that doesn't relate nor add up to the original stories, the deaths are okay but nothing entirely creative or fun like its predecessors, neither the new killers or victims are likable or memorable.

(if you want like tier ranking) WT 1: S Tier WT 2: A Tier (My friend would say S tho lol) WT 3: E Tier WT 4: A Tier (personally I'd say S) WT 5: C Tier WT 6: F Tier

[pepimeinrad]

OFMD Soundtrack Concert

I spent a huge part of my last week looking at the OFMD soundtrack in detail and love the music used in both seasons (OST, post 1920s-songs (Miles From Nowhere is my absolute favourite) and "classical" pieces (mainly for orchestra and/or piano)). It's been a bit of an obsession actually, and I can't stop imagining a big concert of all of my favourite "classical" (and baroque etc, I know) pieces... if only I had an orchestra and venue at my disposal... the 22 tracks (20 really) add up to about 100 minutes. The list of things I'd have them play under the cut:

A Pirate's Life (Mark Mothersbaugh) Yeah, alright, I won't have Joel Fry there to sing it and it isn't a classical piece. But I would want the concert to start like the show, with this. A bit of a gimmick, someone with a guitar just doing this small bit to get everyone in a pirate mood. The last thing all the way down will also be from the OST, more on that when I get to it.

2. Concerto for Recorder and Viola da Gamba in A Minor, TWV 52:A1: I. Grave (Georg Philip Telemann) This is the one piece that always gets me nostalgic for season 1. This is early Stede and his early crew, I always have his voice in my head while listening to this. One of THE OFMD pieces for me, also because it's reused in episodes 1x07 and 2x05.

3. Symphony No. 34 in C, K.338 - 2. Andante di molto (Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart) This one is used once in 1x02 and twice in 1x03 - I was debating if I should include it since it's so long and only a small part of it is actually heard in the show. I've added it because I really like it and do find it iconic in those scenes - Stede finding his brand! (and because I feel it fits with the flow of the concert)

4. Sonata No. 2 in A major Op. 2 No. 2, - III. Scherzo - Allegretto (Ludwig van Beethoven) On to episode 1x04 where we get to hear quite a bit of this one over Stede and Mary having to get married. Another very nice piece that always transports me straight into that episode. Overall the soundtrack mixes orchestra- and piano-pieces quite colourfully, which would be reflected in my concert too (would need a very able pianist for it!).

5. Sonata in E Major, Kk. 380 (Domenico Scarlatti) They've gotten rid of the Spanish! I love the whole lighthouse sequence a lot (Wee John makes me laugh every last time) and the crew's joy is transported very well in this piece. Another one where the quotient "bit played on the show/length of the piece" is not that big, but another one that I just really like and find fitting to include.

6. Concerto in A Major, BWV 1055: III. Allegro ma non tanto (Johann Sebastian Bach) Welcome on the fancy ship of not so fancy people... episode 1x05 is one of my very favourites and that whole environment of the french ship is very well represented in this piece I think. There are loads more pieces in the episode that I haven't been able to identify, but I think this one here is the most striking anyway.

7. Gnossienne No. 5 (Erik Satie) Yes, I'm putting this here. There are more than half a dozen other points in the show where this lovely tune is heard, but I want to place it at the 'you wear fine things well' part. To calm down after the fast paced party from before. To make everyone think of that moon that's way too big. And this is the spot where the piano-version of this is heard for the first time anyway.

8. Concerto for 2 Cellos in G Minor, RV 531: I. Allegro (Antonio Vivaldi) Bit of a jump from 1x05 to 1x09, but the episodes inbetween had little material for a concert like this (where there'd be no one to sing Mozart's "Voi, che sapete", that's also why Verdi's "Dies Irae" isn't there either). I love the crew and their various excuses - and find this to be a fun piece that needs to be there. One thing that I've read several times that irks me: I'm still searching for the piece that's playing in 1x03 where Stede almost dies and Blackbeard attacks the Spanish. People say it's this one here, but I've listened to it so often and am SO sure that that's not it. Don't know what is, though.

9. Arabesque, No. 1 in E Major (Claude Debussy) Mary living her best life! I love that we got to see that and love her and her fellow widows a lot. I'm not quite happy with having two Debussy's back to back, but like this piece and like thinking of Mary too much to leave it out.

10. Rêverie, L. 68 - Rêverie (Claude Debussy) I'm a sucker for 'oh shit, I love them!'-flashback-montages and the one set to this piece is a beauty! Another bit that I've watched so often that I see it all in my mind while listening to this. The part where the show jumps to Ed and his flashback to 'you wear fine things well' (like 2:04) always kills me.

11. The Four Seasons - Summer in G Minor, RV. 315: I. Allegro non molto – Allegro (Antonio Vivaldi) We say goodbye to season 1 with another Vivaldi, one that took ages for me to recognize in the show. I knew it was supposed to be there while Stede starts his Fuckery and Kraken!Ed abandons the crew, but for a very long time was sure that that wasn't really it (and a bit of doubt remains). Well, the slow parts are definitely in the show, just to my ear the fast parts sound different. Anyway, it also shows up in 2x06 and needs to be in my concert.

After this we'd have the intermission - and part two will be in a reblog because I've run out of links in this post.

[inafieldofdaisies]

WIP Whenever | Tagged by @jacobsneed ; ty <3 | I'm not sure who has already done a WIP tag this week, but I'm tagging a few peeps, if I haven't mentioned you, absolutely consider this as an open tag!

Tag, you're it, @shegetsburned @nightwingshero @socially-awkward-skeleton @vampireninjabunnies-blog @strangefable @fourlittleseedlings @direwombat @euryalex @detectivelokis

I'm continuing with the crumbs from chapter 6. Enjoy some John - Savannah interactions. There are some serious scenes that take place inbetween and after, I feel like they would either end up in their own WIP post or you'd see them once the full chapter is posted <3

The town was quiet, more quiet than usual, as they drove past The Spread Eagle, its exterior looked like it had been through gunfire. Another sight, though, made Sabrina exclaim "Oh my god" outloud as the Sheriff's Department or what remained of it anyway came into view. It was burnt. Down to the ground. Her father's old Bronco was still in its parking spot where she left it, seemingly unharmed. One of the view lucky cars. She watched in horror as John said matter-of-factly, "The Reaping started." "Arson, John. The cabin, Savannah-" "Your house is fine, Deputy." "How can you be sure?" "Because it's my region.", his tone was full of assurance, but did very little to calm her nerves or make the minutes left until they reach Savannah fly by faster. By the time they got to the bent that connected the road to Ms. Darcy's property with the main one, her heart was in her throat as she anxiously chewed on her lip. John took the turn, glancing quickly at her before shifting his gaze back ahead, as he navigated the meandering path, "Stop worrying, Sabrina. We're almost there." The flag Ms. Darcy had by the fence came into view followed by their mail boxes, and as the truck came to a stop in the driveway, Sabrina battled the urge to rip the door open and rush straight at the cabin. She had one more thing to take care of before John barged into Savannah's life. "John-" "Deputy, whatever you're about to say-" "5 minutes. Give me 5 minutes to prepare her. You can stay outside of the door for all I care, just let me talk to her first before you show your face." John sighed, facing her fully, eyes narrowed. "Who's in charge here, exactly?"

"I know my sister. Trust me on that. Everything will go smoothly that way." "5 minutes.", he gritted out before slamming the door and striding off towards the front door, making Sabrina sprint after him to catch up. She made it to him just as he was climbing the steps to the cabin, almost slamming into his back as he came to an abrupt stop. "You're the most frustrating person I've ever met, you know?", Sabrina huffed. "I can say the same about you, Deputy.", he smirked and waved towards the door, "Go on in then, 5 minutes." She entered, rushing through each room , scanning for anything out of place, but the cabin was just as she had left it. Savannah was nowhere to be found on the first floor and she was about to check the second, thinking she might still be sleeping, when she passed by the bulletin board by the side door that Ms. Darcy used for leaving her notes when she watched her sister. A new post-it made her stop in her tracks.

Honey, I'm not sure what's happening, but we have no proper signal and I didn't dare leave Savannah alone to go into town to check the situation. If you return while I'm out - those goddamn Peggies came in while we were sleeping and vandalized my house, I'm going to check if they touched anything inside. I won't be long.

She had no idea when Ms. Darcy had written it but the fact John's people had come back worried her, it made her want to shout out Savannah's name, to locate her faster, to know she's alright. She took the stairs two at a time, making it on the second floor when she heard a gut wrenching scream followed by a crash coming from downstairs. It was her sister's voice, she had no doubt, but she had never heard her scream so loud in her life. "SAVANNAH.", Sabrina called out as she rushed back down the stairs, almost twisting her ankle in the process. She made it to the living room that connected directly to the main entry just in time to see Savannah grab a cup off the coffee table and hurl it at John while releasing another shriek. It missed him, crashing into the wall next to his head, shattering into pieces. Her little sister was frantically looking for something else to hurl while John stood unmoving by the door, his blue eyes frozen in shock. "Savannah. Hey, hey. I'm here." She turned at Sabrina's voice, a look of relief washing over her freckled face and in a flash she was throwing herself in her arms. Little hands almost squeezed the breath out of her, as Savannah mumbled, "Rin-Rin, I thought you had left me." Sabrina's eyes teared up as she kneeled down, hugging her sister back, inhaling her familiar scent, "Never, pumpkin. Never." She backed away a little, looking Savannah over, scanning for any injuries as she asked, "Are you okay?" "I'm alright, Deputy." Sabrina shot John an incredulous look, "I was talking to my sister, John." He raised his hands in defense, "Just letting you know." "We agreed to 5 minutes." Savannah's narrowed gaze shifted between the two of them in confusion, then she leaned in, whispering "Rin-Rin, that's the bad man from the TV." Here goes nothing. "John drove me here. He's come to pick something up, so you don't have to worry. I know why you threw the cup, but he's a, uh- guest and what do we do when we make a mistake?" Savannah turned to John, her green eyes still harboring suspicion about his presence, "I'm sorry, Mister. I thought you were a Peggie." He smiled, mischief reflected in his eyes as he addressed her sister, "It's okay." To Sabrina's surprise he then reached out a hand in greeting and Savannah grabbed it in hers reluctantly. "My name is John Seed." "Savannah Mae Donovan." "Nice to meet you, Miss Donovan. You did well protecting the house." A man with many masks. Sabrina tried to remind herself to not fall for his act, wishing she could say she didn't melt a little at the interaction. Her sister smiled shyly before dropping his hand. She seemed calmer as she plopped down on the couch, rubbing her eyes, sleepiness still lingering in them. She was in her favorite rainbow pajamas and her auburn hair was braided, something she loved doing and was getting quite good at. Her curious gaze remained trained on John, who in return seemed glued to the spot as he took in their home. "Sav, did you have breakfast?" When she nodded in response, Sabrina's attention shifted to their "guest" before she headed for the kitchen, set on grabbing something to eat herself. "You can come in further, you know. But shoes off, Seed." John looked just as shellshocked as she felt in his room for confessions, and at her words he finally snapped out of whatever stupor he had fallen in, removing his boots with a huff and placing them by hers at the entrance. With a few strides, he made it through the living room, following her into the kitchen. Sabrina was tearing into a chocolate muffin Ms. Darcy had made, when he came behind her. Lowering his voice he said, "I can see the resemblance already, Deputy. Though I must say, your sister has far better aim." "You're pushing your luck." "I'm not worried." "I will have you know I've been throwing knives since I was 15,", she nodded towards the knife block at the counter, "keep talking and you would find out my actual aim."

[redacted paragraphs because of spoilers for upcoming scene :D]

Sabrina hurried downstairs, her sister's laughter greeting her as it carried over from the living room. They're talking. She stood in the doorway, using the moment of not being noticed as an opportunity to observe their interaction. Savannah had changed into a T-shirt and ripped jeans and was sitting crossed-legged on the couch while John was on the floor rummaging through a box of her notebooks. He seemed back to normal, his eyes shinning mischievously as he explained the difference between a helicopter and a plane to her sister. "Rin-Rin!", she rushed over, dragging Sabrina by the hand as she spoke, "Do you know that John has a plane? A PLANE. He promised to show it to me one day!" "Is that so?", she sat down on the couch, with Savannah next to her and she immediately started playing with her hair. "Oh my gosh, are you hurt?", her sister exclaimed. Sabrina remembered the wound on her head and was glad she had taken a shower and washed away the blood from her strands. "No, no, I'm fine, Sav, it's just a bump." "Oh, okay." John remained silent as he watched them both from his spot. Sabrina looked at her watch, it was getting past noon. "I'm going to go make lunch. You wanna help, pumpkin?" Savannah clapped her hands, then pointed at John, "See! She lets me cook, I told you, John." He shot her a smile, "A girl of many talents." How can he just switch personalities like this… "Come now.", Sabrina got up, heading to the kitchen and opening the fridge, "What are we making today, Chef Donovan?" Her sister loved pretending they're on a cooking show, coming up with comments and making goofy faces at an imaginary audience. This time they had one. John. "Ooooh, can we do the omelettes from last week? Ms. Darcy promised we'd make them today, but she left…", she drifted off. "When did she leave? I saw the note." "Yesterday, before lunch, I think. Is she okay, Rin-Rin?" "I-I'm sure she's alright, pumpkin, probably had some things to take care off." Sabrina recalled John's words about the Reaping starting and how the Sheriff's Department looked. She looked over to the living room, trying to read his face, checking for anything that would hint he knew what had happened, fearing he might have something to do with Ms. Darcy's absence, he was the one after her land after all. All she got was a raised eyebrow, "Anything to ask, Deputy?" "No." Not right now. She tried to distract herself as they prepared the food, passing veggies to Savannah to wash before Sabrina got to chopping them, then making the omelettes and letting her sister flip them. Her sister's bubbly energy was what kept her going, lifting her spirits. John had moved to the couch as he  went through notebooks, a growing pile of checked ones forming by the time the meal was ready and the table set. Savannah barreled back into the living room, buzzing with energy as she stood over John who was too engrossed into reading to notice her. "John?" "Yes?" Savannah let out a giggle, "Rin-Rin, he said it just like on TV.", then she turned back to John, "Lunch is ready."

Before he could even respond, she had grabbed his hand, pulling him to his feet and dragging him toward the kitchen. "Sav. You have to ask first, he might not be hungry." Her sister shot her a smile, "Oh, please, I could hear his stomach making funny noises before.", she pointed to the chair next to Sabrina's, "sit." John laughed, following her orders, turning to Sabrina, whispering, "She's basically a mini you, Deputy." "You don't have to eat the food, if you don't want to." "Why? Savi here promised it's delicious." He has freaking nicknamed my sister already?!" Savannah plopped down into a chair across them, "Rin-Rin is the best cook, she bakes even better. She even makes my Birthday cakes!" At this comment John raised an eyebrow in interest while cutting into his omelette methodically. Her sister kept on chatting away like she usually did, seeming so at ease, like she had known him for ages. Sabrina sat there, trying to process the last God knows how many hours, still unable to believe she was sitting across from her sister, that her plan had worked in a way. Until he marches us both back to his bunker. She wasn't going to let that happen. The time flew by, their plates empty, even John's. Sabrina couldn't imagine someone telling her few days back that she'd be sitting at the same table with John Seed let alone that she would have cooked for him. "Thank you for the lunch, Deputy.", he said as she was washing the dishes. "You're welcome." Savannah laughed, "You say Deputy funny." "Sav, don't be rude.", Sabrina said at the same time as John asked, "I do?" Savannah nodded, "Yeah, it's cute. Depuuuteee", her sister tried to imitate John's tone and intonation, making him laugh in response. "Hm, that was good, I don't think even my brothers would be able to tell the difference." "You have brothers?" Before he could reply, Sabrina spoke up, "Why don't you go bring your drawings to show to John?" With Savannah out of the kitchen, she turned to John, "I, uh, have to ask. Please don't mention the Project to her." "Why, Deputy?" "Your people coming around here terrify her, same for your broadcasts, they used to play during her shows and freak her out." "And this is why she screamed and tried to knock me out?" "Your face is kind of hard to forget." "Was that a compliment, Deputy?" Sabrina rolled her eyes, "You wish. But seriously, thank you for talking to her like a normal person." He raised an eyebrow. "What? All I'm saying is, you're doing good at Sinner-free talk." And he was excelling at it. An absolute chameleon, switching from one role to the next. Giving her a whiplash. Probably would give her own mother a run for her money. If Candice was there, she'd tell her daughter to keep her distance. Or maybe to rob him for all he's worth first. Savannah returned, sitting in Sabrina's chair and placing her drawings in front of John. As Sabrina cleaned up, the two of them chatted about her sister's art before he returned back to the notebooks.

[redacted paragraph because of spoilers for upcoming scene :D]

The afternoon passed in a blur with no news from Ms. Darcy, while John stayed glued to the notes, from time to time taking a break when her sister would address him. The time for dinner came too, Savannah kept the conversation going, eventually going back to asking questions about John's plane. Sabrina sat there, pushing her food around her plate, her appetite gone, she was absolutely exhausted and emotionally drained. "You okay, Rin-Rin?" "Yeah, pumpkin. I just need sleep, that's all.", she forced a smile. Savannah yawned, "You're gonna tuck me in, right?" "Of course, Sav, as always." Her sister got up, stopping at John's seat, shocking both him and Sabrina when she hugged him, "Good night, John.", and she added as a loud whisper, "You're not so scary after all." Before John could reply anything, she was out of the room and running up the stairs, headed to get ready for bed. John looked taken aback, a strange expression on his face when Sabrina said, "I'm sorry, she's very direct and-" He waved her off, "I'm unharmed, Deputy. And you've done well. Raising her."

[dojae-huh]

fans are really making weird comments on makrhuky's health issues..I really want sm to make some decisions on this matter...fans want 127 and dreams both concerts and programmes together....if they are having concerts one after another markhyuck have to be there for the fans...becoz without them both of the team would be incompleted....and ofcrs only for them we cant sacrifice one of the group activity becoz there are other members waiting for their time to shine their own group activities....so if they feel health issues or other physical problems they should decide what to do....and which team they are going to stay....and that's what I think not going to happens....I feel bad for them too ...working without rest but other membrs also waiting for their group activities and these two having a busy life and schedule overlaps really makes me irritated...not that I hate them but everyone deserves better ....when 127having concert markhuk feel very tired and that's become rude of sm that not letting them rest? So their content should be postponed for these two when fans wants to see 127 together?? I am sorry I am little bit annoyed by fans comments...but do you think sm would make a decisions on this matter sooner?

another anon

I’m sick and tired of unit war on Twitter, when will both 127zens and dreamzens realize that the problem is SM not the members?

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SM lets artists take a health break, from one month (Haechan, Taeyong) up to half a year (the case with Jungwoo). RV is touring Europe without Joy, and it's a much smaller group member number wise. aespa performed without Winter a few shows.

And in the case of RV at least, one can't say the members were overstressed. It's their first concert tour in 4 (5?) years.

Which makes me think that it is Mark and Hyuk themselves that say they can manage. Sportsmen and artists often push themselves and work despite injuries. Case in point: Kai from EXO. We know that Mark also often gets upset stomack.

The problem isn't SM per ser, it's the Korean mentality and societal norms. The culture of not showing weakness (the taboo on mental health issues), working constantly (the problem of unpaid overtime hours, new laws make employers pay for the hours, but still allow 69h working week), the notion that the group is more important than the individual (MarkHyuk can't let their friends down). Add to it the feeling of the need "to catch the moment" for an idol. When MarkHyuk were trainees they spent all those hours of practice with a dream of performing concerts. All the sacrifices of the past were done for these world tours. So how can they not participate?

The original plan was to let Mark and Haechan graduate and be only in 127. Back then both units didn't do tours, so the load of being in several groups wasn't big. Fans' desire to see OT7 led to the current problem.

The situation with MarkHyuk doing two tours back to back can't last. It's not even the concert part, but the travel part that takes a tall. Both of them were at the end of their endurance by the end of 2022. The fact that they agreed to repeat this scedule, speaks either for their determination and stuborness, or for some adjustment (not visible to us, fans) bettering the situation being made (like more rest days, individual hotel rooms, massage). The Dream show schedule, actually, looks pretty decent to me, there are almost no back to back concerts. Neos get rest days inbetween. Taylor Swift's concert schedule for comparison.

I'm surprised MarkHyuk participate in additional content, which they can skip (YT interviews, YT content with selected members). That should be their choice.

The thing is, all neos will renew their contracts soon. As they are popular and valuable to SM, they have negotiating power. Working them to the bone right before the renewal means risking losing the members. This is why I don't think SM overworks MarkHyuk against their will. Do they overdo the workload? Yes, for sure. However, back to the Korean mentality. The staff itself is overworked, they think it is perfectly normal (remember the new director of NCT center introduction, she looked exhausted and very tired; and Doyoung's insistence about the need for additional staff), the thought of not squeezing an additional concert date doesn't occur to them. I'm glad already they think about bringing neos to the beach and parks at least.

I think DJJ is the answer to MarkHyuk dilemma. With time, members of a group start their individual activities: acting, musicals, hosting shows. It becomes hard to gather them all for a group activity. SNSD is an example of that. 127 are doing the same. Therefore, when MarkHyuk will be busy with Dream, DoJaeWoo will do DJJ and acting, Yuta - shoot dramas in Japan, Johnny - DJ (acting?), Taeyoung - solo, producing, Taeil - solo or musicals.

Doyoung doesn't work less than MarkHyuk. Even without not being in two units (prior to DJJ) he managed to fill his schedule to the brim. MarkHyuk would have done the same.

Would 127 comeback and tour year round if MarkHyuk weren't in Dream? I dont'think so. aespa doesn't, EXO doesn't.

As for postponement and juggling stuff. I will wait for the next year to see how SM (or rather, the new NCT center that will work only with them) approaches it with proper planning. Will 127 comeback once half a year or not. It managed to pull off a decent inflow for Dream with the winter Candy release.

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If I know anything it's that 2012 tmnt is both my least favorite show ever and also my second favorite show. ever.

so.

anyways

so I watched like 4-5 more episodes of tmnt (left off at the season 3 time travel episode, y'know.. with renet aaaaaaa)

um so. I don't like renet.

not really the character itself, but like, how they, depict her. 1. her outfit, idk what it is, but i can't help but think it's fucking ugly. I kinda understand how hard it is to make 3d models of humans but omg you've done semi-good outfits before, casey has a pretty good outfit i'd say, i think, i don't look at him much, april's outfit is... okay... at least... kinda good at most, I think it can be turned into something really good with just alittle bit of change in it, but it's okay. like renet tho, idc how future she is, her outfit, ugly as sin, omg. please omg why. anyways um

2. I fucking hate, the mikey and renet romance, it feels so so so so so so so, how many so's can I put... so so so So, weird. Renet says a line, after mikey implies a first "date" that, isn't he alittle OLD for her, She hasn't even been born yet, and WOW, good point, I was mostly looking at the fact that renet looks like a fully grown adult, like 21 at least, 25 at most, I do not see that women as a teen, she acts like a teen at times, but every time I look at her and her character and what I know about her, it gets more and more unlikely for me to think she's even close to being a teen. and since Mikey is canonly at least 15 and at most 16 at this time(He's 15 in the start of season 3 but leo says that they go at least 16 years in the future so idk if there's a year inbetween tang shen dying and splinter buying(lol) the turtles, that probably is it but incase it isn't, y'know, idk) I personally think their "15" still(although depending on how many months he spent in Dimension X and how many months ago their birthday is, he might genuinely be 16 in canon, but we will never know) from how the show puts it but u can think what u want, either way, still a minor, still weird to me, I just can't get renet being an adult out of my head now that i've seen her in the show. I also just don't like how mikey acts with her tho, All the brothers are slightly similar when it comes to romance, aka... they can be kinda.. creeps, in a way. i don't like how renet kisses mikey(i think on the forehead or cheek, but I skipped that part, ngl) because they have JUST met, not kidding, they have JUST MET. another thing i hate. I hate that they JUST MET and yet they are inlove, i don't like it... i understand the love at first sight trope, it's in like half of the other romances in this show, i just fucking hate it, :) There's probably SO MUCH MORE, I fucking hate this romance aaaaa

3. I don't think there is a three, other then then those two, i think the character is kinda under welling and could've been done better, but they are pretty cool in concept, I will continue hating the writing and design of this character and will probably like them more in the fanfiction side of things. yippee.

I have to remind y'all that this is all my opinion and you should watch the show or at least those episodes before you, yourself, decide to hate renet aswell. I look into this show, WAY too much. If you like Renet, that is totally fine and very valid, you could've taken her character a completely different way than me and that is completely fine. I see nothing wrong with liking the character or the romance/love story between her and mikey, I just personally see it as a really weird choice. that doesn't mean you will see it the same way, and that is completely okay. people see things differently all the time and this is definitely going to be one of them. There's gonna be people who love renet, i'm just not one of them. Tho i wish i could like her ngl.

in the end, umm... i wanted to rant about another tmnt thing, and I did. i wrote way to much, I'm sorry if you actually read all of it, my thoughts run wild, and I am too lazy to fix any spelling mistakes </3

I will continue to ramble about tmnt another day, today, i am done watching tmnt, i got through a tiny amount a episodes and i am mentally exhausted <3