#i dont want to get ahead of myself
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idk like. jesus did know his time was limited, but for how long did he know it? do you think he watched the sky before he went to sleep and knew it would be one of his last sunsets? did he reach out to the orange wavering sun as if to hold it in his hand? frowning when it didn't burn? did he bite into a fig during supper and cry at its sweetness? kneel down next to a dog running in the road and marvel at the existence of life, whisper to it "tomorrow is my last, please keep me in your mind"? did he try and stay up long past everyone else to savor the night, the light of the stars, the sound of the wind? maybe he longed. yearned. i think he wanted a lot of things very badly before he had the time to say it
#pig originals#im so fucking sorry i think ive been thrown into my mutuals brain. for a hot second.#i dont even remember the bible but i am so so mournful over. when characters understand they have to go Soon but don't want to#lingering. i love the word lingering. that's this!! that's this one!! do you think he tried to linger?#hung around doorways while his friends chatted inside? tried to memorize the sound of their laughter? im getting ahead of myself#ren if you see this. whoops i have to go#pig pens
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svsss au where there's a system glitch that happens as shen yuan saves liu qingge from his qi deviation, resulting in sy's system being linked to lqg as well. aka, they share a system account. they share quests and points and everything. this... Changes things. such as well, the implications and fallout of an early system/identity reveal to one person, someone that hated the original shen qingque. but also, lqg being forced to have to work together and cooperate with an "imposter"! like in my head i can see lqg being rlly conflicted abt everything that's going on at the start. sy will get over it somewhat quickly i think because sure, why not, fuck you system!! but also in pidw lqg isn't a major character so i can see him having less hangups abt working w him. like his experience w lqg is basically a blank slate. but lqg? he has history w sqq. he simultaneously is on a blank slate and a huge monolith of history/shared experiences/past. he needs to not only adapt to that but also his new situation of sharing sy's system.
i've been microwaving this idea in my head for the last day or so and mmmm yes.s i love lqg. i haven't read svsss in like 4 or 5 years maybe so my memory of certain things is kinda fuzzy but i Cannot get this au idea out of my head
#svsss#scum villian self saving system#liu qingge#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#svsss system#sai speaks#liushen#in my head this is a slow burn liushen#i am 100% convinced if lbh wasn't well. lbh. then lqq would have been the love interest.#like cmon dude transmigrates into another guy's body and saves the life of a man who hated that guy??#the potential.#dont get me wrong i love bingqiu but in the grand scheme of things in this au lqq gets a headstart in many ways#such as being insanely pretty#and also being in a position where he has to cooperate w sy but also they r technically peers#and if lbh still gets thrown into the abyss tjen well. that's a lot of years combined for lqq to get ahead#also im sorry i love poly ships and lbh/lqq/sqq is cute#but personally i cannot see sy as poly#it took how many years for him to realize he was a boykisser????#and like it's been maybe 5ish years since i read svsss but iirc wasn't sy still like hmm yes lbh is my exception. gay only for him#he's utterly hopeless there is no way he's snagging a second bf#born to give sy a harem forced to pick only 1 bofie because he's an idiot#scum villain's self saving system#liu qingge x shen yuan#liu qingge x shen qingqiu#svsss au#i want to start writing this but i probably need to reread svsss to refamiliarize myself fully w sy & lqq's personalities#which would hav been easy i could've done that in like a day svsss is p short but#the fan translations r no more </3#mxtx
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ohhh my GOD this took so much time but WOOOO BATTLE SPRITES!!!!!!!!!!! HELL YES!!!!!!!!!!! i was Also able to mod them actually In Game which is SO exciting i feel so proud of myself
ANYWAYS UM!!!! heres king lucas hes fine and sane and normal i promise <33333 will yap more about him in the eventual au masterpost once i get this aus loop design drawn :]
party menu | in love and time au tag
#in love and time au#im fucking. giddy im five seconds from exploding#theres certainly things id fix about these sprites theyre not perfect but i already spent so much time on them i dont wanna. heart#anyways im So hyped about being able to put em in game this opens up so many opportunities#maybe i could make more sprites and then make a short video or smth-- *shot for getting ahead of myself*#claus mother 3#lucas mother 3#ness earthbound#paula earthbound#ninten mother 1#mother 3#earthbound#mother 1#mothscribbles#one day ill post at a normal hour. that day is not today#also please ask if you want this spoiler tagged#for like. idk the king#i think the rule in my head is that anything past act 2 will get spoiler tagged but acts 1-2 will be fairly free game??#but im up for whatever yall want
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anatomy practice that became Porter
#porter cliffbreaker#fhjy#i like his ponytail#i wanted to try more rocky texture but i dont know how back muscles work and i felt like i was getting ahead of myself#the secret to anatomy is you can start making shit up...#me to myself “wow i love drawing porter backshots”...wait
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zonked out on the dog bed snoring up a storm. you come over and rub the soft spot on the top of my nose. i let out the most contented sigh
#blllllaggggh busiest doggy everyday of my life and i am exhausted#ye beware of sadposting ahead. more like just need to get thoughts out of my headposting yk. im ok just tired#friend said to me today 'youre always doing something these days jasper when do you rest?'#and i was like huh good question! i dont hahaha. damn#which is not a bad thing always. but my plate is incredibly full and i have no one to help me#im in a really good place. things are happening that ive wanted to happen for years. but i have no time to take care of me#and the ppl who are supposed to take care of me dont. and they let me down everytime i try to ask for it. which im used to#but it doesnt make it any easier. theres just not enough hours in the day and not enough energy in my little doggy body#i used to be able to push myself past the wall of exhaustion. but after my therapy program ik i just can not do that anymore#im really proud of myself. being an adult is hard. im doing everything right. but i just wish i had someone by my side to help me#anyways.#i am a very good boy#yapping#if youre reading this hi im just venting im fine. its just been a long day and i want someone to give me a head massage#jasperbarks
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SEKAI (FANTASTICS) & Nawata Yuya's (Gavv's suit actor) twitter interaction re: Got Boost? MV
Official Gavv: Please pay attention to Gavv and Valen's dancing too 🍭
SEKAI: They were fantastic!!! To think there comes a day where I teach dancing to Kamen Riders 😭
Nawata Yuya: Likewise! I never thought the day will come where I get to learn dancing from SEKAI-san! It was an amazing and happy experience! Got Boost? will be released on 23rd October! Please look forward to it ☺️✨
SEKAI: Please don't mention it! Thank you for your time! It was a super luxurious experience for me too 🙇🙇
Nawata Yuya: That should've been my line! During the MV shooting, I couldn't take my eyes off watching Sekai-san! Valen's suit actor, Kaji and I were so excited and kept saying, "Wow, this is so cool!" between ourselves! And on this occasion, congratulations on becoming the No. 1 Professional Ranked Dancer!* Please come over to (Gavv's) shooting anytime ✨
SEKAI: Thank you very much, it's an honor 😁🙏 I'll definitely come over sometime!!
*Sekai was announced as the No. 1 dancer in a tv show yesterday
#exile sekai#nawata yuya#sekai noticed by nawata yuya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#SEKAI SAN GOOD FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!#does this mean???!!!!!!! sekai cameo in gavv???? confirmed?????????#dont want to get too ahead of myself bUT AAAAAHHHH#never thought i would see the day where my oshi gets to talk to kamen rider vice but here we are#fantastics from exile tribe#kamen rider gavv#fanta tweets
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spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner
#vulnerable tag rambles ahead please be kind abt them i didnt intent to ramble this much but i dont wanna delete it eitehr#me to every single man i have ever dated after 6mo-1y: yeah hey this really isnt working out i dont really know why but i really hate mysel#and i dont want to blame you because i dont think you did anything inherently wrong here; i think this is something about me but i need#space to figure out why im feeling this way [every single one reacted by telling me No i wasnt allowed to leave btw]#i hold very complex feelings about these relationships esp bc of them ending in very violent/chaotic ways most of the time#but its interesting to look back at it all and realize ive left every man for the same reason (which is that ive hated myself Every Single#Time ive dated a man) and its funny bc i recognized the self hate pretty early on w/ cishet men but when it came to queer men it was#much more confusing (esp w/ nto knowing Any lesbians at that point in my life). im so happy im a lesbian tbh#i have a lot of issues w/ the racism fatphobia and transmisogyny present in lesbian groups#and also coming out as a lesbian really truly saved my life. before i met my wife i was quite literally in a 3yr abusive relationship that#definitely would have died in if i hadnt realzied i was a lesbian and ran from him#its also weird seeing liek the hard evidence of the things that happened to me btween 2016-2020 tbh#cause that was such a bad time of my life. i truly dont know how i survived it but im so glad i did#like the three major relationships in my life b4 meeting my wife was: guy who was in college when i was in HS who stalked me when i left;#guy who was a year younger than me who cheated on me the entire time while telling me he was being victimized (he wasnt; this was very mess#guy who saw the very messy toxic ldr i was in and helped me dump my ex then decided that meant we were in a relationship [insert 3 yrs here#and admittedly all 3 years with him werent the same level of abusive but it was definitely unhealthy from the start considering I Didnt Kno#we were together until he wanted to celebrate vday and got mad i didnt know our anniversary - and like this isnt including the other stuff#that happened between those Relatonships[tm] (cause ive never been monogamous; these were just the Major Relationships)#like i genuinely think if i hadnt come out i'd be dead rn given just how dangerous my relationships were/continued getting#i am also so tired now that ive seen all this cause like. fuck i can barely believe it and i not only lived it but have PTSD about it#i should write about my life sometime. i feel like it'd be cathartic to try and make a tangible timeline and stories from the years ang stu#anyway yeah. be nice about the tag rambles. dont message me with pity or curiosity or anything about this. i dont usually talk abt this stu#publicly bc i hate the ways ppl start tryign to baby me when they realize my life has been extremely fucked up until only a few years ago#n im still working on accepting kindness from others bc of [insert life traumas here] but its a long process so pls respect my need for jus#being heard rn w/o too much pressure< 3 (but ig if u do read this can u like it cause i feel a little crazy seeing all the evidence of the#stuff i experienced now also cause fuck ik logically it was but also i cant believe it was all real still yk)
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sent a guy a letter on slowly and he responded calling me "querido" and telling me his number saying he's making a gc with his slowly friends. no bitch we here to send letters. write the fucking letter. lazy ass
#if i wanted to text you id be in some other social media im here because i dont do texting. texting kills the soul#he wrote me a bigass introduction letter being all polite and cool and asking me a bunch of things#i wrote him 800 words back being all lovely and interesting and shit#and then he hits me with that bullshit. no. nope.#1st of all we not even friends. i sent you 01 (one) letter#ive had slowly friends that exchanged dozens and dozens of beautiful lengthy letters w me and we still dont got each other's numbers#dont get ahead of yourself#2nd of all. i wrote him a huge paragraph explaining why i like slowly more than any other way of meeting people online#did he just straight up not read it#kind of possible he might be a bot and im getting mad about nothing tho. killing myself about it. i miss the olden days#slowly used to work#anyway that was today's episode of me getting mad about unimportant things and making it Your 🫵 problem#come back tomorrow for more
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QUESTION FOR THE MOD!
Will there ever be a point/has there ever been a point where we can ask the living characters? Like Basil for example?
There hasn't been, but I'm working in that direction!! I'd like for Basil to be the next new character to answer questions! I'm not sure about the others, since I've expressed that I'm not too great at writing for them and because it might be too many characters to focus on at one time for me...
But!! Basil will definitely be next! I have some ideas...I just think Sunny needs to fight Omori first and foremost (Which will happen I've just been needing a clear plan on how to transition to it) him trying to help Basil in this condition will just lead to worse things for sure...
So yeah! If you guys are wanting another character to ask questions to rn though...I could open Omori for questions again, I've been kinda thinking about that...though, I've been enjoying the sibling Q&A, very silly!!
Let me know your thoughts though!! Feedback is always great!
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#ive been wanting to draw basils sprites actually but i dont want to get too ahead of myself#omori#omori ask blog#omori blog#omori askblog#omori au#omori bad ending#omori characters#omori character#mod 💛#mod ask#mod speaks#mod asks#rp ask blog#ask blog#askblog#character ask blog
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#VENT#VENT TAGS AHEAD !!#so the job is...awful.#i applied for 20-25 hours#they asked if i could do 30#and now theyre pushing me into 40.#i didn't realize that when i agreed to 30 that was NOT binding (i should have known because it wasn't in my job offer. but i am 19 and--#ive never had a job offer letter before. even tho this is just retail)#and i can't adjust my availability for 90 days.#and since i put full availability expecting 25 hours max#now i have FULL 24/7 AVAILABILITY ON FILE for three months at least#and i have no idea what to do because this means i cant commit to any classes coming up for college#but ive been job hubting for months and barely got anything#and if i lose the job i have to move back in with my dad which is almost worse#whats wirse is my leader/boss is so mean. im not saying this lightly#i dont want to get into it but im barely a week in and he's made disrespectful and pushy comments towards me#has basically told me to stay late (which theoretically i cluld say no; but im still on my three months of 'we will fire you if we want to'#and like i said. need the job.#so he told me to stay late knowing i cant really say no#he's given me a frankly absurd amount of work (instock and i get carts filled woth 2-3x their max capacity unorganized and dangerously--#overloaded) and then he pushes me and snaps at me to get it done in an absurdly short timeframe while im still in TRAINING#im afab and present femme as i haven't transitioned irl and he is so ragingly sexist#he often just refers to me and the other girl being trained as 'girl' or 'that girl#and to top it all off#i took this job over a second interview at a place i really liked#because i thought the hours at this olace would be more consistent#nope! full time! surprise!!#and now im kicking myself so fucking hard over it. i feel like i fucked up so hard#and my friend i moved here with has been home for two months and will be this month so im just. alone. and i don't really have anyone to#turn to. im just so very stressed and tired and lonely
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Also if you ever feel pressured to send me a meme and it stresses you out: don't be! My muse and many others live rent free in my head, following their whimsies and scenarios that I daydream about! Memes are irrelevant when I have infinite self-produced material!
#from another realm ━ (ooc)#particulary if we have something already going on with our muses unless its smth that interests you personally you dont have to send me shi#as we are already at an advanced level and we can skip some building. expecially if we have eachothers discords and we discuss them often#i DO prefer the approach that has someone perouse my ask meme tag (in my pinned) freely so theres less pressure to interact#or unprompted... like if you want to send go ahead if you don't want to then not. its rlly super simple with me#even if i do get weird about it i'll handle getting weird myself without bothering anybody. as i should handle it
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its them, marbo n looge!
#JP&E#mario#super mario bros#cosmo creates#doodles#<creating a new tagging system soon whoo hoo!#anyways yeahahh theyre too fun to draw#also thinking of like..making comics n illustrations with these designs#but i dont want to get too ahead of myself cause then i freeze up#these sketches will do for now <3
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#not snz#more musings 📝 / mini vent:#not sure why my social battery is so limited 😭 and also so inconsistent#i feel like i can't sustain the amount of... like continued/consistent enthusiasm i see others giving esp in group settings#i just don't know how to engage in that way without burning out#over the past few weeks i've been stuck in like#a strange state where i can't muster the energy to properly respond to even the people i'm most excited to reply to#which is strange??#(and if that is you i am sorry 😭 i love you and i will get back to you)#i think i can't even like manage to get myself into the mindset of enjoying something for myself (eg. a conversation with a friend)#i think a part of it is the stress from work leeching into my personal life#i feel like i've been working so hard and for such long hours but its the kind of work where the progress i've made is very hard to track??#:( i just want to be off of ******* work so i can work on ******* work again#i also want to get ahead enough on everything in my life so that i write y+v D:#i feel like i haven't had a properly restful day in weeks... even over the weekend i was busy attending to others' needs#i just want a break from it all... but i dont have enough time to take off... but i dont know how much more of this i can take#i remember also feeling during uni like i was drowning#like there were simply not enough hours in a day to deliver everything i promised. it's such an awful feeling#i just feel defeated. like i've felt exhausted for weeks and weeks on end and like i spend every waking hour working on something or other#but ofc there is nothing to do but to keep at it 😭 other people can handle all of this and more#there are so many people i refuse to let down
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yapping a little bit to a boy about my favorite bands and him being super excited to listen to them and being super interested in hearing more........ (hacker voice) im in
#just me rambling again#this is the dude i was excited to be connecting with bc it was an opportunity to develop a crush#and just generally this is great for the life plot#im trying to not get too ahead of myself though i don't want to crush too bad he doesnt even know if he likes guys#admittedly i am flirting though in sort of the only ways i know how (yapping)#i hate to say it though but since weve only been communicating over text and he doesnt have any photos of himself on instagram#im so scared im not gonna find him attractive????? guys dont cancel me /j but im so worried that if i find out what he looks like#now i wont think hes pretty obviously i love talking to him but this is such a concern in my mind rn bc physical attraction obviously#does at least somewhat affect having a crush on someone y'know#and i havent seen his face since like?? 8th grade i think#wild#omg another person from middle school followed me on Instagram earlier too? it was really weird idk how they found me#or even knew that it was me (different name than back then) but whatever ig#GUH OH MY GOD WHAT IF HE HAS A BAD HAIRCUT guys im so sorry-
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On my way to the funeral. I did finish writing the thing. It'll be like 10 minutes of speaking. I barely got the time to practice it.
I kind of feel like I'm going to be sick.
#speculation nation#negative/#two hours of socializing ahead of me. how wonderful.#im probably going to try to find times to squirrel myself away to go over my thing.#brought the journal with me. it has a front folder. the letter i wrote to my dad when i was 16 is in there.#i dont know if that makes much difference. it makes a difference to me.#none of them need to know about it.#im supposed to go up there and share my grief so openly#i focused more on the lessons ive learned after all of this.#they dont get to know about when i was crying over his jackets. when i was crying over a pic of him in a minions hat.#i dont know. i just want this day to be over.
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How do i even fucking answer that. Genuinely. Do i even answer that. I dont really think ic are that much anymore
#shes not really all that#I can just cancel on her tbh#Because like. Literally whats the point#Ok we can hang out sure whatever sure I dont care though? I dont#that's not why i was interested. Like she seems great to be clear and i do love talking to her#but like. Im not even like. A complete person.#Its ok. Im going to just ride out today and tmrw i will probably be logical even though I think i just am going to delte the app#bc Whats the fucking point !#Yeah lets friendly style go to a flea market. Fucking sure. On the dating app. Sure.#and everyone is like that sucks but you know that its good she told you - Yeah but i didnt want to fucking know that#Nobody gets how hard it is to always hear I want to fuck you from people you don't like and hear#I can't be with you because you won't fuck me. from people you do like#WHATEVER it seems like all my friends are having good days and I like did a thing and its not like any of this matters#Because ill cancel on her and that will give me more time to do something productive that day#And all this is good becausei can just get ahead on my fucking work#and instead of me being there my two friends who are dating can like cuddle and I just dont have to be involved at all#and she can just. Whatever. I don't really like her anyway#'lets be friends' in the context of something that isnt that is such an afterthought I understand that culturally.#Ik this is all really amatonormative and i realize im being a dick in that way. I do have more sensible opinions generally i assure u#but like. yeah man nobody will want to date me unless i fuck them. Awesome news. Should i just kill myself.#will mare ever actually have a truly requited relationship? despite having been in three? Stay tuned
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