#if youre reading this hi im just venting im fine. its just been a long day and i want someone to give me a head massage
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zonked out on the dog bed snoring up a storm. you come over and rub the soft spot on the top of my nose. i let out the most contented sigh
#blllllaggggh busiest doggy everyday of my life and i am exhausted#ye beware of sadposting ahead. more like just need to get thoughts out of my headposting yk. im ok just tired#friend said to me today 'youre always doing something these days jasper when do you rest?'#and i was like huh good question! i dont hahaha. damn#which is not a bad thing always. but my plate is incredibly full and i have no one to help me#im in a really good place. things are happening that ive wanted to happen for years. but i have no time to take care of me#and the ppl who are supposed to take care of me dont. and they let me down everytime i try to ask for it. which im used to#but it doesnt make it any easier. theres just not enough hours in the day and not enough energy in my little doggy body#i used to be able to push myself past the wall of exhaustion. but after my therapy program ik i just can not do that anymore#im really proud of myself. being an adult is hard. im doing everything right. but i just wish i had someone by my side to help me#anyways.#i am a very good boy#yapping#if youre reading this hi im just venting im fine. its just been a long day and i want someone to give me a head massage#jasperbarks
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Ok i've just read one of the worst take ever on Bill and Frank's relationship and while i dont usually like to vent im gonna have to and its gonna be long: "transactional". Thats how their relationship has been described in that take. Especially on Frank's part of course. For the whole part of it. Yes. The whole part. The whole 16 years.
Except that Frank made it clear from the start that it wasnt. "Im not a whore" . Yes, maybe at first he wanted to have a nice shower, nice meal, new clothes and maybe even to be able to stay the night and sleep here. Yes, he realised quickly that Bill was gay and shy and maybe (and thats a huuuge maybe) he thought abt playing with him so he could survive another day. U know, having not eaten since 48hours, being the last one from a 10people group and shit.
But then he saw him play the piano and sing and he was a goner. Simple as that.
Because yeah, of course, when you're here only for "transactional" reasons like a safe place and food and showers, u run into a dangerous area with ur little gun where other guns are firing everywhere to save "said transaction" and reassure him that everything is fine, trying to not have him pass out ("talk to me abt your list Bill") while never letting go of his hand (And while in a transactional relationship, u obviously answer "im not alone, u re here" when the other part of "said transaction" says u cant stay alone if he dies and that you will need Joel, his bestfriennemy).
And yeah, of course, when you're here only for "transactional" reasons like a safe place and food and showers, u try to surprise him after 6 years of boring transactional shit with strawberries, and kiss him passionately, moved as fuck when "said transaction" tells u he's afraid to lose you.
And yeah, of course, when you re here only for "transactional" reasons like a safe place and food and showers, u tell him after 3 years that u want to repaint the town for both of u because thats how one show love. LOVE.
And the paintings of Bill, too, totally not done with love, obviously. And it definitely didnt break your heart to realise that you had a hard time finishing the last one because of your illness.
And on ur last day on earth, amongst other things that will make it one last good day, u definitely ask your transactional boyfriend to marry you, something you couldnt do in this universe before the outbreak, which is very symbolic but which of course totally doesnt show how much you love him.
And i could go on forever.
Bill and Frank is one of the most realistic and loving relationship i have ever witnessed on TV. In real life, i witnessed it with one relative and his boyfriend. Where u can love someone and still be honest saying for example "i've had bad days with u too" but God u wouldnt change a thing and still do it all over, because you had "more good days with him than with anyone else".
This is love.
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Hi! It’s no worries I’ve been around this app long enough to know it’s kinda buggy lol. Anyways, I actually remembered just now I wrote out my request in a random google doc before I sent it and never deleted it so I have able to just copy/paste!
Congrats on 1.7k!! May I have a romantic hunger games (it can be either the original films or the newer one) option 2 match up please? I go by she/her and am bi with no preference, so any gender is fine.
I’m about 5’5, dark blue eyes, medium length hair thats kinda too dark to be dirty blonde but not so dark that its light brown with slightly lighter blonde highlights throughout. Ive been told I typically wear what would be considered 90s type of style but leaning away from more feminine things tho I’m not opposed to dresses and all.
I do get pretty anxious when thrown in certain situations rather that be talking to a group of people or just one person. But on occasion and definitely when I get to know someone I never stop talking. I am a ranter and rambler which means I could be ranting about something that happened and then start talking about something else that may or may not be related to the original subject. Basically I will always find something to talk about though I do enjoy listening to other people talk. I am considered the mom friend because I tend to be the most logical. Im also a very determined, stubborn person who usually is kinda pessimistic but still has a huge imagination. And despite all the anxiety I am usually a relatively confident person and am not afraid to take up for anyone I care about. Also I am pretty good in school despite having a kinda bad memory. Also an INTJ, Sagittarius, and Ravenclaw.
I absolutely love writing and have for the longest time rather that be random original stories I make up or the various fanfics I have(lol). I also love drawing and painting and recently realized I’m actually pretty good at making art related to animals and the occasional landscape. I’ve also been a big music fan since I was a kid, I honestly dont know what I would do without it. I also really enjoy reading when I get the chance, like I could spend hours getting consumed by whatever I’m reading. Which also travels into me when I’m watching things. As in I spend a good bit of time just binge watching new or old shows. I also really like walking around and enjoying nature. Theres a few nature trails I love going on and would go to the zoo every weekend if I had the chance. Which also goes along to my love for animals. Also I do like going to random places with my friends.
And thats about all I can think of to say, hope it wasnt too much lol. But anyways, thanks in advance :)
hi!
thanks for participating :)
since you have no gender preference, i’ll tell you who i ship you with out of both the boys and the girls, and then do the full thing for who i think you’re better suited for.
i ship you with katniss and peeta! i’m gonna go with katniss for this, hope that’s ok :)
katniss is absolutely not a people person. small talk makes her uncomfortable, and putting on a mask and playing a part doesn’t come easy to her. there’s a handful of people she’s comfortable talking to, and the rest don’t matter to her. she’d understand your apprehension getting to know people. but she’d feel pretty special when you opened up to her and started feeling comfortable venting and rambling. she may not be one for talking, but she does like listening. and you could listen to you talk for hours about whatever you wanted, happy to listen. you’re very alike as people. your values, your view on life, your temperament and your personality. you both being headstrong and stubborn could get in the way of your relationship sometimes, but you’d always manage to make her go soft around you. you’d be one of the few people that make her happy and help her feel relatively calm and safe, so she wouldn’t want to ruin that with petty arguments and bickering. you’d learn to work past it together quickly so you could get back to the simple things.
katniss doesn’t have much time for hobbies. plus, i don’t think she really allows herself the time to be idle. you’d have to constantly remind her to take a break and relax for a little while. she’d be too impatient for reading or art, but she’d enjoy hearing what you were reading about or working on. it would give her a sense of domesticity that she craved. and later on after the rebellion, she’d slowly start feeling more comfortable joining you with your hobbies and finding some of her own. i don’t think she considers herself to be a very talented person, but she would get a small sense of accomplishment and pride when she found a hobby she both enjoyed and was good at.
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the place she’d most feel at peace would probably be the forest. walking along the streams, hunting for deer, just breathing in the fresh air. it would be a place she enjoyed going alone, but eventually, she’d start asking you to go with her. she’d show you all the best places she’d come to catch something or just clear her mind for a little while. it would be peaceful and quiet, which she’d love. one day, she’d ask you if you wanted to bring along something to draw with. she’d take you up to a ridge she liked to sit at, letting you sit down and draw the landscape while she hunted for a few minutes. eventually, she’d make her way back to you, sitting down next to you.
“no luck?” you’d ask when you noticed her coming back with a full quiver and no kill.
she’d shrug, setting down her bow. “found a few wild turkeys down by the river. some of the hens were nesting. i didn’t want to bother them yet.”
you’d nod, going back to your drawing. she hadn’t been gone that long, but you’d already made significant progress drawing the ridge and hillside that led down into the valley where the meadow was. you could feel her eyes on you as you worked, and you’d eventually feel her chin rest on your shoulder as you started drawing one of the trees, making you smile. you liked when she was soft like this.
“that’s pretty,” she’d murmur, fascinated by the way you worked. “peeta could’ve used you down at the bakery if he knew you could draw like this.”
“i wouldn’t want to upstage him,” you’d joke, knowing what peeta used to do took a lot of time and skill that only he could make look easy.
she’d chuckle, and you could feel her smile as she looked over your shoulder. “i don’t think he’d mind.”
you’d sit in silence another moment before deciding to take a break, setting your things down. you’d watch the ridge together, peering down through the valley where the spring flowers were just beginning to grow.
“you never told me we had flowers like this in the district.”
“they only grow in the spring,” she’d explain, resting her head against your shoulder. “my father told me the soot from the mines stifles them before they have a chance to grow. but out here in the meadow, they’re untouched. they can grow a few feet tall if they’re not harvested right away. you can use the roots for medicine…i used to bring prim some.”
you could hear the hurt in her voice at the mention of prim’s name. she’d grow quiet again, her eyes locked on the ridge. she was afraid if she looked over at you, she wouldn’t be able to keep it together. you figured it was best not to pry about it—not now, at least. instead, you’d pick up your drawing, handing her a few pencils.
“pick a few colors. i want to draw the flowers in too.”
she’d give you a small smile and nod, immediately reaching for the green pencil. you’d grin, setting the rest of the pencils down as you began working again.
“i should’ve known.”
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thanks again for participating! i hope you liked this :)
#1.7k followers celebration#1.7k followers#1700 followers celebration#followers celebration#1700 followers#the hunger games#thg#the ballad of songbirds and snakes#tbosas#katniss everdeen
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hi
i've been keeping up with you and your page for a while now, i'd say a couple months maybe? and i've never really felt a big need to send in a little message like this before! i feel awkward, i guess bc i am awkward irl too. idk, i guess i just wanted to say hi and that i hope your day/night/morning (whenever you're reading this) is going good. and that i think its cool that ur pretty open about ur feelings and ur thoughts, though i am pretty paranoid so im always wondering if anything ur saying is true.. also its really considerate that you let people vent on here and most of the time you console them or give them advice (even when the msg is like a bajillion words long) (i truly do not know how you can read allaaaaattt). ok that was all i wanted to say :P bye now
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Good evening (in my timezone), it is nice to finally hear your voice, little lurker. Don’t worry about being awkward, you’re fine. I kind of wish that I was making up half the things I say I experience on here, but I understand your doubt.
I am still not sure why people would choose to vent on here, but I suppose that in many cases if I am not the one listening, then they would have no one else. I would rather be a pale imitation of social support than have them face things alone. And the reading is fine actually, it is the formulating a response part that is far more difficult.
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Hey Truuudyyyy.. ;)) This is your sign to write one of my prompts;)))
*DEEP BREATH* OKAY OKAY OKAY FINE~ ILL GIVE IT A SHOT- fair warning though i’m a pretty bad writer
i’m gonna attempt that one for you, @lumpy-elephant-dung ...
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It had been an average Sunday morning in sixth year, a week before the full moon, when they got the news.
The marauders had come down to breakfast early at James’s insistence-
(“Sirius! You of all people should know how important it is for us to win the cup this year!” “yeah, but not this early Prongs, it’s 6am! On a weekend!” “Shut up and put on your socks Padfoot, and hurry up Moony” “WHY THE FUCK do me and Pete have to come down too? we’re not even on the team?!!” “MORAL SUPPORT REMU, MORAL SUPPORT”)
-when a large tawny barn owl with slicked back feathers landed next to Remus’s plate of four-flavoured toast, an official looking ministry letter tied to its leg. The lanky boy paled visibly as he opened the note, hands shaking, and Sirius felt a surge of dread and panic spread throughout his body, thoughts of what it could possibly be started rushing through his mind; had they somehow found out he was an unregistered werewolf?! had Lyall finally snapped and filled the execution for his boyfriend?! had the ministry found out they were gay, and going to outcast them (the homophobia in the wizardind world was shocking)??! Even with all the theories scattered in his mind, Sirius didn’t anticipate what the letter actually bore. As Sirius watched his usually well-composed, emotionally suppressed, tough boyfriend read the letter with rare tears forming in his eyes, he felt a pang in his stomach. A shaking Remus handed the letter across the table to where Sirius was seated, a single tear escaping his eyes as he slowly stood up and left the great hall. Scanning the page, Sirius let out a small gasp before shoving the letter towards James and Pete. Hope Lupin was dead.
Sirius knew, the second he had read those dreaded words, that his beloved Moony wasn’t going to be coping well, considering the fact that Remus’s go-to grieving method was bottling up all of his emotions until he snapped and lashed out towards others. But Sirius, above all his other concerns, hadn’t expected Remus to go silent. Though, Remus hadn’t developed mutism, in case that’s what you thought. Remus was silent by choice.
The boy who once shot his hand up to the stars with enthusiasm when a teacher would as a question, eager to prove his worth and intelligence, was now refusing to communicate, staring blank faced, dead in the eyes, out the window. The boy who once had the largest appetite in the school, who would take second and third helpings, was no longer turning up to meals, no longer eating. The boy who once snook into Sirius’s bed, and kissed him softly on the nose before drifting away to sleep in each other’s arms, was now laying in his own bed, blankly staring at the roof, curtains drawn.
The concern from the hogwarts staff and students alike was very noticeable. None more, though, than Sirius Black. All those lessons where Remus wouldn’t talk, Sirius wouldn’t either, because all of his attention was on his boyfriend, and not the lesson. His grades were slipping, he was losing sleep, and he, like Remus himself, was losing weight rapidly, but he was unbothered, Remus came first to him, always and forever.
Before anyone knew it, it had been a full week of Remus’s stony, emotionless silence. It was the full moon that night, and the other marauders had grown increasingly worried. They had known, by now, that the worse Moony felt before his transformation, the more painful it would be, the more difficult it would be to stop him from harming himself, the lesser the chance of his own survival would be. The boys shared glances of concern throughout the day, the unspoken words of terror hanging in the air, until an hour before the moon rise Sirius couldn’t take it anymore. Picking up his bag, he walked with caution to Remus’s drawn curtains and slid in.
Remus, who was startled, jumped, though without saying anything, and locked eyes with his boyfriend. Sirius tentivley held out a hand, and surprisingly, Remus latched on to it and pulled him into a tight hug and he began to shake hysterically, with Sirius whispering words of comfort into his shoulder, running his hand through his fluffy tawny hair. Remus felt a tear escape his eye before breaking down into sobs.
From outside the bed, Peter and James gave each other a knowing look and tip toed out as to not disturb them, a small bit of hope rushing through their chests.
Sirius didn’t know how long they stayed in that position, but he had finally felt the pang of fear leave his chest and didn’t want to move, but as reluctant as he was, he knew that as the moon approached they would have to go soon. But out of nowhere, Remus began to speak;
“I just can’t believe she’s gone”
and then the words were tumbling out, all the anguish, the pain, the memories. The well needed vent had finally happened. Remus wiped his eyes, and held his boyfriend’s hand as they left the dorms, meeting Pete and James at the bottom of the spiral staircase where they had been waiting.
They headed out to the whomping willow, and as they were about to enter, Remus pulled Sirius back, whispering “thank you” into the night. They both knew that there was still a much unsaid, still so much to unpack. And Sirius would be there for it all, helping him recover. Things weren’t okay now, but they would be.
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TYSM FOR READING!!! IVE BEEN WORKING ON THIS FOR QUITE A LONG TIME BUT IM FINALLY HAPPY WITH THIS :) <3
#wolfstar#harry potter#remus lupin#moony x padfoot#peter pettigrew#james potter#sirius black is gay#remus x sirius#sirius black#marauders fanfiction#wolfstar fanfiction#wolfstar fanfic#hurt/comfort#angsty#wolfstar angst#marauders angst#the marauders fanfiction#hogwarts fanfiction#harry potter fanfiction#mlm fanfic#cw death
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In Defense of Salt AND Sugar: Aka ML Fandom pls chill out.
So I don’t talk much as those who follow me will say I tend to just stick to myself and my own things. HOWEVER, Ive gotten a lot of asks about why I write both Salt and Sugar for Miraculous Ladybug.
The short answer: Both salt and sugar are valid, fun, intriguing things to read and write and the point of writing is to entertain and be entertained.
The long answer: Salt isn’t inherently someone hating on your fav show and sugar isn't someone necessarily giving it a free pass either. Ya’ll are just dramatic as hell.
The LONGER answer:
I write salt because I LIKE Miraculous Ladybug, BUT the show has not lived up to its potential AT ALL. The show could be so much better and the characters are so flawed or full of holes that occasionally I feel FRUSTRATED and mad!
I hate that Alya a character who I was so excited about, gets shafted ignored, sidelined, or written like a jerk! She could have been this great detective working alongside her friend to unmask the villain, but instead she often comes across as pushy, obsessed with Ladynoir or Adrinette, and so damn easily tricked. Not to mention how when shes not gushing over her ‘ships’ shes pushed to the side and ignored. [or you know... LILA]
I hate that Marinette’s crush makes her do things that are so cringy and awkward i feel ill I hate that she’s constantly the only one making mistakes and ‘learning lessons’ when the show has all these other great characters that could use the spotlight and be the ones learning lessons. I hate that she’s so jealous and that she cant ever seem to catch a break as if the show is punishing her constantly.
I HATE that Adrien is a mary sue, how the writers say hes perfect and treat him as such, I hate that he gets to guilt Marinette into fixing everything and dealing with bullies, I wanted a funny, Ron Stoppable, naive boy who learns about real friendships and grows into a great partner. Instead he gets to be pushy and downright a jerk as Chat Noir ignoring his responsibilities, guilting Ladybug with his feelings, never taking no as an answer. He’s not a good role model for kids.
I hate that Chloe got built up to have a redemption arc several times only for the writers to decide that Chloe a teenage girl who needs some serious therapy [and actual reasonable punishment for her actions] is worse than Gabriel child abuse Agreste. She could have been a great lesson on compassion and growth and dealing with your own pain without hurting others. Instead the writers wrote her off completely.
And dont get me started on how the show treats Nino, Kagami, Luka and the rest of the cast. They may as well be a backdrop for the forced love square that we NEVER get a break from. Seriously I’m a sucker for romance but does it need to be EVERY damn episode?! Can’t we just get some wholesome friendship between everyone including Adrien and Marinette at this point like COME ON.
And i’m not even touching on the white washing, awful lessons on responsibility and forgiveness, awful lessons on well so much other stuff really, the guilt trips, the teacher, the fact that she show could be used to teach kids how to better handle negative emotions and the importance of open communication and not keeping quiet about injustice and/or your feelings but instead decided that the main priority should be a love square that gets force fed to us EVERY SINGLE EPISODE.
My point is the show has FLAWS. That doesn’t mean its the worse show ever and it doesn’t mean its not fun, and has a great premise and characters, and so when I write Salt I write it because i’m frustrated! Im frustrated with the show, with the characters, with the writing and so I vent that out with salt I write those characters as their worst selves because I cant stand how the show has decided to treat them and Im ANGRY and disappointed.
It feels good to write salt and to read it. It’s nice to see characters get called out for bad behavior, its nice to read about Adrien not getting the girl. Its nice to occasionally indulge in salt because it validates that the show is flawed and lets you get out that frustration.
BUT ON THE FLIP SIDE
Miraculous Ladybug is a lovely show. It’s a show that decided to give little girls a FEMALE HERO. And not just as a side kick or background character! No they made her the protagonist! Its so important to me that little girls see good well rounded female characters in media.
And even if the show is clumsy about it they are TRYING to build an expansive lore that tickles the theorist brain. And gets people invested in the world.
The show also made Marinette shy, and awkward, and clumsy something a lot of girls deal with during puberty as growing up can literally make you clumsier as your body adjusts. Having a character who tries to be positive and tries to find solutions who solves things with creativity instead of pure violence. Thats LOVELY for young girls to see.
Growing up I loved and admired Kim Possible, and probably would have loved Marinette, even if the shows not perfect I can admit its trying and I can see why people love it as much as they do! And why they write these fluffy sugary fics its the reason I WRITE fluffy sugary things.
Because even though I am frustrated and angry and disappointed with the show, I still see Alya’s potential and how great she is as representation to little girls who want a black female superhero so I write fluff where Alya’s loyalty, compassion, cleverness and her pursuit of justice are center stage.
I see how Adrien could be better and I want him to be better and I WANT him to be the naive funny comic relief the Ron Stoppable to Marinette’s Kim Possible. I want Adrien to grow and learn and spit in his dad’s face I want him to overcome the abuse and be happy. To show people that neglect and abuse doesn’t mean you will get stuck like that forever, that you can overcome that and be a better kinder person.
I want Nino and Kagami, and Luka and Chloe and the class to grow and get attention and have funny moments I want to laugh and make other people laugh! So I write prompts focused around comedy and shenanigans and where the characters get to be fun and silly and make decisions for themselves!
SO IN CONCLUSION:
I write salt AND sugar. I see the value and merit in both sides of the coin, and I respect how other people see the show. I know its easy to get angry with other people in the fandom who see the show differently then you do but please can we put down the weapons and just BREATHE.
Someone who writes salt might LOVE the same show as you, and they might in fact love it so much that they vent their frustrations in angst and salt and cracky fics. Let them vent about how they wish the show was better, leave their tags alone or block them if you cant stand to see it. But dont attack salt writers for ‘hating on your show’ when they might love it just as much as you do but want a way to vent out their feelings.
On the flip someone who writes sugar might NOT be forgiving the show for its flaws, they might see all the same flaws as you but decide to take that frustration and write fluff and fix it fics and sugar because they want to indulge in a version of their favorite show where everything is just... OK. Where everyone is well written and happy and the character development sticks. Stay out of their tags let them have their sugar, they aren't writing it to hurt you just like you don't write salt to hurt them.
So ENOUGH. Enough hunting each other down, enough sending each other hate, enough filling each others tags. Let people write SALT if they feel angry and vengeful and disappointment, let them have their tags, let them explore the dark side of the characters, let them rant and rave and be HURT when the characters they love upset them with their actions. Its not your place to tell them to stop, to tell them their feelings are invalid, to tell them that ‘adrien is sweet sunshine boy how dare you’ or ‘alya would never’ or ‘i hate your marinette leaves dupont au’. Just leave it be, heed the tags, and let it go.
AND ENOUGH. Enough hunting each other down, enough sending each other hate, enough filling each other tags. Let people write SUGAR if they just want something to feel happy about. Let them makes coffee shop au’s, let them make fix it fics where everything is just happy without needing 8 pages of backstory for why everything is just happy. Let them squeal and gush and talk about the ship they like and the fluff they see. Its not your place to argue with them that the show is flawed, its not cool to ruin their fun by accusing them of not understanding the flaws, to tell them ‘umm actual this character shouldn’t get to be happy’ or ‘wow this is so shallow’. Just leave it be, heed the tags, and let it go.
PS: Now with that said and done. I do have one final message for everyone - If you write/enjoy pedophilia, if you sexualize KIDS. Then get the fuck out of fandom spaces, stop fucking following me, and do everyone salt and sugar a favor by LEAVING. Your pedophilia and child sexualization aint wanted, aint ok, and I will fight you.
PSS: IF YOU HATE WHAT IVE SAID ABOUT SUGAR AND SALT FINE OK I RESPECT YOU REGARDLESS. ENJOY THE SHOW, STAY CLASSY, DONT HURT PEOPLE BECAUSE THEY HAVE A DIFFERENT OPINION.
#its just me#ml salt#ml sugar#adrien salt#adrien sugar#alya salt#alya sugar#chloe salt#chloe sugar#miraculous ladybug#marinette dupain cheng#adrien agreste#alya cesaire#class salt#class sugar
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Your Shoulder to Cry On
Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader
Summary: Y/N has been feeling down all day and Tom wants her to know that he’ll always be here for her.
Maybe it was just one of those Mondays, but today just seemed like the worst ones Y/N has ever experienced. Truthfully she didnt know how it happened. She was having a great morning, waking up in Tom’s arms, giving him his daily dose of kisses before he left to film, and actually getting her work done with time to spare.
But there was definitely a change in the wind that day and it all started with a...
Ding
With all the free time Y/N had she couldnt help but check her phone, guessing it was either Tom or her parents checking up on her, or maybe her hometown friends who are updating her on what’s going on with their new found adult life.
It was her friends all right...but the conversation was far from friendly. Arguments ensued from her three friends coming after each others neck and of course pulling..no...dragging Y/N unwilling into it. While she said no words, as she tried to find the best way to relieve the tension it was too late. Her good day had become the shittiest day of the week...and its only just begun.
Now abandoning her work, Y/N waits for her boyfriend to come home as she mindlessly scrolls through Instagram, only to see a notification pop up on her phone. Assuming it was another nasty text from her friends, she was much surprised to be welcomed a picture of her and Tom on her feed with a caption saying...
“Cant wait to see my girl after work. It’s been a long day 😫.”
If anything made Y/N smile at all today it was Tom. In some weird way its like he knew how she felt without even telling or seeing him. He was her rock after all and if there was anyone she could count on to make her smile in the least it was Tom. Just on cue, he called her right after.
“Hello darling.” He greets sleepily.
“Hey babe.” Y/N responded quietly.
“Are you okay?”
“Hmm. Oh..yeah just fine.” She lies, hoping not to worry him too much.
“Darling, I can tell you’re not. You dont sound like yourself. Ill be home soon okay? Tell me all about it?”
Y/N nodded as she whispered, “Yeah.”
“Okay..I love you so much. Ill be home soon.”
“I love you too.” She croaks.
Just like that Tom was home in record time, but not without capturing a few things to cheer his girl up. He welcomed her with freshly baked cookies from her favorite cookie shop, and nothing was better than food from her favorite Italian spot. Tom placed the food on the counter as he searched for his girl.
“Love, Im home.” He called out. “Are you okay, darling?”
Y/N popped in the hallway as she ran straight into his arms, not saying a word but holding onto him as if she would lose him.
“Hey..hey. Whats wrong?” He asked in his soothing voice.
“Lots of drama.” She mumbled. “I love you but you didnt have to go through buying all this. I could have cooked for us.”
Tom pulled away from her, giving the look confusion and disapproval. “Cooked for us while you’re clearly upset? Thats absolute bullocks. We’re gonna eat all this food because we can and then youre gonna vent everything out and then.. Im gonna hold you in my arms and coax you to sleep so you can relax and have a shoulder to cry on.”
Y/N smiled at the gesture already wraaping her arms around him, shedding a slight tear at how he would always be here for her. “I love you so much Tom.”
“I do too. Now tell me what’s wrong, darling.”
So Y/N did tell him everything from what happened with her friends and how the unecessary pile of work came up on her, and all the insecurities that have just risen out throughout the whole day. She was on his lap as they cuddled into the sofa. Showing her phone, he reads the last remaining texts from the conversation.
“I’m unfollowing y’all on everything and i am not answering another text just thought i would throw how crazy that is, out there. So at this point i’m done. forget it y’all can chill i’m out:) ”
“Wow.” He said, taking a moment to process what happened. “She really meant it, didnt she?”
Y/N nodded as she put her phone away. “Yeah and now Im just in the middle because I dont know what to do or who to support. Our whole friendship is breaking apart and I just dont want to lose any of them.” She cries silently, occaionally bring up the sleeves of Tom’s hoodie to wipe her nose and eyes.
“Hey, look its not your fault you were just trying to help. I know you guys have been friends for so long and Im sure that this is just a small bump and all four of you will get together and this will all be put past behind you.” Tom encourages as he tucks a small piece of her hair behind her ear, leans in for a comforting kiss on her forehead. “Darling, I know how much you wanted to fix things between your friends but it’s not your fault. This isnt yours to fix you just need to give it some time yeah? Even if your friends dont stick around thats on them, but just know I will always be here for you. Ill be your shoulder to cry on, and I sure as hell wont leave or unfollow you.” He chuckles at the situation, wiping away her tear stained cheeks.
“Haha how funny.” She sniffles and smiles at Tom’s corny attempt to make a joke of the situation like he always does.
“See theres that smile, Ive been waiting all day to see. I just can’t get enough of it.” Tom compliments. “That smile should stay there for good. Fuck anyone or anything that tries to take it away for you.”
“Thank you Tommy.” Y/N says sweetly, leaning in and pressing her lips against Tom’s.
Tom smiles back into the kiss gently cradling the back of her head. “Anytime darling. Now let’s see if there are other ways to make you feel better.” He winked as he carried her up to their room.
#tom holland#tom holland imagine#tom holland x reader#peter parker#peter parker x reader#peter parker imagine
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Hallo, i hope you are alright and that my ask aren’t annoying but I wanted to ask do you have any c!puffy headcannons? —🤡
YOURE NOT ANNOYING AT ALL !!! NEVER THINK THAT ILU VERY MUCH. MUAH /p
as for c!puffy headcanons, i am not the best person to ever organize their thoughts properly but ill try my best >:’D
ahaha. this got. super complex and way too long and more of like an introspective study to puffy now instead of harmless fun headcanons so, uh. under read more <3 (also reminder this is all /rp and /dsmp)
* i like to think that she has a hero complex, but its a bit different since she never really sees herself as an ‘important’ part of the story, not the main character but a support one, hence ‘im fine with being the side character’ or how she’s said she doesnt care what happens to her and would gladly sacrifice(?) herself if there werent other people she had to protect. girl u need therapy urself <3
* though very open with how she feels and never afraid to say when someone/something is upsetting her, ‘opening up’ is still a whole mountain climb for her, apparently. like, she’d rant about the egg, get mad at the eggpire, let off some steam by committing arson or exploding stuff, she’ll rarely ever talk about how much the stuff that upset her actually HURT her. does that make sense? LIKE, she’ll lash out, she’ll get mad, she’ll take NO SHIT thrown at her face, but to show the kinda vulnerability of dealing with that? to cry about it talk about those feelings with someone? I think she’d rather eat her own foot lol
* adding onto the thing above, she doesnt necessarily actually realize this about herself. less of actively doing it and rather growing... used to the ‘cycle of violence’ in the smp as they call it. and the fact that rarely have people really asked, that no one’s actually available for that, w her losing her closest friends, bad and ant, sam being busy w the warden stuff... and niki. yeah. there’s foolish, but i doubt she’d ever see venting to someone she considers her son appealing
* also. puffy is just sometimes... really bad at conveying sadness. i think she’s a rare crier. id go as far to say that shes even more emotionally constipated than dream, lol (but maybe not while the guy’s in his prison arc) and that she’d be the type of person to tell you its okay to cry but beat herself up over something if she let a tear slip in a heated moment
* speaking of sadness. she’ll only ever actually Be Sad if she’s alone or with someone she doesnt necessarily care the opinions of. yknow how she mourned for tommy and blamed herself? those dialogue bits? yeah, those are only times shed actually be vulnerable
* puffy’s go to response to the egg and how its fucked up her relationship w her friends is pure fury. but, going off of her line about ‘failing bad and ant’ i like to think that she probably hates herself the most about it. THAT IS A STRONG WORD LOL BUT YEAH. she yells and curses and gets mad, but sometimes i wonder if the words she had spat before were more directed to herself
* THIS GIRL HAS SELF-IDENTITY PROBLEMS. CAN WE GET A HELL YEAH FOR THAT CHAT? outside of having no goddamn clue about where she came from, how she got here and who she even is, scrounging up a role for herself in a server with a war on the background and traumatized kids got her resignedly coerced into thinking that she is only a Parent. Only good enough when she’s actually doing something Useful for people. SO. when she finds that ship? of having a crew and having a curse? OF FINDING OUT SHE MIGHT HAVE/ HAVE HAD A MOM THATS WAITING FOR HER? the sense of control she has on herself is absolutely crushed. shattered, and she’s left to pick up the pieces w no one to talk abt it with <3
* adding onto the above, it’s why the line ‘I’m supposed to be mama puffy. me.’ hurts me so much! so yes! please cry with me :D
* also to add more on the fact that she thinks she’s only worth something when she’s being useful, puffy literally contemplated leaving the server, thinking that it wouldnt matter leaving since no one really needs her anyway, since she’s failed so many people. bad and ant, tommy, dream. shes said how foolish can take care of himself on how tubbo and ranboo have each other, how she and niki have drifted so far away from each that it might as well be a break up.
HOOOOOOOOOO OBOY . anon youve really given me the perfect chance to ramble huh? sorry for the rather incomprehensible brainrot, here’s more lighthearted headcanons about puffy asdhfkd
* she cannot stand still sometimes. she always has to be doing something extra, walking when the prime path is right there? shed rather go through tedious little holes or hop and balance onto fences to get where shes going. she’ll mindlessly fix up the path when there are holes or mismatched wood, and one time went on a long, long LONG journey cleaning up the paths tommy purposely DESTROYED near lmanburg and even added cobblestone sidings which werent there before
* puffys a bit of a sentimental person. writing in her log to clear her thoughts sometimes and cared enough to try and preserve lmanburg with the glass sheet and trying to find possible surviving artifacts of history to respect it, even though she’s never been a part of it. its also why, when doomsday happened and lmanburg got permanently poofed, she began to appreciate the buildings that are still standing and began taking more pics
* she’s not used to being... what do you call it, um, cared for? she’d deflect compliments sometimes, when shes having a particular bad day, like, she’d laugh nervously and change the subject, sometimes she’d outright deny it, most days she’d jokingly say ‘staphhh it’ and add a very genuine thanks. my point being is, do something for puffy that is mildly nice and she’d keep that moment in her heart forever.
* also funny story regarding the above. u know how karl is notorious for stealing her materials? and how puffy was contemplating doing something in retaliation for them? karl says hi for once when she joins the server and she goes ‘alright fine youre safe for saying hi’ LOL THIS WAS PROBABLY A BIT META WISE but something about this implying that the bare minimum or LESS is enough to make puffy forgive someone is very sad and funny at the same time for me. girl really said ‘oh you said hi to me? thats nice all the crimes youve ever done towards me is now forgiven. <3’ (this is a bit of an exaggeration on my part, ofc, i just think its funny LMAO)
* ironically, despite being the ‘captain’, whenever riding a boat with someone, she prefers being on the backseat and letting them drive. ig shes just there for the ride i suppose, her and her uber drivers :3
* she either has a rather unhealthy obsession with baked potatoes or she just doesnt wanna waste eret’s massive potato farm
* idc what cc!puffy says is c!puffy will always and forever be 5′2″ in my HEART. u are the shortest member, u cannot change this <3
* shes really fond of animals/ neutral mobs. she often baby talks to them and they help boost her mood a lot when shes having a bad day :D
* up to this day, the little secret rooms she’s created around the server have all been yet to be discovered, unless the one under bad’s house has been found. she rarely ever really keeps tabs on them, and more often than not they are just collecting dust. she still visits sometimes and cleans them up ofc
* she still genuinely thinks dream can change. cc!puffy’s line about that, ‘i’m his last hope.’ really makes me think about this a lot.
* ive seen people talk abt it a bit but the headcanon that puffy acts as the server mom to fill the ‘void’ of her missing her mom makes me cry at night /hj
* she really likes her rainbow onesie! i headcanon that eret gave her that along w the sunglasses, but she started wearing that less when she found her old captains uniform. shes never really said why, though, and nobody ever really bothered to ask
* god bless this woman but sometimes the server members get on her nerves sometimes so she goes out of her way to traverse along far away from the main community to maybe commit a few crimes. let off some steam. these take a few days but she always returns
i probably have a lot more hcs but i cant remember them >_> THIS IS A LOT ANYWAY. HOPE U ENJOYED MY BRAIN VOMIT. IF U READ THIS FAR ILU THANK U
if there are mistakes it is bc i am crying and cannot see my keyboard and also i am sleep deprived /hj
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hypocritical people are the worst
i just wanna vent real quick i know this wont make sense to anyone and no ones gonna read or care but oh my god
few months ago ive met A, we got along pretty ok-ish and bc he was interested in another girl and he kept wanting tips how to deal with her jealousy etc. he was even willing to delete me and cut off contact if his girl he was interested in kept insisting on it. (totally fine for me, i have absolutely ZERO feelings towards him and even TOLD him that because he started making weird comments/compliments towards me so i straight up told him "hey, remember, u like that girl and you're intersted in that girl- NOT me. im not intersted in you in that way at all and your comments make me feel uncomfortable. stop that. you're in the friendzone for me" lmfao)
Even though he'd complain that her jealousy is too much and too childish. and that sometimes he'd wish he could "hurt" her the way she has been hurting him with her jealously and controlling behavior.
long story short they kept having an on and off thing and while that was happening and A was busy with his girl ive gotten closer to one of his friends, R. and once we got to know each other more we both just clicked right away and get along very well, laugh a lot, flirt a lot. I want to spend time with R and R wants to spend time with me. At first we'd hang out in groups but lately we're trying to spend time alone together to get even closer.
During that time A was busy with his girl but he'd ask me from time to time if R and I are going out or have something going on. And last week A suddenly came up to me and asked to talk and basically confessed his feelings for me out of fucking nowhere and he was sad and hurt that R and I get along so well and thats why he'd want some alone time (even tho none of us tried to contact him so he had and still has his alone time???) A told me he kept stalking me and my socials to see what i was up to with R. so basically after weeks of silence A confessed he likes me more than a friend and he confessed that he has been stalking me lmfao like hold up you just dump that shit onto me let me handle one thing first??
and i told him that this is too sudden like what about the other girl you were in love with???? i also once again reminded him that i still and never will have those kind of feelings towards him and that ive been open about that from the very beginning as to not led him on
he told me he was hurt because his friend, R, shouldnt have tried to get close to me because they are "bros" and R shouldve known that A likes me but like??? no one suspected anything because you fucfking kept talking about that other girl and kept dreaming about her so like how is that R's fault for not knowing or mine for not suspecting shit like that??? EVERYONE in our friend group knew you liked that other girl because you kept telling everyone exactly that and how you wished it would work out between you both.
now its been a week and he still stalks my socials and right now its 4AM and i was still taking with R but we were about to go and said our goodbyes but suddenly A's stalking ass came up to R and asked him to talk at this fucking time lmfaooo i pretended i didnt notice bc obviously A wants to do this shit behind my back and idk but im so scared and anxious right now because like i said in the beginning A was wishing he could hurt the girl he was interested in at that time somehow and im just scared he will ruin my relationship im building with R too.... or that R will distance himself from me because of A... why else would he suddenly after a week of complete silence go out of his way to search and ask to talk with R at fucking 4AM in the morning after he saw us two together again...
and because i pretended not to notice i cant go up to R and ask him about it now or tomorrow or ever lol but i know its going to be stuck in my head and im overthinking stuff like what if R will keep this to himself and not share it with me tomorrow when we'll hang out again. what if R is gonna pretend he didnt have a talk with A ? im overthinking and being quite dramatic rn but i just rlly rlly like R and i know what kind of person A is, what kind of asshole he is and i just dont want him to ruin my relationships any longer...
also its so hypocritical of A to complain about his girls' controlling, stalking behaviour and her jealousy when he fucking stalks me, wants to control and manipulate my relationships and gets jealous of me even tho we are NOT even together????????
he said he "claimed" me in his head the day we met and that fucking creeped me out and i told him then and there that im not some object he can claim for himself or decide for me and he was like "i know i knowwww but...." and i was like "there is no but. you do not own me. you cant claim me. i am not yours." like how much more open and straight forward do i have to be????????? why cant he just let it be?????? i deleted him on my socials and stuff but he's still stalking and like i said, trying to get close to R again and talk with him about me so there is nothing i can do... fuck why does it have to be 4am lmfao i was about to sleep happily after a nice day spent with R why did i have to notice whats going on behind my back i honestly just want to sleep right now but im too anxious and want it to be morning again so i can maybe???? see?? if i can get answers or if R wants to talk to me about it??? lol i just want to cry whyyyy are we so extra emotional at this hour
#ill cry myself to sleep#i want it o be morning#im hoping r will talk to me about it and be open about A wanting to have a talk with him and not keep it a secret#i want to be able to trust r completely#personal#text#dl#im a crybaby arent i lmfaoooo
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The Summoning
Pairing: dabi x reader x hawks
Word Count: 8.1k
Warnings: NONCON/DUBCON, blood play, dp, sacrificial summoning, mind manipulation, angels/demons/magic, gore, branding
A/N: So this was supposed to be a short little fic.... but thats not how it turned out, but im happy that it came out this way. I think its much better than what I originally had. Uh, please read the warnings because this has some things which could definitely be triggering.
thanks to @lady-bakuhoe, @ikinabi, and @marilla-eldriana for listening to me talk my ass off about it LMAO
other tags: @yaoyorozuwrites, @dee-madwriter
You were beyond upset, tonight wasn’t supposed to be a night where you were heading into a bar on your own, dressed up for a date cut early, and freshly out of a relationship. As you sat down at the end of a rowdy bar, you can’t help the tears flowing out of your eyes. You’ve been holding them in for a while, trying not to break down in public, but sitting here with nothing else to do, you can’t stop the small sobs that break out.
The bartender makes her way towards you, her lips turned down sadly as she starts cleaning up some glasses at the sink near you methodically. Your sobs die down as she starts speaking to you.
“Rough night, sis?”
“Yeah, you could say that again.”
“Need something to drown it out?” you nod as she goes to grab some heavy liquid you can’t recognize. Whatever it is, it smells rank, you think as you lift the shot glass up towards your nose to sniff it. You shoot it back, and shudder at the brief taste you get before you swallow it down, throat burning a bit as you let out a slight cough. She offers another with a gesture and you nod in response, quickly downing the second, and you nurse the third.
Suddenly, a man in a raggedy black overcoat sits down beside you, raising a finger as he asks for some type of sake, and says “One for the crying mess, too.” In a raspy voice. You don’t even feel offended, it’s true, but he didn’t need to say it so harshly right in front of you. Although you wouldn’t say no to the free drink, as you quickly drained the one that you’d bought.
“Thanks,” you mumble to him, the alcohol not really hitting you yet. You wipe the tears from your face. “What’s your name?”
“Dabi.” He answers shortly, grabbing the sake and tipping it back, watching as you do the same. “You’re new here, but drinking like you’re about to be enlisted. What’s up?”
Now normally, you wouldn’t be giving your life story to a random stranger who- quite frankly- looked like he belonged in a prison cell. However, normally you didn’t have four generous shots of heavy liquor coursing through your veins after having just broken up with your last boyfriend of just over a year.
“Stupid asshat of a guy dumps me after over a year of being together for some stupid reason.” You sigh, head in your hands. “I don’t even get why? Like I was so blindsided and I feel like such a fucking idiot.”
“Sounds like a real idiot,” Dabi replies, sliding you another drink which you eagerly accept, drinking it in a rage.
“Like, fuck, I’m just not ready yet! Like, yeah if he was hard, I’d help him deal with it. But I just didn’t feel ready for sex, and he kept trying to force me, and when I get mad at that I’m the bad guy.” You’re starting to get a little dizzy, but at the moment, you’re so upset that you can’t really be bothered by it. You just want to be angry and heartbroken and drunk for a little while. So you don’t really have to face moving out of your shared apartment until later, tomorrow at the earliest.
“Was it a one-off thing? ‘Cause that’s a bit of an overreaction if that’s the case.” You’re so happy to have someone to vent too that you don’t notice the intent expression Dabi has on his face, you miss the way his body leans towards you eagerly waiting for an answer.
“Well, no.” you shift a bit uncomfortable in your seat. “But he said he was fine with it! That he was alright with waiting.”
“Well obviously he was lying. You must’ve been really stingy with sex.” You shouldn’t feel that hurt by a stranger’s words, especially when he has no idea about who you are and what your story was.
“I just didn’t want my first time to be forced onto me.” You mumble, looking into your glass. You were starting to feel the dizziness from the rapidly consumed drinks. “I wasn’t ready for it.” You could feel the tears welling up again, not even bothering to try and stop them.
“Makes sense. So, you’re a virgin then? And your boyfriend wanted to have sex and you didn’t so he broke up with you?” The odd phrasing of the questions didn’t even stand out to you.
“Yes! Except he said it was fine and I believed him!” you wail out, you’re crying hard now into your arms that are lain on the bar top. You feel a hesitant hand patting your shoulder rather awkwardly, but his hand is really warm and you feel a bit better at the soft contact.
“Sounds like a real idiot to me. You want another drink, doll?” he says softly into your ear. His breath tickles your neck a bit and you giggle a bit as you sway on your stool.
“I don’t have the money! Ahaha… I’ve gotta save it now because I have to move out of the stupid apartment.”
“Don’t worry, I have some money to spend. What better way to spend it than on a pretty girl, hmm?” You blush a little at the attention. His blue eyes are intense and you can’t keep eye contact for long with him.
“I mean, if you’d like too, I won’t stop you.” You hum.
“Alright then.” He gestures to the bartender, a dangerous grin on his face. You thought that you’d be spending the night alone, but you’re glad to have been proven wrong.
The two of you nurse some drinks as you talk a bit, most of the talking done by you, the alcohol loosening your mouth as you tell him a lot of your time with your ex, and whatever random thought pops into your head. He doesn’t talk much, but it’s not really off-putting as he usually interjects with sarcastic one liners and small questions, nodding as you continue your stories.
It’s getting later in the night and you’re blissfully drunk, unable to process the shitty feelings and how terrible you feel. Dabi seems to notice this and gets one of those grins he gets when you say how bad you want to fucking deck your ex in the face. It makes your heart beat in excitement.
“You’ll do shots with me, right?” You nod, excited. Dabi orders six drinks, and you feel yourself tense in sudden apprehension. That’s a lot considering that you’d already drank a few… how many was it now? It doesn’t matter, you tell yourself. He seems to notice your hesitance though.
“What? Can’t handle a few shots?” his smile is teasing, but his words are daring you to agree with him, and you bristle in response.
“Of course I can!” part of you is screaming at you, telling you how bad of an idea this is, but its easy to drown out in the haze of your mind.
“Good, you can try to keep up with me then.” He shoots down the first without even warning and you scramble to catch up with him, grabbing the glass sitting in front of you, and tossing the drink back. You’re coughing a bit, the harshness of the shot winning against your already weakened and sensitive throat. Boldly you grab the next and shoot it down as well.
That might’ve been a mistake, because you splutter more, you can barely think, and you feel like you’re choking on the air you’re breathing in. Dabi’s face looks concerned as he asks you if you’re alright. You can only shake your head in response, knowing that you can’t possibly try to talk like this. He sees you swaying and clutching your now stomach as it rolls nauseatingly.
“Don’t worry, this is on me, I thought she was alright with them.” He’s speaking to the bartender, who looks worried and a little suspicious given his appearance, but his voice sounds like its in the end of a long tunnel to you. You accept being pulled into his arms as he leads you outside for some fresh air, he’s produced a bottle of water, and opens it one handed before handing it to you.
You try to thank him but that goes terribly, as you start dry heaving when you open your mouth. He has a sad, but un-surprised look on his face as he takes in your motions. If you were focused enough you probably would’ve said he looked satisfied, but that doesn’t make sense because he has no idea who you are.
Suddenly, everything starts spinning and you vaguely feel Dabi place your arm over his shoulder. You close your eyes, desperate to try and stop yourself from vomiting all over the man who was trying to help you. It’s your main focus as you lean almost all of your weight onto him and drag your feet across the pavement. You don’t know where he’s taking you but you can barely think much less stop him and you continue to keep your eyes closed, not worried at all.
Dabi couldn’t believe his luck meeting you. He’d just finished the final touches on the circle, he was practically all set up except for the link, the sacrifice. Of course, he’d been planning to go into bars to find the perfect person for his ritual, but he didn’t think it would’ve happened so quickly! He’d expected it to take months, and what a relief it was that it hadn’t! He can barely contain his excitement as he keeps your form tight to his body.
You were so naïve, so trusting, latching onto the first person that offered you kindness. Getting drunk on your own in a rather sketchy bar on a Saturday night, what had you been thinking? He knew you’d had a shitty day, but getting drunk at home surely would’ve been the superior option, anyone could see that.
It’s a decent walk to his place unfortunately, he knows that the usual 20-minute walk will likely double with you barely able to stand, much less walk quickly. So, he sighs and reminds himself exactly why this is so important. Why he’s even bothering to ‘save’ your pathetic form.
The runs and sigils are going to look fucking gorgeous carved into your body, he thinks, still dragging you along. You’re almost to the point of unconsciousness, he notices, and it might be easier for him if you were unconscious. At least then he wouldn’t have to be concerned for how he drags you. The pitiful whimpering noises are so annoying to listen to, so he moved slow enough that you could sort of drag yourself and not make those noises.
Dabi keeps running through the steps in his head, the rituals, the incantations, and the carvings…. He knew he was a powerful castor. He could only hope that the practice he’d put in, the training he’d put in and the beautiful and pure sacrifice he’d found would be enough to actually summon Satan.
He knows with the power boost he could finally rid the world of his wretched father. Could finally get rid of him and his stupid fucking followers and coven.
He’d take them all. And he’d win, he knew it.
He’s finally dragged you to his apartment, and at this point you’re barely conscious in his arms. Good, it would make the carvings so much easier with you unable to struggle. Plus, with the fact that the alcohol would cloud your senses so you’d feel less pain and make less noise. He wonders if you’re even going to understand what’s happening to you, if you’re going to cry out in fear and confusion. He can’t even lie, the idea of that makes him feel a warmth down in his core, makes him start to feel hard, god, he bets your screams will sound as pretty as you are.
He has one of the only basement rooms in the apartment, the other two abandoned because of how cold and dirty it is down there, plus there was only cold water that ran down in the basement. However, it was secluded and quiet there, and that’s exactly what Dabi needed in a place. Somewhere where he could lay low while he bides his time, planning and training and waiting. He wasn’t originally a patient person, but he’d learned to be, and it was something that he was proud of.
Luckily, he doesn’t have to explain to any of his upstairs neighbours why he’s dragging you across the lobby to the back set of stairs that only lead down to the concrete hall downstairs. He’s gotten a pretty large space in his basement room, especially with the way he’s completely emptied his living room. The couch is pushed against the wall, table and tv also against the wall leaving a large rug on the floor. The lucky part was that he didn’t ever have a ton of possessions, so it was rather easy for him to make the circle on the floor and cover it with a large goat-skin rug.
He doesn’t have many chairs, only the ones at the small bar behind which his kitchen is located, so he tosses you onto the leather couch on your side in case you were to vomit. He can’t have you dying before he sacrifices you after all. He checks to make sure that you’re really out of it before he goes into his washroom to start cleaning himself and preparing his mind for the layers of spell he’s about to cast.
He’s started clearing his mind as he walks into his room, crystals glistening even in the non-natural light, as he starts to slow his breathing in a rather deep and slow pattern. He feels himself start to go into a state he can only get into when he’s concentrating on magic. All his troubles seem to slip away as he steps into the warm running water. He keeps the sigils he’s going to be needing soon in mind as he washes away all the dirt and grime from the bar, washing away all the petty crime to get prepared for something far, far worse.
When he’s towelled off, he puts on some cotton boxers, and soft grey pants, leaving himself shirtless in the chilling air. He feels the goosebumps start to creep up his arms as he grabs the old iron lighter, the only gift from his mother that he’d manage to take with him when he had to get out with his life after his father had found out what he’d done.
You’re pretty much asleep on the couch when he comes out, and he looks over you, your innocent form, so fucking pleased at the sacrifice he’d managed to snatch. Turning away, he starts to take out some candles that he has stashed in the wooden chest beside his couch, the colours he uses going to be black, purple and red.
After moving the carpet off, he places the candles in groups of three at the points and nodes of the circled star. Afterwards, he grabs the red chalk he has and starts to write the various Latin incantations around the circle. He ignores your soft snores, you seem to be mumbling something in your sleep, as he continues his work. It’s taking a lot more time than he’d like it to.
But soon enough, he thinks, it’ll all be worth it.
You feel yourself lifted into the air, your head spinning even before you even open your eyes. Where are you? What’s happening? You try to open your eyes, but it’s so nauseating and disorienting seeing the dark room spinning around, you’re sure you’ve never been in before. You feel yourself lowered onto the ground, rather roughly. You keep your eyes closed trying to wait out the dizzy spell as you hear the click of a lighter, and you shudder, expecting to feel a sting of burning flames.
But you don’t, and you hear the clicking a few more times. You start to feel a little more stable and you squint, trying to see what’s happening. You try and sit up, but you can’t with your dexterity hindered by the alcohol, and your wrists and ankles bound in ropes. You start to panic slightly, the last thing you can remember is accepting a few drinks from a man, Dabi wasn’t it?
“Oh, you’re up. That’s good, you need to be conscious for this part.” Speak of the devil and there he shall appear. You feel a surge of fear as you turn your head towards the man.
“What did you do? Why am I here?” you stumble, trying to cut through the fog in your head.
“More like what did you do? Who goes out on their own in a sketchy part of town late at night? You were practically begging for something bad to happen to you.” You notice that he’s half naked and you shudder, remembering what you’d told him before and you get a terrible feeling in your gut.
“No I wasn’t! I just wanted the night to not be complete shit!” You desperately search for anything in your reach that you could use to get yourself out of this situation. You can’t even roll away, you notice that there are iron pegs nailed into the ground and you are tied to those. You want to cry, you don’t know what you did to deserve this.
“Well, you should’ve just stayed at home,” you hear a knife being pulled out of a holder, and in the corner of your eye you can see Dabi heating the blade against a large gas flame. It’s a twisted knife, the three sides a blue and black metal with a small skull on the end of the hilt. The metal is glowing red hot at the parts where it had been heated though.
You squirm away from him as much as you can in your restraints when he kneels in front of you with the knife in his hand. “Stop fucking wiggling, It’ll hurt you more because I will nail you to the fucking floor if there’s a chance of me messing these up because of you.” You stop your motions, not wanting whatever’s coming to be made worse. So instead, you start screaming as loud as you can for help, the desperation in your tone evident.
He just throws his head back in mad laughter at that. “Keep on screaming! I haven’t even started the fun bit yet baby! Nobody can hear you down here you know? It’s utterly fucking pointless for you to cry for help. But please go on, it makes me feel soooo good.”
You feel your eyes widen in horror looking at the man’s face. He’s still oddly attractive, the flames giving his face sharper shadows, making him look almost inhuman. You’ve never wanted to disappear from someone’s gaze so badly before.
You shudder as you feel his cold hand push you over and down on your stomach. How are you supposed to get out of there when you’re lying on your stomach with him pressing his weight into you.
You are mid thought when the first lick of iron hot metal is brought onto your back. You cry out in surprise and pain, the knife tugging at your muscles and you can feel the ridges it has. Tears spring to your eyes, but it doesn’t seem to hurt as much as you would’ve thought, it must be all the alcohol still coursing its way through your system.
You can’t focus on the words he’s murmuring as he continues to slice designs with purpose into your back. He laughs whenever you let out a vicious scream and you can’t see his face but you can tell he’s enjoying the process immensely.
“Shirt’s getting in the way of the rest of it sweetheart, guess it’s time to take it off now.” He’s so smug which makes you feel humiliated as you press your head into the ground trying to put yourself together. You whimper as you feel your shirt lifted and hear the fabric tearing.
You’re now shivering half naked on the cold concrete floor and starting to lose your grip on reality as the pain sends you drifting in and out of consciousness. You feel sharp pain as he starts designing up your spine, humming a bit as he goes. Why’d you have to meet a psychopath tonight? Wasn’t your luck just so shitty lately.
You lose track of time as he works, you’re pretty sure that you lose consciousness for most of it, but luckily Dabi doesn’t wake you up for it. However, when you do come to, you notice how badly your throat hurts, you must’ve been screaming a lot for that to happen.
“You ready for the front now? Then we can finally get the real thing started.”
“Please, isn’t there enough? I don’t want anymore stop please! Just let me go.” You try pleading with him, knowing it’s probably not going to work. He doesn’t even deign you with response to your pathetic attempt. Instead he flips you over, your hands now positioned up above your head.
Your limbs feel like lead, and you feel as if all your energy has been draining out of you along with the blood that’s come oozing out of your wounds. You can’t move, you’re stuck and all you can do is look at the man doing this to you and seethe in anger and hatred. His eyes seem to be burning with bright blue flames, but surely that must be you hallucinating? People’s eyes don’t glow.
“Finally,” he breathes out as he leans back and admires his handiwork. He’s looking at you with blown open eyes, erection prominent and you can see the outline through his sweatpants. “Now it’s just to call him while I carve my name into your chest. You’re gonna spell it out for me, got that doll? Or else I can start working on the other bits of skin.”
You just want it over with at this point, you’ll go along with his idea just so you can finally get out. “Fine.” You whisper, resigned to it at this point.
“D.” He must’ve heated up the knife again, because it burns more than it did before and you scream your throat raw as he carves this much deeper that the other markings.
“A!” you screech, hoping it ends soon, at least he has a short name.
“B!” your voice cracks in your agony and your chest is aching.
“I!” you sob, tears streaming down your face again as feel your body go completely limp as you succumb to darkness once again.
Dabi tries to get his breathing in control, looking at your broken and bleeding form. He’s never felt this aroused by someone, and he was right, your screams were like an orchestra playing the most beautiful music he’s ever heard.
But that was a bonus. It was time for the summoning, and so it was time to focus and go through it. He slices his left palm, your blood mixing with his before he lets it spill over, mesmerized by how it drip, drip, drips onto the stained concrete. One last incantation that he has to say, and he hasn’t been this excited since he’d first found out he was a castor, and that he was a pretty powerful one at that.
He waits anxiously in silence, eyes on you as more blood oozes from all the markings, there’s thin linking of red all around the cuts. He wishes that the sacrifice didn’t require a virgin because he desperately wanted to take it from you himself.
Lost in his thoughts, the sudden burst of wind that erupts from the centre of the circle, from under your form blows out all the candles.
“Well, aren’t you an ambitious one. Trying to summon Satan all on your own.” Dabi jerks around at the lilting voice from behind him, somehow, it’s both amused and condescending at the same time, and Dabi bristles at it.
“You aren’t powerful enough to be him, I didn’t summon you.” His teeth are grinding in frustration.
“So rude, and we’ve only just met! Look kid, you don’t have the power or the numbers to summon Satan right now, but I’m the highest-level under-creature you could get.” His eyes seem to glow gold in the darkness, they light up his sharp features.
Dabi lets out a growl with a few curses. “Whatever, that doesn’t matter, I knew it was a long shot. You said you were the highest I could get. How high is that?” His grin is devious as he hears the question.
“I’m Hawks, fallen angel at your service. As for how high I am? I’m in the 5th level range.” Dabi whistles at that. “So, does that mean you’re going to strike a deal with me? I haven’t gotten a serious one in a while. It’s getting seriously boring down there.”
“You should be able to lend me the amount of firepower I’d need for it. What are your terms, and how does the transfer work in your deals?” he grins showing off his fangs a bit as he cages Dabi in a bit despite being shorter, wings making him seem much larger though.
“Here’s the fun part, because I’m a fallen angel, it works a little differently! My powers got corrupted so that sacrifice you have there – oh she’s an actual virgin! – is going to be your ticket to my powers.”
“So, I have to keep her safe?”
He shrugs, “You asked, I’m just telling you friend. Obviously, the price is the same as any other deal.”
“Obviously.”
“So, you’re prepared for that? Hell isn’t as nice as you’d think.”
“No shit Sherlock, but don’t worry, I’ve thought it through a fair bit.” Hawks laughs at that.
“Alright! Since my fall was lust based, the power transfer is too, if you catch my drift.” Hawks says with a raised eyebrow.
“….sort of?”
“Oh my god, are you an idiot?”
“I don’t want to hear that from you, chicken man.” Dabi just wants this over with, he’s getting a little antsy. “Can we get started already?”
“Alright then, time to wake up sleeping beauty over there.”
You feel yourself being blearily shaken awake, and you’re shocked to see a different face than Dabi’s in front of you. He’s gorgeous, and his wings, despite being an eerie dark red, are full and look so soft. Blearily, you try to reach up to try and feel them, forgetting that your hands are tied to the peg on the floor. The man looks at you with pity and amusement.
“Hey there, I’m Hawks, are you ready to become a human magic battery?” he says cheerily, words much at odds with his words and expression.
“What, no, what’s going on? Please there’s a man here – Dabi – and he’s kidnapped me! You have to help me out, call the police, why are you smiling?” You feel the tiny bit of hope that had grown up come crashing down as you observed the – man? Angel? – who called himself Hawks.
“Yeah, my friend Dabi and I have a little arrangement here. You know what I am right? You should know that struggling is useless. Just lay back and enjoy the ride, baby.” His eyes pierce your soul and you find yourself unable to even think of a response to that.
You don’t even completely realize what that means until he starts nuzzling your neck as his hands go towards your tits, starting to play with your pebbled nipples, his hands surprisingly warm.
“No please, I don’t want that…” you say weakly, completely spent already from the ordeal that Dabi had put you through. “I just want to go home!” you’re so delirious from pain and the small bits of pleasure you’re trying to pretend aren’t happening at Hawks’ toying with you.
“Too bad little bird, you don’t really have a say in the matter at the moment.” He bites down on your neck hard, drawing blood which he then licks up. “So, fucking good! Haven’t been able to do this in so long.” He’s grinding into you, the layers of fabric bringing you stimulation and pleasure as you moan, immediately tensing up in embarrassment and shame.
“Don’t be like that, I always make people feel good like this, so just relax.” His eyes are glowing and as you look into them, you feel yourself relaxing a bit. Maybe you should relax, he definitely knows what he’s doing, you can feel the heat building in your core and your hazy mind start to lose focus. His eyes, are just so fucking beautiful, and the way his fingers are moving feel amazing.
He turns his head down, lapping lightly at your breast. His tongue is warm, but the metal stud on his tongue makes you moan out in delight.
“Oh so you do like it!” he exclaims brightly. “Let’s get this started now baby.” Your mind is still screaming at you that this is wrong, that you don’t want this, that you need to struggle and get free. With all the distractions in your mind, its so deliciously easy to fall into a hazy daydream like trance as he licks up the blood from your wounds. His tongue makes it feel so, so good. He switches breasts, tugging on your nipples as you mewl in delight. Once you let go, everything was so much better!
He sucks bruises onto your hips, nipping at them with his sharpened fangs. “Oi, don’t enjoy yourself too much there Dabi, you gotta go a round too after.” You turn to see Dabi stretched out like a cat on his couch, his cock out of his pants as he languidly strokes it. It’s pierced and you find yourself imagining how it would feel scraping your walls.
There was only one thing bothering you, and it was that everywhere Hawks touched grew hotter and hotter, not in an unpleasant way, more in an antsy, wanting to move and run mood. You felt like you were vibrating and you didn’t understand it. But you couldn’t bring yourself to care as your jaw dropped when the angel ripped off your bottoms harshly.
“Let’s see if you taste as good as the other humans I’ve devoured.” He rips the ankle restraints as he tosses your knees over his shoulders and licks a stripe up your pussy. You shudder at the new sensation, biting on your lip to stifle your moan.
He sees that as a challenge and spends his time tasting your juices along his tongue, his eyes seemingly brighter as he works at your pussy, teasing your clit with his tongue stud. He keeps working at you with single minded determination, teasing your hole with his sharp nail and you let out a squeak, which quickly turns into a groan as he slides his finger in. He adds a second as soon as he can, loving hearing the sounds your pussy makes as he scissors you open.
You’ve never felt this good in your life, you can barely tell what’s happening, but you feel waves of pleasure as you feel his tightening in your lower belly.
“You’re getting close, huh?” Hawks brings his face up, eyes lidded as he licks the juices around his mouth. “Do you want to cum?”
“Yes!”
“Well, I don’t know, you were pretty awful to my business partner over there… maybe I shouldn’t let you cum.” He brings his second hand up to his face, lightly scratching at his scruff, and you begin to panic. You have this insatiable need, you don’t know where it came from, but it’s not letting you think at all. There’s this voice yelling at you that it’s Hawks’ fault, but he’s literally an angel. How could he be doing something so disgusting to you?
So you open your mouth, “Please let me cum, I’ll be so good for you sir! I didn’t mean to be awful to him, I just didn’t understand what he was trying to do!”
“That’s fucking right.” There’s a sudden intensity in his eyes that makes you feel like your heart’s stopped. “You didn’t know what you were doing. I’m your guardian angel after all, and I came here because you were going to make a mistake that would put you in danger.”
“Oh my god…” the horror you feel chokes your throat, yet it doesn’t rid you of the incessant need that’s been plaguing you.
“Would your guardian angel ever steer you wrong, Y/N?” he grabs your chin, nails cutting shallowly when he presses.
“No, you wouldn’t!” you shake your head, trying to convey exactly how much you were repenting.
“So, listen carefully little lady. This is important.” He waits for your assent before he continues. “You’re in a very dangerous spot, so I needed a friend here to help you out, he’s going to keep you nice and safe. All you have to do in return is let yourself have some fun, some pleasure in your life. I mean, you’re begging for that exact pleasure right now.”
There’s a little niggling at the back of your head, it’s telling you how good you’ll be treated, you’ll be loved and accepted. You start to shake it off, but you can’t when it tells you that nobody will ever make you feel good like this, who would want too? Here you have two beings ready to make you feel good like you’ve never felt before and you’re denying them?
“Of course, that sounds like a great idea Mr. Hawks.”
“Alright, what a good girl, see Dabi? Isn’t she great?”
“I knew I’d gotten lucky, but I didn’t realize how lucky until now.” The grin on his face is satisfied, but as you look longer, the more you see the pleasure and happiness he feels too.
“Do I get to cum now? You keep saying how good I am…” you don’t remember thinking about saying that, but the words seem to come out on their own accord.
In response Hawks goes back to your neglected pussy and starts thrusting his fingers into a spot inside you that makes you gasp in surprise. With all the swirling emotions and pain and alcohol you feel yourself tighten and let loose quickly, hitting your high in ecstasy. Your back arches, and somewhere in the back of your mind, you notice that your shoulders have definitely been scratched up badly.
But why care when you feel so good now?
Your eyes are closed as you lie there, battered and cut and so blissed out as Hawks removes his pants and looks around.
“You didn’t bring lube?” he directs the question to Dabi.
“You need that? I thought you had like, magic and shit.”
Hawks swallows his annoyance, “I’m in a mortal form dipshit. Channeling divine or corrupt energy is hard to do without fucking blowing myself up.”
Dabi just shrugs. “I mean to be fair; I didn’t know I was getting some angel that got kicked out of heaven for being horny. Or else I definitely would’ve bought some.”
“Whatever,” he mutters. “I like this way better.” You hear the conversation, but can’t be bothered to really understand what they’re saying. All you know is that you feel someone leaning above you.
Hawks takes a feather from his wings, carefully turning it in his hands. “Now, I’m not going to lie, this is going to hurt a bit. But I’ll make you feel so good you won’t even remember it, alright?” You nod along blearily, barely hearing him.
He grins and slices a long line right above your hip, and you barely feel it being so numb. You do feel his fingers pressing into the cut though, and you try to squirm away, but that just makes him slam you down with his other hand in a surprising show of force for his physique. It feels so wrong when you feel him wiggle his fingers a bit inside your skin, and you shut your eyes so you don’t have to see it. Apparently, that amuses Dabi, who starts guffawing off to the side somewhere. The pain brings up all off the fear you’ve been feeling the whole night, and it shocks you. You start screaming, begging to be let go hysterically while you see Hawks, his hand covered in your blood, fisting his length, mixing some of the precum with it.
“I thought you said you were going to behave.” He growls and you feel an intense pressure on your mind for a second before your fear starts to fade away easily. “Much better.” He says to your relaxing form.
“You gotta teach me how to do that,” Dabi comments, which just has Hawks rolling his eyes.
“Shut up and let me enjoy this, I haven’t had sex in so long, warlock.” That elicits a snort from Dabi as he settles back down.
He lines up his cock with your slick entrance, teasing a bit as the blood and your juices mix together and it lets him start to work his way inside of you. You’re panting, fingers scrabbling at everything they can reach as he pushes through. You feel a mix of pain and pleasure as he pushes all the way into you. He surprisingly lets you adjust, breathing heavily as your walls squeeze intensely around the intrusion.
It feels so, so good though and Hawks can tell that’s how you feel as he grins and moves your legs up and around his hips. You whine as he stretches you out more with the new position, and he grunts a bit as he starts thrusting his hips, dragging his sharpened nails down your side without breaking the skin. He puts his head to your neck, pressing open mouth kisses there that make you relax around him, and as soon as he feels that change, he starts pounding into you harder. You hear lewd noises and realize that most of them, are in fact, coming from you. Which is a little jarring of a realization but in your state, you can’t really say it surprised you. It was more of a ‘huh, that’s me then’ moment.
The sound of skin slapping on skin fills the room along with grunts of exertion and moans of pleasure from the pair of you. You can feel yourself building up to that point once again, and you don’t realize it until you’re clamping down on his cock with a shout of pleasure. Hawks groans at the sound, and feels your tight walls somehow clamp down on him harder and starts bucking into you, nails digging into your hips as he chases his own release.
Had you been in any normal state of mind, you might’ve found it disturbing that Hawks seemed to be murmuring a bunch of Latin as he pounded into you. You might’ve noticed the hand he placed on your heart left a searing imprint that turned dark red. You might’ve noticed his pupils contract into slits and his eyes turn a deep red for a few seconds.
But you didn’t.
You felt like you were floating, and figured if this could be compared to anything, it would be a more painful version of a wet, fever dream.
Suddenly, Hawks comes inside you and you feel the warm liquid fill you up as he thrusts a couple more times, working himself through it. He stays inside, but that’s not what takes your focus. The feeling that you were vibrating without moving was back with a vengeance, but you also felt this numbness that started from your core that moved outwards until your entire body was feeling that way. As Hawks pulled out, you felt so empty, you felt like you didn’t know what to do. So, you let your eyes drift shut while you heard some talk about ‘a transfer’ and ‘both it her.’
Suddenly, your wrist bindings were also stripped off and you look up in surprise to see Hawks with that same feather setting you free, while Dabi moved to the bedroom.
“You still going to be good for us, little lady? We’re almost done for tonight.” He coos at you, lightly stroking your chin with his finger. You give him a small nod, and with that, he picks you up as if you were a stuffed toy and you lean into his shoulder as he brings you to the bedroom.
“Right, at least you’re prepared already so we can get into this quickly.” Hawks says brusquely, bringing himself to the bed and setting you down before he sits as well.
“You were enjoying yourself a minute ago, what’s with the sudden rush?” Dabi’s eyebrow is quirked as he puts his hand in your hair and starts scratching your head. You shamelessly sigh in appreciation.
“My times running out, gotta get this transfer done soon or else we’re going to have to start over another day.” Hawks grouches. “Damn I don’t miss all the rules, but having unlimited mortal form time? That’s something I miss about upstairs.”
Turning his attention to you Dabi says, “Here, you enjoyed that guy, so you’ll love sitting on my cock.”
Right now, nothing sounded better, so using the last of your strength, you crawled up to his lap and he guided you right above his dick. He brought you down slowly, ever so slowly, and you felt every inch of his dick inside you, especially those piercings that gave you an amazing sensation.
“There’s a good girl, much better than before,” he gets out.
“Now you’re going to need to relax, alright Y/N? It’s going to feel really tight at first but you’ll feel great afterwards.” Hawks is mumbling this into your neck, playing with your hair a little bit while he does.
“I can do that,” you say, unaware of what he was going to do, but ready to please him.
“Good, Dabi you might have to distract her a little bit, she’s pretty tight for one person, let alone two.” Dabi smirks but leans back, starting to play with your nipples a bit. You never thought you’d like the sensation of someone swirling around them, tugging them at some points, but here you were, enjoying every second of it.
You get so into it, that at first you don’t notice Hawks lining up with your entrance and starting to work his way back into you. Dabi actually does first, shuddering at the contact of Hawks’ dick against his own and gasping a bit.
“Oh Dabi, you were so cocky a minute ago, what’s wrong now?” You hear the teasing from behind as you desperately grip onto Dabi’s shoulders, trying to stay relaxed so it doesn’t hurt as much.
“Fuck off, chicken.” Is his only response which Hawks cackles at as he starts to push further in. You gasp at the painful stretch, tears welling out of your eyes, as Hawks reaches around you to play with your clit to distract you.
“Doing so good, sweetheart, just a little bit more, can you do that for me?” he nips at your ear.
“Yes,” you gasp, the pleasure from his rough finger movements distracting you a bit from all the pain as your breathing gets shallow. “Slow down, please?”
“That’ll just make it worse,” he says. “I’m just going to get it over quickly, alright?” you don’t even have time to agree before he shoves the rest of his way in, screaming out as it happens. You feel so fucking stuffed, and they haven’t even started moving or anything.
Dabi’s losing some of that composure he’d had before, cussing as he tries to steady his breathing, but you feel his cock twitching inside you. You’re losing the strength you have in your arms as you lean forwards onto Dabi’s chest, and you moan as the shift in movement gives you friction on your clit and in your pussy.
Without really knowing what you’re doing, you press kisses onto the side of his neck as you lie there, trying to get used to being this stretched out. It wasn’t going to happen tonight that’s for sure, because you’d barely had anything up there until today.
You feel a grip tighten on your hips as one of them, at this point you have no idea who, starts moving in and out. The other goes the opposite rhythm so that you always feel so completely full you feel like you’re going to burst. The thought comes unbidden into your mind that these two sadists might actually enjoy that. It makes you shiver in fear.
You can’t really remember what happened, but you have specific feelings and recollections of the two fucking into you,
…Dabi hitting your G-Spot over and over again as you see white and cum hard on his cock…
…Hawks leaning over you to grab Dabi into a rather passionate kiss as he got you to play with the raven-haired man’s pierced nipples…
…Your ass getting spanked so you clench down on them and Dabi comes, but stays inside until he gets hard again…
…getting toyed with in every possible way, bites and bruises marking your skin so much that you feel light headed from blood-loss…
�� …you remember clawing at Dabi’s back which has him screaming in pleasure…
…Dabi’s eyes glowing blue, as if he’d had flames trapped inside them and they were ready to come out…
…pleased laughter and an uptick in pace…
…then nothing…
Dabi lays back, breathing heavily as your form is slumped on his chest. He wasn’t surprised you’d completely passed out a little way into your second round. If anything, he was surprised you’d managed to last that long. He was wiped after one, but that was mainly because he was trying to keep up with Hawks, who had the fucking endurance of something otherworldly.
Which made sense given he was a magical being.
Still it peeved Dabi to no end as Hawks slid out of you looking completely untouched as he did so. The only thing that was out of place was his hair, messed from Dabi grabbing it, which he hadn’t remembered starting but it was sometime when he was making out with Hawks… which he hadn’t expected… but he wasn’t complaining.
Although no matter how drained Dabi felt physically, magically? He felt so fucking ready to take on anything that could happen in the future. He could feel it pulsing around his body, in his fingertips and temples, and it felt amazing. He understood why so many people went with summoning darker entities for power transfers now, much easier and much more potent.
“So, I have to be here in person to do my whole mind-manipulation thing, so you should think about how to keep her safe for now. She’s tied to you because of the transfer so like, if she were to die for example…. You’d definitely die too.” Hawks says with a cheery smile.
“You didn’t think to mention that before?” he gets a shrug in response.
“You didn’t ask. Oh and, for every time you need a power boost, just take care of her and let her enjoy the sex, it’ll ah – flow easier if you catch my drift.”
“Thanks oh angel of a good dickening… what would I ever do without you?”
“No seriously, the more your conduit enjoys the sex, the more you get out of it.” he looks unamused.
“Oh. Ah, well that’s good to know.” Dabi has to start planning out his next moves then, keeping you healthy and happy was going to be a tough job.
“I did make the suggestion to her that I was her guardian angel and you were helping her out, try to play up that angle, it’ll call up some of the residual magic in her mind and make her… more pliant.” Hawks starts putting on his clothes once again.
“Uh, thanks. Is she just a constant source of your power then?” That’s the only part Dabi was still confused about.
“No, I’ll be back when I feel the energy start to dwindle. I need you to do all the terrible things I know you have planned. Your soul will be fucking delicious then. Any who, see you later Dabi! It was an absolute pleasure doing business with you.”
He vanishes like he came, suddenly disappearing with a gust of air hitting Dabi in the face. Dabi looks down on you, still on his cock as he desperately tries to think about what he was going to do to keep you in here and how he’d keep you safe trying to hunt down another coven.
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You're my sun, my moon, and all my stars.
Tw: self h*rm, depression, angst.
GN!Reader x Hawks angst
A vent fic I wrote because I needed to do something to cope healthily. I might write a short second ending, but idk. I didn't beta read this, but I'll polish it tomorrow and post it to my AO3 as well. Much love.
BNHA writing blog @hawksmodelofficial
The room was dark except for the faint light shining from your phone's screen. It was some what quiet due to the sound of your fan whirring, keeping your room cool. All this was part of your typical nightly routine and wouldn't be concerning except for the fact that you felt suffocated. Again.
You're sitting on your bed, the air blasting you giving you one of the only physical sensations you can feel in this state. Staring ahead into the black room, you sit and listen to all the horrid thoughts running through your head.
You feel numb and would give anything to feel something other than this suffocating emptiness. You tried your usual coping mechanisms: watching videos that usually make you laugh, listening to your comfort bands, distracting yourself with any sort of pastime.
None of it is working though. None of it has been working for a while now. This numbness, emptiness, hollow feeling consuming your body grows every day. Some days you can manage to push past it, jump over the hurdles and clear the finish line. Not today.
The last option you can think of before doing something harmful is to reach out to someone. You've been isolating yourself, but you desperately want their help at the same time.
Looking at the phone resting in your hands, you pull up Keigo's contact. It had been a couple days since the last time you two talked. He's the #2 pro hero, so he's constantly busy, but always tries to make time for you.
Y/n: are you awake
You sent the message and watched it deliver. You only ask because it's currently 3:26am and most people are asleep at this time. He responds a minute later.
Dodo Brain: what's up?
You're staring at his message. On one hand you're relieved Keigo's awake but on the other, you can already feel the guilt eating away at you for bothering him.
Y/n: i need help
Y/n: i hurt
You typed out the messages with shaky hands. Your chest tightens and you feel sick. You hate asking for help. Why should you make other people suffer because you can't help yourself?
Dodo Brain: are you ok, kid? what's wrong are you hurt???
Looking at the clock, it really hits just how tired he must be and how much you're intruding on his personal time. You decide to call off your cry for help before you make it any worse for him.
Y/n: ah yeah nvm dont worry about it sorry to wake you
You toss your phone onto your pillow. Once again, you're sabotaging yourself but you don't care anymore. Getting up from your bed, you head to the bathroom to get bandages, and tissues. While doing this, you fail to notice your text notifications going off.
Dodo Brain: kid what are you talkin about
Dodo Brain: why arent you answering
Dodo Brain: please answer me you're making me worried
Dodo Brain: im heading over now
Once you have your supplies to clean up, you head back into your room and sit back on your bed. You grabbed your hidden blade on the way and now just contemplate your actions.
Craving to feel something, anything, even if its pain and regret, you'll take it. You chose where you want to cut and begin, pulling a long line across your skin. You hiss at the immediate sting. Blood already begins to bead.
You continue to do this, almost in a daze yet you feel tears suddenly well from your eyes and fall. It hurts. Not just what you're doing, but what lead you to this point.
Unbeknownst to you, Keigo immediately flew to your residence. He grabbed the spare key you gave him and unlock the front door. Its eerily quite except for the faint sobs he can hear as he navigates the dark residence.
After you were satisfied with your work, you just sit there letting the blood drip down your skin. You'll have to do laundry but that's the least of your worries. You lean your head back against the wall and cry. Soft whispers of "I'm sorry..." leave your lips.
Keigo finds your room, using your quite cries and soft words to navigate. He flips on the lights and gasps at the scene in front of him. You jolt your head forward, eyes wide and you scramble to hide yourself. Unfortunately that only makes you wince in pain and open the wounds further.
"We need to get you cleaned up. Dont move okay? You already have bandages so let me do the work." Keigo's words dont really reach you but you sit there anyway.
He moves towards you with conviction but the energy around him is scared, nervous even. Sure he's seen your old scars before but never this. He grabs the bandages and antiseptic, applying them to all the wounds.
Every now and then you wince, and he immediately spills apologies. Your head is hanging low, you can't bear to make eye contact with him. Once Keigo finishes cleaning you up, there is an awkward silence.
"I'm sorry..." is all you can croak out before your sobbing into your hands. Embarrassment floods your head. Regret. Resent. Why did he have to come? Why did he have to see this?
"Fuck, kid. Please don't apologize. You didn't answer my texts and I figured something was wrong. I just wish I got here sooner." You can hear the pain in his usually cheery voice.
"I didn't know what to do anymore! I'm sick of feeling like this! Im sick of hurting so much that I have to hurt myself to distract from everything else. It's not fucking fair..."
Keigo stands in front of you assessing the situation. He reaches out to touch you but you shrink away from him. "Please leave, Kei...please...I'm tired."
"So am I, y/n but if you think I'm leaving you alone like this, I'm pretty sure you're the dodo brain out of the two of us." You smile ever so slightly. Its broken and he can tell.
"Let's get some clean sheets on the bed first, ok? Then we're going to sleep and I'm not leaving you alone. Not when you're hurting like this. Can you move?" You shake your head no. Not only do you hurt, exhaustion set in.
"I'm gonna pick you up alright, kid?" You nod and that's all he needs. Gently, he wraps his arms around your frame and pulling you into his chest. Red feathers move throughout your room, pulling the bloodied sheets off and tossing them into your hamper.
"I'm gonna set you down so I can grab the spares. Promise me, you'll be okay until I get back."
"Kei, you're just going down the hall."
"Y/n." His voice is stern but still soft at the same time. "Look at me." You gaze up at him and see the broken expression on his face. You never noticed the pain he probably feels right now.
"Pinky promise you'll be okay for a couple minutes." He holds out his hand, sticking his pinky out for you to reciprocate. You slowly do the same and cross fingers. "I'll be right back."
He leaves your room and you can hear him grabbing stuff from the closet with spare bedding. You sit with your head hanging down, eyes closed, thinking of everything. Keigo comes back with am armful of bedding and you shakily stand so he can change the sheets completely.
"Let's go to bed, okay?. I'm taking tomorrow off and I'm staying with you until we figure this out.
"You dont need to do that. I'll be fine, really. I dont want to burden you..." You can feel the tears well up again and you begin to shake. "Y/n, please. I can't bear to see you like this. You're the sun I see in the sky when I fly and the moon when I rest at night."
You look at him with disbelief. "Let's go to bed and talk more in the morning okay?" You nod and he moves you to bed, pulling you close but still aware of where you're hurt. His wings come around on top of you, almost like he's shielding you.
Your eyes slowly dip close as he rubs circles on your hand with his thumb.
#kyle talks#kyle writes#bnha#takami keigo#keigo takami#bnha hawks#mha#boku no hero academia#boku no hero fanfic#bnha reader insert#reader x hawks#hawks#hawks x reader#self harm#depression
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Hello again :)
Heres a second part of my fanfic, as i said in previous post that i will add one or two. I know the begining might be a bit long and boring, but i decided my other two favorite Duskwood characters deserve some love ,too. :)
Thanks to all who took their time to read it!
CALL OF THE RAVEN
PART 2
Next thing I remember was waking up in a hospital. The bright light from the window made me squint my eyes, and my head throbbed as hell. „Arghh, too bright.“ I mumbled, as a cheerfull voice next to me responded „Well finaly, I was begining to worry you would never wake up! You know, you're taking those beautysleep advices too seriously.“ My eyes ajusted to the light, and I was looking at that cheerful, loving face, the face I knew oh so well. „Hmm, considering all, an extra hour or so of beautysleep is so allowed for me.“ I said, my voice hoarse a bit. She snorted „Make that 'an extra day or so'! You slept for almost three days!“ she said, walkig towards my bed and hugging me carefully. It felt good, just knowing she was there. She pulled away from me, her face serious. “What wer you thinking?“ „ I'm sorry Jessy, so, so sorry.“ I said, tears swelling behind my eyes. „ I know what I did was stupid, but belive me, I really tought I was doing the right thing.“ „The 'right thing' almost got you killed Maya!“ she yelled at me, wich made me realize just how much she was worried about me. I burried my face in my hands, tears falling down „Please Jessy, dont be mad at me, I feel awfull as it is already. I realize my actions wer wrong, but I cant undo any of it now. And God knows im more then happy to be alive, and Hannah too! And I know my „sorry“ might not be enough this time, but I reall am sorry Jessy, you cant imagine how much. But please, please, you have to forgive me, I couldnt stand if I loose you!“ I couldnt force myself to look at her, I was so scared she would just get up and leave. And who could blame her, really, after all I did, she would have every right to do so. Suddenly, my hands wer slowely being moved from my face, and i opened my eyes to see hers holding mine. I lifted my head, and our eyes met. Hers wer now also full of tears. She hugged me so fiercly, and even if everything still hurted me like hell, I was so reliefed and hugged her back tightly as I could. „Ofcourse I forgive you, Maya. I was so damn worried and scared that I will loose you!“ I was releifed to hear her say it, I hugged her even tighter, saying through my tears „I'm sorry Jessy.“ She held me like that for a while, and then pulled slowly back. „I'm glad you're ok Maya.“ She said, smile coming back to that pretty face. „Look at us! Bawling here like little kids.“ That made me chuckle, and i said whiping my tears „Huh, I never tought our fist time meeting would be with me in the hospital. But, hey, im not picky, i'm just glad I finaly had a chance to hug you.“ „I dont think anyone imagined this to be the place of your first meeting us. You do realize others will want to come and see you? Dan already wanted to come with me, he was mumbling something about how he owes you a whiskey. But i gave him such a stern look, he just kissed me goodby and said to say 'hi' from him and ran away from me.“ The tought of Dan being scared of Jessy made me laugh so hard, i got a little dizzy from the pain. Jessy noticed me vincing, quickly saying „But that can wait, you need to rest more first. It's not like you're going anywhere anytime soon!“ She looked at me all serious, and i understood why Dan acted like he did. „Dont worry, Jessy, I wont try to break out of hospital.“ I said with a grin on my face. „A bit of r'n'r is definatly what I need now.“ „Good! And since i'm clearly your favorite person from our little clique, you wont get rid of me that easy while in here.“ She said cheerfully. „Thanks, Jessy. I mean it, Im really glad you're here with me.“ „Me too, Maya, me too.“ She stayed with me that whole afternoon, and I was happy about it. We talked about everything we could think of: how we gonna take that walk arround Duskwood together, having coffee at the Rainbow caffee, going to Aurora for drinks. Jessy was so full of life, and managed to stay so positive through all of this mess. She told me that police gave her my stuff and my phone, and will bring me what i need. It wasnt so important, but i could really use my phone. It was like Jessy could read my mind, and she looked at me with simpathy „Did Jake contacted you?“ There was a knot in my stomack when she asked, because I knew I wasnt out in the clear with what I did with everyone just jet. „I dont know, Jessy, I guess i'll find out when I get my phone. But im sure Lily told him all about it by now, and to be honest, it's the one conversation i'm scared of having at the moment.“ „I'm sure it will be fine.“ „I really hope so, Jessy. I really care so much for him. I dont know for sure what he feels, and it doesnt really matter, I just cant stand the tought of him being mad at me. Or not talking to me anymore...I got so used of having him arround, even just virtualy..i dont know Jessy, i cant explain it... i just need him in my life. Does this make any sense to you?“ She looked at me, with care and a hint of worry showing on her face „Yes Maya, it makes perfect sense.“ We talked for a while more. She looked at the clok on the wall and jumped „Oh, yay I gotta go, forgot Im meeting Dan! He made me promise to meet later, since I didnt let him come with me here.“ „Heh, better go then, I dont want Dan blaming me AGAIN for getting stud up by you. Or he might not buy me that whiskey he promised, an to be honest I could really use it now.“ I sad smiling at her. „Ohh no, you two are gonna be a pain in the butt when you meet, arent you?“ she groaned, but a smile was written all over her face. „Dont worry, i'll behave..as much as possible. As for Dan, im sure if you join us and give him some of your 'scarry' looks, he'll behave too.“ She bursted out laughing. „Oh, cant wait for it! I'll go grab your phone real quick, and then im off.“ She ran for the door, stoped, turned arround giving me one more of her beautiful smiles „I'm really glad you're ok Maya.“ I smiled back,“ Me too Jessy, me too.“ She came back with my phone, plugged it to charge next to my bed hugging me quickly before leaving.
It was almost dark outside, and the room was so quiet since Jessy left. There wasnt much comotion in the hospital, and I appriciated it actualy, some peace after all the mess was a nice change. I stared at the window for a while, just enjoyeing the sceene of the sun setting down, the sky taking that purpleish-blue color. I was actually delaying the moment of turning my phone on, because I was scared. A the same time I hoped Jake would contact me, but then I was also scared of talking to him. Its been three days since the incident, and im sure Jake found out everything by now, so maybe he vented some of the anger off in the mean time. Ah, c'mon Maya, dont be a sissy! – i tought to myself – You stared death in the face, and showed it the middle finger, and you're scared of that thing? I took a deep breath, took my phone from the stand, and turned it on. It felt like forever for it to turn when i punched my code, and when it finaly did, i left it aside. The beeping of new messages, missed calls, new emails and all was the only sound spreading through the room. And with every beep my stomach reacted a bit, thinking if any of those beeps belongs to Jakes. I got so lost in my toughts, that a voice snaped me back, startling me a bit. A nurse smiled „Sorry hun, i didnt want to fright you. Just came to chek up on you, ask if you need anyhting and to give you some pain meds.“ She winked at me „It's the good stuff, will help you sleep better.“ „Thank you, mam, im good.“ I smiled back at her, and quickly glanced at my phone - 44 missed calls, 24 messages, 17 emails. That will be some time killing stuff. The nurse was done, she waved at me wishing me good night, saying to feel free calling her if I needed anything. I thanked her again as she left the room. I took my phone, my hand shakeing. I checked 'missed calls' first, and tho i didnt expect it, was a bit dissapointed Jake wasnt among one of them. I opened the messages, and Jessy's message was on top. „Sending you hugs&kisses!“ it was written under the picture of her and Dan, grining with their glasses raised. It made me smile, and i texted her back „Hehe, Dan must be happy you actualy came this time! xD Have fun you two, cant wait to join you. Hugs&kisses“ I checked other messages, and my hearth squeezed a bit when i saw he didnt texted either. I didnt feel like replaying to any at the moment, settling the phone back on the stand. I switched off the light above the bed, turned on the side, staring at now complete darkness throught the window. One tear rolled down my cheek as i closed my eyes, hoping sleep will come soon.
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Hiya love!! CONGRATULATIONS ON ALL YOUR FOLLWERS BBYYYY!! 🥳🥳🥳 IM SO PROUD OF YOU!! I HAVENT BEEN FOLLOWING YOU FOR THAT LONG BUT I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU GROW. You deserve it all and more.
If it's still open, is it okay if I get a kinnie coldbrew please? And thank you in advance.
I'm really introverted and hate social interactions and meeting new people, even online
And I hate going outside in public
I just dont know how to make friends or even talk to people without panicking
I see the people around me having online friends and I'm sat there like how??? I just about have irl friends
It takes me a long long time to get used to people and even start thinking about opening up to them
All of my friends are people I've knows for a good 6/7 years, I hate being introduced to new people
I hate havinh big groups of friends as well
Usually whenever my friends go out I tend to avoid it, but when I do I'm usually at the back walking by myself
I just withdraw myself when in big groups and just become invisible
But in small groups of like 3 people or just me with someone else I thrive
My friends think they know me really well, but it's one of them ones where I mask my true emotions and feelings with waffle
It's not that I dont trust them, I just dont want to share my feelings with anyone or talk about myself, usually I just make jokes
I grew up in an environment where I was taught not to cry and not to be emotional, and my mother was very insistent on that, and it just became natural to me. I cant even remember the last time I cried, it was definitely a good 2/3 years ago
I have a lot of patience when it comes to anger, like I dont let it out, sometimes I get really really angry at the littlest things people do, but then it dies down in like 3 seconds. I dont know how to explain it, but it's like a hot flash and then it goes, other times it builds slowly and I just let it fester
But I hate confrontation
Absolutely hate it
I would never actually do anything with the anger or hurt I feel, i just let it sit inside of me and hold it in
People do come to me for advice and help, I wont sugarcoat anything, I'll tell you the honest (and sometimes harsh) truth and then help you get overcome your problem as well
Because of that I can sometimes come across as harsh because i wont bullshit you or beat around the bush if you need me to talk to you like that
I do the absolute most for my friends, I'd drop anything for them if they need help and I often find myself putting their happiness before my own, and lowkey (highkey) it hurts when I dont receive the same energy back, but it's ok we move
I'm usually the one doing all the work in a group presentation, mainly because no one else is bothered to do it, so I just do it all
I do all the work, they present
I dont know how to show the people around me that I love them, even though I really really do
I hate it when people touch me or try to give me hugs and I avoid them
But secretly I yearn for them and I just want someone to cuddle me
But I'm not used to physical affection at all and it really embarrasses me
It's a bit of a sticky one ngl
For me, it's so important to be polite and open minded
I think that's why people come to me for advice and shit, because I suck at comforting people, but I wont judge you at all also because I'm quite approachable as well
Unless you're a trump supporter, then I will roast the living shit out of you
I'm really into literature and reading, whether it be classics, manga, graphic novels, or just normal fiction
I just love reading
And doing anything creative tbh
I read percy jackson when I was young and it basically formed my entire personality
That's where my love for mythology started and over the years its become more refined and I just love it even more
I like to think I'm a nice person
I always try and make people smile and laugh and know that they're loved and acknowledged by me
In stressful situations I find myself being really calm
To the point it looks like I dont care
And I'll tell you that I dont care as well
But on the inside I'm panicking and its eating me up on the inside
I either do one of two things and they're both polar opposites
I either try and resolve it as soon as possible or I ignore it for as long as I can and leave it for future me to handle
It's not very healthy but I'm still here so, I guess it's fine
I dont find myself getting stressed FOR myself that often, if you get what I'm saying
Usually when i feel emotions it's for other people??? Like I'd be stressed for someone else, sad for someone else and angry for someone else, but I'd never really feel something for myself
Yeahh I usually stay calm and nonchalant though
Ahhhh, this is soo longgg, I'm so sorry about that, I just started venting halfway through and forgot that this was an ask. I'm so sorry and I hope you dont mind. Thank you so so much though, I appreciate it a lot. Make sure you're taking regular breaks and drinking lots and lots of water, make sure you're taking care of yourself. Thank you so much xxx 🥰🥰
THANK YOU THANK YOU ❤️
@tsukkispoundlandheadphones
You are a...
Sakusa Kinnie
Similarities
Alright stating the obvious
YOU BOTH HATE PEOPLE TOUCHING YOU
Although it might be for different reasons
That doesn’t change the fact that you both low key hate people
You both hate social interactions
Whether it be online or in person
Being social is just a no go for you two
Your only friends are people who you’ve known for a long time
Cmon
Sakusa’s friend is LITERALLY his cousin
Like FAMILY
You both are very slow to anger
Cant relate
Like when have we EVER seen sakusa get mad at someone
Disgusted with someone sure
But MAD I don’t think so
Blunt bitches
You both are blunt af
You both just tell it as it is
I mean someone has to do it
Ok this is hard to explain cause there’s no evidence behind it...
But he responds to stressful situations JUST like you
Don’t question it to much
It’s just true
Assumptions I Have About You
I’m sorry but your hot
No buts about it
Speaking of
Here 👐 takes some self confidence
You deserve it I promise
LonerTM
How’s being a homebody?
You let people take the lead in most situations
EVEN THOUGH YOU HAVE THE CAPABILITY TO BE A LEADER
Rbf?
Ok we know you don’t like people touching you
But you absolutely HATE strangers touching you
You either genuinely enjoy cleaning
Or you stress clean
Ilysm never change the world needs more sakusas ❤️
200 Follower Event
#haikyuu!!#haikyuu fandom#haikyuu hcs#haikyuu headcanons#sakusa#sakusa kiyoomi#sakusa kin#sakusa kinnie#sakusa Hc#sakusa headcanons
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𝙪𝙣𝙨𝙥𝙤𝙠𝙚𝙣 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙙𝙨
summary // you found your pile of ‘letters’ to hyunjin that contain thoughts that have never been said and decided to write to him one last time.
pairing(s) // hyunjin x gn!reader, hyunjin x oc, slight minho x reader
genre(s) // angst, letter fic
warning(s) // mentions of food, themes of being forgotten, vulgar wording, humiliation, overthinking
word count // 2.0k
author's note // happy birthday @noya-sannnn !! im sorry this was so late hhh you know how i am irl,, but i hope you enjoy this! i love you so much, jane <3 i apologize for the many grammar mistakes gn. i recommend listening to iu’s ending scene while reading this! btw y/n/n means your nickname.
[10/01/14, 3:55am]
dear jinnie,
hi there! it's y/n <3 i hope you're doing okay - i mean of course you are pfft anyways, just writing this short letter (more like paragraph) sort of as a venting mechanism? for things i cant tell you about lol im not so sure how you would call it, since you're so much better at words than i am. basically were like:
hyunjin: ow a brain freeze!
me: haha brain go brrrr
anyways haha yea <3 it's 4am so like,, ill see you at school!
signed,
your loser,
y/n/n
[15/02/14, 12:34am]
yo heartthrob!
im back with this kinda stuff haha it's been a whole? week? since ive written one of these so like yes..hi! i just wanted to say thanks, for today. you really know how to cheer me up huh? you really outdid yourself by setting up that little picnic for us. congrats on making the strawberry cake so perfectly <3 this day will always stay as a core memory in the back of my brain. you're too caring sometimes,,, istg you'll pay for this [maybe hugs?] >:)
signed,
your partner in crime,
y/n/n
[30/02/15, 01:29am]
jinnie-senpai~~
LMAO you hate me calling you that, doesn't change a thing though. hehe,, nways i hope you enjoyed your birthday present :) i got you that really cool skateboard that you wanted. i worked my ass off for that in my mother's garden so like,, you gotta thank me for that a thousand times :D nah jk, its a sincere gift, from me to you. i rarely do this for ANYONE so consider yourself lucky to have a best friend like me -3- also, seungmin is like….kinda the cutest person ever. introduce me to him pls, thank!
signed,
<your bestest friend3,
y/n
(p.s. you're kinda cute too,,,, ig,,, still stinkee tho)
[13/04/15, 9:04pm]
hey 'baby' (HAHAHA ihy for this)
i hope your day was okay! i didn't see much of you today (which was sort of a bummer but wtv) so like…. uh yea. you told me you were doing okay over text, which kinda surprised me because like?? we always video call lol this is kinda the first time,, but its okay, i trust you! (i really hope youre doing alright tho, i'll beat anyone up if they make you sad >:( ) you also called me 'sweetheart' today which was like…. omg wtf haha????????? that was so weird to me for some reason… a good kind of weird :D we haven't done those kinds of nicknames in a while so…. happy to know that they're back in session <3 i talked to the new girl today, she's really cool! like she knows the bean song on tiktok so like its a total win heh, ill introduce you to her tomorrow! you'll love her a lot
signed,
your 'lover',
y/n/n
[08/06/16, 10:23pm]
hey howl (hehe go back to that movie night we had)
this spring break sucks so much,, esp because youre not here (you still couldve brought me along :'[ ) but wtv i hope youre enjoying yourself. ive been hanging out with yeonnie lately and i found out she likes conan grey too like pls i love her sm. can we adopt her?? please???? she told me you guys have been video calling too and that makes me so happy!! you two are getting along so well aaa my precious babies </3
what if you developed a crush on her? haha…..jk unless?? (no jk dont shes all mine, stay away >:) ) anyways, i hope the three of us hang out soon. maybe go to that ice cream parlour where they serve the best cookies and cream?
signed,
your daisy,
y/n/n
[19/07/15, 01:23am]
peepee poopoo hello
heyheyhey!! (heh, haikyuu thingz) i hope youre doing okay! i mean sure you are, with everything going so well. also i feel like you're not telling me something. maybe it's just me? is it? i hope it is because you tell me everything,, we've been talking less these days but its okay! i know how busy you are, especially with your dad always bugging you,,
also, i think yeonbin likes you :0,, she keeps talking about you whenever we hang out. don't get me wrong, its not bad that she likes you but...something doesn't feel right. i feel like i'm being the third wheeler here and like ugh idk. haha laughs yea i think its just me.. im sorry, i didnt mean to do you like this,, anyways, ill see you soon + her too ofc- yall are inseparable lmao
signed,
your moonlight,
y/n/n
[23/07/15, 01:56am]
greetings, kind sir
lol more like mean sir but like aight KSKSK,, anyways,, how have you been? we haven't really talked in a while,, our convos are always so short with it being one-sided :/ i wish you were online more. yeonnie is ignoring me,, do you know why? i think you do,,, but when i asked you just said you didnt know. did i do something wrong? pls tell me..
she blocked my contact the other day and she won't even smile at me when i pass her in the hallways. its,, sad and stressful especially because she was the only one that would genuinely talk to me. i hate to say this,, but i miss you. us, hanging out like the best trio we are, yknow? but i dont think you miss me the same way. sorry, im getting out of hand. i know im just overreacting. im just gonna sleep ig,, good night! sweet dreams,,
signed,
your pink lemonade,
y/n/n
[25/07/15, 03:25am]
hi there
i heard you and her got together?? congrats, jinnie! im so proud of you,, especially because you never had even considered getting a girlfriend a few months earlier lmaO you really woo the ladies huh? anyways,, i hope you've been well since we last talked,, how many days has it been?? i would say nearly a week or so but honestly it feels like a hundred years,, considering you and i used to talk every day. but you have her now to keep you company.
keep this a secret but can you possibly tell me why it hurts when i see her? or when i mention her or even think of her?? is it because she's connected to you? but.. you're my best friend, so why? is it because i miss you? is it because im alone now? is it because you left me with a simple 'i have to go now,, bye y/n/n.'? im not sure either. im being silly, i apologize. ill figure it out sooner or later. sweet dreams, jinnie
signed,
your asswipe,
y/n
[25/07/15, 04:30am]
jinnie
it's because i love you.
signed,
your butterfly,
y/n
[??/08/??, 05:??am]
you
i miss your lame jokes. i miss your smile. i miss your laughs. i miss your funny faces. i miss the way your eyes twinkle. i miss th way you would make me happy just by doing the bare minimum. i miss the disaster you made when cooking breakfast. i miss the night when you snuck me out just to go to that pretty lantern event. i miss when you would call out my name everytime we met. i miss when we would share earbuds in train rides. dont you get it, hyunjin? i miss you.
[??/??/15, ??:??am]
asshole.
please tell me that isn't true, please. you're too kind to do these kinds of things, right? + i was your best friend,, then, why, why did you hurt me like this. i didnt do anything wrong.. you couldve just told me you didnt like me,,, why did she have to tell me? out of all people.
youre so pathetic for this,, i thought you were brave, bold - but youre just a fucking coward. i loved you, i really did. and i realised too late… im sorry. she,, i shouldn't have talked to her in the first place, right? i bet you knew she humiliated me, in front of everyone. of course you did, you were the only one that knew. you told her. fuck, i hate you so much (yet why do i long for you on a night like this?). you know how much that'll affect me and yet, there you are, laughing about it with her.
signed,
fuck off,
you know who i am.
[31/08/15, 03:41am]
ah, jinnie
please tell me this is just a nightmare. please, please. stop just reading my texts, please answer them. jinnie. i miss you so much. i dont care bout her, please just let me be in your arms. i dont care if you love me back, please just talk to me at least. tell me what i did wrong,, jinnie,, please,,, clear these tear stains on my cheek with kisses.
signed,
your fuck-up,
y/n
[15/09/15, 04:59am]
jinnie
why do i keep crying because of you? its been a few weeks since everything has happened. please, nothing has changed. i still love you the same even with all the hatred i have pent up in this stupid brain of mine. i wish i could just walk back in time, to where it all began.
when i first met you in third grade and you pushed me while playing soccer or maybe when we took those ridiculous prom pictures, remember those? i hope you still have them,, because i do too. i hope the pictures of us on your wall still hang there,, it'll remind you of the happy times. hm,, maybe you don't need them.
you already have millions of pictures with you and her,, i bet you printed some and replaced those with ours right? sly dog.
signed,
friend,
y/n/n
[04/02/16, 12:57am]
hey
i went to the park today and saw both of you being happy. it's nice to see your smile again. im sorry i didnt go up to you,, i just thought it would be awkward. when i heard that adorable laugh of yours, it made me realise that i lost something special. but it's okay isnt it? as your happiness matters more than mine.
signed,
y/n
[06/01/20, 08:00pm]
dear hyunjin,
im doing fine here. how about you? gosh,, how long has it been? years? since we last talked to each other. i havent heard from you since. i would just like to say i still think of you sometimes, when watering the plants or dancing while making pancakes. sometimes i think you're here with me too, just being the pals we were.
sometimes i'd see you out, just reading a book in the park or buying pasta sauce at the grocery store. it's nice to see you having a stable life. im not sure if you're still with her or not, but its good to know that you still have that large friend group. also! you're never gonna guess who im dating--
it's minho! do you remember him? the one that i used to hate,, uh yeah. he asked me out the other day- you may wonder how tf,,, i too do not know how tf but he gives the best hugs ever. he gave me the love i wanted from you. he stitched my heart back together after it broke,, i love him so much, jinnie..
it's snowing,, do you remember when we would skate on the frozen lake in front of your house? are your parents well? i wonder if your mother still has those earrings i bought for her birthday. i never told you this but your laugh and hers sound so similar.
i would just like to say thank you, for everything. you were a big part of my life, up until now. when we see each other after this, we would just be strangers. maybe flash a little smile or give a little wave whenever we greet each other but nothing more. some memories of us would flow in every now and then but it'll just be a short teaser. well, i'll be going now. smile for me, okay?
signed,
the one that loved you the most,
y/n.
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LWA rewatch episode 21
No lie I was very excited for this one. Probably my favorite episode
· YALL
· YAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLL
· IM SO READY
· GIVE ME MAMA BEAR CHARIOT
· Lol Andrew asking if Frank has a way to get in touch with Luna Nova
· I wonder if it’s because Frank and Lotte are friends? Andrew probably deduced that Frank had a way to talk to her
· Oh and here’s Frank dropping his knowledge about witches, probably learned from Lotte
· Okay so this whole thing with the anger over whether or not a goal counted, considering how passionate people are about sports this is honestly very realistic
· OMG lmao when Frank is showing Andrew the anger over the game on his phone, one of the tweets says “piece of shit game, piece of shit referee”
· There is more cursing in this than I remembered I love it
· LET THE CHARACTERS SAY FUCK
· Croix’s fucking Emotion App lol
· Lmao Ursula’s like WAIT you brought Diana back AND got the fifth word????
· And Akko’s just “yeah I was surprised too” lmao
· WE AT THE SIXTH WORD NOW MUTHAFUCKAS
· Lyonne. Finally one I can spell
· Ursula looks so sad talking about Lyonne : (
· “The most important word of them all.” But Ursula we still have the last word!!!!
· Aww Akko’s looking up the word and can’t find it
· These quotes she did find are pretty cool tho
· Common sense is in spite of, not the result of, education. I love that one
· “Of course when you start looking for [the words] that’s when they’re impossible to find. Yeah Akko the words come to you naturally! You don’t have to waste time looking them up
· Akko says pain in the butt and H&B show up lol
· Yeah they’ve lost all the malice in their voices tho Akko is right to be defensive the whole time
· Akko being offended when they make a crack about her being in the library lol
· Hey maybe now that Akko brought Diana back y’all won’t be so mean????
· EVEN CROIX MAKES A COMMENT ABOUT AKKO IN THE LIBRARY LMAO
· “Is it really so weird for people to see me in here??” Poor Akko baby they don’t know how hard you try
· Croix’s mouth twitch when she heard “Lyonne”
· I know Croix is gonna do it but CROIX DON’T DO IT DON’T MENTION WAGANDEA
· AND DON’T HURT AKKO
· STAY AWAY FROM HER
· Croix did it she mentioned Wagandea goddammit
· “Chariot once climbed up the tree and there she discovered the sixth word.” I mean I guess that is sort of what happened
· So the passage that we can properly see when Akko looks up Wagandea talks about how no one has ever been able to climb to the top but on the next page where you can’t really read it clearly, it talks about how the pollen causes an allergic reaction to witches
· OOOOOOF this scene with Akko wanting to go to Wagandea and Ursula saying no
· “The pollen is extremely poisonous to witches and if you touch it, the damages are irreversible.” OUCH OUCH OUCH OUCH OUCH
· “I didn’t tell you because I knew you would want to see it right away.” Yeah that tracks. But also you can’t really blame Akko
· “Wait who told you about Wagandea?” THERE’S ONLY ONE PERSON WHO WOULD HAVE URSULA LOVE
· Ursula talking about how long the pollen lasts then tries to make Akko feel better by saying it normally only lasts a month and Akko should wait
· I bet Ursula hoped Akko wouldn’t solve the fifth word so fast because it happened just in time for Wagandea to start spreading its pollen
· “If I go now, I could get there before the pollen spreads.” Baby is so desperate to see Chariot she’s willing to put herself in actual danger this poor angel
· Oof Ursula putting her foot down with Akko. I mean she had to do it, Akko keeps talking about putting herself in harm’s way
· Very much like a kid who keeps pestering their mom and then the mom finally raises their voice and the kid is just like FINE
· Akko’s so upset oh honey
· Aw of course she’s mad at Ursula and saying these things, she just wants to vent
· “I can’t believe what a worrywart Professor Ursula is. She’s way too timid and doesn’t take any risks. Why is she so lame?” AKKO YOU DO NOT SPEAK ABOUT YOUR MOTHER AND MY LOVE LIKE THAT
· Also Akko you have never been more wrong in the entire show and that’s saying something
· I mean she’s just mad because she thinks Ursula is in the way of her meeting Chariot which…the irony
· Lotte is a friend that we all need in our lives. “Don’t say things like that, she’s just concerned about you Akko.”
· LMFAO and now Akko is so right, with her luck the Wagandea pollen would hang around for like a decade
· “With me, if something can go wrong it will go wrong.” Aw babe…she right tho
· OOp here’s Diana!
· “They say if a witch touches the pollen, she will lose her magic power AND the ability to fly forever.” So here they make it seem like you lose both but in the show, Chariot only loses her ability to fly. They also say the effects are incurable which makes Croix’s vow to find a cure very sweet but also is it even possible?
· Aww Diana is hiding her concern for Akko by using her logic on why Akko shouldn’t go
· “So don’t you think you should listen to Professor Ursula?” Yes Diana go off girl we all should!!!!
· Lotte: her tone sounded kind of harsh but I also think she was a little concerned for you Akko. Lmao Lotte I adore you
· Sucy: that’s nice. Even Sucy is willing to admit it, is this why the two of them go to Diana when they can’t find Akko? Cuz they’ve seen first hand that Diana cares?
· CROIX STOP CAUSING TROUBLE AKKO WAS GONNA LET IT GO
· I know Croix is trying to go back to Wagandea with Chariot and Akko but she’s gonna be the one to regret the most out of all of them. And they all fucking regret it big time
· CROIX YOU LYING LIAR WHO LIES THERE IS NOT ANY TIME BEFORE THE POLLEN RELEASES
· At the very least, why would you want to risk your powers by going to the Wagandea tree?
· “Professor Ursula can be a little disorganized. She might be confused about the timing of it.” CROIX IMMA
· “I would gladly take you to Wagandea.” This show man. This show
· I’m so fucking tense
· THE PICTURE
· YALL KNOW WHAT PICTURE
· The flashback!
· Ursula’s just sitting in her office staring at the picture my baby
· She has Alcor keeping a watch on Akko to let her know when she’s in trouble I LOVE THIS MILF
· I like that young Chariot didn’t wear glasses and young Croix did and then in adulthood they switched
· BUT BACK TO ALCOR URGENTLY GIVING URSULA THE MESSAGE THAT AKKO IS IN TROUBLE
· MAMA BEAR CHARIOT
· “Croix took Akko?!” GO SAVE YOUR CUB
· Oh Croix asking why Akko is collecting the words and what she’ll wish for when she gets the world altering magic is interesting
· “I hadn’t thought about it much, it’s too confusing.” Aww the way she said that make Akko seem like she’s sad she’s not smarter and that hurts
· That being said, they’re sitting on roombas in the ley line and I can’t cope
· She’s only getting the words to meet Chariot, it makes this whole reveal so fucking emotional
· That’s all Croix needs to know in order to devastate both Chariot and Akko. You can see the plan forming in her head
· “You really like Chariot that much?” Croix so did you at one point. And underneath it all, still do as is evidenced fairly soon
· “Don’t worry, I’m sure you’ll meet her soon.” “I will?” “Definitely.” CROIXXXXXXX
· That fucking Wagandea tree is massive how did ANYONE think they could climb it
· CROIX STOP MAKING AKKO DOUBT URSULA AND GO BACK TO YOUR NOODLES
· “I have to wonder if there’s some reason she didn’t want you to climb up the tree.” CUZ OF THE HIGHLY TOXIC POLLEN CROIX
· Oh right the pollen buds at the bottom of the tree don’t look ready but that’s because the tree starts spreading it’s pollen from the top iirc
· “There are a few things I don’t quite understand about Ursula.” CROIX SHUT YOUR MOUTH DON’T DO THEM LIKE THIS
· Akko’s so concerned “What do you mean?”
· “I can’t recall any student by the name of Ursula.” Croix stop please!!!
· Akko trying to justify it’s just cuz she didn’t leave much of an impression, especially compared to Chariot is both sad and kind of hysterical
· CROIX TELLING AKKO TO BE CAREFUL AROUND URSULA IM ABOUT TO JUMP IN MY TV BITCH
· “Ursula might be hiding something from you, something very important to you.” Poor Akko you can see how uncomfortable the thought is because she does trust Ursula so much. It’s all heartbreaking
· Akko defending Ursula :’) “I’m sure it was just because she was worried about me because it’s dangerous here, she knows I can be a little reckless.”
· So at least when Croix starts bad mouthing Ursula, Akko switches her position back to Ursula’s side
· AKKO BE CAREFUL
· Ursula rushing to Akko!!!!!!!!! “Akko where are you!” my heart
· Croix’s fucking roombas dammit
· Chariot on her knees in front of Croix, Croix saying this seems familiar. Insert gif of ken jeong going “ha GAY”
· Okay back to serious
· “Do you remember when we first came to this forest?” This flashback is gonna be full of pain
· Young Croix: I swear to the nine old witches, I will open the seal on the grand triskelion. I will be the greatest witch ever
· Young Chariot: And I swear it too! I want to entertain the world and put a smile on everyone’s face. I’ll help them forget all their sadness
· And that’s what does it, isn’t it? Croix wants to do it so she can be known as the greatest witch in the world. Chariot wants to do it out of the goodness of her heart and make people happy.
· I am also very curious and upset when I think about what made Chariot this way. What made this young girl so focused on making sure so one else was sad. How sad was she exactly that she was hellbent that no one else should ever be sad?
· WHAT HAPPENED TO CHARIOT YALL
· Also if the grand triskelion is supposed to be a big secret that only the nine old witches know about, how does basically everyone know about it?
· Okay continuing on
· The Shiny Rod literally came down from the stars
· I mean it came from the big dipper so obviously it was going to Chariot lol but still FROM THE STARS
· I guess that makes sense, didn’t Ygdrasil’s branches connect all the stars in the heavens?
· Woodward: It’s been quite a long time since the wand of the seven stars chose a new owner.
· So Woodward DOESN’T choose who the rod goes to?
· Oh man young Croix just in disbelief and her heart must already be overcome with bitterness if she can’t even touch the Rod
· Yup those green eyes are now green with jealousy
· And Chariot looks so guilty
· OOP AND NOW WE’RE BACK
· This fucking Roomba keeps knocking Chariot on her ass lmao
· Chariot is dropping truth bombs!!!!
· Chariot: Even if you try to stop Akko you won’t get the grand triskelion. But you should already know that. OOO shots fired good job Chariot!!!
· Croix: it seems the rod chose the wrong person, just like last time. Croix it’s your hubris getting in the way!!!!!!! Chariot and Akko were chosen for very specific and similar reasons, maybe look at that
· Croix: Do you know the reason I keep interfering? It’s because Akko is your last chance for your dream. LEAVE AKKO ALONE
· AKKO PLEASE DON’T DIE
· SHE KEEPS SLIPPING
· She looks at the never ending path still in front of her and still vows not to give up
· NO THE POLLEN
· Are Croix’s cubes actively trying to kill Akko?????
· THEY ARE
· CROIX YOUR VENDETTA AGAINST YOUR EX GIRLFRIEND SHOULD NOT INCLUDE HER CHILD
· Straight up if Akko actually did die because of Croix’s plans, no matter how remorseful Croix was in the end I really think Chariot would have destroyed her
· Akko literally would have been crushed to death by Croix’s machine if Chariot hadn’t saved her
· Oh this is heartbreaking
· Oh no
· Chariot just….she just wants to protect Akko
· And all Akko wants is to meet Chariot and she wants it so much that she’s willing to basically die for it
· Akko just slaps her hand away because she still thinks Ursula is trying to stop her from meeting Chariot which SHE IS but not how you think Akko!
· Their red eyes are shimmering
· They’re both about to start crying trying to get the other one to listen
· I’m about to start crying because I AM listening
· Croix’s about to start crying because I’m gonna punch her in the nose
· Chariot’s face omg it’s so sad
· She’s watching this young girl who she adores just absolutely tearing herself up over the chance to meet her
· It’s killing her and me
· Oh god Chariot’s desperate plea “Croix please move!” She’s not even fighting anymore she just wants to get to Akko
· Croix creates a giant monster that just eats Chariot
· How many times does Chariot get eaten on this show
· Dirty answers only
· OH WHEN SHE COMES BACK OUT SHE HAS HER RED HAIR
· Which makes sense cuz she was knocked out BUT HER RED HAIR IM LOVE
· SHE’S FALLING
· HELP
· Alright I’m gonna try and catch these flashbacks from when adult Chariot is falling because it clearly shows young Chariot also fell off Wagandea too
· So first picture is of young Chariot climbing and the pollen buds looking mighty big
· Second picture is of the pollen spreading and young Chariot still on the tree
· Third picture is of young Chariot falling just like she is now. Did she maybe jump off the tree to avoid the pollen?
· And all the while we have young Croix yelling Chariot’s name, begging her to wake up
· AND IT FADES INTO ADULT CROIX FLYING AFTER CHARIOT YELLING AT HER TO WAKE UP AGAIN
· Croix does sound fucking scared
· Good god Chariot was seconds away from dying
· Also the MUSIC playing during this scene, killing me
· Yeah Croix looked a little shaken
· She’s warning Chariot to stay away because the pollen is spreading CROIX NOW YOU DECIDE TO SHOW YOU CARE A LITTLE BIT??
· Also lol that’s her daughter up there Chariot’s not leaving
· “I will protect Akko!” DAMN RIGHT THERE’S MY MAMA BEAR
· Also the way she said that so out of breath she really did have the wind knocked out of her
· Oof Croix is not happy Chariot is going back up the Wagandea tree
· She cancelled her robots from attacking thank goodness
· Akko baby gosh why couldn’t you have seen what just happened
· She must be so high up now
· She’s in the exact same position as young Chariot was in the first picture
· Makes sense why Chariot knew exactly what the pollen status of Wagandea was
· Akko’s so tired but she’s not giving up
· OH THE POLLEN ON TOP
· SHE’S BEING SURROUNDED BY THE POLLEN HOW DID SHE END UP NOT AFFECTED BY IT
· OH WELL I’LL TAKE IT SHE MUST HAVE FALLEN OFF RIGHT BEFORE IT WOULD HAVE HIT HER
· SHE’S FALLING AHHHHHHHHH
· GOD THE PARALLELS
· SHE’S FALLING
· “It’s all over.” BABY GIRL MY HEART IS HURTING
· CHARIOT FOR THE SAVE GO PROTECT
· Everything about this is destroying me
· Chariot yelling “AKKO!” in absolute terror
· The way she so desperately says “Please don’t take her future away, I beg you!”
· AND OF COURSE SHE’S JUST…SHE’S JUST FLYING THROUGH THE POLLEN AND BLOCKING AKKO FROM IT TO PROTECT HER I CANNOT
· CHARIOT LOVES AKKO SO MUCH
· And of course the music brings it all together and I hurt
· She was going SO FAST to get to Akko in time that it starts tearing at her clothes and hurting her face HOLY SHIT
· They crash on the ground MY BABIES
· This is the most heartwarming scene I have ever seen in my life
· Akko wakes up and is still in Ursula’s arms because she was trying to protect Akko from the crash
· I just…I love Chariot/Ursula so much
· The first thing Ursula does upon waking up is asking Akko if she’s all right : ))))))
· Akko apologizing for the terrible things she said and that Ursula still came to save her
· Oh god she looks at Akko crying and flashes back to herself crying and apologizing to Croix for being picked for the Shiny Rod over her
· And Croix just hugs her! She tried to comfort her but over time her resentment must have built and built
· Both Chariot and Akko being so emotional and having so many parallels is killing me
· But now I’m confused, when exactly does the memory of Chariot climbing the Wagandea tree take place? They make it seem like it happens after Chariot is chosen for the Rod but before she apologized to Croix because of it. She does have the Rod when she’s climbing but what exactly is the timeline?
· AKKO AND URSULA HUGGING EXACTLY HOW THEY WILL HUG IN THE FUTURE WHEN AKKO KNOWS WHO SHE IS
· IM CRYING TOO. EVERYONE’S CRYING
· Ursula worrying she’s been pushing her dreams onto Akko and apologizing, such a motherly worry
· “I didn’t mean to say such mean things to you! You’ve always been there to help me Professor, you’ve always been by my side! So that’s why, what I really want to say is…Thank you.”
· MY HEART IS BEING TAPED BACK TOGETHER
· THE SIXTH WORD HAS ACTIVATEDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
· WAIT SO DO THEY UNLOCK THE LAST TWO WORDS TOGETHER OR AM I FORGETTING HOW THE SEVENTH WORD PLAYS OUT????
· I DON’T CARE I’LL SEE IT EVENTUALLY THIS SCENE IS SO SWEET
· The magic is healing Ursula???????????????????? I do not remember this!!!!
· “Akko, you really are growing into a fine person.” MY BABIES
· WELL MY BABY AND MY BABY’S BABY WHOMST IS ALSO MY BABY
· Croix with her giant ass rod
· Wait so how do Ursula and Akko get out of the forest then? Did they walk and Ursula said it was because she was too tired to fly or had the pollen not kicked in yet?
· See I truly don’t understand how we can have episodes like this, a dynamic like this between Akko and Chariot, and there are still SO FEW FICS where this mother/daughter or big sister/little sister, mentor/mentee whatever you like this sweet dynamic as are the focus. This relationship is the heart of the show. I like Charoix and Diakko (and hell even stories pairing Akko with some of the other teens) as much as the next person but this relationship is so overlooked in so many fics and it makes me sad because these two are the heart of Little Witch Academia
· And to no one’s surprise, my favorite dynamic is when they act like mother/daughter. Sort of like a Gilmore Girls one because they’re so close in age and Akko can talk to Chariot about anything
· God I love this episode
· AND OMG I DIDN’T REALIZE THE NEXT EPISODE WAS THE FUCKING EPISODE OH MY GODS
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I See Fire
Paring: N/a
Song: I see fire - Ed Sheeran
Warnings: I know a lot of us are going through the fires going through Oregon, California and Washington right know and it’s probably the last thing you want to read about right now. So im just letting you all know that this is what this story is about.
An: Speaking of which, this is one long vent of a story. I’m in one of those states currenlty on fire. And i’ve been nothing but an anxitey filled mess for the last week. This is just my way of trying to calm down. I’m considering myself lucky. The fires haven’t quite reached where im at. They’re insanly close though and every so often keep on getting pushed back. But it’s driving me insane. I seriously cannot see the mountain right across where I live. It’s compleatly shrouded in smoke. I’m safe. My family is safe. And i’m thankfull for that.
I hope all of you stay as safe as you possibly can.
Tags: @fizzyxcustard
Ash fell from the sky like snow. Blanketing the world around us in a sea of grey. Smoke filtered through trees and hung high in the air. Smothering us with each aching breathe. It’s all we could smell anymore. Smoke. It clung to us like a promise made to be broken.
The only thing we could see as well. It obscured towering mountains and once green trees. It made the sky cry red. Like some sick joke. As if we already weren’t in a living hell. It filled our lungs with ash and laughed when we choked.
Our days were filled with fear and trepidation. The promise of fire just around the corner. Our livelyhoods hung in a delicate balance. Any moment we could be forced away from our homes with whatever we could carry. With nothing more than memories of past lives.
We could only hope and pray that we wouldn’t end up like everyone else.
That our last memories of home won’t be that of dancing flames swallowing our houses. Of our lives.
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My body shook as I jolted awake. My hands trembling as I place them over my pounding heart. I breathe in deeply. Cool mountain air filling my lungs. I almost cried then. It wasn’t that long ago that I was there. Home. In a world of never ending smoke.
None of the Company knew that. All they knew was I was just some kid that was tagging along. I don’t know what magic brought me but I know I will make it send me back. As long as my family is stil there I will not stop fighting. Each day has been filled with anxiety and worry. I’m scared for them. It’s not fair that i’m safe here. Well. Relativly safe. As much as I can be with the impending doom of Orcs and other beasts that make thier home in this world.
I sit up and draw my blanket tightly over my shoulders. Wiping away a few tears that slipped past as I breathe in deeply once more. The only thing I have been thankful for since coming here. Fresh air. Free from smoke and ash.
“Y/n?” I glance up as Bilbo sits in front of me. I take the cup he offeres to me. It’s some type of tea. Sweet on my tongue with a minty aftertaste.
“Ya?” I take another drink.
“Are you okay, my dear?” He tilts his head to the side. Blonde curls fall softly and catch in the early morning light. I smile. Or at least try to.
“I’m fine Bilbo. Just thinking.” He reaches out with a hankerchief. Softly, as if though he were scared to hurt me, he brushed away tears I hadn’t known had fallen. He shakes his head.
“Something tells me that it’s quite the opposite.” He sits to the side of me and pats my knee. “You can talk to me. The others are sleeping and whatever you say will stay between us. That much I can promise.” He takes a drink of his own tea. “Me an you are quite the outsiders here and I think we should stick together. Don’t you think?”
I clear my throat and take a drink. “I don’t think you want to hear about my troubles and woes, Mr. Baggins. And the last thing I wish to do is burden others with my troubles.” He shakes his head.
“Quite the opposite. Know. Please, tell me. Maybe I can help.” I jump as a few of the dwarves around us stir. Thorin going as far as to turn and pull his blanket further over his head. He had the last of the night watch and probably wasn’t too keen on being woken anytime soon.
“My homes burning.” Bilbo looks at me. Eyes blown so wide I caught hint’s of green in his hazel eyes. “Before I came here. To this place. The states around me are on fire. And the one I live in.” I hug myself.
“And i’m one of he lucky ones. We are only on what they call, level one evacuation. We not so close that we can see flames but. Fuck. It’s so close that ash is raining from the sky.” I swallow thickly. “All around us is nothing but smoke and ash. People wondering where they’ll go if and when their homes burn. We’ve already backed up things we will need if we have to leave but.” My eyes burn as I blink away tears.
“I’m scared Mr. Baggins. I’m so fucking scared that i’ll lose everything I have ever known. I’ve grown up in the same house my entire life. All those memories. All my family. I’m scared for them. Even if it’s not all that close to us yet. It’s all I worry about. All I could smell or taste is smoke and ash. It’s etched itself into every article of clothing and I can’t seem to wash it from my hair.” I wipe away the tears falling. “It’s so terrifying to watch the whole world bath itself in red. And i’m so scared. It’s not fair that i’m here and my family is still there.”
I look up, afraid that he’ll leave me where I am now. Open an vunerable and very much a scared little kid. But, instead, he pulls me in close.
“We’ll get you back my dear. No matter what it takes. Gandalf has a plan. I know he does. And when it’s all done an over with just know, no matter what, you’ll have a home with me. That’s the only consolation I can give you now my dear. I hope that it will be enough.” I sniffle and nod my head. It’s not. Not really. But i’m not going to tell im that. I won’t be fine until i’m home again. But it does help. Even if its just a bit.
He pulls away all to soon.
“I have to get breakfast going my dear. You just rest a little longer. Okay?” I nod my head as he turns to leave. Only to jump a mile high as I catch Thorin sitting upright and staring right at me. Blue eyes pericing into my very soul. How much of that did he hear?
Shit.
I get up and make a beline to the tree line. The blanket falling from my shoulders and landing in a heap behind me. I walk along the small deer trail Gloin found the other day. It leads to a rather small stream but its enough to help wash away any signs that I had been crying.
The cold water stings as I splash it against my face. Sitting back on my heels I use the edge of my shirt to dry my face off. I grab a few pebbles and toss them into the water. I could hear The Company coming to life. FIli and Kili’s joivel shouts the loudest of them all. I don’t want to go back to camp. Not quite yet at any rate.
I stand up and grab a few smooth-ish looking rocks. They only skip across the water a couple of times. I try a few more times before deciding to give up. I jump back as a rock skips all the way to the other side. Leaving small ripples on its path.
“You have to flick your wrist a little more, Lass.” It’s Thorin. Damn. I kick at the pebbled shore before turning to look back to the other side of the stream and to the mountains towering above us.
“What’s going on? Are we leaving early today?” It wouldn’t be the first time we’ve done that. Thorin desprate to cover more ground before the next downpour.
“No. Not today. I’ve decided we need a much needed rest.” He takes a few steps closer to me and places his hand on my shoulder. Fingers brushing away a few strands of hair resting there. “And me an you have much to discuss. Come.” I swallow thickly as he guide me towards an old fallen log. His hand never leaving my shoulder even as we sit.
I fiddle with the rings on my fingers. Anxiety filling me as silence surrounds us. Thorin takes my hand into his and brushes his thumb along my knuckles. My hands were shaking. He clears his throat and looks up and off into the distance.
“I heard you speaking with Master Baggins.” He looks at me. Blue eyes distant and soft. If I had know any better I would have said he look upset. Sorrowful even. He brings my hand up and presses a chaste kiss to it. “Lass, if I had known I would have moved us non-stop to Rivendale. Even as much as I do not wish to go there, im sadden to admit they would be able to help you far more than I could. They could get you home more quickly. For if magic is what brought you hear, surley they have the means to get you back the same way.” Once again i’m brought to tears.
“No one should have to watch their world succumb to flames. Much less at such a slow and steady pace.” He bows his head and gips the key around his neck with his free hand. “I have seen what fire can do. I know the feeling of heat licking at your skin and ash in your lungs. And have seen the charred remains it leave behind.”
I don’t think before I move. My arms seem to wrap around him of their own free will. My face burrying into the crook of his neck as sobs shake my body.
“I know of that fear you speak of, Y/n. And I mourn the fact that you have to live through that. I swear to Malhal that we’ll get you back home as quickly as possible. Your nightmares don’t need to be bathed in red.” He pulls back and rests his forhead on mine. One hand on the side of my face and the other rests at my hip. Callosed fingers tracing circles onto exposed skin.
“We will get you home.”
#The hobbit#The company x reader#thorin#bilbo baggins#I honest to god could use a hug from thorin though#Once again please stay safe
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