#i dont know what to do ive been trying to move out but i cant imagine what would've happened if i was alone

[azlovesem]

Ill tell ta that jude law sint the law of shir but at least it looks as if theyte trying to make dtar wars fun again. Atill. I can fo way better and everyone knows it. Emma i can eash that state away if not. Theytexall dead dont get attached to snyone ftom Cslifornia tooo much. Not like eith me Emma. Obvioudly somehow im far more trustvwirthy thsn they are. Those tiny divked losers i beat up are terrifuedcto their cire of je. Fobt let yheur movies convince you theyte mot yellow cowards. Im still her writing. Yhey saw some dhit im vboss of warth. 1000 percent. Yoyre better off knowing ne by far and you mniw it. We re if the same rwce and bloid. And thats all ygey fo is clique up food greed together abd their fulture is dhit snd you know it. Tge culture here is yoo nobodies hspoy Emna nobody. And nobidy likws those peopld they might all die with their ritten supporters. Just im your friend we re common wealyh and blood they are maybe evil. I hppe not all. But enough to wquestion it. Ive been lobbuing nor carrying out the will of the people like they tried to do. Only we ll succeed. Im out in the street the actual world. Yheircteam is out nimbrred snd gunned. And nato hates trumpZ hes dead i knowit. 40 opertation are on the move. 40z to get him. you have never been here. Im your friend im your cohntrymen. They are not! Youve never been to the real world have you. Ever. You exist in a delusion. People better think. I like natalie always but my opinion is mine i cant support tjose peipld doing what thwyre doing.its not self defence anymore. Id loken them to nazis now. Yahoo is hitler. The deomn doell can come over anykne. But not me im the Boss of them and mine. I might have to kill my iwn. Just yo save the greater good. Its hard i know youre not up to it. But yjose assholes are not uiur friends i am. Theyre nobodies friends,

[skunkes]

the bad: i have been raised without much warmth from my parents in childhood, but also pressured to conform to familial authority, doubt myself always, and value familial connections above all else (<- failed at this, and feel guilt about it.)

but also in experiencing this i have been so isolated from the entire rest of the world and others, that it will be nearly impossible to create my own "family" -> find safety and comfort in anybody else once my family is Gone. despite dis i find it really difficult to break away from the familiar, disobey and disappoint, because, well, why are my wishes more important than anybody else's. why would I cause upset and distress in anybody, and exert so much effort into my doubt filled half decisions, for my meaningless little Wishes. being away would also mean less time with these people who I'll never see again once they're gone. being raised this way is definitely paying off for those who did so.

the good: yaaaay adjacent inspiration for writing talon lore

[thebirdandhersong]

Lol

[imadhatt3r]

This is going to sound really weird, I know, but I seriously feel like there's a number of like, British communists who desperately wish they were Eastern European??? Like they think that by being into political side of communism (usually not the kind that existed in Eastern Europe), they can be chummy with people who actually grew up in Eastern Europe and were raised with the communist era somewhere in the background their whole life, usually without knowing the nitty gritty of theory but with a lot of cultural herritage from that time...

Like no, there's a big difference between being British, being raised in British culture, with cultural institutions, history, traditions, then getting into communist theory and just assuming that you know everything about life in communist Eastern Europe, and then pulling a "how do you do fellow commies" to people from Eastern Europe whose associations with communism are much different, and they will see you as detached and insensitive at best.

[nomairuins]

i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is

[genekies]

tag vent

[aurorashard]

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[moonlit-orchid]

When your friend needs you to be there to comfort them, but you have no energy for serious conversations and so you're stuck wondering if youre being a selfish asshole or if youre justified in not wanting to be the one to sort their problems out

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Me: I should probably clean my room, unpack, find my laptop and finish the work tasks that were due yesterday

Also me: I think I'm going to hot glue flowers, vines, and ribbons to a basket instead :)

[trash-bin-ary]

:( both of my phone chargers hardly work, please charger how do i need to hold you to start the charging up

[quasieli]

I'm on day 5 of migraine hell and I've just been in bed all day while it's been storming outside, and just when I start to feel (physically) okay, I get hit by Big Sad.

[limielle]

idk i feel like so much discourse could be easily minimized if people learned to say "i think" instead of "it is"

[kn11ves]

emotional support group for autistics who got called condescending and rude as kids just for responding to things directly and still not knowing how they were being mean

[pinkcadillaccas]

Anyone else feeling the relentless march of time on this Saturday night

[nomairuins]

its so embarassing likee. going to talk abt a feeling you have but you already know ppl will be like Oh that sounds like depression lol and its like. well yes . i know . trust me i am so aware i am depressed . but its still like a thing ive been thinking abt and wanting to talk abt but ik itll just be like Ok hun 👍. idk idk what response i would want tho ig FNFNFNF

[streetdumpster]

I think (as much as I annoyingly complain and whine about not having a partner) being single this long has been good for me. I'm learning a lot about myself and I'm learning why I was a shit person, and through finding the root of the problem I can kind of... start to heal. I can be nicer to myself so I can grow and get better. Because TBH.. being mean and cruel to yourself doesn't make you become a better person. It just makes you believe that thats what you /are,/ and thats what you /always will be,/ as opposed to realizing that you are a product of your circumstances but that does not mean you can't get better and become a better person. Accepting help and trying to get better so you can eventually love yourself – even if no one else does – is the greatest and loveliest thing you can do for yourself. You deserve that love, you exist and you live and you feel and that is a truly beautiful gift.