#i dont know if im graduating
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love following the flow of time. shit happens. i have the days i deserve. i get out the amount of work i put in, even if its in tiny different ways.
#like#my whole familys like “WHEN you graduate in a few months”#nd imma be real#i dont know if im graduating#like yeah im passing my classes and have been since school started#but ive been like. no idea if i pass lol#cause if i get too confident i get lazy#so i gotta keep myself on my toes#like whoops !!! flow of time ive suddenly failed eighty assignments and now my lifes down the shitter and i have to spend a year over again#like fucking shawn#i dont wanna be like that man#i hope i dont jinx myself by posting this#i jinxed myself playing a game earlier so#cross my heart and hope to die
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haven’t had enough time to draw s5 adrinette to convey just how much this is genuinely the only thing on my mind
#why is ml doing the most when i also have to be doing the most(graduating)#after may 6 I am free (installation date for the senior art show)#(I wont be free i'll have to be doing my real schoolwork then. but maybe I can draw pictures of Them also)#did you guys know that theeyre literally in love. and that they know about it. im going to die#the power of love always so strong!!!!!!!!!!!!literally!!!!!#ook I have to go to bed so much#I dont even know what episodes to tag#ml#ml spoilers#ml s5#miraculous ladybug season 5#ml season 5#adrinette#my art#ml perfection#perfection spoilers#ml migration#migration spoilers#ml derision#derision spoilers#ml protection#protection spoilers#ok that's all im doing. im tired. hopefully thats enough
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robin cross and kevin day parallels actually go so crazy. they both spent their formative years in a basement underground with exy-obsessed captors. they both saw exy as freedom. they both were isolated even within the foxes’ group of outcasts. they were both under andrew’s protection. it cost kevin jean to leave the nest and it cost robin another girl’s life to escape her kidnapper. robin carried her racquet with her to self-soothe and kevin restrings the net of his when he’s anxious. they’re even bird coded
#to those unfamiliar the word robin is also a kind of little bird 🕊️#i dont ship them but i dont blame the people who do if im honest#BUT ITS JUST CRAZY TO MEEE#its so fucked that canonically kevin never gets to meet her#but i will say that the echoes of his presence are still there#she joins the foxes the year after kevins graduation and there andrew is taking robin to night practice#there he is coaching her because he knows exy is the tool she needs to believe in herself#there he is doing what kevin day told him only years late 🫠#sorry they make me insane#robin when she’s the weird kandreil amalgamation no one asked for#will expand on this if i have more thoughts later but please talk to me about robin. thank you#txt#aftg#kevin day#robin cross#kevin#robin#fav#kevin&robin
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this one's for all the yuri enjoyers out there — nsft under cut
meronia event prompt(s): scar
#death note#mello#near#meronia#meroniaevent#fem mello#fem near#i had fun w this one!! i love drawing yuri even though i dont do it nearly as much as i want lol#also i love drawing bush thumbs up emoji#i let the lines be messier bc my hands have been a little sore and i am not in the mood for linework#and in honor of yuri day i should get to do whatever i want forever peace and love on planet yuri#anyway i didnt know what to do w near's hair but decided to keep it short bc i didnt want to cover her back for composition reasons#sorry for posting so late i woke up at like 10am which is late for me as of late and had school shit to do boooo#also im in the mood to talk so i made a pot pie today (no meat im vegetarian) and i followed no recipes and used my heart to make#it and i did so well it fucks so hard my heart always leads me to greatness and recipes do nothing for me bc im a culinary genius#<-blatantly untrue but we stay silly#oh!!! and also i got a thing in the mail the thing being a weevil plushie i ordered a bit back that i bought on a whim that i should not#have bought bc im saving my money but actually he makes my life a million bajillion times better and i love him dearly#anyway meronia event is making my life so much better i feel 100% better than i did 2 days ago and hopefully the joy this brings#me will stay w me for long enough to get through the rest of my summer classes bc they are killing me lol. my current ones are ending#in like a week or smth but i have 2 more in july *sobs* all this just to graduate a semester early#k anyway enjoy the yuri ...or dont. im not the boss of u. ig
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SPN season 16 except Sam goes back to school and get shell shocked by the change in atmosphere and vibes
#signed a girl who is going back to earn another degree#no one knows where the library is and everything is done online now#dont even get me STARTED on acting like a hacker to bypass duo verification to access my own fucking canvas account#is this niche this might be niche#OH ALSO Im the only student in my classes who actually reads the prompts and doesnt use AI#and apparently there are fake accounts that take up enrollment so I dont even know if the student Im talking to on discussion posts is real#i graduated in 2023 WHAT HAPPENED IN THE COURSE OF ONE YEAR#Sam would be just as equally confused and frustrated and venting constantly and Dean would just be like :/ damn#supernatural#spn#spn shitposts#sam winchester
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wow ive been kind of off lately I should take a day to rest an[explosion]
#[.art]#self#complaining tag#I'm good. I needed to draw about it but I'm good. it's fine. whatever#love it when I barely ask you for money to Live outside of gifts and 30 a month. and then you withold the gift SOMEONE ELSE GAVE ME#that's fine it's totally not as if I told you I need that money before. and you decided I was a bit too mean#about you compiling a document I Need To in order to keep the room and board in the place I am living in. by the way#she proceeded to change topic completely to the weather and forget about anything ive told her on the clothes I have here#or about the courses I follow. she takes notes for my sister's classes but cannot be bothered to remember i dont have exams in april#that's fineeee it's fine. it's fine. I know my sistser needs the help and I don't. I would rather die than ask for her help anyways#you can at least pretend to forget about both of us equally instead of telling me I should graduate in two years because im smart enough#which I am not. by the way. At least when I will fail at something I'll have the opportunity to tell her I told you so thank god#dont get me wrong i know her giving me compliments is a good thing I just sort of wish the were things actually about me#and not about the idea she has about me being some kind of prodigy that's simply too lazy to actually be exceptional. anyways
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today a chunk of russian rocket destroyed a massive part of my art academy, Boychuck's academy of decorative art and design, Kiyv,
I'm lucky i wasn't there, but the aftermath of this attac is truly devastating for the academy, that portion of the building, it's ruined it's it's just gone... we lost our gym, your Congress hall, our gallery, our assembly hall... and that's not even a complete list
I feel devastated ... i don't even known what to say, only hope that there is no deaths(most people managed to evacuate to the basement shelter)
i usually don't share stuff like that here but this time i couldn't keep it to myself
#stop russia#war in ukraine#idk how to tag this#im not sure if i should tag any fandoms im active at so let it be for people who follow me or visited my blog page#im still getting my masters there i dont now i dont even know where we will present our diploma works#it ruined the most important places for activities like proms and graduation ceremonies
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Oh my adhd having students, I mean this in the most "I'm trying to help u pass this class" way possible: what the fuck am I supposed to do with you? And I mean that as an earnest question. If u have advice pls let me know.
#bc the thing is. u have to be in attendance to get credit for labs and u have to turn in assignments to get credit#and i dont kno how to make those things happen for you. so like???#and u can have flexible attendance but u dont get credit if u arent there and we cant do makeups for all the labs#bc that infringes on our lab manager's time in a way that doesn't work#and u can have flexible deadlines but like if u dont turn things in there's no credit to be given. so again???#i dont know how to help and i dont kno how much of this is im a dumb 18yo who is used to arrangements being made for me. bc i get that#from students who dont have learning disabilities vs how much is a genuine inability to keep things on task#and like how much am i expected to give? im just a graduate TA. i cant hold ur hand thru everything. im not paid to do that#but i want to help however i can. so like??? i dont kno what to do and i understand the frustration#as someone with a learning disability that isnt really helped by the accommodations i have access to#but is it a case of: u need to try harder or even trying ur hardest it's nnot possible. i dont kno. i cant kno#and what the fuck am i supposed to do if its the latter? it just sucks#unrelated
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Lol
#theres nothing quite like your mother saying Well maybe you shouldve been more careful because now your boss might think youve been flirting#with this male coworker (whom i like splendidly as a friend) and now maybe she thinks youre not trustworthy#and maybe she regrets hiring you because you said you feel like youre making a lot of mistakes this week and she might assume thats because#your head is filled with this boy.#so dont make her regret hiring you.#MA'AM I TOLD YOU I WAS ALREADY ANXIOUS BECAUSE I MADE SO MANY MISTAKES TODAY WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME ASHAMED#OF SOMETHING THAT I HONESTLY HAD NO CLUE I OUGHT TO BE ANXIOUS ABOUT AT MY FIRST NEW JOB AFTER IVE GRADUATED????#anyway going to bed i cant take this anymore LOL she said it so lightly and im like. well i never even considered#being afraid of making my boss regret hiring me somehow because of some kind of behaviour that i had no idea was sending some kind of signal#anywaysssss 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#and then she was like why are you crying?? 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀#not to be like this is partly why i didnt want to move home but confound it all why are things like this#can i not simply confide in my mother my anxieties and worriws#worries#and not also have to worry about her potentially being like Well have you considered you ARE right and it IS your fault?#idk man something something firstborn child eldest daughter can i have some room to breathe. please#also not to whine but Not my father walking in on me eating dinner at 10pm because i was holed up#in my room in a semi depressive state after so many gong shows in a work day and straight up having no appetite#but deciding my body needs the food anyway its better late than never.....walking in and then saying#you know if you eat this late you'll gain weight. SIR??????????????????#sorry to complain and rant again i simply cannot in this house and whats more am doing my best to honour my parents#but why is it so hard out here and how can they say stuff like that with a smile!!!!!!!#also i DO have an inner critic who is always like Its your fault you are the worst you should be ashamed always........why do my parents#not understand after knowing me for so long and watching me grow up#that i can make myself so ashamed of the smallest thing so easily and that what they say drives me to shame almost as easily?#ANYWAY LOL WHAT A DAY#you guys!!! i am working so hard i promise i PROMISE I am!!! it is my first full time job ever and i am working so so hard#i am doing my absolute best and no one sees it and that is FINE i just wish my parents would see that i AM trying!!#i come back home so dead every single day because i put in 120%! this is literally my first job after graduation#and my parents KNOW this has been the most exhausting taxing and soul crushing year ive had in my very short life so far
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my sweet little baby man is no longer with us
#he had his bloodwork done yesterday and the vet said it was fine but he doesnt have much time left#and my bestie is a vet tech who wanted to see the lab results bc she always does and she looked at them#and asked me if she can shiw them to her boss today and i was like sure and immediately knew something was up#today keekki was being himself#then i went to run some errands and when i came back he was laying in front of the front door with his tiny baby head against it#and i was like ''oh ok one of his seizures?''#and theyre like. keekki will drool and not move and they usually last for like 20 minutes (several vets have no idea whats up with those#but it was probably either a kidney or a blood pressure thing)#anyways. it did not pass in 20 minutes so i Knew#i laid on the floor next to him#then my bff sent me a message asking me if i have the time to talk about keekki and its not good news#at this point i was about to call the vet anyways#and she was like ''ok i showed these to my boss (a vet) and she got super angry that ur vet even let you leave the clinic''#bc apparently keekkis bloodwork was so bad he should have been put down then and there but my vet was like a fresh half graduate#so i dont hold it against her. anyways i got an euthanasia appointment for this evening and spent the time before it laying on the couch#crying with keekki in my arms#i had to carry him bc he couldnt really walk without stumbling and falling down#when i had to get up to get his carrier and stuff ready he was taking a nap on the couch where i left him and i took this pic#anyways worst vet visit of my life i could hardly even do anything but nod half the time bc speaking results in me sobbing#anyways. this fucking sucks#i dont know how ill be able to sleep tonight#its been years since i last slept at home without having a little guy plop into my arms#i spent a long time with him in the vet room when he was gone#it feels surreal ive given him his last ever forehead kisses#as i left the room i told him bye the exact same way ive been saying bye to him for the last very many years ive had him#its always moikka keekki before i go to work or the store or literally anything#and that was my last moikka keekki#i hope he felt how loved he was#my dad is sending me older pics of me and keekki and he looks so happy in them. hes always right next to me#idk man im going to stop rambling now
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yknow usually i feel really insecure when i compare myself to my friends who are all pretty good with computers and science and math and shit but the other day they were like oh didnt isaac newton have kids? but i was like no im pretty sure he never even got married. and i was the one that was right. absorbing a bunch of facts on who was probably gay in history finally pays off
#i am trying to work on those insecurities and being curious and looking stuff up instead of despairing but its hard sometimes lmao#its like 3-5 people all mutually knowing shit about computers and black holes and math paradoxes#and im like the lone clueless bitch#it can suck sometimes#at least when that happens online with all the ppl i know with graduate degrees in sociology and philosophy and literature#i dont have to physically be in a room while i shrink into the corner
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can you imagine being a little twee simon and garfunkel fan in the late 60s and then buying your new vinyl at the record store and hearing mrs. robinson for the first time in your own home. i would’ve fallen over backwards
#i don't know if i've ever mentioned this--and i dont even remember why this is the case--but mrs. robinson was one of the first songs#that i ever knew in this lifetime. like. when youre a little tiny baby and youre barely aware what music is#and you know the words to the chorus of at most like 15 songs. mrs. robinson was one of those songs and i dont remember why or how#probably my father? he's also the reason that i knew the beatles when i was that young too#he also played a lot of bob marley and elvis. we used to have little dance parties in the living room after watching shrek every night#where he'd play his music. but i cant think mrs. robinson was one of those songs? its NOT a dance song#(i can try though. you cant stop me)#text post#simon and garfunkel#but yes this also does mean allstar by smash mouth was also one of those first primordial songs on my consciousness#mrs. robinson really though is such a beautiful and clever song im never gonna be over it#simon and garfunkel is one of those few bands where their most famous song arguably deserves that status in their discography#altho that did get a little different after i watched the graduate as a teenager lol#but the song. didn't slap any less naturally. it just had a new association#also fun fact i don't know at what age i learned that mrs. robinson was by simon and garfunkel#at least until i was like 10 i thought it was by the beatles?
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guys i need y'all to remember that superheroes have existed for So Many years . so you get to ask yourselves "woww why didn't you save them" . Superman where were you during the 1986 Challenger shuttle disaster . Spider-Man how dare you let 9/11 happen
#with 9/11 its especially funny because like. i dont think the comics animated series and movies COULD just ignore 9/11#because having the twin towers would be like disrespectful. but by not having them it also implies these heroes Let it happen#especially if it was being produced during a time where they Should be there . im talking specifically about toby's spider-man i guess#since as you may or may not know . there was a SHORT LIVED promo for the first movie which included the twin towers#and i just checked and the original release date for it was SUPPOSED TO BE november 2001#so therefore i can say that he probably graduated in 2001 after the spring semester of high school and therefore was out of school .#9/11#spider-man#superman#sueprheroes#comics#mika-posts
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wikihow to tell your teacher you wouldnt be the person you are without his influence and support and he was a huge role model for you and his support and respect were part of what kept you at school when shit was rough and it was so important to you to have an older male authority figure who actually respected you as a person and listened to your problems without sounding like some weirdo freak
#i dont want to graduate without him knowing what hes done for me#but what if he thinks im Weird#boycritter et al
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(very old work) i was having brainrot over first year hksb
#im not too proud of this BUT !!#ITS RELEVANT TODAY !!!!!#i dont want them to graduate yet#i know i only got into enstars bc of engstars release#but dammit they had me by the neck#hidaka hokuto#akehoshi subaru#hokkesuba#hokusuba#enstars
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I have a love/hate relationship with reading. Because I do love to read, I always have. But also, it makes me feel very stupid, I feel like I'm barely literate. Like I can read the words and understand the story being told. But then I see people making connections and extrapolations, predicting things based on foreshadowing, etc. And it makes sense to me once it's explained, I can see where they got that, but I never in a million years would have come up with that myself.
And I keep trying to find ways to improve that, but all the advice I can find is "read as much as you can, in a variety of styles and genres," but I already do that. I've been reading anything I could get my hands on since I taught myself how to read at 4 years old. Obviously, that's not working.
#like#i think im just broken#i want to smart#i want to be able to make those connections and enjoy these works on a deeper level#but i just cant#i dont know if it has to do with the way my autism effects me#or if its just something about me and/or my family#after all my brother is the 'genius' of the family#and hes a high school dropout working construction#the really smart people in my family all married in or were adopted in#most of my family never graduated high school#those of us who did barely scraped by#my mother is the only one to have gotten a degree#and that was an associates degree she got at 55 years old#several of the classes she only passed because i was doing the work#or because she was taking classes related to a field she'd worked in for 25 years and was friends with the teachers#because they'd worked together at some point in the past#so they gave her credit for experience and whatnot#we are not a family of intellectuals#to put it mildly#i dont know#i just feel like theres something very wrong with me#like fundamentally#i think this is also why im not a better actor#if i dont understand the subtext i cant play it#and i cant understand the subtext because im stupid
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