#i dont know how else to cope with it

[newfeeling77]

im starting to accept the fact that i have a really hard time functioning sober and thats not good, and when i think about that i get scared that it means ill never be able to drink or do drugs again, which probably means that i definitely shouldn’t

[simmyfrobby]

― What Will You Do?, Rainer Maria Rilke

Hockey Poetry Post 43/?

(Photo credit: link, Nicole Fridling, Eric Hartline, link, Len Redkoles, Heather Barry, Kyle Ross, link, Andy Lewis, Andy Lewis, Andy Lewis, Kyle Ross, Len Redkoles, Len Redkoles, Kyle Ross, link)

[deoidesign]

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[daemon-in-my-head]

Fucking around with tyrants, shadows and undercuts. How bad could it be?

Also, this:

Brother I have no fucking idea what happened to him. He looked like Gort once. And then I revised it. And then I did it again. And then I added his new hairstyle. Anyway ig this is Skenver now and if someone wants to adopt him let me know.

[carnivalls]

good morning. thinking again of juve and her dog

[1nv1s1bl3-r41ndr0p5]

I haven't had any meetings with him for almost a month. because of stupid trips and other things. he can't move the appointment because it would upset other people and quite frankly I don't give a shit anymore. it's my only form of talking therapy in school now and all my other friends have had those meetings. he doesn't know about everything that's happened and I don't know if i can make it to next Wednesday without talking to him. this is so unfair man.

[todayisafridaynight]

Is that character gay? *points at Mine*

Allegedly.

[gxos]

i finished veilguard yesterday and i think ultimately i dont really know how to feel about it bcs on the one hand it has some pretty strong character writing and rook is my baby. on the other hand almost everything about how bioware decided to handle the world state both regarding previous decisions and the game's epilogue irritates me to no end in its laziness and outright disregard if not contempt for its own world

i also have a specific issue with the ending(s) where like. i dont think it was necessarily poorly written but it felt insanely abrupt compared to the literal tens of hours of build-up to that point (or for solavellans, 10 years nshgjdsk). in bioware's other games the finale is a long, drawn-out conclusion that ESPECIALLY for veilguard should feel like the grand culmination of everything you've worked towards but everything happens so fast once you actually get there that by the time the epilogue started rolling i just had a headache

[strwbrymlkshake]

who up praying for downfalls 🤨

[jinxed-ninjago]

You know what? I retract my previous statements about how Jay figured out he can use his abilities as a local anesthetic.

Context is important here, so bear with me. I went to the doctor on Tuesday primarily to establish care because I don't have a primary care doctor. While I had a lot of concerns, we only discussed two at that appointment, one of them being my joints, which are hypermobile and cause me some degree of pain (especially in my legs). I was told that because of my symptoms (hypermobility, soft skin, chronic joint pain, and joint instability being the ones we discussed), my presentation is similar to that of an Ehlers-Danlos syndrome patient, so my treatment for it would be similar to someone with diagnosed Ehlers-Danlos syndrome (basically how I see it is I was given a very loose diagnosis because my primary care doctor can't actually diagnose it).

Anyway, I don't remember if I ever specified it but I decided that Jay figured out he can use his powers as a local anesthetic due to a combination of being imprisoned by Nadakhan and my headcanon that he has epilepsy (the latter being relevant because I personally think that being electrokinetic means he can control the electrical impulses in his brain, thus his powers work as an anti-epileptic) but now that I've had it confirmed that I likely have EDS, why not give Jay the same thing?

So Jay learned how to use his powers as a local anesthetic because of chronic joint pain caused by hypermobility that eventually started interfering with his ability to be a ninja because his joints started to deteriorate as a result of his hypermobility. In addition to this he usually uses braces under his gi. Zane has tried to get him to stop using his powers as a local anesthetic because if he dislocates something he could very well not be able to move until the ability wears off, but he hasn't and every time he's told to he reminds Zane "That's what I use braces for, they're supposed to keep my joints stable so that doesn't happen!"

[puppy-boy-dot-gov]

i feel like i need to run really far into the woods as fast as i can

[tamagotchikgs]

looking at the scar on my arm everyday feels like a reminder im never going to be ok, im never going to be human i ruined it after all the years i held myself back i finally severed the line i had at any chance of one day belonging

[yanderespamton78]

hhngngggg why must i be doomed to forever be the Weird Kid who constantly needs things to be changed around so i dont have a meltdown and is terrified of most people and cant work in any loud or busy environments and has to be with someone i know all day or i will have a panic attack and hnnhnnghnghngggg

[halloweendeity]

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[goatanarchy]

Maric's pain is funny to me.

[mellotronmkll]

Having a horrible day my flight got cancelled and i now will have many hours of layovers and im very upset so you're going to see a lot of they might be giants on your dash today