#i dont want to be alive anymore
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Why don't I reply?
I think this is final straw. I couldn't take anymore and this is way more.
I don't wanna be alive in a world that this guy exists and mom doesn't.
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1nv1s1bl3-r41ndr0p5 · 8 days ago
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I haven't had any meetings with him for almost a month. because of stupid trips and other things. he can't move the appointment because it would upset other people and quite frankly I don't give a shit anymore. it's my only form of talking therapy in school now and all my other friends have had those meetings. he doesn't know about everything that's happened and I don't know if i can make it to next Wednesday without talking to him. this is so unfair man.
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skellogirl · 1 month ago
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lilac-set · 4 months ago
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Hey quick question what the fuck is wrong is with me and how can i make it go away
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transbian-vergil · 1 year ago
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guess who is spiraling again
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cozylittleartblog · 10 months ago
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the piece i made for the @stillalivezine back in 2021
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captainbobbin · 4 months ago
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happy birthday, saix
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bellelovesyou · 7 months ago
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                     터지는 synergy 딱 맞아 우린
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                     우리 뭐야 마치 heartris!ᯓ★
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leafatlaw · 25 days ago
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whatwver i dont even care about evbo becoming a god. i dont even care that it was another weight thrown upon him that he didnt ask for or want. I dont care that evbo is just constatnyl having to risk his life fighting for atitle he didnt even want and a world that didnt even want him. I dontcare that evbo was chose by the gods by people before who fucked up and left him to fix things. It doesnt matter that he just wantsto make things better but cant go back to just being him. I dont care that hes not human anymore. i dont
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skunkes · 4 months ago
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i know i'm just a faceless voice on the internet but like 95% of the important people in my life pretty much started their careers after 30- your 20s don't have to be a super crazy grindset affair and i think that way more people spend those years Figuring Things Out than any popular media would suggest
thank u...honestly i have felt better about this lately bc my dad (who is much older than the dads of anyone my age i know lol) told me that i'm still Young and Starting Out. it meant a lot from the perspective of someone his age....i think i just feel stressed bc my closest friends all had goals and dreams from the get go and are already moved out and in high paying jobs right out of their finished programs/degrees...meanwhile my Figuring Out Stage just keeps being more of. not figuring things out t_t
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wormchaser · 2 months ago
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you are complaining about complaining too much while complaining about the fact that maybe people dont like you because you complain too much while complaining about being alone. just stop complaining and do something about it. talk to people. reach out. dont just wait for someone to come to you first.
i have tried reaching out to different people in the past year or so but it never works. i understand its my own fault for letting relationships decay because of my own insecurities and issues but that doesn't mean i can just will myself to think or believe different things about myself. it's a self fulfilling prophecy ; i think people don't like me so i don't reach out so people don't like me etc . i am sure you do not want to hear me list all the things i want to say in response so i will put them in the tags.
#every time i try to reach out or talk to someone it goes nowhere. i dont have any social skills anymore and have no clue how to keep a#conversation going. half the time even when i do people stop replying to me. which is fine theydont owe me a reply but still feels likeshit#when i tried to make one new irl friend it just didn't work because they have better options for friends. we spoke occasionally but never#messaged online like ever and would only talk when we happened to be in the same place. i tried multiple times to organize a time to hangou#none of which came to pass. i dont understand why this one didn't work because i thought this person was interested in being my friend but#i guess i was wrong or thought they were more interested than they really were.#i have a problem with reaching out anyway which has been a problem i have had since i was like 11. reaching out to people first doesnt come#easily to me - in the beginning when i was a lot younger i didn't want to bother people with my presence & thought if i were to come to#someone first they would feel pressured into talking to me when they didn't want to. this is stupid of course. but has still not left me as#something i feel is very core to the way i act today. waiting for someone to come to me first feels like my only option because i do not#know how to reach out effectively (my evidence being i have failed every time i have tried) & i am convinced people dont like me in the#first place and do not want me to approach them.#i dont really even know who to reach out to in the first place. my world is extremely narrow. the number of people i know has shrunk#significantly and my standing in their eyes collectively has also shrunk significantly in the past few years. i feel like every person i#was once friends with wants nothing to do with me. i feel as if i have burned every bridge possible.#when it comes to the fact i complain all the time . which i know of course is annoying. its because i cant find any kind of joy in anything#i do or see or whatever. nothing makes me happy - i only see things to complain about. all stimulus seems grating and the world seems#specifically catered to make me miserable. all i can really do is complain. i treat this blog like a stream of consciousness and when most#of that consciousness is occupied with how much i hate being alive the blog will mostly be complaining. its a vicious cycle lol .#anyway . i guess the key theme is low self esteem begets low self esteem in many ways. mental illness begets mental illness.#i am not really saying this to anyone least of all to you anon. i just felt compelled to recount i guess for myself the reasons that came#to mind for why i am like this. i am talking to myself here
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themissingnumbers · 15 days ago
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[just as a quick little starry update for those i have interacts going on with- im going to prioritize finishing the current part of Descent i have going before i put my next replies out!
i do apologize to the two of you that like Just answered my asks- we will get to it though!! i just dont wanna bury Green n Descent completely under four diff rp chains,, but i do have answers drafted up for almost everything- its just delayed cus i wanna add images too but i need to focus all in on the current thing im doing for descent ^^']
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moruboru · 24 days ago
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having the time of my life rn
#im just gonna dump this here bc i srsly cant go with this anywhere else cause my veins are about to pop#going on bsky really making me realize that my art simply got carried by the algorithm and not bc ppl actually like it i feel lol#i crawl back to twt bc im so addicted to the notification pop up there at least there i can feel like i actually matter#everyone has been getting serotonin from bsky but for me it was the exact opposite most friends also dont care for bsky so im just alone#maybe its also just the realization that perhaps there is nothing left for me on this earth#i put so much of my selfworth into the stupid numbers online and now im paying the price for it#my mental health is so bad rn i cant go a single day without feeling like i wanna end it today or i wont live past my 30s nor that i even#WANT TO live past my 30s my passions are gone dont have goals in life anymore like whats even the point maybe this really is the final#nail in the coffin for me lol i dont even think anyone cares for me beyond a personal surface level not even my family im so done with lif#im so eaten up by jealousy in every aspect of my life and i have had to bottle it up for so long bc nobody actually gives a shit even if i#openly talked about it to whoever how its making me miserable but its always the “just think about the good in life :)” there is none#i honestly wished for several years i shouldve been dead or at least not exist physically anymore and it was only the clout online that kep#me alive for better or worse but now im starting to believe this was all jsut lies too lol ngl i just wanna crawl into a hole and never ge#back out of it anymore i dont think anyone would even miss me anyways lol
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low-poly-leon · 2 years ago
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Woah, slow down babe!
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opens-up-4-nobody · 8 months ago
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#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing#painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her#i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but#the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach#streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow#im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected#i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes#not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her#how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want#her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest#but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b#so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so#much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming#i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby#unrelated
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iowafashionweekbegins · 1 month ago
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the way people talk about alzheimers and dementia on here as if it's some magical angsty whump trope is disgusting. unless you have watched it murder some of your closest loved ones and ravage your entire family then you have no right to be romanticizing it like that. you all make me SICK. I HATE YOU! I HATE ALZHEIMERS! IT IS TAKING MY GREAT AUNT JAN AWAY FROM ME, IT IS MURDERING HER, AND I JUST HAVE TO SIT BACK AND WATCH FANDOM BLOGGERS POST ABOUT HOW IT'S SO ANGSTY FOR THEIR STUPID SHIP TROPES. KEEP YOUR FILTH OUT OF THE TAGS THAT ARE SUPPOSED TO BE FOR AWARENESS. i pray you never have to suffer through the slow death of your family and friends. you are lucky to have the privilege to be talking about it like it's just a plot device. i wish i could be as naive as you are. i wish my family was still whole. i wish i could have aunt jan back. i wish i could take her place. it's just not fair. it has never, ever, EVER been fair.
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