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disastercit · 1 year ago

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oh god there's more of them

#camp camp #i dont even know how long its been man #im in a weird ass headspace rn and i just keep drawing Little Guys #funko pops if they were good

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umblrspectrum · 2 months ago

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happy solvermas

#cause t. no actually if christ is the son of god and the solver is god then it'd be like uzimas #quick sketch i pulled out of my ass yesterday to see if i could get myself out of art block/burnout/whatever ive got going on #v was added after cause i had no idea how to work her into the scene #implied nuziv or something look man im just desperate about this ship #and i dont know how to draw fluff or whatever #im so bad at romance i dont know how to express it #but i've been desperately trying to draw nuziv for the past months #i think this is actually like some of my best linework yet im really satisfied with everything right now #been a long time since i've felt that #turns out the “stop overthinking every pixel of the expressions and just draw the approximation the audience will get the jist” approach wo #ks #something something n is the star of their life. tree light chrismtas #it is taking. All of my restraint right now #to not be So Mean to all of you #You Don't Even Know #I Could Do Something. I Might Still.#art #murder drones #murder drones uzi #uzi doorman #murder drones n #serial designation n #murder drones v #serial designation v #murder drones cyn #i need liam to explain whether cyn and the solver are the same person already so i can tag them appropriately its driving me nuts #oh yeah cyn got a plush core to chew on by the way #the idea of giving her a chew toy was rolling around in my head and i think its a very funny visual so here we are

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xxcrumbxx · 7 days ago

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Hello hello soo um im still workin on it ,ive been kinda burnt out from it an ik thers no real preshure and im wayyy past valintinse day but heres a wip of those silly lil valintines cards

Also today is my birth day im 22 now so .. Thats a thing. Anyway im planing on making like 3 alternet vershions of eclips 1 with the cannon tipical 2 arm pre decomishion desighn 1 with the 4 armed fannon /cannon design and 1 with the 4 armed ballone world desighn. Probly ganna take a bit but what ever it will be valintine in fuckin may who cares lol

#fnaf fanart #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf moon #fnaf sun #moondrop #fnaf eclipse #I shoulda went to bed sooner i acctuly have plans today ill be fine witj an houer of sleep hopefully i dont ruin my own party by being a #Insomneac #fuck im just waistin time i need to sleep but i could also stay up and just party rockers in the house to night my way threw #Im prett good at it but also my brain hit anouther developmental phase and o know ill probly sleep for 15 houers or more affter i finaly #Crash an i sapose to drink with my friend an have a lil party with them tonight #Fuck this is the most eventfull b day ive ever had hopefully i dont cry like i do every year idk why but i always cray on my birth day and #Cristmas #Lol why ru still reading this are you curious #Well hello there you silly fool im suprised anyone would make it down here like tbh i dont even think someone would even check the tags let #Alone read this far tbh im so confadent i think ill dox my self for fun #Are you redy im ganna do it #Get out a pen an paper okay #So here we go #I live in #Hahhahah bro why are u still fuckin here #I cant even spell oh shit fuck im a wizzerd now yah see that i turnd in to a spell casting wizzerd and youre just sitting there probly on #The toilet or a train or summin reading the tags on this nouthing burger of a post #Well any way its gettin late or early man idk its like 3:37 am and im tiyping this out #I gess were in the same bord borderline puthetic bote ?? Ship what ever fuck off i alredy said im a damb wizzerd in this hoe ?? That right #I said some fuckin who how whoe ? Like dude. Wtf anyyway fr fr i got milk thats been sitting on my night stand for maby an houer idk #I cant feel time anymore affter ... THE HORRORS #Anyway agin im acctuly ganna leave now have fun stay safe and uh thanks i gess for sticking arround have a lovely day and umm yah #So uh real quick why did u stay so long fr fr was it bc i was edging u with the whole doxing my self thing bc that was a joke tho i do get #The urge to so.e times .. Fuck im doin it agin

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lemon-wedges · 2 months ago

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Some process gifs of my paintings this year!

#the art of a lemon wedge #art process #man #i love painting #moat of my focus on these this year have just been committing to loosening up #vary my strokes and just not over working a painting?#most of that just means trying to keep as much of that first painting pass #since its has the biggest strokes and most energy when i lay it down #and also #NO ZOOMING IN #AHHHH #all this is painted with my seeing the entire piece and just working from big to medium then small #which is good cause u can keep track of details and what youve missed but it also feels like a huge mess for so long #at times its hard to see where ur even going #my favorite piece i think might be my otacon one #i didnt include him in here just cause that piece is like....3 layers?#it very much feels like those how to books that are like. circle. now draw the entire owl #BUT thats literally how i figured it out #1. base 2. simple clean 3. fine line detail #i do eventually want to do a full recording but the thing is #i just dont want to ......#ahaha #but i do #its just the idea of constantly being watched you know?#despite me wanting to share it....#anyways #TO NEXT YEAR #wonder what ill make #:D

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kacievvbbbb · 3 months ago

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Just one of the many great tragedies of Mishanks' relationship is that sometimes Shanks wants to feel wanted just as he is, that even beyond the strength he is worth the effort he is worth being loved and unfortunately that just isn't something Mihawk can offer him it's just not something he can do, not as he is now at least. That's a level of emotional maturity that he just does not possess to be able to disentangle the strength from the man that makes no sense to him. Strength is all there is. Shanks is a person, has a life outside of his strength, his power is just another aspect of who he is but for Mihawk strength is his whole person, if he is not strong then he is nothing. If shanks is not strong well then....he's nothing to him.

And God that's a lonely way to live.

#Man age 43 only friends 2 decade long situationship and his kids claims he's never been lonely more at 6 #the ways having known Perona allow Mihawk to engage in a healthier relationship with Shansk are just gold to me #Because I mantain the fact that young mishanks was very chaotic and some would characterize unhealthy #she teaches him to care for people outside of how well they could measure up to him in a fight #I dont know their relationship seems to make his life fuller kind of #like its implied that he only started his garden after Zoro left #Like he stops seeing the Humandrills as annoying pests and actually starts letting them help out with his garden #he letler use all his good wine to make sangria and adopt errant freaky bear cubs #he even fucking secretly planted cocoa trees (cause he's a fucking weirdo) just to make her favorite drink like come on #he just lets this shrill girl barge into his life and make a home there with minimal objection.#She makes his life full in ways that his relationship just couldnt Zoro. she is so essential to his growth as a character #(you know if oda focused on him longer than once every 12 years)#I love it #one piece #throwing thoughts to the void #dracule mihawk #op #hawkeye mihawk #akagami no shanks #mishanks #shanks #red haired shanks #akataka #mihawk x shanks #perona #perona one piece #ghost princess perona #goth family #goth fam #one piece goth fam

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pineappical · 2 years ago

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in light of tedtrent becoming so real, im also jumping on the tedtrent epilogue 😊

there's just no way ted wouldn't keep in touch with the others (and have weekly zoom meetings just like in the christmas special) and I just love the thought of the whole team having reunions once in a while.

and going back to trent's arc in s3, the sunflowers conversation, "And your daughter?" "She's never been happier." I think it could go the same for ted.. we've never really properly saw how henry felt about his dad being in london, it's always other people that told ted his son misses him, who's to say henry would rather see his dad happy because that in turn would make him happy too? he was there to win the whole thing, right? I just know ted’s story isn’t done yet when he still hasn’t learned to let others take care of him in return and who else to pair him with than the man who blew up his career because a man was nice to him (and also because they were so. so cruel for the fakeout tedbecca scenes for that finale) 🥺

I'm no writer so just pretend these are snapshots of a slow burn fic where ted visits london for their team reunion and slowly realizes that trent has a crush on him and they kiss about it 💛

#ted lasso #trent crimm #tedependent #ted lasso fanart #tedtrent #ted x trent #I HAVE SOOOOOO MUCH MORE THOUGHTS ABOUT THIS BTW its just that its 4am rn and i cannot type down my thoughts for the life of me </3 #im just so not over that ending and how weird it felt for ted to end his story like that.. not like he can turn back to michelle since #dr. jacob is right there.. i want this man to feel loved and cared for and actually have a place he knows he can call home and that was #richmond for me.. to the family we were born with. and to the family we make along the way etc etc etc #ted lasso spoilers #<- FORGOT ABOUT THAT.#i can finally say i loved the ending for all the callbacks and stuff but I NEED THIS MAN TO BE HELDDDD!!!!! *everything explodes around me*#he even went back there WITHOUT BEARD :( his bestfriend for sooo long who was there for all their ups and downs. i dont like beard and jane #being together but the fact ted didnt even go to their wedding too like ...??! what is going onnnn #also graying lasso is just something so indulgent for me . hush #pn.art #JUST YKNOW!!! I HOPE YALL UNDERSTAND WHAT IM SAYING ITS REALLY REALLY LATE I PROBABLY SHOULDVE WAITED TILL LATER TO POST THIS BUT JAHJVAKDG #my memory is really bad too so i could also be misremembering scenes and im too eepy to check the scenes i had in mind so u_u #ALSO apologies that its taking me sooo long to draw things i recently joined a mc server and ive been playing it all day and night HFSJGFSH #im sooo scared of making these type of posts because i dont have the balls to make the wrong choices in other people's eyes but GRAAH!!!!!#<- i love tedtrent bUT WHAT IF PEOPLE THINK IM CRINGGGEEEE!!!!!#THATS ALL.... i have more drawings in mind that ill get around to later.. for now goodnight <3

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aether-weather · 1 year ago

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SAGESUNE MIKU >:DDD

#i rise from the dead once again!!#sorry about the long periods of time in between me posting #school is absolutely kicking my ass right now and i havent had any time to draw the creatures :(#ive also just been feeling unsatisfied with my art as of late #its probably just too much time online looking at other peoples art making me feel bad about myself #even though im improving as fast as i can it doesnt feel like im getting any better #but i know from experience that that feeling doesnt go away with time #so i guess ill always see flaws in my art no matter how hard i try to get better #man. that got really depressing :/#anyways SAGE!!! i love her she is my favorite of all time and im going to draw her so much yall dont even KNOW :D #ive got tons of other stuff planned too so watch out >:3 #i could hit you guys with 6 paragraphs of au lore any day now #sonic the hedgehog #sage robotnik #AWWWHHHGG SHE HAS HER OWN LITTLE TAG IM SOBBING #anyways #sage sonic #hatsune miku #i guess #whoof im scared to post this #or maybe im just exhausted #probably both :/

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puppppppppy · 1 year ago

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adhd comix

#man i dont even have the energy to be mad. im just tired #like. dont u love it when your parents exhibit symptoms of ADHD and your sibling is diagnosed with a learning disability #and instead of thinking oh shit what if the other one has smth too. they subject you to The Horrors #i cant bring myself to hate my parents. but im tired of feeling obligated to defend them when the thing they think is working #isnt actually working and ive just found other ways to cope to avoid any sort of conflict. like lying and stealing. lol #if someone took me aside and said 'hey so your brain doesnt make as much dopamine as usual and its not a bad thing it just means you #need external stimulation and reward system to function and youre not actually secretly fucked up or lazy' as a kid #im pretty sure i wouldnt be here rn with half the problems i already have. unfortunately getting diagnosed late means u dont have a teacher #to back you up at a parent teacher conference that forces your parents to take this shit seriously instead of ignoring it hoping itll #go away on its own. but hey what do i know i have squirrel ipad baby disease. what do i know about my own symptoms #AND. AND i think im allowd to be mad bc ive been doing my own research on this for years before and after diagnosis #theyve been putting me thru the WORST parenting techniques on earth. which they could have corrected at anytime but they were #comfortable thinking they were doing it right and didnt bother to check if they were or werent fucking up their kid in the long run #and refusing to acknowledge it. i just!! they just decided one day hey lets make babies!! and just looked at books on how to make #a human being survive as long as possible!!! what the fuck!!!!#im sorry for putting this on ppls dashes but i am. so tired. of bottling this up. and im not looking for sympathy or anything i just need #to scream and clench my fists to SOMEONE about it because theyre not gonna take this well up the ass. sigh #yapping #vent

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slavhew · 1 year ago

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Hello!

If you're not too busy, would you mind listing some of the things you think count as death flags for Mr. Spender?

There's the obvious fact that he's the "old" mentor to group of young protagonists, but what else do you think would count?

OHH BOY ok so I'd think I'm a crackpot for this but since we're talking about Zack "Foreshadowing" Morrison. I have some thoughts

No harm in leading with the (chronologically) first thing that jumped out at me:

This one IMMEDIATELY made me antsy whenever I came back to it after my initial read, and considering Zack has referred to it on twitter in the past as one of their favorite jokes it's definitely not been forgotten about.

Second, the sheer amounts of near-misses, jokey or not, of Spender narrowly avoiding specifically lightning

Again, not much, but it's weird that it happened thrice, latter two of which had real gravitas rather than an one-off joke.

And third, Spender himself. He's repeatedly shown himself to be kind of a self sacrificing idiot, as well as prideful to a fault. Granted, it's both him and Mina trying to take on all the responsibility of saving Mayview and its inhabitants from their fate.. But Spender is exactly that right measure of doesn't-value-himself-enough (chest footprint aftercare or lack thereof), having an obscene amount of power (enables his loner act + pride) and poor judgement that has the capacity to put him at great risk. And it has!

Spender has not only shown low enough self-esteem to view himself as the de-facto scapegoat for the safety of the town, but also prideful enough to make very bad calls that end up in people, often himself, hurt (COUGH FORGE INCIDENT COUGH)

This is all conjecture, but it's definitely enough to make me worried about him :') Even if all this doesn't mean he'll necessarily die he's definitely getting (even more) seriously injured at some point. I love the guy but he's so far doing a horrible job of convincing me he wants to live bad enough to circumvent at least that

#not art #admin answers #paranatural #pnat #richard spender #pts-fic-notes-and-blog #before i continue on with tag ramble i just want to say tysm for leaving an ask!#none of my friends read this so ive been stewing on these thoughts for some months and i loved finally sharing them #this isn't exactly proof but the hijack possession seemingly being the final nail in the coffin for his and isabel's relationship.#idk it feels significant to me. thats one more tether to support kinda gone. someone who knows him well enough to know he's unwell #he seems not exactly content but fr incapable of not burning bridges as he is now. and considering how rashly he acts he REALLY needs those #to not do stupid shit all the god damn time with no buffer other than Lucifer. who for his measured approach to rick's hotheadedness #has honestly shown himself to be pretty lenient and kinda bad at controlling spender's more (self) destructive tendencies? so he dont count #to be clear i love spender to bits but he is dumb as rocks and has all the self preservation of a fruit fly. it needs to be said #also the lightning man... idk its WEIRD like especially on the reread its the thing that most consistently threatens him! it repeats #sure he gets chewed by a bat and banged up by forge but?? he somehow always comes back to lightning. catnine has it out for him #its something i didnt even really put together until i continued reading the flashback chapter AFTER getting this ask and went OHHHGNHF #which the only reason lightning is such a non issue is lucifer's powers. which belong to his sunglasses and not to the spirit in him #so its not like they can't be taken away he's just got a really good excuse for having those on all the time #TAGS GETTING SO LONG. ANYWAYS. i hope this is comprehensible lol

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kooki914 · 9 months ago

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Spadesgorudy shipper has returned! (I got this idea from the incorrect quote person)

Rudy, watching Asgore and Spade from afar: Two Bros, Chillin in a hot tub. Five feet apart because they think they’re not gay, BUT THEY REALLY ARE-

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Rudy: And now for a gay update with Asgore and Spade.

Asgore: Getting gayer.

Rudy: Thank you, Asgore.

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Asgore: Hi, sorry I’m late. I was doing a couple of things and got distracted.

Rudy: I’m “a couple of things”.

Spade: I’m “got distracted”.

(They actually did him-)

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Rudy: Who do we know that has handcuffs?

Spade: Well Asgore and I-

Asgore: *elbows Spade*

Spade: ...wouldn't know.

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Asgore: Why do you let me win when we race up the stairs? You’re the faster one.

Rudy: Erm... it’s nice see your smile when you win!

*later*

Asgore: He’s probably just staring at my ass, isn’t he?

Spade: Yeah, probably.

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Asgore, laying between spade and Rudy: I have found the meaning of life

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— ♠️🌸❄️

I'm sorry it took 12 billion years for me to get back to answering asks please accept my humble spadesgorudy donations

#deltarune #asks #drawings #asgore #spade #asgore dreemurr #king of spades #spade king #spadesgore #spadesgorudy #king spade #rudy holiday #least organised tags ever i dont even care #again i apologise for how long it took to answer these ya mans been busy by some fuckin miracle #i didnt think i had a life yet here we are #anyway. i find the implication that rudy doesnt know about spade and asgores Special Bedroom Activities extremely funny #could you imagine being in a thruple and finding out like a year in that your boyfriend and a half have been having crazy kinky sex behind #behind your back??????? id lose my fucking MIND #though. i personally dont think rudys the overly experimental type. hed probably think its weird as fuck but Then Again #i am a resident rudy hater so please correct me if my assumption of his tastes is wrong or you disagree etc etc #once again i personally dont ship asgorudy however asgore has two hands and deserves every man he can get #long post

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v7n5 · 2 months ago

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Whenever I think about slutty bottom Howard I become an 𝖆𝖓𝖎𝖒𝖆𝖑.

Like he didn’t act like a CEO cunt and serve this much bitch and try to fuck both the McGill brothers and every one of his colleagues while his marriage with a beautiful woman was on the rocks just to be called “top” and “dom” or seen as no more than a goody two shoes. That’s bleak asf to me.

#imagine me ripping my shirt off like those werewolf memes #I just think that he deserves a really good d!cking down all the time #its just perfect harmony the way he takes pleasure in pleasing but also craves to be dominated. and have the depression fvcked out him #you know I’m right #also dont even get me started on power bottom/ brat Howard. it will literally rot your ears off #howard hamlin #call it immaculate conception the way I’m about to get this man pregnant.#you don’t know how long this has been sitting in the drafts

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neon--nightmare · 4 months ago

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forest fire by ajj is SUCH a loveball fresh song to me bro

#NO ENERGY TO GO INTO DETAIL RN I MIGHT LATER IF ANYBODYS INTERESTED BUT!!! ITS A SHORT SONG #^ THIS WAS A LIE HELLO NEW FOLLOWERS FROM GARFIELD IM HERE TO RANT ABT AN EIGHT YEAR OLD PARTIALLY LOST ROLEPLAY VERY FEW PPL EVEN REMEMBER #YEARS IVE BEEN INSANE ABT FRESH- EIGHT AND COUNTIN #LOVEBALL FRESH U ARE SO TRAGIC TO ME FOREVER. thinks abt fresh tryin so so hard not to dwell on pacifrisk even when hes #universes and universes away #sometimes i think abt fresh 2.0 too dude he ties so much of his existence to bein BETTER than fresh. stronger better n in control #but man. he doesnt know bc he was never tested. he hadnt been around for anywhere near as long as fresh how long until he finds his own #version of pacifrisk #knowin if he slips up theres gonna be a fresh 3.0.. and he doesnt care bc he CANT care but fresh was made to be emotionless too #SOOO sooo many thoughts on both their emotionlessness affectin how they both see the world too #freshposting #chat #loveball #like bro imagine for literally all of ur life up to this point the only way u could feel even a shell of what other ppl call happiness is by #doin what u were made for. ur one reason for existin and ur only way for survival which is causin pain and possessing and hurtin people who #ur convinced and know would do the same to u in a heartbeat bc why wouldnt they? thats just how ppl work if theyre smart #and if they dont? if they like u? if they think they can know u or understand u? they think the world can be kind? then theyre stupid #or lyin to try and kill u bc why wouldnt they? theyre all strikes against u when ur every move is bein watched waitin for a tiny slip up so #u can be erased ETC LIKE .. MAN . fesh sands -> 👾🛹#AND ILL ALWAYS BE THE NUMBER 1 PROPONENT THAT HE CAN GET BETTER!!! HE CAN!!! HE CAN HEAL N MAKE FRIENDS N ACTUALLY . LIVE HE JUST DOESNT #*WANT* TO and also with the situation hes currently in makin it a billion times harder #the one loveball line abt him sayin hes not even ‘LUCKY’ enough to be a human or monster and have the lives they do makes me into the joker #INCOHERENT BUT IM SENDIN IT ANYWAYS BRO HIT POST!!!!! fresh u will always be famous and so so so tragic to me #he doesnt believe that he deserves a chance and sees that as objective truth LIKE OUH. in hindsight this could have been a post but

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riiviir · 3 months ago

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hey guys so I just started reading Flatland by Edwin A. Abbott and OMG AHSBNSBSBSNSNBSHZHSHDBFHGGHFHGRJ2KSHSBSNSK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I LOVE THINKING ABOUT THE RELATIVITY BETWEEN DIMENSIONS!!!!!!

#probably the nerdiest thing i will ever read in my entire life but I AM SO HAPPY #Its the unabridged and corrected 1992 republication btw. if you wanna get specific #the only book in which i have actually decided to read the introductory notes and i do NOT regret it because the editor's one IMMEDIATELY #brought up the “oh but surely the second dimension has thickness how else would flatlanders see anything” AND GAVE A REALLY GOOD ANSWER.#which i cannot tell you here. bc it is several paragraphs long and idk how i would shorten it. i would hit tag limit. if thats a thing.#anyways. I'm only a little bit into the first part which basically explains how Flatland works as a society so i haven't even gotten to the #sphere yet but OH MAN I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO EXCITED ABOUT A ROUND OBJECT IN MY LIFE #IM LOSING IT OVER THIS BOOK AAAA :D #me: im so glad i dont have a math class during my senior year! now i dont have to learn anything math-related!#also me: but what if i started studying a complex and almost entirely theoretical part of geometry #bc YEAH i didn't just buy this book bc of gravity falls. I BOUGHT IT BC IVE BEEN RESEARCHING THE 4TH DIMENSION WOOOOOOO!!!!!#one thing i will say i dont like. introductory note suggests the the 4th dimension might be time. this is ok tho bc its followed up with #also saying that time is not a spatial dimension and exist across the 0 1st 2nd and 3rd dimensions which. that epuld mean we live in 4d #already. so. i was worried for a second but THANK YOU THANK YOU OH MY GOD PEOPLE TRYING TO SAY “OH THE 4TH DIMENSION IS TIME” I HATE THAT SO #MUCH AAAAGGHHHH AT LEAST RECOGNIZE ITS NOT SPATIAL!!! TIME IS NOT A SPATIAL DIMENSION!!!!!!! IF IT WAS THEN 4D TRAVEL AND TIME TRAVEL WPULD #BE FHE SAME THING AND DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY MUCH COOLER POSSIBILITIES WPULD BE THROWN AWAY IF THAT WAS THAT CASE!!!!! AND. AND. IF THE 4TH #DIMENSION IS TIME. THEN WHATS THE 5TH?? 6TH?? YPU CANT KEEP GOINF ON FOREVER LIKE THAT. YPURE JUST MAKEING MORE 3D WORLSS WITH STUFF IN #ADDITION TO TIME. INTERESTING BUT THAY IS NOT ABOHT HIGHRER DIEMSBSJSNSBAKAJSHDHDHHDHDHDJ #sorry for the rant. jsut. agh i want a spatial 4th dimension. i dont think tesseracts exist through time that would just be an aged cube #anyways yeahhh i love the 4th dimension. new hyperfixation or new special interest? ill have to wait and see. anyways i have done it i have #an oc whos 4 dimensional now and she is the coolest ever i love her #but yeah this book is sosososo good i am literally gonna bring it to school to read instead of draw bc i would lose it if i didn't #10/10 would recommend to anyone who wants to Think

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jrueships · 7 months ago

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guess whos not going in at all this week, actually

#MY MANAGER EMAILED LIKE 2 HOURS B4 I HAD TO GO IN #she finally changed my schedule (1 day) to the night shift today #(i emailed her to be safe just kinda casually reaffirming im going in at the new time & then asking if any other shifts wanted 2 be changed #bcs that sounds great to me whstever option she goes with #she ignored that question & i get a new email from her asking if i completed a training. lets called it DOC #basically a long time ago she said 'i will send you DOC instructions soon' .. a few days pass and i get three 50 paged packets #one is called NAVIGATING DOC #im like oh ok cool that must be the DOC training shes talking abt bcs the other 2 packets were abt various trainings #NAH BRUH. APPARENTLY THE DAY IM SUPPOSED TO GO IN. SHE MESSAGES ME SOME ENTIRELY ALIEN PROGRAM #and is like 'u completed this right? cus if u didnt u cant come in today.'#LIKE?? MAYBE I WOULDA IF U SENT THE SHIT #but it's also like. dam i shouldve emailed prompting her to send what she said she would n clarifying BUT FUCK #WHY DO I GOTTA?? IM NOT THE MANAGER #she literally told me the name of the program rn thru email so i type it in and see like four hour long modules to complete #mind u i aint never even been informed a WHISPER abt this new program. nothings even labeled DOC TRAINING #but my struggle is. was i notified this?? and i just didnt see??? was i supposed to clarify with her what the DOC training was exactly??#the only thing ive heard abt doc training b4 this is 'i need to send u DOC training soon' in EMAIL. so i expected an alert #abt THE DOC TRAINING... in an EMAIL notification. WHAT THE HELL IS THIS #idk man #i dont even care bro like im busy as hell & the work is just to build clinic hours so i dont care abt the money factor #it's just like. can we get this first day jitters thing over with already?? im so over this bro #yaddayadda i emailed her an apology n ill be on that ASAP shit. but i did let her know i am basically justnnow seeing this site #n if there was any email or notif that couldve/tried to inform me of its existence 2 pls let me know / figure out how to find it #so the issue doesnt occur again & i dont have to keep botherinher which im so srry of bcs med is stress n shes just trying to get by #but still bro im a lil miffed bcs she probably thinks im stupid now and now im wondering if i AM #bcs WDYM ONLINE MODULES. AINT NOBODY SAID SH IT EVEN ABT THE EXISTENCE OF THEM!!! i wouldve pressed harder 4 clarification #if i knew it was an ONLINE MODULE i had to look out for on some randomass site i didnt even know the name of until now #instead of the EMAIL UVE BEEN 'COMMUNICATING' WITH ME ON #ARREGHHHHHHHH IM NOT STUPID. I SWEAR IM NOT STUPID FUCCK MY BAKA LIFE

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graceful-not · 1 year ago

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No actually all of you need to sit your asses down bc I just watched the legacy shorts and. HOW HAVE I NEVER HEARD ANYONE SAY ANYTHING ABT THEM OTHER THAN GOLDEN HOUR AND SWEATING TO THE GOLDIES???? HOW HAS NO INE SAID A SINGLE THING ABOUT THE GOLDEN LEGEND SHORT?? OR THE ANIMATION STYLE OF GOLD RUSH???? I could have gone my whole life without watching those do you understand that. Why are we, as a fandom, not taking about these more, or like, AT ALL. we should be insane about this. We should be insane about this, right??? RIGHT??????

#ninjago #ninjago shorts #ninjago legacy shorts #ninjago golden legend #golden legend #legacy shorts #ninjago gold rush #*heartbroken gf voice* ninjago fandom... i feel like i dont even know u anymore.... u never tell me anything.... whats wrong babe...#i know it aired durinh seabound (i think?) but come ON guys its been so long why is no one capitalizing on this #windows into everything Ninjago could have been but wasnt. im literally a changed man now do u get it im never gonna be normal again #how am i supposed to just sleep after this #seriously though why did they go so hard. genuinely. why would they do this to me #why would they create something so good that im devastated by its impossibility of ever coming to fruition

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jackhammerhim · 1 month ago

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Sad to say that I WAS a crazy ex girlfriend. But being crazy isn't what made me a crazy ex girlfriend. Being a GIRLFRIEND made me a crazy ex girlfriend.

#does that even make sense #crazy ex girlfriend #LMAO WHY IS THAT A TAG #but yes that man made me into the worst version of myself. and it benefited everyone but me #except for my best friend who i sadly caused suffering #F in the chat for My Best Friend #I'm really sad because i know that this was a traumatic experience and that ive been permanently changed.#it may not seem like it from the outside but on the inside I'm so angry and sad #BOTH. At the same time. i never used to be angry #i dont miss who i was but i feel Crazy sometimes. i wasnt capable of this much jealousy before. these feelings are alien to me #i took a bite of the FORBIDDEN FRUIT (being completely open and vulnerable with abother person) and now i am capable of sin #sin being the normal human emotions i previously did not have access to #as well as some new forms of ocd #anyone else got the ROCD and scrupulosity OCD? Because i did. never let that happen to me again #ugh ugh ugh #for an aromantic guy i sure know how to. fag it up.#ive reached the point where i no longer miss the person he used to be BEFORE he stopped being nice to me #i miss stuff about myself #i feel meaner now i feel more defensive i feel less understanding i feel like my empathy gland is clogged #i hate that i cant recognise myself. i used to be PURE and INNOCENT like a LAMB #but now im not good enough to sacrifice anymore #your god would not be satisfied #love and affection can be expressed as long as its not reciprocated.

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