#i don’t want them to have to grieve me

[acutabovetherest]

I can’t wait to join my love in death 🥰

[angelnumber27]

It’s so embarrassing and heartbreaking being in so much pain over losing someone while knowing they don’t give a fuck if you live or die. Your favorite person becoming a stranger is a special kind of hell.

[angelmush]

the other day i walked around the golden lake w my love and the sun was setting hot and orange and we watched a brown duck preening through the weeds, ducking her head under the dark water. the cool lake swallowed up my tired feet to the ankles and we counted the dog walkers with their curly panting doodles and their handsome german shepherds and their whip smart little terriers and we admired the careful construction of a sand castle whose moat held determinedly against the lapping of the waves. we could feel in our chests the persistent thunderous thumping of celebratory music at the finish line of the lakeside 5k, welcoming each gasping runner across its bounds. and i felt like crying. i felt like curling into myself and crying. we walked through the swamp of the bird sanctuary afterwards and listened to the woods sing and croak and groan and then we went and got ube and yuzu gelato and devoured it suntired and sweating on the couch in our living room. and i was so overcome w a deep and true unshakeable happiness and a sort of confused grief that i wanted to sob and sob and sob.

[whatsjulietslastname]

if i see any more Chloe hate i’m going to fucking explode. i’m not even kidding this makes me physically ill i’m going to create a fucking uQuiz about Chloe Price’s character and if you get a bad score you officially do not understand her character and has no right to talk about her whatsoever because you cannot just……say shit like « yeah duh of course i chose Arcadia Bay over her she was so dramatic and annoying and so mean omg 🙄🙄🙄 » i’m coming for you. like you can chose Arcadia Bay it’s a choice based game but if you did it because ‘Chloe was such a meanie 😓’ OH MY GOD. i’m. aidiaoisoz. can someone plz stop me i’m going to jump off a roof /j

[alexturner2005]

yesterday my parents brought home a new dog without telling me first, knowing that i’m not ready for another dog yet after the death of my last one 🙃

[danothan]

tough pill i have to swallow is realizing that “getting better” doesn’t mean “getting to do more things,” getting better for me means taking better initiative in protecting myself. and THAT means making sure i do LESS things

[the-broken-pen]

Quotes from me, exhausted and grieving:

“They go to sleepy town and I have much real estate”

“Yeah so I’m actually going to go up to the roof and I’m gonna descend in non traditional methods”

*At three am* “hey do u wanna hear about Batman and all his robins completely in depth curated entirely off of fan media and not at all based on source material since I have not read it? Cool! Okay! So basically—“

“Science is like oh this is so interesting!!! I want to die”

*sobbing and hyperventilating in the corner*: “I’m so sorry I’m being such a bummer right now I’m trying but I can’t stop crying

Roommate, horrified: what no-

“So I forgot I had a presentation and remembered I had a presentation but only remembered at two am so I wrote an incomprehensible script and raw dogged that shit four hours later no slides no practice just me god and the Dr Pepper I chugged. And yk what. I killed that shit.”

“I have a sort of manic depressed aura that draws in English teachers and compels them to let me do whatever the fuck I want. I’m not complaining but ethically is it ok for me to continue to be a sad wet cat in the eyes of humanities professors??”

“When you apply for college conceivably could you list only fans as an extracurricular. Like there are a lot of very specific scenarios that would need to happen regarding laws and age but like I feel it demonstrates certain business and entrepreneurship that could be a good addition to a college app.”

“I relate to Peter Parker in a sad, desperate sort of way. Like can I earn some super powers to go with this trauma. Please.”

Friend: how tf are you still showing pneumonia symptoms

Me: I feel we’ve established I am cursed

“See I already cried three times today so I’m gonna spend the next two days not processing any of my emotions in a dissociative haze and there is nothing that will mitigate that. I’m out of Mac and cheese cups.”

Me: So I stuck a cow to our next door neighbors door because I’ve got a sibling rivalry with one of them now—

Roommate: when did this happen?

Me: idk like 1am you gotta keep up bro

“My roommates go to sleep at normal hours and then I am up at three am and it’s like I am so sorry I am not awake because of an assignment I am just like this.”

“The doctors keep trying to fix me and it’s not working. My body has decided it doesn’t want to digest things again and also I stopped sleeping which means I think I’m becoming god maybe.”

[tabithatwo]

Saying that someone not liking elements of something means they want a happy ending or are anti tragedy or anti twisted shit is mmmm a big old logical leap!! I guess some people watch yellowjackets and don’t want tragedy but uhhh idk I have yet to see them have yellowjackets obsessions (not saying it isn’t possible just! seems very much less common!)

I (and many other people who didn’t like elements of this season or it’s approach to shit) gobbled the tragedy the fuck up s1! I was actually sitting at the proverbial table banging my proverbial knife and fork with a proverbial empty plate for the first half of s2 chanting fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck it up!

People having narrative critiques of HOW they did dark shit are not automatically ANTI dark shit lmao like I actually think that the reason much of it doesn’t hit for me personally is the lack of agency/the accidental nature of the tragedies. Like. I want more fucked up shit ACTUALLY. I want tragedy that doesn’t feel corny as fuck in execution. You can very much hate the way nats death and the hunts etc etc were done BECAUSE you don’t feel like they executed the level of psychological horror s1 promised! Also you can love it! Or you can be in between! Or you can not care! But like consolidating any criticism of unhappy story lines with doesn’t like dark shit is a wild oversimplification.

I know people feel reactive and defensive of things they love!! But it’s okay to not agree with someone’s take and ignore it. It’s also okay to engage with it! But like, dismissing any criticism with a weird idk you people don’t like/understand horror/sad shit party line is the worst kind of engaging, because you’re not actually engaging you’re just going out of your way to dismiss without taking what they’re really saying into account!

[hsslilly-blog]

hollywood u never specified what addison’s mother is sick with, or if it’s terminal; just that she’s really sick, right? rather, that she has been really sick (for a while). personally, i’ve always read it as if it were terminal. lmao not surprising. anyway you know what that means *hits her with dead parent beam*

[im-still-watching-anime]

man does anyone else just constantly forget neji died?? i was rewatching the war arc and got to it like HUH OH YEAH like i remember shikaku and inoichi more than him because i just didn’t like the writing for his and repressed it too much so now whenever i see any reference to it my brain blue screens for like 20 seconds straight

[curseddistinguishedly]

Saw a post about potentially separating Life!False into a third twin from HC! and E!False and how will we call the third one since these are called True and False and it kind of pissed me off because nowhere in the Empires are neither Falses called True, Truesymmetry is a camera account and literally never had any lore and a set of identical triplets is fucking insane

Also: if she was a twin how would she get into the life series, does HC!False just chuck her through a portal too? Is she just there? She remembers everything or also has amnesia??

I want to see HC!False experiencing the horrors, not someone who potentially doesn’t remember or know anything, I Need to see HC!False cowarding around and being a bastard and putting her life above everyone else’s, I want to see her die embarrassingly and then be angry at herself for the rest of the session about it, I really really want to see her dyke out 😔

Also i understand that her Empires lore was cool, but you really don’t need to make everything about HC!False lore(?) and potential Life!False about her and being twins and blood relations, I love her and am insane about her but I’m afraid False was the first one to let go of that whole thing, and I think we should separate the whole thing at least a little bit

[acutabovetherest]

When I’m finally able to say goodbye my heart will swell and sing with such ardent peace.

Until then I will tear myself apart with guilt for what I’m going to do to my loved ones. And beg god to kill me so I don’t have to. 💔

[lucielovekj]

My aunt is making memory boxes for her kids and grandkids with things like her fav perfume she always wears, voice recordings, birthday cards for the next 20+ years, etc (beautiful wonderful that’s gonna mean the world to them) and she’s asked me to do drawings of the sweets they have when they go to see her to also go in there which is so sweet and I’m honoured beyond belief and also. Terrified.

[jackietaylorsghost]

Just saw someone call how they dealt with the pregnancy storyline cheap melodrama and as someone who wasnt 100% sold on it before, this changed my mind I actually think it's perfect

wouldn’t be surprised if the person who said that also is complaining that the drugging shauna so they could take and eat her baby raw scene wasn’t real…

[fandom-fae]

i hate this feeling. the only way i can get myself to stop crying is by distracting myself but as soon as the distraction is gone the tears return. i can’t fucking do this. my skin is burning and my eyes feel dried out and my soul wants to give up. i can’t fucking do this

[thatsreallygay]

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