#i did it scared

[mysdrymmumbles]

I have really needed a good day for a while, and today was that day.

For the last three nights, I've been praying to the powers that be that I could be brave enough to take the test, because I figured even if I failed, at least I would have the experience and understand what I needed to work towards.

I drove 45 minutes out to another town on Wednesday, down highways and merging and doing all that stuff perfectly and I was like, "I can do this."

And then that DMV is closed because the DMV is apparently only currently has 540 people for the WHOLE state of 10 million people.

I did not know that at the time, and went to my city's DMV. Which was already booked solid.

So day two rolls in and I was telling myself I could be brave again and hoping I wouldn't chicken out. I went earlier to my DMV and the line was already so long at 10:30 AM that I was like, I will try another town, and went to another small town only to find that their DMV was also closed.

So I was looking at it and I decided that today I would just extend my permit and then schedule an appointment for December to get my license. That I would practice driving and get better at it and be ready come December, but I really wanted to make sure I could secure my ID before November (which I know is a ways off, but I have anxiety).

But then while I was waiting in line, the woman in front of me was also there to get a license and she asked someone else who took the test what it was like and then told the person she was with what she'd heard.

So I asked her more about it and the test sounded really short and pretty easy.

So I decided to try it, because if I failed, I could still get my permit renewed.

And I messed up a LOT. Like, when we were done, the woman testing me was like, "You did...okay. There is a LOT you need to work on. But you did okay."

And I was like, omg is 'okay' passing???? But I was too nervous to ask her so I just kind of stood there nodding through all the stuff she said I needed to work on, and then she had me check the screen to make sure everything was accurate and it was for a license not a permit and I just

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I have a license :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

While I was driving, there was even a crazy driver that was doing a U turn and then decided to not do it and come down the wrong side of the road and I managed to stop and not get in an accident, so even with my inability to reach the speed limit because fast speeds terrify me, I still passed!

[bookwyrminspiration]

god I would be UNSTOPPABLE if I was capable of consistently initiating tasks. just you wait. you'll be waiting a while but just you wait

[spookygibberish]

OK SO I WAS WALKING DOWN THE STREET IN THE RAIN AT 2AM AND I SAW AN ANIMAL RUNNING DOWN THE ROAD AND SO I GRABBED IT AND

IT WAS THIS

[indigo6f00ff]

need to share an experience i had 30 minutes ago

(edit: thanks to @walks-the-ages for providing and reminding me to put alt text, sorry it slips my mind alot lol)

[souporsaladnatural]

Obsessed with the sudden shift in Cas' willingness to say insane romantic shit to dean in season 8. A couple of seasons ago, he would tell dean that they had a profound bond to his face. That everything he did, he did for Dean. Now? He's hesitating. He clenches his fists to avoid hugging Dean back in purgatory. He stutters and looks away before saying he stayed away from Dean to protect him. When asked what broke through heaven's brainwashing, he looks away and says he doesn't know. It's so interesting to me

[klaunee]

I drew this over a year ago but I guess now is the time to post it.

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

"You and me, Ethan. Together we go save Rose, and then we can grind Miranda into paste!"

[inkskinned]

we were sitting on the floor and i was cutting out tiny pictures to make a collage for a friend's birthday. you were on your phone and you laughed about something, and i was still in love with you then, so i asked what had you giggling.

"sorry. i was just..." you took a moment and went back to texting. "i was telling someone about how you're afraid of the dark."

i'm afraid of the dark because something bad happened. "oh." i felt a little slinky of shame crawl down my throat.

you glanced up, and maybe it showed on my face, because you rolled your eyes and held the phone to the side casually so i could see the group chat. "what? was it a secret?"

i looked down to the scissors in my hand. "i just..." no, it's not a secret. it just felt like something private, something serious. saying why would you tell someone that just feels like an accusation. it's unfair. i honestly am not even ashamed of it, it's just a fact about my person that i don't usually share.

what a strange experience. is this a human thing or a generational thing? for our grandparents: did they need to worry about how quickly someone can just... share your personal information? again, i didn't even really have a true objection. what could i say? i want any person in my life to feel they can be honest with their friends. it's not like i said don't tell anyone this.

i cut out another letter to complete the rainbow happy birthday, started hunting for the exclamation mark. i heard you sigh dramatically.

"don't make a big deal about this," you said.

this entire conversation was a pattern for us, and this was when we got to my least favorite part of the pattern. i would get my feelings hurt in some oblique not-technically-terrible way, and then it would be making a big deal about something. you'd get frustrated for me for being soft, but i was born soft. you knew i was soft when you pierced me. it's one of the things that made controlling me so easy.

"i'm not," i felt my voice crack. the question came without my wanting. "why are you guys talking about me?" and why are you saying that thing? why not like - i'm telling them how you're generous and kind and pretty.

you let out this low, tragic groan. "oh my god." you tossed the phone away from your body. "there, see? i just won't talk to them if you don't like it."

the rest of the hour went the way it always went, between us: i said i don't actually mind if you talk to your friends but -, you found a way to call my minor expression of discomfort "being dramatic." you got upset that i had been offended. i ended up apologizing, even though i hadn't actually done anything.

afterwards, you picked up the phone again. after texting for a little bit, you snorted. "okay," you said, "but it is kind of funny you're afraid of the dark. i mean, when you think about it."

[birdiegray01]

Bruce gets Damian legos because he’s trying to connect with him and the two end up completely missing patrol because they were to busy building all of Gotham with the legos

[teaboot]

Ollie is 8 weeks old tomorrow and we have made an important discovery:

HIM LIKE BOWLING

[potato-lord-but-not]

FIRE4FUN

[m4g0hun]

lost child

[ruintheearth]

how to order online

1. select items.

2. proceed to checkout.

3. immediately forget who you are, where you live, and what you ordered. panic.

4. confirm payment

[chewaai]

As Welcome to Night Vale is gaining another burst of popularity, I do wish to send out a warning to people who are very sensitive to psychotic episodes: be careful if you want to listen to it

If you're the type of person who has #unreality blacklisted, don't listen to too many episodes in a row/maybe avoid it all together?

Stay safe <3

[hinamie]

august

[gunstellations]

safety first! 🏍️🏍️