#i completely respect the boundary and i get that emotions are hard to control but Holy Shit

[hershelwidget]

The “worst day of my life” keeps fucking happening over and over again what do you MEAN I almost broke my toe and now I have to AUDITION, VOICE LESSON, COOK, AND ASSEMBLE A COSTUME …

[gingernut1314]

Touch Me and I'll Break Your Hand

Jotaro Kujo x GN!Reader

Summary: How part 3 Jotaro likes to be touched.

Warnings: Takes place during JJBA part 3, slight spoilers for the ending of JJBA part 3 (nothing really mentioned), threats to break hands, slight manhandling??, cuddles, misuse of Stands, struggle to show emotions, Joatro struggling with a bit of PTSD (I don't really go into it, just implied)

Word Count: HC: 1K , Drabbles: 440+ & 330, Total: 1.9K

A/N: I love him so yeah--I think it'll be fun to see how he changes in regards to touch during different parts!

Taglist: @cinnbar-bun @lostfirefly

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This guy is a big walking warning sign that glares “Do Not Touch”

You’ll go to touch him for the first time and he’ll grab your wrist faster than you can blink, his teeth bared and eyes full of icy murder

“Touch me and I’ll break your goddamn hand.” (Sigh….so romantic) 

No one touches him and you are included….for a time

You respect his boundaries

And you hold back your desire to touch him even when your fingers and heart itch to feel over his skin

But damn does he make it hard because why is he one of the clingiest assholes you’ve ever met?

He’ll grumble and huff and hiss at you to stop touching him

But then he’s got his hands on you like they might just be another part of him

Is his touch necessarily romantic in the typical sense?

Hell no

But he’ll be pushing you out of the way of danger or of someone not paying attention on the sidewalk

He’ll shove your head down in the heat of battle

He’ll wrap his body around you to shield you from harm

He’s grabbing your upper arm and guiding (pulling) you around

Grabbing the back of your neck to do the same thing

IF, and that’s a very big if, he grabs your hand it's gonna be a little too tight and it’s only going to happen so you don’t fall off a cliff or stumble into the road

He’ll brush his arm against yours, hands shoved into his jacket pockets, as you two walk side by side

You feel the chill of his fingers brush over yours as he passes you something

He is pretty much the decider on when the two of you touch

But he’ll allow you to pick his hat up during the rare moments it's knocked off

He’ll even let you put it back on (but if the other Crusaders are teasing him too much, his hat will be snatched from your hand and hand swatted away)

He lets you straighten his jacket and dust it off

He will grumble the whole time you do so

But guys he’s the biggest softy on the inside, it's a fact

And you know who the literal embodiment of his soul is?

Star Platinum 

Expect Star Platinum to actually be the clingiest 

like he beats Polnareff for the most sappy partner award

Star Platinum can almost always be found holding your hand, hugging you tight, and nuzzling his face into your neck

Get ready for kisses planted to your lips and cheeks and forehead from the Stand

Kisses you are unfortunately almost always knocked onto your ass by because the big guy doesn’t understand you can’t spot him as he’s whizzing up to you faster than any bullet

Platinum brings you little gifts he finds, holding your hands in his before revealing it to you

Jotaro hisses and snaps at his Stand to leave you the hell alone….but it doesn’t have any real bite to it

Because he can feel you through Platinum’s touches and it makes his stomach all fluttery like he’s some love-sick idiot

Jotaro watches as Star Platinum nuzzles your cheek with his nose, pulling a wonderful giggle from your lips. He grits his teeth in annoyance as he watches his Stand wrap his arms around your waist, pulling you off your feet like he’s an overgrown toddler. 

It was embarrassing. 

Jotaro had been able to gain complete and utter control over his Stand in the short time he appeared, yet here he was completely and utterly out of control of the damn thing. 

Jotaro thanked whatever god might be floating around up there that none of the other Crusaders were around to witness another one of Platinum's disturbances. To watch you run a hand over Platinum’s cheek and nuzzle him right back. 

Touches Joatro could feel ghosted over his skin. Touches he was growing more and more pissed off were being gifted to his fucking Stand. 

The line in the sand was when your lips pressed an overly, smooching kiss to Platinum’s cheek. It sent Jotaro into an angered frenzy. 

He stormed over, grabbing you a little too roughly out of Platinum’s grip and all but wrestling the damn thing to disappear back into himself. 

“Jotaro--he wasn’t doing anything--”

“Would you shut the hell up?” He hissed, grabbing your cheeks in his hand and forcing you to look up at him. You felt your breath halt in your throat at the beauty of Joatro's face. A beauty that only was amplified by his sharp, green eyes bearing down into you. “Platinum needs to learn some fucking manners.” And then he was letting you go. The absence of his strong hold and presence left you feeling a little disappointed, but you only smiled Joatro’s way teasingly.

“Oh…I see.” You murmured, crossing your arms behind your back as you turned on your heels, starting for the location where you were meant to meet the others. Joatro was quiet as you walked. Quiet until he was grabbing your upper arm and pulling you to a stop in a way that made your heart begin to flutter all over again. 

“See what?” He demanded, that ice beginning to fill his eyes. Ice and that look you had seen only moments ago. You smiled, bringing a hand up to smooth down his jacket which had gotten a little ruffled. 

“You’re just jealous of the poor lug,” Joatro growled, letting you go quickly. 

“Good freakin’ grief.” He huffed, pushing past you in a way that allowed his arm to brush along yours. You couldn’t help but giggle at him, quickening your pace so that you could walk beside him. To keep your arm brushing against his here and there. 

“Yep. Jealous.” 

If you are ever paired up with him and Kakyoin at a hotel, he’s going to be up in your grill and blame it on the close quarters (you all literally almost have a whole suite like--he can lie to himself but you see what he’s doing)

While you brush your teeth he’s going to brush his teeth and he’s going to have his chest pressed against your back to “let Kakyoin move around behind him” 

He’ll roughly scrub toothpaste off your lips if there is ever any and grumble about how messy you are 

Kakyoin doesn’t say much about the stolen touches he witnesses Jotaro give your way

He’ll just smile and chuckle softly (and definitely will throw you a thumbs up while Jotaro has his back turned)

A debate about who is sleeping where is going to happen and you're going to have to convince Jotaro to just sleep with you instead of on the floor

 Again, he’ll grumble out a “good grief” or two as he pulls himself into bed, arms crossed over his chest and back turned to you

But throughout the night, he’ll gruffly turn around

his leg will press against yours

His arms will uncross and his fingers will play with the edge of your shirt until he works up enough nerve to toss his arm around your waist

Then he’ll be shameless in tugging you against his chest and holding you protectively

His chin will rest on top of your head 

And with his new openness, you’ll be allowed to wrap your arms as best you can around his hulking form

Please run your fingers over his shoulders and back

Please wrap your legs around his

Pleaseeee run your fingers through his wavy hair and over his cheek

It’s the only time he’s going to let you touch him so blatantly so take as much of it as you can

He will fall asleep against your smoothing touches and unfortunately will become like a cinderblock 

Don’t expect to be able to escape his arms, I hope you used the bathroom before going to bed

You stir awake with a soft inhale of breath. Your body was held oh so tight against the solid form of Joatro, who you found once you fluttered your eyes open. A face so soft in the early hours of the morning and whose green eyes were already open and watching you. 

His eyes shifted from a look that was filled with such love it took your breath away back to their usual guarded hardness. You could only feel grateful you had been able to catch the look. One you so rarely saw but felt through his actions every day. 

“Morning.” You whispered softly, grip around his large frame growing tighter as you felt him begin to shift. You knew you would only get so many more seconds on this before he was rising from bed, grumbling about how clingy you were and clingy you would be until he did so. 

“You gonna let go?” He huffed, hands finding their way to your waist to shove you away. You shook your head, scooting ever closer. So close you could nuzzle your nose against his in a way that made him all but hiss. 

“Nope.” You said, popping the ‘p’. “Kakyoin is still asleep, no one is gonna see me snuggling you.” You said quietly as to not wake your friend up in the other bed. Joatro said your name in warning, but you could tell he didn’t mean any of it. Not when he had stopped trying to pull you off of him, muscles relaxing as you splayed your fingers over his back. 

“Just a little longer…I’m still asleep, see.” You said, pretending to fall back asleep. Jotaro sighed through his nose but said nothing further. Said nothing as he rewrapped his arms back around you, pulling you tight against his chest. 

“Five more minutes and that’s it.” You smiled against the gray shirt he wore, breathing in his scent as you savored every last bit of this you could. 

You two will only kiss in private 

Like far away from the other Crusaders and behind a locked door private

He will not be caught kissing you at this stage in his life 

It’s not because of you at all (though sometimes it can feel like it), it’s because he’s honestly so nervous and trying to keep his tough guy “I don’t give two shits” persona up

And while he’s kissing you, even if it's a simple kiss to the cheek, he can’t promise himself that persona isn’t going to slip

After the events with DIO and his Stand Users, Jotaro has changed

You all have

He’s seen death--been death

So expect him to hold your hand now

Expect him to hold your hand and hold you close so that he can keep you safe

Expect hugs that could last hours while no one is looking

Expect to wipe burning tears that somehow escape his eyes away from his flushing cheeks as he tries to keep himself composed--to not think of everything that had happened in Egypt

Will call you in the middle of the night and beg you in his own, gruffingly unique way to come over so that he can sleep next to you (But expect to wake up before the sun ever rises and get kicked out so his mother doesn’t find out)

He’ll let you touch him whenever you wish now

You’ll be able to rub his back and caress his cheeks and brush that strand of hair out of his eyes

Your touch helps keep him grounded and in this reality

Helps him remember that you are still alive 

Will still 100% grumble and keep that tough persona up (might even bat your hand away but there is no backing to it at all, just a reflex)

But you get away with much much more now

[hoseoksssangels]

⛓Obsessive placements in Synastry⛓

[DISCLAIMER: everything I’ve written comes from personal experience and observation. It may not resonate with you and it’s totally fine! tysm and stay safe!]🧨

Synastry 🧬

-Pluto/Lilith conjunct Asc/Moon/Ic

Usually since Pluto is the planet of obsession, the Pluto person will be the one who’s more obsessed, but I’ve noticed that the person receiving that energy, that in this case would be Asc/Moon/Ic somehow form some sort of emotional attachment to Pluto’s obsession. I know this might sound weird but if the receiving person is quite plutonic themselves then it’s more likely the attachment will be there. If Venus is somehow aspecting this, the Pluto person might make the other person feel loved the way they always wanted , which would lead to attachment, because in human psychology all humans get attached to that one person that makes us feel loved. Good sex and physical attraction, there might be some bdsm or even masochistic actions in the bedroom.

Moon in the 4th/8th house

Moon in the 4th house can be more of a loving/comfortable obsession, where you somehow get obsessed with the house person, but in a gentle way, since the 4th house is ruled by the moon. Strong emotional bond. In a romantic relationship this might be that one ex you will always love or feel love for. Love with no hard feelings. Also the moon person might see the house person as marriage material with this overlay.

Moon in the 8th house it’s a whole another story…💀 Personally I enjoy these sort of aspects since I’m very plutonic myself but I know some people who have had this aspect in synastry and they somehow get scared just talking about the relationship they had. The house person might get very obsessed with the way the moon person makes them feel and how they can get under their skin. The 8th house is our dark side, the type of shit we wouldn’t show just to anybody. It’s like forming a bond with the other person’s dark side. Get ready to act like psychopaths lmao. Also the house person might want to create the moon person or vice versa. The moon person might see themselves in the house person, since our moon tells us about our deepest core and how our soul truly is.

North node conjunct Sun, Moon, Asc, Karma

So the north node is our compass, it shows us where we are heading in life. When someone’s Sun, Moon or Asc is conjunct it,it feels like this person is the person we’re supposed to be with for the rest of our lives or the person we’re supposed to be like. If the person leaves, it might feel like we’re heading in the wrong direction or doing something wrong. But what this aspect truly is about, is that the planet person shows us a way, sets an example for us of what we should do. They’re not who we should be or our person, they’re just completing their karma, which would be showing and guiding us, till we reach our task and they do what they were sent for. But this can create a strong sense of “fate” and obsession since the Karmic nodes are low-key tricksters and illusionists.

Pluto/Lilith conjunct/square Venus.

A classic. At least every person that is into Astrology knows about this. Obsessive love. Nothing more and nothing less. There might be a need to control and tell our partner how they should, love, dress, express their emotions and who they should be dating. (Especially from Pluto) watch out for love bombing and emotional abuse/manipulation. It happens so so often with these aspects.

Pluto in the 12th house/Saturn in the 12th house.

Yikes. Not my favourite. Yep Saturn too bc Saturn can burden and makes us feel obligated/bonded/forced towards something. The planet person will feel very obsessed and almost as if it is an obligation for them to get to the dormant and most hidden part of the personality of the 12th house person. Big invasion of privacy and it feels almost as if the planet person might not respect ur boundaries. Stalking happens very often. The planet person sometimes might disturb the house person so much it could create some sort of trauma in the subconscious of the house person.

So guys I hope you enjoyed this! I’ve been rewatching Strangers from hell (2019) lately and I got inspired to make this post. Since they remind me of these aspects in synastry. I’ll be making a composite version of this too!

The last time i saw the series was back in 2019😭 I forgot how good it was. Anyways love y’all ❤️ thank you for the support it truly means a lot to me❤️

[buckybarnesss]

Bro, the noise I just made. I literally cannot stand the fanon for Stiles or Derek. It is so so soooo bad, I think these people literally have only seen the 2 hour sterek compilation. Every day I am like "who fucking told you people that Derek never smiles and has no sense of humor?"

Stiles gets turned into this big eyed, kitten twink who wouldn't dare to misbehave because he's the sheriff's son (the kid who gets drunk in the WOODS, and gets his dad drunk so he can steal casefiles!!)

Derek like... He is either completely useless and cannot dress himself for a date without fanon!Laura (do not get me started) telling him what to do, or he is so emotionally repressed and damage that he can barely handle someone kissing him without him falling to pieces.

LIKE. Derek smiles. Derek makes jokes!! Derek laughed at Stiles right before the pool scene. Derek knows how to use a cellphone and a laptop. Derek is a goddamn millenial, he knows what grumpy cat is. He knows he's hot, he has a mirror!!

Also... the man lived in New York fucking City. He's not afraid of crowds or talking to people or making out, he uses sex to get his way (Erica and the deputy at the front desk!!)

i know.

like, there's a period of fics that are usually from the s1-2 period that lean pretty hard on derek's dark, brooding and grumpiness from season 1 but of course he was like that. he was going through The Horrors during season 1. he was grieving laura, he was being retraumatized by kate and dealing with scott, stiles and fucking jackson.

he wasn't one dimensional though. his anger was a mask for all the fear, confusion and trying to be in control.

do you know how many fics i've read where people have stiles think about all the apparent physical violence derek has done to stiles as if he's always slamming him into surfaces? way too many to count and it's incorrect. off the top of my head i can count 3 times derek did something like that to stiles. the shove into the wall and slam into the steering wheel in wolf's bane both of which had a point to them. whether or not it was a good emotional response doesn't matter. what matters is that they were not random or part of derek's personality. he didn't just shove stiles into things every time he saw him. the wall shove in s4 with de-aged derek was a deliberate call back to that very instance in wolf's bane. it was literally coupled with the whole cousin miguel bit.

fandom doesn't like to acknowledge that derek hale isn't particularly violent over the course of the show. he hardly even wins the fights he engages in and he is often forced into fights knowing he cannot win.

our boy mostly ends up on the fucking floor.

derek also does make jokes. dry ones usually he thinks they are hilarious too. he thinks he's a funny guy. his dad joke game must've been off the charts, sorry eli.

he and stiles trade barbs a lot and he thinks stiles is funny. stiles amuses him and he indulges it a few times. he shows off to stiles too like a loser.

he likes to fuck with scott and stiles and enjoys taking the piss out of peter. he genuinely enjoyed fucking with liam in s4.

he's not a luddite either. he has a cellphone and we see him use it. i bet he plays games on it. i bet he plays candy crush and words with friends.

and fanon evolved to strip away that stiles is an asshole. he a violent little freak. he threatens people, he expresses regularly his desire to kill people or have them die, he cares about a very small selection of people in his life and if you're not in that circle than god be with your ass because stiles most definitely won't.

he loves and respects his father but this doesn't mean stiles respects the law which is why i don't know why the law enforcement route was chosen for him. stiles hates rules and boundaries. he chafes at them.

stiles casually helps kira and scott break into evidence to get her cell phone. he tells scott's fbi agent father to fuck himself. he got his dad drunk to get access to case files. he copies people's keys. he's a nosy shit.

the whole show started because stiles was a nosy punk kid who wanted to see a dead body.

but i digress.

fanon stiles had a lot of scott's characteristics projected onto him so they could bash scott. i know there's a lot of people who don't like scott which is fine or whatever but there are so many that do it so they can make a pinata out of a character they've extracted all the good points from and give to their favorite little white boy fav.

stiles "i will beat you with a bat" stilinski is a freaky little shit who will bite you.

do you know how hard i laughed when in s3 stiles and isaac genuinely just like could not stand each other? they couldn't be in the same room with out insulting one another and it was the complete opposite of stiles being oh so sensitive to isaac's past and history than straight up in 3b stiles the epitome of insensitive says to isaac something about still milking it (his abuse). stiles is a dick.

i also genuinely have umbrage with the pack mom trope that stiles gets saddled with. the way fandom has oft feminized stiles leaves a bad taste in my mouth too.

derek and stiles are both assholes and i love them very much.

[promptedwordsmith]

LADS MEN REACTION to mc friend-zoning them after leading them on ;)

This was really hard for me to write since I’ve never led anyone on, the second I thought anything like that was happening I immediately set boundaries and didn’t allow any misunderstandings. If this isn’t what you meant, then I apologise!

Ok, so all of them would be extremely respectful about it, but I believe they would have different base emotions:

Rafayel would have betrayal as his, you lead him on made him think he was what you wanted spent so much time with him and acted like it was only a matter of time before you were together. But when you turned around and established him as your friend, his heart shattered, as much as he hates to admit it, he doesn’t think he could have done anything wrong, he only reciprocated the energy he got from you, never anything more than that. So, he feels played with, and can’t help but consider you like the other MCs that abandoned him, because he feels like they set him up just like that, it’s just this time you’re still in his life. He says OK, he will step back, but he doesn’t know what he can do from there, he spends more time in his studio, spends less time with you and the energy just isn’t the same for a long time until he can come to terms with everything.

Xavier would be confused underneath it all. Would apologise and ask if he did something wrong, when he gets confirmation that you never felt the same, he would rethink the entire time he spent with you trying to figure out how he could have interpreted everything another way fully believing he was completely in the wrong and there was no way you could have been leading him on. None of the other MCs did that did they? Questions everything repeatedly and vows that if he gets another chance in the future, he would be more careful and attentive to you to make sure this doesn’t happen again. Feels it’s his duty to always be in control of his emotions so not much would change except his skin ship and proximity which would lessen, otherwise he would still talk to you and partner up with you, but he would be much more cautious.

Zayne would be surprised, he regarded himself as quite intelligent, even emotionally intelligent, so learning you did not feel the same as him he feels he missed a clue. Would take an instantaneous step back, apologising but saying he needed some space to re-evaluate and re-assess his expectations for the relationship. He wouldn’t take too long, a week or so because he is fully aware that he is your primary care physician and that comes first for him whether you are in a relationship with him or not. Your health would always come before his feelings, so he is the epitome of professionalism from there on out. He still sees you outside of work sometimes but nowhere near as often as before and there would always seem to be a line in the sand, one that you could cross if you showed him you wanted him but that would act as a boundary otherwise.

[judgementdayslittle]

Are you comfortable doing something with a little autistic reader and how would the judgement day react when the reader is overweight and having a meltdown? But only if you feel comfortable with it

As someone who is overweight and autistic, I am more than happy to!

-A lot of things could trigger a meltdown. Loud noises, clothes not feeling right, lights too bright, or you're just overall overstimulated.

-A lot of Autistic people have meltdowns in different ways, so I'll try my best to write the most common ones, plus how I experience them.

-If your meltdown is more quiet, you curling up into a ball, rocking back and forth, and crying. Mami, Papi, and Dada are too the rescue!

-First they ask you if it's okay to hold you. Each of them opening their arms to allow you to choose who you want to hold you. If you want to be held at all.

-You may be big to some people, but remember, Mami, Papi, and Dada are super strong! They can pick you up and put you in their lap with ease!

-Your other caregivers go around and try to fix whatever is making you overwhelmed. Loud noises? If they can control it, they either turn it down or make it completely quiet.

-if they can't however, they have special noise blocking headphones. They're colored to look like your favorite animal too!!!

-If it's your clothes, they'll get you changed right away! Letting you pick out the outfit too. You'll look adorable no matter what!

-And if it's lights, they'll shut them off or dim them. If you guys are out somewhere where you can't shut off the lights, they give you sunglasses instead. Then tell you that you're the coolest baby in town!!!

-If your meltdowns involve more screaming and throwing things. First thing they do is try to get all the dangerous things out of your reach.

-Again they ask if they can hug you. If yes, they hold you so you don't throw anything anymore. If no, they respect your boundaries, but they still don't want you to throw things.

-Like before, they solve the problem quickly, wanting you as calm as possible.

-You're not in trouble of course. They love you! And they understand how hard and how big your emotions can feel. They do however, try to suggest healthier habits to let your frustrations out. Like stimming!

-One you calm down, they give you lots of love! And you all go play something more quiet and stress free, anything you want!

[vodkacranberrywitch]

How Harry Styles's Friends, Fans, and Family see his FS

Why are gifs so hard to find here?

Anyways, we will be looking at how Harry's family, friends, and fans see his FS. And just for fun, I will look at how his FS sees these groups as well.

Family see FS - His family will see FS as someone who is family. They may see them as someone who gives them access to a new environment. The family may gain new knowledge or special access from the FS. The family will also see the FS as someone who is childlike. The parents of Harry may accept the FS as their own child or feel responsibility for them. The FS may remind the family of another family member or someone they knew in the past. There will be familiarity and comfort. They will also see this FS as a second chance for Harry. They may feel like this person has a lot of options and is very popular. They believe the FS would be fine without Harry.

Friends see FS - The friends were maybe a bit intimidated by the FS. They saw them as someone who is honest about themselves and had strong beliefs. They feel like they can't play FS, this person is intelligent and can see things easily. They may also feel like this person is a bad liar or someone who is too honest. Harry's friends see FS as someone who is competitive but is a good spirit. They see them as charming and someone that you gravitate to easily. Harry's friends feel like FS is someone who is able to overcome their worries. They don't let them consume them. However, at times, they may also feel like they ignore their problems altogether or they don't take the concerns of others seriously. They see the FS as someone who is too "Hakuna Matata" at times.

I think it's funny someone asked how the fans will see FS bc they can't see the full picture, but alas.

Fans see FS - The fans will see this person as immature and selfish. They see this person as needy and demanding. The fans are going to this person as nonconfrontational, quiet, invisible, and unimportant. They will feel like the FS is indifferent to Harry. They may feel like Harry does more for the FS or that the FS should be doing more for him.

FS sees Harry's family - The FS will see Harry's family as good people. This person will see his family as people who respect boundaries and don't overstep. They are patient and understanding. The FS will see them as people who are anxious. The family may be concerned a lot. The FS feels like the family is often subjected to cruelty. The FS sees Harry's family as hard working people. They see them as dedicated and committed to a hobby or a livelihood.

Okay so clearly there is no drama between the FS and the family.

FS sees Harry's friends - The FS sees Harry's friends as mysterious and eclectic. Maybe these people can be eccentric. The FS feels that the friends lack passion and can mooch at times. Yikes. The FS may see these people as two faced. Some of Harry's friends might be fake. They are nice to your face but they have their own intentions. The FS may find these people judgy and manipulative.

FS sees Harry's fans - What is so hilarious about this is that I got the same card for how the fans so the FS. FS won't pay much attention to the fans. They will be unimportant to them, and this person will be completely indifferent to them. The FS will see them as manipulative. The FS sees them as people who are trying to get an emotional reaction out of them. So maybe they will be trying to hurt their feelings or anger them. The FS will see them as people with low self esteem. They may feel like they are easily controlled or influenced.

Interesting. I wonder what Harry thinks of his fans.

Sorry this came out late, but this was such a long and draining reading. I hope you enjoyed it. Let me know if you have any questions. Requests are closed.

As always, these readings are alleged and for entertainment purposes only.

[indiaalphawhiskey]

Love your response about that Luke and Nicola thing. I appreciate how realistic but respectful you are to the people who felt… upset about it.

I didn’t fall completely into it, but I understand why people romanticized Nic and Luke because I felt the excitement too. It didn’t help that the PR world tour served it up on a platter. I can see why people felt like their emotions were used. The point of PR is to make people believe, otherwise it wouldn’t work. It felt like they wanted people’s emotional investment when it mattered to the marketing/pr team, but made them all feel stupid when they no longer needed the clout and dropped it with unfortunate timing. Particularly after Part 2’s drop, which some felt underwhelmed by. But that’s PR for you.

I can also see how our personal projections leaned into it as well. For many, having a romantic lead and actress who represented beauty outside the mainstream perception of women was refreshing and hopeful. So although no one’s at fault, I truly do get the tinge of sadness many felt after seeing what the GF looked like.

It’s ok to feel the way that you do about people, some of us are just romantics and love when human emotions are palpable because love is infectious. I felt a little stupid getting into it too, but you cross a line when you start harassing real people based on what you believe. It’s sort of embarrassing and I hope Luke and Nic are able to come back with that chemistry strong for Season 4 without being deterred.

Oh, I’m very open about how I fell (am still falling, really) in love with them. I’m not over it yet, tbh, but I think my being self-aware about crossing boundaries is extremely important in situations like this. (I try not to engage in platforms where I know Nicola frequents, to protect the fourth wall.)

Because frankly, I see them struggling now, to balance their comfort with each other while managing expectations from the fans, and I really don’t want that for them. I hope the frenzy dies down and they find their footing with each other in the public eye again.

On our personal projections, boy, do I get it. Seeing Nic bloom into this undeniably sexy, desired, beloved romantic lead has healed me in ways years of therapy could never. Plus the public love for her has very directly changed a lot of my perceptions about how truthful other people are in their positive view of me and also my own view on my capacity to be sexy and desired and attractive, and that’s priceless to me.

So I was also quite er, wounded, by the pap photos. It did, honestly, pop a very very beautiful bubble for me, because let’s be honest — Luke Newton is gorgeous, and they are gorgeous together. But then I realized that I was falling into the trap of assuming, once again, that she was the one being rejected, instead of the multitude of other equally possible realities (e.g. it really is just platonic between them, or she’s in a relationship, or she doesn’t want a relationship, or the timing is off, or she doesn’t want it to get messy with someone who’s so important to her, or her career comes first, or literally any reason it could be under the sun).

I think it’s important to honor the idea that she means so much to many of us, and that the fantasy of them together means a lot to many of us, and that is valid and okay. That’s what romance is there for, you know? For us to see the possibilities of what could happen for us and retrain our brains to genuinely believe in good outcomes.

But I think it’s important to reframe this narrative that she’s somehow losing out in this, because that’s factually incorrect and really undoes a lot of the confidence she’s given us.

I don’t blame anyone for getting attached, and I don’t blame anyone for feeling hurt. Those are emotions — you can’t control them and they’re all valid. But, I guess, when it gets tough, take a second look at her and what she’s doing, for herself and for everyone, and focus hard on the fact that that’s not born from her and Luke. That’s born from nothing other than her being entirely and unapologetically her.

[rigginsstreet]

So we know Billy is an aries, but what is heather's sign?

ok i personally like to headcanon her as a capricorn with a christmas birthday just cuz thats really funny to me. her demanding nobody skimp out on presents just because both days are the same no no you will get her birthday presents and then also christmas presents (plus im writing an au where shes part jewish so add hanukkah on top of the december festivities.... her parents stay rich just to afford her lifestyle lmao)

but anyway some capricorn traits that are very heather to me:

Capricorn individuals are typically traditional and serious in nature, possessing an inner sense of independence that allows them to make significant progress in both their personal and professional lives. They are skilled in self-control, can make realistic plans, and are capable of managing many people at once. Capricorns learn from their mistakes and rely on their experience and expertise to achieve success.

The ruling planet of Capricorn is Saturn, which represents all forms of restriction. While its influence makes Capricorns practical and responsible, it can also make them cold, distant, and unforgiving. To lighten their own lives and become more positive, Capricorns need to learn to forgive.

Capricorn – the Goat of Fear with a tail of a fish. This symbol represents the decision to protect oneself from monsters in our minds, lives, and physical surroundings. Capricorns are always ready to transform themselves to confront and conquer their fears. However, this defensive mechanism can lead to a chain reaction of fear. Capricorns face the world with bravery, never running away but constantly battling their inner monsters in secrecy.

They tend to show sensitivity through actions rather than words, and it can take years for them to open up enough to discuss their actual emotional problems.

Capricorns are focused on their personal goals and can sometimes lack compassion and emotional connection in their relationships. They are dedicated to providing the stability of a "normal" life and their partner can rely on them as a stepping stone for personal endeavors, and they can have a lasting bond with a constant tendency for growth. However, they are not very willing to compromise and may even create problems just to solve them or feel bad that a problem was never resolved.

Capricorn individuals are intelligent, stable, and reliable, making them loyal and excellent friends who can serve as pillars on their friends journey towards their dreams. They prefer surrounding themselves with people who respect boundaries, are warm, open hearted and loyal enough to follow their lead. Capricorns are not likely to collect too many friends in their lifetime, but they will turn to those who make them feel at peace, intelligent, and honest at all times.

Capricorns have a deep understanding of family traditions and feel connected to every single aspect of their past, including their childhood. They love bringing out memories of the past during holidays and birthdays. Conflict over dominance in their household is typical for Capricorns, with their father being an extremely important figure in shaping their self-image over the years. As parents, they tend to be strict but fair and are ready to take on the responsibilities that come with raising a child.

Capricorns are known for setting high standards for themselves and are characterized by their honesty, dedication, and perseverance. They value loyalty and hard work above all else and tend to keep those with these qualities close, even if they are intellectually inferior. Capricorns are concentrated and resourceful individuals who get the job done and are willing to commit completely to the final product, even if it requires long hours. They excel in management, finance, programming, and calculations.

Money is highly valued in the lives of Capricorns. They tend to manage it well and save for a rainy day, as long as their debts do not consume their actual abilities.

Capricorn women are known for being ambitious, persistent, responsible, and reliable. They desire to find a partner who can make them smile and are eager to open up and feel that special pull of emotions that bring warmth and possibilities for any future. However, it may take time for a Capricorn woman to lower her guard so she can feel safe and comfortable enough to show just how sensitive and caring she can be when she is in love.

A Capricorn woman seeks a responsible, calm, and hard-working partner who will take care of her in the event of any negative future events. She needs to feel comfortable with the people she dates and takes time to decide what she wants out of each relationship. Born under a Sun sign that exalts Mars, her instincts and initiative are strong, making her a passionate lover who is always in charge of her own life, regardless of outer circumstances.

[entomolog-t]

G/t tropes/blurbs/aspects: There’s so many good ones! The first encounter filled with wonder and fear. The gentle protection of a caring giant. But my favorite? Trust. The trust building from both sides. Trusting your giant friend to care about you and letting yourself be seen by someone who you feel like doesn’t need to. Trusting the tiny to come back and keep their word, while being completely in power but letting them have control. Even when that trust breaks, and they both try their best to fix it despite everything cause they want to trust the other; it’s just going to be a bit harder this time. Just Trust in G/t is huge. I love it slowly building up through interactions where one side might be nervous or one side might be WAYY too excited or it’s seen as unsafe to even try. Do what you will with this and be a Psychologist! I don’t mind :P

Okay, lets get another one!

First encounters are one of my favorite tropes as well. The feelings are so much more raw.

Trust is a powerful human emotion, which normally relies on essentially a bank of actions and observations as well as a few leaps of faith. In a G/t context, it acts as a very concentrated form of building trust. The stakes are much higher, and the gestures must be much more grand in order to cover a fraction of the ground. Small slip ups from the giant can result in a massive loss of trust from the tiny.

The archetype of the tiny often represents a desire to be vulnerable and to have that vulnerability respected.

In your example, it seems like the Giant has an important task of suppressing ones own wants and desires as a sacrifice to garner trust. Controlling one's impulses and having faith the tiny will see that action as enough to offer their own olive branch.

This could indicate a personal need for clear consent and personal boundaries, as well as a yearning to be vulnerable with those able to respect those boundaries. It also seems to suggest you want others to have faith in you in some form or another. The olive branch extended by the giant of simply respecting the autonomy of another being is not a large one if you actually do view the being as your equal, so the act of returning especially in the first meeting as mentioned prior, is a huge act of trust by the tiny, and takes a great deal of both faith and acceptance by the giant.

The act of letting the tiny go is a symbolic exchange of power. The Giant can enact their will if they so choose, but by offering their own power and trust as a sacrifice to the tiny, they hope to gain their trust in return. However it is only when it is a genuine sacrifice does this trope normally take place. The giant must be aware the tiny is not likely to return, or at the very least is not trying to guilt the tiny to return. They have left the proverbial ball in their court, no strings attached.

You specifically mention trust breaking and being mended, which harkens to a mature understanding of growth and knowledge that mistakes happen. The care to continually rebuild trust is generally symbolic of one's desire to be valued; To be worth the effort and the maintenance. This may suggest you don't like your personal relationships to become complacent, and you attribute aspects of your own personal value in the actions others take to show the care and respect you.

I wouldn't be surprised if you mirror this in your own friendships and relationships as well, showing that you care through specific and repetitive actions.

Some of your word choice also implies yearning for intrinsic value. Having the relationship be difficult but both parties work hard at it, being deeply nervous or overly excited, as well as it being seen as unsafe. All signs point to no, but something deeper says yes. A search for purpose, or fate, or a connection that defies logic.

A good exercise would be to further analyze the acts that build the trust and dissect how those may apply to you. Example;

Giant does not initially touch the tiny, - why does this appeal? Perhaps individuals don't respect your autonomy so the thought of someone who has no need to respect it bowing to your will fills you with a feeling of power and being cared for and respected.

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[trash-gobby]

hii, so im not sure if your currently writing for the alien (1979), but i thought i would ask anyway, would i be able to request dating hcs for dallas and lambert? if not that’s completely fine just thought i would ask! thank u <3

Alien (1979) - Dallas & J.M. Lambert Dating Headcanons

Summary: Dallas and Lambert dating headcanons for you all to enjoy.

A/N: THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I am a huge fan of the Alien sequel, but I LOVE the first film sooooo much as well. I am really happy someone requested these characters so I get to do some writing for them.

Pairing(s): J.M. Lambert X Reader, Dallas X Reader

Characters: J.M. Lambert, Dallas

⚠️ Warnings!: None.

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Dallas Dating HC's

✨Dallas is much more of a traditionalist when it comes to dating, though not in a traditionally toxically masculine way.

✨He does like the old-fashioned, paying for the first date and opening the door for his date. However, he makes room to understand and meet his partner on a comfort level.

✨If his S/O was previously, or currently, involved in military service, he will have a huge amount of respect for that. Dallas used to serve in the United Americas Outer Rim Defense (UAORD) as a pilot.

✨This doesn't mean he won't have a healthy appreciation for a partner with other work and goals.

✨He will be slow to open up about his past with his S/O, since he feels a large amount of shame for his military career ending with over 15,000 lives ending under his command.

✨Dallas feels a need to prove himself as a leader and person, his confidence having been shaken to the core due to his fall from grace. This might make him come off as a little controlling in a relationship, wanting to plan out every date to perfection.

✨You will have to have discussions with him about this insecurity at some point if you want to make the relationship work.

✨Very good listener when you're talking about your struggles and hardships. He knows what it's like to have a hard time and wants to make sure you feel appreciated, listened to, and respected.

✨Respectful of physical boundaries, and believes in letting you choose when you're comfortable with physical intimacy.

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J.M. Lambert Dating HC's

✨Lambert is a very sensitive and kind partner. She loves being able to be close to her partner.

✨She needs to hold herself back emotionally sometimes from her excitement and enthusiasm for them (especially on the first date).

✨Her love language is definitely physical. Coming up behind her S/O and giving them a hug while they are working in greeting, or holding their hand while walking together.

✨Lambert is very open when it comes to her partner. If they are going through any big life changes, she is super supportive and will give them the space they need to deal with their lives. If their S/O wants Lambert to be there though, she also won't hesitate to be your side.

✨She does have issues with being able to regulate her emotions. Lambert is more likely to react negatively if she perceives someone has an issue with her. Insecurity is something she will have to learn to deal with, and that her S/O will have to patient with her about.

✨Pretty open about the fact that she is trans because she doesn't want to waste her time on a partner who is gonna be weird about her identity. In the current timeline of Alien, most people find trans people part of the norm, but assholes still exist and Lambert doesn't want to deal with them

✨When she isn't working she loves decorating her house with potted plants and inviting her partner over to have nice meals, as the aesthetic is very pleasing/relaxing.

[pineappleciders]

hii could I request a omori matchup? I'm pan so any gender is fine

personality - intp, I'm very introverted in public, i don't like starting conversations (unless i really have to) and i struggle with anxiety so often i overthink my interactions. Get to know me and I'm extroverted, airheaded and clumsy, eccentric, and pretty corny. I enjoy making jokes (dad jokes r my fav) or oddly sexual ones bc i can be a big flirt. I'm a therapist friend, always listening and giving advice. I'm a very blunt person, like if you need the truth, it's coming to you. I'm childish- but also a motherlike/responsible person when I need to be! i'm forgetful though, so don't ever ask me to remember something for ya. I'm not organized nor do I ever do my work on time, I wait until the last minute to do anything! I have moodswings and some unhealthy mental thoughts, so sometimes i can't control my emotions and isolate myself from others. I just need alone time for awhile and then I'm okay, but I try not to completely let it bother me (ah yes, I'm the type to bottle up emotions.).

physical des - I'm around 5'3, I have black/brownish hair? it's a mix shoulder length hair(Reaches alittle past my shoulder) it's always straightened even though it's naturally curly! I have a mole under my left eye, if you look hard enough lol and I have a septum piercing! I'm kind of curvy too so theres that :P

fun facts!

ironic but my nickname is mari ( my friends call me that) and I actually play the piano , i'm able to play final duet <3

I love dressing in alternative/gothic fashion. I love any emo/goth style such as scene emo or mall goth the most

I love kel and aubrey- out of the group. Spaceboyfriend or Pluto were my favorites from the game

I have a low social battery, specially when I'm in school or public places ( I love talking so much I rant for hours on end about anime) so it's weird to others how quick my talktiveness changes

tysm take ur time and make sure to take care!!

A/N: THIS FONT IS VERY SMALL AND I AM BLIND SO IM SORRY IF I MISREAD ANYTHING!!

I MATCH YOU WITH...

SUNNY!!!!

first few meetings, it's kind of difficult for you two to talk to each other

neither of you like starting a conversation or speaking much, so when you talk it's really only in response to someone or one of you blurts something out and it starts convo

SUNNY has an attraction to you. i mean like he just feels drawn to you, and feels safe like he can kind of be himself around you

as you open up to each other, he acts unimpressed sometimes but he really enjoys your silly personality

SUNNY doesn't emote much but he has a great sense of humor. honestly he laughs at your dad jokes (not because they're funny but because they suck)

if you pull any flirty stuff on him, he'd be really lost. he's still kind of stuck in the OMORI mindset, so in his head he thinks he's completely unaffected and deadpanning.

but irl he's sweating and red, and gets super shy

SUNNY is someone who likes to live outside of reality. he doesn't want to face truth, but as he recovers from his past post-good ending, your bluntness could actually help him come back to reality instead of hiding in his mind

you remind him of KEL, to an extent. kinda goofy, clumsy, sometimes air-headed. but he likes that about you. your personalities clash in some way, but they also are very similar.

SUNNY relates to isolation and bottling up emotions until they pop. i think you two would do therapeutic things together, as you both have some things that you want to work out, so why not together? :)

if you do want to be alone though, he understands. he does the same thing too, and you guys respect each others boundaries while still helping the other take a step outside their comfort zone

years into the future, i think it would help SUNNY if you two were to play the final duet together

after all, he does see some of MARI in you, and (assuming you met after the incident) he knows that she would've loved you dearly. it would probably take a lot of healing, but you'll get there together

SUNNY also really likes alternative fashion, but he never really had the money, thought, or time to get into it

so it'll be super cool for him if you lend him some of your clothes or if you two went shopping!! he thinks you both look sick as fuck

he's quick to notice if you're burning out socially, and will get you two out of there asap (he also has a low social battery, but not when it comes to his friends)

he likes hearing you talk about stuff you like. he's a great listener, and he's sure to let you know you aren't annoying him or anything like that. he also has a lot of stuff he wants to rant about, but it'll probably take time for him to open up

[fairymint]

do you ship any of your muses with some of your others? (Lol. Lmao even.)

From a muse-creation perspective, this blog is ship-focused! Yes, But, I'd say the major differences is how seriously I take the actual ships from each other. (these could be asks all their own, in complete honesty.) idk, I guess I have a compulsion to believe that my muses are prey to tropes and cliches and get critical- Plus, I don't write muses that I 'control', so it doesn't matter how "cringe" or pathetic I might find em- some ships are They're Idiots, others really sweet. Depends on what dynamic and emotions fuel the ship- I write ships that "deal with" character flaws, typically. it's narrative/introspective, morally. But I do know that I 'respect' the ships I have with others' muses more for the most part. though those are often a bit more planned or spontaneous, rather than the limbo my muses exist in between meeting and being 'really close'. (mid burn, really.) anyways.

I'm the most normal about Felix with either Rex or possibly Brookie- the most normie and mundane relationships I think I'd have here; though they aren't yet really 'canon' yet, probably due to being a bit lowkey? He's also not on the muse list currently, but my robot OC, Sterling, also falls into this but it is a little canon b/c he's just a sweetheart. I can't imagine Sterling with anyone but Felix, genuinely.

Most of my canons have an idealized relationship with Felix- shipping them a lot because they're genuine sweethearts, productive sweethearts. yayyyy altruism-

I'm super not normal about my Volo with any ship- because he's a muse that pushes the lust boundary quite close to the line; he's dramatic, he's a baby bi, he's kinky, and his ego size slides on the extreme scales- it's threateningly passionate. He's just not normal about people. He carries chaser energy without actually being one. I joke to myself 'he Will fetishize you' at times. So I find him amusing to make fun of, to a point. But the other half of the time I do adore him, because it's nice that he loves so hard, shows it well. it's just basic, man hot. but the consequences...

I state my opinion on finding Magnus a ridiculous chickenshit quite often, because the man can't communicate. What I like to do is joke like he's a loser, but am happy when he gets good things, ultimately.

I do Ship Pit and Shulk, they just seem like they'd be besties cause they're sweethearts, always have. bffs, boyfriends, whathaveyou. villager, aka Felix, with them is the OT3. I also ship Ninja and Shopkeeper, just cause snarkxmeathead is a stupid-fun dynamic.

I think the only muse I'm neutral towards shipping is Boyfriend, because he's just here to have a fun time- it sounds fun, but he just hasn't done anything besides say really unhinged stuff; it sounds funny as fuck in theory.

[talenlee]

Skub (in Tabletop)

There’s this idea from The Perry Bible Fellowship, which is one of those comics we talk about in the context of ‘one of the good webcomics.’ It is also responsible for the origin point of one of the most widespread neologisms in internet culture today (‘weeb’), but lesser known is the term Skub.

Skub typically is used in gamer circles to refer to something people fight about, often extensively, which does not matter, and does not have serious impact. It’s an idea that clearly picked up in tabletop conversations because we are a ridiculous people who will have extremely heated arguments that attempt to prove our own emotional states as factually correct rather than be willing to openly admit and respect our needs, or to respectfully handle conversations about ideas that aren’t themselves necessarily an attack. It’s tricky stuff, but we make up for it with years on end of extensive, pointless, preposterous fucking fighting over bullshit that doesn’t matter, which we then bikeshed super hard.

Thing is, in tabletop gaming, there’s a lot of stuff that’s player decisions or preference that we tend to try and cook into ‘right’ and ‘wrong.’ This can get super complicated, because it’s hard to tease out where some of these arguments have boundaries.

For example, Dungeons & Dragons is the largest corporate driven TTRPG in the world, and has been pretty much forever, and it is as a wing of Hasbro, part of a complex interconnected set of brands and franchises, some of which have been sketchy at best and some of which are having to do a lot of work to try and make good on deeply vile histories, like Monopoly. There’s an entire wing of how Hasbro wants to be a good corporate citizen which is itself, a big conversation that has an assumption in it that such a thing is possible. Then you can go one step above it, like how Dungeons & Dragons is itself an ecosystem all of its own, and whether things like encouraging others to create for it is an act of control or an attempt to address a power imbalance.  There’s a whole conversation there about whether or not it’s possible for Dungeons & Dragons to be capable of good agency given a poisoned root. These are all big and complicated conversations and some of them only work with spherical gamers in a zero-G environment.

But then you keep going down the line and you get into conversations that are definitely definitely skub, but which are being treated with the same tools and academic rigor as if the solution to racism is in the shape of a dice. What can exacerbate this is the work of people who are working hard to create in these spaces, where it’s not hard at all to, thanks to time spent working on critical tools, bring to bear long sentences that translate to what I enjoy is factually correct and what I don’t enjoy is wrong.

Personally, there’s a lot of skubby opinions that I like a lot to talk about, because if I know your flavour of skub, the stuff that matters to you that doesn’t matter in general, I know you better.

Anyway, I don’t like completely unstructured character building. Not my flavour of skub.

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[themomsandthecity]

Gentle Parenting Is a TikTok Buzzword - but Here's What Most People Get Wrong

Gentle parenting has been getting a lot of attention lately, thanks to viral videos on Instagram and TikTok. In many of the 30- to 60-second clips, parents detail the benefits of the parenting style, which prioritizes the child's emotional needs of child and a calmer method of discipline over traditional, more authoritarian styles. Maggie Nick, MSW, therapist and founder of Parenting with Perspectacles, tells POPSUGAR that while gentle parenting is often misconstrued as letting your kids walk all over you, "that's the biggest misconception." Many people think that because gentle parenting "advises against harsh discipline," kids will become entitled or spoiled. However, Nick says, that's simply not the case. "Meeting kids' emotional needs helps them feel safe and secure, not entitled and spoiled," she says. "And punishments are terrible teachers. It is completely possible, and not that hard, to hold kids accountable for their behavior, teach them about the impact of their actions, while making them feel loved and supported." If it sounds like your kids or future kids could benefit from gentle parenting discipline, here's what you need to know about the method, what it looks like, and how to apply it in real life. What Is Gentle Parenting? Gentle parenting - or gentler parenting, as Nick calls it - is an umbrella term for a parenting approach that aims "to recognize and meet the needs of children in a gentler, more respectful way without using traditional, authoritarian-style discipline and punishments," Nick says. The gentle-parenting framework at Parenting With Perspectacles, for instance, focuses on raising children "who feel seen and loved" and "teaching parents how to allow kids to have their big feelings while setting and holding strong boundaries." Gentle parenting often gets confused with permissive parenting, which offers a more lax approach to boundary setting and tends to cultivate the role of the parent as a friend, rather than an authority figure. But gentle parenting does prioritize boundaries, just without the use of traditional discipline methods (think: time out, a "naughty chair," spanking, "Go to your room!" etc.). What Are the Benefits of Gentle Parenting? "There are so many benefits to gentle parenting," Nick says, including a deeper, more understanding relationship between you and your child - one that prioritizes their acceptance and value over judgment or punishment. Nick notes that children aren't the only ones to gain from the parenting style - here's a list of benefits she credits to gentle parenting: * Parents feel more connected to their child or teen, even during meltdowns. * Parents feel more confident in their parenting, because they have the tools to move through the messiest parts of parenting alongside their child instead of engaging in power struggles and the inevitable "us vs. them" standoff. * Children learn that they deserve love even when they're struggling. * Children feel more comfortable coming to their parents with "big feelings," knowing that their parents won't immediately get upset. What Does Gentle Parenting Look Like? Gentle parenting focuses primarily on acknowledging the existence of big feelings and letting them happen for the little ones in your life. Because of that, gentle parenting often requires some unlearning on the parents' part: "Most of us grew up bottling up our feelings," Nick says. "When I learned that my child's meltdowns were the way they released stress and big feelings and not something I needed to manage, control, or shut down, it allowed me to feel less overwhelmed and less triggered." Allowing your kid to blow up may feel triggering or like something that needs to be shut down. Why? "Because parts of us want to protect our kid from how our parent would have reacted to 'disrespectful' or 'dramatic' behavior," Nick says. She emphasizes how important it is to allow yourself time and space to learn and… https://www.popsugar.com/family/what-is-gentle-parenting-48861014?utm_source=dlvr.it&utm_medium=tumblr

[janeaustenprotagonist]

I realize I trust too much

just because I wouldn't do something doesn't mean they wont

I won't tell other people's stories, I won't gossip about others personal lives, I won't it's rude it's betrayal you never know what could be used against you

I've been abused, everything I said was twisted and used against me, yet I still trust like a newborn. I'd say it's a good trait, to have the ability to trust. I trust but I'm weary. I'm afraid of being manipulated like prior.

I keep thinking "this time they'll change, this time they'll listen, this time they'll respect my boundaries" but no. i never think I can change them, I think they'll just listen this time. respect my boundaries THIS TIME. my naivety endlessly shining through. I want to tell them things, I get so excited. I spent so long healing myself not to put my insecurities on others, my issues on others, they can listen but they can never truly help. I had to do that for myself. I've worked so hard on myself, determined who I am. I don't need anyone to complete me. I think others will do the same, it's part of growing up, right? I'm disappointed everytime. adults, 5, 10, 15, 20 years older than me have maturity levels far below me. I'm not saying I'm somehow better than them in any sense, but I will say I can control my emotions and I know how to make a relationship work and how not to love someone.

I want to tell people things!!! I want to be excited!!!! look at the moon!!!!! look at what my man said to me!!!! but behind my back they're whispering it in other people's ears. nothing I say is private. nothing I say is for just us. my childlike wonder, my excitement. I wish I was closed off sometimes. I love love. I love being good. I love life. I love developing feelings for someone good. I love the moon. I love the rain. I love the clouds. I love the weather. I love life. but with these knives in my back, with these stones being thrown. I hear voices from behind, to the side, they're surrounding us. their voices echo words I don't want to hear, they're about us.

I shouldn't have told them anything.

I realize I trust too much

but I presume that's on me.