#i cant say the word kill at all | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

abrillustrated · 1 month ago

Text

coldest take of the century but i am so sick and tired of things that are my personal and private property censoring adult content. i am an adult. i am not in public. why the fuck is the content i am trying to find being censored??? this is fucking ridiculous, it's ridiculous that the music i play on my phone always plays the censored version of any chappell roan song, and it fucking ridiculous that the Dictionary wont show me definitions for a word that is sexual in nature. like what the fuck. first of all, information should never be censored for perceived inappropriateness. second of all, ITS MY FUCKING DEVICE! I AM AN ADULT MAN. IT IS INSANE THAT I AM BEING PREVENTED FROM EXPLORING ADULT TOPICS WHEN THERE ARE NO CHILDREN EVEN REMOTELY CLOSE TO ME. the entire internet is being forcibly baby proofed and there's not even a way to remove the stupid baby gates. i should not have to censor myself for nonexistent children. i can vote i can make choices for my damn self and if want to listen to chappell roan sing about how much she wants to fuck hot older women while looking up the definition of dacryphilia (bc i was pretty certain abt the definition but wanted to check) than i should be able to do so. fuck me man. i love rules as much as the next guy but this is ridiculous

#not art #personal #augusts life #this shit just pisses me off #like theres anything uniquely evil about a word #the way tiktok is censoring our language as well #we cant talk about anything with any sense of clarity #its all pdf files and unaliveing and sa and seggs #these are serious issues and we're talking about grapes #i cant say the word kill at all #as if more people aren't killed in a day than i take shits

25 notes · View notes

daisybell-on-a-carousel · 1 month ago

Text

Being someone who read Under The Red Hood and came out with the firm belief that, for Jason, it's not about killing Joker, it's about Jason wanting proof Batman would choose him over the Joker (bc shelia chose the joker). Makes seeing any other media where it's all about just wanting the Joker dead is a teeny bit frustrating. to be honest

Jason could've killed the Joker himself, really, really easily. Jason kidnaps the Joker before the confrontation. I can't open my comic for a reference right now, but it felt like he had the Joker for quite a bit before the confrontation. He had him. He beat him up with a crowbar. He had every single opportunity to kill the Joker himself, but he didn't because that wasn't his goal. Make no mistake, he did plan for the Joker to be dead by the end of it, but do you see what im trying to say here

Edit: If I knew this post was gonna get 1000+ notes I would've tried to word it better or something, this was a rant I made on the way to the grocery store 😭

It's not about making Batman kill either. When Batman says he won't kill, Jason adjusts and goes, 'Let ME kill the Joker or kill me to stop me' instead. The test is all about Batman choosing him. The whole final confrontation is Jason's first death again. The parent, The Joker, and the explosives. It even ends with Jason unable to move as a bomb goes off right next to him again because the parent didn't choose Jason. And instead tried finding an option that'd benefit them and (consequencely) letting the Joker walk, again, lol, lmao <-in agony

#the final confrontation was basically his first death again #and YES he Does want the Joker dead #and it would've been really really nice if Batman was the one who did it #but when batman made it clear he wouldn't kill the joker. Jason easily switched to saying “LET me kill the joker” to accommodate #because he Wanted batman to pass his test #he gave a test to dick too. and technically tim but it wasnt the family test it was a different one so it doesnt rly count #AFTER utrh and the reveal and the batarang you can go hog wild about it. i care less about it then #granted i do believe they make jason more scared of the joker after it at some point #i guess because hes a bit too willing to kill the joker and ive heard jason wasnt meant to live after utrh #my watsonian explain for that is he was so fixated on his plan he cpuld override his fear. or maybe the pit. either work #i prefer the fixation bc i dont like the explanation that the pit was the /only/ reason he could get all plan together and done #BUT THATS UNRELATED!!!#dc stop putting the joker in jason stories im begging you please please please. lock him in a vault for the next 20 years or something #it Cpuld be good and i understand. but also. after so long of people that dont know or go for jasons need for family and parents #that love him and he can trust #the joker starts to feel like?? hm. words. a cop out? oh haha its that guy that killed him woagh hes here #i bet you dont even know that jaybin got beat until unconsciousness by an angry mob #while asking batman to save him only for batman to have to walk away #anwya. where was i going with this #i think i got off topic #jason todd #dc comics #batman #ADDED AN EDIT. SORRY. this post has been haunting me it keeps me awake. what if people misunderstand #they cant read my tags where i ramble more depth. thisbis the only option #EDIT EDIT: hiii #removed the sentence abt jason having the joker for several days bc i misremembered some things #go read its-your-mind 's addition instead also #ok no more i wont edit this post anymore i promise

3K notes · View notes

ghostespresso · 2 years ago

Text

staff logging on to tumblr dot com today

#staff sweetie i Promise you an algorithm would kill this webbed site #changing the way reblogs look/work would Absolutely kill this webbed site too #this is a Blogging Platform i dont want it to be like tiktok or twitter jesus #if you NEED to change something literally listen to the the Tumblr Users you pretend you cant hear #if money is what you need make your userbase Happy and you should be fine #the shop is fine blaze posts are fine ad free subscriptions are fine but dont get rid of shit that Works For You in favor of making money #someone really laced up their clown boots today im. so tired staff please dont #tumblr staff #EDIT: staff updated their original post to say we were all misunderstanding but #that doesnt stop the post from being stupid #the whole post was worded for Investors and then presented to the userbase #if you say 'we have big changes planned!' and dont put in the 'as options' its Your Fault that people read it as 'were changing everything'#staff isnt stupid. they know how they Should have worded it better than what they did #so yeah. someone Did lace up their clown boots before they hit post #edit pt 2 lol for the record i dont think tumblr would actually go through with all their changes in that post #they know how the userbase is and there are A Lot of us #i just dont like how? idk. condescending? the post sounded #and out of every place on the internet being being burned alive in the name of money #tumblr is the one place i know enough about to be Actually mad at lol #ive really liked some stuff staff has done in recent years #but talking to your userbase that way wasnt one

920 notes · View notes

shittyutmv · 1 year ago

Text

hey quick question to all our lovely askers out there: are we Trying to kill him?

#About ink btw #We still have an ask in the inbox that just says #“Can you shoot him with a bazooka please?”#or something along those lines #and i feel so aimless when i read it #like what am i supposed to do #i need to please the audience #but i cant just Kill that Guy #is that what you all want?#for me to kill him?#cus im following your recipe word for word #and fellas he looks more like roadkill every day #-mod kip #ooc #🦑

165 notes · View notes

batcavescolony · 2 months ago

Text

At the end of Agatha All Along, Agatha does things would have never done at the beginning. I see people say that they planted seeds for Agatha changing that never grew and that's just wrong. They might not be a tree but they've sprouted. In the beginning Agatha does everything for personal gain. But at then end Agatha has nothing personal to gain from telling Jen she bound her. There's no personal gain in her helping Billy find Tommy in the end or comforting him or helping him unlock Tommy's location. She has changed its just not huge or a dramatic personality change.

#agatha all along #agatha spoilers #agatha harkness #william kaplan #jen kale #now i think jen being bound by agatha is the truth? maybe? idk i can see it all ways. past agatha would definitely bind a witch for #money or power. but also incould see her lying to get jen to unbind herself cus the cards said she was bound willing or unwilliny #(something like that i cant remember the exact wording) i can see both but agatha doesn't matter Jen does.#she unbound her self and got her power back.#ive also seen people say jen was gonna hunt billy down cus he made the witches road and... why? if billy wasn't there agatha would have #never needed a coven and she would have still been bound. then even if she went to the witches road Agatha would have just killed her #if billy didnt actually create the witches road. yeah it wasnt great but its not like billy willing did it. it was instinctive magic.#some of yall need to go take a ela class #but i cant stress this enough THIS IS NOT THE END! the mcu is interconnected and agatha rio billy maybe jen will all be back #mcu

28 notes · View notes

fallencielo · 2 months ago

Text

i just watched 3rd life from grian's view for the first time ever and i'm actually not okay what the hell

36 notes · View notes

daemon-in-my-head · 8 months ago

Text

I'll never be over Sally calling her own son a dreadful child or saying she should've ended him before he was even born. I don't give a single flying fuck about the crimes he's committed (at least in this context). Nobody should talk about their child like that. And you know this absolutely vile woman probably told him this and much worse shit straight to his face. She said all that shit to a small kid that was presumably still innocent at that point. Aka, she most likely told her child it would be better if he were dead. Aka, she told her kid to kill himself. A FUCKING CHILD. And thx to the Belladonna lying around in their kitchen, I'm still convinced she tried to kill Gortash once he came back.

'Sold him cuz they needed money' my ass. You made your own kid, the person you were supposed to protect, pay for your own fuck ups and debts and mistakes and send him straight to hell. LITERALLY. FOR SOMETHING HE HAD NO FAULT IN. AND THEN THIS THING HAD THE AUDACITY TO TRY ND KILL HIM.

The absolute hatred and disgust I have for this fictional woman. I despise Bhaals A+ parenting, but this woman is worse than the fucking lord of murder. Imagine being more loathsome than an evil deity whose whole bit is goddamm murder and death. I swear to fucking god-

#also corpses cant lie #and she says that shit when you use speak with the dead #so she was 1000% convinced of this bullshit #hate isnt a strong enough word to describe my opinion of her #absolutely vile despicable woman #its cool to regret shit but dont fucking tell it to your kids face you prick #and dont make upur fucking child pay for your sins #i genuinely just loathe her so much istfg #bg3 #bg3 spoilers #enver gortash #bg3 gortash #lord gortash #sally flymm #sorry but i needed to vent #how can i kill fictional characters?#id call her a monster #but that would be an insult to all monsters out there #i generally think everyone deserves (a chance for) forgiveness #but im 2000% serious when im saying this #i hope this wretched thing burns in fucking hell #and this comes from someone who can pity the likes of gortash orin raphael a!a etc #fuck you sally flymm

58 notes · View notes

oceanwithouthermoon · 6 months ago

Text

ive been unhealthily fixated on kubosai for the past few weeks, i just have no idea how to put it into words. kuboyasu aren and saiki kusuo are in love btw

#they are.#been thinking a lot about t*rusai and k*bosai and all three of them together #(really long rant in these tags that shouldve been a rant post but im not changing it soz i got carried away LMAO->)#see the thing is that k*bosai is my absolute favorite ship ever. but i get genuinely pissed when people smack talk t*rusai #idk like i get why people wouldnt ship kbs and i really dont care. and i also get that a lot of people have differing opinions and-#wont ship trsai. i honestly cant wrap my head around why (other than people who just hate teruhashi and are misogynistic) but im okay with-#agreeing to disagree and i dont care yk??#but people so often make these long discussion posts just yapping and yapping and making up shit about how trsa 'wouldnt work'#and its always just... actual complete bullshit. like unreadable word vomit.#sorry. but its true.#thats why it gets me so mad #i cant think of a single reason why you would feel the need to do that #why cant you be normal and just. not like a ship. just dont like it. hate it even. but dont make up shit just to shit on it #its so dumb i have to force myself to just scroll past them every time i encounter one #usually on tiktok or tumblr #if i read them i wont be able to stop myself from making the most concerned and upset noises ever cuz what is actually wrong with you #theyre always the biggest dumbest stretches ever and they ignore their actual development and pretend it didnt happen #it just makes me wonder why people are so okay with making fun of that ship but get mad if anyone even dislikes theirs #and then they complain about people 'shitting on their opinion'#LIKE ?? NOBODY CARES THAT U HATE THE SHIP. I CERTAINLY DONT GAF.#but ur in the main tags advertising ur hatred for it and sounding stupid as shit for no reason? UR SHITTING ON PEOPLES SHIP ON PURPOSE #AND THEN GETTING MAD AT ANYONE WHO EVEN SAYS 'i disagree actually' IM LAUGHING SO HARD STOP IM KILLING MYSELF #the one time i ever talked in that much detail about why i disliked a ship was bevause somebody specifically asked me #and yk what ?? i have literally gotten death threats over it. im not allowed to hate that ship but everyone else can do whatever i guess #okay sorry. rant over.#is that controversial i cant tell. i dont really care and im not tagging anyway #meows post

26 notes · View notes

milkyspine · 4 months ago

Text

#mine #writers of tumblr #poetry #spilled ink #writing #okay to rb #spilled words #poem #tw: trauma #tw: sa #tw: abuse #wrote this after one of the first conversations i had with my mum after i told her what my brother's did #hearing her insist it wasnt their fault. hearing her say she cant lose him. hearing her say it was our dad's fault. hearing her defend them #especially my oldest brother #probably the worst thing she's ever done to me #so sure i can take it. cause i always have #i'd say “i would never do this to you; it wouldnt matter who you said had dine it” and she said “youre a better person than all of us”#sometimes i wish it'd killed me so maybe she'd see it for what it is but..#anyway #i hope you know youre more than your strength #and that just because you can handle it doesnt mean you should #you deserve peace and to feel safe enough to put on and take off your strength so you can just be #i hope it all reaches you soon

17 notes · View notes

faaun · 1 year ago

Text

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it #it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper #provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the #interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after #50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked #his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it #he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from #when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has #his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever #but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how #we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe #cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna #back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed #practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence #we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one #who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted #to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say #goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art.#you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea?#if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa #the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding #his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.

64 notes · View notes

littleplantfreak · 1 month ago

Text

gn lovlies I’m gonna go dream about Umemiya getting bit in zombie apocalypse au

#mari says #when im stressed i think abt killing him multiple ways….hes my punching bag…my little stress ball….#this one lets me have much angst i think #his initial reluctance to tell you but if he DOESNT then he’ll turn and hurt you but asking you to finish him off before he turns???#oooo the look on his face when he knows ur gonna say you cant do it is so gentle and theres no blame at all #fun fact: i loooove zombies #all kinds #hmmm i could make him immune and his reaction when you push him out of the way not knowing that and getting bit yourself?#or him finding you after you’ve turned and he’s gotta put you out of your misery? Dreamy sigh #i started writing a lil bit but ive been soooooooo…bad. lately that i can barely get a sentence out #I wanna write blood and guts and sinew #sinew is one of my fav words #you may ask yourself “mari if he was gonna turn into a zombie what would you do” excellent question imaginary you #i’d probably just let him bite me #but i do have it in me to mercy kill him too ig #but then i think…people wanna fuck the resident evil zombies right? well….#nvm back to killing him #why didnt i do zombies for halloween? cliche #jk i was just in my seasonal depression funk #still am but im trying to get better ✌️

12 notes · View notes

deadqueernoldor · 8 months ago

Text

Thinking thoughts about those from Cuivienen and how they later treated the Valar, especially after Cuivienen was destroyed.

I imagine a foundation of sorrow and a layer of betrayal and pettiness. They had promised safety. And how did it turn out? Kin of Tata and Tatie their first leaders, slain in Valinor by the Dark Hunter from which the Valar promised protection in Valinor.

And then, the War of Wrath comes and with it the destruction of Cuivienen.

If any of those were re-embodied in Aman, I wonder if they make it a point to always turn their back to Valar and Maiar. I wonder if they only speak in the tongue they had first devised all those millennia ago and spoke in Cuivienen before time and different kindreds changed the tongue, not Sindarin or Quenya from the Great Journey's time or later. I wonder if they sing songs in their ancient tongue, songs about the beauty and unsullied health of Cuivienen every time any of the Ainur are near.

I wonder if the Valar feel any shame when those who they once looked upon in wonder and love gaze back at them with indifference or disgust.

#i am so normal about the elves of cuivienen feeling the betrayal worse than anyone in aman including feanor and co #they PROMISED safety from Morgoth and orcs. they PROMISED beautiful lands without sorrow. they PROMISED all that and down the line #decided Mogoth had played pretend well enough to warrant him probation during which he immediately killed again #returns to the east and sullies what beauty had been left. and then even from afar he manages to hurt those from cuivienen with the WoW #dont get me wrong i think the cuivienen elves knew there had to be war against Morgoth for him to be defeated. but the fact that the valar #decided not to only abandon those of beleriand for over 5 centuries before that AND once the war is won also abandon #those of cuivienen to watch their beloved lands drown without as much a warning must sting.#i want there to be a concious decision of 'you abandoned your promise to us twice why should we ever trust you again even in your own lands'#a 'you promised our people who folowed you safety. you didnt deliver. you promised us freedom from morgoth. you didnt deliver. in fact your #inadequacy and decision to let him loose made everything worse for us in the east. why should we ever listen to anything you say'#and thus a concious effort to shed association with Aman as the Valar govern it. they cant leave. the way is shut. but they can establish #a sticking to their own tongue and traditions without the interference of the Ainur. they've done enough. not enough and yet quite enough.#the avari are welcome should some be reborn.#i never know if i want those of cuivienen to be reborn in aman or fade into unexistence entirely both have merit and sexy hcs #but if any were reborn i think they would get along fairly alright with the exiles. kinslaying exiles? 50/50 depending on repentance #but anyone who does not believe the valar's words and respects their decision to not ever be associated with them is welcomed neutral-warmly #they teach them songs about cuivienen. the sweet waters. beautiful meadows. the birdsong that sounds extra cheerful. fish in abundance #and in turn they get taught songs about beleriand. bewitched forests. victorious battles. wild rivers. frothy shores.#it is seen as an honour to be taught a song about Cuivienen by the people who sat by its shores once. in their language/dialect/whatever #instead of in sindarin or quenya. some millenia into the 4th age tou have a surge of ppl speaking cuivienen dialect #it becomes a clear distinction of who still has fondness left for the valar and who would feel indifferent if they vanished suddenly.#this tag essay has gotten way too long again. sorry besties it will happen again.#tag essay longer than the fucking post???? help #tolkien headcanons

23 notes · View notes

virgothozul · 2 years ago

Photo

adfgfsgafsgvhhg

#Macho Man is my new personality hi #fanfic #Jona couldn’t plan this unfolding but in the end he was extraordinarily hypocrit with this move #« public decency » and « family friendly content » my 🍑 !#unnecessary obscene violence hello #Jona i seriously hope sb will kick ur ass for ur live broadcast demonstration of poor parenting bc im sure joz wont say 💩#As usual the writing is amazing #I love drawing from fics these guys r crazy talented it s so f easy to picture everything #joseph joestar #u have no idea how many scenes i wanna sketch #Macho Man #chapter 14 #chapter 15 #update : i finish reading the chapter Jona feels guilty so i guess it is almost forgiven but still ! Pretty hypocritical #also sb’s gotta have a word with jot #dude cant just waltz around killing ppl off to cope with his emotions wtf man #i say all that bc i’m so f invested in this story i love it to bits #And i can give jona the cold shoulder while loving him deeply

158 notes · View notes

moeblob · 10 months ago

Text

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

25 notes · View notes

surrender-souls · 6 months ago

Text

garcian smith…

#my favorite smith. look i may draw kaede the most but thats cause shes the easiest for me to draw out of all of them #garcian is my favorite but hes hard to draw cause his face is so defined #can the internet talk about him for like forever please. his depths… the ending…#also the implication that hes above harman and kun or at least after the ending he is #the three eyed being feels like an entity on the edge of like. becoming themself to the fullest #the tip of the iceberg! and this is what harman and kun fear #and this being is also in emir. i wont say its him 100% because it was also nightmare iirc?#possibly in the same way with how kun is technically a reincarnation but has only been alive like 300 years #alive in this form too. he dies but he does come back as kun lan and its not seen as another reincarnation #emir is his own rabbit hole and i cant even put him into words #garcian is a really good character lets all pay attention to garcian please #i speak #killer7 #kill the past

8 notes · View notes

mxdotpng · 2 years ago

Text

i genuinely dont know how tales of the abyss did what it did because ive never had a game hurt me so much with like sixteen separate character relationships. all at once.

#.text #tales of the abyss #besides the fact ive (obviously) been thinking abt jade and luke #ive also been thinking about tear and asch. and how im disappointed they only speak like once to each other #because they. are like. so insanely similar it is. surprising to me they dont meet.#but tear in general is so underused. like.#tear. she doesnt want to kill her brother but she must. he is everything to her. but she knows her duty.#she is calm and collected on the outside even as she breaks on the inside. she is a soldier. she doesnt let her emotions #dictate her actions or her words. and she is kind.#and then. like. asch. he wants to kill his replica but he knows that he cant. his emotions get the better of him to the point that #he disregards everything about luke and paints him as the enemy. for as responsible and mature he is all of that #disappears the second luke is involved-- because his emotions control him. he wants to be kind but i dont think he knows how anymore.#i dont think they would get along but there would be an understanding between them.#with tear. understanding means kindness. if she sees herself in others or understands them completely. she becomes. so kind.#its almost shocking to see that side of her one moment and the stone cold soldier the next.#its a matter of what she allows herself to be #but i think with asch she'd become the opposite. because she sees too much of herself in him - unlike luke it is not #the good things. nor is it the things they could bond about. it is the fact that asch wants to kill the only person in the world #who is not responsible for what happened to them. and probably the only person in the world who could truly understand asch.#like i know tear says she believes some things must be done. including killing family. but i dont think she truly. truly believes that.#she is in anguish over having to kill her brother. so i think her seeing asch completely disregard and even attack luke at times #when it ISNT necessary. like it is with van. she would not be kind to him.#which is like. asch is really only Neutral at times - even with luke he sometimes cant keep telling himself everything is lukes fault.#besides being defensive. i think thats really the only thing he could be around that type of tear.#like a. 'you dont know anything.' type of deal. a quiet anger. not the loud stuff he shoves at luke or van #they are fascinating to me.#how would they act in my twinswap au.................#i wonder...

43 notes · View notes