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erm ehehe i like death note sm :3
#misa amane#misa misa#death note#death note fanart#death note art#fanart#the second kira ong on LIGHT#i cant imagine a world without light
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#i cant do a thing abt it but oh it hurts#and i feel bad bc i feel like he'd think im selfish?#i want him to be happy but cant i be hurt? cant i be sad too?#and i wont chase him. i'd never do anything like that. 9/10 if i dont *feel* wanted regardless of truth#im out of there bc i have avpd </3#but i cling to him?? i mean in an emotional way. like i never put up walls in my mind to numb my feelings for him the way i do w avpd#why is he so different from everyone else for my brqin and heart? i mean i obvi i think hes amazing#but i dont get why my brain doesnt protect me emotion and feeling wise the way it does w everything else#how could he cross all of those boundaries and walls my brain has put in place?#this is why i thought i had found my person. but it gets tricky when i am not his person#nor do i think i can be whrn he's chosen someone else. (i get that i really really do and thats why it hurts sm)#but yeah i'd never chase.. bc like why would i? when i know he didnt choose me to give a chance to. i'd never be as arrogant to try to#think i could be worth a chance or that i could do anything abt it.#so even if it's selfish i hurt sm. even tho at the same time i want him to have what he wants even if it isnt me and never was#bc i do also think.. even if it makes me sound naive.. or actually maybe this is just how *i* feel#if u love someone sm and truly want to be w them u find a way to get there. which i wanted to do bc yeah.. i felt like he was my person#but it's just me. it's me alone in this room and i cant.. stay in here forever bc how is that a life? :(#so idk ig i'll hurt and ache and be in pain for a while. and hopefully one day be able to move on#but facing the world & future without him and not knowing if we'll even talk again is so scary and so hard :(#and like will *i* ever find someone who lights my heart on fire and makes me deeply feel and not being so scared i turn away from it?#the way he does... idk :(#i cant even imagine wanting anyone else but.. im alone in that feeling too so.. it is what it is it is what it is it is what it is
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#i love my mother#but god sometimes i wonder if she loves me back#i do something good and im the light of her life#i do something mediocre and she expects better of me#its those words. those fucking words that have haunted me my whole life#“i expected more from you”#am i not enough? am i not fucking enough for you just the way i am?#if i didnt do the things ive done would you still love me?#or would you wish for a daughter who'd accomplish things you never did. a daughter who dreamed of things better than you did.#a daughter who was you. but better.#mumma i love you so much. so so much. i cant imagine a world without you#but why must you be like this#why do you want me to be the best?#im so afraid of disappointing you. its terrifying. gut wrenching. the very thought makes me sick#and yet. and yet. here we are.#“you're better than this”#BUT WHY MUST I BE#WHY CANT I BE ME#IS THE THOUGHT OF ME BEING MYSELF SO LOATHSOME TO YOU THAT YOU SHOW HURT EVERYTIME I DONT DO SOMETHING UP TO YOUR EXPECTATIONS#AM I REALLY THAT FUCKING UNLOVABLE#THAT I HAVE TO BE THE GREATEST AT EVERYTHING JUST FOR A SLIVER OF YOUR ATTENTION AND ADORATION#WHY MUST I BE AN EXTENSION OF YOUR WANTS AND DESIRES#WHY MUST I FULFILL THE PROPHECIES YOU'VE FAILED#WHY CANT I DO SOMETHING FOR MYSELF. FOR ME. THE WAY I WANT IT TO BE#GOD FUCKING DAMMIT I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ITS TEARING ME APART BUT PLEASE.#PLEASE.#LOVE ME. LOVE ME THE WAY I AM AND NOT THE WAY YOU WANT ME TO BE.#shanti ki ashanti suno
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Thinking abt my dupe ocs again, and I'm returning to my cringe fail silly ones who exist solely for me to have fun. Basically one of the colonies is sort of a lil experimental ground dupe wise where most of the dupes get to have some fun critter biology meshed in there, with most of them being fairly stable, but a few of them having a bit of a harder time for some reason or another. Such as having no bones and the most fragile skin known to dupe kind.
#rat rambles#oni posting#this colonies ada is the no bones guy shes mixed with a void bug#she actually is able to function mostly just fine its just that she has to be like super careful all the time#it doesn't help that her insides are mostly just foamy goo so the colony doctor doesn't rly know how to treat her wounds#on the bright side shes extremely light and can jump onto other dupes shoulders for fun#she cant fly tho very sad#even if she was the lightest thing in the world her wings are on the back of her head and arent as flexible as an actual shine bugs wings#she mostly uses them to gesture with like an extra pair of arms#and to paint with since shes also an artist#she's passionate abt her art but shes also super passionate abt being an engineer and a lot of her art ties back to that#mostly because she was printed only abt a month before the pod went offline so after that her fellow dupes became a lot more protective of#her since they felt that if smth went wrong now they wouldnt know how to help her#this frustrates her a Lot especially since prior to this she was mostly left to figure out how to manage this stuff by herself#she ends up tinkering in private when no one is around since she has a lot of ideas and wants to try making them#one of her biggest goals is to find a way to fly or glide without jetpacks since she's convinced she could find a way to#if she can be knocked off her feet by a light breeze then she can totally find a way to stay in the air longer shes sure of it#in the meantime the rest of the critter squad are trying to convince liam to not eat sand because itll just make his sensitive tummy worse#he knows this conceptually but his heart tells him that he ate a meal and started to feel sick so its clearly poisoned and the cook is#sick or trying to poison him and hes going to die if he keeps eating food from the fridge and so he must eat sand#unfortunately this is a fairly common anxiety of his since his stomach rly can only half handle anything ever#I imagine he and ada have a complicated relationship as while they do get along one of them has violent anxiety and the other is fragile as#hell but hates being babied so ada often avoids liam to his dismay
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Better off without me - Kim Mingyu
18+ / mdi
summary: nearly 10 years.. that´s the time you´ve been with Kim Mingyu. But what if his plans about the future are not the same as yours?
What if the guy you love the most breaks your heart within seconds?
content: Idol Mingyu x non Idol reader, fight,angst, happy end,fluff, smut
wc: 3.8 k
a/n: I really love reading your guys opinion about my stories.
They say that after 10 years, you will be together forever.
After 10 years, you'll know each other's biggest flaws.
But what if 10 years meant nothing in the end?
You met him when you were 13; you just changed schools; he was the first one to talk to you. He was your first friend.
Your first friend took you out at night.
Your first real friend.
Your first kiss.
It was your first time having sex.
This is your first real relationship.
Your first apartment together.
This is your first time saying I love you.
Your first love.
And also your first heartbreak.
Kim Mingyu was the man who pushed you away, fast and painfully.
And the worst part? You did not notice.
It has been 9 years; next week it would've been 10 years. 10 years of you two together in a relationship.
Mingyu currently spends a lot of time in the studio; they had a comeback prepared. 4 months from now on until their comeback would be there.
You had been with him for every comeback until now; you were always at the front, supporting them. Your second family.
Seungkwan always went out with you for brunch; Joshua went shopping with you; and Wonwoo just talked to you for hours.
You were sure about Mingyu being your future.
When Joshua took you out to get a manicure and pedicure, you thought of nothing; when Jeonghan took you to buy yourself a pretty dress and some heels, you felt all giddy.
When you were styled perfectly, your hair falling perfectly over your shoulder, and your make-up done, you knew tonight was the night.
And when you were sitting in front of the man you loved deeply, you carried the entire world in your eyes.
The eyes Mingyu loved so deeply.
As you were giggling along to his jokes as you sipped on your wine, your perfect manicure was present as always.
Mingyu treated you like a princess.
He treated you like he always said, „You're the one that always supported me, baby; in the end, I'll spoil you like a queen.".
Mingyu made sure you were always taken care of; even if you did not need any of it, it was his priority.
„Baby," he whispered, taking your hand in his. The music was playing softly—your favorite song. The tears were prickling in your eyes. „You can probably imagine why we are here tonight," he smiled softly. He felt something tuck inside his chest.
The velvet box in his hand was making you beam with joy, but he suddenly let his hand down. „I can't do it," he whispered, swallowing the biggest lump he ever had in his throat.
He let go of your hand, and you felt all the air leaving your lungs. "Gyu," you whispered, confused. „What do you mean?"
Mingyu got up. „I can't marry you; I can't," he whispered, placing a couple of bills on the table. „Gyu, what the fuck are you talking about?" You got up, and the red wine got knocked over. You followed him outside. „Baby, please talk to me," you pleaded, and he walked to the car.
"You can't marry me, but why this? Why the ring? Are those years not enough?" you sobbed.
„I thought they were; I'm not sure about this anymore," he was shaking.
„What do you mean by this?" You pulled his arm so that he would look at you.
„Fuck Y/N, I CANT MARRY YOU BECAUSE I FUCKING FEEL UNDER PERMANENT PRESSURE WITH YOU," he screamed at you, so that you flinched at his words.
You could not utter a word: "You... what?" Your voice was barely a whisper.
"You're better off without me. I have tried to break it off a few times now. Wonwoo told me to try it, that the engagement will light up another spark," he rubbed over his face. „I thought I'd never tell you; I thought I could pull this off," he whispered, and he avoided your gaze at all costs.
„You're joking, right?" You said with a quivering voice, „Please tell me that this is not true." You felt your knees buckle. „We don't need to get married; you don't need to lie," you basically pleaded.
„I'll pack my things; I'll be gone by tonight," he said, opening the door of his car. „You can't do this to me, Gyu; you're the love of my life." You felt the tears running down your face by now.
„We grew apart by now, Y/N," he shrugged, getting inside the car. „I'm sorry for doing it like that."
„What do you mean? What is happening? I don't understand where this is coming from; we were happy, we were perfect for each other; you really want to leave me here." You held on to the car handle.
„Please let go," he whispered.
„So you really broke me while trying to propose," you gasped, taking a step back. „You really did that," you whispered while turning around, falling to your knees and sobbing. „Please get up; don't make a scene, please," he said, and you looked up at him. „Get the fuck away from me," you spat.
How could he be this cold after all those years?
Mingyu felt his heart break, but you did not see his emotions on the inside. How could you?
Seeing you like this is the worst scenario.
„I'll let Wonwoo Hyung know to get you," he said while driving off. He parked the car somewhere he could see you getting picked up by Wonwoo. He watched how he lifted you up—your fragile, sobbing body. How he buckled you up and drove away.
He did not see how you entered the apartment or how Wonwoo followed you, making you tea.
How have you tried to call him a thousand times?
How you packed your bags and how you called your parents to tell them that your trip to Germany with Mingyu would be cancelled because he did not feel so well.
How they told you that you could come alone, and how you agreed.
How you spent the entire night crying over a man you spent all your life with, how you threw away the dress, and how you slammed all the picture frames against the wall.
When he opened the door to the apartment the next day to grab some things, he found you gone. He saw the missing suitcase, and he found a letter on his nightstand.
„Gyu,
or Mingyu, I don't even know if I can call you any pet names anymore. I really don't know what has just happened; I can't get my head around this situation. I try to find the problem; I try to think about all the possibilities of what could've happened.
We were so happy—at least I was.
You, Kim Mingyu, were the reason for my happiness and for all the beautiful moments.
You helped me become the woman I am today, and I'm thankful for that.
My mom always taught me that things happen for a reason.
I don't know what the reason is now, but I'll try to live my life.
But I hope you understand that we will never have any kind of relationship—neither friends nor lovers. You broke my heart; you had now shame and no mercy. You did not care about me in the slightest. After nearly 10 years, you dumped me like a fucking trash bag.
Kim Mingyu I want you to be happy. I want seventeen to reach all the goals you've dreamed of; you guys are amazing.
With us being separated, I need to distance myself from my second family. Because how am I supposed to hang out with your best friends? You took it all away from me, but that's okay.
I'll survive.
Please stay healthy and happy.
I love you, Mingyu, with all my heart.
Your Y/N
"P.S. tell Jihoon that he can use all the audio snippets I recorded for him."
When Mingyu finished the letter, he felt the wetness on his cheek. He was sobbing.
He had lost the only person he had ever loved.
And now you were gone; he knew you were visiting your parents. He looked at the velvet box and choked on his sob.
Maybe in another time you both will get your deserved happy ending.
But as for now, you both needed to fix your broken souls.
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Six months have passed since you last visited Seoul.
It's been six months since you've last worked inside the office.
It's been six months since you've seen him.
SVT invited you to their release party, and you were pretty sure you would not go, but as time passed, you wanted to be there.
You missed them so badly, and you thought maybe you wouldn't even see him.
Well, you were a fool.
The first thing you saw when you entered the building was the large frame of your ex-lover. He was standing next to Chan and Jihoon.
Nice, exactly the two people you wanted to see.
But before they could see you, you walked toward the bar.
You were happy that the location was crowded and people were not paying attention. With your cocktail in your hand, you walked around looking at the different album promotion pictures.
There was this one picture you could not stop looking at; it was Mingyu in the studio. It looked normal, but as you looked closer, you could see the ring he was wearing. The one you got him as a promise ring.
„He's not doing well." A voice startled you. „Nonu," you gasped, and he chuckled. „He's miserable, Y/N. Ever since you left, he has done the bare minimum."
You sighed, "Well, he wanted that, Nonu; he was the one that pushed me away. I was sure that he would be the one I'd marry, but suddenly he did not care about a thing." You tried to end this conversation.
„It's not how it seems, Y/N; there are some parts of the story you don't know; you should talk to him," he pecked your head. „I'm really happy you're here," and with that, he walked towards some other guests.
You tried not to think about his words, but it was harder than you thought.
As you made your way through the venue, you spotted some of the boys. „Y/N!!!!" Seungkwan yelled and ran towards you. „Hi kwannie," you giggled as he hugged you tight.
Cheol and the others also greeted you, but when Mingyu was standing in front of you, his brown eyes basically pleading for forgiveness, you felt like crying.
You were quick to avoid his gaze, but you felt it on you the entire time. „Excuse me," you said to Jeonghan, „I need to get a refill." You smiled, escaping the situation. The heels made it a lot harder to walk away with fast steps. You felt Mingyus presence behind you, „Y/N," he said while stopping you.
„What do you want?" You asked with a stable voice, and he gulped down at your tone. „I want to talk," he whispered as you ordered another drink, gulping it down.
"Now you want to talk?" You scoffed, "You ditched me after nearly ten years; you treated me like a random girl. After everything I did for you," you walked past him, "I will not talk to you tonight.".
Well, now that the night had changed, you were sitting on top of Mingyu, throwing your head back while riding him like you loved to. How he guided your hips with his long, slender fingers digging into your flesh.
The familiarity of your bodies made it so easy to feel good.
"Oh god, your pussy is so good," he groaned while you moved even faster. "Oh fuck," you said, feeling yourself getting close to the end, and you were a moaning mess.
When you both reached your highs, Mingyu tossed the condom away, and you suddenly felt sober. You gathered your clothes while Mingyu cleaned himself up. "What are you doing?" he asked, confused, and you walked past him. "Hey," he said, grabbing your arm. "Let go of me," you said, ashamed of yourself.
"Please stay," he whispered, but you could only choke out a sob. "This should not have happened, Gyu," you whispered, and he felt his heart clench at your words. "You don't mean that, baby; we were so good," he pleaded, holding on to you.
feeling that if he lets you go now, you're gone forever.
"You broke me, Mingyu; I spent the last six months trying to fix what you destroyed." You pulled your arm away and said, "So no, Mingyu, I won't stay just because you decided you still wanted me." You walked away.
"I always wanted you; I could just not tell you the truth." He whispered, but you did not hear it.
You tried your best to ignore this feeling of missing him, but you couldn't; your heart yearned for him. Kim Mingyu was the man your heart belonged to.
With each passing day, you realize that you need to talk to him, that you need to know what happened, and that he pushed you away.
When you heard your phone vibrating, you rushed to your desk, where it was lying.
You saw Wonwoo's name on there: "Nonu? Is everything alright?" you asked when you answered the call.
"I'm fine, but can you do me a favor?" You raised your eyebrows, confused. "What is it, Nonu?"
"Come to the recording studios, please," he breathed. "What is happening there, Nonu?" You were getting nervous, and he chuckled slightly and said, "Be there by 7 p.m., please." With that, he ended the call.
You were pretty sure this was about Mingyu, and you were ready to find out.
So you got ready, put on some comfy pants and a hoodie, slipped on your sneakers, and rushed to the bus.
After a 30-minute journey, you were in front of the building you once visited regularly. "Y/N, oh my, it's been a long time," Juna said with open arms, pulling you into a hug. "Yes, sorry, I was so busy." You lied, and she looked at you. "We all know what happened, love, and I can totally understand that you wanted to have some distance." She smiled softly at you.
"So, have you seen Wonwoo?" You giggled, and she nodded. "He was here; he gave me this envelope for you and told me to guide you inside." You nodded, following her.
You sat down, opening the envelope.
You took a deep breath when you realized it was Mingyu's handwriting.
"My beloved Y/N, I never thought the day would come that I would need to write those words to you and that I would push you away. The only person that I ever loved. Y/N, there are so many things I did not tell you; I couldn't. I did everything I could so that I could act like this did not affect me, but in the end, I suffered in silence. The members talked to me, and they told me I'm just the corpse of myself. And they are right; I'm barely eating and barely active; actually, I'm working out even more because it takes my mind off, even if it's just for a few minutes. I want to tell you why I did it and why everything escalated. It all started with our comeback. We got a new manager, a woman whose name was Heejin. She was not nice at all; she told us dating was a no-go, and we told her that some of us were happily taken. She just laughed at that. After a while, she began to manipulate us; she told us that we were not good enough, and every day she told us that no one could love an idol. I began to believe her; we all did. I wanted to bury myself in a hole; I felt like a burden. Believe me when I tell you, I wanted to propose. When I looked into your sparkling eyes that night, I felt my heart bursting with love, but then the words of Heejin came back to my mind, and I could not do it anymore. I wanted you to be happier. I thought I could not give you this happiness. But god damn, baby, believe me when I tell you that you are my happiness; you're all I ever wanted. I can't live without you; I miss you, and I need you... Hopefully someday you can look me in the eyes again and realize how much I adore you. I love you.
Your Mingyu"
You looked up, letting the tears roll down your cheeks. You never realized how he felt, and you could scream at yourself for that.
The TV turned on inside the small room. "And today we have Seventeens Mingyu here, covering one of the saddest heartbreak songs at the moment."
When the melody began to play, you felt the goosebumps rising.
He was singing Kim Feel's Someday, the Boy, your favorite song.
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You were lying on the couch, your heating pad on your tummy, while Mingyu was making you a fresh peppermint tea. It was this time of the month that every woman hated. You were currently watching a new drama called Itaewon Class, and you could not stop the tears. "Baby, what's wrong?" Mingyu hurried over to you, but you could only sob. "Oh, baby, you're too nice; you're always crying over movies," he chuckled while pulling you closer. "Can you someday cover this song?" You whispered, "This would be the perfect song to fix my broken heart." You looked up at him, and he softly kissed you. "Hopefully, I never need to fix your broken heart," he said, kissing your head.
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When you heard his deep voice singing the words of the song, you tried your best to stay strong.
"The sad memories in my heart
I can't erase it with the tears I shed. Where should I start deleting it? Only empty laughter"
You could see the teary eyes, and you were sobbing once again. His knuckles were white from how tight he grabbed the microphone.
"A long time in the future, that person back then
Do you have everything you dreamed of?"
He finished the song with one tear running down his cheek, and then the TV got dark. People cheered after he finished, and you could not believe it.
You jumped up, hurrying through the corridor. "He's in there," Juna said, pointing towards the dressing rooms. In this exact moment, you knew that Mingyu was your forever, and you wanted it.
You rushed into the room, and he looked up. "Y/N," he said breathlessly. "I read it, I watched it, and now I am a mess," you whispered, your mind completely occupied by him.
"But I realized that I just can't move on; you are what I want." His dark brown eyes watched you carefully. "You are more than enough for me, Gyu; you are enough." You walked towards him, and he watched every move you made.
"How can you be so understanding when I messed up our entire relationship?" He had tears in his eyes, but you only pulled him close. "Because I promised you, Mingyu, we both are the endgame," you said, wiping the tears away. "I love you," you whispered, and you kissed him softly.
He did not hesitate one second and pulled you close while his one hand was softly in your neck. This kiss was full of desperation and love.
You walked with him until he landed on the couch with you on top, straddling him.
The way you undressed each other was skilled; you knew each other's bodies blindly; your whimpers were like the best song he has ever heard; and the way his tongue twirled around your hardened nipples made you crazy.
The way you were bouncing on his dick made him lose his mind; he felt like he would go insane with every passing minute. The way you whispered in his ear how much you missed this made his eyes roll to the back of his head.
"I'm going to cum, baby," he groaned, and you nodded. "Fill me up, please. Wanna feel it?" You moaned, and you brought him over the edge. He held you so close that you clawed your nails into his back until you both just calmed down against each other.
And when you both lay in his bed with only some white sheets covering your bodies, he opened his nightstand. "Marry me," he whispered into your ear, and your eyes widened, letting out a gasp. "Gyu," you said, feeling the tears in your eyes.
"I´m so sure, like I´ve never been before; you´re all I want, and I can't wait to spend my forever with you, so Y/N, please marry me." He opened the velvet box, and you nodded. "Yes," you squealed while kissing him.
"I love you so much, baby; you make me so happy," he said while putting the ring on your finger. "Us forever, Gyu," you kissed him softly.
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Obey Me As Tumblr #26
Mammon: I love NyQuil. It’s just like. Detroit become liquid. I don’t use the measure cup I just chug what feels right. I’m moving backwards through a brick wall rn
Mammon: You could fit anything in me rn I’m so relaxed
Mammon: For sure gonna shit the bed tonight
Lucifer: You’ve summed up NyQuil in a way that most could not
Mammon: Hello
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Belphegor: Cheat mode
Close your eyes and you can play any game in your mind, even paper Mario
Leviathan: Paper Mario is trash
Belphegor: Close your eyes and imagine yourself being a more likable person, and then open them and weep
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Asmodeus: How slutty would you say you are?
Leviathan: In theory? Very. In practice? Not at all. I’m lazy
Simeon: The sprit is willing but the flesh is weak
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Mammon: The names practice
Mammon: Mal practice
MC: Nice to meet you Dr Practice, can you please tell me what’s wrong with my son :)
Mammon: He needs surgery on all of his bones
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MC: Me giving my Chihuahua two kisses: Chimuahmua
Luke: Bad post
MC: Sorry it didn’t make you Chihaha
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Lucifer: Don’t ever call me OP you will adores me by my full name
Satan: Obert Pobert
Leviathan: Obiwan Penobi
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Leviathan: Haha not to scare anyone but the hell does beyond in bed bath and beyond stand for?
Leviathan:
Me: what’s ‘beyond’
Employee: *snaps my neck* go find out
Solomon: As a former bed bath and beyond employee, I appreciate this
Leviathan: What the hell and fuck are you implying
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Belphegor: I crawl into bed
Sheets: made
Pillows: fluffed
Lights: out
Belphegor: I am forcibly removed from ikea
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Mammon: What’s a gender neutral word you could use for your spouse? Wusband? Hife?? Wifesband?!?!?!
Mammon: I may be stupid
Satan: This is the text version of looking for your glasses when they are on your head
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Satan: Could you please put your crying kid on vibrate
Mammon: I CANT STOP LAUGHING BC I JUST IMAGINE THIS KID SCREAMING AND THE MOM PULLS A REMOTE OUT OF HER MOM-BAG AND PRESSES A BUTTON AND THE CHILD JUST STARTS TO VIOLENTLY SHAKE AND THE LOOK OF TERROR ON THE KIDS FACE AS THEY TRY TO MAKE NOISE BUT THEY JUST VIBRATE DEAR GOD
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Diavolo: The fact that makeup is considered to be “mature” and “sexualized” implies that being a clown or mime is the sluttiest job out there
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MC: Remember kids: rats are the Capri sun of the vampire world
Barbatos: Hi what the FUCK does this mean
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Beelzebub: This is so funny with and without context
Beelzebub: I forgot to add the picture
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Solomon: Knuckle tattoos that say ESCAPED BIOHAZARD
Asmodeus: That’s way too many letters do you have radiation poisoning or something?
Asmodeus: Oooooh
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Simeon: Gangman style came on the radio again
Satan: This sounds like a post-apocalyptic diary entry
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MC: Bed bath and behind you
Solomon: Bed bath and beware
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too many skk aus with beast chuuya meeting canon skk and the angst from beast chuuya’s pov cause he craves what canon skk have BUT LISTEN
i offer an alternative au idea with canon skk suffering! that is canon skk meeting ada chuuya. we all know in Beast Afterword asgr mentioned that there is likely a universe where chuuya left pm with dazai and joined ada. now imagine that chuuya ends up in canon skk world due to some ability. imagine canon skk seeing this chuuya who is in the Light bc of Dazai. the realization that chuuya is loyal to pm but his loyalty to dazai outweighs that. the pain that had dazai asked chuuya would have left with him. canon skk having to see ada chuuya casually mention sth about their life and burning with want and jealousy because this version of them didnt suffer like they did. they dont have a 4 year distance. they dont have things that the other doesnt know bc that’s what 4 years do to someone. especially when the transition is from a teenager to an adult. this chuuya would have dazai witness all his change and he’d see dazai’s changes too. they’re on the same side. partners still. can easily reach out for the other, can easily speak about the other without feeling like their heart is twisting. this version of them have everything that canon skk so desperately want but cant have.
this is what we need. we should leave Beast Chuuya alone cause he fr has suffered enough and do this!
edit: one more thing!
the feeling of “why him and not me?” that canon skk will have seeing ada chuuya. canon dazai thinking what did the other dazai have that made chuuya trust him so much as to turn his back on the people he considered family. what did that dazai have that he doesnt?
and canon chuuya thinking what did this chuuya have that made dazai love him so much that he asked him to leave with him. why this chuuya and why not him? what did he lack?
THE ANGST GUYS THE ANGST!!!
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this fandom talks so much about how hard the final fifteen and its aftermath was/is for crowley and im not gonna deny that it was but. try seeing the whole thing from aziraphales perspective for a sec. Because it is so so so heartbreaking. i know its hard bc we dont really know whats going on there with the metatron and threats and things that were cut out but lets take it at face value and try to imagine what hes feeling.
He knows another apocalypse is coming. He wants himself and Crowley to be safe; he's always wanted them to be safe from the very beginning. Its why he's so unsure of the arrangement for so long ("If Hell finds out they wont just be angry. they'll destroy you!"). Even when he and Crowley are finally "safe", they know theres more coming and theyre just waiting, anticipating, until Jim happens. They panick, everything gets very chaotic but clears up without either of them seriously hurt, luckily. Aziraphale is still reeling with adrenaline when the Metatron takes him outside. He's definitely thinking "alright, just this, get him off my back and then I can get back to ignoring them until the next apocalypse." But suddenly, Heaven is offering him a way to stop that next apocalypse NOW - and even better, Crowley will be safe the entire way through! They'll both be angels, safe, on the same side and save the world!
(also the fact that heaven, whove been talking down to him his entire life, are now acting like they respect him. I dont think he entirely falls for it but that would feel good to anybody, whether he suspects its fake or not.)
Crowley says no. Crowley refuses, angrily, confesses, in the worst moment while theres thousands of other things running through Aziraphale's mind and now he has to deal with this too, years, millennia of unspoken things slapping him in the face in an already incredibly vulnerable moment. Crowley talks of running away again and leaving the world behind. Aziraphale tries again - he needs Crowley for this, he cant do this alone, neither the entire task of saving the world nor the simple act of going back there. Crowley kisses him, doesnt even want to accept Aziraphale's forgiveness for not helping him - leaves.
Aziraphale definitely has some sort of plan, going up there. But he will also be arriving in Heaven, cold white lights, cold faces over pale clothing judging his every move and have to juggle both responsibilities and his own, undercover plans, all this without any help and nobody to talk to. You remember how he ate an entire ox the first time he tasted food? He's still got Crowley's taste on his lips and an empty stomach. And he doesn't even entirely understand why Crowley rejected him because Crowley's always helped him before. It's their game. He gets himself into situations, Crowley rescues him and they never say a word about how theyre feeling. And now Crowley broke the rules, refused, and kissed him and Aziraphale cant even talk to anyone about it because who would listen and anyways, he needs to get to a meeting about killing everything on the world he was put on to protect.
#im rambling i know but i just.#crowley at least is allowed to lounge around dramatically and feel sorry for himself#(hes definitely entitled to for somebodys sake - someone give hima hug!)#but aziraphale has no nina and maggie or wine or plants or muriel or anything as a support system hes literally alone up there#get the poor thing out of there and stop saying he needs to apologize to crowley!!#anyways those are my two cents about all this#i love aziraphale#good omens#aziraphale#the final fifteen#ineffable husbands#aziracrow#ineffable divorce#crowley
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Hello!!! I love your blog and your Klaus stories. I had a little idea about him, Klaus x GN!Reader who is obsessed with his hips (because let's be honest, I'm totally infatuated with them *cough*). I imagine he would be a little tease about it when he'd notice how the Reader is feeling? Thank you in advance!
a/n: THANK YOU SO SO MUCHH ILY, IF U DONT LIKE THIS IM ALL DOWN TO REWRITE IT, LIKE GENUIENLY.
yall i tried my besttt, i didnt rlly know how to finish it so just don't judge alright I'm going to cry. besides that thank you so much for the support omgg so many ppl liked and reblogged my fics I'm so happy :)))
pairings: Klaus Hargreeves x Gn!reader
Summary: you are obsessed with Klaus's hips
Genre: fluff
Warnings: Alchohol, gn!reader, gender neutral reader, no y/n used. Klaus is a tease.
Word count: 500 something (i cant write long fics for my life yall)
You'd always heard it was the small things—the details about a person that drives you mad, that sneak up on you and settle deep in your bones until you can't shake them. You never believed it until... Klaus Hargreeves.
It wasn't his sly grin, nor his ability to light up your mood no matter what—you loved all that about him—but no, what got you were his hips.
you two were in your room, Klaus getting dressed and—you reading a book in your chair— if you’d even call it reading.
Klaus was pacing the room, shirt half-buttoned, his low-rise jeans peeking out as he rummaged through a pile of clothes—probably looking for a clothing piece he'd mindlessly tossed in his usual chaos, getting ready for Luther’s wedding.
You leaned back in your chair, pretending to be invested in the book on your lap. But your eyes betrayed you, trailing down to his hips—the way they moved perfectly in sync with his long legs, almost like a sensual dance that came naturally to him.
"What are you staring at, doll?" Klaus's voice pulled you back from your daze, and his smirk told you he already knew the answer. "Nothing," you mumbled, clearing your throat and returning to your book, hoping he wouldn't notice your fierce blush.
"Nothing, huh?" He sauntered over a cat-like grace to his steps.
Klaus leaned in, resting his hands on the arms of the chair you were sitting on. You could smell his cologne—a mix of sandalwood and something uniquely him.
"You know," he drawled, "it's rude to stare without offering a compliment."
Your eyes snapped up to his face, heat rising to your cheeks. "I wasn't—"
"Oh, but you were," Klaus interrupted, his grin widening. He pushed off the chair and spun dramatically, arms outstretched. "So, what's the verdict? Do these jeans make my ass look good?"
You couldn't help but laugh, the tension in your shoulders easing slightly. "You're impossible, Klaus."
"Impossibly charming, you mean," he winked, flopping onto your bed with a dramatic sigh. "Now, as punishment for your rudeness, I'm charging you with the task of helping me find those jeans. You know, the ones with the—"
"Sparkly skulls?" you finished for him, already moving to search through the chaos of his belongings. "I swear, Klaus, if you'd just organize your things..."
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Even in public, you'd find yourself staring. His hips were simply irresistible to you.
Everyone was drunk, even Five—a sight that was both amusing and unsettling. It was strange seeing him so nonchalant about the apocalypse.
the newlyweds were feeding each other.. strawberries. Across the room, Allison and Viktor were arguing about—something, their voices barely audible over the thumping music, and Diego had disappeared with Lila some time ago.
And then there was him. Klaus, the life of the party as always, was on the dance floor, his body moving in perfect rhythm to the beat. Your eyes couldn't help but linger on him, admiring how those jeans hugged his hips just right. Even during a world-ending disaster, Klaus had a way of commanding attention—and looking damn good while doing it.
As the night wore on, the party's energy seemed to fuel his every move. You watched him, and couldn't help but smile at how completely Klaus could captivate an entire room.
At one point, he spotted you from across the room. With a mischievous grin, he beckoned you over. and before you could react, he was at your side, pulling you into the crowd.
"Come on, doll," he said, his voice a playful purr. "You can't just stand there staring. Join me."
You laughed, letting him guide you onto the dance floor. For a moment, it was just the two of you, moving together in sync with the music. The world outside ceased to exist.
#fanfiction#klaus hargreeves x reader#the umbrella academy#tua#gender neutral reader#no y/n#x reader#tua fanfic#klaus hargreeves x you
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more headcanons about sebastian solace from the hit game pressure roblox
back on my bullshit and i promise i only talk about The Situation a little bit
☆ his third arm is more sensitive than the other two (i'm thinking that either the USHD doctors fucked something up during the operation OR it grew in wrong, nerve endings closer to the epidermis and whatnot, something like that)
☆ just hates being touched in general, he’d rather initiate that contact (need an update where he gently —> not very gently shakes expendables off (depending on whether and how much they’ve annoyed/flashbanged him) when they climb him) ☆☆ part of this is due to trauma, he cant trust anyone to touch him without hurting him ☆☆ the other part is that he’s got that fucking dawg in him (i’ll get to this in a second)
☆ unlike what his new voice lines are starting to suggest about his character (i’m not gonna talk about zerum again because i think everyone knows what's happening at this point and ive already thrown in my two cents) he does NOT hate the expendables. literally his first line upon meeting him in his shop has him calling himself your friend (as strained of a connection as it may be, he could very easily not offer items, not share documentation/info, and just take the expendables data and hoard anything he picks up to make it harder for them to get to the crystal) (like yes, it's a mutually beneficial relationship but if sebastian didn't care about or sympathize with the expendables to some extent, it wouldn't be). i really do think he just has a short fuse (i'm not going to bring up trauma again, however-) and says things he doesn't mean (e.g. “they deserved it. and frankly so do the rest of you.” (im coping with the mischaracterization of these new lines leave me alone)) as a means of protecting himself and pushing the expendables further away (both physically and emotionally)
☆ he’ll act like a brat once they’re done, but he lets younger expendables sleep in his shop (he cares about them but would never in a million years let them know that) ☆☆ if a younger one comes in with a bunch of adult expendables, he’ll treat them all the same but will secretly slip the younger one some extra batteries, gauze, something unnoticeable (he feels especially responsible for the younger male expendables cause they remind him of his little brother)
☆ sometimes he thinks he can hear his family's voices on the radio, just under all the static, calling out for him like a search party would. he used to cry over this but he almost got caught once by an expendable coming into the shop so he does his best to tune it out. it’s hard. guilt pulls at his stomach every time he hears a clip of his family, begging for him to come home, to respond, something, anything, and he ignores it.
☆ autism (cause i said so) - i'm including this one for the sole reason that he does the dinosaur thing with his third arm and generally keeps his hands clasped together in the secret dinosaur position (he just like me fr) ☆☆ hates bright lights (the only light he uses/allows in his shop is the one he emits) (its a very soft/warm hue as opposed to the bright fluorescents throughout the rest of the facility) (not to bring up the flash beacon, obviously nobody likes getting flashbanged and he's got angler eyes but sTILL)
☆ he used to hate eating fish (pre-op) and now he’s pissed cause it’s all he has available and the DNA changes made it so fish is the yummiest tastiest thing in the world (i like imagining him actively fighting the urge to eat whatever fish he’s cooked in one bite cause he refuses to acknowledge that he's changed on a level that isn't physical/appearance-based)
☆ calls grown adults “kiddo” (even the ones that are older than him) ☆☆ he gets a certain kind of joy from seeing the 40/50/60 year old expendables try to figure out just how old he is after they get called “kiddo”. it’s extra fun for him when they’ve clearly already heard the rumors and/or gotten a glimpse of his file
☆ the ring is just an accessory, a bracelet on the floor or in a locker he found and liked. assumed nobody was gonna claim it and kept it (shoutout to @/lotus.eaterr on tik tok for this one!!!!)
#light angst#sorry guys#sebastian solace#sebastian pressure#pressure roblox#i love calling it pressure roblox irl it's so funny for no reason#ok sorry i'm still hung up about the update and i NEED to yap#i genuinely don't care if he's married as a bit i think that's hilarious#but adding the ring and changing the dialogue and the animation he has with the ring just breaks immersion#ALSO#he's supposed to be sarcastic and sassy#not an asshole???#how do you mischaracterize your own character#that was mean i apologize#i'm just pissy cause i hate fandom discourse#especially when it's about something as dumb as this#but because it's gotten to the point that it's integrated into the game it feels unavoidable#also i totally forgot#they're a co-creator?????#why is she controlling everything about this character when there's like 5 other people who own him too#make it make sense#alright im done yapping about this forever goodbye
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im kinda thinking about bowser being a simp and i cant help but think how would that translate to luigi?
im not gonna take the movie's plot into consideration, but i will be using bowser's characterization as a starting point.
so, we know bowser is a simp for peach, and a big one at that. his style of showing affection is not only loud but downright aggressive, and while it absolutely fits him, it didnt work on peach and definitely wouldnt work on luigi. so where do we go from here?
i'd imagine they start off as begrudging friends. bowser still loves peach, but he doesnt want to shake the peace that has been established. and most of all, the rejection still stings and he's being sorta lost and mopey. luigi, having a heart too kind for his own good, hangs around the koopa king offering his comfort - and while he isnt too keen on having the younger mario brother buzzing around him, its better than being alone.
over time, he gets over the rejection. he is able to form a genuine friendship with peach (with no resurfaced feelings!), and even mario sees him more as a sports rival than a threat nowadays, allowing for some light-hearted banter. when those two toad-heads announce their relationship, bowser is genuinely happy for them. luigi, in the meantime, really grows on bowser as a friend. he invites the plumber over to his castle regularly to spend time together, conversation flowing naturally between them. when he's with luigi, it's so easy to forget about the world.
physical affection, too, starts becoming the norm without either realizing it. it starts off small, simple fist bumps and head pats. laying an arm over the other's shoulder to pull them close while joking, hugs hello and goodbye. eventually, they sit together, sides touching, bowser's tail curling around them.
it's during one of those sit-togethers that bowser first realizes his feelings for the plumber. luigi is fast asleep, cuddled up to bowser's side without noticing, and the koopa king is nothing but enamoured. as he goes to gently pet luigi's hair, he freezes. since when was he so gentle with him? since when were they so close? what he was about to do was something he did for his children often, but they were his family. when did luigi become part of that circle? it left him wondering about what to do.
bowser is loud. he is confident, he is shameless. if he likes someone, they will know. but peach hated his aggressiveness, and luigi would like it even less. so how could he show luigi he loved him without overwhelming him? being subdued and talking around the bush is not his style, but for his new beloved he'd find a way to be true to himself and honest at the same time.
from that night onwards, bowser approaches their interactions differently. he is more openly affectionate, not just in the way of who he allows to see them be affectionate but also what types of affectionate gestures he shows. he cups luigi's cheek, he nuzzles his snout into his head. their hugs become longer and tighter, he freely purrs when luigi runs his fingers through his hair, he gives him flowers. he rushes to pull out the chair when luigi's sits down at the dinner table, and he has his private study adjusted to fit luigi's sensory needs and allow him a space to relax and make his own. bowser is so obvious in his affections that the troops and caste staff start saluting luigi as if he were a person of importance in the castle (much to his confusion).
luigi, as touch starved as he is, takes the new affection in stride. he doesnt realize what it's supposed to mean, but he loves the way bowser is becoming so comfortable with him. he, too, opens up in turn, and it becomes hard to believe that he once lived a life without someone so important to him.
luigi's realization happens a while later than bowser's. the koopa king was asleep on the floor, belly down and head in luigi's lap, with luigi running his hand through the king's hair. it's in that vulnerable position that he comes to terms with his feelings for the koopa king, and he questions himself and their every interaction upon it. the next day, when bowser makes another big gesture of affection towards him, is when he realizes that bowser feels the same way, and has been telling him for a while. when luigi reciprocates, romantically, bowser cannot stop his tail from wagging hard.
and that's where it continues. bowser is still loud and obvious in his affection for luigi, but he makes sure that it is private, for them, and luigi appreciates it immensely. peach, observant as ever, knows immediately when things changed between them, whereas mario stays oblivious until they officially announce their relationship. he is supportive tho (you know, im not even surprised. if anyone can tame that overgrown lizard, of course it'd be weegie).
#bowuigi#luigi#bowser#bowser x luigi#fic idea#the super mario bros movie#they are just so cute together#mario#princess peach#kinda longer than expected im sorry but not actually
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'What if MC never came to the Devildom?' as an in-game event
this event was inspired by shows that do a 'what if the main character never existed?' and show how other characters' lives are without the main character. Usually, I dislike these episodes because it adds a magical element to a show that has never had that element before, but I do enjoy these episodes in shows that do have a magical element to it already,
Some examples that spring to mind, is from the 'Fairly OddParents' episode, 'Its a Wishful Life' and the 'Sarah Jane Adventures' Episode, 'What happened to Sarah Jane?' both of which deal with certain characters disappearing and how rest of the cast react or don't react to this event of them 'Never existing'
The way i think it could play out in the game as an event could be similar to these episodes; below I'll mention the timeline of how I could imagine it:
starts with MC in the demon Lord's castle with Barbatos,
MC complains about how fed up they are with the brothers for dragging them into every argument and then MC being affected as collateral damage.
MC says that sometimes they wish they never came to the Devildom
Barbatos asks if MC is sure about that and MC agrees just because they are annoyed
Barbatos says 'Very Well' and transports MC somewhere in the Human World and Barbatos is nowhere to be seen
MC is confused and looks around, but then sees Solomon from the corner of their eye and Runs over to him
Solomon jumps away from MC and is confused.
MC says 'Solomon, it's me... MC!' but Solomon just pulls a confused face and says they don't know who MC is, before he walks past them.
Barbatos then appears out of nowhere and MC asks him what's wrong with Solomon and why he can't remember them.
Barbatos then tells MC that it's because MC never went to the Devildom and this is what MC wanted, wasn't it?
Barbatos then takes MC from character to character to see how everyone's life would be if MC never came to the Devildom.
each character appears to be happier if they never met MC.
the last character we see is Simeon who is still an angel because he never stole the ring of light.
after seeing this MC feels as if they made everyone's life worse
but then Barbatos shows the reality of the situation and how everyone feels like something is missing from their life and Belphie is still locked in the attic
Barbatos then tells us that he would be equally as sad if MC never came to the Devildom.
MC then asks Barbatos to please send them back to where they were before and fix everything
At first Barbatos messes with MC saying he cant because he replaced the timeline when MC made his earlier request,
but then Barbatos chuckles and brings MC back to the demon lords castle as if nothing ever happened
Barbatos then says that he took MC to an alternate universe where MC didn't accept the first invitation to be an exchange student, but now they are in their original timeline
At the end MC asks If that Timeline's MC will ever meet the brothers,
Barbatos says that its inevitable in all dimensions that MC will come to the Devildom, its not a matter of 'if' but 'when'
then the event ends where MC goes back home to the brothers, and the brothers apologise for their earlier argument.
But MC is so excited to be home they hug all the brothers tight
#obey me#mammon obey me#obey me lucifer#obey me mammon#sidthesandwich#mammon om#obey me nightbringer#obey me brothers#obey me shall we date#obey me leviathan#obey me satan#obey me asmodeus#obey me belphie#obey me beelzebub#obey me belphegor#obey me barbatos
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Be ready.
You and your dear fiancé ,Miguel O’Hara, fine yourselves setting up for your new addition?
Miguel was standing beside his girlfriend, looking down at her with a warm and sweet smile. She looked so beautiful, perfect.
Miguel couldn't wait for their baby to arrive, he was eager to hold them and see their smile.
“we need to finish painting the nursery my love..”
"Alright, let's finish decorating the nursery then?" Miguel asks with a warm and caring tone.
He looks at her with admiration, she was a beautiful pregnant woman and they would both soon have the baby they wanted.
"Is everything alright, my love? You feel a little uncomfortable?" He asks, placing his hand on her belly and caressing it gently.
“your mini you just kicked me..” she replied.
Miguel's face lights up as he starts smiling more.
"Can I...feel him?" He asks softly, looking at his girlfriend's belly.
He places his hand on it, careful not to be too hard. "Come on little one...show your father who you are..."
“i have a gut feeling that hes going to look like you..���
"Aww...that would be great, wouldn't it...?" Miguel says with a soft smile.
He imagined the child's face with his own features and couldn't wait to see it. "Just a few months" Miguel adds, still caressing her belly and admiring the baby's movements.
“i wouldnt ask for anything else… but what color should we get?”
Miguel ponders that question for a moment, trying to come up with the best choice.
"Hmm...maybe white? Something soft. Something like baby blue or a pale yellow." He says, with a warm and sweet tone.
He wanted the nursery to be both comfortable for the little baby but also cute and aesthetic.
“you have such good ideas mi amor”
Miguel chuckles.
"That's because I'm surrounded by a beautiful and intelligent woman who inspires me...I would be nothing without you, my love." Miguel says with a warm and sincere smile, caressing her belly as he spoke.
“i love you. cant wait to marry you..” she grins.
Miguel kisses her sweetly.
"You and I are perfect together...I can't wait any longer to be your husband my love" Miguel replies with a sweet smile. He looked into her eyes with such affection and admiration, he was lucky to have her as his future wife and mother to his child.
“should we go and get the paint buckets? also whens the baby showers time? do i even have a dress? what am i going to wear? what if something happens? what if i go into early labor?”
"Don't be anxious, my love, everything will be fine!" Miguel says with his most soothing tone.
"Do not think about bad things, only good things...because our child is going to be the best child in the world with you as a mother and me as a father."
"I promise nothing is going to happen, but I'll be here for you...always" Miguel adds, putting his hand on her belly gently and looking into her eyes with the most loving gaze.
“what if things don’t go perfect?”
Miguel gives her a soft, encouraging smile.
"Well, we just have to be a little flexible then..." He replies, stroking her belly with affection. "But I'm sure everything will go smoothly, okay?" He adds with some reassurance.
"We have a great child growing inside, you are doing an amazing job being so strong" Miguel adds with a warm and affectionate tone. He was proud of how well she was doing with the pregnancy. "Our baby is going to have a strong mother like you."
“i love you so much miggy, but im about to throw up..”
Miguel notices right away, and makes an encouraging smile.
"no,no,nun,uh!" He replies in a soft and caring tone.
He immediately moves her to the nearby bathroom, supporting her with his hand. "Are you okay... my love?" He asks, his eyes full of concern as he looked at her with a loving gaze.
He couldn't bear to see her like this and wanted to make sure she was doing okay.
#across the spiderverse#miguel o’hara x reader#miguel o’hara x y/n#atsv#miguel o’hara x you#spider man 2099 x reader#hobie brown#hobie brown x reader#miguel o'hara#miles morales
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12th house and the inner alchemist
I notice people with this placement become deeply aware of what frequencies they want to be around. Like if you want something that is more 'jolly, fun, and whimsical' you might search for it in your mind , and then you start to find it in your body. It starts with the spirit first, then you go into meditation to connect with this energy through the art of imagination. That 'jolly, fun, whimsical energy' could end up taking you to a cool coffee shop, end up taking you into a colorful shop with weird looking food , or hell may take you to the circus ! because what youre looking for is the feeling/energy not the 'thing' itself.
I love to say 12th housers are like the boy in this book called 'The Alchemist', where he wanted to look for a treasure to make all his dreams come true, ends up going on a long journey before he finally finds the treasure that was in his hometown all along. In the end he realized what he wanted wasnt about the treasure, the treasure was a symbol to what he wanted to do in his reality which he eventually did without the treasure itself. The treasure is the idea of the energy he wanted in his life, not the thing itself.
Because the imagination brings things to us, and all though we aren't able to explain exactly what it is we are looking for, we go into meditative states to jump into this reality (manifestation) and then follow it with our bodies. And one by one, piece by piece, we enter into the worlds of our psyche through the physical reality.
One thing I can say about 12th housers, you have to let go of the IDEA because it is just that, an IDEA. it is useful for when you are looking for the spirit/energy of the thing you are looking for.
Also since I brought up the alchemist. The story was about making a way for yourself no matter what obstacles you go through, no matter if you dont have that 'thing' you need to get there. You create your reality as you go.
the boy had a simple intention to go find this treasure because he believed it would allow him stop talk taking care of sheep (he was a sheep boy), he could travel all around the world, find a wife, and live the life of his dreams. He evidently did all of that without the treasure! He made a way without even thinking of it, because he knew since he had left his hometown and the sheep there was no other choice but to make something happen!
I believe 12th housers have that inner alchemist inside them, which is why they are so good at painting, drawing, and whatever other art you can name cause its a lot (lol).
12th housers are great at using these things to attract what they want in their life, they follow the frequency/energy knowingly and unknowingly. I call them he universes messengers because they rely messages to the collective without having to explain to us whats the message.
I notice 12th house individuals show this with their music. like I said with frequency a lot of them know the type of energy they wish to convey in their songs because thats the vibe they want to keep with them as they journey through life.
think of sza, a fellow 12th houser with 4 planets (venus,uranus, saturn, and neptune) and she is known to connect to a certain frequency that sounds like 'fairies, sirens, and anything magical' (im honestly referring to ctrl and her older works from 2013/14)
It can also be a 'curse' one type sza tweeted how singing 'supermodel' off her ctrl album 'summoned' the guy she was talking about in the song.
12th house rules over the subconscious, so sometimes your art can attract what you dont want to you. you have to move around it, learn how to use it as a repellant as it can attract fleas (I say this about pisces/neptune peeps a lot, y'all do tend to attract flies).
using your mind to control your reality can be mastered if you continue to heal the shadow. your shadow is just what you've been accustomed to believe that it is shameful, and cant be seen in the light.
the shadow is who you are, dont be ashamed and run from it.
blessings to all my 12th house individuals you guys have a wonderful gift inside that interesting brain of yours! keep it up.
#12th house#12th house stellium#12th house saturn#12th house jupiter#12th house venus#12th house uranus#12th house pluto#12th house mercury#12th house mars#12th house moon#12th house sun#12th house neptune#12th house chiron#astrology#astro knowledge#astro observations#astrology thoughts#astrology notes#astrology witch#witch#spirituality#pisces#neptune#pisces placements#sidereal astrology#Vedic astrology#astrology 12th house#astro#manifesting#manifestation
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Autistic Anime Boys Prelims - Propaganda Division - Round 2
Propaganda:
Amuro -
"Being a Newtype is just space autism to me. But also he sucks at falling in line in a structured environment, would rather work with machines than talk to people, and is only allowed as a child soldier because he's the bestest at big robots."
Kyouya -
"what's there to say? you know him. you love him. vote kyoya."
Euini -
"I relate a lot to his social anxiety, especially his performance anxiety that occurs when he's being watched by people, particularly due to his stress at needing to follow the plan/do things the "proper" way in order to not feel like he's a failure. he also stands like a lil autistic kid and i appreciate him so much for that.
(LIGHT SPOILERS) basically, he has a test that he needs to take in order to advance as a witch, and he keeps failing it because he cant perform properly while being watched by other people, even though he knows the "right" spells to use and why he's supposed to use them. on his third attempt of the test, he's prepared a "script" to use so that he can follow it and not worry about failing in the moment (in this case, his script is a hand-written book of the proper spells to use and the order in which he's supposed to use them), but when a part of the exam changes, he's no longer able to follow his script. because he's been taught all his life that there's only one proper way of doing things, his way of thinking is very rigid and he's not able to deviate from his plan without panicking. luckily, one of his fellow examinees (richeh from the autistic anime girls poll 💕) is able to convince him to try and change the way that he does things to something that is more attuned to his personal needs- basically change the way that he casts his spells and which spells to use so that he doesn't need to struggle with doing things in the way that everyone says that he should; the way that he cant seem to manage. but, even before richeh helped him with that though, he was still finding way to modify the "proper" spells a little bit to better suit his weaknesses. he was trying so hard to fit in to the mold that witch society gave him, but it just wasnt right for him and he was making it work however he could."
Aoi -
"He has a very devoted special interest in the idol Takada-chan, which he frequently imagines in fights and other situations… the moment someone (Itadori) expresses equal interest in something he is passionate about, he immediately declares them besties and brothers and creates a whole elaborate shared history for them that doesn’t actually exist. He’s not really interested in connecting with people who don’t share his interests. He’s seen as somewhat strange and eccentric. Though in the present he is respected because of his strength as a sorcerer, as a child he was very isolated."
Floyd -
"Has no emotional regulation skills and will make it everyone's problem. Prone to mood swings and can get angry at the drop of a hat, but can also be so goofy, silly, and lovely. Sways side to side for that good good stim, and loves to squeeze others (with violent intent and affectionate intent). Who doesn't love a good pressure stim? His interest in things can be fleeting, and his motivation to do things can change as quickly as his mood. Spontaneous and feral extraordinaire."
Apollo -
"Not canonically autistic but he has ZERO volume control plus he scripts/repeats stuff (“I’M FINE!!!”), sometimes mimics other people’s speech patterns (like replying “ja” to Klavier), sensitive to loud noises (stayed backstage at a concert cuz it was too loud) and bright lights (complained about the stage lights being too bright at the same concert + screamed when opening the hatch to the bright stage at magic show), and has been really into space since he was a kid, which could definitely be a hyperfixation (not to mention how he read every single one of Phoenix’s old case files back when he admired him). Plus he’s a little TOO normal, to the point where it circles back around to making him the odd one out, which is absolutely what masking feels like for me. Even when he tries to be fun and weird he gets strange looks/made fun of for not being weird in the right way. The list of autism symptoms is just a checklist for him at this point."
Ash -
"he just has those vibes ya know?"
Shou -
"His special interest is math. He uses math terms in regular conversations and calls people yoctograms/zeptograms which earned him monikers such as "math man" and "pi-face". Speaking of Pi, he once shouted 155 consecutive digits of it through a megaphone just because he could. He's so normal."
Sunny -
"Sunny has been told that his face is not expressive. He doesn't talk a lot and he often gets lost into his imagination. He is a great listener and recalls a lot of information being told he has a great memory (he is able to remember a whole speech about flower symbolism that his friend told him) He is compared to a cat."
Yuu -
"He’s like if an emo programmer boy was also completely unhinged and also had a tragic backstory."
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hello, this is only a suggestion about something you could write someday only if you like it. I'm really curious about this: imagine toby has a s/o before becoming a proxy, so how would he behave after his disappearance? do you think he would stalk them? maybe he would plan some kind of encounter or get caught stalking them (if so, how it would happen)? idk, i recently found your blog and I just love your Toby and I was wondering what your headcannons could be on this scenario.
🪓 — Ticci Toby + Old Friend
we’ll meet again, don’t know where, don’t know when. but i know we’ll meet again some sunny day.
AN: my bad if this kinda sucks, im not used to writing prompts like this also i wrote this in point form, but if you’d like a oneshot instead let me know 🙏
- i cant imagine toby having the emotional capacity or social skills for a proper relationship prior to becoming a proxy, though i can see him having something of an unspoken mutual love with a childhood friend
- but once he lost lyra, he isolated himself so heavily from everyone and everything, which ended up with him pushing away the only person who treated him like a human being
- a couple of years had passed until he saw them again, and when he did, he couldn’t catch his breath. it happened completely by chance. to be honest, dealing with everything he did, and with the effects of slender sickness, their existence completely slipped his mind until that fateful night.
- it was late, and dark, they were walking home from a particularly rough shift and toby caught a glimpse of them from his spot standing under the flickering streetlight.
- he almost yelled out after them when it processed in his brain where he recognized that face and stride from. once it clicked, toby took a moment before moving from his spot. he needed distance to be able to follow them home without being caught.
- when they approached their dimly lit condo, they fumbled with the key to the front door for a moment. taking the opportunity, toby quietly snuck up behind them and snaked his hands around their waist.
- “found you”
- their first reaction was to spin around and clock him in the face, and of course their fist bounced off like nothing. he didn’t flinch, he even chuckled a bit.
- when they saw his face, they gasped.
- “i thought you died in the fire???”
- “yeaah about that…”
- from that point on, toby would sneak into town just to visit them. he would rarely enter through the front door, he much preferred to enter through the bedroom window his old friend made a note to keep unlocked. it was what he was used to. he was a peculiar boy grown up to be an even more peculiar man.
- but they continued with each other as if there was no time apart. like a missing puzzle piece finally finding its way home. his lost friend would question him, but learned quickly it got absolutely nowhere. asking him was futile. they knew better.
- toby would come to them, they weren’t ever allowed to know where he was, or what he did when he was away.
- they were kept under lock and key. his secret. prized possession.
- on particularly bad days, he would show up to their place and just silently lay in bed with them, allowing his prize to run their fingers through his messy brown hair and let the chaos of the outside, and his job, slip away for a moment.
- the light in his otherwise dark and twisted world. a part of him was so scared of getting them hurt, or even worse hurting them himself.
- but he was still the same unstable, angry boy he always was. and though he tried, he wasn’t cut out for being a good partner to his long lost. there would be fights, threats, hatchet marks on the walls and doors.
- they would learn soon that he wasnt the same boy he was.
- toby could never really shake the feeling that his lover only looked at him with eyes that screamed ‘what have you done?’
- if they ran away, he would kill them. or keep them locked up in an abandoned cabin off somewhere in the forest for the rest of their miserable life.
- and if they chose to stay, they would have to spend all their time and energy being disrespected and drained. there was no fixing things. he wasnt a kid that meant well anymore, he wasnt a victim. whether they knew it or not, he was a cold blooded serial killer.
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