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This post is dedicated to my wife. I see you, my love. And I can't be more than proud of you, my darling honeybee.
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Thinking about how Wade has to eat while doing something or else he just... can't.
Logan first noticed it about 4 days into moving in. That Wade will watch stuff on his phone or eat in the living room in front of the tv. There's no in-between.
One day, he makes dinner and sets the table, him and Al, sitting there, ready to eat, but Wade is hesitant. He sat down just fine but when it came to actually eating he just... stares.
He starts talking, rambling, ranting about anything. He even asks Logan to tell him a story about something, any war, anyone. "You ever meet anyone really cool? Like Elvis or something?"
"Not particularly." He mutters after swallowing.
He starts picking at his fingers in his lap. His foot is tapping, and he feels so guilty. He watches as Al finishes her plate, talking about how delicious it was and thanks him.
And Wade thinks so. The food is simple. It doesn't smell bad either. So why can't he just eat it? It's not like it was bad. Logan wouldn't feed him expired food or make him bad stuff on purpose.
'It's just pasta. Come on, you love pasta' he tries to tell himself but cant seem to actually put any food in his mouth.
Every time he tries, he ends up just putting it back down.
Eventually, there are tears in his eyes.
"Wade..? What's wrong?"
He shakes his head, smiling that bullshit grin he gives when he doesn't know how to explain the fact that his brain was screaming at him that he didnt deserve the food, trying to conviece him that it was rotten, convience him that he was being poisoned or that if he ate this something bad would happen.
But now he's between a rock and a hard place because if he doesn't eat Logan will think he hates his cooking and will leave. He'll move out.
And what if he takes puppins with him? What if he thinks hes a bad dog dad because obviously if he cant feed himself how will he take care of puppins? What if he-
"Wade!"
He jumps a bit, looking at him with big watery eyes.
Something in Logan's concerned face makes him feel worse. ".. y-yeah?"
There's silence.
Logan then sighs, his shoulders falling, scooting over with his plate as he sits next to him.
"... Have I ever told you about the time I accidently blew myself up and Rodgers laughed at me?"
He shakes his head, staring at him. "S-stevie laughed at you?"
Logan nods, beginning to tell the story.
And just like that?
Wade's fork finally reaches his mouth, sometimes glancing down at his plate, but mainly keeping his attention on Logan, smiling and interjecting at times.
He needed distraction.
From the meanies in his head that much preferred the words of a story or tv show then to be alone in the quiet.
"Wait wait wait-" he says, his plate already half cleared, about to shove some more in his mouth. "You sniffed it out and STILL stepped on it??"
"Heh.. yeh.. well. That's what happens when your stuck in a trench."
"Did it stink in there?" Another bite.
"It was terrible. That's why I couldn't smell the mines." He jokes, smirking as Wade laughs, covering his mouth.
Going to stab another piece he realizes that its gone. With another guilty look, he glances to the plate then to the stove, and Logan last.
"Is... is there more?"
Logan knew better then to question him. He had to do something similar with Kurt, talking him through his first few full meals. He didnt believed someone like him deserved fancy mansion food.. well.... Logan didn't either that first week. But Chuck was there.
And now Logan was there for Wade.
Funny how that came full circle..
"Yeah." He gets up, bringing him the entire pot, pouring another helping onto his plate, Watching as Wade shoveled some more in his mouth with a grin.
"So- Mmh- Pars uh yu jus' wen evrwhre??"
Logan smiles, now its his turn to laugh. "Not quite. But sure as hell felt like it."
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And this is for any of my fellow people whos brains are mean to them. You are loved. There is nothing wrong with you. I want you fed. I dont care what it is, Fed is better than nothing. So if that means you will survive off of nuggets and a show about lego monkeys? Then so be it. Im so proud of all of you. And I will never ever judge you for your process. Do you know why?
Because you have survived evert hard day that life has ever thrown at you.
WOOWW!! Look at you!! You bad ass! God damn you are so strong!! Look at you go! I love you.
And keep pushing my little ducklings. Keep swimming.
#tw eating issues#tw food#tw ed#I love my wife#i love them so much#kurt wagner#charles xavier#blind al#tw ocd#tw bad thoughts#deadpool and wolverine#poolverine#logan howlett#wade wilson#deadpool#deadpool 3#wolverine#deadclaws#disordered eating cw
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ive been thinking abt a week? to delete my account or my story but u know what idgaf anymore because its just gonna give those people more courage for accusing me of being a liar
oh u dont know what im talking bout rn how cute
I was in the hospital til 2 days ago. as a patient. and i believe this happened bc of some jealousy bitches (or im just bein a drama queen)
ik it sounds like im blaming someone but irl yes i do blame someone
in dog years i blame those bitches
last week? i dont even remember what the day
mom got sick again but its okay shes fine now and then i had a car crash🪩🤩🪩my phone died in the crash literally died i had to buy a new one do you guys have any idea abt how much are this things in my country i really dont care abt the money but be for real wtf actually
i answered all of your questions carefully and with kindness i tried to be there for you guys and the moment i tell you abt my success story i had an accident! um sir wtf am i really being dramatic rn? cause ive been thinking bout this for days and theres no other explanation even if there is i cant see
so here it goes,,, i was just chilling in my home and then i read a dm about a girl that she wants to get in her void and as always i explained how she can get in but she kept ask me about how to get in but like girl hellooo i literally told you how. r u kidding me is this a social experiment to evaluate my patience? and then i said to her that this is the only thing that she should do for getting into
she said, no you are lying it cant be like this! bla bla
i transformed to this cat at that moment this is real me now.
anyway at the end of that conversation she said that im lying, if any of these(my manifestation results) are true then i should show her bc she have "doubts🎀" aww for her doubts i should reveal my self in her home bc she have doubts🎀 i should transport there with my void and show her how to do it irl thats what she asked me no- thats what she commanded me to, she was like "do it" and i was like "what😃" i said no ofc what do u want me to say, ok lets do itt lets break my privacy togetherrr let me get in your void for you and again let me do make your dreams comes true yayyy itll be fun right😍😍😍
i dont even know what to say to that
maybe this?
u think im joking which ur right bc i am
but its kinda serious here buddy what should i say to you when u command me to get in your void for you, like how can i reject you and still be that kind sister for u?
anyway i said no to her and she said im a lair and i broke her heart with my selfishness(then i blocked her ofc)then i go out w my friends this is the part i got hit by a car😇
opened my eyes into the white light like im a mf drama movie character
while im in the hospital i thought i can delete my account and can get rid of this bad luck/shits once and for all but again its just gonna give those bitches courage and they think that they right
"loa is a cult and everyone is a liar bc they cant prove bla bla" dont u dare to blame me for your failure
you didn't got in AND you want me to do it for you???honey im sorry for your loss bc it seems like you just lost your dignity yeah we just buried it u missed such a precious moment🥲
and guess what i have nothing to prove you i literally dont have to prove anything to you. like for real. if you dont believe the story can u just move on please? bc i dont give a damn shit about your insecurities, your doubts and ur blablabla
its literally on you girl BC IT SUPPOSED TO BE YOUR MF REALITY? LIKE DO YOU REALLY NEED A MANUAL BOOK FOR THIS?
im sorry for being a bitter today but i really feel like this(bitter), so not sorry maybe😗
but i didn't mean it when i said idgaf to ur insecurities.. i do honey its just been a rough week and i dont know how to put my anger in to the words
it can be a evil eye 🧿 or i just might be a drama queen sooo.. again sorry(?) if anything offends u, i love you guys but its just so complicated here(my head) and i just dont know
and now im just being weird w all this nonsense
i should go now, i will return your dms asap just need some rest
loves, siena
#the void state#i am state#4d reality#pure consciousness#void success stories#manifesation#manifesting#shifting consciousness
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the archives is full of gay ppl; therefor halloween is celebrated
#i love to put characters in outfits and halloween is my number one excuse#shout out to one of the best holidays on earth!!! i love you halloween i cant wait to dress up and eat candy in a few weeks#i dont think sasha made it to halloween but a guy can dream.....#my art#digital art#artists on tumblr#the magnus archives#tma#jonathan sims#martin blackwood#jonmartin#timothy stoker#sasha james#im not tagging as ship bc i dont personally believe in it but you can if you'd like <3#i like to imagine jon shows up to work in all black with a cat ear headband just like ''maybe this will keep tim off my back''#meanwhile the archives is exploding bc their boss with a permanent stick up his ass is wearing cat ears and not acknowledging it#tim goads jon into getting a better costume bc the cat ears are half assed and not in the spirit of halloween#and so for the institute's halloween office party jon shows up in complete medieval gothic clothing with plastic vampire fangs#and they have to take martin home on a stretcher bc he dies on sight. sad!
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who even are these guys
#edward nashton#jonathan crane#fanart#ink drawing#dano riddler#bruce wayne#the joker#scriddlebatjokes#on twt im king of that tag and i expect to be king of it here as well#au enseñanza media#thats the au tag if i make more stuff for it in the future#if i think about it too much i sort of cant believe how much i removed this from the source haha#just the joker is a mix up of like all movie jokers bc the one from 2022 is just a cameo so theres not much to grab onto#i had the flu again last week so i turned to the familiar for comfort and it manifested in giving these guys a uniform and a situationship#who knows i might show you whatever weird things i wrote on my notes app while awake at night because my sinuses were all clogged up#anyways im feeling better now#have a nice rest of your day<3
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no one:
absolutely no one:
jptwt reactions to the hiyomv:
#glad to see that we’re supporting nagisa in this trying time…#i said that i was gonna try to forget the mv. but. i can’t escape it auuuuuuuuuuuu#i mean. i think the mv is just a friendship/‘idols are cool’ mv if you watch it with no thoughts; head empty#but. the fact that there *are* people out there who look too hard into it and take it as [redacted] ship confirmation kinda sours it…#for me at least. i blocked one jptwt used who showed up on my dash saying ‘good news!!! the fruit scene means lhy canon!!!’#mm yes good news indeed. definitely. yeah. totally.#but c’mon guysssss hiyori already has nagisa!!!! the perfect man for her is >>right there<<#why are you tryna shoehorn her into a ship with a married couple helloooo#why can’t guys and girls be >>just friends<< huhhhhhhhh#this reminds me of all the yujiro+mona fanarts of them reluctantly cozying up to each other with the caption of ‘not a ship!!!!’#with the same creator posting a pic of aizo and mona standing 5 feet apart bc they’re both gay and not even looking at e/o with ship tags#like. if you wanna see lxl with gfs at least make sure it’s a compelling ship with even a tiny bit of chemistry???#ngl i think aizo-mona shippers are just shipping them in the name of ‘pair the blonde spares’ but idk#ughhhh sorry nagisakun i didn’t mean to sully the tags of a post with you in it with negativity#ily nagisa i love the way you love hiyori. nghy forever.#anyways. um!!!!! nagisa mv next week!!!!!! manifesting!!!!!! he could save all of us!!!!!! hoping!!!!!!!#the dude from gamushara#(in other news the niji.gaku anime is so funny for n o t h i n g. i can’t believe they got setsuna back so quickly like whaaaaa)#(didn’t it take like 7 story chapters to get her back in llas or sth? it’s been years and it eosed so i cant rmb)#(karin is so funny thoughhh before she joined she just said stuff [which catalysed chaos] and left)
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Boy King Seb :D
#thank you to Grace for the idea of making his chivarly collar red bull instead <33333#he was gonna have both collars but then making that one made me suffer so no not today#this was a lot of fun but also made me suffer. but i keep looking at it and being like AAAHHHHH BABY!!! BABY BOY!!!!!!!#can you believe i tried to do this in one night? i cant#i stopped and came back to it and was like 'no way you could do this in one sitting at 1 am'#this is kinda the ascended form of that very first sketch i made for this au! concentrated boy king sebby!!!#i say to myself i need to take a break from drawing complicated things but youll prob see a nando version of this in less than a week ;;;#okay about the drawing(i wrote good tags and then tumblr deleted them so these are a bit inferior AGH):#this is typical pouty seb but is also referenced off a specific pic from AD 2009(beloved)#its very important to me how emotionally open Seb is. im not sure the specific context of this. maybe after a triumph?#but instead of being that typical stoic serious detached kind of ruler; i like him being openly emotional(think AD 2010)#its important as well for his dichotomy with nando and how they choose to portray themselves#seb is very assured in himself and his rule vs. nando who is more insecure and bitter about his#so nando takes strides to portray himself in that more stoic calculating way bcs he feels like it helps him legitimize himself better#whereas seb has absolutely no care for outward public image and shows how he feels and is loved for it(nando hates it but loves it)#not that nando cant be fun and whimsical!! but to me he always seems a bit more mysterious; like i can never tell his true thoughts tbh#anyways i feel like ill finish 10 more drawings before i end up posting the lore pt 2 LMAO#its just a lot harder to organize and layout compared to part 1 which was just an explanation#pt2 would be a mix of more world building/characterization/anecdotes ive talked about with mutuals(LOVE YOU GUYS!!!)#i have a *lot* of ideas (gotta whip out my notes app every once in a while to write down stuff abt it) just hard to put into a coherent pos#sebastian vettel#f1#formula 1#f1 art#formula 1 art#f1 fanart#formula 1 fanart#catie.art.#*ill prob make a process post later if anyone is curious!! its fun to write abt my process and influences and such#boy king au
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WAIT HELP I READ TOO FAST 😭😭
omg but who are your favs in the twdg games... 😳😳😳
OH HFHGFHJ ITS FINE I DO THAT ALL THE TIME TOO BUT YEAH AS YOU KNOW I LOVE THE GAMES AND SHOW AND ALSO THE COMIC!! BUT FOR THE GAMES UHMMM..omg this is SUCH a tough question honestly?? like, i feel very complicated about basically every character in this series so its hard to just pick one fave....
hmm i will say tho i have ALWAYS loved Lee and Clementine (obviously,who doesnt hehe) i just love them sm 😭the first game just makes me so emotional FRFR in the first game i also loved Ben,Chuck, Omid and Christa and Molly!! id also include Kenny but...i have a sorta love/hate relationship with that guy 😭😭😭😭hes such a good character tho!! in general i think the first game was just so good😌😌
for the other games im less familiar with them since ive only played the other seasons once each so my memory is probably a little off,but i remember really liking Sarah ,Nick,Luke and Jane from the 2nd season,but again i think some of these characters are like. love/hate with me currently,i think s2 is so turbulent that its kinda hard to pick faves really (for me atleast) with the 3rd season i remember LOVING that Tripp guy and also Javier,but its been years since i last played the game so i probably have a bunch of different opinions on everything now😭😭in general i just dont remember too much from that game,i definitely have to replay it eventually..for s4 tho?? hmm honestly,i think i loved like,90% of the cast in that LMAO but i think i liked uhhm AJ the most.and also i think his name was Asim (or aasim) and Ruby,i liked them alot i think,and louis and violet too 😌😌😌also the dog?? does the dog count??? in general i just thought the characters were pretty interesting in that game,but again i think ima just have to replay all of these again to see how i REALLY feel
ANYWAYS THANKS FOR THE QUESTION AURA!!! i would LOVE to know your faves too😈😈😈😈😈😈
#my friend!!!!!!!#cant believe im getting a twd question in our modern year 2024 (thank you. i cannot get enough of this stupid zombie franchise)#maybe the zombies were the friends we made along the way (?)#i think rick grimes said something to that effect in like season 5 or something .sorry#I LOVE THE WALKING DEAD GAMES SOO MUCH#the first game i ever got a platinum trophy on was twd s1 for the ps3#lots of good memories. it scared me so much but i was so infatuated with the world i HAD to do everything in it#i think its funny how i got into this whole series through the games.didnt even know anything abt the show#it came out in like..2012 right?? 2013?? so i was lik 7 or 8 .crazy#yes i still get scared at these games. im stil lscared of fnaf. sue me. yes i still cry at the ending to s1#SUE ME IDC#me when the father figure has to leave.me when the figure who is a father to young girl has to abandon her for reasons they cant control#me when fathers. me when men who father children who arent their own and love them like their own cuz they are kind and good.#clenches fists...oughhh...family..#anyways this is so crazy cuz i was thinking about playing the games again like a week ago#can you read my mind?????????? probably. clown to clown communication. gg fan to gg fan communication#isnt it so crazy that twdg are taking place at like the exact same time that like. the show (or comic i dont remember) is??#like. i dont rlly think abt that enough tbh. its kinda crazy to me#the fact that we had glenn for like 1 (one) chapter in the games is so crazy to me. he was just out there#i also really liked glenn but idk if he counts since he was like.a cameo. he was like a disney channel show cameo idk#anyways sorry for the rants.i just had my vitamins im CRAZY im PSYCHO rn!!#anyone else ever get a lil emotional thinking abt kenny. im sure we all do. but. oughh. s2 kenny and lee comparison makes my brain hurt#anyways. i need to STOP im a MADMAN RN#see this is what happens when you ask me about my interests. leave me alone (joke. pats you on shoulder and smiles softly)
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#its so weird. i feel like march 5th went on for more than a day somehow. i guess that's just bc we were awake for just abt all of it#my dad wanted to start doing things immediately so he was calling and scheduling all day. we went to the funeral home we went to the store#and it was weird bc as we were moving around it was like wow we r a 4 person family now. this is it. and theres so much to do after a person#dies. or at least there is when they were loved so much and jesus christ my mom was one of the best ppl a LOT of ppl knew. she did so much#for so so many ppl. and with her childhood she had every reason to b a fuck up but no she was kind and selfless and amazing. her mother is#trying to bask in the attention of her death when its like: truely go fuck urself. her being such a good person has nothing to do with u. u#treated her appallingly. fuck off. and fucking everyone knows it. god. she is a product of her grandparents kindness. and it sounds like her#dad was amazing like her. but he tragically died in a car wreck when she was 3. she was in the car. no one in my mums family believes in a#god now. too many bad things happened to the shining gems in a collection of wild alcoholics. but its not all bad. my family's staying close#my dad is taking it hard bc this means hes alone now and my mum took care of so many things bc she was so smart and he feels so dumb. he#feels he didnt deserve her. hes working on giving more hugs now. and hes using us to anxiously talk things out the way he did with mom#which is good. i cant imagine if this happened when we werent 3 adults and he was windowed with 3 kids to raise himself. and its funny. were#saying things we never would have told her. we looked thru pictures of her and she was so so beautiful. a total smoke show. my parents were#a cute couple who produced cute kids. and my mom had trouble communicating and being affectionate tho we knew she loved us there was#distance. theres a pic of my dad pulling her close and shes being tippef towarf her while standing away and thats indicitive of their#relationship. they were 2 partners who lived together independently and that worked but its sad bc my mum couldnt b vulnerable in her#expression. ppl r being so kind tho. ill be in ohio now for like 2.5 more weeks as the funeral stuff shakes out. we have to have 2 bc she#grew up away from her and so many ppl loved her in both locations. she was a popular lady. its so weird to b here on pause. but i feel clear#in my head. i think this will change a lot of my outlook on life. its nice to focus on the person she was and not the horrible 12hrs where i#saw her half dead. i cant imagine how awful it was for my sisters and dad to see her downslide into death. she didnt expect this to b The#Fever that killed her but it did and now she'll never finish a million things. and the house is full of pill bottles and all her junk and#unopened amazon packages and a truck with the fuel left on empty. bc she was an absent minded goofball. ay. well miss her so much#unrelated
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i went to a cat expo today and saw so many cute cats and got sooo many freebies, my girlies are going to have a new treat and toy to try every week for months 🥺
#they love the crinkly catnip toys i got them and the tiki cat treats that are star shaped 🥺#i got them some treats from this ~raw food~ booth and they do not care. ive never seen them more uninterested#i got them chicken feet and rabbit ears and freeze dried chicken#one of my cats was a little killer back when they were allowed outside so i thought for sure she'd like them 😔#thats ok. they liked the tiki cat#theyre only getting one thing a week in case they have any bad reactions to anything#h.txt#i wouldve liked to pet more cats but the lines were way too long#and it was a little too loud for the actual shows because it was in a massive convention center that's basically just a warehouse 🙄#and everybody was really nice except for one lady that wouldnt even talk to us because we're not breeders 🙄 get over yourself#but overall it was great. we even got a free bag of fancy litter. i cant believe how much we walked away with
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#me? about to use tumblr as a diary again? in 2024? unfortunately:/#but here have a waterfall i saw on a hike last week as payment#i am sO tired and exhausted emotionally after dating#there's this guy that i fr thought was going to last and be around for a long time. we spent like every moment together that we could for 2#months straight and if we werent physicaly together we were texting or calling or on ft . just every part of our day had the other in it#not once did i ever feel unwanted undesired or uncared for. not once did i feel that i wasnt sure of his intentions. i felt safer with him#in those 2 months than i ever did with any one else i could think to compare to.#until one day he just didnt think it important to communicate any more. after 3 days of nearly nothing .. hardly any talking . i asked if#he was ok if we were ok. what was going on in his head. he said some ive just been with my buddies and family and havent been on my phone#and just. immediately thats heartbreak yanno. thats :// thats what they say when theres a new girl. but there'd never been a reason to think#there was another girl so i was like ok we're gonna trust bc this dude has been So good in every way. so i said imy but i understand. enjoy#your time with your buddies and with your fam -- i cant wait to hear about it (and hold you)#and i havent heard from him in the 3 weeks since. just randomly#so last night#i send the dreaded 'i miss you' text.#i dont expect to hear back and i accept the hurt that will come with that and the confusion that i've felt settles deeper into my heart#until this afternoon i hop on ig and see a hard launch that was posted an hour after my text was sent#that shit kinda hurt different. but also sent me into a bit of a delirious state where all i could do is laugh bc are you for fucking real#did she see my message? i know it. bc i know him and i know that he wouldnt hide anything from the person he's giving his heart#and his softness to. i can almost imagine how he showed her and promised her theres nothing to worry about#and there really isnt anything to worry about because he genuinely is the type to give his all to the relationship he's in#which feels silly to say after what happened w us. like no there wasnt a title ever#it sucks to call it a situationship because a month ago we were laughing in bed together about how we could never bc we were all in.#just the timing of the hard launch makes me giggle. did my text push them to have a conversation about what they are. was she really the#reason that he went away on me.#im trying not to blame myself . trying not to think about the phone calls i didnt answer. about what i could have done differently. trying#not to think about where we would be if i didnt let my anxieties hold me back. if i wasnt scared about what he'd think of the parts of me#that i keep hidden just a little bit longer than the rest.#and at the same time im trying not to put him on a pedestal. but that pedestal is just where i wholeheartedly believe he belongs#he set the bar for me. he set the standard. i was never too much. i was never too little. he made me feel perfect just as i am
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Oh my god one last thing my ex took me to outside lands and when we tried to watch lana del rey he laid down on the grass and had a “panic attack” (this was after months of him talking about how he didn’t like her) so we went to see foo fighters after a bit and he was FINE
#LANA i know his sister works for you BUT TRUST MY WORD AND GIVE ME A FREE TICKET PLEASE…#MY FIRST TIME SEEING YOU WAS RUINED GIRL… she was so good too like i was saving her songs to spotify that night#im reliving all this because i found out a lot of his exes and ex friends hang out together and two of them invited me so it was me an ex an#d an ex friend just swapping stories and first of all. he said he got cheated on by this girl and she NEVER DID IT (HE would have emotional/#angry outbursts at HER though) (allegedly he’s acknowledged to her that the cheating never happened too) and 2. this is obviously making me#mentally rehash everything again. i feel so bad for his current girlfriend and also for the person i ‘’stole’’ him from though i really hesi#tate to blame myself after hearing about his patterns. first of all he wouldve done this with anyone who was vulnerable around him and secon#d i was the only reason he was at all honest with them. he was fully planning to gaslight this ex and me and his dad had to convince him not#to. they look like theyre happy now and im very happy for them over that. oh my god that man was evil he told me for WEEKS about every time#his then partner had talked shit about me while i made clear that i didnt care and wasnt very interested but he kept going. god i cant belie#ve this was my life a year ago.#the one thing i can say is that i out freaked him because throughout our short relationship i made him so insecure that a week after i told#to never speak to me again he called me asking if he really was ugly.#I CANNOT BELIEVE I HAD TO TEND TO A GROWN MAN WHILE LANA DEL REY WAS RIGHT THERE BECAUSE HE WAS SO OPPOSED TO BEING AROUND HER. LANAAAA#times like these i get so mad i dont know what to do but ultimately remembering that he has not achieved any of his goals because he refuses#to face himself really helps me. god man IVE achieved some of his goals and i wasnt even trying to#a really awful part of all of this was all of the friends who knew him taking his side. because they didnt know him well enough to know what#he was actually like.#i was talking to my ex friend of four years and she was like not to blame you but he was probably really vulnerable from his time with [ex p#rior to me]’’ because he’s been going around alleging that that ex was abusive. and she was implying i took advantage of him. so i had to go#into detail about what an awful awful person he was and the sort of state i was in when this relationship took place. hannah lee you are#not seeing your little jehovah’s witness heaven.#anyways redirecting this energy im very happy with the way my life is and the way i am now. and im grateful for it i would not have ever bee#n able to imagine having the sort of peace and motivation i feel now. life feels like it can and will change for the better and it keeps pro#ving that right all the time#it just hurts sometimes having that as my first experience and not even being able to vocalize what was wrong bc i just didnt know hurts#oh i forgot one of his besties can see my account bc we’re sort of mutuals. i doubt he’s looking he did the whole unfollowing the ex bc she’#s allegedly amoral thing after the breakup but if he is hi isaac#he did on rare occasion show me selfless kindness but ultimately your best friend is a creep. i don’t want to be involved with anyone from#our school but I hope you know this and I hope you’re proud
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I was tagged by @niteview to post my comfort movies & tv shows!! hi lissa <3333 thank you so much for tagging me!!! i LOVE this!!!!
Movies:
me: *holding my old cartoon dvds and crying* ALL OF THEM
(in no particular order)
1- Howl's Moving Castle
2- Captain America: The Winter Soldier
3- Avengers Endgame
4- A Simple Favor
5- Crazy Rich Asians
Bonus: The Phantom Of The Opera (havent watched it in a hot minute but i would not be the woman i am today (weirdo) without this movie)
TV Shows:
(in order)
1- Bones
2- Suits
3- The Originals
4- Children Of Nobody (also known as Red Sun Blue Moon) (kdramas count right?)
5- The Witcher (specifically season 2)
Bonus: The Time Traveler's Wife (2022)
Tagging: @uh0paque @joosgf @starlightfantasy @haechannabelle @biboramp3 @nunutual (i wanted tag my new svt moots too but im shy🫣💕)only if you guys want to!!!!!
#i could honestly list 20 movies.... like most of the classic barbie movies. a lot of older disney movies...#some 2010s teen comedies like Wild Child and Saint Trinians... i love these two...#my top comfort movies used to be La La Land and The Fault in our stars for years sdjlsdjf i had an emo phase#for tv shows id say mostly the first 3... like ive watched bones and suits a BILLION TIMES START TO FINISH#i debated putting spn in there but i only rewatched it completely once. it was a comfort show when it was ongoing but i didn't care->#-> that much after it finished#there are also a couple of new shows i really like but i didn't put them there bc idk if theyre gonna become comfort shows but#i really loved watching Only murders in the building :((((( cant wait for next season#also Blue eye samurai... literally has been living in my head rent free since i binged it like a week ago or so#im lowkey embarrassed abt the bonus show but... yeah. i know the concept is super weird but... theo james <3#i swear me having only 2 white actor crushes who are both british IS A COINCIDENT (the other is henry cavil (mostly as geralt))#no one believes me...#anyway. i will shut up now <3#tag game#mentions
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#hahaaa so quick update on rl situation#started a new job at a factory and already the area ive in has been goving me a static charge that has me being shocked#on EVERYTHING / ANYTHING metal and ive got to use buttons that have electricity running through them#one button doesnt even have a proper plastic cover on it so to turn it on i have to stick my finger inside it to actually hit it#imagine that. imagine getting shocked for my entire shift EVERYWHERE in little doses and by these buttons w electricity yu know?#ive been there two days and already have to remember 6 machines and im gonna learn more#10 all week despite the rest of the department doing 10 just on sundays and 8 the rest of the week. by the third day they wanted#to have me alone. they didnt even have me in the system to clock in / no badge / no time cards / dodnt tell me all this until monday#here i am thinking shits usual shift time and its not. came in two hours late#hypertension / heart palpitations / high blood pressure just from dealing with knowing i have big gaps in training and they want me alone#me getting shocked to high hell. and knowing even if i WANTED go skiddadle that i COULDN'T#my poor heart been going through it. dealing with them ive been going through it.#NO WONDER PEOPLE NO CALL NO SHOW ON THIS AREA AND YOU CANT KEEP TEMPS#nah cause fuck me running up a damn tree for acorns. tryna relay im being shocked and the girl training me not believing me#til i lit her ass up by touching her on accident through her gloves AND mine. i cant even use my gloves to help#i TRIED THAT. so like she didnt believe me til i made her see had to go to the doctor to not feel like#im being subtly gaslighted into thinking im making a big deal out of nothing and im crazy#i CRIED in the bathroom / before my shift / and after bc i feel off and my anxiety about being shocked is enormous#now i have to deal with paper work while feeling like my chest is being beaten on and squeezed. HAHAAA#im mentally / physically / emotionally going through it. but thank you for coming to my ted talk
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triple threat 💗🌷🍓🍒🍑🍊
#doremi harukaze#clementine kruczynski#magical doremi#eternal sunshine of the spotless mind#idk which one of my baby girls I tried to imitate that day but!!#I was such a mess omg#it was like a week after my first ever break up#Lollll I cant believe I really dyed my hair I swear I didn’t even think of it deeply I just wanted to Do something#AND OFC I PICKED RED#to this day I regret doing this oh god it’s been two years and I still have bits of red hair left#and my hair texture definitely changed so much it’s just fried now and it’s always short cause I cut it repeatedly to get rid of the reddish#dead ends#fuck you fabrice if you’re seeing this#but I was so pretty so slay#also wear a#that 70’s show#tshirt#but I never watched the show x#alright that’s enough tags#how funny is this-#nobody is reading all that I suppose so let me just say#you have to be fucked up in the head to put me a simple babygirl who was deeply in love for the first time through hell by cheating#like what is wrong with you why would you do this#just leave me!!!! ITS THAT SIMPLE#HE NEEDS TO BE LOCKED UP I CANT BELIEVE THIS#I have reached the anger stage of grief months ago and I can’t leave it LOL#it’s just too much I always#rewind the same old thoughts and nothing evolves i feel like a stupid loser#okay enough#on being stupid
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collection of my absolute favorite tags from this incredible post:
Candace and doofenshmirtz would be tumblr mutuals i think
#my personal take is that phineas would have a blog dedicated to advertising his latest invention so everyone can come check it out#and ferb would have a blog for the same purpose except he just silently reblogs all of phineas's posts with the occasional thumbs up emoji#candace constantly tries to show the posts to their mom and either#1) she goes “oh those boys and their imagination” because she thinks they're inviting their friends over for make-believe games#or 2) tumblr staff nukes their posts for promoting dangerous activities / self doxxing#“aren't you a little young to be inviting strangers to your house to *checks post* test the zoning law breaking DIY water slide you built?”#perry doesn't have a blog he just lurks on doof's to check up on his evil schemes#but his family runs an in-character pet blog where they put him in silly hats and make him say cute but wildly out of character things#somehow avoiding The Hat#and doof follows that blog because aww cute little harmless platapus#major monogram occasionally posts angsty vents about The Academy while every teen on the site begs him to get therapy instead#carl is a reddit infiltrator and everyone hates him. im sorry carl fans(???) but you actually cant debate me on this im right#OH AND LAWRENCE#HE ABSOLUTELY IS THE FATHER OF TUMBLR AND EVERYONE ADORES HIM#he posts about how much he loves his wife and kids in between rambles about his special interests (fossils dun dun dun)#i just know he's the babygirl of tumblr in his universe and candace probably hates it but secretly thinks its sweet that everyone loves him#he'll just go “ah candace look! ive received another 'note'! i do wish i could figure out how to write one back”#sorry i went off on a lawrence tangent i unironically love that man#SORRY ONE MORE I JUST THOUGHT OF I SWEAR IM DONE AFTER THIS#buford runs a baljeet hate blog and constantly receives anons begging him to just ask him out already#he hates it but is VERY CAREFUL to explain he isn't homophobic and actually belives that homophobia is an evil and unjust philosophy#that goes against the Bullies Code of Ethics or some shit#anyway when theyre in high school he finally makes a post like “yeah ok whatever we're dating now im still gonna bully him tho”#and tumblr loses their collective minds for like a week#this may be the most tags ive ever put on anything i am currently unmedicated and pnf was my entire childhood ok
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