#i cannot believe i’m posting about this game in 2024

[maiiuelle]

there was a chris x ashley fic on tumblr back in 2015 that had me SAT it was the only thing in my bookmarks for literally years but they deleted it 😭😭

[birdiewriteslit]

wildest dreams au

luke hughes x abigail abernathy

masterlist

glamorousgail🔒

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glamorousgail miss this gang

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drewstarkey soon🏄‍♂️

madisonbaileybabe summer cannot come soon enough

glamorousgail @/madisonbaileybabe literally three days into january and sick of it

lhughes_06 @/glamorousgail you live in new england

glamorousgail @/lhughes_06 fine i’ll just move to florida without you…

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jonathandavissofficial pogue life is the best life

glamorousgail @/jonathandavissofficial if that ain’t the truth

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rudeth guys i inspired this post

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lhughes_06 @/rudeth well aren’t you special

January 3, 2024

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messages 5:04 pm

luke: are you seriously still talking to rudy

abigail: he’s my friend so yes

luke: do you remember why he broke up with you

abigail: believe it or not i do and we’ve talked about it

abigail: he feels really bad and i don’t want to fuck up what we have right now especially with season 4 on the horizon

luke: gail that doesn’t fix what he did

luke: i’m looking out for you

abigail: i know that’s what you think you’re doing but trust me luke i know how to handle this

abigail: i’ve had exes who didn’t like our friendship and when they broke up with me bc of it it’s never bothered you this much

luke: whatever just forget about it

abigail: good luck tonight

read 5:17 pm

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Abigail set her phone down and rubbed a hand over her face. She let out a frustrated sigh. It was true, she had a few ex boyfriends who hadn’t loved the idea of her being so close with other guys.

Rudy was one of them, but him and Abigail had finally reached a point where that didn’t matter, and they could go back to what they were before they started dating during the filming of season one of OBX.

She wished Luke would understand that Rudy had changed, but she knew the real reason he was upset about it, even if they pretended it never happened.

December 31, 2023

After the fireworks and the party, Abigail and the boys had successfully made it back to her apartment.

They made a great drinking game out of Monopoly on her bathroom floor, and it was getting a little wild.

Jack had almost flipped the board a few times because Abigail threatened to take his properties (even though that was against the rules).

“That’s it! I can’t afford a fucking hotel, I’m quitting this,” Quinn announced, standing from the bathroom tile, wobbling a bit before taking a few slow steps toward the door. He didn’t make it far before he slipped on some spare Monopoly dollars and came crashing down into the bathtub.

Jack laughed hysterically as Quinn groaned from the tub.

“I’ll go get some water for these guys,” Abigail decided, patting Luke’s arm before heading to the kitchen.

Luke glanced down at his phone in a nervous manner. “Wait up,” he said, following her into the hall.

Abigail took two glasses from the cabinet and placed them on the counter. “You think I need help?” she said, teasing.

“I think you’re perfectly capable,” he said, hands in his pockets as he stood by the island.

“Alright,” she responded skeptically.

Luke cleared his throat. “There’s a minute until midnight,” he said suddenly.

“Really? I didn’t know it was that late already.” She filled up each cup and put them in front of Luke on the island.

“Time flies when you’re having fun.” He looked at her like he was expecting something. He wanted Abigail to make the connection. He wanted her to round the counter and get closer to him. And then, he wanted her to kiss him when the countdown was over.

He could hear his heart pounding in his ears. Abigail wasn’t saying anything. She was looking at him with her lips parted, her eyebrows pushed together. Luke thought, for a moment, for a good thirty seconds, that that look meant she didn’t want what he did.

On the tv in the living room that was still playing from before they all left to go see the fireworks, the countdown had reached twenty seconds.

Luke’s eyes glanced down at Abigail’s body, he couldn’t hold eye contact for much longer without imploding. The strap of her tank top had fallen from her shoulder. Absentmindedly, he reached out to fix it.

When he did, he looked back to her face and saw she was staring at his lips. As the countdown finished, she grabbed his hand and guided it to her neck, pulling him forward simultaneously and kissing him hard.

Cheers could be heard from the television, but Luke could hear nothing over the sound of the blood rushing to his ears.

Maybe it was the alcohol that made Abigail that confident, or maybe it was just how tired she was of wanting to kiss him but never being able to.

She pulled away faster than she wanted to. Luke stared at her with a dumbstruck look on his face. Abigail avoided his eyes and grabbed the glasses from the counter, taking them to where Jack and Quinn were waiting.

January 3, 2024

Abigail didn’t talk to Luke about the kiss after it happened. Luke never mentioned anything about it to Abigail either, but she couldn’t help but wonder if it had been more than just a mistake she made when she was drunk.

What did it mean to him? How would it affect their relationship if he wanted it? Were they just going to stay friends or become more?

“I can’t do this right now,” she muttered to herself, before throwing herself back on the couch and passing out.

When she woke up, the Devils game was over. They won, but her nap rendered her groggy and feeling even worse.

She found her phone on the floor and picked it up, deciding to make a call. It rung for about a second before Quinn picked up.

“Abby, what’s up?”

“I just took a fat nap and I feel horrible,” she stated plainly.

Quinn laughed on the other side of the phone. “I feel that. Did you catch the game?”

“No, I’ve been asleep, Quinn. I can’t do this sun down at four thing.” She scowled at the dark sky outside her window.

“Even though you’ve lived in Boston your whole life? I’d think you’d be used to it by now,” Quinn said. “Are you okay?”

Quinn heard it in Abigail’s voice. She didn’t take that nap because she felt overwhelmed by the darkness. She sighed into the phone.

“Luke and I got into a sort of fight before the game. It wasn’t really a fight, he’s just upset I’ve been out with Rudy.” Abigail conveniently left out the whole kissing his brother thing, she just needed Quinn’s reassurance, like she always did.

“He seemed pissed tonight, at least on tv. Wanna talk about it?”

“Not really, but thanks for picking up, Quinny. I just wanted to let somebody know. You know, before I think about it too much.”

“We wouldn’t want that.” Abigail could hear the smile in his voice. They said goodbye and hung up the phone.

Abigail opened her messages and saw nothing new. Then, she checked twitter, and promptly closed the app after realizing she couldn’t escape her problems.

[weewookinard]

Pardon my french!

BuckTommy Positivity Week 2024 - day one

I know i'm late to the party but @searching-for-the-moon gave me a great idea so here we are. You can learn more about this challenge through @bucktommypositivityweek's blog!

Prompt: what they love most about each other

You can read it on AO3 or down below. Every fic will be posted on AO3 as chapters of the same fic!

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“Okay, I’m impressed now. Is there anything you can’t do?”

Tommy looks at Evan who is wearing the prettiest smile he’s ever seen, a happy grin of his own gently warming up his face as they leave the gallery where they spent two hours learning pottery. In the bag Evan is carrying lays a strange attempt of a mug, base not quite flat and edges all wrong and messy. The mug is yellow, painted with care and patience. Which weren’t enough to ensure a great result. Against the mug, two bowls are wrapped in newspaper sheets. They are bright blue with white flowers, both perfect shapes, both delicately painted. Both the work of a Tommy who cannot stop smiling while his boyfriend continues to compliment him. It is endearing, the way Evan talks and talks and talk, always eager to let Tommy knows how much he’s impressed by anything new he learns about him.

“I swear Evan, it was the first time I did pottery.”

“Not the first time you painted though, so it’s almost like you cheated.” The blond can’t stop his smile from widening again, and his free hand quickly finds itself in Tommy’s one. They walk together like that for a while, heading to Evan’s loft just four blocks away from the gallery where the class was happening.

“It is so infuriating, you are always good at everything you try, how is that possible?” He continues, not paying attention to the world around him, and Tommy has to pull him fast by the hand before Evan bumps into a trash can. The movement coax Evan in Tommy’s direction, and soon enough the two men are against each other, chests touching and the older man’s arms around Evan’s waist, a gesture his body cannot stop doing when his boyfriend is close enough. It does nothing but push another bright smile on Evan’s face and Tommy must kiss him about it.

He knows his boyfriend clumsiness and unawareness of what surrounds him should bug him, but he can’t stop thinking it makes the other man even more adorable, if it is humanly possible. Evan is living in a world of his own, and for six months now he’s been okay with letting Tommy be a part of it.

Tommy loves him for that. He loves him for pretty much everything Evan does or says.

“I’m not good at everything!” He interjects, a laugh on his voice when they start walking again and Evan gives him a deadpan look, almost bumping into another human being.

“Shut up, I’m sure you can do crazy things. Like, I don’t know, French braid! Or macarons, which is so fucking hard to do right, by the way. Hell, I am sure you know how to speak French while we’re at it!"

Evan had started hyperfixating on everything French related since the opening of the Paris Olympics. “They had a dancing croissant; can you believe it? And the torchbearer? I’ve never seen somebody this hot, except you of course. If I hadn’t discovered my bisexuality with you, this person would have done the trick just fine.”

He then proceeded to explain to Tommy what the French torchbearer had been about, some reference to video games as well as opera. “Did you know Assassin’s Creed was French? And so are the Minions! And The Daft Punk! Even the helicopter was invented by the French!”

So, Evan talking about macarons and French braid isn’t that weird.

The thing is, Tommy’s answer is a surprise so unexpected that Evan’s jaw drop when his boyfriend respond. “Oh no, you don’t want me near long haired heads, and I’m not really good at macarons, I’m more of a waffle guy anyway. French though-”

Evan stops him before he can say anything else.

“Thomas Kinard, do not tell me you know how to speak French.”

Tommy’s amused face must be a good enough answer because Evan’s stops right here, in the middle of the sidewalk, starstruck. “Do you speak French?”

« Un petit peu, je ne me suis pas entrainé depuis longtemps. »

Evan does not know what it means, he doesn’t even know if Tommy said it right or if he just invented words to play with him. But it doesn't matter anyway, he’s too flabbergasted to care.

“What. The. Fuck.” He manages to say after way to long of a pause, proof that his brain just stopped working. It makes Tommy giggle, and the pilot brings his boyfriend hand to his lips and places a kiss on each one of his fingers.

“Tout va bien ?” He then asks, knowing full well what the words cause in Evan’s head.

Chaos, pure unexpected, hot as fuck chaos.

“What. Why. How. What. Fuck, how?” The younger man is clearly losing it and Tommy knows there is only one way to soothe his lover’s brain. So he takes a step forward, Evan’s free hand still in his, his other hand cupping Evan’s face, and proceed to kiss his boyfriend slowly, almost lazy, a hint of defiance in every one of his movements. Usually Evan melts on the touch, but this time he finds the strength to back-up, well, not before he moans in Tommy’s lips and kiss him back anyway.

“I’ll still need answers Kinard.”

“Let’s go home first, and then maybe I’ll give you some.” Tommy replies, a knowing smile on his face, pupils darkening with the promise of giving.

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“So, how?”

They both lay in Evan’s bed, sweaty and sore and happy. The bag with their dishes inside has been abandoned on the diner table, and their clothes have been thrown in every part of the loft without any care.

Tommy thinks about his answer for a moment, before he turns his head toward Evan, looking at him with a mix of tenderness and guilt. “I… I dated a guy. It was a long time ago, but the words stayed.” It is all he his able to say before he looks away, worried that Evan might get jealous, or sad, or something. Instead, Evan puts his hand on Tommy’s chest, playing with the hairy skin, and looks at him with fondness.

“You know, you don’t have to be ashamed of your past Tommy. I have exes too.” He says, trying to comfort the older man, a bright smile even in his voice. His tone is reassuring, and Tommy finally looks back at him with a sheepish glance.

“I know, it’s just… It has always been a thing with my other exes, you know? French is romantic, French is the language of love and, well, a lot of the men I dated weren’t happy that I had learned it for someone else you know?”

Evan nods, still admiring his boyfriend, caressing his perfect body.

“Is it why you hadn’t told me about it yet?” Tommy hums and Evan drops a kiss on his cheek, a touch so intimate the pilot still can’t quite believe he deserves it. “Well, I’m not jealous, and I’m not angry. I love that you give one hundred percent when you love someone, and that you are capable of learning a whole language just for them.” He smiles again, shifting his body so he’s almost completely on top of Tommy. “And it would be really stupid of me to be mad because you can speak French to me. It’s so fucking hot.”

“Yeah?”

“Yeah, I love it! I love you Tommy, and every moment that made you you. The good and the bad.” Tommy smiles disappear when Evan come and kiss him, a deep, heated kiss. In his lips Tommy swears he can taste love. “But what I love most is that I’m getting used to all those little things I learn about you. I want to be used to everything about you for ever.”

“Sounds good to me.”

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translation: 

- A little bit, i've not trained for a long time.

- Is everything okay?

[princess-aeducan]

Dragon Age: The Veilguard Gameplay Reveal Thoughts

Okay for one thing, I am so happy to be making this post. Going from people voicing doubts about the game coming out at all to a Fall 2024 release window is so exciting. 10 years and it’s finally almost here.

-The game is absolutely gorgeous. I love the design of Minrathous, I love how gobsmackingly different it is from Ferelden. Dorian’s complaints from Inquisition all make sense now, and it’s fascinating to see a place that is not repressive of magic- the fact that it resembles sci-fi levels of tech but is all powered by magic is sooo fun and interesting to me. I also think it’ll be an interesting contrast to the more classic fantasy style locations we see at the ritual site and throughout the screenshots the developers have posted. It makes the world feel so much bigger, diverse, and more fleshed out.

-Unpopular opinion and I totally respect why others dislike it as it does look quite different, I’m actually looking forward to the combat. It honestly just looks more fun to me, as I tend to favor a more action/real time style anyway. That being said, I do dislike the 3 person party change for banter reasons and do think that’ll make it feel significantly less like classic Dragon Age. I feel like I’ll get used to it pretty fast, but it is a disappointment. Controlling companions isn’t mandatory for me but it was always nice to be able to try out all the classes, so that’s a loss as well, although one I’m less bothered by.

-I like the way the characters look, but do understand it could take a little bit of adjustment. Harding got a massive glow up, she looks gorgeous. So excited she’s a companion, and that we’ll have our first romanceable dwarf! Not a huge fan of the way Solas looks in this style, but I don’t feel particularly upset about it anyway. Not sure what it is. Varric looks great, but like many others, missing his ginger hair. All in all, less drastic changes to returning characters than we’ve seen in previous titles, I will never be over how much they butchered Alistair in Inquisition. I love the designs and vibes of the new companions, Neve is a fashion icon and sooo fits in with what Dorian has set up for us to expect from Tevinter. I can’t wait to meet Davrin in particular, because god I miss Grey Wardens.

-On that point: Factions have me maybe the most excited. I cannot wait to be a Grey Warden again, I’d been holding out hope! I liked that the faction was referenced in the gameplay reveal as well, and hope it’ll change small things throughout the game, at least through dialogue. Also will have to play as an Antivan Crow at some point. A bit sad this won’t include a playable prologue like Origins, but since DA2 and DAI I wasn’t expecting it. Just always something I’ll miss.

-A red flag for me is how little Rook was prompted to make dialogue choices. I hope that because this is simply the prologue and therefore focused on binary plot progression, that this will be different in more dialogue-driven sections, but it’s something to look out for and be wary of. I’m okay with Rook speaking on their own occasionally, but if that continues, I hope it’s at least like Hawke where there’s some variation based on personality.

-Also yes, excited about the return of the purple Hawke icon! The dialogue wheel in Inquisition felt more bland to me than in DA2, so if the wheel is what we’re stuck with, I’d rather it lean more to its DA2 execution.

-On narrative: I cannot BELIEVE the game just jumps into “let’s confront Solas RIGHT NOW!” I was not expecting so much plot from the gameplay reveal. I am very intrigued by what’s coming next with the evanuris, and what it will mean for Solas’ role in the story. I’m kind of obsessed with the fact that it begins with Rook fucking things up worse, I think that will be magnificent to explore for roleplay and the repercussions for Thedas will be massive. I know there were concerns about tone, but this gives me hope that we’ll have the fucked up shit Dragon Age is known for. “Just some guy who makes things worse” is a great start for a protagonist, and reminds me of DA2 in some respects.

-My brainrot is horrendous. I have so many more thoughts all of the time, but tried to just center on the gameplay reveal so I don’t yap forever. But always feel free to send asks, and expect more posts as we get closer and closer!

[xhikatsu]

Topaz's Situation

Continuing from how aware Topaz is, it makes me wonder how much of this situation is Topaz trying to take advantage of… Ultimately, she is stuck with the IPC whether she likes it or not because of the lifelong contract.

With her mindset of “means to an end” as long as it’s rational/logical, has proof of success, and no alternative way, she will do it… Ultimately, she knows her way isn’t always going to work. But she tries her best to be kind and considerate to all parties despite results.

In a sense, she is simply trying to make the best of the situation for not just herself but for others that may end up in the same predicament as her. That’s why she wants to do this… She wants to help other people in any way she can, even if it’s not her first choice.

Now, this goes more into her dynamic with the IPC and Jade. For both cases, she does not agree wholeheartedly with them as I’ve stated why I believe that in my last thread. She does rebel against them in what seem like subtle and small ways.

But for her… It’s a big thing. She continues to follow her morals and beliefs as best as she could, even if it means self-sacrificing for the betterment of others. She also continues to still try to use the methods she learned in her own way, trying to let all parties win.

For her, “investing in the long game” might be her way of trying to make the best of the situation. Topaz cannot avoid working for the IPC, so she might as well do her best while doing what she can to help other planets.

This also applies to Jade. Topaz seems to be aware that she is manipulative and may know she’s trying to do so on her. However, she values skills, knowledge, and experience. We know this because she also seems to be interested in Himeko.

Topaz specifically says to Himeko, “I can learn a lot from you” since she has heard only good things about her. But also, Himeko has a reputation of having good experience and skills that people can appreciate. To Topaz, these things are highly valuable to her.

To learn such skills, knowledge, and experience, it can only help further her own goal and ambitions. So in a sense, even with Jade, Topaz could be seeing it more as an investment for her future. She doesn’t disagree with their methods, but she doesn’t agree with their reason.

So, why not learn the method and apply her own reason or other factors she believes is right? After all, it might be the only way she can help other planets successfully. She tries to balance her logic and rational decisions with a bit of empathy.

This is also probably why she probably does not approve of Aventurine’s methods. She, who values logic and proof (added: and is risk-averse), wants to ensure the highest chance of success in a consistent rate. Aventurine’s gambles are far too inconsistent with fluctuating successes.

For Aventurine, this is fine due to his scheming ways to raise up the success rate but also his undeniable luck to help in some sense. But this seems to make Topaz worried as she wants to ensure her projects succeed, hence sometimes doing what she needs to do to accomplish this.

Most of her projects handle planets that need help for recover. If she doesn’t succeed, those people’s lives are in her hands. Not literally since it’s the planet’s decision to sign the deal or not. But I’m sure it doesn’t feel any better knowing they denied and didn’t make it.

Nonetheless, if one can appeal to Topaz that there is another way, she doesn’t seem to be against it since she was willing to try and put hope in Jarilo VI after some proof they may succeed. Or Aventurine despite disliking his method.

This is more of my way of looking at it from how I view her due to her actions or behavior in game, so most of this is just my conclusion from what I know of her. She could have other reasons we don’t know, especially since she is a Stoneheart who has a “void” in her heart.

Original Date of Posting on Twt/X: Jul 8, 2024

[nerdanel01]

No. 9 - Dilemma

But Johanna was not waiting for him in the public parlors. Curiously, she had posted herself up in the corridor leading in their direction. The past months had worn on her, aged her. Now, however—even from a distance—Emmrich could see that she was literally bouncing on the balls of her feet with excitement, her hand clasped briskly behind her back. The Mourn Watch insignia gleaming white upon her breastplate matched the glint of her teeth, revealed by the too-pleased grin on her face. 

Approaching her, he asked, “I thought you were going to meet me in the parlors?”

“Couldn’t resist.” Johanna’s grin widened. “You are not going to believe it. I didn’t believe it myself, when the docents came to tell me.”

“To tell you…?”

“Who was waiting for me,” Johanna replied, sweetly, “on the Necropolis steps.” 

Johanna gestured for Emmrich to follow her, turning and leading him down the corridors, to the public parlors the Mourn Watch staged to receive visitors. “You recall, of course, how the lower levels of the Necropolis have devolved into a quite literal��den of horrors after the sky opened up and started spitting out demons a few months ago?”

“It is impossible to forget,” Emmrich answered, cagily. What did that have to do with the visitor they were on their way to greet? And why was Johanna in such high spirits about it? Johanna was his friend, and it was good to see her happy, but he did not like the smug look of satisfaction on her face one bit—

“Guess who just showed up offering to help us with that particular problem.”

Emmrich’s mouth and throat went dry. “Who?”

“Oh, I don’t know…” Johanna teased, giving an exaggerated, theatrical shrug. “Could it be, perhaps, one of the best Watchers I have ever had the pleasure of serving alongside? Perhaps even someone I proudly recruited myself?” Emmrich’s heart dropped into his stomach. ‘She cannot be saying—’ “Perhaps, someone you chased out of my guard over two years ago? But that would be crazy! What are the odds?”

The door to the public parlor was just coming into view around the curve of the hallway. From within, Emmrich could clearly hear a set of voices, raised in argument.

“Oooh,” Johanna said, furtively, “it sounds like the girls are fighting.”

“Johanna,” Emmrich said, fighting to keep his voice even, commanding. “Who is in there?”

Johanna only lifted an eyebrow at him, too self-satisfied, it seemed, to give him a straight answer. As they neared the entrance, the voices within the parlor became more distinct:

“…able to face the Elvhen God of Rebellion, but not your old boss?” 

“…sounds like an appropriate division of labor! I brought you here, Lace. Now I’ll handle Fen’Harel, and you can deal with the Mourn Watch—” 

Hot and cold all at once, mind blank and fuzzy, paralyzed with hope. Emmrich nearly tripped over his feet, forgetting how to walk, how to breathe as he reached for the doorknob. He knew that voice, he was sure of it—!

And if he had not been—if there was even the tiniest part of Emmrich that was not wholly confident of what he was about to find—it was not left to wonder long. Because as soon as she had thrown those words in response to whomever it was she was arguing with inside the parlor, Agnes had flung open the door.

[read full fic]

--- I’m really proud of all the writing I did this year! So for the last ten days of 2024 I’m going to be reblogging my 10 favorite pieces that I wrote.

This is probably my favorite bit of Johanna I've written all year. It's still a little OOC, since it was written pre-Veilguard, but I do think it's the closest I came to her actual in-game energy... primarily because she is so smug and a little (a lot?) sadistic here.

I have such horrid things in store for my beloved lich wife in 2025, I can't wait til I get to the part of my long fic where I get to write herrrrrr

[lovetaroandtaemin]

Kinktober 2024

Day 10: Makeup Sex

Kim Jongdae x Reader

Word Count: 1,577

THIS FIC IS NSFW, MINORS DNI!!!

Warnings: Arguments, Chen thinks reader is cheating but she isn't, alcohol consumption (Chen and reader are both sober when they have sex!!!), kind of soft dom!Chen, oral (fem recieving), fingering, implied round 2. If you think I missed a warning, please let me know!

A/N: If you would like to be added to my Kinktober taglist, you can send an ask, send a dm, or comment on any of my Kinktober-related posts with the username that you'd like tagged. Happy reading!

Taglist: @unlikelysublimekryptonite

Fic is under the cut.

“I cannot believe you. I’m your fiancée, Jongdae! Do you seriously think that little of me?”

“Do not put words in my mouth, (Y/N). You know how important you are to me.”

“The only thing I know right now is that you seem to care more about random girls at the club than the girl that you said you were gonna marry!”

“That’s not true.”

“Well, I’m calling bullshit,” you said as you packed a bag to leave.

“Where are you going?”

“To see a friend.”

“Which friend? Is it Jongin?”

“For fuck’s sake, no! I’m gonna call Seulgi and see if I can go to her place.”

You loved Jongdae dearly, but his jealousy and inability to prioritize you were incredibly frustrating. So, once your bag was packed, you left for Seulgi’s apartment to cool off and ask for advice. She was your best friend, and you knew you could rely on her. When you got in the car, you called her and explained what happened. Before you could even ask, she said, “Come here, we can talk and have some wine. Joohyun bought the good stuff when she went out today.”

You thanked Seulgi and hung up the phone before you drove to her apartment. When you knocked, Joohyun, her girlfriend and roommate, opened the door. She quickly pulled you inside, hugging you the moment you were through the door. Although you weren’t as close with her as you were with Seulgi, you still considered Joohyun a good friend.

When Seulgi heard you come in, she went to the kitchen to get a bottle of wine off of its shelf. Then she poured three glasses and said, “Wine in the kitchen!” You and Joohyun made your way there and each grabbed a glass. When everyone had their wine, Seulgi raised her glass and said, “To friends!” You and Joohyun repeated her toast, and the three of you clinked your glasses together before taking a sip.

After the mini toast to your friendship, Seulgi and Joohyun ushered you to the living room and asked you what happened with Jongdae. You sighed before you said, “I just don’t know what to do. We’ve been fighting constantly, and every time I think that we’re doing better he starts spending less time with me. We got in an argument before I came here because he wanted to go to the club, but we had a date night already planned.”

“What the fuck?” Seulgi interjected.

“And he gets so jealous!” you added. “When I told him I was leaving, the first thing he asked was if I was going to Jongin’s apartment. I don’t know how to get Jongdae to understand that I just don’t see Jongin that way.”

“I think that you should try talking to him once you’ve both calmed down,” Joohyun added. “Depending on that conversation, either break up or continue the relationship.”

“Thanks, Joohyun. Right now, I just don’t want to think about it anymore.”

“How about some games?” Seulgi asked. You and Joohyun readily agreed, and the three of you played games and drank wine until you were too tired to function anymore. Then, Seulgi and Joohyun went to bed in their room, and you slept in their guest room.

You woke up to Seulgi knocking on the guest room door and calling for you. When you opened the door, she told you that someone was here to see you. Based on the annoyance in her voice and the venomous expression on her face, you assumed that it was Jongdae. You thanked her for letting you know and made yourself look presentable.

When you got to the living room, Jongdae was sitting on Seulgi’s couch. You didn’t need to be a genius to figure out that he had been crying. When he saw you, he immediately got up to hug you. A small part of you wanted to push him away, but at the same time you missed him and wanted to try to make things right. He pulled away from the hug and asked if you would talk to him. You agreed, and the two of you went outside.

“Before you say anything, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to forget about our date night, and I shouldn’t have blown you off. After you left I called the guys and cancelled, and I’m gonna stop going out with them when they go to that club,” Jongdae said. “I never meant to make you feel like you weren’t a priority, and I promise you that I will do better.”

“I’m sorry, too. I shouldn’t have accused you like that. I know that you love me, I was just hurt that it seemed like you were blowing off date night. And I’m sorry that I wasn’t more considerate of your feelings regarding my friendship with Jongin. I know that he doesn’t see me as anything more than a friend, and I promise you I don’t see him as anything more than a friend, but I understand why the way he was acting made you think otherwise. If you’re up for it, at some point we could all sit down and talk about boundaries.”

“That sounds great. I love you.”

“I love you too, Jongdae.”

“Can we go home? I missed you last night, and I want to cuddle with my baby,” he said with a laugh.

“Yeah, let’s go home.”

You drove home, and Jongdae did the same. When you got to your apartment, you went to your bedroom and put on some soft music. Jongdae got home shortly after you did, and the two of you sat on your bed together. He held you while the two of you talked about whatever came to mind.

In between conversations about movies that you wanted to watch and gossip about your friends, Jongdae took several opportunities to tell you how beautiful he thought you were. Every comment that Jongdae made about your appearance made you blush, and you took every opportunity to compliment him back. Eventually you couldn’t take it anymore and kissed him. He deepened the kiss immediately, and your hands found the back of his head. You pulled ever so slightly, and he moaned.

When you pulled away for air, Jongdae took the opportunity to kiss your neck. You let out a small moan at the feeling, and he smiled against your skin. Jongdae loved drawing those beautiful moans from you, and today it only made him want more. The two of you hadn’t been intimate in a long time thanks to busy schedules and lack of energy. Jongdae hated to admit it, but he was hard from the moment you kissed him. So, he looked up at you and asked, “Can I go further?”

When you nodded, he moved away just enough to pull your shirt off before he started kissing his way down your torso. When he finally spread your legs and positioned himself so that his head was between them, he looked up at you. You could feel the arousal building when you made eye contact with him. Before he could say anything, you whispered, “Please?”

As soon as the soft plea left your lips, Jongdae was pulling your pants and underwear down. He wasted no time, attaching his lips to your clit and gently sucking the moment your remaining clothes were off. You moaned louder than you meant to at the sensation, but Jongdae loved it. Your moans sounded like music to his ears compared to the arguing the night before.

After a few minutes of Jongdae teasing your clit, you couldn’t take it anymore. You started begging him for more, and he happily obliged. Before you knew it, he was gently inserting one finger into you and slowly thrusting it in and out. It felt incredible, but it still wasn’t quite what you wanted. You started to slowly move your hips back and forth in an attempt for more friction, but Jongdae wasn’t having it. He held your hips down with his other hand while he continued to finger you.

When Jongdae inserted another finger and started to thrust faster, you felt like you were in heaven. You had started bucking your hips up, but this time he didn’t hold your hips down. The moans that left his mouth as he tasted you turned you on even more. You didn’t notice it, but Jongdae was grinding his hips against the bed as he pleasured you. He was incredibly horny, and desperate for some kind of stimulation.

It didn’t take much longer for your orgasm to approach. You told Jongdae that you were close, and he pulled away just long enough to say, “Cum for me, baby,” before going right back to pleasuring you. As if on command, you came with a string of swears and moans of his name. Jongdae happily continued to fuck you through it, and that was when you noticed that he was humping your bed.

Once you came down from your high and caught your breath, you looked at Jongdae with a teasing smile and said, “What are you doing?”

“I’m sorry, I- “

“Why don’t you let me take a turn?” you asked. Jongdae happily agreed. It was going to be a long night for both of you, but you were determined to make him feel as good as he had made you feel, especially after the argument you'd had the night before.

Thank you for reading! If you'd like to see what else I've written so far and the rest of what's planned, you can find my Kinktober masterlist here. If you'd like to read one of my non-Kinktober works, you can find my general masterlist here. If you'd like to see what I'm going to be working on once Kinktober is over, you can find my upcoming works here. If none of that interests you, or there's something specific you'd like to see, send a request via asks or dms!

Thank you again for reading, happy spooky season!

[buttercupjosh]

Opinion/Rant: To start, I’m bringing up something that occurred back in 2020 but myself and some others didn’t see the actual video until 2021. This post is a bit long but please bear with me. Anyways, I’m bringing this up now because I’ve noticed throughout 2023 and throughout part of 2024, there’s been a big resurgence of Vince content on here (yeah, I already know he’s cute and a talented player, I used to hold space for him on my blog and post about him in the past) but a part of me feels like people have either forgotten about what he did or they just don’t know what occurred so this post serves as an educational post for those who may not know (or a reminder for those who may have forgotten) and is not intended by any means to cause any drama. I also do share some of my opinion on what happened in this post as well.

For those who don’t know or remember, back in 2020, Vince used to do live streams of him playing video games on Twitch during COVID lockdown and during these streams, he would play music while he played games. On one of these game streams (I don’t know which specific one it was from), Vince was singing along to some song and the n-word came out of his mouth (the video of the incident is at the very end of this post). Yeah, I know he listens to a lot of rap and R&B and I’ve seen some people say that he was drunk when it happened and that the song was choppy but that doesn’t excuse him saying it. According to others who watched the stream when it was fully available, Vince allegedly didn’t apologize for using the word and when he was called out for it in the stream chat, he allegedly got a bunch of people to harass the person who called him out.

As someone who’s Black, it hurt me a lot to hear Vince say the n-word, even if it was for a second. For those of y’all who defend him and act like what he did wasn’t wrong or trying to come up with excuses for him, you don’t fully understand how painful and harmful his actions were. Just because I’m Black (I personally choose not to use it) and other Black people say it freely, that does not mean the word is okay for just anyone, regardless of race, to use in any context. Just because Vince didn’t say it to me or anyone directly, that doesn’t mean what he did is acceptable. To me, hearing a non-black person use the N-word any capacity is extremely personal because it’s been used towards me in a negative way by non-black people throughout my life. It also bothered me that Vince allegedly didn’t have the decency to even say “whoops, sorry I said/did that” when he was called out for it on the game stream and allegedly resorted to downplaying the situation and having people harass the person who called him out. I am not trying to play the victim but I am trying to educate y’all on his actions and to also let y’all know why some people don’t like him.

Another thing I’m going to note is that you cannot always automatically assume that someone you don’t know personally has put in the work privately over something they were exposed for publicly if they haven’t shown any public sort of proof of some growth. That means you can’t come to me and say “he may have learned from using that word” when there’s no public evidence anywhere that he has. If you choose to believe he has, then that’s your opinion. To me, Vince could have publicly shown some sort of growth by doing something as small as posting a blackout Tuesday post during the height of Black Lives Matter movement in June 2020 or liking a tweet of support from that time or maybe even participating in some of the Kraken’s Black history related stuff (like how Grubauer and Blackwell talked about Black hockey history with J.T. Brown and Everett Fitzhugh) (I know February is right around the corner with Black History Month and if Vince does something then, maybe my viewpoint on him may shift a bit). Yes, I did see a video of Vince talking about his thoughts on BLM and he did make valid points about how not everyone has to be posting online to protest injustice. However, Vince didn’t clearly say anything that showed he did something about it offline besides using an example of how if a rapper goes to a protest, everyone knows who the rapper is and if he were to go, no one would know who Vince is and also saying “who’s to say I’m not going to protests or donating to certain charities”, without saying he actually did those things. (A good example of a player being called out/exposed for something but fixing what they did is when Quinn Hughes didn’t use Pride tape once but later on, he used the tape and even made inclusive comments during the NHL pride tape controversy last season).

I AM NOT SAYING OR IMPLYING VINCE SHOULD BE CANCELED OR THAT HE IS A RACIST OR A HORRIBLE PERSON BUT HE SHOULD BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE BY HOCKEY FANS. Holding him accountable means that if you want to, you can still like him for the benefit that he has on your team or recognizing his talent or some of his community work but you can also remember what he did in the back of your mind. (Think about/keep that in mind when you post about him too).

I know that it’s not always easy to hold someone that’s on a team you like or someone you liked beforehand accountable (there are several players on teams that I like who help my team succeed and players that I’ve admired before but I don’t like or agree with certain, questionable things that they’ve done) but if accountability looks like no longer holding space for them on your blog through posts or putting them up on such a high pedestal in your life or to stop thinking they can no wrong, that’s fine too. Holding a player accountable looks different for everyone and there’s no set formula/guidelines for that.

If you still want to support him after seeing this post and watching the video below, then that’s on you. If you choose to not support him anymore or at all, that’s on you. However you choose to feel about it is valid and I respect that (even if I see it differently). I know that he’s never going to address or acknowledge this and I understand that it happened back in 2020 but his silence on the matter nor should the amount of time that has passed shouldn’t stop fans at all from holding him accountable.

(Again, this post is me sharing my opinion on something Vince did, educating those who may not have known about it and also reminding those who may have forgotten this happened. Again, I’m not saying or implying that he is a racist or should be canceled. All I’m trying to say is that he should be/start to be held accountable by hockey fans. We all hold our own bias when it comes to things and I’m not using this post to try to push anyone towards a certain side either. Again, I’m also not saying he’s a horrible person either. Interpret all of this information however you want/choose to.

Also, if you’re even thinking about sending me a hate anon for this, go touch grass or get better hobbies. Better yet, if you send me a hate anon, just know it’ll go into the trash with your garbage words.

Lastly, I am also going to say that I do not tolerate nor support/agree with anyone going after anyone who still chooses to support Vince or chooses not to support him and if you do that to someone, you’re a very scummy person. Also, I am not going to send anyone anything about this either because I got all of my thoughts out here and respect others’ opinions so if you somehow get a hate anon about it, it’s not from me because I dislike the feeling of getting one and wouldn’t want to put someone else through that).

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[saintmeghanmarkle]

Her Narcissist Worldview - Zero-Sum by u/umbleUriahHeep

Her Narcissist Worldview - Zero-Sum (I started to reply to a comment on another post but kept writing and realized it would make a better post than a reply. I will post the original excellent comment by Fairy-Maya that inspired me in the comments below.)A comment on TOW’s jam being a stolen recipe from KC’s Highgrove brand got me to thinking about why I want her to fail in everything. And why we need her to fail.Everything with this woman is a zero-sum game. To her, all resources of money, fame, happiness, prestige, power are finite. That’s one of the reasons she cannot create—she steals. She can’t make a buck without stealing someone else’s idea, recipe, IP, work product, or labor. She cannot simply hawk ridiculously overpriced strawberry jam. No, she has to go and steal someone else’s recipe to exploit.And we need to know that the theft is one of the aspects that she gets off on—that she took something from someone else and now it’s hers, AND she got away with it. It brings her narc mind a kind of joy, but not joy as we normies understand joy. It’s the narcissistic high. She is chasing the narc high through deceit and larceny.”Trophy” WifeThat’s why she proudly showcased the stolen Aquazzura shoes from the Reitman’s shoot in her engagement photos. The shoes and Harry are both trophies for this psychopath. She is proud that she stole the shoes and got away with it. She’s proud that she successfully deceived and manipulated Harry and that she was about to steal a royal title. Nobody has asked if I’m OkayShe is the only person who matters. So long as she is okay, and everyone around her are all committed to sacrificing so that she is okay—that is all that matters.Mrs. Spare does not believe in I’m OK, you’re OK. She believes that in order for her to thrive, her perceived competitors must diminish. (And “perceived competitors” are all women and any man who thwarts her.) Her standing in front of a mic lecturing us normal good people “to not pull women down” is worse than insulting because the only woman she wants protected from criticism is Rachel Markle. She would actually prefer all the rest of us women—every single woman on earth—to suffer, if it meant she had another narc high.There is something deeply wrong with TOW. We on this sub see it and we want everyone else to, too. We’re all just normal folks of average morals, perhaps with an instinctive awareness of evil, and an abhorrence for injustice. And so we all say: Something is wrong with TOW. post link: https://ift.tt/8EH3fjr author: umbleUriahHeep submitted: April 21, 2024 at 06:35PM via SaintMeghanMarkle on Reddit disclaimer: all views + opinions expressed by the author of this post, as well as any comments and reblogs, are solely the author's own; they do not necessarily reflect the views of the administrator of this Tumblr blog. For entertainment only.

[dayurno]

hiii I canNot BELIEVE that you think a rock and a hard place is not very good. I love it so so much it’s such a fun piece of writing excellent Kevin excellent sex scene it’s brilliant!! I mean I appreciate your standards because it’s how we get to read incredible pieces of writing by you (I still cannot get over how good the name of the game is btw. I feel like everybody has moved on and I’m still stuck on ‘because it is the same reason’ AKDHAKAJHA 🫡🫨😵‍💫) however please accept my formal appreciation of a rock and a hard place (and also everything else on on you ao3. Okay byee) 🤗

SORRYSORRYSORRY i think the reason it's not up to my standards anymore (along with, really, a lot of other stuff i've posted) is because ah seriously it's just not written very well i'm a true believer that writing sex scenes has to take a lot of deliberate planning and attention to detail + pacing which at the time i wrote that fic i did not yet have.... really wrote it with my dick because i wanted to wife kevin day up without even considering the implications of it all! my foolish self. but it's ok..... i took it out of anon because i wasn't fooling anyone and i'm trying to do this no shame thing in 2024 so you know!

AND AH wow i admit even i had forgotten about 'because it is the same reason' RGIKSJLKFJSD :) tnotg andreil to me is the best way i've ever written i can and will try to replicate it but i'll fail. though thank god kevin will always be perfect in every iteration and glittering facet

[thatneilj]

Game of the Year 2017

Originally Posted in January 2018

*2024* - I have been writing these game of the year posts since 2017 but for some reason the little intro didn't make it into my archive for this year. Oops!

Honorables

Mario Odyssey

This game is joyful, expansive, and rewards exploration. Unfortunately, I have found that after 400+ moons, I still find the controls to be a bit frustrating. On top of that, while the capturing mechanic is fun, I find I most of the time I would rather some solid Mario platforming. That said, Uproot is the best!

Sonic Mania

The first video game I ever owned was Sonic the Hedgehog 2. While my love for Sonic has never truly gone away, I have skipped the majority of Sonic titles over the last 15 or so years. Sonic Mania is zeroing in on the old stuff I grew up with. Sonic Mania invites me back to my hometown to party with friends i’ve not seen since the 90s, and makes it feel like none of us ever drifted apart.

Wolfenstein: The New Colossus

If you told me 5 years ago that Wolfenstein would be a franchise that rises above killing Nazis to tell a story with some of the most well-realized characters in modern media I would have laughed at you. But here we are. Machine Games gave BJ Blazkowicz a backstory that makes him feel believable despite the insanity that is his world. This game is amazing, except for the part where the level design and difficulty get in the way of seeing the story play out.

5. CUPHEAD

I got to this game a bit later than most. Sure I had seen the fantastic art bringing that 1930s cartoon style to life. I had heard the soundtrack full of big band scores and incredible jazz that broke onto the Billboard charts. I had even heard the developers at Studio MDHR talking about their inspirations, including Megaman X, one of my favorite games of all time. Not until I put my hands on the game did I realize just how perfect it all is together.

The controls are tight and responsive in a way that prevents deaths from feeling like bullshit, despite the difficulty. The music can be frantic, mirroring perfectly the insanity on the screen, which helps draw you in without becoming distracting. And those smooth visuals truly do bring each boss to life. Often weird and creepy life, but that is right in line with those old cartoons. Seriously, some of those old things are the stuff of nightmares.

4. HELLBLADE: SENNUA’S SACRIFICE

 Hellblade was quite hard for me to play. While that sounds negative right from the jump, that is part of why I liked it so much. It wasn’t a hard game, it was a hard experience. It was hard for me to listen to these disembodied voices telling me I’m not good enough as they danced around my head. It was hard for me to watch Sennua break down and cry with such raw emotion. The game is a technical marvel at realizing Melina Juergens’ performance.

(https://www.polygon.com/2017/9/15/16316014/hellblade-senuas-sacrifice-mental-illness)

While the game’s depiction of psychosis has come under fire for some legitimate concerns, its depiction of the symptoms is impressive. And watching the Making Of short included in the game was rather fascinating. I cannot think of any other big studio taking the time and doing the research to try and get this stuff right. Hellblade was hard for me to play because it was effective in making those symptoms feel real and tangible in a way I simply don’t have in my normal life.

3. HOLLOW KNIGHT

Here’s what I knew about Hollow Knight when I was going in: “It’s kind of like a Metroid game.” Now, I have loved a lot of action-exploration games, particularly when they make some bigger changes to the tried and true formula. Hollow Knight had me unsure at the start from the art style, the floaty jump, and the mapping system. But as I played more of the game, I found myself getting drawn in deeper and deeper. I realized it is a blend of two series I love; Metroid and Dark Souls.

Once I got the dash, movement started feeling good. Once I reached the City of Tears, the aesthetic had me catching my breath. Once I had all the maps… well, actually that damn map stuff is seriously annoying. I didn’t care anymore though, I was engrossed. The story of this bug-filled world is fascinating, and told at the edges for those who want to look. The action is can be punishing with big bosses, precision platforming, and combat that requires intention. This game had me yelling at some challenges, and yet I wanted more, even after the 35 hours I took to beat it.

2. A HAT IN TIME

3D platformers were back this year, back in a way I couldn’t even keep up with. First, we had Yooka-Laylee coming from a bunch of ex-Rare developers making a new Banjo. I missed this one, but heard mostly not-great things. At the end of the year we had Mario Odyssey, where the mission based worlds were done away with for free-form exploration and excitement. But right in the middle of those was A Hat in Time, a game that felt more like Mario 64 in structure, but with so much more.

I knew next to nothing about A Hat in Time when a friend gave it to me to check out. And I soon learned that Jon ‘JonTron’ Jafari had a cameo voice role in it. With that stink on the project I still found myself falling in love. From the very beginning you get a wonderful cartoon style that lends itself so well to the cuteness of Hat Girl. You go down to the first world and find personality dripping throughout the whole island of Mafia men. You meet mustache girl, become friends, and learn how crazy she is. And then, after all this, you get to go to a new world where two birds are competing to make you a movie star.

This game just made me happy the whole damn time I played it. And yet, it is full of choices that seem insane and shouldn’t work. Why not put a silly Metal Gear Solid stealth mechanic into this level? Why not give people an MSpaint mini-game just for fun? Why not pretend we’re a horror game for one mission? Apparently there is no reason not to do these things, if you do them right. Fact is, they did it all right while still giving us wonderful world design, fantastic platforming, genuinely funny writing, and the cutest character ever! If you dash and don’t jump out of it, Hat Girl will just lie on her belly and wiggle her feet in the air while she daydreams!

1. NIER: AUTOMATA

Nier: Automata is a very flawed game. The world you run through feels pulled out of a game from 2004 with all the invisible walls. The Platinum Games influence is clear in the combat, but in many ways feels stripped down and shallow in comparison to some of their past works. The most damning thing, though, is how long it takes to get through Route A. But if you push through all of this, if it gets its hooks in, it is a game that does something special.

Nier has, at its core, an ethos about the world. Not just through some story telling beats about the nature of androids. It goes so much farther. Where many sci-fi stories in more modern media look at how robots can be human, Nier ask what it is to even be human. Yet it does this in a story about androids who should be devoid of emotion. Entities with a task to fight a war that is never ending, on a world that refuses to forget people. A world that really doesn’t need people anymore anyway.

The game is thick with this pervading sense of despair. It isn’t just the crumbled buildings and rusted robots. It is every character you meet, each side story that seems to inevitably end in a place worse than before. It is in the loving couple that want to desert the war, it is in the thinking robots looking out over vistas, and it is in Father Servo who wants to be the best fighter. It is in the main story, when it takes you back through Route A from a different perspective. And it only becomes more intense in the later parts of the game.

This game is my game of the year because it is going to stick with me. Because I watched someone go against everything they stand for to save what they care about, only to lose it all from their own choices. Because I had to put down my controller for over 30 minutes, staring at my avatar idling in a dark and depressing room, trying to decide which choice I could live with. Because as each belief about the nature of the world was pulled away, showing me just how wrong I was, and how pointless trying to change it was. Their all robots right? They are programed for this.

This game is going to stick with me because, despite all of this and so much more, it managed to pull away the magic circle. It gave me an ending full of loss, full of satisfaction, and somehow full of hope.

[capstoneyap]

Week 2, Sept 18 2024: Control

Make (draw)

Control is so easily lost. Control over one’s self is so hard to achieve. To get your body to do something while your mind won’t let you can be torturous. I should know. I go through with it every day. I procrastinate. I don’t mean to. I really don’t. I don’t like the feeling of stressing about the work I have to do while my body and mind won’t let me. They relinquish my control. My want to get stuff done early at the worst times. Leaving me stressed. All I can do is joke about it. Blame it on being lazy or even my ADHD. Jokes are the only means of control I feel like I have over my own mind. Completing other tasks that aren’t important in the moment make me feel more in control. But in the end, I lose control. I always do. I could blame myself. I do blame myself. If only I could have done stuff sooner. If only I hadn’t played that video game all day. If only I hadn’t doom scrolled my phone. If only I hadn’t continued writing pointless stories. If only I wasn’t constantly stuck in my own head. Maybe it is my fault. I’m not sure. I’m not sure if my ADHD is a good enough reason. Maybe it’s both my fault and the fault of something I cannot control. But that’s a paradox, is it not? I’m not sure. I’m not really sure of anything, in all honesty. But I think what saddens me the most was how good I felt like I was doing. I got stuff done early when school started. I was able to complete simple tasks until this week. I slipped. I fell a bit behind. It's disappointing. It's upsetting. Almost like a relapse. I guess this is what it is. This constant cycle of procrastination until you start doing well only to fall once again. Almost like an addiction. But what is that addiction? Procrastination itself? Or the elements that help me procrastinate? My phone? My gaming consoles? My writing? The worlds I like to go to in my head? Are all of them addictive substances? If so, how do I get clean? My phone, I can get rid of maybe. Set a timer. Delete apps I don't need. My consoles, I can also get rid of. My writing and daydreaming, I can just stop, but that's easier said than done. How do I get completely clean when the substance is my own head? Medicine? I honestly rather not. I heard not so good things about it. I don't want to lose control more than I already have. It’s a catch 22 or however the saying goes. Do I want the kind of loss of control to be my own head? Or do I want to risk losing control via medicine making me a zombie? For once, i'm sure of what to do. I don’t like taking medicine. It's a toxic trait of mine. If I believe I can power through it without medicine, I will. Besides, swallowing pills is tough. But I guess that's another way of having some control. A bad way but a way. 

(If you made it to the end of this, sorry for the ramble. I wanted to try something for this topic. While Control is the topic, the idea of loss of control seems more fitting for what I'm now curious about. The loss of control displayed through my little vent post, as I had decided to use the moment I was spiraling a little to write out my stuff. I wanted to see where this idea would take me if I…..well….let myself lose that said control a little. I wonder if I can somehow expand this a little.)

[alyosiuscreightonward]

Dear Diary. Just the other day, my friend who is monetizing his skills as a gamer asked me to “Like” a page of some sort of thing that allegedly promotes his gaming skills. Prove This Cynic Wrong.

I did. Then I saw a post and of course, me being the Smart Ass who provides unwarranted comments, I had made a comment.

Now it seems to have snowballed into something else entirely. I used to be a gamer guy but I no longer have the energy to do it anymore because I only played one game and after a while it became boring.

I then went a little further and added that I am an Arrogant Bitter Old Qween and as this unnamed faceless page asked about me something else, I decided to share my Tumblr. I also added that in 2024, it’s all about Short Attention Span Theatre. It means that this page hasn’t the ability nor anything else to do with my rambling thoughts.

I know I just babble on and on about nothing where Dear Gentle Reader, doesn’t give a flying fuck on a rolling doughnut about what I scribe. A plethora of thoughts that are very much like attempting to corralling kittens.

What I need is an editor to help me wrangle my thoughts and I’m sure that will never happen because my feelings could get hurt. Motherfucker. I’m not an idiot. I know that I should have stopped writing years ago since I am unable to put together a coherent sentence.

Sincerely who would want to see me? I can’t write and I know that. Yet I don’t have an outlet to express myself except here where eyes may see this, but they just scroll on by. Am I hurt? Fuck no. I have only one follower and that’s good enough.

So I’m sure that Lee, The Man; or is it Manly Man Lee or is it just some random nameless faceless page that cannot fathom exactly how to deal with this insignificant Limp Wristed Miss Thing. Yes it is true that the Charisma Uniqueness Nerve and Talentless person such as myself isn’t going to make that nameless faceless aid, abet or assist me. Talk about reality is stranger than fiction and knowing full well that I need to do me meanwhile y’all don’t give a shit.

I’m 64 years old and I’m a Boomer who knows absolutely nothing about anything except that I’m feeble minded and I have always believed that all those drugs I used to take would force me to be more creative than I actually wasn’t. Well y’all, I have succeeded in being less than zero. Even if someone bought one of those contraptions in Times Square, nary a flicker from any of you.

[p3rry-pi3]

Pin pooooost!

Updated: 12/12/2024 :3

I cannot believe I didn’t bother making a proper one sooner

Anyways, info under the cut cause this thing is long as heck, and I didn’t mean to make it that way.

Uh. I shall give a gold star to whoever reads the whole thing, but DO NOT SKIP the DNI part.

I also want to clarify that I have a section with Palestine content, I know people aren’t willing to always look under the cut to actually look for that kind of stuff (I’m saying this as, most people not generally, but sometimes I do the same thing, as shitty as our attention spans are, I think it’s still important that you check these posts out and reblog them. I have been DEATHLY terrified to reblog and post on this account but that shouldn’t stop anyone from at least reblogging this stuff seeing as this stuff is 1000x more important.)

I’ve copy linked posts where you can find: journalists to support and follow, how you can help Palestine donations or not, what you can do to prevent the voting for more weapons in Israel <- this could be outdated!!, and what to boycott.

Do not, and I mean DO NOT skip that part. I can’t control your actions but YOU can control YOUR OWN. I trust you to reblog, like, and share the posts I link.

Let me know if I should make this a separate post for you to reblog, but I hope this makes it GLARINGLY CLEAR on where I stand.

TW; teeth as header in the start and end :]

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Main info

Hey! I’m Perry! Short for Peregrine :)!

I’m a minor (above 10+, I wanna keep this a 13+ space cause of the cussing and my interests in horror art and other scary games. You kind of have to be 13+ to be on here anyway.)

I’m pretty spiritual

I’m busy most of the time so sometimes I spam posts to catch up, but please pay attention to asks I answer as most of the time they are campaigns from refugees!

I’m a 4w5 intp. Idk what this says about me to others but uhhhh yeah.

I study the Paranormal and psychology

I like making headcanons and theories :]

I genuinely enjoy character analyses and overall enjoy video essays on media like indie horror and video games

I love hardcore horror and gore arts of all sorts. So beware of some of that. Ofc I’ll put warnings, just lemme know if I missed something. I also cuss a lot on here! So beware of that :)!

It’s come to my attention people have been posting real life gore of stuff like hyenas and actual victims so…That’s not the gore I meant. Fictional gore; FICTIONAL!

I’m new to the tagging system even now, so figuring stuff out is hard, but I’m equipped with enough knowledge on it and will put warnings in tags and captions since I recently learned you can block tags. Which helps loads.

Please be patient with me!^^

I’m trans, transmasc, and genderfluid. My pronouns are he/him, ve/ver, and rot/rots

I’m also working on getting a career or two in film :)!

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Extra info

My favorite colors are purple, red, black, white, and neon pink.

I’m multifandom

Reblogs are much more appreciated but I’m grateful for likes.

I like mixed media.

Pls use tone tags :]

Please reblog artwork! Shitposts are fine for just likes. Text posts to.

I usually stick to canon ships because certain fandoms make it weird, but I haven’t seen anything in the main fandom I’m in, so I like to ship some.

I’m a multishipper. (Again, this applies to certain fandoms.)

I’m generally inactive here and there, but I like posting most of my fanart here when I can or remember I also post stuff on here.

I cuss on here so beware of that ig

I am half Samoan :]!!

I speak fluent English but I am learning some German.

I have social anxiety and anxiety so posts can sometimes be slower than usual since I’m almost always on my own toes. And because I have anxiety, if I’m being awkward, it’s nothing you did or said, I’m just like that in general.

I have horrible memory so if I post twice on the same day or hour it’s prolly because I forgot about it.

I reference lots of lemon demon and jack stauber.

I blame the jack stauber fanbase for my lemon demon obsession.

I’m the oldest of two brothers so you might hear about them here and there but rarely so.

I’m kind of an idiot, so please be patient if I ask you a third time to repeat what you said.

I have ADHD took a lot out of me to confirm I do. So posts may come later or at the same time due to this.

Biiiggggg undertale and fnaf nerd.

I’m an over analyzer who loves theories. Did you know I’m also an overthinker? (<- sarcasm.)

I don’t dream. I have nightmares instead. That’s where I get most of my OCs.

None of my stuff has age ratings unless it’s like tough topics to touch on or something horrifying.

I ramble lots and ramble even more in tags, so there’ll be lots of tags of just me rambling

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Free Palestine! 🇵🇸🍉

DO NOT SKIP THIS PART!!!!!!!!!

It’s a genocide not a war!!! Z//onists FUCK OFF!!!!!!

I tried to make little watermelon emoji borders so they wouldn’t be confusing, but idk lmk if the borders help section it

I will also continuously update it if needed, and I take constructive criticism if I need to change anything, and no, ‘the only criticism I have is the fact you support Palestine’, or something, isn’t valid criticism. I’ll block you, and it’s not even a funny thing to joke about.

Links I have so far (I wanna remind ppl that if you don’t like seeing your link here just lmk and I’ll take it down, I’m just tryna share the word and I’ll soon make a post on its own abt this cause I think it’d be really important to make a separate post on this)

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Help Heba!!!

https://gofund.me/7a794018

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(This one is sort of just based off someone else answering an ask but I wanted to copy link this one anyways since by the looks of it, they have a lot of pro-Palestine posts)

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How YOU can help Palestine.

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Palestinian journalists.

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No more weapons for isntreal, ceasefire now.

This could be outdated or time sensitive.

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What to boycott.

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Places you should go

My unvale

Instagram

https://www.instagram.com/ratt3nkonig__?igsh=NzA1NGpxYjZ1bGF2&utm_source=qr

Yapping account that won’t let me link for some reason

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Pfp creds:

https://pin.it/1Jt3pb5eS on Pinterest :3

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Tags I think u should check out on here!^^ /nf

Some doodles :) (doodles that are 9 times out of ten fandom related)

Bugsnax ramblings (I ramble about headcanons, theories, characters, in game stuff, etc.)

Mind rambles (theories, it’s a new tag I’m working on updating soon.)

Rambling about shit (shits and giggles at 3 AM)

Bugsnax shitpost (mother load of idiocy from yours truly)

Some doodles (not aware this existed prolly isn’t even from this blog, not used as much. At least I don’t think I dunno.)

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Hyperfixations

Bugsnax

Lemon demon

Jack stauber

Mother Mother

Indie horror art

Analog horror

ARGs

Minecraft

OCs

Spiderverse ITSV & ATSV

Franbow

Sallyface

Undertale

Undertale AUs

DHMIS

Mr. Plant (from Ashur Gharavi)

CoD MW2, Cold War Black ops (18+ content CoD blogs DNI)

Venom (Mostly the movies, but I also enjoy the comics.)

TF2/Team Fortress 2

Death Note (anime) (pray for me…)

Attack on Titan (anime) (I’m revisiting my anime phase, clearly…)

Gravity Falls (thanks, the book of bill)

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DNI!!!

LGBTphobes

Furry haters/anti-furrys

Proshippers/comshippers.

Ableists

MAP (not the art collab meaning, but the other meaning)

Anti-antis

Racists

Z00ph1les

Zi0nists

Anti-microlabels (it is extremely important to me that you understand this is something that’s part of me to a spiritual level. I will fight you.)

Stancest, and fontcest. I don’t care if you claim not to be a pro/comshipper and still ship these two. (Seriously. Why is this a thing.)

COD boundaries In terms of the fandoms Death Note and CoD, I’d like it if you’re not a 18+ CoD blog. I am a minor and since 18+ is unwelcoming to minors - pls do not interact.

Undertale boundaries this is borderline DNI: frisk/chara shippers who ship them with each other or anyone else. F0NTCEST. GET OUT. Anyone who infantilizes Papyrus.

Gravity Falls boundaries listen, I understand Ford and Mabel have flaws but your inherent hate for people who are weird shows when you hate on these characters. I will forever be a Ford & Mabel defender, I don’t care. St4ncest, pin3cest, LEAVE. AND DON’T LOOK BACK.

If you’re anything of the above, please get off my page/blog.

I don’t have much of a DNI, just be respectful and mindful.

Might expand if needed.

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Did you read it?

Did you read the whole thing or at least the “DNI” parts?

Here’s a gold star, as promised: ⭐️

Alright. Go nuts. Be respectful.

[madameriasims4]

[Retired] Off-the-Grid Typewriter v.3 (BGC)

January 16, 2024 Edit:

This typewriter is now retired and no longer supported! I haven't played TS4 in a long time and haven't kept up with the updates so certain interactions may not function any more.

This typewriter uses custom tuning. For more information on the tuning process, and a more detailed changelog, see this post.

DL link and wall of text regarding interactions after the cut!

September 15, 2021 Edit: Version 3 is now out! Please replace any previous versions with MadameRiaTypewriterOTGv3. You cannot have both in your game at the same time!

What’s new in version 3:

Freelance writing career should now be fully functional! My testing abilities were not so great when I first made this mod, and I completely missed how the game checks for objective completion. This should be resolved now.

Basically a re-do of the custom tuning, making it much simpler thanks to @ravasheencc​‘s help

I can't be the only person with an aspiring author Sim that wants to isolate themselves off-the-grid in a cabin and write novels nonstop, write right? (Actually, I believe this is a Secret Simblr Wish over at @maxismatchccworld​, though I’d started working on this before I saw the request)

Colored in @serindipitysims​‘s The Historian Palette because it may have been the obvious choice, but it was also the right choice. (Plus two swatches that I was using while I was testing everything, because I'm partial to multiples of 5).

I'm really, really proud of how this typewriter came out! I edited the mesh from the base game Writer's Lore object, and then I went and re-textured about 90% of the darned thing. I even made a custom specular map for it! Let me know if you feel like it's still too shiny!

Теперь переведено на русский язык! Машинка скачать здесь! Спасиб�� SofiRing!

A big thank you to SofiRing of the Mods Hunters  translation group! She reached out to me to let me know that she  translated my OTG Typewriter into Russian!

What you can do with this typewriter:

Pretty much every writing interaction (Practice writing, write books, write jokes, compose comedy routines)

Pen Pal Interactions

Freelance Writing Career

Limited Interactions for the Conservationist, Detective, Education, Gardener, Law, Military, Social Media, Style Influencer, Writer Careers (Essentially the same as the Freelance limitations - nothing that would obviously require internet)

Write Dollhouse Story, Practice Typing

Write Love Letter (changed from Write Love Email)

Write About Feelings (changed from Blog About Feelings)

Write Term Papers/Study for University Courses

You can put this typewriter in your inventory and drag it in live mode, but like a laptop, will only place on desks/dining tables.

What you can't do with this typewriter:

Essentially, anything that would only make sense with a screen or internet connection

Go on Vacation/Purchase Property

January 16, 2024 Edit:

This typewriter is now retired and no longer supported! I haven't played TS4 in a long time and haven't kept up with the updates so certain interactions may not function any more.

Download (Patreon) Always free, no ads.

[spaceorphan18]

99 Perspectives on a Single Love Story #36

A/N: The Story of Kurt and Blaine told through the eyes of everyone else but them. Each chapter is a different perspective in the ongoing tale of their love story.

I started something like this a while back - and now I’m taking the idea and really running with it. Each chapter is a ficlet of a different character at a different point in Kurt and Blaine’s life - documenting their love story. This starts in Audition, and each chapter will be paired with a different episode until reaching Dreams Come True.

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Hiram and LeRoy Berry (On My Way) 

It had been cute but somewhat alarming when the idea of Rachel and Finn’s marriage first came to their attention.  But a month has gone by, and for as much as they suggested to postpone it, Rachel is still a Berry.  And Berrys are headstrong and ambitious.  It’s not surprising that she’ll push on through to get what she wants.  It doesn’t mean that either Hiram or LeRoy are happy about it though.  Finn Hudson is a good kid.  His mother is good people.  And someday, possibly after Rachel has her Tony, it would be a nice present for herself to nab a permanent piece of man candy.

But honestly.  She could have waited.  If not for herself then at least for her dads who have now dug a hole so deep with the positivity around the marriage they can not utterly see a way out.  

There are wedding preparation materials all over the dining room table.  Bridal magazine, fabric swatches, plates of various sweets and cupcakes.  This little game is becoming frightening real all too quickly.  Rachel’s at the table, chattering away with her friends Kurt Hummel and Blaine Anderson (the latter of whom they have just recently met - and whom they both agree is a delightful young man).  But the reality of the situation is - this wedding is now happening way quicker than it should be.  And if they can’t convince Rachel to back out - maybe her friends can help.  

As Rachel takes a bathroom break, Hiram and LeRoy jump on the chance to join the kids at the table.  

“So, uh, so this is coming along nicely,” Hiram says, conversationally, pointing around at the piles on the table.  

“Rachel’s going to make an exquisite bride,” Blaine says, cooing over a page in a bridal gown magazine with a post-it note that reads ‘maybe’ on it.  

“She isn’t she?” LeRoy says, forcing a smile as he looks at the magazine.  “But you know what, if she really wants this dress -- I think a fall wedding might be a better match.  The color scheme is all wrong in spring.” 

“Yes, yes, that’s right - we wouldn’t want the color scheme to be wrong for our baby girl’s big day,” Hiram agrees.  “You know what might be better than a fall wedding? A fall of 2024 wedding.”

“Yes!” LeRoy agrees quickly.  “Fall of 2024.  I hear it’s supposed to be a good year.” 

“The Plaza Hotel might have an opening in the Fall of 2024,” Hiram adds.  “LeRoy, check to see if The Plaza Hotel has an availability in 2024.  We should book that now.  Wouldn’t want to lose out on such a location.” 

Kurt seems to understand where this is going.  Blaine does not.  

“See, Blaine, I told you -- we really need to wait until we’re thirty,” Kurt says, turning towards Blaine, as if this is something he’s said many times before.  Blaine rolls his eyes at Kurt.  

Both LeRoy and Hiram pause -- as it hits them that they have a couple of young gays in front of them.  They look fondly at each other, and then at Kurt and Blaine.

“So, so, uh, are the two of you, uh, the two of you together?” Hiram asks, a grin on his face.  

“We are,” Blaine says proudly, grabbing Kurt’s hand.  

“And planning to get married?” Hiram asks.  And then a devastating thought enters his brain. “Oh god, oh god, oh god, please tell me you don’t want to have a double wedding. I cannot afford a double wedding.”  He points directly at Kurt.  “Your dad with this excellent lube shop cannot afford a double wedding.” 

“Calm down, Hiram, I’m sure they’re not going to crash any weddings any time soon,” LeRoy says, waving a dismissive hand at him.  

“Someday, we’d like to get married,” Blaine admits, looking adoringly at Kurt. 

Kurt grins at him, but he’s more held back.  “But not yet.  We want to be ready.” 

“Good because marriage is terrible,” Hiram says unexpectedly. “And you should tell Rachel that.” 

“Hiram, c’mon,” LeRoy says, tilting his head at his husband.  “How often to we come across a young, gay couple in Ohio? Let’s not discourage them.” 

“Well, we shouldn’t be encouraging them either.  We are, after all, responsible adults.” 

“True,” LeRoy agrees. “But marriage isn’t as awful as you’re making it sound.” 

“Oh, well yes, yes,” Hiram says, thinking it over. “It, uh, it starts out all, uh, all rainbows and glitter but then you wake up one day and you have a mortgage you’ll be paying into your eighties and a partner who believes Velveeta is an acceptable cheese substitute.” 

“It was one dish,” LeRoy argues.  “And how many times have I told you -- you don’t like what I cook, you can cook yourself.” 

“Oh, no no no no no,” Hiram wiggles a finger at him. “You said, LeRoy, you said as part of our marriage vows that I would never have to cook.  Do you remember our marriage vows, LeRoy, they were sacred.” He then turns to Kurt and Blaine.  “I do, however, make a good French Toast. Kurt, you’ve never been over on a Sunday morning for one of our Brunch and Broadway meals, it is the talk of the town.” 

“They are exquisite,” LeRoy agrees.

Blaine looks up to them with wide eyes.  “They sound delightful.” 

“Don’t encourage them, Blaine…” Kurt says, leaning over to whisper in Blaine’s ear. 

“So, now, where were we? Oh, right.  Teen marriage,” Hiram says.  “Not a good idea”

“Not a good idea, right,” LeRoy agrees. 

Hiram continues.  “And maybe, maybe maybe, since the two of you are teens -- a delightful teen couple who is not getting married.  Maybe the two of you might want to mention they should wait.” 

There’s an awkward pause, as Kurt and Blaine aren’t sure what to say to that.  

“I told them from day one that they should wait,” Kurt finally admits.  

“But they’re so in love, Kurt,” Blaine argues, as if it’s not the first time the two of them have had this conversation.  “Do you really want to get in the way of that?”

“No, right, right, right, but listen to your partner, Blaine,” Hiram says, excitedly.  “Kurt is right.  You can be in love when you’re older.  In fact, it’s a lot better when you’re older.  You’ll have jobs and careers and your own piano rooms.  And a much better idea as to whether or not your partner is, in fact, a bit crazy.” 

“Oh, I’m crazy now, huh” LeRoy is aghast at the low blow.  

“Well, I mean, your crazy idea is what got us in this mess in the first place,” Hiram points out.  

“Yes, it was my idea to be supportive,” LeRoy says defensively, “And hopefully let her come to her own decision.  But if you really want to play the blame game -- let me remind you that you were the one who wanted to have a child in the first place.  So, technically, this is all your fault.” 

“Well, I just wanted to impart wisdom on a small being in the hopes that I could produce someone just as magical as I am.”

“And you think I’m the crazy one.” 

At that moment, Rachel comes out of the bathroom.  “Dads, hi, what are you guys talking about?” 

“Nothing honey,” LeRoy says, pulling her to sit on his lap.

“We were, uh, we were just talking about how ravishing you’re going to be on your big day,” Hiram covers, picking up one of the magazines.  Rachel coos. 

As Hiram, LeRoy, and Rachel start discussing the wedding, they fail to notice Kurt and Blaine lean into each other.  

“Do you think some day we’ll be like them?” Blaine asks, looking adoringly at Rachel’s dads.  

Kurt shakes his head in disbelief.  “God, I hope not....”