#i am so dumb can't have shit!
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
Well, I just realized the Kim or the social system(I'm not calling it a romance system cuz it's not just that) is only drifter centric ...cuz of course it is... Even though there's a friendship option! But noooo...! The tenno can't platonically text apparently!
Fucking hate this stupid festure!
What's the point of having a platonic route if I can't use it for MY TENNO TOO?!?
Ugh.... T-T
At least I have the classic syndicate route...
#warframe#warframe 1999#i just wanted my op to be besties with armir man...#i am so dumb can't have shit!#screaming into the void
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
SOMETHING JUST HEALED IN ME BECAUSE CHARLEY AND YURI KISSED AND IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL AND THIS IS GOING TO FUEL ME FOR MONTHS!!!!!!!!
#i was so sure they wouldn't anymore because the episode was almost over#BUT THEY DID AND I'M SO HAPPY I'M GONNA CRY#i'm gonna print out a picture of that kiss and put it on my wall right over my bed#i'm gonna DRAW that kiss#i'm gonna think about this all day tomorrow gosh this is my favorite thing#THANK YOU SCHOOL SPIRITS#now please keep them like that dont give me any shit okay they have to be happy by the end of this season or i will punch you in the throat#lea's random thoughts#charley school spirits#yuri school spirits#charley x yuri#school spirits spoilers#school spirits#like i don't think y'all get how important this kiss was to me#like i know that's maybe not too good being this emotionally dependent on a ship#but like i would have been fine tho still sad if they hadn't kissed#but i know how it is for gay ships especially in shows where the gay character is not the main character#or where the gay ship is not the main ship#so i was expecting to get literally nothing#my hopes were very hight up because school spirits honestly doesn't do a lot of the dumb stuff many other shows do#but i was still scared they were gonna ruin this beautiful ship (and i still am a little bit)#but currently they didn't they actually made something really amazing and so this is making me happy in a way i can't even describe
54 notes
·
View notes
Text
I don't know if this will help any of my fellow writers, but a good friend of mine put some things into perspective for me today, so I wanted to share.
I often wonder why some things of mine get a decent amount of engagement while others do not. Is it the content? Is it the length? Is it not enough snzfuckery? Blah, blah, blah.
My friend writes for a well-known organization in our town and told me that she experiences the same thing with her articles. She says that her most popular article is actually quite bad (lol) and she's not even sure why people love it so much. So, she started running statistics on all of her stuff, literally studied trends, markets, etc. She found that it has absolutely nothing to do with her content at all. It's all timing. Every bit of it. Did the right people see it at the right time? Was there a good amount of traffic on the website at that time?
So, if you feel like your stuff isn't being seen or isn't being commented on enough, sometimes? It's probably the timing more than anything else. Did people reblog it at the time when others will see it? Did you post it when people were actually there to read it?
Just something to think about before you go all "I MUST SUCK!" on yourself. <3
#Listen#I am BAD at taking my own advice okay#The last part of my fic did so poorly#I seriously considered just not posting the 4th part#But who knows why that happened#I have this stupid rule that I can't reblog something more than once#But that is DUMB and I'm about to say “FUCK IT”#I suggest some of you do the same#I miss a LOT of shit#Others probably do as well#BLAH BLAH FUCKING BLAH#YOUR MOM MISSES A LOT SHIT
26 notes
·
View notes
Text
People talk about fast metabolisms like it's all fun and games and eating whatever you want but they fail to remember that it also means your body is Incredibly Stupid and decides that you become deficient in everything in a couple or so days where it takes most others a week. Or months compared to "oops you forgot to photosynthesize sufficiently :( no i don't care that it has been freezing and overcast for the past week, you didn't absorb enough sun. Perish Badly."
Or at least it would be if i didn't like citrus fruits so much, probably
#glaring at whatever secret brain section is in control of my body resource management. why am i iron deficient again. it has been 2½ days.#and all that has been spent mostly SLEEPING because GUESS WHAT ALSO DOESN'T WORK RIGHT BECAUSE OF METABOLISM.#SLEEP AIDS. LIKE MELATONIN#i have to take a double dose if i want these fucking dumb ass gummies to do anything. otherwise they don't do shit unless I'm already asleep#but guess what? i can't get to sleep :) because another thing in the list of Patch Problems is chronic insomnia. and i can't sleep#so the melatonin does ✨️NOTHING✨️#same goes for pain meds and local anesthetics because my metabolism is so so good at it's job :) when it does not need to be#like bbg we are not poisoned we are at the dentist CALM THE FUCK DOWN??? SO I DON'T FEEL THE DAMN DRILL IN MY TOOTH?????#hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhg#i do not need so many issues stacked on top of eachother#istg i would not have survived in any century before this one. what do you mean i get sickly deficient in things in less time than Normal™️#i can't even drink plain water or it makes me nauseated. body why are you Stupid#patchy rambles#is this slightly incomprehensible? probably#but it is 1 in the morning and i am pissed at my own body for hating me so much and this is My Blog so i put My Problems on it#rgrgrgrgr
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
Tbh I have a lot of complicated feelings about the whole OceanGate thing and I'm not really a fan of how this is being treated as The Evergiven 2, but as it becomes more and more likely that the sub suffered a critical failure and imploded days ago my main thought is that visiting the Titanic's wreck should be in the same category as climbing Mt. Everest; a pointless, unfathomably dangerous, disrespectful excursion that should not be allowed, or at least regulated and reserved for experts who know what they're doing to conduct research and/or matinance.
I mean like at this point I don't even think the average person should know where Titanic is. What is the benefit? All it leads to is death and the disruption and/or potential destruction of a mass gravesite that also doubles as a unbelievably valuable historic artifact that will not be around forever. Why the hell are people just allowed to go down there?? We don't let people go rub their hands all over the Mona Lisa, and that wouldn't even kill anyone, why can billionaires just go tromping around in far more deadly and fragile locations, especially ones where hundreds of people have already died?
But yeah idk there's no real point in adding my input to the discussion and I kinda don't want to comment on it beyond this anyway, but the whole situation sucks and def makes it clear there are simply some things people should not be allowed to do no matter how much goddamn money they have.
#I just do not understand rich people's obsession with going to space and climbing everest and shit like that#you have so much money and the only thing you can think to do with it is get yourself killed for what??#bragging rights???#and we should jusy let you do this even if it's hella disrespectful or destroying things that should be preserved????#I s2g Glass Onion was a fucking prophecy#also don't take this as me saying these people deserve to die I don't have a say in who lives and who dies#and I don't believe in the death penalty#I just am baffled at the lengths rich people will go to for bragging rights#it's like they really do believe the world should bend to their will#and they should be allowed to do whatever they want bcs they have money#and yeah they did have reason to believe this was safe I will not deny that at all#I don't think this is as much of a fuck around and find out thing as people say it is#even poor people put our lives at risk doing dumb shit sometimes#I just think it's like....idk there's a difference between going on a shoddy carnival ride#and thinking you have a right to go see the wreck of the titanic#idk anyway I'm rambling more than anything this is just infuriating and tragic and stupid and I hate it#but we can learn from it at least#and what we should learn is 'you can't just do whatever you want bcs you have money'#people shouldnt be allowed to just put themselves in these sorts of situations#oceangate#titanic#current events
111 notes
·
View notes
Text
Slowly going red and having smoke come out of my ears like a cartoon guy as I frantically mutter it's not that serious it's not that serious and try not to type five paragraphs about some dumb mgs opinions I accidentally see. idgaf about any real discourse why the FUCK would you say that. biting you biting you biting you i am doing so fine. this happens twice a day at least.
#yess I knoww that reducing characters to some dumb shit comes with the fandom. I know#but I almost went to get a fucking literature degree I can't be having that you don't get it#I sound like a pretentious prick let it be known I don't have any credentials ever actually but that doesn't matter#kazuhira miller my beautiful princess I am so sorry they've done this to you#to everyone else too but fuckkk#I hate being mean to people. but also hate. in general. can they stop being wrong#hate. let me tell you how much#(<-I haven't even read it my sister just keeps citing it(she hasn't read it either))#faksyan talks#faksyan talks mgs
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
anyway this week I leant on my therapist's shoulder and ugly cried for like 10 minutes and as I was leaving I was like 'don't give me that face' and she was like 'I'm just very proud of your progress!' and I'm like 😡😡😡😡😡 THANK YOU 😡😡😡😡😡
#red said#i have cried in therapy before but i am usually always very in control of it#it's a 'tears are running but I'm otherwise normal' kind of crying or occasionally a 'take several deep breaths to pull myself together'#but it's dumb though cause we've talked about some very dramatic shit just fine and today i was just talking about like#my dumb adolescent-type insecurities about not being the kind of Cool And Collected And Exciting Person i want to be#ooooorrrrrr from another angle about how I'm 31 and have built my entire self-conception around being a person Things Happen to#and now at 31 entire years old I'm suddenly trying to figure out what sort of person i am beyond someone who's like#good at being tough and reacting with grace and fortitude to Things Happening At Me.#because Things stopped Happening At Me so much like. 5 years ago now. I'm in a loving relationship i have a stable home#i have a middle class income and great friends and it's been over 6 years since the last time anyone raped me.#my health is better than its ever been. both physical and mental. i am safe and i am loved and i am good at my job#so i can't really keep operating on a self concept where the only thing that i value in myself is the ability to survive#bc like I'm NOT surviving I'm GOOD. i can get what i want and be who i want. what the FUCK do i WANT??????????????
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
Me: boy go to your mother for flexibility lessons.
#for real though I was amazed by you even as kids#I'm just like...well I'm strong#she took a ride on that 18 year old rooster leg#muscles and bulges either way you were enjoying yourself#and no I would have to say anyone that tried against us failed#I can't even remember how it gushed extra after it started up#me¡ is she pushing harder?¡?#fun and dream is all there is inside of your spirit#your name can be generated so nicely#mine always sounds like a tribute to Spanish pirates or some jew they hung on a cross#no birthmarks on me though *shrugs*#I wanna lick that mole on youe hip though#it was so bewildering your flesh matching mine#interesting that mom would have recognized you perhaps at that point#I like how when I process something new it ripples through my dumb fleah bound brain#is it strange even as children I wanted you to wear the spiked dog collar even though you were playing Penny#your hair lightened up from tree to shoe#I was like look at this cute pretty girl#dirty blond hair to match the dirt on her face#we got dirty as children it was the way of the land#sugar sand and micro granules of that black shit#I love how you got the GoDDaddy Everetts view on things#I am curious how bad you had mom's friend and daughter under your control#it is so weird how you need control (mommy is a lil' freak) and yet I feel like I have nothing worth giving#maybe you asked to hold it once while I peed#it was us and back then *shrugs* it was pre sexualized exercises if exploring#when you squat and pee and I'm like don't you need to wipe and you're like nah I'll be alright#we both have visions of Grandpa's present as we put the caterpillar into the coffee can#maybe it was already a cocoon#rusty ass old maxwell house that hasn't seen freah coffee since we were in diapers
2 notes
·
View notes
Note
Go off queen
It's your blog and you should be able to talk about whatever you want after all
aww thank you 🥺 i appreciate it <33
i do really not like spreading negativity esp when it's on a topic i have strong feelings about, and let's say the D.A fandom especially tends to be. extreme about the way it reacts to people disagreeing with them.
And look. I'm not immune to it because sometimes i get caught up by the genuinely rancid vibe in the fandom as well, and i think those games are designed for us to have strong feelings to start with.
but it also means i don't want to go too deep into controversial thoughts because i genuinely don't want to get to a point where i'll see someone screenshot my posts to dunk on it and say i'm the reason media literacy is dead and why the fandom is so toxic (citing things i've actually seen on said blog, for instance though not directed at me but at takes i've seen taken out of context. except i knew the context so knew this was a bad faith argument.).
Like can't even dislike shits in peace in here.
#sorry this is probably my most solas moment but i try to be kind and stuff#and when i discuss things level headed with people i do think i'm pretty humble#i don't think i have the ultimate readings and i am likely super wrong about things all the time#because analysis remains also an emotional approach and it can't be helped#and i need to hold on to this humility to not get caught on in my own head#analysis is also pretty much shapped by experience and i do not have the final reading on things#and sometimes things can be decent in one way but fumble another#and what will be important to not fumble will be different from one person to the next#depending to the themes that resonated with you to start with#but when i see people dunk on feelings i have while taking them out of context and also being rude about it#and then saying 'media literacy is dead'#i feel myself turning into a pride demon on the spot#sorry i only have two literature analysis diplomas i graduated from in two languages with praises for my analytic skills#and with a teacher genuinely begging me to continue advanced literature analysis classes because my approach was rare and precious#so clearly i don't know what i'm talking about at all and i'm the idiot here#like holy shit. lol.#this fandom is still the one i dislike the most and alas the fact i dislike the 4th game doesn't help#bc i really was hopeful and optimistic about it! i didnt want to dislike it!!!!#but i at least don't want to be taken for an idiot for it#but coughs. anyway. so that's one of the reason i'm not petty on main#the real reason is i don't want to impose that on my followers. I don't like being negative needlessly.#the second reason is that if i'm met with hostility where someone act like i'm dumb i will do things i will regret.#It's just that no one saw this side of me there most time because you've all been nice to me here#again. this is my solas moment. one of the reasons my therapist goes 😬 when i talk about him#ichareply#anonymous#ichasalty
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
I find it very ironic how the same cultish looser that shuns people based on who they're friends with because she genuinely thinks if you believe something you can't have human interactions or treatment to those who believes otherwise..... will preach hard and proud against harassment for people's headcanons, ships and takes whereas being friends with the person who did harass people's headcanons, ships and takes. But why rules are always only for their victims and never for them? What's so hard about following what you preach? Go ahead, disown this person and be mean to everyone who still likes them and want to give them a chance, you SHOULD by the terms that YOU'VE chosen! But you won't, you'll rather cover their ass and pretend you haven't seen the evidence, to save the face, because should you ever admit a mistake you'll explode from the notion of not being so "holy". PEAK L0garius and Alfred behavior.
#/vagueblogging#regardless of what is your stance on 'tell me who is your friend and I'll tell who you are'#i think we all can agree that a person should should should SHOULD!!!! practice what they preach#also feel slightly guilty about this comparison because MY L0garius is different lol#he's just a messy hermit that picked up long historical grudge#but there is 'personal interpretation' and 'general vibe'. they're logarius and alfred.#he definitely preaches shit and then covers his allies who go against this shit#average cleric L yeah#also I am still mad at 'she lovebombed me and then stopped after learning I'm friends with alfred!!!'#okay first: thanks for admitting that my attention was so crucial for you I am most flattered#second: unlike you who BLOCKS people for answering asks from me to shun the non-believer I-#-don't mind who people are friends with#and I 'stopped' because your blog changed from multi-character to a ship I don't see#you who blocks people for shipping a thing instead of just blocking ship tag must understand???#regardless of what anyone dislikes in my personality at least I can't get accused of hypocrisy#ugh.#you fools BETTER have an excuse that you babysit alfred and teach them to not harrass#because then this breaks all thinkable levels of hypocrisy and this is just dumb
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
Zonai? you mean walking retcons?
#I hate the zonai#this blog is anti zonai#Like what. now zelda's powers. All of the zelda's powers come from the zonai?? not the triforce or even hylia?!#fuck that#i hate it#seriously#ive seen theories that the golden goddesses and hylia were zonai too and like. that's a fine idea to have. it makes sense given the retcons#but i hate it so much#you can't just come in here and be like 'these creatures that existed for one game are now the most important thing in the series'#fuck offfffffff#i think the reason i hate botw and totk the most is the abandoning of the heart of the series#both gameplay wise and lore wise#loz had a shit ton of magic and fantasy and stuff and now it's all 'ancient civilization... secretly advanced???' sksw isn't immune to this#either unfortunately#i've been thinking about oot lately. i miss you oot lore. i miss you.#anyway tldr zonai and totk retcons are dumb#and as far as i am concerned totk lore doesn't exist#there are no zonai#now i know how ppl who hate hylia due to lore retcons (not other dumb shit) feel#totk spoilers#i guess?#raven croaks#totk neg#totk salt#there. you can't say i didn't tag it
51 notes
·
View notes
Text
so anyway, thanks for reading my little dissertations on byan's gender. sorry for not writing again today, i'm just. i'm fuckin goin through it rn man
#'it' being... *gestures vaguely*#i stumbled across this series of yt shorts yesterday (all by the same creator) that really fuckin resonated with me#and i mean that in the most serious way like. it spoke to me. never have i related to someone talking about their experiences more.#talking about their life growing up undiagnosed autistic & adhd... being in treatment for anxiety & depression for decades...#i can't really explain it but good god it's most exactly my same experience and i just. i have never felt that before.#it was so... idk. it sounds so dramatic bc it's literally a comedy short but holy shit#they verbalized things that I haven't been able to and#fuck. I felt seen and I felt like I wasn't alone in this miserable weird non-functioning barely even a human place I'm in rn#and just. idk. I'm still kinda processing some of it.#once again I am thinking back over my life and realizing things and it's. heavy. and tiring.#but like. in an ultimately positive way bc it's gonna help me change things & get to a better place.#I'm rambling IGNORE ME writing it out helps me process ig and for whatever reason posting on my dumb writing blog is easier than journaling#just. once again thank u all sfm for ur patience with me. it means SO much to me. genuinely.#you have no idea how much and I can't put it into words but. slow as I am... writing here with all of you is one of the few reasons#that I'm still kicking. and I'm just. so very grateful to every last one of you.#ok I'm gonna shut up before I get even more sappy and emotional lmfajdkgksg#love you guys. hope you're taking care of yourselves. 💜💜💜#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.#personal cw
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
Once I don't fear not being smart enough anymore it's over for y'all
#johnny's silly rambles#it's unfair that my brother is such a multitalent and I'm over here like yeah i can do this specific thing pretty well#also yeah i know a lot of bullshit but no one ever asks that#and so he's the genius and i have a talent. wowie#“you're not slow you're just thorough with things” i literally am fast. i can't calculate things in my head really well but otherwise i AM#jdhdhsiynsjsocjdjwjdhhdhxhsjhdhdzdzchehdb#whatever#I'm not actually that angry at least not right now#but it is frustrating ughhhhhh#like don't belittle me like that it actually makes me believe even more that you think I'm dumb as shit
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
Matthew saying "jiejie, I love you" all cautiously 😭
He needa stop 😭😭
#dumb fuck ted talk#AND RIGHT AFTER THE RICKY JIEJIE FAKE SUB?? DOES GYUVIN KNOW SOMETHING#should have called up ricky for a different phrase#wait no he probably would have said some other fuck shit#never mind. i take it back#i did let out an embarrassingly girlish squeal and i am ashamed#america get better healthcare so i can go back to my therapist#i can't be like this over a man#i have a man-hating reputation to uphold#rain's daily issue#seokryudan problems
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
damn y'all work really does got me Tired About Eyeballs
#living the optician in training life#I am literally so tired#human interaction at a new job is especially draining#I know I'll get used to it soon but GODDAMN man#some folks are just so skeezy#no you cannot have free trial contacts when your prescription expired 4 years ago and you haven't even been in for an exam#why not? because you are Stupid and if you fuck something up while wearing the expired prescription and we gave it to you#then your dumb ass will blame us and we will be sued#it may be a prescription for your eyes but IT IS STILL A MEDICAL PRESCRIPTION THAT YOU MUST RECEIVE FROM A DOCTOR#you can't go to your doctor and ask for medicine for an illness you had 4 years ago#so why would you expect different from us?#shit changes in 4 years#the audacity of some if these ignorant entitled fuckos#and we have a really affordable basic deal on an exam and two pairs of eyeglasses!#70 bucks for the whole shebang!#it's almost always better than what insurance covers!#and then people want to get all the add ons and special materials and go full on surprised pikachu face when it's not the same price anymore#they're called add ons because they ADD ON#they are not usually necessary unless you live a certain lifestyle that makes them worth the investment#but if you need something affordable in order to see and function and not end up killing yourself driving#then the basic plan is an insanely good and affordable deal!#i used the very same deal prior to being hired!#i have my main glasses and a whole ass backup pair#and some people just#do not get it#they think they can get something ~special~ or that their insurance just HAS to be better bc it's insurance#please you guys learn to think freely and critically#okay rant over#tate talks#work tales
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
I've been trying to get this fucking degree for 7 years, suffering basically nonstop, taking part in all my classes, even taking extra ones, I think at this point I more than deserve them just giving me my bachelor's. I've done ENOUGH.
#lily talks#it has been a day#Have what might be my last exam ever on Friday and ahahahhah#I only got one attempt to pass it or I'll have to do an oral one and I would much rather die than do that#And I've put myself through almost 2 weeks of suffering from being unable to do basically anything other than lie in bed and stare at the#ceiling bc I am so stressed but enemy number 1 aka my brain refuses to let me sit down to properly study but at the same time i'm not#Allowed to do anything else because I'm not studying like I should be and I just am miserable#Anyway I've been a mess this entire time and NOW 2 fucking days before the exam the professor announces there will be another date in late#To take it instead#COULD YOU HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT THIS ANY EARLIER??????????#I am so tempted to switch the date because I barely studied and I feel like shit but i already suffered so much for this and then I would#Just have to do it all again#But I really can't afford to mess it up either bc I don't think I would recover from that. Genuinely.#I am so unbelievably done with all of this. The degree. uni. Constant stupid pressure from everyone about when I will finally be done.#Not even daring to think about the financial aspect because I would just cry#I feel so dumb for having a meltdown before any test situation I ever found myself in because you would expect that AT SOEM POINT my brain#That at some point I would learn to deal with it and cope somehow#Unfortunately I'm starting to doubt that this is going to happen in this lifetime
3 notes
·
View notes