#i am scared of tagging that but welp

[star-laboratory]

concept: neil and todd playing minecraft together and putting their beds together

[archrj]

Whoa T//umblr looks different

[abbyholmes]

I LOG OFF FOR A COUPLE OF HOURS AND NOW THE FANDOM IS ON FIRE WITH FAKE DATING POKER IN AN EPISODE CALLED NEW SENSATIONS WHAT IS HAPPENING?!?

Honestly if this is what it looks like, this is some supreme storytelling.

BUT IS IT?

[sovaharbor]

what did i do to deserve an ibs flare-up at 11 pm.......

[a-tale-of-legends]

Snapshots

Random snapshots of my ocs with their partner(s). The canon ones anyway. Warning. This is very self indulgence lol. Oc x oc and oc x canon ships here!

1. Jin, Amber and Wally( Jin and Amber: 26 Wally: 24)

"Wa-lllllllyyyy~" Jin coos, their face flushed from the nights drinking. They cling onto Wally's sleeve as they stumble along, a giddy smile on their face.

" Mm-hmmm?" Wally replies, vaguely amused at his partner's drunken state. He would be lying if he said he wasn't a little tipsy. But he was sober enough to help his lovers walk back home....or rather a nearby hotel. Gardevoir and Gallade are behind them, keeping a watchful eye on them and their surroundings, so they should be safe.

Jin inches closer to Wally, and with a childish grin. He gently boops Wally's noise.

" Pretty," Jin giggles, and if Wally's cheeks weren't already tinted pink, the shade deepens.

" Aaw," Wally whispers, " You're pretty too!"

" But you're the prettiest," Amber chimes in. She's been silent the whole time compared to Jin. She too was leaning on Wally for some support, but not to the point where she's weighing in him. Wally glances down up at Amber now, his cheeks growing even more red. She gives him a similar childish smile, face flushed.

" You're so pretty," she giggles.

" Soooooo pretty,"

Wally thanks Arceus, Rayquaza and whoever else may be listening for the darkness of the night. Both of his hands are preoccupied keeping his lovers close by his side, so he can't cover his beet red face with his hands.

" Guuuuuuuuuys!"

2. Kenji and Silver. ( Kenji and Silver: 19) ( semi what if/ alt reality. Might be canon but I need to think about it)

Not many people know exactly how soft Silver can be. They get small glimpses- with his pokemon, with his friends, but no one truly knows how soft he truly is. But Kenji knows. Kenji knows this well.

Silver cups his face as if it's fragile glass, planting small chaste kisses on his cheek, near his lips, and down at the crane of his neck. Small yet so filled with love. Silver then rests his forehead on Kenji's shoulder, moving his hands around Kenji's waist, connecting his hands at his back. A hug.

Kenji bites back a tease. A "What happened to Mr. Grumpy Face? Where's my Silvy?" which would definitely get a reaction out of Silver. Maybe a small kick. But he doesn't, instead returning the hug.

"Long day?"

" Mmpf" Silver grunts.

" Want me to make you some food?"

"Yes please," Silver whispers, turning his head slightly so Kenji can hear him better. Kenji beams.

" Right on it!"

Kenji knows how soft Silver truly is. He knows this well.

3. Elliot and Eva ( Elliot: 26 Eva: 25)

" Eli, come on, I need to get to work. You need to get to work" Eva giggles, gently shaking her girlfriend- no wait. Gently shaking her wife as said wife as an iron grip around her waist.

" Noooooo," Elliot whines, still in the process of waking up.

" Eli!" Eva laughs, still gently shaking her wife, who only continues to pout.

" If I gave you a kiss, would you let go?" Eva muses, and Elliot stops to think. Eva snorts as she does.

" Make it two kisses," she bargains and Eva rolls her eyes.

" If I make it two, then we're making out and then we'll never leave,"

Elliot smirks devilishly

" Is that so bad?"

" Eli!!!" Eva laughs again, giving her wife a gentle smack on the arm.

" Fiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnneeeeeeee!" Elliot whines, " One kiss. But when we get home, I'm getting two!"

Eva chuckles, bringer herself closer to Elliot, face inches apart.

" Deal,"

4. Jude and Dante ( Tbh this could honestly happen any time after they get together. So maybe when they're 26 or so?)

".... Dante,"

" Yes Jude?"

" I need to work"

Dante looks up from his papers , giving Jude an unamused brow.

" You are working. And I am too, so maybe don't dilly dally, hm?"

This man will be the end of her.

Jude steels herself again, feeling heat spread across her face.

" Dante."

" Yes, Jude?"

" You-" the embarrassment is going to kill her, " You're sitting on my lap,"

Dante looks down, pretending to look shocked.

" Oh wow, would you look at that," Dante says plainly, then going back to his papers which she's pretty sure he's not even reading, " I don't see the problem here,"

" You have your own office?!"

Dante shrugs, shifting his papers around.

" So? This is comfy,"

He will be the death of her, swear it unto Yveltal.

Jude sighs, a slight irritation beginning to circle.

" You can't just sit there, it's -" Distracting. But she knows that once she says that, she will never hear the end of it, " I need to work, Dante,".

Dante simply stares at her, and for once, she can't seem to meet his gaze. He then tilts his head to side ever so slightly.

" Do you want me to leave, Jude?"

Silence.

Dante smirks.

" Hm,"

Jude's face turns red, either from embarrassment or anger, she doesn't know.

" Fuck you,"

" Love you too~"

5. Naomi and Marnie ( Both are 20 here!)

"-And then we saw these kids ride on a weird lizard thing!" Naomi rambles on the phone, Marnie listening intently as she fixes some boxes.

" That's very amusing coming from the person who rides a wolf everywhere," Marnie teases, placing on uniform into a new box from another. She hears Naomi let out an offended gasp.

" I do not!" she cries, " I am a proud train user, thank you very much!"

Marnie rolls her eyes, pushing the box away from her a bit, now leaning back on her chair.

" Sure, sure. I'm sure Ms. Rika would be pretty impressed by your wolf riding skills,"

Marnie can practically hear Naomi's face turn red as she sputters a response.

" I- Carol did tell!"

" Tell they did," Marnie muses. Though really it was Bede, who was told by Carol. But it still ends with Carol, so who cares.

" I'm gonna kick their ass," Naomi swears, and Marnie laughs.

" B-but, um," Naomi stammers, surprising Marnie a bit, " It's not- there's really nothing- I mean you've seen Ms. Rika, right?"

Marnie nods.

" I have,"

" S-so you understand where I'm coming from, right?"

" That I do,"

Naomi continues to surprise Marnie, as she hears the girl sigh in relief.

" Oh t-thank goodness, I- I thought you'd be upset-"

Marnie's eyebrows furrowed, " Why would I be upset?"

" W-well! Um-" Naomi stutters for a bit more, " N-No reason! Just that, well, Carol said-"

" Carol says things," Marnie cuts off, " You know this better than anyone,"

"R-right! Right. I-" Naomi pauses, " I'm just glad you're not upset, either way,"

"....Did you want me to be upset?"

" No!" Naomi yelps, and Marnie distances her phone from her ears a little, " No, no, no,no, not at all!"

15 year old would be upset. Angry glares and punching pillows, upset. Marnie wonders if she should play into her 15 year old self. Just a bit.

" I just ....I just miss you, you know?" Naomi continues, talking faster than she can think. Marnie's cheeks grow rosy, but she doesn't say a word.

" I mean, it's natural to miss you're my-" she cuts herself off , and for whatever reason, Marnie can feel her cheeks growing even more red.

" Your...."

" My.....friend???? I- I mean we are friends, I just-" Naomi sighs, " ....I don't want to have that conversation over the phone. I-I don't think that's fair to you,"

Marnie tries to tell herself to not get her hopes up. She could be reading far too into it. The two of them could always be friends and nothing more and she would be fine with that.

....but she did say she should play into her 15 year old self more, hm?

" I can wait," she whispers, as if she hasn't been doing that for the past 5 years.

" O-okay. I'll....see you later?" I love you, bye.

" I'll see you later" I love you too.

[tipytap]

debating getting mobility aids again

[luckyduckydino]

me suddenly making posts again after abandoning this blog for months?? more likely then youd think :3

[astonmartinii]

big reputation part two | charles leclerc social media au

pairing: charles leclerc x fem reader

a new season dawns but that doesn't mean we don't have a map to our buried hatchets

MASTERLIST | BUY ME A KO-FI? | PART ONE

charles_leclerc

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charles_leclerc: ferrari has been home for as long as i can remember, even before i joined the academy, the dream of driving for ferrari gave me a purpose. i am heartbroken it hasn't worked out, but formula one is, at the end of the day, a selfish sport and i have to think about my real goal here: to win a championship. ferrari has an amazing history, but that is what it is history. in the four years i have been here i haven't seen the drive and ambition to be as ruthless and as complete as they were with michael and with kimi. therefore i have to leave. it hurts me to leave the tifosi, but know you're always in my heart and i will always hold dear your support. grazie regazzi essere ferrari ❤️

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user3: i knew it was coming but HOLY FUCK CHARLIE COME HOME

user4: tifosi lecfosi YES SIR

user5: for real i'm down for him not that clown team

yourusername: i'm proud of you charlie, i knew how much this took. but you have to put yourself first at some point. i love you

charles_leclerc: i love you too. i'm sorry i can't stop crying

yourusername: no i love that you are so passionate. it's been a long season and you're finally allowed to let it all out

charles_leclerc: can we go to a rage room?

yourusername: FUCK YEA

maxverstappen1: pretty please may i join. i have a lot of rage. call it teammate bonding?

charles_leclerc: give me a tow in bahrain quali?

maxverstappen1: fine (NO ONE SCREENSHOT THIS OR HOLD ME TO IT)

yourusername: at least this one i don't mind having to third wheel us

user6: the SHADE that's mother right there

user7: trying to stay insanely normal over the fact that max, charles and y/n are besties

pierregasly: congrats calmar, HOWEVER, i though i was your favourite third wheel 🥰

yourusername: but you bring kika ??? how can you third wheel if kika is there? DO YOU NOT KNOW HOW TO COUNT?

charles_leclerc: thank you pear i love you brother

user8: i love how this is some super sentimental post and y/n is asking pierre if he can count i hope they never change

landonorris: max as fave third wheel ??? @alexalbon @georgerussll63 twitch quartet erasure

yourusername: womp womp

alexalbon: WOMP WOMP?

charles_leclerc: guys i'm sad about leaving my dream team where is the compassion?

georgerussell63: yeah boo hoo there are bigger things at play here I DID NOT SIT THROUGH YOUR TEN HOUR MELTDOWN ON AN APPROPRIATE TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY GIFT NOT TO BE TOP THIRD WHEEL

yourusername: you fools really will argue about anything huh

landonorris: this is the sanctity of our friendship on the line here

user9: the grid was really like YOU might be sad about leave ferrari but we ain't

yourusername

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yourusername: holibobs with sharlie

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user10: i love as soon as the season finishes charles becomes THEE instagram boyf

user11: j.peg account? no. just taking photos of y/n? YES.

charles_leclerc: i have an eye for beauty

yourusername: heheheheheheehehehehehee

alexalbon: so he can use a camera? why does he only take 0.5s of me?

yourusername: the best angle for your big ol dome

alexalbon: EXCUSE ME ?

yourusername: yeah sorry that was a bit far

alexalbon: it's like you got off the ferrari leash and now we all have to suffer

yourusername: WELP

charles_leclerc: ma belle, the only one i'll actually listen to and put sun cream on

yourusername: yes you will because we...

charles_leclerc: put spf on everyday !!

yourusername: yes! because...

charles_leclerc: we're scared of aging?

yourusername: no?

charles_leclerc: we want to be safe 👍

maxverstappen1: you guys done with the kindergarten reading lessons?

yourusername: have you seen lobster leclerc? this kind of work needed to be done

user12: lobster leclerc? goodbye, goodbye, goodbye you were bigger than the whole sky

user13: see now i'm confused cause why are some papers saying that they're breaking up? or that charles is embarrassed by the way y/n acts?

user14: bestie we've been through this DON'T TRUST THOSE HOES - TRUST THESE HOES

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user15: unless i see it from the horse's mouth I WILL NEVER BELIEVE THEY'VE BROKEN UP

redbullracing

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redbullracing: charles the qualifying king takes his first pole position for red bull in his first race and is joined by max for a front row lockout

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user18: UNWELL

user19: suck on that ferrari xoxo

user20: *rubs eyes* is that... max being happy to be challenged by a teammate ???

user21: winning three championships really takes the heat off huh

yourusername: THAT'S MY MAN YALL

charles_leclerc: love you baby

yourusername: love you too darling

maxverstappen1: love you three 🫶

yourusername: this is not the problem i thought we'd have when coming to red bull

maxverstappen1: my gf can't make most of the races so you WILL deal with me

user22: max being clingy to charles and y/n is so fucking funny to me

user23: sainz not making it out of q1? shwartzman only making it to q2 but still out qualifying carlos? charles looking sexy in blue? EVERY TONGUE THAT RISES AGAINST CHARLES LECLERC SHALL FALL

christianhorner: mega job boys, let's keep our eyes on tomorrow

maxverstappen1: tell them they have to let me come to dinner with them

christianhorner: isn't this the exact reason we rehired daniel

charles_leclerc: PLEASE MAKE DANIEL COME TO THE NEXT RACE

maxverstappen1: erm rude

charles_leclerc: i'm sorry i'm not used to a teammate that actually wants to be friends for real

yourusername: EXCEPT SEB WE LOVE SEB

yourusername: but for real max emilian i am monitoring the dutch papers... be very careful

user24: healthy teammate relationships (for now) ??? is this what heaven is like

user25: are you telling me that if max doesn't get the lead in the first lap he might actually HELP charles .... a certain spanish individual could never

charles_leclerc

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charles_leclerc: wow !! a 1 - 2 in our first race i couldn't be happier. this car is a dream to drive and i'm so grateful to red bull for being so welcoming. teamwork makes the dream work

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user26: tears in my eyes

user27: okay i understand both of them are like with their forever partners but lestappen is also real TWO THINGS CAN EXIST AT ONCE

yourusername: SHARLIE OMG YOU TALENTED, TALENTED KING

charles_leclerc: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

yourusername: crying sesh. sharlie's drivers room @ 8. bring your own alcohol and tissues

charles_leclerc: just to make sure everyone knows THESE ARE HAPPY TEARS

landonorris: SAP ALERT GET IT TOGETHER MAN

yourusername: i know lando no-wins ain't talking rn 🤨

charles_leclerc: you walked into that one buddy

landonorris: just because i'm friends with carlos doesn't mean you have to come after me like him ...

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yourusername: bold... real bold. you're lucky i'm doing meditation and yoga (and that i want to make a good impression on christian)

alexalbon: lando do NOT look at the text she just sent your your ego CANNOT take it

user28: no no no do spill... i need the ammo if he ever takes out my fave

user29: true i need it for the next time either of the ugly twins at ferrari open their gobs

oscarpiastri: it was brutal. they need to get y/n to host the reading challenge on drag race

yourusername: oscar knows drag race?

oscarpiastri: i might be an athlete but i'm not completely uncultured

maxverstappen1: if we're talking being cultured... GET READY FOR YOUR FIRST RED BULL PARTY

yourusername: born ready my university years singlehandedly financed your 'catering budget'

charles_leclerc: no really i think she's actually addicted to the tropical one

maxverstappen1: are you FUCKING KIDDING ME? IT WAS YOU WHO DRANK ALL OF THEM

yourusername: and what?

maxverstappen1: idk i'm still kinda scared of you

user30: the way charles deflected the questions about fred and sainz ? WE'RE FREEEEEEEEE

yourusername

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yourusername: i wanna be your end game <3

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user32: you guys better be end game or like you're paying for my therapy

user33: i respect her dedication to go to every race, make ferrari staff tremble in fear and pull LOOKS

charles_leclerc: i want to be your first string

yourusername: what if we just called taylor up?

charles_leclerc: you know here you call her i'm nervous

yourusername: @taylorswift paris night one, lover and this is me trying ft. charles on the piano?

taylorswift: sure thing

charles_leclerc: why was that so easy?

yourusername: better get practising baby

charles_leclerc: OH GOD

user34: how did we get red bull charles and a taylor collab in one year?

user35: i guess we used up charles' good luck from the last four years SORRY CHARLES

charles_leclerc: i guess you're forgiven...

maxverstappen1: so could you like tell me what you'd call me if i hypothetically fucked charles over... i'm not gonna but like i need to mentally prepare myself to hear it

yourusername: i have faith in you so i haven't thought that far ahead

maxverstappen1: can you please not be too mean i can't take it

charles_leclerc: you wanna come to therapy with me buddy?

maxverstappen1: i think i might

yourusername: when we entered the reputation era i did not think it would lead to taking max verstappen to therapy

maxverstappen1: and taylor swift?

yourusername: ... and taylor swift

user36: this is all very cute and all but can we have mean y/n back

user37: when will yall learn that reputation is a love album and y/n and charles are just loving each other freely

user38: but mean y/n did teach someone a lesson in not spreading false rumours cause them tabloids have been QUIET

f1tea

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f1tea: carlos sainz was caught liking these tweets about charles leclerc and y/n y/ln, what do you think?

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user45: put me in the ring with carlos i am being so serious

user46: okay for a while i was on the fence about y/n and how intense she was being but like seeing this shit and realising it was probably what was being said in the garage she needed to do more

user47: for real if someone said that about my boyfriend i'd be in prison

user48: so charles and y/n were under contract to not say a word out of line about ferrari or anything to do with ferrari and this guy is out here liking this

user49: call me a conspiracy theorist but this was his public account... he meant for people to find it and wants people to know this stuff

user50: this is why he DNFed in the first race KARMA

user51: maybe this is why he's always the one with relationship issues bro clearly has no loyalty

user52: charles has never said anything about him even now and y/n only said something in retaliation

user53: fuck peace and love y/n needs to give this man hell

user54: read him for filth

user55: bro needs to keep his twitter fingers to himself and focus on not being in the wall ❤️

charles_leclerc

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charles_leclerc: this is why we can't have nice things, darling

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user56: this is the most response we'll ever get from charles i fear

user57: allow me to elaborate: this is why we can't have nice things by taylor swift is about 'forgiving' the people who wronged you but she literally says "and here's to you because forgiveness is a nice thing to do... i can't even say it with a straight face" so basically charles doesn't forgive carlos or fred. and it specifically shouts out her family and friends and lover for sticking with her which is what charles' family, friends and y/n have done

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user58: thank you for service

yourusername: i'm reading what they call you lately (it says you're a race winner and a title contender)

charles_leclerc: got a taste of the celebrations and can't get enough

maxverstappen1: KEEP IT PG THERE ARE CHILDREN HERE

charles_leclerc: you're older than me

yourusername: all we said were celebrations, if anything you have the dirty mind 🤨

maxverstappen1: i am usually in the room next to you, i hope this helps

charles_leclerc: our bad <3

maxverstappen1: you don't care do you?

yourusername: not really no. when we get to the same amount of wins as you maybe it'll wear off

maxverstappen1: not on my watch

user58: is this an entertaining title fight but without the bad blood?

user59: and nowhere near ferrari? bless

alexalbon: i hate that i understand all these references

yourusername: lily trained you well

lilymunhe: like a drill sergeant

yourusername: as you should

sebastianvettel: proud of you charlie, i'm glad you're not wasting your talent

charles_leclerc: i love you seb, i'm sorry it took so long

sebastianvettel: make sure you win here, we can be ferrari failures together

yourusername: *ferrari failed you

sebastianvettel: i knew there was a reason i liked you

fin.

note: SOZ. so like i am still working on requests but that radio message FUCKED ME UP. so this had to happen. glad my queen girls (max and charles) did well today, hope you enjoyed !!!

[cottonpuffmouse]

A Stray’s Favorite Lap

Dazai x Fem!Reader in which a convict is finally released from prison and desperate for release. Reader is his long term girlfriend and knows just how to comfort her man. Tenderness ensues.

{AO3 Link}

Tags: Smut(so 18+ only), All Comfort No Hurt, Oral Sex, Penetrative Sex, Very Light Dom/Sub Undertones, Missionary, Teasing, Alcohol is drank by both parties.

Author’s note: Welp. Here we are. I’ve only said a thousand times not to fall for this man. But hereeee we are. PS, Chapter 109 was a publication mistake.

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You woke up to the sound of your door handle jiggling.

The ominous way it shook in the dark, moving just enough for the moonlight to catch the silver. You were frozen in fear until your rational brain reminded you there was a plan for this. With a practiced hand, you opened your nightstand, withdrew your hand gun, and slid onto the floor on the other side of the bed. You peeked over the bedsheets as your heart pounded and you crushed the fabric under your hands. You took deep breaths to try and calm your shaking hands.

Without trigger discipline, you would have shot at the sound of the lock catching. Or at the slow, dramatic way the door opened like magician’s trick. You nearly shot at the shadow that started to slink into your home until he spoke,

“Ah, are you not home? I thought you’d be waiting by the door-”

“I’m home!” You cried, scrambling over the bed towards him.

Your long term, on and off again, lover/boyfriend accept your desperate hug with a happy sigh. Honest emotion went far to make Dazai feel comfortable so you squeezed him with all the fear and anger and love that had been steeping in you for the last month. His clothes were strange on him, likely not his at all as you saw the name tag read: Minazuki. But there was no blood on them, they even smelled fresh. You dug your hands into his shirt to remind yourself it was truly him you were holding.

“You jerk!” You cried. “When you said you were going away for awhile, I didn’t think you meant this long! Where were you?”

“Aww, are you scared I was in some other girl’s arms? Don’t be nervous, I’ve been good,” he teased, wrapping his own arms around you and swaying with you. He hugged you tightly as he sang, “I was somewhere much, much worse. Wanna guess?”

You glared at his grinning face. You’d long accepted that Osamu would do as he pleased, no matter it’s effect on you. He was very selfish in this way and never understood why you couldn’t accept that as a fact of his being rather than a piece of him to fix.

After a moment of glaring from you, he looked serious. “I was in prison-”

“Oh be serious for God’s sakes!” You cried, smacking his arm.

“I am. I was released hours ago. I had to walk here because I don’t have a single yen on me. Even beggars get more pity than I did.”

You rolled your eyes and waited for his serious face to dissolve into his ‘gotcha’ smirk. Dazai stared at you and looked…tired. His body seemed to be leaning more on you than usual, his eyes were dull instead of clever and sharp, his skin felt cool to the touch.

“Osamu!” You gasped.

In the sort of way you knew he loved, you pulled him inside and quickly sat him at your table. Without seeing him, you could feel his small victorious smirk as he got exactly what he wanted. You dragged the blanket from your bed to wrap around his shoulders.

“Aha, thanks,” he said as he shuffled the fabric to his liking.

“You must be starving,” you insist.

“No, no. I’m alright-” Dazai was interrupted by his stomach howling.

He looked away guilty. “Well maybe if you have something quick.”

You kissed his forehead, which gave him this cute boyish blush, and made your way to the kitchen. From there you started to assemble a simple meal for him: rice, miso soup, and grilled fish. When you pulled the fish from the fridge, Dazai groaned.

“No. I had that every day for breakfast. Something else,” he whined.

Knowing he couldn’t see you, you rolled your eyes again. Starving men were apparently quite picky these days. You looked around in your fridge and in your pantry before you saw something that you both might want to eat.

“How about crab cakes?”

“It will do!” He said with a bored wave of his hand. Dazai rested his cheek on his fist as he watched you pull out the ingredients. You both knew he’d prefer to scarf down the can, swallow it with a mouthful of sake, and curl up to sleep on your floor. But you also both knew that this was a human household, that you demanded he treat himself with respect or not come at all.

He almost always chose to come.

“Okay but you have to chop the parsley,” You said, getting the parsley from your fridge.

You brought the herb to where he was at your table with a cutting block and knife. Dazai set to work without complaint and started to look quite comfortable.

It was always a treat to watch him cut. He was truly awful when it came to using a stove or following a recipe or combining things in a bowl.

But his precision, the way his hands gripped the parsley, the way his fingers curled to protect their tips, and his speed. With every quick thrust of his arm, bits of parsley fell in line. It was all a little breathtaking when he was doing it in the yellow hues of your stove light which, like everything else in the world, made him look beautiful.

Your apartment was soon filled with the rocking of the knife. When you could tear yourself away from his skills, you accompanied it with the swish of your whisk. Without words, you two made soft, soothing music together. Eventually though, you ended it with a crash of cymbals: a frying pan hitting the stove.

A generous amount of oil, the combining of Dazai’s work and yours, and finally, dinner was cooking. The crab cakes fried quickly but left you enough time to make a small side salad topped with ponzu sauce.

In seconds, you plated and served it to him. Dazai didn’t say anything, didn’t allow you the glimpse into his head. He just picked up the chopsticks you provided and brought a small morsel to his mouth. You sat beside him as he chewed, waiting for a verdict.

“ ‘S good,” he said softly after swallowing.

You picked up your own chopsticks to offer him another bite. “Have another then.”

Dazai’s lips closed around your chopsticks, you could briefly feel his tongue move them as he took the bite. You took back your chopsticks and took a bit of the salad in them. He gave a throaty whine at the sight.

“It tastes better when you mix it up. Right now, your mouth is used to the salty, soft fish cake and it’s neutral breading. Now you’ll have that crisp green of cabbage with the tangy, sour ponzu sauce. When you take your next bite of crab cake, it’ll be like the first.”

You explained this concept as though you were talking to someone who’d never eaten before. And indeed, you were trying to soothe the starving animal of his soul. Trying, however futility, to teach him he could trust your words.

The creature must have been placated because he accepted the salad bite. His chewing was loud against the sleeping city and your sleeping neighbors. But it was personal, like he was trying to show you how much he was enjoying each bite. You fed him a bite of crab cake and this time he ate it with a childish happy noise.

“Mmm! You’re right!” He chirped.

He could be such a sunbeam when he let himself, or when he faked it to appease. You basked in the warm glow of Dazai anyways. When you picked up more salad, he shook his head.

“Osamu, you just said I was right-”

He heaved you into a kiss. One moment he’d been sitting in front of you, the next his hands were gripping your shirt, nearly hauling you over the table to press more of you against him. He kissed hard and demandingly, letting his lips drag against yours. It lasted a second then more. Moving out from under the table to get closer to you, the kiss lasted minutes before he let you breathe. When he started to pepper kisses down your neck, you caught onto his game.

“Oh absolutely not!” You cried, pushing him away. “You will finish the damn meal I made you or I will force feed it to you.”

Dazai smiled and moved to kiss you again. “But I’ve missed you. They wouldn’t even let me have an extra pillow to cuddle, you know. So I had to dream of holding something every night, what do you think I chose?”

“Was it me?” You deadpanned.

“It was you!” He cheered, throwing his hands in the air. “So let me-“ Dazai interrupted himself to kiss your jaw and run his fingers over your arm.

He laid his trap as well as he rocked the knife. If you forced him to eat it now, he’d take it as you pushing him away - even if he’d set the trap himself. If you had let him have you, which he clearly wanted with all the shaking desperation of an addict, then his stomach would remain empty and his mood would only worsen throughout the night.

But you were his chosen, his safety, the pillow the guards denied him. So instead of doing either, you took a breath and burst into sobs.

Crying came easily when you thought about him in prison. Whether the tears were bitter or happy or fearful didn’t matter. Dazai was back again and it was worth crying about.

“I was so scared for you! I’m so worried they didn’t feed you enough or let you have enough blankets or let you sleep enough or anything! Osamu, I’m so upset to hear you were treated so-so badly!” You added a sob for good measure to tug on his heart strings. Your shining eyes seemed to beg, ‘Won’t you help me feel better? Just by doing something as simple as eating?’

Dazai grinned as he sat up. “Yes, yes, okay. I’ll eat then. Dry your tears.”

In return for him being kind enough to himself to eat, you scooted behind him. Dazai tensed, his shoulders shooting up towards the ceiling, until you laid a finger on one. You let him feel both your hands on him, assuring him you were holding no weapon that he couldn’t see. You keep the whole of your hand on him as you started to massage his shoulders.

“Ahh, that’s…” He got quiet again. Soon, the only noises were of him eating and your fingers digging into his dress shirt. You dug your thumbs into the knots along his rotator cuff and he moaned. Dazai leaned back against your chest, taking the plate of crab cakes with him.

He looked exceedingly like a lounging prince and you could not resist the urge to pet his hair a little to remind yourself he was not. Dazai hummed at the contact.

“Are you enjoying yourself, Osamu?” You asked, working the soft skin around his collarbone with the tips of your fingers.

Not the type to ever admit to you(or himself) if he was satisfied, he hummed again. A short, vibrating note like a purr.

“You know, I won’t stop if you say you like it. I wouldn’t tease you like-”

“Like I’d tease you?” He countered sharply and quickly.

In a single sentence, his hackles were raised. You let out a soft sigh through your nose and nuzzled his shoulder. “No, Osamu. I like when you tease me. You don’t like being teased, I get it.”

Dazai shifted uncomfortably. “I don’t mind it.”

“Shh,” you soothed, smoothing his bangs down. “I just wanted you to know, I’m here to make you feel better. Not worse.”

He fell silent again and you resumed rubbing him down. Dazai sat up, pulling away from you and you chased after. He turned his head to kiss you and whisper, ‘No, no’. His words were meant to pacify, not to scold, and he showed this by unbuttoning his dress shirt.

Slowly, he let it slide off his shoulders like a beautiful woman letting her yukata slip. His pale, creamy skin looked soft in the domestic glow. He looked over his shoulder with a smirk. But on close inspection, you could see the faintest blush on his cheeks.

This was a new game. Dazai was liable to decide to start a new one at anytime after all. But on this sensual board, you had the upper hand. You leaned down and pressed a devotee’s kiss on his shoulder. He shivered and you shivered at his shiver.

That is what dating Dazai was really like. Action and reaction. Action and reaction.

Action.

You pull his hair back and press a hot, open mouthed kiss on his neck.

Reaction.

He bit his lip with a smile and a laugh you could hear in his chest.

“Mmm, perfect. With teeth. Just how I like it-” He hissed as you nipped at his neck.

Dazai didn’t like pain but he loved to be stimulated by it. You’d long since learned the little places you can bite or pinch to make him sound a little breathier. Your hand ran over his bare chest, your thumb gently passing over his nipple and smirked to yourself as his sharp inhale.

“Do you want dessert, Osamu?” You asked.

“I’m so full of crab. I don’t think I can have another bite,” he mumbled back in a pleasant way.

You stood up and offered your hand to him. Dazai stared at it sadly, like he was waiting for you to pull it away, before he took it. You dragged him to his feet as you’d done a billion times before. You pulled your half naked boyfriend around the house: turning off lights, putting dishes in the sink, and plucked the half empty strawberry nigori from your fridge.

There was always something delightful about sharing a bottle with him in bed. You would sip and dangle it between your fingers until he was done talking. Then he would drink and drink until you finished your thought. Osamu never slipped out of character, even drunk, he was scared to show his true self. However, he got more affectionate with you. He was known to kiss you a little gentler, touch you a little softer, fuck you a little slower. He might not admit it but you could tell; Osamu was savoring you like he did the drink.

While you reminisced, Dazai relieved you of the bottle immediately. Twisting the cap off, he drank wholeheartedly. You realized prison parted him from his other great love besides you and crab: drinking.

When you managed to wrench the bottle out of his hands for a sip yourself, a sip was all you had left. You swallowed the rest of it and let that barest trace of intoxication start to warm you.

“God you are so lucky I have another bottle,” You insisted, reaching back into your fridge.

Dazai decided to hold that too. You heard him crack it open the millisecond you turned to close the fridge. Instantly, your hand shot back and yanked the bottle from his lips and onto yours. The indirect kiss deepened as you swallowed one of his favorite sins. You gulped down the sake, hating the bitterness but loving it’s smooth velvety texture and the way it glided down your throat.

“Just like that,” Dazai purred, and lifted the end of the bottle with a single finger. That teasing look crept into his eyes now that it had the energy to do so. “Take it all for me, okay?”

You shook your head as best you could - both determined to not drink anymore but also not lose a drop to the floor. That bottle was as expensive as it was delicious. Slowly, Dazai pulled it back and winked. Then he drank the entire rest of the bottle in one go.

“Osamu, you can be so silly sometimes,” you whispered as you pulled the empty bottle from his hands.

Dazai licked the sake off his lips before leaning in to lick yours clean to. “I’m cruel,” he whispered against your lips.

“No, Dazai, no,” You assured through the blur of your mind. “You’re toxic,” you said with a nod. “But toxic like the sour candy. Harmless in small doses.”

Dazai laughed and used a hand to stabilize you. You didn’t even know you were swaying. He pulled you against him, guiding you towards your bed. “Candy, huh? You think I’m like candy?”

“Yeah, I think you’re real sweet,” you said before giving him a soft kiss.

He grinned. Dazai laid you on the bed slowly, cradling your head until he could let it touch the pillow. The touch was gentle and lingering as he slowly pulled away. Your eyes followed his hand as it left you to touch Dazai’s chest.

Slowly, he dragged his fingers down his chest, down his stomach, and hooked his thumbs on the waistband of his pants. Osamu was painfully slow about sliding them down his pale thighs, down over his thin calves. Just before they were at his ankles and you were ready to relish in the sound of his belt hitting the floor, Dazai yanked them up to his thighs.

“Wha-“

“You should see your face!” He laughed. It was a cute boyish thing followed by a smirk. “So cute…”

There was something gentle in his eyes tonight despite his teasing. Dazai leaned in for a kiss and smiled when you rushed to meet him. “I missed you,” he whispered. “Did you think about me?”

“A little bit,” you whispered into his cheek.

“A little bit, huh?” He repeats with a soft laugh. “I thought of you ‘a little bit’ too. I bet your thinking was more fun than mine. Why don’t you tell me about it?”

Dazai gently pushed you back into the bed. You could hear the springs of your mattress creak under him until his face appeared above yours. His dark hair was a bit more unkempt and the space under his eyes darker than when you were last under him. You turned your attention to the smile on his lips, the way his grip seemed stronger, how bright and alert those chestnut brown eyes were.

He leaned down to kiss you. “Tell me what you thought about.”

“You…”

Dazai nodded and pressed a hot kiss to your neck. His fingers barely touched your skin as they dragged over your stomach, leaving you sensitive and electric. He was so close to you that all you could hear was his breathing.

He leaned in to whisper into the shell of your ear, “What else?”

“Your…hands-“ You sighed in relief as he grabbed you tightly, crumping your clothes under his fists. “Your lips, your everything.”

Dazai kissed down your neck, dragging his teeth against the skin. You felt him hum against the soft skin of your throat. “My everything? Do tell.”

“Osamu, please,” You whispered. The buzz of alcohol made warm feelings from your center creep across your body. You could feel his bandages against your skin as he pushed your shirt over your head.

Against your better judgment, you pushed your hips up to grind on his cock. The thin fabric of his boxers did nothing to hide how hard he was and it was divine to feel Osamu’s cock again, even if it was just against your thigh. He pushed your hips down onto the bed.

“I said please,” you hissed softly. “I am already begging, please, please.”

He closed his eyes. You could see the smile on his face grow as you struggled to feel him again; your hips bucked, trying desperately to feel his cock rub against any part of you. Dazai inhaled like a diver coming up for air before locking eyes with you.

“Why should I?”

“Please!” You wailed. “This is ridiculous! Please!”

“Please what?” He asked, sliding one hand into your underwear. Dazai tapped his fingers against soft skin above your core, a silent promise to what he would give. No matter how you moved or squirmed, his fingers remained locked there.

You gripped the sheets as you tried to grind against his hand. The words were coming and there was no way to stop them. “Please fuck me!”

He whispered coyly. “Why didn’t you just say so?”

In one fast motion, Osamu pulled the underwear off your hips. As you tried to kick it the rest of the way off, he grabbed your inner thighs and spread them.

Finally, he ran his thumb between your folds and gently rubbed your clit. You sighed in relief as that warm feeling started to take over your brain. A thousand anxieties were lifted as his head dipped to kiss your stomach. Your insides fluttered when he could feel his smirk against your skin.

As Osamu kissed, his other hand cupped your breast. He gently massaged them like you had his back, with tender rubbing and the occasional squeeze.

Dazai was so close now. You could feel him all around you like you were swimming in him. Further and further your mind slipped away as he massaged and kissed. On a perfect swipe of your clit, your thigh closed around his hand as the pleasure shocked you.

“Keep these here,” He commanded, pushing your legs apart.

“S-sorry,” you mumbled as you purposefully relaxed each muscle.

He pressed a hot, sloppy kiss to your thigh to assure you. Then he parted your lips with his thumbs. You tensed as you felt his breath fan across your pussy, waiting for the brush of his lips.

“Osamu, please don’t tease. Haven’t I waited just as long as you?” You whimpered pathetically.

“You waited for parts of me. I waited for all of you so let me indulge.”

Your fingers managed to find his hair and then his cheek. “No. I waited for all of you too. So indulge me.”

There was a quiet moment. Then his arms slid under your thighs so he could hold them in place.

“Thank you,” was barely whispered before he pressed a long, tight kiss to your clit.

The feeling of his soft lips dragging against it as he sucked was brain melting. You cried softly as your stomach started to tense, as your body started to only feel his tongue lick you. His thumbs rubbed your inner thighs gently, in contrast with how maddeningly he slurped at your clit.

When you tried to close your legs again, you found yourself held open by him. A delicious panic flooded you as you realized there was no stopping him. Osamu could spend hours massaging your pussy if he wanted. You were just putty in his hands then.

“Yes,” you breathed, sliding your fingers through his hair. “Please.”

He hummed and redoubled his efforts. Now the noise of him sucking could reach you as well as his soft moans. It was a sound like he was eating dripping ice cream. You took a deep breath that you never quite released. It came out in stutters as you felt your pussy squeeze around nothing.

“Gonna cum?” He asked teasingly. You nodded quickly. You felt him start to pull away, felt his cheeks leave your thighs and cried out in fear. Dazai soothed you by rubbing slow circles into your clit. “Good. I want to feel it.”

When he shoved down his boxers, there was no teasing this time. His cock slapped down onto your wet pussy without shame. You held your breath and closed your eyes. You had to focus on something other than how good it would feel to cum on his fingers. You tried not to feel the way his fingers kept brushing your clit affectionately; nor the way his tip settled between your pussy lips.

You almost lost it when he licked the shell of your ear. That telltale coil tightened in your stomach. He pressed on, whispering so close that it echoed in your brain, “If you can hold on until I cum inside you, I’ll give you a great reward.”

“What?” You gasped.

“An amazing one. Something you’ve always wanted.”

“What? What?” You asked, trying to get your breathing under control.

“For the record, I hope you win.” He started to press into you, the head of his cock slipping in with his last word.

For a brief few seconds, the world was made crystal clear through pain. Even with his fingers on your clit, it was hard to relax around his thick shaft. It felt like every time you opened to give him space, his cock filled it. Then, finally, you felt his hips slot against yours.

“Whew,” he breathed, rolling his head back. You could see the barest hints of a smile as he whispered, “I don’t remember you being this tight for me.”

“It hurts,” you whined softly.

“I know, I know. Let it distract you…For as long as it can, anyways.”

When he gave a soft roll of his hips, pressing the slightest bit deeper into you, your entire body shivered. He let you hear a satisfied hum before leaning over you.

Osamu kissed you as he slowly slid out, letting you feel every gliding inch. He was still kissing you when his hips snapped forward and pressed every inch of him against your walls. You cried out as a wave of pleasure nearly washed you into an orgasm.

“Look at you try. So cute,” he muttered as he found a slow, punishing rhythm.

Each time he filled you, your mind lost all thought. When he pulled back, you regained just enough to realize the next thrust was already coming. The faint slapping of your thighs meeting echoed through your soul. You sunk your nails into his back to try and focus on anything beside how good he felt.

Osamu gasped, hips stuttering just slightly, and he slapped the sheets to refocus. You barely noticed it, knowing after so many years his frustration was not with you. He bunched them in his fist and took a deep breath.

“What a…” He breathed again. “What a mean trick. You’re supposed to lose, you know.”

“What is it?” You demeaned to know the reward in the single moment of clarity you had.

“Not telling,” he teased, returning to his thrusts.

Lost in the sea of him again, that warm that had spread through you started to turn uncomfortably hot. Every thrust had you holding back a cry or squeezing. It felt too good to think about; it felt like hell to think of anything else.

He fell on top of you a bit, wrapping you tightly in his arms as he fucked deeper into you. You hissed as you felt your orgasm start to creep up on you, waiting for the very moment you dropped your guard so it could flood your system.

“I can-ha-feel you holding back,” he whispered quickly. A few soft pants came out as he continued, “But I want to feel you cum. I want to-“

You wrapped your legs around him, forcing him flush against you. Osamu let out a beautiful whimpering sound as his pace increased. Being filled again, being rocked by his motions, his skin on yours was overwhelming as you gasped for air. He slipped a hand between you two to paw at your clit again and it undid you.

For a precious few thrusts, you hoped it was just another strong flutter. But your orgasm completely washed over your senses, intensifying each perfect thrust until you were screaming. You were blind to everything but Dazai and how good it was so cum around his cock.

“That’s it-that’s perfect-that’s-“ He bit his lip and you felt his cock throb inside you. A second later and you could feel his cum fill every crevice he couldn’t.

You both stayed there, basking in the feeling of sweaty, hot connection. His arms remained around you and hugged you almost desperately. After he caught his breath, Dazai pulled out slowly like it pained him to do so and flopped next to you on the bed.

He wasted no time pressing you against his chest and holding you there. After a few minutes of listening to each other breathe, he whispered, “Maybe next time.”

“Oh buzz off,” you said in one breath.

Osamu laughed and pulled you up to kiss your head. “I think I’ll stay the night. Let you try again tomorrow morning.”

“Good.”

“And tomorrow night.”

“Okay.”

“I’ll stay the weekend actually,” he decided. “Maybe this week too, we’ll see how I feel on Sunday.”

“Whatever you want, Osamu,” you said, nuzzling his chest.

He rubbed your arm softly. “Maybe longer…”

“Like I said, whatever you want,” you huffed, tired of talking and more interested in focusing on your cheek against his chest.

With another kiss, he relaxed back into the mattress. “You don’t mind? What if I moved in permanently? You’d have to get an eviction notice to make me go.”

“I want you here. Why would I give you a notice?”

“Mmm, touché. What if I made you add my name to the lease?”

“Then I’d have no right to serve you a notice. We’d just live together.”

Dazai squeezed you tightly and said, “That would give you lots of chances to win at our game, wouldn’t it? Earn that reward I promised?”

“Yup,” you sigh exhaustedly. “I bet I’d get a chance every night if you stayed here.”

“You would,” he teased.

After that he didn’t talk. You listened to the sound of him breathing, felt the rise and fall of his chest, and let yourself relax into his side. Moments later, you felt his fingers massaging your scalp and sighed. You fell asleep in his arms and knew as certain as the sun’s impending implosion: that Osamu would still be holding you when you woke up.

[gh0stsp1d3r]

Tangerines and deers- part 9

Tag list: @slut-f0r-u

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Tangerine got off of you after a little bit, holding his hand out and helping you up.

You giggled like a little school girl, and he just rolled his eyes. You pressed a kiss to his cheek but he swatted you away.

“Oh, piss off.”

“So… uh, anyways, Ladybug and some other old guy is waiting for us a few cars up.” You said.

He sighed, and looked at you again.

“I’m not sure if I can make it there without ripping your fucking clothes off if you keep staring at me like that.” He said, hoping that would work and you guys didn’t have to go back and actually fight.

You smirked “C’mon, we gotta go before they get suspicious. We can do that later, when we’re alone and not on a train.”

You guys walked in silence mostly, a couple glances back and fourth but that was it until you reached the cars they were in before, but it was empty.

You guys walked around the train a bit more, and finally saw them.

“Hey!” You said, running and catching up with them. Tangerine muttered something under his breath that you didn’t quite hear.

“Oh, hi.” Ladybug looked back at you, and then back into the bathroom.

They both kneeled.

“Father. I don’t understand.”

“It is fate, my son.”

“Wataru?”

“He is safe.”

“Welp, he seemed like a decent guy.” He said and looked at lemon.

Tangerine caught up to them, and looked in the bathroom again.

“He shot me.”

“Me, too. Twice.”

“Stop talking about him.” Tangerine said, immediately getting protective over him.

“Sorry.”

Lemon woke up, and tangerine ran over to him. He yawned loudly.

“Lemon? I thought I fucking lost you.” He said, voice cracking slightly.

“Oh. Oh, man. Am I in hell?” He looked around. “Oh fuck.” He said, and opened up his shirt.

“Fucking vest, man.” He looked up at Tangerine.

“Oh, you drank the water.”

Lemon saw the necklace on his neck, and looked up at tangerine. He began to take it off, but Tangerine stopped him.

“Nah, It looks better on you. Keep it.” He said. Lemon smiled at him, and wrapped his arms around his shoulders.

“You… you’re more of a Thomas.” Lemon said, putting the sticker on his hand.

When they pulled away, Lemon noticed something on his neck.

“Is that- is that a hickey?”

Tangerine turned pink, slightly, and touched his neck. They all looked at you. You shrugged slowly.

“Oops.. must’ve gotten carried away.” You said.

Lemon laughed, and tangerine helped him stand up.

They all went back and sat down, Kimura tried to stop the bleeding. You kneeled beside him on the floor.

“Mind if I help?”

“Please.” He mumbled. You lifted his shirt up and applied pressure on the gunshot, and continued cleaning other wounds on him as well.

Lemon watched you, as Tangerine sat next to him.

“So, you and Deer, eh?”

He sighed “Seems like it.”

“I’m glad. That’s.. that’s good, that you found someone, man.” He was secretly scared of him replacing him.

“I’m not gonna replace you, if that’s what you’re worried about. You’ll always be my brother.” Tangerine said.

“Fella’s, Deer, we need to come up with a plan.” Ladybug said.

Kimura and Lemon started to fight, saying something about how he shot him, you stopped what you were doing and stood up, standing next to Ladybug now.

He threw toilet paper at them, trying to stop them.

“When we are so quick to anger, we are slow to understand.” Ladybug said.

“I’m fast to kick your ass, though, I swear to God-“ lemon said, annoyed at his stupid words.

“Lemon- Lemon! C’mon, man.” Tangerine tried to pull him off. You sat across from the man, who seemed to be the only one who wasn’t trying to kill anyone.

You sighed “Men, am I right?” You joked, and put your head against the window glass.

They shouted and screamed, and the man had finally had enough.

“Gentlemen!” He shouted, louder than them. It even caused you to jump as he stood up.

“A plum does not resent the hungry man, but the farmer who planted the tree.”

No one noticed you, sound asleep, resting your head on the glass except for Tangerine. He just sat down and sighed.

“He resents the farmer?”

“So how do plums have fuckin’ resentments? So how can it resent?”

“Listen. The white death is the farmer.”

“So we’re the plums. We’re the plums?” He looked to Lemon.

“It doesn’t make sense. Why are you motherfuckers using metaphors. He almost shot my fucking brother!” He pointed to tangerine, who just wanted to leave already.

“Oh please, I didn’t even shoot him!”

“You shot my son! We prepare together… or we die alone.”

“That’s all I was trying to say.” He said, he looked back and saw you sleeping.

“I wouldn’t wake her. She’s an asshole when she wakes up.” Ladybug said, and the man looked back.

“Well, it’s either that or she-“

“Don’t even say it. Don’t even fucking say it.” Ladybug said. Pointing a finger at him.

“I’ll wake her up, for fucks sake.” Tangerine slammed his hands on the table and went over to you.

“Wake up.” He shook your shoulders. You groaned and thought it was ladybug.

“Just a few more minutes, lovebug.” You booped his nose. He scrunched his nose in disgust and quickly got away.

“Yeah, never mind. You can wake her up.” Tangerine said, and sat next to lemon.

Ladybug sighed, and slapped you.

“Ow! What the fuck?” You yelled, and slapped him back.

“Ow.” He muttered, and held a hand to his face.

“I told you a few more minutes.” You complained.

“That was tangerine, not me.”

“Oh.” You felt embarrassed.

“The white death waits for you with his army of assassins. Killers from all countries. But he has no idea my son and I are on this train. If fates wills, I will get my revenge.”

“I’ll head to the back and stop as many as I can.”

“I’ll go to the driver car, and get us the fuck out of here. What are you guys gonna go, joburg?”

“I’m gonna buy us some time.”

“I’m sorry, what? No, no, absolutely not.”

“Deer..” he sighed.

You pulled him aside, away from the others so they didn’t hear the conversation “No. It’s too risky.” He stared at you “No!”

“How many missions have you gone on with me?”

“Too many.”

“And how many have we failed?”

“… none.”

“Exactly. I’ll be fine. I promise.” He said.

“Ladybug, what the hell will I do if this plan doesn’t work?”

“You’ll live. As long as you live, I don’t care what happens to me. Fear is temporary. Regret lasts forever. If something happened to you, I’d live with that regret for the rest of my life. Okay?”

“If you die- if anything happens to you, I’d be the one feeling regret for not doing anything.”

“Deer, I’ll be fine. I promise.” He sighed and took something out of his pocket.

“I remember you said that you loved that bracelet a while back, I kept it for the right time.“

“You… remembered.”

It was a little bracelet, with a ladybug and a deer charm.

“I always do.” He smiled, and opened his arms again. You ran into his arms, tears in your eyes. You hugged him tightly, so tight he worse that his lungs would collapse is you kept doing it.

“Okay- okay-“ he said, patting your back.

“I can’t really breathe.” He rasped out, and you loosened your grip.

“Sorry.”

“It’s okay.” He laughed, and you guys pulled away after a little.

“Be safe.. okay?” You said, as the train stopped and arrived at Kyoto station.

“You too.” He said, and smiling before you left him. You went back to tangerine and the elder.

“So.. what the fuck do we do?”

“Go help your brother.”

“Sir, with all due respect, are you sure your sons got it? He’s a little damaged and-“

“He’ll be fine. Go!” He said, and you two shrugged and walked away.

[to-proudly-go]

Fic tag game!

Thank you @mischievouschan4 for tagging me! 💛💛💛 It looked fun and I'm glad I got to answer these questions!

How many works do you have on ao3?

I currently have 8 works in my account!

What's your ao3 word count?

Only 5871 words! I only write ficlets so it's not a surprise (but honestly longer than my school essays...😂)

What fandoms do you write for?

Only 2 with published fics for now: One Punch Man and Star Wars! (mostly because I focus on fanart more than fanfic though I do wanna write more, the words just won't words sometimes 😅)

What are your top five fics by kudos?

Welp I only have 8 works so I guess I'll just give the top 1 if that's alright??? And it's a Saigenos fic - Sleeping Sensei with 230 kudos!

Do you respond to comments?

As much as I can! Sometimes I see the comments late so I dither on whether I should give a response or not...(but I cherish every single one! 💛)

What's the fic you write with the happiest ending?

Oh lordy (I cry as I realize I only wrote 2 happy fics including the wips)

But I think this one! - Kisses before chores (another Saigenos)

Do you get hate on fics?

So far no! Everyone's been sweet actually 🥹

Do you write smut? What kind?

Ehe (yes and it's mlm and wlw though both are unfinished 😭 I despair)

Do you write cross-overs?

I haven't tried but I wouldn't be surprised if one day I get an idea, I guess

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Nope! Thankfully

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope! Though I'd be very happy if someone did

Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

I haven't but that would be exciting!!

What's your all time favourite ship?

Don't ask this of me I'm begging you (though on swordpoint I might answer Obikin because that's my current fixation and I love them so much they give me life)

What's your WIP you like to finish, but doubt you ever will?

Oh damn too many to mention actually I am scared of opening my gdocs again 😂 And most of them are original stories, not fics (may my OCs forgive me for abandoning them I still love you and think of you fondly every now and then)

What are your writing strengths?

Angst angst very descriptive and poetic angst and more angst (a friend of mine who is also a writer neary threw away my phone in pain after reading my star wars fic and meta post. I considered it a compliment, coming from them who also writes beautiful angst)

What are your writing weaknesses?

Writing long fics! I write mostly based on vibes and feelings that I want to express in as few words as possible, mmmaaaybe because I was a poem writer first before trying on fics (what is plot I don't know her 😂)

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I'm all for it! English is not my first language and I think it'd be fun to insert some jokes and cuss words from another language 😅 (although I haven't tried it yet)

First fandom you wrote for?

I think it was for Kingsman! Although it's still a wip until now in my docs and I may never publish it, idk yet!

Favourite fic you've ever written?

Probably my first ever published OPM fic In the aftermath (I hurt mysef writing this 😭)

Thank you again for the tag my dear!!!! I had fun 💛💛💛

If you've been tagged already or don't want to do the game then don't mind me, darlings! Anyone interested can also join in the fun!!!

@virahaus @isinnedforcake @tideswept @spikybanana

[gold-rhine]

So I went back to star rail after taking a break and am playing the new event bc my brain is just not ready to go thru jingliu story quest rn. Mostly bc they're probably going to still be super vague. Hopefully I'm wrong tho. Well the new event is cute nothing really interesting to me but still cute. Though the actual event game play is so tedious to me 😭 I was wondering if you like to play the events like the museum etc. I find them too overly wordy, more than hoyo's other games even. But maybe I'm playing them wrong? Welp either way, I'll take another break after I get either the genius society lady mei or the Greek guy ratio.

Also, omg the genshin main tag is ridiculous with some of their takes on fontaine stay far away ASDFGHJKL

i was actually pleasantly surprised with this event's storyline too! i actually expected to dislike the fox girl bc she looks like bootleg sucrose with one extremely annoying personality trait of being scared, but there was like. actual character conflict and development??? i understood what was happening the entire time. villain had more fleshed out personality than in main quest. like, it, it's nothing groundbreaking, but compared to what hsr usually does, its actually competent. did they get one of the good writers after fountaine finished or what asdfghj

but yeah, the event itself is v tedious. for me its like, whatever, bc i only use hsr as time waster to play on my phone in bite sizes of like 10-15 minutes, so it doesn't get too annoying.

[msmargaretmurry]

music anon here!!! hiiii 🤍 hope your week is going well!! with an actual music rec/ very vibey song!! it’s called why did you invite me to your wedding by kevin atwater and. oof! i don’t looooove his voice but damn can the boy paint a picture. something swiftian about it. i feel like this one could be applied to like… anyone ? again, so specific but so generic, so swiftian.

another rec but you might know this one: this flight tonight by joni mitchell!! feels very matthew/leon deciding to meet up (maybe after the trade?) and being scared but he’s on the plane now, he’s all in. “you’ve got the lovin’ that i like, all right” WELP! ;)

last one!! thru these tears by lany. just heartbreak babes but like with a beat and also. the bridge is mcstrome to me: “you said it was over / but when we got closer / you cried on my shoulder goodbye” it is such a poignant image: them breaking up but like… they were also best friends. whose other shoulder would they cry on? just… crunchy.

also!!!!! quite on theme with the whole music anon shtick but!! saw your tags about your type by crj x girl!quinn and now i’m. FOAMING at the mouth i neeeeed to meet her!!!!! the implications!!!!! (hope this doesn’t come across as like pressure or anything, it is pure excitement!!!!) if i can ask, would you please share more from the playlist? would love to feel The Vibes!! dw if not!

ok this got very long sorry!!! wishing you a greaaaaat next of the week!!! 🤍🤍🤍

hello music anon!! i hope you're also doing well! thank you as always for the song recs! 💕 i must say FIRSTLY the cover art for this kevin atwater song !!! sorry for making everything mcstrome but to me this is mcstrome

joni is of course a queen and that is a great song ❤ i can definitely see where you're coming from with the long-distance matthew/leon of it all! i am going to be honest though, although i do have some ideas on the backburner i cannot think too hard about them right now 😂 the scf has me toooooo stressed. come back to me in 7–10 business days when it's all over. kind of the same for mcstrome tbh due to the connor of it all 😭 i just have too many real life sports feelings right now!!!! but don't worry i am saving all of these songs so i can rotate concepts and scenarios to them on the metro over the summer. i appreciate the preemptive offseason inspiration!!!

i CAN talk about girl!quinn though because she is far, far away from these real life playoffs 😂 i'm so happy you're excited about her!! i'll share a full soundtrack when i finish and post the fic but that isn't going to be for ages so here are some of the most important songs from my writing playlist:

demi lovato - ruin the friendship

briston maroney - it's still cool if you don't

kississippi - around your room

landon coranth - 2am

maggie rogers - shatter

the accidentals - michigan and again

thank you again for writing, it's good to hear from you! 😊❤

[pollyna]

Currently... not sleeping while standing nope

Thanks for the tag @pinkasrenzo 💓😌

Currently reading: Lost Enlightenment: Central Asia's Golden Age from the Arab Conquest to Tamerlane by S.F. Staar (do I want to know more about the man who wrote this book? Yes. Am I scared to actually know something about him? Even more.)

Currently watching: just about to start a binge of Star Trek Prodigy but I'm watching The Lone Gunmen too (finally I would add)

Fic I'm currently reading: so I have lime 999 tabs of fics open rn 😂 mostly i'm trying to read stuff for the comment bingo thing-y? So now I'm reading this.

Last song: In our bedroom after the war by Stars (this song is glued to my brain now)

Next in my watchlist: welp too long but basically The Great (s3), to finish The Americans and Our Flag Means Death (s2)

Current obsession: as in fandom I'm still "stuck" on top gun honestly how is it even possible idk. As in general I will be obsess over reading all the book I'm reading and infodumping until my brain can't anymore

No pressure tag: @corvineheart, @redhead-writes, @boringusername3, @towering-book-piles, @blazingstar29 and everybody who wants to do it!!!

[happysmilebtr]

COLOURING BEFORE & AFTER TAG:

tagged by the lovely, kick butt and awesome sauce content maker @digitalgirls​ (thank you very much for the tag!) and another lovely mutual but for the life of me my peanut brain forgot who it was so thank you also to you too if you see this!

tagging (only if you want too!): @jinniebit​ @snug-gyu @soonhoonsol @woozification @seokmins @injunnies @chogiwapadada @jeonwonwoo

welp here you go guys! my poopy gif coloring lol. i haven’t giffed much as i just started 2ish years ago now(?) and i am now working a full time job so alas, i don’t have much to really show improvement but i do feel proud with some of my colorings and here are my top 5 (plus bonus two in the read more section hehe) i guess my coloring is more so with making things brighter if that makes sense? keeping things natural but bumping up the vibrance as you can see in certain gifs like the lights one for example. i do feel content with my giffing, granted the quality could be better but that is due to me using ezgif as a converter for making gifs on photopea (i know i can use vs but vs SCARES me like everyone that uses it? you guys are officially badass like gandalf in my books! i bow down to you all lol)

if anyone wants to hear more in depth thoughts of my coloring for each gif plus see the bonus ones that are too tiny to show in a normal gifset, readbelow but if not thank you for checking this out!

gif one: starting off with my proudest one of the bunch, this gif is from my baekhyun countdown series which you can view right here oh my when i say i am proud of this, i am SO proud of this. first of, this short video is pale, REALLY pale. more pale than casper the ghost lkdsalkjda so i struggled with making sure to not overdo the coloring where baekhyun is weirdly colored but making sure it’s no longer so bright ya know? with what i work with, i think i did a good job? it was during this series i started using a gradient map as well for my coloring and ya’ll....use gradient maps lol. i would have used them earlier but i had no clue how to well, use them as silly as that sounds! i found a tutorial on how someone used them and since then i use that. usually use brown to grey to make things neutral but also make sure skinetone is as natural as possible but of course that isn’t always the case, this is something i struggle with as you can probably tell so i am trying my best! overall, a very pretty gif coloring i think! simple but pretty!

gif two: ah yes....my og fav hehe. this was during the 17 days of 17 event that happened last year almost now and this was for of course, scoups day and i am proud of it still! granted, i would do things a tiny bit more differently even though this is just what, a 6ish months difference in giffing from the first gif? regardless, this one is my favorite and all because of one silly thing...the color changed background. as you can tell in the circle, the original was purple with the lightning background and i actually did save my coloring originally with this background still! however, i was playing around with coloring and by accident, just out of curiosity, i changed the color of the background and when i say i was super shocked...i was lol. in a good way of course! don’t ask me why but at the time, i just loved this small change. i thought it was so cool and it made me so excited so i kept it. could i have kept the purple? for sure, it bothered me to this day if i made the right call because a mutual of mine said the purple looked better against scoups skintone which i agree so it eats me to this day lol. (no ill feelings to my mutual! i liked having the feedback because sometimes that initial excitment sometimes isn’t the right call and i like being told the truth!)

gif three: another of my baekhyun gif series which again.....WHY DOES SM OR WHOEVER EDITS THESE VIDEOS, MAKE THINGS SO PALE!?!??! like bro....this one baekhyun IS truly casper the ghost dsaldasl. i managed to save him in this gif set but when i kept doing double takes myself when giffing, i always went “wait, is THIS how it originally looks!?” like i was so surprised with the coloring difference

gif four: featuring my queen, lights. the only non kpop gif lol. she is the reason i got into gif making actually! my first ever gifset is for her mv “prodigal daughter” (which yes you should all take a listen too just saying) so you can thank her for my gif making! this was from her i think 3rd mv, “in my head” which you can check out the gifset here! this is a perfect example of my coloring i think, the making things vibrant but keeping it somewhat natural and for me giffing this without gradient map i feel dang proud lol. it was either this gif or another one of lights but i went with this one instead to showcase i guess my usual coloring ya know?

gif five: and lastly a baekhyun gif once again. this one is originally meant to be with a pink coloring overlay and font as seen in the original gifset but i kept the original coloring because i liked how it turned out overall! i decided to switch things up with my editing by using unsharp mask and instead of using 30% i did 135% and kinda liked the result of it! i do admit, if you are someone like me and are stuck using ezgif, make SURE the file is super hq! while this does look nice, imo it looks better with good video quality when making the gifs as i did this setting for the last 4 gifsets of the baekhyun countdown and for ones like this one, it looks nice but some weren’t very high and you can tell it looks a bit meh. this is i think my current giffing editing and i feel proud of it! this one is very natural in coloring but everything is more “pop” if that makes sense, things are more defined than smooth, the neutral colors look lively, etc. 

BONUS:

you guys thought i would leave out these ones? oh no lol. so these two gfs are from my txt “good boy gone bad” mv and seventeen “hot” mv gifsets i made! i remember seeing this gifset style being HUGE back in late 2017ish up until 2019 if memory is correct by an old school content maker. i saw they had a tutorial on how they did their sets back then so i followed it and made my own for these mv’s and man i loved doing them. not only was the setting up the scenes to use was fun but finding the right font that fit the mv vibe was fun and of course, the coloring. for txt’s, there was alot of greens as you can see here and while i like me green, i wasn’t happy with just how dark and swampy it looked lol. i get it was the aesthetic in general but i wantted it to pop alot and thus the blue/purple tones in the overall gifset which i think looks really beautiful! then for hot, i didn’t plan on the pink coloring lol. i originally wanted to do the usuals, brighten and and make the colors pop out but by moving around to color the orange colors, it turned more pink so i went with it (you can see the difference towards the end of gif of how different the pink and orange are!) still my proudest coloring on both and still am proud for the “hot” as that was originally my top set with notes until somehow baekhyun and his doggo took over xD

[gleefullypolin]

Oh my, the fighting in the OUAT fandom was wild. I stepped in the tags once and saw the most ridiculous fights. Captain Swan was canon at the time and I saw them consistently attacked by other Emma ships and I was like, welp, I'm always down for a non-canon ship but I also have the critical thinking skills to understand what canon means, haha.

That pirate might have been the time I realized I have a very specific type. 😤

I always love a good underdog so I immediately loved Pen, she had my whole heart because she was trying so hard and just kept struggling. I don't think enough people pay attention to just how much some of the things she's done to protect people, even if the methods are maybe not the best, affects her. She's carrying such an immense burden but in a time where women aren't allowed to have the accomplishments she does, she's also got this thing that's hers and hers alone, she's successful because she made it that way, no one else.

They could make me very invested in Eloise's season but I agree, it will probably depend on how this season and next (if Benedict's) goes. It feels like they gave Eloise Colin's jealousy about LW from the books which I think makes more sense for the show, Penelope was doing all of the things Eloise had talked about doing. If Eloise had paid Penelope any real attention in s2 she would have figured it out much more quickly.

Which makes me hope Colin's reaction is more of the protective anger we saw in the books, that man was incensed and scared to death. With how protective Colin already is of her in general, I feel like it wouldn't be out of the realm of possibility.

Oh yes, I am not usually one for period stuff but the Polin of it all took me down. I enjoyed s1 as it was. I think s2 was more interesting overall for me but I wasn't really watching for more than Polin and Eloise.

Book Colin was absolutely insane over Penelope physically and I think that would be something that would be a good addition, and having him say what he does about being with others vs her in the books is something that should be included, whether he says it or it's woven throughout the brothel/polin scenes. There needs to be a marked difference in the way he is in them and I think we'll see that. It was obvious with Anthony (I don't remember the s1 scenes tbh ha) so I think that's part of their narrative for the male leads. The way Colin is with her is definitely why we love them, if they could kiss already that would be great.

I get fanon vs canon. I mean I ship Black Widow with Captain America so I totally feel the sting of shipping something you will never see on screen. I live in fan fiction for that. But I would never go after the Peggy Carter/Steve Rogers fans over it. Like it wouldn’t even occur to me to start a fight over it.

The OUAT stuff, well there were so many ships that were canon and fanon that were going after Captain Swan, and I was like…nope I’ll just enjoy the show because damn they were already angsty enough as it was on the show without the outside influence. They didn’t need anyone else saying “What if they don’t end up together” because damn I had no idea if they were going to leave him dead or not towards the end of that and it was painful enough having that last season without Emma around…

But YES, I love the underdog. And back to our beloved ship at hand, Pen that poor girl. I must say that I could give her an award for her brilliant eye rolls and looks of disgust she gives that no one pays attention to. Gotta love her true disgust with society. People truly do discount her, so one can’t blame her for wanting to go after that. I think many people forget how young she is and do not allow the mistakes she has made for her age. To think of the mistakes I had made by age 19. Damn! If no one had forgiven me for those, where would I be.

I feel like Eloise hasn’t paid nearly enough attention to her friend to have not figured out LW sooner OR to have figured out that she’s head over goo goo gaga for her brother. To think that she was writing Colin just to hear about his travels…sure girl.

I will give my right arm to see protective angry Colin. That whole taking her hand into the room and smashing the necklace thing last season leading right into a dance….yeah give me puffed out chest, this is my Pen, Colin, and no one is going to hurt her, terrified that the Queen is going to cut off her head, Colin.

I saw Nic’s comments today about how they didn’t hear them yell cut in the carriage scene, and they kept filming and I’m thinking holy hell when we get to that scene in June I may melt down for how much that scene will kill everyone and no one is going to even remember there were ever other suitors or women that even existed. I think the moment they kiss in episode 2 the entire Polin fandom will be too numb to argue about anything! And if they aren’t I don’t think either of us could help them anyway!