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#This drawing is kind of personal to me#I recently graduated (CUM LAUDE WOOOO!!!!) and its like. not to get depressing#but when i was younger i was never sure whether i would make it to this point#When i was going through what i consider to still be like. the worst time of my entire life#This fictional character was there for me and she was something for me to latch onto and cope with#eGem helped me a lot with being able to process my emotions at the time but also helped me to reflect on myself#which i think is a big reason as to why I'm really happy with where i am with myself right now#I'm going off to uni next school year to study astronomy!!! which!!!#Im also doing because of eGem!!! She ignited this kind of childlike wonder for space for me#I love doing math and physics and whilst Im still a bit scared because. honestly i don't know whether this is what i want to do with my lif#I think i'll be okay either way#either way i wanted to draw egem again even if i haven't done so in a while because its like#i think i wouldnt be who i am without her. i think i'd be a lot worse off#so like. thank you empires smp thank you geminitay thank you egem This drawing is me expressing my gratitude#AND THANK YOU AUTISM!#empires smp#empires smp s1#empiresblr#esmp#geminitay#art#fanart#alice.art#mcyt#mcytblr#song is andromeda by weyes blood... obv.. you guys know me by now :oP
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Season 7 trailer is on Netflix people!
#I am frothing#i have no words right now#i am not coping#white hair dark magic corrupted Callum?!#I’m telling myself it’s a nightmare/vision but… what if…? 👀#the dragon prince#tdp#tdp spoilers#tdp s7 spoilers#rayllum#rayla#callum#tdp callum#tdp rayla
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this happens at the end of the influencer arc. im alan becker trust me/JJJJJ
seperate image vers/closeups?
#alan becker#ava#animator vs animation#ava red#ava tsc#ava the second coming#ava yellow#ava green#ava blue#yeah mad yellow is the name for scientist yellow now#i would have written mad scientist yellow but it felt toooo long#i think this is a cool idea though! we should get this right guys righr gith righfkmvc#also sorry. had to add blueblonde in somehow hehe#i am not okay after influencer arc ep 2 by the way. i am coping#lilacsart
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I live in Western North Carolina. I have no idea if anyone knows what is going on here. I finally have gotten sufficient enough cell service to get online.
We are never going to fully recover. Whole towns are gone. My town was flattened. My street, a few miles south of town, was spared. We had no power or running water for four days. We lost hundreds of dollars of food from our fridge and freezers. We have no internet and no idea when it will be back. I work from home. My partner works two jobs - or worked, because one probably doesn’t exist anymore. My car took minor damage from the storm. Even if we had jobs, we probably couldn’t get to them. We got really lucky.
I so far have not lost anyone. Many of my friends are displaced. Some watched their homes be swept away. Some of them lost their pets. Some of them had to dig their children out of mud.
People - not organizations, not first responders, not the government - are clearing roads, doing welfare checks, forming groups of riders to take supplies up mountains on horses and mules. Private helicopters are landing in the middle of my town to drop supplies. They are doing this all over, all day, an essential lifeline for our cut off communities. The bigger cities are getting a more organized response, especially Asheville, which was essentially cut off from incoming vehicle traffic for a few days. Thank god the airport was spared.
I lost cell service, then internet, then power, from 7:45-8:20am Friday. I had no communication until Saturday. I was able to get a few texts out. I was able to get into town. Children’s toys were in the street. Some of my favorite businesses are gone. I saw a car part way up a house.
Please, send help. I don’t know what organizations to donate to. Any time I get online is spent networking relief efforts and getting the word out about missing persons. Keeping my family updated. Applying for FEMA assistance and mortgage relief. I have heard Blue Ridge Public Radio has a list on their website.
The death toll right now stands in the 50s. It is going to end up in the hundreds.
I am so heartbroken.
#I am ‘lucky’ because I have ptsd and crisis mode is my normal#i know how to cope in these situations#most people do not#I am hurting so much for everyone#please share. please share. I have no idea if this will even post#asheville#hurricane helene#western north carolina#wnc#some of my favorite places in Asheville have been wiped off the map#I am not okay. we are not okay.#this is still so much of a crisis I can’t even think about how I’m going to pay my bills right now#we’re just taking survival one day at a time
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i was born to watch my hero academia but made to read the bible instead the world is so cruel. moses was good until the red sea leviticus was ok but now im on joshua and it’s really fallen off again. mha is still better tho imo
you should try the iliad next
#ask#patrochilles truthers rise up#it's like if bakugou died for realzies and then izuku got so upset he went into a depression and refused to eat and properly mourn#and then Inko came and held him and started basically mourning Izuku because she knew without Katsuki he was basically dead too#and says “killing shigaraki is going to kill you too” and then Izuku goes “okay bet”#and then meets back up and rampages at shigaraki who tries to run but it's no use so shigaraki goes “yo... can we at least pinky promise#“not to desecrate the other's body if we kill them” and Izuku goes “nah I am going to rip your liver out and eat it”#and then kills him and drags his body all around the city in right front of the LOV#blah blah blah other stuff#and then in the spin off (odyssey) we see his ghost and he's like “heyyyyy I'm dead now ahahaha I did Not cope with Kacchan's death At All"#and yeah
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#MAKING MEMES TO COPE#I am just so fucking excited about Nuwa#*grabs Nuwa* WHY DID YOU MAKE MK#You sealed him I know you did#you sealed him in the fucking stone#And you told Wukong to watch over that stone#I KNOW YOU FUCKING DID#EAMK EAMK EAMK EAMK EAMK EAMK EAMK EAMK EAMK-#NUWA WHY IS MK CONNECTED TO THE FUCKING CURSE#TELL ME#YOU TELL ME RIGHT NOW#*ahem* anyways#lmk#lego monkie kid#lmk meme#lmk nuwa
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Damn. Armored core makes me feel alive in a way no other game has. NG++ is an experience unlike any other. I'm never going into a fight blind. I know just how to strafe to dodge every enemy attack. The Cataphract, once the bane of my existence, is now a casual WARMUP. I came to hear the PCA and corps alike beg. I routinely hit "I'm not gonna sugarcoat it" combos that delete enemy health. I'm more alive in the cockpit than in real life. I'm free, there. I can fly fast enough, high enough, far enough. Not on borrowed wings, but my own.
#armored core 6#ac6#its been helping me cope with my recent identity crisis too#maybe im the AC right now#and i need to let the pilot out#but at the same time#i am both
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They are IN LOVE! and being so brave about it!!!
#giant tiny#gt#g/t#size difference#size difference???????#sizetumblr#mini giant#they’re both quite young (she’s twenty and never been kissed. he’s trans and not expressed love this way before 🥺)#the state is fucking with me and my trans girlfriend right now and I’m so mad I’m so so mad about it#but I’m coping by drawing these little trans lovers loving despite the danger#all we have is love and community in the face of this state of fascist affairs#and I am so glad I have love and community here. I don’t know what I would do#anyway giant robot#ocs#my ocs#my art#illustration#notes app
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A momentary apology to everyone who followed me thinking I was a cute magical girl and occasional Alice in Wonderland blog.
#stella talks#.you have to understand........#.garashir hits every shipping button I've got and then some#.it's like it was tailor made for my tastes in ways i didn't know were possible.#.i went almost a week without sleeping when i started ds9 because it hit me so hard.#.garashir was so compelling to me it shook me into a manic episode for over a MONTH.#.i am literally only just starting to come down from that.#.it did something to my brain chemistry okay.#.also some chance this is related to one of my closest friends dying and fixating so hard on a ship is a coping thing.#.idk might be unrelated though who could say!!! >_>;;;;;#.the manic episode started before she died though so.#.i think it is being drawn out because i can't handle my feelings on magical girl stuff right now because it make me think of her.#.so ds9 is a nice safe outlet for me while i try to come to terms with everything.#... she'd have loved my starfleet magical girl au tho. pain. ):
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we listen and we dont judge emmrich and irish wake/death stuff hes the one covering mirrors, hes one one stopping all the clocks and opening the windows, hes eating the sins and offering ppl fags as theyre huddled around the back door, his mothers recipe for funeral soup on an old yellowed piece of paper, a hip flask he presses into your hand in the church carpark after you watch the hearse drive off, your finger tips are so cold as you take a swig before splitting into groups that reunite at the cemetery, he some how is always the first one there, hes doing dishes and the kettle seems to be on a never ending boil, endless rounds of the house during the wake and hes making sure to talk to everyone, even briefly "Oh, they looked just like themself, didnt they?" shaking the priests hand after the final prayers in the home as the pallbearers lift them for the first time, hes doing small mends to funeral outfits, i have to stop myself sjdbsmshssmd
#so basically i am Going Through it right now#and i need the comfort of that old man#this is just me projecting hard hard hard in an attempt to cope but also its all Very Him#they made this guy with me in mind for real#emmrich volkarin#datv
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I swear I have read your big post regarding Peter Parker's neurodivergence and why it is best to avoid labelling him, but he definitely has a weird brain
Can't find it and feel kinda sad about it cuz I deeply related to it
i know exactly which post you're talking about and i can't find it either! i've raked through my archive, and it's just - nowhere to be seen. i think tumblr eated it (it happens.)
really, tumblr's search functionality is so so useless, i don't know what to tell you. there are plenty of keywords i can search to find it that post, but the search functionality actually just does not work!
undiagnosed audhd-addled peter parker, my darling, my light, my life, my everything.
i think peter parker's such an interesting creature to write, because a lot of people will point to a certain behaviour about him and say "this is an autistic thing, right?" but a lot of those behaviours are actually, in my head, tied to certain traumas in peter's life too.
people say "oh, the food thing, peter's a picky eater because he's autistic" and yes, absolutely. but also it's tied to his trauma with his parents.
peter gets overstimulated, and yes, it's an autism thing, but also he was bitten by a radioactive spider and his senses are dialled to 11.
it's a similar case i've found for myself, too – where a lot of friends i have kind of diagnose me because i have autistic traits, but actually - i'm hesitant to claim the label or pursue diagnosis because, actually, i know where these certain behaviours come from, and they come from certain traumas. there are events i can pinpoint in my life and say "yep. that's where this behaviour comes from."
so - i think there's a lot of overlap between trauma and autistic traits. the brain is very complex! i think the reason for that overlap is maybe as simple as the fact that people with autism and people with trauma are both doing the same thing - developing behaviours to protect themselves or soothe themselves. so - i think it's nice to be able to see a character like peter parker, who may or may not be autistic, but recognise behaviours in him and see yourself in him.
people who go undiagnosed for whatever reason - people who are really good at masking - so good, in fact, that they have no idea they might be on the spectrum - everyone and anyone at all can look at peter parker and recognise themselves. because i think we discredit the thought that every single brain does the same thing! develops certain behaviours in order to survive. every brain has that same software - we've just all been faced with different hardships that we need to overcome, and that's were all the differences come in.
autism is a spectrum, i guess - everyone falls into it to some degree. and i think events in your life probably push you along on it. but i don't know, i didn't study brain science. probably what i'm saying is very stupid and uninformed. of course there's brain chemistry involved. but i know people in my life living with autism and certain events in their life have exacerbated certain behaviours or made coping with it a lot more difficult. so maybe trauma is a catalyst.
#a lot of my traits have been exacerbated lately and i remember it was much easier for me before#and some of my friends have said “oh it's because you've been masking too long and now you're facing autistic burnout.”#and that made sense to me i think.#but then i found out about the stress thing. me overproducing stress hormone. and that's a very physical thing.#and that explains why i've been overstimulated more than usual lately. and why everything feels like too much.#and i wonder how many of these traits of mine are going to subside once i have lamar removed#and it makes me wonder a lot of things. and it's so weird how much your brain is tied to your biology.#i wonder how much i'll change. i wonder how i'll feel. i wonder if i'll still feel like me. i wonder how much me is me right now.#and how much of me is being altered by weird freaky hormones. who am i?? who will i be??#i'm almost looking at this as like. a superhero origin story of some sort. like this is my spider-bite moment. maybe.#will i be different? will i cope with things differently?? now that my body isn't fighting something anymore??#maybe i'll be normal. i don't know. i don't know.#i don't know what it'll mean for me.#but all of these things mean i relate to peter parker in a certain kind of way#i don't think you have to be diagnosed with autism to recognise and empathise with those traits i think#i think everyone can see themselves in peter. and i think that's the benefit of having characters that aren't diagnosed.#because there's so much overlap in the human experience. and certain feelings aren't exclusive to just one group of people.#peter has such a rich identity actually. it's an autistic thing. it's a queer thing. it's a jewish thing. it's a trauma thing.#there are so many overlapping parts of peter's identity that inform who he is and how he behaves and it's never just one thing.#it's a product of all of his things.#just like me! just like everyone.#so me? i guess i can be a million things. you can explain what i am in a million different ways.#a hundred different psychologists can all come up with different ways to explain why i be the way i be.#i don't think it's something that can be simplified.#sorry wow. i'm really going off here in the tags.#i hope people don't think i'm stupid. i don't know brain science. i'm just philosophising as usual.#sci speaks
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Y’all thinking about an older Ares has RUINED me
#hyrule warriors#hw link#kheprri rambling#fucked by the ‘perfect hero’ treatment and is a little hit jaded and scruffy and i am INSANE FOR IT#he does not cope well and i love that for him#obsessed with him. been thinking about him for a couple months now for my wargod au and yall i cannot stop#volga gets the treatment too but its slightly less noticeable coz hes a dragon#also sorry about there being nothing going on. every time i want to start on something i get hit by just utter pain and cant focus#so ive just been playing games and sleeping trying to get through it lol#but that also gave me a lot of thinking time for the aus. especially the main one (and this one obv)#also sorry if u dont vibe with the headcanon/au. hes far from being a dick or entitled hes just tired of being perfect for others—#—and just wants to live in peace with his dragon bf lmao#2024+ is the era of khep(me) forcing myself to draw facial hair because ive always been afraid of not doing it right#actually i love drawinf facial hair and all hair in general tbh im just horrified of people being like ‘lol ur wrong die’ XD#anyways sorry. rambling. too many brain thoughts not enough outlets for#will be posting the mistflier species sheet wip on kofi eventually i just wanna type the words out to make it more legible#it IS still a wip and thats why its gonna be going on kofi until its finished#<- and also coz its tailnrr related
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What if there’s a tender moment between Alicent and Rhaenyra this season and as Rhaenyra is leaving Alicent yells ‘wait!’ and runs up to her and says ‘forgive me for this’ and kisses her as Rhaenyra cups her face and kisses her back.
#rhaenicent#this will totally happen 100% i am not coping#I dreamnt about this last night#also dreamnt looks really weird to me right now like it’s incorrectly spelt but I also got like 4 hours sleep#alicent x rhaenyra#rhaenyra targeryan#alicent hightower#house of the dragon#alicent hightower x rhaenyra targaryen#hotd#hotd s2#what if#what if this happened (it won’t im crazy)#I should write a fic with this prompt true#except i have like 4 rhaenicent fics im kinda working on rn om
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i have. too many things to do.
#and of course what i WANT to do is write fanfic and read the ten different books i want to read and make art just for fun#and also be a couch potato and watch youtube videos for a couple hours with no guilt#but i was sick for a week and that's a week's worth of missed classes and homework i'm now trying to catch up on#in addition to new stuff#and i was already falling a bit behind in a couple classes because they don't have enough structure for me#and like. i'm managing. i'm getting stuff done.#but it's exhausting to know that tomorrow when i only have to go to one class i will be spending all day on homework#....i need to not tell myself that. i need to build in space for breaks or i will burn myself out#i do not want to be at risk of burnout in the first month of school with an intentionally very low courseload#this is just. so frustrating and stressful#and i'm coping. but i wish i didn't have to#vent#school stress#stars rambles#i am somewhat grateful that needing something to wind down from homework with has made me excited to write fic for the first time in months#but the downside of that is that i do not have enough time right now
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Hey guys if I were to become a villain right here Right now as a cleaner WHAT would my villain name be. Do NOT put "The Cleaner" or some lame shit, I need HONEST SUGGESTIONS for NO PARTICULAR REASON.
#only in gotham#rp blog#arkham asylum#THE SHIFT HAS BEEN BAD GUYS. IT HAS BEEN BAD.#I'VE HAD IT#IT'S ONE OF THOSE DAYS WHERE YOU LOOK AT THE CHEMICALS IN THE CLEANING CUPBOARD AND YOU THINK TO YOURSELF.#“YEAH. YEAH I COULD MAKE A SHIT TON OF MUSTARD GAS RIGHT FUCKING NOW.”#Anyways#No heroes put me on a watch list please. I'm just some working class bloke leave me alone I am coping in Interesting Ways.
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