#i am SO right about this i just know it. i let the autism win and this is what it did...

[monscrow]

o...ookay... so. i only slept like two hours but. but hear me out.

snonadwo..... soandow........... sonadow as funpoison THOSE HEDGEHOGS AS KILLJOYS. ARE YOU HEARING ME OUT. PLEASE HEAR ME OUT. PLESEA. PLEASE. are you picking up what i'm putting down. please this is everything

[kyri45]

✨ShadowPeach Bio Parents Bio AU Q&A! 25/03✨

Welcome to the Q&A! A space where I can answer related or similar question about the Shadowpeach Bio Parents AU! If you submitted your ask anonimously, then you’ll have to check the whole post if it’s answered here, if it’s not, worry not! Your asks might have been used for a future comic or just in the queue~

@miauintao ha chiesto: Is there a reason Macaque and Wukong seems to keep neglecting to teach Mk about "demon etiquette"? (using Redson phrasing) Especially since he's a prince now and everything, are we going to see them teaching him about all of this stuff he should know now about demons? Sorry if my English is bad

They did tell him the basics with the whole "talk" when he discovered his crush. Red Son was talking about etiquette as a celestial royal, which is something PIF taught him since he was a child.

@roseltelle ha chiesto: Do you think pigsy leaves mk the restaurant? If he does I imagine he would still want to keep it open. Probably hiring new people. I say because if he chooses to still do deliveries occasionally if a customer asks for the owner he finally gets to say I am the owner.

Uhhhh who knows? Shadowpeach are the only one who learned the recipe. I would guess maybe Chang'e would maybe keep Pigsy's recipe as secret

@filiothings ha chiesto: What’s Bai He doing with Macaque and the stars thing?

just practicing with small metal pieces to create simple shapes.

@plushroseart ha chiesto: Hey I love your Au and art I was wondering if i could write about your au with my own twist to it would that be okay as long as I give credit? Just asking :)

With credit and tagging yes

@autism-autobot ha chiesto: If Red Son didn't know MK was trans, he's gonna find out soon, isn't he?👀

I bet he told him already haha.

@roseltelle ha chiesto: I think I'm is so funny that Macaque and wukong are opposites socially from what you would expect you would expect the sun guy to be the extrovert and the moon guy to be the introvert. But no Wukong just wants to hang out with the people he already knows and no one else. While macaque is out here acting, running a dojo, ext.

hehe trueee

@bonbonfoxyton ha chiesto: Do you think that DBK knows what happened between Wukong and macaque's courtnaping to tell red son that Mk probably has the same weakness as Wukong to use against Mk to courtnap him? I feel like DBK would be that petty to win against Wukong for who courtnaps who between their sons

No, only Macaque know Wukong secret weakness

@deadhope34 ha chiesto: Can Mei, Tang, Pigsy and Sandy not just eat a immortality peach? Li Xing said he and the heaven would give help to MK with his now title prince of heaven. And keeping him happy with keeping his family together would be in heavens best interest one eould asume.

of course they can, but that doesn't mean they want to.

@steadylandface ha chiesto: What if Guanyin raised Mk?

My friend told me she would try to disguise him as a pet to the other celestial lol. He would be a little menage who would bite every ankle in heaven and Guanyin just smiles and goes "aww look at him!!"

@angelikis1 ha chiesto: HI! 👋 i just wanted to ask if you have any tip for beginner comic makers (don't know if i said that right 😅) @ellster7 ha chiesto: Hi, I'm a big fan of the shadowpeach Bio parent AU and was wondering if you had any tips or advice on how to start a project like it,as I'm struggling to start one.

have time

have a schedule

know the ending

just do a little bit more than the bare minimun to not burn out/ find ways to make the process faster

@magician-kitty ha chiesto: Hi! Once again, I love your art. And Ive been meaning to say this… I was a bit surprised when I saw that you included Chang’e during Mk’s trial. I always thought she couldn’t leave the moon.

Just for the sake of giving my wife more screen time let's make it they allowed her to be present

@shentheauthor ha chiesto: I think it’s interesting that macaque’s fancy hanfu is folded right over left. That’s only ever done on corpses. Is my guy being emo? Because that’s hilarious

because my dude died and came back to life

@aguadechia14 ha chiesto: Ok before all this I just have one question, what was mk’s reaction to the shadowpeach relationship? Jsjsjsjs

I think the way he discovered was, finally, THIS scenario

@autism-autobot ha chiesto: Who's the announcer in the last chapter?

Technically should be one of the celestials. In my mind he's Chi Fu from Mulan

@healingwordswriter ha chiesto: Hiiii so first congratulations on almost finishing your comic. I feel I can say for many people that this comic has meant a lot to many of us in the fandom and it has been really a journey that I’m happy we did alongside you 💜 Now onto my questions, now that Xiaotian is the Prince of Heaven, that means someday he will become the Emperor? And if he did become the emperor how he would rule over heaven? His loved ones like his parents (the 4 of them) and Red Son now have a title for being a direct link to the prince? Thanks for everything, for your story your creativity everything. I can’t wait to see what else you will bring us in the future ✨

I'm 98% sure that he could even be able to hold the Emperor's power, but he ain't the guy to become an emperor. Being a prince is already a little too much for him.

@alastair-1205 ha chiesto: Posting the final chapter on the Ides of March is perfect because seeing this series end will be as devastating as getting stabbed to death by my supposed political allies :"D /pos

Prepare the knifes everyone the coronation was a group-stabbing event to kill Li Jing

@awwwskib ha chiesto: I am so happy yet so sad this fic is coming to an end :( do you have any plans on what your gonna do next? Are you gonna make another fic, more LMK stuff, or something else? ALSO I LOVE THE GAY MONKEY SUPREMACY @rmzbai ha chiesto: Hey, kyri45, this might be a stupid question, but when u finish the ShadowPeach Bio Parents AU. Will you fully discontinue it, or now and then will u post like just random bits like what they would do now in normal life now and then? (Just asking bc I want to know😅) @sh00tingstarnightss ha chiesto: I have a question (you don't have to answer it if you don't want to, ofc.) When you finish ShadowPeach parents au, do you plan to make other comics? Or even upload other things, whether fanarts or something like that? Whether it's lmk or other fandoms you're in. Btww, I love your work so much!1!1! <3 ♡♡♡

I have like- 4 years worth of fanart to post here on Tumblr. I will most likely finish the ISAT comic. As for LMK we will see. I will also see wheter S6 is confirmed or not and when it comes out.

@roseltelle ha chiesto: Does redson prefer being called mks boyfriend or more gender neutral terms like partner

partner or boyfriend or girlfriend depending on the day

@presumably-human-stillchecking ha chiesto: Hi there kyri! First off wanna say absolutely adore your art as well as your stories, they are truely a work of art and I greatly admire your skill in story telling. But I also had a quick question did you happen to have a concept design of the over robe or coat mk is wearing to his corelation? Or maybe just a rough outline of the back? Oke if not I was just wondering. Can't wait for the finally!! Keep up the amazing work!

hellou. Nope it's just the same as the front, a gradient from orange to red to dark purple.

@roseltelle ha chiesto:

Does mk stick his tongue out, say gross, or whatever when Wukong and Macaque kiss. As an inside joke of course he loves them.

he covers his face and avoid to see the ungodly amount of tooth-rotting fluff his parents need to show off 24/7

@zoesilva-art ha chiesto: Hi i just wanted to tell you that i love your art so much ! i've been following your work for a while, and you're actually the one who made me curious about LMK so now thanks to you i've develloped an hyperfixation over it haha ! I know the shadowpeach bio parent AU is almost over so i just wanted to thank you, i love the story, the artstyle, the designs...everything ! :)

@proud-memer ha chiesto: Ahhh! I can't believe the shadowpeach bio parents au is ending. I've loved seeing all the updates and it's been such a blast to see the story develop. Thank you so much for granting us this! Side note: That end credits video reminded me of just how much I love your designs for Wukong and Macaque when they are trying to pass as humans.

@alizardonfire ha chiesto: I personally want to thank you for giving us this amazing story and that you inspired others to do the same....if i may share my story about finding LMK. Was through my friends. I watched it here and there and I'm glad that I found your little AU. Thank you for making my life a brighter light in the future. See you at the end of the road mate. I cant wait to see what you do next! @astro-nomaly ha chiesto: Kyri I desperately need you to understand what an absolute gift your bio parents au is. It’s just. So so so good everything I’ve ever wanted from anything lmk 🫶 @rin-rin-comics ha chiesto: Thank you so much for the amazing AU! It would always update during lunch at school for me and I was always excited when I realized it was an update day Your comic really helped get me through some rough patches this and last year, so thank you so much for everything @0casey96 ha chiesto: You just killed me with that masterpiece of an ending it was amazing and the last part with the dubbing I was already crying but then you slapped me across the fase with that my heart can't take this I love your comic so much and the art is absolutely amazing I shall never recover frome this heart brake 🥲😭❤ as well as how the comic starts with them under the tree talking and ended with its to much. @scrumptiouscrownmoon ha chiesto: I just finished your shadowpeach bio parents au. I’ve tried to read MANY comics before but I’ve never been able to stick with them. Idk if it’s because I lost interest in them, forgot abt them, or just life, but this was the first comic series I’ve ever actually finished. And I LOVED it!!!!! Thank you for making the first comic I actually read to the very end, it did not disappoint: I waited excitedly for each new part every week, checking your tumblr at least 5 times a week lol. Definitely one of the best fan inspired things I’ve ever seen, 10000000/10 @ninjahaku21art ha chiesto: I just want to come by and say thank you for making this incredible AU! I almost cried tears of joy for the ending, just so wholesome and awesome! 🥹✨ I cannot wait to see what you create moving forward! @o-rainknight-o ha chiesto: I just need to say thank you for making such an amazing story! I know that you had no idea it would blow up as much as it did, and the number of people who came here for it must have been kind of overwhelming, but you stuck with it to the end and it's been one of the best times in recent years for me. I love your art style and how you color. It's always so beautiful. This might be the end of the comic but I don't plan on going anywhere. I don't know what you have planned for the future, if anything, but I plan on being around for it, on my LMK account or otherwise. Thank you Kyri for making such an amazing story about all these dorks ~

ACASKCAJASC THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!!

[autisticsupervillain]

Autistic Avatars not realizing that they're Avatars because they're just "like that": a thread

The Eye

Special Interest in the supernatural = constant food for The Watcher

You know about Interest? TELL ME EVERYTHING

"Hey man listen to me infodump about this horrifying ghost story I read for twenty minutes, alright?"

I need to Know everything about something before I partake in it.

"How did I Know that? Eh, I probably hyperfixated on it at some point."

I cannot be misunderstood so I'll beam the facts into your brain.

The Web

I must plan everything 200 steps in advance before doing anything.

I have prepared for all possible outcomes, I can now have this one conversation.

If I set up all these variables long in advance, then I can do everything correctly and Win the social interaction.

I cannot do anything before The Plan says to.

"I practice my social skills by talking to my spider friends." -Martin "Autism" Blackwood

The Stranger

I cannot socialize without being Uncanny.

If my socialization seems like an act, that's because it is. I practice it in the mirror every day.

Theater Kid

How do you Normal Human?

The Anatomy Class.

Assuming fellow Stranger Avatars also just have the 'Tism. They're not trying to be creepy, honest.

Can't do faces. Doesn't notice when you get replaced.

Being subtly off is too subtle for me.

The Lonely

"I have failed the social interaction. Let the fog reclaim me."

Talking to people is draining my batteries even faster than ever. I need to be alone for approximately 384,400,000 years.

Nothing can overstimulate me in the cool, blinding fog.

Nothing unpredictable can happen in the fog.

The fog is your friend.

The known connection between autism and depression feeds the fog.

The Dark

Why is the sun so god damn bright? I'm going to blow it up I swear.

Night Owl.

Everything's decently quite at night and people leave you alone.

Same overstimulation preventatives as the Lonely tbh. Dark and fog are good concealers.

The dawn is your enemy.

The dread florescent lights shall never bother me again. They break upon my arrival.

Can and will infodump to the monster under my bed. Even now it feels like it listens.

The Spiral

Autism makes getting other mental illnesses recognized hard.

Autism dissociation from body and mind. When did it become 3 AM and why do I hurt? Why am I grumpy? What vital self care task did I forget?

Literal mind doesn't often match reality. Reality is specifically unspecific.

Spaced out and wandered off. Where the fuck am I?

I'm not a mental baby, please stop treating me like it.

I'm not inherently dangerous, please stop treating me like it.

Memory problems my beloathed. Did that happen? I dunno.

What Is Time?

What Is Me?

The Gender

Why do things only make sense to me? What does no one else make sense?

The Flesh

Autism Genderfuckery = Flesh fueled dysphoria.

Meat is the only texture that's palatable. Especially the Mystery Meat.

Will never try any other foods. Too picky.

Infodumps about the horrors of meat processing at dinner and ruins the meal for everyone. More steak for me.

Hates PETA.

Double the arms means double the stim. You weren't using them, right?

Working out is a great stim.

The Corruption

Practices social interaction with the bugs who live in my walls.

"Insects are disgusting. I love them!"

Will protect endangered insects by any means necessary.

According to all known laws of aviation-

Relationship boundaries struggles.

Difficulty noticing sickness symptoms.

Is that nausea or am I overstimulated? *Accidentally causes supernatural plague outbreak*

Difficulty getting diseases diagnosed because of both Autism and noticing too many symptoms so the doctors assume they're faking.

Forgot vital hygiene needs.

The Bugs Are My Friends! They keep me company when I'm sick!

The Buried

Weighted blankets are insufficient, I need the Earth to reclaim me.

Avoid social interaction by tunneling everywhere like a mole.

101 facts about worms.

Forgor hygiene again. Time to become dirt.

Digging a hole is good stimming.

That guy who had to be buried alive to sleep properly. What do you mean you don't want to be buried?

The End

Aradia Megido from Homestuck.Com

That's it, that's the list.

The Desolation

The Autism Temper.

Losing relationships and friendships to ableism and your own disability constantly.

The Fire is a wonderful stim board. Watch it crinkle.

Just watching candles melt for hours.

The fire and thrill gives my life passion again.

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The Vast

Accidentally terrifying people by infodumping about the horrors of nature.

The stimulus of falling.

Nature/Space/Weather Documentary on in background always.

Okay, but from how high did you fall? I want to calculate your velocity as you fell through the void.

Weirdly enough... power scaling?

Power scaling is just the art of determining how easily your favorite characters can destroy mankind so... yeah, I can see it.

Brain empty, only terminal velocity.

The Hunt

Cat Autism

The inherent hyperfocus of the hunt. The chase. Your prey.

Studying the habits of your latest hyperfixation/Hunt assigned prey for days at a time.

I've spent so much time hunting in the woods that I forgot about human society. The Missing Person's Bureau have written you off for dead.

Returning to society to sell your wears and realizing you aren't human anymore.

That's okay. Social interaction is random. The Hunt makes sense.

It's black and white. Predator and prey. Humans hunting monsters. It Makes Sense.

The Slaughter

The incredible human WW1 documentary.

"Did you know?" *Describes horrible historic warcrime*

Takes apart puts back together guns from their collection.

The list of known casualties from this war is incomplete. With my help, they can expand it. :)

The Extinction

The world is spiraling towards its end and only you seem to care.

It hurts to be this passionate about a lost cause.

You Will Make Them Care.

[sweetttsummer]

didnt really have a specific scenario in mind but like hcs / bulletpoints would be cool if you're okay with that! thank you:))

- 🧩

hi anon, good to hear from you again!!! :D of courseeee i'd like to try this!! i personally am not on the spectrum so apologizes if something isn't right, but hopefully this isn't terrible <3 thanks for the ask again you're a doll and everything good in the world.

headcanons of autistic!reader x robert chase

chase at his core is in fact: a loverboy

so he spends so much time paying close attention to you

notices the little things

he doesn't really come to the conclusion you're autistic, mostly because he doesn't like thinking of you as a patient to look at and diagnose

instead when he does notice traits of your autism he just thinks it as you (because it is) and just finds it endearing because like i said..LOVER!!!BOY!!!

like if you're the type to get overestimated easily he'd do everything in his power to avoid those situations

for example he would notice if you always grimaced at the same sweater he wore, (because the texture is a nightmare) and do his best to not wear it when its date night or whenever he knows hes gonna see you, (at some point he simply donates it, doesn't really like the sweater that much anyways)

he'd turn down the television when he notices you tense at how loud it is and never mention it

whatever it is that really IRKED you, he'd notice and do everything in his power to not let it happen or have you in the situation

if you're the type of person who really has concrete thinking (guilty!!!) he learns quickly that you Mean it when you say something. meeting up at 3:30pm, means meeting at 3:30pm. two spoonfuls of sugar in a coffee MEANS two spoonfuls of sugar in a coffee.

it's honestly really nice, he doesn't have to question when you mean things, you're honest and upfront and its so refreshing to whatever bullshit he had in the past, (esp if he had already had his thing with cameron)

when you do finally tell him you're autistic, it kind of clicks for him and when he says he didn't know you're kind of shocked because like..he's been so helpful and kind (he's just Like That)

you'd be like "so when i get overstimulating by the television, you didn't assume anything whatsoever?"

he'd shake his head in that sweet way where he's so sincere, "i just turned it down, doesn't bother me"

"what about that sweater with the rough knitting ? you stopped wearing it, i thought you knew it was bothering me"

"well yeah but i stopped wearing it because you'd grimace whenever i touched you while i was wearing it... that didn't feel great, darling"

if you have a special interest he doesn't know anything about, he'd want to learn about it

at first he'd just search it up online or something and then when he realized how annoying it was (because the internet in the 2000s was A Task) he'd just ask you about it and oh boy..was that the best decision of his life

he loves hearing how your mind works and things that you love so when he got you started about whatever fixation it was and you just...infodump he is MORE than happy to just sit and actually listen

he's just mentally giggling and kicking his feet at how much you're just so you when you're talking about the things you care about.

if you have a special interest he DOES know about..he takes it as a challenge, he says something about the subject, and then you do and it turns into a strange game of who knows more (it's always you, even when he thinks it's him...he lets you win, you're happy to win and he's happy you're happy)

every once in a while he own curiosity would rear its head and he'd ask questions, "did you always know?" "how does it differ from person to person?" "do you think house might be autistic?"

and the more you opened up the more he'd ask questions (and if you didn't open up, he'd do his own research to satisfy his curiosity while still respecting your boundaries)

you make him feel like he's actually funny

not because you're not funny but because he's so bad at being funny

and so smug when he is trying to be funny that you'll laugh out simply knowing he's trying to be funny and you find his lack of funny...funny.

mostly, things are the same because he loves you, not in spite of you being autistic or because you're autistic, he knows its just who you are and hes simply in love with who you are as a person.

extra a/n: each autistic person is gonna be different, this is just my take on this request...i'm also choosing to ACTIVELY ignore the fact that house md is very much a 2000s show that doesn't handle things like autism representation well so if you don't like that whomp whomp!

[mad-intersex-mermaid]

I'm a Moonwalker and a Michael Jackson fan. I'm also autistic. And I support the theory of MJ possibly being autistic and neurodivergent.

I've been a Moonwalker for a decade now since 2008 and have been in the Moonwalkers fandom for quite a while now, and I want to say just how much I truly appreciate all of you for providing a safe space for me and MJ fans everywhere. I'm extremely thankful for all of you.

So with that out of the way, I'm just gonna get right to the main point and say that I wholeheartedly support the theory of MJ possibly being autistic and neurodivergent.

Because seriously, everything about MJ--his quirks, his tics, his eccentricities, his razor sharp eye for the most meticulous details in everything from his dancing and choreography to his music and sound to his visuals, to his overall artistic vision, to his intelligent innovation in his artistry, etc. screams autistic.

Plus there was MJ's adamance on perfecting every single thing he did, his hyperfixation on Peter Pan and Neverland, his bluntness and hilarious pattern of letting his intrusive thoughts win most of the time lol. Seriously, my autistic-dar is sounding off!

Then, like I said before, I myself am autistic and have displayed many of these traits before and plus my personality is similar to MJ's, so I see a lot of myself in him (and I have some of the same hyperfixations as he did!).

And finally, to illustrate my main point: while it won't ever be entirely clear if and whether MJ was autistic as he's no longer here, bringing up the possibility of MJ being autistic shouldn't be dismissed or looked at negatively.

Now this part I'm addressing mainly to some fans that have reacted negatively with hostility to this theory, which disappoints me as an autistic moonwalker, as such negativity and hostility is rooted in ignorance, ableism, autiphobia and stigma that's harmful.

I understand that everybody's protective of MJ's character, legacy and memory due to how horribly the media and tabloids treated him and the many hateful narratives they push about him. But mentioning the possibility of MJ being autistic is not one of them.

Autism and being autistic does not mean dumb, slow, stupid or weak, and being seen as autistic is not an insult or something to treat as shameful, embarassing, offensive or something to hide out of embarassment. So don't treat it like it is.

All of these notions are rooted in ignorance, falsely misconceived notions and lack of education at best and hateful ableism, bigotry and prejudice at worst, which further fuel stigma and all of which need to be dismantled. Especially in black communities.

If anything, it's all the more reason why MJ's possible autism should be talked about as it's an even sadder and more damning indictment of the media and tabloids' cruelty towards MJ, and much of that cruelty being rooted in racism and autiphobic ableism--which in turn makes MJ's story and the severity of his trauma and suffering from the abuse others inflicted on him even more heartbreaking, especially as that in turn parallels how many autistics face that exact same trauma from bullying, discrimination and abuse from others just for being different--and this needs to be discussed regarding how these systemic forms of stigma, prejudice, bigotry and ignorance harms and affects autistic folks and especially black and brown autistic folks of color. And as Moonwalkers who've become increasingly aware of the ableism fueling the media's cruelty towards MJ for his disabilities, we should know better than to continue that cycle of ignorance, prejudice and stigma.

So I wanna say this as a word of admonishment to other Moonwalkers: how you react to somebody mentioning the probability of MJ being autistic reflects how you yourself feel about autistic folks like me and autism as a whole.

So it's high time to unlearn and dismantle the mentalities of ableism and autiphobia in a casteist, discriminatory and ableist world that refuses to accomodate, and less so with black and brown autistic folks of color.

And like it or not, autistic liberation and black liberation are deeply tied to each other, just like civil rights for the chronically ill and physically disabled and civil rights for black people are tied to each other. And all of these things are at the heart of Michael's story.

So the fight to recognize MJ's struggles as a chronically ill, physically disabled and undiagnosed autistic black man and all of the bullying, racism, ableism, autiphobia, prejudice, stigma and discrimination that came with it must become a fight for the rights of those like him. And in order for that stigma and prejudice to be erased and unlearned, it starts with you and me.

So be cognizant of how you react to anyone that brings up the theory of MJ's possible autism. Because it'll reflect how you ultimately feel about autistic folks like me and whether you truly care about MJ and honoring his memory.

And any autistic Moonwalkers such as myself that see myself in him and now find deeper resonance with him and his work and who he was as an individual are watching.

And as the song Man in the Mirror says, if you wanna make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and then make a change.

[thehappyspaceman]

On RFK Jr.'s BS (and its ties to a known hate group).

I don't usually write posts about stuff like this, but I gotta get this out of my system.

So I'm sure all of y'all by now have seen what Robert F. Kennedy Jr. has said about people with autism, as part of his anti-vax rhetoric of using "environmental factors" (vaccines) as a cause of autism. And in this, he talks about how kids' lives are ruined by autism with the following (CW: Ableism):

Now, there are many, many things wrong with this. The biggest part is that he's calling for autistic people to be institutionalized, which is... a choice. There's also the fact that he listed "paying taxes" and "holding a job" in front of the other elements of personal fulfillment, basically stating that contributing to the state is a higher priority than being able to fulfill one's own personal needs. Then there's the idea that people with autism will never do any of these things, which is... blatantly wrong, and it is incredibly, and understandably, tempting to focus on the fact that yes, there are plenty of autistic people who can hold a job, play baseball, write a poem, go out on a date, yadda yadda. We all know that. Literally two seconds of googling will debunk this. And ultimately there's little point in trying to argue with these people about these facts when they can just blatantly lie and get away with it.

But let's go back to that first one I listed, because the overall biggest issue is simply the fact that he wants autistic people in general to be institutionalized and states that they are lesser people.

This is not out of nowhere. In fact, I immediately recognized this as the language of Autism Speaks.

For those who somehow don't know, Autism Speaks is an "autism awareness" organization that notably has no people with autism on its board, has vast money mismanagement funneling company funds directly into the people at the top, and has been criticized by a huge number of people with autism. Not undeserved, either, as they've spent years and years convincing parents that having a kid with autism, of any level of functionality, is the literal worst thing in the world and will tear apart your family, break up your marriage, make your family a laughingstock, and put you thousands of dollars in debt. And by the way, this is not an exaggeration. They had a commercial that literally said as much (again, CW for ableism):

Here's the (partial) transcript for those who understandably don't want to give it views:

I am autism. I’m visible in your children, but if I can help it, I am invisible to you until it’s too late. I know where you live. And guess what? I live there too. I hover around all of you. I know no color barrier, no religion, no morality, no currency. I speak your language fluently. And with every voice I take away, I acquire yet another language. I work very quickly. I work faster than pediatric aids, cancer, and diabetes combined, and if you’re happily married, I will make sure that your marriage fails. Your money will fall into my hands, and I will bankrupt you for my own self-gain. I don’t sleep, so I make sure you don’t either. I will make it virtually impossible for your family to easily attend a temple, birthday party, or public park without a struggle, without embarrassment, without pain. You have no cure for me. Your scientists don’t have the resources, and I relish their desperation. Your neighbors are happier to pretend that I don’t exist—of course, until it’s their child. I am autism. I have no interest in right or wrong. I derive great pleasure out of your loneliness. I will fight to take away your hope. I will plot to rob you of your children and your dreams. I will make sure that every day you wake up you will cry, wondering who will take care of my child after I die? And the truth is, I am still winning, and you are scared. And you should be.

Again, there is a lot to unpack with this. First of all, it places the emphasis of the problems on the parents ("I will make sure that your marriage fails. Your money will fall into my hands") rather than the autistic kids, because the kids are viewed as less human and their problems are lesser. This continues into the line about embarrassing the parents when going out to church, birthday parties, and parks. The kids are only taken into consideration after it says "You have no cure for me… I will fight to take away your hope," and even then, it says, "I will plot to rob you of your children and your dreams." Still placing emphasis on the parent rather than on the child--what about their dreams? Not taken into consideration because they are not human. And there's also the fact that it places heavy emphasis on the lack of a cure for autism, rather than on fixing society and giving accessibility accommodations for those with autism to make their lives easier.

The other video I'd like to bring up is this interview with one of the moms from Autism Speaks, who openly admits that she had considered killing herself and her autistic daughter (if you've gotten this far, you already know CW: ableism):

She's talking about it like one might talk about killing a pet that's sick. And in her own words, the only thing preventing her from doing so was her other non-autistic child. Because only that child is seen as human. Despicable.

And okay, yeah, most of you know that Autism Speaks is garbage. (I mean, I hope you know and I don't have to tell you, but if you didn't know before now, then I urge you to stop supporting them, and to tell anyone you know who does support them to also stop.) So why am I telling you this? Because this is literally the exact same rhetoric that RFK Jr. and every anti-vaxxer has. This belief that autism is a curse, a disease. To them, it's better to have your kid die of preventable diseases than risk even the possibility of them having autism. It's all right out of the Autism Speaks playbook.

It's no coincidence that earlier this year, we got that Zachary Levi movie, The Unbreakable Boy, that suggested that the thing to help people with autism is to chuck them into a mental asylum without ever visiting them and that will make them get better. That was based on a real blog from the father of an autistic child and was funded by Autism Speaks.

I don't like throwing around the term "eugenics," because it's one of those terms that gets overused to death on the Internet, and its overuse lessens the impact of the term. But... this is, quite literally, the language of eugenics. And it's becoming important to spot stuff like this, so I wanted to throw this out there.

Yes, plenty of autistic people will hold a job, play baseball, write a poem, go out on a date, pay taxes. But those who can't do those things are also important, and their lives shouldn't have to be justified based on how much they contribute to society and how exploitable their deviation from the norm is by elites.

Anyway, I'm done with this rant now. Screw Autism Speaks, screw RFK Jr., and screw anyone who ascribes to their rhetoric. Protect autistic people.

[robotnik-apologist]

Dr. Robotnik/Eggman in Regards to Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD):

Something I haven't seen talked about a lot in the larger Sonic fandom is this topic - though, as a woman with autism, I've brought it upon myself to write a small collective discussion about the common traits of ASD that Robotnik displays across various continuities. As with all of my other posts, everything said here is up for discussion - questions, comments, elaborations... regardless of what it is, feel free to drop it in my asks inbox.

Disclaimer: No, I am not using ASD to excuse any of Robotnik's actions, regardless of the media. If you haven't seen my page before, I assure you that my blog name is a joke.

This topic as a whole might sound silly, given how often autism is dumbed down in media. Robotnik wasn't written with ASD in mind, I'm sure - but he makes for surprisingly accurate representation.

(And for God's sake, not every character meant to represent a minority has to be morally good! Real representation is acknowledging that a character is a minority whilst also writing them as a genuine human being who isn't defined by that sole trait.)

Outside of that tangent, cough cough, not only is ASD sorely lacking in matters of representation for people with high-functioning variations, but it's often written in highly infantilizing ways, too.

So why do I personally believe Robotnik has some form of ASD?

There are a variety of reasons, but let's start with one that's a key component of his character: his intellect. We admittedly don't know much about the causes of ASD or the causes of high intelligence/IQ, but there is a correlative (though not necessarily causative) relationship between the two. Regardless of the theories, statistically people with high-functioning ASD are proportionately more likely to be geniuses (as defined by the American psychologist Lewis M. Terman, who set the IQ for “potential genius” at 140 and above). It's stated countless times across various kinds of media that Robotnik has an IQ around 300, which far exceeds the 'genius' quota.

This is going to get very technical from here (until I move onto the next category) so feel free to skip to that point. The average IQ test contains four kinds of questions: verbal comprehension, perceptual reasoning, working memory, and processing speed. More specifically, things such as pattern recognition and comprehension can also appear as subcategories. In high-functioning ASD, it's very common for individuals to experience heightened abilities in these categories, which leads to the overall higher average IQ, and therefore the qualification of genius being somewhat correlated with ASD. This isn't to imply that every person with ASD is a genius or vice versa, but rather that ASD changes the way a person's brain works. If the wires cross in just the right way, sometimes you end up with a genius (albeit realistically not as extreme as 300. that's ridiculous.).

For my next reason, I present hyperfixation. In almost every StH media, there are moments therein where Robotnik seems genuinely ready to risk his own life or the lives of his allies if it means eliminating Sonic. Why would a man built on logical reasoning do such a thing? It's simple - the prospect of winning against the object of his fixation is an instant dopamine rush. Dopamine and serotonin receptors are often 'messed up' in people with mental conditions such as ASD or AD(H)D, which leads to the formation of hyperfixations - it's simply a focus on the constant source of the chemical.

Now, it's reasonable to ask: why is he fixated on Sonic? Hell if I know. It's like asking why I'm so fixated on Robotnik. Sometimes logic doesn't need to explain everything, though that probably seems ironic in a post like this. As food for thought, though, Robotnik is a scientist in every definition of the word - and Sonic regularly defies basically every law of multiple studies of science. If I had built my life around the understand of these rules, only to have them all collapse because of one random teenager, I would probably be a little obsessed, too.

Now, my third reason for this is routine. ASD is known for manifesting as a heavy reliance on routines and familiarity. This can be found in COUNTLESS places, including the clothes that he wears. Now, yes, I understand that it's super common for cartoon/video game characters to wear the same outfit simply because nobody has the time to design a new outfit for each episode, installment, or issue that a character appears in. But in some contexts, I think it could be argued that Robotnik chooses to wear the same outfit because he's simply adjusted to them - though I'll return to this topic later. I think it's also arguable that Robotnik's focus on Sonic is built around routine - even if it's played as a joke. Once again, I'm aware that it's simply because of the often episodic nature of StH media, but it's undeniable that Robotnik is often depicted as doing the same thing every day with slight variations when necessary.

My fourth reason is empathy. People with ASD can often feel disconnected from others simply because they don't feel like they know the same 'moral code' that appears to be almost programmed into others. They may not understand why familial love is so commonplace, for example, which I think could be applied to Robotnik's lack of compassion towards Snively in SatAM and Archie (not defending it, of course, but it's definitely a possible cause).

This is also strongly connected to my next point, which is Robotnik's understanding of emotion. He's often depicted as immature in many aspects, which is fairly common for those with ASD - they often appear to be immature in the eyes of people who don't fully understand ASD. Not only this, but Robotnik is a master manipulator - he understands conversation incredibly well. Now, this might seem to detract from the point that I believe he has ASD, but it's quite the opposite. To become a master manipulator, one must study conversation, cultural norms, body language, and a variety of other things. But for people with ASD, studying these things is commonplace so that they can imitate what is deemed as 'normal' behavior - or, in other words, so that they can mask. With a person that has the intellect of Robotnik, it's reasonable to believe that this intimate understanding of conversation and persuasion could easily be twisted into manipulation.

Finally, though least convincingly, is sensory. It should go unspoken that ASD interferes with the sensory experiences of the brain and the body. As I mentioned earlier, Robotnik's consistent wardrobe is an example of satisfying a sensory need - and can even be found in the way that he dresses when he's not in his typical outfit. Take his racing outfit, for example - it very closely resembles his usual attire, at least in a material sense. People with ASD usually prefer/find certain materials or styles of clothing to be more comfortable than others. Hell, you could even argue that his (comically-intended) obsession with eggs is a sensory issue. You could also argue that he's unaware of his own strength, to an extent, given the multiple times that it's displayed across various medias. But his consistency in his grooming (mustache lol), clothing, routines, and other things all suggest that he's very aware of his own sensory needs.

Thanks for reading to the end of my crackpot theory, lmao. Like I said, I'm always up for discussion. Below here, I'm just linking to a few sources in case anyone wants to read more about my justifications for this post, or just about ASD and IQ tests in general!

[agirlandherquill]

oc interview tag

thanks @willtheweaver for the tag!

this one looks like fun!

i'll be using Edeva from Ruin's Reprisal for this one,

Were you named after anyone? - "Well, my middle name comes from a distant relative - Maenaire, I think there was a legend written about her once, I never had the chance to find out her story but my mother clearly saw some similarities between us."

When was the last time you cried? - "Ah, that. Do tears of anger count? I cried enough while I was screaming at Fenley for being a mangisen - that's a pig, in my native language. I think he got the message, tears or not."

Do you have any kids? - "No. I never considered children, and I don't think motherhood is a suitable role for an Exilza. I would never subject a child to this life, but if that ever changes... I don't know, maybe I would, if I found someone - someone that was right."

Do you use sarcasm a lot? - "More often with Fenley than not, I don't know why he just- Brings something out in me."

What is the first thing you notice about people? - "...In the old days, I would have said their faces. Faces can change, they can hide things, but I always looked at the eyes - These days, I notice whether someone is armed. I know more dangerous people than not at present and... It can never hurt to be safe."

What is your eye colour? - "Blue. Though Fenley would have many other things to say - He pays far more attention than I."

Scary movies or happy endings? - "I need no tales to know fear, and though I have yet to know one, I'd prefer a happy ending."

Any special talents? - "I can silence the most fearsome man the country has ever known with a single word, does that count? Oh, and please don't tell Fenley."

Where were you born? - "Vitaire Manor, right here in Aliria."

Do you have any pets? - "I was too preoccupied with the goings on of Court to take responsibility for anything other than myself, sadly. And in the wilderness now, I would wish that upon no animal."

What sort of sports do you play? - "Something of a verbal sparring match with Fenley, though sometimes, rare times - things almost turn violent. He never lets me harm him or myself in the process, which is nice. And despite what he says - I do win our arguments."

How tall are you? - "As much as I would love to call myself average, Fenley's laughter can be heard from here - I know, I know, I'm not as tall as I think I am."

What was your favourite subject in school? - "I seldom had proper lessons, aside from personal tutors but... I learned to dance, with Arden. That was one of the lessons I enjoyed the most."

What is your dream job? - "I've never had a job. I've always had an expectation - my engagement to Arden decided most of my life, until our wedding day - Well, I won't say being engaged to a Prince is simple, but it was certainly easier than being an Exilza."

now for the tags! i just updated my tag list so here goes! no pressure of course, looking forward to getting to know some other people's characters! - also open tag!

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@the-ellia-west @tildeathiwillwrite @drchenquill @365runesofthesystem @coffin-hopping

@godsmostfuckedupgoblin @a-mimsy-borogove @frostedlemonwriter @i-do-anything-but-write @r-u-living

@thatuselesshuman @lead-to-code @sunflowerrosy @theaistired @phoenixradiant

@autism-purgatory @corinneglass @tiredpapergirl @patheticexcuseforawriter @missmisanthrope

@your-writing-motivation @littlestchildofthemoon @morganxduinn @thebrownleathernotebook @rmhashauthor

@lamuradex @fantasy-things-and-such @glasshouses-and-stones @hattonthehatman @humbly-a-doppelganger

@hopecreatesstuff @ramwritblr @s-pendragon7 @thelastneuron @heartreactor

@ihauntmyhouse @shiningstars-world @scaewolf @mehxis @just-emis-blog

@joeys-piano @ramitola @thestoryteller8 @yrndrgn @riveriafalll

@lawrencespen1777 @theverumproject @zackprincebooks @ansanity2 @justjariel

@orion-lacroix @jupiter---daydreams @vinniehorrible @stars-forever @thewritingautisticat

@whatwewrotepodcast @anaisbebe @appleandsnow @urnumber1star @chaotictravelerrants

@andagii-projects @dragmewithyoutonirvana @a-bi-cat-with-books @fearofahumanplanet @just-a-domesticated-cryptid

[hiddeninthe-veil]

ok i am finally doing this sit down grab a snack cuz this is probably going to be a while. longer than my essay i did for class i fear

for some background infromation, this is a webseries called alien stage. the premise is some years ago aliens took over earth and took humans to space to keep as pets and perform in a singing competition. albeit, this is a competition where the losers die, idk the aliens are weird.

this is till. when he was younger he got separated from his mom, and it's unknown if he even has a father. io, his mother, knew about his singing talent and he would sing as a baby, she knew when the aliens found out he would be taken away to participate in alien stage yet let him sing anyway, not wanting to snuff out his passion. her last wish for him was for him to never be left alone again and she got that.

as in the image, we can see till is being sold for a 50% discount. he's very rebellious, rambunctious, and just angry in general. though i'd say he has a softer and more sentimental side but this isn't about that ✊😔

that image is what could be till's first time seeing another human, that being ivan, pictured above. ivan was raised in the slums and doesn't know social norms, though masked it. {🫵 autism} outside of that, he acts cheerful and yet can be childish and pessimistic. he's important to till, take this how you will, be it as company or just in the lens of his story.

till eventually gets adopted by an alien named urak. urak says he only keeps till around for his musical talent, we often see till restrained and/or bruised and the latter at least relates to him. i don't like urak very much.

eventually, till goes to anakt garden, a school thing to help nurture human's musical talents. there he meets a girl named mizi {middle}. she's bright and cheerful and till falls in love with her. she's a stark contrast to the life she's known. i'd say at the start till views her as 'perfect' though gets to know her over the years. there's just one thing, she doesn't reciprocate.

mizi has feelings for a girl named sua. there are much better pictures of them together but i wanted to use the one with till in it, okay. she's also on the left of the previous image. sua is distant and cold, yet is softer around mizi. i think her and till have very interesting parallels to me, but i've already gone insane over that elsewhere {to ant}.

till also meets ivan again, they have an interesting relationship. ivan is infatuated by till, and is desperate to get his attention, his main way of doing this is starting fights with him.

yet, they have sweet moments. i'd consider them friends, it is complicated but i would call it a mutual care for one another. i wouldn't consider it balanced, per se, but they don't hate each other.

one time, till and ivan somehow find their way out of anakt garden. they see a meteor shower and realize there is a life beyond this, they can escape. ivan plans on this, in fact. yet, at the last second, till lets go of his hand because he can't stand the idea of leaving mizi behind, and ivan follows him back.

i actually kind of just put this image here because aughhh they're so sweet what if i exploded. there are also better images to transition to this section but it's sooo cuteeee. anyways, till gets accepted into alien stage, so we'll get to the actual main plot now.

for the competition, the competitors are given a duet, to perform together so they're an equal footing. till plays his own song, oh yeah he plays guitar, and does not let his opponent sing once. he is in it to win it and does. his guitar is also a lesser alien, and when he fears his opponent is going to sing he

so if you think about it this counts as a murder but for the record i support his rights and his wrongs. he wins the round of course.

mizi is also in alien stage, and she won her round, but it was against sua. so, going into the round mizi isn't doing so well. i'm going to summarize even farther because this isn't about mizi it's about till {i love mizi for the record.} mizi starts beating up her contestant and she gets escorted away. till's reaction is horrified, though in my opinion, a little funny looking.

after mizi's disappearance, and what till assumes is death, urak tries to make him sing mizi's competiton song. he refuses and we can see the aliens pinning him down to a table, and generally just treating him badly.

ivan sneaks in disguised as a karaoke bar employee to retrieve till. the latter likely isn't aware because he was unconscious, but it's so ahughuhr3i3 yea.

till isn't doing very well in his next round, he's mourning mizi and just not doing well in general. oh yeah, he's up against ivan, of all people. his song is the planned duet, and much more melancholic than his previous one. in all honesty, i'd say it seems he doesn't care about losing anymore, with mizi not being around, but a certain someone does.

ivan. of course ivan does. ivan's loved him this whole time, and till's just realizing. ivan stops in the middle of the song to go up to till and kiss him, his dying wish. till pushes away but he pulls back, yet when ivan pretend chokes him, till doesn't resist. {this lives in my mind rent free.} ultimately, ivan dies, and till is left winning.

only what i can assume is a few hours later, knowing that this is the same day {he's having a really bad day.}, till is back on the stage, this is the part where i introduce his opponent/mizi's previous one.

this is luka, victor of last season of alien stage, he's known for his princely appearance and generally being a fan favorite. {i think.} to him, this is a game, he's more focused on having fun than winning. his method of having fun is mimicking the mannerisms of past opponents, to retraumatize his current ones. mizi did not handle this well, and nor did till. the latter becomes frantic and scared, though something else catches his attention, or should i say someone.

mizi. she's alive. till has no clue why or how {i do but we're doing this from his perspective i think.} but he is grateful. the scores may already be set, with him in second, but he keeps on, his drive is back. he has something to go for.

maybe, just maybe, he can win! maybe he, alongside her, can leave this wretched place for a better life! maybe, maybe! he walks across the stage, towards her, reaches for her hand, and

it's too late. it's been too late. a drone shoots him. he lost, after all. maybe it was all for nothing.

mizi makes her way on stage, to try and console him. she holds his head, and for a split second till's hand touches her's, until it falls limp. he's gone.

now here's the interesting part, we don't know if he's actually dead. each of the dead characters so far have received a comic in their perspective on their last moments, but remember the comic about his mom? that was his, till didn't tell his own story. this could be interpreted as symbolism and stuff but there's also more.

this could be a reference to the song title, blink gone, but when a character is eliminated they have an icon that flashes and disappears, but his specifically flickers.

i can't find the actual art but here's a keychain, which is close enough. each of the characters is shown in a coffin/casket, with a different shape, color, and flowers. mizi is the only one with her eyes open, the only one definitely alive. yet, till is shown being chained down. i'm pretty sure a dead person isn't going anywhere, this could just relate to the motif of him being restrained, but i'm going to interpret this as hope for him being alive.

now, finally, onto the fic snippet. admittedly this just takes place after the events of till's second round {the one against ivan} but i said whole life story so here we are. there's a thing with ivan and till and eye contact, ivan always looking at till, and till never looking back, though i interpret it as that merely being ivan's perspective.

the train of thought i had went something like this: looking back,,,,,dead people,,,orpheus and eurydice? admittedly, the part i'm sharing doesn't relate to that too much but i think it's neat. with till as orpheus and ivan as eurydice. {"so like imagine the first time the guy you like makes eye contact with you {least in your brain} is when he loses to his humanity and throws away your chance at coming back to life wtf" me first describing the idea}

that's it. thank you for coming to my ted talk/lunatic ramblings. if you have any questions do let me know i am eager to answer

THATS SO COOL THANK U FOR INFORMING ME!!

i also support his rights and his wrongs 💯💯💯

the orpheus and euridice parallel is so cool! also i swear i've seen that sc of the meteor shower-- i think a mutual redrew it once? im gonna have to find it

and him being cchained into his coffin is just... akdjdisnama. i dont even go here and im getting brainworms /pos

[irljunkratt]

dating lucio hcs

pronouns: they/them reader, he/him lucio :3

summary: he's of our favorite frog :D (maybe some nsfw...)

request?: nope!

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sfw!:

• most. physical. being. ever.

• like, oh ur out on a walk? he's holding ur hand. ur sitting on the couch and watching tv? he's now laying right atop of you and squishing ur organs

• also is the type of lover to shout of his love from atop a roof top.

• like that picture of that cartoon dude that screams

"I LOVE MY WIFE!" he's like that

• biggest nerd when it comes to superhero's. get him anything related to that, he's giving you the best head of your life ta.

• surprisingly not easily jealous. he trusts you and fully believes you would never cheat! there have been times where men/women would hit on you and he would step in but never really jealously.

• loves kissing you, especially like on the back of ur neck.

• let me elaborate. like, say ur doing the dishes and he comes up behind you. wraps his arms around ur waist and just softly pecks the back of ur neck

• skate dates!!!! also arcade dates and movie night dates

• he loves taking you skating, especially if you don't know how. he adores teaching people about his interests (autism)

• also loves the arcade cause he likes winning you stuff. and the movies, he just loves popcorn /hj

• quality time is his #1 love language, he LOVESSSSSSS spending time with you. even if ur not doing anything together or working separately, he loves doing it in the same room.

• his #2 would be gift giving. we all know that boy is RICHHHHHHH.

• he would adore spoiling you, even if you say you don't need it (but let's be honest... you do.)

• praises you for everything, like not even sexually. like, you brushed your teeth after weeks? he's giving you the fattest kiss and telling you how proud he is. you finally finished a project you've been working on? yippie!! he's buying you ur fav food and giving you millions of praises

• loves dancing with you, especially if you guys try and recreate stupid moves from movies. like from dirty dancing or footloose

nsfw!: (mb if these suck... no pun intended)

• he's like a teenage boy going through puberty with how easily he gets turned on

• like you could just be sitting on the couch a specific way that your thighs are a bit squished and he is rock hard.

•speaking of thighs, please suffocate him. he would never admit it but he wouldn't mind dying that way.

• he. loves. hair pulling. not like too hard where he's on the verge of making you bald but enough to where you groan quietly.

• LIKE UGHHHHHH

• quickies. now stick with me...

• say it's just before a show, your in his dressing room and absolutely going to town.

• he's forcing you to stay quiet as he fucks you so hard ur eyes are watering and rolling into the back of ur head.

• then he just walks onto stage like he didn't just rearrange ur guts.

• men, am i right ladies?

• can not be rough for the life of him...

• like he is the most gentle human being on planet earth, it's lowkey kinda scary.

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[ma-lark-ey]

Lark Liveblogs Literature: THE SUNSHINE COURT BABYYYYY LETS GO JEAN

to begin: THE COVER???

The fucking NARCISSUS/DAFFODIL. Stop stop stop. Nora stop. She said it wouldn’t be a sun but I WASNT READY.

RESILIENCE. FIRST BLOOM AT THE END OF WINTER. NEW BEGINNINGS AND REBIRTH.

warning in advance for how many reaction images will be in this post. Miss Nora Sakavic has a way of making me unable to verbalise how devistated I am so I turn to goofy photos.

Also, just so we’re all on the same page:

it’s 1:20 AM. My roommate IS asleep. I am fighting the demons (downloading this book) but i am winning (it is queued on my kindle)

ITS DOWNLOADED LETS GO

Okay so context is that my Kindle is at 10%

I tried to go to bed and read this in the morning but I am

SO NOW I HAVE FRANTICALLY FOUGHT A WAR (figured out how to get this book) AND I AM READY FOR BATTLE (to cry over Jean)

ONE, TWO, THREE, LETS GO BITCH!!

Also my kindle cord is too small for me to properly lay in bed so im literally about to lay on my stomach kicking my feet like a middle schooler WISH. ME. LUCK.

CHAPTER ONE:

oh we’re jumping right in okay. god. hi baby :((

OH. I am just adding onto my #1 Riko hater agenda right now.

“The golden rule— not where the public can see” DIE. LITERALLY DIE TETSUJI

“The lack of broken fingers this time” THIS TIME??? JEAN. JEAN.

im so.

RENEE!!!

“and he had wasted them texting Renee a heads-up.” Nora please we’re only four pages in bro

Renee i love you im marrying you please give me a kiss. Mwah Mwah Mwah. She said “Bitch. Lay back down.”

currently also reading a batshit raven!neil fic and just. on the ground. about all of this.

stop the way I literally went “who the fuck is Nathaniel” Im too transgender for this.

Me, seeing the Abby content we need in this world:

Jean dont call that hellscape home bbg

Renee beating self worth into this man. ily

“Jean couldnt remember the last time he was allowed to wear color” LITERALLY KILL ME

Nora I need you to be less good at describing pain please and thanks

NOT THE BITING

DADMACK DADMACK DADMACK DADMACK!!

he fr be moving this man like a doll. love you wymack

tied him up with racquet laces I. h. lays on floor softly crying.

NOT THE DADDY ISSUES

Jean fr out here plotting 50 ways to kill his brother. he fr though Neil was the problem. no girl Neil just has no tact and autism rizz. Kevins the fucking snitch

no one:

Jean @ the Moriyamas;

“that man is years overdue for a head-on high-speed collision” YOU TELL EM DADMACK

CHAPTER TWO:

Jean please just sleep like a normal human man. God.

Even Jean be out here like “Kevins a little Chihuahua ass drama queen. Bitchboy. Wet cat man.”

Kevin: look, bro, if the 5’3 twink with enough daddy issues to make riko blush and chugs ‘fuck around and find out’ juice for breakfast can escape the moriyamas and not die, so can you.

Testuji. Testuji when I catch you. Tetsuji

Jean what the fuck makes you think anyone but Andrew Minyard will ever tell Neil what to do. Girl.

“If I am not a Raven, who am I?” A MOTHERCUCKING TROJAN BABYYYY

“I have to go to my next class.” I forgot they were in college deadass. Neil is straight up my age im gonna throw up.

Okay. It is. *checks time* 3 AM. I cannot keep my eyes open, which means i must put Jean away for sleep.

ITS IS NOON THE FOLLOWING DAY. I HAVE SLEPT. I HAVE TAKEN MY MEDICATIONS. TIME TO HYPERFOCUS BABY.

KINDLE SAYS WE HAVE 8 hrs 27 mins LEFT IN THIS BOOK. IM SAYING GOODBYE TO MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY. I’LL SEE Y’ALL AT DINNEE TIME. ITS JEAN TIME.

Hiiiiiii Thea….

“Good morning, Paris.” Now, the average man will see this as a reference to his frenchness. but real ones know Paris is prince of Troy, the man who married Helen of Troy & started the Trojan war.

do y’all think Jean has a french accent wait wait wait. obviously itd be very slight at this point but is it there. necessary question.

Assessing Thea like a fucking state exam right now. Neil could not have cared less about your ass I am gaining so much information

Hate of my life Riko moriyama.

CHAPTER THREE:

JEREMY FUCKING KNOW HI BAYYYBY

the way I literally got up and had to pace and stim for a moment even though I fully expected this. autism. my roommate is concerned. not really. she’s used to this she watched me read TKM and dramatically reenact the Ichirou Car Talk.

wow??? AFTG team actually seems happy and well-adjusted and friendly with each other??

Random Note: I’m currently watching Blue Exorcist & one of the main characters is a girl name Moriyama and I’m literally just sitting here like “This girl is way to nice and innocent to have that name.” Because she literally is the nicest girl to ever exist. Why is she cursed with the same name as my mortal enemy (Testuji)

“Tonight’s experiment was the icing on the cake, an invaluable experience no matter how it ended.” Jeremy, my love.

He has empathy… Never before seen footage. Y’all get the cameras!!

He’s so shaken about Jean,,, holding you so gently Jeremy. Here as a guy who knows nothing at all about Jeremy since I’m. so new here. but god.

Jeremy: are you sure a Raven can abide by Troja—

Kevin: Bro Jean is so pathetic he’s a bottom fr. He never disobeys an order

Jeremy: I. Okay you didnt have to say it like that, bro.

I will literally never stop respecting the Trojans strat in the final they really said. “If these fucks can win the championships with nine players, surely we can.” and then willingly got their asses handed to them.

“Xavier stumbled when he got the next serve off, and the Fox guarding him gamely hauled him back upright before running for the ball. It was a simple gesture, but it endeared Jeremy to them” I dont remember if this bit was described in tkm so i’m going to guess that’s Nicky or Matt. Aaron would fucking never.

Nah because like. Yes this proved to the Trojans how resilient the Foxes were, but it was also a message to the audience, yk? Like we know the Foxes were getting shit for their quick rise to the top after they pulled their shit together, but I personally think that the Trojans did this both for their improvement & for Foxes’ publicity. This game proved to the public at large how devastatingly *good* the Foxes were, because of their small size. The second best team in the league crumbled playing the same conditions the Foxes did *every game* and got to championships with. They proved that Foxes were, in fact, a D1 team who earned their keep.

oh hes got daddy’s money. Well. not. officially. yo what I mean.

“it was always best to have a paper trail” Neil Josten would have an anuerysm hearing those words.

Bye Jeremy I’m. Love you so much. Why do you feel like a sixty year old man in your early twenties.

“between seven and twelve students.” yikes.

“unfamiliar and accented voice.” I WAS RIGHT I FUCKING CALLED IY HES GOT AN ACCENT BABY FUCK YEAH

“you ever feel like— like you’re making a choice you cant come back from? But even knowing everything could go completely sideways, you’d make that choice every time?” okay so coming out allegories i could make aside, Jeremy is so… where to start with him. He reminds me of Percy Jackson. Endlessly loyal and selfless to the point its a bit stupid but endearingly stupid.

CHAPTER FOUR:

Okay so we’re alresdy hateflirting. noted.

Its also extremely sunny today in Podunk Hicksville where I live so it feels very On Brand.

“Jean had seen that smile in a half-dozen broadcast… He could picture it too easily, and he dug his fingernails into his own face in vicious warning.” Awww you think you can best the gay worms in your brain. goodluck with that Johnny.

“isn’t that reason enough to keep living? To rediscover simple delight one moment at a time,” keeping this quote for eternity

“enough sunlight to chase away Evermore’s shadows. They are willing to take a chance on you. Aren’t you?”

Kevin Day autistic king. taking this hesdcannon to my grave .

“the conspiracy theorists were working overtime” no girl they just aint stupid.

THEY DESTROYED HIS POSTCARDS…

CHAPTER FIVE:

I want to start keeping record of all the times Jean is like “[name] wasn’t decent enough to [thing]” because its SO funny. We LOVE a petty king.

also keeping track of all the insults he throws at Neil.

Neil likes to think he’s SUUUUCH a loner boy no friends angsty “dont speak to me” resting bitch face ass motherfucker. In reality he is a jack russell terrier — ceritifed jack russell owner who’s dog thinks hes soooo big and bad but said dog literally cries when you dont let him in the bed or say hi to people on the street

Jean is SOOOOOO dramatic 😭😭

Jean: Why would you let Kevin do this.

Neil: let him?? He did that on his own.

Jean: you’re proud of him for being a problem, arent you?

Neil: oh you fucking know I am, bitchass

“but other than his outstanding murder charge there was nothing interesting about that Fox.” i’d consider that very interesting information, Jean. Youre just deranged

“with milk, juice, and vodka dominating one shelf” that’s Aaron, Nicky, Andrew/Kevin in order. Im correct.

“There was an entire drawer dedicated to cheese.” Yeah that sounds like Nicky.

“Half the drawer was full of mini candy bars. Jean threw them all into the trash” bro Andrew is going to kill you in cold blood and not even Neil can save you.

Jean is SO dramatic. Give him Kevin’s crown.

Jean @ Neil during the final: ARE YOU WITHOUT INTELLIGENCE????? ARE YOU STUPID??? DO YOU WANT TO DIE??

Seeing the media coverage of the championship is the food I needed thank you Nora for this. I am eating it up. om nom nom

The sportscasters referring to athletes with their first name is batshit. What. why. huh. Absolutely not.

CHAPTER SIX:

Renee protecting Jean from discovering Riko’s death through media & not through them…

Everytime boys start fistfighting in this series I hear Roxanne from Megamind. “Ladies, ladies, you’re BOTH pretty.”

a) Jeans reaction to finding out was exaclty what I expected

b) I’m FASCINATED to know who called campus security. Jeremy?? Renee?? Someone in Fox tower???

Neil was gentle with someone other than Andrew? I didnt know he knew how to do that…

NEIL. NEIL JOSTEN. YEAH BABY

HES ROOMING WITH CAT AND LAILA??? YES YEA YES YESY

the Jean-Renee dynamic is so fucking important to me. MLM/WLW solidarity. theyre besties.

THEYRE SO IMPORTANT TO ME BRO.

Literally snuggling Jeremy

Oh he’s got Fox potential. Hiiii Jeremy. Give me the traumadump bbg

THEY/THEM??? DO MY EYES DECEIVE ME OR IS THIS AN HONEST TO GOD THEY/THEM PLAYER OH ILL CRY. ILL CRU RIGHT NOW

CHAPTER SEVEN:

Oh Jean. you’re about to have such a gay awakening babe i can feel it in my bones.

A FUCKING YOYO??? I LOVE HIM

“A mite bit hecked up” PLEEEASE JUST SAY FUCK /ref

OH HE WAS IN LOVE WITH KEVIN. INTERESTING INTERESTING INTERESTING.

autism coded lookingg motherfucker (stares at Jean.)

The chaos of Cat and Laila’s house is so fucking cute. Its about to be two lesbians and their distrustful pitbull rescue in this bitch and im ready for it.

CHAPTER EIGHT:

watching normal people discover the cult that is Evermore. Finally someone having a normal response to that madness. What the FUCK.

wait theres actually a cardboard dog i thought it was fanon joke.

oh my god there is actually a fucking cardboard dog. i.

jeans brain just got actually shattered by this living room. he cannot comprehend this.

Cat & Jeremy, realizing the cult rumors are real: I THOUGHT YOU WERE KIDDING! I thought it was joke! I even wrote it down in my diary! “Kevin made a very funny joke today!” I laughed at it later that night!

Okay, last night; I went to bed at 2:30 AM 45% through (college my beloathed). we’re back in business.

Jeremy is so disturbed all of the time. goofy ass.

“Loving something is not enough,”

“When was the last time you enjoyed playing?”

“ Irrelevant.”

Whats his shirt look like Jeremy. Jeremy whats the shirt look like. Jeremy. Whats the shirt look like.

Okay so I’ve reached my image limit for this post and I dont have fun reaction images on my laptop. so now I will post this & reblog with the rest of this book.

[demented-tours]

hello!

i have been a fan of your works since almost a decade and it is safe to say that you’re one of my favourite authors to ever exist. i found your works through a03, specifically through the absolutely incredible dynamic of neji and kiba.

just wanted to come on here and say how much i adore all your works. especially the way you have written sai and captured his personality and autism so well, it holds such a special place in my heart (as do literally every character you have written)

i also wanted ask if there’s anything going to be added to the monoshizukanohi universe. it is beautiful and i am but ravenous for more. even if there is nothing planned, i have been and will continue to cherish the works you have put out there.

i have commented a few times on your works and also try to keep up on instagram but i feel too shy to actually come out here and say all this, hence the anon.

thank you so much for your service! (truly, and for free?! in this economy??? truly blessed)

- L

Well, hello there, Anon!

First off: thank you so much for sharing this with me. Notes like this remind me of why I do what I do, and that keeps me going through the chaos. All the virtual baked goods of your choice and many hugs, (if that's your thing; if not, then enthusiastic happy dances)!

Second: apologies for the small delay in responding; I've been under the weather. Also, if I've not responded to you over on A03, please bear with me, lol. I tend to do responses in batches. Sometimes interaction is difficult for me (neurospicy for the win).

NOW THEN! The good stuff.

Oh man, I love what you love! Writing Neji is just... so delightful. And Kiba's just the perfect foil for so many of my uptight/oblivious characters (ah, Gaara; you never saw him coming... until you definitely did, HA). And oh, Sai and Tenzou! I had no idea how cathartic that story was for me until the final page. I'm so glad you enjoyed those!

As for new Mono stories... Actually, yes. There is one in progress. It's another Origins story, like LET FREEDOM BLEED was. They're sort of the backstory/underpinning stories that star characters referenced and interwoven into what already exists. Keep in mind, I started writing Mono in 2008 (dear lord; where did the time go?); wrote pretty steady until 2014 or so; took a few years of unintentional break; came back to finish LESSONS IN LIVING; and then, well... The characters came knocking, again. I write Mono as a sort of... therapy, if you will, for myself. There's a freedom in writing fanfiction that just hits differently than the books/stories/etc. I write for paid publication. I don't think I knew I was doing that (the therapy thing) when I started, but I can definitely see it now, so this latest story is sort of... eh, a deliberate attempt? Or, like, I know it's helping me work shit out, if that makes sense? It doesn't impact the story, exactly; it's more just I know WHY I'm choosing to do this to myself, lol, lol.

I ramble. I do that. Point being: I AM working on something. I don't mind sharing that it's Itachi's story. It's called THE BELOVED MARTYR, and it is the longest thing I have literally ever written, and it's not done. Right now it's sitting at (are you sitting down?) roughly 900 pages, or 370,500 words. It spans Itachi's entire life (he's about 40 or so in current Mono canon) - so we see him as a boy, we see it when Sasuke is born, family, growing up, and just the sheer, unadulterated mayhem that is his existence. It has a cast of about 50 original characters (there's going to be an index of who's-who whenever this thing gets posted) plus all the usual Mono boys. It's basically my version of fandom canon--how the Uchiha family is old, powerful, and believes itself to be the shepherds of a new order under their control, but translated into the Mono world reality. Oligarchy, old Russian power, older Japanese power, the movers and shakers and often-criminal intrigue that affect global change and disaster... And in the heart of it all, one man who wants to stop the violence and heal himself and those he loves. One of my greatest loves in fandom is figuring out how canon could translate into my version of reality, and this one... considering Itachi's arch... is enormous and sad and lovely and aching all in one. I started writing it when my mother was diagnosed with stage 3 cancer (she's in recovery), and, well... It's also MY healing journey, in a way, lol--not just from that, but in life.

Grand themes, I grant you, but there's also humor and OH SO MUCH kink and violence and that nitty-gritty-teeth-clench thing that I loved about Rhythm & Bruise. We also get Nagato's backstory (my version of him), and yep, we get to see how Sasuke and Naruto meet and fall in love. People have been asking for that for years, and I've never really been drawn to write it, but it's a part of this because Sasuke is such a huge part of Itachi's life and purpose.

SO. Yeah. Um... in progress. I don't post things until they're done--I learned that lesson with LESSONS IN LIVING. I'm working on this in and around other novels and stories, not to mention the day job, which is ALSO writing, among other things, so it might be a while, yet. Occasionally, I post on this Tumblr (which is basically the only social media I use, these days, as i HATE Twitter/X or whatever and Instagram isn't made for words, really, etc.), so if you feel like hanging out, please do!

This is probably more than you bargained for with your lovely ask, but hopefully that's not a bad thing!

Regardless, I am delighted that you enjoy the stories, and I thank you so much for letting me know you're here.

All good things to you and yours, <3Dee

[autisticlee]

I need a friend (or maybe actually a life partner) thats super consistent/scheduled, not flaky, probably not disabled with unpredictable flare ups/energy issues, someone with energy who can plan and get stuff done. because I cannot do it myself. I need someone very close who is like this so they can help me do things I want or need to do. come over in the morning to exercise like go for a walk or swim or kayak. come over to help me make food when they realize I forgot to eat. come over and help me change my bed sheets. sit with me while I work on something and keep me focused or help me get done easier. plan a time to hang out or go somewhere and be here at that exact time instead of forgetting or canceling.

I NEED consistency in my life. I cannot provide it for myself. I know there's people out there who are like this. the autism in me craves it. but the adhd in me rejects it and always wins no matter how hard I try. having unpredictable physical flare ups doesn't help. trying doesn't do anything. people make it clear to me that it doesn't look like I try at all. that proves how useless trying has been. I need an external force that is beyond my control. alarms and reminders are in my control so they never work. I can't be consistent with myself and flake out on myself, beyond my control. but when it comes to other people, i'll push through and stick to things for their sake. I need a separate entity that has more control over the situation. someone to do with me and not just "remind" me. but also someone that won't push me too hard or let me push myself too hard. remind me to stop and drink/eat. don't let me push through pain. remind me it's ok to rest. etc.

but finding consistent people is so hard. I can't seem to do it. I only find and attract flaky, inconsistent people. I don't know what i'm supposed to do about it. they want me to be their consistent, nonflaky friend that they can flake out on. i'm told i'm always there for them whenever they need me, and they appreciate it. but I can never say the same about them.

no one wants to help me or "hold my hand" mostly because they can't even help themsleves and expect me to do everything for them, but also people who could help just dont like or care about me enough. i'm a burden to people who don't care or value me enough. I need someone to magically care so much about me that they enjoy being my solid pillar of consistency, support, and companionship. they wake up and WANT to see me immediately, so they come over and wake me up to make breakfast and go for a walk and do chores at their house together and etc.

you can't just wait and they will show up like a pokemon you can catch and turn into your loyal companion. you can't just make someone like you. but I don't know how to make anyone like me/find people who like me for who I am and don't have the energy and spoons endlessly sort through everyone in the world for the chance of finding one i also like and feel comfortable with. I need a person that either doesn't cost energy to interact with or somehow gives energy. that'd so hard to find.

I do try, though. but it takes at least a month or two to recover from the energy and effort it takes to reach out to a single person, especially since it's me doing most of the work. so the process is slow and is wasting my life away. I don't care about the possible "one day" because i'm struggling NOW. thinking about "one day" hasn't helped improve my life one but over the past 15 years or more, i've been told "one day"

it seems to be all about either luck or being privileged to have the energy and right personality to attract the right people. I have none of those things. so I just continue to struggle to exist within my own chaos alone. merely barely surviving and not at all living.

[xsoulfulwriterx]

Understanding Myself (A Mr. Men Show Fanfiction)

Understanding Myself by Little Miss Soulful.

A young ten year old light purplish pink rectangular Little Miss with brown hair with a magenta small button nose, and a pencil hair clip, look rather downcast and bothered.

She was fidgeting her fluffy purple pen as she sighed sadly.

“Miss Maturity?”

Miss Maturity turned around to spot a dark pink Little Miss with one big blonde bun hairstyle and blue and white slippers and a wedding and engagement ring on her left fingers. Her mother approached her, looking rather concerned for her daughter.

“Hi Mum.”

Miss Maturity spoke dryly while avoiding eye contact.

“Miss Maturity? Is there something wrong? You can tell me anything. I’m your mother.”

Miss Chatterbox explained to her daughter.

“Nothing.”

Miss Maturity sighed as she focused on her fluffy purple pen.

“Nothing? Are you sure about that, sweetheart?”

Miss Chatterbox raised her eyebrow with a small frown.

“Yeah, Mum. I’m great.”

Miss Maturity tried to sound happy but sounded more annoyed with a fake big smile that looked painful for anyone.

“Don’t lie to me, Miss Maturity.”

Miss Chatterbox spoke sternly like an angry wolf yet gently as a nectar from the flowers.

Miss Maturity knew she couldn’t win an argument with her mother as she sighed in defeat.

“Mum… I just don’t understand. Why am I so different? Some call me a “freak” or “weird” all because I love books. Not just that, why do some pity me? I just don’t get it. It’s not like I’m dying or something. Some just treat me differently, and I HATE it!”

Miss Maturity took a big huff as she sighed. Miss Chatterbox felt sorry for her daughter as she frowned and a tear escaped her eye.

“M-Mum?”

Miss Maturity gasped in realisation yet not knowing why her mother was upset.

“I-I’m sorry… I shouldn’t have yelled at you when I was ranting. I hope I don’t…”

“No, sweetheart.”

Miss Chatterbox silenced her by raising her hand up.

“It’s just…”

Miss Chatterbox tried to think the right way of explaining to her daughter as she sighed and explained with the best of her ability.

“Honey, the reason some treat you differently is because… you’re on the spectrum.”

“Spectrum?”

Miss Maturity raised her eyebrow with a frown of confusion and a hint of concern.

“What does that mean?”

“It means you’re autistic, love. It means your brain just wires differently, and it’s not a bad thing. Honestly, I can understand where you’re coming from, but…”

Miss Chatterbox sighed as knew her daughter was bullied at school like her younger sister due to her behaviour and how she rarely smiles like any typical kids.

“But what, Mum?”

Miss Maturity asked with curiosity.

Miss Chatterbox sighed again.

“Miss Maturity, you were diagnosed at a very young age. I wasn’t diagnosed until I was an adult. I never understand on who I am in the past.”

Miss Chatterbox looked down before giving her daughter a gentle kind motherly smile as she lifted Miss Maturity’s chin up.

“But now I do and I have your father to thank.”

“Huh? Daddy helped you?”

Miss Maturity’s eyes widened in surprise that Mr. Grumpy was the one to help Miss Chatterbox’s self-discovery by getting the diagnosis.

Miss Chatterbox hummed with a small nod as she walked towards her bed and sat down. Then, she gestured Miss Maturity to sit down by petting the lap gently with her hand.

“Come here, love.”

Miss Maturity obeyed as she slowly walked towards her and hopped on her lap.

“Mum? How did all started?”

Miss Chatterbox sighed as she smiled at her daughter like a mother would that adored her child dearly.

“Miss Maturity. Let me tell you my life with autism, and that why some don’t understand. I wish I have told you this long ago.”, Miss Chatterbox explained.

With that, she grabbed a brush nearby and began brush her daughter’s hair, “Now, where do I start?”

Miss Maturity listened carefully while closing her eyes gently while enjoying being pampered by her mother’s love and care with a small rare small across her lips.

“Your father was researching one particular day about autism spectrum and it was Autism Acceptance Day at the time.”

Miss Chatterbox began the story.

“This is the time me and your father became as couple after we found out we were childhood sweethearts.”

Miss Chatterbox chuckled softly.

“Eww.”

Miss Maturity poke her tongue out in disgust.

Miss Chatterbox couldn’t help but laugh gently.

“I get it, it does a but mushy, but when you get older, you’ll realise that love is rare like gold or diamonds or even rubies, which is my favourite gem and I also like amethyst and…”

Miss Maturity rolled her eyes with a slight annoyance as she knows her mother sometimes gets carried away with her story.

“What does this have to do with you getting the answer?”

Miss Maturity frowned.

Miss Chatterbox realised and cleared her throat.

“My apology, sweetheart. Now, where was I? Ah yes, your father did research and found many signs that matched my behaviour and quirks. At first, it made sense but your father worried about me being “labelled” and being judged by society.”

“So, society judges people because they’re afraid of something different?”

Miss Maturity asked.

“Yes, my love and it stems from ignorance too.”

Miss Chatterbox replied while pausing her brushing before continued to brush her daughter’s hair.

“But, on that same day, your father had a serious discussion about it and asked if he could help get the test to see if I fit the criteria. I was hesitant at first because long ago, people with disabilities or who are neurodivergent were ostracised or even locked away forever.”

Miss Maturity gasped in horror and gets a bit paranoid.

“W-would that ever happen to me?”

Miss Chatterbox shook her head firmly as she kisses her daughter’s cheek kindly.

“No way. That was long time ago when Grandpa Serious was born. But of course, despite society can still be harsh, but they’re are doing better. It takes baby steps and courage from others.”

Miss Maturity felt much safer and smiled.

“I’m glad you didn’t end up alone and you and Daddy are still together and he doesn’t judge you.”

Miss Chatterbox smiled.

“Me too, my love and he adores you and your little sister so much. He swore to protect you girls from harm. He eve swore to protect me. That’s how much your father loves you. He may be grumpy, but he does have a good heart and would never hurt you.”

Miss Maturity turned her head around and smiled at her again as Miss Chatterbox smiled back.

“We will never give up on you and Miss Vocal. Never.”

Miss Chatterbox assured her daughter before she continued to brush her hair and tell the story.

“Eventually, I agreed and I manage to get a test done on the same day and sure enough, I got the diagnosis. I was… very shock and upset to say the least, thinking I was broken. I ran off crying while the psychiatrist explained to your father that I can still have a capable life with some extra support and adjustment.”

Miss Maturity continued to listen carefully while her eyes were closed gently from her hair getting done.

“Your father ran to me and it took a lot for him to get me to calm down.”

FLASHBACK BEGINS

“Miss Chatterbox, you’re on the autism spectrum.”

Miss Chatterbox, who looked younger with two hair buns down with blue and white sneakers on, was mortified as she screamed in horror and anger.

“WHAT?!”

With that, she stormed out of the office room as Mr. Grumpy watched his love looking hurt and angry. He tried to reach out for her before Miss Supportive, the psychiatrist, explained.

“It’s normal for many to react in anger or shock, but let me tell you Mr. Grumpy. Your girlfriend is more than capable. All she needs is more patience, compassion, and support. Acceptance is also vital. I’m sure you love her dearly.”

Mr. Grumpy smiled gratefully and nodded.

“I do, and it explains a lot. I’m going to help her and my love doesn’t change but my perception is more open. Thank you.

He walked away with a wave as a thanking gesture and ran to find Miss Chatterbox before he spotted her going towards the stairs.

“Miss Chatterbox! Sweetheart! Wait! We need to talk…”

“About what, Mr. Grumpy?!”

Miss Chatterbox snapped at him.

“That the fact is that I’m broken! A misfit! A freak!”

Miss Chatterbox was about to storm off downstairs before Mr. Grumpy grabbed her right arm tightly but not enough to hurt her.

“My love, please. Let me explain. Don’t run off as there’s more you need to know.”

Miss Chatterbox frowned with glare before she turned around and crossed her arms, trying not to cry.

“Talk.”

Mr. Grumpy sighed as he gently grabbed her hands and rubbed it with love and care.

“Miss Chatterbox. Yes, you are on the spectrum, but doesn’t mean you’re not capable or broken. It just means your brain functions differently, and even then, everyone’s brains are different. Even mine.”

Miss Chatterbox looked away.

“At least you won’t be locked away.”

“Locked away?”

Mr. Grumpy raised his eyebrow in confusion with a small as he gently turned her head to him with one of his hands before realising what she meant.

“No, sweetheart. That was years ago. That was at the time when the world was much… darker and unfair to people, but now… it’s a safe place for people like you and for everyone. Sure, there will be nasty people that will discriminate, but doesn’t mean you’re any less worthy.”

Miss Chatterbox looked into his eyes with tears desperately trying to escaped but she restricted it.

“Is your love for me changed?”

Mr. Grumpy shook his head with a gentle chuckle.

“No, it didn’t. But it did help me learn more about people’s perception and now realising who you are, it makes total sense, but in the end, you’re my childhood sweetheart, my girlfriend, my love. My love will never die, even if I’m still grumpy. I will protect, cherish, and love you until I die.”

Miss Chatterbox closed her eyes as tears escaped her eyes before she hugged Mr. Grumpy without a warning as she sobbed into his chest before she smiled with tears escaping more.

“I love you, Mr. Grumpy.”

Miss Chatterbox whispered.

“And I love you, my dear. So much.”

Mr. Grumpy whispered back tenderly as he kissed her forehead gently as Miss Chatterbox blushed and giggled. They embraced each other for a while.

FLASHBACK ENDS

“Ever since the diagnosis, I learn to navigate Dillydale with more open-minded, learn to love and accept myself, despite being on the spectrum, and your father’s love has never changed, and we still love each other to this day. Sure, some people did judge me but in the end, they became more open-minded, even Uncle Rude became protective of me like a brother would.”

Miss Chatterbox giggled at the thought of Mr. Rude being like a protective brother.

“And soon, your father and I got married, moved this adorable boathouse for him to fish and me to attend my garden, and we were blessed with two beautiful girls. One with a gift for song and one with a gift of intelligence. I wouldn’t change a thing about you or your sister. You and your sister are autistic because of me, but it made me realise that you’re not just autistic. You are Miss Maturity and that’s what I love about you.”

Miss Chatterbox placed the brush down as Miss Maturity turned around and gave her a grateful smile with tears in her eyes and without thinking, embracing in her mother’s arms and whispered.

“I love you, Mum, and I love Daddy, and my little sister. I love my family.”

Miss Chatterbox giggled and hugged her back while rubbing her back gently as she whispered back.

“Aww, me too, love. No matter how frustrated, tired, or sad me and your father get, our love for you and your sister will never die. You are a part of us. A part of me.”

Miss Maturity looked up to her mother with a big real smile as her eyes glistened like the stars. Miss Chatterbox smiled back.

“Wanna do some constellation spotting tonight, just you and me?”

Miss Chatterbox suggested with a playful wink.

“Really?!”

Miss Maturity squealed in delight, which was a rare sight to see as she was usually too mature and serious for her age with barely a smile.

Miss Chatterbox hummed.

“Mhm. You are the smart cookie, baby girl.”

Miss Chatterbox giggled as she playfully ruffled her head as Miss Maturity laughed hard before Miss Maturity smiled.

“You’re my favourite, Mum. I do love Daddy, but you… I can feel like we can relate more, despite you talk a lot and I like the peace.”

Miss Maturity giggled as Miss Chatterbox chuckled lightly.

“Aww, you’re such a good girl. And remember, your father and my love for you and your sister will never change. I will love you unconditionally.”

Miss Chatterbox kissed her daughter’s cheek kindly as Miss Maturity giggled before they embraced again, this time, holding each other close longer than before. There was no denying that the strongest bond in mankind is between a mother and her child, regardless on who they are.

AUTHOR’S NOTE: Funnily enough, I wrote this last year but I updated a bit to fix some errors but if you didn’t know, in my AU, Miss Chatterbox is autistic and she and Mr. Grumpy’s daughters are also autistic.

Miss Vocal was never affected by knowing she’s autistic while Miss Maturity needed some insight and explaining to understand why she’s like that and how being autistic isn’t a bad thing and that’s not all of your traits.

And also, in my AU, Miss Maturity has the strongest bond with Miss Chatterbox, despite Miss Chatterbox does blabber a lot but Miss Chatterbox admires her daughter’s intelligence thanks to her high IQ, and Miss Chatterbox ended up using bigger words thanks to Miss Maturity. In their spare time, they do constellation hunting.

For Miss Vocal, her strongest bond is her father, Mr. Grumpy as she’s definitely daddy’s girl and they share the same birthday. Also, I’m planning to do another fanfiction with my Grumpbox’s fankids but this time, focusing on the bond between Mr. Grumpy and his youngest daughter, Miss Vocal.

Of course, Miss Chatterbox and Mr. Grumpy never do favourites and their daughters rarely fought. They may argue like any siblings would do, but they love each other as Miss Maturity swore since Miss Vocal’s birth to protect her and be her best friend. Miss Maturity usually smiles the most towards her little sister, which Miss Vocal felt speical and lucky for that.

Miss Vocal admires Miss Maturity’s intelligence and problems-solving while Miss Maturity encourages Miss Vocal for her passion for singing and songwriting, even if her grammar isn’t necessarily the strongest.

Anyways, I hope you enjoy it, and remember, you’re all worthy and enough!

[laurafaritos]

Hello, Goodbye & Everything In-Between

At 28, shouldn't I have life figured out by now?

Instead, I’m Googling how to fold fitted sheets and wondering why my houseplants look like they’re staging a coup. Somewhere between the expectations of “adulting” and the reality of this, I’ve realized something important: none of us really know what we’re doing. And you know what? Maybe that's the beauty of it.

This year feels like a party where some guests are just arriving, others are finally heading home, and a few linger awkwardly in the doorway, unsure if they’re staying or leaving. It’s the perfect metaphor for my life right now: a little chaotic, a little bittersweet, but filled with possibilities I’m excited to share.

This is why I’ve decided to reflect on the year ahead, the things I’m welcoming into my life, the things I’m parting ways with, and the things I’m picking back up after years of letting go.

This post is for the AuDHD creative girlies who want 2025 to be the year they pursue their creative career goals while managing their neurodivergence in practical and sustainable ways.

Hello, AuDHD.

Six months ago, I received the late-diagnosis label that explains everything while raising even more questions.

Suddenly, all the years of self-doubt and confusion make sense, you know? I’m still getting to know this side of myself, but for now, we’re on speaking terms. I’m trying to show myself grace, but it’s hard.

It’s the friend who shows up unannounced, dumps a bag of emotional luggage on your doorstep, and says, “Hey, girl! Remember me? You’ve known me forever, but here’s my real name.”

And the kicker? Everyone around me kind of knew I was “different.” What do you mean, I showed signs of autism throughout childhood, and NO ONE thought to get me assessed? What do you mean, you had suspicions I was on the spectrum but assumed I knew about it?

Hello, Harvard.

If you told younger me that “Harvard” and “my life” would ever collide, I’d have laughed so hard I’d spill my coffee. Growing up in Brazil, Harvard was untouchable—a name whispered like it belonged to a mythical land where smart people in blazers made impossible decisions.

And yet, here I am, climbing Mount Digital Marketing Strategy. Every module takes me thrice as long because English isn’t my first language and my brain LOVES detours. But guess what? I’m climbing anyway. Slowly, steadily, and determined to prove to myself that this immigrant, neurodivergent girl belongs here.

The best part? I finally have a blog to share this journey. If you’ve ever wanted to see how an AuDHD girl turns Harvard lessons into creative wins, stay tuned.

Hello, Manuscripts.

Over the holidays, I wrote my first book. ME! A writer! Who knew?

It’s a gothic horror anthology, packed with eight stories that poured out of me like a long-forgotten floodgate opening. It reminded me of how much I love storytelling—and it ignited something unstoppable.

That’s why I’m naming 2025 “The Year of Manuscripts.” These stories, from fiction to non-fiction, have been waiting patiently in my head, and now, they’re coming to life.

Goodbye, Day Jobs.

They’ve served their purpose. They’ve kept the lights on. They’ve taught me resilience. But it’s time to let go.

I’m finally making the leap to freelancing full-time. It’s terrifying and thrilling—like standing at the edge of a cliff with wings you’re not sure will work. Will I fly or fall? Maybe both, but I’m ready to find out.

Goodbye, Imposter Syndrome.

Okay, maybe this isn’t a “goodbye” so much as a “see you less often.” Imposter syndrome is like that ex who won’t stop texting, always hoping I’ll second-guess myself. But I’m done letting it dictate my choices.

This past decade taught me that I don’t fit neatly into any box, and that’s okay. I am who I am. I talk about what I love. I follow paths that feel authentic, not prescribed. And knowing that? It’s enough to quiet those doubts when they start creeping in.

Hi, Works-In-Progress.

Hiiii podcast, miss you!!! You’ve been sitting patiently in my “to-do” pile, waiting for me to stop overthinking every little detail. I know we’ll get back on track soon, and when we do, I promise to bring the kind of energy that makes people laugh, cry, and hit replay.

Hiii live shows, miss you too!!! Booking you was easy; selling tickets has been a whole different beast. Marketing feels like an alien language I used to know but have somehow forgotten. But I’m not giving up on you—I just need to find the right approach, the right audience, the right way to say, “you don’t want to miss this.”

Life, as I’m learning, is less like a party and more like a play. Some characters are written into your story forever, while others exit stage left, their roles complete. The set changes, the lights dim, and new acts begin before you’ve had a chance to catch your breath.

But that’s the beauty of it—each scene, each soliloquy, each stumble across the stage adds something to the story. This year, I’m not worried about perfect performances. I’m just trying to embrace the role I’m playing, make my lines count, and trust that the best scenes are still ahead.

Here’s to the hellos, the goodbyes, and everything in between.

What are you saying hello or goodbye to this year?

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Dudeeeeeeeee!

I am not okay!!!!

Your hockey boys are SO GOOD! UGH! THE APPEAL! THE EXPRESSIONS! THE DRAMA! Ugh, literally like obsessed with it as a piece of art OUTSIDE of being hockey AU art it’s so fun and pretty and the splash of colour on Light’s cheeks and the gradients under their helmets I AM VERY NORMAL ABOUT IT.

Beautiful. 10/10. Do not know how I am supposed to sleep after this!!!

I shall ask you now what your favourite version of DN is and why (because this is an ask box after all, if I have to yap, so do YOU) and your top 3 fave ships b/c im curious

Okay BYE 💕✨

AAAAAUG DUDE I SAW YOUR SPAM TAG REBLOG AND HAVE BEEN INTERNALLY FREAKING OUT YOU HAVE ZERO CLUE HOW INSANE I AM ABOUT YOUR HOCKEY GUYS I WAS QUITE LITERALLY JUST RAMBLING ABOUT IT TO MY BOYFRIEND TO CONVINCE HIM TO READ IT (seriously though my autism is feral over this fic. i had plans today and canceled them solely because i wanted to reread + draw the chapters and then spin them around in my head for a few more hours. i have never touched hockey in my life but at this point i'm considering committing to the bit and just watching some games atp.)

IM HONOURED YOU LIKE IT!!! THEYRE SO FUN TO DRAW (and i have now learned the art of helmets those things are so wacky)!!!!! also im sorry in advance for how much im gonna be spamming your comment sections man i am not normal about them.

ANYWAYS i'll stop screaming and answer these silly questions YYAAYY!!!!

my favorite version of death note has to be the musical. the jdrama probably comes in a very close second. i adore all the other versions just as much honestly, i like viewing them all as their own separate stories because each of them are just so good in their own rights. the musical wins though because i've listened to that damn soundtrack too many times, i'm a threatre kid, it was the first version of death note i watched, and also because oh my god they're so doomed yaoi it hurts.

the score is so damn thought-out it actually hurts. each actor i've seen portray the silly guys does it so well and OOUGGG THE VOICES OUGGGGH,,, also its ending is my favorite out of them all. (spoilers for this next sentence if you havent seen it) i love the idea of them dying together-- i know it was most likely done because it's a musical and it'd be difficult to pull off a second part but god it's perfect to me nothing beats that amount of "different sides of the same coin" doomed yaoi to me.

only downside is now jeremy jordan has followed me into four different fandoms and that terrifies me.

AND THE SHIPS!!!!

lawlight clearly if that wasn't obvious enough.

lawmane because lawliet is a bisexual pervert and i just think they're neat

anndd lawmassacre!!! again because bisexual whore!!!! and also i just generally adore their dynamic, i really want to see it explored more.

honestly any ship with L is a ship that intrigues me (also all the other ships too since i love seeing the different dynamics but i have a bias for emos). honorable mention is L x soichiro because i think light deserves it.

thank you for letting me yap with you this has been the most therapeutic experience of my life. chucking m&ms at you, have a wonderful day hockey lad.