#i am SO SCARED of posting my art on the INTERNET i hope someone out there enjoys this
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My blog is generally pretty lighthearted and I stick to reblogging art and fic and fun stuff, but you know what. I feel like I need to say this.
I am a trans teen in the US. I'm seventeen, so too young to have voted. I'm terrified for my life right now. I usually post about college but I'm actually concurrently enrolled in high school still and the kid who sits behind me in first period government is a massive Trump fanboy. I'm going to have to go to high school Monday and talk about the election. I'm going to have to hear my deadname called and hear people in my super conservative high school talk about how happy they are Trump won. Everything is terrifying. I walk outside of my house and I'm scared I'll be shot. Several months ago I promised that I'd kill myself if that bastard won.
He did and I'm still here.
I'm not thriving. I'm not living my best life. I'm barely living. But I'm surviving. I'm coping. I'm trying my goddamned best. It's hard. I want so bad to just go and take as much medication as I can and slit my wrist for good measure and pass away in my sleep. But I'm still here. And I will be here.
I am in so much pain. But I'm living on spite and determination and everything I can scrape together. I know I need support and those around me need support. So consider this a support masterpost.
Support:
First thing you should see if you're a trans person in the US.
Here's a link to the Trevor Project and here's a link to their suicide hotline page. They've already saved my life once before. Please note - they recommend calling if you need immediate support. Donate if you can, please.
This post is both a suicide hotline masterlist and a post mentioning how something feels deeply wrong here with this election.
On the topic of something being wrong, sign this petition. I'm only seventeen but I did this and it might not feel like much but if we couldn't shoot that bastard (I am not pro-gun but I am when it comes to him) then we'll do the next best thing. Here's the link to the petition itself. Make sure to check the post every once in a while - the original petition got taken down and this is important.
I follow a lot of gimmick blogs, so I got to see this post encouraging us to be loud. Because we should be. Because if we die they've won and my mom didn't smoke weed on the steps of the state capital of Colorado to legalize it just so her son could roll over and die.
Here is the Tumblr Hot Beverage Masterpost, as I've taken to calling it. My personal favorites are the London Fog in the replies, earl grey with milk, honey, and vanilla (in the tags), and some additions from me are hot chocolate with peppermint melted into it, earl grey with lavender, caramel apple tea, and really anything else you can think of. Trust me. This post works better than you think.
Read this post if you haven't seen it already. It's half poem, half Tumblr being Tumblr, all wonderful to read.
Things I just like to see:
PM Seymour and Bettina Levy both have shown their support for everyone struggling right now. It might not be much, but I still really appreciate it and seeing support can really help.
The cat with the kind and reassuring face. No other context.
Four panel comic of hope. Because you're more than enough.
Can't find the post where I found this but this is a link to a virtual toy where you can make your own galaxy.
Please. Eat something. Drink a hot beverage. Draw, write, read, knit, sew, sculpt, bake, do something that helps. Reach out to friends, even if they're online friends. Talk to someone you trust. Make vent art. Write vent fics. It doesn't matter what you do as long as it helps.
Do not roll over and die. Live. Live on spite. Live on determination. Live on shitposts and live on heartfelt stories like this one. If you have anything to add to this post please do. Add more resources. Add more love to this post. I know I'm just a guy on the internet saying shit, but I still care about everyone who sees this post.
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arizonateadrinker · 4 months ago
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ouuhhh they occupy my mind....!!!
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algae-tm · 5 months ago
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WE CAN’T BE FRIENDS
Oscar Piastri x Reader
Author’s Note: there’s a lot going on in this fic and I should’ve probs split it into two so I could do the storyline justice, but I’m nothing if not slightly lazy so that never would’ve worked. If you notice any mistakes please do let me know! Rn it’s 2 am and my visions blurred so I’m gunna post and hope for the best
I’m actually gunna recommend songs for this fic!!tbh just listen to Willow’s entire discography (apart from that one song with MGK) and if you want to give unholy a listen it is by Hey Violet (though I don’t know if I like the song or not, but it says what I needed the fic to say) and of course All I Wanted Was You is paramore! I hope you enjoy
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youruser: thank y’all for the love on unholy, the last slide is how I feel now that I’ve been let out the house!! Hot gal y/n is back!
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user1: OH WE ARE SO BACK!
user4: IS RHIS CONFIRMATION ?? IS THIS CONFIRMATION?? IS THIS BREAK UP CONFIRMATION
— youruser: girl, if the song wasn’t confirmation enough idk what is
sza: welcome back y/n the streets have been waiting for your return
— youruser: tell the streets I’ll get back to them, I have other plans
— oscarpiastri: 👀 👀
— youruser: gtfo
— landonorris: trouble in paradise?
user32: who’s the song about???
— landonorris: yeah y/n who’s the song about??? 🤨🤨
— youruser: I will block you norizz
— landonorris: oh shiver me timbers
oscarpiastri: amazing song y/n! So proud to call you my best friend
— user22: bro 😭 😭
— user32: either brother doesn’t like her at all or he just has no rizz
— user44: god the friendzone must hurt extra hard after she just released that song about you.
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youruser: thank you all so much for all the love over the last month! I’m so glad you not only watched Queen Charlotte but that you loved it! As you all probably know I haven’t released much art in the last three years, but I never stopped making and art is forever. I’m now just so glad I can now share it with all of you. My new album empathogen is out now on all streaming platforms. Some familiar tracks on there, some not so familiar. Hope you guys enjoy!
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lewishamilton: 👏🏿👏🏿
— youruser: 🖤🖤
user10: can’t believe unholy isn’t on the album???
— user11: I mean I kinda can… all the other songs have much deeper meanings and the sounds are so much more complex…
— user13: that’s what I was thinking, unholy is giving forever 21 changing room, whilst the album is like, masterpiece level shit
—user17: thank god I’ve been arguing with people on twtr all morning about this,
— user32: it’s never that deep…
oscarpiastri: I’m in awe of what your mind can create 🧡
— youruser: couldn’t do it without my forever muse
— user21: 🤨🤨🤨🤨
— user32: y’all are we seeing this??
— user45: WHAT IS HAPPENING IN THE HOUSE OF COMMONS????
— user67: lord help me I’m about to read too much into an interaction on the internet. But him adding a heart. Her not adding a heart. I’m drawing conclusions
— user76: please stop drawing conclusions 😭
jonbatiste: so much talent for someone so young, keep flourishing y/n
— youruser: thank you Jon for all your help 🖤
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youruser: I bagged myself an f1 driver y’all! I hear they’re in high demand good thing I got you, was scared I’d have to settle for Lando Norris.
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oscarpiastri: this is not the caption we agreed on…
— youruser: oopsie daisy… I’m just a girl?
— oscarpiastri: MY girl
— youruser: 🤤🤤 say it again
landonorris: now why am I in this??
— youruser: you saying you wouldn’t like to date me?? 🤨😔😟🙁☹️
— landonorris: What no I’m sure you’d be a joy to date
— oscarpiastri: hey watch yourself Lando that’s my girlfriend
— landonorris: I mean of course I would never date her
— youruser: ☹️☹️
— oscarpiastri: so you’re saying there’s something wrong with my girl Norris? Why wouldn’t you like to date her
— landonorris: I’m so confused
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oscarpiastri: making up for lost time, at least we have til the end of it
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user32: oh… his caption just called me single in 45 different languages
— user21: the difference between his and y/n’s captions is what had me cackling
youruser: can’t wait to spend eternity with you,
— oscarpiastri: unbelievably in love with you
— alex_albon: 🤮 gross
— youruser: @lilymhe come get your man
— lilymhe: @alex_albon why is showing affection gross albon? 🤨🤨🤨
logansargeant: I’m taking credit for this
— landonorris: hey now it was a team effort
— alex_albon: this is me erasure
— youruser: thank you all 🫶🏿 you could’ve done it like 4 years earlier but still thank you!
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@callsignwidow
@a-beaverhausen
@emryb
@c0deincrazy
@dontworryaboutitokie
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crybabylipstick · 2 months ago
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TALKING ABOUT THE ALLEGATIONS AGAINST MELANIE MARTINEZ:
In November of 2017, Timothy tweeted "what if I have my own story of a*use but I'm scared to ruin the persons life and I still love them in a f*cked up way and the public really loves them and most probably wouldn't believe me".
On December 4, 2017, Timothy publicly accused Melanie of s*xual as*ault on Twitter. She alleged two nights during which she "repeatedly said no" to advances from Melanie, claiming she kept secret for years and describing how Melanie had performed s*xual act*vities on her without her consent.
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Melanie replied to the accusation shortly after claiming Timothy's allegation was false:
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"I am horrified and saddened by the statements and story told tonight by Timothy Heller. What she and I shared was a close friendship for a period of time. We came into each other's lives as we were both starting our careers as artists, and tried to help each other. We both had pain in dealing with our individual d*mons and the new paths we were forging, but I truly felt we were trying to lift each other up. She never said no to what we chose to do together. And although we parted ways, I am sending her love and light always." (In case the picture is blurry).
- Melanie Martinez
In an interview with Newsweek, Timothy claimed that Melanie tried to contact both her and her boyfriend around 20 minutes after publishing the accusations through text and phone calls. No evidence to back this up was ever shared. In the aforementioned interview, Timothy went on to say that Melanie's dismissal of her account "says it all":
First of all, I did say 'no,' multiple times, but even if I hadn't, that doesn't mean I wanted it. She dug her own grave saying, 'she didn't say no'. That's not consent."
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On December 10, Melanie thanked her fans who supported her after the accusations.
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"I understand how hard it could be to see my side of the story, considering no one with a heart would want to invalidate anyone speaking up about this topic. I want to thank my fans who took the time to research the timeline, analyze past Instagram photos, and question the story being told, which reveal her false statements. I trusted so many people in my life who took advantage of that trust for their own personal gain. Please know that my intentions with everything that I do in my life are always pure and I would never be i*timate with someone without their absolute consent." (In case the picture is blurry).
- Melanie Martinez
On July 19, 2024, 6 years after the controversy, Timothy posted a 6-minute video onto TikTok detailing how she had been h*rassed and bullied off the internet due to speaking up about the all*gations. She also said that she felt "quite validated" from Melanie's response due to Melanie admitting that the two had something take place between them.
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(screenshot of the video Timothy is talking about Melanie and the whole situation).
Now, before anyone says something like "Oh wow you're supporting a 🍇pist" "You support 🍇pe" "Can't believe you believe Melanie" etc. I don't believe anyone, I'm not picking sides neither I'm trying to start a fight or offend anyone. I've been getting a lot of hate about the whole situation from people who don't even know me, saying stuff like "You support 🍇pe" "I hope you get 🍇ped too" "Supporting a 🍇pist" and really mean and offensive stuff like that. I DO NOT support 🍇pe. I just wanted to clear some things out, just because I'm a fan of Melanie doesn't mean I support everything she does and believe in everything she says etc. I'm just a fan and nothing more, I DO NOT care about her personal LIFE or what she DOES. I just listen to her music and art. I'm not trying to offend anyone or anything. And I'm not saying you shouldn't express your thoughts or opinions on the whole situation or anything like that. Neither I'm saying you are in the wrong if you believe Timothy/Melanie. All I'm trying to say is we shouldn't judge or pick sides because only Melanie and Timothy know what truly happened. We might never know the truth, and that's totally okay. The only people who can judge each other are Melanie and Timothy. We don't even know what happened. Timothy could be lying, Melanie could be lying, who knows? Also, Melanie hasn't been proven GUILTY neither is Timothy's story INVESTIGATED or proven to be TRUE.
Another thing I want to point out is that even tho Timothy claims to be traumatised by Melanie and the whole situation etc. Timothy in 2015/2016 had dressed up as Melanie:
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( 1st photo edited by me (I mean how I compared the pictures) , please give credits if you use etc. Thank you 🌬️🤍).
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I'm sure you don't dress up as someone who has done something so serious and mean to you.
Not to mention when Timothy said the date that apparently the whole situation happened Melanie was in another state on the "CRYBABY TOUR". The last time I checked, you couldn't f*ck someone from that far away. (Not trying to offend anyone). And she also has claimed that she didn't remember the date that well yet she is still giving us a date.
Anyways, that's all I have to say, if you read all that, thank you, I really appreciate it. 🌬️🤍
( By the way, this is MY opinion about the whole situation. NOT trying to start a fight, be mean or offend anyone. Saying this so that there won't be any misunderstandings or false information 💕🩹).
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dana-chan-the-control-brain · 10 months ago
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Thanks for your response. I was the anon who ended the ask with 'the fandom can suck it'. When I saw that anon who you and twinanimatronics had assumed to be the one that keeps you know starting shit with you, I really hated that they labeled us as shipbrain or whatever they said. I am aroace who finds comfort in shipping characters and that doesn't make me any less aroace. Can't people like them just let us have this, let us share it and stop taping our mouths? God. We are not even hurting anyone. I posted a solarxmoon and solarxearth mini comic thing yesterday and behold, I believe that same anon found it and is looking adamantly through the solarxmoon and even solarxearth because I didn't use the tsams tag for my comic. I took the comic down fast and turned off anon messages so quick because God that anon was quick to leave nasty messages, six in total and that was panic attack inducing. I'm sorry for rambling about this. I don't know anyone else who got that same anon on their back. It looks like they are persistent for lack of better term and it annoys me+scares me. Can't even share things I like about here anymore. Hoping solarxmoon becomes canon so that anon can shut up already
If Solar Moon became canon, they don't even need to change anything.
The actors don't even need to pretend to kiss or be romanically involved at all.
It's literally as simple as "Oh yeah, we were dating for months, anyway..."
OH AND... FUCK THAT ANON. I know the user you are talking about, I think there's around two or three of them... and it seems like they're dead set on hunting down people who use that Solarmoon or Solar x Moon tag.
Going into popular users in the tsams fandom that I personally don't know... and spreading bad lies and rumors about me.
Like, they typically try to keep it as vague as possible, like "oh I am not talking about dana-chan-the-control-brain specifically....." but they often steal the exact wording and turn of phrase I use.
Cause I have an overly wordy way of talking on the internet.
I've always been this way since I was 15, so I feel my style of speaking is pretty overly wordy, rambly and long compared to most people just because I don't have a lot to share with my opinions with in real life. And I also misspell things a lot cus spellcheck has gotten worse since it became AI trained and it doesn't help my dyslexia.
But how sad is that? That someone is searching out the tag for a ship that they don't like, claim that "it's everywhere" and I'm "poisoning the fanbase" when I'm just.... here... playing with my own dolls, doing my own thing.... and not bothering anyone... Not even putting the ship in the tags publicly because I have Such respect and love for the silly little youtube show, who also plays with fnaf characters like they're dolls.
(just saying.. "bio-organic" and interdimensional travel did NOT come from fnaf I can tell you that much. )
And yeah, if they're really stumbling across Solarmoon or these ships on accident.......Blacklist the tags and move on? Don't come to my messages... Don't harass my friends...
And don't harass other people I DON'T EVEN KNOW because someone just said "hehe but what if they kissed" on the internet?
Like blocklist the tag, and move on.
I know the blocklisting tagging system sucks sometimes, so maybe it's picking up "Solar" like in that case? Just scroll super fast and don't look at it?
And yeah. You don't deserve those nasty messages sent your way at all!
Oh, and if you feel brave enough to reupload your art to tumblr and DM me, I will gladly reblog it here. <3
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paranormeow7 · 23 days ago
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Idc if you answer this privately or publicly but Jesus fucking Christ this is getting out of hand. I didn't write up a doc about oh it's not my fault oh I didn't do it it was someone else. I think you know who I am, being we used to be friends. And I am sincerely here to say I am so, deeply sorry for what I did and what I have therefore caused. I tried to ignore it because I didn't want to face it. But it happened and I don't want any trolls or whatever making it worse.
Gavin, I'm pretty sure that's what you're going by now I apologize if that's wrong, I can't take back what I did. Any of it. I knew I should have gotten help and shouldn't have put it onto you by becoming closer. It never should have got to the point past being friends but I was selfish and I wasn't actually thinking about anyone else. I just wanted somewhere to offload my problems, and I knew it was wrong. It was never supposed to go farther than just being friends, but then it was best friends, and I didn't want to lose the "only person" I felt understood. And I mean you didn't understand, you were a kid. I didn't plan to groom anyone, that should be obvious, but it happened. It wasn't the "regular" kind of grooming, but it was still grooming. I just didn't want to realize it or see it for what it was.
I wasn't in a good state before meeting you, and I let it get worse, I let it influence you as time went on and it's no one's fault but mine. You didn't deserve it. You didn't deserve any of what I put you through, the lasting effects none of it. It's not your fault I couldn't take accountability. It's not your fault I denied not being alright and deluded myself into thinking things were okay.
This is not to get anyone to forgive me. That's stupid. But as an adult I want to, me, not someone trying to make a bigger mess, not hiding behind a new account in a different place, as in me who has been trying to find a college and move away from the internet entirely, apologize. And make it known that I have now accepted help to make sure none of this happens again. I say I'm taking accountability and I'll admit to the tumblr/reddit thing because I panicked and didn't want to dig a deeper hole than I already did. But that quite obviously backfired, I just thought an art and collection blog would be okay enough but it broke the promise set in place. I interpreted the post as I did something like. s*xual grooming and I panicked because I didn't do that but misinterpreting it upset me and I, again, panicked.
I don't have access to an address or anything btw, I know my words don't hold much water to both of you, but I would not lie about that. Please do not go after any family members you might know of mine, they are not involved in my mistakes.
And ps: I wouldn't use my like. actual name in a random ask if it was there. That's also stupid. I just want this to verifiably be completely over for you- and everyone I affected. It's been a long time since and it shouldn't still be drug out because I've been scared to admit things. If you believe me or not is obviously up to you, and I don't want to make you more upset. I just want to formally, and with a clearer perspective since talking to a professional, apologize.
And I don't want some random person with facts they could get from my dad saying any crap about there being another person. There isn't. There's just me. And I don't have proof, especially with the one account being gone, but I'm keeping to my word of being offline. If anything else pops up, I will personally message them and tell them to take it down, for you and your boyfriend's sake, not for me. This is the only thing I'm actually sending. Hopefully this message actually holds merit because of the way I type, it's probably recognizable to you. I hope this finally puts an end to everything, and I cross my heart everything will not make another account. I just thought a art thing or collection thing would be contained enough but, yeah.
Again I do not want this out there for forgiveness. I want it out there because I'm sock of misinformation from random people and the fact my continued selfishness continues to hurt you. With all the sincerity I can put across words, I hope this is it. 🐇
I’ll delete the posts about the doc, I’m genuinely sorry I put your name out there, and I cannot believe someone would just write a doc like that out of boredom if it really wasn’t you. That’s absolutely batshit and not fair. As for the rest of it, it’s not my place to accept any of this, it’s Gavin’s. I hope this is it as well.
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blu-ish · 10 months ago
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Hi! Hope you’re doing well! I was wondering, what advice would you give to someone who’s trying to build the confidence to start posting their art online?
The only thing that’s stopping me is that I over think it too much, to the point where I convince myself out of it (I’m working on it lol). Thank you, I love your style.
Heya!! AND THANKS SM HSJSHSJ
I didn't post any of my art online until like, maybe mid 2023 tbh. I'm not a rlly big social media person but I had a friend at a college camp in 2021 (I was still in highschool at this point, but I got into this rlly cool camp where I got to live in the dorms for a week) she looked at my art and told me I should post it on tumblr xD. She was a huge videogame nerd just like me lmao.
Honestly, I was scared, I didn't think my art was all that radical compared to others I've seen online. Or that my ideas rlly mattered since so many other SUPER TALENTED AND AMAZING peeps were already making stuff.
It took me a while to realize that NONE OF THAT MATTERS, I didn't have to sit there and clutched what I loved to do just for myself. (Don't get me wrong, sometimes that's perfectly fine.) But I'm a social person, on a good day lmao, you wouldn't believe how much of an introvert I am.
I realized the only thing stopping me from getting that experience, was myself. I was stopping myself with stupid little doubts and reasons as to why I shouldn't. Instead of why I wanted to. Sure the internet can be fuggin NUTS, but, here on Tumblr dot com. I've never felt HAPPIER to post my art or silly edits and wait for my new friends to see it. For it to INSPIRE someone, for getting to write my thoughts down (like im doing now lmao) and to make others happy. I LOVE that about here.
Art does NOT in ANYWAY need or have to be perfect, it's a piece of yourself, something you sat down and CREATED just because you CAN, because you COULD. You enjoy it and desire to share it, that's reason enough. Don't let ANYONE tell you otherwise, because they are not you, you are.
Create to your hearts content! You have to be your own number one fan before anything after all. Don't let those voices inside your head tell you that your not worthy enough. Because I will personally go in there with a nerf gun and tell them no! LMAO HSJSHSJ ;)
But of course, don't let ME tell ya what to do after all. There's nothing wrong from dipping ur toes in that tumblr water first before you dive in. But you'll never know until you try <3 Just remember that I'm backing u up 100% AND I WILL BE THE FIRST TO RUSH OVER THERE AND SEEING YOUR AMAZING ARTWORK DONT EVEN TEST ME >:)
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laughdamnyou · 2 years ago
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I understand not liking something or that it is not to your taste. But I am tired of things that I like being shit on constantly. If you don't like it or prefer something else, don't keep bringing it up or getting rude at someone else for liking it. Of course, this post is about the whole IDW vs Archie, but I believe it can be applied to many things.
I grew up with Archie somewhat, but only a Readers Digest every 4-6 months because we rarely went out. I grew up with disjointed comics and honestly? bad art. I have some of Tracy Yardley's back before he really got into a groove and colourers didn't really seem to care so there were lots of off-model colouring. When we finally got internet at my age of 14/15, I was immediately drawn in by the UK's Sonic the Comic. It was odd, it was trippy, and overall very memorable and fun for me (even if unintentionally). Amy was my favorite character and I would draw and write her like STC's scrappy tomboy Amy (doesn't help that I was doing archery at the time so I latched onto a cool female archer character). However, there wasn't very much recognition for my favorite comic, so I made do with Archie.
When Archie Sonic was canceled, I was upset a bit, but I saw it coming (fuck Ken Penders). When IDW picked it up, the consistent art and bright colours lured me in as well as building off of what Forces should've been (which is to say "good"). I loved Tangle and Whisper and for a bit Whisper was my new fixation (Rouge will forever be my absolute favorite Sonic female). But I noticed a massive amount of hate. I knew this would happen because fandoms rarely let a cancellation slide, let alone a fandom like Sonic. Especially to be replaced by another series with no returning original cast.
However, I was hoping it would disappear over time and Archie Sonic is remembered as "fun, dramatic, and mostly well written." especially as it was the longest running video game based comic ever (that I know of). But it hasn't. IDW isn't perfect, Ian Flynn isn't perfect, Sega isn't perfect, nor is Sonic Team. The writing can be off, Flynn does have the odd urge to put random music lyrics into dialogue awkwardly, Shadow is...off putting for any fan to say the least, the pacing could be better, and the constant delays are incredibly annoying.
Criticism is one thing, but constant hate and shit stirring is another. Please stop and be kind to your fellow fans. There are plenty of Sonic media for anyone. Whether it be games; Classic era, Adventure era, "modern" era, etc. Shows; SATAM, AOSTH, Prime, Boom, Underground. Movies; Sonic Cinematic Universe, OVA. Or Comics; Archie, IDW, STC, manga, etc.
So please calm down and either enjoy or at least appreciate what we have or go back and reread what you already love. Or make your own. That is always an option. I do sometimes, I even created a "Reboot" universe of sorts with my sister (though i am too scared to share it)
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hyperfixation-station-1234 · 10 months ago
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Full disclaimer: I am SUPER new to enjoying Sleep Token as a band. I’m talking not even a week new.
I had listened and saved a couple of their song on Spotify. My husband is a drummer and really enjoys II’s playing. He told me about the Drumeo offering, I got really interested in them after watching it. I decided to do what I always do and search about their lore and history as a band and listen to their full discography because I have no chill when I get excited about something.
I didn’t even make it one full TikTok before one of their names popped up. And I immediately felt guilty. Even though I wasn’t really looking for it. And forget Pinterest like the first post has something about their identities. And with the doxing situation it really is the absolute worst time to find a band you genuinely enjoy for it to immediately be tainted by that kind of boundary being crossed for them. I feel like I was in able to enjoy how they intended to be enjoyed and that’s sad. And I feel so sad for them. They are probably feeling scared, angry, and out of control because of someone’s thoughtless actions. Because someone viewed them through a screen and not as actual people behind the creativity and art.
To Millennials, gen z and whatever generation to come after us is, we need to find a way to teach ourselves and those that come after us social media and internet etiquette and boundaries. We were never taught this stuff. But we are seeing how the repercussions of the internet Wild West have affected so many people, Sleep Token is just another name in a very long list.
Sure they’re hot, sure they seem extremely cool, sure they put their art out to be consumed. But that doesn’t mean THEY should be up for consumption. They do not belong to anyone but themselves. They have a right to their own personal autonomy just like the rest of us.
I hope they are able to take legal action against whoever did it to them. I hope the ones involved who did the doxing wake up to a freight train of karma. I hope they can feel safe enough again after this to continue making bombass music, because HOLY SHIT they’re incredible. And I hope we can all collectively help each other and educate each other to do better.
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wineaunt420 · 6 months ago
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Tw// loong ass Vent post
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hope none of my irls find any of my accounts god forbid my twitter because I use tumblr to be unforgivable adhd and I use twitter to talk about and connect with my mental health struggles. But it's so twisted how being online is the easiest way for me to talk about my interests because I don't feel the sinking feeling of dread that I would if I were to talk about my hyperfixations and not be reciprocated in my connection with these shows. Because I genuinely feel like I will explode sometimes because of my overwhelming thoughts and the only way I can stop that feeling is to share my thoughts whether they are are seen or not. I still get anxiety connecting with people online but it's significantly less because there isn't that full face to face connection
I have this burning desire to be seen and loved for my work and my ideas but this deep fear of being seen, noticed and perceived. I want to share my thoughts and feelings all the time to everyone but people usually end up taking advantage of it. And I'm scared that I won't make it in the future because of my struggles with depression and self harm and the fear of growing up. I'm afraid I won't make a significant impact to the world with my name, I feel the need to be seen but my struggles prevent that. That's why I want to br an actor.
But I'm afraid I won't make it
I'm afraid it will all go wrong and because I'm not a child anymore I will have to be the one to fix it instead of someone older than me. I'm never going to be a child again and it's weird for me now to have such a childish love for kids shows and games, it's weird for me to collect toys of all my favourite characters and feel such strong connections with them.
I used to hide all my toys whenever an argument would break out in the house because I would be afraid that they would be broken In order to hurt me. I've always feared people judging me for my interest but I find so much comfort in them and putting myself in their worlds and building myself an interesting life in those shows and games, which I've realised was just an escapism coping mechanism. But I want to share these worlds that I've built in my head and share how beautiful they are.
I've always felt out of place for not being normal but I've always felt comfortably abnormal on the Internet and that's why I choose to share my stories here so that I can be seen through them. It is fucking weird that I genuinely want connection with fictional characters but it stops me from falling back on my unhealthy coping mechanisms, so I do it. But I do it here so I can't be perceived. So my unusual state and problems can't be linked towards a face. Saying all this I'll probably still end up doing a face reveal lol.
My adhd is both a blessing and a curse that flourishes here and is soul crushing in real life
My depression and issues with self harm is just a fucking draining curse no matter where I am. I wish therapy wasn't so fucking expensive and I wish I could share my art and thoughts with more people
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phoebelovingcare · 6 months ago
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Shock, horror; if you post about people using their URL, they'll probably find out about it regardless of being @'d directly and try to figure out wtf your problem is. Also shock and horror; if you can keep careful track of someone's URL changes and posts, they can probably do the exact same to you. Karma's a bitch, as is common sense.
For the grievous sin of trying to figure out why the guy I haven't spoken to in four actual years is drawing vent art of torturing me in his sketchbook by asking "do you want to talk," I get told that I, who was 16 when we met while he was in his early twenties, am terrifying and need to stay far away from him. As if his other victim hasn't been begging for him to do that for years.
To Gen, I want you to know that while you were constantly throwing my name around and bemoaning my existence, I had literally actually forgotten about you entirely and was doing things like making friends, getting a job, learning to drive... Y'know, things more important than arguing over video game characters on the Internet for FOUR YEARS?
If my living well and letting go scares you, be afraid, motherfucker. Be so very afraid.
I'm gonna get to work on this mermay piece and make myself some pancakes, take my anxiety meds, chat with my brother about Hollow Knight and Subnautica. Maybe work on writing more in my super longform fic project! I've taken three shifts of teaching karate this week and I'm exhausted, looking forward to a chill, fun day with less exercise besides the pushup challenge they have me doing.
Hope everyone reading has a fantastic day!! Sparkle on its Friday and all that :D
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feybeasts · 2 years ago
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Look, it's late and I don't know what it is I can say or if I should say anything at all, but it's one of those nights where I feel like there's a lot swimming in my head and mucking up the whole show so...
I want to say thank you. For accepting me as I am, warts and all.
(Woe, lengthy rambling on my history to follow)
Look, I'm not part of some like- magical old internet old guard. I haven't been doing- or rather- sharing- art for that long. I really only started out a couple years ago, and before that all I really did were doodles, class assignments before I stopped doing any sort of art for a few years when I lost a close family member. Before I really started... getting into the furry scene, being open with who I was and who I am, I was a confused, scared little people-pleaser who would bend over backwards to please folks, to feel like I was part of something not by my own merits, but by virtue of having people to fill the silence- no matter who they were.
Can't tell you how often that hurt me- not a way of living I'd recommend anyone.
Anywho. On a whim, I started doing art again a couple years back, when I first started posting to twitter, and it was through that I started to become a part of the community, as it were- I wrote, then I drew, and I kept drawing. Kink stuff, mostly, because well, that was what I wanted to draw. But I found a community, friends, people who liked me not just because I gave them something, but because I was being myself, a person who, yeah, was a niche member of a niche group in the wide world of internet subcultures, but these were folks who saw me, the unvarnished, not-putting-on-an-act-for-once me and they... liked them.
This was also around the time I really started to address some ooooold traumas through therapy, so needless to say, it was a hell of a time. Anyways.
I can't really describe how much... just, learning I did these last few years. Learning who I was, learning what made me tick. Coming to terms with being ace and that being acceptable, then with being nonbinary, what definition of "me" felt comfortable, felt right when for so long I had neglected even... having a sense of self, hating the idea of thinking about "me" and not my characters or my stories. And all through it, I had friends who were there for me, who didn't simply tolerate, but encouraged through thick and through thin- through them, I learned that the best possible me I can really present to the world is just... me as I am. All my strange contradictions, all my weird little quirks, all my arcane trivia and hungry world-building and little fantasies and dreams and just... all of it.
Goodness knows I'm not perfect. I'm someone who frequently speaks without thinking, acts without speaking, who only sorta grasps decorum and how to at least present a... veneer? of neurotypicality (is that a word? I think it's a word?)- I'm sometimes blunt to a fault, sarcastic to a greater one, and I have a pretty low tolerance for things that emotionally exhaust me- I also don't know or really care to organize a blog so, y'know, my bad there.
But I hope y'all understand that I present myself as I am, as a person who spouts frequent 1 am non sequiturs, a person often hyper-focused on weird little niches, as a kink artist who frequently isn't, simply because... that's the only way I know how to present myself anymore. This is my truth, and to live any other way is just... baffling to me. I know people will do things in some ways, will cut the more... saucy...? elements out of their main account to spirit away on some sideblog, but I present everything as part of one big, messy whole not because I'm trying to deviously foist my interests on others, or... I dunno, deceive people- but because I don't want to live with a mask, pretend I'm something I'm not.
I tag art that isn't to everyone's tastes as best I can, try to respect folks' own comforts and not... muddy the waters(?) so to speak, because I'm fully aware that not everything I do is for a general audience. Hell, it's a big part of why I don't take requests or anything like that, and only depict my own OCs- I know what it's like to be forced into uncomfortable positions by someone not respecting my boundaries, and I think I'd be mortified if I did that!
And sure, part of me wants to justify how I interact with kink art- that I feel it's an avenue to explore my own wants, my own body goals, my own comfort, that, as someone not really... comfortable with a lot of physical affection it's a pretty personal exploration at that, but... at the same time I feel like- well, I leave people alone, why would I need to justify what I choose to share on my own blog? Hell, if you're looking for saucy, I'm sorry to say my art ain't it! I wouldn't know "sexually charged" if it hit me with a fish!
But I think that's broadly beside the point. I guess all this is to say... I'm acutely aware and frequently self-conscious about where I sit in the wider world, that someone out there might get the wrong idea, that I'm interested in anything but continuing to explore my own, odd little brain as I've been doing these past few years with the encouragement of some amazing friends, but broadly speaking, Tumblr and the community here have been awfully welcoming and kind, and I'm just... grateful for that.
I know the internet as a whole can be a really ugly place, an increasingly-corporate algorithmic hellhole, so when there's small bits of good in it, genuinely kind people out there, I feel like I gotta point to it and go "oh hell yes, more of this please!"
So... I'm gonna do that. Thank you all for being the strange, wonderful community you are <3
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tomb-bloom-noctem · 2 years ago
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FEEL FREE TO COMPLETELY IGNORE THIS UNHINGED POST I AM UNLEASHING ON EVERYONE BUT IT OKAY FOR ME TO JUST SCREAM ABOUT HOW TERRIBLE AND AMAZING IT IS TO BE LIVING IN THE TIME OF THE INTERNET!? THERE IS SO MUCH THAT SCARES ME AND CONCERNS ME AND THERE IS SO MUCH TO HATE BUT THERE IS ALSO SO MUCH GOOD. I HAVE FRIENDS I WOULD HAVE NEVER MADE WITHOUT IT. I WOULD NEVER GET TO KNOW THE GREAT WORKS OF CHAOFIX AND MARINAIGUESS AND GAYEMERALDS AND DRAGONSWIRL AND MORE AND THE ART OF RISZIARTS, ARTBYSANJO, CHICKEN AND WAFFLES, MORINGMARK, AND TOO MANY FOR ME TO REMEMBER RIGHT NOW AND MORE WITHOUT IT. I WOULD HAVE NEVER MET @minimetalxena or @mommacomms or @snow-rain or @late-to-the-fandom OR SO MANY OTHER JUST WONDERFUL FOLKS WITHOUT THE INTERNET. I MIGHT HAVE BEEN LONELY FOREVER WITH ONLY MY HUSBAND AS A WONDERFUL PERSON IN MY IRL LIFE TO BE MY FRIEND. WHICH DON'T GET ME WRONG HE IS SO FANTASTIC AND LOVELY AS A PERSON BUT HE SHOULD NOT BE MY ONLY FRIEND AND I'M SUCH A LONELY PERSON BUT I'M SO THANKFUL FOR MY FRIENDS AND MUTUALS AND FOR THE INTERNET GIVING ME ACCESS TO MORE ART AND MORE MUSIC AND IDEAS AAND FRIENDS WHO DON'T LIVE ANYWHERE NEAR ME BUT ARE AN IMPORTANT PART OF MY LIFE ALL THE SAME AND IMPORTANT PERSPECTIVE TO HAVE AND JUST FUCKING HELL I CANNOT ADEQUATELY EXPRESS MY LOVE AND GRATITUDE ENOUGH. JUST HOLY SHIT I GET THAT BEHIND A SCREEN IT MAY NOT BE CLEAR BUT HOLY SHIT. ALL OF YOU ARE IMPORTANT TO ME AND I AM THANKFUL FOR YOU IN SOME WAY. I DON'T EXPECT THE SAME BUT I HOPE YOU ALL KNOW THAT YOU ARE LOVED AND VALUED EVEN IF THIS IS COMING FROM SOMEONE YOU'VE NEVER MET. I AM THANKFUL FOR YOU ARTISTS. I AM THANKFUL FOR YOU BLOGS OF RANDOM PEOPLE WHO I HAPPENED TO MEET THANKS TO THE INTERNET. I WANT YOU TO KNOW YOU'RE IMPORTANT AND THAT YOU MATTER TO PEOPLE.
YOU STILL MATTER!!!
YOU STILL MATTER!!!
YOU STILL MATTER!!!
THE INTERNET GAVE ME CHVRCHES AND NEW LINKIN PARK AND MEET ME @ THE ALTAR AND TAYLOR SWIFT AND ARCH ENEMY AND BILLIE EILISH AND SLEEPING WITH SIRENS AND AND WELCOME TO NIGHT VALE AND TOLD ME IT WAS OKAY TO LOVE THE THINGS I LOVE AGAIN LIKE SONIC OR LAST OF US OR LIFE IS STRANGE OR TOMB RAIDER OR TITANFALL OR APEX LEGENDS OR DEATH STRANDING OR OTHERS. THAT THE INTERNET IS HOW I'LL BE ABLE TO BEGIN THERAPY AGAIN OR HOW I LEARNED THAT I *AM NOT BROKEN* I'M JUST ASEXUAL, BIROMANTIC ASEXUAL AT THAT, THAT I MAY BE CRINGE AND NOT WORTH FOLLOWING ONLINE BUTI AM SO THANKFUL FOR THE INTERNET TO HELPING ME REALIZE THAT I WAS WRONG, THAT MY MOTHER WAS WRONG AND ABUSIVE, THAT MY CHURCH WAS ABUSIVE, THAT THERE ARE SO MANY WONDERFUL PEOPLE OUT THERE EVEN IF WE ALL THINK WE ARE CRINGE AND TERRIBLE, THAT LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL AND EVEN WHEN IT'S HARD IT'S WORTH IT TO KEEP GOING, TO ENDURE AND SURVIVE, TO COME OUT THE OTHER SIDE. JUST. GOD. I AM GOING TO HEAL. I KNOW IT. I WILL NOT BE TORN DOWN BY MY MOM OR HATEFUL COMMENTS ONLINE, I WILL RISE. I AM ALLOWED TO LIVE AND * I WILL. *
YOU STILL MATTER
YOU STILL MATTER
YOU STILL MATTER
YOU STILL MATTER
I STILL MATTER
YOU STILL MATTER
YOU STILL MATTER!!!
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a-heart-like-a-sparrow · 8 months ago
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March 12th, 2023 - Hard to love
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Right now I'm in a good mood, but today some things happened that made me upset lol
It's not raining as much as it was predicted. I really wanted some rain.
I had a horrible Economics class where I had to correct other people's work. I think one if them hates me for the grade I wrote...
During that class, the teacher and my classmates made some small talk and talked about romantic partners. J has a girlfriend since almost 2 years ago, and I think I heard B and D have/had girlfriends, too.
I was so upset. I realized how I'm not as grown up as them... and how unlovable I am. I might be aroace, but sometimes I still want a boyfriend. Someone to take care of and hang out and feel like a normal person.
I was so sad and angry. I know it's not their fault. But I hate hearing how happy they are with other people and the fact that they can have normal human interactions with others. I can't.
What's the point in desiring him? It's not worth it. I'm just a stupid little girl and everyone can see that. I'm so... hard to love. A burden. I'm not destined to having a partner.
Sometimes I feel so alone...
Anyway, it was also too hot, and heat puts me in a bad mood lol
Ugh, and I have gym class tomorrow. I really hope it rains to avoid going to the park. I even have to finish reading my Philosophy book for tomorrow. I'll do it before I go to sleep. I'll highlight everything in the morning before I go to school.
Oh, and finally, I started posting on Instagram again, on @fragile_cosmos_. I've already posted a couple of things, but I'm still now sure about what to do with all that. I didn't even use any tags because I'm scared of showing things to people on the Internet lol
I even drew a little bit. I improvised and made something that was not on my list for brainstorm. I haven't finished it, I'm still on the line-art phase. I hope it's finished tomorrow.
Okay, that was all. Rest well!
Shit, now I don't know if I'm fine or I got sad like before lol
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PS: I said "hard to love" because Sotce wrote on an Instagram post that someone told her she was "so easy to love". It definitely could never be me lol
Sotce is great, I started following her a few days ago. I love her drawings of Flower.
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fayesdiary · 2 years ago
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Omg i had no idea you wrote for that fire emblem heroes supports blog! That was my fave blog back then LOL. A question for your blog though: how did you get the courage to start this account? I am also very shy on the internet and feel cautious about putting myself or my art online 😅
It was my favorite blog too! In fact, the reason I made a Tumblr account to begin with was to interact with and eventually submit supports to it😂 Shame no one uploads supports to it anymore, although I suppose I am part of the problem...
Anyway! Regarding your question, it was weirdly enough a mix of slowly preparing for it (there was a time where I made the blog but still was too scared to post anything) and getting on with it faster than my brain could freak out and make me back off. It's a weird game of push and pull and it's very frustrating.
But if you want some personal advice, I'd say wing it and post something, anything before you can think about it. Make a Tumblr account if you don't have it already, take full advantage of the fact it gives you full anonimity by not tying anything of your personal life to it (or rather, only the things you feel confident in letting anyone know, but if you're a minor do yourself a favor and don't put any personal information, not even your name and age) and if too much interaction freaks you out, you can disable anything you don't feel confident engaging with, from asks to replies to reblogs. Anonimity is great, it means you can put yourself out there without, well, actually exposing yourself more than you want. Same goes for filtering content you see, take some time to mess around with the settings and it will definitely pay off!
Also- I'm not speaking from personal experience here since everyone I've dealt with has been sweet, but remember the block button is always an option and you should use it whenever you don't want someone to interact with. It's there for that very reason after all!
And lastly, posting art or whatever else you want to post, I'd say just mess around and stick to whatever it feels most comfortable to you! You just want to post your finished art? Do that! You want to add WiPs and shitposts? Cool! 99% of your posts are barely tagged reblogs? You do you! Everyone uses their own blog differently, so take your time to experiment with what you want yours to be, and remember you can always change it later. As I mentioned earlier, this very blog was supposed to just be detailed posts about FE meta after all, and look where we are now😂
And that's all, I think.
Good luck anon! I hope your artistic endeavors go well <3
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nempthis · 2 years ago
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Problems/painful feelings that I encountered this year and managed to get away with:
Painful feeling:
Got my feelings hurt because SOMEONE who used to be important to me told me that I was annoying and weird. Also felt heavily insecure when this person point out my insecurities and this person's thoughts about me.
Quite nice ending:
I met this person and we actually had a friendly talk to top the spiraling issues for the past months. This person was the one who's more determined to see me when I was actually having second thoughts. This phenomenon is new so I guess we're all good.
The problem:
I did the thing that I was so scared to do in my life and by that I mean... It's just between me and myself. No way I'll reveal on the internet. Well, I spent a lot of time thinking about this thing for the past 4 years that actually gave me anxiety and all the negative feels then one night I actually did it. After that, as expected I got crazy thinking about the consequences and I waited days to confirm whether my theories were rights. Those excruciating days while waiting... But this time I was guilty that I actually took part on it.
Resolution:
Fate spared me for it. Turned out my theories were wrong and that was a good thing. What a breathe of fresh air when I managed to survive it tho. At least I tried, I tested my fear and I got away with it.
Pain in the ass:
Thesis with my groupmates got me feeling like I was dying inside out. I was avoiding to cause drama between my and that one other groupmate but what's a thesis without an argument with one of the members right? So yeah the pressure is on, conflicts between me and this member, mental torture off the roof and of course, the cherry on top which caused me bankrupt, I was the sole finanicer from start to finish because my contribution wasn't enough.
The reward:
After all that, we managed to defend our thesis and we also got the title of being the best thesis defense in our department with the highest score in thesis defense and art of thesis research itself. Conflict between me and that member was resolved and we're back to being friends again.
The issue:
Tenants in our compound kept complaining about my cats but I am not ready to give them up. I just feel sensitive whenever someone tries to break me and my cats apart. I am not the type who causes trouble every now and then but my cats are the ones who bring me closer to it. I felt responsible for whatever they've done but what I can't accept is that I was just trying to do the good thing which is to feed them, that's the least I can do for my cats but these people see my cats as pests so they want them out of here.
Good thing:
Tenants stopped complaining and I still keep my cats here lol. They really can't do anything about my cats because they live here first before you assholes. My cats aren't gonna leave this place as long as they have me.
Bad news:
Neptune was missing for days after I arrived from my trip. You know what happened. The grief and theories and all that heartbreaking feels.
Good news:
Found him days later!!! Not gonna write so much about it since I already had a post regarding the happiness I felt when I reunited with him again.
Rejections:
I applied for jobs and I got rejected by all of it. Felt stupid and not qualified to do anything good. It hurt my feelings. I gave the best I can and was determined but still I failed. No one actually told me that I was stupid, I realized it myself and that's the worst part. It also strike my existential crisis because I am getting older but I still can't do things right, feeling left behind, unsuccessful, unwanted and just the worst of it. I badly need a job too but no one wants to hire me.
Hoping for the best:
After I tried applying for these sickening jobs, I was given a chance to show what I can do and I actually passed the initial round. Just hoping that I also pass the job interview and trainings so I can finally make my life productive and earn money of course.
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