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just got spoiled for ep 8 I WANNA FUCKING DIE
#and it was reddit of all places#i wasn't even on the app i just got a random notif from the tma server#and the funniest part ab it is that is said tma spoilers right at the top#and i read those words#but my dumb ass brain did not register#so yeah#i actually wanna fucking die#cause i know that if i didn't get spoiled i would've been losing my shit on thursday#but now im expecting it#welp#tmagp vague#idk if the vague tag fits but just in case#rat rants
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positively obsessed with how Rockstar Lestat is the exact kind of guy one of my friends would show me a picture of and swear heās really sexy and cool and brilliant. Whole time Iām thinking āoh dear GODā staring at a trainwreck weirdo and wondering whatās happened to everybody else that is absolutely missing me. jesus christ heās blond
#his outfits are busted heās cosplaying a vampire as an adult man and on top of it heās blond#if he was a real guy who came out of nowhere I would think he was so cringe#and iwtv fans are like āoh we love him! we would always love him!!!ā LIES#you are on the HATER WEBSITE you are simply partially sexualising him and then rolling your eyes at Lestat/Reader band fic#while reblogging hate tweets (made by armand). donāt look in my eyes and tell me you donāt think heās a little cringe.#does it matter how camp a man is if straight women want to fuck him. I think not. site of haters weād be on armandās side#and also youād wanna fuck Daniel. as recent trends show#the x reader fic swiftie aesthetic girlies would love Lestat#they want to be a rockstarās gf#but the gay gore amc hbo nbc bitches would take one look at Daniel crazy geriatric homosexual#who claims to be a vampire and is now touring around with another separate guy claiming to be a vampire#and they would (as they are a currently doing) posting shit like#āhey is vampire peepaw kinda sexy. like Iād let him bite me. Lestat can die but Daniel come and get it grandpaā#lestat is nothing this is danielās time. in the reality where this is actually happening to us and not a tv programme#iwtv#interview with the vampire#rockstar lestat#lestat de lioncourt#the vampire lestat#daniel molloy
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tennis
#death note#light yagami#l lawliet#eyestrain#?#i like shapes and colors AND patterns#fun combinations of all of those things#anyway i feel like i donāt talk in the tags on this blog as much as i used to. i need to do that more how else will i make more ppl#parasocially in love w meā¦..#so hmm. i graduate in less than a month which is exciting bc school sucks ass and i want to be done w it forever (until i decide i want#to go for a masters that is T_T) and have u guys heard abt the mcrtour? making mefeel fucking craaazyyyyyy yes iām gonna try for#tickets. and perhaps even visit some beloved mutuals in the process. and fool that i am i never finished my last scarf but am wanting#to start a new one but this one is for someone so perhaps i will have more motivation to like. actually finish it lol. knitting btw. i am#not very good at it but it is a good skill to have and crocheting is my motherās thing and i like the look of knit better. i got yarn the#other day and i was like ough am i remembering their favorite color correctly but if not i can just die forever or smth. iām not sure#what pattern i wanna do or if i want to add a second color or anything but like i have a small collection of yarn that i got when it was#on sale like crazy so iām sure i can find smth that will complement my base color if need be#okay iām done goodbye
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Do you wanna hang with me? Call me! āļøšš
On a mini Nene era, I've seen tons of Nay-Nay Fanarts so I wanted to join too!! <3
Inspired by anime magazine covers :]
#fnf#friday night funkin#friday night funkin fanart#fnf fanart#pico's school#nene pico's school#fnf nene#I think this is the most saturated work I've done ever#amd colorful as FUCK too lmao#sorry if i burn your eyes lol#i don't have idea what half of those text says except for the big nene one#YASSS GIRLLL SLAYYY#yasss queen#Don't be fooled by the pretty colors she actually still wanna die lol#epicexplosion#KurokkePostingLol#DIES
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they deserved better idc š
#it was so cool seeing the sign language and isha being mute was never something that needed fixing#she found a home and jinx found a reason to live#i know people are saying jinx survived because of the scene with Caitlyn but like...#why would jinx do that? she wanted to die this whole season she wanted to die at the beginning of the episode & that depression never faded#her escaping through the air vents implies a will to live#something jinx did not have#i thought it felt like the ending of ep 7 in the season one#trying to kill herself with ekko cause she didnt want to die alone. she had warwick when she pulled out & detonated one of her monkey bombs#like I'd love it if she was alive and left cause yea fuck Piltover get outta there honey!#and Isha's sacrifice meant nothing. she's just not mentioned at all we didnt even see Sevika's reaction to her death...#not dc#arcane#arcane spoilers#jinx arcane#isha arcane#tw suicide mention#the ending with Caitlyn felt like another moment of her and Vi having no idea the severity of Jinx's mental health issues#vi was upset she didnt wanna fight and go make change and shit and never mentioned the ''my sister wants to kill herself''#as if jinx wasn't in a depressive state every time we saw her in that cell.#and her removing herself from the equation so the others can be happy is ??????#so i guess she was a jinx to her family??? that she was the problem? its a frankly gross message to send with a suicidal character#that yes actually your loved ones will be better off without you in the picture you complicate things
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a sturdier toy
#a doodley#ok finished it up anyway#something abt how i didnt wanna continue it bc i drew myself so ugly but like thats how u know its depressingly accurate i guess#anyway recently been thinking about talon having those prey drive and intense āi wanna crawl inside your body''#feelings but nobody including him can tell if its in the Oh My God I Like You I Wanna Merge Souls way or if its in a more fucked up way#i think it could be both#tho i guess ''fucked up way'' also isnt fair bc he doesnt actually wanna kill anyone hence the ''i wish you could quickly heal injuries and#not die so i could do it over and over''#thing
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Impulsively shoving a guy's hand in your mouth after having the thought "oh just like when my little sister used to prick herself on a rose thorn" and then immediately being treated like a pet who ate something they shouldn't have? Wonderful. Thank you, Thane.
(also not pictured is Thane apparently trying to scrape your tongue with his hand BEFORE pouring the holy water down your throat because NO. BAD.)
#bewitching sinners#palmier baker#thane verashkova#accidentally ingesting vampire blood because of big brother impulses is wild#also the reason hes so alarmed is bc in that world you kinda soulbond to others and thats how you soulbond as a vampire#you drink each others blood and so hes flipping out because while he hasnt had your blood yet#hey your ex is going to absolutely kill me if we bond on accident and i dont think i wanna die like that!#which is VERY cool to know thank you thane im so glad your concern is actually less of being bound#but about being murdered thats really cool#also the fact thane is found in the library studying with arshem my beloved ex and is BRIBED TO LEARN RECIPES#by arshem with vials of mixed blood hes just CASUALLY CARRYING is like hey man#thank you for being group mum i love you for it#and then later on arshem actually is like oh thane you can drink my blood later since you havent fed for a while#and thane is super chipper about it like HECK YEAH THANKS !#hey boys youre adorable thank you for existing in this incredibly fucked up world#im in a choke hold with this otome im sorry#you ever try to be nice to a guy and think surely this will help him a little bit then you get background lore#and you realize youre probably making things A LOT WORSE FOR HIM by being nice#im going through it with my emotions as i learn about palmiers actions pre game swap so like#dude please i am BEGGING YOU palmier please have ONE redeeming quality in you at some point#i want to adopt one of the love interests as my son though and im obsessed with the fact he can speak fish#my son can speak to the fish and he gives me fish as a present bc i might need it later#and i do actually in fact need said fish later for another quest#thankyou my son i love you and i appreciate you youre amazing#gonna have to draw arshem at some point and everyone will immediately go yeah that makes sense
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Iāve never felt so conflicted about a franchise in my life but at least this dude was hot
#I watched conquering the demons and demons strike back at 3am last night and I have to say I like the first one more#but not by a lot#like I wanted so much to like this movie#but fucking Duan manā¦#like I read the plot beforehand so I wouldnāt be caught off guard by anything but DAMN that SA scene was sooo much worse watching it#girl this is not the girlboss pussy slay move you think it is queen#I liked her character so much too before that cuz sheās so cool but the unconsented captive fuck or die foreplay was NOT the move#then she had the nerve to rip up sanzangās book and turn to us and be like you know what I think I still have a chance - GIRL HES RUNNING#then they had the nerve to make him fall in love with her anyway boy you a VICTIM#then the second one just had [redacted] in it and I did not enjoy looking at his face for two hours - ruined the whole experience#also I have to say that was the worst iteration of Sanzang Iāve ever seen I was actually happy when I thought wukong was boutta kill him#I talk all this shit but I really did like the effects and monster designs in the movie they were so cool#also I thought the first sanzang actor was sooo cute and pathetic why didnāt they keep him š#well itās for the best I wouldnāt wanna have seen him turn abusive like they wrote him in the second movie#also dsb is the only movie in which I can understand the wukong and tripitaka shippers cuz that ENDING SCENE yeah I saw it#oh right my tags sorry lol#digital art#my art#journey to the west#jttw sun wukong#conquering the demons#demons strike back#sun wukong#also his glowup in between movies is so funny lmfao#if you couldnāt accept him at his conquering the demons you donāt deserve him at his demons strike back#at least dsb gave me this human version of wukong please sir just one chance just one sniff-
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2011 Italian Grand Prix - Vettonso
#SORRY. I AM GOING THROUGH IT.#this is why i had to put vettonso merchant in my bio bcs if i dont post them at least 5x a week ill die#their dynamic in this race is like actually indecipherable to me#cause this is the race where fernando 'allegedly' said fuck you my boy#but their dynamic is so odd????#like they have that happen in the cooldown room#and then generally ignore each other on the podium#and then we randomly get this cute moment and then they INSTANTLY go back to being awkward#but then in the press con they keep talking about each other and looking at each other???? okay :)#sometimes im just like. yeah no i give up on trying to understand them#not rly noticeable in these buts its so funny how seb pats him to get his attention#and then immediately goes to cheer as if to be like 'huh what i didnt touch uou'#to ref that one post about this race said: he didnt wanna embarrass himself again by getting turned on#stealing this from c cough cough but hes like 'oh no!! if he looks at me im gonna embrass myself on broadcast again!!'#anyways i love this moment and the pics from this are like my fav ever 2010s pics of them so yeah <3#f1#formula 1#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#vettonso#we do a little bit of f1#*its so odd i completely remember finishing this and scheduling it last night#*but when i woke up it was only half done??? im still confused#2011 italian gp
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every morning 4am this is what i see when i wake
#snap shots#woahā¦. rare irl photoā¦#i has a funny blurred pic that just makes me think of like. some kinda shoegsze album cover for some reason djdjWODJSJ#anywaydjKWKJA#stop staring at me with them big ol eyes#i got him Ever ago bur i wanted to shaew him tonight ā¦ i just changed the batteries in my candles ā¦#it still looks like i sleep in a dungeon but thats ok Look At Him#whenever im feeling lost or down i pull him out of my pocket and hear him tell me to stop fucking around and focus#i stare into his eyes and i feel immediate shame and Stop Fucking Around immediately#works everytime ā¦#the plush set this comes from is so funny cause its like scott jean logan#and then this freaks just there too. like nawww why is erik the bus driver all of a sudden#the day theres a lil charles plushie ill actually ascend to the high heavens PLEASE#you CANNOT separate them :((#anyways ā¦ i sleep now ā¦ with this little weirdo watching me#i cant say heāll protect me from bad dreams but heāll at least be a witness if i die during one so thats nice#good night team !!! i dont wanna do my presentation tomorrow ā¦ā¦ā¦#also im lyin. im gonna doodle a lil then sleep ā¦#gettin a drawing tablet was the worst thing i coulda done i cannot put it down fjOWJSSJSK#ok byebye ā¦.. prob wont post anymore tonight at least ā¦.#so we can act like im sleeping š and yet erik also acts as a witness to my lies š a travestyā¦.
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and also "putting everyone in a simulation will make it all ok š" and also "let's park next to this random system's sun" and also "we can't live on our own planet because of our own folly" and so on
#and also an inablity to accept the inevitable...etc etc#i thought of some more but then i forgot them š#originally wanted to post this with other sillies but then i was like. well i dont wanna spoil anyone on either a these games so erm. ya#nine sols#outer wilds#nine sols spoilers#outer wilds spoilers#outer wilds echoes of the eye#echoes of the eye spoilers#echoes of the eye#if youve played nine sols could i recommend outer wilds: a space exploration game where u play as a cute and short lookin alien whos#unraveling the mysteries of their solar system although there isnt any combat and although there are horrors theyre not like. well.#nobodies bein harvested thats for sure. and its very much about the story#and if youve played outer wilds uhh. i. dont really know if i can recommend nine sols even though i Can summarize it as a game where u do#explore and there is space and u Are an alien (from a humans pov) and you Are cute and short (from a humans pov)(until u learn the horrors)#and there Are horrors but erm. well. shrug emote. it Is a combat game thats the primary reason#the horrors are less the horrors of space and how easy it is for you to die and the idea of said causes of death and also the unknown. and#more the sins of some REALLY fucked up cats. ethically dubious science sins. actual guts bein spilled. i mean i aint actin like the warning#of the game id recommend lookin those up. sure is a game tho (i cried)(just like w outer wilds)#feels like i could recommend a non combat game to a combat game player easier than the other way round#the theoretical combat game player would be capable of playing a non combat game right#feels harder to imagine the other way around. then again i Did find outer wilds mechanically difficult at times in a way that combat games#can challenge me. so. shrug#all that matters is if u enjoyed the dialogue n interactions in nine sols...if u didnt vibe w that then im unsure how much outer wilds woul#vibe for you. etc etc#idk why i started typing up a whole ass recommendation in the tags. anyway have at ye#idk who'd read this far but i salute you FSDHLFSDHKSFDH
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i actually hate everything and everyone
i want to fucking die
#actually bpd#bpd#bpd thoughts#bpd vent#depressing shit#i hate everything#i hate everyone#fuck off#i wanna die#i wanna cvt
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I did everything you wanted and you still betrayed me
#bpd#bpd fp#bpd vent#bpd thoughts#love addiction#love#bpd feels#bpd stuff#actually bpd#bpd safe#love vent#lovers#loyalty#vent post#vent#borderline culture is#bpd culture is#im dead#im dying#i'm tired#i'm sorry#i dont fucking know#i dont wanna do this anymore#i wanna cvt#i wanna die#cvtting addict
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can we talk the fact that when fujiko lost her memory her first observation about lupin was how he looked like a nice person and he reacted like that was the most painful, horrible thing he'd ever been told by a woman who's literally held him at gunpoint multiple times I'M DYING TO TALK ABOUT THE FACT TH
#this special as a whole was. a rough time. but the like mini character studies in it FUCKED WITH ME BIG TIME.#right after this one i watched missed by a dollar which ALSO had lupin briefly mention that he thinks of himself as a horrible person. god#lupin iii#fujiko mine#sorry. ive been thinking about this for months but i dont wanna go off in the body of the post its jsut REALLY BEEN FUCKING WITH ME#THIS IS THE MOST DISTRAUGHT IVE EVER SEEN HIM OUTSIDE OF ACTUALLY SEEING PEOPLE DIE??#AND IT WAS BECAUSE FUJIKO SAID HE HAD KIND EYES. GODDDDDDD GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD#cherry talk
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Someone said I look ugly in this dress. No, I look ugly in this dress because I am ugly.
#jirai kei#jiraiblr#jirai girl#jirai onna#jiraiblogging#landmine girl#landmine kei#landmine type#landmineblogging#landmineblr#landmine#wlw landmine#actually bpd#bpd thoughts#bpd vent#bpd#bpd problems#actually mentally ill#actually borderline#mental health#mental illness#mentally fucked#stress#therapy#psychology#ugly#im fat and ugly#i wanna die#lonely girl#anxitey
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Yāall thinking about an older Ares has RUINED me
#hyrule warriors#hw link#kheprri rambling#fucked by the āperfect heroā treatment and is a little hit jaded and scruffy and i am INSANE FOR IT#he does not cope well and i love that for him#obsessed with him. been thinking about him for a couple months now for my wargod au and yall i cannot stop#volga gets the treatment too but its slightly less noticeable coz hes a dragon#also sorry about there being nothing going on. every time i want to start on something i get hit by just utter pain and cant focus#so ive just been playing games and sleeping trying to get through it lol#but that also gave me a lot of thinking time for the aus. especially the main one (and this one obv)#also sorry if u dont vibe with the headcanon/au. hes far from being a dick or entitled hes just tired of being perfect for othersā#āand just wants to live in peace with his dragon bf lmao#2024+ is the era of khep(me) forcing myself to draw facial hair because ive always been afraid of not doing it right#actually i love drawinf facial hair and all hair in general tbh im just horrified of people being like ālol ur wrong dieā XD#anyways sorry. rambling. too many brain thoughts not enough outlets for#will be posting the mistflier species sheet wip on kofi eventually i just wanna type the words out to make it more legible#it IS still a wip and thats why its gonna be going on kofi until its finished#<- and also coz its tailnrr related
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