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went to the bathroom. cried. came back. checked the time. ten minutes after med time. ah. so im just crazy i can work with this.
#im taking extra meds bc i need the big boy stuff#i still have not slept im just not gonna sleep#me trying to explain and talk myself thru my thinking process. starts crying bc the thoughts are just so scary#i think my major fear is being a bad person who does things to hurt people like ive heard of others doing#and then i get rlly focused on wondering if IM that person#if somehow all of my actions are lies#my thoughts are all manipulations and im just delusional about trying my best#maybe im really bad#and it just gets worse and worse and i stop being able to believe people#when they tell me its not like that#and i just. bangs my head against a therapists door.#please.#answer already#another biggest fear is becoming anti recovery for bpd bc idk.#i know i a lot wonder about how many more options do i have?? how much more can i take? before its too much#how much can i handle how much damage can i take#and how many treatments can fall through#i dont know how other people w bpd do this#i genuinely am at a loss at how they do this i want to know i want the answers i really do#i shouldve agreed to talk to my friends friend with it when they offered months ago#i think about it a lot. or was it a year ago or more than that? idk#but i just. i wish id talked and learned stuff. or maybe i wasnt ready but i am now? i dont know.#i dont know anything#my brain goes to mush so easily and i start questioning if anything is real or is everhything evil am i evil#it gets rlly bad. idk what to do. im hanigng on. im waiting for that therapist.#im gonna try and clean and self care tmrw i think. i want to explode
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Good little Girl - Matt Sturniolo
(Fem reader x Matt Sturniolo, smutty, use of nicknames, suggestive, kissing, oral fem!receiving, Dom!Matt, idk)
Summary: reader and Matt just hooked up but he doesn’t want it to be just a one time thing and she learns a secret about him…
I stand off the bed and start to get back into my outfit, my mini skirt and tight shirt. “What are you doing?” He groans as he leans up on his elbows. I turn to him now standing just in my underwear, “I’m leaving, isn’t that what you do on a one night stand?” I ask continuing to pull up my skirt, he gets out of bed and walks towards me.
He grabs my hand that is pulling up my skirt and pulls into his chest, “I don’t want you to leave.” He spoke hardly and spun me around to face him, his hands trail down my shoulders, arms and onto my waist.
“But why..” his hand comes up and tugs on my bottom lip, he pulls me in closer, “please.. be a good girl.” He spoke softly in a tone that caused butterflies to erupt in my stomach.
“Okay.” I say quietly, and step out of the skirt I was previously putting on. He keeps my hand held and pulls me back to the bed “I can’t do it again, it was amazing but I’m all fucked out right now..” I breathe out as we sit on the bed, “no.. I want to lay with you.” He spoke as he pulled me on top of him to straddle him, his hand comes up the the side of my face.
“Did you think I only wanted to fuck you and never see you again?” He asks me his hands rest on my hips, I shrug. “You have security guards in your house and you live in a mansion.. I thought you’d only want a one night stand.” I say and I lay down on top of him, getting into a comfortable.
“Im sorry I gave you that impression, I’m not all bad.” His hand finds place on the back of my head. “What do you do.. for work? Because at the party you had a bodyguard looking guy next to you.” I ask as I pull the covers over me and him.
He sighs, “I can’t tell you that sweetheart.” I move off of him and look at him, “why not?” I say in an annoyed tone. “Fine.. but please be a good girl and listen to what I say, don’t be scared.” He sits up before pulling my face in and gently kissing my lips, “okay.” I nod.
“I’m not a good person, I hurt people.. not you of course but people who deserve it.” He breathes in, studying my face for my response. “What do you mean? You seem like a good guy to me.” I tilt my head at him. He chuckles, “I’m a good guy to you.. I wouldn’t hurt you but other people deserve it.” I watch his composure shift to that of nervousness.
“What other people?” I continue to question him. “People who owe me things.. and people who hurt my loved ones.” He studied my face for any sense of fear, instead my eyes widen in excitement.
“So you’re like a loan shark?” I speak excitedly, loving the rush of hooking up with someone with such authority. “Not exactly sweetheart,” he breathes in, “I have many aspects to my job but that’s not a major one.” He leaned into my ear to whisper something. “I’m Matthew.. Sturniolo.” That last name rang through my ears.
Sturniolo.. as in the Mafia bosses, people who run the town from behind the scenes, picking and plucking anyone they choose. There’s three of them, their names always kept hidden but as I recall from news arcticles they’re brothers.
“I hooked up with a Mafia guy?” I whisper the last part of the sentence, he nods and I stand up. “Oh my god, does that mean I’m your property now?” I say in panic but a still a slight hint of excitement, he’s a gorgeous man with a protected house and a stable sense of income, on the plus side if anyone fucks with me he will kill them.
I need to not think about what I could gain from being with him, that’s selfish. I lean against the wall, placing my hand in my hair, trying to figure out what I’ve just learnt about my ‘one night stand’ “No of course not, I don’t own you. Not unless..” he walks up to me and lifts my chin with his large hand, “you want me to?” He pulls my mouth in and our lips connect softly.
I hum into the kiss, wrapping my arms around the back of his neck, something about him just makes me melt.. he’s got this appeal, maybe it’s the nicknames or the fact he’s a mafia boss but I’m drawn to him.
He lifts me up from my thighs and holds me, this only deepens the kiss before I pull away to speak “I want you to own me, I want you to use me.. I think I just want you.” I whisper, lust filling my senses. “Be careful what you wish for darling.” He spoke as he threw me down onto the bed, causing me to yelp.
“Can you be my good little girl and do what I say?” He leans down smirking, I nod quickly. “Words.” He spoke. “Yes I will..” I reply, filled with excitement and my stamina feels refuelled just from his kiss and touch.
He removes my panties and unclasps my bra, before removing his underwear too, revealing the large cock that I, not long ago, had inside of me. This time I feel even more sexually attracted to him due to his power.
“Such a pretty pussy.” He spoke as he dipped down between my legs, before I could reply he started swirling his tongue around my already wet entrance. I moan out loudly, his tongue slips inside of my hole causing me to arch my back. “Fuck..” I squeal before looking down at him, staring up at me with a seductive look in his eyes.
He sucks on my clit softly, elicting whimpers and curses from my lips. I already feel myself clench due to the pleasure, “fuck I’m gonna cum..” I breathe out between moans.
He hums before dipping his tongue into my entrance again, his nose hitting my swollen bulb just right. My back arches further and I tangle my hands in his hair. My thighs close around his head as I feel my climax reaching closer. “F-fuck.” I scream out as I feel my arousal leaking out of my entrance onto his slightly bearded face.
He forces my thighs open, which are still shaking and lifts his head, my juices around his lips. “Taste yourself..” he swipes some arousal from off his lips, onto his fingers and pushes the fingers into my mouth. I swirl my tongue around his fingers before he removes them from my mouth. “Good girl.” He praises.
He pulls me closer to him before lining his tip up with my sensitive entrance, before giving me a chance to breathe he pushes into me harshly. I grip onto the sheets as he pounds into me roughly, maintaining eye contact. He pushes his forehead to mine, staring deeply into my eyes as he fucks into me. I bite my lip due to pleasure and a weird mix of pain, a good pain.
My core fuzzes again as he repeatedly hits my g-spot with his large member. “Fuck you feel so good around my cock.” He groans, I can’t reply as my eyes roll back into my head and the pleasure grows as I feel myself clench around him, causing his hips to jut forward. “Cum for me darling.” He breathes out, his forehead still pressed against mine.
His pupils dilate even further as both of our orgasms reach closer. “Fuck.” I yell out as I come undone, him following shortly, releasing his cum inside of me, as I had previously mentioned I was on the pill the first time we fucked.
He removes his cock from inside of my hole, leaving me feeling slightly empty. “I’m tired.” I whine. “Let’s sleep then.” He cleans me up and moves me under the blankets before sliding in next to me. “So what am I to you now then? I don’t wanna be a fuck doll or anything.” I lean into him.
“No of course you’re not a fuck doll.” He laughs before pulling me to face him and look him in the eyes.
“You’re my good little girl.” He smirks, “shut up.” I turn around pouting, “let me take you to dinner, I’ll show you what you are to me then.” He leans on my arm and brushes the hair out my face.
“Okay,” I sigh and smile slightly, “why me?” I ask and confusion fills his face. “Why did you pick me?” I ask again, he wraps his arms around me, “I could tell you were a genuine person. You were the only one at the party who wasn’t intimidated by me, you seemed innocent.” He smirks, “I was wrong about that.. you’re not so innocent.”
“I wasn’t intimidated because I didn’t know you were the mafia guy, I don’t even remember why I was invited to the party.” I shrug and nuzzle my head in to his chest, “I wanted you to come.” He whispers and I turn my head to face him quickly, “what?” I ask.
“I saw you, at the restaurant.. you were waiting a table and that big guy tried to intimidate you into giving him a discount and you argued back.. you weren’t scared of him, so I told my men to give you an invite to the party so I could get to know you better.” He looks at the ceiling above him, his arm still around me.
“The guy was tryna use his size to intimidate me.. I knew he wasn’t gonna do anything,” I say and he looks at me to show he’s listening. “You definitely got to know me a lot better..” I chuckle, looking at us laying in the bed naked together.
“I just felt like I needed you, that man was one of my rivals.. he verbally abuses women and I hate it so seeing one of them fight back made me drawn to you.” He stroked the side of my face, “you have me now.” I smile.
He smirks back at me and nods, “let’s sleep.. I’ll show you around in the morning.” He spoke quietly as he turns down the light, “okay.” I breath out on his bare chest.
I start to doze off before I get woken up slightly by him, “I’m so proud of how well you took my dick.” He whispered in my ear.
“Such a good girl.” He coos in my ear, stroking my hair before we both fall back to sleep.
A/n: I wanted to write more one shots since I haven’t in a while! This was fun and refreshing to write. I love papi Matt. Mafia Matt though 😍😏 ALSO IM ALMOST AT 500 FOLLOWERS TY YALL ILYYYYYY❤️
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Hello, I have a question. In one of my projects, set in a vaguely 1600s fantasy pirate setting, one of my characters starts out as a burn survivor, with a large burn on her cheek.
She wears a scarf initially to protect the burn from the salt air as well as some self esteem issues, however I don’t want to fall into the masked burn survivor trope, or have a self-hating disabled character.
If it helps, over the course of the story she gets access to hydrating salves and stops needing the scarf as she grows to accept her facial difference.
Thank you for your time, and for all the help you give to us!
Hi!
I think protecting a burn scar from salt is smart. It also could help with the sun-related issues. However, the scarf should be of an appropriate material - a rough texture would only irritate and scratch it, which causes even more problems. If you mention that, or show the process of her choosing something that works for her from that angle, I think it would be much more of a "medical device" and less of a "hiding disability".
It's important to discuss why she has the self-esteem issues. Don't make it into a "Duh, obviously someone with a facial difference would have low self-esteem, just look at them!" which I constantly see.
Was she bullied or harassed over being disabled?
Is she traumatized from experiencing abuse or aggression? Does she fear that being visibly disabled will make her a target for violence again?
Was there a particular person who made her feel that way, like a parent or a "friend" that influenced her view of herself?
Was society around her lacking examples of happy burn survivors, so she assumed that she can't be happy either?
Make it clear why she feels that way, and don't make the narrative frame her facial difference as the root problem. The problem should be the thing that caused her to feel insecure. It's the same as the fact that mobility aids aren't a problem, inaccessibility is - at least that's how I look at it as someone who has an FD and uses a mobility aid.
This is by no means disability-specific, but look out for tragedy porn. Even if she has had bad experiences, I guarantee you that she had happy ones as well. In her case, maybe she met the funniest girl ever at the 1600s fantasy pirate burn unit, maybe the doctor who treated her helped her discover a new hobby while she was stuck in bed. Her backstory shouldn't boil down to "happy (abled) life, then the Accident, then horrible (disabled) life". That'd be a very hurtful message to send.
I do appreciate that she gets character development around her facial difference. I will say that this internal change often comes from seeing other disabled people thrive, being proud, shown as beautiful and valuable, etc. Representation is important in stories, even in-universe. This was certainly the case for me, and is the reason why now I'm so loud about including happy and positive people with facial differences everywhere. This stuff doesn't exist in a vacuum, you're affecting how people see themselves. It also leads me to my last, probably comically predictable point, which is...
Add more burn survivors, or at least characters with other facial differences, into the story. Preferably ones that have the low self-esteem either far behind them or haven't struggled with it in general (we exist). They don't have to be major characters but even just mentioned; e.g. your character thinking about other survivors she met in the place that treated her burns, or her seeing people with visible facial differences out and about and it making her think about why she even hides hers, etc. In short - don't make shame seem like the default reaction to having a facial difference, because it isn't.
I hope this helps!
mod Sasza
#mod sasza#potatolordofficial#tw ableism#disfiguremisia#burn survivor representation#face difference
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Semi related to the other day's post about people calling OP a hypocrite for not wanting to kill people, it also really annoys me how often this fandom (even in corners like MegOP where OP is ostensibly one of the main characters) just disregards or does not care about how Optimus feels. Or seemingly doesn't even comprehend that OP having his own emotions/goals besides validating Megatron/whoever else he's being shipped with or interacing with. Or they think that every time OP is "mean" to someone else it's bad and awful, but when any other character does bad things it's justified because they were upset/hurt.
It's not really a commentary on character apologism or morality so much as it is annoyance that the spaces I've been around in near universally don't give a crap about how Optimus feels ever. Like, to use MegOP as an example since that's my main context of seeing Optimus content, I always see takes like this that only center Megatron's experiences/feelings while completely ignoring anything Optimus feels.
Like. TF One? It's okay for Dee to turn on Orion because he feels betrayed by him "siding with" Sentinel and Orion is such a jerk for banishing him from Iacon. But god forbid that OP might be a little upset about being dropped down a pit by his own best friend (and then said best friend immediately tries to kill him again when he comes back) and want Megatron to get the hell away from him if he's gonna be so violent.
Can't even count the number of examples in IDW1. Megatron is traumatized and oppressed so that means he can do as many crimes as he wants and hurt Optimus as much as he wants because "Optimus should've just listened to him better" never mind that OP literally did listen but no one besides dedicated IDW OP lovers ever points out that OP has a right to be pissed off at Megatron for some of the shit he did to him. People get mad at IDW OP for making Megatron give a speech denouncing the Decepticons because it's mean/controlling/anti-revolutionary or whatever (never mind that OP letting Megatron go free on a space adventure is incredibly permissive and informed by his personal bias towards Megatron) but they could care less about the fact that OP is staying on Cybertron dealing with the remaining Decepticons + shit with the neutrals and might maybe want Megatron to pull his weight deescalating the post-war situation so that Optimus has an easier time trying to manage.
It's very much a thing that heroic characters are held to higher moral standards than villains and grilled over doing similar things that villains are cheered for. But this isn't even some strictly moral thing, it's just. So fucking bizarre how ready people are to demonize Optimus because "he hurt X" or "he got in the way of Y" or "he sided with Z when he should've sided with A" but completely disregard all of the many, usually valid reasons Optimus has for doing what he did! It's all about poor woobies who suffered so much and are doing bad things because they're upset and justified from their perspective. But all of a sudden when it's Optimus, his feelings don't matter and how things look from his perspective (his goals, values, obligations, what he feels is right or wrong, the depression he often has across continuities) doesn't matter either. He did something that made someone else feel bad therefore he's the literal worst who only does things out of hypocrisy/self-righteousness.
It's not like Optimus could ever experience emotions like depression, anger, frustration, fear, loneliness, urgency, etc etc that drive him to do what he does. Optimus has no internal struggles between what he desires as a person versus what he feels is the right thing to do/what he's obligated to do. Getting sympathy for the very real hurt and struggle he experiences is just for every other character except Optimus, I guess. Swear to god the majority of the fandom doesn't actually see Optimus as a character and instead just sees him as a prop to either validate their fave or to act as a scapegoat for whatever's wrong with the plot.
#squiggposting#the way i described it in chat wrt tf one was basically like...#it doesn't really matter who you think is right or wrong (nevermind that they both have reasons to do what they did)#but if you're gonna defend one of them with the argument of 'but he felt like this from this perspective'#it naturally follows that the other is equally defensible on the basis of what he feels/perceives#but the problem is hardly anyone does it#OP's feelings p much never matter in this fandom he's only ever a satellite to what someone else wants/feels#it's how you have ppl unironically writing MOP content where OP apologizes to M for being so 'wrong'#but M never has to apologize to OP for his moral wrongdoings or the ways he deliberately tried to hurt OP
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izaya, dazai, and mori reacting to their s/o experiencing a major burnout to the point where they needed extensive medical attention due to their overall health plummeting due stress and fatigue. this is me rn ;-; im so overworked yet so underpaid lmfao thank you so much in advance! 💗
A/N: Hi, thank you so much for the long wait! I hope your situation has become better :( give my dear their rest and money🔪 I'm sorry Mori's part is a bit short compared to the others, but I hope you like it💖
Izaya:
Izaya loves all humans equally, but you're the exception as his favorite one and Shizuo being his least favorite.
With Izaya's special interest in human beings and his well-crafted observation skills, it didn't go unnoticed by him how you were becoming more tired and less happy step by step. The part of him that loved to observe humans was fascinated and wondered how far you could be pushed, but then again- you are his favorite.
Izaya only realizes you need extensive medical treatment after he returns from an underground job. If you haven't moved in with him already, Izaya will throw all his charm (or manipulation skills, really, who cares about the details?) into convincing you to stay at his place. Being an information broker and professional chaos lover has provided Izaya with enough money to spoil you rotten.
The question is whether he'll let you go back to work. And if you manage to convince him to let you go back to work, he's going to do a full background check on the company and its people.
Izaya has a hard time admitting this to you, himself, or anyone really, but seeing you become this fragile scared him. It's a feeling he immediately tries to shove away, but it only leads to him being more protective of you.
During your assigned recovery, you'll catch Izaya chuckling to himself. There are just so many fun possibilities to ruin your boss' life! Should he destroy it brick by brick? Or should he wreck it in one go? Whatever it is, it'll be cruel and twisted and fun. Your boss didn't think they could get away with treating his favorite little human like this, hm?
One thing is for certain: no matter how Izaya is going to destroy your boss' life, it'll be done through cyber damage. Izaya would rather not leave your side. He has been very cheery and confident around you, never giving you a sign of the fear he felt when he saw you turn into a burned-out version of yourself. But he has you tucked in bed and you just have to say it and he gives you anything you want. Izaya has Namie assist him in taking care of you, too.
Izaya does drop hints here and there about how he's going to be responsible for your boss' life taking a bad turn. If you try to confront him about this or prevent him from doing so, Izaya is going to ask you for a good explanation as to why not. It may even lead to a discussion, however, no reason will leave him satisfied. You've already gotten hurt, so the damage is already done and there's nothing the boss can do to make up for it except pay for it with his sins. Izaya can say he'll let it go, but you know he won't. If anything, he's more excited to start. Nobody messes with his favorite human except him.
Dazai:
Dazai puts great value in the one he gained but would never want to lose. It's one of the reasons he pays so much attention to you; he knows things about your behavior that even you are unaware of.
That's why Dazai is the first to observe how you're slowly burning out. He encourages you to copy his work ethic (lying on a couch and letting your partner do all the work), but he never convinces you no matter how much he tries to tug at your strings.
But when Dazai comes home from a mission he had to travel for and sees you so burned out to the point of needing extensive medical care, he was livid and scared. From the inside, that is. From the outside, he'd be calm and reassuring, even cheery once you feel better.
Dazai would insist that he stays home with you to become your personal nurse. He would cling onto you whenever you want to leave the bed, claiming you were on bed rest, which automatically meant he was on bed rest, too.
He'd take care of you in his own silly way. He makes you laugh, distracts you from the tiredness, buys you the biggest teddy bear you've seen in your life, and prevents you from doing anything.
Nonetheless, there's going to be a time you need to get back to work. Once you do, you notice something strange about your boss. It's like they are a whole new person. They offer you tea or coffee the minute you step in, push out a nervous chuckle that's supposed to sound friendly, and say you can take a break whenever you feel like you need one. It wouldn't take long for you to realize there was something off... and you could tell who was behind it.
When confronting Dazai though, expect him to be packed in denial. "Me?" He answers with doe eyes that scream innocence and surprise, which means he was definitely not innocent nor surprised. "Do I look like someone who would threaten your boss? I was taking care of you all that time!" Yes Dazai, you look like that type of person. But the latter was true since you cannot point out a moment he must have had a talk with your boss. Dazai had taken his role as your personal nurse very seriously to the point he rarely had been out of your sight.
Dazai knows you'd have to let it go eventually because you have no evidence against him. Even if you did find the courage to ask your boss if your boyfriend had talked to him, the boss wouldn't slip up. The only evidence you have is the fear in your boss' eyes when mentioning your boyfriend and the sly but satisfied smile you caught on Dazai's face when he knew he got away with it.
Mori:
Being the boss of the port mafia is a time-consuming job, especially when you're almost at war with another underground organization. It's why Mori, who is always eager to spoil you rotten, wasn't there to see how work was affecting you for the worst.
Mori made sure the upcoming threat was nothing more but forgotten dust, and one look at you after he came back made him want to do the same to your boss. You could see it in his expression, how it changed from excitement to surprise to deadly and back to soft but cheery in the span of a few seconds.
Absolutely takes this opportunity as an excuse to spoil you rotten more than he already does. After all, who can take better care of you than himself, the doctor who loves you the most?
The doctor in him comes out; checking your vitals, making sure you eat and drink, assigning you time to rest but also to go out and make a little walk with him. And oh, look what a cute thing he bought for you the other day! Yeah, it wouldn't be Mori if he didn't take this opportunity to buy new clothes for you and to doll you up as much as you let him.
Mori will offer to bring harm to your boss as if it's a sweet declaration of love. Whatever your answer, he makes sure your boss learns their lesson.
#dazai x reader#izaya x reader#mori x reader#bsd x reader#durarara x reader#drrr x reader#izaya orihara#dazai osamu#mori ougai#bsd headcanons#durarara headcanons
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To expand a bit more on the whole "is redemption by death a proper arc for Jinx" bit which is gonna devolve a little bit in "who is the main character of Arcane season 2".
Not all Deaths are Created Equal
In my experience, there's usually a "hierachy" of deaths and bad deeds in a tv show. where for example no name characters count less than main characters, death we viscerally see matter more than deaths that not very graphic.
And as a rule the show usually gives us hints about how we should feel about something. If characters react horrified, it means we are supposed to take something seriously. If the characters don't take it seriously, we get the message we are not supposed to take it seriously either.
A good example if Ekko in season 1 expressing moral outrage over Jinx or Silco's actions. A counter example is nobody giving that much of a damn that Warwick just ripped apart a lot of people.
Yes, Warwick attacking people leads to Ambessa and Caitlyn taking it seriously by tracking him down, but there's not a ton of oomph behind it. We don't see anything that humanizes the dead, like let's say somebody dropping a picture of a family member, or Caitlyn having to comfort the loves ones of one of the dead enforcers, or among the dead being somebody like Caitlyn had a friendly interaction with, we don't get to see them humanized by the show showing us the fear on their faces as Warwick comes, we don't see the nitty gritty of how he tears them apart.
That doesn't mean that those deaths don't count at all, but the show certainly muted those deaths, because otherwise we might have had much more mixed feelings about getting to enjoy the hug between Warwick and the sisters.
A good example is Jinx's attack on the enforcers. They are slightly humanized by having faces and lines they exchange with Cait. We see their fear. We see a major character react to it in horror.
Who is the main character in season 2?
IMO, in season 1 it was very obvious to me that Vi was the main character. And yes, I realize some people will fight me on this, but imo it was very classic. Vi is the one on a journey, she did the heist, she fucked it up, she tried to make up for it, she tried to save Vander and watched him die, she hurt powder, she is sprung out of jail and goes on a journey to retrieve Powder and reacts to all the things that Jinx does.
Yes, many characters also had lots of personality, complex journey and moved a lot of action, but imo season 1 fairly traditionally revolved around Vi. She fucked up, she has to face her greatest nightmare in Powder hating her.
Now, in season 2, I would argue that that is no longer the case. IMO Vi no longer acts as the main character. You can argue that she is still the heart of the show or the connective tissue but but imo she no longer is the main character the way she was in season 1.
She has become much more of a spectator of others, rather than having her own goals and arcs.
I would argue:
Caitlyn is the main character of Act 1
Jinx is the main character of Act 2
Jinx is generally very nice-i-fied in season 2. Even in Act 1 when she is hunted, she barely has a death count and not against Caitlyn. Her pranks are non deadly.
And then in Act 2, I would say she is officially the main character, she has the emotional journey, she gets a character just for her to bond with and the climax of Act is that character dying and it being all about how that will affect Jinx. Simliarly, she is the active part of the Warwick story, she encounters him first, she understands him, she proactively seeks out Vi, she has all the special knowledge on him, she reads his letter, she is the one he jumps in to defend in the final fight.
This does not mean that Vi doesn't have emotions and character movement in Act 2 (ie her mini arc is whether she will trust Jinx enough to follow her advice or trust Cait against Ambessa). If the Warwick story had been about Vi, I think the show would structured it very differently. Like maybe Vi thinking being the first one to sense his presence or using the whole pitfight Vi stuff to have her remember Vander and what he taught her, or somebody taking her aside and telling her she fights like Vander.
The fact that Jinx is starting to get nice and semi nice characters (Sevika, Warwick, Isha and maybe Ekko) supporting her and protecting her that again signals to the audience that we should care and share their opinion on her.
IMO Jinx dying might have made some more sense if this was still strictly a Vi centered story. If it was like Vi still going to bat for Jinx and trying to save her and being rejected and it ends as "Vi's biggest nightmare" or "Vi has to learn to let both Vi and Powder go". Now I think that would still be a pretty depressing and shit story, but that might structurally made more sense. But since they took Vi's role as THE main character away from her it just fits a lot less.
What about Cassandra
Now Jinx is a character killed by Jinx who was named, good enough and a main character cares about it. IMO the way they wrote it still makes it fairly muted. Again, we don't see her fear and the gore of her death. We see Caitlyn's grief for her but it not really used to humanize Cassandra much. Yeah, she gets used as an exposition machine, but we don't let's say get Cassandra playing with a young Caitlyn or having fun with her husband (who is muted out by Caitlyn in her grief and is not present in Act 2 at all).
By focusing so much on Cait's grief it makes it feel more like Cait's grief is the problem and she needs to get over it rather than the focus being that Cassandra was a worthy innocent person whose life got snuffed out.
So in conclusion, the way season 2 is written a redemption death would just feel off.
Maybe there's a version of the story where Vi kept being the protag, ie where she more actively fought Caitlyn after Cassandra's death and was the one who tracked down Warwick on her own and who kept trying to reach Jinx as Jinx keeps doing messed up violent things, where Vi would befriend an Isha and maybe Jinx would be responsible for Isha's death. And maybe there it would make slightly more sense. (though to me that sounds like way too much Vi misery porn to be a fun story either)
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Yknow…. In Masm channel, Everyone seems to bully mask sun ALOT. At some point, suns gonna spiral into murderous rage if this keeps progressing
I’m making of angst headcanons for sun :)
Masm sun is super depressed like MAJORLY depressed after all the stress of being bullying and poking fun at. He’ll cry in silence in somewhere private and people where start to wonder where he’s been. Because of the fear of being made fun of, he can NEVER let anyone know where he is or was. It be so unbearable that everyone found out and worse things could happen.
-Whenever something is bothering sun he thinks the best way is to just ignore it. It will eventually go away. - aside from moon, Roxy and Freddy are the only people who supportive because they deal with emotions better than anyone else. Moon does cares about sun more than he lets on, he just doesn’t show it that much.
-he’s VERY distrustful of foxy, and monty because they are the most violent out of everyone sun and moon ever known. Due to the fact that Monty is very destructive and Foxy is a wild card. But he isn’t as bad as Monty, he just likes to pick on sun and pull pranks on him whenever he’s bored. Sun used to have a crush on him but that over time he’s become too deceptive for him. Monty FAR worse than compared to foxy. He’s been brute ever since he came to the building and the very first things he did was break and destroy everything. He’s just a major home wrecker who has no guilt or shame whatsoever for his behavior towards anyone or anything. The only thing he finds sun as an “easy target” just to tear apart and sun fidgets and incredibly nervous when he’s around and tries to avoid him at all needs.
-He’ll be very cautious when a “new friend” comes arriving. Sometimes he’ll lay back on being introduced or refusing to meet a new person because he’d had so many incidents with the last few couple of people that were greeted. Moon would start to notice suns off behavior because he always greets new comers and he just assumes he's just having a bad day or something. Sun wouldn’t take the risk of meeting new comers or making friends, he’s had enough of it already.
-despite of being sad all the time, he puts on a mask to show that he’s still his a happy self. It’s really only for his sake. He can’t let the others know he’s not being himself. If he doesn’t be happy, he’ll never have any place to fit in.
-He has multiple panic attacks and has ptsd from being bullied. Moon knows about this (Roxy told him) and would need to lay off the pranks and teasing for while along foxy and Monty. Moon can still tease him but only does it softly because sun is very sensitive.
-After being told by moon that he would be different than others instead of acting the way he is. He became very self conscious about himself. He started being insecure about himself and believed he needed to change. Moon noticed, he regrets it and tells him that he doesn’t need to change. He’s fine with the way he is but the damage is still very cut deep. Moon still tries to help him out any way he can.
(This is all I have for now, my hands hurt. What do you think about these?? 🫠) *im totally not crying for making these up*
meiejdjdn dude I love you so much /p THANK YOU SO MUCH I LOVED READING THESE DUDE
Me- me when- me- AUGH
No cause- chat- chat like- Moon praising him more to reassure him- and- dude, dude the hurt comofet- and the possibility of Sun giving up and/or lashing out at everyone- and- and
Oh my god my brain is racing now thank you so much I enjoyed this immensely
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Me to Two:
Gaw hopefully they make up, yeah...
Fingers crossed 🤞🤞
Perfect opportunity for a lil Acey ramble sesh tho~
Spoilers for anyone who hasn't read EMD! Also this is gonna be long cuz I like to ramble sometimes. All of this is just me rambling my own thoughts and perspectives (:
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In all honesty, I know I'm personally expecting there to be a lot of unresolved tension between the both of them if they get an opportunity to talk. I mean, I doubt their childhood was filled with apologies and making up and such. Their childhood must have been filled with them being pitted against one another in some ways. Their strengths have been both used and somewhat strained by Draxum to benefit the mission he placed on them. This has probably negatively affected their egos quite a bit, thus exacerbating that brutal sibling rivalry.
From the start, One hasn't been all too kind or honest with Two either. Although, it could be argued that Two's betrayal just stings more because One had spent every little mission making sure Two stayed safe, one way or another. That much is seen through One's internal monologue throughout the story. Two's betrayal also definitely hits more to One's autonomy, which is its own can of worms, of course.
But One also spent his time jeopardizing Draxum's orders for One's own personal goal of taking out Raph and Mikey...thus jeopardizing his and Two's success with their given mission. This must have been a pretty heavy blow to Two, who chose to do and not to do things for One because Two was under the impression that their mission was their sole focus. Thus, their perspectives play a big role in both sides of this broken trust and strain in their relationship as experimental child soldiers and brothers (in arms).
So, maybe Two had a similar perspective and goal. And I think this has been discussed that, on the surface, Two did what he did for the sake of the mission. In his eyes, his betrayal was justified and almost necessary for success. One was threatening their sole mission because of One's personal fears. So, in Two's eyes, shutting down One would thus secure their success. Right? Cuz, at the end of the day, isn't that what they're both going after? Success? It looks different for the two of them, but Two is following orders and One is taking out the experiments that he perceives as threats in order to secure his and Two's ranks in Draxum's command. They're both trying to succeed, both in the things they choose to do and not to do.
Additionally, maybe Two didn't expect One to take it so personally. Both of them were hurt by one another, betrayed by each other. I don't think it was ever one-sided. Cuz how could it be? One was trying to protect Two, but I think the same can be said for Two. He isn't the total bad guy. Their perceptions of each other and of themselves are skewed, off...and it makes sense. That's a major reason why I love this story so much. At least, for me, it's relatable in that way. Because when someone who raises you and is supposedly trying to protect you does things out of fear instead of love, your perception is off. Maybe it looks like love, but it doesn't feel like it.
For both One and Two, they do things out of fear. They were raised to be useful tools; that's how they're perceived by Draxum. Their strengths are useful, even their fear is useful at times. The things they can do are useful and they can be replaced if they are not 'good' tools. So, when something or someone threatens that perception, they do things out of fear of being useless, unsuccessful. It's difficult to not see yourself or others in that same way. That has been very relatable for me, in all honesty. And it's a repeating theme for both One and Two AND Draxum in the story, which makes sense.
Does all of this make what Two did okay? No. It just puts a possible explanation to why he did what he did.
Small circle back, One and Two would both need to take responsibility for the things they did and failed to do and rebuild their trust. Will that happen? I don't know, but I hope so :)
I love thinking up the possible timeline between them though. Both of them have certainly said and done some rather hurtful things to each other. Is that going to be acknowledged by either one or both of them? Mm...I dunno. I hope so, but they'd only really have that modeled from Raph and Mikey. It would be AMAZING if they have that finally modeled by Draxum though. I think that would open a door for all three of them that could introduce some real, nice healing. Will that happen? Again, I don't know, but damn do I hope so.
All in all, I am hopeful for both One and Two. They deserve to just be themselves, not just used as helpful tools, ya know? That's my two cents tho (:
#ace answers#acey rambles#acey doodles#yeesh that was a lot#oopsies#hehe well if anyone actually read this then...Thank you for listening <3#this is just all my personal perspective#so..not accurate but just my own thoughts and opinions that i keep in the back of my mind when i'm reading EMD#yee#:)
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I wanna hold back from talking too much about my lil PPT AU Critters but I want to do it so much as well. Mainly so I can slowly reveal it over time once I get the ask blog for it set up. However, as a way to temporarily quell such urges for a couple of months.
I'll try giving small bit of info of them in my Uncontainable AU. Which will be under the cut for those who do wanna read 'em and stuff. ^^
Catnap
He quite literally can almost never go to sleep. No matter what he does or takes (like his own red gas, sleeping meds, etc.); it never works. There's only a few rare things that can help him fall asleep sometimes.
Catnap is selectively mute! He uses sign language majority of the time when communicating with others. Though if someone doesn't know sign language, he'll try other ways that won't involve talking to have a conversation with them. However, he does speak with those he trust the most.
It may not seem like it, though Catnap is actually the more skittish Critter of the bunch. So even if does not consider you as a threat nor a friend just yet. He'll avoid being in the same room with you at all as much as possible, unless needed in said room for whatever reason.
Dogday
Despite his extremely friendly personality and being accepting of everyone. New or old. Dogday can certainly shove that to the side if he really feels like it. Or if it's absolutely needed.
The paw pads on Dogday's hands can make a high pitched squeak sound if pressed against! The paw pads on his feet used to also squeak. However, due to such becoming annoying quickly, it was removed and left only on his hands.
Dogday tries to avoid conflict as much as possible. Whether that's between him and someone else, or between other people. He will do his best to try and have everything resolved peacefully.
KickinChicken
Kickin sticks his tongue out whenever he's concentrating/thinking a bunch on something. Majority of the time he doesn't even realize he's doing this.
He loves video games, he's the pro in them among the others. Though card games? He'd rather deal with his fears than play them as he fails almost instantly majority of the time in them.
Kickin knows how to dance quite well! Being practically a master in such for almost any kind of dance. He even uses his dance moves/skills whenever he needs to defend himself or something.
Bubba Bubbaphant
Bubba is one of the few experiments/Critters who were once human before. Having actually used to been part of helping create the bigger bodies.
Bubba can not see almost anything without his glasses, needing them practically 24/7. He'll basically be like Velma (1960's) whenever she had lost hers.
Bubba is the one to teach the other Critters about certain things that they don't know. Mainly on things such as how being a human was and everything like that.
Hoppy Hopscotch
Hoppy is known pretty well for jumping into things quickly without a second thought. Often landing her in fights or with something broken. Along with not only being on mild-bad terms with others. But a good lecture from some of the others.
Since the scientist had focused on her having the majority of her strength within her legs. Hoppy can barely pick anyone heavier than her, being able to pick up others who are as light as her. Or lighter than her. Those being Catnap and Icky Licky so far.
Hoppy had been one of the bigger problems for Playtime Co., not because she was dangerous. Despite that being a bit true. But because of how often she stood up to them and had them change a couple of things. One of them mainly being how their cartoon show was being scripted and everything.
Bobby Bearhug
Bobby had taken up the role of being the main nurse around Playcare due to wanting to ensure others become well over time. This lead her to being the one most toys came to whenever they got hurt or weren't feeling well.
She does her best to help others with their own problems, often pushing her own problems to the side. She sometimes has to be sat down herself and told to not do such.
Bobby is one of the more parent figures to the Minis, being able to be around them before they start being more aggressive. Whenever they do become aggressive around her though, she will usually get Catnap to ensure they do not attack.
CraftyCorn
Crafty is more shy and reserved, however, not as much as Catnap. She is a bit more willing to talk with others despite stuttering often when talking. Only talking more calmly whenever it's on a topic she feels the most comfortable with. Or knows she has some knowledge of said topic.
She had been able to get a bunch of classes related to the arts (music, art, fashion designing, etc.) and had them be in a building of their own. Because of this, she taught herself mostly on how to create outfits and design them. Usually using Catnap to showcase her final designs (physically made) to her. Sometimes getting Hoppy involved as well.
Crafty is the most sensitive when it comes to certain things. Mainly being more sensitive to being yelled at or criticized on something. Especially if it's in a more negative manner.
Picky Piggy
Just like Bubba, Picky was also human once. Having actually been Bubba's wife before becoming a bigger body as well. However, unlike him, she worked in the same place she does now; in Playcare's kitchen.
Picky didn't agree to being an older sibling towards Kickin, however, was basically forced into it anyway. Not in a bad way, to be exact. Merely that her attempts to not have Kickin see her as such failed to the point she began to see herself as such as well.
If you want something hit from afar or even caught, she's the one to go to. Having been a country gal before becoming a pig mascot, she was taught how to lasso things from afar. Along with how to shot something from so far away, however. Nowadays she uses the butcher knife on her person 24/7 as a substitute to hit things from far away.
#poppy playtime#poppy playtime chapter 3#poppy playtime au#poppy playtime smiling critters#poppy playtime fandom#smiling critters#smiling critters au#smiling critters fandom#catnap#dogday#kickinchicken#bubba bubbaphant#hoppy hopscotch#bobby bearhug#craftycorn#picky piggy#poppy playtime catnap#poppy playtime dogday#poppy playtime kickinchicken#poppy playtime bubba bubbaphant#poppy playtime hoppy hopscotch#poppy playtime bobby bearhug#poppy playtime craftycorn#poppy playtime picky piggy#The Uncontainable AU#no-sleep-fox
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Okay someone asked about Winnie in your AUs could I ask about another character?? Maybe Sara?
sure! I'm assuming you want the same format where it's just explaining the sort of role she plays in each au? I think she appears less than Winnie but when she does she plays a stronger role.
To learn from the tragedies: she's just a girl. Shes a bit pushy but that's because she's stressed and fear is influencing s lot of her decisions. (Some one else also might be influencing her decisions in a bit tho) i think the plan is to have her redeemed by the end.
Shattered dreams: uhhh she dies in the end if? That's about it.
I will make them create my world: has the world's most tragic sob story of all time and she was angry about it so she cursed the world to have other people face just as bad a fate she had because she's petty like that.(I only jest about this because I still haven't actually figured out what her tragic backstory is, only that there is one)
Swap au/Skating in silence: she takes Oliver's role and is just tried. Some one let her go home. She doesnt want to be here. She wants her friends back but ends up with a tv on her head with only the hope that maybe her ex boyfriend will be looking for her because every single other person she knows is dead.
One shots/you'll live until I die: she killed people. Ussaly feels bad about it. Possessed by litho during the time most of these fics take place. The Refer to themselves as a singular entity Sara definitely was the one most likely to get redeemed but the others are just sort of there. Doing my best to follow cannon.
Steven universe au: she's a pink diamond in yellows role. She uses her healing powers to preform really crazy experiments in an attempt to save their kind. She's doing what she thinks is helping, but she lacks empathy for the ones she's hurting in the process. Also just kinda crazy.
Superhero au: FINALLY I SWEAR U DINT AKWAYS MAJE HER A VILLAIN GUYS!!! she did like- not bat an eye to the child experimentation and torture and was ready to straight up kill Glitch with out knowing it was Oliver at some point but she learns and has some charter development. When Error starts switching places at stuff she starts to realize her mistakes in her faith to the hero organization but can't find the courage to say it. If error was replaceable who's to say she isn't? Lewis is a little more empathic but she's the rational one most of the time and the pair do their best to save people but can save everyone so it looks bad on them that all the shit that happened to the acrimonies could be traced back to their neglect but their human and didn't know what to do you can't really blame them. Any way her hero name is Pulse and she can control peoples blood!!! :D
Here lies the burried masks: this in my opinion is the most villainous and messed up version of her. Just thinking about some of the stuff she does makes *me* sick. But she also has a reason for it that hasn't been explained yet. Really really really tough backstory that gathers a lot of sympathy to understand her actions but not excuse them. I also love her? She's so fun to write. She's so bonkers it's awesome.
Secret au/Oc au: So. With Winnie it was easier to explain because I have full control of him at all times and I play him. With Sara we kinda pass her around like a doll! We both play her and so she's a little silly type of inconsistent. Uhhhhh I think the major thing about her thats differ from cannon is we accidentally wrote litho out of au. We weren't sure if we wanted him there or not and kept being really vague about it. So he's not there any more? But Sara also isn't.... Evil? Well she's a murderer and a mastermind and most recent interaction was bringing a knife to a fist fight with a 15 year old from another dimension and then breaking his soul so hard he became 3 different people. (That was actually more Winnie's and slightly his sister's fault)
BUT ANYWAY SARA! yeah a lot of character in this au stems just off interactions with others. She and clove had a dynamic. She and joy have a particular dynamic I think. One of my favorite scenes in the whole au is just straight up gaslighting Eric and Lewis. Wiatts dead so I think that's another thing sorta different from cannon is that she won. And so she has a lot more if a ego and is a little more reckless cause there isn't anyone opposing her at the moment.
Maze au: (sorry I forgot about this one with Winnie. Haven't decided where he would be yet only that he's 10000% a half angel and would have been a terrible person to be stuck in the maze with) ANYWAY MAZE AU MAZE AU MAZE AU?!!?! I like the Minecraft series "The outsiders smp" a normal amount I swear- but!!! What would happen if all the wtdw cast were put into a clearing together!!! I don't have a lot of details but I have Sara's design and I love her. She's a half demon who got sentenced to the maze for the murder of three of her co-workers who had been harassing her for years. She's not even all that upset about it. She feels guilty and like she deserves to be there once she gets her memories about it back, but before then she's one of the more energetic faces in the clearing. She says she's a runner and will take maze trips occasionally but does more help in the clearing leading and organizing everything.
Andddddddddd i think that's all the Sara's at the moment? If anyone has any specific aus they want to hear more in agian just shoot me an ask!
I have like 4 other similar ones in my box rn and I'm looking forward to sharing! And I'm glad you guys are liking my aus! But don't be discouraged not to send stuff. I love y'all's asks and plan to answer all of them! It just takes a while!
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Prison Again
I am a major fan of Dragons, but I'll admit it's rife with plot points that don't get fully used in my eyes. Another one of those was in "Something Rotten on Berserker Island." Dagur's turned on by his Berserkers and imprisoned. This all happens pretty quickly. There's the revolt, he's put in prison, Snotlout breaks him out, and they become the dynamic duo, powering my love of their friendship (that I STILL don't think was shown enough, but okay. That's what fanfics are for, I guess). Still, there's so much that could have happened.
First off, Savage shouldn't have done the coup that day. Of all the days, he literally picked the time when the Berkians were going to show up. Seriously? That's the equivalent of trying to usurp the throne the same day when some of the king's best allies are coming for a special feast. The level of arrogance/stupidity is hilarious.
The next factor is how Dagur's fear was proven true. He admitted that the reason he let people think he killed Oswald was so that they'd think he was tough enough to lead them. That's another way of saying he didn't think they'd believe he was tough enough if he simply took over. He couldn't just be himself. That wouldn't work. They wouldn't respect him. He had to be Dagur the Deranged, the feared chief. So, he goes against his own beliefs when he turns good. He tries out the alternative he could have the first time...and he was right. They didn't respect him. As soon as he stops being evil and threatening to his people, they turn on him. Sure, not everyone does, but I also wish we got a better idea of how many were part of this coup. It's even the first time since turning good that we see him interact with the other Berserkers again. This would be devastating. You finally turn over a new leaf to become a good person and the people you've been trying to lead just throw you in a cell. What makes this hurt even more is how much Berserkers value loyalty. This is what Dagur was teaching Heather. It's why he was shocked that the Hunters deserted. Loyalty is important in that culture, but they blatantly disregarded this to betray him. Lastly, the icing on the pain cake is that he really does care about his Vikings. Even back when he was a mean kid, there were signs that he cared. I often think back to the Skrill ordeal. Alvin referred to the dragon as his. When Dagur corrected him, he said it was theirs (referring to his Berserkers too). Easily, Dagur could've just been thinking about himself, but he was still thinking about his group as a whole. So, even bad Dagur did care about them. Imagine how much of a blow that would be to get betrayed after he tried to openly treat them with kindness.
A bigger part of this to me is the fact that Dagur didn't just get put into a cell. With context, he'd spent 3 years locked up, broke his people out, then some or all of them might have just put him right back in. We really don't know the type of mental toll that took on him. Sure, it's pretty obvious that it messed him up, but that's why this scene to me matters so much. There's the emotional betrayal combined with the fact that he probably promised himself he'd never become a prisoner again. Unlike others who have tried, the Berserkers even use the smartest way to apprehend him. The Outcasts had him in the cell, relatively free, and the Hunters and Riders tied him up. Neither option worked, but the Berserkers use chains because they know him and are more aware of what he's capable of. Sadly, if anyone could have probably kept him in prison for the rest of his life, I think it's the Vikings who have been around him his entire life.
The last thing from the episode that I wanted to see was what happened to the traitors. We never find out what Savage's fate was. Did he get executed? Imprisoned? Could have been either, but it's never mentioned. I just feel like there's a lot of potential where Dagur's made a prisoner again, but it's by his own Vikings. So, one of these days, I'll make it into a fanfic.
#httyd#rtte#dagur the deranged#dagur#rtte dagur#Berserkers#Wasted potential to me#Savage is still low-key one of the most evil characters#Just want to know the mindset of the Berserkers who decided they were sick of Dagur being nice to them and wanted to make him pay
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Welp, some last-minute plans were made, so I'm gonna be away for the weekend. I won't have much time to work on stuff. So how about we play a game? >:3
The majority of you know how this works, but in case some of you are new or new-er to this, here's the rules:
(I will be using numbers instead of emojis for this one because there are a lot of questions) Send the number of the question and the name of the character you want to ask.
(Example: Mewtwo #24)
These are the following characters that will be available for questions:
Mewtwo
Newtwo
Mew
Amber (be specific with either "child" or "teen/adult")
Blu (be specific with either "child" or "teen/adult")
Gwen
Lakota
Jay
Mandy
I'll also include my most common non-canon characters:
(Be specific with either "child" or teen/adult" for these 3)
Hugo
Emery
Sonya
Alrighty! Now, with all that out of the way. Enjoy yourselves and have fun! ^^
Do you have a driving dream or goal? What is it? How far would you go to achieve it?
What's the one thing that makes you angry? What's your temper like? How do you respond to people who make you mad?
Have you ever experienced desperation? How has it affected you? What do you do when something you need is out of your reach?
Do you believe in fate or destiny?
What's the greatest challenge you have overcome? How do you feel about it?
How well do you sleep? Do you have problems such as nightmares/sleep paralysis/insomnia/etc.
Do you have any comfort items?
If you had to pick one song to listen to for 10 hours straight, what would it be?
What is your pain threshold like? Will a stubbed toe take you down, or does it take something much more drastic?
Are you a binge watcher, or do you prefer to stretch shows out? What kind of shows do they like?
If you could only have one food for the rest of their life, what would it be?
Favorite food/drink?
Sweet or savory?
How do you like to unwind after a long day?
Would you consider yourself a lone wolf or a social butterfly?
Do you enjoy praise?
What is a secret you know but haven't told anyone
What are your quirks?
What mannerisms do you have when shy or nervous?
What is the most impulsive thing you've done?
Can you recall a time when you have been the most scared or fearful?
What would cause you to be petty or say something hurtful?
Would you consider yourself reckless or too cautious and/or paranoid?
Are you good or bad at lying?
What's a misconception people often make or think about you?
What's something people would find surprising about you?
What's something you get told all the time?
What is something people always tell you to do more of?
What is the one thing people assume about you that you wish wasn't true?"
How often do you put on a "happy face" when you're really not feeling it?
When do you think you began putting your guard up so much?
What do you find yourself justifying to people when no justification is needed?
Are people shocked when you stand up for yourself?
What emotion motivates you the most when you're feeling down?
Are you okay with disliking someone?
How do you cope with being betrayed?
What is your favorite way to channel your aggression?
Which parts of yourself do you still seek validation for?
What would you say is your biggest problem when communicating?
How do you make decisions? Would you say you rely on trusting your instincts and heart, or fact and logic?
How much respect do you have for authority?
What are your morals/ethics? Do you follow your moral code strictly?
How introspective are you, and how much do you self-reflect?
What event drastically changed your life? Do you resent that event, or are you glad of it?
How optimistic are you? Do you appreciate the smaller things in life?
Are you forgiving of yourself? How about others who have wronged you?
How do you deal with illness or pain? Would you soldier on with a broken arm or leg, or can a common cold put you out for days?
What is your fighting style?
Words or actions?
Are you the type of person who laughs when someone falls? Or would you rush to help?...or would you just walk past them with no reaction?
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Penny for your thoughts?
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my real answer: I'm extremely uninterested in getting into arguments with people set on demonizing traumatized mentally ill characters for being traumatized and mentally ill. particularly when it comes to wilburians and inniters having strange crimeboys takes and taking pot shots at each other.
neither side (speaking only to the extremists in each group of course) seems to want to hear that traumatized mentally ill people Will often hurt each other while also still loving and caring about each other. the messy symptoms for Their character flattened and excused and pasted over, while the messy symptoms of the other are amplified and taken out of context and demonized.
I especially feel like with wilbur in particular people are really sensitive about viewing anything he does and says in a negative light, because of how he was treated in the fanbase And because of how Much his story is centered around his suicide.
the nasty things he said To Tommy, whether that be during his spiral or in limbo or after his revival, are so often just. Smoothed Over. if not outright talked about like it's some gotcha that people use to vilify wilbur and not a pattern of behavior just as much as tommy's own aggressiveness.
people vilified tommy for being scared and angry at wilbur after his reintroduction to the point that there are people who genuinely fully believe that their limbo stream and tommy's obvious fear of wilbur after tommy's own revival was retconned.
to put it bluntly, I think there's a ton of projection happening on both sides, understandably so considering how deeply and beautifully these characters tackle mental health. but I think that projection mingled with the way that Other parts of the fandom mistreat these characters make this Extreme defensiveness that's just really not worth engaging with.
and that's not even considering how the mcyt community as a whole has a major problem with parasocial relationships taken too far. Especially during 2020-2021 when covid was at its height and people were really leaning onto Their Streamer to help them cope with the isolation.
that's not to say that parasocial relationships or projection are inherently Bad. I know full well that I do both without a shred of embarrassment about it. it's very famously why I still can't engage with boundless sands content without immediately bursting into tears a year later.
but a lot of people can't seem to untangle their very personal feelings about it from arguments about characterization or writing or meta. it's very important to them to absolve Their Good Friend from any guilt or wrongdoing and to stick up for them against the bad people that are hurting them, be that other characters or people online. Especially when "their good friend" is Also a stand in for themselves (whether they realize it or not).
and it's just not worth engaging with that, especially not in 2024. if someone needs to use wilbur to be kind to the part of themselves that's hurting then by all means, I'm certainly not throwing stones in glass houses.
but there's really nothing To Say to someone who fully believes that tommy needs to be held accountable for driving wilbur to suicide in pogtopia. I think that's an extremely uncharitable, unkind thing to believe. I think it's an Unfair thing to believe. but it kind of doesn't matter what I think. I doubt there's anything that I or anyone could say that would change someone's mind if they already believe this.
and for my money, I'll be content just not speaking to someone who thinks that way.
my first reaction: did I only get sent this because I said that tommy calling wilbur crazy during pogtopia while actively trying to take care of him and get him to not kill himself isn't the same thing as techno doing it while actively enabling wilbur's violent self destructive death spiral [Link]
#dream smp#wilbur soot#tommyinnit#crimeboys#this is probably critical of Somebody but fuck if I know who
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okay I don't know if any of my followers have watched avatar the way of water, but I'm gonna go on a rant about a common take on one of the characters and why I disagree with it: so, spoilers up ahead!
Alrighty. Spider is commonly hated and criticized within the fandom, mostly for the fact that he spent so much time with Quaritch, and saved his life at the end of the movie. But I personally do not understand why people are so angry at his character- it's not a simple situation that can be put in black/white, and let me explain why.
Spider grew up among the Na'vi and the scientists that stayed on Pandora. He had always known Quaritch was his father, and what he did, which I think heavily influenced how closely he clung onto the Sully children instead of the scientists he lived with. However, despite being around the family for what I assume to be the majority of his life, you never see him have an actual relationship with Neytiri and Jake- despite them quite possibly being the only people he would've considered as his parental figures. And I wonder why? /s
It's said right at the beginning that Neytiri always considered him one of the Sky People, and that she wants him with his own kind. It would be no surprise to me that him being Quaritch's son made her see him in bad light, therefore making her biased against him. He genuinely feared being seen by her when during her frenzy, meaning he knew deep down she'd hurt him. And that's proven later, with no hesitation in her eyes as she promises she'll kill Spider if Quaritch didn't let go of Kiri. And once he's served his purpose, she tosses him aside without a second thought. And who were the ones who cared for him in that situation? Quaritch and the children. Even if Spider wanted Neytiri to be a mother figure, she would've never let him.
Now, Jake may be fond of him, and never actively treats him badly, but he admits that he sees Spider as a stray. Like that cat that always pops up and plays with the kids. There are almost no interactions between them and none of them are personal- it's always an external situation that makes them interact with each other, though they do so without complaint. The only time you see Jake being affectionate with Spider is when he takes him as a trade-off for Neteyam. "A son for a son". He doesn't see him as a son, he sees him as a replacement. Which to me, personally, sits in all the wrong ways.
Now, Spider could've found a parental figure among the other humans he lived with, but with his desire to be Na'vi, I don't think he would've. He's always shown with the Sullys, the only time he's shown with the scientists is when the Sully children are with him. He sees the scientists as family, there's no doubt of that, but not parents. So.. who's his parental figure? I'd say no one. He separates himself from the humans and tries so hard to be Na'vi, but it never changes how Jake and Neytiri view him. So he's stuck in a cultural and social purgatory of his own making, but not his fault, without parental guidance or bonds.
Until Avatar Quaritch shows up.
During their time together, not only does Quaritch value Spider's knowledge about the Na'vi and their language (which I'm sure no one has ever done), but he never treats him entirely as a prisoner. Sure, there's a tracker in his mask, but he saves Spider from a literal torture device and seems to want to impress him. You can see they clearly start to form their own type of bond during the trip; even when he's unhappy, Spider will listen to Quaritch as long as he's not telling him to do something that goes against his morals. Unlike Jake and Neytiri, Spider finally has someone willing and emotionally capable of being a parental role in his life. Unfortunately, said someone is the main antagonist.
Put simply: he is not afraid of Quaritch. He's never given any reason to. Sure, Quaritch does horrible things, but never to Spider. In fact, he cared about Spider more than his need to have leverage over Jake, which is extremely significant imo. Y'know. Since he was literally resurrected for the sole purpose of taking Jake down.
So yeah, he saved Quaritch- but what would you do if you saw that the closest thing to a parental figure you've ever had (which just so happens to be your father, but more aware of how he should do better, and is y'know. an avatar), was drowning? I would hope you'd save them, even if your relationship was complicated and confusing.
In my personal opinion, Spider's priorities lie primarily with the Sully children, and the Na'vi people as a whole. They gave him companionship and support and love; and the people were his everything- his home, who he wanted to be. But Quaritch definitely ties with Jake, at the very least. He doesn't agree with Quaritch's morals, and Jake was nothing more than another adult in his life, but it's shown he clearly doesn't want either of them to be hurt. Neytiri is most likely on the literal bottom of that list because she's been nothing but horrible to him. He saves Quaritch, but he doesn't side with him fully. Instead, he goes back to the Sullys, who have been his whole life; though he does seem distant, most likely due to internal conflict.
Getting angry at a complicated character in a complicated situation for making a complicated decision is a common troupe among fandoms, but it does genuinely irk me. He's not Jake in Avatar 1 with a savior complex: he's a kid finally meeting and bonding with his father after feeling alien and isolated from the people he cares about most. His character development, and what he decides to do in the future, aren't going to be as straightforward as it seems. There's a lot going on with his storyline, and it's going to be a bumpy ride. He's not going to make the decisions the audience wants him to every time, and I honestly enjoy that about his character. He is, indeed, human. A human in a very conflicting situation.
In conclusion: yes. his decision to save Quaritch will mean he will come back in future movies and will continue to bother the Sullys. but, it wasn't an unjust decision, and it certainly wasn't betrayal.
Thank you for coming to my TedTalk
#this is my very passionate opinion#though if this gains any traction I don't want to see any wars in the notes#nor any disrespect#I genuinely only meant for this to be like one paragraph max- I'm so sorry lmfao#aidan talks#avatar 2 spoilers#avatar the way of water#atwow#spider socorro#spider avatar#spider atwow#I
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Audio Drama Sunday - 20th August ✨
I must admit that I dedicated A LOT of listening hours this week to the new Hozier album (which is incredible omg) but I still had some great audio drama listening!
🌲@hellofromthehallowoods (129) What a fun break from episode convention! I’ve been highly suspicious of Nimbus from the start, and I feel vindicated that he’s not a normal cat as well as relieved that he doesn’t seem to be overtly malicious. I can’t relate to Nikignik’s dislike of felines, but it did really make me chuckle when it was revealed that all indescribables fear cats… Buddy, you can fear something without reviling it! Ough and the look-in on Jackie HURT MY FEELINGS so bad!! I can’t cope with sad dogs 🥺
🦀 @thesiltverses (30) TSV is back, babey!!! The sound design at the start of the episode was phenomenal, I loved the way they weaved music in with the sound effects in such a fluid way (the river sure does rise!) And oh man, Faulkner, you fucking idiot. They know!! They all know!!! It is such a delight to hear some of my favourite VAs doing their amazing work again. Méabh de Brún has absolutely annihilated me already. I’m obsessed with this discovery that the Trawlerman appears to still favour Carpenter while the Caring Maiden seems to slip away the more Carpenter seeks her. I should have started a S3 bingo because I was hoping so badly that Carpenter would join up with Hayward and Paige!! This season is going to be amazing. I’m so ready.
📻 @monstrousagonies (108) Mab!! The queen returns! I am ever so slightly skeptical that Apocacorp is all bluster . . . I just feel like, even if that is the case, they’re not going away without more of a fight . . .
🌒 @monkeymanproductions Moonbase Theta, Out (finale part 1) OHHHHH SHIT!!! It’s all kicking off on the moon!!!!! I love Alex’s sweet, sincere hopefulness in: ‘We’ve been through the end of so many things but we’re still here’ 💙 Isn’t that just it! I don’t want to give away the major spoiler because the ep only just dropped but oooohhhh my god! I was wondering if this might happen and wrote the idea off. This changes everything!!
🎙 Welcome To Night Vale (232) HELL YES. I have been waiting literal YEARS to get into this business with the Desert Otherworld and its impact on my favourite scientist and the impact of both on my favourite community radio show host. My popcorn is ready, let’s get into it!!! 🍿
🤴I finished season one of InCo by @itmeblog! This is micro-scifi at its best and if you’re a fan of extensive single-person casts, InCo does it remarkably!! I'm really looking forward to seeing how the story develops!
🧬 Regina Prime (6) OOF I think this is one of the most intense episodes we’ve had yet! The acting was amazing in this one, Jess pulled out a full Youtuber apology and managed to keep that edge in her voice to give you the prickling sensation that something isn’t quite right.
💫 Wolf 359 (48) Ugh what an absolute mind fuck! I’ve been tying myself in knots trying to work out how I would personally react and cope if faced with a scenario where one of my friends is not the person I knew but is otherwise indistinguishable from them. And I just don’t know!
🎩 @ethicstownpod (8) AAH!! Ethics finale!!! This show has been a wild ride from start to finish and WOW what an ending!! I really don’t want to give anything away to people who haven’t listened yet but I’m almost ashamed that I didn’t see this coming and if you haven’t listened to Ethics you really really need to!!!
🥾@doyoucopypod (6) More questions than answers from this episode of Do You Copy! What does Reese know?! What doesn’t like you listening?? What doesn’t like you listening?!??!
🐬 More spectacularly odd @patterspod P Files! It’s fun to hear the obvious mistake being made and I’m really looking forward to Ryan facing the consequences of certain actions….
I hope everyone has a lovely week!
#audio drama#audiodramasunday#audio drama sunday#podcast#podcast recs#science fiction#audio fiction#hello from the hallowoods#hfth spoilers#tsv spoilers#the silt verses#monstrous agonies#moonbase theta out#regina prime#wtnv#inco#wolf 359#ethics town#do you copy#finding pattersby
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AHEM sorry this is gonna be super duper random, but in note of you (mostly) leaving the TSBS fandom, I just wanna say thank you for sticking around as long as you have!!!
I too pretty much detached myself from TSAMS/TSBS around the time of the Nexus arc, because I really hated how it was played out/everything that went down in it (New Moon was done so damn dirty 💢), but for the longest time I felt like I was a fish out of water when it came to my opinions! But then I found you!!!
I fucking HATE Ruin, haha. I despise him, and seeing so many love him- while of course I left them to themselves- it always made me a little mad and upset to see. Then there was you being so openly loud about your hatred for such a popular character, it's admirable as hell, and I super appreciate it!!! The fact that he got away with what he did with basically no punishment aside from Nexus (good on Nexus for all that he did to Ruin btw 💗) makes me so upset, and it's just nice to know I'm not alone in feeling that!
For however long you stay in the fandom, or keep watching EAPS, I wish you luck and a good time! You more than deserve it, friend 💗💗💗
Oh… Wow
I've had to take my time processing these words for a few hours, not because they're a bad thing in any way, on the contrary, I'm not at all used to receiving any kind of validation when expressing my honest dislike towards something, even when that something doesn't exist; at least not from people I don't know. So it feels weird, in a good way.
Thank you for sharing your kind words with me.
I really have no worries about expressing these kinds of opinions as long as I follow some simple rules that at least to me are common sense:
If for some reason, motive or circumstance I have to express dislike/hate towards a character in a place that is not my own blog, I will do so in the most polite and respectful way possible, based on the canonical reasons and facts that support my dislike and not simply writing insults.
I will never go to talk badly in a space for fans of the character I hate, I'm not an idiot, why the hell would I go to a place with people who do enjoy the character just to say why I don't like that character? It's dumb.
My blog is my safe space, it belongs to me, and therefore I consider that I can write my most honest opinions about said character, since that way if someone doesn't agree with me, they simply have to block me. That way they won't have to read it as an insult and I wish eternal suffering to the character in two different languages lol
And I think this is pretty obvious but I guess it never hurts to say it because there are always people with poor reading comprehension: The fact that I hate or detest with all my soul one or more characters, does not mean that this hatred is also directed at the creator or voice actor of said character. Because yes, I hate Ruin and many Eclipses with all my heart, but at the same time I love Solar and respect Sun, and even if Davis didn't have any character that I liked, I wouldn't insult him vulgarly in any way, neither him nor any other member of the Staff. I can criticize them, in an educated way and having reasons for my opinions, but I can never disrespect them with insults.
Anyway, at least for me it is very cathartic to express this kind of things because I feel that without a place to be really honest and direct about my opinions, I would be drowning in poison, and luckily I have my blog and other personal accounts for that. Which again, others can very easily block
I hope that you also manage to have a safe space where you can be honest without bothering others or fearing reprisals for your opinions that do not coincide with the majority.
Because at least in this specific case, it is simply illogical for someone to judge you for hating a fictional character who turns out to be a manipulative, genocidal liar among many other things. Don't feel bad about it. Have a nice day and take care of yourself`~
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