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#im gonna try and clean and self care tmrw i think. i want to explode
morishenanigans
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3 months
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went to the bathroom. cried. came back. checked the time. ten minutes after med time. ah. so im just crazy i can work with this.
#im taking extra meds bc i need the big boy stuff
#i still have not slept im just not gonna sleep
#me trying to explain and talk myself thru my thinking process. starts crying bc the thoughts are just so scary
#i think my major fear is being a bad person who does things to hurt people like ive heard of others doing
#and then i get rlly focused on wondering if IM that person
#if somehow all of my actions are lies
#my thoughts are all manipulations and im just delusional about trying my best
#maybe im really bad
#and it just gets worse and worse and i stop being able to believe people
#when they tell me its not like that
#and i just. bangs my head against a therapists door.
#please.
#answer already
#another biggest fear is becoming anti recovery for bpd bc idk.
#i know i a lot wonder about how many more options do i have?? how much more can i take? before its too much
#how much can i handle how much damage can i take
#and how many treatments can fall through
#i dont know how other people w bpd do this
#i genuinely am at a loss at how they do this i want to know i want the answers i really do
#i shouldve agreed to talk to my friends friend with it when they offered months ago
#i think about it a lot. or was it a year ago or more than that? idk
#but i just. i wish id talked and learned stuff. or maybe i wasnt ready but i am now? i dont know.
#i dont know anything
#my brain goes to mush so easily and i start questioning if anything is real or is everhything evil am i evil
#it gets rlly bad. idk what to do. im hanigng on. im waiting for that therapist.
#im gonna try and clean and self care tmrw i think. i want to explode
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