#hypnosis for childhood phobias

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Discover the Benefits of Hypnosis for Children

Hypnosis for children is an effective and non-invasive method that can address various psychological and behavioral issues. This powerful tool helps children manage fears, anxiety, pain, and even improve their self-esteem and confidence. Hypnotherapy has been a subject of research for over a century and has shown significant positive outcomes in pediatric care.

Is Hypnosis Safe for Children? Absolutely. Children often naturally enter states of hypnosis, making them highly responsive to this therapy. A trained hypnotherapist guides the child into a focused state of awareness and provides positive suggestions to help them develop self-mastery and confidence.

What Can Child Hypnosis Help With?

Anxiety and depression relief

Weight management

Pain management

Asthma control

OCD relief

Social anxiety reduction

Phobia treatment

Mastery over habits like bedwetting and nail-biting

The Case for Hypnosis in Pediatric Care Extensive research and empirical evidence support the use of hypnosis for children, making it a valuable tool for enhancing their well-being.

For more detailed insights into how hypnosis can benefit your child, visit our page on the benefits of hypnosis for children. Discover how Renewed Edge can help your child lead a happier and healthier life.

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Love Me Like I Do (2023) - 我的老板为何那样 - Whump List

List by StayDandy Synopsis : As a domineering executive, Liu Xi Lai feels that he is outstanding, but he has a fatal weakness wherein he becomes dizzy whenever he sees red. Sparks fly when he meets an artists, Tian Tian, and finds out that this girl who challenged him seemed to be the only thing that could stop himself from fainting. So he decided to keep his little "antidote" by his side as his assistant. Who could be more surprised to find that as they spent time together and formed a bond, a strong and beautiful love quietly grew between these two. (MDL) AKA : Why Is My Boss Like That?

Whumpee : Liu Xi Lai played by Liu Yin Jun

Country : 🇨🇳 China Genres : Romance, Comedy

Notes : This is a Full Whump List • Yeah, was disappointed with this one. He was "cured" before even the half-way point. From then on the focus was on a weird love-triangle. Then at the end they're like, oh yeah, gotta resolve these plot-holes real quick. • Can't say I'd recommend, even the whump is poorly acted.

Episodes on List : 8 Total Episodes : 18

*Spoilers below*

01 : Phobia of blood & the color red, remembering childhood trauma, passes out … dizzy, almost collapses

02 : Dizzy … dizzy, starts to collapse, caught, passes out

03 : Passes out … hospitalized … dizzy, blurred vision

05 : (near end) Hypnosis treatment, remembering childhood trauma

10 : Pretending to be drunk … scared of cats

11 : Drunk

13 : Nightmare

16 : Hit in the head with a bat, dizzy, remembering childhood trauma, passes out, hospitalized

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Ideas for my own Pokemon x Twisted Wonderland fanfic

Part 1 Introducing My Oc

Twisted Wonderland/Pokemon OC

Name: Alexia

Gender: Female Age: 9 (she later turns 10 in Twisted wonderland)

Partner Pokemon: Swinub (no name yet) Alexia’s first pokemon. They met when she was 5 and they both got lost in a mountain. They are both the same age and have a bond similar to Ash and Pikachu. Swinub is very upbeat, cheerful and can read his trainer very well. He is a lot more social than Alexia and is a major help in Alexia meeting new people (for good or bad).

Handicaps: High Functioning Autistic, insecure, PTSD, Hypersensitivity, not always socially aware, can be blunt, has difficulty with change, difficulty with people and large groups. 

Hair Color: Currently undecided

Skin Color: Band/Honey Tan with freckles

Eye Color: Crystal Blue

Family: Mom, Dad, Older Twin Brothers, Grandparents on Dad’s Side, Uncle is Professor Kakui, Aunt and Cousin in Kalos.

Personality Quirks:

Alexia is terrified of the pokemon Drowzee and Hypno to the point of a violent phobia. She is so terrified of them that she runs from them or attacks them with extreme prejudice with her bare hands.

Alexia loves crazy fashion. She has a Mimikyu Raincoat, black boots with neon stars, a collection of hats and coats, and crochets scarves for each of her pokemon.

Alexia has a childish disposition, but can be very mature when needed.

Family backstory: Alexia‘s father's side of the family are descendants of the aura guardians (and distant cousin’s to Ash Ketchum). Alexia is the only one in her family outside of her grandparents to inherit the powers of aura but due to her autism, she is unable to train by traditional methods which are the only methods that her family knows. As far as her family knows, Alexia is utterly untrained in her aura powers but in reality, Alexia is decently attuned to her aura. While she is not a master she is able to use her aura to activate time flowers, find Pokémon eggs, and read the hearts of most people and Pokémon which comes in handy when she enters twisted wonderland. She is also able to generate an aura veil to protect her from mental attacks (due to her fear of being hypnotized, but her autism actually makes her immune to hypnosis)

Personal Backstory: Alexia was the first in her immediate family to have High Functioning Autism which led to some issues throughout her childhood. She wasn’t very social with most kids her own age (a trait she still has), and though she does have a few friends, she usually prefers her own company or the company of her pokemon.

As a toddler, Alexia loved exploring and often sensed the energy and aura and would wander off to find it. This led her to encounter Darkrai when she was 5 and a large group of Unkown when she was 4. Darkrai opened his heart to Alexia after realizing she wasn’t scared of him (finding humor in the story her brothers told her about Hypno and how she was more afraid of that pokemon than him) and how she didn’t judge him for his nightmare powers.

At age 7, Alexia got bullied by her classmates and teachers so badly that she stopped leaving her room. This led her parents to have her live with Kakui in Alola, who recommended that she start her Pokemon Journey early in order to aid in her mental health. She completed the Island Challenge and then went to Kanto where she met Ash and became friends (she didn't join him on his journey, but they ran into each other and had adventures often, especially in the movies)

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Age regression is a very powerful tool. It is a therapeutic technique used in hypnotherapy to help individuals revisit and explore past memories and experiences, often from their childhood or earlier stages of life. The purpose is to gain insight into the root causes of all sorts of issues like lack of confidence, anxiety, phobia, or challenges they may be facing in their present lives, like addictions, feeling overwhelmed, or holding on to grief. 

The goals of age regression hypnosis include:

Identifying Root Causes: By revisiting past experiences, the individual may uncover the underlying causes of certain behaviors, emotions, or challenges they are currently facing.

Healing Trauma: Age regression can be used to address and heal emotional wounds or traumas from the past. It provides an opportunity for the person to reprocess and release negative emotions associated with those events.

Behavioral Change: Understanding the origins of certain behaviors can empower individuals to make positive changes in their present lives.

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Right Course Provider for Me?

What are the Different Techniques Used in Hypnotherapy?

It can be used to treat various psychological and physical conditions, as well as helping people improve their overall well-being. Hypnotherapy involves tactics intended to bring about a trance-like state in which the patient's unconscious is more accepting of advice. The different techniques used in hypnotherapy vary depending on the practitioner's style, experience level, and goals for treatment.

One common technique used by many practitioners is called "guided imagery." This type of therapy involves creating vivid mental images or stories that are intended to evoke strong emotions or memories from the patient's past experiences. By using this technique, practitioners can access deeper levels of consciousness where they can then suggest ideas or solutions that may be beneficial for the patient's current situation.

Another popular technique employed by many hypnotherapists is "age regression," which allows patients to go back in time so they can explore events from childhood or other points throughout life that may have had an impact on them today. This process often helps bring about greater understanding and awareness around certain issues, allowing individuals to gain insight into themselves and make positive changes in their lives moving forward.

Furthermore, certain therapists may opt to employ "hypnoanalysis" when handling individuals with fear or phobias. With this approach, patients are encouraged to focus on thoughts associated with fear while under hypnosis so they can better understand why those feelings exist within them and how best to address them going forward without feeling overwhelmed or anxious about it anymore.

Finally, another important tool utilised by many professionals is called "parts therapy," which helps people identify internal conflicts between different parts of themselves (e.g., inner child versus adult self). Through this method, therapists work with clients to address these conflicts head-on so that they no longer cause disruption within their lives but instead lead towards healing resolution.

Hypnotherapy techniques are highly versatile and can be tailored to meet a variety of goals. It is essential to think through the potential benefits of taking a certified hypnotherapy program prior to settling on a provider.

Key Takeaway: By utilising specialised methods such as guided imagery, age regression and parts therapy, hypnotherapists can enable individuals to gain insight into their issues and devise innovative approaches to conquer them. Through the use of guided imagery, age regression and parts therapy, hypnotherapists can help clients gain insight into their issues and come up with creative solutions to overcome them. Hypnotherapy training courses in Manchester offer practitioners an opportunity to learn these techniques so they can better serve their patients.

What are the Benefits of Attending a Professional Course?

Attending a professional course on hypnotherapy can be an invaluable experience for those looking to become certified practitioners. Gaining expertise and developing proficiency in hypnotherapy can be achieved through quality instruction from experienced educators, granting access to resources that are unique to the field. By taking a professional course in hypnotherapy, you can benefit from the expertise of experienced tutors and have access to pertinent materials.

When selecting a course provider, it is essential to ensure they are endorsed by the applicable regulatory body in order to guarantee that their courses meet quality criteria and reflect current practices within hypnotherapy. Ensuring that the courses are of a high calibre and up-to-date with contemporary developments in hypnotherapy is essential when selecting a course provider.

Additionally, many accredited providers offer additional benefits such as continuing education credits or discounts on products related to hypnosis or therapy services.

When considering different options, ensure the provider has experience teaching in this field and ask questions about their qualifications. Look for reviews online from past students and ask questions about their qualifications when considering different options. Additionally, ensure that they give explicit data regarding what themes will be examined during the program so you can precisely comprehend what's in store before joining any classes or workshops provided by them.

Attending a professional course on hypnotherapy can provide many benefits and is worth considering for anyone interested in the field. It is essential to locate an appropriate course provider in order to guarantee the highest quality experience for your investment.

Key Takeaway: Researching and finding the right accredited hypnotherapy training provider is essential. Doing your due diligence to find experienced instructors who offer continuing education credits or discounts on related products will ensure you get the best bang for your buck. With quality courses come quality results.

How Can I Find the Right Course Provider for Me?

When seeking out a suitable hypnotherapy course provider, there are certain things to take into account. For optimal results, it is essential to evaluate the provider's credentials, qualifications and accreditations.

Check their background, qualifications and accreditations before committing to any training program. It is also important to look into the type of learning environment they provide; some providers offer online courses, while others may require physical attendance at workshops or seminars. Additionally, you should check out reviews from previous students and ask questions about how they will support you during your studies.

When researching potential course providers, there are several questions you should ask them directly: What qualifications do they hold? How long have they been teaching hypnotherapy? Are their classes accredited by any governing bodies? Do they provide ongoing support after completion of the course? Ensuring that you receive the most beneficial outcome for your investment is attainable by posing these queries.

Finally, here are some tips for finding the best value for money when selecting a hypnotherapy training program: compare different providers on price; research each one thoroughly; read reviews from former students; enquire about additional resources such as textbooks or recordings; find out if payment plans are available; and look into whether certification is included in the tuition fees.

By following these steps carefully, you can be confident that your chosen provider offers quality education at an affordable rate. When selecting a course provider, it is essential to evaluate all of the above elements and pose any queries you may have. Subsequently, let's delve into what can be anticipated from the educational journey.

What Should I Expect from My Training Experience?

Hypnotherapy instruction can be a beneficial experience, yet it's essential to comprehend what is in store before beginning. Understanding the typical training experiences and associated benefits and challenges can help you make the most of your learning journey.

When it comes to overviews of typical training experiences, there are several elements that may vary depending on the course provider. Some providers offer intensive courses over short periods of time, while others prefer more spread-out sessions with breaks in between for review and practice. Additionally, some courses will focus exclusively on theory, while others include practical components such as case studies or roleplay scenarios. For optimal results, ascertain which approach is best suited to your needs before selecting a course provider.

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The dangers of age regressing (TW)

Everyone loves to talk about how age regression is a healthy and positive coping mechanism for them because it helps them forget about the adult anxieties and responsibilities in life for a while. Age regression is seen in good light so abundantly that many people on social media often ask others how they can regress, but no one talks about how age regressing can enforce them to carry adult anxieties or how regressing can become harmful to many.

How is that so? Age regression is a defense mechanism that makes you experience a deep psychological shift. Defense mechanisms are forced unconscious processes that is your brains way of helping you cope and escape from present anxieties, depression, feelings of fear, disgust, or guilt etc. but when age regression has the interpolation of a past, time-frozen experience over the present reality it can make the regressed individual re-experience their past trauma by having sudden and unwanted traumatic flashbacks that intrude into or replace what’s happening presently. When this happens the regressed individual can feel unwanted emotions such as fear, disgust, or guilt etc. that their brain is supposed to be safeguarding. This can be very damaging because when a person is regressed they are in a deep psychological shift where their knowledge, motor skills, and behaviors etc. is in the same manner of a biological child. The regressed individual can start to feel trapped feeling sadness, anger, loneliness, etc. and other varieties of mood swings.

Why does this happen sometimes? This happens sometimes because In effect, our present reality is nothing more than a composite of all our past experiences. As imperfect people we do not have the time to access all new situations or objects from the ground up. Instead, our mind sees things that fit into our per-existing “blueprints” and memories and we instantly judge those things within that frame of reference. By the time we are mature enough to take actions to properly take care of ourselves, we have a complex structure of belief systems, and way of thinking, seeing things, and feeling things in which our unconsciousness uses to make quick sense of the information we take in through those senses.

Example: Imagine someone who is overly sensitive to their spouse raising their voice at them. Whenever they raise their voice the people who is overly sensitive freezes and finds themselves becoming tearful and completely unable to communicate effectively, possibly becoming nonverbal. Perhaps when this person first started dating their spouse their relationship with this person was really healthy, but over time (and after a few negative experiences of their spouses yelling) they begun to resort to their regressive behaviors at the mere sight of them approaching. The reaction is out of their control. They are in a deep mental shift compared to their normal behavior and way of thinking as an adult. Only after their spouse has left the room, does the regressed individual come back to their senses. In this case living with regression can be very uncomfortable and even dangerous if said spouse was abusive.

In the above example, it is likely that as a child, the regressed individual was yelled at by a family member repeatedly which may have caused them psychological and/or physical pain, especially if said individual was enduring abuse from that family member in one or more ways.

Another example: Imagine someone starts to regress due to experiencing feelings and thoughts that were too difficult for them to cope with consciously. They are regressing because their mind responded to something threatening that could cause emotional or physical harm. As they are regressing their reasoning for doing so is vanishing. Their regression is positive and healthy in this moment. They are in the mindset of a child and they start to engage in childlike activities. While they are still regressed they come across something that was in their childhood, instead of a positive response towards it they respond negatively. Perhaps it triggered them out of regression due to its memory, or perhaps they are still regressed and they do not know what’s caused them to feel negatively towards that object but it’s making them feel sadness, even suicidal. The world may feel bigger to them and they may feel isolated. They can start to feed into compulsive behavior, hostility, or risk taking, even self-destructive behaviors because of this. The regressed individual can even start to resort to negative regressive behaviors such as screaming and kicking and feed into those risk taking and destructive behaviors towards those that may be trying to help them.

In the above example, it is likely that as a child, the regressed individual suffered through trauma/abuse and their memory and reaction towards it was too impactful because it caused them emotional and physical harm.

In therapy regression can be dangerous because age regression in therapy is a technique in a psycho-therapeutic process that facilitates access to memories, thoughts and feelings. Age regression includes hypnotherapy, which is a process where patients move their present focus to memories of an earlier stage of their life in order to explore these memories and to get in touch with some difficult-to-access aspects of their personality and go back and find the initial sensitizing event to recover, re-frame, resolve, and cope with their trauma or present fear. The individual that gets hypnotized or is regressed is in an extremely weak and vulnerable state in order for this to happen. Some of the dangers of age regression therapy in hypnosis includes the hypnosis causing you to feel and behave in ways that don’t make sense in your current situation. These leftover feelings and behaviors might cause you to have fears and phobias without knowing why, feel guilty for no easily understood reason, have false memories, have difficulty in being intimate, and suffer from mental disorders.

I have never seen, experienced, or done age regression therapy through hypnosis and finding information on it is tremendously difficult. Therapist/Psychologist view it as a very controversial topic and today age regression therapy is not a common practice form of therapy practiced anymore due to the disagreements, dangers, and uncertainty of it, and because licensed professionals have found more effective ways to help people cope with trauma etc.

If you actually mentally regress and you have experienced the negative affects of regression and you would like to share your experiences or information you know please do so by rebloging your input or commenting it on this post!

It is really important to shed light on what age regression actually is and what happens during it since it has been a horrible epidemic of people misconstruing it so many times for these past few years. People who experience and suffer from age regression don’t deserve that. They deserve to have the correct meaning of their term used. They deserve an easy process to get help. They deserve to have a place where they can talk openly about their regression and their trauma, mental illnesses, or disorders without any kink related or aesthetic and hobby related mentions having to be cleared up.

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What are the types, causes, and treatment of phobia

In the world of psychology and mental health, phobias are a topic that many counseling professionals and counselors deal with. These mental disorders, often linked to childhood trauma or other life experiences, can cause significant distress and anxiety in those who suffer from them. Fortunately, there are various professionals near you who can help, including psychologists, psychiatrists, and even hypnotherapists. In this blog, we'll delve into the different types of phobias, their underlying causes, and some effective treatments to alleviate the fear and discomfort they bring.

Types of Phobias:

Phobias, a well-known mental disorder, come in different forms, each related to specific objects, situations, or experiences. The common types include:

1. Specific Phobias: These are intense and irrational fears of particular things or situations like heights, spiders, or flying.

2. Social Phobias: Also known as social anxiety disorder, these phobias revolve around the fear of being judged or embarrassed in social situations.

3. Agoraphobia: This phobia involves the fear of being in places or situations where escape might be difficult, leading to avoidance of crowded places, open spaces, or public transportation.

Causes of Phobias:

Phobias can have various origins, and sometimes, they stem from childhood trauma. Traumatic events can have a long-lasting effect on an individual’s mental health. If you’ve ever experienced something particularly distressing related to the object or situation you’re phobic about, it might be the root cause of your fear.

Phobias can also be linked to underlying mental disorders, such as anxiety or depression. This is where the expertise of a psychologist for depression and anxiety becomes invaluable.  Some key causes include:

1. Past Trauma: Experiencing a traumatic event related to the phobia can lead to its development. For instance, a dog bite can result in a fear of dogs.

2. Learned Behavior: Sometimes, we learn to fear things by observing others. If a parent expresses fear of snakes, a child might develop a snake phobia.

3. Genetics: There might be a genetic predisposition to developing phobias, as they can run in families.

4. Brain Function: Imbalances in brain chemicals or activity may contribute to the development of phobias.

Effective Treatments:

The good news is that phobias are treatable, and there are professionals near me who can help. Here are some common treatment approaches:

1. Counseling with a Psychologist: A counseling psychologist can help you address your phobia through talk therapy. By understanding the root causes and using cognitive-behavioral techniques, they can guide you toward overcoming your fears.

2. Psychotherapy Sessions: Psychotherapy is another effective approach, where you work with a counselor to identify and address the underlying causes of your phobia.

3. Hypnotherapy: Some people find hypnotherapy helpful in uncovering the source of their phobia and reprogramming their subconscious mind to reduce fear and anxiety.

4. Medication: In some cases, psychiatrists may prescribe medication to help manage the symptoms of phobias, especially when anxiety is severe.

5. Consulting a Hypnotherapist: Hypnotherapists specialize in using hypnosis to access the subconscious mind and modify thought patterns related to the phobia.

Remember that seeking help from a professional is the first step in overcoming a phobia. Whether you choose a psychologist for depression and anxiety, a counselor, a psychiatrist, or a hypnotherapist, they are there to assist you in managing your phobia and improving your mental health. Don't hesitate to reach out to a professional near you for support in your journey to conquer your fears.

In conclusion, phobias are common mental disorders that can be distressing, but with the right treatment and guidance, they are manageable. Professionals in the field of psychology and mental health are available near me and near you to provide the necessary support and care to help you face and conquer your phobias.

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BEST HYPNOTHERAPY TREATMENT

WHAT IS HYPNOSIS?

HYPNOSIS is a human condition involving focused attention, reduced peripheral awareness and enhanced the capacity to respond to suggestions.

It is a one-way state of relaxation, confusion or concentration in which the conscious mind becomes remote are detached from every daycare and concerns and in the relaxed state of the unconcerned part of the mind is the best able to respond creatively to suggestions and imaginary.

Bach said that disorder coming outside from inside. And psychologically and psychosomatic disorder is caused due to negative emotions for those persons. Mental illness is responsible for all types of psychological and psychosomatic diseases hence, Once psychological and psychosomatic disorder becomes in order. Hypnosis plays an important role in the improvement of mental health by giving suggestions to the subconscious mind.

Hypnosis is a scientific technique by which we can go to the subconscious state having the highly receptive ability of the subject. Our all uncontrol functions such as blood flow, breathing, and other automatic functions are controlled under the subconscious mind. i.e. Our autonomous nervous system work under subconscious minds. Hence, when we commend are suggested to the subconscious mind, then related to thoughts.the hormonal secretions from respective glands and cause the functions and dysfunction. Hence, hypnosis is an important test to cure the body and cure the mind also.

WHAT IS HYPNOBIRTHING?

HYPNOBIRTHING is a process or method by which should lead to a calmer birth. The main basic ideas behind the stress, anxiety, and fear will cause pain to the mother. During the labor, the body produces a chemical called oxytocin and endorphin which helps to progress for labor.

Hormonal secretions are affected by the stress felt by the mothers, causing labor periods longer and painfull. So, managing stress, fear, anxiety or any negative emotions since childhood had programmed in her the subconscious mind may be produced by the hypnosis technique such as relaxation, breathing exercises, etc.

By using hypnosis if women have given hypnosis treatments for the mind. Health relaxation since from the conception of the child. It will be benefited after the childbirth. It has evidence that it lowers the postnatal depression.

HYPNOTHERAPY TREATMENT

There are many hypnotherapy treatments such as Anxiety, Depression, OCD, PTSD, Mania, Bipolar disorder, Communication disorder, autism, ADHD, Agoraphobia, Social anxiety disorder, Eating disorder, Insomnia, Parasomnias, Addiction, Personality disorder, Thumb sucking, Bedwetting, Nail-biting, Panic attacks, Hysteria, Dyslexia, Sleep disorder, Fear, Teeth eating, Stammering, Menstrual problem, Slow learner, Horror dreams, Addiction low memory problem, Weight loss, Anger management, Phobia, Suicidal thoughts, Postpartum depression, Parkinson’s, Students problem, Not willing to study, Counselling marriage counseling, Student counseling, Love break, Mental shock, etc...

PSYCHOLOGICAL HEALTH TREATMENT & HYPNOTHERAPY CLINIC NAGPUR

Mental stress is responsible for 90% of Psychological and Physical illness. Once the minds are free from these negative emotional thoughts, you will be get rid of diseases, So HYPNOTHERAPY will help you to cure psychological and psychosomatic disease.

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Intro to Hifumi and His Relations w/ Matenro [Animage part  1]

This interview was taken from May 2018 Animage Magazine vol. 479. Make sure to buy it to support Hypnosis Mic and Kijima Ryuichi.  The second part of the article, an interview with Hifumi’s voice actor  Kihima-san, will be in part two. 

Crazy about MC. GIGOLO

Suspicious neon lights, the murmurs of the people who pass by growing louder, Shinjuku Division. In this sleepless city, there is an emperor of the night who steals the hearts of many women.

Izanami Hifumi, occupation: host. The man that whispers sweet words and takes care of women everyday has another face. If he takes off his suit, he becomes just another frivolous man with even with a phobia of women. He jumped into the world of hosts to overcome his fear of women. To continue spending time with women without pain, he became able to come in contact with women “only when he is wearing his suit”.

With his two drastically different personalities, Izanami Hifumi is currently in the team “Matenrou” with Kannonzaka Doppo and Jinguji Jakurai. Before forming the team, he performed a rap in front of Jinguji Jakurai, who had invited him to join. “That and this and that are all mine (boku) and mine(ore) and mine (watashi) / I am an enemy like the Last Boss / The rainbow after the storm is always the best,” the self that fears women, the self that works as a host, my original self; they are all myself but also all enemies. I want to overtake it someday—. His friends know the worries that he hides from others even with the cheerful smile he always has. He may have been encouraging himself by expressing the firm resolution in his heart through his lyrics. Soon, Matenrou with challenge Shibuya Division’s Fling Posse to a battle. The enemy team has strong individuality that rivals even that of Hifumi’s. Hifumi, who continues to put in lots of effort to get over his phobia of women, should be prepared to carry Shinjuku. Will Hifumi be able to bathe in the champagne of victory?

Side: Host

Only when he dons his suit does he become the strongest host. For Hifumi, it is a must have item when interacting with women. When he is in his host mode, the tone of his voice changes. He strikes women with sweet words in his handsome voice.

Side : Normal

As a host, he refers to himself with “watashi”, when he is off, he refers to himself with “orecchi”. When you’re with him, your personal space is very small, though it is limited to men; he shows no cowardice with being close to others. So during Hypnosis Mic battles, you can look forward to immediate action.

Killer Word

The anthem song “Hypnosis Mic -Division Rap Battle-” was a 12 person mic relay, where unique killer words were weaved together. The official Twitter held a “Killer Word Championship” for the fans to vote in. Hifumi’s “Sparkling night sky and Champagne tower” won first prize.

Formation of Matenrou!

“I want to save her.”

Matenrou first formed when the host Hifumi had an incident where one of his guests became a stalker. Hifumi and Doppo requested for Jakurai to help by using his abilities as a Hypnosis Mic holder. Jakurai first responded with, “I don’t want to use these powers outside of battle”. However, Jakurai decided to cooperate after hearing Hifumi’s desire of “rather than saving myself, I want to save my guest that was brought to the thought of ‘I want to kill’ because of loving me”. After this incident, Jakurai thought that Hifumi and Doppo were “interesting” and invited them to form a team together.

Hifumi & Doppo

The only friend.

From childhood, Doppo always had a negative personality and his only friend was Hifumi. When Doppo is with him - regardless of whether he is in his host-mode or off-mode - Doppo is always caught up in many situations. However, Hifumi always sews up his suits whenever he tears it, and Doppo is thankful that they are friends. Because of that, when Hifumi’s life was targeted, he gave it his all to save him.

Hifumi & Jakurai

Saviour and boss?!

To Hifumi, Jakurai is his saviour and his boss. The first time Jakurai was called “aniki” was when Hifumi invited him to his host club to thank him for his help during the incident. He doesn’t have any recollection of it himself, but Jakurai displayed so much power that even the absolutely perfect host Hifumi called him “boss”. Even the always calm Jakurai, like Hifumi, has another face.

Jakurai & Doppo

From patient to comrade.

To Doppo who has an unwell heart due to his anxieties towards the future, Jakurai acts as a warm and friendly doctor. Rather than finding a cure, it was more like life consultation sessions, and though Jakurai was having some doubts about it, Doppo was very thankful for it. Now that Jakurai and Doppo are comrades in a team together, they have a closer relationship than that of a doctor and his patient.

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Psychology: Fear of Intimacy & The Being In Love With Love Syndrome

The fear of intimacy is a very common fear to have, especially when we're dating someone or looking for love for the first time after experiencing a break-up. You'll often find people that have a subconscious fear of intimacy are in love with the romanticism behind the process of falling in love. I like to call this the 'being in love with love syndrome'. These people are in love with the ideology of feeling connected to someone on every level, but on the flip side, they are also afraid of showing their true selves because it brings up too much pain. Another trait that these people have is that they have a tendency to search for their soulmate or twin flame, but then once they have found what they've been looking for, they runaway from the connection, leaving the other person in the dark. People who have a fear of intimacy also have a fear of being vulnerable, because they believe that is a sign of weakness. Infidelity and being addicted to dating and relationship hopping is very common with people who have a fear of intimacy.

They can also become codependent, needy, possessive, jealous and desperate with the people they get romantically involved with. This can also happen with people who have a fear of abandonment, betrayal and rejection, which are usually linked with fear of intimacy as well. These fears are developed in our childhood, often when our parents fail to give us love, affection, a sense of emotional security and support when we needed it the most. To overcome this destructive dynamic, you must inward and dive into your past, no matter how traumatic and painful it is for you. Your past has the answers to why you're suffering now in the present moment. Healing your inner child is the only way you can overcome the fear of intimacy and any other fears you maybe holding on to.

Your inner child and your shadow self are the roots of all fear, anger, unforgiveness, shame and guilt. On the positive side, your inner child is the home of joy, playfulness, creativity, curiosity, freedom, adventure, imagination and spontaneity. To access your inner child, you can do guided meditations and self-hypnosis sessions, as well as writing a letter to your adult self from your child self. This simple exercise can be done by writing the letter in your left hand (or right hand), the hand which you don't write with - as this engages your subconscious mind. Your projective or dominant hand, will be your adult self, as you are right now in the present moment. It's very important not to judge yourself or consciously think about what you are going to write, because when you do you're coming from a place of resistance. The idea behind this exercise is to come from a place of compassion, acceptance, understanding and fluidity.

By doing this on a regular basis, you'll start to gain insight and discover the root causes behind your fears and phobias that are attached to intimacy, relationships, sexuality and dating. It's important to remember to not to give up hope, especially when you're trying to overcome your fears about intimacy. Always have faith in yourself and believe in your own personal power, as this will improve your self confidence and self-worth in all aspects of your life, not just your love life. The fear of intimacy is easy to overcome, once you know how. Don't let the fear of intimacy stop you from experiencing the love you've always desired, you deserve better than that. You are worthy of being loved.

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Everything you need to know about hypnotherapy

What comes to mind when you think of hypnosis? Do you think of weird and mysterious sideshows involving faith healers causing people to behave in very abnormal ways? Whatever it is, most of us have some kind of preconceived idea about what we think hypnosis is, yet this is often due more to fiction than reality. This often creates anxiety and apprehension about hypnotherapy and prevents people from discovering its true wonders.

So what is hypnotherapy?

Ultimately, hypnotherapy is a deep relaxation process that opens the door to the unconscious mind where the most profound change can occur. Unlike other therapeutic methods, hypnotherapy bypasses the conscious mind, helping people get to the root of the problem they are experiencing, which is often hidden in their subconscious mind.

Word enhancement hypnotherapy is the experience of an "altered state" of consciousness or a different type of cognitive processing, which gives people a different type of consciousness from normal waking life.

What if it doesn't work for me?

Invariably, some individuals are simply unable to detach themselves from sensory inputs and the immediate real environment and immerse themselves in an inner world of imagination. And this is fine. Hypnotherapy is not for everyone. Some people are instantly immersed in hypnotherapy Melbourne, and for others, it may take a little longer. Everyone has their own process of going inward, but it's important to let go of expectations of what you think should be and open yourself to the possibility of what could be.

How can hypnosis help me?

When people often think of how hypnotherapy can help them, they often think of phobias, quitting smoking, or losing weight; however, hypnotherapy is not limited to treating these problems alone. Clinical hypnotherapist Melbourne can be used to improve your general functioning, so that you feel better mentally or physically. Hypnotherapy can also help improve sleep patterns, reduce stress and anxiety, overcome depression, increase your self-esteem and motivation, enhance your creativity, and help you live a life that satisfies you on all levels.

How is the experience of hypnosis?

In the process of hypnosis Melbourne, you will experience your everyday cognitive logic and secondary thought process. During the session, you may commit to an alternate reality described by the therapist, or you may prefer to use your own imagination and memory.

If you want to heal some type of emotional cognitive trauma, hypnotherapy allows you to go back in time to re-experience, rather than remember, a childhood event in the way it was originally experienced.

What if I don't like it?

Hypnosis is not about getting you to do something shocking or out of place. If you feel uncomfortable being hypnotized, you can always stop it. You are under no obligation to continue if you think it is not for you. If you feel a little uncomfortable being hypnotized, remember that you are always in control of the process. Yes, you are being hypnotized by a therapist, but you also take an active role in this process.

Hypnotherapy is not a passive experience of simply being hypnotized during each session, you will take an active role in communicating your own personal needs and in selecting the appropriate self-hypnosis treatment that connects with you.

What does it feel like to be hypnotized?

There is a lot of superstition surrounding hypnotherapy, but the truth is, you've probably experienced it thousands of times in your life before, and you probably didn't notice it because it seemed like a natural state of mind. Hypnotic states and experiences often occur in everyday life without recognition.

But what does it feel like to be in a hypnotic state? Well, have you ever had the experience of using the autopilot? Have you ever had a moment to go within, explore the richness of your inner world? Or have you ever had the experience of daydreaming or feeling distracted? Well, this is what the hypnotherapy experience can be compared to!

How can my life change in the long run?

Some people think that hypnotherapist Melbourne works like magic, miraculously curing them of some kind of phobia, but the biggest change happens through your own effort. People often come to therapy hoping to find solutions to some kind of problem they are dealing with, but during the therapeutic process, you will most likely find that you already have the answers within.

Hypnotherapy allows you to connect the subconscious aspect of your life with your conscious mind or it can be a experience like energy healing Melbourne . This allows people to develop greater self-awareness, which in many cases inspires people to set a new path for themselves.

And while it is probably best to have no set expectations of what you will get out of hypnotherapy if you fully commit to the therapeutic process, it has the potential to make a dramatic difference in your lifestyle and overall well-being.

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What Happens In Hypnotherapy

How Hypnotherapy can create real breakthroughs

By gently inviting relaxation of the physical body and the conscious mind (like a guided meditation process) which deepens the brainwaves states, allowing the bypassing the CCF analytical mind, hypnosis can easily facilitate communication with the subconscious mind to discover the root cause of problems.  After therapeutic intervention and re-framing, the conditioned habitual/fear based thought patterns can be cleared and more positive ideas introduced successfully. This can be a transformational process and really help you move forwards. According to cognitive neuroscientists, we are only conscious of about 5% of our cognitive activity. 95% of brain activity is beyond conscious awareness yet affects body functions, judgements, decisions, and actions. Equally certain emotions and behaviours that we often can’t rationalize and that are not alignment with our conscious goals, or can even sometimes even sabotage health!  I decided to train in Hypnotherapy after some fantastic breakthroughs.  I found it so fascinating and powerful and still do, every session. It helped me shift some blockages I couldn’t consciously resolve. I had no idea just how much traumatic experiences in my childhood and even past lives were affecting me!

What can I expect in a Hypnotherapy Session?

After a complimentary consultation call 20mins or so via phone/Facetime/Skype/Zoom etc we can explore what it is you’d like to work on and how many sessions you may need. I’ll ask you to complete a pre-session questionnaire (which frees up time in the first session allowing it to be more productive). All is shared in confidence in a safe space without judgement, to best help you. When you’re ready I’ll guide you into a relaxing safe state of ‘trance’ (reached often in daydreaming, for instance being ‘in the zone’, being on autopilot navigating familiar routes etc). For around 30mins (N.B. Stop Smoking Hypnotherapy  Session is 2hrs) we will work with your inner wisdom through the powerhouse and guide that is your subconscious mind (which has recorded everything and of course keeps your body functioning without reminders). You can still communicate by IMRs (finger signals) or some clients can still speak clearly enough. Your subconscious mind as your ‘protector’ will only take you where it wants to, nothing is ever forced.  I hold your hand, helping you along the way to transformation, encouraging you at each step of your journey.

Regression Therapy, Inner Child Healing & Past life Regression.

Profound healing work can happen here as I help you to resolve issues and making you feel really safe to regress to childhood to send healing and re-frame traumas that may have resulted in fears, anxieties, self esteem issues, trust in self others and life etc.  Hypnotherapy is powerful work to help you get back firmly in the driving seat of your life leaving behind the sabotage, or extreme bewildering emotions that can arise when a wounded inner child is triggered and ‘freaks out’.  This is why we often see adults having ‘tantrums.’ This upset part of you can be like a sub-personality that feels stuck in time with the threat happening in real time. By offering more reassurance and love from the present moment than was available at the time and with this understanding and reframing, this part is happier and can be re-integrated. This liberating process sets you free from the fears, low self-esteem or habits and reactions you hadn’t been able to move past. Literally going back in time to rescue a younger you and freeing you up to live fully.

Past Life Regression can be the way to heal and show the reason behind more baffling problems, inexplicable fears and sometimes even physical pain from past life wounding and interesting connections between people. Clues to past lives can be instant dislike or that feeling you’ve known someone forever!

E.g. A client couldn’t get over an ex even though his behaviour was toxic for her…With Past Life Regression her subconscious mind revealed a past life centuries ago. They were brother and sister, he was very ill she lovingly promised him that he wouldn’t die to cheer him up. He died and she carried the guilt that she couldn’t save him into this life where yet again she couldn’t save him from alcoholism. After the healing and self-forgiveness and making new vows to look after herself, she has now moved moved on with her life happily.

I’ve led many sessions of past life regression therapy and have also received many helpful past life regression sessions along the way too! I understand how to check for and clear negative vows or contracts that have been made which are not serving you this lifetime!

You can imagine how perhaps past allegiances sworn, lives in service to the Church, vows of celibacy, not accepting money and so on aren’t very helpful if you want a relationship / a thriving business now! I am glad to be able to make you feel really safe even literally hold your hand as we seek the information. It is NOT about re-traumatisation, you can choose witness something on a movie screen / float above the scene. When the healing is complete you are brought back to present day, unless we are guided by your subconscious mind to visit the Inter Life – This can be an incredibly reassuring experience especially if your ‘purpose eludes you or your self esteem is very low etc. I love facilitating your organic empowerment through these breakthroughs. As you feel happier, more inner peace, inner strength, self trust and more capable and as you become in alignment conscious mind, subconscious mind, heart and body then you really can manifest more of your desires more easily.

Future Creation

Once blockages are cleared at this root cause level then I can help you plant the seeds for your new chapters. Inviting the subconscious to magnetise to you the new opportunities, people or projects in line with your highest good  and thus you can experience the changes you desire, easier and easier from now on, over the coming days, weeks and months.

Positive Reinforcement

To enhance positive programming for performance, confidence, and also to remain a Non-Smoker a resource state can be created easily. In NLP this is often termed an ‘anchor’ Using just your fingers it is discreet and easily implemented in public situations. These grow stronger with use.

Is it possible to not wake up?

No. Hypnosis has been around in one form or another for hundreds of years and there are no reported cases of anyone, ever becoming permanently hypnotised! At the end of the session I will gently count you back to the present moment and make sure you’re grounded, feeling ready to for the rest of your day. Clients talk about feeling refreshed like they’ve had a lovely nap.

When will I see results and how many sessions are needed?

Some things maybe one session like treating a phobia. Or Stopping Smoking.

Hypnotherapy is not a magic wand, we have free will and to really experience change we must consciously commit also to better self care, self talk, the ‘stories’ we tell and identify with, these all have a massive effect. Our words are like spells. I believe the more we choose to be responsible for ourselves and develop more awareness, the more we can truly create the changes we want.

Many of my clients like to book three sessions. I’ve often seen clients have beautiful breakthroughs through Hypnotherapy to overcome low self-esteem that is a multi layered issue – we can journey with specific lenses such as- to address self trust, deserving good things, trusting there’s a reason for you to be here and also getting in touch with your purpose.  Creating breakthroughs in relationships problems – patterns of people pleasing and lack of boundaries or always going for ‘unsuitable’ potential partners. Also unravelling anxiety that may have become a pattern, or more confidence and overcoming stage fright. Our subconscious minds know the answers to most things that we don’t understand:-

I offer special pricing to clients who book three sessions upfront.

I can make a recording of the session and send you as an mp3 to listen to and re-affirm the positive suggestions made.

Stop Smoking with Hypnotherapy – One 2 hr session  £250 with positive reinforcement to keep you on track.

One stop smoking client was in a high profile /pressure celebrity management role:

“I don’t even think about it and if I do it feels like a weird distant past memory.”

We’ll work together to understand the core reason why you smoke e.g. loneliness, to be accepted, boredom and help re-programme that need as a thing of the past so that this change can be permanent. You’ll be given an anchor – resource state to support you you can do anywhere if triggered. The session is further strengthened with a personal reinforcement audio I’ll record and send  to you as an mp3. Cigarettes are so  harmful and expensive – the investment in your health will free up your budget for other treats you’ll enjoy more instead!

Sessions are now online my time zone is London -GMT

Have Your Magic -Wellbeing Hypnotherapy Sessions after lockdown:-

Also in Nw6  Queens Park.  Some home visits possible in NW London.

Have Your Magic -Wellbeing, Primrose Hill close to Chalk Farm Tube

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Regular Wellbeing Events

I am also a fan of Sound Healing as a Gong Master I offer de-stressing Gong Baths with a guided meditation to deepen brain wave states and activate the Parasympathetic Nervous System giving you deep relaxation mind and body. Weekly – please see events.

I can tailor Hypnotherapy, De-stressing Techniques and Sound Healing for Corporate Wellbeing Events / as luxuriously nurturing Pamper Parties. I’ve provided Wellbeing Events at: BBC RadioLondon, Soho House, The Union Club, Cloud Twelve Club, A Place to Heal, Getahead Festival and Gymbox.

Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoyed this post. I welcome your enquiry and sincere questions. Let’s discuss what breakthroughs I can help you with. Contact me here.

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What is Developmental Psychology: Understanding and Treatment

Developmental psychology is a fascinating field that delves into the difficulties of human growth and change throughout the lifespan. It surrounds a wide array of aspects, from understanding the psychological development of children to addressing mental health concerns in adults. In this blog, we'll explore the world of developmental psychology, its connection to mental health, and the various treatments and professionals associated with it.

What is Developmental Psychology?

Developmental psychology, as the name suggests, is the study of psychological development across one's lifetime. This field of psychology examines how individuals develop emotionally, cognitively, and socially from babyhood through old age. It seeks to unravel the various factors that shape human development, including genetics, environment, and personal experiences.

Stages of Development

1. Infancy and Childhood (0-12 years): This stage focuses on early emotional and cognitive development, attachment, and social interactions.

2. Adolescence (13-19 years): Adolescence is characterized by identity formation, peer relationships, and independence.

3. Adulthood (20+ years): Adult development explores issues like career, family, and personal fulfillment.

4. Late Adulthood (65+ years): This stage deals with aging, retirement, and reflection on one's life journey.

The Connection to Mental Health

Developmental psychology plays a crucial role in understanding mental health. The experiences and challenges faced during each developmental stage can significantly impact an individual's psychological well-being. Here's how developmental psychology is interlaced with mental health:

Childhood Trauma

Childhood trauma, such as abuse, neglect, or family conflicts, can leave lasting emotional scars. Developmental psychologists study the effects of early trauma on mental health and work towards finding effective interventions.

Mental Disorders

The study of developmental psychology contributes to the identification and treatment of various mental disorders. Understanding the developmental history of a person can provide insights into their condition and potential treatment strategies.

Counseling and Psychotherapy

Developmental psychology informs the field of counseling and psychotherapy. Therapists use developmental insights to tailor their approaches to the specific needs and developmental stages of their clients.

Treatment Options and Professionals

When it comes to addressing psychological issues, developmental psychology integrates various treatment options and professionals to offer effective care.

Psychologists

Psychologists are trained professionals who specialize in understanding and treating a wide range of mental health issues. They often use talk therapy to help individuals manage their challenges and develop coping strategies.

Psychiatrists

Psychiatrists, as physicians, can diagnose and treat mental illnesses. They can prescribe medications when necessary and offer a holistic approach to mental health care.

Hypnotherapy

Hypnotherapy is a form of therapy that uses hypnosis to induce a state of focused attention. It can be particularly helpful in addressing issues like anxiety and phobias.

Counseling Psychologists

Counseling psychologists specialize in helping individuals cope with various life challenges and transitions. They offer guidance and assistance during difficult times.

Finding a Professional Near You

If you're seeking the services of a psychologist, counselor, or therapist, it's essential to find a professional near you. You can commence your search by exploring online directories or asking for recommendations from friends and family. Seeking support from a nearby professional makes it easier to access the care you need.

Conclusion

Developmental psychology is a vital field that sheds light on the complex journey of human development and its profound impact on mental health. By understanding the developmental stages and the professionals available to help, individuals can find the support they need to lead healthier and happier lives.

FAQs

1. What is developmental psychology?

Developmental psychology is the study of how individuals grow and change psychologically throughout their lives. It encompasses various stages, from infancy to late adulthood.

2. How does developmental psychology relate to mental health?

Developmental psychology is closely linked to mental health as it helps in understanding how developmental experiences can influence mental well-being and how to address mental health concerns.

3. What kind of professionals can help with mental health issues?

Professionals such as psychologists, psychiatrists, counselors, and therapy specialists can assist with mental health concerns.

4. How can I find a mental health professional near me?

You can search online directories, ask for recommendations, or consult your primary care physician to find a mental health professional near you.

5. What is hypnotherapy, and how can it help with mental health?

Hypnotherapy is a therapeutic approach that uses hypnosis to address various mental health issues, including anxiety, phobias, and stress. It can serve as a valuable tool in promoting mental health and wellness.

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A (Thurs)day in the Life of a 2nd Year UoM Genetics Student

I have been busy this week, because we are in our month of labs.  We now have labs three times a week for four weeks.  In other weeks, these hours are empty for independent study and naps.  I am suffering a severe culture shock.  For that reason, I’ve decided to go with random days rather than a straight week.  Apart from trying to find more time when I’m already busy, it will also mean that I can show you a day from a non-lab week as well.

I’ve also decided to include today because I feel like it’s important (for me) to be open about mental health and learning how to handle stress.

8am: I generally try to get up at 7am, but I’m feeling particularly stressed and tense this week.  I’m not getting as much work done as I would like  and I constantly feel like I’m missing or forgetting something, even though, when I make a list, everything is fine.  Not optimal, but well within parameters.  I play crush crush some more.  My wrist hurts, and I’m not sure I’m having fun any more.

9am:  I’ve eaten some oatmeal and left early, so I can do a bit of work before my 10am lecture.  I finish typing up some notes in the neat little study cubbies outside the lecture theatre.

10am: I like developmental biology, which is one of my optionals.  I also like that the professor prints off the slides for us, so I don’t have to get my own.  I also like the professor.  I like most professors.  They are adorkable.  Also, we have one who looks like Johnny Lee Miller, which is always nice.

11am: straight into labs, where we will be using light microscopes to examine the slides we’ve made over the past two days.  I hate light microscopes.  I can never see through both eye thingies at the same time, no matter how I adjust it.  I spend an hour struggling with it and then we go to lunch.  I pick up a meal deal, with some coke and cake, then go home to watch an episode of Friends and play crush crush some more before going back to fight the stupid microscope some more.  I happen to live very near the university, so I can accomplish this within an hour.

1:40pm:  Back to wrestling with the stupid microscope.  I can see through one eye at a time (though the squinting is kind of painful), so I’m able to make some drawings.  The professor tells me my drawings are wrong, but gets distracted before telling me why.  I try again.  They’re still wrong.  I tell him about the struggles with the microscope and he suggests that maybe there is something fundamentally wrong with my eyes and I will never be able to use a microscope properly.  I start to cry.  The short version is; stressful, tiring week, too much caffeine and sugar, and I hate not being able to do things.  The long version is, abusive/neglectful childhood in which I was not allowed to express emotions so I still struggle to express them reasonably, along with very low self-esteem, imposter syndrome which has just been confirmed by finding something I can’t do, triggering the fear that I have now reached saturation point and will never be able to do or learn anything more and the slide into failure will now begin, low sleep, high stress, and high sugar/caffeine.

  The professor isn’t actually mean, just matter of fact and concerned.  He suggests we go into another lab and finds me an alternative microscope with a different kind of eye-thingy.  I struggle with that for a bit, then go off for a quiet ten minute cry in the toilets.  I consider making myself sick, which is my stress response.  The longer version is, I used to get sick a lot as a child - migraines and lactose intolerance - and I would usually feel better after throwing up, which may have caused a connection between vomiting and relief in my brain.  Speaking of LI, my mother insisted I was making myself sick on purpose, force-feed me to the point of vomiting (either due to lactose or too much food) then feed me Tabasco sauce as a punishment.  This would make me sick again.

In short, it’s possible that I am so attuned to this abuse that I started doing it to myself as a punishment.  I realised this was a possibility a few months ago and vowed to not make myself sick again.  What’s the bloody point of going no-contact if I just do it to myself?

2:30pm:  I did not make myself sick.  I went back to the microscope and churned out some more drawings, then we have a session on what we were supposed to have discovered.  Based on this, I think my drawings were fine; if I’d had a bit more time and a bit less stress/panic, and maybe some calm answering of questions, I’d have got it.  This doesn’t immediately make me feel better, but does help later.  We hand in our lab books; I’m quite pleased with mine.  We have the weekend to create an image based on our slides and write a figure legend; I’m confident about doing this based on the final lecture session.

3pm: I decide to go to the library to try to work for a bit rather than go home and play videogames again.  Crush crush looms over me.  I get a soda and some m&ms, then try to work for an hour or so, but the internet is playing up and my focus is shot, so I go home.

5pm: there is only crush crush.  And maybe some other work inbetween.  And episodes of Friends.

8pm: I tell my boyfriend that I’m not sure Crush Crush is even fun any more.  I don’t tell him about the pain in my right wrist.  My mother had surgery for carpal tunnel a few years ago, and while carpal tunnel is not actually hereditary, the narrow bone structure at the wrists which is a contributing factor is.  I like my delicate wrists.  That’s what my arms look like.  I don’t want them to have to change.  I also have a bit of a phobia of general aesthetic, and, despite having had local anaesthetic within the last few years, I, deep-down in my bones, don’t really believe it works.  So I don’t want to have any kind of surgery.  At this point, I delete Crush Crush.  I may have deleted my progress or I may be able to get it back.  I don’t want to check.  I feel an instant sense of relief.

9pm: I did some work then started playing Cinderella Phenomenon, a visual novel in which you play as a cursed princess trying to break that curse by helping others to break theirs.  I get the bad ending for Rod, play again making different choices (while taking notes in a spreadsheet because that’s how I roll), and then go through again picking all the good choices to finally get the good ending.  While doing this, I tidied up, sorted out my stuff for tomorrow, and did my laundry.

1:30am:  ...okay, it took me this long to play through Rod’s storyline.  At least I’m playing this game because it’s fun and interesting and not because I feel compelled to get just a few more clicks.  I go to bed and listen to a hypnosis podcast on removing anxiety.  I’ve set tomorrow’s alarm to 9am, because my first lecture is at 11am.  Right now, I feel like sleep and recovery are more important than waking up early.