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ladyeliot · 4 years ago

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I promise.

Pairing: Bucky Barnes 40s x Female Reader

Summary: During the war, meetings with Bucky had been limited, and this would be the last time you would see each other.

Warnings: Fluff/Angst

Word count: 1640

A/N: Sorry for my spelling and grammatical mistakes, English is not my native language, I am learning.

England, 1945

The waves were getting bigger and bigger as they took up more and more space on the shore. The sun was low, leaving a beautiful sunset to watch from the rocks, and the temperature was dropping slightly to the coolness of the evening on the British coast. The tranquillity of the bay meant that a peaceful stroll could be enjoyed without the need to be troubled by worries, but worries were brooding over both of them. The horizon professed a serenity over you, as you stood facing the expanse of the North Sea, and that fact fostered memories of a peaceful time to come to your mind.

Arms encircled your waist and a figure took up position just behind you. You closed your eyes, taking in the warmth of the body that was so pleasant when the cold east wind blew against your face. Lips placed a kiss on the back of your neck, causing your every muscle to relax and you let some of the weight of his body fall on him.

"What are you thinking?" whispered Bucky in your ear, wafting that scent of ash that so fascinated your senses.

"I was just reminiscing about the past," you honest to yourself as you clasped your hands with his that rested on your waist. "When the biggest worry we had was which dress to choose to go out dancing."

You felt Bucky's smile widen against the back of your neck, placing a soft kiss on it again.

"Remember when we went to Minton's Playhouse?" he asked bringing those memories to your mind. "I remember the time I went to pick you up at home, your mother had made chocolate chip biscuits and wouldn't let us leave."

"I warned you that would probably happen," you said with a chuckle. "At least Dad wasn't home."

"It wouldn't have been that big of a deal," Bucky shrugged. "He got to like me in the end."

"I wouldn't say liked, liked," you said, trying to prod him. "He just accepted you." "Well, I suppose being accepted by one of Wall Street's bigwigs is a credit," he said, offering himself importance.

You smiled and shook your head. Those memories that took you back to your past life, completely different from the one you were living at that very moment, made you homesick. At that moment you would give anything to snap your fingers and go back there.

"Do you remember the day we met?" Bucky asked again in a whisper against your ear. "God, you were the most beautiful girl I'd ever seen in my life. Your hair was tied back, except for a lock that fell across your forehead. You were wearing your dark blue dress and you were giggling with your friends. Surely I knew I had to talk to you before the night was over, or I could never forgive myself."

"But you didn't," you reminded him with a smile on your lips of pride. "It was me who came over to talk to you."

"You just beat me to it!" he complained pulling you closer to him. "But you know that made me even more attached to you."

"I miss it," you took a breath and let it out with a sigh. "We used to live life so fast, we hardly enjoyed things because we were thinking about the future. But now we must live in the present, because we don't know if there will be a tomorrow for us."

"There will be," Bucky said firmly, turning you in his arms, bringing your faces to face each other. "I will see to that."

"That's what worries me," you said, holding his gaze and resting your hands on his chest to caress his dog tag.

It had been two years since Bucky had ventured into one of the most terrible and feared wars of all time, World War II. Every day he gave his life to fight against enemy troops, facing the battlefield, not knowing what he was really up against. When he signed up to be a soldier, you made your own decision to help your country with the intention of being close to him. Every soldier who appeared before your eyes, badly wounded, exhausted and shivering with fear, reminded you of him.

You only met him a couple of times in those two years, the first time when he was sent to England after being captured by HYDRA forces, and now just before he left on his mission to board the Schnellzug EB912 with the Howling Commandos.

"It's going to be all right," his sweet breath crashed against your face. Bucky smiled expecting a smile from you. "Hey, do you have that little confidence in me?"

"It's not that," you finally smiled still contemplating his badge. "It's just... I don't want to lose you."

"That's never going to happen," he said again confident in his words. "I have a hunch. Listen, a new year has just begun, it's 1945, this year the war will be over, trust me." It was impossible for you not to get lost in his eyes, in his words. "We'll be able to go home, go dancing at the Café Society, or go for a walk along the banks of the Hudson. Those will be all our worries again."

"Promise me?" you asked, stepping into the imaginary universe your love was creating for you.

"I promise." Bucky brought his lips close to yours. "And I also promise that when we get back I will propose to you properly," his words brought a wide smile to your face, reddening it with embarrassment. "Hey, look at me. I'll buy you the shiniest ring that no one will be able to look away from, I'll take you to dinner at the Ritz, we'll go up to the roof and you'll have all of New York at your feet, then we'll dance all night and when we get tired of dancing I'll take you back to the bedroom and make love to you until we fall asleep."

Those were the most desirable words you had heard for the last few months, everything you wanted was in them. Although you would eliminate all the luxury they contained, you just wanted to be with him in any quiet place and live in peace for life. You didn't need a glittering ring, or a dinner at the Ritz to accept his hand in commitment, you'd do it right now if he asked you.

"So will you make love to me all night until we fall asleep?" you asked mischievously, averting your gaze from his face.

"All night," Bucky's tone became rougher, but he suddenly arched an amused eyebrow. "Well, only if you agree to be my wife."

"Makes sense," you said with a chuckle, wrapping your hands around his neck. "I'll accept. I will always accept."

An aura formed between you, welcoming one of the most intense, hopeful and loving kisses you had ever given each other. When you parted, you could contemplate more assuredly that those were the most beautiful eyes you had ever discovered in your life, and that you could stare into them for hour after hour without looking away. Bucky welcomed the answer you offered with a sweet smile on his face, but it would never happen, for tomorrow he was leaving for the mission that would change his whole life. Perhaps it would have been a mistake for both of you to have embarked on that war, which offered nothing but hardship, but what else would you have done?

"What time do you leave tomorrow?" you asked as Bucky gently kissed your forehead.

"At five o'clock, we want to leave before the sun goes down," he replied, gently stroking the strands of your hair.

You just looked away, not knowing what to say, for these were the last hours you were going to spend together, and no one would put their hand in the fire about the next time you would see each other again.

Finally you decided to break your closeness, beginning a walk along the shore of the beach while holding your shoes in your hands. Bucky closed his eyes with a sigh and followed you, closing the distance by positioning himself next to you and grabbing your arm to stop you.

"I love you," he took your face in his hands. "I love you more than anything in this world, please don't walk away from me."

You wanted to say so many things, so many feelings to express and you didn't know how without bursting into tears. You had been through goodbyes too many times, you had told people you loved goodbye forever, it was unbearable, and the simple fact of having to face it again was killing you.

You shook your head, looking down at the sand your feet were sinking into, cold and white. Bucky stood in front of you, waiting for you to say something, cradling your face in his hands.

"I can't..." you said in a single whisper without looking at him. "I can't do it..."

"I promise- look at me," he demanded softly, and you obeyed. "I promise it's going to be the last time you'll have to do it. The next time we meet I'm not going to let anything or anyone separate us again. I promise."

His words seemed so true as they left his lips, and you wanted so badly to believe them that you certainly did. You let yourself go, assuming they were true, letting yourself be enveloped by the warm feeling of his embrace.

"I promise."

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afewmarvelousthoughts · 5 years ago

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Stay Ch. 19

Master: @afewmarvelousthoughtsadmin

Pairing: Natasha X Reader (Female)

Summary: You have a gift, the ability to see other people’s innermost secrets. For years you used it to gather intel for the highest bidder when you take on The Widow. After she becomes more than a mark the two of you spend years stealing moments. Post snap you wait in your designated meeting place, look back on the sordid past you share with the woman you love and hope against everything that she’s still alive.

Warnings: A little violence (kinda) and a lot of feelings

A/N: HOLY SHIT I AM SO SORRY! I had no intention for this to take over a fucking month. But Endgame fucked me up so hard (in the best way, I think I earned those hurts with the shit I write here lol) and just life, in general, has been NUTS (also in a really good way).

I honestly cannot thank you all enough for being so goddamn patient and supportive while you waited for this chapter. Some folks have to deal with really demanding and dickish followers but I’m over here getting asks and DMs of y’all wishing me well and shit. HOW AM I THIS LUCKY?!

I hope y’all like this one.

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Post Snap: Wakanda

Shock settles cold and heavy over Natasha’s shoulders.

Her gaze has been on the blank screen of her phone for an unknown amount of time. She’d tried to call… but all communication had been cut off, Wakanda locking itself away… A knock from the door behind her causes her to jump, sending the phone clattering to the floor.

“Sorry,” Bruce’s tone is cautious. “The jets almost ready.” They needed to get home… She knows people need them but…

“I can’t.”

“Nat… we have to-”

“No. I have to find her Bruce…”

There’s pity in his eyes, “Natasha… the odds…”

“Go,” Steve’s voice comes from the hall, rough and low. She steps out holding his haunted expression. A set of keys sail in her direction, “There’s a bike you can take outside…” Steve pauses, taking a shaky breath before continuing, “Outside Bucky’s place.”

A touch of warmth fills her chest. He already knew what she’d need to do. Her fingers curl around the keys. “Thank you.”

The moment she’s outside of Wakanda’s protective barrier she tries to check for the message… still, she can’t get through…

A scream threatens to rip her apart. She may be able to make it through the end of the goddamn world… through watching members of her small family fall to ash… But she would not survive losing you… not again.

October 2009

“Fuck!” Natasha bellows slamming her fist against the wall.

Months of searching… this had been their last lead. It came up empty. She was supposed to be the best and yet she couldn’t find and save the one person she cared the most for… not even with the resources and blessing of S.H.I.E.L.D…

They’d given her everything she could need. Everyone from Secretary Pierce to Fury throwing their weight behind this, pulling strings no one would even fathom pulling with governments and low lives alike and still not a sign of you. It was as if you’d simply disappeared.

“I’m sorry, Nat…” Clint lays a comforting hand on her shoulder, she shrugs him off.

“We missed something. There’s gotta be… something…” her voice cracks as he takes her by the shoulders.

His sad eyes break something in her, “There’s not, Natasha. She’s… she’s gone.”

“No,” her voice is thick with restrained tears. “She wouldn’t-”

He shakes his head, “I don’t… I don’t think it was a choice… But someone…” Nat shakes her head like a child denying a very obvious truth.

“Clint-” A sob slips out before she can catch it.

He tugs her into his arms, crushing her against his chest. “I’m so sorry.”

That’s it. A guttural sob rips from the deepest parts of her being and her knees give way sending them both to the floor. All she can think is how you’d feel this emotion with her, how you’d understand everything without her having to speak a word…

Slowly her sorrow is replaced with a cold rage. Someone took you from her. They likely caught wind that you’d turned your services over to S.H.I.E.L.D. and thinking you’d give something away… They couldn’t even leave her a body, couldn’t even give you dignity in death.

“We’ll figure out who did this, Natasha.” Clint may not be you but he knew her well enough to read her. “We will.”

Of that, she had no doubt.

They never did though…

Fury assigned her to Stark because she was best suited but also because he felt the distraction of deep cover would help. It may have but… Being Natalie Rushman reminded her of your night in Tokyo… There was nothing she could do to escape your memory.

Thankfully it hadn’t lasted long. In less than a year she was back to just being Natasha, back to the Widow, working every job she could. The more exhausted she was the less she felt how hollow she was. The more her body ached the less she missed your touch.

When she stared down a horde of alien invaders she thought that just maybe this was it. She’d go out fighting and save some people in the process. If there was another side well, she hoped you’d be there waiting.

But it wasn’t the end. Somehow they’d pulled off the impossible.

By that point, almost five years had passed. Natasha still missed you on a level that felt impossible to truly convey. But there were days that the ache was less than it had ever been. It wasn’t moving on per-say but it was something like healing.

At the very least now she had the distraction of Steve. She could make him a project. She’d never have the life or happiness she wanted but maybe she could help him find his footing. Maybe one of them could have a chance at happiness, at a life.

There was something she related to in his detachment. She supposed the loss of just about everyone and everything a person knew could be similar to the void you left. So many times she thought of telling him about you, hoping that he’d feel less alone in his pain but… He was a man from the ’40s… She wasn’t willing to risk losing a friend over dated prejudices.

Turned out she should have given Steve Rogers more credit.

When she heard the ballistics on the bullet that killed Fury her blood ran cold. It was him…

So many things had crossed her mind then. Not a single one of them had been that somehow she’d find you because of this.

She’d been so wrapped up in the aftermath of S.H.I.E.L.D.’s demise that she didn’t have time to look at the files she’d released. Thankfully Clint had her back and had been scanning them the moment they’d hit the web.

Just after she’d settled into the tower he showed up looking like he’d seen a ghost.

Fear gripped her. Had she exposed Laura and the kids in her haste to topple Hydra… had she sacrificed everything-

“I found her.”

For a minute the words rang hollow and meaningless.

“Found who?” Steve asked from his spot on her couch.

Clint said nothing, just held her gaze until his shot inevitably hit its target. “I think she’s alive, Nat.” He hands you a file.

With trembling hands, she turns the pages. Scarcely breathing. Steve says something but Clint hushes him.

As the words on the pages soak in she thinks she may vomit. Experiments, tests, torture… kill missions… Riots you’d incited at their command, dignitaries dropping from what appeared to be brain aneurisms. Little subtle things she should have looked for and then the last report… February 2014… nine months prior.

Natasha’s knees give out and she hits the hardwood with a thud. They’d had you for five years… Her breath stills.

No.

“Natasha!” Clint kneels in front of her, Steve stands at the ready behind him.

Pieces rapidly click into place. All the subtle ties to Hydra since the very moment the two of you met and they meant one thing. My fault. All my fault. They wouldn’t have gotten to you if it weren’t for her. You wouldn’t have let your guard down. You wouldn’t have trusted S.H.I.E.L.D. You’d had a feeling about them from the start but she’d been convinced you were just being overly cautious.

“Nat…”

A raspy breath sucks into her lungs so fast it almost hurts. “I did this.” She breathes out.

“No. No, you fucking did not.” Clint grabs her shoulders, shaking her.

“I did. She wouldn’t-”

“If you don’t shut the fuck up with that I’ll slap you,” she sees Steve shift in the background. “You didn’t do this. They did this and we will get Y/N back.” She says nothing, just stares at a hair on Clint’s shirt, numb. “Do you hear me, Natasha?!”

Slowly her eyes meet his. “Do you hear me?” His tone level now.

“Yeah,” weakly she nods.

This was the last base that could possibly be hiding you. The last little flickering ember of hope. With cell after cell empty or filled with rotting bodies, that ember was fading quickly.

Natasha thought when the inevitable realization that you were gone hit her she’d go mad. Screaming, tearing her hair, the full Linda Blair. Instead, she feels… nothing. Not the calm detachment she’s used to but a nothingness so deep she wonders if it’s actually what death feels like.

“Natasha,” Sam’s voice crackles in her comm, “one floor down from you, south side. We think we got her.”

Tingles creep up her spine, feeling electric against her scalp. She won’t believe it. Won’t hope. All Sam and Steve had to go off of were old photos… Who knew what they’d done to you… Natasha ran faster than she ever had in her entire life. The slightest chance that you could be alive was all it took to drive her forward.

Honey. That’s all she wanted to hear in your rich accent. “Please,” she breathes out to anything that would hear her as she sprints down the hall toward where the guys waited. “Please give me her.”

“Where!?” They’re standing before a glass wall and part as if on cue.

The figure slumped on the floor beyond the glass isn’t the woman she remembers. There are bones where once ample curves had been, supple skin replaced with dull bruised flesh, thick hair traded for thin scraggly locks, pink lips for cracked grey things. Honestly, she couldn’t even tell if the person in there was alive.

A small sound ekes from Natasha’s mouth before her hand can fly to cover it. Why had she dared to hope?

Clint’s warm hand settles on her back. She doesn’t know when he arrived or how long she’s been staring. “That’s her, Nat…” He says it like she really doesn’t know like you aren’t a part of her very soul. She’d know you… she’d always know you. But were you-

Your head rolls on your shoulders, a groan sounding through unseen speakers. Natasha’s breath stops. -Alive.

“Hey,” your voice is cracked, low, and hoarse but still… it really is you. Clint grabs her hand tight. “How about you pieces of shit bring me some water?”

Still very you. Unable to wait a second longer she rushes to the door. Desperately she tugs at the handle, clearly locked.

“Rogers, a little help?!”

“Are you sure Nat? We don’t know if-”

“If. I know that if you don’t help me open this door I will break your super-powered body in ways you can’t even imagine.” Every word drips with conviction.

Steve holds up his hands in surrender. With a swift tug and a touch of effort, he pries the door open.

Your head rolls in the direction of the door, “About fuckin’ time. Was beginning to think y’all were just gonna-”

Eyes Natasha has missed for far too long fly wide open. Instead of the joy and love, she was hoping to see, terror floods your features.

“No,” your voice is barely a whisper. “God no please, no.” You bury your face in your knees, covering your ears with your hands, “I’ll do anything you want… don’t make me do this, not again, please. No.” Your body trembles, rocking back and forth.

Natasha doesn’t even hear Steve and Clint warn her to hold back as she kneels before you, tugging your hands from your head. Caution a long forgotten skill. This is you. You need her.

“Baby, it’s me. It’s ok. Look at me, feel-”

“Don’t, please don’t.” Your head shakes back and forth, “They lied, whatever they promised you is a lie. You won’t win, just go. Go. I can’t… I-”

“Y/N,” she tilts your chin up. Red rimmed, fearful eyes, gaze at her. “It’s me.”

“No. Leave, they’re gonna make me… just go. Go now. Tell ‘em I’ll do whatever it is, just leave… please… don’t make me do this…”

She shakes her head, “Do what? Baby, I-”

“Go!” You roar. Behind the word is something else. A force so strong it knocks the wind from Natasha’s chest. “Get out!”

She can’t breathe, her heart begins to trip over itself. Panic, terror, pain, all combine making her brain misfire in every direction. A low keening rises from you, with the sound the emotions become more and more pronounced. Natasha can’t even reach her concern for you anymore, there’s only this, this inescapable feeling of pure fear. Curling into a ball she tries to focus.

Slowly you rise, looking down at her. When her eyes meet yours she’s struck by how black they are, the pupils so huge they seem to take up more space than your irises ever did. They look… inhuman. For a second it quells the suffocating fear.

“Please…” Desperately Natasha reaches up for you, silently begging you to know her, all of her, in that way only you can. Instead, your hand slowly lowers, aimed for her head.

This is fine, Nat thinks, eyes closing. Strangely, she’s at peace with the thought that if she died here, by your hand, at least then you’d feel her, know she came for you even if she was too late.

The distinct crackling of electricity followed by a thud beside her meets her ears. Breath begins to fill her chest as her heart slows. Something happened to you… A new sense of panic breaks her from the stupor she’d fallen into.

You’re unconscious, one of Clint’s shock arrows stuck to your back. Vaguely, Natasha is aware of the shuffling feet near the door. Someone grabs her shoulders. Logically, she knows they’re helping her up but she isn’t operating on logic. Without thought, she blindly lunges at this faceless person. Flesh contacting flesh with an effective smack.

Ignoring everything and everyone else she crawls to you ripping the arrow off your limp body tugging you into her arms. With every ounce of strength, she has she clutches your back to her chest. Your head lolls on her shoulder as she presses a kiss to your forehead.

“I’ve got you,” Natasha whispers against your skin. “I’ve got you. It’s ok. It’s gonna be ok. You’re gonna be ok, baby.” Tears burn the backs of her eyes, pricking like a thousand needles. She refuses to allow them to fall. Tears won’t help you.

“Nat?” Clint’s voice is level like he’s speaking to one of the kids. “Nat, we need to get her some help. Will you let us do that?”

Clarity dawns. Her eyes scan the room to find Steve rubbing his neck. It was Steve who she’d lashed out at. “St… Steve?”

“I’m ok,” his smile is weak but he’s sincere. “Will you let me carry her?”

The thought of letting you go… but Clint was right. Your skin feels clammy, your breath shallow… scarily so… Natasha nods and he cautiously approaches, not wanting another fist to the throat.

Steve lifts you from her arms like you weigh nothing. Despite his bulk, he’s so gentle, ensuring you’re supported properly. Clint and Sam flank her, making sure she’s steady on her feet before trekking to the jet.

Immediately Sam begins hooking you up to oxygen and a saline drip. He says something about your oxygen levels and heart rate that doesn’t sink in. All Natasha can do is stare at you, horrified and amazed in equal measure that somehow you’re back with her. Somehow after all these years, she has you again.

“This isn’t fucking necessary, Tony!” Natasha shakes with rage.

“I think all present parties would disagree.”

Her eyes desperately scan the room for backup but even Clint averts his gaze.

“I don’t know if you blacked out back there but all of us damn near flipped shit when your girl in there did. She’s a bomb and we have no idea what the trip wire is. Until we know exactly what’s going on we need to control the environment she’s in.” Tony collapses in a chair, rubbing the bridge of his nose.

“I don’t like it either, Nat but he’s right. We have to play it safe. For her sake as much as ours.” Clint looks so tired…

She shakes her head, “She… she won’t know she’s safe… that-” I’m here… Natasha can’t finish the statement though because she knows that’s part of the point. Seeing her had set you off.

“We’re gonna have to keep her partially sedated for at least a few days anyway, Nat.” Sam offers a half smile when she glares at him. “The withdraws from whatever they had her on will be rough, it’d be cruel to keep her fully conscious while she goes through the first part of them. She’ll come to slowly so the change doesn’t shock her.”

She knows Sam’s right. They’d had you on some sick mix of heroin and other chemicals for longer than they knew. It was the perfect combination to keep you desperate and pliable without harming your mind, leaving you an effective weapon for them.

But when she looks at your unconscious form through the view screen she just wants to hold you. Truly it feels as though her whole body is aching to wrap around yours. She wants to be the first thing you see when you wake up but… they took that from you both.

Sam wraps an arm around her shoulders, “I’ll make sure she knows she’s safe, Natasha. Promise.”

Post Snap

The rain had slowed but that only meant that cold could settle in. That kind of cold that makes your insides ache.

You can’t bring yourself to move, all you can do is focus on the pain and what it reminded you of…

November 2014

Your whole body throbbed with pain. A deep, aching, hungry kind of pain. It was familiar but you weren’t certain of it until your stomach clenched.

Without ceremony, you lean over the side of the bed and heave, nothing but bile burning up your dry throat.

After you refused to kill the woman they sent you should have known they’d do this. It never took very long for withdrawal to set in and the last time it had been enough to break you… They’d send her in soon enough… And Natasha’s face or not you were fairly certain you’d end her life if it meant stopping the pain.

Anyway, it wasn’t Natasha… Hell, sometimes you wondered if there ever was a Natasha. Maybe your brain, in hopes of surviving, crafted some fantasy to comfort you…

You heave again, abdominal muscles screaming from the effort. “Fuck,” you groan, wiping your cracked lips on your arm.

It’s not until you collapse back into the bed that you realize you’re in a different cell, and this bed… well, it’s possibly the most comfortable thing you’ve felt in years. Interesting tactic for them to take.

The door opens cautiously. A dry laugh tumbles from you. Even if you wanted to attack whoever was on the other side you don’t have it in you. It’s strange though, caution isn’t usually their style.

Slowly a man with a kind smile comes into focus, a tray in his hands. He’s not in uniform, just plain street clothes. Your head cocks to the side, trying to put these pieces in place.

“Hey, thought you may want something on your stomach. Better than heaving up nothing.”

You say nothing, eyes narrowing. Focus, Y/N. Read him, come on. But your brain isn’t in the mood to obey you.

As he approaches, instinctively you curl into yourself. Thoughts of other men, other cells, flash rapidly through your mind setting your heart to thundering. The familiar feeling of your chest splitting open begins but you fight to maintain control. If they thought you attacked him…

The man clears his throat shaking his head a bit as if to fend off a fly. “I’m not going to hurt you.” Slowly he sets the tray of food at the end of the bed. “You can tell if I’m lying right?”

He extends a hand just close enough for you to reach. For a long moment, you just stare at it, confused, trying to work out what the trap here is. It’s always something there’s always something. But maybe if you played along they’d give you want you needed to make the aching stop. Fuck, you just want it to stop.

Hesitantly you let your fingers graze the back of his hand.

Quick as though you touched a hot stove you withdraw. Bad idea. You couldn’t control it. So many images tumble in your mind. Faces, names, voices. A small sound comes from you as your hands grasp your head, trying to keep it from flying apart.

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry. Are you ok? Can you open your eyes?” Sam, his name was Sam, is kneeling beside the bed looking up at you with earnest eyes.

Slowly things come back into focus and you know one thing for certain. He’s not lying to you. This Sam, whoever he may be, does want to help you. You don’t trust him, he could be being used, but it’s been a long time since someone was near you that didn’t mean you harm.

“I… it was too much at once…” Your body relaxes a touch, “Thank you, Sam.”

There’s that familiar flash of surprise before he responds, “Wanna tell me your name?”

“Y/N.”

“Good to meet you,” his smile is true. “Think you can eat something?” Blankly you stare at the trey, the thought of eating making your abdomen clench. “If you can eat a bit I can give you something that’ll help with the pain.”

Saltine crackers had never looked so appealing and horrifying all at once. Taking a deep breath you scoot down the bed and pick one up with a shaky hand.

The salt explodes on your tongue as though it’s the best thing you’ve ever tasted. Your stomach growls demanding more. In an instant you’re reaching for another cracker.

“Take it slow,” Sam smiles brightly as he pulls up a chair close enough to be personable but not uncomfortable. “If you’re feeling hungry that’s a good sign. Means your system is getting closer to being clear.”

“What’d they have me on?” You ask before taking a deep drink of water.

A muscle in his jaw ticks, “It was a cocktail. An addictive one.”

You didn’t really need the details, nor did you want them in all honesty. Knowing wouldn’t change anything. One thing you did want to know…

“Where am I?”

Sam holds your gaze, clearly weighing his response carefully. “Somewhere safe.”

“That’s a shit answer.” Your hands shake as you sip the oversized mug of broth. It’s hot and stings your chapped lips a bit but you nearly groan from the taste.

“True.” He leans forward, resting his elbows on his knees. “You’re in New York. With people who want to help you. Can that be enough for now?” His sincerity hits you, a warm wave of emotion, unlike anything you’ve felt in so long.

You’re too tired to fight, “For now.” The half-empty mug clatters to the trey as it slips from your hands. Mindlessly you itch at your arms, every nerve feels like it’s tingling, almost enough to drive you crazy.

Sam stands, crossing the room. Your eyes follow him as he places his thumb on a pad causing a small door to open. “This will help that.” He holds up a vile and syringe.

Fear chills your over-warm body instantly. However, your eyes light on your arms, scratch marks red and irritated, and despite the food, everything still hurts… badly. Plus, who gave a fuck what you wanted. He may be kind but you were still in a cell, still a prisoner.

Habitually you hold your arms out. With a gentle touch, he grips your wrist, locating a non-ruined vein and injects whatever new concoction these helpful people have for you.

As it works its way through your blood the aching does quiet some, your nerves stop their incessant tingling. A deep sigh escapes you. Whatever it was it felt good. You’re not sure if it’s the drugs, the food, or just soul-deep exhaustion but your eyes flutter and you sway.

“Here,” Sam grips your shoulders, guiding you to the plush pillows. Suddenly you see a flash from him.

“I’m sorry,” you whisper.

“For what?” Through your half-lidded eyes, you see his confused expression and feel just a touch of fear.

“Your friend. Riley. I’m sorry.”

He looks away, clearing his throat. “Thanks.” When he looks back his eyes are glassy, “Get some rest, Y/N. I’ll check back in on you soon.”

It had been six… no seven days… They blurred together into one purgatorial haze.

Natasha hadn’t left the observation room off your cell the entire time. Sleeping on a cot next to the viewscreen just to feel closer to you… when she slept that was. But after Sam had assured her that his exchange with you earlier was an excellent sign she couldn’t seem to keep her eyes open. That little touch of relief better than any sleeping pill.

She wasn’t sure how long she’d been out but a sudden cry instantly pulls her from sleep.

You’re still in the bed, very much unconscious, but… You’re thrashing, so much so it’s hard to tell if you’re not seizing. The only thing convincing her that you’re in the grips of a terrible dream is the cries of terror filling her ears. Then…

“Natasha!” Your desperation and pain feel like a bullet straight through her heart. A red light flashes in the observation room, the others are coming, she has to get in there now before anyone can stop her.

“Natasha! Don’t!”Clint’s voice barely hits her ears as the door to your cell slams shut behind her.

For a moment she can’t breathe or move. The air of your cell is thick, swamp-like with your emotions. Taking a deep breath she gathers herself.

With effort, she focuses on every good memory she has of you, every happy moment, every safe tender night and… love. She pulls that core emotion around her like a cloak hoping it will somehow reach you.

“Get out of there, Natasha!” Tony’s voice is harsh through the speaker. She ignores him, almost to you.

A scream accompanied with a wave of abject terror and images of a lab almost send her to her knees. She doesn’t falter though, tears stream down her cheeks, her body shakes but still, she moves toward your thrashing form.

Slowly she lowers herself onto the edge of the bed, laying on her side. Her arms wrap around you, pinning your arms. Her legs do the same around yours holding you steady.

“No!” You screech as your head flings back. She barely avoids the hit.

She’s not feeling the fear you’re pumping out though, not anymore. All she feels is relief. It springs from some part of her she had forgotten about. You’re in her arms, the ache she’s felt for years quieting.

“Y/N, you’re dreaming baby.”

“Natasha, no!” You sob as an image of her own bloody body slams into her. She just holds you tighter.

“That’s not me. I’m right here. I’ve got you, Y/N.” She feels a shift in your body. “Do you hear me? Focus on my voice baby… Come back to me, Y/N… please.”

You gasp, “N… Natasha…”

“That’s right.” You’re no longer thrashing so she slides her hands to grasp yours. “It’s me.” Natasha keeps her mind focused on all those good memories that got her from the door to the bed. Focused on the love she feels for you.

A thick sob bubbles from you causing your torso to shake. You try to turn in her arms and panic grips her, remembering your reaction in the base.

“Keep your eyes closed ok? Can you do that for me?”

You nod and she helps you turn to face her. You’re so gaunt, so clearly battered, but somehow still so fucking beautiful to her.

A trembling hand releases hers rising to find her face. Natasha hears the speaker click, but her free hand shoots up, signaling them to shut up. Your fingers lay gently on her cheekbone, from there they slowly trace her features stopping on her lips.

In a movement as natural to the both of you as breathing you pull one another even closer, your lips fitting together perfectly.

Natasha nearly cries out with joy at that long forgotten warm feeling of love that always flowed form you when your lips met hers. It was thick and golden like-

“Honey.”

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Leptitox Review

Leptitox reviews: How it helps you lose weight and is it worth it?

Losing weight is essential, and not just because you’d want to fit in those jeans. As much as we support losing weight for fashion or beauty choices, we also want you to consider losing weight as a part of weight management to manage your health and wellness.

There is no doubt that beauty comes in all shapes and sizes; however, obesity is a dangerous disease that can lead to serious health consequences later on. Being overweight puts you in jeopardy of health conditions and surges your chances of getting a heart attack at a young age. It is also the cause of high blood pressure, and in some cases, it can even cause cancer.

Being obese has its challenges. There is a reason why you feel tired all the time. Having unnecessary weight on your body is causing you to feel worn-out when you even walk for 5 minutes. Even the small act of picking up a pen from the floor makes you feel like you deserve a vacation for doing the deed. If you work for longer hours, the chances are that you go home way more tired and drained out than your co-workers, and the reason is none other than your obesity.

You don’t even need to lose a hundred pounds, just getting your weight fit according to your weight and height can improve your overall health and give you much more energy and vitality to enjoy the events of everyday life. Not only that, weight loss can enable you to witness an improved lifestyle and provide you with greater confidence, promote better sleep and help you be a part of vigorous social life.

I get it, you don’t have the patience to go to the gym every day, but want to lose weight. But none of this is possible if you don’t have the right products to aid in your journey of weight loss.

I have had the chance of trying out one of the most popular supplements that claim to help you reduce weight, really fast, known has Leptitox. Here’s my honest Leptitox reviews after trying it out personally.So without further ado, let’s dive in.

What exactly is Leptitox?

Leptitox is a dietary supplement that helps you lose weight by decreasing leptin resistance inside your body. It also converses the natural baseline of your body and resets the hypothalamus. As a result, your body can control the fat and cut through any unnecessary fat that is causing health problems. It works on your body to provide a herbal solution and create a strong barrier between preventable fat and your body.

It is an entirely herbal product that includes more than 22 nutrients to provide you with power and energy throughout the day. It delivers the right aid and making your weight loss journey more comfortable and pain-free. If you’re thinking of it as a magic pill, then be assured that it is not. It is merely a nutritional supplement that breaks your enzymes and provides the right nutrients for your body to start working correctly to drop extra weight and makes sure that your body mass is precisely according to your height.

Morgan Hurst the creator of Leptitox dietary supplement

Highly skilled doctors developed Leptitox under the supervision of Morgan Hurst. If you don’t know who Morgan Hurst is, trust me you’re missing out on a lot.

Morgan Hurst is as crazy about herbal medicine as I am about food. He works in the field of natural medicine and naturopathy. He believes that diseases can be easily fixed without putting harmful chemicals and drugs in the name of medicine inside your body. Morgan also assumes that your body is a temple, and only products that are provided to you by nature itself should be used to fix any problems or ailments that may arise.

Naturopathy has been gaining a lot of popularity in the world, and if you’re wondering if it is a real thing. Let me solve that dilemma for you.

Yes, it is a real thing, and people can even get certified as the doctor of naturopathy by taking a 4-year course program like any other doctorate. However, Morgan Hurst has received a degree in it. Yet he knows more than enough, thanks to his enthusiasm and his natural pursuits and many successful experiments.

It all started for him when his wife started gaining excessive weight. It was becoming more and more difficult for her to perform daily tasks without any external help. Naturally, it occurred to him to find a solution for this ailment as well. He started researching weight loss and realized that not all bodies could burn their fat by merely running on a treadmill. Some of them require external help from herbs and pills that would provide relief to the body without putting much exertion over it.

After all, you only get one body. You need to make sure that you treat it right.

He contacted industry experts and collaborated with them to develop a formula that has proved to be unstoppable against any stubborn fat that refuses to leave your body. With his method, he has left behind even the Keto, low carb and no sugar diets. As a result, more and more people are now inclined to try out this formula and benefit from it.

The result: Slimmer, more physically fit individuals who feel confident in their body and physique and feel like Leptitox has completely altered the course of their life for good.

Who is Leptitox Nutrition for?

Leptitox is for people who are looking to upgrade their health and lifestyle choices by making positive reinforcements in their life. It is for anyone who has a hanging belly and thick arms. Leptitox is for you and me.

It is for everyone over the ages of 18 who is not pregnant. Men and female, both can use this as long as they are using it in the right quantity and not overdosing on it. The best age to apply is 20 to 38 years old. After the age of 40, it takes some time for your enzymes to break down. However, even though the start of your weight loss journey will seem to be slow, you will be successful in losing weight and becoming slim like that person in the magazine.

How does Leptitox help you lose weight?

Your body has a natural system of digesting the food that is fed to it. Your stomach is the bank of all food that stores and provides you with a place to grind the food before it gets digested. Now, your stomach contains powerful acids and enzymes that aid in the process of breaking down food particles and sending the energy to all of your body’s required places such as eyes, ears, head, legs, hands, etc. But before the heat is transferred, food is transferred to the small intestine which then breaks down the food completely using the pancreas and bile.

Bile helps in digestion of fat and breaks it down while eliminating any waste materials. In some people, however, the process is a little different. Metabolism is slower, and the food is not broken down properly, which leads it to create fat in parts of the body. Instead of becoming waste, it becomes a part of the body and makes a home there.

Leptitox dietary supplement attacks all the fatty acids in your body and breaks them down to provide you with the energy that these food particles were supposed to give you. It merely detoxes your body of all the toxic, unhealthy food material that your body was unable to break down on time. It provides thorough internal body detoxification while gaining you the power to take more control over your body and dietary habits. As a result, you are burning any outsized fat deposits that have made a comfortable home inside your body and have accumulated there to make you obese and overweight.

Another way of saying it, your body can only lose weight when the fat is burned and broken down, after which it gets dissolved in the acids and is digested for good.

It gets that outcome when you run or perform cardio to improve your metabolism. However, what Leptitox does it that it provides the same effect, but without you having to run. It breaks down enzymes and burns down fat inside your body, slowly and steadily to make your body seem like you’re running when in actual you were just lucky enough to find a product that does it all for you.

Is Leptitox safe?

There is no doubt that excessive weight gain is extremely unhealthy. But is you think about it, diets are unhealthier. Your body requires proper nutrients and the right amount of carbohydrates, fibers, and fats to working correctly. Diets such as Keto, Atkin, raw food or no sugar plan disrupt the natural cycle of the body, which ends up backfiring when you leave the diet plan for a month or two.

For these diets to work correctly, you need to continue it for the rest of your life since your body becomes constant of the new food, and if you leave it, it gets disturbed.

Leptitox is a more sensible choice, considering that you are not cutting out on vital nutrients but choosing a healthier supplement that improves your metabolism without pushing your body to the extreme. It keeps a balance between all kinds of diets and normalizes the body mass index according to your age and height. The supplement will not unsettle your body’s mechanisms, instead of improving the process and help you lose weight without making you feel hungry all the time.

It includes the following ingredients:

Barberry

Barberry is a medicinal herb that has plentiful health benefits. It aids in discharging toxins from your body and cleanses the liver, gallbladder and improves your digestive system. It helps you improve your cholesterol level. Additionally, it also fights bacteria and viruses and provides the right energy and nutrients to you so that you don’t feel feeble and frail. Instead, you feel a sudden burst of energy.

Brassica

Brassica limits the calories by providing more energy but lesser fat. Thanks to brassica, you don’t feel hungry but your body has the right energy to function properly throughout the day without making you feel tired or drained out. It provides super-quick and easy weight loss.

Taraxacum Leaves

We have all heard about water weight and how it adds weight to the body that is impossible to remove without proper sweat through running and exercise. Taraxacum leaves are a solution to that problem since it increases urine output and motivates your body to excrete the unnecessary water weight through waste materials. It is a completely natural way to lose weight without having any side effects.

Chanca Piedra

For digestion to work properly, it is important that your body produces the right amount of bile. Chanca Piedra is a natural herb that stimulates the creation of bile inside your body so that your body produces the right acids and promotes the healthy functioning of organs that are responsible for improving metabolism.

Grape Seed

Grapeseed is a very important ingredient if you want to lose weight, simply because it postpones the absorption of your food. As a result, you feel less hungry and feel less food without going crazy. Your body simply uses previous food and as a result, it is melted down from the extra fat inside your body.

Jujube

Jujube is known for its anti-oxidant properties. It completely purifies the endocrine disrupter inside your body. It is very high in fiber, but low in calorie count to provide the right nutrients and boosts your immunity system.

Burdock root

Burdock root kills germs and eliminates harmful toxins from the body. it also burns down unnecessary fat, which is then wasted in the form of urine.

Apium Graveoleons Seed

Apium Graveoleons Seeds provide you with the right vitality and drive to control your appetite and improve your overall health. It even eliminates toxins that are built in your body from the artificial food that we consume, such as low-quality chips and carbonated drinks.

Pros and Cons

Before you dive in to purchase the product, you need to know if it is even the right option for you. I need you to carefully evaluate the pros and cons and then decide for yourself if spending money on it is the right choice for you. This Leptitox review is all about making sure that you make the right choice, so here are a few pros and cons that might make it easier for you to make your decision.

Pros

Leptitox helps reduce weight

We all require help sometimes, and there is no harm in admitting it. Leptitox provides you the aid that you require in losing weight and getting a slim body. It naturally balances Leptin levels.

The ingredients used are completely natural

All the ingredients used in the production of the Leptitox dietary supplement are 100% herbal and natural and can be consumed safely.

The price is extremely reasonable

The price for Leptitox is incredibly low, which gives everyone more motives to at least give it a try and see results for yourself.

There are no reverse effects

Once you get the desired shape and weight, you can quit using the supplement. Your weight will remain the way it is and won’t rebound.

Provides 60-day Money Back Guarantee

It comes with a 60-day money-back guarantee so you can be assured that your money is never wasted.

Cons

The only con that I’ve seen in this product is that it is not advisable for people under 18 years of age to use it. But if you think about it, you can immediately start using it as soon as you hit 18.

Conclusion

To sum it all up, Leptitox has worked for a lot of my friends in bringing down our weight on the scale and slimming us up in no time and me. It is an entirely herbal dietary supplement, so you can be assured that you are not disrupting your body’s natural process by adding harmful drugs to it or consuming any chemicals. Instead, you are providing help to your body in performing better by aiding indigestion.

It is an incredibly safe and healthy product, and the results are way quicker than any other supplement out there. It is pretty economical, and also offers a straight-up 60-day money-back guarantee if the product doesn’t deliver what it has promised. I’d strongly recommend this product to anyone who wants to lose weight in a healthy manner but in less amount of time.

The best part: you don’t even have to perform cardio while you’re at it. Leptitox takes care of everything.

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joannajoys · 5 years ago

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Lepidox - Reduces Needless Cholesterol

I get it, you don’t have the patience to go to the gym every day, but want to lose weight. But none of this is possible if you don’t have the right products to aid in your journey of weight loss.

What exactly is Leptitox?

Morgan Hurst the creator of Leptitox Dietary Supplement

Highly skilled doctors developed Leptitox under the supervision of Morgan Hurst. If you don’t know who Morgan Hurst is, trust me you’re missing out on a lot.

After all, you only get one body. You need to make sure that you treat it right.

The result: Slimmer, more physically fit individuals who feel confident in their body and physique and feel like Leptitox has completely altered the course of their life for good.

Who is Leptitox Nutrition for?

How does Leptitox help you lose weight?

Another way of saying it, your body can only lose weight when the fat is burned and broken down, after which it gets dissolved in the acids and is digested for good.

Is Leptitox safe?

For these diets to work correctly, you need to continue it for the rest of your life since your body becomes constant of the new food, and if you leave it, it gets disturbed.

It includes the following ingredients:

Barberry

Brassica

Taraxacum Leaves

Chanca Piedra

Grape Seed

Jujube

Burdock root

Burdock root kills germs and eliminates harmful toxins from the body. it also burns down unnecessary fat, which is then wasted in the form of urine.

Apium Graveoleons Seed

Pros and Cons

Pros

Leptitox helps reduce weight

We all require help sometimes, and there is no harm in admitting it. Leptitox provides you the aid that you require in losing weight and getting a slim body. It naturally balances Leptin levels.

The ingredients used are completely natural

All the ingredients used in the production of the Leptitox dietary supplement are 100% herbal and natural and can be consumed safely.

The price is extremely reasonable

The price for Leptitox is incredibly low, which gives everyone more motives to at least give it a try and see results for yourself.

There are no reverse effects

Once you get the desired shape and weight, you can quit using the supplement. Your weight will remain the way it is and won’t rebound.

Provides 60-day Money Back Guarantee

It comes with a 60-day money-back guarantee so you can be assured that your money is never wasted.

Cons

Conclusion

The best part: you don’t even have to perform cardio while you’re at it. Leptitox takes care of everything.

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artclusters · 5 years ago

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just a trans essay i wrote in a dark time of my life i guess.

You are an Arab trans man in your twenties. You meet a young trans boy. He is pre-puberty. He still has relative freedom to express himself in terms of clothing and behavior, chalked up as “child’s phase”, and is confused yet oddly optimistic (or in denial) about the future. He keeps his feelings a secret, yet he has not yet learned to hate himself. He has not yet been battered by reality. Like you at his age, he does not have a map or an image for people like him in the near or far future. He is asking, waiting for you to help him, to tell him anything. He dreads becoming like his older sister, though he does not fully understand what that makes him. What should he do from here onward? When can he begin to live as himself? When can he feel safe?

You would have to tell him that there is no healthcare for youth like him here – not now, not later, not ever. You will not be able to take puberty blockers, or even meet someone who listens to you and understand. You will have to endure puberty for years, watch your body helplessly change day by day to something you don’t recognize. Into something that will make you utterly miserable. Everybody around you will change as well, treating you in relation to what you have and don’t have, what is visible and what is not. You will desperately try to regain a sense of control over your body. You might starve yourself in a stupid attempt to reduce the form of your curves, to curb their invasion. You might cut yourself, as a way to punish your body for not listening to your needs. Sometimes, you will be impressed by the terrible ways in which you can damage yourself. Your old clothes will stop fitting, and instead all you can see is a bulging, foreign chest and protruding hips. You will stretch them and tear them out in frustration. You will be embarrassed even by your own shadow. This is all but a prelude to the bleeding, the one that will brand you the most feminine of women, a symbol of no going back. Everybody will celebrate your dreaded fertility and supposed officiation into womanhood, while you think of wanting to die. You will have to learn to accommodate a bodily function that is all but useless to you. You will have to announce it to your family every month to explain why you’re not praying (with a suffocating izdal no less) or fasting or holding a Quran, because you are declared impure by their God. Maybe you will be forced to wear a hijab, to further keep you confined in your assigned gender boundary and emphasize the so-called inherent sexuality and sinfulness of bodies labelled as “female”, or maybe you will be one of the lucky ones who maintains little autonomy over your own appearance. Your growth will accelerate. You will be reprimanded for hunching your back, for not walking up straight, a futile attempt from you to conceal your hideous chest. You will put off wearing a bra, as if wearing one would be an admission and resignation of your chest’s existence and permanence. Your skin feels like sandpaper, only you can't peel it off. Your movements are robotic, running on the wrong batteries.Your parents will buy you feminine deodorant and underwear and you will hate them, yet you can’t request alternatives and you don’t have your own money yet. You will wear several layers of clothing in 40 degrees heat and refuse anything that shows even a hint of your bodily form. Your parents call you a picky nuisance for your clothing choices, and for any discomfort or gender-crossing behavior that you dare exhibit. Your parents won’t love you anymore. Your family won't love you anymore.

You will suddenly lose the ability to create or maintain friendships and relationships. You will not only be estranged yourself, but from everyone else as well. You will experience an astounding loss of intimacy; the word “connection” will no longer make sense to you – just an absurd notion. Dissonance and disconnection is where you will reside. You are in hell. You love girls, but you also hate them. They remind you too much of yourself. You don't want to be reminded. You don't want to exist. Boys your age are changing, changing into something beautiful, something beyond your reach. You love boys, but you also hate them. Being around them is enough to burn you. You don’t understand why you’re so in love with them, where to draw the line between consuming envy and invalidating attraction. Thin mustaches, cracking voices, excessive acne, awkward boners, terrible smells, visible veins, shoulders broadening, arms thickening, faces sharpening, apples forming, hair sprouting, patchy beards, low pitches, growing stronger, taller, leaner, flatter – you want it all. You want it all. You dream of it every day – it doesn’t matter if you’re awake or asleep. It is all you think about. You dream of running away. You dream of starting over. You dream of dying. Your grades drop. You don't play sports. You don't run. You don't laugh. You don't talk. You bargain with God. You plead with God. You beg to God. You cry to God. You still believe in him, until you can’t.

You will hear yourself being called a cursed imitator, a perverse deviant, a sign of judgement day, a harbinger of doom, a freak, too many things to name them all – even from people who claim to love and care about you. You are but a lonely child in the center of a relentless behemoth, a behemoth so daunting you can’t discern its beginning, middle or end, armored by immovable notions of what is true that poison every aspect of your life. Thus, you will come to understand it as a fact of life, drilled into the very essence of your being - hating yourself will be the only thing that you know, the only thing that you feel. You are unable to find the freeing word – that one word for who you are - underneath all this hate. You feel like a metal detector surrounded by nothing but plastic. You try to look. You are stumbling. Maybe you find it, or you find something pointing to it - but you lose it, no, you forsake it. You feel ashamed. You try to bury it, choke it, kill it - anything! You pretend you didn’t see. You pretend that nothing clicked. You stop looking…you don’t stop looking.

Perhaps the worst of all, is that through all of this, you will have to find the strength to keep going, and to stay sane. It is a demand that is too big to ask, I know. If you somehow manage not to be crushed under this ceaseless agony, that constant weight plaguing you with an indescribable heaviness, you will still have to spend the rest of your life unlearning and re-educating yourself and those around you, in a tremendous effort of healing, only to have the scabs on your wounds inevitably torn apart every day of your life.

In a kind world, you would not have to endure all of this- maybe even any of this. I am sorry. I wish I can tell you that it will get better, but I do not know. Even if it does get better, at what cost? The formative years of your youth (maybe even your adulthood) will be long gone, drenched in a relentless blur of depression, violence, and unfulfilled desires. Pathetic desires which mostly consisted of simply being able to wear a t-shirt - without feeling anything. Maybe you will learn to make peace with that, maybe it will always haunt you; sometimes you will feel so sorry for yourself it’s hard to breathe...just a gasping husk formed of everlasting regrets and longings and sorrow. You don't even know if you will ever be fit for a genuine human relationship anymore. It has taken too much out of you; you don't know if you lost more that you've gained, maybe you'll never know. How much of who you are now - who you were - is even here? Did anything matter? Does anything matter?

I can offer you a kindling of hope, perhaps you will be able to meet people like yourself, within our community, that share your despair and help keep you afloat amidst a society that will not spare you. People with whom you can experience fleeting, yet powerful moments of joy, respite and understanding, until you ultimately must leave this space and continue to take part in your facade over, and over, and over again. Well…until you don’t.

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midnightstar789 · 5 years ago

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A/B/O Sabriel week day 2

WARNINGS: Gabe’s a dick(idiot) Sam’s control is unheard of, Cas is an Angel(not literly) and Dean helps(except when he doesn’t)

No idea whats after the end, have had writers block on this since it word vomited it’s way to life a while ago. Input appreacitated.

Sam looked up from his textbook as Gabriel burst into the dorm room.

“I need you to give me a hicky.” Gabe ordered as he shoved the Alpha’s chair away from the desk, dropping onto his lap and baring his neck. Sam stared at him unsure as to why he needed him to do so.

“Gabe, what? Why do you-?”

“Because Kali won't believe that she's got competition for me otherwise, Samster!” Gabriel interrupted Sam while scooting closer to the alpha. He watched the Alpha's face, as he closed his eyes, face twisting in a grimace.

“Fine. But only this once, got it Gabriel?” the omega nodded, before baring his neck again. Sam seemed to deflate towards him, folding his body down to gently suck a medium sized purple mark in the middle of his neck.

“There now get off me, I have to study.” Sam said as he pushed the omega off his lap. Gabriel barely got his feet under him in time. Frowning at the oddly hostile alpha he stalked out of the dorm room to find Kali. Sam sighed, before snarling down at his erection straining his jeans.

~Two hours later~

“out Samwitch.” Gabriel mumbled as he staggered into the room with Kali suckling on his neck from behind him. Sam didn't answer him. Looking over he blinked at the bare side of the room, before Kali captured his total attention.

*meanwhile*

“Come in, Alpha Winchester.” the gravelly voice called. Sam turned the door handle and sighed at the uninviting scent of the omega.

“Thank you for agreeing to this sudden dorm assignment, Omega Novak, it'll save me from myself.” The black-haired man cocked his head in confusion, making the chestnut-haired man to expound.

“My roommate didn't recognize that we're scent mated, and when I told him he said ‘Like I'd be scent mated to a male! I'm not fucking gay!’” the omega sucked in a breath, “then today he barges into the room demanding that I give him a hickey to help him get his ex-back with him. I-I gave him one only after he planted himself on my lap. Then he left, and I went to the RA about changing rooms.” Castiel opened his arms letting his friend burrow into the given comfort.

“It'll be okay, Sam. Stay here as long as you need.”

*the next day after 6 pm*

Knocking woke Gabriel up. The calls for Sam was however what got him out of bed and Kali’ s grasp. Opening the door, he came face to chest with an alpha, one who smelled like Sam in that family way.

“Can I help you, Alpha-?”

“Winchester, you piece of shit Omega. Now where's my baby brother?” Dean growled at the smaller man.

“How the fuck should I know, he was gone when me and Kali got back here.” Gabriel snarled back. Alpha Winchester snarled and picked him up so they were face to face.

“If I find out you did something to hurt him, no matter what he says, I'll repay the pain to you, your asshole.” he dropped the scared Omega as the female alpha finally got out of bed behind him. It took her a moment to take stock.

“Hey Winchester, give it up, he'll never want you, even if you are scent mated. And all because you've got the wrong gender!” Dean swore looking at the golden-haired Omega in a new light. Muttering to himself he left the dorm room to find the RA.

Castiel woke to the sound of a key unlocking his door. He looked towards the door from under the passed-out form, known as Samuel Winchester. The RA stepped into the room followed by the most beautiful alpha Cas had ever seen. Then the scent hit him. A perfect match to his own outdoors scent he struggled to get out from under the stirring Alpha in time. The unknown alpha had Sam against the wall in a few seconds, waking said alpha up completely. Sam whined out one word, “Dean” causing the alpha to drop him in horror.

“Sammy? What are you doing here?” he asked even as he placed himself between the other two and his Omega.

“Asked for a dorm change, and got roomed with a friend, Omega Novak who offered filial comfort from a rejected and burned bond.” they all gasped, knowing that he was on borrowed time now.

The RA helped Sam stand up, letting the Alpha lean his weight on him. “Sam I'll speak to the board about this for you and let your professors know as well. Do you have any other place to stay?”

“I can afford a motel room for the night thanks for telling the college.” Sam stated as he grabbed his bags from the floor, swaying under their weight. He gave Dean and Castiel a tired grin before shuffling out the door. The RA went after him shutting the door as he went, leaving the two newly acquainted mates alone.

***

Sam watched the traffic outside the motel window, wondering how much longer he would have before one instinct overrode the rest. He could feel the anger beginning to fester into fury. He knew he should call the police to come get him before it got too bad, he didn't want to. His Alpha side yearned to seek out his Omega, but his logical mind reminded it that he had been rejected already. No need to be rejected again, right? Picking up the phone his hand shook.

“911, what's your emergency?”

“I'm at Motel 12, room 40, and I need you to send an Alpha suppression unit for me, Names Samuel Lewis Winchester, my scent bonded rejected me and mated with another. I'm losing control, tell them to hurry please.” Sam said before he had to set the phone down or drop it he was shaking so badly.

****

The team burst into the room to find the Alpha gasping on the floor. His breathing too fast to allow any air into his lungs, and all other muscles seizing as he fought his instincts. Quickly restraining him in the Alpha grade cuff and shackles they rushed him to the hospital wing of the Alpha only prison. Once there the doctor knocked him out.

“Sir do you know where you are?” was the first thing Sam heard upon waking. Looking around he breathed a sigh of relief, before answering.

“The medical wing of a prison. I'm glad they got there in time, I almost lost it.” the nurse raised her eyebrow at the relief in the Alpha's voice.

“Is there anyone you'd like us to call?” she asked pen poised to write on the clipboard in her hands.

“My brother, Dean Winchester, XXX-XXXX. Although, what's the date?” Sam replied coughing in the middle of the sentence from his dry throat.

“Here drink this,” she handed him a small plastic cup filled with water, “It's the 20th, what does that have to do with your brother?” she said. Sam gulped down the water gratefully.

“He met his scent mate on the 16th, but they should be mated by now, the lucky bastard.” he groused staring up at the ceiling. Following the calming lines inked into the tiles with his eyes allowed him to speak of the situation that landed him there, strapped down to a bed with no one he knew around.

“I was excited to start my senior year of college, though not quite as excited to meet my new roommate. You see my previous roommate had found her scent mate during the summer so she was rooming with them. Imagine that you're sitting on your bed waiting for a new roommate, when as the door opens the most amazingly perfect scent wafts in. I was sitting when I saw my scent mate for the first time. Good thing too. Because the next thing I heard was him saying, ‘I can NOT be scent mated to a MALE! I'm not GAY!!’.” Sam took several deep breaths before continuing, noting that the nurse was angry for some reason. “It was ok living in the same dorm room with him until two weeks ago. He came barging into the room, startling me, demanding that I give him a hickey. I asked him ‘why me? Why not the other alpha you've been around?’ his response? She was the alpha he was trying to get to mate with him. Now by this point he's gotten on my lap and was baring his neck to me. I-I controlled myself and gave him what he had asked for, but not in the mating spot.” Sam blinked the tears building up in his eyes away, and cleared his throat.

“I went to the RA as soon as he left and requested a room change. Luckily for me there was an Omega, Omega Novak, willing to share his dorm room with me. I took my clothes and bedding first. Then I had to wait as Omega Surely and his chosen alpha where making use of the room.”

The nurse refilled his cup for him, and Sam gulped the small cup down. After draining the cup, a couple more times he continued speaking.

“Omega Novak was a good friend before I moved to his room, and almost like a brother when I returned with my books. He allowed me to take comfort in lying next to him that night. Apparently, we both needed comfort as neither of us woke till around 6 pm the next evening.” Sam chuckled a little. The nurse simply gestured to continue.

“Well I got woke up by my brother pinning me to the wall, surprise visit out the door when he scented his mate. I left them there after the RA said he would talk to the college for me. Then I made it to a motel, booked a room, and enjoyed a few minutes of freedom, before dialing 911. It goes black after that.” The nurse nodded her head, still writing like mad on the clipboard.

When she finally finished writing she looked up at the restrained alpha. She had no idea how he had done it, managing to keep one's base instincts under control when presented with the opportunity to tie their mate to them was almost unheard of.

“Well Sam, I can go call your brother to let him know where you are, then try to track down your mate to-” she said before being interrupted by the distraught scent coming from the alpha.

“He was going to taunt the other Alpha with MY scent, and mark, to get them to Mate him. Did you think of the torture would you inflict on me? By coming back here, with THEIR scents on you? Please just call my brother.” Sam said staring the alpha nurse in the eye, until she glanced away. He only relaxed when she left the room.

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“Sammy?” Dean asked watching his still (too still!) brother. Hazel eyes cracked open. Blinking the prone Alpha looked to the sound of breathing. Faint recognizing crossed his eyes before he inhaled.

“De?” he croaked, causing his brother to quick smile before sighing.

“Sam. Apparently Gabriel, no let me finish,” he started before placing his hand lightly on Sam's mouth to shut him up. “He never learned proper Sex Ed. He was sick the day they covered Mates and Pregnancy rates. His teacher hated him because of the pranks he had pulled on him so he never got make up work for it.” He chuckled at the bewildered expression on his face. Sam pulled his brother's hand away from his face to speak.

“Where is he?”

“They’ve got the college counselor talking to him, along with a nurse from here. I think he was at the college's Counseling center.”

“What’s my status here anyway, the nurse never told me.” Sam asked as he sat up and swung his legs over the edge of the bed. Dean watched him as he grabbed the clipboard on the end of the bed.

“Says here, you’re a self-turned in almost out of control, which means if you’re under your own control you can leave whenever.”

“Good. Let's go then. I’ve got a Mate to meet again.”

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“An Omega can't get Pups with just any Male. Only the Omega’s Scent Mate can give them Pups.” the blonde-haired beta said, pointing at the slide on the wall. Gabriel watched her, eyelids drooping before snapping open. He raised his hand, dropping it when she nodded.

“So, I can Mate whoever I want, just won't be able to bear any Pups, unless it's Sam?” he asked. His expression fell when she hesitated.

“You CAN Mate whoever you want but unless you somehow were Scent Mated to another Omega in addition to your Alpha, you would never have Pups. It ties into the next slide,” she clicked her pointer, “Omegas cannot sire Pups except with another Omega.” His face was curiously blank after she said that. Even his scent which had been between full panic and outrage was blank, telling her nothing. A knock on the door had her leaving the front of the room to answer it.

“Yes? Oh, you’re Sam, aren’t you?” She asked the tall man at the door. He nodded. Sighing she waved him into the room. Sam walked into the room, focused on the stiff Omega near the front. He stopped at the loveseat the room had and sat down, wiggling a little to cover the neutralizer on the fabric with his own scent. The counselor huffed at the Alpha’s marking as she walked past him back to the front of the room.

“Scent Mates are vital to keeping the population up. Not only that but most times Scent Mates are well matched in their lives.” She said continuing as though the Alpha wasn’t in the room. “It’s been said that an Alpha whose scent mate rejects them, usually by taking another Alpha as their mate, will after killing the Omega and their chosen mate, dies.” Gabriel stared shocked at the counselor, then remembering that Sam was in the room, spun to stare at him, mouth agape.

“Then why am I not dead?” he asked, confusion radiating from him. Sam blinked, looking down to the side as he answered.

“Because it’s gotten easier to resist the instincts since you did everything in your power to reject me the first time we met. If you remember, I hadn’t even gotten to know your name when you yelled: ‘I CAN’T be SCENT MATED to a MALE! I’m not GAY!!’ after I whispered: ‘You’re my mate?’” Sam scoffed looking back up at Gabriel, eyes Alpha Black. “That face I made? Wasn’t me angry at you. No, I was hurt, like you had killed my brother in front of me. Then I wanted to kill you.” He was standing in front of Gabriel, a snarl on his face, when his eyes cleared and he blinked stepping back. Laughing he leaned down so his face was level with Gabriel’s. “When you came back to the room that day and demanded a mark, from me, to force another Alpha’s hand about ‘winning’ your body. Why do you think I was so uncomfortable with you on my fucking lap?” Sam asked, voice bordering on full Alpha tone.

“What?” Gabe asked bewildered, horror on his face. “That's what I did? I didn’t realize, I didn’t know!” he exclaimed looking Sam dead in the eye, a ring of Omega gold around his pupils showing he was telling the truth. He closed his eyes, breathing deeply to calm down.

“I’m sorry Sam, no, Alpha, I-I didn’t realize exactly what I was asking of you.” Gabe said just loudly enough that the forgotten beta counselor could hear. “And I’m sorry but I need a few days to get this to sink in, that you are my Alpha,” he paused drawing a long breath in, full of Sam’s scent, “and that I shouldn’t have tried to bury the attraction I feel towards you with someone else.”

The surprise that showed on Sam’s face and in his scent caused a low whine to emit from Gabriel’s throat. His eyes widened at his own action as Sam stepped closer. The whine petered off once Sam placed his hand on Gabriel’s hand. He caressed the omega’s hand as he took several deep breaths, calming down from the exciting convestion.

“I don’t know if I can give you the time you need, Gabriel.” At both Gabriel’s and the counselor’s confused expressions Sam explained. “All right that came out wrong,” he used his free hand to rub the back of his neck, “I meant that my instincts are telling me to Claim you NOW, to not let you out of my sight until I can do so, that type of thing. I’m not sure how much time you want, but my instincts aren’t going to give you a lot of time.” The Counselor frowned her scent turning inquisitive.

“Sam, how many days have you been ignoring your instincts so far?” she asked startling the pair.

“around 200 why?” Sam asked watching her out of the corner of his eye.

“2-200?! That’s unheard of! What the hell have you been doing?”

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shawnphillipspersonaltrainer · 5 years ago

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THERMODYNAMIC THYROID AND WEIGHT LOSS: FEEL FABULOUS IN 2019 PART 1

METABOLISM, THYROID AND WEIGHT LOSS

This article is the first article of a ten-part series on Fat Loss and the best tips, and tricks to help Get You in Shape. This first article will focus on your body’s internal furnace, the thyroid. This vital gland is responsible for regulating your metabolism, or how well you burn calories. A healthy thyroid will burn fat quickly, whereas an unhealthy thyroid can lead to weight gain. Learn more about the relationship between your thermodynamic thyroid and weight loss here!

THERMODYNAMICS OF THE THYROID

The thyroid gland is a butterfly-shaped gland located just under the Adam’s apple (larynx) in the neck. This gland produces hormones such as the thyroid stimulating hormone (TSH) that regulates the body’s metabolic rate, as well as many other functions. A typical range for TSH levels is between 0.4-4.0 mU/L. If you are currently being treated for a thyroid disorder, the normal range is between 0.5-3.0 mU/L.

If your thyroid is functioning at its full potential, you will be burning calories efficiently, but if it slows down, weight gain is inevitable. If your thyroid is operating at too high of a rate, that is called hyperthyroidism, where your thyroid is overactive. The opposite is true if your thyroid is functioning at too low of a frequency which is called hypothyroidism.

WHAT DIETARY ISSUES CAUSE THE THYROID TO SLOW DOWN?

A slow thyroid can be caused by a few dietary issues such a super low carb diet, not eating enough calories, over-exercising and under eating and even soy products can negatively impact the thyroid.

SUPER LOW CARB DIETS

It seems everyone is on the low carb bandwagon these days, but research has shown that consuming less than 50 grams of carbohydrates a day over time can hinder your metabolism and thyroid function. Short-term low carb intake is fine, but long term low carb intake can be problematic. Initially, you will lose weight, but that is mostly water and glycogen. Restricting your carb intake too drastically can decrease thyroid output in the long run. Without enough carbs, you lose muscle and slow down the T3 hormone. If you are committed to a low carb strategy, then carb cycling my be the best solution to keep your metabolism rate high and maintain a healthy relationship between your thyroid and weight loss (more on carb cycling below).

NOT EATING ENOUGH CALORIES

Regularly eating fewer calories than your body needs will slow your metabolism down. You only need to reduce your calorie consumption by 10-15% of what your body requires to lose weight and still keep your metabolism in gear. Drastically reducing calories can have a negative impact not only on your current metabolism but even long-term as it will cause severe nutrient deficiencies and health challenges which may include insomnia, low energy, irritability and depression.

Another downfall to not eating enough calories is once you resume your regular eating, you will gain back what you lost and possibly increase even more because you have a slower metabolic rate due to the drastic reduction in calories and muscle loss during the low calorie eating phase. An example of this would be a female eating 800 to 1000 calories or a male eating 1400 to 1700 calories. Severe low calorie eating is not a great strategy for fat loss. If you need any help with exploring your caloric needs for you body and optimizing your health program, feel free to check out our 8-week Body Makeover Program.

OVER-EXERCISING

When you over exercise and combine that with not eating enough calories, this sends a signal to your body to preserve body fat and switch over to starvation mode. When you are in starvation mode, your body will get rid of muscle and store fat as this is the body’s natural reaction and is an evolutionary trait that allows us to survive in challenging environments. You can exercise more, but you will need to eat more to do that (more details on calorie counting below).

When you exercise more and eat less, initially it will work to lose weight but only in the short term. The relationship between thyroid and weight loss can be seen when you slow down your thyroid and metabolism resulting in future weight gain and then some, and this is the most common mistake made when people are trying to lose weight. So, if you exercise more you have to eat more, if you exercise less you have to eat less. To read more about optimal nutrition, check out my free grocery: free grocery list. The “grocery list” gets into the details of healthy eating to lose fat. Remember, to lose body fat, not only do you have to eat healthy, but you have to eat healthy and eat the right amount of calories – “eating healthy” and “eating healthy to lose body fat” can be two separate things.

SOY PRODUCTS

Next time you are out at a sushi restaurant, you might want to pass on the edamame. Soy foods contain anti-metabolic factors such as saponins, soyatoxin, phytates, protease inhibitors, oxalates, goitrogens, and estrogens. The goitrogens block the synthesis of the thyroid hormones and interfere with iodine metabolism.

THE TV SHOW “THE BIGGEST LOSER” WAS A MONUMENTAL FAILURE

In an article in the New York Times, discussed the sad outcome that the majority of the contestants on the Biggest Loser gained all the weight back and for some, gained even more weight compared to when they started. They also individually each had a slower metabolism after the show.

It is frustrating to see that these brave and courageous people, endured so much and in the end were back to where they started – even worse off, because each had a slower metabolism! From an emotional perspective, I can’t imagine how these people felt after working so hard, for so long, and in the end gaining all the weight back. My heart goes out to each individual on the show and hope that at some point, their body will begin to self heal or possibly they will explore new ways to increase their metabolic rate.

The New York Times reported that “thirteen of the 14 contestants studied regained weight in the six years after the competition. Four contestants are heavier now than before the competition. It has to do with resting metabolism, which determines how many calories a person burns when at rest. When the show began, the contestants, though hugely overweight, had normal metabolisms for their size, meaning they were burning a normal number of calories for people of their weight. When it ended, their metabolisms had slowed radically and their bodies were not burning enough calories to maintain their thinner sizes.” The contestants, years later, had a significantly slower metabolism after the show ranging from 200 calories slower and up to 800 calories slower for some contestants.

“One contestant, Mr. Cahill was one of the worst off. As he regained more than 100 pounds, his metabolism slowed so much that, just to maintain his current weight of 295 pounds, he now has to eat 800 calories a day less than a typical man his size.”

The bottom line is that under eating and over exercising is a huge problem. It works for a period of time, but in the long run can lead to a slower metabolism. When looking to lose body fat, there is a speed limit on how fast you can lose fat; if you go to quickly, like in a competition, you start losing muscle mass and your body goes into survival mode which alters various hormones such as thyroid hormones, leptin and ghrelin which invariably leads to regaining weight.

It is important to lose weight or body fat at a healthy pace – 4 to 8 pounds of fat per month. If you go beyond this speed limit, there’s a good chance you are losing muscle mass and altering hormonal function thereby slowing your metabolic rate. Learn more about muscle mass and boosting metabolism through strength training for weight loss.

THYROID AND METABOLISM: HOW TO INCREASE METABOLIC RATE?

One way to add fuel to the fire in your furnace is to cycle your carbohydrate and calorie intake. You can do this by alternating lower carb days followed by higher carb days. This process will kick start your Thermodynamic Thyroid and metabolism back into high gear. Carb cycling allows you to continue to eat carbs from clean sources, and cycling provides for better utilization of fat for burning as fuel, as opposed to burning carbs and muscle for fuel.

· Low Carb Days – On these days you would take in approximately 50-150 grams of carbs each day from non-starchy vegetables. When done in a series of three to six days, it encourages the body to use up stored carbs (glycogen) and switch over to burning body fat for fuel.

· Higher Carb Day – On this day you would take in approximately 200-400 grams of carbs from complex carbs such as sweet potatoes, white potatoes, organic rice, squash, and fruits.

One strategy would be to follow a low carb diet (50 to 100 grams) for 3 to 6 days and then switch to one day of high carb eating (200 to 400 grams). If you are committed to a low carb strategy, then this is the best solution to keeps your thyroid and metabolism running hot!

I’ve been a personal trainer and nutritionist in Los Angeles for the past 17 years, as for my clients, only about 20 to 25% of my clients follow a cyclical low carb strategy. Most of my clients eat a balanced diet and allocate about 25 to 30% protein, 40% carbs, 20 to 30% fat. You can follow these parameters whether you are vegan, vegetarian or omnivore (eat plants and animals). I find that following a balanced diet is:

· Psychological easier to follow, more choices

· For most, they feel much better and have more energy

· Feel stronger during weight lifting

· Less likely to have any nutrient deficiencies – a lot of low carb people don’t eat enough fruits and veggies making them magnesium deficient and having other deficiencies

But for some, either genetically or if a person is having gut issues, it would be better to follow a cyclical low carb diet.

COUNTING CALORIES – TEDIOUS BUT HELPFUL

Another strategy which is much more time consuming would be to count your calories – this does take a lot of time and effort but could really pay off and help you determine if you’re eating too much or too little. For those of you that don’t like math, I need to forewarn you, this is a bit tedious and does require some effort which is described below. If this sounds a bit much, feel free to skip this section.

For my clients that are interested in this strategy, the first step would be to look at overall body fat percentage. You could either buy a Tanita scale or find a Dexa Scan (a machine that scans your entire body) that is located near you which can help you determine your overall fat percentage. Most Dexa Scans cost about $50 to $75 for a scan.

The equation that I use is to:

1. Find out body fat percentage

2. Find sedentary caloric needs

3. Find out the total calories needed to maintain body weight by using sedentary caloric needs plus activity level calories

4. And lastly, shoot for 10 to 15% below maintenance calories to lose body fat

So, to get started, take what ever your body fat percentage is and find your lean body mass. So for example, take a 200 pound male at 20% body fat. His lean mass would be around 160 pounds. The next step would be to find out what his sedentary calorie expenditure is – in our example, you simply multiply 160 pound by 10 which is 1600 calories a day. If this person laid in bed all day and didn’t move he would burn approximately 1600 calories.

The next step is to add a multiplier based on activity level; does this person sit all day, or does he exercise frequently or is he performing manual labor. Given these variations, this can range from .25 to 1 (this range is based on activity level and training). So for example, let’s say that this person was really inactive, I would use the multiplier of .25. So for our example, 1600 calories times .25 is 400 calories and so his total calories would be about 2000 (1600 plus 400) in order to maintain his weight. But for someone more active in our example, you could use a multiplier that is higher such as .75 which would come out to 2800 calories (1600 times 1.75). So for this scenario, if this person was much more active, to maintain his weight he would eat 2800 calories.

To lose weight you only need to reduce your intake of calories by 10-15% of your total daily caloric requirements. In other words, if you need 2,800 calories per day to maintain your current weight, you would need to reduce that to 2,520 calories per day, and you will lose weight far more effectively than you would be doing by drastically under eating. If you do follow this equation and for some reason you are not losing body fat after 10 days, reduce calories by 100 and see if that helps. If not, reduce by 200 calories. This is not a perfect system and for some may take some tweaking. If you’re still having issues, feel free to contact meand set up a consultation.

The app that I use to count calories is mynetdiary, but any app could be used for this. Yes, this is a tedious process of weighing food and doing some math, but much can be learned from this process. Another option would be to count calories for 2 to 4 weeks to get the hang of the process and then stop. After this period, you should have a pretty good understanding of eating the right amount of calories to lose body fat and gain muscle.

To lose body fat, counting calories is not mandatory and simply eating healthy and exercising is sufficient for most people.

AUTOIMMUNE DISEASE AND THYROID HEALTH

If you think you are having thyroid issues or symptoms related to an autoimmune disease, you may want to see a doctor to have a thyroid panel done. You can also start implementing changes to your diet. Gluten and poor gut health is one of the leading causes of autoimmune problems, especially autoimmune thyroid conditions. Making positive changes to your gut health through diet can help reduce inflammation and heal your thyroid.

If you’re not working with a nutrition coach, you may want to seek professional advice and guidance to discuss a healthy nutrition and gut building protocol.

In my practice, I’ve found that a good nutrition and a supplement program can help to optimize TSH. Also, adjusting your overall lifestyle can have a huge impact on your hormonal health.

When your body is showing symptoms and health issues, something is wrong. Think of it like a red light on the dash board of your car. If your car is saying “check engine” and you ignore it, what will happen? You will completely burn out your engine! This is also true with the human body. Our dash board is analogous to symptoms that are occurring – hormonal imbalances, low energy, headaches, insomnia, anxiety, depression, stomach issues, anger issues… These are all reds lights on your dash board. Red lights never get better, they only get worse if you don’t take action immediately.

HELPFUL TIPS: A HEALTHY THERMODYNAMIC THYROID AND WEIGHT LOSS

1. Detox – Our liver detoxifies our bodies, and when we are toxic it slows down our system and can negatively affect our metabolism, thyroid and weight loss effort. If you are working with a nutritionist, ask for a good detox program and make sure you are eating only whole foods – food that is pulled from the earth, or picked from a tree, or is hunted or raised. If it is in a wrapper chances are it is not a whole food. If you are shopping in the aisles at the grocery store and not shopping on the periphery or outer perimeter, chances are you are not eating whole foods.

2. Eat Organic – The overuse of pesticides can disrupt and over burden the body and may lead to a hormonal imbalance. Eating organic gives you the antioxidant-rich food that you won’t get in non-organic fruits and vegetables. Eating organic foods will reduce your toxic load, assisting the effort to a healthier thyroid and weight loss success.

3. Supplements – Helpful supplements may include tyrosine which may help speed metabolism and iodine which may help with metabolism and thyroid function. Other supplements that are beneficial are B-complex, kelp capsules, selenium, vitamin D and zinc. Why supplements? Can’t you just get these nutrients from food? Because of the over use of our fields and a lack of crop rotation, our soil has become depleted. Our foods simply have less nutrient density compared to 100 years ago. Unfortunately, we have too many people on planet earth to feed and the focus is on quantity production of food, not quality. The second reason why supplements make sense is that we are constantly detoxing due to our toxic environment. Daily, we are exposed to 100,000 different types of toxins and chemicals which in order to detox uses up nutrients from our diets.

4. Check Your Thyroid Levels – Many people are not aware they have a slow metabolism until they get their thyroid levels checked. Testing your thyroid stimulating hormone (TSH) and T4 are part of the routine testing and are usually ordered together. Testing T3 may be required if TSH is abnormal. The reverse T3 test measures the inactive form of T3.

5. Eating the Right Amount of Calories – Keeping the metabolism in high gear requires the right amount of fuel. If you don’t consume enough calories, your body goes into starvation mode, and your metabolism will slow down. Each time you eat, your metabolism kicks back up again. Eating smaller meals 3-5 times a day can help keep your body’s furnace burning.

6. Keep a Food Journal – Journaling your food will help with accountability and awareness. The most common phrase I here among people is that “I eat healthy”. Many people don’t realize how much junk food that they may eat over the course of a week; eating lots of non-organic foods, processed foods and junk food can really add up. Tracking your body weight and waist measurement and comparing that to your food journal can be helpful to achieving the body you desire.

7. Sleep and Stress – This may be one of the more obvious tips, but both sleep depravation and high levels of stress can cause various types of hormonal imbalances. For my clients, I recommend sleeping 8 to 10 hours a night and managing stress with meditation, yoga and stretching. Intense exercise can be a huge form of stress and is probably not a good idea of you are under a lot of work or life stress. Also, working on optimism and positive self-dialogue can have a healthy impact on overall well-being and hormonal health.

8. Get at least 20 minutes a day of sunshine – Sunlight has shown to be protective against autoimmunity and has a positive impact on thyroid health – “The majority of the data here reported suggest that vitamin D insufficiency or deficiency may be associated with increased risk of thyroid autoimmunity and that reduced serum concentrations of vitamin D are linked with a major aggressiveness of thyroid cancers.” https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5543192/

Being a holistic personal trainer and nutritionist in Los Angeles for the past 17 years has given me some interesting and key insights into healthy eating and exercise. To find out more details and for a complete list of healthy food options, feel free to download my free grocery list.

A healthy thyroid doesn’t take a lot of work, but it does require some careful measures. To lose weight you only need to reduce your intake of calories by 10-15% of your total daily caloric requirements. In other words, if you need 2,300 calories per day to maintain your current weight, you would need to reduce that to 2,000 calories per day, and you will lose weight far more effectively than you would be doing by drastic dieting or over-exercising. For more helpful tips contact us today or check out our 8-week Body Makeover Program! Kick start your metabolism and make 2019 your year to feel fit and fabulous.

WEIGHT LOSS IS THE #1 HEALTH GOAL IN AMERICA

Weight Loss is the #1 Health Goal in America. And, there is a strong correlation between belly fat or a large belly and degenerative disease. Whether you want to look great naked or simply just want to live longer, getting leaner and healthier has to be one of your priorities in life. If you interested in learning more about getting lean and healthy, please check out my 10 part series on the science of weight loss.

Part 1 – Metabolism and Weight Loss

Part 2 – Strength Training and Weight Loss

Part 3 – Gut Health and Weight Loss

Part 4 – Stress and Weight Loss

Part 5 – Insulin and Weight Loss

Part 6 – Testosterone and Weight Loss

Part 7 – Sleep and Weight Loss

Part 8 – Brain Health and Weight Loss

Part 9 – Sunlight and Weight Loss

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sleepyreddie · 6 years ago

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A War Within Us - Avengers x Reader - INTRODUCTION

Series Summary: How will Y/N Y/L/N, the youngest avenger, handle the war that breaks out within her own team? Which side will she choose, and will it be the right one?

A/N: I haven’t posted in so long, dear god. ANYways - this is a writing piece based off “Civil War ‘ That I’’ve had for so damn long, and I finally decided to post! It’s basically “Civil War”, dialogue and plot, but with the reader, and a few minor changes and conflicts. This has been written as a MULTI PART SERIES, and if you want the other parts to be posted, leave a comment so I know people are interested! (If the other parts are posted, it may become a PETER PARKER X READER! Thats how I wrote it, but I’m still on the fence)

Pairing(s): Avengers x Reader (possible, eventual Peter Parker x Reader)

Word Count: 4505

Warnings:

combat and violence (I guess? Fighting)

I think maybe ONE swear word

(Another A/N: Any dialogue in bold is coming through an earpiece or comm).

Chapter Summary: A regular day in the crowded streets of Lagos. People walk through the marketplaces, going about their days. Carts and feet kick up dust from the road, the sound of chatter filling the air. Who would suspect some of the worlds most powerful superheros to be sitting in a run down coffee shop in pursuit of one of the most dangerous criminals?

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“All right, what do you see?”

A voice came through the comm in your ear. More specifically, the voice of Steve Rogers, who you last saw in an abandoned apartment across the street. You took a sip of your coffee, placing the cup down on the table in front of you before returning your eyes to your phone.

“Standard beat cops”. You muttered, making sure your head was low. “Small station. Busy street. It's a good target”

“There's an ATM on the south corner, which means?”

“Cameras”.

You looked up, glancing out of the bay window that you sat in front of in a comfortable armchair in a small coffee shop. The crowded bustle of the street was overwhelming compared to the quiet atmosphere in the shop. “Both cross streets are one-way. So, compromised escape routes. Means our guy doesn't care about being seen.”

“He isn't afraid to make a mess on the way out”. Natasha said, her figure reflected in the glass behind you. She was sitting a few tables down, her appearance disguised by a dark pair of sunglasses and a baseball hat. She brought her mug to her lips every time she spoke to avoid being noticed by the couple that had sat down right next to her.

“You see that Range Rover halfway up the block?”

“Yeah, the red one?” You asked, mimicking Natasha and bringing your cup to your lips as you had accidentally caught the attention of an older woman sitting at the table two over. “It's cute”.

“It's also bulletproof, which means private security…”

You cut Steve off before he could finish. “Which means more guns, which means more headaches for somebody”. You sighed. “Probably us”.

“You guys know I can move things with my mind, right?” Wanda said, your eyes landing on her a few tables down from you.

“Looking over your shoulder needs to become second nature”. Natasha said.

“Anybody ever tell you you're a little paranoid?” Sam asked, the sound of the wind prominent through his comm. You could imagine him standing on top of one of the concrete buildings, looking down at the busy streets below him.

“Not to my face.” Natasha quipped back. “Why? Did you hear something?”

“Eyes on target, folks.” Steve said, stopping Natasha and Sam from continuing. “This is the best lead we've had on Rumlow in six months. I don't want to lose him”.

“If he sees us coming, that won't be a problem”. Sam said, and you could hear his gear click and adjust through his comm as he moved. “He kind of hates us”.

You let out a small laugh, masking it with a cough. After a few moments, you looked back up, staring aimlessly at the road below you. It seemed like a normal street, bustling with crowds and people attempting to drive bikes and push carts. Your eyes caught something out of place; a large, rusty garbage truck. It was the only vehicle you had seen even attempt to get down the street.

“Sam… see that garbage truck?” You asked, the truck heading slowly down the crowded street in front of you. “Tag it”.

You heard the man mumble something in agreement, before you saw his shadow fly past on the building across the street.

“Done.”

“Give me X-ray”. You mumbled, and your phone screen lit up for real. The tag was placed underneath the truck, giving you a perfect 360 view of the inside. You observed every detail that could be observed.

You loved your job. Your abilities were all cognitive, your brain almost 100 times more advanced than the average humans. You had been in an accident when you were a baby, your parents car being hit head on by one that was carrying some type of hazardous material in an attempt to eliminate your family. Your parent were allies to the Starks and their superhero allies, part of their plans to take down many of the dangerous organizations.

That’s what did it, you walking away, surprisingly physically unharmed, your parents dying in the crash. With no other family, the Avengers took you in, knowing that the accident and exposure to the toxic material would most definitely have some sort of effect on you.

“That truck's loaded for max weight. Four armed guards in the back, and the driver's armed”. You paused, realizing the unusually heavy protection the guards were wearing. You noted the speed of the truck gradually pick up, and began calculating the possible incomes. “40 mph, 43, 45, 47, a street with, 768 people on it, heading southwest towards the -” You realized the truck was driving increasingly fast down the road that ended with a building, and it didn't look like it had any plans to slow down until it hit something. “It's a battering ram. Go now”.

“What?” Steve asked, concern and confusion evident in his tone.

You stood up from your table, placing your phone to your ear so it didn’t look like you were talking to yourself. As you reached the door, you saw Natasha stand up as well, Wanda paying her bill. “He's not hitting the police. Body armour, AR-15s”.

Sure enough, a loud crash could be heard, and in the distance you saw a large cloud of smoke. You maneuvered your way through the crowd, eventually reaching the remains of the concrete entrance to the building lying in a large pile. You slipped through the dust and commotion, hiding behind one of the larger trucks.

You exhaled, before feeling your body begin to numb.

Situations like these were when you were grateful to have the power of shapeshifting. Another affect of the accident. Whatever hazardous material that you were exposed to, not only enhanced your brain, but gave you actual superpowers. You discovered this by accident, little by little. One day you would wake up and swear your hair was lighter, or shorter. Or that your eyes hadn't looked that green the day before. It was only when you were flipping through a magazine, fantasizing about what it would be like to have red hair, that you glanced up to your vanity mirror, eyes going wide at the sudden appearance of your hair.

It was red.

After that, you started to experiment, seeing if you were going crazy, or if you could actually change what you looked like. And little by little, with the help of the Avengers, you got it under control, being able to change into whoever you wanted at your will, eventually becoming one of the strongest members of the team.

In this case, and current situation, It meant less hassle for you, and more time to focus on the task at hand instead of focusing on not being shot at by the guards. Soon enough, you felt completely different, your body covered with the armor the soldiers around you wore. You were suddenly taller, stronger, and holding a large assault rifle.

You soon realized that the Avengers, if they came in contact with you, most likely wouldn't realize who you were, which most likely end in a good beating.

You scanned for a way to reach the high ground, doing your calculations as the stairs had been destroyed when a bullet flew past your ear. You turned to where it had come from, coming face to face with an armed guard, bullets flying out of his gun. You suddenly realized you had to do the same thing.

“I make seven hostiles”.

Sam’s shadow flew overhead towards the overhang walkway, bullets firing through the air. “I make five”.

You loaded your gun, holding it and beginning to jog through the lines of fire, bullets ricocheting off your armour. You saw Steve fighting off multiple guards near the entrance, and you broke into a faster pace towards him.

As soon as you got closer, you started firing, hitting four of the seven or so guards that surrounded the Captain. As they fell to the ground, him and the other guards looked at you completely confused, and you shrugged, still holding the gun.

“Guess I missed.”

You swung the gun forward, the barrel knocking one of the guards down, and in the split second the others weren’t paying attention, Steve threw his shield, knocking them into a pile on the ground. The shield flew a couple hundred feet away from him, before returning to his hand like a boomerang with a metallic echo.

With no hesitation, he turned on you, and before you could even process what was going on, the vibranium object came flying at your face. You remembered in the millisecond before it sliced your head off, that you had forgotten to mention your change of appearance. However, you caught it with ease, the edge of the shield so close to your face it made you go cross eyed.

Another upside of being a young, female avenger - You had Natasha as your largest influencer, and she taught you everything you had to know, from physical combat to how to ride motorcycles.

You saw the Captain begin to advance towards you, but you held firmly onto the shield, pressing the button in the middle of the armour to deploy the mask around your face. You dropped the gun so you could wipe away a bead of sweat on your forehead.

“Yeah, hi.” You said, throwing the shield back to the Captain. He caught it, his face full of exasperation as he realized what had just happened. You took a couple of deep breaths. “Do you think you could throw that, like, 45 degrees in the air, that way?” You asked, motioning from the shield to where Sam fought off guards on the overhang platform.

“Got it.” he said, breaking off into a backwards jog. “But next time, maybe tell me what you look like so I don't almost slice your head off.” He pulled his arm back, getting ready to throw the shield as you broke into a run.

“It’s more fun this way!” You yelled back, watching a blur of red, blue and white shoot past you. As it reached ten or so feet away from you, you jumped up, landing firmly on the face of the shield. Your armor disappeared in mid air as you focused on the angle needed to make the landing, returning to your regular clothes. Almost as soon as your feet touched the shield, you jumped again, using the momentum to push you up, through the air, and onto the walkway, where you landed with a somersault.

The shield flew up and over your head as you straightened up, and you caught it with a large force that almost threw you off balance.

“Sam”. You called, the man turning around at his name, “Duck.”

You threw the shield just as he ducked, knocking the rest of the soldiers he had been fighting off of the walkway platform and onto the gravel below. The shield flew back to you, and you quickly scanned the battlefield before launching it back to Steve, hitting a few more guards on the way.

“Four”. Sam spoke into his comm, causing you to let out a breathy laugh.

“Technically, I think I should get credit for those.” You said, wiping the dust off of your pants.

“Well, your a kid, and people don't listen to kids, so the records will show those four went to me.”

“Are you kidding?” You asked, turning towards the large building as the man continued to keep watch over the walkway. “Can I get heat signatures at 10%?”

Your eyepiece, your personal favourite piece of equipment you got to use, began to whir. After a few seconds, your eyes fell through the concrete walls, and you began to scan the hallways of the building. There were dead bodies littering the floor.

“Copy, if anyone’s in the building, someone's already been inside.” You said, placing a finger on your earpiece in case it had been deactivated during your fighting.

“That’s me.” Steve said, and sure enough, you saw him run through one of the hallways. You caught a heat signature of a man running towards him around the corner.

“Rogers, northwest corner, about ten paces ahead of you, armed with an AR, wearing protection, injury in left leg already, weak spot.”

You watched the heat signature that was Steve pick up the pace, sliding on the ground and hitting the guard right in the left ankle, causing him to take a tumble right into the glass window, it shattering as he made contact. The guard fell through, landing on the hard concrete below.

“Thanks.” He said, and you watched him disappear down the hallway. You began to scan again, needing to go deeper to see inside of the rooms, as all the hallways had been cleared.

“Heat signatures, 25%.”

Your view became clearer, and you could see into all the rooms. You scanned quickly, passing through most of them, which were conference rooms or break rooms. Your eyes stopped as one of the conference room doors burst open, three heat signatures falling through it.

“Rumlow's on the third floor”. You said, your voice slightly louder than before, as the sound of a loud explosion came from somewhere down below. “He’s not alone.”

Soon enough, you saw the three heat signatures heading to the lower floors of the building, unaware that Captain America was waiting for them. You pulled yourself out from the building as a body flew very close to your head and over the edge of the walkway. You turned your head, looking wide eyed at Sam, surrounded by more bodies than he had been that last time you had looked.

“See.” You said simply. “You get credit for those. I had nothing to do with those.”

He laughed, and you grinned, before turning your head at the sound of more breaking glass. A large explosion came through one of the windows, and a body flew out from the fire. You grimaced as the figure, who you know realized was Steve, hit the overhang below, before spiralling off onto one more roof, eventually hitting the ground.

“Rumlow has a biological weapon”. Steve panted into your comm, and you jogged to the overhang to look down to where he had fallen. He lay on his back behind a van, catching his breath, his shield laying a few feet away.

“I'm on it”. You called, nodding at Sam to signal he was on his own, before you flipped yourself over the banister of the walkway, landing on the van below. You scanned the battlefield for Rumlow, spotting him fighting Natasha on top of one of the other vans.

“Jesus christ.” You murmured, before yet again taking the shape of one of the armed guards. You broke into a run towards where the villain and your team member fought. “Natasha, see the armed guard coming up on your left?”

“Yeah. Want me to take him out?”

“No thanks, I would prefer not to get murdered in this body. This armor is really hard to run in, and so damn hot, and probably wouldn't fit in a coffin.”

You reached a reasonable distance to where the fought, pulling out your gun and firing skillfully enough to hit Rumlow, but to miss Natasha. The bullet flew past her arm and lodged itself in his shoulder. He let out a mangled groan, and Natasha took the opportunity to kick him down. He landed by your feet, and you let the clunky armour disappear so wouldn't affect your fighting skills as he began to stand up.

You delivered a swift kick to his injured shoulder, and he fell back. You went to kick his ribs, but he was faster, grabbing your leg and twisting you over, your body colliding with the dirt. He stood suddenly, coming to stand over top of you. His fist came down towards your face, but you rolled out from between his legs, his hand hitting the ground instead.

You came out from under him, jumping on his back, pushing off to land on top of the van. He jumped up as well, and immediately began swinging. You dodged most of the hits, but eventually, his armoured hand launched a swift punch to your stomach, causing you to lose your breath.

You stumbled backwards, and he took the opportunity to lunge towards you. You jumped back up, but he struck you in the chest again, using his arm to flip you over. You landed on the metal roof of the car with a loud bang, the momentum sending you flying into the opening of the truck.

You fell yet again, landing on your back in the van. You looked up to where Rumlow was standing above, lighting a grenade.

“Fire in the hole”.

He let it fall from his fingers, landing uncomfortably close to you. You sat up, realizing suddenly that you weren't alone. Two guards sat on the bench in front of you, beginning to stand up at the realization they had a job to do. You stood up quickly, beginning to advance towards them.

“Hey Rogers, where can I get some of that fireproof suit material?” You asked into the comm, delivering a swift kick to the first guard, sending him flying into the second one. “Cause if I get myself into more situations like this, I’m gonna need it.” They lay on top of eachother in a mess of limbs, and you raced towards the grenade, throwing it towards them as you raced towards the door.

You didn't hear if Steve responded, the sound of the explosion deafening. The force sent you flying through the doors of the van, shoulder rolling onto the grass below. You could already tell you were going to be in a shit ton of pain the next day. You rolled over onto your back, letting out a throaty cough. “Sam. He's in an AFV heading north. Take this to the airstrip. We're not gonna outrun them”. You said, gasping for breath, before pushing yourself off the ground. You scanned the ground for a way to make it to the truck quicker than on foot, your eyes landing on one of the guards motorcycles.

You saw Sam fly overhead as you kicked the brake on the bike, the engine revving. The backfire shot the bike back slightly, before it broke off into a fast descent through the battlefield after the truck.

You raced through the crowded streets, yelling for people to get out of the way. You could hear another engine revving behind you, and you turned your head to see Natasha a few metres behind you on a bike of her own. You turned back to the road, swerving around a corner to avoid the narrower streets.

You almost crashed at Steve came from out of nowhere, landing on the road about twenty feet ahead of you. You cursed under your breath, before rerouting the bike on the regular path. “Rogers, how about next time you let me know where you are so I don't almost run you over?”

You saw a blur of red, white and blue shoot past you. “It’s more fun this way!”

As you came to an intersection, you heard a loud crash, and looking down the street, you saw that the van had crashed into one of the narrow streets, smoke billowing from its engine. You widely turned the bike, making almost a 360 degree turn as you changed directions, Natasha following close on your heels.

As the bike came closer to the van, you stood up, balancing on the seat, and right before it crashed into one of the merchants stands, you jumped, somersaulting onto the top of the van. You stood up, watching as Natasha took a different route, instead opting to stay on the bike to clear pedestrians from the line of fire.

“I've got four, they're splitting up”. Sam said over the comms. You scanned the ground below the van, your eyes landing on the four armed men he was talking about.

You saw Natasha running through the crowd, merely feet behind one of the men, her bike lying on the ground. “I got the two on the left”.

“I got right.” You said, jumping down off the top of the van.

“They ditched their gear”. Steve said. “It's a shell game now. One of them has the payload”.

You maneuvered through the crowd, understanding the sudden panic as soon as you came to a clearing where most of the crowd stood. Steve flew through the air, hitting a newspaper stand, falling right through it. Through the crowd, you saw Rumlow advancing towards him.

“Steve, you need backup?” You asked, climbing on one of the vendors stands and swinging yourself onto its metal roof. You saw movement from inside the stand where Steve had fallen, the glistening shield appearing through the dust.

“I’m good. Go get the others.”

You nodded, beginning to run across the roofs of the stands. You scanned the crowd again, having lost your guys as you stopped. You soon saw them, easily distinguishable, as they wore all black and were two or three feet taller than everyone else around. They came into a clearing, and you sped up, taking one final deep breath before jumping, landing square on one of the guys backs. The two of you tumbled down into the dust.

“He doesn't have it.” Sam said as you swung around the body of the first man, knocking the second one back down with your feet. “I'm empty!”

You swung yourself up, practically sitting on the guards shoulders, before swinging yourself over, bringing him down to the ground with you. He fell on the dirt, and you flipped over him, knocking the gun out of the other guards hand, before delivering a few hard hits to his face. The gun went flying into the dust, and you went to grab it, but a hand grabbed your ankle, pulling you back to the ground. You shoulder rolled down, pushing yourself back up and flipping over the first guard, sliding along the ground. You grabbed the gun, pushing yourself up and cocking it, pointing it towards one of the men, who at the same time, cocked and pointed his gun at you. “Drop it”. Yelled the other guard, who held a small vial of yellow and red liquid in his hand. Your eyes left the man holding the gun to you to look at him. “Or I'll drop this”.

You held the gun firm to the other guard, eyes locked on the one holding the weapon.

“Drop it!” He yelled.

“He'll do it!” The one with the gun yelled.

Suddenly, something flew up from behind the man holding the vial, shooting him in the neck. He fell, the vial falling towards the ground. In a matter of seconds, you pulled the trigger, shooting the man in front of you, and slid down to the ground, grabbing the vial right before it smashed to pieces on the ground.

You stood up, vial in hand, and dusted the sand off your pants. You turned to the thing that had shot the first bullet, the small, silver and red robot. “Payload secure. Thanks, Sam”.

“Don't thank me”.

You scoffed, watching as the little robot continued to hover in front of you. “I'm not thanking that thing”.

"His name is Redwing”.

“I'm still not thanking it”. You said, slipping the vial into the safety protection case, and then into your pocket. You jumped back onto one of the merchant stands, yet again swinging yourself onto its roof so you could have the high ground. A few stands away, you saw Natasha do the same.

“He's cute”. Sam said, and you located him, standing on top of a building. Sure enough, you saw the little red robot fly past you, back towards him. “Go ahead, pet him”.

You scoffed, motioning for Natasha and breaking into a run across the roofs of the stands, back towards where Rumlow and Steve had been fighting. Sure enough, they were still going at yet, more damage being done to the buildings around them.

“This is for dropping a building on my face”. You heard Rumlow growl, taking another swing at Steve.

Steve finally landed a good, strong hit, Rumlow flying off of him and onto the ground. The man panted, pulling off his mask as Steve approached.

“ I think I look pretty good, all things considered”. Rumlow added, looking up into the light at the man that stood over him. This was the first time you had seen his face, the skin all distorted, loose in some parts and burned tight in other.

“Who's your buyer?” Steve asked.

Rumlow took another shaky breath. “You know, he knew you”. He looked back up at Steve. “Your pal, your buddy, your Bucky”.

You saw Steve’s jaw clench. “What did you say?”

“He remembered you”. The man on the ground said. He broke into a short fit of laughter, that ended with a rough cough. “ I was there. He got all weepy about it. Till they put his brain back in a blender. He wanted you to know something. He said to me… "Please tell Rogers. "When you gotta go… "you gotta go."

You saw Rumlow fiddling with something on his side, but before you could say anything or intervene, he continued. “And you're coming with me”.

He pulled out whatever he was fiddling with, what you presumed to be a bomb or a gun, but but before he could do anything, the man screamed, bursting into a wild ball of flames. Your eyes widened, watching the red energy surround him.

Steve stumbled back as Rumlow was lifted into the air, and sure enough, you saw Wanda coming out of the crowd, her face scrunched up in concentration. He was lifted higher into the air, before he flew up at a dangerous speed, Wanda pushing his body into the concrete side of the nearest apartment building.

It was clear she had lost control when his body flew through one side right to the other, windows breaking and concrete falling, leaving a large, burning hole in the side of the building.

Your eyes widened at the damages, the crowd of people around you bursting into chaos and screams.

“Oh, my…” You said, your hand coming to cover your mouth in shock. You scanned the crowd, locating Wanda, who stood frozen, the pain on her face extremely evident. Sam flew down overhead of you, landing right below you. You jumped down from the metal roof of the stand to land beside him, the two of you joined by Natasha moments later. You all stood behind Steve, who stared up at the burning building.

“We need Fire and Rescue on the south side of the building”. He said firmly, without turning around to face the three of you. “We gotta get up there”.

You could tell the Avengers weren’t going to get away with this one.

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Final A/N: This is the first thing I’ve posted in so long! I hope you enjoy it! I expanding my writing to Marvel content a really long time ago, and this was one of the first things I wrote. I hope you enjoy!

IF YOU ARE INTERESTED IN PT. 2 please leave a comment or an ask letting me know, so I know people are into it and that I should post it!

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scwarriorathletics-blog1 · 8 years ago

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You cannot properly slim down without having to be properly determined. You must definitely wish to lose excess weight for yourself, not someone else. Use the pursuing information and facts to find out how to come to be determined to ensure that you meet up with your excess fat decrease targets.

A great way to commence losing weight is always to eat some thing wholesome whenever you really feel a hunger pang come on. Diet might be hard and it's typical to provide straight into cravings. You'll supply your appetite and you also won't ruin your diet plan, by munching on some thing more healthy.

A good way to lose weight is always to eliminate all of the soda pop you ingest. Soft drink is loaded with glucose and carbohydrates and the majority of us aren't very cognizant about how precisely a lot we in fact consume. Eliminate all of the vacant calorie consumption you eat from soda and commence water, a more healthy alternative.

When getting into design, be sure you first select a very good footwear. When exercising, some footwear that fit properly and help your ankles could make a big difference. In the event the footwear you are working out in don't in shape appropriately, you most likely won't get the maximum amount of attained and may also even go through medical problems in the future.

Feeling total decreases our a sense of craving for food. Feeling feeling hungry brings about us to nibble on. Having brings about us to gain body weight. So, sensing full more often will assist us lose weight. One way you can "secret" your body into sensation total on a regular basis is actually by adding more dietary fiber for your diet plan. Fruit and veggies have lots of fiber, so do cereals. But, if you can't take in much more of both of the you can also give a powdered dietary fiber product or service to cocktails, sauces, and even dips.

Consume less, but undertake it in different ways! You don't want to permit yourself get starving or you may possibly slide away your diet plan. The best way to accomplish this would be to eat several modest foods during your day. It could feel as if you happen to be eating, but in fact you will be assisting and also hardwearing . metabolic rate steady. You may be just fine, given that the little meals are healthy.

Wish to do more exercise but don't know where to begin? Try generating a long list of stuff that you prefer get and performing any movement in any way. Even comforting at the shore might be transformed into a workout. Jogging inside the yellow sand may use your hip and legs muscle tissues over operating across a toned, cement surface. Go on a long move to your beachfront towel or to the liquid several times and like the views whilst getting your physical exercise in.

To get a proper system it is essential to consume a well balanced diet regime. This simply means experiencing the right amount of healthy proteins (from 15 to twenty percent), extra fat (about 30Per cent) and carbohydrate food (50 to 55 pct). Famished your self to lose excess weight is not good as well. That's yet another thing to keep in mind.

A great suggestion to help in weight loss goals is usually to do weight training routinely. If you have a lot more muscle mass, then the calorie consumption consume will check out the muscle mass prior to they give rise to fat. Moreover, muscle tissue can burn about 4 times as many calories as body fat. Aim to do strength training 20 mins per day 3 or 4 instances a week.

Working out is the key to modifying your metabolic process to achieve a weight loss or. a putting on weight. When you can't pay for a fitness center, there are lots of video clips accessible that one could hire or purchase. Start with the basics for the initial few weeks, whilst your system gets adjusted for this new fantastic lifestyle.

When setting a excess weight-loss objective, make sure you are realistic. One error people make when trying to lose weight is setting an irrational target (five pounds weekly) after which wondering why they fall short. Established an even more controllable objective of one or two kilos weekly. constant and Slow weight-loss is prone to keep off of.

Eating when you're preoccupied is a simple method to put on weight. Neglecting to notice simply how much you eat can result in overindulgence and also the build up of more weight. Keep in mind just how much you consume at each and every meal and you will definitely probably consume less.

Sleep at night is one of the most significant what you should get for losing weight. If you sleeping, your whole body can reconstruct to enable you to work at a standard stage the very next day. Aim for around seven hrs of sleep at night every day to give your body a chance to functionality properly.

Consider differently if you are a lady above 40. Your fat burning capacity is slowing down, plus your chemicals might be imbalanced, having adverse side effects. Basically eating significantly less won't give you the results you would like. Girls around 40 have to take in fewer sugars since they can't procedure them as efficiently as being a younger individual. Steer clear of food items with sugar substitutes as they can interfere with your body's power to process true sugars. It's not much of a scenario of how a lot you consume, quite what you eat.

Throw away the the apple company juice. Surprisingly, a tiny glass of apple company juices has several calorie consumption as 3 apples. Also, consuming apple company juice routinely, boosts your chance of obtaining diabetic issues, as a result of large amount of sugars. Another reason why to choose the fresh fruit as opposed to the liquid is definitely the fiber content information, which can be taken away when digesting juice.

Striking a diet plateau is an element of any weight reduction trip. You are going to unavoidably possess a position, no matter how nicely you adhere to your dieting and exercise, that you just don't lose any weight. It is essential to persevere through this and continue what you are carrying out. Gradually, the load continues to lower off of.

A terrific way to lose fat, generate long-term physical exercise behavior and improve your overall health insurance and joy is usually to perform a sports activity. If you love capturing hoops, be a part of decide on-up football game titles or coordinate your buddies to experience on a number of days of each week. You might forget about that you will be training by any means, as you construct your skill and contend. It is a fun way to get in much better design.

Making use of the recommendations provided, you will be able to achieve your ideal weight without difficulty. It is important being encouraged, when workouts become hard, you keep going and obtain every one of the outcomes you seek out.

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