#how is it possible to have so many gay breakdowns in oNE DAY?!?!

[chaifootsteps]

I think there's an argument to be made in favor of showing the reality of what Angel deals with on the day to day, both on the gear he wears and the SA he faces from Val.

but these kinds of scenes can very easily be exploitative; used for cheap shock value & end up fetishizing that abuse by presenting it as titillating. it's long happened to female characters where the violence becomes an excuse to show them brutalized or with their clothes ripped off and given how often Angel is sexualized it can just as easily happen to him.

Addict managed to communicate a whole history of sexual abuse committed by Valentino with just a forced kiss and a hard cut to Angel having a breakdown in his room. The scene focused on Angel's emotional distress rather than the act itself, so it avoided objectifying him further and was still effective

this is part of a wider pattern already established by Helluva Boss, where abuse is treated in the least sensitive, most sledgehammer blunt and cartoony way possible.

going by HB, abusers are:

always obvious and easy to spot,

they're complete monsters devoid of any life or interests of their own,

they have no inner lives whatsoever because they only exist to hurt the victim (Stella stays around the house despite not liking Stolas, Crimson wants to force Moxxie into a gay marriage despite being homophobic - to the guy who put his son in prison in the first place!!) - they're inconsistent and unknowable,

they abuse their victim openly in front of others everyone goes along with and tacitly approves of it (Stella's friends happily laugh at her jokes disparaging a demon prince who could kill them all despite knowing he's in earshot)

they cannot be easily stopped even when they have far less power, either in magic or social standing, than the person they're abusing (Stolas and Stella, again)

they hang around long past when they should despite the cast having ample reason to proactively do something to stop them (everyone leaves Crimson alive despite killing all his minions, Stolas knows Stella has ordered a hit on him but probably still lets Octavia spend weekends with her??)

they are fundamentally Bad People. None of the 'good' characters can every be called out for being abusive, what they do is funny - because they are fundamentally Good People. It doesn't matter how many traits Stolas and Stella have in common, he is Good and she is Bad. It also doesn't matter that Stolas sexually coerced someone for a season and a half, neglected his daughter and abused his servants, and barely feels bad about his own infidelity. He is Good so anything he does can be excused. Same with Loona - beating people is bad, but it's OK for her to give her dad a black eye and beat his head in with a picture frame, because she's one of the Good Guys. Same with Blitzo demeaning Moxxie constantly in the workplace - it's funny when he calls Moxxie fat, it's abuse when Mammon does it to Fizz

Abusers are fundamentally Other from Us, and we never need to examine our own behaviors as long as we know we are fundamentally Good.

like how is any of this making the world a better place? or advancing the understanding of abuse? it's an embarassingly dated and in places actively harmful depiction of what abuse is or isn't (I don't even want to get into the bad takes I've seen surrounding Stol/tz and what coercion is or isn't, but you can probably add that to the list too)

if the Angel scenes are as brutal as they sound then the rating should be an 18. I don't entirely blame Viv for that, I know sometimes ratings boards have a weird habit of treating works that have LGBT content as somehow 'more adult' than movies with straight up rape and SA scenes in them (though HH is both, so idk how literal bondage gear didn't up the rating), but I hope against hope there's some kind of trigger warning for this somewhere, and it isn't just dropped on the viewer's lap in order to shock them further with the world's bluntest and most graphic animated scene of SA it can

This. All of this, every word.

[pinkorchidsinspring]

Liverpool Night 3 Surprise Song ✨Breakdown✨:

A lyrical breakdown of course…

Let’s get started on the sheer importance of this combination of songs- CAUSE WHY IS NO ONE TALKING ABOUT THIS

Carolina + no body, no crime

Carolina as in KARLI-e??

Anyway, she had that smirk on her face and called this the “murder Mash-up”?!!! Murder of what darling? Possibly Taylor Swift™️? I digress, lyric time:

Lonesome I'll always stay / Carolina knows / Why for years I roam / Free as these birds, light as whispers

Translated to: Karlie knows why Taylor roams from man to man and is so “lonesome” in the public eye. After all she’s just as free as any musician right…?

And you didn't see me here / No, they never did see me here

Translated to: the fans didn’t see her there with Karlie, no they never really saw her with karlie. Most of them never saw the intent behind Taylor’s eyes when she looked at Karlie, and vice versa. :(

And she's in my dreams / Into the mist, into the clouds

Oh, Carolina knows / Why for years they've said /That I was guilty as sin / And sleep in a liar's bed /But the sleep comes fast

Translation: Karlie knows why the fans have said for years that she’s gay and sleeps in another liars bed (aka Karlie’s), however she lives peacefully when she’s alone with her lover, and simultaneously lies to the public weekly about her real lover.

No body, no crime as in if there’s no evidence than it never happened??

Much like how she emphasized “infidelity” when she sings

Her husband’s actin’ different and it smells like infidelity.

How very telling of whether or not the same muse in the first song (Karlie) has a ‘faithful’ husband (-when you’re in a lavender marriage it is different morally, but to the public it is disloyalty to even consider he is with anyone other than her)

I think I’m gonna call him out

Maybe as in… I don’t know… 🏳️‍🌈call her husband out of the closet… coughs in coumingoutlor*

ALSO just an added bonus is the sheer amount of times she emphasizes the word “SHE” in the performance… there’s way more than just this short clip 🏳️‍🌈✨💅

The manuscript + Red

The Manuscript as in the ENTIRE torrid affair?!

Whilst reading this part of the analysis keep in mind that I believe that the manuscript is most likely from Karlie’s point of view in the future, it may be from Taylor’s, but it makes the most sense as Karlie’s POV.

Now and then she rereads the manuscript / Of the entire torrid affair

Now and then Karlie remembers (aka rereading) a time (a manuscript) full of ‘difficulty and tribulation’ (the definition of torrid), that was her lavender marriage to Josh.

They compared their licenses

I believe that this could possibly be about Taylor & Karlie in the way that Taylor has a drivers license but Karlie has a Marriage License in the era of this memory.

He said, "I'm not a donor but / I'd give you my heart if you needed it"

Gay best friend offers to give Karlie his heart, or at least his legal (-and for show) heart if she needs it.

And the years passed / Like scenes of a show

From there the marriage begins, and much like a show, Karlie and Josh are constantly performing.

Then the actors / Were hitting their marks/ And the slow dance/ Was alight with the sparks / And the tears fell / In synchronicity with the score

This is her looking back at the lavender marriage/ bearding time of their public relationship. The actors (aka the girls and their men) truly were hitting their marks and convincing the public of a romance worthy of a small Nicolas sparks novel. Obviously this isn’t a happy thing to look back on, and with the pretend comes all the times she wished she could just be done with the agony of pretending all the time. The agony that caused her so many years at the time.

And at last / She knew what the agony had been for

At last, present day (the future) Karlie knows why they did it, she looks back and knows they made the right decision because something good has clearly come from it.

The only thing that's left is the manuscript / One last souvenir from my trip to your shores

The only thing that’s left are the memories of this time.

Now and then I reread the manuscript / But the story isn't mine anymore

Now and then she remembers, but she’s out now. The story isn’t hers anymore. She isn’t in the closet anymore.

Red as in

Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes / Tell myself it's time now gotta let go/ But moving on from him is impossible / When I still see it all in my head

IF you have read this, tell me how I’m wrong when this entire combination of surprise songs so obviously has an invisible string CONNECTING THEM all together. (not so invisible now 😉) Because no I didn’t pick and choose what lyrics from red Taylor sang night 3. She did that herself. AND THESE WERE what TAYLOR Alison SWIFT chose to play directly after the manuscript.

Happy pride month people 🏳️‍🌈✨💗

[wandaspetal]

An Island Made From Love

𝐅𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐦: Marvel/MCU

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫(𝐬)/𝐒𝐡𝐢𝐩(𝐬): Wanda Maximoff x Reader, mentions of Kate Bishop x Yelena Belova (platonic), and Kate Bishop x Wanda Maximoff (platonic)

𝐓𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐞: Established Relationship

𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 1.4K+

𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: Mentions of death (no one actually died though I’m not heartless) , Mental breakdowns, panic attacks, mention of anxiety, depression, suicidal ideations, crying, angst with a happy ending, VERY GAY AND FLUFFY AT THE END I PROMISE

𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲: You make your island flag in animal crossing Wanda’s crown.

𝐀𝐍: Reader uses they/them pronouns! This is very much partially based on me restarting my anch island and wondering how Wanda would react after a hard day….I’m mentally ill shush.

Wanda had been having the worst day. The team’s mission went south very fast. Hydra began implanting bombs inside their base’s so that in the case if they are ever found they can destroy the evidence of them being there. Soldiers waited outside for them with military grade weapons. The Hulk went into a fit of rage, Clint almost lost an arm and Natasha was almost crushed by rubble. Wanda was able to push herself hard enough to use her magic to make sure Natasha and her got out of the building quick enough.

They were the only ones left inside as the rest of the team fought everyone outside. After everything was said and done the ride on the quinjet back to the compound was silent. Even a small cough had an apology following suit behind it. Wanda is surprised she didn’t cry the same way Kate did as Yelena held her on the way back. The brunette simply placed a comforting hand on Kate’s back on the way home.

Wanda Maximoff had lost so many people in her life and this was another reminder of why she had to keep them out the way. The team can protect themselves. Y/n, a barista at a family owned coffee shop–one they barely work at anymore because their rich girlfriend takes care of them and Tony and the team randomly throws money and gifts their way. But that’s besides the point. The team is strong with super powers or serums or martial arts and knows how to use weapons. Y/n makes the threat that anything can be a weapon yet they ironically apologize whenever they bump into a chair, table, etc.

The mere thought of losing them the same way she almost lost half the team today nearly sent Wanda into a spiral. She convinced herself to hold on and remain strong.

Once they landed everyone was sent off to med bay, visible injury or not. Wanda had a scar on her brow and a cut on her nose and a sprained wrist. Both her arms were sore but she didn’t think that was worth mentioning. After leaving medbay she informed Jarvis to tell the team she went to see Y/n if they asked where she went.

Wanda didn’t bother driving a car, she stepped outside and immediately teleported inside Y/n’s apartment. The Sokovian wasn’t allowed to do that anymore after she scared them but she couldn’t help herself as she was on the verge of shaking from overstimulation.

“Wanda is that you?!”

“Y-Yeah!” She already felt tears coming to her eyes at hearing your voice but quickly blinked them away.

“Oh! Come look and see!!” Y/n exclaimed happily.

Wanda smiled and quickly walked pass the small foyer and to the living room. Her shoulders relaxed at the sight of her partner gazing at the TV that displayed her animal crossing game on it. She walked over and sat down on the couch.

“I restarted my island and it took like five times but I finally got villagers that aren’t ugly!” They squealed with joy.

Wanda placed her hands in her lap and smiled authentically at the screen. Y/n had already begun decorating the island and including as much villager homes as possible. There was customized pathing on the beach and grass.

“I named it Westview because you know…we said we wanted to move there.” Y/n’s voice grew quieter as their shyness increased. They shrugged. “And yeah…”

Wanda turned her head and reached out her to tuck their hair behind their ear. “That’s nice, I like it.”

Y/n blushed then cleared their throat. “Oh! Also the flag!! Look, look, look!!” They still hadn’t looked at Wanda as they could not turn their attention off the screen. Not even a bowl of the best pasta in the world could take their focus off their hyper fixation right now.

Wanda turned her head back towards the screen, still twirling their strand of hair between her two fingers. She dropped her hand at the sight of the flag that blew in the wind at the airport. It was her head piece. The one that she didn’t like at first but Y/n adored because it suited her so well. And because Y/n adored it Wanda slowly began to, too. Tony designed it for her after he heard her ranting about wanting more accessories for her costume the same way Nat and Steve did.

“I made it just for you!” They exclaimed.

“You made me a flag…with my head piece on it?” Wanda asked, her eyes glazing over with the tears she had been holding back since the mission ended.

Y/n beamed at the tv screen missing the full effect of their words. “Yeah! Because you’re my favorite person in the world and–“ They faltered and their brow furrowed with concern as they finally turned to look at the brunette. “Wanda, are you okay?” Y/n reached out and caressed her cheek with their palm as the witch begun to cry.

“I just love you…so much.” A lone tear trailed down her cheek. “You make me so happy…I-���today was awful and some of the team almost didn’t make it and it was so traumatizing and I just–” A much needed sob broke free from her mouth as she curled into Y/n’s warm embrace.

Y/n began to rock them side to side and soothingly rub their hand up and down Wanda’s back. “You’re safe now, let it all out.” Wanda sobbed harder than before, gripping on Y/n’s shirt for dear life. “I’m so sorry all of you had to go through that.” Wanda continued to cry as Y/n continued to speak.

They sat in silence until her sobs died down to sniffles and her eyes had stopped producing as much tears.

Y/n moved to pull away then stopped as Wanda whimpered. “Put your head up for me please.” Wanda complied, sitting up straight with their arms still around each other. “I love you.” Wanda felt another sob building up in her throat. “And I’m so so proud of you.” Another sob broke free but Y/n continued to speak as they wiped away Wanda’s tears. “Today was really hard and you did such a phenomenal job–yes you did.” Y/n reassured as Wanda began shaking her head. “You did a good job because you did your best.”

Wanda pulled away from their embrace, her body immediately felt the rush of cool air surrounding her. “I didn’t even tell Pietro where I was going, I just left and came straight here to you because I just felt so overstimulated and…and broken and scared.” Y/n nodded, holding their palms together. “And I know I did a great job but fuck why did my life have to be this way, I’m still here, I’m still the scared little girl who hid under a bed with her twin brother for 3 days after realizing our parents are gone and dead and…” She felt herself begin to descend into a panic and placed one hand on her chest and the other on her head. “I’m tired. I’m so tired.” She choked out.

Y/n took both Wanda’s hands in their own. “Baby, look at me, hey-” Their eyes met. “I’m right here, okay? Everything is okay now, the team is okay, your brother is okay and you are okay..you’re safe now.” Wanda blinked. Y/n brought Wanda’s hands to their chest and took a deep breath in then a deep breath out and continued this until Wanda began to follow suit.

It took five minutes until the normal color returned to Wanda’s cheeks and blood no longer felt like it was rushing to her ears. Y/n placed their hand on Wanda’s cheek, smiling as the witch sighed out of content. Wanda turned her head and kissed their hand before she spoke.

“Can you show me more of…Westview?” She asked softly while making eye contact.

“Only as long as you promise to move there with me…and also order us a pizza.” Y/n bit their lip and grinned as Wanda giggled.

“I promise.” Wanda took her phone out of her pocket and snuggled into Y/n’s side as the number for their favorite pizza place began to ring. “Extra cheese?” She hummed as Y/n kissed the top of her head.

“Sounds great.” They replied and began to decorate Westview as Wanda ordered them enough food to have leftovers for the next day.

[slveepyscwrs]

Are you serious about the writing fics...if so a Kuroo x reader Angst fight breakup pleeeaaase😭

When it comes to writing fics about gay volleyball boys, my friend, I'm always serious... 💅✨

Anyways, I hope this angsty breakup fic hits you in the feels as much as it did for me!

(I really enjoyed writing this, so to everyone, let me know if you want a part two– Should Kuroo reconcile, or should Kenma save the reader?)

Without further ado, let's get into your request! (This will also be cross posted to AO3!)

A Love I Never Knew

Summary: All of your heart was with the one person you adored the most, Kuroo Tetsurou. When things started to turn dark for you, you were sure that he would be there. You trusted him, you confided in him, and yet the result of that was the appearance of his true self– one that you never could have imagined in your wildest dreams, or more accurately, your darkest nightmares...

Info/Warnings: gender neutral reader, breakups, cliffhanger ending, aggressiveness, emotional breakdowns, self-esteem issues

“Are you okay?”

When it came to being asked that question, lately, you honestly didn’t know how to respond. Of course, you knew what to say: “I’m fine!”

Your self esteem, on the other hand, told an entirely different story.

You just couldn’t bring yourself to look in the mirror lately. No matter which way you looked at it, you couldn’t consider yourself beautiful. In your eyes, there were so many imperfections on your face, your body, everywhere.

To make matters worse, you had been losing sleep over it too. You had lost a lot of your previous cheerful spirit, as your eyelids began to sag.

Soon, your insecurities about your appearance were beginning to affect other parts of your life too. You couldn’t focus in class or in social activities anymore, because you felt like you weren’t good enough in anything.

Now, you were even beginning to feel like you weren’t good enough in your own relationship too. Kuroo was so cool, so intelligent, so confident… and you were just an awkward, scrawny introvert.

Basically, this was the exact opposite of him.

“Kuroo deserves way better than me…”

This was the thought that was running on repeat in your mind, as you slumped down on the couch in yours and his shared apartment. Your face was buried in your hands, as an even darker than usual cloud hung over your head today.

Kuroo didn’t know about any of this yet. He was always so upbeat and lively, and you didn’t want to put a damper on that with your trivial troubles.

This wasn’t all that possible for you at the moment, though. The concerns about you and your usefulness to Kuroo only got worse. Since this could affect your relationship, maybe now was finally the time to come clean to him.

“He’s always so carefree… He’ll know what to do, and maybe I won’t have to worry anymore…”

You were still anxious about telling him as you waited for him to come home from volleyball practice, but at the same time, you were confident that he could lighten your mood.

As a result, your eyes remained fixed on that door in a desperate anticipation. You didn’t even turn on the TV or browse through your phone to kill time until he came back like you usually did.

You needed Kuroo. In fact, today was probably the day you needed him the most.

When the door finally did swing open, your expression brightened a little. You were still shaking from the anxiety, but you were relieved that he was here at last.

“Baby, you’re home!” You jumped up to greet him.

Kuroo, on the other hand, didn’t seem nearly as enthusiastic. He wore his towel around the back of his neck, dripping sweat with an exhausted expression on his face.

This made sense for him. He didn’t like to show it to others, but you knew that he could get really wiped out when practices got intense.

Still, you knew that this was urgent, so you hoped to get his attention nonetheless.

“Practice was rough today, huh?”

“Hm, yeah. Definitely.” He nodded in agreement, but still didn’t make eye contact with you.

“How are the others?” Kuroo loved to crack jokes about his teammates, so you thought that this might snap him out of it.

“They’re alright. Annoying and chaotic as ever.” He still completely ignored you and brushed you off, and began to trudge off to the room that you two slept together in.

Your heart was beating fast under the weight of your feelings, so as much as you wanted to let him rest, you needed to talk to him. Therefore, you ran after him to make him talk to you.

“Hey, is something wrong?” You said this in a caring and concerned voice. He did seem really, really tired, but he usually wasn’t this low on energy. Despite everything you were going through, you also wanted to be there to listen to him if something was wrong.

What Kuroo said next, however, was something that made your face drop.

“Nothing’s wrong! I don’t need to be interrogated right now, love. Just leave me alone, ugh.”

Now, this sounded much more like he was annoyed with you rather than just being tired. You hadn’t meant to ‘interrogate’ him, you just wanted to know about his day.

He never reacted this badly before. Something was definitely on his mind, and you had the feeling that it had more to do with you than with volleyball.

“I’m really sorry… It’s just, I needed to talk with you about something.” You squeaked out in a lower tone, now becoming increasingly afraid of what his reaction would be.

“Fine, but make it quick, I have other things to do… Come to think of it, what is the matter with you today?”

Unlike you, his tone wasn’t filled with nearly as much care. It was like talking to you was a chore that he had no choice but to complete.

Taking a deep breath, you attempted to pour out your heart into words.

“It’s just that I don’t feel good enough… I don’t feel pretty enough, my personality isn’t good enough… And now I feel like I’m not good enough for you.” By the time you finished, your breath was shaky and uneven.

You still had some slight hope that this would make him soften up, but unfortunately, this couldn’t be further from the case.

“What’s with all this sappy stuff? Jeez, you’re acting crazy! You used to not give a shit…” He was massaging his forehead in a way that was intentional, making it clear to you that you were the one giving him that headache.

“No… That’s because I was just hiding it from you…”

“Well, what do you expect me to do about it?”

His tone was becoming harsher and harsher, while yours became softer and softer. This sudden change was literally taking your breath away, and not in a good way.

“Um… you are my boyfriend…” You looked up at him with eyes gone wide with fear, shame, and embarrassment.

This gaze only exacerbated Kuroo’s annoyance. He rolled his eyes, and moved his lips silently in a way that was mocking the way you spoke.

“Yeah, I’m your boyfriend, not your goddamn therapist.”

This was the final nail in your heart, shattering it into pieces. The carefree, lighthearted Kuroo that you had fallen in love with just wasn’t that same person anymore. As you realised this, tears began to sting at the corners of your eyes.

“I know, I’m sorry, I’m really sorry. At least answer the question, please… Am I good enough for you, Kuroo? I’m so sorry…” 

At this point, your voice was barely audible. You hardly knew what to say. Everything that you thought you knew about Kuroo was changing so quickly.

He had begun to turn around and go to the bedroom anyway, but at these words, he stopped in his tracks. He stood there like that for a few seconds, and you saw his hands clench into fists. The rising and falling in his chest became more ragged, as his breaths filled with negative emotions.

Every second that he was still made the dread inside you grow, but the face that you saw when he turned back around to face you suddenly and swiftly frightened you even more.

“I get home after a long day, and all you can do is cling to me like a fucking abandoned puppy. And instead of just letting me go like a sane person, all you say is ‘I’m sorry!’ It’s so goddamn corny and annoying… But you know what? I agree with what you said earlier. Maybe you really are not good enough for me.”

His fists balled tighter, as he screamed these words at the top of his lungs through clenched teeth. 

This new piercing volume sent the entire atmosphere around you two into utter silence. You couldn’t believe that this was real. It had to be a terrible nightmare, one that would end, and let you wake up to Kuroo cuddling beside you in the bed.

Yet, this wasn’t a nightmare. This was the reality of what Kuroo truly felt about you.

If your heart was shattered before, this made the pieces break even smaller and drop to the ground. As for your heartbeat, it felt as if it had stopped in your chest. Heck, time itself seemed to slow around you.

It was one thing to believe the worst about yourself, but having the one who’s supposed to love you the most say that those beliefs were correct all along made it feel like the world itself beneath you was giving out.

Your body wasn’t just trembling now, it was full on shaking. Your knees swayed back and forth, making you feel like a jelly that threatened to give way and drop to the floor any second now.

Your eyes that were now stuck open as wide as they could go couldn’t hold it back anymore, and silent tears rushed down your face. The shock was so intense that you couldn’t even make any noise with the crying. With all these tears, your throat began to burn.

“I have to say something, anything to make it better… It’s all my fault, I should fix this…”

You could hardly form thoughts like these, much less put them into words. Meanwhile, Kuroo kept his eyes fixated on you in pure disgust. He had a look on his face that made it seem like the fact that you were still in front of him was something that he absolutely loathed.

Whatever words did come to mind mostly stopped in your throat. Any noise that did come out was in the form of choked up croaks and squeaks.

Finally, somehow, actual words came out, only to be immediately cut off.

“Kuroo, I–“

“Just forget it already! If this is how you’re going to be, I can’t take it anymore! I’m fucking done with you. We’re over, now get out of my house, now!” 

You already thought that his voice couldn’t get any louder, but its magnitude just kept climbing and climbing until it got to a point where you felt that it could blow the roof off. His face was scrunched up in pure fury, and his eyes directed that rage into yours and straight into your soul.

Whatever he was feeling, Kuroo now seemed as if he had never loved you at all.

And just like that, a beautiful relationship that had lasted months, one that you hoped would stretch on for years to come vanished just like that. All your hopes about Kuroo disappeared into nothingness.

As reluctant as you were, you now accepted that what you had with him was gone, and couldn’t be fixed. 

However, more than that, you didn’t think it was even safe to be here anymore. Judging by his body language, his posture, his actions, and his words, standing there for even a few seconds longer would run the risk of Kuroo’s anger escalating towards physical violence.

Your knees gained just enough strength, and you bolted out the door in a fit of loud sobs.

When you were gone, Kuroo returned to normal and sighed, but not out of relief. He couldn’t pin it down exactly, but there was something gnawing inside him… He was observant enough that he knew deep inside that was guilt.

Still, even though he did know, he would never admit it. He wouldn’t admit it to himself, and definitely not to you. He couldn’t take back what he did, but either way, he most certainly wasn’t going to go running after you. Instead, he simply shook his head and wandered off inside the bedroom.

It was raining outside in the dark of night, and not just a light shower. Water rushed down from the dark clouds at high speeds, hitting the ground with incredible sound and force for such tiny droplets.

It didn’t take more than a few seconds for you to get soaking wet in these conditions, but you pushed through and kept running. You didn’t know where– it was late, and no one you knew would be willing to take you in at this hour.

You jumped down the stairs to the ground floor, but that was as far as you could get before your knees finally gave up and caused your body to collapse to the concrete pavement, getting scraped against its rough surface.

You were in an awkward position, but you didn’t care. You were cold, you were wet, but most importantly… you were alone.

At least there was a positive side to that. You curled up, now being free to sob out all the pain that had piled up on you out to the distance. Your face became a mess of tears and snot, as the uncertainty of the situation dawned upon you.

“I can’t sleep on the streets… I’ve already been a burden to everyone, but I have to find someone, anyone…”

You had absolutely nothing, except for the clothes on your back and your phone in your pocket. Getting under the relative safety of a pillar, you decided to make use of that phone as you went through your contacts, pondering your slim set of options.

You remembered that there was one person who lived close enough to Kuroo, and this person was Kenma. Your fingers shook as you debated internally whether to press the call button or not. Kenma was the kind of person who was known for his preferences for being alone, and being sort of aloof towards others. 

It wasn’t likely that he would take you in, but the chance of him accepting was still there. At this point, you were ready to take any chance you got.

Trying not to drop your phone, you decided to take a risk and call Kenma. You put it on speaker and heard as the phone rang one time, two times…

Your phone provider would automatically drop a call if there wasn’t an answer by the fifth ring. The device’s battery was quite low as well, so if Kenma did not pick up, you truly would be stranded.

And so, you sat there awaiting your fate. Each ring, although lasting only a few seconds, stretched out for an eternity.

Would Kenma pick up? Would he not pick up?

Whichever one of the two happened, the little flame of hope left in your heart lay in his place… any place that was away from Kuroo.

“It really did turn out to be the person I loved most who ended up hurting me the deepest…” You thought alone to yourself, waiting as the phone rang and rang into the distance…

[genderisareligion]

They are now trans-ing black Civil Rights Activist Pauli Murray

https://blog.n3vlynnn.com/p/how-the-trans-movement-is-erasing#%C2%A7who-is-pauli-murray

I had already reblogged this but you just reminded me to go back and read it.

What's bothering me is the fact that a lot of this "decision" to "trans" Pauli is apparently being done using her own words, from autobiographies and such, unlike the likes of Marsha Johnson who didn't write as a career and thus has less lived proof available for us to post humorously analyze.

Like this in her own words really stands out to me:

In Murray’s “summary of symptoms of upset” she included lists of questions she had been seeking answers for, and was hoping to find relief within the medical sphere: “Do I have a ‘male’ attitude towards life, or is there such a thing?” “Why the very nervous excitable condition all my life and the very natural falling in love with the female sex? Terrific breakdowns after each love affair that has become unsuccessful?” “Why do my emotional attractions flow consistently toward members of my own sex, without excluding friendliness on my part of members of the male sex?” “Why cannot I accept the homosexual method of sex expression, but insist on the normal first?” “Why are normal women whose experiences have been satisfactory with the male sex, find themselves emotionally attracted to me, and often admit that they wish they could find my qualities in the male.” “What is the physical basis for my tendency toward ‘boyishness’ in structure and appearance?" “Do I have tumors which are causing my emotional disturbances? Would the removal of these tumors return me to normal female reactions.” “By what means, other than an exploratory operation, can it be determined whether or not I have hidden testicles? ….[Could] it be possible that I have one normally functioning ovary, and one male organ, producing a physical and therefore emotional conflict?”

TRAs could never ask so many hard hitting questions and actually want the answers.

The end of the first question alone - "or is there such a thing?”- tells me that this woman was more akin to the modern equivalent of Gender Critical than she was "transgender." She went into questioning her sexuality with an open mind and already willing to accept that she could be wrong, which TRAs who shut down any criticism as "fascism" are currently incapable of.

Also notice that she refers to women as members of her own sex.

Anyway I'm so sick of nonblack liberals Noble Savaging us in particular to self flagellate about how "diverse" their praxis is. They're so clumsy with it they just end up doing more damage

Also also:

I find it interesting that the testosterone pills which Pauli was so fervently pursuing, were openly and unapologetically intended to be used as conversion therapy on gay, effeminate males. I also do not think it’s a coincidence that Pauli struggled with her own homosexuality, and saw this pill as an antidote to her same-sex attractions. What’s more, modern-day hormone therapy has been shown to have the same effect on its users, as far as changing their sexual orientation. It continues to baffle me that cross-sex hormones for ‘gender-affirmation’ are still viewed as progressive. I think we can all glimpse into the history of experimental hormone usage as a means to change one’s “gender expression” and examine the roots of where it comes from.  Given what we know about the factors that prompted Murray to seek testosterone, is this really something that we should celebrate and glorify? 

[fexalted]

watching tos for the first time since like, roughly 2012/13-ish? i don't remember what year it was, or why i only got thru most of season 1 before stopping

it's been fun to refresh my swiss cheesed memory with this tho so here's a semi-liveblog of the first 10 eps that i watched over the past couple weeks

1x01 - the man trap

things i remembered beforehand:

salt monster

"plum" uwu

that gay little run and crawl jim does when he's taking cover (it fills me with such delight)

things i did not remember:

how many people died, good god man it's only the first episode

1x02 - charlie x

things i remembered:

jim's bright red exercise pants

that stupid fucking face charlie makes when he uses his powers

not liking this ep at all when i first watched it, possibly due to me being around the same age as charlie at the time

additional thoughts: i enjoyed it more this time and felt more sympathetic for charlie. poor kid needed some parents, and also, like, a hug

1x03 - where no man has gone before

things i remembered:

bones isn't in it :'( (bored) (sad) (missing my bestie)

"James R Kirk"

that post i saw on here recently about how their contacts were made of glass

the only thing i could think about while watching:

their contacts

were made

of GLASS

(yes i understand this was how contacts were made back then. still freaked out by the concept of people putting glass in their eyes on purpose)

1x04 - the naked time

things i remembered:

sweat disease

sulu fencing

oh kathleen

"ONE-MORE-TIME!!"

"love mankind"

spock breakdown (extremely uncomfortable to watch)

bones casually ripping jim's shirt sleeve to jab him in the arm (extremely hilarious every time i think about it)

did not remember:

anything about them almost crashing into a planet lol

jim's little monologue when he gets infected (lmao)

time warp???

additional thoughts: hey remember when they reused this plot in tng and tasha and data fucked (<- literally the only thing i can remember about it) ((edit from future fex: i rewatched that ep. it was wild. tos did it better tho))

1x05 - the enemy within

things i remembered:

unicorn dog :)

evil kirk and poor little meow meow kirk

"I'M CAPTAIN KIRK!!!"

things not remembered:

dog dies :(

evil kirk's killer eyeliner

additional thoughts: say what you will about shatner / his acting but this ep is Peak shatner performance and a lot of fun to watch. he put his whole pussy into it, as the kids say these days

1x06 - mudd's women

things remembered:

could not forget harry mudd if i tried

the women are color coded like the powerpuff girls lol

they're also like, on some kind of drug that keeps them looking young or something

cool costumes tho

i don't have much to say about this one lol, harry's a fun character but the rest of the ep wasn't super interesting to me. did finally learn how to pronounce "ophiuchus" tho so i'll thank it for that

1x07 - what are little girls made of

things remembered:

is this the penis rock episode (it is)

uhhh i think kirk gets put into some kind of spinny machine that makes androids (he does)

more cool costumes (debatable)

things i find funny:

the number of planets we've encountered so far that are populated by like. 2-4 people

the way ruk (the big guy) just picks up and throws kirk like he weighs nothing

so much buildup with kirk and the penis rock and he doesn't even get to hit ruk over the head with it smh

also not a funny moment but i liked the way kirk was able to get a message to spock thru the android kirk, v clever

wait i just realized bones wasn't in this ep either. deducting 1/4 of a star from my mental rating bc i missed him (but apparently not that much)

1x08 - miri

remembered:

planet of children (bc everyone else died of terminal puberty)

"no blah blah blah!"

bones tests his newly discovered, untested cure on himself, in true mad scientist fashion (also spones moment <3)

saw this ep on a "what's your fave 'bad' episode" poll here recently and i can't remember if i thought it was good or bad when i first watched it lol

forgot:

another earth?? there's just a second, identical earth floating around out there?? and (of course) they don't mention it at all for the rest of the episode

300 year old children

oh these kids are so much more annoying than i remembered, however i may just be biased bc i don't like kids shfkshfk

1x09 - dagger of the mind

remember:

absolutely nothing! oh boy!

thoughts:

wow this ep is fucked up!

okay actually i don't think i've seen this one at all before?

usually there'll be moments that jog my memory but the only thing even slightly familiar to me was kirk going "helen don't go!" while in the neutralizer chair, but i could've just seen a clip/gif of it before

i remember skipping episodes in season 1 (i was impatient and wanted to get to city on the edge of forever) but i thought i'd at least made it to halfway thru the season before skipping any

anyway did i mention this ep is fucked up? (star trek really does love to drop an absolutely haunting 50 minutes of television on you and then never address it again, i understand this now. roll credits!)

1x10 - the corbomite maneuver

remember:

uhh

there's a thing out there

it's in the way

preventing them from boldly going, even

looks like an old windows screensaver

i might've skipped this ep too now that i think about it

thoughts:

cute mckirk moment in sickbay :3

i love that this cube has its own theme music whenever its on screen

oh shit it's the sequel to cube: orb

jesus christ that's a big orb

man they really said "okay we've got 3 music tracks and we're gonna get our money's worth out of them"

i gotta say this ep slaps tbh—WAIT HE'S A BABY???

LITTLE BABY MAN

LMAOOOOO

honestly great episode tho i'll stand by that

[beanghostprincess]

Dipping in and saying transfem Sanusop is great but also just that transmasc Sanji has just a real special place in my heart. He’d probably join the crew already transitioned, just because I can easily see Zeff just being immediately supportive of his boy, and nobody ever questions Sanjis gender ever. He’s „blackleg“, „pervert“, „lovecook“ Sanji and nothing is ever gonna change that. Enter Sanuso tough and things get more complicated because Sanjis ideas of what makes a man are weird and nonsensical at times and him being a „ladies man“ is something he prided himself in and now he has to come to terms with the fact that: No, most straight men don’t regularly think about what it would be like to be in a fulfilling relationship with another man, no not even to „just see what it’s like“, most straight men don’t get those types of butterfly’s around their best friend. And poor Sanji is having an internal struggle because a weird part inside him feels like this somehow invalidates his gender. Bad times and dysphoria all around. Usopp may actually even already know that Sanji likes him back but doesn’t know how to proceed past this issue. He wants to tell Sanji that he loves him, that he would love for him to be his boyfriend, but nothings worth putting Sanji trough a mental breakdown and the thought that them being together would somehow make Sanji feel like a „false man“ is just horrific to him. In my mind they navigate trough it eventually just because I love fluff, but they have a slow burn type of relationship with lots of two steps forwards one step backwards types of progress.

Oh, I absolutely love this.

I've said it already a couple of times, but even if I'm very fond of transfem Sanji, I think transmasc Sanji works just as well with his character and story. He's so trans that no matter what you like, you're probably going to be right. Unless you think he's cis. Then you're definitely wrong. He's trans in every way possible.

His whole view on women and the fact that he worships them so much would have played, in my opinion, a big role in his gender discovery. He would feel so guilty and just... Wrong rejecting womanhood. Like- If he thinks women are the best thing the world has ever created, then why is it so hard to be one? He would have it rough, honestly, accepting himself. Especially after escaping the Vinsmokes and trying to forget all the things they said about him (and how many of them are related to femininity). But I think everything would get easier with time after getting adopted by Zeff. He transitions and he's finally happy with himself (almost, because he still has to fight every day against his own thoughts and past. But at least he's more comfortable in his own skin, now).

And everything goes well from there. Except when he meets Usopp.

It's not that Sanji thinks being gay means being less of a man or anything. He keeps saying he has nothing against gay people and he's being completely genuine there. But his own view on masculinity and what it means to be a man for him includes being a ladies' man. Liking women. Only women. That, and the fact that men and manhood have brought so much pain to his life, make it really hard for him to accept that he's in love with Usopp. With a man. Besides, he has created this persona- This different personality (slightly different from his own. Just a bit more confident and a bit happier and stronger and everything he thinks he's supposed to be considered a man, including liking girls) to feel like a real man. And he is a real man. He knows this. He just feels like if he doesn't follow the right norms he has established for himself and his own masculinity, everything will fall apart.

So, yeah, he kind of has a whole crisis when he realizes he's in love with Usopp. I love talking about Sanji's internalized homophobia/biphobia because I honestly think it's such an interesting topic... But I don't want to make this too long, so I'll just say that he would have a really hard time trying to accept this. The situation would make him angry at himself and even angrier at his surroundings. It would also make him isolate himself because, of course, he won't ask for help. And if Usopp (his best friend) enters a room, Sanji will get out of there just as quickly. His brain is a mess. My poor boy.

Usopp knows, of course, because it's not hard to tell when Sanji is in love with someone. But of course, he won't say anything until Sanji is ready to say something first, because it's pretty much obvious that he's having a hard time, and it's even more noticeable because he becomes more and more and more annoying when it comes to women now. He tries to overcompensate and reaffirm his gender by acting like the ladies' man he tries to be (it doesn't work). And Usopp doesn't mind waiting for Sanji, even if it takes him years, but he can't bear to see Sanji doing this to himself without doing anything to help him.

Not gonna turn this into a whole fanfic because if you're asking me this you probably know my posts and how long they end up being because I turn them into whole one-shots at this point- I swear I won't this time!! But!!

Just saying that Usopp trying to talk things out with Sanji and Sanji having a whole breakdown + Usopp comforting him and saying that they don't have to rush anything if he doesn't want to, that they can go as slow as Sanji wants. That he would wait forever for Sanji. And Sanji accepting to date him and getting used to being loved and loving in that way... I don't know. It feels like a good way to reach the fluff you were looking for with a bit of angst and slow burn first!!!

[paperandhis-paper]

Arc-V Day 6 and 7

I'm a bit behind. Please @arcvmonth, spare me. Don't turn me into a card.

Anyway, for Understudy Spotlight I wanna briefly talk about Roger. I say briefly, because I'll save most of my thoughts for the Villains Prompt. For now, I gotta say, he's my vote for most underrated Yugioh bad guy. I LOVE villains who think they're hot shit, but turn out to be nothing but smug snakes. Plus, his voice actor NAILS his breakdowns. I was surprised to see so many people disliked him (probably Shōnen fans who can't accept a villain that isn't super-duper powerful). Finally, I love me some Disney Villain Deaths.

Anyway, Day 7: Of Amores, Per the Prophecy

Oh boy, does Arc-V have some banger ships. Some of my faves:

Fruitshipping:

Main-guy with Main-girl ships in most Shōnen anime tend to hit with the force of a wet fart, with Yugioh being no different. This is because they fall under the trap of making the girl be the only one who constantly thinks of protagonist-kun, whereas the MC is usually only thinking about fighting, eating, and their male rival who they're totally-not-gay-with.

Therefore, it's wild that these two idiots enamored the Arc-V so much as they, and it was via the use of a very simple trick: have both parties be clearly interested in one another. Seriously, Arc-V turns into an epic, interdimensional romantic drama from Season 2, and it's so strange for a franchise like Yugioh (even if it already happened in GX). Yuya spends as much time thinking about Yuzu as she does about him, and that's so refreshing.

One thing I love about this ship is how much they emphasize that the distance between them doesn't diminish their bond. In fact, it's the opposite, when they're separated that their feelings are most in display. Yuzu's duel with Chojiro is one such example: despite not being allowed near one another, Yuzu still had her feelings reach him.

Them being enemies in their past lives but lovers in this one also adds an extra element of brainrot for me.

Appleshipping and Fallenangelshipping:

I wanna re-emphasize this: we NEED more F/M ships where the guy is completely, stupidly in love with the girl. This applies more to appleshipping admittedly; seeing Yugo explode with joy from seeing Rin will never stop melting my heart. Male characters in anime are often shy of showing physical affection toward their love interests, but not Banana-boy. Plus, imagining how they grew up in poverty is interesting.

Serenadeshipping:

OMG THIS SHIP IS SO GOOD. LIKE I KNOW I HAVE MASSIVE YURI BIAS BECAUSE LOVE LIVE FAN BUT STILL. Ok so you obviously got badass and serious Serena with ray-of-sunshine Yuzu, so the dynamic is fun from the get-go. But we also have the fact that Yuzu became one of, if not the, first friends Serena's ever had. Plus there's the "changing clothes" scene and I'm sure you could do some gay awakening shit.

Also Yuzu is so happy upon seeing Serena late in the series. Just look at her!

And then when Serena betrays them she's so sad. DAMN IT ARC-V, THIS IS FROM THE FREAKING CAPTAIN SOLO EPISODE, WHY IS MY HEART IN PIECES?!

(Extra angst when you consider this is the last time they spoke before getting thrown into Arc-V)

Finally, I imagine she'd be happy to forever be with Yuzu at the end of the series

Lustershipping:

similar dynamic as Serenade, but with a rival-to-lovers tint. It's just cute, mmkay? Aesthetically, this is one of my favorites, Masumi's design is great

Genesishipping:

Sometimes, ships are more interesting for what they don't tell you than for what they do. The showrunners left the nature of Zarc and Ray's relationship ambiguous, which means there's a lot of possible avenues to take it. Enemies to Lovers? Sure, go ahead. Enemies that become lovers because of their new incarnations' unique souls? Works too.

Plus Zarcray fans make some Fire content.

Honorable Mentions: Guiltshipping, Candyshipping, Emblemshipping, Braceletshipping,

[s0lar-ch3ri]

lil mythborne hcs because ive fallen in love with them again (maybe spoilers so yeah)

(theyre absolutely roommates btw for less confusion) ryan and aster have woken up several times in the middle of the night to see connor watching "incorrect history" by ted

these three act so close many think theyre all in a relationship with each other (and one of my headcanons says yes cause i got a ton of alt hcs)

asters sapphic awakening was the gardeners in the gardening club, ryans gay awakening was asters dad (not romantic fucking ew like he just realized men were pretty then), and connors ace realization hit while researching about the frat

they can all be pan, poly, and ace spectrum if i try hard enough (and i do)

listen to me for this: boyflux aster

professor aeliana was quite a comfort to connor after his brothers passing, as when connor's grades were dropping due to lack of motivation and using most his energy to not break down or "do something irrational" as hed put it, he offered help with work and recommended him a therapist (who helped him a lot), plus even offered him a place to talk if he really needed it

biwi is a registered therapy rat

aster offers tutoring as shes very good with work and commonly has lots of free time (she uses some of it to talk with biwi)

you know how the mana goddess of the sun just happens to be named aster? hear me out...

despite what some think, ryans actually pretty smart as its necessary to have good grades in school to participate in sports

i cant get the idea out of my head that romeo tried to cast aster ryan and connor as riptide characters for a play he wanted to try, but ended up not having enough actors for (ryan would be gill, aster would be jay plus characters like lizzie, amanda rinn, and niklaus hendrix because shes turned out to have a good voice for them, and connor would be chip, with biwi as pretzel)

ryan likes giving presents and eventually got better at matching items to people (connor has a friendship bracelet, a moon shaped pencil sharpener, a journal for art which unknown to ryan has a picture of them together on the cover, etc.)(aster has a fucking random bobble head, a sunflower pencil sharpener, a small locket, etc)

all of them can draw and get art tips while doing it, so you can see some similarities in their styles despite them being different (aster learned because she wanted to draw out where flowers would go and eventually drew flower people and flowers as people, connor used it as a way to vent out and study better, ryan did it for the sillies and saw how much fun aster and connor had so he started back in middle school and shit)

not a hc but i cant stop thinking about mermaid aster rn

these guys are seen as "oh they could never do harm" but biwi knows the horrors of being in a room with them after mario party (everyone has had a breakdown at least 3 times from it)

once connor had an insomnia induced theory about a mythical land called "texas" and did a 3 hour presentation on its possible existance, ending at 3, for ryan and aster and the next day he forgot about it and never brought it up again and they think about it sometimes

ill say more when my brain lets me think up more

[ne0nlightzz]

Mk im not gonna make my blog all abt this but right now im torn inbetween forcing myself to keep calm or spiralling and letting my thoughts drift to the worst scenarios possible and back into a very dark place. But i will say if KOSA actually happens im fucked and so are so so soo many other minors on the internet, especially if they are also part of the lgbt+ community.

as much as i hate to admit im genuinely fearful of the possible outcomes of this and go to the worse case scenarios imma admit im fricking scared. this mixed with my states version of the 'dont say gay bill' being passed like two months ago has me questioning if this is all frickin worth it.

but what i actually came to say, besides the little spiralling breakdown im trying to avaoid, we have to fucking stop this, like sign every petition and anything we need to, call every single mf we need to, just to do anything and everything to make sure KOSA does not pass and ruin so many people's lives and put so many people in danger and also basically change the internet and society as we know it. ill probably make a better post about this soon, one more detailed and when im not in as bad of a headspace, but we've gotta at least try our damn hardest to put a stop to this useless bullshit. and i also wanna say, this is coming from my more fearful and hopeless point of view i try not to give into or share, but maybe we need to start pulling together our fandoms and communities irl, maybe we need to get ready to start groups, programs and other stuff for our states n all so we can still somewhat keep together even if its more local and seems impossible, maybe it'll be worth a shot if all shit goes to hell and so we don't have to fully lose things that we love, like out fandom communities, or writing communities. im too sure how itd work but i just thought id pitch a idea if all shit goes down the drain and we still need a upside to the hell or something.

heres some links ive found through others tumblr posts[all linktrees, carrds, etc go to their rightful owners ofc] and i highly recommend scrolling through the stop kosa and other related tags on here (Tumblr), reading up on everything and signing and doing everything you personally can, especially for those who can't do anything.

This was not heavily checked for spelling/grammar errors because im trying to not freak out and im also dyslexic lolz

[girlfriendsofthegalaxy]

tuesday again 2/14/23

oops! all friend recs edition. this post brought to you by viewers like you. thank you!

listening

green day's last ride in, courtesy of @dying-suffering-french-stalkers. this DOES belong on a daisuke jigen lupinthethird playlist ur correct. not quote four minutes of a laid back, surf rock instrumental. above all this is the american genre of music that Wants you to think it sounds effortlessly cool, and jigen is one of very few fictional characters who puts that much work into looking effortlessly cool.

ran across some apocryphal reddit posts that are like "yeah they came up with this riff during a sound check and liked it so much they decided it didn't need lyrics". sure i'll buy that!

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reading

The Skylark of Space by E.E. "Doc" Smith, courtesy of @believerindaydreams. restarting this audiobook available through my library, which is apparently the 1946 hardcover edition that differs wildly from editions before and after. what are those differences? who can say! i cannot easily find a breakdown!

critical reception of this book was mixed. i think the criticisms about scientific plausibility (even by 1919 standards) and dialogue are warranted. doc smith was a chemical engineer, who are certainly. types of guys. most of the fun of this book (for me) comes in recognizing the building blocks of the space opera. i like peeling up the seams and following this novel's construction decisions. i don't fully agree that this is where space operas started, but arguments about how it's the most imitated space opera are convincing.

it's quite rare i listen to an audiobook bc my ears are not friends with my brain, and it's easier to listen to chattier podcasts where if i tune out for a moment i don't miss much. the reader? performer? reed mccolm has a voice i do better with (neutral american accent in the baritenor range). i don't really know if i'd find the paper version easier or harder to follow, bc mr mccolm is doing his absolute fucking best with the voicework but doc smith does not seem overly fond of dialogue tags. it is occasionally difficult to figure out who's speaking.

a line that made me stop folding laundry and yell HELLO??? out loud: "Each girl looked at the other, and liked what she saw." unfortunately no gay shit seems to be going on, but we spend a fuck of a lot of time in this chapter going over how the spaceship works, so it's very possible they're engaging in quiet bisexualism in the background and doc smith has simply not noticed. gay shit going on in the background is not critical to our understanding of how the spaceship works.

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watching

What's Up Doc? (1972, dir. Bogdanovich) courtesy of @nikkifromtabs. i had a fucking marvelous time with this screwball comedy. i could not give you any of the finer details of the plot or who has what bag when but i enjoyed every goddamn minute. as i write this on monday night it is singlehandedly responsible for improving a miserable day. MANY short sharp barks of laughter

i love screwballs but they tend to stress me the fuck out-- bringing up baby is verging on a horror movie for me. even though streisand's character would be the very best of friends with hepburn's character in bringing up baby, this movies stresses me the fuck out WAY less. perhaps its bc it feels more like a stage play, or more deliberately humorous, or just that the stakes feel way lower. the mile a minute dialogue is best appreciated with subtitles

can we go back to the halycon days when dudes were not waxed bare and dangerously dehydrated in order to have a shirtless scene? ryan o'neal is a handsome if slightly bland man and he looks like Just Some Guy with his shirt off. great! love it! give me more!

i was going to write a whole little thing about "everyone is beautiful and no one is horny" but we can boil it down to "seventies beauty standards are wildly different from today's" and "everyone in this movie is almost always too busy sliding in and out of various scrapes to be horny"

kung fu hustle, arsenic & old lace, and this movie are now in a three-way tie for my favorite comedy.

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playing

Dead Man's Rest courtesy of @jaimehwatson who recced this nearly three years ago and @pasta-pardner who gifted it to me last week. i have played it for three hours got three different routes and none of them are "happy". are any of them happy? is this a commentary on the inherent tragedy of revenge and the inherent tragedy of the american western, never able to escape stolen dreams on stolen land? the tyranny of the small business/farm owner only able to exist on a mountain of skeletons and heavy subsidies from the government? i am rotating this game in my mind at helicopter speeds.

also chase i agree with you this sheriff is definitely supposed to be lee van cleef

storytelling: it is uneven at best. the native american love interest's route is a particular weakness. as a review on steam said, it reads very much like the only media the devs consumed researching this was disney's pocahontas. there are some very moralistic and defensive statements throughout other routes as well that read like the devs trying to get ahead of any accusations, which makes this game much weaker as now it is neither a product of its time or ours. the mystery does unfold in a way that surprised me, and you have to go through multiple different routes with multiple people in order to get more of the solution. this is very hard to pull off and i liked this murder mystery/tragedy aspect of the game very much. i am not a mlm so i can't really comment on whether or not these romances are fulfilling, although they are straight up gay and there isn't a bisexual reading that can be applied. i, noted bisexual cowboy enjoyer, was a little disappointed that the MC cannot have a bisexual reading applied to him, he does seem very firmly at one end of the kinsey scale.

construction: there are four different ways of presenting dialogue. there are SO many routes in this thing and i feel like standardizing the text boxes would have made their lives easier? i do appreciate the vibes-based subtitles for the music and sfx. this is startlingly good caption work for a tiny idie studio.

is it "good"? did i have a "good time" playing it? fuck if i know. compels me tho.

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making

this one is For a friend but it fits the theme. baby blanket progress, about a repeat and a half in. the tentative baby date is march 5th and the tentative blanket date is uhhh probably end of may? at this pace?

[guts-gattsu]

I’ll be answering this for a character named Ddomas (any pronouns, he/him at the moment), current incarnation of the Hero Reborn. It’s a fantasy book about gay people and Groundhog Day style depression.

Lonely: Due to being constantly reincarnated to fight a never ending war, he is permanently lonely. He is almost completely incapable of caring about people due to watching so many people die over the centuries.

Betrayal: Due to his long life, he has been betrayed. To avoid being hurt, he simply doesn’t get attached. He has never betrayed anyone, since saving people is his “purpose.”

Bound: his entire existence is a prison. He has been captured before, but because he’ll always come back, he never hesitates to end his own life to speed up the process. They’re so mentally scarred that nothing phases him anymore.

Break: You can’t break something already shattered. No one has seen him at his lowest because he can’t sink any further. He will break a few times over the course of the story though.

Desire: Ddomas wants more than anything to never wake up again. He does not want an afterlife. He is fairly open about this desire when asked. They would do anything to get this so long as it meant no one else was hurt. If he was offered to trade places with someone, he would refuse.

Failure: failure is inevitable when fighting for so long. He’s witnessed the world burn time and time again, and has grown numb to it. He’ll fight to save it, and failure is simply extended victory.

Fear: His greatest fear is being forced to live forever. When future events happen and this seems to be a certainty, he will breakdown before getting back up and back to his “purpose.” As with the desire, they are open with this fear.

Future: See above. To continue to exist as he has been is the worst thing he can imagine. The only way out is to win an unsinkable war.

Ghost: No ghosts haunt her because so many people they knew are dead. The memories blend together into a formless mush.

Guilty: he is guilty about his desire to not exist, seeing it as violation of his purpose. However, because he can never escape his fate, he indulges in fantasy because it doesn’t matter.

Hate: He fucking hates his whole deal, but because of his age, the hate has dulled into next to nothing.

Heartbreak: he has loved many people, both friends and significant others, but because they always die, he has given up on it completely. It will always end with him outliving them, being reborn in the body of a child, or them dying.

Hide: All emotion, just stomp it right down. Any emotions get in the way of the purpose.

Hunted: he is always hunted by the forces of the dark, and they often kill whatever parents he has in the current incarnation. It’s been going on for so long that it doesn’t really scare or bother him anymore. If anything, he hunts the dark, being far far too brutal with anyone aligned with the dark.

Mask: In public Ddomas plays a stoic legendary hero. In private he is just depressed and speaks the bare minimum. He does it to give people hope. His allies know a bit more about his real feelings, but not the full extent of how hollow he is. 

Midnight: they have developed inter generational insomnia from depression. They do like sleep, but sleep takes up time that can better be used to fight back the dark. If forced to sleep, they will pass out for an entire month.

Mistake: Too many to count. He’s burned cities, sunk islands, and made the wrong call on the battlefield. Despite being the hero, he is still human and fallible.

Monstrous: Ddomas is incredibly violent in combat, aiming to kill as quickly as possible. Recently he has adopted terror tactics against the dark in an effort to terrify it into submission. Allies often remark about his brutality. They actively covet this brutal part of themselves as a means of ignoring other emotions.

Nightmares: Ddomas will often have nightmares in the little time he’s able to sleep. They are a blend of countless battles and failures, the faces of a million dead friends and a billion dead innocents. He has gotten far too used to them. As with his desire, he is open about this in private, but refuses to talk about it further.

Pain: he has felt so much pain that he has become wholly numb to it, as with everything.

Secret: his greatest secret is that he desperately wants a hug, and more broadly to be fucked senseless. Ddomas has not had a relationship in a very long time and deeply desires a relationship, but doesn’t want to have heartbreak or to lord his status over a partner.

Skin: Ddomas has lived in every body there is, male, female, intersex, non binary, and everything in-between and outside. His skin never feels like his own, but he has never felt truly uncomfortable in it.

Torture: Yes, repeatedly. See captured and pain. He has not tortured people, but he would.

Wound: Ddomas ignores all but the most grievous of wounds. If it’s not debilitating, he will ignore it completely. Mentally he is destroyed, and emotionally he is dead, but I feel that’s been established.

This was fun. I should do this again with other oc questions. It’s. A fun writing exercise.

oc asks: not-so-nice edition

alone: How does your OC deal with loneliness? Have they ever been completely alone before? How do they act when there's no one around to see them?

betrayal: Has your OC ever been betrayed by someone they thought they could trust? Has your OC ever betrayed someone who trusted them?

bound: Has your OC ever been imprisoned or captured? What happened? How did they get out? Did the experience leave any scars?

break: What would cause your OC to break down completely? What do they look like when that happens? Has anyone ever seen them at their lowest?

desire: What's one thing your OC wants more than anything in the world? Are they open with that desire? Why or why not? What would they do to fulfill it?

failure: What's your OC's greatest failure? Have they been able to move past it? Does anyone else know about it?

fear: What is your OC's greatest fear? What do they do when confronted with it? Are they open with their fear, or do they hide it away?

future: What's the worst possible future for your OC? Are they taking steps to avoid that outcome? Are they even aware it's a possibility?

ghost: Who or what haunts your OC? What happened? How do they live with their ghosts?

guilt: What is your OC guilty about? How do they handle their guilt? Do they try to avoid guilt, or do they accept it?

hate: What does your OC hate? Why? How do they act towards the object of their hatred?

heartbreak: Have they ever had a relationship that ended badly? Experienced some other kind of heartbreak? What happened?

hide: What does your OC hide? Why do they hide it?

hunt: Who or what is your OC hunted by? A person, a feeling, a past mistake? Is your OC able to let their guard down, or are they constantly alert?

mask: Does your OC wear a mask, literally or figuratively? What goes on beneath it? Is there anyone in their life who gets to see who they are under the mask?

midnight: What keeps your OC up at night? Do they have nightmares? Fears? Anxieties? What do they do in the small hours of the morning when they should be sleeping?

mistake: What's the worst mistake your OC ever made? What led to them making it? Have they been able to fix it? How have they moved on?

monster: Is your OC monstrous in any way? Is there something that makes them monstrous? Are they aware of their own monstrosity? Do they accept it or reject it?

nightmare: What does your OC have nightmares about? How do they deal with their nightmares? Do they tell people, or keep it to themself?

pain: What's the worst pain your OC has ever felt? Do they have a high pain tolerance?

secret: What's one secret your OC never wants anyone to know about them?

skin: How comfortable is your OC in their skin? Do they grapple with anything that lives inside them—a beast, a curse, a failure, a monster? How do they face the smallest, weakest, most horrible version of themself? Are they able to acknowledge it at all?

torture: Has your OC ever been tortured? Would your OC ever torture someone else?

wound: How does your OC handle being wounded? Are their wounds mostly physical? Mental? Emotional? What's the worst wound your OC has ever experienced?

[justmetalkingaboutstuff]

“Wicked” is an Allegory for the Events Leading to World War II

Disclaimer(s): I intentionally kept away from every review and spoiler of “Wicked” because I’ve known for several years now that the movie was coming out and I knew, based off of every friend and family member who said, “Oh, you’d LOVE it” after seeing it live, that I would love it. I have never read the 1995 book “Wicked” by Gregory Maguire either. My only exposure to “Wicked” prior to seeing it last Sunday was being obsessed with the song “Defying Gravity” after hearing it on the first season of the television show Glee back in 2010. But I already knew the Wicked Witch of the West (Elphaba in “Wicked”) could fly because I’ve seen the 1939 version of “The Wizard of Oz” and read the book by L. Frank Baum. I have also not read any analyses of “Wicked” online prior to writing this so all of these opinions come from my experience of seeing “Wicked” in the theater – as the friends who saw it with me will attest because I was babbling semi-coherently about it all as we were walking out of the theater. It's entirely possible (perhaps probable) that I'll be proven wrong in Part 2, but for now this is where I stand.

I saw “Wicked” part 1 last Sunday afternoon with some of my friends. First of all, before I get into my breakdown of why I believe it to be an allegory for the events leading to World War II, let me talk about the movie itself for a minute.

If you haven’t seen it yet, GO SEE THIS MOVIE. I don’t care if you don’t like musicals. I don’t care if you don’t like Ariana Grande. I don’t care if you were completely put off by Cynthia Erivo going absolutely bonkers over some fan art (because I was too). I’m not kidding you, this movie is the Shiz. I mean, it takes place at Shiz University, but it’s literally the shiz. It’s the shizzle. It’s amazingizzle. If you don’t like the music, then you’ll love the sets. If you don’t love the sets, then you’ll love the costumes. If you don’t like costumes then you’ll love the acting. If you don’t love any of the previous things then you’ll love the colors because, oh my gosh, it’s even more of a Technicolor dream than the original Wizard of Oz, which was actually shot in Technicolor. If nothing else, go look at Prince Charming because he’s a total hottie and should appeal to 99% of the women, 99% of the gay men, and 75% of the straight men who just want to look that damn good.

I’m not kidding. I fully expect a sweep of any categories it gets nominated for at the 2025 Oscars because it is, from top to bottom, one of the best movies I’ve ever seen in my life. And, for those who don’t know much about me, I actually worked in the film industry for about 5 years. I’m certainly not an expert on motion pictures, but I’d say I know a lot more than the average person off the street and I honestly feel like this film should take a lot of the categories like art direction, cinematography, and costumes. I know that’s not something that a lot of people pay attention to but it’s something I’m always looking at and this movie is jam-packed with stunning craftsmanship in so many categories that I’m honestly jealous that I didn’t get to work on this film because I’d love to have my name attached to something that great.

Okay, now onto the topic:

So, I went to see it with my friends and I pretty much cried through the whole thing because I could see the symbolism packed throughout the movie and not only did it remind me of things that happened in the past, but it also reminded me of things going on in the present-day, and it upset me a great deal because, holy crap, how did we get here again?

(Mumbles something about people not paying attention in history class in her best history teacher voice… “those who forget the past are damned to repeat it…” yadda yadda yadda)

Not only do I enjoy history, but I remembered that in my 11th grade A.P. U.S. History class my teacher gave us a handout talking about how the “Wizard of Oz” was an allegory for the political climate of the late 19th century (that’s the 1800s for those of you who didn’t already know) and the 1896 presidential election between William Jennings Bryan and William McKinley. Bryan, the Nebraskan candidate for the Democrat-Populist Party who supported adding silver to back the U.S. dollar to help the “little people” (namely, farmers who needed an injection of cash into the economy) was defeated by the Republican McKinley who maintained that the dollar should continue to be backed by the gold standard. Baum never admitted that his most famous book was anything but a children’s story. But Baum had written several pieces on the political climate of the time and his descriptions of Kansas are influenced by Baum’s own time in South Dakota where he saw farmers and workers struggling while industrialists enjoyed great wealth from exploiting the laborers. Sound familiar?

Anyway, I’ll let you check out more about the Wizard of Oz as an allegory here: if you’re interested in that. It’s been a long time since I first read the handout from my history teacher, but this article is from around the time period when I read about it, so it’s possible that this is the source material my teacher gave us alllll the way back in 1991.

Enough about The Wizard of Oz. What about “Wicked?”

BEWARE: FROM HERE ON OUT THERE ARE LOTS OF SPOILERS. DO NOT READ AHEAD IF YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT HAPPENS AND ARE STILL INTENDING ON SEEING THE FILM WITH FRESH EYES

I’ll start with the easiest things I picked out:

1) The Wizard is Adolf Hitler – For those of you who saw the “Wizard of Oz” you’ll remember that the Wizard doesn’t have any real power. He’s all smoke and mirrors. Literally. In “Wicked” it’s no different. Similarly, Hitler didn’t have any real power on his own. He used deception to gain the following of millions of Germans by using junk science and lies to convince the people that Germany was being kept down by the Jewish people instead of the economic sanctions placed on Germany by the Treaty of Versailles.

2) The Animals are the Jews – Oz spreads misinformation about the animals, claiming that they are sub-human and not only should they no longer have a voice but that they also belong in cages (concentration camps).

3) Madame Morrible is Joseph Goebbels – As I first left the theater, I thought that maybe Madame Morrible was representing the Japanese faction and that using Asian actress Michelle Yeoh was to lead viewers to associate the character with the Japanese even though Yeoh is not Japanese. The reason isn’t because I’m ignorant of her actual heritage, but because a lot of people see an Asian face and can’t recognize the fact that there are dozens of Asian countries with hundreds of millions of people. But after further consideration, I thought, “Well, Jeff Goldblum is playing a Hitler-esque character and he’s Jewish” so that probably was pretty far off. After thinking more about it, I think Morrible represents Goebbels as he was Hitler’s minister of propaganda, which is much more in line with the Morrible character. Morrible is looking for people who can prop up the Wizard’s mythos, just like Goebbels sought to manipulate the public’s opinion of the Jews much as Morrible did at Shiz University ($5 in virtual money, which is non-transferrable currency) says she’s the one who wrote on Doctor Dillamond’s board the day he had to leave class.

4) Doctor Dillamond is the “Scapegoat Jew” – Dillamond is literally a goat. Jews were used by Hitler as the scapegoats for the economic situation that Germany found itself in after World War I. The Treaty of Versailles imposed harsh sanctions on Germany including the demand that Germany pay reparations to the victorious Allied nations, disarm its military, and cede some of its territories. However, Hitler would tell the German people that the reason they were suffering was because the Jewish people were greedy and were hoarding a disproportionate amount of wealth that they would only give in trade to each other, therefore keeping that money out of the hands of the non-Jewish German people. He also claimed that Jewish merchants were guilty of price gouging the German people instead of recognizing that the hyperinflation occurring was because so much of the German money was now in the hands of foreign nations and no longer circulating in the German market.

5) That beautiful diorama of United Oz is a depiction of Hitler’s “Germania” – Hitler designed what he claimed was “the ideal Germany, “ starting with redesigning Berlin, which would serve as a world capital for his Reich. Large parts of Berlin were to be razed to make way for designs that Hitler deemed to be in keeping with his idea of proper German architecture. Modern designs, much like modern art, were viewed as the work of degenerates and representative of a “moral decline” in society. Hitler sought a Germany that incorporated many areas that belonged to other nations. The Wizard also seeks to unite the Emerald City with Gillikin Country, Quadling Country, Munchkin Country, and Winkie Country – all connected by a yellow brick road.

6) The Flying Monkeys are the Gestapo/SS/SA – They do the bidding for the Wizard by spying on the people and reporting back their findings to the Wizard. The flying monkeys also carry out violence on behalf of the Wizard, much like Hitler’s henchmen carried out many of the atrocities inflicted upon not just the Jews, but also ordinary German people such as clergymen and scholars who disagreed with Hitler’s antisemitic ideology and pushed for equal treatment of all German people. Many of the non-Jewish victims of Adolf Hitler were those who simply disagreed with the treatment of the Jewish people in Germany and countries that were overtaken by Germany during the war.

7) Elphaba is the “Resistance” – This one is pretty obvious. Elphaba stands up for marginalized groups and by doing so, she ends up being labeled as an enemy by the Wizard. Does she actually turn out to be a wicked person in Part 2? I honestly don’t know because I’m still trying to stay away from anything that would ruin the second part for me, especially since I have to wait an entire year to find out the conclusion. But something tells me that Elphaba may not be truly wicked. She’s just labeled as such because she has the guts to stand up to the Wizard, Morrible, and Glinda and, as we all know, history is written by the victors.

8) Glinda represents the German people who feel they can gain from siding with Hitler – also pretty obvious. Glinda, in search for acceptance from people she thinks are powerful (even if they’re not because, as we’ve seen, the only person with real “powers” is Elphaba). Glinda wants to be popular so it would make sense that she would cut ties with her best friend, Elphaba, in order to stay in the good graces of the Wizard, who the people believe to be their ideal leader. Glinda knows that the Wizard has no real powers like Elphaba does, but everyone loves the Wizard. He’s the most popular person in Oz. Glinda simply cannot side with Elphaba and reject the Wizard because by doing so she would become an outcast herself – which is something she simply cannot do.

I’m sure there are plenty of other things that I’ve missed, and maybe as I re-watch it, I’ll pick up on even more symbolism than I saw in the first viewing, so feel free to add anything that you picked up on that I may have not caught because I was too distracted by the bright shiny objects of the film itself. There was so much to take in and my poor little ADHD brain was having a hard time picking up on all of it. But I’m sure that somewhere out there my 11th grade History and English teachers are proud of me for picking up on so many historical things… unless I’m just totally wrong and “Wicked” is not at all an allegory. But I’m pretty sure I’m right.

Watching “Wicked” truly was a complete sensory experience for me but it also was very thought-provoking and, in my opinion, very timely. I’d love to see some English and History teachers collaborate on using Wicked as a teaching tool to show kids that symbolism isn’t just a vocabulary word in a textbook and that history isn’t just a list of dates and places. Seeing “Wicked” made me excited about teaching and I really think that kids would be more interested in actually thinking if they could see how it all ties together.

[florasearle]

Our Flag Means Death Paragraph-Rough: 

Our Flag Means Death (2022), is a romantic comedy series directed and created by David Jenkins. The series follows the relationship between Blackbeard and Stede Bonnet, as they develop more than just platonic feelings for one another. Stede Bonnet was a real-life historical figure that within the mainstream, not so many people know about. This is a surprise considering how intertwined Blackbeard and Bonnets lives were. Bonnet was a wealthy plantation owner in Barbados, who abandoned his comfortable and wealthy home for a life at sea. On a chance meeting in Nassau in 1717, after Bonnet had unsuccessfully attacked a Spanish Man of War Ship and was severely injured, Blackbeard took it upon himself to command Bonnets ship, the Revenge.  

“Teach, finding that Bonnet knew nothing of maritime life, and with the consent of his own men, put in another captain.”-Captain Johnson, 1724 

This agreement between the two men has been a great point of interest for historians, as Blackbeard’s motivation is unclear. The most likely possibility was that Teach planned to take over Bonnets ship from the inside. This is something that is touched on in episode four of the series, where Blackbeard tells his second in command, Israel Hands, that he plans to kill Stede and take his identity. Biographer Angus Constam, was of the opinion that Blackbeard took over because Bonnet’s vulnerability was clear, which would have allowed him to make Bonnet his prisoner. Blackbeard is obscured by the various rumours of him being a man of brutality, but this simply did not align with how Bonnet was treated, “Major Bonnet, but has no command, he walks about in his morning gown, then to his books” (Boston News Letter). The series takes on the rumour that the two had a romantic partnership, which is not far-fetched. Being a pirate would have been a draw for gay men as it was a homosocial environment. There was a culture of misogyny on ships, with captains such as Bartholomew Roberts going so far as to order the death of those whose bought women on-board. This is due to the superstition that women bought bad luck onto ships. 

“Men experiencing love or sex with each other on the high seas was not “liberation” or the embracing of a suppressed identity, it was simply a fact”.-Chrsitopher Miller, Historian. 

Much like most of the series, the show takes a stark departure from the facts and uses elements from both of the men's lives to inspire story lines. Throughout the series we are presented with flashbacks to Teach’s childhood memories of his abusive step father. This is taken from one of the many tales of Bristol legend, as it is believed Teach was regularly beaten by his step father and on breaking point, returned the favour, almost beating him to death. Within episode 6 of the series, Bonnet tricks a Dutch merchant ship by putting on a frightening play, using a crafted tentacle inspired by the legend of the Kraken to strike the final blow of fear into the merchants. The Kraken was mentioned previously in Blackbeard's tale of how his father had been killed, the Kraken not being this terrifying monster who victimized him, but Teach who had personally strangled him. This performance triggers Blackbeard, which leads to a breakdown and reveals his true nature: a sensitive man with no wishes to kill, “if I’m honest, I haven't killed another man since”. This is reflective of historical fact, as Blackbeard did indeed, not kill anyone until the day of his death.  

This emphasis on the sensitivity of Blackbeard is premiant to his character throughout this series, particularly when aligned to his aggressive second-in-command ‘Izzy Hands’. Whilst Hands tyrannically commands Bonnets crew, Blackbeard greets each one of them with informality. Despite popular belief, the hierarchal archetype we see in contemporary representations of piracy is inaccurate. In fact, the appeal of pirate ships was due to most being fair in equality that when merchants were raided by pirates, they would join them. Captains of merchant ships were notoriously violent, often torturing, starving and robbing their crew and there was no option to mutiny. Pirates on the other hand, elected their captain, had the option of mutiny, split plunders equally and slept all within the same quarters. However, as documented in The General History of the Pyrates, Blackbeard may have been an exception to this, described to go to the “greatest length of wickedness” and who tortured his crew by suffocating them in the Hold. The darker side of Blackbeard is revealed in the final episode after Bonnet abandons him, his anger taken to the torture of Hands. Blackbeard did in fact, accidentally shoot Hands in the knee, rendering him disabled for life. Once again, we do have to take these tales with a grain of salt, as it is believed that many of the rumors surrounding Blackbeard being a violent man are exaggerated tales, most likely provided by the young Hands, who was only 16 at the time of his piracy. 

The show touches on Blackbeard as being a victim of his reputation, and in turn, the effects on Stede’s perception of their relationship. Within episode 2, one of Bonnets crew, Black Pete, talks of his fabricated tale of his time working with Blackbeard. He describes Blackbeard as a man who when he kills “man, woman, or child, he just gets on with it”. Visuals of Blackbeard align with his tale, touching on the stereotypical presentations we often see in contemporary media: his head is smoke, his eyes glow and the floor pounds with every step he takes.

These representations are witnessed by Blackbeard when Stede presents to him a book in episode 4, his reaction being gone of disgust: “fucking vampire clown”. In this episode, the impact of his reputation is clear. He consoles Stede saying, “It's not even a challenge anymore. People just see the flag and they freak out”. Such is accurate when looking to The General History, where during his trade had “took what he liked...knowing well they dared not send him a bill”.  

Rhys Darby, actor of Bonnet explains how, 

“There's that moment where he just went, ‘oh god, I'm going to have to just leave this because otherwise this guy is not going to be who he supposed to be”. 

Such a moment is represented in the series whereupon Bonnet abandons Blackbeard for his family. Bonnets anxieties are incorrect because we as viewers know that is not who Blackbeard is supposed to be. In his sensitivity, Blackbeard can't see that he is more than his murderous image. Director of the series explains that Edward is “headed towards becoming the monster that people rumored him to be”, reflecting the real life of Blackbeard, who was unable to detach from the monster he wanted people to believe he was and in turn, made contemporary understanding to be deduced to that of legend. 

[missinglittlebritishfriend]

Fuck, marry, cuddle, kiss, get drunk with: you know who they are -.-

*s i g h*  -.-

i did this to myself, didn’t I?

welp, let’s begin

fuck: ummmmm idk we’ll come back to this one later (*coughs* why would you make me choose lmaooo)

marry: Joann, without a doubt. I just love her so much, you know? She’s the kind of person I could happily spend the rest of my life with. We are so similar in some ways and so different in others. We would support each other unconditionally and fdashfgldhslfgdhskl I JUST LOVE HER SO MUCH CAN YOU SEE?!?!

cuddle: probably Captain Georgiou? idk I just think she would be cuddly and warm. She would know when I’m feeling off and offer a break to cuddle or just spend some quiet time together. I like quiet times and I think she would like them too.

kiss: Michael! Kissing just goes against everything she learned in Vulcan. There’s no reasoning behind it, just the expression of illogical feelings, but in her journey she’s been rediscovering (yes i know it’s bad) and experiencing these human emotions again. Just like her, I have never been inclined to those kinds of feelings before, so it would be cool to experience this together... and who wouldn’t want to kiss Michael, right??

get drunk with: KEYLA because can you imAGINE THE POSSIBILITIES?!?! I’ve never gotten drunk but, you know how I am while sober, so just IMAGINE how I could be while drunk. And KEYLA?!?! Her cocky and macho personality would just multiply x100000 and I’m so here for it. Doing the stupidest shit imaginable, going absolutely feral and having fun together?! Y E S. We would be fucking unstoppable and a hazard to society. DEAL WITH US UNIVERSE!!!! >:D

fuck: and I guess I’m fucking Emperor Georgiou because WHY NOT. Honestly idk why I even left it to the end. I would be dead even if she doesn’t directly kill me and I’d be thankful anyways. There’s no better way to die ;)

send me five names to fuck, marry, kiss, cuddle and get drunk with!

[thestrangestthing89]

If they wanted Will to have a boyfriend who wasn't Mike, S4 was the perfect time to explore that. Instead they spent all of that season establishing that Will is in love with Mike and wants to be with him. The story isn't that he's gay and wants to date. It's that he's gay and in love with his best friend. The story is byler and they have more than established that at this point. Throwing something like this in makes zero sense. A lot of this fandom completely forgets that each season builds off of the one before it and they don't exists as separate things. Will's entire story is leading to Mike. There is no reason to throw in a random character just to cause pointless drama in the final season when there are so many other things that need to be addressed. This isn't a soap opera. I say that as someone who loves soap opera drama. That just isn't the genre of this show. Not only that, but we already got to see Mike jealous that Will was having a great life without him in S4. It's all there. We already watched this. It's really disturbing how easy people believe what they see online without thinking twice about it. It's the entire reason there was so much drama about Noah and why people have these weird relationships with the show and cast in general. None of these leaks are real. It's easy enough to figure out if you watched the show and can follow a story. People are so desperate for any bit of news that they are more than willing to believe anything. Just wait for the show to come out. It's not even like it's that far off. There is this aggressive quality to how much people insist all of these leaks are real or possible. They need to have info in a way that's just not healthy. Their entire emotional state depends on getting any kind of info so they don't think it through before believing it. It's possible to just wait for the show to come out and not spend all day scouring the internet for some mention of the show regardless of whether or not it makes sense. And why would you want the whole show to be ruined beforehand anyway?

Not to get all boomer, but back in my day people waited years between each Harry Potter book. I don't recall people acting this entitled to information or going insane the second some random person made something up. If people want to have crack ships, that's fine. But go write fanfic instead of having an emotional breakdown every damn day over nothing.

People believing what they read on Twitter and bringing it here reminds me of everything I hated about the lead up to season 4.

Are we really so quick to forget how many fake leaks there were just because there were also some that were true?