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does any other demiromantic (or arosepc doesnt rlly matter) feel like. extremely awful when they experience romantic attraction or is that just me.
#spacie spoinks#bruh#like. while im experiencing it i wish so badly that i wasnt 😭#i feel disgusted. is this what romantic repulsion is???#cuz like ill be experiencing all the lovey dovey stuff yk#''ooohb i wanna kiss dem oooh what if we help hands'' romantic crap but its like. anxiety inducing#like it feels awful??? is this normally how it feels?? i dont like it.#it like. doesnt feel right or natural and im assuming its b/c i just like?? barely feel it ever?? and thats why???#strange as hell.#i recently felt romantic attraction 2 someone (it has been 2 or 3 years since i last felt it) and it came on really strong for like#a week and that was like the worst week of my life#i couldnt think abt anything else but them like it wasnt even like. fantasies or anything just like.#the concept of them. my brain would just be like ''hey remember this guy''#I LIKE COULDNT SLEEP#HOW DO YOU PPL ENJOY THIS????#me; clutching my head for ~a week: AUUUGH!! THE PERSON!!! THE PERSON!!!!!#im so serious this is how it feels w/springtrap. hes like a blight on my psyche#the feelings have faded mostly i think. i think im normal abt them again (thank god)#its so strange. i think a romantic relationship would be fun but then i start feeling the feelings and its. awful.#so horrid#also like. im considering that maybe the relationship i would like some day isnt romantic but a qpr#idk. ive never been in any kind of serious relationship (never wanted 2 and have never been approached for it)#sometjing 2 think abt i guess?#anybeans. i tire.#hope i never experience that again#ik that like in 2-3 years ill be like: ''man. idk what past spacie was talking abt. would be nice 2 feel romantic attraction again''#NO SPACIE IT WONT!!! REMEMBER!!!!!! REMEMBER WHAT YOU WENT THRU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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BOO!




oh sorry….come in…..hello…welcome to my halloween party ^_^ feel free to take a piece of candy and a goodie bag before you go okay? have a fun (and nostalgic) halloween season!!
#seems like many people related to this i hope some of yall click the og post now <3#originally this post said i dont need therapy i need to be 8 years old at halloween again#kora.txt#gritting my teeth white knuckle gripping the edge of the table. Yeah No Its Fine.#the things i will never experience again haunt me…#8 is arbitrary. anything before like. 15. would work.
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Happy New Year!! 🎉🐍
It's the year of the snake, so who better to celebrate it with than our resident snake boy?
I may not be the best with words, but I really appreciate everyone that has showed me support in the past year. You guys have been amazing, and I hope to see you around in the new year too ❤
Thank you for an incredible 2024, and wishing everyone a wonderful 2025!
#my art#twisted wonderland#twst#jamil viper#oc#twst oc#shiokawa mayu#jamimayu#seriously i never expected this much support when i began posting last summer#i may not be able to respond to every comment or ask but i really really appreciate it#and to every mutual#while im not able to write messages to or prepare gifts for everyone#my fandom experience would not have been this much fun without you#so thank you once again and i hope to make many more fun memories this year#(i really hoped to finish this on jan 1 but ended up being too busy to oof)#however it's not the next day to me until after i sleep and wake up so 😤#also you will NOT be able to guess how many times i rewrote the calligraphy#including scrapping all attempts with english
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Follow up to my "israel called a nuclear bomb to strike gaza" post...
Remember the ant-walking alligator people?



If Isreal strikes Gaza, Palestine with a nuclear bomb, then history will repeat itself.
We cannot let humans become ant walking alligators again.
We can not let Israel nuke Palistine.
Fuck Minister Netanyahu, fuck Isreal and fuck everyone supporting Isreal.
#free palestine#free gaza#strike for palestine#palestine#gaza#fuck isreal#i hope everyone who supports isreal never experiences happiness in their lives ever again.#they dont deserve happiness.
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RULES OF BEING OTHERKIN #1
Being authentic and true to yourself is the only way you are 'supposed to be/act like' (insert entity). If anyone else disagrees it only tells you about them.
#going to start a small 'series' where I document stuff I learn that is otherkin specific. This is for myself as well as anyone who might#be struggling with things I used to/am working on(otherkin specific). hopefully this will reduce any mental pitfalls other otherkin may#fall into as they explore their identity and help out someone.#this 'rule' took a LONG time to fully understand and grasp. for the longest time I would consciously or subconsciously#think I was less Loki if I did or was something 'Loki would never do. until i realized I do exactly and experience exactly what Loki does#and experiences because...Im literally Loki. (talking about incarnations here). I felt pressured to be a certain way because 'Loki would#never (insert). being aroace is on of them. i tried to convince myself I wasn't aroace#and when I finally ran out of reasons i felt i was 'less Loki' because mythologically hes like the opposite. but Loki IS aroace. because#Im Loki. and Im aroace. so loki is SUPPOSED to be aroace because Im loki and im being exactly how loki is being. because im loki. being#myself. therefore being exactly like Loki. again - incarnation.#anyway....if anyone else struggles with this I hope this helps someone. its a really sucky place to be in honestly.#godkin#deitykin#alterhuman#otherkin#divinekin#nonhuman#alterbeing#therian#I think I will be learning a LOT more as I keep exploring and I will note down any 'rules' I learn - more like lessons but rules personally#sound more right for me. rules i will live by (yknow unless i find out im wrong but...im going to trust myself more and right now i feel#like this rule is true. so im using it as such unless i find out im wrong in future.
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GIVE SERIZAWA HIS CURLS BACK!!!!
#myart#art#artists on tumblr#artist#doodle#digital art#mp100#mob psycho#mob psycho 100#mob psycho fanart#mp fanart#mp100 fanart#mob psycho 100 serizawa#mp100 serizawa#mob psycho serizawa#serizawa katsuya#katsuya serizawa#ignore if i never draw him like this again im really inconsistent.#im just experimenting so i may not draw him exactly like this later dont get ur hopes up. but hes so hot like this i wont liee!!#im abouta get freaky rn#hes got that look because hes seen the things ive said about him#sorry kitten...#i mean serizawa.
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im gonna start posting fanfic recs btw whenever i find good ones. both here and my (awfully barren) 18+ account. because there are so many good fics out there with so few hits and fewer kudos and sometimes no comments period and it SUCKS because i REALLY LIKE THEM A LOT.. and i hope that by linking them here and yelling at everyone to COMMENT DAMMIT they might actually do it
seriously though any comment means a lot. most people who read a fic don’t even give a kudos. even if the fic wasn’t top tier, if you didn’t dislike it, hand over some kudos!! and if you liked it, comment!!!! even if the comment is one singular heart emoji it will be appreciated. if the comment just says “great fic!” the author will be happy. your comment doesn’t have to be this long winded gushing or analysis.
so many authors quit writing or lose motivation because the comments are few and far in between or just sometimes nonexistent. trust me when i say authors don’t care about how long or cool or smart sounding your comment is i promise!!!
i hope that mmmaybe recommending fics and telling people to comment might help fics i really like get more support maybe. and i, points at you reading this, hope that you will listen!!!at least a little….at least sum kudos….
#if u have the ability to reply to my reblog saying how much you loved the fic i recommended comment on the fic itself so the author can see!#especially since the rise of ai writing and seeing ai fics out there can be disheartening#make sure you let your writers know you appreciate them#you never know they might one day write a sequel bc your comment touched them#or might get the motivation to make more works.#(but don’t just comment bc you expect something out of it btw. sometimes the author might be too intimidated to reply ive seen that before)#im a huge yapper. if you can’t tell. lmfao.#and i mostly comment on guest. like 99% of the time because the fics are either really embarrassing#or i get nervous about them knowing me/finding my tumblr and thinking im cringw#bc i admire authors so much. and I get that nervousness! given I experience it!!! but guest mode EXISTS!!! most work allows you to comment#on guest mode!! the author CANT see the email you use for it!!! the only reason they even ask is to give you notifs if theres a reply to it!#a comment is still a comment even if on guest or an alt or your main#even if the fic is embarrassing shameful depraved smut you can log out and comment on guest. even if it’s embarrassing#because the author still worked HARD. it’s so hard to write. people don’t give enough credit to fic authors who do it for free#i had an account (now super abandoned) that had over 400k words. and that didn’t include wips#i reallg do struggle to write because i took a break for so long!!! i can write but not nearly as much as I used to!!! and it sucks!!!#support your authors guys. 1k words is an hour for the first draft at MINIMUM and another hour for revision and editing. and people get#pissy if a fic chapter is less than 3-4k words for some reason. that’s 6-8 hours of work at MINIMUM. likely so much more because there’s#also plotting and brainstorming and So. Much. Editing. stressing out over words and sentence structure. it takes so much time out of your#day. the only oneshot i have posted on this account is 2460 words. and it took me SEVEN HOURS#seven hours!!!! that’s a lot!!!! and for authors that have school or demanding jobs that kind of time is hard to come by!!!!!#and I hope i have convinced at least one of you to listen and go okay you know what. i will. because even if it’s a silly comment it’s loved#tldr support your local fanfic authors of you will be so stabbed. by me#fanfiction#fanfic#archive of our own#ao3#comment on fics#wick fic recs#that’s the rec tag btw. wow custom tags AGAIN i know. im doing what i thought i never would
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#you#...#you...#Congrats with surviving... I hope it wasn't too bad...#We had something similar last year#We live in a kind of a distant village#And our streets are connected to one heating system#And it was so cold last year that this station just broke#Me and my sister have been without water electricity and heat first day *giggle* It was funny to wear 2 complects of cloths and jacket#It was... like... -14 inside of home? *giggle*#On the second day we at least got electricity back and got a little heater (We were separated from parents so the have been calling 3#times per day XDD) We closed all doors to not let the heat outside#Since we got sick and couldn't take a shower#We were able to go to school but we looked like shit XDD#Then we were lying next 2 days like potatoes in one room with a heater... it felt awful XDD#They couldn't fix the main heating system for almost 3 days#It was... funny.... never want to experience the same again and hope you will not too
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Your blog is the only blog where I feel safe enough asking this question. What do you think of Percy Jackson fans who feel as though they and the series have a moral superiority to Harty Potter ? Obviously, Harry Potter and its author are laden with questionable and sometimes straight-up hateful takes and views. But the way PJO fans constantly compare the two, its authors (even though RR is far from flawless), and the two MCs (ignoring how the two both share similarities in the fact that they are both traumatised, abused, angry teenage boys). I'm sorry that this ask got so long, but this has been annoying me for a while now.
This is an interesting question - for one, fandom fights over superiority is a concept that has been around for ages and has never been constructive. PJO and HP fandoms have been fighting in that exact way (and it has gone both ways!) for literal decades (remember, PJO turns 20 this year) so this isn't new, it's just taken on a moral flavor. Let's go over some things though (but please keep in mind i never got into HP and never read the books or fully watched the movies so my knowledge of HP is primarily pop culture absorption/secondhand from my family and friends):
Are either series perfect? No. HP absolutely is full of hateful sentiments and JKR is a hateful person and I do not respect her for that. Disney's marketing recently has absolutely fully leaned into trying to put Rick above her as a moral paragon and emphasizing how progressive he is and his support of diversity in middle grade series, despite some failings to reflect that in the actual text. Are Rick and JKR equally bad? Definitely not. Rick has had tangible good influence on adhd/dyslexia awareness that very directly impacted people like me as a neurodivergent kid going through school in the 2000s. JKR meanwhile has directly negatively impacted trans laws internationally very recently.
Rick absolutely isn't perfect, but he's vocally supportive, has made a lot of effort in the past to be inclusive, and still attempts to do so. Most of his issues simply stem from his own unaddressed internalized bigotry/biases and his research on varying topics not being great (plus poor management decisions such as not hiring a sensitivity reader actually fit for the story he's trying to tell). But he's not hateful. JKR is. JKR is very vocally hateful and bigoted and this is absolutely reflected in her work as well even in earlier HP. They are comparable in that they are both middle grade authors of easily two of the most popular middle grade fantasy (or specifically hidden world fantasy) series out right now. They are not equivalent in the slightest in their bigotry or tangible damage.
In terms of Percy versus Harry, I personally don't think they're very comparable. They share some similarities, but mostly just in that they're both the protagonists of their stories and thus serve protagonist purposes. Beyond that their use within the narrative is pretty different functionally. Their worlds' magic systems are not comparable. The hidden world aspect in both their universes isn't even comparable, since in PJO the "hidden world" aspect is very different from most hidden world fantasy formats because the entire point is that it's functionally not a hidden world. The characters themselves are very different as well - Percy's personality and the way he behaves and reacts to his environment is absolutely nothing like Harry's.
Most of the anti-HP-in-general sentiments stem from wanting to cut off JKR's notoriety, which I think is valid to want to do. And I do think there are a lot of issues with continuing to support JKR's work especially in ways that functionally promote her work or support her financially. Obviously, we will never be able to scrub HP from the cultural zeitgeist. It's just not feasible and I'm very anti-book burning so I do think it's important to acknowledge the role HP has had in pop-culture alongside acknowledging its harmful materials. HP is a text you absolutely can't death-of-the-author your way out of because a lot of the vitriol is baked into the text and worldbuilding in very overt ways - and there are plenty of other pop-culture staple novels like this. But fandom in general, at least true fandom and not mainstream fandom, is so obscure most of the time that I don't think, so long as people are not ignoring negative themes of the source material and are being thoughtful as they navigate engaging with it, that it is an inherently bad thing for HP fandom to just exist at all. It's never going to just stop existing no matter what people do. And HP fandom are not the only ones who should be thoughtful about how they engage with their source material - PJO fandom is not exempt from examining some of the problematic aspects in our own text and figuring out how to be respectful with those topics. It's just a lot easier for PJO fandom to tune it out without it being noticed because there's less of it and it's (at least sometimes) less overt. Honestly if HP fandom decided to go more down the path of a fandom like Warriors or Miraculous Ladybug, where the average sentiment is more along the lines of "Oh god no don't read/watch the source material it sucks/we stopped paying attention to it year ago and it's not relevant at all to what we're up to. We're over here functionally rewriting everything from the ground up/doing our own thing" I would very much support them in that endeavor. I do think there is merit in limiting promotion of the HP source material as much as possible, though.
Hopefully that all makes at least some amount of sense.
#pjo#riordanverse#hp#harry potter#< hm. was kind of hoping those tags would never end up on this blog#long post //#i will say i dont like. have any particular stake in this game again vis a vis i have never had any sort of connection to hp#so it doesnt hold any kind of nostalgia or affection for me. i do not care what happens to anything relating to it at all#other than potentially wanting the franchise to crumble#if anything regarding my experiences with it i potentially hold a minor grudge towards it cause one time when i was younger at Universal#i nearly fell out of whatever that one ride i think with the hippogriff cause the lapbars on it are SHIIIIIT and i am a Very Small Person#like im small now i was even smaller then#so it just would not secure far enough down to actually hold me in the seat and the ride goes like at a 90 degree angle on some turns#anyways thats like. the extent of my experience with HP. i do not care for it#but yeah never forget your history - pjo and hp fandoms have like literally always had beef#i cannot begin to describe how not new it is for either fandom to claim superiority over the other#it is literally one of those classic fandom arguments except the book fandoms flavor of it#i think one of the old big arguments as far as i remember was HP fans lording having a faithful movie adaptation over pjo fans#im pretty sure in fandomstuck they're kismeses#then again pjo never got much stuff in fandomstuck#< sentences that only make sense if you're old like me#ask#Anonymous
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My true self still loves Tommyinnit I am still an inniter at heart I have not changed
#I have changed but he’s still in my heart#that time during 2020-2022 has such a place in my heart because of how lonely everything felt#Call me parasocial I KNOW it’s crazy cause everyone I hear anything of him or watch one of his videos again (I’m not a consistent viewer#anymore but I still watch him form time to time) I feel like I’m catching up with a friend cause that’s really how I feel about him it feel#like talking to an old friend who was with me during that time it’s very onesided considering I only know him and he doesn’t know me but it#feels like we’re friends of course I’m not delusional if I ever meet him I have enough sense to not act as if we’re close despite that#feelings of friendship/fellowship he is still someone I admire as not exactly a role model but someone I’d like to be like I don’t want to#say hero cause that’s not the exact things I feel (plus it’s probably make his head all big) but he’s definitely someone who gives/beings m#hope into who I’ll be in the future for soooo many reasons#I wanted to be a YouTuber when I was younger like in 5th grade since that was my whole life back then and I was obsessed but I didn’t feel#I could do it but Tommy is only a little older than me and we’re so similar in our interests and intensity of fanboying/fangirling that it#was so much fun living bi-curiously through his achievements and streams back then he did mostly everything I would have wanted to do if I#was in his place I’m sure it wasn’t easy for him since he was 16 when he blew up and COVID was such an impactful event for everyone and#their experiences that year but I’m really proud of him I really care and love him he’s an inspiration to me and a friend in some way to hi#fans he did say once that he most likely would be friends with his audience since they like all the things he likes and I found that funny#since it was so true#I’m rooting for him in anything he does or wants to succeed in I know he’ll do it#tommyinnit#dsmp#THIS IS AN OLD DRAFT I NEVER POSTED AND I STILL STAND ON IT#LOVE YOU TOMMY KEEP DOING WHAT YOU LOVE#❤️❤️❤️
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Nando being silly in S2E2 of his doc 🥺
#well...i wrote tags for this and queued it and yet it didnt post at all and was back in my drafts w no tags#tumblr never ceases to amaze me!#i wrote tags at like 4 am so i have no memory#and i dont realtl wanna write them again so I hope this vid speaks for itself#tho i will say:#i guess i find it cute how soft spoken and polite and silly he is in all these#i think its funny to see a 'celebrity' experience the same awkwardness of covid times#like when hes just awkwardly standing there and staring as his bag gets disinfected#and like seeing him w service workers and he tries to be somewhat serious and then cant help but be silly#THE SINGING PART IS THE BEST OKAY.#f1#formula 1#fernando alonso#we do a little bit of f1#fernando(show)#fernando s2e2
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just thought of stamps treatment of elendira again ..no .. NOO
#what the hell did she ever do to them#i saw a twt abt trigun stargaze (?) stamp s2 (?)#and how its 2 yrs after season one and i first got sad bc i was hoping for her og design revival#but then i remembered they made her a CHILD????#& not even that but the ?? what was it . changed her into a half plant prototype ?#canonical trans woman changed into child laboratory experiment like what compelled you to do that.why#no i cant even think ab it too much or i legitimately get upset HELPP#LIKE SHES ONE OF MY FVAORITE CHARACTERS EVER AND THEY RUINED WUITE LITERALLY EVERYTHING THAT I LOVED ABT HER#ugh.xAIHHGGHJHG#elendira#sometimes i wish . soo hard that i could j be normal and like things and have fun#but im such a stickler abt consistency w characters and stories such that any deviation makes me like .no#i cant deal w it HELPPP we need to adhere by character bibles again . we need to maintain the general chronological order of events#wlfwood characterization is a mess across the board and introducing late stage concepts / characters / plot devices early#just messes w the story in irreparable ways imo😭#yess ‘stamp was never meant to be max’ i get it .. but 98 accomplished what stmp couldnt#with 16% the published og materialHELP#all of this AND u made legato ugly as fuck LIKEE GIVE ME SOMETHINGG.? rem too omg..
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DARK THUNDER ⚡️: 6/6 PAGES
#sin scribbles#bloodborne#hunter oc#good hunter#hunter bloodborne#good hunter bloodborne#(HAPPY HALLOWEEN YALL I FINISHED THIS MINI COMIC LOL)#(again lmao not as polished as altar bc altar is enough of a time sink as is)#(but i hope you still enjoy this little glimpse into aloyshas story hhhhhhhh.....)#(also say hi to the new boys!!!!)#(tldr aloysha is not what she seems and the clergy knows it)#(her brother however likes to pretend that isnt the case despite being part of the clergy himself)#(whether thats to protect his sister or his own best interests is another story)#(church hunter rurik though sees right through him 👀)#(THIS WAS A FUN EXPERIMENT I NEVER DO INKING STUFF not since one of my first bb fanarts omg)
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the 5 stages of grief are for losers only. being delusional rocks
#fandom#dnd#if i live in a land of illusion eventually it will manifest. i never stop winning#''that's 3 failed death saving throws.'' not to me it's not!#the typical critical role watching experince#molly's dead. he's alive again! he's dead again. he's alive again!! all because i NEVER GAVE UP HOPE#staying in the denial/bargaining stage until i die#i say desperately hoping gojo comes back#hey at least it paid off for nobara#paid off like nothing has ever paid off before this is actually so insane#anyways this post is technically about jjk but also every fandom death experience ever#jjk#jjk spoilers#jjk leaks#jujutsu kaisen#nobara kugisaki#critical role#mollymauk tealeaf#the mighty nein#andis thought geyser
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I tried :']
#welcome home#kayaks dumb doodles#eddie dear#the orange looks like a potato but. i couldnt make it bright orange#first time doing something like this#remind me to never go into capcut blind again#that was. an experience#hi to people to read tags :>#how are you guys?#i just watched ghost stories :]#it was really funny#i havent been as active on here-#twitter brainrot has seeped its way into my life#uhh so thats me lately#sorry for rambling idk why i am#hope anyone reading is having a nice day <3!
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While I absolutely hate not posting, I'm also very glad Soli is on mini-july break because guess who has two thumbs and just spent the past two days in a migraine coma!? THIS GUYYyyowowwww.
#never been so glad that I'm not at any of the numerous events I put the comic on mini vacation for#being in a con hotel with a migraine is something i have experienced and never want to experience again#that was ax 2005#that was Pain#got lucky every other year I went and never got struck down again#except for the year I went a week early to stay with friends and got a migraine a few days before#but a friend's quiet couch is far better than a con hotel for that#anyway!! thanks to having a couple of new messages during my coma I remembered I had other messages I meant to answr WOOPS#I will poke those once my postdrome lets up a bit#I do hope everyone AT a con or on vacation is having a great time!! No migraines ok? I will take your migraine for you#or wait I guess it's no longer sunday#so people who WENT TO a con or are going to the upcoming ones#you better have good times or had good times!#WHAT DAY IS IT
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