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does any other demiromantic (or arosepc doesnt rlly matter) feel like. extremely awful when they experience romantic attraction or is that just me.
#spacie spoinks#bruh#like. while im experiencing it i wish so badly that i wasnt 😭#i feel disgusted. is this what romantic repulsion is???#cuz like ill be experiencing all the lovey dovey stuff yk#''ooohb i wanna kiss dem oooh what if we help hands'' romantic crap but its like. anxiety inducing#like it feels awful??? is this normally how it feels?? i dont like it.#it like. doesnt feel right or natural and im assuming its b/c i just like?? barely feel it ever?? and thats why???#strange as hell.#i recently felt romantic attraction 2 someone (it has been 2 or 3 years since i last felt it) and it came on really strong for like#a week and that was like the worst week of my life#i couldnt think abt anything else but them like it wasnt even like. fantasies or anything just like.#the concept of them. my brain would just be like ''hey remember this guy''#I LIKE COULDNT SLEEP#HOW DO YOU PPL ENJOY THIS????#me; clutching my head for ~a week: AUUUGH!! THE PERSON!!! THE PERSON!!!!!#im so serious this is how it feels w/springtrap. hes like a blight on my psyche#the feelings have faded mostly i think. i think im normal abt them again (thank god)#its so strange. i think a romantic relationship would be fun but then i start feeling the feelings and its. awful.#so horrid#also like. im considering that maybe the relationship i would like some day isnt romantic but a qpr#idk. ive never been in any kind of serious relationship (never wanted 2 and have never been approached for it)#sometjing 2 think abt i guess?#anybeans. i tire.#hope i never experience that again#ik that like in 2-3 years ill be like: ''man. idk what past spacie was talking abt. would be nice 2 feel romantic attraction again''#NO SPACIE IT WONT!!! REMEMBER!!!!!! REMEMBER WHAT YOU WENT THRU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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BOO!
oh sorry….come in…..hello…welcome to my halloween party ^_^ feel free to take a piece of candy and a goodie bag before you go okay? have a fun (and nostalgic) halloween season!!
#seems like many people related to this i hope some of yall click the og post now <3#originally this post said i dont need therapy i need to be 8 years old at halloween again#kora.txt#gritting my teeth white knuckle gripping the edge of the table. Yeah No Its Fine.#the things i will never experience again haunt me…#8 is arbitrary. anything before like. 15. would work.
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Follow up to my "israel called a nuclear bomb to strike gaza" post...
Remember the ant-walking alligator people?
If Isreal strikes Gaza, Palestine with a nuclear bomb, then history will repeat itself.
We cannot let humans become ant walking alligators again.
We can not let Israel nuke Palistine.
Fuck Minister Netanyahu, fuck Isreal and fuck everyone supporting Isreal.
#free palestine#free gaza#strike for palestine#palestine#gaza#fuck isreal#i hope everyone who supports isreal never experiences happiness in their lives ever again.#they dont deserve happiness.
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RULES OF BEING OTHERKIN #1
Being authentic and true to yourself is the only way you are 'supposed to be/act like' (insert entity). If anyone else disagrees it only tells you about them.
#going to start a small 'series' where I document stuff I learn that is otherkin specific. This is for myself as well as anyone who might#be struggling with things I used to/am working on(otherkin specific). hopefully this will reduce any mental pitfalls other otherkin may#fall into as they explore their identity and help out someone.#this 'rule' took a LONG time to fully understand and grasp. for the longest time I would consciously or subconsciously#think I was less Loki if I did or was something 'Loki would never do. until i realized I do exactly and experience exactly what Loki does#and experiences because...Im literally Loki. (talking about incarnations here). I felt pressured to be a certain way because 'Loki would#never (insert). being aroace is on of them. i tried to convince myself I wasn't aroace#and when I finally ran out of reasons i felt i was 'less Loki' because mythologically hes like the opposite. but Loki IS aroace. because#Im Loki. and Im aroace. so loki is SUPPOSED to be aroace because Im loki and im being exactly how loki is being. because im loki. being#myself. therefore being exactly like Loki. again - incarnation.#anyway....if anyone else struggles with this I hope this helps someone. its a really sucky place to be in honestly.#godkin#deitykin#alterhuman#otherkin#divinekin#nonhuman#alterbeing#therian#I think I will be learning a LOT more as I keep exploring and I will note down any 'rules' I learn - more like lessons but rules personally#sound more right for me. rules i will live by (yknow unless i find out im wrong but...im going to trust myself more and right now i feel#like this rule is true. so im using it as such unless i find out im wrong in future.
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GIVE SERIZAWA HIS CURLS BACK!!!!
#myart#art#artists on tumblr#artist#doodle#digital art#mp100#mob psycho#mob psycho 100#mob psycho fanart#mp fanart#mp100 fanart#mob psycho 100 serizawa#mp100 serizawa#mob psycho serizawa#serizawa katsuya#katsuya serizawa#ignore if i never draw him like this again im really inconsistent.#im just experimenting so i may not draw him exactly like this later dont get ur hopes up. but hes so hot like this i wont liee!!#im abouta get freaky rn#hes got that look because hes seen the things ive said about him#sorry kitten...#i mean serizawa.
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#you#...#you...#Congrats with surviving... I hope it wasn't too bad...#We had something similar last year#We live in a kind of a distant village#And our streets are connected to one heating system#And it was so cold last year that this station just broke#Me and my sister have been without water electricity and heat first day *giggle* It was funny to wear 2 complects of cloths and jacket#It was... like... -14 inside of home? *giggle*#On the second day we at least got electricity back and got a little heater (We were separated from parents so the have been calling 3#times per day XDD) We closed all doors to not let the heat outside#Since we got sick and couldn't take a shower#We were able to go to school but we looked like shit XDD#Then we were lying next 2 days like potatoes in one room with a heater... it felt awful XDD#They couldn't fix the main heating system for almost 3 days#It was... funny.... never want to experience the same again and hope you will not too
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28 October / I think it’s gonna be okay guys !
#IM GONNA REGRET POSTING MY INSANELY SLEEP DEPRIVED MUG#but this way y’all can experience the glow up with me over the next 4 months#plus only like 7 of y’all will see this atp anywayaasss so im still faceless on my Main heheheeeee#Btw my hair is naturally curly and I swear the shitty fringe I cut the other day looks better on my curly hair LMAO#but I randomly straightened it today#also usually have a septum piercing but I’m going through a phase where I want it gone LolLl it’ll b back likely#it’s literally still in my nose rn just hiding#proof I went outside !!#october#24 DAYS LEFT BEING 24 TOMORROW HELP#idk y I thought posting face reveal gonna make y’all hate me but oh well#probs bc I been in my flop era too long and im projectingg#also period rn makin me feel so gross but idgaf imma try get back into life#ahahahahahaahaha y m I posting my crusty ass rn idk im silly#also the more I look at these pics the more I hated myself so I’m never gonna look again LOLol#someone make me quit yappin arghhhkfbthtn#ily#hope ur day is slaying#YAKULTII
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'I flirted with the idea that instead of being trans that I was just a cross-dresser (a quirk, I thought, that could be quietly folded into an otherwise average life) and that my dysphoria was sexual in nature, and sexual only. And if my feelings were only sexual, then, I wondered, perhaps I wasn’t actually trans.
I had read about a book called The Man Who Would Be Queen, by a Northwestern University professor who believed that transwomen who were attracted to women were really confused fetishists, they wanted to be women to satisfy an autogynephilia. And though I first read about this book in the context of its debunkment and disparagement, I thought about the electricity of slipping on those tights, zipping up those boots, and a stream of guilt followed. Maybe this professor was right, and maybe I was only a fetishist. Not trans, just a misguided boy.
About a year later, on the Internet, I come across a transwoman who added a unique message to the crowd refuting this professor. Oh, I wish I remember who this woman was, and I wish even more that I could do better than paraphrase her, but I remember her saying something like this: “Well, of course I feel sexy putting on women’s clothing and having a woman’s body. If you feel comfortable in your body for the first time, won’t that probably mean it’ll be the first time you feel comfortable, too, with delighting in your body as a sexual thing?”'
-Casey Plett, Consciousness
#this quote always moves me almost to tears when i remember it#i'm not a trans woman and i don't share the author's specific experiences with transition#but it really moves me that she frame transition as joyfully giving yourself permission to approach your body#not as something that has to be disciplined and deprived and made small in all these various ways#but as a means for experiencing pleasure and joy and delight and for insisting that our feelings and desires are worth#valuing and exploring and treasuring#i always used to think of prioritizing those things for myself as selfish and irresponsible#but who does it harm to want to experience pleasure in your own body?#it's such a beautifully simple and powerful switch to have flip in your head#and equally why are we forced to deny our own pleasure in transition and anything else related to our bodies in the name of moral rectitude#this is why i get so confused and pissed off when other trans people are fatphobic for example#like why are you so invested in politics of shame and disgust that never had any purpose other than#violently disciplining people as if they've violated moral codes by existing in a body#to say nothing of white people being racist in gay and trans communities#like again this system of violence is foundational to homophobia and transphobia#so why are you acting like it has nothing to do with you#even if you are unmoved by the urgency of other people's suffering which btw you should be moved by#what do you hope to gain by acting a collaborator and handmaiden to those systems#Casey Plett#she really is one of my favorite authors i wish more non-canadians read her#this quote is from a series of columns she did ont transition and every single one is a banger#i love when she talks about the people-pleasing elements of dysphoria and transition denial#she's so sharp about noting how many of us deny our own dysphoria on the grounds that others like and validate our bodies#that's how i always felt during my cis conventionally feminine era#it pleased other people so much and also that reception felt so hollow and joyless to me because i hated it#i get less of that positive feedback but that feels so unimportant next to the joy and pleasure i get to experience#said with the understanding that i'm very privileged in being able to prioritize those things without fear. but it was a switch flip#personal nonsense
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Nando being silly in S2E2 of his doc 🥺
#well...i wrote tags for this and queued it and yet it didnt post at all and was back in my drafts w no tags#tumblr never ceases to amaze me!#i wrote tags at like 4 am so i have no memory#and i dont realtl wanna write them again so I hope this vid speaks for itself#tho i will say:#i guess i find it cute how soft spoken and polite and silly he is in all these#i think its funny to see a 'celebrity' experience the same awkwardness of covid times#like when hes just awkwardly standing there and staring as his bag gets disinfected#and like seeing him w service workers and he tries to be somewhat serious and then cant help but be silly#THE SINGING PART IS THE BEST OKAY.#f1#formula 1#fernando alonso#we do a little bit of f1#fernando(show)#fernando s2e2
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just thought of stamps treatment of elendira again ..no .. NOO
#what the hell did she ever do to them#i saw a twt abt trigun stargaze (?) stamp s2 (?)#and how its 2 yrs after season one and i first got sad bc i was hoping for her og design revival#but then i remembered they made her a CHILD????#& not even that but the ?? what was it . changed her into a half plant prototype ?#canonical trans woman changed into child laboratory experiment like what compelled you to do that.why#no i cant even think ab it too much or i legitimately get upset HELPP#LIKE SHES ONE OF MY FVAORITE CHARACTERS EVER AND THEY RUINED WUITE LITERALLY EVERYTHING THAT I LOVED ABT HER#ugh.xAIHHGGHJHG#elendira#sometimes i wish . soo hard that i could j be normal and like things and have fun#but im such a stickler abt consistency w characters and stories such that any deviation makes me like .no#i cant deal w it HELPPP we need to adhere by character bibles again . we need to maintain the general chronological order of events#wlfwood characterization is a mess across the board and introducing late stage concepts / characters / plot devices early#just messes w the story in irreparable ways imo😭#yess ‘stamp was never meant to be max’ i get it .. but 98 accomplished what stmp couldnt#with 16% the published og materialHELP#all of this AND u made legato ugly as fuck LIKEE GIVE ME SOMETHINGG.? rem too omg..
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Have you considered any doc and player angst or just some doc angst in general considering how mysterious he is and how he can get those he ‘cares’ or works with in danger or worse because of his mysterious ties and his manipulation sometimes 💔
I think about them daily and I actually mean it. the fact that doc can even look at player in the face after stucking them in a loop is very amazing. I can feel him sweating when we talk to him in the bus as a magiturge (he cant lie his way out of it anymore)
also, do you think player will start to care about people around them less and less as the loop go on? I mean they are all not really their friends? they are not technically real, just a repeated point in time
#honestly if I had to experience that shitshow then I hope something happen to me and never wake up again#ask
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DARK THUNDER ⚡️: 6/6 PAGES
#sin scribbles#bloodborne#hunter oc#good hunter#hunter bloodborne#good hunter bloodborne#(HAPPY HALLOWEEN YALL I FINISHED THIS MINI COMIC LOL)#(again lmao not as polished as altar bc altar is enough of a time sink as is)#(but i hope you still enjoy this little glimpse into aloyshas story hhhhhhhh.....)#(also say hi to the new boys!!!!)#(tldr aloysha is not what she seems and the clergy knows it)#(her brother however likes to pretend that isnt the case despite being part of the clergy himself)#(whether thats to protect his sister or his own best interests is another story)#(church hunter rurik though sees right through him 👀)#(THIS WAS A FUN EXPERIMENT I NEVER DO INKING STUFF not since one of my first bb fanarts omg)
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the 5 stages of grief are for losers only. being delusional rocks
#fandom#dnd#if i live in a land of illusion eventually it will manifest. i never stop winning#''that's 3 failed death saving throws.'' not to me it's not!#the typical critical role watching experince#molly's dead. he's alive again! he's dead again. he's alive again!! all because i NEVER GAVE UP HOPE#staying in the denial/bargaining stage until i die#i say desperately hoping gojo comes back#hey at least it paid off for nobara#paid off like nothing has ever paid off before this is actually so insane#anyways this post is technically about jjk but also every fandom death experience ever#jjk#jjk spoilers#jjk leaks#jujutsu kaisen#nobara kugisaki#critical role#mollymauk tealeaf#the mighty nein#andis thought geyser
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I tried :']
#welcome home#kayaks dumb doodles#eddie dear#the orange looks like a potato but. i couldnt make it bright orange#first time doing something like this#remind me to never go into capcut blind again#that was. an experience#hi to people to read tags :>#how are you guys?#i just watched ghost stories :]#it was really funny#i havent been as active on here-#twitter brainrot has seeped its way into my life#uhh so thats me lately#sorry for rambling idk why i am#hope anyone reading is having a nice day <3!
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While I absolutely hate not posting, I'm also very glad Soli is on mini-july break because guess who has two thumbs and just spent the past two days in a migraine coma!? THIS GUYYyyowowwww.
#never been so glad that I'm not at any of the numerous events I put the comic on mini vacation for#being in a con hotel with a migraine is something i have experienced and never want to experience again#that was ax 2005#that was Pain#got lucky every other year I went and never got struck down again#except for the year I went a week early to stay with friends and got a migraine a few days before#but a friend's quiet couch is far better than a con hotel for that#anyway!! thanks to having a couple of new messages during my coma I remembered I had other messages I meant to answr WOOPS#I will poke those once my postdrome lets up a bit#I do hope everyone AT a con or on vacation is having a great time!! No migraines ok? I will take your migraine for you#or wait I guess it's no longer sunday#so people who WENT TO a con or are going to the upcoming ones#you better have good times or had good times!#WHAT DAY IS IT
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This may be a strange question but have you ever been bullied in the tbhk fandom? I am having a hard time here
Heya no worries at all for the question! This is an important thing and if you needed to have a place to say it I am happy you did!
I really hope people will be nicer to you :// There is never a good reason for bullying unfortunately it happens a lot on internet QvQ my only advice would be to block those people and/or delete anonymous asks for a while if people are just putting stuff as anonymous :///
To answer your questions, idk if it counts as bullying but I was the target of some stuff like that yep, and tbh I don't really know why. People can have the opinions they want but I will be honest in the tbhk fandom you like a character or a ship that is not 'what everyone in the fandom should like' and people start menacing you for no reason.
A lot of people in this fandom are kids who sometimes don't get what insulting people do. (and not only kids but it is one of the reason, I feel like a lot don't have 'internet basis' like not saying everything about yourself on twitter help.)
Which is also one of the reason I am taking my distances with anyone in this fandom because I had too many unwanted stuff like when I was just trying to be nice and answer messages. It's not because we are in the same fandom that we are bffs.
This is sad to say but yes I don't think you can just have fun 'fun' in this fandom anymore, people will make sure you have a hard time for no reason and honestly I am tired of people who are unable to understand that we aren't just bots on the internet and that Surprise! people have feelings wow
I hope you will be better but don't hesitate to take some time off the fandom a bit ^^ I am being overly dramatic here because I had some bad experiences (I've been in the fandom since the start of 2020 so welp) but a lot of people are really nice and I am sure you can make some friends too ^^ (I did too! even if a lot aren't in the fandom anymore, it's nice seeing mutuals from far away doing their lives)
#I am so sorry for the wait on this ask#I really hope you have a better time now Anon#(and once again bullying is not okay#but there is a difference with people just living their lives and people who are straigth up creeps)#(I shouldn't have to mention basics stuff to anyone to understand that being an asshole is not gonna solve anything)#asks#tbhk#kind of a bad/sad topic but an important one I think#I say that kids are the ones who insult the most but I will be honest my main problem was with someone who was one year older than me lol#anyways this is my experience once again but I am sad to see that some people are being treated poorly ://#I honestly just stopped being active when it happened and honestly I would understand if you have this reaction too#and last but not least#don't let the fandom ruin the og work for you#because it happened way too much for me personnaly and that just makes me sad#(eg: I adore witch hat atelier but I am seeing some stuff from far away and I REALLY don't wanna interact with the fandom#I love this manga too much to be disgusted by it because of the fandom)#this is a lil bit salty but welp no one here should be surprised to see that I don't really like the fandom ahah#And I was a kid on internet once too#I tbh understand at some point to be angry at a lot of stuff and needing a place to talk/to have funB#I never understood the intention of hurting people willingly though#being an asshole and having opinions is different
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