#honestly idk what it is but these two just gel

[ipostmysimpingstuffanonymously]

Oh i forgot to post this one. Ahhhh

Went down a rabbit hole reading The Final Indignity 

[trillscienceofficer]

Imagine if Voyager truly cared about what B'Elanna and Seven wanted, like. once in seven years? For all the screentime Seven gets, it's never about what she wants, just what she has to do in order to fit in better, and B'Elanna... well. She truly gets shit from everyone for no reason whatsoever.

One of the main reasons why I would've love for them to interact more is that, for all their mutual annoyance, somehow they aren't as dismissive with each other as others are with them. Seven is a an arrogant little shit but she apologizes to B'Elanna very frequently when B'Elanna expresses her annoyance, more than most other characters generally do with B'Elanna honestly! And Seven seems to notice pretty quickly when B'Elanna is upset too, which always makes me raise my eyebrows because we're constantly told Seven is not very socially smart... she is though, once she starts learning. B'Elanna in turn only tells Seven to cut it out when she crosses a line and is not at all about giving her a lesson in 'humanity' or whatever.

@nebulouscoffee left some tags that made me think last night:

#on rewatch especially!! I noticed how much the script kept telling me these two hated each other #but they so rarely ever really came off that way? #and even when they did it always felt so... idk Scripted

And I totally agree with this. Voyager to me is a fundamentally unselfaware show, especially when it comes to B'Elanna: we're told things about her by other characters, but those never, ever gel very well with how she acts, how she expresses her feelings, how justified she she is in being irritated when others treat her like anything she says or does is unreasonable. On a lesser degree Seven is also treated that way; constantly, constantly told 'this is how you need to act', 'this is what you need to learn', 'this what it means to be human' and punished every time she's not good at it which is inevitable because literally no one else (except B'Elanna! or maybe Harry, although he is exempt from sexist tropes) is held to the same impossible standards. And Seven tries very hard every time! But of course the show is convinced that she needs to be taken down a peg in order to become 'a real woman' (yikes).

The way the show wants to present B'Elanna and Seven together is always 'look how catty they are with each other (wink wink)', and imho it isn't different from what's going on with them taken singularly. We're told they don't like each other, but what is shown to me is... way more nuanced, especially taking into consideration how they both fit (and not fit) within the ship. In a way, the way they relate to one another is the most honest rapport either of them have on Voyager. They don't really want anything from one another, they aren't thinking about fundamentally changing the other so their lives can be easier (again, when B'Elanna gets annoyed with Seven she only reiterates her own boundaries). Granted the show makes awful jokes at their expense sometimes (“Infinite Regress” and the cold open of “Someone to Watch Over Me” come to mind) but show me a character or a relationship on Voyager who is exempt from this kind of deeply uncomfortable and not actually very funny situation.

I truly believe that exploring this relationship more could have given them some much needed space. Space is a concept I always come back to when I think of B'Elanna and Seven, because I think both of them (especially B'Elanna) needed more of it to be themselves on their own terms for once. And I'm not talking necessarily about minutes of screentime—I'm talking about the writing being less sexist and racist, being less enamored with the idea of conformity, caring about them as characters and not as props in the absurd sexist, idiosyncratic fantasies of a 90s production: even beside Seven's horrible biosuit, B'Elanna is so often 'the girlfriend who doesn't understand what the protagonist is going through and will be insulted onscreen', it makes me genuinely mad!

Obviously I'm not exactly wishing Voyager had actually done it, because again, totally unselfaware writing all the time, but thinking about B'Elanna and Seven interacting always leads me to think about how they could both let each other simply be, even if they would still likely annoy the shit out of each other. And I wouldn't ever want to change that, honestly: willful women deserve to be themselves, that's all.

[beast-feast]

Hey idk if you've answered this but what is your art process and what do you use for traditional and digital art?

Honestly I don't even know but at the same time I know the processes are very similar. I'll try and do my best HSNFKAH

Digitally I like to just Do Whatever Feels Good so it's a very "trust the process" kind of thing. Mainly when I draw digitally though I'll start with this.

Basically just making rough shapes and then the details on different layers while changing the opacity.

In the case of traditional it's a LOT more casual and I really don't have a good explanation for it? Basically skipping the rough detail layer and instead going to a sort of rough sketchy look (which is what I've been doing traditionally mostly these days.)

Digital linework is where I correct my mistakes (most of the time, if it's something Not Serious like this it'll be a lot looser looking!) And most of the time that's actually kind of where it ends lol, most of the digital stuff you see from me nowadays is only finished stuff I put effort into.

But when I finish lineart I tend to delete the sketch layer entirely so I don't mistake it for something else, and then color under the lineart layer.

And in this case I decided to give you a rough idea of how I do my shadows+highlights? I don't do it All The Time but I put them on separate layers and play with the layer settings !!! Genuinely cannot advise this enough it's really nice and fun to just see what looks best. In this case though I used a basic multiply layer for the shadows and then on a layer above it placed a few highlights where a general light source would be coming from.

Something I highly suggest is doing what feels right to you in the moment. If you're itching for something that you haven't drawn before, look at photos of what you want and then try and memorize as much of the look as you can! It's a neat little exercise for stylization I've found out, but it's also super useful for when you need references too. Don't ever be afraid of them.

Going back to trad. art though. When I'm not working with very quick sketches with pen/pencil it can come in two ways: clean pencil drawing or something made with pen+marker.

I use mainly Sharpies for colored traditional pieces, and my secret is that if you're limited on colors, LAYER IT ON!!! One shade of a green can give you a decent shadow!!! I use Micron pens for lineart and a white gel pen to sneak in a few little highlights here and there. On paper I don't put much emphasis on light and instead focus on the shadow part (mainly because it's hard for me to figure out a good lighter color for things HAHSHSJAH)

But genuinely whatever you do I don't think having a "style" is perfectly fine. It's a fluid thing that's ever-changing for some and if you fall under that category it doesn't mean that you're not skilled! Play around, have fun, generally just see what looks cool and cooler :)

[j2zara]

Hiiiiii~ 2, 4, 7, 10, 22, 24, 30 for the fic writer game! 💖

Hiiiii friend! Sorry this took all day my brain is dead rn

2. a character whose POV you’re currently exploring

Lol i'm banging my head against the wall getting killed by LJ3porter fic so i'm like. Right in Girlfail Ellie J4 POV hell rn!!!! She's so fun and i do think writing for her is both easy and hard in that i enjoy doing it (and tbh i think i default to her pov usually when im in LJ3 mode) but i worry i make her way too sopping wet and pathetic. Which she can be pathetic but i worry im going like. way too sad wattpad girl with her.

4. a story idea you haven’t written yet

OK! I've talked about a few different things before so i'm gonna. Well. I'm two sentences into twelfth night j2 being sent to pursue Jace on Porter's behalf fic so i feel like that counts as "not written yet." I also talk about how. I think doing a reincarnation au for LJ3 or the clones in general would be so fun. i'm not sure what kind tho, the version in which they're all new teachers at aguefort is so fun and kinda stuck in my brain now. Plus i wanna write Barbarian teacher Tiefling!Ellie x Sorcerer teacher Aasimar!J3 like so so so so bad i think it would be such a funny way to have them never escaping the torment nexus. I also think it would be fun to write something abt LJ3 in their friends with benefits era. Or maybe one of their more official "date nights". I think if they got into doing roleplay in the bedroom is would be so so so so so so fucking funny. Like. Pretending the other is stranger they picked up at the bar or something.

7. your preferred writing fonts

Tbh i kinda would like to find a perfect writing font? I tend to default Arial and it doesn't look perfect its honestly kinda offputting but. my strategy is. When I feel like my writing looks so so so busted i switch to Verdana which is closer to the ao3 font so i can better visualize how it's gonna look. And that helps a bit. Idk im sick.

10. what is the longest amount of time you’ve let a draft rest before you finished it?

That's a good question. Actually? A couple years i think? I abandoned my old talentswap for a couple years before picking it up again in college. (tbh my current ch 3.3 is STILL unfinished so i abandoned it again). Tbh i'm not good at letting drafts rest and returning back to them. I either try to power through or end up abandoning it which i don't love

22. do you ever worry about public reaction to what you’re writing? how do you get past that?

I try not to but like. Yeah. I'm stressed basically every time. I joke that when i write original fiction that i have a hoard of angry twitter pearlclutchers that live in my head ready to rip everything i do to shreds but i try not to listen to them. But i'm worried every time. This has nothing to do with how i feel about you guys tbh i wildly underestimate your guys kindness and goodwill just bc im very hard on myself

I was anxious abt IYWD (I was worried it was gonna come across as too soft or too apologetic). I was anxious that nobody would take to Dyke!Jace/Zara in Who Can Blame a Girl, or i wouldn't be able to sell it

I probably MOST anxious of all about Almost (I was SO stressed that ppl were not gonna vibe at all with Bluejay or not gel with the whole "what if the clones were actual characters" , "born to love porter cliffbreaker, forced to do menial tasks for jaceprime" etc etc thought experiment. and i was so so so so so so scared about dropping the nickname Bluejay i was worried it was gonna be completely stupid and i was completely off the mark)

I was anxious abt Biggest Lie (i was worried it wasn't hot enough or maybe too violent or that it was maybe too shamelessly just like. smut lol).

And after Almost i was probably second most anxious about Stay / Leave. It was just a wip i really struggled with and idk it was so.... insular i guess? b/c it was so niche and the wip ended up being SO LONG and kinda emotional and sappy? Like again i think i was having the same doubts i had abt j2 in which i was like what if i can't sell people on this relationship. What if i've failed to convey something sincere. (that one was crazy tho bc i really really really really tried to release it and not care what happened bc i knew only a handfull of ppl would read it and i really really really tried to be cool and for a while i was but it was just hard i was so nervous and i don't think it was anyones reaction is really was just my nerves that were putting me in such a bad and upset mood and then over the next day or two i. I made this joke earlier that like. I PROMISE and hope i'm not overinflating my ego when i say this like i'm perfectly aware that i just write silly smut online but it really was so so so so funny. to see everyone practically overnight be like.... wait. Are LJ3..... in love??? And now LJ3 is like such an integral part of clone lore.

24. how do you recharge when you’re not feeling creative?

That's a good question bc i feel like. When i'm stuck in one medium i tend to just try and distract myself with another so when im bad at drawing i write and when im bad at writing i draw. But thats not exactly recharging. Tbh i do think i need to find better things in my routine that rejuvenate me i think i haven't been particularly good at treating myself well lately

30. share a fic you’re especially proud of

I'm cringe and usually will shill if you want divinity (you're gonna have to go through me) as one of my favorite things i've ever written. But im also extremely confident most of y'all have already read it. I'm very very hard on myself so i swing between thinking the things i make suck and also being like. Fairly proud of all of them.

But idk it was my first ambitious thing i wrote and FINISHED in a long time and honestly? I do think its slightly better than the rest bc the iterations are all reliant on the original so they're very intertextual and repetitive which isn't BAD but. The extra work it took to make IYWD work makes it feel different to me. There's a LOT of stuff in it that i'm proud of that i honestly kind of miss b/c Porter is so smitten for Jace in a way he hasn't been in things i've written in a long time. I'm a softy who likes when jaceporter are soft and kinda in love... sue me... And like. i always feel so self congratulatory talking about the Loving To the Point of Invention Detect Thoughts + Teleport but i really felt good about coming up with that. And i still like the flashbacks a lot. It always feels so embarrassing to admit that i like. Get emotional thinking about the flashback of them on the bed. Sometimes i tailor make a scene just for me. "I promise i'm never going to let anything happen to you ever again" "as a paladin or a barbarian" "both" is like. Such a scene just for me. And I think the ending is good too. "I'll take it. I'll take it all" just felt so. fitting. It's so him getting to hear himself say to porter "i'll take the thing with you that is broken and fucked and full of compromises even if it has to end". Sigh. Sometimes you're an english major and you agonize over being a good writer for like two decades and realize that you might not be as horrible as you think.

(For the record. i think if i were to rank what i've written for fantasy high from fav to least fave, i'd say IYWD, Biggest Lie, Stay / Leave, Who Can Blame a Girl, Almost, Tell Me How, and it feels weird to put Almost that low bc i do like it. Tbh i regret making it so short i think i could've pushed it further)

Anyway!!! This got long winded as hell. Thanks for the asks they were fun to do!

Send me Fic Writer Asks! / Here are the questions!

[hectorthedoggo]

do you have any silly r1 gang facts? :D:D

hm... i don't want to spoil, so i'll make them menial!!

both haruka and es have eaten a plant they were not supposed to eat at some point

(es doesn't get that sick ofc but oh boy haruka gets sick)

i think. mu hates the non-pretty bugs, like mosqitoes and shit. even though she is a bug.

maybe in the future (no spoilers tho just a dynamic), es would research a random bug and tell all of it to haruka (with diagrams). he tries his best to understand (very excited about what he does). mu confused "it's not even that interesting why tf do you know about all of this? Why would you want to know all of this??" (local girl SICKENED by the amount of autism in her prescence /j)

Shidou was going from town to town to try to save people, but he decided to settle for the sake of his two (now three if he gets his way) not-his-kids.

He has gotten hrk and mu ice cream (hasn't had time to get es)

Kotoko tries (and fails) to climb trees.

shidou #1 maker of tea. he's good with plants and such. he can also make poison but he wouldn't do that

honestly all of the r1 gang could kill someone if they really wanted to. but. morality unfortunately. they're like a group of little bugs.

in a classroom, i think that mu would be that annoying kid that won't stfu while the teacher's talking, haruka would talk with her, but usually be quiet, kotoko would tell them to shush even louder than they're talking, shidou would be the overly-patient teacher, and es would be the dead silent kid that somehow knows all of the material. but. they don't talk. when confronted with interaction, they would simply give a one-word answer and continue writing notes (?) (who knows if they're notes. they might be doodles. it might be the communist manifesto. nobody knows.) shidou probably has met with them after class to ask them if they're okay. they would probably say that they're okay but they won't because they would be late to their next class/they don't want to leave their guardian waiting to pick them up. so. they simply stand up and walk away.

woah that one got long. whoops.

mu is also good with plants.

there might be some romantic love going on with the minors but this is es who's pov we're in. everything flies straight over their head. and i'm pretty sure they're on the aro-ace spectrum somewhere but idk.

i think everyone but haruka would write in a diary with a glitter gel pen: "i'm losing my sense of humanity" (ktks would be dark red but uh it's still glittery)

[glitterdustcyclops]

while i'm thinking about pens, here's a lil "what's in my pencil case" post cuz it's been a minute since i've done one. can you tell my favorite color? lmao.

detail shots, writing sample & notes about everything under the cut

first we have our basic, "staple" pens and such, in order from the top left down and to the right:

+Zebra bLen FM2 Ballpoint Pen 0.5 mm - this particular version was a limited edition but JetPens sells other colors/models. to be honest i mostly got this because of the aesthetics of it, but the gimmick is that it's supposed to not "rattle" or shake as much as other pens, making it a smoother "stress-free" writing experience and i suppose that would be true if the ink didn't skip so ding dang much. i give it a 4.5/10

+Zebra Sarasa Push Clip Gel Pen 0.5 mm Black - ohhh now we're talkin. my first true stationery crush. i own these in every color they come in. you're never gonna go wrong with a zebra sarasa. as a lefty i'm wary of smudges and these puppies dry fast and don't skip. i would marry this pen if i could.

+Tombow Fudenosuke Brush Pen Hard Tip - my preferred choice for doing brush pen lettering. i like the fude touch sign pens from pentel too but their ink tends to be too juicy for me as a lefty & it's a smudge hazard, but tombows are perfect.

+ Sakura Pigma Micron 10 (0.6 mm) - this is actually a new thing, i was messing around with different headers a few weeks ago and after i was done i was too lazy to stick this back where it goes with its family, so i put it in my pencase. but you never know when you need a nice thick black marker to do headers and stuff in your bullet journal, you know?

+Sakura Gelly Roll White 10 & Glitter - these two are almost impossible to swatch but very useful for doing fun ~effects~ on ur headers. the white is about as opaque as i've found in a gel pen, and the glitter is transparent so it goes over pretty much everything and just adds a hint of bling.

+Zebra DelGuard Mechanical Pencil 0.5 mm Hello Kitty & eraser - no joke the best mechanical pencil i've ever tried, i will never use another. it's one of them fancy japanese over-engineered sorts of things, and it's got all sorts of mechanics in it to keep lead from breaking, and it WORKS. as someone who prefers a fine lead in my pencils, having your pencil constantly shatter is frustrating as hell but i have literally never had that problem with these. the eraser is, i think, from sun star, idk. i got it cuz it was cute but it's really nothing special.

+Midori Multi Ruler 30 cm - this thing is super helpful for getting straight lines when doing bullet journal headers. the hinge helps it fold up compact & also lets it work as a compass but i typically don't worry about that.

next up, our ~fun colors~ starting with our minty greens

+Pentel Energel Clena w/ Turquoise Blue refill 0.5 mm - this originally came with a black ink refill but i wanted it to match so i bought a turquoise one separately and i think it's super cute. in case it isn't obvious mint green/teal are my favorite colors and so i love carrying around multiple options to give my notes a lil pop of my fav shade.

+Pentel Fude Touch Sign Pen Emerald Green - another new addition to the pen case, i honestly just stuck it in here because i didn't have enough room in the green section of my brush pen/marker organizer lol. but you know, it's my go-to fav color, it's helpful to keep around. like i mentioned up above i sometimes struggle with the pentel brush pens cuz of how juicy the ink is, so i don't use them as often, but the color is really pretty and they write very nicely.

+Zebra Mildliner Highlighter Mid Blue-Green - of course i am a basic bitch who loves mildliners. i own literally every color & this one is only here because it's a duplicate, and so i just stuck it in the pencil case to match everything else. but you know, every situation can be improved with a mildliner i think. (also stationery confession- am i the only one who likes the brush pens better than the regular highlighters? cuz i do. they're fun!!)

+Sakura Gelly Roll Moonlight 1.0 mm Pastel Green - another pen i am only keeping in here because it doesn't fit with the rest of my gel pens (i may or may not have a problem) but again, it matches.

finally, we have the Zebra Sara Push Clip Gel Pens 0.5 mm in Vintage Colors. did you think i was kidding when i said this was my favorite pen & i own every color? i meant every. color.

i really like these vintage ones because they're more readable than some of the bright/pastel shades of the regular pens. very sophisticated. also that green black matches so beautifully with all my favorite minty green shades.

so there you have it, everything i keep in my everyday pen case. if you're wondering this is a Sun Star Delde pencil case, this colorway doesn't exist anymore but i love these slide kind of pencil cases that turn into standing pen cups. very convenient to keep out on your desk. and, of course, it matches everything else. :D

[daz4i]

ok. a post to brainstorm doa chuuya bc i gave myself mild brainrot over it just by putting those words together

if any detail in this post inspires you to make art or write a fic please on god tag me if you post it or send it to me 👀👉👈

so. i have a few ideas and unfortunately i can’t quite get them to gel together into one, so i may as well list them all

the mentor fukuchi option

fukuchi got him out of the research facility around the time he was 14-15ish, and, well. mentored him - taught him to fight and basically put in his head all these ideas about unifying the world

i imagine chuuya would be loyal to him, but still somewhat suspicious, esp when he can’t remember his past. speaking of

the bait option

idk if bait is quite the right word? but, like. the way sigma is kept in the doa - he’s promised something he simply can’t say no to. and that thing is information about his past, kept by fyodor who gives him small bits after every mission he completes - just enough to keep him going, but not enough to make him feel fulfilled and want to leave

i’m not sure where this would fit with the timing in his life, but i assume he gets to be in the sheep here, but not with the mafia. do the events of 15 simply not happen? does he simply say no to mori’s offer? maybe fyodor meets him on that cliff before he gets to dazai. idk.

i lied when i said there are a few ideas btw i think i only have these two. anyway the real interesting part isn’t the how and why but rather what he’ll be like when interacting with the members and such. starting with the simplest and getting more complicated as i go

(also an important detail i can’t seem to find a place to fit, but i assume the doa will have the means to nullify arahabaki before it kills chuuya, given how fukuchi has ties not only with the government but also the un, and given how meursault has cells that nullify abilities, one can assume such technology exists and in which case there’s no reason for the doa not to get their hands on it. also as i typed this i remembered sigma has this nullifying gun iirc. so they probably just have more and this is how they get arahabaki down when they need to. or maybe it’s implemented in him somehow, like they can remotely activate smth that’s constantly on him coughchokercough and “turn off” arahabaki without getting near him)

bram

yeah no he doesn’t know about his existence. at least not at first? in the mentor fukuchi option i’m sure fukuchi will show him bram at some point, right before the time of the doa’s introduction in the main story. in this case, i feel like chuuya would honestly feel a sense of kinship with bram, both kind of used as a weapon of mass destruction, except unlike bram he can leave if he wants to (but... can he really? a bit harsh to think about, so he doesn’t like, go out of his way to interact with him)

sigma

“oh my god. another sane person. thank you”

like bram, def a lot of sense of kinship here, but more about the “i only remember the last few years of my life” thing. i feel like they could actually be friends even beyond that, tho. they’re really similar in a lot of ways and they could def bond over it, and i think having someone like chuuya around would make sigma feel better about the whole thing, which i think will make him even deadlier, more desperate to stay in this place he calls home. also, chuuya could back him up in the casino arc, and. um. yeah the hunting dogs will not survive that one

nikolai

nikolai finds out chuuya can technically fly and loses his shit. chuuya will become his new favorite person (but like, the way sigma is, not the way fyodor is). chuuya does not like that to say the least, but he does like to train with him sometimes bc nikolai can help him hone his reflexes

eventually nikolai would get tired of him tho imo? at least in the pre-canon part. chuuya would just be annoyed with his antics, no surprises, and it’ll get boring for nikolai. then he’ll find out abt the arahabaki thing and immediately chuuya is the most interesting person in the world again. he will definitely try to get him to use it constantly. he would love arahabaki sm.

during the actual story tho, after nikolai defects, i imagine he’ll want to free chuuya too. maybe he’ll steal his choker at some point, store it in his overcoat. “prove your free will by possibly be willing to die if you let arahabaki run loose” sort of thing, but actually it’s secretly “don’t be confined by what fyodor and fukuchi are doing to you. be your own person. never use arahabaki if you don’t want to”

fyodor

definitely the one holding the metaphorical leash over him, and chuuya knows it, and hates it. if we go by the “fyodor coming to recruit him at the end of 15′s events” route, he’ll hate how much the guy reminds him of dazai. also he thinks he’s creepy. still, he respects his plans, and does as he’s told for now, but he knows damn well not to trust fyodor. i imagine in said recruiting moment fyodor would probably kill some/all of the sheep to give him a sense of helplessness and like he has no other option but to go with him, so naturally chuuya would resent him for that

like p much everyone else, he has no idea what fyodor’s ability is, but he noticed pretty early that fyodor seems unkillable, so he doesn’t even try. something tells him that despite his own immense power, he won’t be able to kill fyodor, so he picks his battles carefully and never even tries (tho, maybe in the future. maybe i could offer more insight once we learn what fyodor’s ability is and what’s the deal with his supposed immortality)

fukuchi

father figure (derogatory)

i kinda of already got into it in the mentor fukuchi option, so as a tldr, chuuya respects him, is loyal to him, but is suspicious of him

however in the other option i feel like the knowledge of fukuchi being a part of a terrorist organization despite his position would kind of make him... bitter? also eternally curious if fukuchi was somehow involved/knew people who were involved in the arahabaki project somehow. he tries to keep his distance from him, just do what he’s told so he can get what he wants, without getting involved with things bigger than him

i imagine if anyone encourages him to use arahabaki a lot - for actual strategical reasons, not like nikolai who mostly thinks it’s cool - it’d be fukuchi (fyodor would not want to rely on smth this chaotic unless there’s no other choice, imo), which would also make chuuya resent him a bit.

also i wonder if fukuchi would ask him to infiltrate the hunting dogs with him in any of these options. could also be interesting, and also oddly fitting tbh.

anyway yeah that’s all i have for you now. would love to hear your own ideas, or takes on what i already wrote here, just be respectful!! and again if any of this inspires you in any way, please share, i would love to see 🥺

[patamon]

tagged by @komawo THANK YOU SM, I am soooo honoured to be included and I’m so sorry for the delays!!!! And omg of course you fit into the Tumblr community, I can’t believe you would even question this! 

hot or cold shower: hot shower, my self-care practice is to drench myself in a hot shower and question all my choices in life

texting or calling: calling, so I think working from home has really soured my attitude towards texting or any text-related form of communication like emails, chats, etc...I can’t begin to tally the time and energy wasted on the back-and-forths, the typos, the waiting for people to respond, the misinterpretations and misunderstandings, the passive aggressive tension...like honestly, just press the little phone icon on MS Teams and we can resolve this 3-day email chain in 10-minutes, it’s not that hard.

earbuds or headphones: earbuds, got my first Air Pods this year and I’m not going back!!! If you have an iPhone, nothing will make more sense than Air Pods, I promise you.

paperback or hardcover: paperback, there’s something very nostalgic about the feel of a paperback book in my hand. It takes me back to a simpler and more innocent time, where all your life’s toughest questions could be answered in a satisfying concluding chapter of the book you’ve been working through.

More below the cut (because this got kinda long lol)...

matte or gel: I have no idea what this is referring to but my mind went to nails…like gel nails or the….other type idk. So my answer is idk...

12 hr clock or 24 hr clock: 12 hour, 24-hour clock is too complicated for my brain

blue or green: blue, favourite colour 💙 Only reason why I picked Team Mystic in PoGo

sunsets or sunrises: I wish I could say both but am I ever up to actually see a sunrise? ���

tulips or orchids: orchids, I grew up with orchids all around me. Even now, there are orchids everywhere in our abode because my mother loves tending to them. It’s actually kinda cute to see her tend to her hobby.

candle light or moonlight: moonlight 🌝 not only is moonlight prettier, but it doesn’t stoke my anxiety and give me constant fear that everything in my home would be burned down lol

sci-fi or horror: sci-fi, me and my anxiety cannot handle horror anything, nope.

pen or pencil: pen, I WANT TO MARK THAT SHIT DOWN IN PERMANENCE! Plus, I love Muji pens

pandas or koalas: pandas, #teambamboo

gold or silver: gold, it pops more when I incorporate gold into any projects I’m working on, silver kinda blends into the background, unless I’m using a dark background but I rare use dark backgrounds.

sneakers or boots: sneakers, comfy and practical 😊

denim or leather jacket: neither because they’re both uncomfortable, but out of the two, I would say denim

pink or purple: pink, esp pastel pink

choco or sour candy: sour candy, I used to hate sour, but the older I get, the more I crave sour things. I don’t know what that means…am I Hydrogen ion deficient or something?

deodorant or perfume: perfume, deodorant makes my skin feel all weird. Maybe I’m allergic

drive-in theater or cinema: cinema, I do miss going to the movies. I haven’t been as often since COVID lockdown and would really like to go back on a regular basis. Also, I’ve never been to a drive-in theatre but imagine it would be too distracting with everything around me. I really want to immerse myself in the movie….that’s why I enjoy going to the cinema a lot

pastel blue or earth tones: pastel blue, favourite colour pt. 2 💙 💙

lemonade or fruit juice: lemonade, goes back to my sour thing

past or future: As cliché as it sounds, I do try my best to live in the present so…neither?

Tagging @tangledupblue, @digitalworldbound, @reliablejoukido, @sluggybasson107, @places-people, @ri-ships-takari, @stoppingtosmelltheflowers, @ahiddenpath, @tohjofalls, @animegenork

and anyone else who wants to do this!

[sharksa-shivers]

Want an idea of the beginning dynamic? Aitey lol

(Early af group chat stuff lol, Kristy still getting used to things…Max just drags her into one and then Sharky after a while lmao)

Kristy: Look, i'm fucking terrified of him okay???

Kristy: How in the hell are you not??? Did you see what happened earlier??? With that fish??? And you're still so set on him being harmless??? THAT WAS HORRIFYING TO WATCH HONESTLY…

Max: Lmao, i never said sharky couldnt be intimidating or scary or anything, he hella fucking can if he reallt wants to

Max: thing is that last bit tho, "wants to" would be your key phrase lol. Sharkys chill as fuck 99% of the time…Also he's a giant puss and would coward the fuck out of doing any of thay shit your so scared of. He memes but hed never get over it mentally if he actually hurt somebody like that lmao

Max: he harmlesssssssss uwu, you juwt don't wanna fuckin listen again

Kristy: IM…ARE YOU SERIOUS????

(~Mr. Darktide Rising~ has been added to the group chat. Welcome!!)

Sharky: Yo

Sharky: ….Oh we're on this shavinksta again? Ok.

Kristy: MAX, WHAT THE FUCJ???????

Max: lol, needa get over it, i ain't lettin ya worm out of friendship that easy

Max: Sharky, tell krista something fuckin cool, legit, like whatever

Kristy: God fucking damnit Max!!!!!!! AND IT'S KRISTY

Sharky: Erghhhhhh, hmmmm…

Sharky:(sends a picture of packaged gel pens)I got some new glitter gel pens, can't wait to use these bad boys on some art.

Sharky:(texts picture of a blue rock)Also got this cool aquamarine rock earlier too. It's my birthstone so that's pretty neat. (March, if you were wondering)

Sharky:(sends bunny gifs and stickers)Also bunnies.🐰Bunnies are cool.🐇 You like bunnies Kristy? Pretty sure everybody does… Kristy: anxiety overwhelming, can't do this, fuck…

(Kristy - Has left the chat)

Sharky: ……..Oh, ok.

Max: Man, don't feel bad, just gotta keep trying…

Sharky: I shouldn't fucking have to keep trying to get some basic fucking respect but whatever…

Sharky: Never mind, fucking hell…Gonna draw, maybe rest. Dunno, just…I need to calm down, fucking hell…

Sharky: Fucking hate myself more and more every damn day…And I never actually fucking do anything to earn that…I haven't ever hurt anybody but everyone fucking hurts me…Sick and tired of it…

Max: Dude, fuck, cmon!!!

Sharky: Nah, i can't like…Handle this right now, i need to lay down, really upset now…Just want alone time…

Sharky: I know you want to fix it and i appreciate it Max but you can't fix everything, you can't. You just can't…And some people are always going to fucking hate me for what i am and i can't change that either…

Sharky: Ffs…So fucking done…

Max: Plz, just wait a minute!!!

Sharky: Anyway, laters, peace…

(~Mr. Darktide Rising~ has left the group chat)

Max: like fuckin hell i wont at least try to fix everything

Max: ……..This ain't over and i ain't deletin shit…Ima keep dragging both of you together until you get along on basic terms, this is fuckin ridiculous as fuck ------------- Yeah, so this is more a starting point lol Kristy at first is ABSOLUTELY PETRIFIED of Sharky...And for all the usual reasons... At first Sharky tries to explain and befriend her and whatnot but Kristy is so scared and distrusting of everyone (Probably because she got...yknow, kidnapped and dragged halfway across the world or something, idk lol) She doesn't trust him at all and is constantly thinking the worst of him... So thusssssssssss Sharky starts getting more bitter and pissy and angry towards her because...Well, fuck it. He's tired of being nice to somebody that's constantly throwing shit at him...Which, i do not blame him. (Sharky does have his limits as does...Everyone...) And Max is just like...The awkward middle man that's trying to fix shit because Sharky's his best friend/brother and Kristy's like his new bestie and "wellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll we're a team now so you two dumbasses are gonna have to get along to some capacity!!!!" And Max isn't wrong there with the last point either lol... Kristy warms up more to Sharky as she gets more comfortable being in the Campsite and being forced around Sharky and whatnot...It just takes time...And Sharky isn't going to reject somebody who wants to change their mind on him (because he's had to do that a ton of times in his life and...He always wants that circle of close people to get bigger so...) Yeah, yknow lol Also Max is bad at remembering people's names (with Kristy tho, cuz she's being urhhh so bitchy towards the Campsite people who had absolutely nothing to do with her kidnapping and everything, he starts saying the wrong names on purpose cuz it pisses her off lol, that's a beginning joke...) And also also, in case you're wondering: Sharky ate a fish alive in front of em, that's what Kristy was going off about in the beginning bit lol...

[fictionkinfessions]

Mpc do not worry about the spiderweb lighter it is not important at all I promise :)

-a super honest and trustworthy Jon (who is also enjoying your thoughts on this show btw <3)

Oh! That's too bad. It's very shiny and pretty and just the right size to lose beneath the fridge with all the other small, bop-able toys C: Hopefully Sascha or someone will get an upgrade to a proper flamethrower! Or maybe a roofer's torch, if flame throwers are illegal in british land.

Honestly Idk how any of you could work there and not at least buy some pepper gel spray. At least Martin has a corkscrew. He can threaten to open very bad wine should a ghost attempt to steal his pots and pans. <-speaking from experience, though I had a dull edged two handed sword, and it was my ex room mate's boyfriend [alive] [probably] [does any 'live' in this 'capitalist hell world'?].

What was I saying? Sorry everything is connected to each other so it's really easy for me to ramble on. Like spiderwebs. Hey check that out I'm bringing it full circle! Ok oh well, the lighter doesn't do anything. If it weren't for setting off the alarm I'd've betted it wasn't even full of fire.

Connie / mod party cat

ps I also sleep with my eyes open and if you still do that, I recommend 'systane ultra lubricant eye drops'. It's a little expensive at 15-20 USD but the bottle goes a long way.

pps also promise this is the last off time ramble chat thing! Woo check out all these confessons!

[eeclare]

The Finale

My last Bob’s Burgers bedrooms

These are the characters that I forgot about but I want to make sure they get the recognition they deserve

These are HEAVY on the headcannons guys

Like they are pretty much JUST headcannons

Some are kinda shippy

I don’t usually like to get involved in shipping stuff, just because I can honestly get behind any ship if I want to lol

But these were just fun little headcannons of what I feel are kinda obvious ships

Okay maybe one of them is a guilty pleasure sue me

NOT ALL OF THESE ARE SHIP RELATED

Just to clarify

Starting off strong with Jimmy Sr.’s (And Trev’s) room!

Soooooooo

Jimmy and Trev don’t LIVE together but like

They live together

Lowkey think Trev and Jimmy had an emotional affair turned physical and that is part of the reason Jimmy got divorced

The real reason Jimmy is so jealous of Bob is because Bob can be openly himself (with his sexuality, just in general, really) and Jimmy feels like he has to hide himself, kinda

That was long winded I’m sorry guys

#jimmy and trev angst lowkey

But anyway

At first Jimmy wanted his room to be kinda like a bachelor pad

Hence the tacky bed frame

But then Trev was like no

And just forcefully moved himself in?

Idk but like can’t u see it

Jimmy is totally against Trev moving in with him

But custody with the kids is already settled (50/50) and his ex wife knows about Trev so there’s really no losing his kids atm

Jimmy has a stark white carpet to make it more bachelor pad-y

But Trev didn’t really think it went with his own cottagecore vibe

So he just slapped his carpet on top

And bam, kinda boho eclectic carpet combo

Again, with the bachelor pad thing, Jimmy installed two LED purple lights on the floor

Trev thinks they’re kinda ugly but they were EXPENSIVE so he makes due

He covers one of them up with his carpet

Can you tell whose side is whose yet?

Trev didn’t get to pick the nightstand, but he makes due

It is still Jimmy’s house, after all

Trev is an occasional tea drinker before bed

He keeps his book of the month on the nightstand, just in case he has the time

It wasn’t hard to convince Jimmy of the candle

“For the ambience” he said to convince him

And Jimmy ate it right up

Jimmy had installed really bright white over head lights

Trev hates them (they hurt his eyes!) but again, it’s not really his room, it’s Jimmy’s

Trev still has his own apartment btw so don’t go thinking that he doesn’t have space to express himself

Jimmy does love Trev and if they did officially live together they would each have a say in decoration

(But Jimmy would still have more say because, well, he prefers it that way and Trev likes to keep him happy)

It’s not the healthiest of relationships, guys

Jimmy has a dope oil painting of a ship at sea

He thinks it’s cool af

Maybe if he has a ship on his wall it’ll manifest him getting his spot in the yacht club

His dresser is modern

Trev forced his way into the bottom drawer

But Jimmy still possesses half of it (for his socks)

Jimmy also has the whole of the top drawer

There’s a mirror above the dresser

For Jimmy to fix his hair with and for other activities if they so ensue

Anyway his hair gel is set on top of the dresser

(Trev isn’t allowed to keep his personal items in sight of the kids)

And Jimmy is lowkey pale-ish so he does apply self tanner every once in a while

He also bought an expensive set of martini glasses so they’re all his drinks out of

Don’t worry, when Jimmy Jr. And Andy and Ollie are staying with him every other week they have their own designated glasses that he brought home from the restaurant

So they have age appropriate drink ware

Over all their room is a little cute? Idk

So this is for Ron and Hugo

Hugo had a relatively okay studio apartment before he moved in with Ron

They’re like officially together but unofficially

Not because they aren’t proud but Hugo still isn’t rlly out to anyone and Ron is just happy to be with him

So yeah

Anyway

So Hugo moved in with Ron

Ron rents out the back end of a small house in a middle class neighborhood

But like, lower middle class

Ron wishes he had a garden of his own but he can settle for sharing with the tenant at the front of the house

There’s no backyard, btw

It’s just a small fence and a two car parking spot

The fence divides them from a diff house’s backyard lol

Both Ron and Hugo are avid readers so they have a good assortment of books that they have each read or plan to read

Hugo is kind of a neat freak

So there’s the cleaning spray and cloth on the shelf lol

Hugo has allergies and he KNOWS that book shelves collect a LOT of dust

Now, Hugo would never have wanted a cat or pet of any kind but Ron already had a cat before they even knew each other so he had to learn to deal with it

And secretly not so secretly he has fallen in love with Kirby

But still, Ron is more active in taking care of her

Hugo just cannot stomach it

The plants were also not Hugo’s choice

He has ALLERGIES

Ron loves gardening though and since he can’t have an actual garden Hugo is happy to oblige as long as flowering plants are not kept in the house

And if you think their room is bad you should see their living area/kitchenette

Good lord someone let Ron switch sides of the house so he can garden just a little bit

Hugo is a pale dude

So he makes sure to keep sun block around him next to his bedside table

Hugo also has cold ass feet so he has an extra carpet next to his side of the bed

Also on his side, a bucket and sponge

Because Kirby can sense that Hugo isn’t her biggest fan and takes revenge on him the only way she knows how

So he keeps the bucket there at all times just in case

Ron has a cat treat/toy on his side to try to keep Kirby to stay with him and not bother Hugo

It works half of the time

Ron uses lotion and even though it makes him smell kind of like an aunt he likes to be soft

And he just drinks out of a mug lol not tea not coffee just water (tap water, it’s not even cold)

And the art on the wall is Ron’s choice he thinks the paintings are cute

BTW I absolutely recognize that canonnically there is no evidence that Ron and Hugo are together. I think there is tons of evidence that Ron is gay/ has feelings for Hugo but so far there is no really good evidence to Hugo reciprocating Ron’s feelings. I just like this ship so 🙄

Mr. Fishoeder’s room?

Ik he seems like the kinda guy to have a modern all white and sleek kind of home but based on cannon he has an old-timey kind of aesthetic

He tries to keep on theme

Mr. Fishoeder doesn’t have one consistent partner so he makes sure to have wine and cigarettes at the ready

He has a walk in closet in a different room of the house, so he doesn’t keep much clothing in his dresser drawers

Just towels and such

He doesn’t like to flaunt his money but he does keep a not so secret stash of bills in his cupboard area

He reads maybe sometimes but not often so the books aren’t worth displaying

And his cologne he hides in the cupboard as well

His papa is on top of the shelf in the urn

He doesn’t want to display him somewhere where Felix can easily steal him

And Calvin finds himself to be kind of like a collector of rare and expensive items

Hence the skull

The clock is just there because it fits the aesthetic

The mirror *above* the bed for whatever you want it ti be there for

Calvin cares less about looks than Felix but he still values looking cool in front of his guests

So he does hide the fan he needs up in his room behind a curtain

The fan is ugly but he NEEDS it

It gets bloody hot up in his bedroom

He does have a flat screen TV in the shape of a vintage one

It’s pretty cool, if you ask him

The oil paintings just fit his whole vibe

They’re older looking and expensive lol

I imagine that Mr. Fishoeder is an olive eating man

They’re a good rich person snack and they are delicious with whatever alcohol he’s having that night lmao

The phone makes him feel like a cool vintage mafia boss lol

The tall lamp to the side is just there because Calvin is admittedly getting older and needs more yet dimmer lights to see

That’s it, really

It’s Felix!

He has a decently large room

And he is much more into keeping up with trends and style and such

So he has a kind of theme he’s going for

Kind of antique, but modernized

He’s not thrilled to be living in a treehouse but he’ll make due

God, he misses his apartment in NYC

But you know, he’s happy to live and be close with his brother again

He won’t admit it, but he’s missed Calvin

In fact, the painting above his bed is a specially commissioned portrait of him and Calvin as onions

From that one caricature artist that spends time on the pier

He’s featured in a couple of episodes you’d know him if you saw him lol

The beetroot portrait is by the same guy, but this time it’s a painting of Felix and Fanny

He isn’t big into art, but Felix does like those framed insect hangings

But Felix does love plants (not gardening, just plants)

He keeps potted ones around and even though he doesn’t do the watering (he has people for that) he likes the way they look

the rose is for Fanny next time she comes over btw

She’s not there a lot because she has zero interest in living in a tree but he’s hopeful

He enjoys aroma therapy so he has those weird smelling sticks from homesense lol

And even though Calvin calls it perfume IT ISNT

It’s cologne

Just very floral

He prefers to keep his clothing hanging in his closet (it prevents wrinkles) so the dresser is just there for looks/for his delicates

And even though he’s usually alright at putting his work out mat away he got lazy and just left his stuff on the floor

It’s been almost two weeks

You would think that his help would have had it put away by now

(Spoiler alert, he doesn’t have any “help” Calvin just told him he does so he wouldn’t get upset)

The potted plants are fake too, Felix just doesn’t know it

He lives in a TREE there is literally not enough sunlight so sustain basically any plant life

But whatever, what Felix doesn’t know won’t hurt him

Felix basically insisted that almost every room in his treehouse have a chandelier

Makes it feel more mansion-y

Those double doors are his closet lol

These are only SOME of his clothes

He does have an extra little walk-in closet for the rest of them

His casual clothes are kept in his room closet along with the clothes that wouldn’t fit in the walk in

he likes scented candles and things

So scented candle on his bedside table

The bed is kinda boho chic

He likes it, kinda

The magic is in the mattress

The little couch at the end of his bed ties in with the red curtain on the other side of his room

Felix has a bit of a drinking problem

But only cocktails or vodka

Usually

And he is definitely more Braggy than his brother is when it comes to money

If you’ve got it, flaunt it, ya know?

Teddy is our last guy!

He might be a hoarder but there’s really not a lot that he keeps in his room

He keeps snacks in his night stand

And don’t tell Linda but he knows her hands are soft af so he started buying the same brand of lotion as her lol

He drinks coffee 24/7

It’s the only thing keeping him sane at this point

The lamp just suits him

Also I think technically there would be a window above his bed but I digress

He kinda bought into that holistic crystal stuff

So that’s next to his bed now

And he did used to have a cat, but she died and then he got Francis

He has a lil Kitty shrine on the shelf there

He doesn’t see a point in having art hanging around in his room

But I think ideally tho he would like to have a framed pic of him and the belchers lmao

He has a book that’s like electricity for dummies

Idk just makes sense

He has random building supplies on his shelf lol

And Teddy LOVES 80s music!

He listens to it every morning while getting ready

He doesn’t rlly take care of his room the way he does the rest of the house

So the pain is cracked and chipped

But you know, he loves his little room and his therapist says that it’s good for him to have an outlet where he doesn’t have to focus on fixing everything

[khodorkovskaya]

02.04.23

yesterday was a great day at the shop! there were lots of people and we made good money 🤑

other than that we've been receiving negative news one after another and it's been tough to handle emotionally. ive tried to distract myself but like the facts are there and im anxious...

my bestie came by the shop and we went to drink tea and then had a kebab at the place that's just opened next to the shop. we talked a lot about relationships and ive also been thinking about that kind of stuff ever since i bumped into B the other day.

if i think about it too much, relationships seem like a scam. what do you gain from being in a relationship with a man? what's in it for you? it feels like you're just gonna sacrifice yourself and act like a crazy person. in an ideal world id want a partner who complements me and my life, someone who really sees me and can understand me, someone i don't need to change for. but how can someone understand and see you to that level? you always have to change yourself to appeal to whoever you hang out with, be it friends or classmates or whatever. how can you find someone who is that perfect for you? and if the person is not perfect, is it even worth it?

my stepdad says i have a hygiene problem. and yeah... like i know that's not very slay of me but like ive been showering every two-three days ever since i left B and i have these weird discolouration spots on my skin now, yikes. it started off with me not wanting to see myself naked bc my naked body reminded me of him. and now im fine but ive gotten into the habit of not showering and it's not an easy habit to get out of frankly. bc honestly ive always hated looking after myself. washing my hair, bathing, using a loofah, shaving, having a skin care routine or whatever... i can't deal with the effort. the maximum i can do (or used to be able to do) is rinse myself in the shower once a day and that's it. and now i can't bring myself to do even that every day, yikes.

and it got me thinking, why do most people, as my stepdad claims, like taking care of themselves and their bodies and i don't. ive never shaved or wanted to shave. ive tried like using creams and scrubs and stuff but it was always so tedious, i don't know how people do it. makeup can be fun for a special occasion but i can't imagine how some girls do it every day. and taking care of my hair is the worst! and tbh i don't like being clean. i feel normal when im "dirty" and i can't explain why, it makes me feel most like myself. it got me thinking that for many sa survivors bad hygiene is a defense mechanism. maybe my lack of cleanliness is deeper than me just being lazy idk. bc everyone enjoys shower gels that smell like flowers and having shiny clean hair and smooth skin, so why don't i?

i thought about sex with B and funnily enough we got onto the topic with my bestie too. and idk, i feel weird about sex. i can't say that im asexual or hypersexual, but something about my sex drive and my relationship with sex has never felt normal. like im not chill about sex. maybe it's because i didn't have a healthy introduction to it, but then again, what does a healthy introduction to sex even look like? is it fooling around with a friend as a teenager and feeling safe and playful? is it waiting till marriage and trusting your partner with your life? is it progressive sex education at school where you're taught about different sexualities without shame? can you even be properly introduced to such an intimate thing in a healthy manner without shocking a part of yourself?

like... idk how to explain it. because sex is normal, it's a part of life, everyone has it. but yet it's so bizarre and doesn't logically go with anything else we do in life. why do i like things during sex that would usually repulse me? why are women submissive? why does sex resemble violence so much? why does it make you scream and cry and yet it feels good? it's so full of contradictions i really can't understand.

and my bestie and i compared our sexual experiences and found a lot of similarities. for example both of us had had moments where all of a sudden in the middle of sex our desire would just go away for no reason. like you're into it one moment and then the next everything is uninteresting and even repulsive and you don't want to do it anymore. where does that come from? also i remember with B id fantasise about him but the moment he'd want to have sex id just immediately stop being horny. why? didn't i want sex with him a minute ago?

and like, back to the contradictions of sex, it got me thinking that it's weird how the first ever sex was technically rape. and how apparently women scream during sex bc it's our primal instinct to cry for help during it. and men always fantasise about hitting women and strangling them and cnc is a big thing. and like... maybe the "original sin" wasn't eve eating the forbidden fruit and being punished for it by pain during childbirth for generations of women to come. maybe the "original sin" was eve getting raped and then now women have to deal with her trauma and convince themselves that sex is pleasurable.

and don't get me wrong, sex with B was good! and he'd always tell me that i wasn't like other girls because i was sexually healthy bc i could come easily and i wasn't coincée. but i think the issue was that im too sensitive for sex. like yes, i can come and feel pleasure and all of that, but i feel it too intensely. and sex as a concept feels super intense to me and i can't make peace with it because it's too much. it's too much stimulation, too many contradictions, too many feelings and instincts and it's just too complex for me to take in emotionally. like sometimes B and i would be having sex and id just like break down crying and shut down in the middle of it. and it felt good in a way. but it's too much for me, you know? maybe it was too much with B and now im recovering from it by not showering, who knows.

so idk. if i do end up finding the perfect partner for me, how would our sex life go? will i scream and cry like i did with B? will i make it into a competition with his exes like i did with B? will it make me feel terrible about my body like it did with B? will it feel like heaven like it did with B? or will it be healthy and calm and stable and peaceful and feel normal and safe?

[rorykillmore]

my feelings on 1899 are so conflicted. i feel like i’ve changed my mind on it so many times.

it’s not that the simulation idea feels cheap -- it’s clearly the entire concept, not just a “gotcha” plot twist -- but while i appreciate that they strongly hinted at it pretty early on, i do feel like it kept me from getting invested, to some extent, and it was disappointing that i saw most of the major beats coming. right up UNTIL the last episode, which was the first time i started feeling really hyped up about what the show was doing and where it was going (and when i started to really gel with what it was trying to say about our perception of reality).

but i do feel like. i’m still very confused (???). it probably bears a rewatch (or two), honestly, but i feel like we ended season 1 knowing nothing about -- not only who’s behind everything and why (and to some extent the ambiguity and the “who do you believe?” element is cool, but) but also any of the characters. and that last note, at least for me, is a little bit of a problem. because if i feel like i don’t know any of the characters or their motivations or who they are as people at all, it’s hard for me to chart my emotional investment, i guess?

i can definitely see that it’s going to be a much bigger, more complicated narrative which no doubt the writers have some insane plan for. so that’s why i don’t feel making a judgement on it is completely fair yet, especially not in comparison to dark. though i WILL say that i felt more comfortably certain that i loved dark season 1 when it ended, even without the context of the other seasons. idk, it’s weird!! it feels a bit like 1899 was going out of its way to try to be different, but then it retreaded so much thematic ground, so it’s like... do you want us to compare them, or do you not?

so i dunno!!! i definitely want to love 1899 -- i love the talent behind it and i think at the end of the day it Is ultimately playing with some incredibly intriguing concepts. though ultimately i think it feels more “this has been done before” than dark (which did very novel things with the concept of time travel). although! although!!! i think it has a lot of potential. and it certainly feels like they know where they’re going with it (which these writers usually do). as you can see i can’t make up my mind about it yet, but it’s given me much to think about

[iwaxsquirrically]

How to repair broken headphones

If you've ever had your headphones break right above the ear piece, you probably know it's nearly impossible to glue them back together as there is not nearly enough material for the glue to hold properly. Boy do I have a hack for you (disclaimer: this is not my idea, I found it online and thought it worth a share).

The magic ingredient: ✴️ B A K I N G S O D A ✴️

Idk what the chemical process behind it is, but it creates a kind of cement in combination with superglue that sets rock hard and makes your headphones sturdier than new.

What you need to do: Put superglue (liquid, not gel) on one end of the break and put the two pieces back together approximately how they were before they broke (aka. just glue them like you normally would).

Now, we start doing magic. Put a drop of superglue over the break and sprinkle baking soda on top. Wait a few seconds for the glue to set. Brush off excess baking soda and repeat. Do this all around the break - do a couple of layers. You can even put some material (a toothpick, a piece of ziptie etc.) over the break to reinforce it. You should end up with a very visible, yet extremely sturdy repair. I've done a stress test on my headphones, bending them every which way, and I was honestly more worried about the other side breaking.

This should work on other flimsy breaks too! It's such a cool way to save a piece of tech from the landfill and slightly reduce our environmental impact.

[bortbytingen]

I've come to realise that each time I hesitate a little about continuing taking t-gel, the reason is always about society's view on man/woman/male/female and not about how I feel about my gender.

For example, I do like being called cute and that's not something masculine appearing people should be called according to society (or at least the one I live in). This is a very superficial one and had me hesitating for like 3 sec once, but still worth mentioning.

A more... substantial example is giving people compliments. I'm shy and awkward and often go non-verbal among others, but not always and I have fairly recently managed to start complimenting strangers, like last summer when I stopped a woman to tell her that the colour of her dressed looked really pretty on her. This is fine when you appear female, but if you appear male and does this, you're automatically deemed creepy or like you're hitting on the person (something several of my amab friends have experienced). And I honestly think that's pretty sad.

These are just two examples, but there have been others too. So what's my point with this post? Idk. Maybe to point out that this is a thing with me and that maybe others have experienced the same, maybe some do and haven't realised it's society's view that makes them hesitate and not how they feel about their gender?

[the-chessboard-is-personal]

welp! I had a whole two days of stuff but it got deleted when the computer died! anyway same warnings as last reblog apply but this will be a recap of the two days and a liveblog of the next. I really need to get back to my project-

I found and raided a mosuleum, got so much stuff (particularly blight mold) that I had to take more than three trips back to my base (which is like 10k blocks away) and am still currently in the process of doing that, I got some deepslate altars and am probably gonna try to do the ritual thing today, I got- holy fuck why did that startle me so much

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anyway I got some occult veils, potions, gels, runes, a plinth, pillars, eerie idols, a TON of blight mold, charonite and anirrum, and everything you'd expect to get from a mausoleum except for the chains. urghhh I really shouldn't be playing this for another day but whatever

5:52 PM I'm a bit drowsy bc I took a pain med (BAD headache and I still have some teva from my dentist trip. dw I don't use it regularly or anything this is the first time since the dentist) but I found out a few things. 1. anirrum tools and armor don't lose durability!! 2. with 1/4 anirrum and 3/4 diamond armor the paracusia's claw attack deals less than half a heart of damage so when I do decide to fight one it'll be p easy

oh yeah. and I've decided to keep a paracusia in a box near(ish) my base as a sort of. ambient noise generator? idk I just like the sounds they make and the "Eerie noise?" in the subtitles 👍

9:22 ritual room is done, I have a deepslate altar set up but what I'm going to do first is spawn a mirage by eating brainy corpsebulb flesh (honestly that sounds very gross but it's a video game so whatever) and see if I can kill it

2:22 AM the dots are back.

5:28 getting some corpseplants. don't know what the thorn does but the flute sounds like that one ingame song!

8:24 I found another mausoleum, like. way closer to my base! with a full inventory again bc I went out to get all the corpseplants. but hey at least it's not at a 5 digit number like the last one was -_-

9:04 sighh I'm too mechanical as a player 😔 I saw a revenant spawned from a zealot drop this

and immediately thought. huh. I could farm those by trapping a zealot

9:22 ROTTEN FLESH HAS A USE NOW 🗣️🔊🔥🔥🔊🗣️🔥

10:02 hokay I have to remember to use the time heretics take to transform as HEALING time. almost died Twice

10:24 there's...bedrock under the sigil in the chain room.?

12:31 PM got adventuring time. w. withou without trying to-

12:45 okay I know this is base game but why do pillagers. do that. they just Watch You. Observe. 👁️_👁️. are they. waiting for you to attack them? lead them to a village ?? strange guys. throw them at walls

12:58 going to bed now but I opened up the grimoire again realquick just to see what I could do other than blindly look through achievements for random stuff to do in the hopes that it would unlock more cool stuff and. HOLY SHIT. I have 2 pages, and IT'S WRITTEN IN THE SYMBOL LANGUAGE YOU NEED THE GRIM QUILL FOR!! oohg. this mod is amazinf ,,,hm one more day of break from redstoning perhapped

Minecraft horror mod where the documentation for the mod is intentionally misleading and the mod actually does way more weird scary shit than listed while also being very sly about not revealing itself to be intentional in doing so at the same time. Like a backrooms mod where there are actually more sublevels/locations than listed, slightly different versions of monsters, or even stuff that subtly effects areas that are supposed to be outside the area of the mod such as the overworld and nether.