#his secret desire

[forgetbadstuff]

Why Do Men Pull Away: A Cheat-Sheet to Love!

Your Man’s Desire! So why do men pull away that’s one of the main questions. Also how you can tap into his deep desire for commitment… Maggie was confused. Rick had blown her away on their first two dates. No guy had ever worked so hard to impress her. But then, just when she decided she’d fallen for him…poof. He withdrew. And impressed she was. He was attentive, respectful, gentle, and…

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Danse Macabre

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[gomzdrawfr]

so here's a NikPrice angst idea I got:

Whenever Price gets drunk, he ends up spilling more to Nikolai than he intends, feelings he'd never share when he's sober. He speaks about things he'd rather keep hidden, the what ifs and talks about future

and then he blacks out, forgetting every word by morning, and Nikolai is left to bear the weight of those confession, patting Price's shoulders like everything was fine when it's not.

The next time Price drinks himself to the point, reaching for Nikolai's arm, eyes unfocused and voice a bit slurry, starts with "you know, one day I want to tell you—”

But Nikolai stops him.

Nikolai stops Price, cupping his jaw and squeezing his face just enough to turn his ramble into a muted mumble, lips pressed together, silenced.

"I know," Nikolai whispers, shaking his head gently, it's a plea, but he never says please don't.

"I know," Nik repeats, wearing a solemn smile to hide the tears in his eyes.

"Don't say it when I can't do anything about it." When I can't act on it.

And so, the confession goes unsaid, the I need you let to drift between them. Nikolai waits, he's a patient man he'll wait for the day Price will say the three words while sober. But Price on the other hand is convinced that Nikolai doesn't feel the same, holds it all inside and take this secret to his grave, never realizing that Nikolai has always known— and felt the same.

[normalbrothers]

CHARLIE: She came back with a white pony. The one she gave to you. You used to ride it around, remember? [Tommy shakes his head] Well, she seemed happy for a bit watching you ride it. And then she was gone. And none of it made any sense. Afterwards, whenever I looked at that white pony, I saw her ...

[captainhysunstuff]

Soichiro is worried about Light’s taste in men.  (Let’s assume that somehow Yotsuba was never involved with Kira junk in this reality, lol.)

[whetstonefires]

Hey here's an angle on the Jiang family dynamic and its impact on Wei Wuxian that I haven't seen discussed:

Wei Wuxian grew up seeing Jiang Yanli routinely having her agency cut off and denied in both large (betrothal) and small ways. That were largely tied up in her gender, sure, but this was also a family containing Yu Ziyuan. A daughter in this household had every chance of having her gender treated as of secondary importance.

She just had to earn it.

The way Jiang Yanli was hemmed in and her potential as an independent actor dismissed was at least as strongly correlated with her failure to be a powerful sword cultivator.

So Wei Wuxian's total refusal to let anyone know that he'd lost access to his cultivation and his violent reactivity against being diminished or condescended to during his Sunshot-to-death period, when before he was pretty immune to being looked down on, could have a lot to do with having been presented with this clearly labeled diagram of how your personhood gets stripped away when you are, by the standards of your society, disabled.

[smileylord]

"I worry, Eden. What if... What if you're right and I don't need to listen to them? And- what if this isn't even me? I think that... Scares me more than failing again."

[frogaroundandfindout]

Nightwing tells Batman he’s going to be a cop and Batman wonders what more he can do as Bruce Wayne (Detective Comics #725)

[enbysiriusblack]

thinking about hamlet from a queer perspective. hamlet wanting to leave home because university was a place he could freely be himself. hamlet trying to suppress his emotions. the conflict between hamlet's faith and his self, his feelings and wants. horartio being the only person hamlet can truly trust, his best friend, his lover. hamlet as the disgraced prince.

[incesthemes]

it's a chicken-or-egg kind of conflict, built on unreasonable expectations and toxic desire.

sam and dean choose to be codependent in 1.22 devil's trap: they both make grandiose statements that communicate their devotion to each other. but then, between 2.02 everybody loves a clown and around 2.04 children shouldn't play with dead things, sam starts talking about honoring their dad and trying to do right by him. he's guilty that john died before they could actually have a good relationship; he's just started to forgive him for their upbringing, and now he's gone and the way he copes with that is by trying to follow in john's footsteps, as if to prove that he's fine now with the life he's given them.

but john just sold his soul for dean and told dean that he might have to kill his brother—dean has come to perceive john as an enemy. john is asking dean to do the impossible, and on top of that he's left dean without anyone to guide him and tell him how to act. and so dean has cast john out in favor of entering a codependent unit with sam. sam is now all dean has left, physically and emotionally, and sam just declared his devotion to dean in no uncertain terms, chose him definitively, and so sam is therefore agreeing to fill in all of the holes john left behind so that dean can feel whole again.

but here sam is "allying" himself with john.

and sam obviously isn't intentionally trying to hurt dean; he's having a normal response to death. but sam's loyalty to dean and john can't coexist in dean's eyes, and that means sam is reneging on his commitment to dean, even though sam absolutely did not do that. and so dean he keeps to himself and refuses to open up about the truth because he can't trust sam to side with him, afraid of rejection or admonishment (which he receives anyway across the beginning of season 2, reinforcing those fears). he's angry and he feels alone because sam "chose" john when dean needed him most.

and as a result, because sam is of course still trying to be codependent with dean, dean's refusal to open up and be honest with him is equally seen as a betrayal of their commitment. to sam, honoring john is not in conflict with being codependent with dean. yet for some reason, dean won't even talk to him. he expects complete and open honesty from dean with their new dynamic—secrets are no longer acceptable because they're supposed to be on the same page, always—and he's not getting it, and it hurts. all he can see is betrayal.

of course sam is going to mourn his father after he's worked so hard to forgive him. of course dean is going to get frustrated at having no one to share his grief and anger with. of course sam is going to be hurt by dean's rejection. of course they're going to be upset at each other's betrayal of a profound commitment. it's a lot of reasonable reactions to unreasonable expectations, irrational perceptions, and half-truths that distort and warp their realities into something toxic and unmanageable. it's all about those subtle moments which unknowingly communicate betrayal of an undernegotiated relationship, all amplified by the heightened tension of grief and loss.

and around and around it goes.

[bumblingbabooshka]

Tom & Harry trying to guess Tuvok’s age (while he ignores them) and Chakotay joins in only to smile and throw out ages that are far too old just to see Tuvok’s eye twitch.

[reblog-house]

Watching Cleo's 7th ep before anyone else and.

What the fuck is this episode. What's going ONNNN

[irisbellemoon]

Camilla's being a question mark of a character is sort of the whole point. Like the person who's describing her is a repressed queer guy who's very much not interested in her, but rather her brother, hence the constant comparisons between the two of them.

It's not Camilla Richard wants but Charles and he can't admit that to himself so he projects her brother's qualities onto her with only a few of her actual 'characteristics' told to us. Hence her position in the narrative, which is narrated by Richard, is very superficial and 'soft'. Of course, Camilla was a bigger part of the entire plot (bigger than even Richard) but it doesn't really matter to Rich hence it's not given much thought.

In a lot of analysis about her, sometimes people get a little accusatory towards Donna but the person she chose to use as narrator doesn't really care about Camilla as her own person. So it wouldn't matter how much information was originally written for her, we still would never get a peak to it.

[gurlirllydontknow]

Been seeing everyone yassifying dipper lately, here to join in on that :)

I personally believe dipper would SLAY bell-bottoms you guys‼️‼️We need to put this man on some hippy stuff asap cuz he'd just look so 😳

Here to spread the word of pearl necklace-wearing dipper everyone

Also tagging this billdip bc fuck it all my posts so far are tagged that even if bill ain't in it 😭

[littleravenette]

au where javier is a famous cosplayer who is a tad bit obsessed with a construction worker and kim suho is that construction worker

kim suho's parents are still dead btw

og!lloyd and the frontera family are alive, javier is their honorary family member (basically they pseudo-adopted him)

og!lloyd gets therapy. they go to family therapy sessions too, javier is also there somehow

kim suho someohow saved javier from idk, something, it was a terrible rescue btw, it was a meet horrendous for suho

it was also a meet horrendous for javier, but then again it wasn't that bad, he's... acquainted w/ og!lloyd

javier, per his noble personality, swore an oath to pay suho back anyways, somehow

og!lloyd says he's obsessed, javier denies this

kim suho stumbles into his cosplay acc bcs javier cosplayed his fav character

javier only did that cosplay bcs his fans keep requesting it

suho connected that the dude he rescued is probably this cosplayer, he saves that fun fact in his brain

the fontera family doesn't know who the guy who saved javier is

then the frontera fam needed to repair/renovate something so they hired a company to do it

bada beem bada boom that construction team has kim suho

chaos ensues

i would say that the frontera family still has a huge debt, that would be og!lloyd's turning point to atleast not be a douchebag

they clear it off because of og!lloyd, but what everyone didn't know is that he gotten help from someone

it was suho, he was in a weird helpful mood again and decided to help this kid. he would regret it though

he regrets it so much

og!lloyd met kim suho first in this au. it was horrible. they instantly dislike eachother.

og!lloyd bcs he's a rich son w/ a horrible personality and kim suho which og!lloyd is projecting into (i'll think another reason later)

the second time they met is when they fed the same stray animals at the same time (ppodong, bangul, hamang, kkoming, bibeong)

they hate eachother

anyways kim suho's construction team is working for the frontera family

this inevitably would lead javier meeting suho again

javier was in cosplay

suho just stared

then og!lloyd barged in and saw suho and immediately start arguing

suho is so tired of rich people

anyways everyone now knows that the guy javier's been obsessed ("i'm NOT") w/ is a construction worker

og!lloyd thinks it's pathethic, julian bless his soul doesn't publicly agree with his brother (in private is a different story)

arcos and marbella is supportive albeit confused

ppl still don't know how og!lloyd and suho met, they just think they have a weird thing going on

javier asks og!lloyd abt it

og!lloyd: why would you like to know loverboy

javier doesn't try anymore

kim suho reads a webnovel when he was on break

javier sees and asks him about it (it's so obvious)

kim suho: didn't you cosplay the mc

javier and suho just stare at eachother

everyone's cringing, they're losers, why are they like this

javier talks abt his silly little sports and silly little cosplay and kim suho talks abt his silly little designs and silly little webnovel

they eventually get eachothers phone numbers, well without og!lloyd making fun of them

og!lloyd: oi suho- ("respect your elders kid") i don't care, anyways get your shit together

og!lloyd unwillingly also accidentally wingmans them, i decided, also w/ the help of julian too

kim suho is like uhh 27 here, lloyd is 25 and javier is 23

suho: what if im not into young men

og!lloyd: 🤨

anyways everyone have so much loser energy in this au

i admit there's really not a lot of cosplaying action, but, have you thought that i do not care. anyways, goodbye

[takekawa]

LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO