#help i think fanfics made me trans

[avo-kat]

i was checking my drafts (for the irrational fear that there will be a bug that suddenly releases all your posts in draft; this has no basis on reality, so dont worry), and found this post from march 1st 2023.

its me working out that im definitely not trans:

dont mind me, im just sitting here and thinking out loud

me: oh im just a regular woman. not straight. but otherwise normal. thats all. :) [pre 2020]

me: hm actually. you know what? hmhm. something is up

me: no its fine. its time. i came out as lesbian to my friends! this is great. i love this. time to buy... lgbt merch. [around 2020]

me: what kind tho... hm.... somehow.... u know? normal rainbow stuff is fine, right?

me: hmmmm im not feeling so good actually??? [around 2021]

me: is that... u know what.... i think i may be.... non-binary? i thought this was only smth for kids but looking into it, huh, i guess so!

me: now i can wear more boy clothes. and walk a bit more masc. thats kinda fun. mens tank top. mens shorts. baseball cap. i feel awesome. hairy legs. hairy armpits. hell yeah!

me: but im just nb im not trans thats not being trans

me: i dont wanna intrude or take away or smth im just nb

me: im fine being the way i am no need to do hrt or anything really

me: and honestly, i dont wanna lose my identity as a queer woman!!! i love being a queer woman! well ok not a woman anymore but im still like, sapphic! that kinda thing!!! im deathly afraid of losing this part of my identity!

me: im super fine w my body and im fine staying this way and also being my agab at my job

me: besides im so cute now and id deffo look ugly as a guy

me: i dont even like guys that much so like come on

me: that one guy is giving me such gender envy. thats just 1 exception tho [around 2022]

me: i prefer he/they but im fine with all pronouns :)

me: i like it when ppl use male words for me. just makes me feel good. nothing else :)

me: (i have no dysphoria cuz im nb im not trans)

me: its cool im fine

me: hmmmmmmmmm

me: mhmhm eeeh

me: im not feeling so great again thats so weird....??? [late 2022/early 2023]

me: mhmhmhmhmh

me: oh look im growing facial hair

me: guess ill shave. thats annoying. kinda cool but annoying

me: oh wow i gotta shave more often huh thats so annoying

me: hm hair is growing more... actually... feels nice touching my hairy face kinda

me: oh well i gotta shave for work, so

me: ach. why does that feel unpleasant?

me: oh well. heh, if i were a man (im not tho), some things would be kinda fun!

me: if i were a guy. that would be fun. like. purely hypothetical, yknow?

me: like if i suddenly got the superpower to change my appearance. that would be sooo cool. just cuz.

me: wouldnt that be fun. it would. it would be so fun.

me: not trans tho

me: def not trans. i feel shaky and queasy just thinking of it. im not

me: just nb. im fine. im fine staying like this. like. im. im fine.

me: like sure im not like super comf

me: thats on me deciding not to be more gnc in public. yeah. it would be such a hassle

me: yeah. what if tho lol. can u imagine. god, telling my boss? no way man that wouldnt fly

me: and id be so ugly. im cute right now. and im not strong. or build. and im too fat. if i were to be a man id wanna be, like, hot, yknow? strong and sharp jawline. if i were to be guy. im not. i wouldnt. im not trans lol

me: lemme write this fanfic real quick. just smth self-indulgent. what if i woke up in the body of the main character of this shounen anime lol. id be a boy lol. like. id be a man. mans body lol. that be fun lol. and what if i managed to fall in love with that male character. wed be so gay together. haha. two guys. such a funny idea

me: .....................

me: like what if i got top surgery.

me: like, sure. a year ago i was scared of losing my boobs. like if i had breast cancer and had to remove them. id look so off. my body would look wrong. boobs are an important visual element.

me: but what if i got top surgery. like. i hate bras. i dont like them being touched much either honestly so i wouldnt really lose anything? it would be more comfy for me day to day. and while sleeping. so, honestly, only upsides?

me: ...what would i need, theoretically. hm. half a year of therapy? oh. yeah. no. im not trans. so. yeah.

me: ....................

me: like, what name would i even pick. idk. well doesnt matter. im not trans.

[new addition, july 2023] me: im trans :D

[unproduciblesmackdown]

also let's hear it for our [cam stone exists] entry being the only one (so far) of the 2 trans 2 furious zine to have an editor's note, hell yeah

[luna-is-out-there]

As far as I know, the trans lady currently in charge of my local trans support group is a person of color. (She's awesome and beautiful and I'm so proud of her and glad that the old folks there chose her to take over🙏)

There are so many more people in our community than the two or three in the now very fucking old Stonewall fables.

saying this for my non black queer followers but: black queer folk have always existed, we've always been around, especially when it came to defending and fighting for our communities rights.

it sucks to see us never included in queer centered art or post, but we exist.

[not-poignant]

Hi,

I'm not sure how to approach this without sounding like an ignorant asshole, but I'll give it a go.

I'm from a country where the Trans movement isn’t very visible, and most of what I know about it comes from the internet. I’ve never truly understood gender dysphoria. I’ve tried to listen and put myself in others' shoes, but I struggled to be genuinely empathetic. Instead, I just tried to be supportive because it was expected of me, without really getting it.

It might sound silly, but reading Underline the Black made me stop and think… Wait, is this what I think it is? Reading Efnisien’s internal monologues and introspection made me feel something—maybe not from the same circumstances, but in a way that something inside my brain clicked, and I finally saw where the pain was coming from.

I guess what I really want to say is thank you. Thank you for helping me begin to understand and for broadening my perspective. It might sound small, but it’s something I deeply appreciate. I’ve been trying for a long time.

I do feel a bit foolish realizing that it took an ABO fanfic for me to get it… but at the same time, I was also reading about your real-life experiences. Or at least, that’s how it seemed to me. Forgive me if I’m wrong.

You have an incredible talent for expression.

Anon, until you know otherwise, everyone has to start somewhere. This applies to unlearning our biases and prejudices, which we all have for something, or many things, until we unlearn them. The fact that you've even tried to be supportive of something you don't really understand is still important, and still matters. It's a step into understanding, even if you don't have it yet.

I don't think it's foolish that it took you a story to realise what you've realised! This is actually exactly why representation of diversity (in gender, sexuality, culture, race, etc.) is so important in fiction. Because it's in fiction we can be free to explore concepts that are different to our own, or that challenge us, or make us see the world differently. This is why it's so important to know it's possible to identify with a trans character, or a POC character, or a character from a different culture to ours etc. Because that's when we humanise what we previously saw as like, different, Other, hard to understand. We go 'oh that's...really relatable actually, I think I'd feel the same way if that was my experience of life' or 'I don't know if I'd feel the same way but I really understand where that person is coming from.'

Gender dysphoria is complex, and different for different people. Being able to write it metaphorically through Efnisien's journey has been really interesting for me personally, because I've been able to depict both the inner conflict of knowing that your being is not...automatically going to be accepted as normal no matter what, unless you stifle or suffocate yourself, alongside the true euphoria and joy that can come with living as your best life, or your very self.

I have once seen a good analogy which is simply: Imagine from tomorrow onwards, everyone uses the pronouns you don't associate with yourself. You are bullied and mocked unless you wear clothing that is opposite to how you want to appear to others. You are put down and treated as psychologically abnormal for finding joy in true expression, even when that expression doesn't actually hurt anyone else at all. And now tell yourself that even your loved ones, when you desperately try to explain how wrong it all feels to be treated as so different to your true self, they explain that it's just mental illness, or that you're just confused, or that you don't understand yourself, and condescend to you, and treat you like they somehow have always known you better than you know yourself. And that's when you realise you might have to choose between your true self, and your family and loved ones who don't understand, or worse, hate you.

And then imagine that's the rest of your life, but it could change in an instant, if all of society just accepted that you are who you say you are! That all of your depression, and oppression, and suffocation could literally just vanish, if everyone was like 'oh sure actually, you want those pronouns? Cool! You want to wear this clothing? I like it!!'

And that journey is very tough in the real world, even in more accepting places (the US is clear evidence of this). In Underline the Black, I get to put Efnisien in a very specific space, and show the journey in a kind of specific way that isolates it and speaks through metaphor.

My experiences are different to Efnisien's, though I am trans, I never actually started out wanting to write a 1:1 trans narrative. Like, in this universe, "conventionally" trans people exist too. Efnisien's experience is a new thing, and a separate thing, but still - as we can see - a very good metaphor as well. I like telling parts of my story, but only small parts. I am more interested in...telling healing stories where I can watch a character heal and go 'oh I would like more of that for myself, as well.'

(Also, it's better to just say omegaverse, or AOB, etc. because a/b/o without the dashes is a slur in Australia, and while I know most people don't live here! We try to avoid slurs from other countries when we can. And we can only know to do that once someone tells us!)

But yeah, no, you don't sound like an ignorant asshole at all. You sound like someone who has learned something, and has gained more understanding, and was open to doing that, and honestly anon if more people came to something they didn't understand from your perspective, acceptance and love would be a lot easier to teach people.

It's so important to read stories about characters who aren't quite like us, or aren't like us at all, because that's when we realise just how much we actually do share so many similarities, and why our differences matter too.

Anyway thank you for sharing your message with me! I really appreciated it.

[queenwendy]

My favorite thing with Relativity Falls is trying to wrangle Dipper and Mabel’s gender with the identity theft. Are one of them trans? If so, which one? If they don’t have any siblings, that means one of them is Stan and Ford’s grandparent. Is the remaining twin pretending to be the other or are they honest about being a different one? There’s a lot of fun combinations:

I flip flop on which twin works better as the author, but I really love Grauntie Mabel so if I ever made Relatively Falls fanfic I’d probably have Dipper be the Author with Mabel running the shack. I also really like the secret identity angle so I fully support Mabel impersonating her brother. To solve the gender issue you can either go the trans route or the crossdressing for 30 years route. The most “natural” feeling one, at least fanon wise imo, is that Dipper is transmac but fell into the portal before transitioning. But the dipper as transmac headcanon bugs me for reasons not relevant here, and I like Grauntie Mabel too much to make her crossdress as a man for 30 years; so I actually prefer transfemme dipper who fell into the portal after transitioning (I am also definitely not impartial, I am a trans woman lol). That also ties into Dipper feeling like a weird outcast who would study cryptids a la Ford, as opposed to him just being a mystery loving nerd with a constellation birthmark (of course, that’s if you make Dipper study the same things as Ford, which lots of people don’t).

Of course, that line of reasoning leads to all sorts of interesting questions as a result: who is the McGucket analogue? I usually see Candy or Pacifica, but if you wanted to mirror the show (and lean into the queer angle/a relatively falls fiddauthor), Wendy works pretty well. That also helps put Fiddleford in the shack so he can go on adventures with Stan and Ford. And Shermie? Oh god, Shermie.

Shermie is his own can of worms. If he’s Stan and Ford’s brother, is he older or younger? Is he there with them over the summer or is he back with Filbrick and Caryn? Maybe he’s still the unseen grandpa, making him Dipper and Mabel’s brother and sidestepping which one of them is the grandparent. Imo, Shermie works best as Stan and Ford’s older brother adventuring with them. Maybe even as a Soos analogue.

As for who the grandparent is, I dunno! Maybe Soos is, making him Dipper and Mabel’s brother. Maybe Mabel was, making the fact she faked her death and impersonated Dipper all the more tragic and gut punch-y (and very different from Stan, who Alex Hirsch thought never would do that). Maybe Dipper was, and so Mabel is pretending to be a grandparent. If it was Mabel or Dipper, who’s the spouse?

I like swapping Soos and Aubelita too much to make Soos Stan and Ford’s grandpa (though it’s a fun idea I don’t see anyone do). So then one of the mystery twins has to be the grandparent. I don’t think Mabel would abandon her family, so Dipper as the real grandparent has to happen via process of elimination (meaning until Not What (S)he Seems, Mabel goes by “grandma mabel”). Who the other parent is up in the air; Wendy or Pacifica are already popular ships with Dipper, and also potential McGucket analogues. If you wanna get really weird with it, Bill is, imo, a valid choice given the implied romance between him and Ford.

And that snowballs into dealing with Bill. Does he get swapped? If so, with who? Gideon kinda makes sense, especially if you want to keep the Hand that Rocks the Mabel(Ford? Stan?) plotline (as opposed to Stan x Bud which… okay that’s actually funnier). But Dream Demon Gideon sounds kinda stupid to me, even if it fits oddly well (I actually think that works better if Mabel is the author). Do you swap Bill with Euclid and Scalene? Then there’s two dream demons and baby bill running around, but Bill’s parents are kinda nothing burgers of characters. Why do they want a portal? You can also just keep Bill as Bill. I mean, the Book of Bill indicated that there’s a Bill for every universe. I dunno where I stand there, but I lean towards keeping Bill as himself. But swapping any obsessive ex tendencies of his from Ford to Dipper for obvious reasons.

I dunno if I’ll ever write anything, and that’s obviously not all the questions this AU raises (if Pacifica is swapped with Preston, how does Double Dipper play out? Does Boyish Dan work at the shack or is he the estranged son? Who do Candy and Grenda swap with? Are they the Rico and Jorge of Mabel’s backstory? How different is Mabel and Dipper’s backstory to a Tale of Two Stans?) but this AU is probably my favorite and every time I reblog art or an idea about it I get more and more drawn in. It’s really thought provoking.

[olderthannetfic]

Never going to forget the time I made a fanfic that was omegaverse based & I was called transphobic since omegaverse is very transphobic according to them. (Omegaverse has helped me with my dysphoria so much especially on days I struggle with my body since I can't get surgery)

I'm a trans man, the person complaining is not trans. It's just very funny to see them throw a fit over me being transphobic while they send me basic death threats, In fairness they just think I'm some cis dude since I never call myself trans online but still, no one should be forced to out themselves publicly just to write fanfics without harassment lol

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[butchbarneygumble]

Imagine how I must feel as one of the only fans of Mighty Magiswords. You know. A headcanons-and-fanfic kind of fan. I even cosplayed Prohyas once.

Of course, it's nothing compared to what the actual victims went through... I'm fine. But it still felt like a part of my identity has been permanently soured. I don't want to seem like I somehow have it worse, that's not my intention. Nothing bad happened to me personally. I'm only posting my own side of how I deal with the situation, to get some closure myself and show solidarity with the victims.

I don't admire him anymore, and that's putting it lightly.

Full story under cut. Content warning for non-graphic discussion of csa.

The news came to me from my ex-but-still-friend. He told me privately, out of nowhere, just dropped it on me. Like, "Hey, sorry to tell you, but the guy you like got arrested for csa". However, I am glad he told me rather than me having to find out on my own.

The news hit me, and I felt nothing in my body. I usually would get this painful fight-or-flight all through my body whenever I read something that upset me, something I've been training myself to get better with. But right now? I just felt like... "huh. That happened." It helped a lot that Magiswords wasn't my fixation of the moment. And like... it's been like I've been slipping away from it. Like I didn't need it anymore.

More and more people were talking about him, and it wasn't positive. Who? Kyle.

I talked to him. Personally, like many people did. He never acted weird to me. I admired him. I loved his art, sent him physical fanart, all that stuff. I knew more than one person said he was not trustworthy but hey, he made a show that saved my life, so it was a constant struggle between feeling like I had to pick sides. I was going through hell by virtue of my dad being terminally sick and needing constant care, so I was gonna ignore the red flags and enjoy my silly sword show that brought me such joy.

Even if as time went on it started get harder and harder.

But you know what a certain depressed horse show said? When you're wearing rose coloured glasses, red flags just look like flags.

I now think dodged a bullet.

What emotions do I feel? Betrayal. Anger. Disgust. Disappointment.

The irony about it all. The sheer painful irony of blacklisting somebody for *drawings*, and then going behind everybody's back to actually hoard *actual* csa, and revenge porn, and all sorts of nasty stuff. For the record: there is nothing wrong with being put off or disgusted by specific sorts of drawings. But the irony here is what's most painful to me. I do not like people using this as a "gotcha" for either side of this tired argument. It's disrespectful to the actual victims.

People say I can easily seperate art from the artist if I want to but... right now I don't think I want to. He's in every pore of its identity. I do not want to talk or think about Magiswords right now, and I don't know if I ever will again.

It meant so much to me. Prohyas felt like Me. Being a goofy capable adult who doesn't stop collecting things he likes just cuz he's an adult. I thought I was trans for a while and the euphoria of relating to Prohyas helped that. Then he got lowkey confirmed nonbinary and I was over the moon.

It was good. Emphasis on "was".

And to the man himself I have one thing to say: you're another one in a long history of cartoon artists who end up being unsavoury, slimy people, taking advantage of young people, especially girls, in the animation industry. Not something to be proud of. I know we talked and you seemed perfectly okay to me, personally. All I can think is thank god it never went beyond casual chats.

I guess I can finally say I never liked the joke about Vambre not liking pants. Sure, sensory issues exist, but I doubt that was the intention of the design. I have deleted my sideblog where I chronicled ooc screencaps of the show and deleted my little spotify playlist of songs that reminded me of the show. I don't want to finish my longfic where Prohyas and Flonk fell in love anymore. I can't even change it into ocs because it's just so ingrained in the show's lore. So yeah, there's that.

I'll be fine. When the news hit I took it surprisingly well. I was going to an Alestorm concert and it was the most fun I had in ages. So yeah, I've got Christopher Bowes and His Plate of Beans to fill the void of comedy music. Was fixating on Simpsons already so there's that in terms of cartoons. I'm fine.

All I can say is my heart goes out to all the victims, and I'm deeply sorry I didn't see you sooner. I hope you can heal and have some semblance of closure now that he's gotten arrested. My heart goes out to all of you and again, I am so so sorry. I wish you all the love and healing.

[saintjosie]

hi! no idea if you take asks like this but thought i'd try. i'm writing a transfem character in a fanfic (in canon they are a cis guy, i just headcanon her as trans), specifically about effects of estrogen. i'm doing a lot of research but i was wondering if there's anything specific you think would be important to know? ty in advance if you do answer! <3

oooh what a fun ask!

having recently taken a stab at writing some fanfic myself, i think the things that would be the most helpful are the things that are more anecdotal because i’d imagine those would be the things that would help get inside her head.

first, there’s a lot of stuff about some of the physical changes out there like softer skin, thinner body hair (but not necessarily less) boob growth, fat redistribution, changes to color perception, eyes and lips appearing bigger because of skin changes and fat redistribution etc. but also really important to writing a trans character is the pacing of the those changes.

the changes are slow. much much slower than most people want. there’s a specific frustration in the slowness because while some changes happen quickly, other take years. and also frustration in comparison. some people see changes within weeks or even days. some people don’t see anything for months or years.

in my own personal experience, everything happened FAST. within a few DAYS i had the beginnings of breast buds. within a few weeks skin had visibly softened and changed texture, especially on my face. but other things took more time. i didn’t really have real boobs until 2.5-3 years in, even though i saw other people with the same timeframe or shorter have much more breast development. the patience required can be excruciating but also the joy is overwhelming and it’s a constant cycle.

and another thing i don’t see talked about too much bc it’s hard to qualify and sometimes hard for some people to notice are the way i process emotions and the way i think about things. now HUGE caveat, some people will use this as a way to justify bio-essentialism and transmedicalism and so it’s very important to note that this is MY experience and uniquely interacts with my own journey.

when i started hrt, within a few hours of taking the first dose, i felt different. not physically, but almost as if there was a peace in my soul because my mind became less cloudy and i could differentiate my emotions more clearly. and i used to think this is because t-blockers means no t and no t means less angry but trans mascs would tell me that their experience with t is the same and not the opposite. i’ve now realized that kind of thinking was actually invalidating to trans mascs on t. and ive realized that its actually because testosterone didn’t feel right in my body and removing it from the equation helped me understand myself better. i had always experienced emotions in this way and my discomfort with my body had stopped me from understanding the complexity and nuance with how i was feeling.

and it took me YEARS to understand what had happened. and it happened alongside of being in therapy and a lot of personal growth. hrt was the catalyst but it was the effort i put into growth that made the difference.

if you have any more questions, i’d love to share more cause i think it would be fantastic if more people who were not trans fem would be able to write trans fem characters with substance, nuance, and complexity! it’s difficult but important and thank you for attempting to do so and approaching this with respect!

[kupete]

Idea dump? not really?...or yeah?

(below there is context)

Sooo i have ideas of Dream and Nightmare being living in the early 1500s Spain, where instead of just being town's people the aggressor, what if it was the spanish inquisition?

Now, HEAR ME OUT, the whole tree thing, can be considered temptation, people would want the golden apples, and the whole thing... i think the inquisition would consider it heresy, later wanting to burn it (and dream) nightmare does munch munch yara yara.

But this time, Dream actually dies, years later gets canonized as another saint that got persecuted and killed by the inquisition, living again, working like the Rise of the Guardians? common idea where divine figures depend of beliefs.

Meets Ink, chill (after processing the whole thing), how Ink wants to protect the AUs from Error, thinking he is good, helping him to fight Error.

Realizes the state of the aus, Ink does not intervenes (obviously) and gets more context: In the last 500 years, there has been desperation, and pain, etc, Nightmare had being vibing, with so many people believing and trying to get safety, Dream meets with Nightmare, neither of them is happy, misgendering of Nightmare, fight bam bam, rivalry that could be solved with some talking and therapy.

I used the art for the story by Joku as a pose reference, to compare, is funny seeing a 1500s person doing the peace sign.

─ ⊹ ⊱ ☆ ⊰ ⊹ ─

★ I remember years ago when people made gijinka of dream and Nightmare, it was common making Dream a woman? i don't know if someone else saw that? well, still making Nightmare a guy and they were twins, with my vision of trans coded Nightmare.

★Why in Spain? I had understood that Joku was from Spain? or atleast living there (if thats not the case pls tell me)

★And of course, i just made the numbers, with Dream being 500 (old) so 1500, and what was the IT thing? The Spanish Inquisition.

★I would probably nerf the tree, i don't know why something so important is just...there? at human reach, so is just a collection of emotions, like condensation, instead of the origin of emotions.

★They take watch of the tree for generations, instead of just them.

★I wanted to write more about Nightmare, and how it was being trans in the 1500s without even knowing what's that, like being closeted, but my wrist is killing me, it would be the focus how that affects the relationship with Dream.

★I used the Rise of the Guardians thingy, because i personal issue i had with the original story is, why Dream became stone? it was a defense mechanism? can he do it now? i just made Dream die and live again years later.

If someone wants to make a fanfic... it wouldn't bother me you know...PLS do! i really wish there were fanfics about trans nightmare, of course giving credits if using the artwork or heavily based story.

[artoatsblog]

What your favorite Nick toon says about you but it's EVERY Nick toon

Doug- When you were asked what you wanted for Christmas, you said "plan white bread."

Rugrats- You're a "90's kid" who wants the modern cartoon enjoyers to get off your lawn.

Hey Arnold-Same as Rugrats, but 5 time worse.

Rugrats (2021)- You only said this one to piss off the above two.

Ren & Stimpy- You're a gay man and all you OCs are ugly men who you need to kiss each other or else you'll die (This isn't an insult, you're the strongest member of our society.)

Rocko's modern life- You relate to at least one character way more than you would like to admit to others.

CatDog- Weird furry.

The angry beavers- Weird furry with taste.

Aaahh!!! Real monsters- You like the idea of Tim Burton's movies but your too cool to actually enjoy them, also your probably non-binary.

Kablam- As a kid you wanted to make something with this exact energy and now, you're a youtuber.

Oh Yeah! Cartoons- same as Kablam but you really miss Cosmo's old voice.

The wild Thornberry's- You worship the ground Tim Curry's walks on SO BAD.

Rocket power- Honest 90's kid.

SpongeBob SquarePants seasons 1-4- You're annoying about seasons 5+.

SpongeBob SquarePants seasons 5+- You know better than me about those people being annoying about seasons 5+.

As told by ginger- You were going to say Hey Arnold, but you didn't want to be lumped in with certain other people.

Action league now- You made at least five short films that look exactly like this.

Chalkzone- Your playlist for working out has the theme song for this show looped for five hours and nothing else.

The fairly oddparents- Your trans, and you hate no other person more than Elmer Hartman.

Invader Zim- You were a vary emo kid/teenager in the late 2000's (same, no shade)

Jimmy Neutron- you're really glad that that you picked the show in "Jimmy Timmy power hour" that wasn't made by an asshole.

All grown up- Come on guys "As told by ginger" is right there.

Avatar: the last airbender- I don't want to hear the lore of the fantasy book you wrote.

Avatar: the legend of Korra- Same as atla but You also made a LOT of shipping fanfics.

My life as a teenage robot- Transfem.

The X's- You don't exist, if you're going to go into the comments and say this is your favorite Nicktoon, you're lying.

El Tigre- This is just the good version of Danny Phantom.

Danny Phantom- That was a Joke don't yell at me.

Mr. meaty- You want this odd but cool type of puppetry to come back (if you thought I was going to make fun of this one your wrong.)

Tak and the power of Juju- Your enjoyment of this show is based entirely on the fact that you liked the games.

Back at the barnyard- Shitposter.

Fanboy and Chum Chum- Shitposter but awesome.

Catscratch- Yeah, I think Wayne Knight's voice is hot too.

The mighty B- Gay.

The penguins of Madagascar- I don't have a joke for this one I just think you have impactable taste.

Planet Sheen- You always wanted Jimmy Neutron to have more "Rawr XD" swag.

T.U.F.F puppy- You ether are Jerry Trainor, or you have a Jerry Trainor stan account.

Kung fu panda: legends of awesomeness- You have a three-hour lore video on this franchise, and I hope it does well.

Winx club- You wanted to help them get free from Netflix.

Robot and Monster- It may just be me, but I think you might enjoy Dan vs.

Teenage mutant ninja turtles (2012)- You don't like rise of the tmnt.

Rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles- You don't like tmnt (2012).

Sanjay and Craig- You used to freak other kids out with your scabs.

Monsters vs aliens- You can deny Coverton's rizz (sorry).

Breadwinners- Your about to go into every cartoon reviewers house with a shit ton of water balloons.

Harvey Beaks- In the middle/late 2000's you were more of a cartoon network kid, you loved Cowder.

Pig, Goat, Banana, Cricket- Same as Harvey Beaks but with Flapjack instead of Cowder.

Bunsen is a beast- Your Elmer Hartman.

Welcome to the Wayne- You wrote at least one fanfic for the ending of this show.

The adventures of kid danger- We don't talk about this one.

Middle school Moguls- it's ok monster high is about to come to Nick for real.

The loud house- Your ether a sapphic girl or a straight guy with a DeviantArt account who needs to be punished.

The Casagrandes- Same as the loud house but with the added advantages, because if you have a DeviantArt account in this one you're more likely to have a normal relationship with your family.

It's pony- You don't hate the British as much as the rest of us.

Middlemost post- John trabbic III is such a bad ass name though, wait this show has Del the funky homosapien and Tony Hawk as guest stars, I might need to which this.

Star trek: prodigy- You really like Netflix original animated shows don't you.

Big Nate- You haven't read the books.

Monster high- You the perfect in-between of goth and prep.

Transformers: earthspark- Why does this show have better non-binary rep than most other shows...I mean they are called Transformers for a reason.

[rainboq]

Meowdy!

I just wanted to start by saying that I adore Statistics and Purity Through a Prism.

Do you have any general advice you can give to less experienced writers? I’m also hella into making LiS fics, but I’m still trying to find my footing. Plus most of my projects fizzle out around chapter 5, and I’m not sure how to get momentum back after taking a break 😂🥰 how do you write stories that go for so long?

Thanks!

First of all thank you very much for enjoying my fanfics! I'm sorry that I haven't updated anything in a while, life and original fiction projects have pretty much taken over (I'll be self publishing a novel in the next few months).

For general advice, consider the following.

Keep an idea diary. Write down your ideas, just because you have nothing to go with it doesn't mean you won't later and don't be afraid to mash things together.

Learn about story telling as a craft. Study any and every medium and think about how to apply their lessons to word smithing. I highly recommend Every Frame a Painting, Thomas Flight, Hello Future Me, and Ellen Brock.

Read everything twice. Once for pleasure, once to tear it apart to figure out how the sausage is made. Dissect word choice, structure, pacing, foreshadowing, all of it. If you want to get better as an author, get better at media analysis.

Ask yourself why a project fizzles out. Did you lose sight of your original goal? Is it not turning out the way you hoped? Can you not remember where you wanted it to go? I tend to write with a few very specific scenes fixed in my head and I need to massage the characters to make those scenes happen and make sense. For Prism that was Kate and Chloe's clifftop kiss. Everything after that was kinda ad-libbed.

Embrace failure. Enjoy failure. Fail faster. As the Frizz would say: take chances, make mistakes, and get messy! You will learn more from your mistakes than from your successes. It's okay to be disappointed and upset when things don't go your way, but then dust yourself off and figure out what went wrong where and learn your lessons. (Just because you can write a novel in 3 months doesn't mean you should)

Your ideas are crap. It's okay, mine are too. Ideas always suck, they become good when you actually write the stories and find your blind spots. Make it work in the edit. You can change things right up until you publish, so play around and have fun.

It's okay to not finish projects. Use them as learning experiences. Practice writing better and better hooks. Find character's voices. Toy around with premises.

Practice with a purpose. With everything you write, pick something you want to focus on. Dialogue, pacing, structure, action, word play, imagery, etc. Pick something, study, execute.

Keep it simple. Elevator pitches are 30 words or less. If you can't summarize the crux of your story simply and succinctly, consider revising your idea to make it less complicated. Prism's premise is literally "What if Max never went to Blackwell". Statistic's premise is "What if Chloe was a homeless trans girl dealing for Frank". Complicated premises aren't bad, but they make executing much harder, and you don't need them to tell a good story.

Don't stop. Always be reading, writing, and thinking. Your creativity is a muscle, work it out. Hit the brain gym regularly with focus and intent and you'll see the growth.

I hope these help and good luck!

[loki-is-my-kink-awakening]

20 Fanfic Author Questions

1. How many works on AO3?

126

2. Total AO3 Word Count?

480,838

3. Top 5 fics by Kudos

From Past Experiences (489)

Loki x Mobius

Loki series

Rated T

Pregnant Loki, First Kiss, Amtempted Seduction, Angst with a Happy Ending

Loki is pregnant when he arrives in the TVA and he intends to keep that a secret until he escapes. He doesn't trust easily but a certain Mobius M. Mobius seems intent in being someone who can keep him safe.

Praying For Salvation (385)

John x Riley

Midnight Mass

Rated E

Sex, D/s elements, Vampirism

When Riley took up Father Paul's offer of going to AA meetings on the island, he had no idea he would end up on his knees before the priest as he sought to make amends for his past mistakes.

One On The Way (360)

Loki x Mobius

Loki series

Rated T

Pregnant Loki, Communication Difficulties, Established Relationship

Loki discovers he's pregnant, but doesn't know how he's going to tell Mobius.

Preparing For A New Arrival (336)

Loki x Mobius

Loki series

Rated T

Pregnant Loki, Knitting, Silliness

While knitting a sleepsuit for his expectant child, Loki looks back at how he tried and failed to hide his pregnancy from Mobius.

In Any Shape Or Form (314)

Loki x Mobius

Loki series

Rated E

Cunnilingus, Sex

Loki decides to surprise Mobius by shifting his form, but Mobius doesn't find out until he sees a naked Loki lying on their bed with his legs spread wide.

It never fails to make me smile when I see someone going through my Lokius and baby fics.

4. What fandoms do you write for?

Loki

Witcher

Stranger Things

Midnight Mass

Will one day actually finish a Rings of Power fic and publish it

Have previously written for OFMD and The Last Of Us.

5. Do you respond to comments?

I do, but I have a backlog.

6. Angstiest Ending?

The Words I Could Not Say

Loki x Mobius

Loki series

Rated T

Major character death, Grief/Mourning

Loki doesn't get to confess his feelings for Mobius before he's violently pulled through time once more. Now in the future, he tries and fails to find a Timestick. When he gets back to the present time, he has to help O.B. fix the Time Loom before he can see his friend one last time.

I am working on Loki fixing things, so it shouldn't remain the angstiest ending forever.

7. Fic with the Happiest Ending?

Under A Green Arch

Loki x Mobius

Loki series

Rated T

Wedding, Fluff, Family Reunions

Mobius and Loki get married in their backyard in front of their friends and family.

8. Do you get hate?

I've been called disgusting before, but generally do not get hate. I blocked the person who called me that since they couldn't do it themselves.

9. Do you write smut?

Most of the time. Sometimes non-sexual kink (my beloved).

10. Do you write crossovers?

I've helped with a crossover fic but haven't yet writen one.

11. Ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I am aware of. I think I'm too niche in what I write about.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Never. I would collapse if I was ever asked.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

Not yet but I'd like to try it some time.

14. All time favourite ship?

Lokius 💚🧡

15. WIPs you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

It Started With That Hug (Lokius)

But a recent discussion in The Automat has made me reconsider this. It will mean probably rewriting everything but the idea can be salvaged.

Answer My Prayer (Lokius)

I had good intentions but have zero plot. It's gathering dust atm.

Choke Me? (Lokius/Dashingfrost)

Another good intention and have written more words for this one, but I think I'd have to reduce my grand plans and make this a short thing.

Made In Their Image (Lokius)

I want so badly to do trans masc Mobius' realisation/angst/self-acceptance story justice, but it feels overwhelming, so I keep putting it off.

Remember Me (Lokius)

I had a whole plan for what this fic would contain and I... haven't started writing it yet. I clearly have little focus.

Fighter!Jaskier (Radskier)

I haven't picked this one up in so long.

Amnesiac!Geralt and Vampire!Jaskier (Geraskier)

Thousands of words outlining the piece and yet no progress beyond that.

Midnight Mass AU (Steddie)

I can see this in my head. Have not written out the words. 🥺

And I haven't even considered my half-published fics because I'm determined to finish them even if it 💀 me. The ones that live solely in my docs are different, however.

16. Writing strengths?

Tension and slowing scenes down to dive deep into a characters thoughts and feelings (while also making it feel like things are still happening).

17. Writing Weaknesses?

Plot.

18. Thoughts on mixed language dialogue?

I think it's super cool. I will need to try it at one point.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

First fic I started writing was for Loki. First published fic was for Midnight Mass.

20. Favourite fic you’ve ever written?

For the pure unhingedness of it

The Temptation of Christ

John x Riley

Midnight Mass

Rated E

Bondage, Crucifixion, Worship

John firmly believed that Riley was pure of heart, like Christ, and is determined to show him how much by stringing him up on a cross and worshiping him.

Tagged by the amazing @lokimobius

Passing the tag onto these lovely 20 people:

@in-my-loki-feels @cha-melodius @mirilyawrites @devilbearingtrouuble @insert-witty-user-name-here

@lgwilt @dewdropreader @starport-seven-five @starrose17 @waterhorseyblues-ao3

@ghoulehhh @thosegayoldmen @boredintjqueen @underthebluerain @janjan-the-ninth

@mobiusismycomfortcharacter @distracteddream @highwarlockofphilly @transmairon @blackbirdofasgard

If you've already filled this from another tag, please feel free to add me to the post so I can read your answers 💗

[againaweasel]

Congratulations on the surgery! Must have felt so good to get that off your chest

How do you feel about people making HP content? Is there a "good" way someone who isn't trans can make HP content? I hope I'm explaining this well enough

very very good to have it off my chest! 

 I’m going to try my best to answer this, but apologies if it stops making sense at any point. Surgery has absolutely taken it out of me atm and I’m exhausted. BUT it’s an important question so thank you for asking it!!

tbh I think it’s a very grey area (one I’m including myself in too, just in case this reads like I think I’m somehow exempt). Every post we make promotes the author and her work in some way. As a result, I’m not sure there is good HP content, we can just try to mitigate the harm and make better content — for both trans and cis fans. 

Making HP content isn’t strictly harm-free at any point, so it should never be strictly guilt-free either. We should be conscious that we’re playing in the terfs playground and that changing HCs or making AUs or preferring fanfic isn’t actually what we mean when we talk about separating her (that stuff’s just fucking fun).

 So, better content is talks about the harm she’s causing, the fallacies in her logic, and how we can ensure we don’t support that financially or with our attention.

So, not posting hauls of official merchandise, or taking pictures of the Marauders costumes at the tour like that makes a difference, or talking about how you want the reboot for the Marauders content (or that you would want the show if they make Wolfstar canon).  It’s making sure you give actual trans people the care you’d give trans hcs and not shitting on trans Hcs. It’s not jumping to transphobic rhetoric when you disagree with what a trans creator says. 

It’s talking about these things regularly, even its a just a ‘PSA: you still shouldn’t be giving her money’ kind of thing, because just having that line of thinking as a constant in the fandom helps make this space feel more welcoming. Keeping up to date on the state of the world for trans people is also helpful, and researching ways you can help.

(Just to get really salty on main for a second: large (cis) creators who take money for sponsorships from the Wizarding World brand themselves, who go to premiers and red carpet events to actively promote the franchise, and do videos at the theme park are examples of Hp content that's not great for trans people btw , made worse when they've been in my DMs pretending to give a shit.)

No one is perfect, and you’re not going to get it right 100% of the time — but making better content is making the attempt and being vocal about it.

[legglesspotato]

Quick little question heheh

So, basically, this blog was made for me to express my love for this fandom (Obey Me!) through writing even though I’m not the best at it ;-;. It was also created to help me connect with other people who are apart of this community. On this blog (even though sometimes I don’t post a lot [and I am currently striving to write more]) I typically write (and/or in the process of writing) short/medium-ish length short stories. But, before I even considered making this blog I was actually writing my own fan fiction and I was going to make it considerably long! I lost motivation a while ago but I was wondering if anyone would be interested in it?

I would release the story in chapters and I was thinking about making the MC trans neutral and/or trans masc (because I don’t think I’ve ever seen that before and it would be relatable to me!)

Keep in mind though, that this is literally my FIRST fanfic I’ve ever written.

Would anyone be interested in reading it? Not sure when the first chapter or pilot (possibly) would come out but maybe if I know people are interested I may have more motivation to work on it!

[cuntyglam]

Running From Your Bullets

Connie Springer x Samuel Linke-Jackson

Connie thinks reminisces about Samuel and wonders how it all went wrong

Word Count: 900+

Warnings: Season 4 Spoilers, Canon Character Death, Mentions of Murder

Tags: Trans!Samuel, Samuel x Connie, Angst, Fluff, Unsafe Binding, Hidden Relationship (?), Slight Conmin

A/N: hello! this is my first ever fanfic i’ve ever completely finished and it’s the first i’m posting one anywhere! i may eventually cross post this to ao3 but it’s not up as of the time of posting this. anyways samnie has been so dear to my heart recently after i rewatched season 4 so here you go! oh btw the title is a ref to “sign of the times”

Special Thank You: @levihandynasty and @sneak-pieck ! @levihandynasty helped me figure out a ship name for these two and inspired me to write samuel as trans, and they both encouraged me to post it! also thank you to everyone in the aot discord server for encouraging me to write !!

Connie’s ears ring with the shot that ended Samuel’s life. He was on the flying boat now, miles and miles away from Paradis. He’d dreamed of this before, of going back to Marley for another diplomatic mission. Of showing Samuel things he could never imagine.

“So it’s like frozen milk?” Samuel laughs, scrunching up his nose in disgust. “Sounds awful!” he smiles. It’s the first time Connie has seen him genuinely smile since he got back from Marley.

“No not really,” Connie replies, chuckling. “It’s more like cream but thicker,” he scratches the back of his neck. “I guess it’s hard to explain…” Connie looks nervously over at the horses as if they could help him. Connie and Samuel have made it a habit to hang around the stables. There were some picnic tables and benches that made for a good place to relax. Besides feeding times and the occasional scout mission, the stables were pretty empty of humans. It was a place where they could enjoy each other’s company in private. Despite Connie and Samuel never labeling their little meet ups as dates, both of them knew that their relationship hasn’t been platonic in a long time.

Samuel turns his head to look at Connie sitting next to him on the bench. “It’s okay, I’m just glad you’re home…” Sam whispers, barely audible.

“I told you I would be Sammie, it was just a diplomatic mission,” Connie says, reaching for Samuel’s hand before deciding against it.

Samuel grabs Connie’s hand, “Don’t get shy on me now Connie. Not after we’ve planned out our entire lives together.” Connie blushes, remembering the many times they’ve talked about getting a cottage and raising livestock together. Both Samuel and Sasha adored meat, and after Marley was defeated they’d have the time to settle down on their own farm. No more rations, just fresh meat and vegetables. Connie tries to tell himself his dreams of living on a farm with his friends and Sam are unrealistic, but without it he doesn’t know if he’d have the strength to keep fighting.

“You’re right Sam, we both know I’ve got nothing to hide from you,” he squeezes Samuel’s hand. Connie leans over and lays his head on Samuel’s shoulder. They fall into a happy silence, the only sound before my their faint breathing.

“Oh!” Connie shouts, shooting straight up like a rod and startling Samuel. “I just remembered!” I met a man in Marley!”

The side eye from Sam is cutting. “You scared the hell out of me and all the horses because you met some man?” Samuel rolls his eyes. The horses seem unbothered by Connie’s outburst.

“No he wasn’t just some man, he was, well he was like you. I mean- no one’s like you…” he blushes harder, the hand holding Samuel’s feeling sweatier. “But he was born like you, ya know,” Connie shrugs.

“What the hell does that mea- oh. Oh!” Samuel cuts himself off as his eyes widen in understanding.

“Yeah,” Connie continues, “he said that there are doctors in Marley, and in the rest of the world, that can make your chest flat with surgery.” Connie looks at Samuel nervously. He knows that Sam has trouble trusting anyone who’s even been to Marley.

“Wow,” Samuel breathes, stunned.

“Yeah,” Connie finally meets Samuel’s eyes, “I mean it’s really expensive, but we’ll figure it out.”

Sam nods, “I really don’t like the idea of some Marleyan taking a blade to my chest though…”

Connie squeezes his hand again, “I know, but there are doctors that aren’t Marleyan! I think we should try Sammie. The guy I met also said that the way you’re bandaging your chest now can actually break your ribs…” Connie studies Samuel’s face. He feels like he can never tell what the other man is thinking. Samuel let’s go of Connie’s hand to touch his side, no doubt thinking about the bruises that already litter his chest. “As soon as our borders are open for more international travel we can start looking for a doctor,” Connie places a comforting hand on Samuel’s knee.

“You’ll be there? For the surgery?” he asks, meeting Connie’s eyes once again. Connie can see a mixture of fear and hope in his eyes and can’t help but pull him into a hug.

“Of course I will be Sammie,” he sighs into Sam’s shoulder, being careful not to put pressure on his chest. “I know we don’t really say it a lot but, y’know…”

Sam pulls back from the hug and looks the other man in his eyes, “I love you too Connie.”

Connie can still remember the warm smile Samuel gave him that day, but now he can’t scrub the image of his skull blasted open from his mind.

“He told me to wait…” Connie mutters, his words more a stream of consciousness than a sentence. “He could have- we could have-“ he begins to sob again. “We could have figured something out, he could have come with us…” Connie can barely breathe when he feels Armin’s hand on his shoulder.

“You did what you had to,” he says, his words barely audible over the roar of the flying boat. Connie can see the tears in Armin’s eyes. He doesn’t know if Armin knows how much Samuel truly meant to him. He doesn’t know if he wants him to know after what he’s done. “I- I’m glad you’re okay Armin,” his voice breaks as Armin pulls him into a hug. He closes his eyes and tries to forget the image of his lover’s blood staining the pavement.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Hi I just have a question and I mean to ask it as respectfully as possible

When did people start head cannoning Regulus as trans? I just dont understand how people came to that conclusion?

I’m also just very uneducated on the trans community and I know that and just don’t really know where to get reliable information about the whole community and the people in it.

Idk in my opinion I just almost feel like people made Regulus trans to meet a diversity quota. I also feel like it kind of takes away from the fact that James could be genuinely attracted to biological males? Like maybe people are still so attached to Jily that they can’t truly let go of it even in his other ship?

Sorry I just really would like to see the point of view from someone who is part of the trans community (correct me if I’m wrong on that please) and also enjoys and writes trans Regulus. It really just makes me sad that I don’t read so many fanfics that I’m sure are absolutely beautiful just because I’m a little put off by Regulus (or even Remus) being trans.

Anyway I’d love to hear the reasoning you have and I’m so sorry if any of this came off as offensive or rude🫶

Okay, so to answer your first question, the first fic in ao3 tagged with trans! Regulus Black is dated in March 2016, so 8 years ago. (I see a Jegulus fic tagged in 2005, for comparison).

As far as people coming to the conclusion of reg being trans, I think it's just people seeing themselves in the character, or enjoying the headcanon. It's not like...deciding it IS canon. If that makes sense?

For information on the community, I'm not sure what you mean. Like information in being trans? If you have questions on that, I'm more than willing to answer them! I can point you to reliable websites or try to give you my own experience.

I don't think it's 'meeting a diversity quota.' I think it's that Harry Potter is genuinely super NOT diverse. Canonically, most characters are straight, cis, and white. And fanfiction writers like to write what they want and what they relate to. Many fanfic writers know trans people/are trans, so it's natural to include trans people in their works. It's not meeting a quota, it's just emulating their lives.

And as far as James's attraction..sure, he can be attracted to people with any genitals. But I think you're missing the point that trans Regulus IS a boy. Your body doesn't equal your gender. So when James is attracted to him, he is attracted to a boy. He is, therefore, gay (or at least queer) by being attracted to Regulus. Very gently, seeing trans Regulus as a substitution for Lily because they might have similar bodies is a bit transphobic. Though body parts can be important to some people, putting Regulus and Lily on the same plane is a bit off. (Also, many people headcanon James as pansexual, meaning he can be attracted to any gender, so he doesn't care what gender people are.) You ARE right in saying that some people probably do think this way though. But it's not okay.

As far as not liking the headcanon of trans!Regulus or trans!Remus or whoever...I don't think that's a bad thing IN THEORY. For example, I don't see Harry as trans. There are some Drarry fics which have trans!Harry and I don't read them, because that's not my headcanon. Fanfics are for your enjoyment, and you don't have to force yourself to read them if they don't share your specific headcanons. I would just think about WHY you're not reading these fics. If you just see these characters as cis, then that's fine! But if it's because you might need more education of transness and what it means to be trans, then maybe take the time to educate yourself and go from there, you know?

I hope that helps!

(Also if anyone wants to chime in in the comments, you're welcome to, but please be respectful, this was a genuine question)