#help i think fanfics made me trans
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i was checking my drafts (for the irrational fear that there will be a bug that suddenly releases all your posts in draft; this has no basis on reality, so dont worry), and found this post from march 1st 2023.
its me working out that im definitely not trans:
dont mind me, im just sitting here and thinking out loud
me: oh im just a regular woman. not straight. but otherwise normal. thats all. :) [pre 2020]
me: hm actually. you know what? hmhm. something is up
me: no its fine. its time. i came out as lesbian to my friends! this is great. i love this. time to buy... lgbt merch. [around 2020]
me: what kind tho... hm.... somehow.... u know? normal rainbow stuff is fine, right?
me: hmmmm im not feeling so good actually??? [around 2021]
me: is that... u know what.... i think i may be.... non-binary? i thought this was only smth for kids but looking into it, huh, i guess so!
me: now i can wear more boy clothes. and walk a bit more masc. thats kinda fun. mens tank top. mens shorts. baseball cap. i feel awesome. hairy legs. hairy armpits. hell yeah!
me: but im just nb im not trans thats not being trans
me: i dont wanna intrude or take away or smth im just nb
me: im fine being the way i am no need to do hrt or anything really
me: and honestly, i dont wanna lose my identity as a queer woman!!! i love being a queer woman! well ok not a woman anymore but im still like, sapphic! that kinda thing!!! im deathly afraid of losing this part of my identity!
me: im super fine w my body and im fine staying this way and also being my agab at my job
me: besides im so cute now and id deffo look ugly as a guy
me: i dont even like guys that much so like come on
me: that one guy is giving me such gender envy. thats just 1 exception tho [around 2022]
me: i prefer he/they but im fine with all pronouns :)
me: i like it when ppl use male words for me. just makes me feel good. nothing else :)
me: (i have no dysphoria cuz im nb im not trans)
me: its cool im fine
me: hmmmmmmmmm
me: mhmhm eeeh
me: im not feeling so great again thats so weird....??? [late 2022/early 2023]
me: mhmhmhmhmh
me: oh look im growing facial hair
me: guess ill shave. thats annoying. kinda cool but annoying
me: oh wow i gotta shave more often huh thats so annoying
me: hm hair is growing more... actually... feels nice touching my hairy face kinda
me: oh well i gotta shave for work, so
me: ach. why does that feel unpleasant?
me: oh well. heh, if i were a man (im not tho), some things would be kinda fun!
me: if i were a guy. that would be fun. like. purely hypothetical, yknow?
me: like if i suddenly got the superpower to change my appearance. that would be sooo cool. just cuz.
me: wouldnt that be fun. it would. it would be so fun.
me: not trans tho
me: def not trans. i feel shaky and queasy just thinking of it. im not
me: just nb. im fine. im fine staying like this. like. im. im fine.
me: like sure im not like super comf
me: thats on me deciding not to be more gnc in public. yeah. it would be such a hassle
me: yeah. what if tho lol. can u imagine. god, telling my boss? no way man that wouldnt fly
me: and id be so ugly. im cute right now. and im not strong. or build. and im too fat. if i were to be a man id wanna be, like, hot, yknow? strong and sharp jawline. if i were to be guy. im not. i wouldnt. im not trans lol
me: lemme write this fanfic real quick. just smth self-indulgent. what if i woke up in the body of the main character of this shounen anime lol. id be a boy lol. like. id be a man. mans body lol. that be fun lol. and what if i managed to fall in love with that male character. wed be so gay together. haha. two guys. such a funny idea
me: .....................
me: like what if i got top surgery.
me: like, sure. a year ago i was scared of losing my boobs. like if i had breast cancer and had to remove them. id look so off. my body would look wrong. boobs are an important visual element.
me: but what if i got top surgery. like. i hate bras. i dont like them being touched much either honestly so i wouldnt really lose anything? it would be more comfy for me day to day. and while sleeping. so, honestly, only upsides?
me: ...what would i need, theoretically. hm. half a year of therapy? oh. yeah. no. im not trans. so. yeah.
me: ....................
me: like, what name would i even pick. idk. well doesnt matter. im not trans.
[new addition, july 2023] me: im trans :D
#help i think fanfics made me trans#not trans tho#<the previous tags lmao#definitely trans tho#i guess i didnt post it back then because it felt a bit too dangerous and then i forgot about it#a retroperspective of my self-identity
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also let's hear it for our [cam stone exists] entry being the only one (so far) of the 2 trans 2 furious zine to have an editor's note, hell yeah
#the issue was ''oops we didn't realize at first this is like Real Real Preexisting Info & not an OC''#and i'm like well since (a) that's on the basis of my Already trying to make it initially clear & (b) i'd have to edit in more text#and i Know i both wouldn't do that concisely Nor even have a good idea of how to make it Clearer & (c) i think a separate editor's note#would in fact help Clarify in being a separate editor's note; would be more concise than i could make it (it is: ''this isn't fanfic.#everything on this page is true!''); would also just be funny in & of itself#there's also some Artist Statements in the back of the book; i didn't know that at the time but prefer it right on the page anyways#as the editor's note is....loved an artist statement abt an edit that made me laugh that said like [humoring another trans person out there#is enough]; a statement contextualizing an abstract very epic comic/illustration as ''this is my effort to imagine a distilled#Platonic Ideal of the fastness & furiousness at the core of the movies'' right tf on#2 trans 2 furious#cam stone#it's what they and we deserve: a funny little and clarifying little special addition
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As far as I know, the trans lady currently in charge of my local trans support group is a person of color. (She's awesome and beautiful and I'm so proud of her and glad that the old folks there chose her to take overš)
There are so many more people in our community than the two or three in the now very fucking old Stonewall fables.
saying this for my non black queer followers but: black queer folk have always existed, we've always been around, especially when it came to defending and fighting for our communities rights.
it sucks to see us never included in queer centered art or post, but we exist.
#Idk if art of people with different skin tones is a part of modern classes in art#but they weren't back when I was in school in my tiny white-ass European country and took every art course I possibly could for a decade#I think the closest media to me I'm aware of that has people of color is a fanfic my partner has been slowly writing#There's this polycule friend group in it that's loosely based on people they've met#they're side characters but my partner loves them#Of course one of the POV characters is from our home country because they're doing write what you know for once#but yeah that's the closest I'm aware of at the moment. You're right it does feel kinda empty in general.#We don't try much to represent POC. I don't think we know how and that makes us too scared?#(At least that's how a lot of white cis people are about trans people. But I've seen people learn their way around the fear with helpš¤·āāļø)#(My partner's page is allthewaydownhere and the fic is This Is Why We Fight (I think)(I've been off tumblr for a long time))#I think making friends helps (for white people who need to learn). Being in cities can help with that.#I could 100% use some more friends of color to actively chat with but lately life has made it hard to maintain relationships in general#so that's gonna have to wait until I'm eventually vaguely functional again
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hiiii im currently looking for spencer and Alex fics and i found your Page. Could you mabey write one with spencer? Mabey with the reader working in art Departement and reader and spencer are Engaged?? And they film a who memed it Episode with spencer cortney and Angela and reader is in the "crowd" and gave in a meme about spencer and he is the only one who knows that it was reader, because its like an inside joke and they are all cute and sweet when it happenes and after and all that :))))). (Sorry if its Hard to understand im writing this in a hurry)
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Pairing: Spencer Agnew x FiancƩ!Reader
ā Ā· Ā· TAGS: gender-neutral pronouns, fluff, attempt at humour, meet-cute, pre-established relationship/engagement, feel-good.
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ā Ā· Ā· A/N: hope you all are having good weeks! š«¶ thank you for the ask, anon, this was was so cute and sweet! and I had way to much for doing that drawing XD
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You met your fiancƩ at work, most people would think that not to be the most romantic starting point for a relationship and they would be correct. On the first night you and Spencer met, an editor and sculptor both thinking to be the only one left in the office and needing a moment before continuing working. You decided to take a nap on the Games couch.
Bringing a blanket from your desk and a pillow from on of the offices, you set your alarm before practically throwing yourself onto what you thought to be just couch... but how wrong you would be.
(Charles) Spencer Agnew would find himself already on the couch, separate alarm set and forgotten about and fast asleep. That was until his now fiancƩ landed right into his arms with an abrupt thud before you both were jumping off the couch and screaming like little girls.
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You chuckle to yourself when a meme of that exact scenario flashes up on screen (of your own doing) and do your best to conceal your laughter at the memory while sitting behind camera. The fellow arts department staff also snicker to one another yet everyone else in the room had no clue why a couch and two poorly drawn, MS-paint stick figures with pink-tails were on screen. Everyone but Spencer.
Courtney and Angela, the other two contestants competing against Spencer for the title of winner today take to the crowd as you all neutralize your expressions and mask indifference when Angela's eyes catch your own and squint, trying to pry into your brain yet you only shrug and smile before knocking your shoulder against Shayne who appears equally confused as the rest of the cast members.
"Can we have our answers written on the boards, please," Tommy politely asks. Courtney taps her marker lid against the table, confusion if evident on her face as she looks to Spencer who looks all too content with his answer. "You know who it is, Spence?" She asks, raising a brow as this meme seemed obscenely obscure.
Spencer just shrugged, smiling towards the camera, his left hand tapping his board in a subtle hint that no one but you caught on to as you too started twiddling the fingers on your left hand before Tommy was calling time. "I DON'T KNOW, GIVE ME ONE MORE MINUTE," Angela begged, now standing up from the table before writing down her answer with a huff. Courtney looked positively stressed, "Spencer c'mon give me a hint, I've gotta feeling that I'm going to be made fun of for not knowing this one!" Courtney pleaded as Spencer's grin only grew and yours did too.
"I can't help ya," Spencer replied, now leaning onto the table, curious as to what the others answers would be. "Angela could you present first please," Tommy asked extending his hand out to point at her board.
Flipping it around, in small letters Angela wrote, Alex Tran. "I think its Alex... I guess? I mean Spencer wrote down his answer WAY too fast, so it has to be someone close to him-"
"See that's what I thought too," Courtney added, turning her board around now, and she had written down, SHAYNE, in big, bold capital letters. "I know they hang out a lot together outside of work and by the poorly drawn figures, I don't know on purpose or not, it could be him."
"And Spencer, reveal the answer please," Tommy asked, already knowing his would be the correct one. "I said, (name)."
"And do tell us and the viewers at home, why you choose them."
"Well, (name) and I recently got engaged, woohoo!" Spencer cheers as the office claps and whistles, you start slipping down your chair, embarrassed but flail your ring in the air like a white flag offering. "and this is a meme of our first time meeting each other. We both were staying overnight at the office and didn't think that someone else would also be staying and nevertheless using the couch so we ended up falling on one another and screamed like little girls in panic," Spencer continued yet barley, laughing so harshly in between and everyone seemed to as well as Tommy was knelt over, face red and gasping for air.
"Now that is a story, congratulations you two! And congratulations to Spencer for winning Who Meme'd It with that final point!" You stand up and cheer and Spencer points to you in the crowd, the cameras panning over before you shout. "Thats my man!" and everyone is in tears, clenching their stomaches of laughter.
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Once the cameras were all shut off and the office was going back to their offices and stations, you waited patiently by the door to greet Spencer before he had to direct a Games Video. "I'm surprised not many people knew how we met," he comments, wrapping an arm around your waist as you press a kiss to his cheek.
"I am too, but well, we are quite private about our relationship in the first place. So it would make sense," you say, walking over to the kitchen to grab water bottles for the two of you.
"Well, I'm sure thats going to change now," Spencer says, looking over your shoulder and you do the same. A wild group of cast members are all rushing over to you both as a thousand questions are being waterfall into your face and next thing you both knew, a thirty minute lunch had turned into a two-hour one. But when sharing a kickstarter and some snacks with Spencer's arm wrapped securely around you, his laughter in your ear as he whispered things only for you to hear, you wouldn't have it any other way.
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#smosh#smosh games#smosh fanfic#smosh fanfiction#spencer agnew#spencer x reader#spencer agnew x reader#spencer agnew fanfic#spencer agnew fanfiction#spencer agnew imagine#fanfic#fanfiction#simp-ly#simp-ly-writes#smosh x reader#ask#asks#answered#submissions#fluff#engagement#meet cute
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My favorite thing with Relativity Falls is trying to wrangle Dipper and Mabelās gender with the identity theft. Are one of them trans? If so, which one? If they donāt have any siblings, that means one of them is Stan and Fordās grandparent. Is the remaining twin pretending to be the other or are they honest about being a different one? Thereās a lot of fun combinations:
I flip flop on which twin works better as the author, but I really love Grauntie Mabel so if I ever made Relatively Falls fanfic Iād probably have Dipper be the Author with Mabel running the shack. I also really like the secret identity angle so I fully support Mabel impersonating her brother. To solve the gender issue you can either go the trans route or the crossdressing for 30 years route. The most ānaturalā feeling one, at least fanon wise imo, is that Dipper is transmac but fell into the portal before transitioning. But the dipper as transmac headcanon bugs me for reasons not relevant here, and I like Grauntie Mabel too much to make her crossdress as a man for 30 years; so I actually prefer transfemme dipper who fell into the portal after transitioning (I am also definitely not impartial, I am a trans woman lol). That also ties into Dipper feeling like a weird outcast who would study cryptids a la Ford, as opposed to him just being a mystery loving nerd with a constellation birthmark (of course, thatās if you make Dipper study the same things as Ford, which lots of people donāt).
Of course, that line of reasoning leads to all sorts of interesting questions as a result: who is the McGucket analogue? I usually see Candy or Pacifica, but if you wanted to mirror the show (and lean into the queer angle/a relatively falls fiddauthor), Wendy works pretty well. That also helps put Fiddleford in the shack so he can go on adventures with Stan and Ford. And Shermie? Oh god, Shermie.
Shermie is his own can of worms. If heās Stan and Fordās brother, is he older or younger? Is he there with them over the summer or is he back with Filbrick and Caryn? Maybe heās still the unseen grandpa, making him Dipper and Mabelās brother and sidestepping which one of them is the grandparent. Imo, Shermie works best as Stan and Fordās older brother adventuring with them. Maybe even as a Soos analogue.
As for who the grandparent is, I dunno! Maybe Soos is, making him Dipper and Mabelās brother. Maybe Mabel was, making the fact she faked her death and impersonated Dipper all the more tragic and gut punch-y (and very different from Stan, who Alex Hirsch thought never would do that). Maybe Dipper was, and so Mabel is pretending to be a grandparent. If it was Mabel or Dipper, whoās the spouse?
I like swapping Soos and Aubelita too much to make Soos Stan and Fordās grandpa (though itās a fun idea I donāt see anyone do). So then one of the mystery twins has to be the grandparent. I donāt think Mabel would abandon her family, so Dipper as the real grandparent has to happen via process of elimination (meaning until Not What (S)he Seems, Mabel goes by āgrandma mabelā). Who the other parent is up in the air; Wendy or Pacifica are already popular ships with Dipper, and also potential McGucket analogues. If you wanna get really weird with it, Bill is, imo, a valid choice given the implied romance between him and Ford.
And that snowballs into dealing with Bill. Does he get swapped? If so, with who? Gideon kinda makes sense, especially if you want to keep the Hand that Rocks the Mabel(Ford? Stan?) plotline (as opposed to Stan x Bud whichā¦ okay thatās actually funnier). But Dream Demon Gideon sounds kinda stupid to me, even if it fits oddly well (I actually think that works better if Mabel is the author). Do you swap Bill with Euclid and Scalene? Then thereās two dream demons and baby bill running around, but Billās parents are kinda nothing burgers of characters. Why do they want a portal? You can also just keep Bill as Bill. I mean, the Book of Bill indicated that thereās a Bill for every universe. I dunno where I stand there, but I lean towards keeping Bill as himself. But swapping any obsessive ex tendencies of his from Ford to Dipper for obvious reasons.
I dunno if Iāll ever write anything, and thatās obviously not all the questions this AU raises (if Pacifica is swapped with Preston, how does Double Dipper play out? Does Boyish Dan work at the shack or is he the estranged son? Who do Candy and Grenda swap with? Are they the Rico and Jorge of Mabelās backstory? How different is Mabel and Dipperās backstory to a Tale of Two Stans?) but this AU is probably my favorite and every time I reblog art or an idea about it I get more and more drawn in. Itās really thought provoking.
#relativity falls#grauntie mabel#how do Blubs and Durland get swapped?#are they the teenagers now?#oh god does that mean Robbie is a cop?!#heād have to be the undertaker though right?#maybe Thompson is a cop#that makes just as much sense#wendy's posts#gravity falls AU
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Never going to forget the time I made a fanfic that was omegaverse based & I was called transphobic since omegaverse is very transphobic according to them. (Omegaverse has helped me with my dysphoria so much especially on days I struggle with my body since I can't get surgery)
I'm a trans man, the person complaining is not trans. It's just very funny to see them throw a fit over me being transphobic while they send me basic death threats, In fairness they just think I'm some cis dude since I never call myself trans online but still, no one should be forced to out themselves publicly just to write fanfics without harassment lol
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hi! no idea if you take asks like this but thought i'd try. i'm writing a transfem character in a fanfic (in canon they are a cis guy, i just headcanon her as trans), specifically about effects of estrogen. i'm doing a lot of research but i was wondering if there's anything specific you think would be important to know? ty in advance if you do answer! <3
oooh what a fun ask!
having recently taken a stab at writing some fanfic myself, i think the things that would be the most helpful are the things that are more anecdotal because iād imagine those would be the things that would help get inside her head.
first, thereās a lot of stuff about some of the physical changes out there like softer skin, thinner body hair (but not necessarily less) boob growth, fat redistribution, changes to color perception, eyes and lips appearing bigger because of skin changes and fat redistribution etc. but also really important to writing a trans character is the pacing of the those changes.
the changes are slow. much much slower than most people want. thereās a specific frustration in the slowness because while some changes happen quickly, other take years. and also frustration in comparison. some people see changes within weeks or even days. some people donāt see anything for months or years.
in my own personal experience, everything happened FAST. within a few DAYS i had the beginnings of breast buds. within a few weeks skin had visibly softened and changed texture, especially on my face. but other things took more time. i didnāt really have real boobs until 2.5-3 years in, even though i saw other people with the same timeframe or shorter have much more breast development. the patience required can be excruciating but also the joy is overwhelming and itās a constant cycle.
and another thing i donāt see talked about too much bc itās hard to qualify and sometimes hard for some people to notice are the way i process emotions and the way i think about things. now HUGE caveat, some people will use this as a way to justify bio-essentialism and transmedicalism and so itās very important to note that this is MY experience and uniquely interacts with my own journey.
when i started hrt, within a few hours of taking the first dose, i felt different. not physically, but almost as if there was a peace in my soul because my mind became less cloudy and i could differentiate my emotions more clearly. and i used to think this is because t-blockers means no t and no t means less angry but trans mascs would tell me that their experience with t is the same and not the opposite. iāve now realized that kind of thinking was actually invalidating to trans mascs on t. and ive realized that its actually because testosterone didnāt feel right in my body and removing it from the equation helped me understand myself better. i had always experienced emotions in this way and my discomfort with my body had stopped me from understanding the complexity and nuance with how i was feeling.
and it took me YEARS to understand what had happened. and it happened alongside of being in therapy and a lot of personal growth. hrt was the catalyst but it was the effort i put into growth that made the difference.
if you have any more questions, iād love to share more cause i think it would be fantastic if more people who were not trans fem would be able to write trans fem characters with substance, nuance, and complexity! itās difficult but important and thank you for attempting to do so and approaching this with respect!
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Imagine how I must feel as one of the only fans of Mighty Magiswords. You know. A headcanons-and-fanfic kind of fan. I even cosplayed Prohyas once.
Of course, it's nothing compared to what the actual victims went through... I'm fine. But it still felt like a part of my identity has been permanently soured. I don't want to seem like I somehow have it worse, that's not my intention. Nothing bad happened to me personally. I'm only posting my own side of how I deal with the situation, to get some closure myself and show solidarity with the victims.
I don't admire him anymore, and that's putting it lightly.
Full story under cut. Content warning for non-graphic discussion of csa.
The news came to me from my ex-but-still-friend. He told me privately, out of nowhere, just dropped it on me. Like, "Hey, sorry to tell you, but the guy you like got arrested for csa". However, I am glad he told me rather than me having to find out on my own.
The news hit me, and I felt nothing in my body. I usually would get this painful fight-or-flight all through my body whenever I read something that upset me, something I've been training myself to get better with. But right now? I just felt like... "huh. That happened." It helped a lot that Magiswords wasn't my fixation of the moment. And like... it's been like I've been slipping away from it. Like I didn't need it anymore.
More and more people were talking about him, and it wasn't positive. Who? Kyle.
I talked to him. Personally, like many people did. He never acted weird to me. I admired him. I loved his art, sent him physical fanart, all that stuff. I knew more than one person said he was not trustworthy but hey, he made a show that saved my life, so it was a constant struggle between feeling like I had to pick sides. I was going through hell by virtue of my dad being terminally sick and needing constant care, so I was gonna ignore the red flags and enjoy my silly sword show that brought me such joy.
Even if as time went on it started get harder and harder.
But you know what a certain depressed horse show said? When you're wearing rose coloured glasses, red flags just look like flags.
I now think dodged a bullet.
What emotions do I feel? Betrayal. Anger. Disgust. Disappointment.
The irony about it all. The sheer painful irony of blacklisting somebody for *drawings*, and then going behind everybody's back to actually hoard *actual* csa, and revenge porn, and all sorts of nasty stuff. For the record: there is nothing wrong with being put off or disgusted by specific sorts of drawings. But the irony here is what's most painful to me. I do not like people using this as a "gotcha" for either side of this tired argument. It's disrespectful to the actual victims.
People say I can easily seperate art from the artist if I want to but... right now I don't think I want to. He's in every pore of its identity. I do not want to talk or think about Magiswords right now, and I don't know if I ever will again.
It meant so much to me. Prohyas felt like Me. Being a goofy capable adult who doesn't stop collecting things he likes just cuz he's an adult. I thought I was trans for a while and the euphoria of relating to Prohyas helped that. Then he got lowkey confirmed nonbinary and I was over the moon.
It was good. Emphasis on "was".
And to the man himself I have one thing to say: you're another one in a long history of cartoon artists who end up being unsavoury, slimy people, taking advantage of young people, especially girls, in the animation industry. Not something to be proud of. I know we talked and you seemed perfectly okay to me, personally. All I can think is thank god it never went beyond casual chats.
I guess I can finally say I never liked the joke about Vambre not liking pants. Sure, sensory issues exist, but I doubt that was the intention of the design. I have deleted my sideblog where I chronicled ooc screencaps of the show and deleted my little spotify playlist of songs that reminded me of the show. I don't want to finish my longfic where Prohyas and Flonk fell in love anymore. I can't even change it into ocs because it's just so ingrained in the show's lore. So yeah, there's that.
I'll be fine. When the news hit I took it surprisingly well. I was going to an Alestorm concert and it was the most fun I had in ages. So yeah, I've got Christopher Bowes and His Plate of Beans to fill the void of comedy music. Was fixating on Simpsons already so there's that in terms of cartoons. I'm fine.
All I can say is my heart goes out to all the victims, and I'm deeply sorry I didn't see you sooner. I hope you can heal and have some semblance of closure now that he's gotten arrested. My heart goes out to all of you and again, I am so so sorry. I wish you all the love and healing.
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Idea dump? not really?...or yeah?
(below there is context)
Sooo i have ideas of Dream and Nightmare being living in the early 1500s Spain, where instead of just being town's people the aggressor, what if it was the spanish inquisition?
Now, HEAR ME OUT, the whole tree thing, can be considered temptation, people would want the golden apples, and the whole thing... i think the inquisition would consider it heresy, later wanting to burn it (and dream) nightmare does munch munch yara yara.
But this time, Dream actually dies, years later gets canonized as another saint that got persecuted and killed by the inquisition, living again, working like the Rise of the Guardians? common idea where divine figures depend of beliefs.
Meets Ink, chill (after processing the whole thing), how Ink wants to protect the AUs from Error, thinking he is good, helping him to fight Error.
Realizes the state of the aus, Ink does not intervenes (obviously) and gets more context: In the last 500 years, there has been desperation, and pain, etc, Nightmare had being vibing, with so many people believing and trying to get safety, Dream meets with Nightmare, neither of them is happy, misgendering of Nightmare, fight bam bam, rivalry that could be solved with some talking and therapy.
I used the art for the story by Joku as a pose reference, to compare, is funny seeing a 1500s person doing the peace sign.
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I remember years ago when people made gijinka of dream and Nightmare, it was common making Dream a woman? i don't know if someone else saw that? well, still making Nightmare a guy and they were twins, with my vision of trans coded Nightmare.
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Why in Spain? I had understood that Joku was from Spain? or atleast living there (if thats not the case pls tell me)
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And of course, i just made the numbers, with Dream being 500 (old) so 1500, and what was the IT thing? The Spanish Inquisition.
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I would probably nerf the tree, i don't know why something so important is just...there? at human reach, so is just a collection of emotions, like condensation, instead of the origin of emotions.
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They take watch of the tree for generations, instead of just them.
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I wanted to write more about Nightmare, and how it was being trans in the 1500s without even knowing what's that, like being closeted, but my wrist is killing me, it would be the focus how that affects the relationship with Dream.
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I used the Rise of the Guardians thingy, because i personal issue i had with the original story is, why Dream became stone? it was a defense mechanism? can he do it now? i just made Dream die and live again years later.
If someone wants to make a fanfic... it wouldn't bother me you know...PLS do! i really wish there were fanfics about trans nightmare, of course giving credits if using the artwork or heavily based story.
#undertale au#au undertale#dreamtale#dreamtale nightmare#dream sans#trans nightmare#transmasc nightmare#nightmare sans
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What your favorite Nick toon says about you but it's EVERY Nick toon
Doug- When you were asked what you wanted for Christmas, you said "plan white bread."
Rugrats- You're a "90's kid" who wants the modern cartoon enjoyers to get off your lawn.
Hey Arnold-Same as Rugrats, but 5 time worse.
Rugrats (2021)- You only said this one to piss off the above two.
Ren & Stimpy- You're a gay man and all you OCs are ugly men who you need to kiss each other or else you'll die (This isn't an insult, you're the strongest member of our society.)
Rocko's modern life- You relate to at least one character way more than you would like to admit to others.
CatDog- Weird furry.
The angry beavers- Weird furry with taste.
Aaahh!!! Real monsters- You like the idea of Tim Burton's movies but your too cool to actually enjoy them, also your probably non-binary.
Kablam- As a kid you wanted to make something with this exact energy and now, you're a youtuber.
Oh Yeah! Cartoons- same as Kablam but you really miss Cosmo's old voice.
The wild Thornberry's- You worship the ground Tim Curry's walks on SO BAD.
Rocket power- Honest 90's kid.
SpongeBob SquarePants seasons 1-4- You're annoying about seasons 5+.
SpongeBob SquarePants seasons 5+- You know better than me about those people being annoying about seasons 5+.
As told by ginger- You were going to say Hey Arnold, but you didn't want to be lumped in with certain other people.
Action league now- You made at least five short films that look exactly like this.
Chalkzone- Your playlist for working out has the theme song for this show looped for five hours and nothing else.
The fairly oddparents- Your trans, and you hate no other person more than Elmer Hartman.
Invader Zim- You were a vary emo kid/teenager in the late 2000's (same, no shade)
Jimmy Neutron- you're really glad that that you picked the show in "Jimmy Timmy power hour" that wasn't made by an asshole.
All grown up- Come on guys "As told by ginger" is right there.
Avatar: the last airbender- I don't want to hear the lore of the fantasy book you wrote.
Avatar: the legend of Korra- Same as atla but You also made a LOT of shipping fanfics.
My life as a teenage robot- Transfem.
The X's- You don't exist, if you're going to go into the comments and say this is your favorite Nicktoon, you're lying.
El Tigre- This is just the good version of Danny Phantom.
Danny Phantom- That was a Joke don't yell at me.
Mr. meaty- You want this odd but cool type of puppetry to come back (if you thought I was going to make fun of this one your wrong.)
Tak and the power of Juju- Your enjoyment of this show is based entirely on the fact that you liked the games.
Back at the barnyard- Shitposter.
Fanboy and Chum Chum- Shitposter but awesome.
Catscratch- Yeah, I think Wayne Knight's voice is hot too.
The mighty B- Gay.
The penguins of Madagascar- I don't have a joke for this one I just think you have impactable taste.
Planet Sheen- You always wanted Jimmy Neutron to have more "Rawr XD" swag.
T.U.F.F puppy- You ether are Jerry Trainor, or you have a Jerry Trainor stan account.
Kung fu panda: legends of awesomeness- You have a three-hour lore video on this franchise, and I hope it does well.
Winx club- You wanted to help them get free from Netflix.
Robot and Monster- It may just be me, but I think you might enjoy Dan vs.
Teenage mutant ninja turtles (2012)- You don't like rise of the tmnt.
Rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles- You don't like tmnt (2012).
Sanjay and Craig- You used to freak other kids out with your scabs.
Monsters vs aliens- You can deny Coverton's rizz (sorry).
Breadwinners- Your about to go into every cartoon reviewers house with a shit ton of water balloons.
Harvey Beaks- In the middle/late 2000's you were more of a cartoon network kid, you loved Cowder.
Pig, Goat, Banana, Cricket- Same as Harvey Beaks but with Flapjack instead of Cowder.
Bunsen is a beast- Your Elmer Hartman.
Welcome to the Wayne- You wrote at least one fanfic for the ending of this show.
The adventures of kid danger- We don't talk about this one.
Middle school Moguls- it's ok monster high is about to come to Nick for real.
The loud house- Your ether a sapphic girl or a straight guy with a DeviantArt account who needs to be punished.
The Casagrandes- Same as the loud house but with the added advantages, because if you have a DeviantArt account in this one you're more likely to have a normal relationship with your family.
It's pony- You don't hate the British as much as the rest of us.
Middlemost post- John trabbic III is such a bad ass name though, wait this show has Del the funky homosapien and Tony Hawk as guest stars, I might need to which this.
Star trek: prodigy- You really like Netflix original animated shows don't you.
Big Nate- You haven't read the books.
Monster high- You the perfect in-between of goth and prep.
Transformers: earthspark- Why does this show have better non-binary rep than most other shows...I mean they are called Transformers for a reason.
#nickelodeon#nicktoons#Doug#ren and stimpy#rugrats#hey arnold#rocket power#rocko's modern life#catdog#the loud house#the casagrandes#the angry beavers#aaahh!!! real monsters#kablam#oh yeah cartoons#the wild thornberrys#spongebon squarepants#as told by ginger#action league now#chalkzone#the fairly oddparents#invader zim#jimmy neutron#all grown up#avatar#the last airbender#the legend of korra#mlaatr#the x's#el tigre
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Meowdy!
I just wanted to start by saying that I adore Statistics and Purity Through a Prism.
Do you have any general advice you can give to less experienced writers? Iām also hella into making LiS fics, but Iām still trying to find my footing. Plus most of my projects fizzle out around chapter 5, and Iām not sure how to get momentum back after taking a break šš„° how do you write stories that go for so long?
Thanks!
First of all thank you very much for enjoying my fanfics! I'm sorry that I haven't updated anything in a while, life and original fiction projects have pretty much taken over (I'll be self publishing a novel in the next few months).
For general advice, consider the following.
Keep an idea diary. Write down your ideas, just because you have nothing to go with it doesn't mean you won't later and don't be afraid to mash things together.
Learn about story telling as a craft. Study any and every medium and think about how to apply their lessons to word smithing. I highly recommend Every Frame a Painting, Thomas Flight, Hello Future Me, and Ellen Brock.
Read everything twice. Once for pleasure, once to tear it apart to figure out how the sausage is made. Dissect word choice, structure, pacing, foreshadowing, all of it. If you want to get better as an author, get better at media analysis.
Ask yourself why a project fizzles out. Did you lose sight of your original goal? Is it not turning out the way you hoped? Can you not remember where you wanted it to go? I tend to write with a few very specific scenes fixed in my head and I need to massage the characters to make those scenes happen and make sense. For Prism that was Kate and Chloe's clifftop kiss. Everything after that was kinda ad-libbed.
Embrace failure. Enjoy failure. Fail faster. As the Frizz would say: take chances, make mistakes, and get messy! You will learn more from your mistakes than from your successes. It's okay to be disappointed and upset when things don't go your way, but then dust yourself off and figure out what went wrong where and learn your lessons. (Just because you can write a novel in 3 months doesn't mean you should)
Your ideas are crap. It's okay, mine are too. Ideas always suck, they become good when you actually write the stories and find your blind spots. Make it work in the edit. You can change things right up until you publish, so play around and have fun.
It's okay to not finish projects. Use them as learning experiences. Practice writing better and better hooks. Find character's voices. Toy around with premises.
Practice with a purpose. With everything you write, pick something you want to focus on. Dialogue, pacing, structure, action, word play, imagery, etc. Pick something, study, execute.
Keep it simple. Elevator pitches are 30 words or less. If you can't summarize the crux of your story simply and succinctly, consider revising your idea to make it less complicated. Prism's premise is literally "What if Max never went to Blackwell". Statistic's premise is "What if Chloe was a homeless trans girl dealing for Frank". Complicated premises aren't bad, but they make executing much harder, and you don't need them to tell a good story.
Don't stop. Always be reading, writing, and thinking. Your creativity is a muscle, work it out. Hit the brain gym regularly with focus and intent and you'll see the growth.
I hope these help and good luck!
#writing#writing advice#fanfiction#Thank you#I have been ignoring tumblr for a while sorry#life is strange
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Hi I just have a question and I mean to ask it as respectfully as possible
When did people start head cannoning Regulus as trans? I just dont understand how people came to that conclusion?
Iām also just very uneducated on the trans community and I know that and just donāt really know where to get reliable information about the whole community and the people in it.
Idk in my opinion I just almost feel like people made Regulus trans to meet a diversity quota. I also feel like it kind of takes away from the fact that James could be genuinely attracted to biological males? Like maybe people are still so attached to Jily that they canāt truly let go of it even in his other ship?
Sorry I just really would like to see the point of view from someone who is part of the trans community (correct me if Iām wrong on that please) and also enjoys and writes trans Regulus. It really just makes me sad that I donāt read so many fanfics that Iām sure are absolutely beautiful just because Iām a little put off by Regulus (or even Remus) being trans.
Anyway Iād love to hear the reasoning you have and Iām so sorry if any of this came off as offensive or rudeš«¶
Okay, so to answer your first question, the first fic in ao3 tagged with trans! Regulus Black is dated in March 2016, so 8 years ago. (I see a Jegulus fic tagged in 2005, for comparison).
As far as people coming to the conclusion of reg being trans, I think it's just people seeing themselves in the character, or enjoying the headcanon. It's not like...deciding it IS canon. If that makes sense?
For information on the community, I'm not sure what you mean. Like information in being trans? If you have questions on that, I'm more than willing to answer them! I can point you to reliable websites or try to give you my own experience.
I don't think it's 'meeting a diversity quota.' I think it's that Harry Potter is genuinely super NOT diverse. Canonically, most characters are straight, cis, and white. And fanfiction writers like to write what they want and what they relate to. Many fanfic writers know trans people/are trans, so it's natural to include trans people in their works. It's not meeting a quota, it's just emulating their lives.
And as far as James's attraction..sure, he can be attracted to people with any genitals. But I think you're missing the point that trans Regulus IS a boy. Your body doesn't equal your gender. So when James is attracted to him, he is attracted to a boy. He is, therefore, gay (or at least queer) by being attracted to Regulus. Very gently, seeing trans Regulus as a substitution for Lily because they might have similar bodies is a bit transphobic. Though body parts can be important to some people, putting Regulus and Lily on the same plane is a bit off. (Also, many people headcanon James as pansexual, meaning he can be attracted to any gender, so he doesn't care what gender people are.) You ARE right in saying that some people probably do think this way though. But it's not okay.
As far as not liking the headcanon of trans!Regulus or trans!Remus or whoever...I don't think that's a bad thing IN THEORY. For example, I don't see Harry as trans. There are some Drarry fics which have trans!Harry and I don't read them, because that's not my headcanon. Fanfics are for your enjoyment, and you don't have to force yourself to read them if they don't share your specific headcanons. I would just think about WHY you're not reading these fics. If you just see these characters as cis, then that's fine! But if it's because you might need more education of transness and what it means to be trans, then maybe take the time to educate yourself and go from there, you know?
I hope that helps!
(Also if anyone wants to chime in in the comments, you're welcome to, but please be respectful, this was a genuine question)
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Quick little question heheh
So, basically, this blog was made for me to express my love for this fandom (Obey Me!) through writing even though Iām not the best at it ;-;. It was also created to help me connect with other people who are apart of this community. On this blog (even though sometimes I donāt post a lot [and I am currently striving to write more]) I typically write (and/or in the process of writing) short/medium-ish length short stories. But, before I even considered making this blog I was actually writing my own fan fiction and I was going to make it considerably long! I lost motivation a while ago but I was wondering if anyone would be interested in it?
I would release the story in chapters and I was thinking about making the MC trans neutral and/or trans masc (because I donāt think Iāve ever seen that before and it would be relatable to me!)
Keep in mind though, that this is literally my FIRST fanfic Iāve ever written.
Would anyone be interested in reading it? Not sure when the first chapter or pilot (possibly) would come out but maybe if I know people are interested I may have more motivation to work on it!
#obey me#obey me shall we date#obey me nightbringer#obey me mammon#obey me mc#obey me lucifer#obey me satan#obey me solomon#obey me beelzebub#obey me leviathan#obey me fanfic#obey me simeon#obey me asmodeus#obey me belphegor#obey me writing#lucifer obey me fluff#obey me diavolo#obey me thirteen#obey me raphael#obey me mephistopheles#obey me fandom#obmswd#obm nightbringer#obmnb#obm mammon#obm solomon#obm mc#obm belphegor#obm lucifer#obm leviathan
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The Owl House fandom really helped me with my trans acceptance.
Keep in mind I identified as transmasc/nonbinary myself at the time, and absolutely believed in trans rights, but I was still having a hard time seeing trans men as actual men and trans women as actual women.
Of all things, it was all the Trans Hunter headcanons and fanfics that somehow made it click in my mind. That if he were trans or not he would still be Hunter, and he would still be a boy.
Trans Eda headcanons helped too.
I think thatās the beauty of headcanons. They exist in this hypothetical space that allows you to see things from two different angles, reframes characters youāre already familiar with in new and eye-opening ways. Headcanons allow you to project marginalized identities onto characters that are already beloved by people of many different walks and beliefs. Itās like a foot in the door to get to greater acceptance and understanding.
Trans headcanons are making a difference.
Your blorbos are making a difference.
#the owl house#lgbt+ representation#lgbtq#lgbtqia#lgbtq community#headcanon#trans hunter#transgender#the golden guard#eda clawthorne#eda the owl lady#hunter toh#toh#toh eda#eda toh#toh hunter#trans acceptance#trans eda#hunter the owl house#fandom#transgender characters#transgender headcanon
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Apparently my fanfic helped someone in my readership realize he's agender because reading about a character who has zero attachment to the concept of gender, does not feel like any gender, doesn't care about pronouns being used for them and wants to dress any way they want without anyone gendering it really resonated with him and he did some soul-searching afterwards. And I love that for him, truly, I do. But what surprised me is that he really thought that "everybody but trans people" didn't like being associated with a gender, didn't feel like any gender, didn't care about pronouns and didn't have any attachment to the idea of gender. He thought we were all just going along with it because it's just what you do in society and everyone actually felt roughly the same as he did about it.
I was surprised, because although I'm neurodivergent, I had inferred fairly early on in life that people are pretty attached to these things on a genuine level. So I asked him how he arrived at that conclusion and he said that the way his very conservative, Republican family - which is mostly men, he was raised by his dad and grandfather, alongside his brothers - talked about being a man made it sound like an awful, arduous task that you have shoved onto you and can't escape but being a woman also sucked in similar ways according to them. Thus he arrived at the conclusion that nobody actually likes being a gender, you just have to put up with being one. And the fact that he had to put up with it was immensely depressing to him because he hated both of what he perceived as the available options.
Somehow my dinky little Reader POV fanfic where I made the Reader Character agender because I dislike how many Reader fics portray being an AFAB person who identifies as a woman... that little fanfic, without any ships in it, without any deep lore dives, without the things that this fandom usually likes, managed to plunge this reader into total gender euphoria because it made him pluck up the courage to wear something pink, let him know you don't have to be a man or a woman, and told him you're not a bad NB if you use any pronouns and you're AMAB.
And like... I know fandom is a shitty, hostile place a lot of the time. Especially in my fandom, it's a disaster. But reading the mountain of text he posted about how in the two weeks since he realized he's agender, his depression has lessened so much and he hasn't thought about suicide once... I think I remember why I got into writing in the first place, now. It's not just to tell fun stories. It's to tell fun stories about people that don't conform to the white cishetallo culturally Christian secular middle class able-bodied cookie-cutter bullshit that media is still drowning in. Because sometimes somebody is drowning and they think it's mandatory and fiction can tell them, "It's not, actually."
Nobody I know IRL likes the idea of fanfic because why write if you're not going to make money from it? But honestly I feel like this kind of moment has a value money can't really produce.
Sorry, I know I'm rambling. I just thought I'd briefly provide a small break from the sea of negativity in your inbox to share how fanfic and fandom can be good, instead of always being bad, as is so often the way fandom gets framed these days.
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ā ļø CRINGE FANFIC PAST THE BREAK ā ļø
"Keqing..." Ganyu murmured, "your form?" She lazily placed her fingers atop Keqing's wrists, guiding them. "Would you like me to remind you?" she continued.
Keqing's posture stiffened slightly and her eyes widened for a moment. Ganyu's breath tickled the back of Keqing's neck, causing jolts of Electro to dance down her spine. She slowly turned her head while cracking a shaking smile.
"Yes- I mean- No, I remember. Straight wrists. To line up with the force of the weapon, right?" Following the pressure of Ganyu's fingers, Keqing started relaxing her wrists.
"Mmhmm, better," said Ganyu, yawning.
Ganyu's morning voice took out whatever parts of Keqing's brain were still functioning. Her mind was sent swimming. She couldn't help but notice how the groggy morning Ganyu was a bit more informal, a bit less reserved...
These archery lessons would be more affecting than Keqing anticipated.
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I want to believe that Ganyu uses war bows with serious draw weight: she fought in a war, didn't she? So, God as my witness, she should have the muscles to do that.
I bet Ganyu's lat spread is crazy. Wings and horns? Is she an alicorn? buffalo wild wings?
I also don't personally ship these two very hard, but just Aesthetically though?
I had a lot of fun with this one. For the sake of learning, I tried using no blending (full cell shading), no blending layers, and choosing every color using the color wheel. I definitely wouldn't do it this way again, but it felt instructive!
I think i'm gonna draw some class of '09 next because if i don't get some of this out of my system i'm gonna be watching jeckole animatics forever
Here are the progress shots of this because i just love how the sketch/lineart of them look
I wanted to draw a complex background but I just hated how it looked, so i scrapped it and put them on the jade chamber.
i want groggy ganyu! i would love to see an irritated/fed up Ganyu. Do you ever think Ganyu gets finished with a 30 hour shift and just go "fuck work, fuck this, i can't believe this shit. the whole country is resting on whether or not i decide to slave away working inhumane hours"
I also made pfps of these for myself and the loml. This makes it kinda look like I headcanon Ganyu as trans; lmao. i don't but nothing against anyone who does. if you wanna use these, idk credit me ig. if you dm me and ask nicely, i might send you one with a transparent background instead lol. if i have time
the keqing border looks worse imo but it was mine so idrc
#genshin#genshin fanart#ganyu#keqing#ganqing#gay#i wish genshin had time to make time for its characters#there could be a different mini-series for each nation and its characters getting up to hijinks#instead we get like 1-3 events per patch which spoonfeed a tiny bit of character here and there#gayshit impact#HOYO give me a real keqing hangout and my life is yours#HOYO please ganyu's immigrant story was a bit weirdge but the most seen i've felt in any character story#genshin impact
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