#helluva neurodiversity

[tealvenetianmask]

Blitz is dyslexic (petty post about why I'm right with proof from recent episodes)

Disclaimer: I don't have dyslexia, so I can't speak from personal experience, BUT neurodivergent people tend to find each other, and I've been very close with a few people with dyslexia, to the point where I've extensively edited their writing. I've also learned quite a bit about dyslexia while working in the education field. Okay- let's go.

I hear way too often (yes, I'm referencing a certain youtuber here) that Blitz can't have dyslexia because we sometimes see him reading and we sometimes see him writing without errors. So when he shows spelling and grammatical errors in his texts and notes to self, that must just be him being rude/trying to be cute/being lazy.

And if the errors were just slang and abbreviations, maybe the people making those arguments would have a point. But they're not. And I'm convinced that he has dyslexia. So what gives? Why the inconsistency (assuming it's an intentional choice on the part of the writers)?

Most dyslexic adults CAN write correctly with extra effort. It's just harder. In the learning disability world, we sometimes call it self- accommodating. With any disability, that means doing work that neurotypical people don't have to do in order to overcome the obstacle that the disability poses- and often, no one else sees that work or understands that it's necessary. For people with dyslexia, that often means that they have to check and double check their writing.

When YOU AND I (if we're both non-dyslexic people) write casually and don't put in effort, our spelling is going to be mostly correct. And if we use slang and abbreviations, it's a choice. When someone with dyslexia shoots off a quick text, it's going to look messy, and they'll probably only do it in a text to someone they're comfortable with. THAT IS THE DIFFERENCE.

Let's look at some recent examples from Helluva Boss.

Blitz is writing notes to himself here, so he doesn't have any need to make them presentable. Cute inside jokes with himself are possible (i.e. the horses and nicknames that we sometimes see), but the spelling mistakes here don't really make sense as jokes. They also wouldn't be easier to write than the correct words for someone who isn't dyslexic. Mok(backward S)ie isn't shorter than Moxxie, and remembr isn't much shorter than remember. The spelling is also phonetic, which fits with how many people with dyslexia spell in initial drafts. He just isn't watching for and correcting his mistakes, because why would he in this situation?!

Okay, different situation . . . the apologies. I would argue that Blitz IS putting in physical effort here, even if it's not emotional effort. He brings entire gift baskets full of his favorite foods for the people on his apology list after all. Here's what he writes to the DHORKS:

I think "sowy" IS meant to be cute here. It's not phonetic after all. He put a little effort into drawing them a cute little horse too. And then the cherubs . . .

I think this is pretty interesting. Blitz actually bothers here to fix his spelling mistake. He spells everything right on the inside too, even though he's telling these guys "fuck you." Notice that he runs out of room and has to write sideways. And notice the nice block letters on the front. In terms of why he's trying so much here, well, it's to prove to Stolas that he can put effort into apologizing to people, isn't it? And that means that the unintentional errors get fixed!

Now, Blitz tries to text an apology to Stolas (and obviously stalls for emotional reasons), and we see him typing it in real time,

Yeah . . . it's a combination of shorthand and just plain old misspellings. He's focused on choosing the right words, not on getting the spelling right, and it's impossible to say he doesn't care at this point. Someone who has an easy time writing correctly spelled text might use some shorthand, but just like we saw with Blitz's notes to self, they wouldn't likely intentionally misspell completely unnecessary things, especially when trying to come off as genuine.

Sigh. I rest my fucking case.

If you'd like to see my thoughts on that text conversation from Western Energy, go ahead and click on the link- it isn't really about dyslexia, and I do actually think that Blitz is pretty literate in spite of his disability and limited education, but it does explain why I think the conversation goes the way it does.

[lili-pika]

Ah yes the autism experience

[stimsofooo]

stims of ooo introduction!

ABOUT ME

hello! my name is arti! i am genderfaun and I have auDHD (flags in pfp.) i use he/they pronouns and this is my stimboard blog! this blog is not a kin blog but kins, irls, and fictives are welcome!

side note: pfp is by reigobun @reigobun

REQUEST TYPES

Requests open!

stimboards - open

recipekits - open

moodboards - open

playlists - open

pfp edits - open

WHITELIST

adventure time

fionna and cake

helluva boss

amphibia

the owl house

undertale

minecraft

dungeon meshi

anything that isnt illegal/weird

BLACKLIST

proships/darkships

problematic medias

DNI

terfs

nsfw

k!nk

proshippers

racists

homophobes

zionists

transphobes

transmeds

endos / pro endos

radqueer

MASTERPOST

PLAYLISTS

[mangomagicaart]

Apologies for uploading this again but I added two more characters to it for different reasons.

Oliver because this was made before the latest HB episode was released and I couldn't not have him with lil ol Fizzy Frog

And Floofty since this was made before I got into Bugsnax. I also just think they're neat and wanted to find a way to fit them in.

[lifea16]

Intro Post!

[Updated Edition]

[Hope @speakofthedebbie doesn't mind me stealing her format lol /j /lh]

✨ My names Vedika! V for short, and Lifea if you just call Tumblr users by blog name

✨ I have diagnosed ADHD, Dyslexia, and Dysgraphia

✨ I think any pronouns work but rn I prefer she/her , they/them , and 💖/💖✨

✨ I've been having an aspec identity crisis for the past month as of writing this, but I think I'm an Anattractional Lovequeer =D

✨ Ain't telling my age but I'm a minor, though feel free to interact if you're a major (Over 18) :3

✨ I adore Blitz with all my heart

✨ I'm a Multishipper [You can't just expect me to ship Blitz with just one person c'mon there're so many interesting possibilities and options!!]

✨In a QPR with @speakofthedebbie =D

✨ TERFS DO NOT FUCKING INTERACT

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Fandoms:-

Primary Fandoms / Hyperfixations -

Helluva Boss

Five Nights at Freddy's (Haven't posted much on that yet though)

FNWS / Four Nights with Scarlet, OG FNaF inspired project by me

Secondary Fandoms-

Class of '09

Lacey Games

Undertale

Heathers

The Amazing Digital Circus

Uhh IDK what else, probably will add on to what I mean

..That's it I think!! <2

[the-irreverend]

Oh and happy pride month fellow autistics.

[worldsbiggestnerd101]

today i learned that suppressing stims — especially excited stims — is extremely extremely hard

[angst-fairy]

The gays are sleeping on Wayne from youtube originals in 2019. (I described it like that so you can find it).

Like, there's so much casual gay representation. In ONLY 10 episodes! And the fights are top notch! If you like Helluva Boss and Hazbin Hotel, you'll like Wayne.

Seriously, how is there not more gay men drooling over the twink Sergeant Stephen Geller? He's fucking beautiful! And hype as shit tbh.

And where are all my lesbians cheering on Jenny and Trish!??!??? They're adorable!

And where are the neurodivergents calling Wayne autistic because he doesn't express emotions well and he likes smelling everything?!? SERIOUSLY! Bro is so fucking autistic, where are you guys?!?

Here's the links to all the episodes free: Ep 1: https://youtu.be/p84O3JAp_IM?si=eYYZOqulon9p19oc Playlist for all the other episodes: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLt5sfJgi9rNEpKJ1rjSIlJ3hEunNoDBPw&si=TQaiL72vO8m3CzX5 Ep 8: https://youtu.be/pqROxIv3_fw?si=puigYJX2-Byrg5bF

If you have Youtube Premium you can just watch the whole series on the official youtube channel here: https://www.youtube.com/@WayneSeries

If dead boy detective fans get to riot for a season 2, so do Wayne fans!!

(yes I only found and watched it yesterday, but I AM DETERMINED!)

[massivetreewinner]

Neurodivergents, what is your special interests/current hyperfixations?

My special interest is the marauders (from Harry Potter) and my current hyperfixation is hazbin Hotel/helluva boss.

[historyhermann]

“Dead End: Paranormal Park” – An Inclusive Horror Series For All

Dead End: Paranormal Park follows the story of two teens, Barney and Norma, who work at a haunted theme park during the summer. They face zombies, witches, and other challenges along the way.

Reprinted from The Geekiary, my History Hermann WordPress blog on Feb. 5, 2023, and Wayback Machine. This was the forty-fifth article I wrote for The Geekiary. This post was originally published on July 13, 2022.

Dead End: Paranormal Park is an animated supernatural horror fantasy series created by Hamish Steele, a British gay autistic comics writer. It is based on Steele's DeadEndia graphic novel series and his 2014 "Dead End" animated short.

As a warning, this recommendation discusses some spoilers for season one of Dead End: Paranormal Park.

Barney (left) and Norma (right) are in shock after learning they might be eaten.

Dead End: Paranormal Park centers around Barney Guttman (Zack Barack), a gay Jewish trans man, and Norma Khana, a woman of Pakistani descent who is autistic. She was described as "neurodiverse" in the show's official press release. They show up for the same job at a haunted house in Phoenix Parks, an amusement park owned by Pauline Phoenix (Miss Coco Peru). It is much different than what they imagined.

17-year-olds Barney and Norma are almost possessed by the demon king Temeluchus (Alex Brightman) but Barney's animal companion, Pugsley (Brightman) saves Barney. His body is taken over, with Barney and Norma working together to trap Temeluchus inside a photograph, and causing Pugsley to gain the power to talk. In the process, they meet Courtney (Emily Osment), a thousand-year-old demon who gives them both jobs as security guards. She has a loyalty to Temeluchus, vowing to help him no matter what.

This is only scratching the surface. Barney has a family he feels that he can't trust after they didn't defend him (and his trans identity) when his grandma said mean and hurtful things about him. So, he begins living at the park instead of coming home. He feels that Pugsley is his only family. This contrasts with Norma, who seems to have a more loving family.

In later episodes, it is revealed that Barney has a crush on a man of Vietnamese descent, Logan "Logs" Nguyen (Kenny Tran). Also introduced is Badyah "Deathslide" Hassan (Kathreen Khavari), a Muslim of Iranian descent. Norma seems to have a crush on her. Barney's younger brother, Patrick Guttman (Tucker Chandler), appears later.

As the series moves forward, the protagonists face more challenges, like creepy old mascots, who cause terror but seem misunderstood. Norma's obsession with the park and its founder makes her helpful in more ways than one. This is especially the case when Pugsley, who can now talk, releases the mascots when he feels left behind by Barney. These themes are integral to this young adult animation.

Through it all, Barney finds a chosen family in the park. As he tells Norma, it is a place that can be himself, choosing if, and when, he tells people he is trans. It is different from when he is at home or a school, where everyone knows he is trans, causing extra pressure. This series expands trans storytelling in animation and LGBTQ+ storytelling. After all, Barney's voice actor, Zach Barack, is a trans man in real-life.

It is different for Norma, who struggles with social awkwardness. As it turns out, what Steele went through as an autistic (and gay) person himself informed the writing of her character. This makes the character even more genuine than autistic characters like Stephanie "Stephie" Bondu in Assigned Male or Entrapta in She-Ra and the Princesses of Power.

Norma after facing her anxiety

In one episode, we learn the fears and anxieties of all the characters when a supposed guru claims he is there to "help" employees. Norma breaks people out of their fear-dreams and realizes her biggest fear is anxiety.

She reveals that her fear world is the real world. It causes the skull to crack, killing the instructor and making him explode. While this may seem gory for an animated show, it is nothing in comparison to the bloodiness of The Executioner and Her Way of Life or the bloody fights in Helluva Boss.

This contrasts with the fear of Barney, who does not fear his grandma, but his parents, feeling they don't have his back and won't support him. In the end, Norma confides in Barney, Courtney, and Pugsley that working at the park is her dream job.

Like any supernatural series, magic plays an important part. Courtney sees Puglsey, who has a shard of the demon kind in him, as a way to get home. This goes hand in hand with horror, like children possessed by a night spirit in one episode. But there can be levity.

The night spirit, Cheryl, and its component, Linda, the day spirit, are sisters, and dislike people labeling them as "hags". They leave to go to a place that is less judgy. This is not at all surprising considering that the series takes inspiration from the Addams Family, especially Adams Family Values, as tweets from Steele indicate. Pugsley is even named after Pugsley from the Addams Family, but also he is a pug dog, and Steele had a guinea pig with the same name.

The series sends the message that you should accept people for who they are and not make any assumptions, and be respectful of other people's identities. (Shows with similar messages include Avatar: The Last Airbender and The Legend of Korra)

With Courtney, a character who is unaware of gender and uses any pronouns, according to the show's creator, as a protagonist, the series makes demons a big part of the story. She wants to go home to the demon realm, leading Barney, Pugsley, and Norma to even play on a game show, Hox's Castle. They do this in hopes of making Courtney feel better about herself, although they have to go through pain along the way, including Barney coming back from the dead.

Later in the series, Courtney finally gets back to the demon world. She gets what she wants after making a Faustian bargain with Pauline. She realizes it is not all she thought it would be. It is depressing and she is more alone than she is on Earth. So, she comes back.

On that note, love is an important theme in the series, either romantic love or familial love. Barney struggles with both, but especially the latter. By the end of the series, he has made amends with his parents, who commit to doing better and making the house more welcoming.

In the case of the former, he tries to express his feelings toward Logs. A Black lesbian couple at one point, and possession of his body at another point, try to help. In the final part of the series, Logs helps get him out of jail and both agree to start dating.

Norma, as the socially awkward one, slowly expresses her feelings toward Badyah. As Steele revealed in a message to a fan, Norma likes multiple genders and is not straight. Some reviewers called her a "neurodivergent POC lesbian" or simply said she has a queer relationship with another girl (Badyah). In any case, another season would likely expand on this relationship.

From left to right: Badyah, Norma, Courtney, Pugsley, Barney, and Logs

All the characters in this series have traumatic experiences. Even Barney admits he has a therapist at one point. They are almost killed or maimed on various occasions. Worse is when their souls exit their bodies when they take possession of Barney.

They learn the dark secrets of the park and who is behind the disappearance of the Pauline impersonators. At first, it seems like Barborah (Karen Maruyama), the custodian, is behind it, but it's more complex than that. They learn, when traveling through her that the real Pauline died. Someone else replaced her during Pauline's first commercial.

On that point, the series criticizes the cult of celebrity worship. Pauline is not the happy and goody two shoes type of character she seems. Instead, she is a bit of a monster, a phantom if you will. The park is not what it appears to be, with connections to the demon world and elsewhere.

There are occasional breaks in the fourth wall. Courtney says, in episode 7, she had "so much character development" since the first episode. This is akin to Peridot's retort in Steven Universe: The Movie after taking out the rejuvenator: "I could have lost all my character development".

The show's next-to-last episode is completely a musical. This is like many Steven Universe episodes since creator Rebecca Sugar is a big lover of musicals from what I've read. In some ways, it reminded me of the Elena of Avalor episode "Sweetheart's Day" when Armando causes everyone to sing throughout the episode. It also made me think of the anime series Healer Girl focused on a group of girls who have the power to heal people with their songs.

Similar to gen:LOCK and The Executioner and Her Way of Life, internal mental struggles, either with real or imagined beasts, are something the characters have to endure. It is similar to the latter in the sense that it is queer and gay in many ways.

The end of Dead End somewhat echoes the final episodes of High Guardian Spice. The latter series features two trans characters, Caraway and Snapdragon, the latter working through her transition throughout the series. Not surprisingly, the series creator, Raye Rodriguez, happily supported Dead End, along with other animated series like Amphibia and Arcane.

In Dead End, many of the characters are turned into stone. This is like the town of Lyngarth was accidentally turned to stone by a terrasphere by the catgirl, Olive, in High Guardian Spice. Different from that series is the fact that Dead End includes spirits like Pauline who come to save the park, and a demon king. This causes a demon general, Tammie, to retreat and flee in defeat.

A second season could pick up where the first season left off. It could be in the aftermath of Pauline being zapped out of existence by angels, who are about to begin their "visit" (assault). There could be more on a romantic relationship between Logs and Barney, who kiss in the final episode. The same could be the case for growing romantic feelings between Norma and Badyah.

Having said that, I need to tell you that Netflix, more than any other streaming service, has declared war on its animation department. The controversial series, Q-Force, and many high-profile series in development were canceled. Before this, series like City of Ghosts, Centaur World, Kipo and the Age of Wonderbeasts, and Kid Cosmic, came to an end.

As such, the prospect for Dead End's renewal looks grim, as do many other animated series currently on the platform, with a few exceptions. Hopefully, Netflix will see the value of LGBTQ+ storylines and a show with a diversity of experiences and identities, especially when it comes to trans stories, and continue it. But, I'm not too confident in them doing so.

Debuting on 16 June 2022, all 10 episodes of Dead End: Paranormal Park season one are currently streaming on Netflix.

© 2022-2023 Burkely Hermann. All rights reserved.

[ne0nlightzz]

Nah cuz this is actually just my mind whenever im not hyperfixating on a vampire movie from the 80s, funky little turtle dudes, another vampire thingy but a show, weird lil demon ppl or other shitz- -How many requests do you have to write/in your asks box? -idk like 5 i think-? give or take-

Okay, well how many do you have done/close to done and ready to post?

....none..

Then why do you still have your requests open? wait why are you typing on the laptop?- ....to see if anyone wants to request any lost boy things cuz even though i was hyperfixating on helluva boss last week and invader zim the week before that im now fixated on the lost boyz n have watched the movie like 3 times this week and have totally read all the gn/masc reader stuff i could find along with like all the poly!lost boy fics- What the actual hell you neurodiverse vampire obsessed emo child.

this is probs like cringy but omfg im not even joking when i say that this is my mind way to often- also im not vampire obsessed, i just rly like everything vampire related to a health adhd/neurodiverse hyperfixation extent- also this is one way of askin yall to req sum lost boys stuff cuz im fixating on it again

[warblogs17282]

I love representation in shows, obviously we've all heard about the amounts of queer rep in helluva boss (which I'm not downplaying at all here, I always love good queer rep), and the representation I also love about helluva boss is the representation of neurodiversity, learning disorders and mental disorders in the show as well.

I do understand that it's never been confirmed in canon explicitly, but it's just the way they write the characters like they do have said conditions (such as Stolas with autism, and Blitz with BPD and dyslexia to give a few examples) and honestly, with how well coded they are in this regard, I very much think that it's intentional they're written like they have said conditions.

Intentional or not, I still think the representation means a lot, and I'm glad we have a good show with a lot of representation as well.

tldr: representation is important for a lot of things, even if it's unintentional.

[sophietheaziraphalekinnie]

Hi there !

I'm Sophie, but also call me Xavier!

Welcome to my tumbl acc !

All facts about me :

I'm a minor

My b-day : June 14 (I'm gemini)

I'm pround citizen of the Republic of Poland (with also polish origins)

I create my own cartoon shows such as Irisia, Holy Paranormal etc.

My sexuality ? Gender idenedy ? HAVE NO F**KING CLUE, but I'm defenatly not straight and tbh, I don't feel like a fully indentify with a gender I was born (female). I mean, I currently use both she/her and they/them pronouse and I think, although I'd been indetefing as bisexual since I was 12 (or even 11), I think I actually might be more into girl, so perhabs I'm a lesbian or bi with more attraction to female gender, but i dunno. In a moment, I'm in a time of discovering myself, while just calling myself sapphic or queer

I'm christian (yes, it's ok to be queer and christian as GOD LOVES EVERYBODY)

I'm propabbly neurodiversed and I'm hsp, so no respect for haters here

My tiktok chanell with edits : https://www.tiktok.com/@blitz.po.roku.w.polsce

And my Ao3 acc : https://archiveofourown.org/users/SophieSophSofia

Fandoms that I'm in :

Good Omens

Helluva Boss

Hazbin Hotel

Our Flag Means Death

Dead Boy Detectives

Young Royals

Red, White and Royal Blue (only movie ; I haven't red the book yet)

Nimona

Heartstopper

Solar Opposites

Rick and Morty

The Amazing Digital Circus

The Owl House

Pokemon

Demon Slayer

Wednseday

Arcane : League of Legends

Chikn Nuggit

And like MANY animated movies of Disney and Dreamworks

Famous people that inspires me :

Dana Terrace

Vivienne Medrano (I don't care if she's controvercial person, this woman is a green flag with an amazing talent)

Micheal Jackson

Freddie Mercury

Riz Ahmed

Eugene Lee Yang

Brandon Rogers

Cooper Smith Goodwin (Gooseworx)

ND Stevenson

Dan Harmon (NOT JUSTIN ROILAND)

Neil Gaiman

Micheal Sheen

David Tennant

Alice Oseman

Jayden Revri

Jenna Ortega

DNI list :

homophobes

transphobes

racists

anti-semites

islamophobes

christophobes

anti-atheists

haters (I've mantioned that already)

proshippers (INCLUDING BALLISTER X NIMONA SHIPPERS)

pedos

Anyways, tysm for for your time <3

[hyperfixatedbastard]

Hi, I'm Elliott (they/he) and I write shit sometimes! I'm a trans guy in college that's trying to get back into writing. I'm also super neurodivergent (Autistic/ADHD/prob other things idk), so I like writing fics that are inclusive to queer and neurodiverse folks :)

Please send in prompts or requests! Fair warning that I am a full-time college student that struggles a lot with procrastination and motivation. Thank you for all the love and support! <3

NOTE: NEW WORKS/PROMPT FILLS WILL BE TAKING A LITTLE LONGER!! I'm a full-time college student that's currently going through a very short-notice move, so writing is not one of my top priorities at the moment. I will do my best to get new stuff out, but fair warning that they will take longer and might not be as long as my previous works. Thank you for understanding!

Below are links to my Masterlist, details for Prompt Requests, a form for being put on a Taglist for my writing posts, and my AO3! Please read the rest of this post for rules and info about my blog. I'd appreciate it!

Masterlist

Prompt Requests

Taglist Form

My AO3

I might write NSFW in the future! Minors are allowed to interact with my regular SFW content, but NOT the NSFW. While I can't stop any of you from doing it anyways, this is a personal boundary. I don't want to get in trouble because people don't have common sense or self control. If I see that you interacted with one of my NSFW posts, I will check for an age in your bio. If your age is below 18 or is not listed at all, then I'll block you. (I won't check ages for everyone that follows me, only those that interact with the NSFW If you don't feel comfy putting your age in your bio, either don't interact with those posts or DM me, I guess. I just want to be cautious!)

As for proshippers, I honestly just don't want to deal with that whole can of worms, so as long as none of you ask me to write proship content or anything like that, you're fine ig. I just don't want to go through the effort of actively blocking people and checking accounts for that kinda stuff.

I DO NOT SUPPORT VIVZIEPOP. I like writing with characters she's made and I enjoy consuming content of Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss, but I do my best to avoid monetarily supporting either series. I don't expect all of you to do the same; I just wanted to make that clear.

Also, FREE PALESTINE. If you support Israel, get the fuck off my blog and reevaluate your worldview.

The headers are created by me, but the dividers used in my posts are made by @saradika-graphics!

Credit for my profile picture goes to pepperjackets' picrew here!

[sophiesophsofia]

Hi there !

I'm Sophie and this is my tumbl acc.

All facts about me :

I'm a minor

I'm pround citizen of the Republic of Poland (with also polish origins)

I create my own cartoon shows such as Irisia, Code Clash etc.

I'm bi and my pronous are she/they

I'm christian (yes, it's ok to be queer and christian as GOD LOVES EVERYBODY)

I'm propabbly neurodiversed and I'm hsp, so no respect for haters here

My tiktok chanell with edits : https://www.tiktok.com/@saphire.editzz

Fandoms that I'm in :

Nimona

Solar Opposites

Helluva Boss

Hazbin Hotel

Rick and Morty

The Amazing Digital Circus

Murder Drones

The Owl House

Pokemon

Demon Slayer

Heartstopper

Good Omens

Famous people that inspires me :

Dana Terrace

Vivienne Medrano (I don't care if she's controvercial person, this woman is a green flag with an amazing talent)

Micheal Jackson

Freddie Mercury

Riz Ahmed

Eugene Lee Yang

Brandon Rogers

Cooper Smith Goodwin (Gooseworx)

ND Stevenson

Dan Harmon (NOT JUSTIN ROILAND)

Neil Gaiman

Micheal Sheen

David Tennant

Alice Oseman

DNI list :

homophobes

transphobes

racists

anti-semites

islamophobes

christophobes

anti-atheists

haters (I've mantioned that already)

proshippers (INCLUDING BALLISTER X NIMONA SHIPPERS)

pedos

Anyways, tysm for for your time <3

[worldsbiggestnerd101]

i know damn well i’m not normal about this stupid fucking show bc i was rewatching s1e7 “ozzie’s” and i started stimming when ozzie started singing and i was like “wait what the fuck” bc that hasn’t happened before and like i’ve watched this whole show already,,, my point is if i can stim bc of the excitement i got from an old episode, what the hell am i gonna do when the new one drops?? my arms are lowkey tired rn, what’s gonna happen when i inevitably do the same thing tmr when the full moon ep comes out 😭