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amykiriwosdefenselawyer · 1 year ago
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marbas sensei scares me like man's so chill and happy but he was straight up prepared to centipede jazz if team iruma hadn't interfered
idc if the centipede was nerfed or whatever, he told orias that he wanted to use the actual thing 💀
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gunstellations · 9 months ago
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"お前は失ってばかりじゃねえ"
"you haven't only received loss"
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crowleys-bentley-and-plants · 6 months ago
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binging the pirates of the caribbean movies right before your exams is so funny cause you develop the Jack Sparrow mindset like is the one doing the bullshitting truly bullshitting if the one doing the bullshitting is being bullshitted by the fucked up education system? me failing this exam is not a reflection of my academic skills if the failing of the exam is the result of the inadequate academic provision. take that teacher
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saeshiraw · 1 year ago
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tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry
#tw rant#studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not#its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels#so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday#i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me#n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone#yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my#friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep#of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle#but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today#i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts#and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics#just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people#im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier#im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk#and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know#but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac#h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe#ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch#people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and#seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want#are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to#spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was#i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next#“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes#me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good#but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im#intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout#but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one?#the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone
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aroaceofthesea · 1 month ago
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Summer camps and similar very intense for 2 weeks and then suddenly finished activities are so tragic because you'll form one of the deepest connections of your life and then you never see those people again
#like sometimes you get lucky and manage to keep in touch with a few of those people#sometimes you get VERY lucky especially when its something you do every year and you manage to keep most of the group#but generally its just you spend a week or two 100% of the time with the same people#you feel like its impossible you just met them a week ago#you promise you will keep in touch!! we have to keep meeting#and you do a couple times you manage to get 4-5 people together#but it will never be the same theres so many people missing#then slowly this stops#the groupchat hasnt been active for a while so i ended up not doing anything for my birthday.#well now its exam season so we will do something after that! sure!! ........silence#seeing groupchats where the last thing we talked about was this theoretical meeting is heartbreaking#and slowly the groupchat goes lower and lower on the list and you dont want to be weird and say smth#and slowly when you no longer see it because its so far down you stop thinking about it so often#and then those friends who meant the world to you for a couple weeks are just a distant memory#you dont think about them that much sometimes someone will go on one and you'll be like oh i used to love those!!#and you'll think about your friends who you don't even know if youll recognise if you met them in the street#and think we should really meet again and dont even pretend like you're going to text them#because no one has said anything in that groupchat for years and you dont even know if some of them have forgotten you#sorry im just getting emotional lol#anyways candela see u tomorrooow this wont happen to at least uus💛💛💛💛💛💛#mine
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seumyo · 2 months ago
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BAKUGOU SMAUS RAGHHH 🔥🔥
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girlthativealwaysbeen · 3 months ago
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it would feel so nice to work towards a career that has meaningful impact and makes millions of people happy
#i follow this person cleo abrams on youtube and she's always talking so excitedly about scientists#and their amazing discoveries cool facts and she's so excited and starry eyed and hopeful#she genuinely just wants to educate people and has so much hope that we can make the world a better place#also like idk maybe unrelated but i saw the mv of new romantics and just. wow#say what you will about her but there's no doubt she's made an insane number of people happy SO HAPPY that they're crying#so many tours#idk i want#i wish my life was bigger#i feel so isolated and always just focusing on myself my career my health my enjoyment#what about everything everyone else#i keep trying to be completely okay with being alone i keep telling myself to not need anyone and be 100% independent#find happiness within hobbies interests#but it feels like a losing battle#i don't know i just. miss everyone 😭😭😭😭#but it hurts too much tbh always more sad than happy always more crying than laughing#i miss my bestfriend i don't know what i did wrong but she won't pick up my call she keeps saying she's busy#i don't want to be clingy because she hates that shit i don't want to drive her away but she's my only friend#i miss my fucking mom she doesn't care if i live or die obviously but i miss just having her presence in the house#and even tho my sister is here she's never fully present always on her laptop working#i wouldn't really say i miss my dad but wow it's been so long since mom and dad stayed together at home it was almost#always miserable but sometimes at the lunch table it was nice#i don't know everything and everyone is moving and changing so fast and i can't breathe under it and it's already september#but this entire year felt like a blur it's like everyone who left took a chunk of my heart with them#and i should be happy because im so close to the exam which will get me out of this house finally be financially independent#like i wanted since i was 11 i could finally start my life#but it all feels so. i don't know the whole future seems black like i can't imagine life past november 2025#how do you imagine happiness if you've never been happy?#and all these feelings are making it so hard to study and studying is so fucking important because if i don't ill be stuck here forever#and i don't want to go thru attempts fail and pass again atleast back then i had a reason first heartbreak‚ not getting to go to college#but what now why now i don't even understand i know objectively i do not have it that bad it's literally better even if i compare to my own
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dazais-guardian-angel · 9 months ago
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seeing new appreciation for Dark Era because of the anime rewatch makes me so happy..... could we have a light novel reread series next so that everyone can read Dark Era? 🥹
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love-in-my-twenties · 2 years ago
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17/05/23
kinda missed evenings like this❤️
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helianskies · 2 years ago
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my brother is currently in the middle of his first a level exam and ive never felt this intense a worry for him, to the point of nausea
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gomzdrawfr · 2 years ago
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Me: *stares at a google document with at least 4 pages of just angst and pure pain of zimorangi, a whole ass backstory and plot lines Also me: *looks over the time and my exam materials "I shouldnt be doing this-" length vent in tags
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shelivesthepoetryyy · 2 years ago
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It's "oh fuck why didn't I study throughout the semester" season.
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crowleys-bentley-and-plants · 11 months ago
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I am writing😌 (I've opened the document but I've been scrolling through tumblr for the past hour)
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veforeyougo · 11 hours ago
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I can never share how I feel bc if I do, I'm "trying to start a fight," or I'm "controlling," or, I'm "Just looking for a reason to be mad". When you like pics of half-naked girls, it HURTS ME. Why can't you understand that.
#bipolar #bpd #anxiety #ocd relationships #why #hurt
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wonustars · 7 months ago
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LOVE LOVE LOVEEEEEEE HOW THE CHAPTER ENDED AND IM SO READY FOR SEASON 2 WOOHOOOOOOOOOOO
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^ me when i was reading the whole series for the first time … WE’RE SO BACK!!
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badsleeper | city lights series
✮ pairings: joshua hong x female reader x yoon jeonghan ✮ genre: a tiny bit of fluff and angst, smut (18+) ✮ aus: rock singer joshua, boyfriend joshua, best friend jeonghan, friends to fucking ✮ word count: 24.5k
🎧: step? – bibi | say nothing – yugyeom ft. leehi | nvrmnd – soulbysel ft i.m | bonnie & clyde – dean
→ previous chapters – read more – playlist
› nsfw warnings under the cut
✮ warnings: smut with plot, alcohol consumption (no dub con), threesome, no cheating, another obnoxiously long sex scene, dom joshua, dom jeonghan, brat reader, foul language, a bit of praise/degradation kink, dirty talk, voyeurism, oral sex (m, f), rough bj, cumeating, cumplay, unprotected p in v sex, jealousy, possessiveness, manhandling, tag teaming, rough sex, doggy style, dumbification, near religious experience during sex, crymaxing, use of butt plugs, anal sex, double penetration, aftercare. brat taming: spanking, light bondage. pet names: baby, princess, bunny (hers) babe, baby, baby boy, handsome (joshua's) ✮ a/n: hiii! to preface this i'd like to let you all know that this chapter is canon to the series. and also this is a little self indulgent thing i've been planning for months (literally this draft has been collecting dust since december 2023) so.... i hope y'all indulge with me ε('。•᎑•`)っ💖 ✮ a/n ii: there's a weird time jump in the middle of the chapter but.... i hit text block limit again and didn't want to split this chapter ✮ disclaimer: minors dni this post is intended for 18+ readers. please have your age stated in your description and try not to look like a bot please 🙂.
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part ix — finale
"It pains me to say this but, this is not going to work."
An elderly woman standing nearby glanced at you and the tall, handsome man before you. A surprised look on her face upon overhearing him announce such a thing in the middle of an airport.
Jeonghan broke in laughter before you could formulate a response. You rolled your eyes and pushed his shoulder with one hand.
"Very funny," you mumbled embarrassedly.
"Ah, come on, princess, have a little fun," he teased, a smile that only foretold his upcoming playfulness. "Aren't you going to miss me?"
"You'll be gone for a week. I'll survive," you rolled your eyes, arms crossing on your chest. "Maybe I'll miss you a little."
"Well, I won't," he laughed cheekily before continuing on his little act, raising his two hands, palms exposed to you in a gesture of finalization: "I am tired of babysitting you. You're awfully corny and overbearing all the time and I need a break. It's time that we saw different people."
You could tell he was acting, but something about him doing it with such ease made you pause. "Hannie, do you actually think that about me?" you asked, your voice dropping drastically.
Jeonghan's smile dropped, his lips pouting as he spoke: "Of course not, why would you believe that I'd think that?"
You instantly composed into a bright smile. "I'm playing with you," you chirped.
"Tsk, you little rascal," he scoffed, swiftly wrapping an arm around your head. "C'mere," he muttered as he ran his knuckles on the crown of your head.
"Stop it," you hissed, trying to get him to stop hugging your head to breathe.
"Okay, okay. I have to go now," he said, releasing his hold on you to take a look at his watch.
"Have fun on your trip, Jeonghan," you smiled at him, debating whether to hug him goodbye or not. You knew he wasn't big on hugs or gestures of affection, but you couldn't fight the impulse of opening your arms to him.
He paused for one second before taking you in for a quick hug, using his hand to ruffle your hair once again with. "Right," he muttered awkwardly and shifted the weight on the bag hanging on his shoulder.
Jeonghan began to turn away, and you almost wanted to let him walk further but you quickly called. "Aren't you forgetting something?"
He stopped in his tracks, turned, and walked right back to you, fishing something out of the pockets of his black sweats. He grabbed the key to his car from the ring with his fingers, dangling them in front of your eyes.
You reached out to get the key, but he quickly snatched it away before getting it on your grasp.
"You get one scratch on it and it's over for you," he muttered dead serious, eyes locking with yours, he had to tilt his head forward to do so.
"What are you going to do?" you challenged, holding his gaze.
You could tell that he wasn't expecting that, a smirk appeared on his lips. "I'll make you pay for it in some way or form," he shrugged.
"Don't worry I'll take care of it," you said with ease.
"Are you sure, though?" he said, still holding the key to his car up in the air and out of your grasp, he teased nodding his head at you: "Let me see your permit again."
"Jeonghan, you need to go now or you're going to miss your flight," you rolled your eyes.
"Fine," he said, lowering his arm for you to grab the key, but quickly snatched it again. "No eating in my car. And don't have your boyfriend fuck you in there, trust me, I'll know."
"Jeonghan!" you squealed dramatically and looked around you to make sure no one overheard him.
However the man in front of you laughed at you with amusement, his nose wrinkling, mouth opened wide as he did so. But he finally handed you the key to his car.
"One scratch," he lifted one finger at you as a stern warning, but the smiling features of his face betrayed him. He patted your head one more time, turning away as he said. "Try not to miss me too much, princess."
Something deep within you twisted in nervousness, so hard that it robbed you of speech. You wished that you had recovered fast enough to tell him something, anything. But by then, Jeonghan had already disappeared in the sea of people, you couldn't even spot him by the yellow hoodie he was wearing. His favorite one.
With some reluctance, you turned to walk out and towards the spot Jeonghan had parked his flashy and elegant car. In some way the black BMW M3 screamed rich guy with a very expensive taste. At first glance even, anyone would think it's a car for someone serious, not the friend that has the comedic skill of a clown.
But as you slid yourself into the driver's seat, a deep sense of alarm and nervousness kicked right in. Releasing a shaky sigh, you gathered your hair in a ponytail, securing it with a pink scrunchie; somehow having your hair out of the way made you feel focused.
It had been a while since you drove a car. Reminiscing on the very old skill you acquired during your college days, you adjusted the seat so that your arms could reach the steering wheel without stretching your arms too much. Then you did the same for the mirrors, catching the anxious expression on your face.
But despite your self-consciousness, you arrived home safe. As a celebratory act you untied your hair, leaving your scrunchie behind, perhaps forgotten in Jeonghan's car with your many other lost scrunchies.
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Deeply compelling, bloody, and sexy.
Those were the words swimming around most of the early reviews of your book. For better or worse, the popularity of your book had risen quite dramatically even days before its official release, so you kind of had to brace yourself for all kinds of chatter around it.
You had to refrain yourself from seeing reviews so early, since you didn't want to be influenced while working on the draft for the second book in the trilogy.
So needless to say, your book is doing fine.
Stepping out of the elevator and into the hallway that led into your apartment, you noticed quickly that the door next to yours was open. A tight, flashing pain crossed your heart when you understood that someone was viewing Joshua's old apartment.
It was inevitable that you would get new neighbors, and it seemed funny for a second to you that you were stuck with grief for the time when Joshua was just thirty seconds away from you.
Joshua was still away. He left the following day of your book release, only after pampering you with love, and anything that you requested. He would only be away for a few more days to finish recording Midnight Haze's first studio album, and then he'd be back, though for how long he didn't know yet.
Back in your apartment, you went directly to your bedroom, opened the drawers of your dresser and started to move your stuff to make space for Joshua's clothes. Subconsciously, you started threading on the intricate details that you needed to get done for the second book draft. Since there was nothing better you could occupy your mind with, that could actually put you to work.
But your thoughts inevitably drifted away as you cleared one of the drawers for your boyfriend's stuff. Then, you found yourself thinking of him, of the time he was here last; he made you breakfast before you woke up, you found him munching on some blueberries as he served you a plate of french toast.
Joshua had been keeping his promise, getting your texts back and calling you every night before he goes to bed; he does this last thing even though you might not share the same time zones—he knows that you'll be awake.
Sleeping alone resulted even more difficult, now that your body has had a taste of what it feels like sleeping in the warmth of your boyfriend's loving embrace. Even though you haven't shared that many nights with him as an actual couple, it was something you wished you had more of.
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"All I'm saying is that food tastes better with a recently cleaned mouth."
"That's psycho behavior," you replied, rolling your eyes to the ceiling, while holding your phone to your ear.
"Oh, so you're saying that you never wash your mouth, got it," Jeonghan said jokingly, he had been going for what felt like hours.
"No, you're saying that orange juice tastes better after brushing your teeth!" you squealed, huffing loudly when you heard his mocking chuckle of his.
"I'm just teasing you," he mumbled.
"I know, I hate it," you said, but there was a smile on your face.
You heard the loud slurping noises as Jeonghan ate noodles. "Shouldn't you be asleep right now, by the way?" he asked and you could tell that his mouth was full.
"Can't sleep," you muttered as you scrolled through the draft to your second book. "I have a ton of work to do."
"Wait, you're working? Isn't it like... three in the morning right now?"
You hated that you could almost picture him raising his wrist to check out his smartwatch.
“Yeah, it is,” you mumbled aloofly as you skimmed through one of the monitors of your computer. 
“God, you are a workaholic,” he tutted. “Don’t you ever take a break?” 
“I do whenever I submit a draft,” you mused, smiling to the irony. 
“You should be resting,” he insisted. “You know, the hotel where I’m staying right now is very nice and it’s not as expensive as I thought it would be…”
Something caught your eye when you opened up your emails tab. “Oh,” you uttered when your eyes went over the mail. 
“What?” you heard Jeonghan reply. “I’m just saying that you and Joshua could come together, you know, you both deserve a break from work.”
You paused, focusing on the contents of the email that you received hours ago, but neglected since you were preoccupied with drafting the second book. “Oh,” you gasped. 
“Hello?” Jeonghan said after a few seconds. “Did I say something wrong?” 
“No, not at all,” you laughed in utter bewilderment. 
“I am very confused,” he confessed. “What’s going on?”
“I am being nominated for an award,” you gasped. “Well, not me, but my book.” 
“Same thing,” he replied. “That’s exciting news, princess. Did you find out just now?”
“Yeah! I’m just reading the email right now,” you laughed with incredulous joy. 
“See? That’s something to celebrate,” he insisted. “Another reason why you should take a break.”
“Or it is another reason to keep working so the second book meets the readers’ expectations,” you countered with a mad rush in your brain, pushing you to sit through more hours of typing. 
“You are so annoying,” Jeonghan said, but you knew by the tone in his voice that he was smiling. “Listen, I booked a tour and it’s just about to start so, call you later?” 
“Yeah, sure,” you blinked back to reality. “Enjoy your tour, Jeongjeong.”
“Thank you.”
“Oh, wait!” you squealed. 
“Yeah?” he waited. 
“I forgot to ask you,” you sighed embarrassedly, bringing your palm to your forehead with a smack. “Joshua is arriving in a few hours and I wanted to ask you if I could borrow your car.” 
There was a pause, and you almost decided to take it back and tell him that you could take a taxi there. 
“Of course, princess,” he replied. “You don’t have to ask.”
“Sure?” 
“Just remember, no scratches and no fucking in my car,” he giggled deviously when you squealed out his name.
The line went dead after that. 
You took part of Jeonghan’s advice, shutting the computer off and deciding to go to bed and attempt to sleep again. 
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The pink scrunchie was sitting around the rear mirror of Jeonghan's car when you slid yourself into the driver's seat. Letting out a big puff of air, you gathered your hair all in a ponytail, securing it with the scrunchie and then started the car. 
You were extremely nervous. And not because you were driving the most expensive thing you had ever touched in your life. But because Joshua was finally coming home from the tour. It felt like he had gone for so long it seemed ridiculous to you that only 4 weeks and a half had passed. 
It was the reason why you left your apartment with ample time to get to the airport on time and also to drive at a very slow pace, you were simply too nervous to go in the middle lane. 
Maybe you were, in fact, an old lady. At least in spirit, as Jeonghan would say.  
You remembered the fact that not only Jeonghan had called you that, but also Joshua called you something similar once, a long time ago it felt like. You thought about how similar your boyfriend and his best friend were in some aspects in relation to their personality. 
It seemed obvious that the similarities would make them friends. But sometimes, it felt too eerie to be just a coincidental case of telling the same jokes. 
When you got to the airport, you still had about half an hour to kill yet. And you were grateful that you had brought a book with your person. To kill time and to occupy your brain with something other than work. Or Joshua. Or Jeonghan. 
So you sat back comfortably on the driver's seat. Getting the faint smell of Jeonghan's cologne, and even if you dared to admit it, you got a vague smell of the flavor of vape that he really likes. The green apple one. 
You shook your head slightly, trying to regain focus on the words printed on the book you were holding against the steering wheel. 
You thought about the soft leather coating the steering wheel, how it was so new that it still had that brand new smell to it. Probably why Jeonghan is so overbearing about his car, is because it's so expensive and new that he wants absolutely nothing to taint it, such as eating on its leather seats. Or fucking.
You sighed in complete resignation, dropping your book back into your bag and opened the door. You stepped out of the black car, getting an odd look from a man that was passing by. 
"Huh," you huffed to yourself. Stepping out of a luxurious car really gave you a sense of dominance, and you found out you liked it. 
You locked the car and walked to the big doors of the vast airport. Being welcomed with buzzing noise and a ton of people walking around, some hurriedly, some laid back. 
You checked out your phone in the hopes of having a text from Joshua, but you knew it was nearly futile. He was still in the air, so that meant he was using that time to get some sleep. 
"Mmm," you hummed, pursing your lips and looking around to decide what to do in order to kill the time. And to think of something that wasn't fucking in a car. So you decided to get in line for an obnoxiously expensive cup of coffee and decided to get a cookie with it too. 
You knew that your lack of focus was partly due to your bad sleeping habits. But you were also so nervous about Joshua coming home that your brain struggled to put your thoughts in order. 
A quarter of an hour passed by at a slug's pace. Joshua texted you simply one word, "Landed." 
you: I'll meet you here 🙂  Josh ♡: you're here at the airport baby?  you: I am 
Joshua stopped texting and you assumed that he had to pick up his luggage. So you rose to your feet, keeping yourself on the lookout for the face you were dying to see. 
But the place was swarming with dozens of different faces, it was hard to keep up, and due to your lack of focus it was a bit more difficult to be fast and discern strangers. 
A tall man of ashy blond hair drew your attention instinctively, raising some alarm in your sluggish brain that you knew him. It took you seconds, seeing the guitar case on one hand, his duffel bag strapped to his shoulder to understand that Joshua was walking towards you, a shy bur fond smile painted on his face. 
He must have seen the surprise in your facial expression, because his eyes lit up. "Hi bunny," he muttered. 
You simply just threw your arms around his neck, standing on your tiptoes to clash your lips against his. "Josh…" 
"Baby," he giggled when you pressed your lips repeatedly against his lips, cheeks and the tip of his nose.
"Missed you," you mumbled, forgetting that you were in a very public space with tons of eyes watching you shower your boyfriend with kisses. 
"I missed you too, bunny," he sighed, the arm around you tightening its grip, bringing you closer to him. 
"Let's go home," your tone quivered slightly. 
"I love the sound of that," he said, his glinting eyes smiling at you. 
"Come on," you grabbed his hand and pulled him to the exit. 
"Hold on. Should we grab a taxi or…"
"Don't worry, I got it," you smiled anxiously, fishing out the keys to Jeonghan's car and displaying them in your hand. 
"What's this?" he asked and immediately added: "You got a car?"
"No, silly," you giggled sweetly. "It's Jeonghan's."
He sent you an bewildered look. "He left his car with you?" 
"Yeah, he lets me use it while he's not here," you shrugged with ease. "Come on, baby boy. I'm driving."
Joshua smiled with a fondness you recognized he expressed whenever he found you cute. But he fell in step with you, lacing your fingers with his as you walked out of the airport and to the parking lot. 
"This is exciting," he said once he closed the door to the passenger's seat.
"Put your seatbelt on," you told him, sending him a shameful glance. "Please."
Joshua let out a soft giggle. "Sure thing, ma'am." 
"Don't call me ma'am," you said with a whiny tone in frustration. 
"Okay," he whispered, and you saw his downturned smile, he was trying not to laugh. 
"And try your best not to distract me," you requested firmly as you gathered your hair in a ponytail. 
"How would I distract you?" he asked with genuine curiosity in his tone. 
"You just do," you mumbled, reaching out to brush his long hair with your fingers. 
"Do you like it?" he cocked his blond hair forward slightly, letting you thread the pads of your fingers through his new hair. 
"I do," you admitted. "Though I think I'd even like you bald."
Joshua chuckled sweetly, lifting his chin to you as he said. "Don't tempt me."
"Would you do it?" you asked, seeing the devious glint in his eyes. 
"Maybe time will do it for me, but yeah. If you wanted me," he said, but there was a hollow tone in his words, his gaze was focused on your eyes, and then it moved to your lips.
His long fingers cupped your chin gently and his eyes, briefly finding yours before he leaned forward to lock his lips with yours, his breath hitching audibly as you moaned when his tongue traced a line on your lower lip. 
"See, you're distracting," you mumbled, before diving in for a deeper kiss, demanding more, trying to make up for lost time. 
"Sorry, baby," he giggled and braced himself for a slap that you delivered on his shoulder. 
"Put your seatbelt on," you hissed, settling back to the seat and starting the car. 
"Yes, ma'am," Joshua breathed out, putting his seatbelt on as you drove out of the parking lot and into the highway.
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Despite Joshua being on a short break, he still had a lot of things to tend to. Primarily, visiting his family, his mom and spending some quality time with them. Secondly, he gathered his stuff to bring into your apartment, thus finally moving in with you. Between the move, and him catching up with his life back home, he barely had time to spend with you.
Three days after Joshua arrived home, and deciding that a very long weekend's rest was sorely deserved, you and Joshua boarded a plane, also partly convinced by Jeonghan to go on vacation where he was located at the moment. 
One thing led to another and you were now resting on a beautiful suite, after a long night of traveling with your boyfriend, boarding planes and getting little to no sleep during the flight.
So you were slowly awakened by the gentle sound of waves crashing against the distant shore outside the hotel windows. When you opened your eyes, you were greeted by the brightness of the white room, the curtains opened to let in the pale morning light.
As you lay face down in the large bed covered with white sheets, plush pillows, and duvet, you blindly reached out one arm to find both sides cold. So you turned your head to try to get a view of the room around you.
"Josh?" you called, even though you were aware that you weren't getting a response.
Your phone was left abandoned on the bedside table, but the bed was so large and you were slotted right in the center of it, and being so that you were still drowsy from the very long sleep, you didn't feel like moving yet. So you closed your eyes again, letting yourself drift back into a dream with a deep sigh. 
When you woke up again, feeling ready to roll out of bed, you realized that you wouldn't be able to reach Joshua on his phone, since he had left it beside yours, much as if he had preemptively left it behind so he wouldn't have to worry about getting more calls, more messages.
Fighting your way out of the tucked bed sheets, you decided to get a shower to wash away the last slivers of drowsiness that still wanted to cling onto your body.
So you were returning to the bedroom, drying your hair absentmindedly while checking your phone when you heard Joshua return to the suite quietly, probably assuming that he would find you asleep.
But upon seeing you sitting at the foot of the bed, he paused for a second.
"Morning," you muttered dryly.
"Hi baby," he replied with a puffy sigh.
Joshua was covered in sweat, making his ashy blond hair stick to the sides of his face and forehead. He was breathing tiredly, tongue hanging in a gesture of exhaustion.
"Went for a run," he commented in passing, kicking his trainers off. "The weather is nice, it's really hot."
His arms arched back to grab at the hem of his sleeveless tee, yanking it off his body with one move to toss it. Your boyfriend continued to peel his sweaty clothes off, revealing his body as he tossed more clothes on the armchair in the corner of the room.
"Do you have somewhere to be?" you asked slowly as you watched him walk off to the bathroom.
"Have to meet up with a potential manager," he called loudly as he started a shower. "Apparently he's taken an interest in us from a while back. And he's here so I thought it would be a good opportunity to meet up."
You nodded, pursing your lips in contempt as he walked back to toss his boxers with the rest of his dirty clothes.
"I'd ask you to join me in the shower but," he nodded at you.
"Yeah, don't worry about it," you raised from the bed to remove the bathrobe and start dressing up.
If Joshua noticed you were in a bad mood then, he made no comment about it. He just turned around, closing the door of the bathroom to continue with his shower.
You decided to busy yourself, dressing up extra slowly, pulling out from your luggage a lingerie set that you brought in the hopes of it being complimented, and a beautiful summer dress in a color that accentuated your body prettily.
Your boyfriend came back shortly, the lower half of his body after draped in a towel, skin glistening wet now but all clean. His ashy blond hair was pulled back now, dripping onto his neck.
"We could do something tonight," he muttered with some caution as he removed the towel from his body and started to get ready for his appointment.
"Yeah, I'd like that," you pressed your lips into a smile, but even as you did so, you felt unconvincing.
You were suddenly torn with your own reproach at him for barely even spending time with you and at the same time, you couldn't believe that what it took for you to be distracted away from that state of scorn was seeing him naked.
However, Joshua knew what he was playing at, he had you completely figured out. He opened one door to the closet, grabbing the first pair of briefs he found, using his body's motion as he turned to sneak a look at you, finding your gaze trained on his body.
"You're not mad at me anymore?" he asked, a slow smirk curving his pillowy lips.
"I was not mad," you replied with a small voice, sitting back on the foot of the bed.
"Mm, okay," he nodded with his head once, putting on the stretchy boxers with a swift move.
Then one of his knees sank on the edge of the bed, leaning his body forward, motioning your body back on the mattress. A low grunt escaped you as he was now pinning you with his own weight, your pretty sundress being pulled back on your thighs by a large hand.
"You are terrible at lying," he mused with a half smile, the studded eyebrow twitching up briefly. "Even moreso, you're terrible at keeping promises."
You let out a muffle whine when Joshua pressed his hips against yours, making you feel his growing bulge on your core.
"What are you talking about," you muttered, torn between paying attention to what his body was doing and his accusatory words.
"You promised you would tell me everything," he said darkly, but leaned his head sideways to reach your neck with his mouth, muttering against your skin: "You're mad at me, I can tell."
"Am not," you replied, fidgeting under his weight, hands clutching at his bare and stocky shoulders.
"Try again," he chuckled, pressing his lips and tongue on the sweet spot below your earlobe, sucking in a love bite, having a flash of arousal cross your body straight to your core.
"Fuck," your legs tensed up when he started to suck on your skin harsher. "Gentle, Joshua."
"Answer the question," he immediately retorted, nudging his nose on your jawline to lean your head back, so he could run the tip of his tongue on neck, littering it with kisses.
It was hard to focus now. But with a low gasp, you replied. "You are bad at keeping promises too," you stated weakly.
A hand snaked on top of your chest, fingers raking on your skin as he yanked the side part of the sundress to prop another merciless lovebite in a collarbone.
"You-you told me you would make time for me," you stammered, feeling stupid over your sudden loss of boldness.
"And I did," he said sharply, moving his head to look you in the eyes. "Baby, I've cleared my schedule for us tonight."
You pouted briefly, bringing up a finger to caress his beautiful lips.
"Now you, on the other hand, haven't replied to my question," he muttered, his words partly muffled by the fingers on his lips. He shifted his weight, propping one elbow beside you so he could grab your hand.
You dared to roll your eyes hard at him, but that in turn made him smile broadly at you.
"You're still mad at me, but that doesn't stop you from eyefucking me," a wolfish grin appeared on his beautiful face. "Are you wet right now, baby?"
Joshua pressed his lips against the pads of your fingers as his eyes looked at you fondly, amused by your torn behavior. You nodded with your head in affirmation, unable to bring yourself to speak the words.
"You've been neglecting me a little," you whispered, shifting your gaze to his collarbones to avoid his.
"How does it feel, baby?" Joshua asked, releasing your hand to stroke the side of your head, gently threading his long fingers through your wet hair.
"Is this some kind of punishment, then?" you snapped, feeling something click inside your brain.
"No, of course not," he leaned his head closer, pressing his lips flush against yours, slowly at first, repeatedly as he said. "But you told me, you promised me you would talk to me. I have to search for ways for you to do it."
"I just haven't had the chance to, we've both been busy," you retorted with a pained smile, trying to hold his gaze.
"You don't have any issues telling Jeonghan stuff."
"That's hurtful, Joshua," you muttered with a tiny voice, shrinking under his weight.
"Am I lying?"
"Joshua, he is my friend, friends tell each other things, is that bad?" you were applying pressure on his shoulders now, trying to make him budge.
"And I am your boyfriend," he blinked, as equally offended as you. "It's also hurtful that you trust him more than me."
"Is this because I didn't tell you about the award?" you finally caught on. 
Maybe you didn't care about the award, maybe you did. But the truth was, you simply forgot about telling your boyfriend about it and in passing, Jeonghan mentioned it in front of Joshua, in a manner of congratulating you for the milestone. 
Joshua retreated his body, rising up from the bed with an irked air around him, you saw the features of his face harden and he turned away. It was clear to you now that he was jealous and you almost felt stupid for not realizing it sooner.
"No," he replied nonchalantly as he fetched a denim shirt from the closet, putting it on and as he buttoned it up, he rasped: "Yes."
You shrugged slowly. "I found out when I was on the phone with him," you explained, though the feeling of guilt started to set in.
"Still, you didn't mention it to me."
You scrunched up your face in shame and guilt. He was right. You found out about the award days ago, and you failed to tell him about it, all because of your stupid lack of focus lately.
"I'm sorry," you said as you sat up on the bed again, fixing your dress. "I should've said something."
Joshua turned to find his jeans, putting on the ripped black denim in one go. He kept pensively quiet as he slipped on his chelsea boots and rose to his feet.
"I'll call you when I get off," he said, stepping closer to the foot of the bed to cup the back of your head with one hand, leaning down to kiss your forehead.
"Joshua..." you started, trying to reach for his hand to stop him leaving abruptly.
"It's okay," his gaze softened before his lips captured your own with a light kiss. "I'm not mad. I just wished you'd talked to me."
"And I wish that you could actually make time for me," you whispered, feeling your heart race under the stress of fighting with him.
"I know," he replied in the same fashion as you. "I know baby, I don't enjoy this either... I'm sorry too."
You nodded with your head, choking up on words that you thought of telling him as you waited before he got back to the hotel room. With a frustrated sob, you reached to cup the back of his head too, bringing him closer for a deep kiss.
"I love you," you whispered.
"I love you too, baby. I'll meet you later," he replied, pressing one final kiss to your lips and then your forehead before slipping from your grasp and walking out the room, thus leaving you alone again.
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For what could amount to years, you have been really good at taking yourself out to dates. It had been so long since you dated that you were accustomed to being on your own, and you found out that you liked it. You relished in solitude.
You made yourself a mini trip. First you went to grab yourself some breakfast in a lovely restaurant with an outdoors table set with a nice view to the ocean. Then, you walked down the streets, sightseeing in the pretty places, going inside the stores that looked appealing until you reached a museum.
It had been within your plans to maybe go there with Joshua for a little date. Perhaps even, go to the beach together. But you swiftly put those ideas aside, realizing that due to the time crunch he was in it was probable that you weren't meeting him until sundown.
So you were strolling around the different pieces of art on display, fanning yourself with the brochure you were given upon entering the place. The hair on the back of your neck was sticking to your skin due to the sweat that trickled down your head during your walk there.
"I should've known I'd find you here."
You instantly spun on your feet to look back. Jeonghan was closing the distance between you, hands deep in the pockets of his shorts. Despite the weather outside, he was wearing a beanie, probably to cover up his messy long hair.
"What are you doing here?" you inquired with a shaky tone from the surprise of seeing him there. Of all the places, this is one you didn't think you would meet.
"I like museums," he shrugged, but then added: "They make up for great instagram photos."
He pressed his lips in the tiniest of smiles when you rolled your eyes, smirking at him as he finally walked up to you.
"Are you alone?" he asked, looking around the large room. "Where is your boyfriend?"
You saw it in his eyes that he already knew, but nodded when you only muttered. "Working."
"Trouble in paradise, again?" he mused, tilting his head to one side, reading your facial features expertly.
"It's nothing," you averted your gaze from him and onto the display you had in front of you.
But the deep feeling of remorse parking on the pit of your stomach was eating you up. You hated that you felt guilty about telling Jeonghan stuff about your relationship, you hated the fact that Joshua had brought it up.
"I don't know if this will work, Jeonghan," you whispered despite the tears threatening to break you.
"This?"
When you could finally look back at him, there was a frown on his face, the soft lines between his eyebrows deepening as he tried to figure you out.
Then you saw it when he connected your words together, he released the tension on his brow.
"Oh, don't be silly," he tried to smile, to see if you replied with one of your own but when you didn't, and you couldn't stop your lip from quivering, he sighed. "You're only saying that because you're scared. Talk it out with him."
"But we don't actually see each other, and when we do, we don't... talk much," you muttered shamefully, driving your gaze elsewhere and resumed your walk around the gallery.
"What are you actually worried about, then?" he fell into step closely behind you. "From my point of view, you seem like you're only mad that you're not spending time together like you used to."
"But," you blurted, turning around to face him again, making him stop in his walk abruptly before bumping into you. "Sorry."
"Don't be," he whispered, but there was something in his mannerism that made you pause. "But...?"
"It's nothing."
You flicked your hair off your sweaty neck, to keep fanning yourself with the brochure.
Jeonghan's eyes followed your movements with his eyes, inevitably spotting the red hickey below your earlobe that your boyfriend made before leaving the hotel room and a hot wave of embarrassment washed over your face, making you drop your gaze to the ground.
"Tell you what," he muttered, seemingly unaffected by the very toxic display of possessiveness. "Let's go grab a beer and something to eat. Forget about all of this, maybe that's what you really need."
You gathered the strength to look at his face again. Jeonghan pressed his lips in a cute smile, making tiny dimples show on his chin.
"Yeah, okay, I'd like that," you decided with a nod of your head.
"Let's go," he cocked his head in the direction of the museum's entrance and started to walk.
You followed him in silence, feeling uneasy still by Jeonghan seeing your hickeys for some reason you couldn't explain.
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Your fingers dragged a large fry on a puddle of ketchup on your plate, you were conscious that your stomach was full, but you were in a mood in which you preferred to keep eating instead of talking about your feelings.
"Are you ordering more?" Jeonghan eyed the lonely fry sitting on the plate, and then your face as you munched silently.
"I don't think I can eat more," you admitted with a slurred speech.
"Tsk," he clicked his tongue with an amused smile.
Jeonghan raised his wrist, pulling his sleeve to uncover his smartwatch.
"D'you think Joshua is still in that meeting?" he asked with some caution to the look he sent you.
It had been hours since your last interaction with your boyfriend, his last text five hours ago read that his impromptu meeting was extending and that it was too important for his band to just cut it short or postpone.
"I think that he forgot about me," you replied bitterly, lifting the large jar which was half full of beer. "And I don't care if he did, I don't wanna think about him."
Worry flashed across Jeonghan's face but he quickly composed himself to ask for the bill and then he turned to you.
"What?" you blurted.
"Do you know how to play pool?"
"Nope," you replied in the same manner.
"Come on, I'll teach you," he pulled out a bill that would cover both of your meals and stood from the booth.
"What, wait," you stammered before grabbing your things and following him out the restaurant.
"Careful," he muttered when you caught up with him, drunk enough that you nearly stumbled against his frame. His hands came to your arms behind you to help you stabilize.
"Thank you, Jeongjeong," you muttered with a chuckle. "And for the food too. Next one's on me, alright?"
The weather had dropped dramatically, the skirt of your pretty summer dress rippled against the breeze that swept down the street.
"Don't worry about it," he said, the hair that wasn't secured by his beanie ruffled against his neck.
"Oh," you uttered when your phone suddenly started buzzing in your handbag.
But just as you were about to see what it was, Jeonghan was tugging your arm with his hand, pulling you aside on the sidewalk before you stomped against a lightpost. You yelped and staggered against his frame, a drunken laugh erupting out of you.
"Watch where you're going, princess," he chuckled, grabbing your arms to keep you on your feet.
"Sorry, sorry," you mumbled, raising your chin to meet his gaze.
You realized with a start just how close his face was with yours, your breath hitched audibly and you pulled back from him.
"Don't be," he said and turned to the door behind him, which you realized was the entrance to a bar. "After you."
You breathed out in utter embarrassment, thinking of saying something to him, maybe cut the outing and leave to the hotel room.
But Jeonghan smiled cutely at you, cocking his head towards the door, motioning you inside.
You walked into the buzzing of the bar, instantly being swept by the dark mood of its interior. Exposed brick walls, checkered sticky floors, dimly lit tables, the distant sounds of the pool tables in the back of the place.
"Come," Jeonghan muttered on your side, and you followed him closely through the wooden chairs and tables until you reached the rows of pool tables and found one that was vacant for you two.
Jeonghan ordered two beers and paid in advance. Turning to you with a mischievous look in his eyes.
"Hope you brought cash," he smirked, holding a bill between his pointer and middle finger to you as he set it on the bartop mounted on the wall behind you.
"My wallet cries every time I'm with you," you joked, settling your bag on the bartop and pulling out a bill to stamp it on top of his.
"Don't act like you don't enjoy this," he grabbed one of the cue sticks and handed it to you. "Ladies first."
"Don't you think it's unfair to place bets when I don't know how to play?" you inquired, tilting your head to one side.
Jeonghan grabbed the recently brought beer bottles, handed you one and then he raised his to you. "I'll go easy on you."
You clinked the neck of your beer with his. "I'll take your word for it, Yoon Jeonghan."
Jeonghan tipped the bottle between his smiling lips, drinking in with you.
"But first," he mused, pointing at your face with the top of his bottle. "You need to answer your phone."
You blinked in surprise and turned to the bartop to find your phone buzzing and Joshua's picture being displayed on the screen.
"Oh," you scrambled to get your phone and pressed on the green button. "Yes?"
"Baby? Where are you?" Joshua replied immediately. "I've been trying to reach you."
"I'm sorry, Josh, I... am at a bar," you frowned at your own wording, but tried to get it out as sober as possible.
"At a bar?" he inquired and you could almost see the bewildered expression on his face as his voice sounded. "By yourself?"
"I am wi-with Jeonghan," you rubbed your fingers on the bridge of your nose so hard your eyes watered. "I can send you the location so you can come join us."
"I thought tonight was just going to be me and you," he muttered but you could tell in his tone that he wasn't angry, just confused.
"And I thought that you had cleared your schedule for me," you bit back, however, anger flaring in your body, accelerating your heartbeat.
"I'm sorry, baby," he muttered, his voice dropping into a low rasp. "I thought it would be a short meeting but we got into contracting and planning and time just flew out of my hands."
You rolled your eyes, which were stinging with tears. "I'll send you the location, okay."
"Okay," he whispered.
And then you hung up.
"Is he coming?" Jeonghan called as he removed the pool rack gathering the balls.
"Yeah," you replied as you sent your location into the chat you shared with your boyfriend.
"Nice," he smiled briefly. "Come here, I'll teach you the rules."
You grabbed your cue pick and walked around the pool table where your best friend stood, hands busy holding his beer and pick. Jeonghan took a sip from his beer bottle, smacking his lips as he swallowed happily.
"Pay attention," he advised before starting to tell you the rules to playing pool.
It was a fairly simple game, though you couldn't help but feel your mind slipping away, from thoughts pertaining to your boyfriend, to the way that Jeonghan drank from the beer bottle, back to your boyfriend, to the way that Jeonghan grabbed the cue pick–
"Okay?" Jeonghan asked, his brown eyes roaming on your face, noticing without much effort that you had spaced out through the whole thing.
"Okay," you nodded with your head, cheeks blazing hot in utter shame.
"Okay, then," he decided with a nod of his head. "You do the break, princess."
Your breath hitched as you placed the cue pick awkwardly, avoiding Jeonghan's gaze but once you did look at him, he was biting his lip to avoid smiling at your clumsiness.
"Okay, another thing," he said, setting aside his cue pic and beer bottle and shuffling towards you. Jeonghan bent over beside you, his hands grabbing yours to set it on the pool table. "This is how you place your hand, see?" he turned his head to look at you.
You weren't looking at his hands on yours, however. You were completely absorbed by how close his body was to yours, how on edge the warmth of his body seemed to be putting you in.
"Yeah," you whispered when his eyes dropped to find your mouth.
"You need to keep it firm so your stroke doesn't waver," he explained, but the tone of his voice had dropped. "Understood?"
"Understood," you replied.
"And your arm back here will do all the work," he said, his hand coming up to touch your elbow. "I don't want you moving other parts of your body, got it?"
"I got it."
"Okay, now. Go," he stood up straight to go around the table on the opposite side to yours, coughing loudly as he always did to clear his throat.
"Ok," you whispered to yourself, your lip tucked behind your front teeth in concentration as you pulled your hand holding the cue pick back and motioned it forward with a thrust.
The stroke wasn't as half-bad as you had expected it to be. You stood back and watched the balls break their formation and roam on the pool table.
"Nice," Jeonghan praised with a nod of his head, tipping the beer bottle on his mouth briefly. "You got one ball in a pocket here," he pointed with his cue pick to one corner of the pool table.
"Oh, did I?" you perked up. "Which is it?"
"Solid. So I go for the stripes," he said, pulling his sleeves up, thus revealing his watch on one wrist, and on the other, something you immediately spotted as something familiar.
"Hey! That's my scrunchie!" you jumped and ran to the other side of the table to where he stood. "Give it back!"
Jeonghan raised his wrist in the air, stepping back. "It was in my car," he said with a low chuckle of his.
"It's mine!" you squealed, narrowing your eyes at him.
"Founders keepers, princess," he said in a mocking tone. "It's mine now."
"Jeonghan!" you jumped to reach his wrist, but he simply just stepped back.
"Back off," he muttered with a grin, and then he casted a look above your head. "Ah, Joshuji, you're here!"
Your breath caught in your throat and you twirled on your feet, Joshua walked through the rows of occupied tables, his frame obscured by the lack of lighting as opposed to the very bright lamp on top of the pool table you were standing by.
But upon seeing him, you couldn't help but feel your face being taken over by a big smile. You could tell that seeing you smiling at him had an effect on him, he replied with a smile on his own, leaning down to press his lips against yours. "Hi handsome," you mused.
"Hi beautiful," he replied warmly and turned to greet his best friend.
"We were just starting," Jeonghan said. "I'll go grab you a beer, hold on."
And without any preamble, he left straight to the bar, thus leaving you alone with your boyfriend. So you reluctantly moved your gaze to meet his, finding an apologetic expression on his face.
"Baby, I–,"
"How was your meeting?" you asked in a sweet tone, cutting off the sentence you knew he would say.
Joshua blinked. "Fine, it was fine," he frowned slightly. "We have a new manager."
"That's great!" you smiled at him and placed a hand on his shoulder. "I'm glad. I'm also glad you're here."
"You're not mad at me?" he inquired, seemingly thrown off by your attitude.
You sighed in resignation. "I'm not mad," you decided. "I just want us to have some fun tonight, okay?"
"Okay," he replied, pressing his lips into a tight smile. "Thank you, baby."
"Don't mention it," you stood on your tiptoes to reach his lips, giving him a brief kiss.
Jeonghan came back, offering Joshua a new bottle of beer. “Thanks, man,” Joshua smiled at him and then turned to you. “I didn’t know you liked to play.”
“This is my first time,” you grinned. “Jeongjeong was just teaching me how to play.”
“Wanna team up with her?” Jeonghan asked Joshua, a devious smile appearing on his lips. “Price of entry is five.”
“What? That doesn’t make sense,” you interjected, acting scandalized. “If he’s with me we count as one person.” 
“Fair enough,” Jeonghan shrugged. “You should know Joshua is terrible at this, by the way.”
You turned to look at your boyfriend, who just rolled his eyes. “Don’t listen to him, baby,” he said, placing a hand on your lower back as he looked at the pool table. “What are you?” 
“Stripes,” you mumbled. 
“Solid,” Jeonghan corrected. 
Joshua giggled, tipping his head back. “Oh, baby. You should stop betting against this guy.”
“It’s fun,” you shrugged, watching Jeonghan lean down on the table, his eyes set on his game as he calculated the direction, pointing the cue stick with a firm hand on the green surface of the table. 
And with a hard thrust, the point of the cue stick hit the white ball, sending two stripe balls to the edge of the table, one falling into a pocket. 
“Nice,” Jeonghan hissed with a satisfied smile, looking at the ball that almost made it to a pocket, thus possibly securing an easy game. 
“My turn,” you mumbled with a sigh, feeling shy now that you were being watched by your boyfriend. 
You analyzed the balls spread around on the table for a second. 
“Remember, the striped ones are mine,” Jeonghan said with a slight amusement to his tone. 
“I know!” you replied. 
So you bent over the table, taking your time to be certain that your hand was placed correctly on the table and the other secured the cue stick with firmness before you thrusted your arm forth, sending the white ball towards your target ball. 
“Oof, close, princess!” Jeonghan watched and his body swayed to the side as he put one arm around his cue and hugged it.
“Umn,” you pouted and looked over your shoulder to find Joshua. He was leaning back against the bar top, looking over you with a small smile on his beautiful face. 
“Want help?” he offered, pushing his body off the bar top and stepping closely behind you. 
“Yeah,” you breathed out some of your embarrassment. “I’m terrible at this.” 
“You’re learning, baby,” he offered you a kind smile. “Nobody is good at this at first try.”
"I was," Jeonghan protested, bent over the table, and smashed the end of his cue against the white ball, pushing the ball that was already on the edge. 
"No, you weren't," Joshua bit back at him, shaking his head, a hint of annoyance in his tone. But his gaze softened when he found your face again. "You need to add more impulse to your stroke, moving your hip forward."
You nodded slowly before bending over on the pool table, gripping your cue firmly on one hand and setting the end on the other. Joshua's hands came to aid the position of your body, the touch on your body sent a shot of arousal through your body, as though a bolt of lightning.
 Joshua leaned over on your side, his body really close to yours, his hands shifting your body. "When you move the cue to hit, make sure you put some weight on this side," he said, his hand clenching your hip over your pretty dress and moving it forward slightly. "Keep your aiming arm firm and your elbow straight, okay?" 
"Okay," you whispered, looking at his rosy and puffy lips.
Joshua noticed immediately, the shadow of a smile twitching on his lips before pulling his body back. "Go."
You wished you could say what happened in that moment, but it definitely aroused something deeply taunting within you. Bending over the pool table, you felt two sets of eyes on you.
Jeonghan stood at the other end of the table, his eyes trained on you. And you suddenly realized that his eyes were not on the game. He was looking at you. 
Casting a look over your shoulder. Joshua was also looking at you, his ashy blond head tilted to one side, his dark beautiful eyes wandering over your body, stopping to read your face, understanding what he saw in your warm cheeks, in your flustered face. 
A slow, knowing smile stretched on his lips. "Eyes on the table," he muttered before the moment stretched any longer. 
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The game ended a moment later with Jeonghan collecting your money, a sly grin as he said: "We should do this again sometime." 
Despite having lost against him, you nodded. "I'd like that." 
You had enjoyed some part of playing pool, that being the times where you actually hit the balls into pockets and not when you were being sorely and evidently distracted by your boyfriend's hands and lips. 
Joshua laced his fingers with yours as you walked back to the hotel room together. Jeonghan was drawing from his vape pen deeply, going on for what felt like half a minute and letting out the puffy flavored air in your face. 
"Jeonghan!" you pushed his shoulder, making him cackle. 
"Well, tonight was fun," Jeonghan said as he stepped out of the elevator on his floor. "Have a nice night."
"You too, Hannie," Joshua said, encircling his arms behind you to press your body flush to his front as the elevator doors closed and you were alone. 
"Josh…" you carefully called when he pressed his lips on your shoulder over your dress, moving up to kiss the crook of your neck, and then under your earlobe. 
"Mmn?" he muttered, tightening his grip around you.
You bit your lower lip hard as you considered how to word out your next question. 
"Do you…" you asked but then he planted an open kiss on the red hickey on the curve of your neck, making you jump slightly and blurt out: "Have you ever had a threesome?" 
Joshua paused his kisses, he removed his arms from around your waist and made you turn to him. "Why?" he asked, his brow furrowing in intrigue. 
"Answer the question." 
The elevator arrived to the floor and you were left with the question in the air as your boyfriend practically dragged you into the hotel room, swiftly closing the door behind you. Joshua Hong had you figured out when he turned to you, taking to steps so that he was looking at your face, reading your reaction as he said:
"What are you suggesting, baby?" 
"Nothing," you breathed but a tiny smile betrayed you. 
"Tell me," he insisted, his voice dropping to a gentle mumble.
"I… was just thinking that," you started, but you realized that you didn't plan your words this far. So in a string of fast stammers you blurted: "You know, you've told me that you would accept to do it if I wanted to do it and I want to. Do it."
Joshua smiled, it was a downturned smile. "Do you want to have a threesome, bunny?" he mumbled, raising a hand to brush the back of his fingers down your cheek. 
"Yeah," you whispered, shuddering slightly when his fingers tangled on your hair on the back of your hair. You felt the hard muscle of his chiseled chest as you rubbed your hands up and down his torso. 
"What made you want it so suddenly?" he mused, but he knew you. He got you figured out the minute you posed the question. "Bending over the pool table got you horny? You saw how we were looking at you and you liked it. Is that right, baby?"
"Mm-huh," you breathed as his lips grazed yours with a feathery kiss. "I-it got me thinking."
"Oh, you insatiable little thing," he said, sighing a smile. "Do you want me to ask Jeonghan? Do you want him in bed with us?"
The question was so brutally crude that it had your breath catching on your throat, quite loudly. "Yeah," you breathed. "I… want you both to take turns with me." 
"Mmnn," he hummed as he kissed your lips repeatedly and you wished you could see his face, to get in insight as to what he was pondering between kisses.
But he just bent down, lifting you from the ground with his strong arms holding your legs to prop you on the bathroom marble sink with a low squeal in surprise from your part. Joshua's hands cradled the back of your head, fingers tangling on your hair as he pulled on it, making you angle your head back and give him access to kiss your neck.
Joshua moaned when your hands roamed all over his body, circling his shoulders and then to his back, feeling over his shirt the lines between the muscles of his toned back until you reached the hem of his black denim jeans. A smile breaking on his lips as he pressed kisses on your face when you dipped your hands beneath his clothes to feel his round butt. 
"What else?" he muttered breathily on your neck. "What do you want, baby?" 
A moan coiled in your throat when his lips reached your throat, and you were almost amazed that your boyfriend appeared to be considering your crazy proposition.  "I want you to watch him fuck me," you blurted breathily. "I want you both inside me too."
Joshua sighed and you knew he was smiling on your neck. "Baby, are you serious?" he asked, pulling his head back to read your face.
There was a fascinated glint in his eyes, the small smile crowning his lips, Joshua was amused. "Yeah, I'm serious," you smiled with embarrassment. "I want this."
Your boyfriend considered your words for a brief moment, but to you it felt like forever. Your heartbeat strummed hard against your chest as he leaned over, pressing a kiss on your cheek. "Do you remember how to prep yourself, baby?" he asked, his voice barely above a mutter.
Your hands were still holding onto his shoulders, fists clenching on the fabric of his denim shirt when you understood what those words meant. "Yeah," you replied after swallowing hard.
Joshua pulled away from your neck, his lips traveling to your cheek, pressing tender kisses. "I'll talk to him, meanwhile you go get cleaned up," he said, breath fanning against your ear, making you shudder slightly.
"Okay," you nodded, turning your face to press your lips against his own.
Your boyfriend paused, the corners of his mouth twitching slightly as his big brown eyes scanned your face. "Are you nervous?" he asked, his voice still strained and you, when you nodded with your head, understood that he was nervous too.
"I am," you admitted with a small giggle that made Joshua show you a smile, crushing your heart over the beauty of his face. You encircled your arms around his neck. "But I want to do this."
"I know," he replied, the studded eyebrow twitching up. "Don't think I've forgotten about the filthy porn you wrote in your book."
Joshua's smile only widened when your laugh echoed on the tiled walls of the bathroom. "Shuddup," you gasped embarrassedly
"If it makes you feel better, I'm nervous too," he admitted, his gaze softening and the smile reducing into a mere small curve of his pretty lips.
"Why? You've done this before," you frowned in confusion.
His hand cupped your chin, looking at you with so much love in his eyes that you felt your heart quiver. "Yeah, but this is the first time it's with someone I love," he confessed, the weight of his words so heavy that his voice was merely a whisper.
"Do you want to do this, Joshua?" you asked, reading the features of his face to pick up any signs of reluctance. "If you don't want to do this, it's okay, baby. I won't mind."
"I do. I want to do this," he replied not a second later. "It's just that... this is new to me too."
You could've sworn that the love and adoration blooming in your heart showed in your face, his dark eyes lit up and the corners of his mouth twitched up slightly.
"What?" he asked.
"You're cute," you giggled, pressing your forehead against his. "And I love you so much."
The tiniest of groans left his mouth before you met his lips with yours. "I love you too, baby," he replied with a smile that you felt in your mouth. "So much."
With a brief open kiss, he peeled his body off of yours and turned to start the shower for you. He flashed you a smile and pressed his lips to yours before heading out of the bathroom, leaving you in privacy to get on with preparing yourself.
You threw a quick glance around as you came back to the bedroom, your body wrapped in a hotel bathrobe. You were deciding on what to wear as you heard the click to the door, your stomach dropped and you twisted to see that it was only Joshua coming in.
"You startled me," you breathed out with a sheepish smile as you watched him walk to you.
"Sorry, baby," he pressed his lips in a smile before grabbing you, wrapping an arm around your waist. "Jeonghan will be joining us shortly."
"Oh," you sighed, your body suddenly burning with anticipation.
"Are you ready?" he looked at your body, and smiled upon seeing the bathrobe. "I thought you'd be wearing something else."
"I just came out of the shower," you mumbled awkwardly. "I honestly don't know what to wear."
"Wear nothing," he showed you a downturned smile but when he saw your expression again he shrugged. "Wear something comfortable. I will."
Joshua turned away to get undressed himself, sending you meaningful glances when you discarded the bathrobe, the corners of his beautiful lips curving slightly as he watched you rummage in your bag for clean panties to wear.
"What did you tell him?" you inquired as you gathered what you wanted to wear for the occasion.
"Just that we wanted to have a threesome, and that I told you that he would be up for it," he replied, still looking at you with half-lidded eyes. "I'll text him when you're ready."
"I need to know how the conversation happened," you said with a shaky tone, and you smiled embarrassedly at your own jumpiness.
"I told him just that, baby," he chuckled, his eyes turning into half moons.
"Did you tell him about..." you looked upwards in embarrassment. "About what I want?"
"That," he started, sending you a look with a smirk. "Is something I'll leave to you."
"Josh!" you squealed, and he giggled sweetly. "I thought you would tell him!"
"I think that is something that you should tell him, baby. There's nothing wrong with voicing out your wants and needs," he said with the most natural air about him.
You groaned in frustration, only making him giggle again.
"Baby, Jeonghan and I have done this before," he explained with seriousness now. "You don't have to worry, he'll probably accept whatever you want us to do."
"Mmph," you stood there, clothes folded in your arms as you kept your thoughts to yourself.
"Ready, bunny?" he asked, driving you away from your train of thought. He had lost his black denim jeans and the shirt, now wearing a black tank top and gray shorts.
In his hand, you saw that he had brought out from his luggage two things, the training plugs that he got for you and a bottle of lube, you nodded.
"Yeah," you breathed out, placing your clothes at the foot of the bed. "How do you want me?" you asked, overly conscious of how lewd you sounded.
"Sit on the bed first," he instructed, biting his lower lip, a darkened gaze roaming all over you as you sat in front of him. A hand came to cup your chin, his long fingers grazing your jawline. "Come here," he whispered before he leaned down to kiss you, his wet lips capturing your own with a low grunt from him.
You raised your arms to encircle his neck, your fingers reaching his ashy blond hair as you kissed him back. "You're so hot," you whispered.
Joshua hummed in your lips, and you felt how the corners lifted in a smile. "Ditto," he said with a low grunt as he kissed you again. "So fucking hot, everyone had their eyes on you."
"Oh, don't lie," you chuckled.
"I'm serious," he mumbled, the tip of his tongue sliding on top of your lower lip. "That dress you wore tonight..."
"What about it?" you breathed as his lips continued to press on yours, his hands coming down to sink in the duvet, leaning forward so that you could lie down, his body hovering on top of yours.
"It was... you looked so hot in it," he replied almost aloofly, kissing your chin, then trailing down to your neck until he reached your breasts. "You sexy little thing, you don't know the effect you have on people. On me."
That made you laugh, the sweet sound making him raise his eyes to meet yours.
"It's just a dress," you mumbled meekly. "But I can wear it again some time, just for you."
Joshua smirked before leaning closer to wrap his lips around your nipple, teasing it with his tongue. "I'd love that, baby," he replied.
A moan coiled in your throat when he moved his mouth to tease your other nipple. It was short-lived though, sitting back on his knees, he patted you with his hand.
"Turn over, bunny," he instructed.
You rolled over, feeling the bed shift at your sides. You lifted your head to find him leaning over to prop a kiss in your shoulder blade, knowing how sensitive you were in that area.
"Remember how to do this?" he whispered, his lips trailing on the line of your back, making you squirm slightly.
"Ye-yeah I do," you stammered, fist clenching on the white duvet.
"Ass up, baby," he patted one of your buttcheeks with his hand and you immediately pushed yourself onto your knees, elbows flatly on the bed.
"Good girl."
You licked your lips before sinking your teeth down on your lower, focusing on relaxing. The noise behind you was distracting, turning your head to see what it was you saw him spreading lube on his fingers.
He sent you a look as he rubbed his fingers together briefly, setting the bottle aside to plant his hand on your lower back. The pads of his lubed fingers pushed on your hole, and you immediately turned your face on the duvet.
"You're okay?" he asked upon seeing your reaction.
"Keep going," you muttered, closing your eyes to focus on his fingers pushing on you, spreading them open ever so slightly, making you moan deliriously. It was kind of insane to you that you could get aroused with so little.
"So wet," he whispered, probably seeing your juices gathering in your pussy. His fingers spread a little more, causing your body to contort and a little more when the hard tip of the plug pushed in your hole. "How does it feel?"
"Alright," you replied, flinching dramatically when Joshua pushed the butt plug more, toying with it inside you.
He laughed breathily and patted you again. "That's my baby," he murmured. "Get ready, I'm telling Jeonghan to come over."
As you turned to fetch your panties, reality seemed to sink in: you were about to do something you haven't done before. And you were about to do it with your boyfriend and your best friend.
Joshua paced around the bedroom as he typed on his phone. You laid back on the pillows, deciding it was best to calm your jumpiness if you relaxed on the bed.
You had decided to wear one of his wide t-shirts, which was proving to be very comfortable pyjamas, and tried your best to calm your frantic heartbeat.
"He's here," Joshua said a moment later, walking over to open the door.
You sank down on the pillows, watching your boyfriend pace back to the bed, sitting down beside you to plan a kiss in your brow, probably seeing that you were still nervous about this.
Jeonghan walked into your view shortly after, hands deep in the pockets of his hoodie, almost as if he was carrying himself with a heaviness that only allowed him to move slowly, cautiously.
Oh, god. What do you say in situations like this? You wondered. What is Jeonghan thinking? Is he wondering, like you, how wildly your night changed for all of you?
"I'm here," he muttered, shrugging slightly.
Jeonghan was wary. You noticed that with a drop to your stomach. He was probably nervous about how your friendship would look like after this, just as you were.
So you sat on the bed slowly and crawled over to the foot of the king size bed, eyes set on the man that you had learned to confide in and trust. He was standing before the bed, frozen, mind reeling—you saw it in his eyes when you stood on your knees and his heavy gaze set on yours.
"Jeonghan," you called his name softly. "There's this... thing, a fantasy of sorts that I've been wanting to try out, and... there is no one else I'd rather try it out but you."
Confusion crossed his features ever so slightly, furrowing his brow, but his eyes never deterred from yours.
"Do you want to do this?" you mumbled to him. "You can walk away right now, and it'll be okay."
His lower lip parted a little and then his gaze shifted, eyes darkening. You got to know each other so well that you could see that he had his mind resolved in that moment. And it almost robbed the air out of your lungs to know with certainty—Yoon Jeonghan wanted you.
Jeonghan didn't ask for permission from the man behind you, and neither did you. A hand snaked to your waist, at the same time you pulled him by the collar of his hoodie, bringing him closer, his sweet eyes capturing yours, then your lips, then back to your eyes.
There was nothing to be said, just the exchange of glances before his lips touched yours. You held in a breath, tasting his in the process, just before his lips locked yours in the slowest, tenderest kiss.
His tongue caressed your lower lip slowly, pushing past it and played with your tongue briefly, your wet lips making a soft smacking sound when your friend pulled away.
In that moment, something clicked in your brain. Jeonghan had been burning to do this. He'd been burning to get a taste, a touch, to scratch the itch off his brain.
And you did too.
"Do you have a safeword, princess?" Jeonghan muttered in your mouth.
Your entire body became alight with anticipation and you breathed out your safeword.
"Before we do this," Jeonghan muttered, now sending a look to your boyfriend. "Is there anything I should know?"
You turned your gaze to Joshua, who was still lying in the same position. It made your stomach clench that he seemed almost unfazed, amused and... turned on.
"Like what?" Joshua asked, his studded eyebrow twitched. "We're both tested and clean, if that's what you're referring to."
His eyes locked on yours. "Is there anything off limits?"
You took a moment to breathe in, experiencing a very intense feeling of déjà vu. "Nothing is off limits, Jeonghan," you mumbled, using the hand still gripping his hoodie to bring him closer.
The last thing you saw was his half smile as you clashed your mouth against his, feeling his soft lips again, the warmth of his tongue on yours, making you moan in his mouth desperately needy. A burning wave rushed from your knees to your face, embarrassment coursing through you as you were now vulnerable at the eyes of your best friend.
But Jeonghan's hands slid beneath your oversized t-shirt and got to business without skipping a beat, almost as if he were in a rush or under time to get you under his touch.
With his thin fingers he caressed the line of your back, bundling up the t-shirt up to your armpits. You broke away from his lips to give him ample space to get rid of the oversized t-shirt, uncovering your bare breasts to his full view.
"Are you just gonna watch?"
Jeonghan blurted out the words without tearing his eyes from your body, much as if he were unable to, or as if he didn't want to look at your boyfriend.
"For now, yeah," Joshua emphasized.
"Why?" Jeonghan mumbled as his lips returned to your own, kissing you deeply this time. A hand came up to your side, tracing lines between your ribs with the pads of his fingers, making you squirm a little.
"I want princess to know what she's up for first," Joshua said with a slight tinge of amusement to his tone.
Jeonghan groaned when your hands slid under his hoodie, discovering that he wore nothing beneath it with a satisfied moan of your own.
Your fingers felt the muscles of his abdomen twitch upon your touch. And relishing at your discovery, your hands traveled from his tummy and up his chest, fingertips dancing on his soft skin.
His hands flew to seize your own and pulled back his head. "Umn, you're touchy," he grunted. "Tsk, we can't have that, princess."
You heard a soft sigh behind you. And you didn't need to look to know your boyfriend was smiling, probably enjoying the show of you discovering that your boyfriend's best friend is just as dominant as himself.
You tried to free your wrists from his grasp, but he didn't budge. Jeonghan bit his lower lip, a weak attempt to mask the smile that crept on his face.
"I want to see you, Hannie," you mumbled sheepishly. "It's only fair, right?"
Jeonghan pulled your hands out of his hoodie, shaking you a little when he used the control he had over you when he pulled you to his chest, planting a hard kiss on your mouth.
"Get on the table," he murmured in your mouth.
You gulped your nervousness down and nodded.
Climbing down from the high bed and walking over to the small table that served as a desk and turning to first sit your butt down and propped yourself up using your hands for support.
Now, you had a fuller view of the two men staring at you. Your eyes fell on Joshua first, he had moved to the armchair in one corner of the room beside the bed. Presumably to get a better view of what your best friend would do now.
"Baby, why don't you tell him about your fantasy?" he asked, noticing your eyes on him with a lazy smile at you.
"Lie down," Jeonghan commanded quietly, but waiting for you to start talking about the fantasy that has brought you this far.
You leaned back on the wooden table of the hotel room, only big enough to support half of your body so you instinctively pushed your knees back, planting the soles of your feet on it too.
A shudder crossed your spine when his lithe fingers tugged at the band of your panties and pulled them down your thighs. You extended your legs out for him to slide your panties down, tossing them to the floor.
"Move your legs up, baby," he said softly, grabbing you by the knees and pushing them up so the soles of your feet were flat against the desk, legs parted for him.
This way Jeonghan could have a view of your body. And you realized by then that he wanted you the farthest he could get you from Joshua.
"What's this fantasy about?" he inquired softly, as he continued to busy himself, propping down his arms at your sides, hovering over you as he leaned down to litter your skin with feathery kisses.
You ran a hand on his scalp, pulling his long dark hair back. "I want you to fuck me, Jeonghan," you stated boldly at your best friend. "I want you and Joshua to take turns with me, use me."
Jeonghan had the exact reaction you thought he would. At first he looked at you in complete bewilderment, his big brown eyes reading the honesty in the features of your face. And then, as you had expected, his eyes lit up dauntingly, smiling slightly at you.
"Is there anything in particular you want to do?" he asked, though you felt like whatever you asked of him, he'd do it but he would want to do so much more.
The truth is, you just wanted him. You wanted to feel him, to taste him, to hear him share this with you. Nothing more.
"Just do whatever you want to me, Jeongjeong," you mewled sweetly, your hand sliding from his nape and onto his cheek.
He appeared to be enjoying your touch for a second, before he grabbed your hand and placed it back on the table, his fingers encircling your wrist as he leaned down to drop kisses on your lips.
"Anything, baby?" he whispered as his lips littered your jawline, neck and collarbones with kisses.
You thought about it for a second, you thought about how comfortable he spilled that pet name for you in front of your boyfriend. "Of course. Whatever you want."
"Okay," he replied in a hollow tone, his mouth reaching your chest, his fingers moving from your wrist, pressing the palm of his hand against yours, slowly interlacing his fingers with yours as his mouth wrapped around one of your nipples.
"God, Hannie..." you instantly mewled, his tongue pressed on your pebbled nipple, moving back his lips, suckling the nub, humming along his teasing before he moved to your other breast.
His tongue pressed on the center of your boob, circling around your nipple, leaving a tingling trail of drool as he darted a look up at you.
"Th-that feels good," you muttered, using the hand that wasn't held by his own to caress his hair.
"Will you do anything I want?" he asked abruptly, throwing a glance at you, your eyes met and you found a fiery need upon them, making your stomach clench nervously.
"O-of course, Jeonghan," you replied, your voice quivering a little.
His pretty lips stretched in a sweet smile. "I knew you'd be a good girl."
Your whole body burned, limbs tingling in arousal and anticipation as you understood that your best friend was just as dominating in bed as your boyfriend.
"Do you think about me much, Jeonghan?" you ventured to ask, daring to bat your eyelashes at him.
"You have no idea," he whispered, the confession robbing him of voice it seemed, his eyes roaming on the features of your face, absorbing your reaction with the ghost of a smile.
The shudder that shook you had you blinking rapidly and uncontrollably for a second, it elicited the tiniest of groans from you, from the exhilaration, the fascination over this.
"What do you think about?" you asked, your voice sounded sweet, almost distant as he leaned down, pressing his lips on yours slowly.
"I thought of you," he breathed, you realized he was smiling then his lips pressed on yours again. "Of doing this, kissing you."
"Just kissing me, Hannie?" you pressed, feeling your heart almost leap out of your chest from how bold you sounded.
You wondered if Joshua was able to hear this, to hear the way your voice dropped, to hear you let out a mewling sound as Jeonghan's hand came up to grab your face by your jawline and move you slightly so that he could litter kisses on the underside of your jaw.
Jeonghan shook his head, "No," he mouthed, licking his lips thoughtfully and he backed off, just so he could take a view of your body on the small table.
His hand left your jaw, the pads of his fingers trailed down your collarbones, raking your skin between your breasts, making you squirm over the tingling sensation.
"You are so beautiful," Jeonghan said quietly, almost as if he didn't intend for you to hear.
The hand finally parked on the middle of your tummy, a fingertip slightly dipping in your belly button, sending a delirious shiver throughout your body. The expression on his face was of fascination, you assumed, from seeing you naked for the first time, from having his hands on you like this.
"Thank you, Hannie," you gave him a sheepish smile, aching to sneak a look to the corner of the room, where you knew you would find the man watching this whole exchange.
Jeonghan released the hand that he had laced with his to keep you from touching him. "Stay still, princess," he commanded, though his sweet voice made it seem like it was mere advice.
You sucked in a breath, immediately rendered immobile when the hand that was on your tummy moved further down, caressing your skin in the process of falling down between your parted thighs.
His eyes darted to yours when his pointer finger swiped a line from the top of your mound, then down between your pussy lips, slowly feeling your soft folds covered in your arousal already.
"Hannie..." you sighed when his middle finger joined, both fingers dipping in your entrance to get your wetness in his fingertips, his eyes locking on yours.
"Try not to move, baby," he responded when you winced quite dramatically on the table as his slick covered fingers found your clit, pressing it before starting to trace circles around it.
Jeonghan leaned over you, you tasted his breath before he kissed you again, his lips moving tenderly in between yours, the tip of his tongue sliding inside your mouth meeting your own.
The kiss was so gentle that you had to force the rapid beating of your body to focus on the prickling sensation on the skin surrounding your mouth, down to your neck. Reaching out instinctively, you felt his fluffy long hair.
But that made him stop, detaching his mouth from yours but not far enough, so you felt his lips move: "No touching, princess," he whispered.
"Would you like to tie me up?" you suggested, feeling brazen enough with your best friend.
"I won't need to," he said, the ghost of a smile appearing on his face. "Because you're a good girl, aren't you? You're going to do as I say."
The sound of his words sent you into a mad desire to prove him right. You nodded, swallowing hard as the movement of his fingers on your clit switched, pinching the already swollen bud, making you moan as the swirling of his fingers trapping your clit became faster.
Your arms fell languidly on the table at your sides, letting yourself close your eyes, sinking into sweet pleasure, his lips returned to your own, placing featherlight kisses on the bottom lip.
"There we go, baby. Relax," Jeonghan whispered. "Focus on what you're feeling. Focus on me."
At that his lips left yours and you didn't dare to open your eyes again. Instead you felt them again on the spot below your earlobe, his kiss featherlight, moving down your neck, leaving a trail of a tingling sensation that made you squirm.
"Do you like that?" he asked with his soft voice, his mouth so close to your neck that you could hear his breathing.
"Yes, Hannie," you replied with a tiny voice.
The tips of his fingers slid down from your clit, leaving it swollen and aching for more contact, but soon you moaned when his pointer and middle fingers slid inside you to his knuckles.
You squeezed your eyelids when he retreated his hand a bit, and you felt the drag of his knuckles inside your gummy walls to then slide his fingers back inside, repeating the same motion over and over, creating a squelching sound of your sopping cunt against the palm of his hand.
The sound of your breath catching in your throat made you feel even more embarrassed over the wet sounds coming from your pussy. But you still itched to grab his face, or to hold onto his shoulders.
So you did just that, not caring about trying to be good for him anymore. You needed to feel him. Slipping the palms of your hands on his shoulders, hating the fact that he was still completely dressed. As though his plan were to fuck you with his fingers and then just leave.
"Can I take this off for you?" you asked with a meek tone, knowing that you were stepping over one of his no touching rules.
He looked at you with a glint of mischief in his eyes, but nodded with his head. "Go ahead," he whispered.
You eagerly grabbed the oversized hoodie by the sides, making him remove his hand from your pussy, helping you pull the piece of clothing over his head to reveal his creamy white skin.
And then, his movement was faster than you could even grasp, his hands were seizing your wrists, encircling them perfectly with his left hand and pulling them over your head on the table.
"No touching, princess."
You let out a sharp exhale. "But–," you started, but then you had to bite your tongue when you understood; he gave you a piece of his clothing for you to obey one of his commands.
"But...?" he mused, his eyebrows pushing up slightly.
"Nothing," you mumbled, relaxing your arms, framing your head on the table.
"Pull your knees up," he instructed, nodding his head at your legs as you drew your knees in, thighs open for him as he continued to fuck you with his fingers, deeper this time thanks to the new position you were in.
"Fuck," you blurted when you felt his fingers press on your front walls, exploring every inch of you with the pads of his fingers, his eyes trained on your face, capturing your reactions.
"You sound so pretty," he said entrancingly, getting lost in the faces and the sounds you made.
"Right there, Hannie," you mewled when his fingers curved inside you, pressing on a very sensitive spot in your front walls that had you seeing colors behind your eyelids.
You instinctively clenched your fingers into fists, unable to move under his grasp. Jeonghan chuckled softly when you writhed on the table.
"If I let your hands go, will you continue being good?" he asked and you blinked to find him inches away from your face.
"Yeah," you gulped, feeling obfuscated about the no touching rule, somehow being reminded of the familiarity that it carried.
His hand released your wrists, but it was quick to find your cheek to hold for him to press his lips against yours. "I want you to come on my fingers first," he said into your mouth.
The words elicited a violent shudder from you, angling your hips for his hand to fuck your cunt harder, being met with more kisses and a almost inaudible, "Good girl," from his end.
"Hannie..." you sighed, shutting your eyes when the thrusts of his fingers inside you gained force and speed, his fingers teasing that glorious spot he found after exploring your walls, the squelching sounds becoming louder. "Please, please, please."
You were reduced to mere lewd sounds, trembling on the table as the sweet pleasure inside you built up. Eyes shut so you only felt his hot mouth travel from yours and kiss the swell of your breasts, capturing one of your nipples, teasing it with his tongue as your moans only egged him on.
"Hannie," you called, hands clutching at the ends of the small table, unable to move anymore. "I'm there, god. Hannie..."
With a strangled sob, you sank into waves of pleasure, your orgasm flooded your body, sizzling under your skin and making you let out a whining moan. You felt your body be overpowered by soft spasms, your walls clamping around his fingers, as well as the plug in your hole.
"Fuck," you heard Jeonghan whisper as your walls squeeze his fingers tightly, but then he said in a louder tone: "Good girl."
You flinched slightly when his lips returned to yours, grazing softly before kissing you heatedly.
"Felt good, princess?"
"Yeah," you breathed out with a smirk. "I needed that."
The statement made you snap your eyes open, stomach twisting violently, leaving you cold on the table for a fraction of a second.
Jeonghan read you well, his head inclined to one side slightly. "Mmn, someone has been neglecting you a lot lately, isn't that right?"
You saw his lips move as he spoke those words openly, only worsening the chilling shudder.
You didn't dare to look at Joshua. You couldn't.
"Yes."
"Do you want me to give you more, baby?" Jeonghan asked, which in his tone sounded more like a soothing purr.
"Please?" you breathed shamefully.
Your eyelids fluttered with a shudder when he pulled his fingers out of your sopping pussy and without skipping a beat he took them into his mouth, licking your arousal off with a low grunt.
"Stay still," he whispered his next command, lowering himself onto his knees, his face at the perfect height to lean his mouth close to your inner thighs, propping kisses, not giving you much preamble before he pressed his tongue between your pussy lips.
"God!" you gasped.
A low chuckle made you turn your gaze to the corner of the room. There Joshua sat on the armchair, leaning his head on a fist as he watched you trying not to move, thighs wide open as his best friend ate you out.
Slowly, you propped yourself onto your elbows, keeping your eyes trained on your boyfriend, understanding on the features of his face that he was aroused by this but you wanted to know more, you wanted to taunt him, to elicit a bigger reaction from him.
Something about his lust-lidded eyes, the dark look he kept on you as he leaned his head on his fist, taking a deep breath which you recognized instantly as one of his methods to resist his own pleasure.
Running a hand on Jeonghan's head, threading your fingers through his fluffy dark hair to elicit a low grunt, sending a brief vibrating feeling between your pussy lips. You caressed his long hair as he sloppily ran his tongue across your folds, figuring you out, tasting you, exploring you fully.
The big and generous strokes of his tongue stopped, his eyes lifting to find yours as he moved his tongue, the pointed tip circling your clit slowly, watching your expression as your mouth parted and you let out a sharp breath.
"Hannie..." you mewled when the swirling of his tongue shifted into figure eight motions around your clit, gaining some speed as he kept his eyes on your face.
He groaned when your grip on his hair tightened in response to the pleasure blooming inside you again. No touching, he appeared to be telling you as his hand grabbed yours, removing it from his hair and lacing his fingers with yours, keeping your hand laced with his on top of your tummy.
"Fuck, Hannie, keep doing that please," you mumbled, sighing a moan at the same time you tried to keep yourself focused on the relentless motion of the pointed tip of his tongue.
Jeonghan released your hand when your thighs framing his head started to shake slightly, your moans increasing, sounding nearly sinful. You closed your eyes, feeling the touch of his hands exploring your body, caressing your skin, your tummy and your breasts, cupping them.
"Oh, Jeonghan..." you moaned, tipping your head back as a sweet wave of pleasure flooded inside your body, causing it to writhe slightly on the table.
But you felt his hands on your hips holding you down as you continued to call out his name, chest heaving with your sharp breaths.
Ignoring his rule again, you caressed his hair, brushing it back in an attempt to pull him back. But instead he just grounded his mouth in your pussy, simulating open kisses on your entrance, between your lips and on your clit.
"Jeonghan... sensitive," you flinched abruptly when his lips latched onto your clit, a series of loud smacking sounds coming from his mouth as he teased your engorged bud, releasing moans as he did so.
"Mm," he responded, looking at you again before detaching his mouth from your pussy.
You were embarrassingly breathless from coming so hard, legs trembling and you could feel the wetness dripping from between your legs onto the table.
"I... want—can I suck you off?" you asked, emboldened by the desire to make your boyfriend watch. But still, a tingling and warm rush of blood swarmed all over your face and neck.
Jeonghan rose from the floor, looking at you with an impassive expression on his face. Almost as if he didn't know what to do next, or if he wanted to do many things at once but couldn't decide.
He grabbed you by your hands, helping you sit up on the table to then plant a hard kiss on your lips, making you get a taste of yourself on his tongue when it swept inside your mouth.
"Get on your knees, princess," he instructed with a light tone, running the back of his fingers on your cheek.
Jeonghan turned away as you lowered yourself from the table, watching him get rid of the rest of his clothes in a near methodical way. Straight to the point, not putting on a show, or letting you have your fun by undressing him.
So you kept watching him as he threw his clothes to one side with little care as to where they landed, discarding his shorts, and underwear, until he was completely naked and in front of you. The only two things he carried on his body now were on his wrists: your scrunchie and his watch. 
"I want you here," he pointed to a spot in front of the bed, straight across from where Joshua was sitting.
You swallowed hard before sinking down onto your knees on the cold marble floor. Waiting, your eyes rose and fell on his tall frame, his nakedness. His milky white skin, his strong thighs, there was a beauty on how unapologetically he was displaying his body to you.
"You're beautiful," you whispered abruptly, having your heart crushed over how the words flew out of your mouth.
Jeonghan was shy whenever someone complimented him, but now he just seemed to be amused, as if he enjoyed being showered with your praise.
"Give me your hand," he offered you his palms before you could come out of your daze and placed your hands on his so he could indicate where you could touch him.
He then took your hand and placed them on his hip. "Leave it here. You can tap me if you want to stop, got it?"
You nodded, looking up at him and when your eyes met with his, you felt a deep sense of nervousness. It had been a while since you felt this during sex, and you realized with a flashing pain crossing your chest, that beyond the lust and desire for him, you felt something else.
His hand caressed your cheek before running his fingers through your hair. "Go ahead, princess. I'm yours," he muttered, and you noticed in the slight quiver in his tone that he was nervous and eager too.
You darted a look sideways, finding Joshua in the same position, much as if time had stopped for him the minute you and Jeonghan kissed. He bore the same look of lust in his eyes, the same dark determined look he wore whenever he was on a mission.
You ran your tongue between your lips once, driving all of your attention to the man standing before you now. He gave you a confident look, silently telling you that you were doing well and in that moment, it was all you needed.
Tentatively, your fingers trailed a line from his lower abdomen, a soft smile drawing on your face when you realized that he was hairy when your fingertip raked between the soft pubic hair.
"Don't tease me like this, princess," Jeonghan giggled after your fingers caused him to flinch slightly.
"Sorry," you breathed. But your fingers encircled around his long and pretty cock. It was so hard that you didn't need to stroke it beforehand, the pink tip already dripping with precum.
You pressed your lips on the underside of his cock, making a trail of feathery and wet kisses until you reached his tip, licking your lips to taste his precum with a hum. "You have a pretty cock," you muttered softly, almost sounding dazedly.
Jeonghan smiled, the sound making you break out of your trance. The hand cradling your hair moved, his thumb caressing one of your temples.
Holding his gaze, you opened your mouth and took his cockhead in, licking him first as you would a lolly, the tip first. Jeonghan's hand came to join the other, gathering your hair gently, his fingertips grazing on your scalp briefly.
You felt a rush of adrenaline and arousal as you watched Jeonghan's face relax, his mouth going slack as you slowly took his cock in your mouth, sucking his head eagerly now, trying to get more reactions from him.
"Oh," he uttered ever so gently, his voice dropping to a rasp.
You tried to explore him to the best of your capacity, tongue swirling around the pink head of his cock every time you moved your mouth back on him, taking him deeper when you pushed his cock until your lips reached your fist still placed by his hilt.
"God," you heard him gasp, his fingers clenching around the strands of your hair.
A shudder coursed through your body, making you raise your eyes to find his face riddled with pleasure, he threw his head back and now you could see his pretty neck, his throat moving as he moaned in pleasure.
The sound made your core flutter, it sounded so raw and sweet that you were instantly fascinated by it, eliciting a mewling sound from you. Hollowing your cheeks out as you moved your head back, to suck on his cock pressing your tongue around the head before going forward again, repeating the movement, faster.
"Stop, stop," he whispered, his hand slipping from your hair and grabbing your chin. "I'm close, princess."
You took a big gulp of air when Jeonghan pulled out of your mouth, drool dripping down your lower lip. "I want to keep going," you mumbled.
"Sure, baby?" he asked, the lines between his eyebrows showing ever so slightly.
"I'm sure," you nodded, leaning close to him so you could take him into your mouth again, darting a look to his face and then to his cock in front of you. "Use my mouth, please. I want you to fuck my mouth, Jeonghan."
The satisfying feeling you got from his eyes widening slightly at your words was something you were quickly growing an obsession with.
Before he could nod with his head, his eyes scanned your face swiftly. "Okay," he mouthed, his hands reuniting with your head, gathering your hair between his fingers.
Your mouth fell open for him, eyes trained on his face.
"Hands on me, baby," he rasped, a hand grabbing his cock as he guided it inside your parted lips, pushing it with his hips slowly as your fingers dug on the skin of his hips.
You inhaled deeply through your nose, eyelids fluttering uncontrollably as his long cock slid on your tongue, reaching the back of your mouth tentatively, thrusting slowly inside you before picking up a calculated pace.
There was something about holding his gaze as he pushed his cock inside your mouth, and you could see that it had the same effect on him as it did to yourself. It was near maddening, a frenzied rush coursed through your body, resolving you to keep yourself focused on him.
"Fuck, you're good at this," he muttered with a strain on his voice as he thrusted deep inside you, making you gag as you relaxed your throat for him to fuck, making him moan deliriously. "So fucking good," he whispered.
Your core throbbed at the sound of his words, you would've moaned if you weren't intent on deepthroating him without gagging. But tears were starting to gather on the corners of your eyes, your mouth had relaxed so much for him that you couldn't control the drool dripping onto your chin.
"God," he whispered, squeezing his eyes shut, shuddering with another delicious moan that rasped on his throat. "Baby, you feel so good."
Your hands encircled his hips, caressing his skin on the process keeping your teary eyes fixed on his face.
"I'm gonna come in your mouth," he gasped, opening his eyes to find your face.
You blinked slowly at him, as if saying "Please do," a thing you learned from your boyfriend on occasions like this.
"Fuck," he whispered shakily, the thrusting of his hips faltering slightly before he pushed deep into your mouth, throwing his head back as ropes of cum spurted from his cock and onto your throat.
Jeonghan moaned, a sound coming one after the other; breathless, raspy until you stopped swallowing his cum, breathing deeply through your nose, determined to look at his face as he came in your mouth.
His face was riddled in pure pleasure, his closed eyelids trembling slightly as he kept his mouth parted, breathing heavily as his hands relaxed on your hair, blindly searching your face to caress your cheeks.
"Fuck," he muttered to the ceiling, but this time it was different.
Jeonghan moved his head forward to find your face with his eyes, his hand cupping your cheek grazed your skin, his thumbs gathering the tears left in your cheekbones.
"Get up," he said, gently pulling out from your mouth and his hands grabbed yours to help you onto your feet. "Are you okay?" he asked once you were face to face with him.
"Mm-mmph," you cooed, nodding with your head in affirmation.
"Okay," he whispered, leaning closer to kiss your lips, slowly locking them with yours, rolling his tongue inside your mouth, moaning gutturally as he got a taste of himself in your tongue.
"Jeonghan..." you whispered.
He grabbed you by the waist as he sat down on the bed, bringing your body with him. Staggering slightly, you pressed one knee at his side, then the other.
"Ride me," Jeonghan muttered suddenly, almost as if in a hurry. His hands came up to cup your jaw lightly. "Come on, baby, sit on me," he whispered in your lips, urging you to move.
You nodded eagerly and pushed his body back on the bed, mouth watering again when you noticed that his cock had grown hard again and you sent him a look.
He must have read the pure awe in your eyes, because he nodded and swallowed hard. "Need to feel you, princess," he mumbled, his hands sliding on your hips, guiding you on top of his body as you moved on the bed to straddle him.
You took his pretty cock in your hand, rolling it over to spread the traces of your saliva and his precum along his shaft. Then, you angled it to your core, his eyes shifting from his cock about to slip inside you and back at your eyes, where they decided to stay as you slowly sat on his cock.
Jeonghan sucked in a breath and his hands gripped your hips tighter. "Don't," he stopped you just as you were going to look at the corner of the room. "Don't look at him. Look at me."
You nodded again in silence and bottomed out on him, your hands anchoring on the sides of his shoulders as you started rolling your hips on him, feeling every inch of his cock slowly. You let out a muffled moan, when you saw Jeonghan's expression change, his eyebrows knitted slightly and his mouth parted.
"Fuck," he groaned, sending his gaze to the ceiling. "Fuck. You're... a dream, princess. That's it, ride me, baby."
You had started to take a little speed, the sway of your hips gaining more control on his cock, bouncing on him to get closer to what your body desperately wanted. You wanted to come, to make him come, to watch him come undone under you.
"Jeonghan..." you breathed, feeling hot in the face because you could feel your boyfriend's eyes on you. "Am I doing it right?"
"Don't stop," he grunted, sucking in a breath through his pink lips, and shut his eyes for a moment.
Joshua had spread his legs, rubbing a hand over his clothed cock. His eyes were on you, just like you had wished for. A hot wave of shame and lust ran from your face to your cunt when you saw how hard your boyfriend was just from seeing you fuck someone else.
A slap came down your thigh, hard. "Fuck!" you yelped, hips stuttering sloppily.
"I told you not to look at him, princess," he tutted.
"'m sorry," you mumbled shamefully.
"Sorry won't cut it," he growled: "Faster."
You trapped your lower lip between your teeth, your hands finding his shoulders to anchor yourself on as you started rolling your hips faster on him. You moaned uncontrollably when you felt his cock hit in your walls deliciously each time you sank back in.
You kept that pace, that motion of your hips because you could feel the sweet pleasure building inside you, taking you closer to your release and the realization of cumming like this hit you, because you've never made yourself come like this, not even with Joshua.
"Je-jeonghan," you stammered, breathless, whimpering. "Fuck, fuck, oh god..."
You screwed your eyes shut, not allowing your body to grow tired and your hips buckled a little before you sank back on his cock, forcefully, letting out a cry as the tension in your body snapped, making you come hard on top of him.
"Jeonghan!" you gasped, opening your eyes to find his. His mouth had parted and his hands were kneading at your thighs, as if trying with all his might not to come with you.
"Look at you," Jeonghan cooed with a sigh, the fascination in his voice and written in his eyes was undeniable now. "Oh, princess, you're making a mess on me."
"Mmn?" you looked down where your bodies connected, without stopping swaying your hips on him. The base of his cock glistened wet with your arousal, his skin and pubic hair had a faint string of your cream smeared all over.
"You're doing great, baby," Jeonghan said softly, his fingers pinching your chin. "Didn't think you'd be this filthy. But it was expected of you, right?"
"'m not filthy," you slurred out, bouncing sloppily to keep your eyes on the mess you made. It was strangely alluring.
Jeonghan smiled, the sigh coming from him made you tear your eyes from the base of his cock and look at his face. "Are you sure, baby?Only a filthy girl can get herself off from this."
Your walls fluttered around his cock from hearing him talk down to you like that, you gave him a slow nod.
And then, without thinking, you looked at Joshua. He had lost his briefs, his head leaned back against the headrest, you saw his throat bob slightly, his darkened eyes set on you as his fist pumped his cock slowly.
Your whole body burned in response, drawing out a whiny moan and your brows knitted uncontrollably. A firm slap landed on your thigh, making you shut your eyes and cry out.
"Fuck, fuck! I'm sorry," you mumbled. "Sorry."
"You're being stubborn," he rasped, reaching out with one hand to grab your neck and pulling you closer so you brushed against his chest with your tits. "I never told you to stop."
"Sorry," you whispered nervously, your face so close to his that you felt his breath on your lips.
You moved your hips again, sinking on his cock sloppily.
"D'you like this, princess?" he whispered, looking at your eyes, then your lips. "Do you like that your boyfriend just watched you come on my cock, not his?"
"Yeah," you croaked. "I want more."
A corner of his mouth curled up, his hands came down from your neck to grip your ass and he stopped you completely, his cock slipping out of your sopping walls.
"Wh-what did–,"
"Get on all fours," Jeonghan instructed before kissing you chastely.
You stilled, searching his eyes impatiently. But he looked back at you, lust blown eyes, his mouth sporting a devilish grin.
"Go on," he urged, patting your thigh with his hand.
You planted your hands on his chest to help yourself onto your knees, and crawled to the middle of the large bed, getting on all fours for him as he followed behind you.
"God, you have the prettiest ass," you heard him say as a hand caressed your butt. "Should we make it prettier, princess?" he mused.
"Uh?" you uttered confusedly.
Then his fingers toyed with the plug inside you, and you instantly moaned. "Do you think you're ready for the bigger one?" Jeonghan asked and then you saw from the corner of your eye, his hand reaching out for the bottle of lube.
"Ye-yeah, I'm ready," you stammered shamefully, you threw a look in front you, finding your boyfriend watching you intently, making you drop your gaze to the duvet swiftly.
"Mmn," he hummed as his fingers plucked the plug out. "Breathe in, princess," he directed gently as you heard the spurts coming from the bottle of lube, then you felt the cold liquid on the pads of his fingers as he spread your hole open for the next plug.
"Breathe out," he muttered.
"Oh," you blinked rapidly as you felt the longer plug inside you, penetrating you even deeper than the first one.
"Okay?" Jeonghan asked, a hand caressing your lower back, waiting for your response.
"Okay," you replied.
Moving your body back, you sneaked a look to Joshua again as you crawled on the bed to then feel Jeonghan's hands yank you from your hips, forcing you to face your boyfriend, ass angled to his best friend.
"You'll get what you want," Jeonghan cooed, his hand sliding on your lower back, then you felt his cockhead gliding up and down your folds. "One spank if you close your eyes or look away from him."
Joshua nodded, making clear his participation in the punishment. Without tearing his eyes from your face he kept stroking his cock, the lower lip trapped behind his teeth smirked slightly when Jeonghan sheathed his cock inside your walls again, eliciting a raw moan from you.
Jeonghan immediately started pushing his hips so hard you could feel his hip bones meet your ass, the slap beginning to sting a little as he quite literally pounded on you, his cock hitting a glorious spot repeatedly, drawing pathetic moans out of you.
You realized that you had never seen Joshua touch himself like this. He blinked slowly at you, suppressing a small shudder, the muscles of his jaw twitching as he gritted his teeth. You knew him well enough to know that he was trying hard not to come, and you nearly smiled at that.
But you couldn't deny that you felt a deep shame washing over your face from being fucked hard by someone else while your boyfriend simply watched. Watched your body bouncing as Jeonghan's hips jackhammered into you, not slowing down or shifting position, just fucking into your glorious spot relentlessly, releasing small grunts every time you moaned.
Joshua looked at your face the whole time, probably noticing the shame painted in your hot cheeks. The small smile crowning his lips told you that much.
You couldn't. You had to look away from him.
"Spank."
Your heart skipped a beat just as Jeonghan delivered a firm spank in your buttcheek. "Fuck," you squeezed your eyes shut and blinked repeatedly, tears gathering in your eyes.
"Fuck!" Jeonghan also gasped when your walls squeezed around him. "You like being spanked, princess?"
Joshua smiled cruelly.
Jeonghan's hands grabbed your hips forcefully before changing the pace in his thrusts, plowing on you, angling his cock so that you felt him hitting you deeper.
"Sorry princess, what was that?" he grunted, a half gasp that could almost resemble a laugh.
You could only moan in response when you saw your boyfriend's cock glistening in precum, just as his hand rolled over the rosy brown cockhead to smear his own slick all over. Joshua muffled a low raspy groan, blinking slowly at you, unable to look away from your fucked out form.
"Are you fucked stupid, baby?" Jeonghan asked after you gave him no actual response.
"Spank," Joshua muttered again, his voice low and raspy.
"But I didn't look away," you whimpered in protest just as you received another firm slap in your already tingling buttcheek. "Gah, fuck, Hannie–"
"Fuck, princess," Jeonghan moaned deliriously, oblivious to your protest. "If you keep squeezing me like that, I might not last long."
"Hannie, please, I didn't–," you started to plead and got from the glint in your boyfriend's eyes that this is exactly what he wanted.
Joshua wanted to hear you beg, he wanted to see you being punished.
"Spank," Joshua's merciless smile crowned his red lips and his head tipped back as he pumped his cock faster. His thighs tensed and you saw him swallow thickly, he was close, but kept resisting his climax.
"Fuck!" you yelped when Jeonghan's hand came down on your buttcheek, your walls fluttering around him, and your arms nearly give out from the flashing pain.
Jeonghan groaned, a low sound coming from him, something you didn't think you would hear from him. "Fuck, I'm close princess," he sighed, words caught in a slurry mess: "Want me to pull out?"
You were close too, you were growing a bit sore from the relentless pounding, the tip of his cock abusing the sensitive spot inside your walls to the point you knew you were about to wet yourself soon if he just kept going.
Your eyes were brimming with tears, but you kept them fixed on your boyfriend's eyes, on the movement of his hand. It was then that you realized that he was matching the speed of his hand to the thrusts plowing on you.
"Baby, answer him," Joshua urged, his pierced eyebrow twitched slightly.
"No, please!" you gasped. "P-please come inside me," you made a motion to turn to look over your shoulder.
"Spank," your boyfriend's voice betrayed you again with a sigh which resembled a faint laugh.
This spank was firmer than the others before it. You squeezed your eyes shut, the pain sizzling beneath your skin and you saw red, your cunt squeezing around him and you knew you were so close to your own release.
"Fuck-k," you heard Jeonghan breathe out, and then. "Cumming," he muttered before the pace of his thrusts slowed down, fucking you sloppily as he emptied himself inside you with a raspy moan.
Joshua was grinning, the tip of his tongue ran over his lower lip before sinking his teeth, his head tilted back, looking at you with lascivious eyes before spurts of cum landed on the back of his hand, on his lower abdomen and chest. Your boyfriend let out a long groan that joined with your moans.
Both men were breathing slowly and ragged, Jeonghan's hands remained on your hips, keeping you steady as you trembled uncontrollably on the bed.
"Clean him off, princess," Jeonghan instructed, patting you in your butt gently, egging you to do it quickly.
You turned to look at him over your shoulder, a question written in your eyes.
Jeonghan was covered in a sheen film of sweat, from his forehead to his collarbones. His dark bangs sticking on his forehead as he breathed hard from the exhaustion, his tongue hanging on his lower lip languidly.
"Come here, bunny," Joshua called, and you turned to him, sitting in the armchair still, just at arm's length from you.
You whimpered slightly when Jeonghan pulled out of your walls, but you crawled to the edge of the bed towards your boyfriend, who cupped your cheek with his clean hand as soon as you were near enough for him to touch you.
"You're being so good, baby," he muttered, his thumb brushing your lower lip just before you bent your head and licked the cum off the back of his hand that was resting on top of his crotch.
Joshua's mouth parted and he lifted his fingers for you to suck on, licking them clean. His eyebrow twitched slightly when you moved your mouth to his lower abdomen. Running your tongue on his skin, you licked to the last bead of his cum.
"Good girl," Jeonghan muttered behind you.
"Mmn, but baby you're making a mess," Joshua said in a honeyed purr, making you turn to see your thigh.
Joshua's hand came down to your thigh, his fingers stopping the cum trailing down, picking it up and inserting it back to your fluttering cunt.
"Can't let it go to waste, huh?" your boyfriend smiled when you moaned as his fingers teased your slit, pushing the cum dripping out of you.
"Babe, I–," you started pleading when he pulled his fingers out of you, you needed to come.
But he stuck his fingers in your mouth quite abruptly, you tasted Jeonghan's cum, mixed with your own arousal. "Mmn, I think princess wants more," Joshua purred, a fascinated look in his dark eyes. "You were close, right baby? He didn't let you cum again."
You shook your head in affirmation, trying your best to give him an innocent look. "Mm-mmn," you hummed, making him grin at you.
You heard a sharp exhale behind you and felt the bed shifted under you. "Princess, you came three times already," you heard Jeonghan say. "What more can you take?"
Joshua's pierced eyebrow quirked up slightly. "Shall we test that, baby?"
His thumb brushed your lower lip as he pulled it out of your mouth softly, his grin widening when you nodded with your head eagerly.
"How are you?" your boyfriend asked, his tone dropping slightly as his eyes surveyed your face. "Are you okay?"
You nodded with your head once, lifting your eyes to meet his. "I want you now, Joshua," you mewled with a breathy tone.
Joshua looked at you briefly before a smirk crowned his beautiful lips. "Come here," he pointed at the spot in front of him, so you climbed down from the bed just as he rose from the armchair.
You followed his face with your eyes as he was now looking down to meet your gaze.
"Are you ready, baby?" he asked, reading your face with his big brown eyes.
You nodded, and then added with more certainty. "I am."
Then he instructed you to place both knees right at the edge of the bed, ass up and pointed at him. On all fours, you were looking directly at Jeonghan, lying in the pillows, blinking slowly as if he were drifting still.
His post-sex gaze found you, making your stomach clench as you noticed something else in his eyes too.
"Mmn baby, you're all red," Joshua murmured sweetly but mockingly, rubbing the sore areas of your ass with his hands. "Jeonghan doesn't know how much you enjoy being pampered."
"Mm-mmph," you hummed, shuddering under the softness of the caress, your boyfriend was now exhibiting how well he knew you, and how blind Jeonghan was to your preferences.
"Are you enjoying this, baby?" Joshua asked as his fingers toyed with the plug lodged in your ass. "Do you like that Hannie is getting to know how needy you really are?"
"Yeah, I do, Josh," you replied, voice dropping to a whimper the plug was slowly plucked out of you.
Jeonghan smiled, his teeth sliding on top of his lower lip as he watched you subdue yourself to your boyfriend.
"But Hannie probably knew already," Joshua muttered. "He also got to read the filthy things you write, right?"
Jeonghan nodded, his eyes wandered from you to your boyfriend behind you.
"Bunny, you're dripping," Joshua sighed, the pads of his fingers gingerly traveling from your clit, picking the slick and cum dripping down from your hole and pushing it back up. "My baby is so messy."
You sighed a moan when his fingers dipped in your fluttering core, feeling your boyfriend's touch, familiar instead of explorative, made you even more aroused.
"So he probably knows that you want both of us," Joshua continued with his musings, but this made you frown slightly, your heart twisting in your chest.
You turned your head to find your boyfriend, he cocked his blond head to one side, reading your expresion.
"Isn't that right, bunny?" he inquired, the corner of his mouth stretching in a grin. "You want us inside you at the same time."
"Ye-yeah, that's what I want, Josh," you stammered dumbly.
"I'd assumed as much," Jeonghan admitted, when you looked back at him you swore you saw the same wolfish grin on his face as your boyfriend's.
"You're gonna be good for us, baby?" Joshua purred as his lubed fingers prodded on your hole gingerly at first, stretching it more.
"Yeah," you whined, closing your eyes to savor the feeling.
"Breathe, baby," your boyfriend reminded you, spreading his fingers, keeping you open for him.
You inhaled through your nose, moaning as you exhaled.
But you needed to see your boyfriend standing behind you, you understood from the movement of his right arm that he was stroking himself, lubing his cock for you. The dark and lustful gaze he kept on you made your body burn with anticipation, making you angle your ass for him.
"Good girl," Joshua breathed before pressing the tip of his cock on your hole, his eyes shifting from your ass to your face, his eyebrows knitting at the same time you did.
"Josh... mn," you mewled, looking his mouth fall open as he eased himself inside you, ever so slowly and carefully.
"Alright?" he breathed, unable to bring his tone any louder.
You gave him rapid nods with your head. "Yes, yes," you mumbled.
His eyes remained on the features of your face for a second before shifting them to his fingers spreading you open for him, a hand reached out to pump more lube onto his palm. A low hiss escaped between his teeth as he coated the remaining half of his cock to ease himself inside you, thrusting shallowly.
It was hard to breathe, you couldn't move. You focused all of your energy to remain lax for him as he eased the first half of his cock inside your tight hole.
But everything inside you became alight with sweet pleasure. You dropped your head forward, enjoying the feeling coursing beneath your skin, keeping your lower lip trapped between your teeth, but muffled mewling sounds resounded in your throat.
You sneaked a look at the man in front of you. Jeonghan was lying on his side, elbow propped on the pillows as he looked at you and your boyfriend. His heavy lidded eyes kept switching between Joshua's face and then to yours, a hand idly stroking his cock.
"Baby," he muttered, a strain to his voice, and when you turned you saw it showing on his clenched jaws as he tilted his head back, moving his hips at a slow pace. "Are you okay? Can I give you more?"
"Yes, I'm okay," you replied, a hot wave washing over your face. "I want more."
"Okay," he sighed deeply, his hands now palming your ass as he thrusted his hips forward, easing another inch inside you.
"Oh god," you shut your eyes. "Please, move, Josh..."
"I don't want to hurt you," he replied in a breathless tone. "I need you to relax, baby. Can you do that for me?"
You nodded, focusing on what your body felt, crying out, welcoming the pleasure, the slow and shallow thrusts of Joshua's hips, his cock pushing in and out of you, making him moan.
You knew your boyfriend could hang. He came once already so it would probably take him more time to come again. But something in the way that he was moaning let you know that it might be different this time.
"Fuck, so tight," he sighed in pleasure, his hands palming your ass, caressing your skin as if to soothe your moans. "Talk to me, baby."
"Don't stop. Please, Joshua," you replied instantly, your fingers clenching on the bed covers, holding on tightly.
"Do you think you're ready for Jeonghan?" he asked with a slight urgency to his tone.
"Yeah," you breathed out, looking at your best friend and then your boyfriend behind you. "I'm ready."
"Okay," he gasped, the features of his face riddled with pleasure, but he came to a stop once he heard you. Joshua raised a hand and motioned you over to his chest. "Move back, baby. Slowly."
You simply did what he instructed, and wordlessly, Jeonghan moved across the bed, standing next to Joshua now. His hands shifted positions, gripping your hips as you stood back on your knees as he said, so your back pressed against his chest.
The two men exchanged a glance before Joshua moved your body from the bed, Jeonghan's hands sliding on your thighs to help your boyfriend support your body from the front.
"You're okay, baby?" Joshua asked when he heard you let out a small cry.
"Yeah," you replied quickly, now looking at Jeonghan as you used your hands to hold onto his lean shoulders. "Please, more, please."
Joshua kept your thighs angled for the man in front of you, just as he took a hand between his body and yours, grabbing his hard cock to guide it to your cunt, his eyes finding yours as he started to sheathe himself inside your cunt in one go.
Your eyes rolled back, squeezing your eyelids tightly as your head slumped back onto Joshua's shoulder. "F-fuck," you gasped, as Jeonghan eased himself to the hilt, making you fuller than ever.
"Baby," Joshua urged, breathing hot against your neck.
"Move, please, Josh," you cried out, the corners of your eyes spilling some tears.
Without wasting a single second, you felt the two men move in a slow sway, appearing to share one mind again because there were no words exchanged, nothing you could make out before they began a push and pull with your body.
"God," you breathed out, seeing stars behind your closed eyelids. "Josh..."
"You're good, baby," he replied, his voice muffling as he pressed his lips on the crook of your sweaty neck. "You're perfect."
As the two men moved inside you, the rest of your body supported by Joshua's strong arms on your thighs, Jeonghan helping him through as he moved in with shallow thrusts.
You blinked, leaning your head forward, the tip of your nose bumping sloppily against Jeonghan's. You kissed him slowly, eliciting a raw moan from the man, but he reciprocated the kiss, breathing in your mouth when you backed away.
Then you turned your head to your side, Joshua reached for your lips with his own, meeting in a feathery kiss. "Mmn," you hummed into his mouth before leaning your head back onto his shoulder once again. "So full," you whispered in pure bliss, dissolving into a puddle of pleasure.
"I know, baby, I know," Jeonghan mumbled, his voice too, sounding tense.
"So good for us," Joshua whispered, kissing your shoulder.
"Mm-huh," you hummed entrancingly, but your mind had already gone completely blank as you were reduced to breathy moans, tears spilling from your closed eyes, unable to string up thoughts.
Lips kissed your neck, your shoulder, while another set of lips kissed your cheeks, your tears and even your own lips. But slowly you lost awareness of who was who anymore, not even if you would recognize Joshua's lips anywhere, you couldn't do it.
The sway of both men pushing inside you never changed, it never paused, you heard tired gasps and raw moans as they used your body, filling you up to the brim.
Your moans were becoming increasingly louder every time, and whinier. You had never sounded like this, never felt like this before. So full, and taken over by pleasure that there was nothing you could say. You saw lights and colors behind your eyelids and tasted your climax in your mouth, pleasure blooming inside you in fiery waves, taking over you completely. 
"I think she's close."
"Are you gonna cum for us, baby?"
"Yeah," you breathed.
"Come, bunny, come for us."
"Oh god," you whimpered before coming undone without any warning, crying out blissfully, your body being overtaken by relentless tremors. Your hands held onto his shoulders, nails digging into skin.
"Fuck," you heard one of the men gasp in response.
The orgasm was so brutal that you felt like collapsing, you felt it everywhere, flooding you from inside, coursing through your whole body, you even felt it on your face, between the tears rolling down your cheeks.
The room was filled with your raw cries of pleasure, and low moans and gasps from the men holding your spasming body while you clenched around them, triggering their own orgasms, stuffing you up with their cum. One had propped his forehead on one of your shoulders, while the other was breathing hard on the curve of your neck, while grazing your skin with his lips.
"Fuck, baby," one gasped languidly, fingers digging on the plush of your thighs.
Both men had stopped pushing inside you, but kept holding you as you trembled with the aftershocks of your orgasm.
"Baby?" the same voice asked.
"She's out of it," the other said knowingly. "Give her a moment."
"Let's lay her down."
A weak cry spilled from you when Joshua pulled out of you, even if he did it with care, you felt the sudden loss of him inside you. Followed by that Jeonghan pulled out of you. Next thing you knew, your trembling thighs were wet but before you knew it, your limp body was quickly laid on the bed.
"Easy," you heard him whisper soothingly. "Eaasy, baby."
"I got a towel and I already started a bath."
"Thank you," a hand brushed some hairs from your face. "I'm gonna clean you up, bunny."
"Okay," you mumbled, opening your eyes to see Joshua sitting beside you, carefully pressing a wet hand towel on your thighs, cleaning up the cum that had dripped down from you.
"Hi there, baby," Joshua smiled at you. "How are you? Okay?"
"Amazing," you replied with a slurry tone.
"Tsk," you heard Jeonghan click his tongue with amusement before announcing: "Bath is ready, princess."
"Come on," Joshua nodded his head back to the bathroom door. "I'll take you there."
"I can do it," you protested, starting to prop yourself onto your elbows.
"You don't have to," he retorted, already getting on his feet to lift your body from the bed, cradling you on his strong arms to lower you gently into the warm water of the tub.
"Thank you, babe," you mumbled sweetly.
Jeonghan was already in the shower, its glass walls letting you know that he was sending you glances to check up on you.
"Are you hungry, baby? Do you want me to order something?" Joshua asked as he knelt before you. "Waffles? Fries? Strawberry milkshakes?"
The crushing love and adoration you felt for him was beyond anything your languid body could handle at that moment. You smiled and nodded lazily.
"Everything I just said?" his eyebrows pushed up, and his beautiful lips were crowned with a smile, making his dimples above his lips show.
"Can it be chocolate now?"
"Of course, baby," he smiled endearingly at you. "Do you need help?"
"I got it, Josh," you replied. "Thank you."
"Okay," he whispered, giving you one look before he got up, as Jeonghan was stepping out of the shower and was now being occupied by your boyfriend.
"You're okay there, princess?" Jeonghan asked as he patted his face and neck with the towel.
"Yeah. A bit sore but I'm okay," you replied, watching his fully naked body as he wiped the droplets of water sticking onto his skin. You pretended to busy yourself, subbing your soapy hands onto your inner thighs.
Jeonghan sat down on the rim of the tub, at arm's length from you so he only stretched out to boop your nose with the tip of his finger. You looked at him startled for a second.
But he smiled, in fact, a breathy chuckle left him as he saw your face.
"What?" you asked, blinking confusedly at him.
"You're cute," he replied nonchalantly, resuming to wipe himself down.
You said nothing, in fact, you felt like you didn't have the brain capacity to process why you felt so confused at the moment. You simply pulled the drain stopper with your foot, the warm water scurrying down quickly.
"Help me up?" you extended a hand at him.
"Sure you can walk?" Jeonghan smirked, casting a look over his shoulder.
Joshua was coming out of the shower, draping his lower half with a towel as he kept an eye on you. "I'll do it," he offered and bent forward to get you up, lifting you up in his arms again.
Jeonghan got another towel for you, which he extended on the bed as Joshua set down on it neatly.
"You guys make a great team," you noted aloud finally, looking at both men standing before you.
They both exchanged a quick look, Joshua only nodded nonchalantly, Jeonghan smirked at your words. "We know, princess."
After that, Joshua ordered room service for everyone and you all waited with the TV on. You were blissfully dozing on the bed, aloof to anything that happened around you until you were woken up by your boyfriend telling you the food was here.
You ate in silence, barely able to keep your eyes open but the only thing keeping you up and running was your growling stomach.
"It's time for me to go back," Jeonghan announced, rising up to his feet.
The meals were done and you could barely hold your head up from the slumber and tiredness taking over you.
"You stay."
Both men jerked their heads upon hearing you say that, both looked confused, much as if they weren't expecting you say that.
"Please?" you raised your eyes to look at him. "I want you to stay."
"If Joshuji has no issue with it," Jeonghan shrugged, casting a glance at your boyfriend.
"Yeah, no problem," Joshua responded, but his brow was slightly furrowed.
You giddily crawled on the bed, slumping down on the pillows face down. Joshua quickly occupied a place by your side, cupping cheek with one hand to press a loving kiss on your forehead.
"Sure you're okay, baby?" he asked, scanning your face and your body inquisitively.
"I'll be fine, Josh," you rolled your eyes but a small giggle spilled from your lips.
"Mkay," he replied, pressing his lips in a tight smile.
Jeonghan however, slid onto the large bed with some reluctance, occupying your other side. You shifted your body so you could look at him, an arm tucked beneath his head.
He felt your gaze before he could turn and look at you. "What?"
"You owe me a scrunchie."
Jeonghan closed his eyes slowly, a sly smile appearing on his face. "No, I don't," he mumbled. "Go to sleep."
"You first," you replied in the same fashion.
A heavy arm hugged you from behind. Joshua cuddled his body against yours, pressing a kiss on your hair. "Go to sleep, baby," he said, smiling softly on your cheek before littering it with kisses.
Like a work of magic, you were gently swept away by a very heavy slumber.
You felt like hours had passed since you shut your eyes until something pulled you from your dream. You turned in the bed, following the faint sounds of Joshua snoring softly beside you. He was sleeping in an odd position, and you realized the pillow had moved and was about to fall onto the floor.
You reached out for it, carefully placing it beside his head.
"Joshua," you whispered, trying not to wake the other man lying on the other side of the bed beside you. "Babe, use your pillow."
"Mm?" Joshua lazily pushed his eyebrows up, opening his eyes slightly.
"Baby, use your pillow. You were snoring," you smiled softly, feeling something tug in your insides.
He just looked so cute, pouting his lips as he nodded. "'m sorry," he mumbled and placed his head on the pillow before continuing on his deep sleep.
You laid back on the bed and curiously eyed Jeonghan, who had his eyes open and focused on you.
"Did I wake you?" you asked shyly.
"No," he whispered. "I can't sleep," he explained briefly.
"Oh. Same," you sighed a smile, your heart skipping a beat over the sense of familiarity you felt whenever you were reminded that Jeonghan is just a bad sleeper as you are.
There was a restlessness in his gaze as the man that you had come to call a best friend swallowed thickly. A lithe hand came to your face and grazed his knuckles on your cheek.
His touch startled you at first, but you welcomed it, leaning your cheek against his touch.
"Is this okay?" he asked softly.
"'s okay, Jeongjeong," you replied with a small smile. "Are you okay, though? This might have been too much."
"I'm okay, princess," he mumbled with ease, but his gaze remained shifty.
"Sure?" you mouthed, his eyes were on your lips already, so he nodded.
The moment grew quieter, Jeonghan removed his hand from your cheek, licking his lips as he appeared to be considering something inside his head.
"Stay still," he whispered.
You held in a breath, closing your eyes when his face moved closer to yours, and waited.
His lips grazed yours, capturing them ever so slowly, giving you a tender kiss that made a small grunt bubble in his chest.
Your hand cupped his cheek, diving for a deeper kiss, feeling his tongue on yours. His palm pressed against the back of your hand, his fingers encircling it briefly before pulling his head back.
"Did you... like it?" he asked, seeming to be curious as well. "Was it what you wanted?"
"You know I liked it, Jeongjeong," you smiled slowly at him, waiting for his smile.
But no, Jeonghan didn't smile, in fact, he didn't seem to be relaxing.
"Did you?" you asked shyly, your eyes trailing down to his mouth and then his eyes.
"Yeah, I did. I liked it," he mumbled sleepily.
"We should do it again sometime. Us three," you put in quickly and then looked away at the ceiling, feeling ashamed.
"You don't think your boyfriend will say no?" he mused, his voice merely a whisper.
"Why? I mean, I don't think so," you frowned, then added. "It's just sex, right?"
It grew quiet, so quiet that you barely couldn't hear Joshua's deep breathing. Jeonghan's eyes scanned your face again, but the restlessness only grew into something you couldn't quite place. His gaze darkened, and his lips tensed into a line.
"Right?" you asked again, your eyes reading his face, but you couldn't understand what you had said wrong.
Jeonghan sat up in the bed slowly and rose, throwing his hoodie and then putting his sweatpants on, he didn't look back at you.
"Jeonghan?" you called, sitting up in the bed when he crossed the room, walking out the door without saying a word.
You sat there, eyes fixated on the hotel room's door, hesitating on what to do. Your heart was beating frantically against your throat.
"Leave him be," Joshua mumbled sweetly behind you.
"Did you hear all that?" you asked, but didn't need an answer. You knew he did.
"I think Jeongjeong might have a crush on you, baby," he ran a hand on your back, his fingers caressing your bare skin lovingly.
"He doesn't," you brushed off. "He's just..." you stopped short of words.
"It's okay, baby," he whispered. "I don't mind if he does."
"But he's your friend!" you whispered.
"Our friend," he corrected. "So?"
"So, I don't want to hurt him," you mumbled awkwardly.
"Why would you?" he frowned.
"I'm with you, Joshua," you rolled your eyes annoyingly. "I can't be giving him false hope."
"Baby, you don't have to," he smiled, looking fondly at you.
"Are you actually saying what I think you're saying?" you asked dumbfoundedly.
Joshua appeared to be pensive for a second, and shrugged slightly. "I mean, he's been there for you this whole time," his tone was sweet, but cautious. "And you had grown really close, it would make sense that he feels something for you."
You stared at your boyfriend in utter bewilderment, but something more alarming made you think. Did you feel something for Jeonghan?
"I never... we never did anything or said anything," you whispered with a slight frown of confusion.
Joshua's smile reached his eyes. "I know, baby. That's not what I'm saying," he said and sat up in the bed and gently placed a finger under your chin. "Do you feel something for him, baby?"
"No. I don't know," you whispered, feeling your heart deflate painfully in your chest upon uttering those words. "I love you, Joshua."
"I know, that's not what I'm asking," he smiled slightly. "I'm just saying that it's not entirely wrong to have feelings for someone who's been there for you. Even if that someone happens to be my best friend."
Your breath hitched and took his hand that was holding your chin. "Should I go talk to him?" you whispered.
"If you want to," he replied in the same manner. "I think he needs time right now... and you do too."
Your eyebrows knitted, breathing was hard, the pain in your chest becoming worse. "What?"
"I think you feel something for him, baby," he whispered, pressing his fingers on your chin.
"I don't," you muttered, but your eyes had started to water.
"Are you sure?" he asked, frowning slightly. "Baby, I know you. I've seen the way you look at him."
You choked back a sob and immediately denied shaking your head. "I'd never do something like that to you."
"Baby, listen to me," he muttered, his hand cupping your chin tensed slightly, commanding your eyes on him. "I am not judging you. I just need the truth."
Taking a few deep breaths, almost sobbing as your mind spun over the situation. You knew you couldn't deny it to Joshua or to yourself any longer.
"Maybe I do feel something for Jeonghan," you confessed, the realization making your breath hitch.
Nothing could have prepared you for his reaction.
Joshua recoiled, as if he had suddenly been slapped, then blinked rapidly, his big brown eyes dimming a little. You knew his feelings were hurt and you immediately wanted to take it back, to pause your whole life and reevaluate what you were actually saying to him.
"It's okay," he breathed, sushing you when you couldn't contain your tears anymore and started to cry. "It's okay, baby. It is. I understand."
"Wait, please, please," you mumbled, grabbing his arm with one hand as you tried to steady yourself, becoming light headed over the surge of emotions invading you.
"I'm not going anywhere," he muttered, looking at you with a worried look on his face. "Baby, breathe."
You inhaled deeply, your eyes itching because of the tears that kept on coming. "I'm sorry, Joshua."
"What for?" he whispered, his brow furrowing as he gathered your tears with the back of his fingers. "Don't apologize. Not for that."
"But I feel like I'm hurting you and I don't want to do that," you choked back a sob.
Joshua frowned a little, almost as if he were putting his thoughts together, and laid them out for you slowly: "It was me who told him to get closer to you, because I've been away and we both barely talk, I know you would feel lonely and I didn't want that for you."
"But this isn't your fault."
"It's no one's fault," he shook his head slightly. "There's nothing to blame here."
You looked at him, trying to decipher what was going on in his mind. "What are you saying?"
"Jeonghan and I are very similar," he said with an empty smile. "It doesn't seem strange to me that he grew feelings for you. You're fun, smart, beautiful."
Joshua said this with a vague expression on his face, almost as if he were putting the pieces inside his brain, as he himself was realizing how he felt about the situation. "And by that, I also don't find it strange that you have feelings for him," he decided.
You felt the features of your face relax, but the morose and cold feeling seizing your heart didn't go away. "It's entirely platonic," you said shakily.
That made Joshua smile with a glint of fondness in his eyes. "Baby, I know that you love me," he replied with certainty. "And I know that you having feelings for Jeonghan doesn't affect what is ours."
You read his eyes for a second as you were letting the words sink, you nodded slowly. "I love you, Joshua," you whispered, leaning so that your forehead touched his.
"And I love you, bunny."
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✮ yet another long author's note: heyoooo THEY DID IT!!!! THEY CROSSED THAT BRIDGE, JOSHUA OVERCAME HIS POSSESSIVENESS (or did he?) 👀👀👀 as you may or may not know my bias is Jeonghan and my wrecker is Joshua (⸝⸝ᵕᴗᵕ⸝⸝) so i am doing this purely to satisfy my brain, but i guess that if you want to indulge with me you are more than welcomed to do so OKAY NOW I NEED TO EXPLAIN AGAIN this is the last part belonging to city lights! take this as the finale! AND THIS IS CANON OKAY yes, i'm sorry for those that didn't want a threesome 😭🫠🫠 NOW LET ME EXPLAIN A FEW THINGS. bunny's story doesn't end here. i decided to make a city lights season two! but i'm going to take a break from writing this fic for a short while and focus on my other projects!! so city lights is going on a short break and will be coming back under a different title!! so be on the lookout for that one! 👀 i hope this explains everything AND I DON'T WANNA SEE ANY OF YOU IN THE COMMENTS SAYING THAT CITY LIGHTS IS OVER OR WHATEVER BECAUSE IT'S NOT TRUE! ᕙ( •̀ᗝ•́)ᕗ sorry i didn't mean to yell at you i love you all! toodles!
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mariohuyaar · 10 months ago
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So he left me on Seeen today!
Idk who is more miserable.Me who loved him from the whole heart or he who couldn't see the worth of being loved so truly. I wish for once he felt the same but he wasn't meant for me so he didn't fall for me
My dream to spend life with him and my reality that he doesn't even want to talk to me oh what a misery!
Oh! I wish for once he loved me the way I did. I wish he didn't have hurt me the way he did. I wish for once he had said the things I wanted to hear from him but this is all my dream not his.
I should have lived in reality from the beginning that's a completely different thing that how much I love him and how I am unable to hold back my tears writing this rn but the truth is I have to move with or without him sad or happy. the gist is he wasn't mine and I was all of his
Well maybe in another life!
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