#but it hurts too much tbh always more sad than happy always more crying than laughing

[girlivealwaysbean]

it would feel so nice to work towards a career that has meaningful impact and makes millions of people happy

[bestworstcase]

Hello and good day. I hope that this isn't too much to ask, but what are your thoughts about Adam? It has always been my belief that Adam and Yang are mirrors to each other. Well, Adam has a lot of things to connect with Team RWBY, moreso with Yang, I think. Just wanted to hear your thoughts about Adam, I guess. Thank you.

i rattle him around in my brain from time to time. a lunar eclipse. he and yang are absolutely character foils; power vs strength, cruelty vs compassion, spite vs love, revenge vs justice. he refuses to control his temper, yang is defined by her meticulous control over her anger. moonslice and burn are almost the exact same semblance, even. a dark mirror.

he’s also doing… something… thematically salient to summer rose. which is what i’m picking over in that linked post. i’m not sure what it is yet but the setup is pretty evident.

tbh i think the narrative is far more sympathetic to him than most of the fandom cares to admit. the triumph and vindication burns bright when adam realizes he’s lost in V5 and runs away—that’s the moment where the narrative framing is like “fuck yeah, the bastard got what he deserved.” but when he dies? there’s just exhaustion, pain, and relief that yang and blake survived. it’s not played as a proud or happy moment. it just sucks so much that they had to go through this ordeal and it’s pitiable that he chose to waste his life on this. blake breaks down crying and all she and yang can do for a moment is cling to each other.

like. -> “there’s no cause to celebrate/another soul consumed by hate and spite/another destroyed life/there’s no pleasure, there’s no joy/it’s just the story of a boy who lost his way/into shadows strayed/he’ll see the light of day/nevermore”

he chose over and over and over again to be cruel, letting his anger rule him. chose to be vindictive, chose to pursue vengeance over justice. chose to hurt people. every time he was offered an out, he refused to take it and brutally punished the people who gave him second chances. sienna, blake, yang. in the end, he left blake and yang with no other choice but to kill him before he killed them. but… the narrative still mourns the person he could have been, if he’d made better choices, if the world had been kinder to him.

there is no question that blake and yang made the right call. they did everything they possibly could to avoid killing him, and they had every right to defend themselves when he refused to stop.

BUT,

it’s sad that they were forced to do that. it still weighs on blake’s conscience as a terrible ordeal and a choice she never wants to have to make again. because killing another person—no matter the circumstances—is horribly traumatizing. and that’s why the narrative refuses to frame his death as a triumphant moment. (the same thing happens with jacques’ murder in V8: it’s sudden and shocking and unjust and there is zero satisfaction in watching him die. and it’s terribly unfair to weiss, who specifically chose not to leave him to die. rwby is a story where every life matters and every death is sad.)

great character. the final battle between him and blake/yang is done really well and one of my favorite fights in the show mostly bc it brings the foiling between him and yang into really sharp focus. “what does she even see in you?” is such a raw fucking line because the things blake sees in yang are exactly the things she once saw in adam: he’s so consumed by his obsession his vengeance his spiteful rage, he’s strayed so far from the person he was that he can’t even recognize her when she’s staring him in the face.

i do think that when adam was 16-17 at the very start of his character short, he was genuinely a lot like yang. angrier and more aggressive, because his mentor encouraged him to be that way, but i think his ideals were true and his commitment to the cause of his people was genuine.

he was only a kid the first time he killed someone—sixteen, seventeen, about the right age to be enrolling in one of the huntsmen academies. and i truly do not think he meant to kill that man; he saw a dangerous person running towards his already-wounded leader with a gun and reacted. and this?

this is a lot.

no matter the circumstances, killing another person is traumatizing. after this happens, adam slowly straightens up and sheathes his weapon, then just stands there frozen, staring at the body, until the other assailants make noise and he startles. his face falls when ghira says “that wasn’t necessary.” he’s slow to turn around, but he does, and he listens quietly to what ghira has to say to him. he didn’t mean to. he can’t be older than seventeen. he is in shock—he doesn’t know how to react, how to feel, and like any teenager would, he looks to trusted adults for guidance. (much like yang looks to ironwood and qrow after she hurts someone by mistake.) ghira starts to scold him (not ideal), but sienna cuts him off and calls adam a hero, and then everybody starts to fucking cheer; “that was amazing!!”

this moment, while adam was reeling and unsure, this is when adam desperately needed to hear from an adult in the middle. ghira is right that using lethal force wasn’t necessary; sienna is also right that adam likely saved ghira’s life by taking action. what adam really needed to hear was “you were right to take action, but this man was not such a grave threat that he needed to die. why did you react the way you did?”—not to be scolded or lionized, but to be treated like a teenager who made a bad choice for a good reason and given support and understanding so that next time, he would know what to do better.

instead he got swamped with praise and the came away from this experience having learned that Killing Humans is Cool and Awesome and Heroic, Actually.

(i have a secondary thought here that the white fang’s fatal weakness—under both ghira and sienna—is treating children like adults. if adam had been an adult when this happened, he wouldn’t have been so dependent on his mentor and his leader to guide his reaction and an adult would be better equipped to hold “that wasn’t necessary” and “he saved your life” as non-contradictory ideas. similarly, ghira and kali respecting blake’s decision to stay with the now expressly militant white fang when they left sounds great until you remember that she was twelve years old at the time and then they didn’t contact her in any way for the next five years. it is… probably not a coincidence that adam’s splinter group skews young.

not that teens can’t be good activists but good activism does require pragmatism and emotional maturity and an understanding of nuance, and if you throw a teenager into a high-stress organization where they’re involved in often-violent direct action and give them zero guidance beyond “here’s how to fight!” because they’re assumed to have adult-level maturity and critical reasoning, then… yeah, you’re going to end up with an extremism problem. the kids are not going to just magically know the difference between tactical violence and violent revenge.)

anyway, i really like his character short. i think the narrative is very sympathetic to the boy he used to be and the thread of sienna inadvertently enabling and reinforcing his violent tendencies is interesting. my sense is that in the beginning she sort of used adam to score a point against ghira in their clash of opinions over the direction of the white fang, and later made a habit of being overly indulgent with him and turning a blind eye to his excessive violence—like.

during the fight in the SDC building, sienna rips through the AKs just as ruthlessly as he does, but once the human security personnel arrive, her tactics immediately change. she uses her whip to snag a man’s gun and yank it out of his hands, flicks bullets away, disarms, trips, disarms, trips, disarms, trips. the only time she uses the bladed dart, it’s to disable her opponent’s weapon. meanwhile adam is hacking and slashing behind her. she stops him when he moves to kill an man who’s disarmed and on the ground. faced with living opponents, sienna holds back and fights strictly to disarm. adam is not like that, and she knows it and presumably doesn’t approve—she doesn’t kill anyone herself, and intervenes to stop him from killing—but it’s also clear that there were never like. Consequences. she never took him to task for crossing these lines. as his leader she had a responsibility to do so, but she kept letting it slide until it was too late.

(tbh i think the biggest disappointment i feel regarding her death is well never find out why she cut adam so much slack. did she want to believe he was better than that? had she known him for so long that her memories of what he was like as a teenager blinded her to the adult he was becoming? was it that she found him too useful or realized he was too popular to chastise, finding herself in the same trap she once sprung on ghira? did she, like blake, convince herself it was just “accidents” or “getting carried away” and ignore the warning signs that it was a deliberate pattern? was she like the albains, fully aware that he was dangerous and unstable but confident that she could control him? there’s so many possible reasons she might have had and i think it’s unfortunate that her motives and her side of the relationship didn’t get explored at all.)

also this is stupid and doesn’t matter really but he’s not a fucking bull 😭 those are goat horns. he’s a goat. A GOAT!!

[yanderefarm]

I have a headache so we get less than nice thoughts :3 (tbh none of my thoughts shared here have probably been very nice but I swear I have sweet thoughts I'll give one as a treat)

I'm probably a very emotionally charged sex person,like angry or anxious we fuck. So, imagine darling getting anxious about Ares falling out of love or cheating or whatever like he did to mark(?) And worrying about getting killed like him. And just fucking him into the bed for hours, rambling about how we refuse to end up like mark and then afterwards locking ourselves in the bathroom to calm the anxieties (me fr)

Nephy in the au ig? Where he fails to lock darling in the cage to reeducate them using the pastors tactics despite his begging to reform him into the perfect omega (aka making him more submissive and willing to do what we say so we can take him from the cult because we love him and this is all for his own good) and just giving him barebones meals if he isn't in heat (when he is we give him good meals so he can have energy to ride the dildo we give him,only good omegas who do what their alphas say get a real knot after all 😌) but like just giving him cum in a bowl to drink just cause :3

Happy thought time, Silvan, my baby, just pampering him, he wants to sleep in our bed? Of course,you'll get all the cuddles you want too, dressing him in pretty outfits because he deserves the best, letting him just sit on our lap (cockwarming if he wants) because he's just such a good boy, being so sweet when we drink from him and pampering him afterwards with hot coco a nice warm bath and fluffy pajamas and maybe even a gentle and inimate sex session just to make him feel good and ready for bed 🥺 and at parties keeping him close because we just don't trust those other vampires to hurt our beloved pet so we keep him close, by our side and on our lap,maybe feeding him little snacks we brought while showing him off just being so soft with him and showing him love 🥺

-🐻

silvan getting the baby treatment so soft. he does deserve to be pampered and adored. just be careful because he does become spoiled easily. you might let him in your bed once or twice and he'll come to your room every night with the expectation that he's going to get cuddles. you give him candy during a party and now he wants candy everytime while he's in your lap. you make an effort to make sure he cums more than you do and he expects you to always do that now. especially the longer he stays your pet. imagine a hundred years from when you first got him and he's willing to come up to you and just ask so sweetly if you'll fuck him you can feed on him too but he really wants to now so please?

ares would literally be at the bathroom door worried and honestly probably also worked up into crying. like he would never dream of doing anything like that to you but I imagine during sex he's totally playing into everything you're saying because he just assumes its some weird roleplay where you want him to say he belongs only to you over and over again. so like when you start breaking down he's going to be so worried and confused about what's happening.

i know the cult has heat inducers too you could force nephite to go into heat sometimes to punish him for misbehaving. he's not just horny he also desperately needs to nest but he can't when all you've given him is a single blanket. it's so stressful for him he becomes nonverbal and he might even get a cold. its sad to see your mate so upset but he needs to learn better. you know once he's brainwashed onto your side he'll be much happier and safer so its a necessary evil you tell yourself.

[kny-agere]

Can you do Little! Zenitsu and Cg!Tanjiro hcs? :]

Ok 4 more to go 🫡 I probs won’t have any finished next week because my friend is visiting but we’ll see!! just a warning though :p

★彡☆彡★彡

- I think Tanjiro has a hard time separating regression moments from regular moments

- Like once they fall into a dynamic and he sees Zenitsu cry his first urge is to baby him

- Though tbh I don’t see Zenitsu resisting that much either

- Inosuke would help keep them in line though!! He’d start yelling if he felt things were unfair

- And Tanjiro isn’t unaware he does know when to treat Zenitsu like an adult

- But he still indulges just a little too much

- He’s just a mother hen in general and if he’s not paying attention will coddle Zenitsu

- I think Zenitsu likes it but also gets really embarrassed if they’re in front of other people (especially girls!)

- Regressed Zenitsu is like the clingiest kid ever though

- Probably regresses like 3-4 years old

- And is absolutely attached to Tanjiro

- If he’s not being held then he’s clinging to the redhead like a lifeline

- Cries if Tanjiro leaves for any reason even if it’s just to use the bathroom

- The only thing that can comfort him is clinging to Nezuko instead

- Zenitsu really likes Nezuko but sometimes gets frustrated that she doesn’t talk back or seems spacey

- But if she’s just caring for him for a few minutes then there’s usually no issue

- And Tanjiro gets really happy seeing the two bond

- I think he gets a little jealous sometimes

- Not a lot!! Just like a teeny tiny bit

- Zenitsu tends to hunch over a lot so he feels smaller

- Afterwards he whines that his neck/back hurts

- He also makes Tanjiro buy him clothes that are too large for the same reason

- Tanjiro loves feeding his littles

- Both the process of making food but also feeding

- Zenitsu takes advantage and gets himself piles and piles of sweets

- Whenever Inosuke tries to take his food then the blonde is screaming bloody murder

- He also pouts if someone else gets more food than him even though Zenitsu doesn’t each much when regressed

- He is about a hundred times more jealous than Tanjiro

- Also gets jealous over Nezuko

- Zenitsu and Tanjiro almost fight over her somewhat

- Tanjiro to get her out and Zenitsu to let her stay

- Nezuko is attuned to her brothers emotions so she usually leaves to play with Inosuke

- Zenitsu throws a bit of a tantrum when she leaves

- Sometimes it makes Tanjiro a little sad and as soon as Zenitsu notices he’s like “no!!! I love you most!!”

- He really likes cuddling and always crawls into Tanjiro’s lap

- Very rarely the redhead is like “you’re too big” and Zenitsu smacks his head (not hard enough to hurt) and yells “I’m not!”

- And he always sits in a way that is so hard and uncomfortable but refuses to move

- But Tanjiro bears through it until his little one falls asleep and they can have a proper cuddle

[crazystargirl]

Hii, just wanted to pass by and let you know that your blog has such a nice theme and I loveeee.

Also saw that you have requests !

So how about some Ethan Landry with some really heavy angst, with a sad ending.

I’m just in a sad mood and need my feelings more hurt ☹️

hope that’s not to much to ask for, take your time too ! please and thank you !

sincerely, ‘💐’ anon ! 💓

we'll get through this ♥︎

pairing ♥︎ - ethan landry x fem!reader

word count ♥︎ - 0.9k

a/n ♥︎ - awww 💐 anon i hope you're feeling better, tbh i don't understand why you want to feel worse but im also the kind when i dont feel happy, i curl up on the ground and listen to lana del rey and just cry, so i cannot be talking lmao. first time ever writing angst and as someone who hates angst to her very core i only added the angst towards like the ending and made it a sad ending. also i love the idea of having different kinds of anons!!

you came home as usual, nothing seeming to be wrong but it was eerily quiet. you had a bad feeling, something that you always got whenever ghostface had attacked your friends

you were always on edge ever since the attacks but even more now, something was going to happen.

suddenly your phone rings, making you jump and grab a knife just in case.

you look at the caller id, it reads quinn bailey

you scrunch your brows in confusion, wasn't quinn dead?

you slowly pick it up and put the phone on speaker

"hello?"

"hello y/n"

you froze at the voice, ghostface decided that you'd be the next victim which was not great at all because barely anyone ever survived their attacks

"what do you want?" you ask gripping the knife and going to call the police with the landline

"don't you dare call the police or I'll rip ethan's head!" ghostface yelled

"wait what?"

your phone vibrates, indicating that you got a new text, you look at it, seeing a photo of ethan sitting on his bed studying. 

the photo looks like it was taken from far away but you could see ethan looking in the direction of it…thats strange

you quickly texted him to come over since ghostface was at your house

"why are you doing this? why can't you bastards find something to do other than running around and killing your friends?" you say trying to stall a bit

"oh but y/n it's fun, you wouldn’t understand it though because you're the little sweet, dumb girl who had the misfortune of falling for the shy and dorky nerd who might be ghostface"

you scoff, "he's my boyfriend and not ghostface, at least i can find a boyfriend unlike you who's so pathetic that you have to go around calling girls who have boyfriends for fun"

ghostface doesn't say anything, you think you hear another voice from the phone. ethan then texts you back and said he was coming asap

since there was silence for another minute you're about to hang up until ghostface speaks again

"were you about to hang up?"

you froze, "how did you know that?"

"sweetie i can see you right now"

you turn around and scream at the sight of ghostface, for some reason you noticed the ghostface was around the same height as you which immediately made you think it was a girl

you started running but ghostface was right on your tail, getting close enough for them to stab you in the shoulder

you scream out at the pain, managing to catch ghostface off guard and slam a pan at their head

just as you reach the door ghostface grabs you and pulls you back, stabbing you in the stomach

you let out another blood curdling scream, the pain of it hurting you so badly. you see ghostface about to raise their knife again before you kick them in the crotch

that managed to keep them distracted and you hoped that it was a male since you knew it would hurt like hell if it was one

you ran to your room and locked the door, moving furniture against it to make sure ghostface couldn't get in

since there was a fire escape in your room, you headed towards there only to be grabbed and thrown against the floor

you clutched your wounds, which continued to bleed out, making you lose blood

ghostface looked down at your wounds and laughed, stabbing you once more

you scream out again and then just stop, causing ghostface to bend down and look at you

you watched them take out their phone and call someone, it took everything in you not to scream out and cry

just then ethan runs into the room looking at ghostface

"quinn what the fuck did you do to her?!" ethan said as he ran to your body, clutching you close to him

you felt him put your face to his chest, cradling you closely as ghostface or quinn laughs

"well ethan you were too distracted by her, it was clear you weren't going to kill her so i did for you"

"get out! just leave me alone quinn"

quinn laughs and leaves while ethan lets out a sob

"eth…im still here or somewhat" you laugh weakly and pull your face from his chest

it broke his heart to see you in a state like this, tears staining your cheeks and your body bloody

"we need to get you to a hospital quickly"

you give him a small kiss at the corner of his mouth, "no it's ok really, i'm going to die either way" 

"no you are going to survive baby" he said putting pressure on your wound

you giggle, feeling delirious at this point, "eth you have really pretty eyes"

"no no no baby don't die please not now"

"im not gonna die eth i just am really tired"

"no y/n/n please don't go please"

you then go still, making ethan sob even harder

he cradles your body close to him, burying his head in your hair. ethan is still in shock that you're gone

he hates quinn right now and knows that he's going to give her a long and painful death for killing the love of his life.

you had your whole life ahead of you, only 19 and now dead because of his bitch sister.

he remembers that some of the last things you had told him was that you two were going to get through this whole ghostface thing but now without you, ethan just doesn't know what to do with his life

taglist ♥︎ - @xyzstar, @ourloveisgod23, @dizscreams, @kaesworldxx, @bhk1234uwu, @nonniesworld, @athenalive, @lanaslittletwinkie, @beccajoestar

if your name is crossed out it's bc it wouldn't let me tag you

a/n ♥︎ - ok i have no clue if this is shitty or not but all i know is that i was listening to love by lana del rey while writing this and i actually started crying, anyways i hope you enjoyed!

©crazystargirl 2023 || do NOT translate or repost my work without my permission

[youngestdaughtersyndrome]

Tagged by my darling @glassangels <3<3<3

1. Are you named after anyone? Im named after a kinks song which is a massive win for me personally. They almost named me rosa after the pixies album (which wouldve made sense bc we do in fact surf) but one of my moms friends was already knitting a sweater with the kinks-name on it and she convinced them to keep it. My middle name is also my paternal grandmas middle name so i guess that counts too

2. When was the last time you cried? No idea tbh. That thing where you lie down on your side and then your eyes start leaking happens to me a lot but a proper sadness-induced cry hasnt happened for months. I will say that sometimes i say something made me cry, and although it technically didnt due to no tears falling, it did make my soul hurt and crying is the closest phrase that expresses that <3

3. Do you have kids? Thank god no

4. What sports do you play/have you played? Soccer, ran track for a bit, ultimate frisbee, swimming, fencing, fighting (mma, kickboxing, cage, etc), equestrianism (im including my brief and unimpressive time vaulting here), did some stuff with a circus briefly (contortionism, aerial arts, lyra), and then the usual outdoorsy shit (surfing, bouldering, hiking, skiing, and since caving is technically a sport, caving). Also danced for a bit (ballet, contemporary, and jazz). Yeah man idk either

5. Do you use sarcasm? Technically yes but its less "sarcasm" and more "inability to express a truth about myself without making it into a joke". A bit of sarcasm when the time calls for it is always fair game though and i will indulge

6. What's the first thing you notice about someone? The way they carry themself says a lot about their temperament and emotional state and whatnot so thats typically where my eye is drawn. Second place goes to wherever theyre keeping their valuables on them and how expensively theyre dressed though

7. Eye color? Blue but ive got a bit of yellow central heterochromia so they tend to look green if its bright out

8. Scary movies or happy endings? Kill them <3 scary movies 4ever

9. Any talents? Party trick-wise i did retain some contortionist ability and so thats always a good one to break out. Also can spit water up to 30 ft for tooth gap reasons. I am the type of person whos just naturally good at a lot of things (sorry) so i consider that a talent too

10. Where were you born? The top left corner of the USA, not including alaska

11. Hobbies? Writing, journaling, watching movies, reading, various textile arts, going for walks, playing assorted instruments, and occasionally traditional art (im particularly fond of ballpoint pens and oil pastels). Would say listening to music but thats a job to me and i clock into that shit like i get paid

12. Any pets? Maeve the most anxious dog in the world who i love very much <3

13. Height? 5'8/172 cm

14. Favorite school subject? I was a school hater so it really depended on the teacher... in high school i did have the same teacher for like three years in a row (she taught me english in freshman year, history in sophomore, + health in junior) and she was totally awesome so all those classes were great. Typically the classes i had the most fun in were english and history just bc there was more room for fucking around. In the single semester of college i took i did have crazy amounts of fun in my film class though which i will say was mostly because my professor rocked and i got him on my side early so i could kind of do whatever

15. Dream job? Due to the Issues and also common sense mainly i just wish the government actually took care of people and i wouldnt need to work. But if i have to chose a job than itd be a) writing a book or two that are good enough i could live off the royalties and film rights and whatnot for the rest of my life or b) pulling an enya (dropping some widely beloved and largely incomprehensible music and then disappearing totally from the public eye to live in a castle in the middle of nowhere)

Idk whos already done this so ignore me if you have lol @supersonic1994 @nothingrhymedwithcircus @hauntedwoman @halogenstreetlight @evebabitzgf @serethereal and anyone else who wants to <3<3<3

[struggle-but-its-all-ocean-floor]

It's just been 100 days without our jikook, I hope they are doing well 🥲

I'm worried for them!! They're apparently in the worst fucking place possible, and fans are saying Jungkook's been having knee issues (apparently, he hurt himself before enlisting). I remember Army noticing he was limping at the airport with Jimin, but I assumed he would be okay by now. If he still hasn't recovered, it must be serious... I really hope fans are exaggerating. I'm worried about his dancing. Knee injuries are fucking serious. I had knee surgery but my knee is still fucked and always will be. I don't wish that on anyone, especially my baby...

Jungkook's job also seems really rough... It's better than imagining him learn to fight or bomb shit, but it's really hard work - and hard on his body. People always take that kind of labor for granted, so he might not be given the same compassion/appreciation/opportunities to rest as other soldiers. I wonder what Jimin is doing? Apparently people know, but I never know any gossip lmao. I'm worried about Jimin too... I wonder how rough his job is. He always looks so sad in pictures... There are only 2 in which he's smiling... I fucking hate it. Give me back my babies!

I was way less concerned about the other members... Maybe it's because Jin and Hobi always posted reassuring stuff and it seemed they were doing okay. I don't know what's up with Namjoon and V tbh, but they're still posting on Weverse kinda like usual. Jikook's silence just makes us more anxious, I think.

I also hope Yoongi's okay...

Ah, thank fuck Jin is returning soon!!!! I miss him so fucking much!!! BTS is coming back, starting with Jin, can you believe it?? Can you believe there was a time when they were always around?? Crazy!!!

Thanks for the ask! Sorry if this gives you anxiety :( I really, really hope we get some update soon. I want to see them comfortable in their normal clothes. What if they're all on leave and we get an OT7 pic? Maybe OT6, cuz Yoongi... I would cry of happiness. Please show me your face JK, I'm going through it.

[skyshipper]

15 questions 15 mutuals

Tagged by @shirks-all-responsibilities 🥰

1. are you named after anyone?

Nope. 

2. when was the last time you cried?

Oh god, probably a few days ago. I cry easily, either from being happy or sad, or just because I watched something that made me all emotional. I’m a total weeper!

3. do you have kids?

Nope.  We thought we wanted kids and kept putting it off. Then tried when we were older and it never happened for us.  And to be honest, I’m so, SO glad we don’t have kids. We’re both really, really happy being child free!

4. do you use sarcasm a lot?

Not really. I appreciate it when well-utilized though.

5. what’s the first thing you notice about people?

Kindness. Rudeness and/or arrogance is such a fucking turn off.

6. what’s your eye colour?

Blue.

7. scary movies or happy endings?

Happy endings all the way!! I have enough shit to deal with in life, why would I want to be scared in my free time? Tbh, I dislike scary stuff, mostly because the plot is usually ridiculous and unrealistic. If it’s well done then maybe.

8. any special talents?

I don’t think I have any special talents. I’m quite boring.

9. where were you born?

Wisconsin.  My whole family still lives there but I moved to Maine almost 15 years ago. I’m forever in search of a realistic way to move abroad. I dream every day of living in Scotland. The dream!!

10: what are your hobbies?

Gif making, of course! I also love cooking, hiking with my dog, and messing around with pottery, photography and life drawing.

11. have you any pets?

My first dog, Walter!!! He’s just over a year and a half.  He’s so much work (way more work than I anticipated) but I love him so much. He’s an Llewellin Setter and I totally underestimated how hard a sporting breed dog would be.  Plus he’s my first dog EVER.  I never grew up with pets and was afraid of dogs as a kid. He needs a high amount of exercise in order to be chill, which on one hand is great because it makes me exercise, but also.....I’m so fucking tired. Like, all the time.  And we walk/get outside in ALL the weather......rain, snow, super cold.....we’re out there.  It’s made me appreciate the seasons and nature way more though! 

12: what sports do you play/have you played?

Zero. I hate sports. I actually hate competition because I’m always way too concerned someone’s feelings might get hurt.  I’m such a weirdo. I was a quiet, studious kid who liked art.  I’m still like that now.....haha.

13: how tall are you?

5′3″

14. favourite subject in school?

Art & History

15. dream job?

Full-time working artist!  If I could find a way (i’m trying for real) to make a full-time living just making art in my studio everyday I would be SO FUCKING HAPPY. 

Totally no pressure tags if anyone wants to do this: @teamnick, @the-blind-assassin-12, @something-tofightfor, @sirtadcooper, @300mirrors, @phantomviola, @userdjarin, @trashcora, @user-kestis

[pewiest]

I am obsessed with the Jude/Pedri drabble. Thank you so much for contributing to the Jude/Pedri agenda 🥹❤️ Rivals to lovers is so hot and their insane height difference makes it even better 😋 Like I can really imagine Jude manhandling Pedri at every chance he gets, while Pedri be like: Stop 🤭🤭🤭 (giggling and all 🥰)

Or Jude hating himself for being attracted to Pedri and therefore being extra mean towards him and trying to hurt him with his words and making him feel insecure and unworthy. And then when Jude is alone he despises himself for the way he treats Pedri and feels like the biggest asshole. He tries to be more nice to Pedri the next time he sees him but Pedri avoids him because he’s expecting Jude to only inflict more pain with his words, after all Jude doesn’t know about the countless nights Pedri spent crying himself to sleep because he can’t stop thinking about Jude‘s hateful comments and really doubts himself, believing that he’s just really unlikable and a big failure. Jude, on the other hand, doesn’t leave him alone and always approaches him, which makes Ferran (who is Pedri’s overprotective best friend and may also be in love with Pedri 🤭) lose his temper and confront Jude, making him aware of Pedri’s bad mental health, which Jude is responsible for. Jude doesn’t want to cave in, feeling extreme jealousy since Ferran insinuates that he always sleeps with Pedri in his bed or the other way around when either one of them feels sad. However, Jude also feels disgusted by himself for having actually wounded and harmed Pedri. He doesn’t know how to make it up to him, especially with his bodyguard (aka Ferran) being around him all the time. But he also can’t allow Ferran to have Pedri all for himself … love triangle, jealousy, sexual tension, … and so much more (tbh I don’t even know who I want Pedri to end up with, I love both Pedri/Ferran and Pedri/Jude too much 😭😭❤️❤️ this would be the hardest decision ever, maybe Ferran and Jude would eventually permit Pedri to keep both of them as his boyfriends, everything to make their beautiful princess happy 🥹🤭)

Sorry for the word vomit, I didn’t even realise it got so long 🫠

Btw love your writing style 😍 Feel free to delight us with more drabbles 🥰🫶🏻

omg, your comment is litreally longer than my little drabble and thank you so much for this <33

[neteyamsilly]

STOP BC THIS PART HAD ME BAWLING MY EYES OUT ((btw i am the anon who did this ask:

https://at.tumblr.com/neteyamsilly/tbh-i-read-pt-3-and-just-started-crying-like-holy/vbqp1w0sq1md

and if you are wondering if i am going to be doing more analysis why yes, yes i am 🫠))

FIRST OF ALL,, how dare you?? how dare you put this happy childhood scene in the very beginning and show how reader is basically his favourite and he loves her and then immediately go to the angst of her actually bleeding out DYING? that actually hurt my feelings even more?? why would you lull me into a false sense of security like that???

ALSO, I love how you had neteyam being the first to jump in and help, as well as wanting to stay by the tent to wait to hear the news about her. Like, yes she is his younger sister but he is her only older brother. As a fellow second born child this bond is just *chefs kiss* bc while the two of them take care of the others, NETEYAM is the only one of her siblings that SHE specifically turns to for comfort and help, and him in turn since they understand each other as the eldest two.

I also somehow cried even harder at the mention of Stxel’eveng bc?? Neytiri she loves her daughter and would do anything for her, but even mentioning Stxel’eveng shows how -- to protect her daughter and make sure she is happy moving forward -- neytiri is willing to let her child go. and when she says she cannot bear the shame i really thought it was just about the gifting, but i think moreso it is Jake's actions towards their children driving this decision, which leads to the horrifying thought of "if tsahik doesn't think us worthy of this child, what about our others"

AND I SAW THAT YOU ADDED TORUK'S COLORS TO HER IKRAN AND YOUR POST ABOUT IT AND I RAISE YOU THIS: While yes she was trying to emulate her father and be anything close to his greatness to get him to See her, he was also the last thing she heard, while she tried to search out the one accomplishment she wanted him to be proud of :D

Also the fact that you are having Jake be the one to try and convince her to come back? This part isn't an analysis but I imagine Neytiri as her face crumples, then her ears fall back against her head and she is so sad and sounds so broken when she goes "she will not want to"

and when Jake does finally manage to go see her at the tree of souls, she is at the stream where their family spent so many days -- and she is a child again, so small as she plays on the banks of the water. He crouches next to her and she looks up to him and smiles, but when he asks her to come home her smile drops. In the blink of an eye she is back to her true age. She is standing now, facing him off, hands clenched at her sides and chin jutted out in defiance. She is trying to look big but she is still a child, not as young but still so small and barely taller than him in this position as he tries to reach for her. But she backs away from him, stepping into the water and continuing until she is smack dab in the middle of the stream. and she asks him, her face stony but her voice trembling, "Why?"

anywho that's all i have to say about the new chapter!! Amazing amazing work as always babes 🫶🏻

WELCOME BACK WITH EVEN MORE HURT HHHHHHHHH anon what do i call you 😭😭😭😭

how dare i: ITS WHAT I DOOOOOOOOOO otherwise why would you be reading, right??? BHSDBSHDSB

Also like. that part about neteyam being her ONLY big brother. that kind of hurted because???? and it's so sad because she acts like a big sister to him, spoiling him and everything its HSDSHSBSHDS GOODBYE why did i hurt this boy EVEN MORE in a fic.

also like NEYTIRI'S MOTHERHOOD MAN thank you for saying that AHHHHH she's just. honor is involved in this and her pride has been broken too, she doesn't just put it all on jake. like imagine making your wounded child walk for half an hour. ur side by side. and she's bleeding out right under your nose and nobody notices. that shit would be TRAUMATIZING. She blames herself so much too:(

ALSO I WANT TO TELL YOU YOU PREDICTED THE CHILD-NORMAL SWITCH SBDHSBDH It's not as tense and angry, but it's there!

THANK YOU FOR THIS LOVELY ASK AHHHHH

[having-conniptions]

KinnPorsche ep 5 Rewatch Rambles:

"What happened to me?" "You were drugged. But they didn't do anything to you." YEAH BUT YOU DID KINN

"Why are they targeting me?" To hurt Kinn, next question

Detective Kim at work lol

Kinn: "As a boss I had to take care of him" Korn: "As a boss you didn't have to fuck him" (I know that's not what he said but it's what he meant)

That Tankhun and Kim interaction tho lmao

"Are you fucking dumb, bro?" xD I don't like Ken but I love Perth

Porsche is having flashbacks of Kinn's boobies. Same, girl.

And the not-very-subtle "playing with fire" metaphor? Nnnnnice.

I also didn't notice before that he was crying while he's having those flashbacks. Investing in full hd sure payed off

At least Pete is just as clueless as Porsche usually is

But back to those flashbacks, you can't tell me Porsche didn't feel violated. As much as I love the series and the ship I still can't accept what happened and that it's just brushed off after Kinn apologizes for "crossing a line" by which he just means losing professionalism by sleeping with one of his subordinates (which is already very questionable in and of itself)

GUYS!! COMMUNICATE! Kinn is sad bc Porsche has been acting distant so he gives him the cold shoulder and calls up one of his boys and then Porsche isn't too happy about that ugh what a mess

Hahahah Porsche's like "I can do that too" and tries to get with a girl

But how poetic is it that they both can't stop thinking about each other and end up not going through with it

Ayyyy Vegas is back 🖤🔥 tbh I was kinda rooting for him the first time around

Ok the VegasPorsche motorbike ride with Why Don't You Stay in the background is actually so cute

Even though Vegas' intentions were questionable at best, he did manage to take Porsche's mind off things and make him feel better. I feel like they could have been such great friends without the whole manipulation and boyfriend-snatching

Gahhh Vegas is so cute in this, really close to Bible just being himself

THE HUG Vegas is smiling even when Porsche can't see his face VEGAS JUST WANTS TO BE LOVED

"What took you so long?" Kinn calm down he's not your husband (yet)

"Are you saying that I've hurt you?" "And have you not?" TELL HIM PORSCHE

"I can do whatever I want" KINN WHY DO YOU ALWAYS SAY THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT YOU WANT TO SAY

*almost kisses Porsche* "Starting tomorrow, Ken will be my head bodyguard" KINN NO USE YOUR WORDS. THE CORRECT ONES.

KimChay being cute I can't I can't do this again I can't take this heartbreak again I just can't

Detective Kim analyzing whether Chay is lying about Porsche he is really in his own separate detective movie huh

Omg the pics in Porchay's phone are so wholesome, just Chay with his loved ones, food, and cats. In mine Kim would find the same mirror selfie from 10 slightly different angles or with slightly different poses and then the same thing but from the day before and maybe the occasional random pic of something interesting I saw

Chay winning Kim over with his cuteness and talent AWWWWW

Pete is so hilarious

And such a good friend aaaaaa I love him

Porsche having dinner with his friends is just so wholesome awwww (why did Kinn have to show up and make it awkward)

I know I'm sounding more and more anti Kinn but I swear I'm not

"It's kinda cool to have a henchman. But he seems dull" ahahahah I fucking can't

"I'm taking you home" I REFUSE TO INTERPRET THAT AS ANYTHING OTHER THAN DOMESTIC AS FUCK

This is kinda where Kinn finally starts showing a bit more of his dorky side that we love so much

"If I don't care about you, why am I sitting here then?" <3<3<3<3<3

Aaaaand the handcuffed arc begins 👀

Daaaamn Chan really got that guy with one clean shot

Handcuffed in the forest arc here we gooooo

[vbee-miya]

Hi! I would like to request a BNHA matchup!

Basic Info: I identify by she/her and I am Bi-curious (I think that's the right word but what I mean is I think I might be Bi) I'm a Gemini and ENFP, My Chinese zodiac is the tiger, My favorite color is Mauve or Lilac, I'm a raven claw, My enneagram was either a 2w3 or a 3w2 I did it a while ago and forgot.

Appearance: I have long brown hair that looks dark most of the time but sometimes looks light (It reaches my butt), I have dark brown eyes, I have a hourglass body, pierced ears, I have glasses but I really like them, thick eyelashes, pale skin, I tend to put a lot of thought in my appearance if I'm going somewhere and people often complement me on my fashion style but little do they know I'm in sweats most of the time at home XD, and I'm 5,5.

Personality: I am most of the time extremely extroverted but sometimes I'm more introverted but I usually enjoy being social, I would say I'm either the leader friend or the therapist friend, I enjoy being relied on and I try to make sure everyone feels happy/comfortable/included, I'm really good at telling when someone is lying or feeling sad, I try my best to be as nice to people as possible which can sometimes hurt me, I can be judgy and if I decided I don't like someone then I don't like them and will try to avoid them, I can hold grudge, If I get in a fight then I will fight back, If I get in a argument then I often start crying depending on what its about, I'm trying to be more adventurous because I was virtual for a long time, I tend to overthink a lot and worry about how I appear to people, I'm good at school and take advance classes in math but my favorite class is Science, I'm pretty popular and I am good at making new friends, I can sometimes be a bit more emotional but I hate crying in front of others or talking about my problems with them, I love caring for people so I want to be a doctor or a nurse in the future, I enjoy acting, art, and anime, I take charge in group projects and organize hangouts most of the time, I have a close relationship with my parents my mom especially, I am a bilingual and I'm also learning Japanese so I can go to Japan as a foreign exchange student but I tend to procrastinate a lot, I can be blunt sometimes to make things less awkward, I have a love hate relationship with my body sometimes I think I look really pretty and curvy and thin and other times I think I look fat, I would love to try horseback riding I love strawberries (I don't really know what to say here tbh)

What I am like when I like someone/What I look for: If I have crush on someone then I like to be flirty and I like us teasing each other and banter and stuff like that. I'm pretty tall so I sometimes like someone taller but I'm fine with someone shorter than me as well, I would like whoever I would end up with to be able to vulnerable with me, I would like for them not to hurt me preferably emotionally or physically, I think jealousy can be sort of hot but not too much if you know what I mean?? I look for kindness and someone who can keep up with me, I would like for them to remember me and ask me to hangout or something like that since I have a lot of experience with people who only hangout/talk with me if I initiate it, I would like to support whoever I would date.

I like most characters the only character I would say I really dislike is Shigaraki.

Thanks!

༺❀༻ matchup ༺❀༻

here's your matchup! enjoy

mina ashido

she's literally chaos, she loves relying on you for favors. but will always. and i mean always keep her word to repay you in whatever way that could be.

it's giving power couple of the schools, two bad bxtches just walking the halls of ua high. dressing up however they want because there's no one stopping them.

she'd 100% be your hype woman. she sees you working that outfit she'll tell you and make sure to tell you how well you're working in that outfit. and that it's giving. and if you're ever insecure mina is there to comfort you and tell you just how beautiful you are. and from one woman to another problems will be shared.

when mina has something to hide because what 15-year-old wouldn't? i know i did but because of how well you can tell if someone is lying or not. and it's not that she'd hide anything from you she'll eventually tell you. and plus she knows or at least thinks she's a bad liar. and she doesn't want to find it out the hard way.

if you ever get into a fight or an argument in school you bet mina is right behind you ready to throw punches. especially if it's someone like monoma or even as bad as mineta? she's all ready. get ready to hold her back before the ua staff finds out about anything.

little miss popular you're definitely part of the baku squad. i don't make the rules. though because of that you and katsuki would definitely butt heads. especially leading team projects. good luck to that! you'll find a way.

speaking of being in the baku squad it's only natural banter is their way to show their affection and appreciation. /hj but being with mina she can definitely handle a bit of banter here and there. but become flirtly with her and she'll instantly cover her face away from you.

as far as your Japanese goes, mina's no tutor, but she does speak Japanese i mean you basically would be in a Japanese instituted school so it's only inevitable mina would give you a leading hand if not academically at least a sense of motivation.

horseback riding? when class a goes to a summer convention volunteering station. mina and you will be the most chaotic pair.

imagine horseback riding drinking a glass of strawberry smoothy or, horseback riding in a strawberry field. mina would be a giggling mess. she'll say how pretty everything is.

she isn't the jealous possessive type she's more of the "we're not going to admit it until the situation gets worse."

[whatswrongwithmeh]

05/07/2024

I had a few good days when I believed I doomed their relationship. It was a little tricky tbh because my mind was pretty occupied by this. It was like reopening my wounds but I thought the goal was worth it. Anyways, it didn’t work. 5 days later they still played games together. I wonder how that checks out. I’m really angry because I probably would’ve pushed cheating aside as well. I loved him so much I forgave everything. Until the very bitter end I never left him for what he did to me and I let myself be pushed around and be left. I can never say that I realized my worth or anything because I would’ve never left. He did a good job picking someone with even less self esteem than me. He can pull any stunt he wants and probably gets away with it. It’s kinda gross. Maybe I got left because she’s even easier? He got bored after breaking me so much. No look, I would be fine if she would get to experience the same shit I experienced. Like she got cheated on in less than a month. But he talks his way out of these things. Master manipulator. I’m scared. Everyone says he won’t change but I’m scared he might. I’m scared he’s gonna treat her well and improve. And they get to have something somewhat healthy and happy. It’s not fair. It’s poisoning my mind. It sounds so delusional to talk about healthy after he cheated but maybe it was only with me and now it will never happen again. Maybe that’s something you can suppress and ignore. I mean if it really never happens again? It only stopped because I moved out and the easy access is gone. It’s disgusting. Why is it working out? I’m going insane.

I thought I have no tears left to cry but I woke up in the morning several times just crying like I broke up yesterday. I miss him and it’s painful because I would’ve forgiven it too. It’s pathetic but despite all his lies and him mistreating me we had some good times. And I don’t want him to thrive right now. It’s an unfair shortcut through missing me. I don’t even know if he misses me. After my stunt I think he has a valid reason to hate me. That would be too easy on him. And it really scares me. Despite everything I was hoping to be someone worth missing. I want to feel like a loss. And at this rate I was only a burden, a toxic wrong piece and switching me out brought happiness to everyone except me. I’m really hurt. I loved him he was supposed to be my forever. I was hoping with time and patience he’d improve and we’d get along. But I was just not desirable anymore. I feel so terrible about myself I don’t know what to do. His entire family disliked me compared to her. 6 years for what.. That everyone is glad I’m gone? I hate this so much

I feel like I was set up for failure, I didn’t deserve this. What’s happening to me is unfair and I want someone to make up for it. Does Karma really not exist? I haven’t seen it pay out like ever.

Why did I even bother to bust him, I only hurt myself. They probably overcame that together and even grew closer, uniting over their shared hatred for me. I did them a solid. I’m sad. I’m driving my car and I’m sad he won’t drive me around when he gets his license. He probably won’t waste a thought for me. I wanted that life so bad. It wouldn’t have been good but he was always enough for me. It feels noble to say and it hurts even more that despite all that it was me who wasn’t good enough.

All that patience. I cried a lot while being with him. The lies hurt. Why do I sometimes feel like it was worth it? What is it about him that I keep glorifying and loving? It’s stupid I can never have it back. It wasn’t even that good. How long will it take for me to really feel that way? I can only hope that loneliness is making me feel this conflicted and delusional. And as soon as I experience genuine love and touch I can leave this behind. I’m sadly just really sheltered and stuck. I don’t know how to find someone who would want me. I don’t even want myself.

Im still terrified of rejection. I hate being alone..

[wholemleko]

all the main corvus characters (or just felicia or maxwell if that's too much) 🤥💥💢🍧🌙🙈🔪🌌🪤🚆✏️❇️🌪️💧🌠

OH HELL YEAH…. Time for rambles

This turned out very very long yfsgfjhd oop answers under the read more

🤥 LYING - are they good liars? do they have tells to show they're lying?

Felicia: Lies a lot cause she's always up to something and sometimes she's found out, sometimes she's not, usually she's found out only if things get very out of hand. She doesn't have any tells and is a very good actor

Maxwell: He would lie in the sense of playing a character I guess? The facade never lasts though

Charlie: He's not the best liar since he gets very fidgety and nervous when he does, but the actual truths that he tries to hide are outlandish enough to the people he's lying to that they wouldn't have guessed and so he gets away with it anyway

Sam: Very bad at lying. She finds it upsetting and might get so nervous about it she might cry

Amy: She would try so hard but she'd be the sort who would start smiling too much and not know what direction to look when lying so

Damian: He doesn't really lie much but if he did, he'd probably be the best at it. No tells, and since he lies very sparingly, he would only do so with some sort of plan in mind in case things go wrong

💥 COLLISON - what emotions do they have trouble dealing with?

Felicia: Helplessness and shame. Not feeling in control can straight up make her feel physically ill and she feels shame as a result of feeling helpless

Maxwell: Guilt. He will assume everything is his own fault and if someone else hurts him he will believe that he did something to deserve it

Charlie: Also guilt but in a different way. He will feel responsibility for others and the harm that comes their way so overwhelmingly that it takes over his life

Sam: Loneliness and fear. I guess she has a lot of separation anxiety and will just implode if she doesn't connect with others enough and may quickly assume the worst has occurred (e.g. someone has become traumatized and distant as a result and she can't do anything about it) she's kind of similar to Charlie actually but she's more likely to cross other people's boundaries while Charlie gets his boundaries crossed

Amy: Envy. If she gets compared to someone else in a disapproving manner she'll act out and go even further away from what is expected of her. Like, oh, you think I'm a worse student than my sister? Just you wait and see just how much I can Fail

Damian: Happiness tbh. He'll assume something has gone wrong or that something will go wrong very soon. He doesn't know how to live in a state of actual security so it ironically makes him feel insecure

💢 ANGER - what are some habits they have that will take some getting used to?

Felicia: She has no sleep schedule at all and will be out and around her living space at ungodly hours

Maxwell: He's just cringe as fuck. Also leaves hairpins everywhere

Charlie: Will spend too much money and time on fancy coffee and tea. You will find many jars of concoctions in the fridge

Sam: Anime merch everywhere

Amy: She will steal from you. Small things like food and pens probably

Damian: Frequently hear him mucking around on his instruments and when you try to talk to him he may not respond the first few times when he's engaged in the Music

🍧 SHAVED ICE - do they still have any objects from their childhood? what significance does it have to them? what would their reaction be if they lost it?

Felicia: She has a lot of things. Plushies and old notebooks and the like. She would be p sad but they're not like That significant. Also her friendship bracelets, which to her mark a decision to try to change for the better but they are also a symbol of failure to her in some ways since she, hasn't really gotten better in the end. She would be rather distressed if she lost them but it might be good for her actually

Maxwell: A red anemone flower pin. It was a gift from Charlie and has a lot of sentiment tied to it. Seeing it reminds him of things that make him feel awfully guilty and sorrowful but he would also wear it all the time like some kind of memento mori thing I guess. He would be devastated if he lost it

Charlie: Also a red anemone flower pin, a matching one he got for himself. He has come to see it as a representation of a period of friendship that he and Maxwell can't ever return to even if they are still close. He would also be devastated if he lost it and it might actually fuck him up a bit

Sam: A few basic items that may seem mundane but were the few things she was able to grab when her family had to flee their old home. I think losing any of these things would make her old life feel even further lost.

Amy: She doesn't really have much from a very young age left, not of any significance. Everything has either been sold, given away or thrown out. She has a subconscious resentment about this, amongst other things

Damian: His first guitar. It's full of memories for him since his grandfather taught him how to play it, and his grandfather is very very important to him. He'd probably feel like part of his childhood and one of the few actually good parts vanished if he lost it.

🌙 MOON - what is your oc's greatest wish? how far are they willing to go for it?

Felicia: To be a good person, or a good person in her own mind. She is so convinced she is evil and broken

Maxwell: Right now, probably to be able to forget large portions of his life, or at least to be able to live with it

Charlie: To keep everyone he cares about safe and alive and healthy

Sam: Same as Charlie

Amy: To be free from disappointment and to feel more like a person than just an extension of other people

Damian: Just to be at ease

🙈 SEE-NO-EVIL - whats a side of your oc that they don't want to show other people?

Felicia: The fact her mind is often filled with images and thoughts of violent and harmful things and she can't control it

Maxwell: If it's the people he has to work for, it's the fact that he hates them and wants to just live a normal life. If it's the people he cares about, it's the fact that he has literally killed people and had for a long while given up on trying to resist the whims of the evil authorities with power over him

Charlie: He thinks himself a potential danger to anyone who starts to care about him too much and so he hides anything he thinks could bring about the danger

Sam: Just how much fear holds her back despite her desire to protect others, she believes herself a coward

Amy: Any ounce of insecurity or sign that an insult has gotten to her. Any sign that she does in fact feel inadequate, even in extreme situations

Damian: He's pretty honest but I suppose maybe his power hungry moments, though he's not entirely aware of them himself so he doesn't really deliberately try to keep people from seeing this ya feel

🔪 KNIFE - how do they react to injury / misfortune befalling their loved ones (significant other, family, friends)? do they put themselves at blame?

Felicia: She'll blame herself for sure if there is direct evidence that she was involved somehow and will question her own moral integrity for allowing such a thing to happen. A thing in her subconscious may also think the person who got hurt should have just Done Better and she will hate this thought

Maxwell: He will literally obsess over all the ways he could have prevented the thing from happening. The self blame will be Immense. He'll be able to pull himself together enough to help them but internally he'll be screaming

Charlie: Same as Maxwell but it happens so much more often that it will literally drive him into the worst of mental states

Sam: She may blame herself but will be able to focus on helping the person much more quickly. She'll blame herself more heavily if her efforts don't amount to what she hoped for.

Amy: She'll subconsciously blame herself but externally and within her own actual awareness she'll be like nahh not my fault no way. ye

Damian: He will most easily be able to divert his attention to problem solving and will take responsibility sometimes but in a like. diplomatic sort of way?? Emotions: squished

🌌 MILKY WAY - what was the inspiration behind your oc? what was the first thing you decided about them?

Felicia: She spawned originally as a side character who was supposed to have a bubbly outside demeanor but be hiding things

Maxwell: Started way back when I was 12 and back then he was one of the villain sidekicks in a comic about mice I wrote lmaoo. I kept blorbifying him as time passed and then eventually turned him into a human character. Then I wrote a fanfic for a series that shall not be named and when I left that fandom I wanted to keep the story but change the characters and he was similar enough to one of them that I substituted him in. Then the story evolved so much it is entirely unrecognizable from its original form.

Charlie: Was originally a character in the aforementioned fanfic and has always been Maxwell's love interest

Sam: Appeared as a random oc I made while bored in class

Amy: Same as Sam. They were created together

Damian: Also a fanfic character originally who strayed so far from canon and then went through like 4 more iterations.

🪤 MOUSE TRAP - what will always lure them into certain danger? a loved one in danger? a promise of something they are always searching for?

Felicia: The opportunity to prove herself and her abilities and competence both to herself and her family

Maxwell: The whims of his emotions tbh

Charlie: Loved ones in danger lol

Sam: Lowkey trying to mimic Amy's more brash behavior but she would never admit to it. She is tired of her own reserved nature

Amy: the Chaos baybee

Damian: Some opportunity to progress and move up

🚆 TRAIN - what is their answer to the trolley problem?

Felicia: Explode the trolley

Maxwell: Run over the 1 guy and then let the driver be euthanized if the driver wants it

Charlie: He cannot decide

Sam: Just let it run don't touch the lever

Amy: Flip a coin

Damian: You will get an ethical philosophical tirade but no actual answer

✏️ PENCIL - is there a particular quote / lyric that you associate with them?

Felicia: from The Falcom by Mimi and Richard Farina

Oh, the falcon was a pretty bird Wandered as she flew She danced around and pranced around Wherever the warm winds blew And the falcon was a pretty bird Her voice was always still But men with drums and men with guns They taught her how to kill

Maxwell: from Cocaine Lights by Phosphorescent

And to color my eyes into rose Is to ask of my beaten bones To be less of meat and stone And more of feather

In the darkness After the cocaine lights I will miss you With no warning

Charlie: from Vacant by Echos

No space in your broken veins left for me I know that you're empty, I know that you're empty

You don't even look the same with your brand new eyes And you drained the light out of yourself and now you can't see Well, I've been waiting for you to get your mind right

Sam: from Obstacles by Syd Matters

Let's say sunshine for everyone But as far as I can remember We've been migratory animals Living under changing weather

Someday we will foresee obstacles Through the blizzard, through the blizzard Today we will sell our uniform Live together, live together

Amy: from Blood Sucker by Harley Poe

But I'll stop pretending that I'm something I was never meant to be It wasn't fulfilling me Oh it was killing me I'm turning myself into something that's perfect for me I'm learning lessons as I live You want to get, you got to give You really want it, you have got to fight But I think I'll be a child of the night

Damian: from The Song with Five Names by Will Wood and the Tapeworms

Why, I can’t see, that I am the “me” that I was born into And what’s the source of you? In your head, in your head, in your head And yet you believe it’s true, well you do Like you knew anything ever Never trust in yourself or anyone else, we’ve always all been wrong And we built these walls strong

I noticed that the sunshine is a gaslight I’m hoping that this one might be my past life My Lord, I know enough to get my facts right And that’s good enough for me And everything and everyone will die soon And we’ll have nothing left for us to lie to No matter what we seek you’ll never find truth And that’s good enough for me

❇️ SPARKLE - what is their most prized possession? what do they value?

Many of these are the same as the childhood object question oop

Felicia: Her friendship bracelets

Maxwell: Flower pin

Charlie: Flower pin

Sam: Scarf her mother knit for her. It is one of the things she was able to take with her

Amy: I'm making it canon she has mob psycho figurines and her fave is DIMPLE

Damian: Guitar

🌪️ TORNADO - what is the biggest change you've ever made to them? how have they changed from their original version?

Felicia: Started purely happy and full of joy and now she is Suffering

Maxwell: He was literally a rodent once

Charlie: Going from a canon character in another series to being my oc

Sam: Went from engaging in mechanics to illustration and string related art

Amy: Went from also engaging in mechanics to just being a menace and a fiend who can't do math

Damian: Also starting as a character from another thing and then becoming my oc

💧 DROPLET - random angst headcanon

Felicia: Getting fevers triggers her mebtol eelness

Maxwell: Actually deep down still cares about his brother even though they are literally like sasuke and itachi

Charlie: Enjoys making fancy drinks so much because that's what his mother would do before she perished

Sam: She engages with a lot of media containing found family type situations in order to Cope

Amy: Does not remember what her father's voice sounds like

Damian: Pretty much is unable to actually cry anymore since he trained himself not to with punishment

🌠 SHOOTING STAR - if they could make any wish with no repercussions, what wish would they make?

Felicia: She would wish for her mind to Stop Doing That

Maxwell: He would wish to get Charlie's parents back

Charlie: He would wish to reverse time by a few years and redo everything

Sam: She would wish for her mother to come back alive and safe

Amy: She would wish for her parents to love her

Damian: He would wish for immortality for himself and his loved ones

[strangermarvelss]

spring break- e.m (pt 3)

Pairing: Eddie Munson x Female!Reader

Summary: you and your friends decide to go on a trip together. only problem is you’re surrounded by couples…and your nemesis

Warnings: enemies-to-lovers, angst, bullying, fighting, jealousy, confrontation, eddie being a sweetie pants, happy ending :), not proof read tbh

Request: Yes

Word Count: 3.4k

A/N: here she is, part three as requested. i hope you all enjoyed this little mini series, i had a lot of fun writing it :)- sava

part one | part two | part three

With the slam of you car door and the grip of your backpack becoming tighter, you begin to walk towards the double doors of Hawkins High once again. With spring break officially over, you were in the home stretch of finishing high school, still undecided on where you might be continuing your academic career. With the events that transpired at the cabin over break, your mind was telling you Stanford was the only real option. The school would be an amazing opportunity, but so would Notre Dame. The only real plus of moving to California was not having to see Eddie Munson ever again.

During the last days of your trip, you ultimately decided staying in your room would be the best way for you not to lose your cool anymore. Everyone seeing you cry and Eddie rejecting you hard was the cherry on top of the shit sundae you were dealt, and thought retreating into yourself and the abyss of loneliness that you were all too familiar with was the only route to go. On the rare occasion you joined the group, you completely ignored the metalhead, his words directed towards you met with silence or the scoldings of your friends. They knew you weren’t in the mood to deal with his shit anymore, and you thought Eddie would pick up on that too.

Once you got home, you stayed in your childhood bedroom for the remainder of the break, only coming out to watch the occasional movie with your mom or dad and eat to make sure you didn’t die. Countless phone calls came in to your home phone, Robin, Nancy, and Steve checking in on you to see how you were holding up. You always brushed them off, either rushing them off the phone or not answering at all. You knew deep down they didn’t want to keep dealing with this shit between you and Eddie either, considering you two practically ruined the trip, even if your friends never said that. 

Pulling open the doors, you’re met with the same loud nonsense that always occupied the halls of your school, only now you saw it as more of an annoyance rather than something you could always look back on and laugh about. You make your way through the crowded hallway and towards you locker, opening it to stuff your backpack inside and grab the books you need to get through the first few periods of the day. With a sigh, you close the metal door and turn around, making quick movements towards your first class of the day.

As you watch the other students pass by you, you see the face of the man who made the last week or so of your life a living hell with fake promises and hurtful words barreling towards you. He looks up and meets your eye contact for a moment, before your eyes quickly make friends with the floor beneath you as you watch your feet pick up the pace. He wore a sad expression on his face, his lips curved down in a frown you weren’t that used to seeing on his face, with his big personality always finding a way to make him and those around him smile. Except for you. 

You weren’t sure why you cared or thought about him as much as you did. The years he had spent making your life a living hell put you in so much pain, as did the night in the town along that cobblestone path. You never understood why Nancy’s brother, Mike, always talked about Eddie with such fascination, his eyes always beaming as he discussed the campaigns the metalhead would plan or the theatrics he pulled throughout the day. That was, until you saw the softer side of Eddie when the two of you had sex.

The way he cradled your head and held you close when the two of you laid down in bed together after you finished. The attention he gave you as he pleasured you with his tongue and fingers, the thought always sending chills up your spine. The sincerity in his voice as he spoke to you about how sorry he was for hurting you with his mean comments earlier that night. There was a soft side to Eddie that not a lot knew about. Until he built up that wall again and let his devilish demeanor reign true. 

You slide into your desk for your morning math class, opening your notebook and tapping your pencil against it as you waited for the rest of the students to file in. Being this early to class was never your style, opting to talk with Nancy and Robin in the mornings before the initial bell rang. You knew with your distant attitude you would be better off just waiting for the day to get started and trying to make your way through it, not being the best conversationalist with your depressing demeanor. 

You look at the clock and notice no one else has entered the classroom. You knew there were people who would get to class much earlier than you ever did, but seeing no one in here yet when there was about 15 minutes until the official school day began? That was unheard of.

You watch figures zoom down the hallway, girls giggling and other students yelling as the flew by the classroom. You slide out of your desk and approach the door, seeing a crowd of people gathered at the end of the hall. From your other side, more and more students charging at the opportunity to see what’s happening, making you more suspicious than you were before. You see a girl who you actually have math class with and stop her for a moment.

“Do you know what’s going on down there?” You ask, nodding your head towards the swarm of students.

“Heard there’s a fight going on, so I’m checking it out for myself. Eddie ‘the freak’ Munson and Brad ‘the babe magnet’ Smith. C’mon!” She exclaimed, taking your hand and running down the hallway with you.

Eddie and Brad? In a fight?

Your feet move quickly alongside your classmate as you grow closer and closer to the commotion, finally picking up on the dialogue between the two boys as you see their figures. Eddie has Brad pressed against the lockers, his fists balled in Brad’s varsity jacket.

“Take it back,” Eddie spit out, his voice seething as his face was mere inches from Brad’s, reminding you of all the times he’s gotten close to you while throwing insults your way. 

“Why should I Munson? Thought you hated Y/N,” Brad replies, a sinister smile plastered on his face. You watched as Brad’s knee quickly makes contact with Eddie’s groin, causing him to let go and wince in pain. Brad takes his vulnerable moment and lands a punch against his cheek, knocking Eddie down to the floor on his knees.

Did Brad just say your name?

Were the two fighting…about you?

“Doesn’t mean you should say that stuff about people,” Eddie finally replies, clear pain etched in his voice. Brad laughs and takes another swing at Eddie, which he ultimately ducks at.

“It’s true though. Everyone around us agrees that she’s probably the biggest slut in the school. Hell, I’m surprised you have hit that yourself, freak,” he says. Eddie rushes to his feet and dives at Brad, throwing a punch his way with his left fist, knowing it’ll hurt thanks to the three rings that reside on his knuckles. 

You felt frozen in time as you watching the two boys continue to throw punches and insults at one another. Why was Brad saying these nasty things about you? You’ve only been with 3 guys total before you and Eddie hooked up on the trip, thinking about how that’s not nearly as bad as the amount of notches Steve Harrington has under his belt. But I guess that classic double standard for women applies here just like it does everywhere else. 

But the most confusing part of this fight? Why was Eddie, out of all people, trying to defend your honor?

Another punch is thrown Brad’s way, but he catches it mid air, laughing to himself as he looks at the anger on Eddie’s face. Your breath hitches as you watch Brad twist his arm behind him, Eddie letting out a painful yelp as the jock brings his face close to Eddie’s ear from behind.

“I bet the whole basketball team could just pass her around like some used up little play thing at this point,” he says, causing the whole crowd to fall into a hush at his words. You felt eyes from different points in the now formed circle looking towards you, the classmate who dragged you along scooting away from you as she watched your reactions. Eddie’s free elbow reaches back and slams into Brad’s stomach, causing him to let go and for Eddie to have the upper hand. Brad’s features twist in anger as he charges for Eddie once more, landing another hit to his jaw. You shake yourself out of whatever trance you were in and let out a deep breath. You were the one who needed to end this.

You step forward and sandwich yourself between the two boys along with a few of the Hellfire boys who had come just shortly before, trying your best to break up the fight. You and the boys start tugging at his arms in an attempt to get away from Brad, with Brad’s former football teammates doing the same for him. You watch Brad breathe heavily, his eyes darting between you and Eddie, everyone staying silent as the circle begins to disperse, the bell warning everyone to retreat to the safety of their classrooms. With a sigh, you turn around and face Eddie for the first time in over a week, his cheeks pink and lip busted. 

Shaking your head, you grab his arm and lead him to an empty science classroom you knew nobody would be in during the first period of the day.

“Sit,” you demand, pointing to the lab counter as you run to the back of the room. You gather a few paper towels and run them under one of the sinks in the room, ringing it out a bit before coming back to Eddie and placing the towels on his cheek. He’s quick to wince at the feeling of pressure against the sensitive skin, but you hold out your hand, trying your best to keep calm as you move his hand to where yours was, silently telling him to keep holding the towel there. 

You step back for a moment and begin to pace back in forth in front of him, your mind running at a thousand miles a minute as you try to collect your thoughts. It felt as if you could barely process the entirety of what just happened, your critical thinking becoming impaired as you replay the fight over and over in your head. You stop in your tracks and direct your attention back to Eddie, whose eyes are as wide as dinner plates watching you.

You walk back closer to him and begin hitting him in the chest, the anger you’ve built up over the course of the past week finally getting the best of you and letting it all out. Why did he have to say those hurtful things to you? Why did he continue to try and push you with his little remarks he knew you hated? Why was he defending your honor to the asshole jocks of Hawkins High?

“Ow, ow, ow! What the hell, Y/N?” Eddie asks, bringing his free arm up the shield his chest for your fists, carefully swatting at you to stop. You huff in response and stop your actions, your face scrunched as you look at him.

“What the hell me? I should be asking you that, asshole. What the hell were you thinking back there? You could’ve gotten seriously hurt Eddie,” you scream at him. Your breathing began to pick up, chest rising and falling at a rapid rate as the anger starts pouring out of you.

“You didn’t hear what he was saying about you, Y/N. It was gross and nasty and I couldn’t just stand by and let him!” Eddie tries explaining to you, his voice sounding just as irritated as your own.

“Yeah, I got an idea of what he was saying during your little fight,” you tell him, stepping back from him and beginning to pace once more. “Besides, why do you even care? You don’t have to be some knight in shining armor for me. You were the one that said there wasn’t even an us to worry about.”

You watch as Eddie’s feature falter, his defensive expressions molding into a sad one, the curvature of his lips pointing in a harsh frown before he hangs his head in shame. Stopping your motions, you watch Eddie’s shoulders begin to move harshly, hearing a few sniffles.

Was Eddie Munson…crying?

“Eddie?” you ask, coming closer to him and tilting his head up a bit. You notice a few fresh tears sliding down his uncovered cheek, with a few trapped in his gorgeously long eyelashes. You knew you shouldn’t be getting this close to Eddie after everything he’s done, but that part of your brain, the same part that told you to go ahead with sleeping with him, told you to stay. The pad of your thumb comes in contact with the wet spots on his cheek, wiping them away as his eyes avoid your own.

“I’m an asshole,” he lets out, his voice full of hurt as he presses the damp towel into his skin more.

“I mean, I know that. Care to elaborate why?”

“I treated you so badly, Y/N. All the shit I’ve done to you. Not only just on the trip, but over the last few years. I’ve been so harsh and stupid, I couldn’t pull my own head out of my ass to see any real hurt I’d done. Not until that night you pulled me aside along that path,” he explains to you. Taking a few steps back, you watch as Eddie’s eyes finally meet your own, his sad doe eyes full of sincerity.

“Then why did you?” you question. You cross your arms and stare at him, trying to hold the ground you’ve been building up over the course of a week. “I mean, what could possibly make you treat someone as badly as you treated me over the years?”

“Because I don’t know how to handle these feelings I have for you, Y/N!” He exclaims. You press a finger to your lips as you shush him, trying to be quieter. You wanted to hear him out, for him to explain why he did what he did. The answers you’ve dreamed of knowing ever since this all started a few years back were finally coming out and you wanted to finally get that closure, a great parting gift before college.

“I grew up in a broken home, never really knew what love felt like. I’ve been stuck with Wayne since I was a kid, and sure, he’s not an asshole, but I’ve never had that typical nuclear family that everyone seems to have around Hawkins. So when I saw you for the first time and started getting to know you, these new feelings started coming up and I didn’t know what to do with them. So I did what I always do and ran away from them,” he explains calmly. 

You take a moment to sit on those words. Sure, you knew about his past and why he was with Wayne to begin with, but you had no idea it was such a big part of why he was who he was.

“That doesn’t explain why you slept with me,” you whisper out, breaking the eye contact and looking to the floor. You hear his feet plop to the ground and watch those bright white tennis shoes step closer to you.

“When I saw how hurt you were after what I said in the hot tub, I felt like shit. I let those emotions get the best of me and wanted to come comfort you. I used your own insecurities against you and for that I apologize. Knocking on your door and seeing you lumped in your ball of sadness, I thought maybe I could do it and finally tell you how I felt. Had no idea you’d sleep with me, that wasn’t part of my plan,” he explains, a giggle falling from your lips in the process. 

“But then I got scared again. I saw your sleeping figure next to me and thought about how happy I’d be once you woke up next to me. Except nothing good happens to me. I’m a repeat senior who everyone in this town hates, and you’re one of the most accomplished people in the entire town. I couldn’t let my feelings for you hold you back from anything, because I so badly want to see you succeed.”

“Eddie that’s not true,” you try to tell him, looking up at his face once more. He shakes his head and lets out a nervous laugh, arm raising to play with his hair a bit. 

“No, no it is. Which is why I left before you woke up. I honestly didn’t think you’d care as much as you did. But that night in the town it killed me not to run after you when we fought. I wanted to pry you from Harrington’s arms and take back everything I’d just said,” he takes his hand and tilts your chin up to look you dead in the eyes, making your heart rate pick up.

“I love you, Y/N. I know I have a funny way of showing it, but I can’t let you leave for California without knowing the truth and trying to make amends. I don’t want to us to start this next chapter in our lives without fixing the mess I’ve caused.”

Eddie Munson loves you.

He actually loves you.

“Y-you’re not just saying this to get in my pants again, right?” You sniffle out, bringing your free hand up to wipe your nose and a few stray tears. The mop of curls flow around him as he shakes his head no, making you smile wide. Standing on your tip toes, you press your lips to his and feel the familiar softness of his plush lips and the comforting taste of mint and cigarettes. He tugs at your waist, pulling you closer and you melt into his touch, the memories of your first kiss flooding back and bringing up all those initial feelings once again.

Pulling away slightly, you hold onto his shoulders as you look at his warm brown eyes, the dimples fading onto his face as that damn smile appears. You shake your head with a laugh and go up to kiss his redden cheek softly, careful not to put more pain on the swollen area.

“I hope you realize you’ll have a lot of making up to do, Munson,” you tell him. He laughs as he nods his head, continuing to hold you close to him.

“Believe me sweetheart, I will do anything to be in your good graces before you leave for California,” he tells you.

“Whoever said I was actually going to California?” 

“Um…we all just assumed you would pick the better school? Y/N it’s fucking Stanford,” he tells you, backing away from you slightly to shoot you a deadpan look. He probably thought you were crazy, which you very well might be. 

“Well now there are other factors to consider,” you say, wrapping your arms around his neck as he groans and rolls his eyes, making you laugh at his dramatics for a change instead of being annoyed by them.

“Y/N I can’t let you-“

“Nope, Eddie shut up,” you tell him, bringing a finger to his lips in an attempt to keep him quiet. He goes to try and bite at your finger, making you squeal as he and you share a laugh. “You’re not getting rid of me that easy, Munson.”

“Well when you put it like that, how could I possibly be upset,” he says with his devilish smirk, one of his signature looks. You pull yourself off of him and hear groan once more. Tugging his arm along, you exit the classroom and being your journey down the hall.

“Where are we going? I liked being in there with you. Alone,” Eddie questions.

“We’re going to the nurse. You need some ice for your soon to be black eye.”

[adoringhaikyuu]

they misinterpret your words during a fight and think you want to break up

characters: aone + kyoutani + oikawa + ushijima + (gn!reader)

request: hii can I request saying 'why am i even trying' in a fight n they take it wrong way, they thought u had enough of them but u just mean it like ' why r u even trying to argue' - kyotani, aone, ushi and oikawa... thank you ✨ • by @chibiiichann​

warnings: a lil angsty

notes: i was not sure how to title this well skfjhg + let’s just say everyone lives together in these

aone:

it wasn’t that he was trying to aggravate you

it’s just that he genuinely didn’t understand why you were upset and he was being dismissive without even realizing it

and that is what pushed you over

you were tired, you wanted to go to bed 

and you clearly weren’t getting anywhere, so you were ready to just drop it and go to sleep, hence why you said

“why am i even trying”

aone blinked a few times as he stared down at you, those five words sending a spike to his gut. you tried to move past him, not noticing the panic in his eyes, when he shot his arm out to stop you.

you looked up at him about to complain when you noticed the intense and glassy look in his eyes. he spoke up, his voice small. “please don’t.”

you sighed, “i just don’t see the point, nobu. i’m going––”

“no.” his voice was slightly louder and shaky. “please.” he stood in front of you and placed his hands on your arms as he looked into your eyes. “please don’t leave me.” 

you tilted your head, “leave y––” you shook your head, “baby, no i’m not–” you walked into his arms and he hugged you immediately, his arms holding you tight. “i’m not leaving you,” you looked up at him to find him already staring at you, holding his tears back. you placed a hand on his cheek and he nuzzled into your palm. “i was just going to bed because this argument wasn’t going anywhere. that’s why i said i don’t see the point.” 

he swallowed harshly and nodded. “oh.” 

you smiled sadly, “well now i can’t be mad at you anymore...” 

his hands squeezed your waist, “for what it’s worth...i’m sorry, y/n.” 

you leaned up for a kiss and he met you halfway. “let’s go to bed, okay?” 

he nodded but made no move to let go of you––so the two of you stood there for a while, just holding each other in silence.  

kyoutani:

you and kyoutani didn’t fight often...to be honest you rarely ever fought

but today...

both of you were really stressed out

you started arguing over something stupid, to be honest you couldn’t even remember what it was

it was just a way for you both to get out your frustrations in the end

but your voices started getting louder and you were getting in each other’s faces

and it became too much for you, it was just stressing you out even more

you needed fresh air

you rolled your eyes and stepped back, trying to shove past him. “you know what? why am i even trying here–”

before you could get far, kyoutani grabbed your arm, not forcefully, but enough to make you stop. you looked up and glared at him, surprised to see another emotion swirling in his eyes––sadness?

“you’re fucking joking right?” he never was good at talking through his emotions. 

you scowled, his tone not helping either of your moods at all. “let me go.”

he scowled right back. “no.” 

“kentaro.”

he raised a brow and stepped closer to you, “oh so we’re on a first name basis now? what, y/n?”

you clenched your jaw and looked him in the eye, taking a deep breath. “please just let me go.” your voice was small, defeated, you just needed space. 

his hand loosened but he didn’t let go completely, seemingly battling with himself in his mind. “no...i can’t. i won’t let you leave me.” 

so that’s why he was upset? 

you frowned up at him. “taro. i’m just going for some fresh air. i’m not leaving you.” 

he let go of you and stood straight, his lips parted. “oh.” he clenched his jaw and looked down, suddenly embarrassed by his reaction. you grabbed his hand and started walking towards the door. “what are you doing?”

you looked back at him, eyes no longer blazing, but instead, warm and loving. “we are going to get some fresh air. together.” 

he looked down, suddenly shy, but kept walking with you. “okay.”

oikawa:

oikawa had a bad day and he was more irritable than usual

tbh he was being kinda rude unintentionally

you were eating dinner across from each other and you were trying to talk about how your days were, not having spoken to each other much due to your busy schedules

but he wasn’t in the mood for talking and was just answering you with hums and giving you one word responses

after a while you got annoyed and honestly felt a little hurt

so you sighed and rolled your eyes, getting up from the table to go refill your water, mumbling to yourself more than anything

“why am i even trying”

it wasn’t until you said that that oikawa looked up from his plate, eyes wide, heart beating loudly in his chest. “wait what––”

you were already in the kitchen by the time he looked up and he urgently got out of his seat, almost knocking down his glass and you turned around at the clatter, surprised to see him basically speed-walking towards you. 

“oh now you pay attention to me?” you went to sip your water when he pulled it out of your hands and set it on the counter, ignoring your “hey!-” in protest. 

his eyes were frantic as he looked at you, “look baby i’m sorry i just i had a really shitty day today but––”

you sighed and looked to the side. “and i get that tooru, but that doesn’t give you the right to be a dick, i mean it feels like we haven’t had time to ourselves this week at all...”

he pouted and took your face into his hands, “i know baby and i’m sorry, i haven’t been trying as much as i could have been. but i promise i’ll do better, okay? i know i don’t deserve it but please tell me you’ll keep trying too?” his eyes were suddenly filled with tears and you looked at him in shock.

“hey–what’s wrong?” 

he pressed his forehead against yours and let out a shaky breath. “i just don’t want you to leave me––please don’t. i don’t know what i’d do without you––”

you pulled away as much as he’d let you to look into his eyes. “woah baby what––i’m not leaving you? sure i was frustrated, but i wasn’t going to break up with you.” 

his eyes widened, “really?”

you nodded. “really, tooru i promise.” just from the vulnerable look in his eyes you felt like you could cry as well. you kissed his cheek, “i’m not going anywhere.” 

he sighed, relieved and pulled you into a hug, mumbling his next words into your shoulder. “i love you.”

ushijima:

ushi could be really blunt and straightforward 

and sometimes had a tendency to brush things off, not understanding the big deal

today you were trying to get him understand something that happened at work, someone pissed you off and it really put you in a bad mood for the whole day

and ushi was always there to talk through things with you at night when you got home

but today, he really couldn’t see why you were upset––or rather, why you let it affect you so much, he didn’t see the point

and it felt like he wasn’t listening to you

(granted, you were a little strung up already)

you didn’t want to deal with people anymore so you brushed past him and went to take a shower, grumbling “why am i even trying”

as soon as you uttered those words, ushijima paused, unsure what to even think. you didn’t mean the relationship did you? surely, he thought about how you’d had a bad day, how you were frustrated and maybe you were just saying that in regards to your frustrations...but part of him wasn’t sure. you seemed rather annoyed during the conversation much to his disliking.

unfortunately, he wasn’t able to ask you about it because as soon as he turned around, you were already locked in the bathroom. he sat anxiously at the edge of the bed, his elbows on his knees, hands clasped as he waited for you. you were taking your sweet time, no doubt relaxing and decompressing, which he understood, but it was only furthering his worry about the situation. 

it was a good while later that you’d finally gotten out of the shower, steam exiting the bathroom as you opened the door. you hadn’t even noticed ushijima sitting across from you as you got out, still focused on your thoughts, trying to calm down. 

you put your night shirt on along with some sweats, which was immediately a bad sign to him, you almost always slept in one of his shirts, and he loved that about you. 

only when you got on the bed did he speak up, clearly tense as he got your attention. “love...”

you turned and he swallowed thickly, suddenly nervous. “when you said...” he paused, looking down at his hands before looking into your eyes, clenching his jaw almost in pain. “are you giving up on us?” 

you frowned immediately, “what?”

“you...you said ‘why am i even trying’ and stormed off...did i do something? are you not happy?” 

your mouth dropped open in shock, the frustration coursing through your body now replaced with disbelief and sadness. you moved closer to him and put one hand on his cheek, the other other on his shoulder as you looked into his eyes. “what? baby no, i was just annoyed and our conversation wasn’t really helping but it wasn’t your fault! i just needed some time to think to myself, i’m sorry. this whole time you thought i wanted to end things?” 

he nodded once and your frown deepened. “baby i would never,” you paused and pulled him close for a sweet kiss. 

his hands came up to hold your waist and you melted into him, the kiss clearly soothing his worries. the look of relief and love in his eyes was clear as day when you pulled away to catch his eye. 

“i promise i am happiest with you. i’m not going anywhere, unless you were planning on leaving any time s––”

his hands gripped your waist tighter, a fierce look appearing in his eyes. “no. you’re it for me.” 

you smiled, feeling something burst in your chest and gave him another kiss. “i love you.” 

his hands made their way under your shirt and you hummed, pulling away to stop him. “baby i’m kinda tired today.”

he shook his head, a light blush on his cheeks . “i know. i just prefer when you wear my shirts.” 

you smiled and moved your hands away, “oh, okay. then go ahead.”

he smiled back, “thank you.”