Trying to have a conversation with my brother about antisemitism in the pro pali movement, and I feel coming up with nothing. Im feeling so lost and i feel like everything is just too much.
He said he got uncmfortable with the conversation, which i understandable in a way because it's a heavy topic, but it still feels so disingenuous. For instance, he talks to our grandmother who I KNOW is a raging antisemite (FROM East Germany. She is one of the main ways I became aware of what antisemitism looks like growing up), about israel/palestine.
He didnt even know what blood label or duel loyalty was until i explained what it was, and whenever I ask a question he goes quiet. When i say these things, and how i am geneuinly scared for my boyfriend's (Who is Jewish) safety, he goes quiet. I tell him it's important to check in on Jewish people around you and listen to them and he gives me a little "yeah."
It feels like im having a conversation with a brick wall/ just talking to myself. I know when he disagrees because he goes quiet. he doesn't have a backbone and he doesn't debate on anything, and when he goes quiet I know that's when he disagrees but doesnt want to speak his mind. It's not like I WANT to argue with him / want to pick a fight of course but I feel completely ignored.
Part of the issue is that I had a really bad falling out with the majority of my family and he is basically all I have left. For him to not listen to me is just like the rest of them, although this problem isnt about me, it just adds to the hurt I already feel since I'm trying to talk about something extremely important to me, and I feel like I'm BEGGING him to hear me, it hurts.
He at least agrees Hamas should release the hostages? But I feel that's bottom line. I send him resources but I doubt he'd actually read any of it at this point and I'm at a complete loss. I've lost so much these past few years and I have this feeling again.
I don't even know what to do anymore. my boyfriend is sleeping right now but I know when I talk to him about this he will feel the same. I try so hard but he doesn't want to talk to me. He doesn't even tell me what our grandmother was saying either. Our parents are pro israel but he wont even tell me what they were saying. He tells me nothing ever. Months ago when he originally told me he talked to our grandmother he never told me what she said even when I asked him, and showed concern. I tried again and still nothing substantial, just saying "Yeah we agree its fucked up"
Like no. tell me what she's saying, please. I know it's all bad, I know her and I remember in detail the shit she has said about Jewish people in the past. I literally cant handle the thought of him going down an antisemetic pipeline and I feel he is already down the path and there is nothing I can do. It breaks my heart. Seriously. Why doesn't he care?
What the fuck is going on? I live across the country and he is my only way of knowing whats going on there, and he tells me nothing.
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random assorted headcanons for Turbo because I like thinking and having fun !!!! 🎉
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The steering wheel of his kart is covered in bite marks, similar to how one would bite their favorite pencil. he bites things to mark his territory because Nobody is gonna touch that unless they want all of his diseases (150+).
i just know he was fighting to restrain himself not to chew on any of the candy civilians
when it comes to music, he doesn't see the point of listening to it. he doesn't have enough patience to really take it in; to him, it's just a thing that exists and not much more than that ¯\_( ∵ )_/¯
adding onto that point, this guy listens to metal clanking sounds and loud engine roaring for entertainment because he likes things that would overstimulate any normal person. turbo is incredibly sensory-seeking and will do anything for The Sensations
someone should take him to a heavy rock concert i think it would change him a little. keep that thang on a leash
related to being sensory-seeking, i think he would absolutely love running his hands over random textures. if anyone has run their hands along a wall while walking alongside it...He does that...If u know u know... he is SO stimmy its unbelievable. Unreal.
very pain-tolerant. he'll whine and complain about it for attention, but physical hurt really doesnt bother him much until it gets in the way of what he wants to do.
funnily enough, he is very picky when it comes to temperature. he can handle getting ran over but if its 1° too hot or cold he'll start nagging and nagging for it to go back to normal. turbo really needs his own enclosure i think it'd do him a lot of good
this is a more popular headcanon and its canon-leaning, but he's an artist :-] he usually sticks to graffiti art because its generally considered more "rebellious and cool" but he also sketches cars, design decals, and other stuff when hes alone!
i would love to see his process of character designing king candy because i dont think he really knew what he was doing
he was just like "ok what does a generic king look like. uhhhhh.... 1, old and jolly like santa claus.... 2.... uhh crown..... 3......... purple.... FUCK YEAH im so good at this!!!!🔥🔥🔥"
i just noticed how his design has like 0 actual candy motifs aside from his bow being a candy wrapper and his shoes having those little gumdrop end pieces. what was he THINKING
while King Candy has a lisp, i think it's a coverup for his actual voice because of how goofy and recognizable it is. Overall its the same as his regular voice, he just gets silly with it. i noticed that he still does retain some of his lisp when hes screaming his lungs out at Vanellope, however, so maybe he genuinely does have a lisp that makes itself known when furious :3
another thing i noticed is how he hisses his S's. very cool very cool the reptilian
@/tasticturbo made a post abt how he has tinnitus from the constant noise in his game and i couldnt agree more
AND THE PRESCRIPTION GLASSES. where did he get those...he needs to See
side note, the aforementioned account has made so many interesting analyses on turbo and theyre all so insightful. i recommend u check them out
i think he gets migraines from stress. constant buzzing or pain flood his head but hes like "IDGAF i need to DO something at ALL TIMES no matter what"
hes like a shark in that way. if hes not moving he'll die instantly. idk a lot about sharks or if thats how it works srry but im going off of what the Worms are saying to me and i dont have much to work with
i think a really big contributer as to why he lacks in the self care department is because he fails to notice that something in his body is wrong. hes far too distracted on something he thinks is more important than remembering to Eat Food or Drink Water or Wash Himself or
he's like "WHY DO I FEEL LIKE SHIT ALL OF THE TIME!!! I HATE MY LIFE" and he hasn't slept in 4 days
hes so me. Sorry.
i dont think turbo is necessarily suicidal, but the way he behaves shows a clear disregard for his own safety and wellbeing. he thinks that he knows what he needs but he really doesnt :-[ i think he has some kind of immortality complex, feeling untouchable and like nothing could get to him. as scared as he was when ralph was about to turn him into sloppy mush, he didnt take the threat very seriously. like it was some kind of joke
his kart regenerates every time his game starts up, so what if he smashed it into buildings for fun. He's the number one fan of car accidents. he is all about that shit
i think his living space would literally be a garage btw. its a place to sleep and a space for his car all in one!! he thinks its very convenient and awesome but i think he is coping. he has some old dingy stained sheetless mattress that he has never washed in his life and its covered in dirt and smoke particles. no wonder he has such heavy eye bags Dude Please
the turbo twins have a garage used in a similar way, and while its still pretty shitty, they still at least TRY to maintain it. they just fight a lot over who has to care of it. nobody taught them how to take turns ever
but this aint about them. maybe another day
i think that turbo would find comfort in garbage and keeping it around because its familiar to him. a big clean empty space would make him so mad and if anyone moves even an inch of scrap off to the side he will throw a fit. he generally doesnt pay attention to his surroundings but when its his personal space he is 1093 times more neurotic
i think the big empty castle he stole wouldve been a big transition for him. maybe it helped him clear his mind a little more to practice his tricky schemes...it helped him get more subtle
thats all i have for nowww ty for reading ^_^ if anyone else has any wacky ideas pleeeease tell me i would love to hear them!!
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