#having feelings about two dudes

[mister-eames]

how do you think arthur and eames would take in other slowly growing old.. I don’t see either of them as characters being insecure about themselves but how the other person would see it is kinda a mystery and exciting.. so how do you think it would go? hugs xx

Oh my goodness I love this question. I agree on them not being overly insecure in themselves - not much, or too seriously, at least. They may lament a thing here or there but nothing that would take up too much mental space.

I know it sounds a bit cliche, but overall I think they'd fall more in love with each other, tbh. Growing older is a sign of survival against an often unkind world. Of experience. It's the sexiest fucking thing in the world to see your SO earn those signs of age alongside you, to say you made it, you keep making it, despite everything life has thrown at you, you are strong enough to survive.

Though, at first, I can see Arthur having a sort of existential crisis about it.

Not because he finds Eames any less attractive. On the contrary, he loves Eames extra padding, the changes in him; the very real markers that signify that they both have survived and they are experiencing this very real privilege to get older and to do it together; that they get to share a life, full of good and bad memories - to trust someone with who you were, who you are, and who you are going to be.

But in that same regard, I can see it finally hitting Arthur in a very real way (kind of the way it hits all of us); oh... our time here is actually limited... isn't it.

Perhaps it's when they're no longer in dreamshare, risking their lives, but it occurs to Arthur in a strange, sudden sense that some day the world will go on without them. That they are in fact, mortal, despite cheating death so often in their dreams and in real life too.

Arthur might be having this crisis at 35 or 45 (probably has it every ten years after his mid-thirties tbh) and he has literal decades ahead of him, but their own own mortality really hits him. He knew, intellectually, and with Mal and Dom, and with others in his life, that nothing is guaranteed. It's just... he feels like he has earned this life with Eames, after all they've been through together and personally, and it's not even that they're geriatric or "old" by any means, but the signs are there - they are not getting younger. They are visibly growing older. There's the greys, and the aches, and the weight gain here, the fat loss there.

The fact is plain and simple with life: there is no turning this car around.

Time is a real thing. One day it starts tick-tick-ticking away very loudly in Arthur's brain, like a bomb about to go off, setting off the same kind of panic in Arthur that says do something about it -- but there is nothing to be done about it. That's the worst part. It's just life, and not even Arthur, point man extraordinaire can mitigate it or stop it.

So Eames unearths the source of Arthur's panic after Arthur takes up three new languages, asks Eames for the fiftieth time if he's sure he won't regret not having kids, dyes his hair to get rid of the greys, takes up trumpet lessons and books them a cruise or seven - and then Eames is utterly bewildered by Arthur's heightened state of existential panic because he's not even fucking old, they've never been better or happier.

At first, Eames is like, "Calm down, dear. Complain to me when we have liver spots and we're both using walkers to get around. Old is just a state of mind."

Arthur, in the midst of frantically planning a new diet for them both sans-alcohol, is not amused.

So Eames asks him, "What are you so afraid of?"

"I don't know... losing time, I guess." Arthur replies. "Or... not making the most of it."

To which Eames asks plainly, fondly, "Aside from spending your days panicking, what are you gonna do about that? What do you need to do, at the end of it all, on your final day, to look back and say 'I regret nothing'?"

"I..."

"Ask yourself: what does your life without regrets look like?"

Arthur thinks, and after a long pause says:

"I... need us to live... exactly as we are now."

"That's good."

"Maybe tell you I love you more."

"And I will do the same."

Arthur takes the deepest breath he's had in days.

Then Eames adds, "By the by, I hear that not being on your husbands back about folding laundry is the key to a long, happy life."

"Nice try," Arthur rolls his eyes, taking his beloveds face in his hand and kissing that cheeky smile. "Speaking of which. I hear helping your husband fold the laundry does wonders for longevity."

--

The press of his lips against Eames and the quiet laughter between them in that moment, is one he never forgets.

--

Later, once all the laundry is folded and they're enjoying a glass of wine, Eames will Arthur that he is wrong. They are not losing time - that every day is more time they gain together.

Arthur will concede that Eames is right, sometimes.

--

As for Eames, well. He has all the pride, heart growing with love, etc etc, but you best believe he has several canvases and sketches and papers with a timeline of every iteration of Arthur, a visual chronicle of a beautiful man, drawn by Eames, over time, in varying mediums.

Not to say Eames has never felt strange about growing older, or Arthur growing older. But he's very much at peace with it, and earned the ability to be at peace with life - and himself. He's not afraid, not when there is so much to look forward to, and so much to learn.

And so many more versions of Arthur to appreciate and adore; on paper, and in person.

--

They both take the other ageing as something wonderful, something to be cherished. We only get one chance to get old, after all, but we get near endless chances to grow older. They don't get it right every day -- that is to say that sometimes life is an alarm clock that you get up and get on with on first ring, and sometimes in life you just press snooze and both is okay -- but they get it right often enough that they can call theirs 'a life, lived'.

So, yeah, they fall deeper and deeper in love with all the signs of age on each other -- it's all the time they've had, and all the incredible time they still have to gain.

[cubbyhole-for-flea-bee]

Once the theatre monkey discovers angsty broadway musicals its all over y'all

or: I got a new personal project I'm workin' on! I'm at the first pass on the animatic rn! I forgot that 'generate matte' is a thing you can do in SB Pro for a whole hour!! I'm suffering!!!

[maalidoesart]

me and the devil

[atalienart]

✧*:･ﾟArt summary 2024

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[cinnamon-flame]

I was going through my art folder again and I saw one of the oldest wof stuff I've ever drawn (the fourth one ever I think?) and I redrew it! I love Turtle and I just took this excuse to draw him again

[pipperoo]

something i've become so certain of is that grace's decision to bury max under the floor was so specific to that situation, and is not just something she would easily do in other circumstances. this is also tied to the fact that grace would only see max falling as an act of god, she would not see it like that if anyone else had fallen

her whole goal at waylon hall is to strip max of his power or to humiliate him so much that she won't be attracted to him anymore and can go back to how she used to be. and it failed because she was right that he would be scared by ghosts and skeletons, but she was wrong about how he would react. yet, the moment that she fails, the floorboards break. at the moment where she feels like she's straying from god, it appears to her that god steps in and shows that she was right for going against max. how could she not see that as an act of god?

but if anyone else fell, she would see it as it is, a horrible accident. she has zero ill will against any of the nerdy prudes. she may disagree about some things, but she would never want them dead. they did everything right during the prank, max was the issue

back to my first point, she buries max because, one, she fully believes she is has god on her side in this scenario and she believes that he wouldn't want them to be punished for max's death. two, hfpd are massive nighthawk fanatics and bad at their jobs and there is a lot of incriminating evidence against them that point to murder, like richie says. so, if the police got involved, they would have been fucked. so chopping him up and hiding the body becomes the immediate avenue that can avoid this.

but if anyone else fell, they would be calling the police. grace would never suggest burying them because they are most likely her only friends at the time. it would easily be considered an accident by the police. they may have gotten dinged for trespassing, but that’s it. and max would be alive to get the heat of the police off of them. (before he fell, he had nothing against the nerdy prudes, so he would be horrified with the rest of them and would back them up) if max got caught trespassing, he probably couldn’t play in the big game, so they may even let them all walk

this kinda harps on my belief that grace isn’t some malicious killer. i love when grace kills people, don't get me wrong, but, at her core, she doesn't want people to die. she's unhinged, but she always has to be pushed into becoming murderous, it's not always her go to.

and if grace was the one to fall, there is no one there that is crazy enough to suggest burying her under the floor. only grace could ever come up with that. everyone else would be panicking, like in the musical, and would just call the police.

[novelconcepts]

It really frees up so much mental real estate when you start thinking of sex as just: a thing people sometimes do. Some people are super into it! Some aren't! It's for fun! It's for intimacy! It's the deepest connection some people will ever feel and totally meaningless to others! It's hot! It's boring! It helps some people sleep! It exists as an exciting construct solely in fantasy for others! What it isn't is some complicated moral ground that needs to be fought against at every turn. It's just A Thing. Which means people who have a lot of it, or none of it, or whatever in between are all worth the same. Which means stories that have a lot of it, or none of it, or whatever in between are worth the same, too. Smut isn't less valuable than "clean" stories. People who have a high "body count" aren't less valuable than those who have never had sex at all. It's just A Thing. Making peace with sex as just A Thing that is natural to consentingly have or not have, want or not want, really is a great adjustment to your brainspace.

[cloysterbell]

'Cause that's what us, we mere mortals, do. We die. And sometimes it's not pretty. It's ugly and it's messy and it's painful.

[charlesemersonwinchesteriii]

I do really want to terrorpost but I don't feel qualified to be in that fandom man...... everyone is so smart and creative and they all have advanced degrees and I'm just sitting here like I think the lieutenants are in love :3

[xuxudio]

the voices won

[torchickentacos]

i will always shout praises of bi4bi but given recent discourse I feel the need to say that I love bi4het too! I just love bisexuality in general in its many forms, and anyone who only likes it when it's 'queer enough' for them is biphobic. Bisexuals should be able to bring their LaMe CiShEt BoYfRiEnD to pride without being made to feel like spectators and outsiders to their own event.

[fionnalovesanimeboys]

Theodore and Raphael have it the worst. Both of them want just attention from their fathers 😭

Theodore has completely locked out his feelings, even his mind is telling him he is not kid anymore like that's just painful 😭 and Raphael having younger brother is so heartbreaking since his father is not paying attention to him like he does at Ul like dude it's so obvious pay attention to your children! These men are so oblivious and dumb in some ways 😭

[gophergal]

*JFK voice* Nothing bad ever happens to the Queer German Besties!

[greasydumbfuck]

i very much like. small franks

[thats-how-i-like-it]

hi, here's a little vijinx - another love (tom odell) edit (feat. caitvi)

[musicfeedsmysoul12]

I'm just imagining Yoichi in the Void in Heroically Green chanting "THAT ONE" over and over again when Toshinori meets Izumi. He loves her even when she's not a OFA user because she's the type that would piss AFO off and also has a great personality.

(Toshinori, after his death, discovers that the Void is hiding a large swathe of supportive Izumi posters that Yoichi and Nana and a few of the other vestiges made, even before he started considering her as his successor. No, he's not crying, what are you talking about.)

Oh god yes. Yoichi is all for Izumi. She's like the best choice.

Of course you have the assholes Two and Three making a fuss but frankly the vestiges have gotten used to ignoring them. Those two fully believe that heroics is a pipe dream and vote for murder all the time.

Everyone else is all over Izumi being the ninth though. They love it and are really looking forward to the girl in ten inch heels kicking AFO in the face.