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vocalcords · 2 years
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five times stayed: ( five times the receiver stayed with the sender )
’ 𝙵𝙸𝚅𝙴 𝚃𝙸𝙼𝙴𝚂 ’ 𝙳𝚁𝙰𝙱𝙱𝙻𝙴 𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙿𝚃𝚂. Status ; Always accepting!
  1. The first time she stayed with Khaz was against the snipers will. A cold, autumn night. It was a tight situation and a even rougher firefight that they had gotten wrapped up in. Thank christ they had enough sense to keep an eye on each others backs while law enforcement swamped the area, searching for the gang members and the pair that went up against them. It was cramped in the makeshift basement of the condemned house, but they made due. It was her rifle propped against her body, pressed on the opposite cement wall to Khaz. Barely a foot of clearance in the narrow pathway. Awkward was an understatement. 
  She didn’t like being near men, especially when there was no clear escape. They had only met a handful of times before this incident.
  No words were shared afterwards, smelling of mold and gunsmoke. A trip to the laundromat, however was due.
  2. The second time Nat stayed with Khaz was against her will in the dead of winter, sleep took hold of her mind. Khaz, ever the cautious one, kept a healthy distance as his sniper passed out on her post. It was a brief cat nap, but he kept her safe. Something Nat didn’t expect. The woman woke with a start, gripping her rifle as if it were a object of comfort, and sharply analyzed the surroundings.
 Khaz gave nothing but a simple two finger salute. Maybe it wasn’t going to be a long night after all. The target was a no show. The info was useless. Neither of them were getting paid tonight, it seemed. They had no choice but to crash at her cabin for the night.
  3. The third time was during spring, when Nat was deep in sleep, someone set fire to the cabin, and had barely escaped with her life. Nat showed up on his doorstep, burned on her arms and legs, gasping for air and gripping his doorway in what was left of her gown. She had no one, and he was a last resort for survival. In this state, the parasites were suffocated and barely got her that far.
  She woke up on his couch later, wounds dressed. Nat decided she owed him her life, in the deafening silence. The analogue clocked read six am. Khaz was propped up in the chair at the corner of the room, arms folded and eyes shut.
  4. The fourth time happened on a summer night, it was a good payout. Hired for a search and destroy, and destroy they did, there was barely two blocks of the location left. They kept the targets heads for evidence of the job well done. The duo celebrated with drinks into the night, laughing their buzzed asses off at the shocked faces of the bastards they annihilated. 
  Hangovers were found in the morning, both of them with their legs tangled at opposite ends of the old couch. A trip to the drugstore was much needed. Sunglasses too.
5. The fifth time was again, during fall. It was Halloween night, and Nat decided to tide the night away at Khaz’s place, handing out candy while they chilled on the couch. Horror movies played on the cheap tv and hours quickly passed until they both dozed off. They didn’t make it to the alcohol. 
  She’d make it up with chai tea anyways. It was clear this was becoming a habit, if Khaz minded, he never said anything.
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puppmeo · 11 days
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My favorite thing to do in an open world game that gives you quest pins is to do anything except the quests
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coridallasmultipass · 1 month
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I am once again begging online shop payment processing companies to allow me to enter a separate name for shipping and separate name for billing!!
It's the same address, I'm just trans and have not legally changed my personal name, but I still prefer to receive mail as my preferred name! Like it's literally my professional name, I do business as my preferred name.
Annoying as fuck, and I don't want to chance my bank rejecting the payment (though I'm sure someone at my bank has put a note to allow it on my account by now, since I've contacted them a couple times before when I realized too late that the billing section didn't let me input another "address/name" section, and they said the payment was fine in those cases.)
Anyway, legal name changes should be free and non-advertised for everyone. Tbh, you should get a free name change every time you file your taxes on time as an incentive for good citizen behaviour. Once I am elected pres-
#i think the one i just used didnt even have a separate billing address option which makes no sense#guess they dont want anyone giving any gifts making the buyer pay twice for shipping like that#maybe it was a fault of the mobile browser but i highly doubt it since many desktop sites look like mobile browsers these days#just so fucking frustrating. what if i lived somewhere where my legal name would out me? (im in the closet rn so doesnt matter)#i dont want to fucking see my legal name. im already forced to see it everywhere else.#i dont wanna ruin my mood on a day when im supposed to be getting a package which should be a happy thing yknow#vent#transphobia#speaking of like i would change my name but i dont want to and cant afford the fucking ridiculous price for it#and i dont wanna advertise it in a newspaper either! shits expensive as fuck on top of the hundreds to file the court paperwork!#i already tried to do it once with money in hand and the receptionist told me that even tho it was for gender identity i could not...#...avoid the newspaper thing unless i also changed my legal gender marker. and i had to back out bc i have reproductive health problems#i dont want a gender marker change to fuck with my getting healthcare#(i did change the gender letter on my ID card later tho which only took a signature on a paper no hassle with anything)#it really really fucking sucks how all these little things add up all the time#especially when im closeted while living w family who wont even use my preferred name#the real kicker is that. both my dad and his dad used preferred names. my dad used his middle name#and i use part of my middle name. yet my dad even in death still gets the dignity of being called his preferred name and i dont#sexism at its finest#reasons why i dont even hint at being trans around my moms side bc i already got bullied by them for wanting to use my middle name#ive literally been asking them to call me my mid name since i was 12. and theyve been acting like im trying to be someone else#its the same middle name on my birth certificate they gave me. i dont understand why they wouldnt want me to use it#but yeah i stay closeted bc i dont wanna deal with the name drama amplified exponentially for gender#prob get kicked out too cuz theyre queerphobic as fuck and i cant work rn and dont have a car#id have to just go full feral and live in the woods with the lizards where i belong#Cori.exe#Post.exe#fuck lol just looked it up and u cant change ur first name if u get married. i cant avoid the fucking fee man. let me be cori#literally why is it cheaper to get married than change ur first name! bullshit! marriage has so much more legal implications#transphobic queerphobic aromanticphobic privacyphobic poorphobic shit ass fucking state ive literally been cori most of my life ffs cmon
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zevrans-remade · 11 months
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so..raphael gets devoured by mephistopheles if we win him huh????? i feel 2x times worse about kicking his ass now 😭
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lunar-fey · 2 months
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oh yeah not sure where we're at w money btw. we might be able to get some of it back but we wont know anything concrete until friday
#the fey speaks#which is why i haven't been reblogging the d0n0 post#like. i got $115 total and we Do need to buy groceries before friday and also some of it has already been spent on gas for getting to work#so what i'm saying is the support i got so far has already be immensely helpful#i am just not sure how much more help i will need or by when. or anything. until friday.#and i'd hate to keep askin only to end up not needing it ig. that said if anyone still wants to send me a few bucks while understanding tha#i won't say no. there are many things i need money for in this world rn. like a new belt. been thinking abt a cane. but idk how much it#would help so i haven't been able to justify the cost to myself#but like. there's probably better things you could be doing with your money rn.#also its been really hard for me to get info bc no one (my parents. whose bank acct it was.) wants to fucking talk about it#like. i live here too idk i think i should be allowed to know like what days bills are due and exactly how much they cost!#bc originally i was told (by my mom) that Literally All of our bills were due this past monday. and we would have#no power water or gas. but we still do. somehow. so idfk#and she won't talk to me abt it if i ask she just Stops Responding or walks away#and if i try to ask dad he just responds “i don't know” or starts crying. or like self loathing spiral#so basically. even if we get 100% of the original money back#its ALSO possible we will have a shit tone of late fees and overdraft fees to pay. no clue : )
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dogboyheaven · 10 months
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Apologies in advance if I start getting really talkative and annoying on here I’m just going through an extremely lonely period in my life and if I don’t have somewhere to express my internal monologues I might actually start throwing myself at the walls like a tortured zoo animal
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watermelinoe · 11 months
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i can't get clear pictures of victoria w her eyes open bc she has two modes KILLING AND VIOLENCE and snooooork mimimimi
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prozach27 · 1 year
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#breathing deep and I recognize I shouldn’t use tumblr as a journal but this is my coping mechanism#and I need it rn lol#so the situation is worse than I thought#emergency rental assistance only covered my moms rent until January rather than February#the property never told me it was late#now they tell me today I need to pay two full months’ rent or my mom’s evicted#so I spring into action and I’m panicking tf out today#and I get a hold of my mom’s social worker at aging and long term care#bc she got approved for their housing voucher!! and I thought it was already submitted!!#the whole POINT of emergency rent was that it would give them a few months to get her on housing#but no - two months AFTER it ends she finally gets the voucher#actually she doesn’t even have it yet. they submit the paperwork April 3rd#so it won’t even take effect next month. meaning I actually need to pay THREE month’s rent#nearly $3600 with $150 in late fees tacked on#I’m. a mess today. esp after finding out someone stole my passport and was trying to steal my identity#but that didn’t stop me and we found an emergency service that will pay backrent when someone’s facing eviction.#it can take 8-12 weeks (!!!) to process but I gave the necessary permissions to everyone and so the landlord and my moms social worker#talked and he explained everything going on and is sending the plan in writing to her. and she’s forwarding it to corporate#and maybe they’ll actually let us hold off and have this service do what it does best#esp considering she’s going to be in the housing system so it’s state-guaranteed rent for a year if they keep her#I just. it’s 1 pm and I’m so emotionally exhausted and reeling#why is life this fucking hard lol
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heyitslapis · 3 months
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its times like this when i really wish i had an SO's shoulder to cry on
Because I think i factrued/sprained my foot the other day it happened wednesday but its still pretty swollen and pops when i try to walk on it without hobbling. i know i signed up for health insurance through work. i wrote down the insurance company name as Bayside and I have my personal insurance id number but the card never came in/got lost in the mail (and i already called for one replacement that never came so idk if theyll send me a third) so i cant confirm the insurance name nor call them, but i need to because ive called/visited 5 health care facilities around me and NONE of them have even heard of Bayside. So im calling the phone number that my manager provided me with telling me that was the insurance company. I keep calling the number (and mind you ive called them before to try to get a second insurance card sent to me but that was in like April) and i get that its saturday but theres no answer and the stupid automated machine wont let me leave a voicemail. the automated answering voice on the phone also says that theyre called National Benefit Plans by SafetyNet and google says the phone number im using belongs to National Benefit Plans out in San Antonio Tx (i live no where near there). I found National Benefit Plans' website on SafetyNetPlus dot com but National Benefit Plans doesnt have their own website, just through SafetyNet, and also the SafetyNet website says on a side panel that "this is NOT insurance" and instead keeps saying "health benefits" instead so idk what the fuck ive been paying for for the last 6 months tbh and im having an emotional breakdown bc i dont want to fuck my foot up for life just cause i couldnt figure out my health insurance/benefits shit
#ive been fucking sobbing on the phone for 20 minutes calling the phone number over and over again#im about to mcfucking lose it and im sad and confused and scared because my foot is still so swollen even though it doesnt hurt very much#and google says if swelling on an injury like this persists after 48 hours to go get it looked at#all the walkin clinics near me dont have any xray techs til monday & quoted me anywhere from $130-$300 if i dont have insurance which i can#provide proof of nor am i even sure i actually have at this point and im ngl my guys i only have like $180 to my name until next friday#but then basically my entire next paycheck is going to Geico#and overall im just having a really really really bad time rn and im scared that if my foot is actually fractured im gonna fuck it up worse#by walking around on it without a boot/cast. yeah ive been sitting at work the last few days#but its front desk at a hotel so at least for the first hour of my shift and last 1.5 hours i HAVE to be standing#my foot was so swollen after work today it hurt to get my shoe off#im just really fucking stressed and anxious and confused and im sitting here sobbing my eyes out realizing theres literally no one i can#call just to vent and cry it out with#cant call my mom cause i busted my foot leaving her place after her husband got in my face & screamed at me for saying you cant hit people#cant call my siblings cause none of them can help/we dont talk often enough that i feel like i can burden them with this#i have a few casual friends but same sitch im not close enough with them that i feel comfortable venting while sobbing to them#i could call my ex but shes got a new boo now/its not her problem/we rarely talk anymore/she cant help so no point in calling#only other person who knows/is worried about me is my ex's mom but she wont be home from work for break til 2pm & its 11:30am rn#not close enough to any of my coworkers either#its times like this that i realize how truly alone i am these days with no one that can physically comfort me#which of course is only making me more upset#thats what i get for being depressed and reclusive the last 2 years and only letting people get an arms length reach from me emotionally#there is a medical clinic i can go to that is a 50 minute drive from me and without insurance you just pay a $20 sliding fee plus a little#extra for the care services but again theyre not open until monday and also its a 50 minute drive from me#so all im learning is i shouldve gone some place thursday morning after it happened and im fucked at least til monday#FUCK my STUPID BAKA life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#whatever. guess imma keep icing it try to keep it elevated and just endure it and hope it doesnt get worse#emma rambles#vent tag#DONT REBLOG
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caimitos · 4 months
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retail pharmacies are completely godless places im so excited to leave and never work in one again
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fairy-ganj-mother · 7 months
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why are all the veterinarians and vet techs in my life some of the best people but then I can't find a vet office that doesn't totally piss me off for my cat🥲
#apollo really needs his other mom tbh#poor diabetic baby cannot find a vet who cares enough to tell me what the fuck to do to get his glucose curve#even when ive paid high fees and gone thru all the right channels to ask#he's been diagnosed for over 6 months and we almost have his first curve done#his alphatrak didnt work#we put a libre on him but they wouldnt just send me the link for the data export instructions???#they asked a bunch of condescending questions like if i took any readings while it was on him#bitch of fucking course i did#are you fucking kidding me#and then said to just write down the data - date time glucose - for every reading#there are 110 readings???? what a goddamn waste of my time? bc i know the app can probs export all this in 2 seconds????#also there's data in between the readings that they wouldnt get from me writing it down????????#so stupid#my questions were valid but for some reason could not be answered until the third person that i talked to?????#and also i called and then they didnt know so i got texts later and then i was like uhhh you clearly dont understand the q#and asked them to call me back today#also bc it was 8pm and i was stoned and was like wtf im not doing this rn#so today.... they text me again! and start with oh we see you asked for a call but we like text#and im like yall must like miscommunication bc that's all that's happening#ugh im so annoyed#i just want my cat to be taken care of and his diabetes to be better managed!#im doing my best like his last vet was super hands off and weird once he got diagnosed so we switched#and i told them my issues and they were like wow thats odd#but this only miscommunicating via text shit is not cool#ugh okay this is so long for a rant abt my cats vet#but he is my world and he is unwell so it's really important to me and frustrating as hell too#t
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butch-errant · 9 months
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fraldarrius · 11 months
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birthday was kinda shit ngl
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tacochippy · 11 months
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anyone else ever just realise . like. just how many people have yelled/screamed at you, broken things, or hit you, or threaten you, or hurt you in some capacity and you just think that like with that sheer volume of people that have done these things to me, surely it must be me?
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upgradebitch · 1 year
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#i’ve never hated being a broke bitch more than now i just got an offer for this gawjus place w this cool person and its over my budget i wa#want to bang my head against a wall sigh#literally why do i search for love like this#this could’ve been great really great i cannot i was this close to signing something else aswell WHY#to be close to ppl my age w my interests and have a relationship that lasts is that asking too much what if i never see them again#am i being delusional i think so but idc my heart hurts things never work out the way i plan ugh#but atleast i will be leaving the shithole i’m in rn#it could’ve been great#i can get more great things although not now and it feels like a fresh wound rn i’m just starved for love ok i need a hug i’m so serious#it was in the PERFECT AREA TOO#it’s okay it’s okay atleast it’s still london and not a town in essex where u cannot get a taxi unless u want to wait 3 hours#count your blessings girl call down#shit i’m sad i’m so childish fuck#literally i just want a solid circle of companions and maybe that wouldn’t guarantee it and maybe where i’m going can be the path to my happ#happiness but i’ve been miserable for too long idk if i can even be loved because i will just fee like i’m tainting them#everyone in my life is held at a safe distance and i don’t want that anymore i want someone CLOSE who doesn’t get repulsed or bored ha#this interaction has sent me plummeting into the depths of hell i feel ridiculous#my chest hurts so much
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wariomolly · 1 year
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i applied for more jobs (crawling darkly) (twisting) (screaming) (crawling darkly)
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