#got a master's degree in yap

[areyouwell]

what if... what if MC was there atop the Statue of Liberty with the rest of the team?

and instead of Erik pointing Logan's claws towards himself, he pointed them into you...?

and he had to make a choice between hurting you and saving Marie or keeping you safe and letting Erik enact his plan...

What if Erik forced Logan to choose between saving you or saving Marie?

What if he chooses Marie?

Or worse still...

What if he chooses you?

[annamositwo]

okay ive started to go stir crazy so i need to talk about it here where i have the HIGHEST doubts my friends will see it as my tumblr blog gets the least amount of traction

but ive been thinking about ignius fatuus once more and i NEED TI RAMBLE about scar and grian and cub and mumbo and SKIZZ god i canNOT believe that me innocently going “hey thats something i should consider because hes very near and dear to all these characters” is the SOLE REASON I BECAME THE STIRCRAZY SKIZZ GUY amongst my pals

but i digress. Ive come here to yap, and for once, IM NOT YAPPING ABOUT SKIZZ

I mean i will be, but in due time.

Welcome to my MASTER post of ignis fatuus since i need to acutally jot it down in a place where people outside if my friends group can see this

Ignius fatuus is, in short, a fantasy au where grian is attending a magic univeristy than, in their last semester, they must spend a year obserbing magic in the real world with someone suprivising them, and journal it with what they want to do in the world. Grian also, to some degree, knows that if he picks one of the high-teir wizards he’ll be on the Longest waitlist known to creature kind at large. So, what does he do?

He seeks a local potions-place that has a well established spot in their community - owned by two elves; Scar and Cub.

And’s thats just the start- there’s magic and redstone and how those two cannot coincide and hybrid info and ranchers and JAVHDJSHS i have a lot of ideas but I got to ready before class and work and observations, oh my!

[br0-k3n-sch00lb01]

btw

DETECTIVE AU!!!

im gonna give a rundown (lots of reading ahead!! Tw: murder, suicide, insanity, guns, mania, hanging mention, pink blood/gore)

Chr info:

Basil- Detective (in my words w/ friends, ‘sherlock holmes on all sorts of crack’)

Aubrey- Volunteered Assistant

keep reading under the cut if interested!! (Some of the information relating to policework may be inaccurate.)

basically, in this au, Sunny accidentally killed mari but there were no witnesses. It was his idea to stage it as a suicide.

By the time he’s applied for college, basil has suspected for YEARS that something is up. Mari wouldn’t up and kill herself like that, no way.

He and Aubrey go to college for uhh. Police involved things i forgot what it’s called

anyways Basil got a phd and aubrey got a masters degree (hence her being an assistant, she actually works at Krispy Kreme but shhh)

So basil yaps to their chief of staff like ‘hey theres something up with the suicide of Marianne Suzuki, can we do a case on that’ etc

Anyways they get the case approved and they go to Sunnys house to start investigating!!

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WARNING!! I will be writing a fanfic about this au and if you don’t want spoilers for that STOP HERE!!! ‼️‼️‼️

if not, continue!!

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after about a month, basil’s been drugging himself, drinking, etc. hes passed out multiple times while investigating. Aubrey suggests that he should give up on the investigation since they haven’t found anything. Basil replies that ‘hed rather die. If anyones gonna solve this case its going to be me.’

theres some empty space here (i will not be telling you what happens except Basil’s been getting sick on the job)

eventually, they find out the truth. Sunny wrote it all down in a journal. (Idiot lmao)

Basil, having reached his limit, pulls out his gun and aims it at Sunny’s head.

‘don’t move an inch, coward.’

sunny, naturally, tries to step away, or more accurately towards basil in an attempt to explain. Basil freaks out.

‘GET AWAY FROM ME, MURDERER!!’

and he shoots.

Aubrey, naturally, stands there in shock before calling the station. She gets basil arrested.

he pleads insane at his trial and gets sent to a mental ward.

as soon as he’s released, he kills himself the way he killed sunny. out of guilt.

THE END 🥳🥳🥳

anyways!! Heres some art for the au !! :3

[marsipaniscool]

Santana really did have a shit life. First, his family was massacred. Then he got kidnapped by the murderers and told to become a strong warrior, and when he failed, they just left him there for a minimum of 2000 years. And THEN he woke up to being experimented on, and I'm not sure if he then died or stayed alive but in pieces. Lowkey hope he died and has some peace

RIGHT. gonna talk abt both of the boys because I feel like they bounce off of each other really well, almost foils. under the cut because I love yapping <3

in my opinion, Wamuu and Santana internalised Kars' and Esidisi's actions very differently. Wamuu acknowledges it happened, but his loyalty to his masters runs so deep that he willingly turns a blind eye to it, even though it brings him a lot of turmoil. I think that's a part of the reason he doesn't like fighting women or children, he sees Kars ordering him to kill his mother, and even himself as a child. Something something if Wamuu had been a child instead of an actual baby, he realises Kars would have had him killed too more than likely. He copes with this by proving his worth time and time again on the battlefield, doing quite literally whatever Kars demands. This increased tenfold when Santana was left behind. Yeah Wamuu talks big game about having a code of honour and strong morals but alllllll of that goes out the window when daddy kars demands. Honestly, Wamuu won the genetic lottery in terms of being a fierce warrior, he ends up taller than Kars or Esidisi and appears more well built. I don't think it was the fact that Santana was weak, I think he was just comparatively weak to Wamuu, and ended up being perceived as the weakest link. Kars and Esidisi had milleniums of training and Wamuu was a fighting prodigy, so Santana, who was probably just an average, untrained, pillar person (see:child), was by default the weakest. Santana had to process the information of Kars and Esidisi killing his family in an entirely different way. While Wamuu came to his own conclusion, I can easily see Kars holding that information above Santana's head. Santana had to hear that Kars "saved him from a life of darkness and drab" and how Santana should be "thankful you (Santana) weren't slaughtered like everyone else/your parents/family." When physical punishments were given to Santana, I can see Kars and/or Esidisi telling him how he was just as worthless and weak as his mother. I talked about it in-depth before, so just to rehash my thoughts: Santana was abandoned in Mexico at least 5,000 years ago (K,E,+W went to Eurasia in search of the super aja.) Santana would have looked around 10 years old at his age of 5,000. Picking up here, Santana would very likely stick to the same general area for quite a while before branching out into the greater Central America. Honestly think he became an idol in these areas due to him being bored as fuck with a booming population of humans around him. I see him spending a few thousand years like this, until eventually he got bored/not enough nourishment/whatever happened, and he fell asleep for several thousand years. Really leaning towards lack of nourishment leading to his slumber, he holed himself up in the temple and only woke up to a copious blood sacrifice. He woke up, the events of the show happened, Santana is stone in the SWF again. I don't think Santana is dead, I think they woke him back up and experimented on him. Von Stroheims entire mechanical body is based off of Santana. They may have been able to study him to such a degree while he was asleep, but honestly I think homeboy was awake and just restrained in some fashion while the Nazis and SWF experimented on him. I really hope he passed by the events of part 4 at the latest, but maybe they studied him until they were satisfied, and then kept him turned to stone. Maybe they had Joseph swing by and kill him idk. I just hope he found a peaceful ending.

[angel-chiarelli]

[ … ] ❀ you’re not from around here , are you? i figured because you totally just missed { ANGEL CHIARELLI} walking by. don’t tell me you don’t know who { HE } is ? they kind of look like { ANDREW GARFIELD } and i could be wrong but i think that they might be { THIRTY-SIX } years old right now. they’ve been living in palmview for the last { TEN YEARS}. and i don’t know if anyone has ever told them this before but they kind of remind me of { JAY GATSBY } from { THE GREAT GATSBY }. if you stick around the town long enough you might catch them in action working at { OCEAN VIEW WINE BAR } as a { SOMMELIER }. you see this town isn’t really that big of a place, some folks like to call them the { THE STAR-CROSSED } of palmview! they took a liking to the name too after a while, go figure. oh crap, they must have heard me yapping. they’re coming this way. i got to warn you though, rumor has it they can pretty { FRIVOLOUS } at times. i wouldn’t take it too seriously though, from the times i’ve spoken to them they seemed pretty { KIND } to me. we see each other all the time since they live in that { ONE BEDROOM } apartment beside me over in { SUNSET VILLAS }. i better leave you to it. it was nice meeting you!  

basics

full name: angelo 'angel' luca chiarelli nicknames: angel age: 38 date of birth: october 13th, 1986 zodiac: libra sun, leo rising, libra moon gender & pronouns: cisgender man, he/him relationship status: single sexuality: homosexual spoken languages: english and italian(native language) occupation: sommelier at ocean view wine bar

appearance

face claim: andrew garfield height: 5'10"(177.80 cm) dominant hand: left hair color: brown eye color: brown distinguishing features: tbd tattoos: n/a

personality

positive traits: kind, understanding, intelligent, gentle, passionate negative traits: frivolous, impulsive, gullible, indulgent, envious

mentality

phobias: fear of being alone, fear of being forgotten disorders: depression, anxiety, and bipolar disorder allergies: n/a

background

hometown: florence, italy birthplace: verona, italy education level: master’s in music

headcanons

moved to palmview after going through a pretty rough divorce with his now ex-wife. angel only married a woman because he knew it was what his parents wanted for him and he didn't have the courage to tell them that he's not attracted to women. the marriage was short-lived, having lasted for less than 5 years.

his bipolar disorder is undiagnosed, mostly because he hasn't been to a psychologist before. angel is aware to some degree that he tends to go through highs and lows(mania and depression), but chalks them up to feeling affected by whatever's going on in his life. when in a depressive period he's able to function, he just isn't as lively as usual and keeps to himself more. this is just the part he lets other people see about that aspect of himself, behind closed doors there's much more to it.

he observes and celebrates most jewish holidays because of his upbringing, as he comes from jewish heritage. angel makes it a point to travel back to italy every year for hannukah, it's important to him that he celebrates it with his family. growing up the significance of his culture and heritage wasn't lost on him, his family made it clear that it wasn't something to be taken lightly.

his parents own a vineyard in florence, which is part of why he chose to work as sommelier at ocean view wine bar. while most of his knowledge about alcohol is limited to wine, angel has been spending recent months educating himself on liquor. he does enjoy some cocktails but holds a certain fondness for wine, specifically rosé

frequently throws extravagant parties because he enjoys being surrounded by people. it makes him feel less alone, which is a feeling he's struggled with for a lot of his life. only the closest of his friends would know that the parties he throws are his way of trying to get people to like him. when his home isn't full of intoxicated partygoers, he can be found playing piano, writing music, or writing poetry. despite what many might think, he's rather quiet in his down time. knows how to play piano and has a degree in music, but never pursued it as a career. angel considers music his true passion, it allows him to express feelings he doesn't know how to put into words. he doesn't necessarily want to perform, though he will on occasion for smaller get-togethers.

[strangevampy]

yapping :3

i know i come back to post like once a year, but i thought i'd talk about how college is going and everything going on in my life. i know damn well nobody here cares (not trying to be all emo, i mean like- eh you get what i mean..) and- idk, too much shit has gone on. firstly, i havent exactly graduated from high school yet, im in this dual enrollment program, but i dont actually have any high school classes to take anymore? if that makes sense? im at this community college full time, and only go in 4/5 days out of the school week for like 1 hour each day (im off on fridays). I think it's really nice, and it'll put me ahead once i transfer to the college i actually want to attend (A&T!! Aggie pride or whatever lol). My mom wants me to pursue a master's degree, so i dont see why i shouldnt. Also, I want a degree in Computer Science, and I really want to be a game/software developer. I know people say 'AI will taker over all our jobs!!! you all will be out of a career!!' I.. don't exactly fear that, but, only time will tell I guess... (TW for SA talk after this, so if u don't like that, feel free to scroll.) secondly, I was in some relationship that I ended around May and i didn't really find out he- violated me, i guess, until after I ended it. I was telling my friends about a certain incident where I went it to give him a small kiss on the lips before leaving school and he took it further than I wanted and it really bothered me, and they told me that it was SA, and that realization sent me down a bit of a spiral. In addition, we used to make out and stuff in the school stairwell (bad idea, i know, dumb shit..), but after I ended this and got with my current boyfriend, whenever we were in a stairwell alone together, even if we're just walking through, I got- scared? almost? like an overwhelming urge to keep my distance and watch him, and- i really didn't like that. ive already had too many encounters with boys talking about my body in ways i didn't appreciate, and after i broke up with him he sent me some lame ass fucking apology about how 'he feels so guilty :(' like i would care. idk. i feel like im going through some 5 stages of grief LMAO. i've been working through it, but it still feels weird. bleh, idk >.< uhh some other stuff... i identify as goth (i like the term babybat so i prefer that lol) and started leaning more towards that kind of style and culture and expressing myself more freely now. i LOVE androgynous style, and basically aim to confuse people on whether im male or female in the near future. ummm uhhh i dunno :3 im more into video games and stuff, i rlly like honkai star rail and project sekai (ace attorney and sally face will always be my comfort games though) and uhhh idk what else to add. to anyone reading, please remember to love. uts damn near 3 am and idk what im saying anymore but pls show those around u that u love and care for them. you never know what a person is going thru, and your beautiful soul may just make more than a difference than u know. thanks for listening to my schizo ramblings.,.. goobnight....

[theroyalsavage]

10 Questions for Writers

tagged by @demonzoro - thank you so much for the tag saint!! i really liked reading through your answers <33

How many works do you have on AO3? // 62 now!! that's bonkers

What's your total AO3 word count? // 677,320...... even MORE bonkers. master's degree in yapping

What fandoms do you write for? // i usually just kind of end up writing whatever my brain is shaking around like a chew toy at the moment. im currently neck-deep in arcane, but i've also written for lots of other fandoms over the years, including one piece, mxtx, bnha, and the og percy jackson of course

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?// i try to!!!!! i want to!!!! i really really do want to!!!!! but then i blink and months have passed and i experience a crippling anxiety akin to forgetting to text your friend back until it becomes too awkward to reply

Have you ever had a fic stolen? // yes lol and i was SO mad because they copy/pasted everything into their new ao3 post except for the title. girl take my title too i left it there right at the beginning for you and everything

Have you ever co-written a fic before? // no i haven't! i'm not sure if i ever could tbh. i think i might be a bit too much of a perfectionist to adjust to another person's style/vision like that

What's your all-time favourite ship? // this question is so hard!! i often go through intense phases where i revisit ships and read through half the ao3 tag before chilling out again. maybe neil/andrew all for the game.... i've carried them with me for like a decade now. my eternal cross to bear

What are your writing strengths? // this is also a hard question omg. i really enjoy writing dialogue and like to think that i'm pretty good at capturing voice and character! i find it hard to recognize my own strengths, everything turns into word salad if i look at it for too long

What are your writing weaknesses? // i definitely have a tendency to over-write. editing me is always like UHGGGGHH GREAT!!!! another run-on sentence i have to cut down or simplify!!

First fandom you wrote for? // the first fandom i consistently posted fic for was pjo, but the VERY first fic i ever wrote was for lotr. it got sent directly to my bestie's dms and nowhere else

tagging: @whatiwouldnotgive & also absolutely anyone else who wants to do this and blame me!! go crazy go wild, please share your thoughts about writing

[cryinginthebigbluehouse]

HEY THERE!!! 🥪🥪🥪

I’m Cheese Sandwich, but please please please.. you can call me Mod Cheese!!

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Here’s some quick Mod Cheese facts…

☆ I use any and all pronouns (she/he are usually preferred) !!!

☆ Genderfluid \꒰･◡･๑꒱/

☆ FANDOM NERD ALERT!!! I have an unreasonable amount of media interests… (CHECK TAGS)

☆ If I were a kitchen utensil, I’d be a BIG LADLE!!!

☆ I’ve got a master’s degree in yapping, forgive me if I’m a yap-yap-yapper!

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I’ve got cheese in my knees just thinking about all the fun I’ll have posting on this blog ^_^ !!!

Toodles for now!!

- Mod Cheese 🥪

[whitehartlane]

Yap master sham will entertain you: im studying english studies 75% and proto and pre history 25% (basically archeology) and i am SO thinking about moving to ethnology from archeology but i LIKE that and now i went to a little counselor and i CANT do 125% (english 75% + archeology 25% + ethnology 25%) NOR 100% but i do english 50%!!! And I'm truly in a big rush to finish this bachelor quickly because EYEEEE want to do an ausbildung or more likely want to study art part time!! (Maybe distance?) And like... THAT SUCKS! because idk if i wanna change my minor from archeology to ethnology!!! And i think i might just do two ethnology courses for extracurricular ECTs .... But like arggggh!!!!! It's still annoying because everybody tells me to enjoy uni like as in go out and meet people and have fun but I'm truly just here to learn and get a farking bachelor and idk if i should feel bad but i like... I don't see myself having that much fun here 😭 like for me that comes after when I'm done .... Like rn i can pick what i do and where ill live but i feel like im more excited for my life AFTER uni!!??

hello master sham 🫡 now as for what to study i can’t tell you that, i quite like your idea about taking two extra ethnology courses if that’s something that really interests you!! what i do want to do is tell you to do whatever feels right for you. the university experience is different for everyone and highly depends on what you study; some people like the partying and clubbing and going out aspect of it and some people are purely there to learn.

as all things in life it’s good to find a balance. i understand wanting to be done with your bachelor’s as quickly as possible especially if you’ve got plans for after and if you don’t vibe with the people there but from personal experience something that i’ve had to learn the hard way is don’t postpone your joy. some phases of life are difficult or can kind of be nail-biting to get through but it’s rly important to not fall into that trap of ‘yeah after this i’ll probably be more excited/happy’ because that ‘this’ keeps changing and suddenly you realise you’ve put your life and your joy kind of on hold. i’m not saying that that’s what happening with you at all but reading through this i was reminded of that bc i felt just like this!

i think it’s rly important that you find your joy in your day to day life more than anything and that you chase that joy. you absolutely shouldn’t feel bad about having or wanting a different uni experience than others and if your perspective on it is that you’re here to learn first and foremost then that is a perspective that should be valued just like anything else and is 100% valid!! your balance can be found in other places, like doing art or going on walks, it doesn’t necessarily have to be the german culture of parties and meeting people if that’s not what you want to do.

university is mostly also just a time of figuring yourself out on a personal level. what you’re studying, what you want to do, that’s all important—but the person you’ll grow into and become over the course of your degree. for some people that’s really major like figuring out their sexuality but for some people it’s more minor like learning how to make a grilled cheese without setting the kitchen on fire. and in the end this is another phase of your life, everything works out in the end even if it seems like you’ve got no clue what you’re doing in the moment, i promise you that! i rly believe firmly that whatever happens in life is a redirection to something else, so maybe you decide you wanna do eng 50% and archeo/ethnology 25% each and that opens up a path, or you switch to ethnology and that opens up another path, or you stick w archeology and that opens another path. in the end you’ll get where you need to go. there are only doors, no right or wrong things, and the good thing about doors is that you can always go back through them. 🤍

(also small tip from me an der stelle: if you’re stuck between two choices that you feel you want equally then take a coin and decide that one is heads and one is tails. flip it and look at the result. if the first feeling you feel when you see the result is a feeling of dread in your stomach then it’s not the thing you want right now. doesn’t always work but it helps!)

[justasmallbloginabigklainefandom]

@sohereswhatyoumissedlastweek replied to your post “Bro i'll have my own kitchen soon. I don't have to...”:

I need the full story!! I don't think I saw it on my dash

​I only mentioned it in passing while yapping about Kierkegaard's philosophy of hope.

Basically I've been living in this student flat since 2017 and it's fine. I am fine. I got very lucky from the start, since I have my own bathroom, living room and bedroom. All together it's around 23m2, so yeet. Then I share a kitchen, a shared space, a washing machine and a dryer with 5 others. And I never thought I'd move, partially because I was supposed to stop studying in 2023 and you need to be a student to live here. But then after finishing my master's degree I added another 2-year master's degree WHICH I then extended into a 3-year master's degree cause stress (lol) and initially I planned on living the full extra years here as well, since again, this place is fine. The location is great. And it's affordable for this city.

But then last December I met up with my ""sister"" who lives in another student flat of the same organisation and her place is around 10m2 bigger with her own kitchen and only, like, €20 a month more expensive. And my mind started thinking. The reasons I never looked into moving before were a) the aformentioned graduation b) the expenses and c) this current one has a separate bedroom from a living room which gives me so much peace for some reason and I was under the impression this was the only building that offered that (as in, the others offer studios or single rooms).

But a) the aformentioned second master's degree + you can live here for around 9 more months after graduation, b) de kale huur scares people but with huursubsidie it's doable (aka the new apartment is even around €100 a month cheaper!!!) and c) my sister showed that there were more buildings that do this lay-out, but with a kitchen.

So since January I have been reacting on places. It's a lottery system, so completely random. A computer puts all applicants in a queue at random and the one who's placed first gets the offer bla, bla, bla. I have been looking at the building my sister lives in. That is the one I really wanted, but not the one I got. Then there was one on campus, aka my second choice. This one I got was my third choice and there was also a fourth choice that I actually genuinely didn't like so oop. So I've just been reacting weekly and hoping for the best (aka Kierkegaard would fucking hate me).

The fact that I got this one is so fucking wild to me, because literally yesterday I had to be talked out of withdrawing my application. And not only that, but I did this application last-minute. I applied every Wednesday, when the new applications opened. The thing is, a week ago I applied for an apartment at my first choice building, only to find out on Sunday that it's an apartment for disabled students. The whole thing was that there were currently no students needing those accommodations, so non-disabled students could apply, but there would be a clause in the contract that says that the moment a disabled student needs the room, you'd move out with the organisation seeking a new place for you. I didn't like that, so I withdrew and then was wondering if I should either sit this week out or apply for my 3rd choice building.

The reason I was doubting is because, as I mentioned, the applicant who places first gets the offer, but if they decline, the offer goes to the second place, and then third, and then fourth, and then fifth.... and I was no. 4 on an apartment of my first choice AND that ad hasn't finished processing yet after 3 weeks, which means no. 1 and possibly no. 2 rejected the offer. If no. 3 were to reject as well, the apartment would be mine. And I really REALLY wanted that apartment. So I did apply, but as I mentioned, I was this close to withdrawing EVEN THIS MORNING (you can before 11:00), because I was wondering if I should maybe take the chance on it. After all, there was a 3% chance I'd get the current one. And this was my 3rd choice. Monday and Tuesday I basically spent all day writing down the pros of this 3rd choice to convince myself to keep the application going. It's a great neighbourhood. It saves money. It's not 10m2 bigger, but around 7m2 and that's still a lot. I HAVE A BALCONY.

And people told me I needed to keep the application running just in case, because that 3% would still be more likely than 3 people rejecting an apartment, especially since a rejection means you are barred from applying for 10 weeks. AND THOSE PEOPLE WERE RIGHT, CAUSE I GOT THIS ONE.

So yes, it's wild to me that I spent months dutifully applying for my first or second choice (or not applying, if they weren't available) and then the week I apply for my third choice and I go on a rollercoaster of emotions because of it, I get it. I was a bit in a shock, and even though it's my third choice, I am still very, VERY elated. I have accepted the offer. They need to send me the contract and then it's official.

FUCK YOU KIERKEGAARD.

[mellyoraa]

ah, melly. saw your update status & decided to give my 2cents.

you have the time, be patient with yourself. it is easy for us to create fictional deadlines in our heads as in how we should (and when) reach certain milestones (graduation, marriage, children, basically everything) because of the influence of social media, and sometimes the people around us (direct or indirect).

but the truth is, there is no rush to have it all figured out. it is okay to struggle and to still be figuring out where or what you want to do in life, work-wise, - if anything, the moment you do finish your degree and get a job (because, you will) it will make that accomplishment all the more sweeter and rewarding 🥹 in my country we have a saying, the harder the climb, the better the view from the top.

please do not mind my yapping - in no way i wish to make it seem like i am patronize you, but i have been in the same headspace last year and had a major ✨️identity crisis ✨️, and accepting that i have to be patient (am not usually heh) and to reject an idea of having it all figured/planned out is necessary before age XY, actually did wonders to my psyche, and i hope it may offer you some comfort as well. your fanfics made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside and i figured, you deserve some love as well.

hang in there, you got this 🩵

- vk

i struggle to even articulate how grateful and touched i am that you took the time to write this personal message of encouragement to me 🥺🥺💙💙 (i know who you are and i appreciate you so much). I really do struggle with being patient and feeling like i need to accomplish things within a certain time frame bc i used to be a super high achiever who never failed at anything as a kid/teen (classic 'gifted kid to burned out flop era adult' adhd timeline) and then my disabilities have knocked me down from that pedestal really brutally as an adult. so i'm having a really hard time adjusting to the reality that things might take longer and be harder for me to achieve bc of my disabilities, and i keep comparing myself to my neurotypical peers who don't struggle like i do to manage life. my family try to get me to have a bit of perspective and recognise that it's a huge achievement for me to soon be done with my master's degree in psychology, and that not everyone would have managed to do that whilst struggling with the difficulties that i've faced, but i can only see that it's going to have taken me 8 years when it should have taken 5 years and that i feel so 'old' to not be ready for 'real adult life' at 27. Anyway, I'm so so grateful that you took the time to send me this message 💙💙💙

[kawaiicatsposts]

I got a master's degree in yapping

[lilac-fille]

My Blog

Hello everyone! My name is Sarah and you probably know me from Reddit. I decided to move from Reddit to Tumblr since the community tends to be a lil more nicer here lol. My blog will be based around the teachings of Neville Goddard and Joseph Murphy.

Disclaimer: I WILL NOT OFFER ADVICE OR TEACHINGS. I am not about that lol. I am only here to discuss Neville Goddard, time on Reddit, the impact of social media and LOA, etc. If you know you know lol.

♡ About Me: My name is Sarah, which means Princess in Hebrew. I currently hold a Masters Degree. I am a Virgo and live in the US. I enjoy reading, writing, Pilates, and music. ♡

♡ About the Blog: I want to move from Reddit to here so I can discuss NG and JM freely. No hate or beef with people on Reddit. I just want to express my two cents on everything without bugging people on various subreddits.

♡ How I found the Law (my lore lol): As I said before, my name is Sarah (PeachySarah on Reddit) who has decided to move over to Tumblr to freely talk about the teachings. (No beef I thought I can just yap on here without bothering people in the subreddits lol). My discovery of NG and JM happened over a little of two years ago. I am not a huge specialist in regards to spirituality but I have always pondered the meaning of life, like those who walked before me. I wanted to find a meaning and why some people get what they want and others don't. It was on my mind since I was a teenager. How come I got accepted one of the best schools in the state while my friend, who has done 10x better than me in school, did not. Lying in bed in my apartment at the time, I was scrolling through Reddit and social media in general. It was silent and my cat was laying next to me. I came across a post about the Law of Attraction, which I heard of, but never paid attention to it until now. I scroll through stories of people using their mind to gain the opportunities they wanted. To me, I thought this was a lie and moved on - until I found the NG subreddit of course. I read several transcripts of NG lectures and books. I read the success stories of many on there but for the rest of 2022, I consume knowledge and towards the end of that year, made my Reddit account lol. I returned to my parents that year and ended up getting surgery in the fall of 2022. I was okay with it because I was in my mid-late 20s figuring out what the heck I was doing with my life but NG was there for me and the community on Reddit as well.

Since late 2022, I have successes of using the law itself. I am truly aware of what I can do with my Subconscious Mind.

So that's about it! ♡ I might reblog pretty photos for vision boards on here and maybe MAYBE world issues. Thank you for reading. ♡

[willowtalks]

Chapter 01: The beginning of 2024

I promise to my self. I will comeback here every weekend to throw up all the blabbering inside my heads. Sorry not sorry for every grammatical mistakes that i wrote here, if you are a judgemental grammar-nazi kinda person, please.... repent. HEHE

I inspired by a figure who keep writings in his medium about his day, story and his life which i wonder how was that real between all the business that he had. Beside of it, i figure out my new hobby since my hobby in arts and drawings are related to work, somehow its hard to find the satisfaction anymore. Well, that is why i come back here to get along with the words as what i did before.

I believe one day my writings will bring out some restropective feelings when i read this again someday. For my friends who read this, I know for sure that you are in your boredom, mischievous and idk what ure figure out since I rarely share about this on Tumblr, but if you read this, please tell me! (even though the writer-me-my self don't want to be found)

In the end of last year, i had made a big change to transform my self which i never regret my decision. I signed out from my previous company to have a sabatical rest to re-store and re-stack my brain. Gratefully, i figure out all the challenge that my psychologist had told me before. I get closer with my family, especially to understand about my mom and dad, i found a plenty of new friends with new perspective which was more conservative than my circle in Jakarta and also i got a chance to experience what-people-said the butterfly inside stomach. I re-arrange my routine with exercise and jogging. Now i know my self more, even i understand how to handle the sound inside my brains, (even though sometimes they still won the war.)

As the first child of the family, i should face the reality of living my adolesence life, therefore i applied to the new company where i can evolve more than before. Not so long after my job seeking time, i got job in NGO which concerned in education field. I have vision that this company could be my stepping stone to get master degree and scholarship. (Amen!)

The beginning of 2024 is the real battle after i hid out from all the responsibility. Welcoming the new era of me and my work as a graphic designer, the back and forth revision and yap maintain the interaction with the work-mates. All in between, i also need to maintain my mental health so i could still be a functional as a person even though the monster feels like want to jump out to hold the knife. LOL. At first, its hard until the time im writing this paragraph, i still keep the battle inside, the time of living alone but i know i would passed all this conditions.

Gunung Putri, the place that i lived now. Actually, its a liminal space for me. The chirping of the birds, church bells and people's laugh reminiscence me with the childhood memories that had been living inside me. The place where i experienced the first traumatic era of my life, where i figure out how the adults could be such a living evil. I still remembered how the kid inside me said "Im scared" when the first time i took a step on that holy yet traumatic building. Now i could release the forgiveness toward all the things that happened in the past, but im not sure if i can clearly actively comeback. Nothing has significantly changed in here, i still love the scenery, the shady trees, muddy soil that is still there from the past. Its giving me a sound of solutide (sometimes) Its better than living in the middle of metropolitan city. I guess!

[mudmushrooms]

all i do is yap. i got a degree in yapology. a phd. a masters. nothing but that womp whomp whomp sound from charlie brown. forever.

[meisters-kleiner-fuchs]

HOT DAYS AND PETRE (sorry, I’m in the Southern Hemisphere)

It’s currently 36 degrees Celsius.

I haven’t left the house for a day or two and master is currently away. He won’t be back for a week or two and I’ve done my best to organise a sort of den on his bed (shh he doesn’t know - there is the pillows everywhere 😶).

So, I did go shopping the other day for some food and stumbled across these neat little teething items for pets which were in bone shapes and other pet related shapes. You fill them with water and then place them in your freezer and allow your pet to chew on them. They’re good for teeth as well for non human pets but I think they could be used in a petre setting.

It’s got me thinking about a pet regression day for summer.

1) Be aware that you will need to put sun cream on your pet and appropriate clothing for outside (I’m not ok with public petre- so the garden is best for this… unless you have permission for public play- personally, being a solitary creature: it’s a no from me).

2) always make sure your garden or space is safe. Appropriate paw pads and knee protection always - you never know what is in the grass. There could be insects that bite, wasps, bees, broken glass etc etc. this is also a massive safety precaution when your partner has negative reactions to bees and wasp stings.

3) water play- this could be interesting. You can set up a kids pool for your little in the yard. Use the hose and let them chase the water. Fill the pool with waterproof toys. Waterproof nylon collars- a must.

4) have a resting space like a picnic blanket. This should be sun shaded. I’ve had second degree burns from sun burn - it ain’t pleasant. You can have pillows inside but remember to put a towel inside if you will be using the kids pool.

5) frozen treats! Frozen blueberries in yoghurt and other fruits. Cold sandwiches with cold meats. The fun healthy stuff for your pet!

6) bring a bag of gummy bears and train your pet to wait by placing the gummy bear on their nose.

7) a beach day could be fun- if you are lucky enough to be solitary on them. Play retrieval games and dig in the sand. Let your pet chase seagulls and run from the waves.

8) dig holes in sand pits or in garden beds- although you might get scolded by your CG

9) if you have other friends who do petre, invite them! Chase a ball! Play music to cover up the yipping and yapping noises if needed.

10) if it’s your thing… roll in the grass!

Space rules:

1) don’t allow your pet to relieve themselves in the play area. If they do, they get time out. Get them to notify you with a signal if they need toilet time. Leg cocking can act as the signal. You can either a) stop petre for a toilet break or b) take them to another spot in the yard (if you allow this).

2) no digging up pot plants and stay away from the compost bin.

3) sun cream as per the directions on the bottle.

4) keep an eye out for sun stroke or heat exhaustion. You both need to be kept safe. Plenty of water and shade.

5) wildlife may be present so be careful. Keep an eye out for snakes etc. make sure your grass is cut low for this reason. Rushing your friend or lover to the hospital would not make a good day of summer petre.