#charlie rants

[jamesunderwater]

Hi hello good evening, friendly reminder that identifying as asexual and/or aromantic does not mean the individual: has no sex drive; is never interested in romance; never desires romantic relationships; has never had and/or does not ever want to have sex; does not have fantasies nor masturbate; and so on..... but perhaps the most important reminder is: just because someone's relationship to sex and romance differs from societal expectations does not mean it is something to fix

thank you, carry on (:

[br0-k3n-sch00lb01]

First of all mari what the HELL

second of all

SUNNY LOOKS SO DISAPPOINTED LMFAOOOO

[charlieg1rl]

genuine question...

han in “you in my blurred memories“ or han in “as i told you“

because recently i’ve decided to rewatch the KBS Song Festival performance from JYP Nation and started thinking about how STAYs went crazy over him in “you in my blurred memories”

now personally for me it’s “as i told you” because han got to showcase more, the choreo, the vocals 😫, but also the song preference ig 🤷‍♀️

but also now everytime i listen to the original songs, i can only think of han 😭

also don’t take this as me saying “you in my blurred memories” wasn’t good, i just liked the “as i told you” performance better

*edit: WHY DID I FORGET IT WAS BLURRED AND NOT FADED 😭

[brknschlb]

brknschlb is back babbyyyyyyy /j

Daily reminder to drink water and SMILLEEEEE <- emu otori reference ‼️‼️

…i forgot how to talk on this blog

uhhh

okay ilyg bye <3

Im gonna b getting my hair bleached n dyed blonde also!! And if I get bored o that i’ll rebleach it and add teal ombre…

[sp1der-pngisnotavailable]

WOO BOOPS ARE BACK ^_^

[meltedfuckingmarshmallow]

just saw someone make karen wheeler’s monologue to nancy about st*ncy and actually i dislike this fandom sometimes

[goldfishontheceiling]

I HATE HAVING SO MANY IDEAS BUT NOT HAVING THE TALENT TO DO THEM

TALENTED PEOPLE IF YOU NEED IDEAS SEND ME AN ASK OR SOMETHING ILL GIVE YOU IDEAS FOR YEARS TO COME /hj

AND IF YOUR OVER HERE BEING HUMBLE AND DENYING YOUR TALENT THEN STOP BEING HUMBLE /j /lh

[squizzledizzle]

i had a friend said "You cant ship banjo and kazooie they are friends and would be weird bc they r a different species."

bitch watch me do a sketch then 👀����🏽

[jamesunderwater]

i'm so annoyed because you'd think i have all this time on my hands to be here, replying to asks; on ao3, reading my friends' fics; on discord, actually replying to shit; or for the love of anything good, on fucking google drive, writing.

but my mom's house feels so foreign, so without a place for me to be me, that i am stuck in this limbo waiting for a moment where i somehow, magically feel myself enough to actually do any of those things. and the moment hardly ever comes, unless it's late at night when my mom and her roommate have gone to bed.

but if i'm not careful, if i stay up too late, i won't sleep at all that night. and sleep is a precious fucking commodity when you're recovering and uncomfortable 90% of the time. so i go to bed early, eyeing my computer as i climb into bed, saying i'm sorry in my head. and i am - sorry to my friends and mutuals, to the readers of my fics, even to this (totally formed by my autism) nebulus entity that is Online Things, some weird internet god-thing I'm sure I'm disappointing.

but mostly I'm really fucking sorry to me. because somehow i am blaming myself for "denying" myself time doing the things that I love, that bring me joy. fuck, though. can't i just be sad, and not blame anyone? i fucking miss normalcy. i miss control. i miss my life.

anyway. yeah. i hope this weekend i can do some of those things more. but if i can't, know that i am really fucking sad about it.

[br0-k3n-sch00lb01]

reblog if you believe in stranger supremacy

[brknschlb]

broken jumpscare!

Uhh

last one shouldn’t… be sexual

actually scratch that none of them should be sexual

I took thse photos a while back and forgt to post them… but im gonna post on this acc more now

(Im wearing this exact outfit today wtf…)

That dumbass ol bra when i run over and look at you like Basil Omori in the dark

Shhhh my mirrors are crusty as fuck who cares?? No they arent they’re clean fym

Focus on me and not my cringe fanboy room oki?? >_<

Pretend i’m normal for a little while!!

[meltedfuckingmarshmallow]

i hate ed blogs sososososo much fuck off fuck off fuck OFF “pro recovery but not for me!!!1!1!” FUCK OFF actively posting advice on how to starve yourself is very not pro recovery of you you ASS oh my GOD i hate this website i hate girls starving themselves and making it aesthetic i hate that dollette bullshit you are not lana del rey you are not audrey hepburn you are KILLING YOURSELF

[welcome-to-the-shit-library]

hey so we put your morally grey character in a fandom. yeah half the fanbase makes them into a perfect angel who did nothing wrong and the other half depicts them as a cartoonishly evil villain who hurts people for fun. no we dont know how to explain that people can do bad things for good reasons or good things for bad reasons. sorry man

[jamesunderwater]

Yall you couldn't make up the shit in my life rn if you tried.

In July I was sharing a 1 bedroom temporarily with my best friend with the intention to move to a 2 bedroom together in September after my top surgery. Less than 2 months later, he's moving 8 hours away in 3 weeks so he can be closer to his family, because the tumor in his leg that they used to think was benign might actually cancerous and will either way need intense surgery, meanwhile instead of returning to work in a week and starting my second year of grad school, I am packing to go back to my mom's house in the hellhole that is FL, because my incision reopened on one side and there is a literal hole in my chest that I need someone to fill with almost a foot of ribbon gauze every day until it closes. If im lucky and things go WELL, I will return the first week of October to a hollow 1 bedroom apartment with only a twin mattress and a couch waiting for me, my best friend gone, no grad school to return to, financially unstable, and probably a slew of unresolved trauma from the past two months lmao

[br0-k3n-sch00lb01]

i think my condo is teto territory now chat

[charlieg1rl]

ok so i’ve scrapped chapter 8 of the perfect pretender, which was the milan chapter but i did so because it felt like i couldn’t really do anything with the story afterwards. I do still want to include hyunjin going to milan but maybe will capitalize on it by creating distance between ‘lovers’ and also some parent’s suspicions ??