#god it's so tiring
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sometimes i really get caught into thinking "oh if i had a partner life wouldn't be this hard, i would have someone to count on, someone to share my burdens with" and as much as this is partially true when you have a serious committed relationship, i also think i need to remember (more like engrave in my brain) that no matter how loving of a partner i can be lucky enough to find, if i don't stop running away from my own life, i'll never start living it. like, letting myself be consumed by the thought of love and a relationship is sometimes really a desperate attempt to find a way out of difficult things that feels "safe" enough to look innocent: of course a loving partner would want to protect you, that's not a bad thing. but a partner must not be a refuge from life, that would be of no good, no help. that would be detrimental to both my own life and my partner's. a supportive partner would be one to propel me towards life, to help me come out of the impenetrable protective shell i built around myself, to be able to work through my fears with the idea that I'm not alone and especially not helpless. a healthy and supportive partner would be empathetic and tender with me but would help me stand on my own two feet, would see the obstinate resilience and strength in me especially when I can only see fragility and defencelessness.
I feel like sometimes I want someone big and protective to shield me from everything sharp and harsh and difficult, but instead I need someone who will take my hand and say "hey, things will be alright, let's just move towards life together, one little step at a time"
#idk if this makes sense to anyone#could be also very specific to my own issues and will talk about this with my therapist but i felt like sharing#as a scared little creature whose most self destructive behaviour is just staying in freeze mode forever out of fear -#- i think i'm starting to see that an extreme uncontrolled desire for a relationship could also hide one face of my avoidance mechanism#also cause i often fall into thinking “oh once i have a partener i will succeed in this and that” “once i have a partner things will be ok”#but it's like#no#a partner can't save me i need to do that#a partner can be there for me and sure it would be nice and desirable ofc but i have to do the work for myself#i cant hide in their arms more than i can hide inside myself#hiding from life is not less self destructive if you do it in someone else's arms instead of within yourself#god it's so tiring#working toward healing#i wish i could have a hug and a kiss on my forehead#that i can say#personal#mine#my post#about life#about relationships#mental health#freeze response#love
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obsessed w their before and afters
#these guys linger in my brain its their home now#god this is so messy. i tire of drawing transformers (i will continue to draw transformers)#maccadams#transformers#transformers one#tf one#megatron#d-16#orion pax#optimus prime#megop#dpax#artists on tumblr#digital art#fan art#art
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New season dropped,, ive only watched scar and joel's pov so far and i couldnt rest until i drew somethinf ,,, dont have everybody's design down quite yet but we r going somewhere *smiles*
#wild life#life series#life series spoilers#wild life spoilers#wild life smp#grian#goodtimeswithscar#solidaritygaming#ldshadowlady#mumbo jumbo#skizzleman#inthelittlewood#rendog#smallishbeans#geminitay#ethoslab#bdoubleo100#tangotek#pearlescentmoon#scott smajor#zombiecleo#impulse#that is just so many tags oh my god#im so tired with tagging#vale art
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above all else a trans woman is a person. above all else a trans women is a woman who goes to the same grocery store as you and buys fruits in the same grocery cart as you and goes home and eats her dinner the same as you. above all else a trans woman is a woman who dresses like you do and talks the same way you do. above all else a trans woman is a woman who wants to be cared about the same way you want to be cared about and a trans woman is a woman who makes friends the same way you make friends. above all else you should care about trans women because they are people. treat her as such.
#pig originals#im so fucking tired. right now. let me know if something here doesnt make sense or whatever but god damn#its always the fucking singling out of transfem people i just. want everyone to have a normal life#i want everyone to have the chance to worry over their clothes or whatnot not whether. they're going to be respected as Actual Human Beings#i want us all to have the opportunity to live quiet happy lives forever#can we fucking do it!!!!! ahh!! ahh im going to explode
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furries are at least 2.25x more likely to have been diagnosed with a form of autism, are on average 50-100% more likely to have experienced bullying unrelated to being a furry growing up than their peers, only 10% identify as heterosexual, and 50% of furries are found to experience some form of disability
i'm just really tired of seeing people in 2023 still acting like there's no possible connection to be made with seeing furries as disgusting sex perverts who deserve to be ostracized and bullied or made fun of when 9 out of 10 of us are queer
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make it vicious, take a stab
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#gojo satoru#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jujutsu gojo#jjk gojo#jjk satoru#blood/#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#just in case idk#i believe in night moves fv supremacy#i feel like i say this every time but im dead deceased on the floor in the ground etc etc#maximum effort fr gojo as usual sighhhhhhhhhhhh#3 days on this mf who let me draw another mirror who didnt talk me down#i got so frustrated after i finished his reflection only to realize i had a whole other half gojo to draw#do not look too closely ik its not perfectly mirrored ik ik ik i wanted to die the whole time pls b kind#especially the hair gjhdfkdgk the last mirrored char i drew was megumi and at least with him his hair is dark#with which i can Conceal my mistakes#none of tht here sighs . this freak and his florescent hair#anyway even tho i died and perished and expired etc i am . SO happy w this u have no idea#blood sweat and tears went into this one#and easter eggs! so many easter eggs#pls take it and enjoy im tired of staring at him and his god awful lipstick job . make yourself decent smh
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"but why do you even ship them-" IT BRINGS ME JOY AND WHIMSY!!!!!!!
#sonadow#kerdly#capsei#valgrace#superbat#hijack#revalink#sidlink#shellshocked#leosagi#bagelbites#tenrose#god i am so tired#also i'm just noticing that most of these are mlm ships??? i'm not fetishizing them i swear but wtf is up with that#for some reason literally every wlw ship is leaving my mind#um. um. OH#harlivy#karababs#uhhhh#wow it should not be this difficult to think of women#suselle#bubbline#zelink#okay i think that evens it out a little bit#“bUt LiNk IsN't A gIrL” stfu
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I think, perhaps one of the funniest things to come from EPIC popularising the Odyssey is that now a ton of people think Poseidon wanted to kill Odysseus.
In the Odyssey, Poseidon has no intention of killing Odysseus. In fact, part of the whole reason Zeus lets Poseidon do whatever he wants even though he thinks Odysseus is rad and should get to kiss his wife is explicitly because Poseidon had no intentions of killing Odysseus. Poseidon wanted to pay back the suffering/inconvenience blinding Polyphemus would have caused. It's a really abstract thing tbh. How do you pay back someone permanently disabling your son? Poseidon's solution was just to amputate Odysseus from his other half; i.e. Penelope. The end game was never murder, it was always an endurance race.

(Od. Book 1: Zeus reassuring Athena that he is not, in fact, a part of Odysseus Hater-Nation. Trans. Robert Fagles)
Also, for those wondering if there's any sort of in text reason for why Poseidon wasn't around in God Games - at the time in the Odyssey when Athena petitions Zeus to let Odysseus leave Calypso's island, Poseidon was -checks notes- on vacation in Ethiopia. Yep. He left to Ethiopia for a festival and thusly was very much absent for Athena's whole "please let Ody go? Please? 🥺" request.

(Od. Book 1: While Odysseus was suffering, Poseidon went to party in the east)
I am begging y'all to read the Odyssey. It's a comedy for everyone except Odysseus and Penelope who are, in fact, suffering 24/7 365.
#ginger rambles#ginger chats about greek myths#Sorry for the quality of the quotes but I'm too tired to google a pdf vers of the Odyssey and then edit those so y'all are getting#my crunchy pictures from one of my physical copies of the book lol#it's reiterated multiple times that Poseidon doesn't want Odysseus dead too#he is literally just driving him mad on the ocean because that's what Odysseus condemned Polyphemus to by blinding him#Also there's no good way to mention this but the Odyssey starts#by Zeus lamenting how mortals blame all their troubles and miseries on the gods when that's just not fair#because the gods go out of their way to warn the mortals that will be saddled with the most wretched fates#and they ignore the gods and do whatever they want anyway LMFAO#It's a really smart way to tie in the whole Orestes plot that would have wrapped up in between Odysseus getting stranded on Ogygia#and Odysseus getting off of Ogygia#epic the musical#epic the wisdom saga#zeus#athena#odysseus#poseidon#the odyssey
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Gaze upon me, and witness my glory!
#im so tired of this painting get me out#im done im doneeee#for some reason i made this canvas big as hell#like 11x17#so i could make this a print. if i was brave.#im not tho so u guys just have to deal with it#tf sentinel prime#ANYWAYS enjoy! I hope you like it!#maccadam#transformers#sentinel prime#transformers one#oh my god I’m so cooked I forgot to add to the end of that sentence#it’s there now
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Oxygen
#my art#oc#original character#mixed media#god this thing is so jittery but im so tired of making it so I don't even care anymore#beautiful but jittery sky woman#tginf
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great game. great god game even.
#roxx art#ggg inspekta#ggg godpoke#great god grove#iiii was gonna put more doodles in this post but i didnt finish and im tired and wanting to sleep so#expect more stuff soon ig but jgkfkgkgng nothin for now lol#also i hope tje meme still translates even with inspektas accent dialogue JFKSJD
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you know what i think is really cool about dungeon meshi? the fact that it really handles the whole 'how our food is made' so gracefully. in this day and age, we've become so disconnected from how our food is produced and distributed that the thought of how our food is obtained brings disgust to many people (and for the big industry farms, it honestly should! but im referring to our existence as omnivores in the food chain). marcille acted ridiculous whenever the thought of killing a monster for food is brought up, but honestly, she's a great model for how many people nowadays react whenever they have to truly think about what they are consuming/are brought to a meat farm.
senshi shows the characters (and us, the audience) about the process of making food in a respectful, genuine way to the creatures he has used to produce nourishing meals. by explaining the nutrition and benefits of each creature, he creates and healthy relationship between the consumers and the meal they have. the show really brings a new dimension of respect for each of our meals. truly the bob ross/marie kondo of cooking.
#dungeon meshi#senshi#marcille donato#laois touden#marie kondo would be so proud theyd get along great tbh#text post#my posts#god i hope i articulated this well im tired but i know what im trying to say#like people who eat meat but won't eat meat with bones because then they think of it as an animal: this is directed at you#it was always an animal and its honestly more disrespectful to ignore it#this is also not anti-vegetarian this is more just a general observation of our society as a whole#delicious in dungeon
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Merry Christmas! feat. Leona 🎄
I know it’s late butttt I wanted to finish. I hope everyone had a good day!
[ Bonuses below the cut! ]
Artist note: i hope I can improve on faces in the 2025. I’m just…. Not too proud of the slow progress. I’m starting to think it’s how I render the face, so I’ll look into that.
#twisted wonderland#twst#twst fanart#twst ファンアート#twst leona#leona kingscholar#twisted wonderland leona#digital art#merry christmas#god im so tired hut uhh yea. i hope I could improve on faces in the near future.
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Oh? What's that? Ya'll want the next part of TSAU's story? Well fuck you you're getting this fucking thing instead.

#i should be making propaganda for the next round of the au competition cuz the gods know i'm gonna need it#but i wanted to draw this instead so here ya go eat up#i fORGOT DONNIE'S MARKINGS#.... do ya'll think anyone will notice??#well you're certainly gonna notice now that i pointed it out#i'll edit them in.... later.... i'm too tired rn#tizel art#my art#digital art#tmnt#rottmnt#teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#raphael#leonardo#michelangelo#donatello#raph#leo#mikey#donnie#rottmnt raph#rottmnt leo#rottmnt mikey#rottmnt donnie
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You understand change. You know why it's necessary to destroy something to become what you want to be... To become what you need to be. To become what the people need you to be. Change is destruction. And destruction is irreversible, even if you can pick up the pieces to build something better. . . . . . . You don't know how these new broken pieces will make anybody better. But you'll make sure it won't be for nothing.
#my art#in stars and time#ISAT Role!Swap AU#Too tired to make comics but just enough energy to make random sketches fueled by vibes and the desire to draw lil Change God statues!#I need to draw the Change God more often. They're so shaped and fun :3
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yeah we might be brothers in christ but so were cain and abel so shut the fuck up before i decide to find a rock about it
#postscript;#if you try to tell me cain and abel were not brothers in christ shut up pls#i've studied theology for nearly a decade. i know more than you.#christ's harrowing of hell exists to retroactively turn all of humanity even before his existence into ''brothers'' in christ#because it is not a literal term it is an evangelist term. bc christianity in all denominations is evangelistic in nature#not being a christian is 1. a moral incorrect choice according to them and#2. not actually possible. everyone is judged as a christian everyone is fundamentally supposed to be christian#calling someone a brother in christ is just calling them christian.#so ergo according to doctrine cain and abel are in fact brothers in christ#but#and this is far more important than any of that#i was not trying to be perfectly accurate to the theological timeline of the tanakh vs torah vs old testament vs new testament vs apocrypha#i was trying to make a silly one line joke on the internet#and all you do when you try to go Well Actually They Werent is make yourself look stupid and pedantic.#so for the love of god stop it with needing to be right online im so bored and tired
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