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nikkiruncks · 10 days ago

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kelso and brooke + nate and betsy parallels

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spielzeugkaiser · 1 month ago

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Day 6: Geralt + ocean Favourite 90's Anime

I switched the prompts around again today! The 90's anime prompt tickled my brain since I saw it, because while I didn't see it in the 90's, my favourite anime of that time period is Berserk, and doesn't Berserk live rentfree in my brain to this day-

#spielzeugkaiser does inktober #artists on tumblr #art #berserk #guts berserk #griffith #PLEASE DON'T BE FOOLED #that is a bastard man!!!!!#I love griffith as a character but don't I wanna see him die terribly even though I LOVE HIM in a 'he deserves to be strangled' way #listen to everyone who knows berserk and nows my AUs this must be. like the “ahhh” moment. because of course I love berserk #am I a firm believer that things would have gone better if they fucked? maybe.#I have Berserk on the same shelf in my brain as Banana Fish. the 'don't touch because it upsets you so much' shelf #I love it tho (both of them)#god I need to do one of the prompts with banana fish too #I also decided I'll switch the prompts when I feel like it because. I wanna have fun

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skywalkr-nberrie · 3 months ago

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One of the biggest arguments I’ve seen used by the Ob*d*l*s against Anidala, is that scene in the ROTS novel where Padmé says she could trust OW with the secret of the rebellion and was hesitant to tell Anakin and I just wanna say:

Padmé wasn't an idiot. She was an extremely intelligent and competent woman, perfectly able to understand that loving Anakin and thinking that he could be trusted with a certain politic-related matter were two very different things and reducing her choice regarding who to trust with an important political matter only on the basis of her feelings of romantic love diminishes her professionalism, and this is why I say y'all could never understand her.

Padmé didn’t have to "love" OW or even like him at all to know he was the perfect Jedi to ask for help in a secret political matter.

That's the point being made in the novel, she’s hit with the realization that Anakin in this particular moment could not be told this piece of info because of his relationship with Palpatine, and Padmé specifically mentions in the Junior ROTS novel that she didn't want to make Anakin “keep a secret” if he didn’t agree with their stance because it’d be “unfair.” So this also played a part in why Padmé didn’t think it best to inform Anakin about the Rebellion. It honestly had little to do with her actually lacking trust in him, and more to do with the circumstances she was in not allowing her to be open with her husband and her not wanting to make him choose between his wife and his “father figure.”

However, Padmé knows OW’s political ideas aren't tied to ONE particular person but to a philosophy, one which is closer to her own, at that point. None of this was ever meant to be hinted as “romantic” or even remotely insinuated as romantic. It’s strictly professional and even the tone of the scene makes that so abundantly clear.

All I’m saying is that, some of these proshippers are doing the most out here to try and prove their ship, like my loves? You forgot a very important thing called ✨ context ✨ and regardless of her rational thinking, Padmé still went out of her way to try and talk out all of this Rebellion secrecy stuff with Anakin when she confronted him in the scene where she asks if he ever thought they were “fighting on the wrong side.” Padmé didn’t trust OW in the same way she trusted Anakin (with her entire self and being) she had the level of trust and love for Anakin that was only meant for him.

Mixing up her unwavering faith in Anakin as her husband with her trust in OW’s devotion to duty as her comrade/ally is purposely deluding yourself, because the two aren’t the same and therefore can’t be compared. An example of this is: Padmé constantly putting more value to Anakin’s words over OW’s in the end of ROTS when he came to tell her of Anakin’s “crimes”. She completely disregarded what OW had claimed about her husband and instead made her way to where Anakin was herself, to ask him directly. Despite what the truth was, this is proof of her trusting Anakin unconditionally, and I didn’t even think I had to spell that out because it’s as clear as day.

In conclusion, Padmé didn’t trust OW more than Anakin, she just knew the circumstances she was in didn’t exactly make it easy for her to openly talk with her husband about these matters and that’s part of what played into the issues they had in ROTS, it’s exactly what Sidious wanted.

#star wars #anidala #anakin skywalker #padmé amidala #sw novels #revenge of the sith novelization #revenge of the sith junior novelization #avoiding tagging and using full character names because I don’t wanna attract those weirdos on my post #haters dni #anti ob****d*la #i’ve seen shippers claim that ow and padme would make a better couple simply because they both value duty and share some of the same ideals #even though padmé’s strong sense of duty doesn’t define her personal identity #she’s always wanted to leave behind her responsibilities to live a simple happy life with her husband #she stays out duty and care for peace and justice in the galaxy #which is actually a trait she shared with anakin not ow #anakin is loyal and dutiful because he cares about helping people and that’s padmé’s aim too #ow stays to help people because of his devotion to the jedi #that’s not the same #saying she’d be more compatible with ow is like the punchline of a bad joke #in every way padmé shares more in common with anakin when it comes to the core of her personality #and relationships aren’t built off sharing ideals mind you #it’s about connecting and sharing core values which is what anakin and padmé always had #there’s a reasons why padmé and ow argued a lot in wild space #padmé says the one thing her and ow can agree on is loving anakin otherwise their mindsets clash way too much #compatible? never in a million years.#padmé herself disagrees #and apart from the fact that canonically padmé never shows romantic interest in him #nor does the narrative include ow as one of padmé’s love interests…#holy god my tags deserve their own posts

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skitskatdacat63 · 1 year ago

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CC: [cheers heard in the background] Yes mate!! You did it!! Yes! That–that is a hell of a–[setup talk] Unbelievable.

FA: Copy, guys. This is for you guys, this is for you. This is for all of you, all of you guys. All of the the factory, everyone. Everyone, this is for you. Everyone [unintelligible], thank you very much.

CC: Well done, mate, I'm well impressed.

#for rosie!!! and anyone else whos never seen this bcs i certainly didnt #to me they sound like theyre gonna cry 😭😭😭 dw me too fr guys #and nando dedicating it to eveyrone is sooooo aoft #okay no offense to max i love him sm but god this radio was way better and way more worth it than his #both this and the dotd im salty abt bcs like okay sure they were battling up there for lead #but not for NEARLY as long as nando was defending #like maybe if it was someones first win sure but i honestly think nando deserves literally all the attention for this race #my dad kept making 'go away' hand motions whenever they showed max or lando instead of our guy 😭😭#god this team makes me soooooo unwell #bur yeah idk!!! i didnt see anyone post this!!!!#and yeah its 7 hours or so late but IT MADE ME CRY OKAY #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #2023 brazilian gp #we do a little bit of f1

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ciphersonlywife · 2 years ago

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Fitzgerald Grant go fuck yourself

#yes im talking about both of them #i despise the grant men so fucking much #the way fitz emotionally abused mellie and liv AND sa'd liv on more than one occasion #god i hate him sm #mellie deserves better #better being liv #olivia pope #fitzgerald grant #mellie grant #mellivia #olitz #olake #kerry washington #bellamy young #tony goldwyn #scandal

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tbsviovixx · 3 months ago

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Virtual hugs from nexus

#Heard we got tsams discourse yikes-#This for everyone who's being harrased one way or another by anyone #No matter what someone enjoyed by virtual content. They do not deserve harassment for it #Oh god the quality is ass-#Gen. Sending virtual love n hugs to EVERYONE. Involved both shippers n not shippers. No one deserves harassment or even to be sent gore #Stay safe out there yall. Tsams Tumblr a scary place rn♡#Tsams discourse #Changed up the message abit cause I'm not sure if it's just tsams artists being harrased #Tsams #Tsams art #tsams nexus #From someone who's neutral to tsams ships in general or even to tsams discourse #Do better gang. We don't condone harassment ever♡#Please. If you don't like something please block. Avoid confrontation for your mental health #Drink water go eat cuddle your pets/gen. ♡

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here-there-were-dragons · 4 months ago

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i have to wonder what super hardcore militant vegans think should be done about obligate carnivore animals, because in all my painfully-rapidly-approaching-30-years i've literally never actually seen anyone give a clear consistent much less halfway feasible answer on that

#mostly i've just seen like “how dare you ask questions you just want an excuse to murder you're sealioning ect”#or worse some vague and wildly improbable nonsense about like. fake robot animals covered in beyond meat or something equally convoluted #which is a thing i did see someone suggest as a serious answer #i mean i already know they think i'm a genetically inferior hateful vampire that should starve to death for the greater good #because my exact combination of health conditions make meat basically the only semi-safe way i can get close to enough nutrients #i know this because they have repeatedly told me that i'm either evil or should be sacrificed or both #and yelled at me for asking questions by bringing up the whole disabled thing and then they're like #“a lot of vegans i know are advocates for disability!” as if that ever means jack shit in the society that results from anything #no matter what you do a vast majority of people in any given society will *not* be advocates for the disabled. i'm sorry they just won't.#and what do you think public perception of people who physically can't survive like that is going to skew towards #in a society founded on the belief that non-vegan diets are evil?#at absolute best we're looking at being a heavily marginalized class generally seen as something like vampires and our existences taboo.#(as if these type's own insistence that they should be allowed to harass and shame people doesn't disprove their assertion that we won't be #thinking it could possibly go any better than that is a fucking fairy tale. human nature doesn't work that way.#you simply cannot eliminate the human desire to designate and abuse a class of have-nots. the absolute best you can do is mitigate damage.#take it from someone who's been multiple kinds of disabled and chronically ill all my life. people will not “just”. ever.#i get this even from people who are otherwise very aware of and VERY GOOD at avoiding this sort of thinking #“i'm a disability advocate!” no you are not. you are a poster. my experience has taught me that what people advocate for in their free time #means precisely jack shit for how they will actually act when faced with the situations they make otherwise rational posts about #and the fact of the matter is even if you somehow really are the perfect disability advocate a majority of people WILL NOT BE YOU.#a majority of people in society will be margrat from accounting who clutches her pearls when she sees the gays and thinks autism isnt real #and who has never had a nuanced thought in her life and actively does not want to #a vast majority of people in your Vegan Utopia will not be you and your friends who march with wheelchair users and volunteer at the shelte #a vast majority of people in your Vegan Utopia will be jenny who starved 8 cats to death on broccoli because she can't be bothered #and who thinks that “carnivores” are actual nazis and don't deserve healthcare because she saw someone say that online.#ALWAYS assume your society will be made up mostly of the worst kind of person it can because it WILL ALWAYS BE TRUE and you can't change it #most people seek the low-effort option. and evil is most often banal and low-effort.#i'm just so fucking tired of every single even vaguely lefty-adjacent political movement simultaneously acting like i don't fucking exist #and at the same time that i need to be sacrificed to achieve Utopia. god. at least conservative whackjobs are upfront and honest about #how they think that i'm a burden on society that needs to be Eugenics'd . rather than trying to morally gaslight me about it.

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lord-squiggletits · 8 months ago

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"Rodimus is a better Prime because it didn't hurt for him to bond with the Matrix while for Optimus it did" headcanon/theory my beloathed.

One day I'm literally gonna snap and make a whole post addressing why what's wrong bc I'm tired of the inaccuracy and tired of ppl not understanding the Point TM of IDW and its version of the Matrix/Primacy and even more tired of people putting down Optimus in favor of Rodimus by essentially arguing that being unworthy means you deserve to be punished/put in pain bc you just weren't good enough to hold the Symbol of Ultimate Authority

#it's wrong on so many levels both in terms of lore and as well as like what the general themes of idw1 are #it's just a validation contest using the matrix as some magical symbol to decide who's the most special #which is ironically something that was a plot point in exrid/OP. specifically how stupid of an idea that is ldskjflksd #ppl revealing that they havent read anything besides mtmte/ll as usual #like half the reason ppl think optimus is a bad prime and rodimus is a good prime is literally bc like #optimus was written by an author who was specifically trying to deconstruct him (sometimes to the point of absurdity)#and rodimus was written by an author who takes a more optimistic/idealistic approach. and is also better at writing #but also like am i seriously the only person who thinks that that argument is fucked up?????#like 'OP felt pain which means he's unworthy/not a real prime/not a true leader'#ok so you think that there's a hierarchy of moral goodness in which anyone who falls short of that Moral Ideal should suffer #as a sign of their unworthiness?? like does that not sound dystopian as hell to any of you?? why would you WANT the matrix to work like tha #even if the theory were true (which it isn't) why would you view the matrix as a good authoritative moral judge of character #if its idea of 'moral judgement' is to inflict pain on anyone who's supposedly not truly good/worthy #wasn't the entire point of the ending of LL (including rodimus being a good leader) that everyone is worth it?#like rodimus literally said 'you ARE damn well good enough' or something like that #so what? everyone else in the universe tries their best and that's enough but somehow when OP suffers it's like #a sign that he's not actually a good prime/leader?? we're really going with the punitive perspective purely for One Guy??#swear to god ppl are projecting their authority issues onto Optimus the way they shit on him for things they would excuse #if any other character did it #Optimus is uniquely deserving of pain/being marked as unworthy bc idk he was a cop once and that offends my delicate sensibilities #what's even funnier is how much harm was inflicted by rodimus as a captain sheerly due to his stupidity or ego but everyone forgives him #i guess bc as long as the matrix likes him that means he's valid no matter what he actually does as a person #WHICH IS SOMETHING IDW ITSELF ARGUED AGAINST BC A LOT OF THE PRIMES THAT WERE CHOSEN BY THE MATRIX #WERE DICKS AND THE FACT THEY COULD WIELD THE MATRIX DIDN'T MAKE THEM GOOD PEOPLE #like oh my god stop using the matrix as an arbiter of moral authority in idw1 it literally goes against the themes of the story #including the themes that are embodied in rodimus himself #idw op love

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yaoifortresstwo · 5 months ago

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breakups are so fucking weird. three years and just like that it's gone. huh

#helix.txt #gross i ended up spilling my guts in tags. look at them fucking writhing on the floor all bloody #dont rb please #vent #to quote fall out boy i knew it was over i just didn't know the date #yeah that's it. fall out boy can fix this.#i will feel better if i go listen to bang the doldrums #and infinity on high in general #and folie a deux. folie a fucking deux how i love that album #my chem will make me better. gerard way save me #god what a weird feeling. you used to know me better than any other person but then you moved hundreds of miles away and it worked #for a while. then two years later you said it wasnt working and that this was best for both of us. guess i never got the memo for that one #hope we treat other people better because i wasn't as kind as i should have been towards the end and you were never as thoughtful or con-#-siderate as i needed towards the end. we grew apart because you're bad at keeping contact over messaging #and in some ways the cracks in the foundation that grew from that were my fault too i guess. our conversations always felt one sided #maybe i was smothering you #you could never seem to keep more than a passing recollection of the things i liked or even pay much attention to them #but i wasn't great about that either #we just became different people. you weren't what i wanted or needed and you couldn't do long distance. whatever #i know it was the right thing i just wish it hadn't made me feel so damn awful #will we still talk after this? who knows. we didn't end on bad terms but things are definitely weird #and considering your track record with people you can only talk to online i'm not optimistic #you tried to break things off initially by saying you'd said you would improve in the past with nothing to show for it #something i didn't disagree with but i said it didn't bother me much. and it didn't #but it's complicated now. i did deserve better. but you made it clear i'm not getting it from you #you weren't as present or thoughtful as i needed #i wasn't there in person the way you needed and certainly not as considerate as i should have been. and for that second part i'm truly sorr #anyways. sorry. i'd been thinking about it for a long time anyway. i didn't want to admit it because i didn't like to think #about what it might bring. maybe i should have been braver #right. that's enough

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selfshippinglover · 2 months ago

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Vent ignore

#been trying to sleep for like 30 minutes #and my head hurts from being tired and crying #gods I'm such a little bitch #i make one little ittty bitty fuck up and my brain goes lol #see you can't get better #like dude i have to wake up at 5am can i cry anout this sfter work tomorrow instead.#you can kys after the captialism grind okay?#im head fucking hurts #it is weird when you have abandonement issues #and are constantly scared of veing abandoned #and then you fuck uo just the right way and your brain goes full opposite gears??#like #nah it's better that they leave you #they are better off with you #theyre safer when they're not with you #motherfucker pick a crisis #you can not have a problem with both!!#🙄🙄#sometimes i am like if i got a labatomy i would be a better #bit really thr problem is of i make one mistake my brain goes back to #if im not oerfect i will be left to die #which is valid and deserved and understandable #please i just wanted to sleep #stop throwing yourself a pity party #grow up or shut down #i should not share my emotions #lol #i have learned that whrn i talk to myself i am mean #but i still think that's better than being a prick to others #going to try to sleep now that that's out there

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bahoreal · 2 months ago

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part of the reason i love meng yao so much is that he was never given an easy decision in his entire life and no matter what he chose to do it always ended up being the wrong one in the long term.

#cql #faced with a series of impossible choices between give up the cultivation world and Fight he always fought #i still think he didnt intend to kill both jzxs i think that plan went out of hand but he did intend to use wwx as a scapegoat #like he didnt have a quarrel with zixuan and i think if zixuan had become sect leader life would have been better for meng yao #idk if he would have tried to take the leader seat. he didnt kill guangshang for the sect leader position he killed guangshang because of #the way he treated meng yao...#im bias i think since that is the apple of my eye and i love him but god. he was trapped between bad and worse for so much time #his only problem is that he kept killing people who were awful to him kfjdjfhd they deserved it tho x

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dilemmaed · 1 year ago

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just watched the new episode and the parallel of javi's death to the moose and nat's guilt over both is going to make me lose my fucking mind

#javi you deserved better im sorry. wonderful fucking episode and I love how your death was done but im still sad #nat being the first one to pull the card certainly was a choice I need to collect my thoughts more.#the way travis and nat both have a hand in javi's death.. god im sick this is going to make them even more fucked up I love their relations #yellowjackets

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nomairuins · 3 months ago

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i just fucking hate having ptsd all of it. so many stupid fucking things send me into fucking hysterics it sucks and i hate it and i dont want itttt anymore i dont want it.

#i literally like. i didnt tell u guys bc it was embarassing #but i had to hype myself up to eat a fucking orange the other day. like i was shaking and crying and i nearly threw up.#bc it fucking reminded me of All that and also bc its one of the only foods i got to eat outside ofm my one meal a day #while i was living there. bc my coworker gave me oranges sometimes #and one time she gave me a whole bag of cuties which was wonderful of her i miss her #but i pretty much like. bc during m-f i had a meal at work #and i could get something from the vending machine if i needed to #but on the weekends i had to either order food (which would always make me insanely nauseous bc of. the money stuff. yk) or just eat #what i had in my room bc i couldnt use the kitchen bc the roommates would be mad at me #and they might kick me out and id be actually fucked. its so crazy looking back that i genuinely the entire time i fucking lived there even #b4 the breakup the entire time i was in terror that theyd evict me. bc i wouldnt have been able to do anything abt it #i mean thats why i didnt like. leave him after he . and stuff. both bc i thought i didnt deserve anything better and bc i was terrified #theyd evict me and i wouldnt have any way to get home. it was terrifying #but ya. so for a couple weeks i rationed myself One orange per day lol. and on weekends that was all i was able to eat rly #idk. i hate ptsd. basicalllyyyy is the gist of ittt. and i keep thinking abt random fucking things they did to me #me when they jokingly tell me to starve myself when i literally have a fucking eating disorder. and when i told The Only Person i knew in #that fucking house abt it he told me i was being dramatic and i was just being greedy and etc. and then later when i got off work today i #saw on their fucking whiteboard in the kitchen i wasnt supposed to use Eat more <3 as one of their goals. while i went to sit in the garage #for the weekend eating a single fucking orange a day. god #idk. ive gotten better with eating i still have the scale but i ws able to go months without using it until the medical call the other week #and i havent used it since but. everytime i think abt all that itmakes me want to go back to it. i cant tho everyone would notice #i do still eat a wholee lot less than i did b4 washington but idk. idont remember if i even ate today i probably should but i dont feel #hungry but i cant even fucking trust that bc i Starved myself for so fucking long im too good at ignoring hunger. and i never was super in #touch with my body but im constantly numb now. idk.#ed ment #a2t #i ws gonna say more but it ws tmi + tag limit anyway. its just insane that my fucking ed wouldnt have happened if it werent for him and it #graduated i wouldnt have been isolatedinever wouldve had an ed. like 50% of my ptsd would be Gone if i just hadnt joined that discord. lol

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zombiified · 6 months ago

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i think its funny how, despite EVERYTHING he’s done, krakrofis isnt even the worst character in stray nightmare

#as irredeemable as he is he still has an entire arc about redeeming himself like 20 years later #and i mean thats gonna be a little difficult to write because how the hell do you redeem THAT #and im like oh shit IM THE AUTHOR i have to do that #zombiified #ocs #oc #zombiified krakrofis #oc lore #oc rambles #not really #stray nightmare spoilers #stray nightmare webcomic #stray nightmare webtoon #stray nightmare #but he isnt the worst character because there are also characters in sn who are genuinely actually sadistically irredeemably evil #and they DONT have any desire to redeem themselves #i havent gone much into crazthyal because he doesn’t matter at all to the story but hes still only number 2 #number 1 most evil stray nightmare character is sharron #the gods were both somewhat made to be the way they are and by default theyre not going to be the best just based on what theyre the gods of #but SHARRON #she was human. she one hundred percent knew at least deep down that everything she was doing to steve was wrong #and she did it all anyway #because she knew he wouldn’t/couldnt stop her and therefore she had no desire to be better #i hate that bitch tbh she didn’t even deserve death

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arolesbianism · 6 months ago

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Yet another beautiful day to have the Maxwel tag blocked (can't see half of the posts in the Wendy tags)

#rat rambles #starve posting #maxwell posters have lost any semblance of tolerance from me ages ago Ive yet to meet a maxwell fan who's just like a normal person #and to clarify I actually do like maxwel as I am the number one just some asshole whos in too deep enjoyer #but dear god are ppl just absolutely incapable of being normal abt this man and everyone around him #and even beyond that ppl just do not get this man like please he is indeed interesting but not because of some 'retconed redemption'#like pls we can live in a world where he is not an irridemable monster and is in fact just some guy while also still being a flawed person #like the fact that he is so deeply flawed in ways that he never actually properly adressed and challenged is the interesting thing to me #like look at me. he went through horrible shit he didnt deserve. that didnt inherently make him a better or worse person #it just made him a more miserable person #and he didnt escape because of some change of heart or character development #and afterwards he teamed up with wilson because of necessity #I do think on some level he genuinely cares abt the other survivors and he does have genuine regret for how things turned out #but again those things dont inherently mean he moved past the flaws that got him here it just means he has the ability to recognize that #shit sucks and that he wish none of it happened #its why encore is one of my favorite animations from a character perspective because it shows some juicy charlie and maxwell stuff #mainly it shows both that charlie has not forgiven his ass and is manipulating him and that maxwell is still susceptible to it #which isnt a sigh of them rolling back development it's just a sign that maxwell is easy to manipulate with the right cards #which adds up considering his past and his present very well in my opinion #this is a man whos historically always ran away from his problems and is always on the hunt for a sense of control #and charlie tapped into both that and his ever present guilt #its in fact very unsurprising and not out of place for him to fall for that sort of manipulation #and it also makes for a great set up for the inevitable betrayal from charlie as maxwell is hit by the harsh reality of his situation #and that whole situation would lead to some yummy tasty parallels when charlie inevitably gets betrayed herself (I hope)#the ways charlie and maxwel are so similar yet so different facinates me deeply I love how much charlie doesnt realize shes kinda fucked #I want her to be betrayed so hard and left in the dust with no ground to stand on I want the rug pulled out from under her feet #her composition comes from her confidence in the necessity of her actions and the moral superiority she feels over maxwell #so having her sense of superiority be revoked would make for a super fascinating dynamic as she tries to justify the situation in her head #I wanna see her siral and then maybe change her pronouns idk

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fragglerockopinions · 7 months ago

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The worst thing about suffering is that it still hurts when the danger is over but no one cares about it anymore because it shouldn't hurt. No one will ever say "I'm sorry that happened to you" especially when they barely say "I'm sorry that's happening."

#Okay to tb btw all the personal stuff is in the tags #Like. Not eating for a week because you couldn't get groceries hurts #and people will say 'oof sorry that's happening' but then #after you're able to get food no one will ever say 'I'm sorry that happened' even though you think about it and hurt from it constantly.#No one will ever say ':( that must have been so hard' because you're fine now right???? No psychological damage there?????#This example is stupid but I do think about it every time I feel hungry. I told people I wasn't able to get groceries #and there was no food in my house. And they said. Oof.#Instead of idk Oh God Are You Okay ??#No one cares when you've been abused your entire life and behave the way you do out of genuine terror because your brain is fucked forever #They don't say 'I'm sorry that happened it must have been really scary to turn you into Such An Asshole. I pity you like a dog :('#Speaking of man everyone loves fucked up abused terrified dogs and wants to be the one who makes them open up #And shows them that people can be good and kind and that touch doesn't have to hurt #But everyone is scared of fucked up abused terrified people #Humans are capable of harm even more than dogs and fear is understandable but.#Can you please call me good boy and shush me and tell me nothing's going to hurt me and let me curl up on your lap #And not hit me if I get scared and start to growl and feed me good and take me on walks and play with me #Even though I'm not very fun to play with and I'm still learning what's fun and what's mean and what's a toy and what's a hand #Plleeeaaase don't be jealous of a dog that doesn't eat good don't say 'tch he's so thin what am I doing wrong'#I want to eat good and grow and gain fat and be warm and be comfortable I don't want this #Don't say 'if abused dogs don't eat good then I don't deserve to either' no no no no eat good so you can take care of us both #Please please please I learned so many tricks to make people happy and call me smart but I don't actually know how to do anything I'm #Literally like such a stupid dog it takes me like one day of no one paying attention to me for me to become un-housebroken #I make a lot of mistakes even though I know better or I really should know better #And sometimes do things wrong on purpose to get attention either yelling or showing me how to do it right #But most of the time I genuinely don't know how to do stuff because I was never taught or I was taught and #My previous owners said 'this is how it is. It is this way because it is and it is forever. The answer is Because.'#'now quit asking repetitive questions before I pop you'#If I do something Because and not know the reason why I'm doing it that's not learning that's acting #Especially habits taught specifically to hurt me and not being allowed to question it or know why I'm being hurt #Oh my god I acted out so much when I was younger and all my friends were so disgusted and hurt by me and yelled at me every day

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