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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jin zixun#Everytime I have to write his name I feel like I'm running outside in a blood rain trying not to get wet. Misspelling it feels so inevitabl#But so far so good! He doesn't have too many more appearances before he gets Cheesed.#Dear god I love it when characters go on the war path for someone they care about.#And I love it even more when you have an ambiguity between personal debt and genuine act of selflessness.#WWX saving WN is purposefully messy! Like a lot of our real life reasons for how we act - there isn't a clear single cause or answer.#Sometimes we forget that we are a collection of experiences and learnt reactions.#Sometimes we forget that what we see on the surface is not the point to address. Everyone is more complex than we think. Even yourself.#And yet...it always comes back to love doesn't it? Attachment styles and self-esteem and bonds and relationships to others.#Everything comes back to love and our perceptions of it.#WWX is on a self-destructive war path and he will absorb as much damage as he can for those he feels obligated and attached to.#Does it make him feel needed? Does it give him purpose? Does it ease anxieties of the past? I do not think there is an answer.
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Just cannot forget that the show had a whole romantic subplot about Kevin being interested in Gwen but not up to making a move and just, never bothered with why. The issue at play was never actually addressed. Instead we just get a steady stream of Kevin not making a move despite his interest, while Gwen pushes him to make a move, and then Gwen finagles a move out of him and the show just, carries on like there was never something keeping him from making a proper move in the first place.
The closest we get is in the third season of AF, where we get a nice look at his mental health issues including some nasty self-worth issues, but even then the focus is less on 'wow Kevin is having A Time and this shows us some things about his character' and more as 'and here's how his response to his situation is affecting Gwen'.
Even in the fandom I've seen it treated more like a case of Kevin being whiny and selfish over nothing, like it didn't lead to him teaming up with Darkstar- something the heroes only ever do otherwise when in desperate need of help dealing with an actual and immediate threat to life.
Just, if you're going to base your drama around something, at least actually fucking resolve or acknowledge the cause of the issue, rather than just brushing it under the rug once you're bored with it.
#ben 10#kevin levin#yes this is getting tagged bite me#like if you go with mcduffie's claim that kevin and darkstar's initial interests in gwen were the same that gives us a reason#but gods know they didn't even lean a way on screen#it's just 'kevin's not making a move because Unspoken Reasons -> gwen won't leave him be -> okay they're dating now don't worry about it'#they show some things that could be reasons later- mostly in brief and rare moments- but even then it doesn't change the main crux#namely that you're supposed to do something with those issues *before* you fix the problem they're causing#it's basic plotting#instead the show acts like the problem is that kevin isn't making a move- not whatever is *keeping* kevin from making a move#which is just poor writing#that makes it feel like they didn't *have* a reason and just wanted the will-they-won't-they drama without any real effort#but then i've said before that they shouldn't have gotten together until the end of af#with season 2 having a subplot of gwen learning to be more respectful and that mutual interest does not mean she's owed his affections#and season 3 actually working with kevin's various issues and giving him some chance to actually *heal* and *grow*#finally ending with them getting together into a healthy and equal relationship#should not have been too much for achi aged 17-34 to ask
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Throwing another option of HMC dynamic you might have never thought about: Mari and Princess Valeria's friendship would be an unstoppable force of power unknown to making and to prevent this from happening the universe made them exist in different words.
#NO BUT LIKE THEY WOULD BE SUCH A GOOD CONTRASTING FRIENDS LMAO#Valeria would be ���risky and sometimes says things too smart for her age” kind of a child#AND MARI IS LIKE THE SWEETEST CHILD YOU'VE EVER SEEN WHO ALSO CAN MAKE THE MOST HORRIBLE CHAOS WITHOUT BLINKING#Valeria knows like four languages by the age of six and Mari is like great!! I know Welsh!! I speak Welsh with uncle Howell btw he's like r#really really cool#Valeria is genuinely empresses because woah she would never be able to learn something from this language group#they also have to talk about their failure cringe uncles so the balance would be restored#Mari thinks uncle Howell is like way cooler than this super rich businessmen or whatever#Valeria thinks either she has to contradict them or not#they're not really arguing about it though#okay MAYBE a bit#Mari gives names to every and each of her stuffed toys and her fav's name is like Snuffles#Valeria dreams about having A REAL pony and she would call it mister Shinysparkles the Second#when Mari ask her where is The Firt whatever that long name is Valeria doesn't answer#also they weave bracelets and beads together#AND I'm aware there's like about three-two year age gap between that but looking at how Valeria's knowledge and skills progressed in CITA#that's not that big lmao#like they could get along#howl's moving castle#howl's moving castle book#hmc#howell jenkins#howl pendragon#princess valeria#mari parry
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You know what has always seemed funny to me is that Mello has some kind of relation with fire (the explosion and then the fire in his death), and at the same time, his real name is the same one of the arcangel known for having a flaming sword (even tho never stated in the bible but he's represented with one in almost everywhere for interesting reasons but no one gives a shit about that)
which i totally think is a stretch of my part because based on platinum end, ohba's vision of religion is almost the equivalent to the opinion of a 15 yo edgy incel that likes reddit too much
but still funny to me. it's also funny considering the name literally means "who is like god?" because, technically speaking, michael will never be like god, he's the protector and fighter. his name is almost the statement "no one will be like god" which I think is funny considering that the one who tried to be like god was cast out to hell, like u know, the good-looking angel that in some depictions is actually a very manipulative entity that convinces some angels to get into his side and fight with him and was defeated by this said arcangel
that's very funny to me
#i could go on and go about this but yeah no. i do like a lot the meaning of his name and what represents#the atheism in platinum is so bad it almost made me go catholic again. it's a reddit atheism (“god is like santa claus”)#i really really like all the meanings and how you can play with mello's real name if you try hard enough and aim for the stars#near's too. if you do the same. and i WILL. putting the catholic knowledge in action.#alsoo it's so funny to me that in paradise lost (not bible canon but still very VERY really known) Michael is a lil bitch.#he's the one who casts adam and eve out of eden and he's like “MAYBE if SOMEONE hadn't eaten the FRUIT” which I think is very mello coded#he's like sad for them like two seconds and then he's like “lmao this happened because u're stupid” and points and laugh#technically not that but shush. he is still like “dude. adam. it's fine u can make ur life out of here..stop crying lmao”#it's like dante in the divine comedy when he's sad for people at first and then in like the third circle he's like “hahaha stupid”#“you're suffering? GOOD. this is what you get for being GAY. i dont give a shit your suffering. do you know what's happening in Florence?”#satan in paradise lost to the other angels is like “aren't you tired of being nice? don't you wanna go apeshit?”#“the other day saw god drinking the last of the milk and putting the carton back in the fridge :/ idk man doesn't sound too heavenly to me"
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anyone else feel sooo disconnected from their name but just can't be bothered to put in the effort to change it? LOL
#whn people call my real name it doesn't even like register as me#bubby feels way more fitting. Mae is also one I go by but i dunno if that's really a me name either it's just a step upward from my real on#i don't think I'd ever want like. my parents to call me bubby tho LMAOO#I've tried to change my name a few times but for some reason whenever I make the request and people start calling me it officially it#starts to give me a stomach ache like I'm lying about it. is that some internalized transphobia thing or something? I don't have any proble#with asking to change my pronouns or go on HRT#anyway. just thinking outloud here#delete later
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Ella Fènghuáng
Race: Human
Nationality: Mistral
Ethnicity: Mistrali
Weapon: Charming Wand ("A small white wand tipped with Wash Dust, perfect for putting out fires.")
Gender: Woman
Age: "Everyone here is 17, right?"
Aura Color: Blue
Complexion: Pale
Eye Color: Amber
Semblance: "Headmaster Theodore said it's ok to keep your semblance private, so I won't tell..."
Occupation: Haven Academy student
It's a pleasure to meet you, Ruby Rose...
#I still wonder why Cinder decided to use her real name and face while infiltrating Beacon#even if she's a no name wouldn't she like to stay a no name???#rwde#rwby fix it fic#rwby rewrite#rwby au#rwby redesign#cinder fall#she should be allowed to wear make up#why is this show so scared of giving female AND male characters makeup?#team rwby already look like they beat their face with snow white foundation 10 times so might as well#no Blake's impossible to see yellow eye shadow doesn't count#Weiss would look godly with some ice blue face makeup but instead rt is playing#rwby 14
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Me: Okay brain, it's about time we figure out some of the early scenes for A Snake in Horseland
Brain: Squid Time Mothafucka!
Anyway...
AU where "If Mario Was in... Splatoon" and subsequent Splatoon-related episodes were more faithful to Splatoon Canon (and also Agent 3 was Meggy's younger sibling)
Now, obviously not everything in Splatoon's lore is compatible with SMG4, most notably the whole "post-apocalyptic Earth where mammals are extinct" thing, but a lot of it is, and the stuff that isn't can still be addressed thanks to Retroactive SMG4 Lore Knowledge.
First off for the changes, obvious detail out of the way; the annual tournament Meggy was so fixated on until the end of "Meggy's Destiny" is going back to being called the Turf War Tournament like it was in the original episode because Splatfests are their Own Thing, and the fact that they're their Own Thing is really important for the story of Splatoon 2.
Next, "If Mario Was in Splatoon" came out a week before Splatoon 2, which for the sake of this AU means it takes place literal days before the disappearances of Callie and the Great Zapfish. It also means that this version of the episode happens in Inkopolis Square instead of Inkopolis Plaza, and Off the Hook are the ones to tell Mario about the tournament instead of the Squid Sisters.
(This bit doesn't have to do with canon adherence, but I'll also be taking the opportunity to actually flesh out Sam, Kenji and Heavy Squid as characters since I don't have youtube runtime limits or the effort of animating to worry about. Yes, the two Inkling Boys on the original Splat Squad apparently have canon names. Go figure.)
Because of the time frame, Cuttlefish and Three are already on the recon mission that gets them and Eight stuck in the Deepsea Metro while the episode is happening, and it would realistically take time to go through the tests and collect the Thangs, so it's a few months before Meggy gets to introduce her sibling to her new friends from out of town.
I haven't really worked out much beyond that (at least story-wise. I have figured out the directions I want to take the characters of the Splat Squad and Canon Splatoon Characters, but that's for another post), except that Meggy isn't aware that her sibling is Agent 3 until the Anime Island part of the Anime Arc. I figure the NSS would absolutely get involved in this continuity, both because protecting the people of Inkopolis is literally their job and because of Meggy and Marie being among those abducted by Francis.
#smg4#splatoon#meggy spletzer#agent 3#new squidbeak splatoon#splatoon 2#this is more of an overview of the premise#i'll likely make posts for the characters and some specific episodes down the line#i'm one of the people who gives 3 a post-sanitization scar#so the fact that the first time they show up in this is after octo expansion gives me a solid excuse for Early Angst#ESPECIALLY since they can't tell meggy what caused it or where they were for so long Because Secret Agent#not sure what to call this au#i almost called it “splatmg4” but it kinda doesn't really Look Right written out like that#edit:#i wish squid memes were real au#yes that's the name of the au now#'cause why not
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I could write a goddamn essay about how the "Nazis are inhuman pure evil monsters" logic has actually helped Nazis but unfortunately saying "Hey Nazis ARE people, choosing a group that you don't like and deeming them subhuman and okay to treat as such is not only nazi logic but also makes it easier for Nazism to rise" will probably just have people claim I myself am a Nazi because there are way to many idiots who think that dehumanization is ok when they do it to those who "deserve it"
#*shakes you* if you don't get the point#elon was able to do the goddamn nazi salute and still get defended BECAUSE people believe nazis are these alien “others”#that behave like cartoon villains and want to destroy the great country of america#red skull is a believable nazi to these people because he is the enemy of the character literally named captain america#and has an inhuman looking face#but in reality nazis ARE humans and they will act like human beings#while people are on the lookout for a redskull 2.0 to heroically punch#they're simultaneously rolling their eyes at people pointing out actual real nazi behaviour and calling them overdramatic or sensitive#because they can't grasp that nazism is not redskull#they can't grasp that nazism IS those slurs that discrimination those “opinions” on politics those viewpoints#nazis aren't sitting in an evil lair they are humans who have families and are nice and say funny things#they sway people they can justify their beliefs they can claim it's for the greater good#they don't have to say they're a nazi at all#and then when marginalized groups who aren't so blind call out the dogwhistle or that concerning opinion everyone jumps on them#and will say “but they're so nice” “they're a lefist” “having an opinion doesn't make you a nazi” “nazis don't act like that” etc#and the person in question slowly gains more influence and power because they act like a person#they hurt all the groups no one at the top cares about until oops turns out they're a nazi and nobody can believe it#do you think the nazi party held people at gunpoint in order to be supported in germany?\#no they made promises they inspired hope#they found a marginalized group to use as a scapegoat and justified it through propaganda and arguments that sounded smart and clever#none of that would have happened if they acted like a cartoon nazi#dehumanising and demonising these people merely gives them more power as they are pictured as an unstoppable alien force#you people who are on you morally superior american hero crusade will only hurt others who don't act good enough or you personally#nazis are human beings#i am not defending them#i am not one of them#i am stating an undeniable fact that can make many of them lose their power if enough people begin to understand it#before you cheer “punch nazis” think about how many times you'vr excused people drawing the swastika “for fun”#or how many times you've advocated for censorship and purist logic because you believe you're protecting the kids#or stopping “bad” people from spreading their “fantasies” or “beliefs” and “normalising them”
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Every time Helluva Boss or Hazbin Hotel has a glimpse of genuinely GOOD WRITING, I go insane. Both of these shows feel like edging to me, like they will tease me with these bangers and then leave me to dry EVERY DAMN TIME.
#everywhere it's all 'Blitzo and Stolas' character development' 'Stolitz is back baby' 'I love to see them so healthy'#boring. bland. blah.#I mean yeah it's TECHNICALLY ''character development'' but not really?#and it's not good either#their sudden healthy bs came so far out of left field and it makes literally no sense#their current dynamic is SO obviously only like it is because the plot needs it to be that way#there's no actual subtance and their characters haven't GROWN they just Magically Got Better#I DO really like Blitzo learning to really desire a family and working on actually using his ability to empathize#the lovey scenes with him and Stolas would have hit more if they were more clumsy or awkward#he's just... too perfect? which is just so surface level it feels like a cop-out at LEAST give him some paralles#like if he was copying the family they refused to kill? Cinema. if he was awkwardly copying Mox and Mills? Real Good.#suddenly pulling out this gorgeous Perfect Lover rizz? eh. next.#BUT let's talk about the LOOK that Blitzo gave Stolas when he said Octavia hates gim#the realization that Stolas not only gave up his life but the ONE THING that made him happy- and also the ONE THING Blitzo has wanted so#SO badly because he and Loona never really... got that sort of a father/daughter thing since he adopted her when she was almost an adult#the whole ''I love you. dad'' honestly felt out of character for Loona given how awfully she's been towards Blitzo this entire time#it felt so blatantly like an insert to make Stolas realize JUST how badly he fucked up#and he DID like he WON'T admit it but he's always treated Octavia and her happiness like a backburner#she's been simmering in her own feelings this whole time and he forgets about her again and again and again#if Vivian weren't just kind of awful at fleshing out characters and repeating the same storylines until things Magically Get Better#the fact that we as an audience know next to nothing about Octavia would be borderline genius level writing#showcasing just how effort little Stolas actually puts into his relationship with her that a narrative centered around him all but entirely#neglects his daughter and how she was right that she will get older and he will only know her name#because he just does not actually put in that effort (no matter how much he wants to or thinks he does)#but that opening wound isn't just about Stolas it really feels like it's about BLITZO#and I feel like this would be an INCREDIBLE aspect of his character to genuinely flesh out#as well as giving Octavia more actual interaction and interwoven character dynamics#like Blitzo has SEEN the damage that he is able to do with Verosika and Fizzarolli but he still doesn't /really/ understand his own damage#and I think this would be perfect to flesh him out more as well as perhaps FINALLY add some character nuance to the series to finely put:#yes Stolas is right for chasing his heart. but YES Octavia is right for being upset!!!
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Handbook to Hyrule Handy Guide
Provided is a guide to understanding the ostensibly arbitrary fossil ranges, along with the rationale underlying the adoption of novel taxonomic nomenclature.
Fossil Ranges (subject to reevaluation)
Pre-hylean - Prior to the emergence of the Homo genus. Hylean - Named after Hylia, spanning the evolution of the Homo genus to the Great Demon War, which had detrimental effects on wildlife. Farorean - When most humans inhabited the sky, life underwent recovery and proliferation. Evolutionary events may include the emergence of Gorons, Parella, and Mogma. The Lanayru Sea dried up, forming the Gerudo Desert.
there is a knowledge gap here
Passeroic - Following the establishment of the Hyrule Kingdom, civilization expansion leads to widespread species extinctions. Gorozoic - Derived from the Gerudo word for "fire," representing a cyclic pattern of rebirth and destruction in Hyrule due to the influence of Calamity Ganon. Bosthorocene - Coined during the era of ruin in Hyrule Kingdom, named after Zelda Bosthoramus Hyrule. This period witnesses a resurgence in scientific enlightenment, marked by initiatives to study and preserve local species.
Creating new taxa:
The taxonomic nomenclature presents a deliberation between utilizing a Latin/Greek-based system or a Hyrulean conlang. The Hylian and Gerudo conlangs, documented by Elymais and Nina-Kristine Johnson, respectively, are employed where applicable. In instances where these conlangs are not feasible, Latin serves as a supplementary option.
Here are the conlangs I plan to use:
Hylian Conlang (Elymais): Voices of Hyrule
Gerudo Conlang (Nina-Kristine Johnson): Va Eheniv
The etymology section only covers information relating to new taxa.
#if a taxon already exists in the real world i'm going to use that rather than give it a “hyrulean” name#because of this i'm ok with using latin when naming new taxa even if it doesn't make sense within the context of the zelda universe#zelda#legend of zelda#taxonomy
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further thoughts re: [idea behind mitb] & [winston billions]
that ofc the specific situation of mitb of even being so thrown into a seismic shift in perspective in this moment, brought on by like whoa what if actually being alone / rejected by the person who was always on my side, like winston in canon can't ever be in that position lmao like even with the continual [people turn on him] moments, nobody was ever actually on his side in the first place & people only Turn from [less of negative attention upon him] to [more]
But then pointing to like wait, one thing, the very ending: all you know about me is my name / awesome party, i'm so glad i came [cha cha cha] like assign that to winston's departure from straightforward in-office employee with the fun details of: • we don't even know his name, rare No Last Name Ever Bothered With for any recurring character, much less one who's been around for seasons. just quant things • probably only any party b/c he arranged it for himself (what arrogance, as opposed to being pointedly ignored / denied baseline acknowledgments as deserved) & • nonzero people pointedly refusing to attend b/c they hate him more than anything, as opposed to the people who do attend to express hostility & contempt as per the I'm The Ultra Cool Guy Normal Person(tm) ideal of "if i interact with / observe someone & consider them such a Lesser / Other to me & issue whatever disparaging cues, any third parties would totally recognize my superiority" uhh nnnyeThis guy, umm ohh kayyy lol. scoff sneer etc. Extremely epic yes
also shoutout to billions for both Needing to show us that "uh lol winston can't just Get to Leave" expression of contempt / vicarious power trip But also that's not enough lmfao like he really can't get to leave, casting its yugioh card of "essence of [most dangerous time in an abusive relationship? trying to leave it]" like again, You Don't Get To, then Uh Oh winston in leaving is not only acting without permission but in doing so is denying us our property! time for some assaulting & stalking & killing :) figuratively we swear but who would know what nonexistent mitb happens :)) wheee haha Hell yeah so affirmed & fulfilled in our power & superiority. wretchedly like why is this also what happens with wendy & axe at the end of s5 as axe resents wendy not acting like his property / without his permission & gets vindictive & aggressive & it's like okay well with the stalking & surveilling in the mix i'm sure wendy will now finally get to be Done. wrong! reveling in romance (dragged over glass) as wendy is sooo special that she can still just Understand & Choose Loyalty even as unideal as axe was, truly, she's powerful enough to handle axe :) unlike other bitches who'd get all hysterical & give up. selfish
also speaking of the "you have to pay attention & listen to how this guy feels for 5 minutes" like with pointed [my personal perspective & considering Just Like Real Life] i don't like, especially with canon, really have that for winston in terms of like that even if people Had to listen, which would be the only way they did b/c winston Does express how he feels at all & it gets pointedly ignored / suppressed / punished, like they wouldn't change their perspective lol. when i consider "well winston could hope they would, think they might, want & try for this" like i don't consider that it would work lol, definitely not based on canon dynamics, where Just Like The Perspective Of The Show Itself like winston can seize some opportunity & express himself "perfectly" but it wouldn't work b/c everyone's already decided to think of him as inferior & not a person & will continue choosing to do so / choosing to play into the idea of their superiority rather than letting it be threatened, much less embracing that & questioning themselves / that concept. Oops Same Essence once again when like all that's questioned about Power is that only Meritous, Truly benevolent godlike individuals ought to have it :) no problems detected when wendy is really exactly the same as prince b/c of course she'd have to be when it's just "nothing wrong with seeing people as inferior, in fact it's inevitable & necessary & good & we love it, just so long as Really superior people are correctly arranged in the hierarchy over Really inferior 'people' who i'm not really hurting or wronging or using when they bring it upon themselves & are wrong in their lesserness"
so like shoutout again to "billions is like, the song 'be more chill' in be more chill, seeing the squip as the protagonist like yes wheee yay tell jeremy everyone's right to treat him as they do & he brings it upon himself & should be dead & twist his arm however you want to get this" only i think in bmc you can interpret that the squip really does want to "redeem" jeremy by forcing him to become a different person & all & just conform to the norm & play & win the game....billions might Supposedly want that, framing wendy using & toying with other people's lives & feelings as she sees fit as Necessary, Correct, & Magnanimous, but really like oh no wendy doesn't even really "fix" people b/c welp there's still the hierarchy of ranking on everyone's Inherent unequal personhood & we can't all be the most special best person in the world like wendy but she can Redeem us a little bit if we're not the lost causes too inferior to recognize & defer to Her superiority. plus she's busy with the enrichingly complicated & important cases of: enabling someone like axe :) like billions is just into the power trip really of like "wow yeah you're correct in judging that person as inferior & bringing it upon themself" & "really" fixing someone by killing them & replacing them with an allistic person e.g. isn't actually of that much interest b/c then the power trip would, theoretically, be done with. no thanks
meanwhile perhaps some restraint for this last point brought on by Oops already verbalizing a lot but the one thing i did only just think of was like, obviously winston comparable to jeremy & the material surrounding jeremy But i was like oh hey i kind of think of the winston & tuk dynamic as glimpsed in canon & extrapolated upon thusly as respectively michael & jeremy esque & sure never framed it that way to myself lol. this duo of like the ultimate losers around but who can kind of obviously also bond / deliberately unionize over this; winston as the "well they'll treat me like this either way so i may as well do my own thing fully at least" more confident one while tuk is similar enough & it's like oh i can be not just myself but More myself with this person than maybe i even am Alone alone & we like each other & have fun & i'm encouraged &c & so on, being a bit more "ah jeez :( i do kind of try to see if i can manage to play by the rules better & maybe be killed less," & even sure have thought about the conflicts that could arise as like "yeah it's good if winston being around me can kind of insulate me & involve encouragement But Then Also downsides like, can it feel overbearing if just feeling eclipsed by winston's personality, if feeling like yeah following winston's lead helps me but what if that defines me too much / what about getting by outside that, can encouragement from that Confident Vivacious personality feel pushy?" all very much like that conflict jeremy & michael have of jeremy wanting to change things up & figure out his relationship with himself & what he can do through that a little bit more, hardly able to express that to himself much less michael, michael who doesn't know quite what's going on & but of course is also affected by how people treat him, as we did know but yknow impossible to have real serious feelings & act vivacious & cheerful, & feels supported by his relationship / dynamic w/jeremy too....wouldn't be the same b/c there's no high school scifi plot & also like, no [um frivolous teen problems are for teens only. adults don't do the bullying & popularity & insecurity &c] as has been said lol like it doesn't just Stop, but that like they Are older so probably could have an at all easier & more successful time talking through things & understanding their own feelings, but always fun to imagine some drama & conflict sure lol like even just a period of some Confusion / Mixed Feelings like ah new good friends with tuk but maybe tuk withdraws / avoids winston a bit then to try to take a breath & get perspective from a step back, maybe it can seem to winston like we're having a good time what a promising new relationship but then sudden/confusing irritation with me / some apparent rejection, an easy issue is just like as seems to be canon lol like well nobody's known winston for eons here, just met, winston's Already got the independently big personality / doing his own things mode, could be hard to warm up to that / even Understand it, especially in [hierarchy play the game kill each other it's them or you] bullying world anyway. however also tuk has ben who is also sort of relatively on the Less outwardly bold seeming side who is also there to buffer or insulate or intervene, But that can also just be [same issue parallel to jeremy/michael] lmao like does it mitigate it or exacerbate it or bit of both / varyingly, depending. do we all kiss at the same time
#winston billions#bmc#oh honorable mention: my [winston ''solve my riddles'' sphinx billions. but also different] idea#''solve my riddles'' = understand what he is getting at when he expresses himself#even extended to understanding some Truth which has to be known here even if winston doesn't think that already himself#hence an involuntary aspect like consider something of a figurative gate you can't get through without giving the correct answer#oops something in reality has manifested some form of a physical barrier. just can't [xyz] in whatever way#& then leave it at something like that w/all possible what ifs & complications#like wouldn't necessarily Require people change their perspective on him even then. just gives him Some more leverage than he has#could just resent & dismiss him still; still think you're ''humoring'' him at most / like oh even if he Thinks he feels that way. it's not#like it's actually real b/c his personness / thoughts / feels / &c aren't Real like mine/ours#unless there's some added layer like ''no you do have to both understand & internalize'' lmaooo#sphinx whose pronouns you have to use as someone who respects them. oh nope they can tell you think you're just humoring them for as long#as it takes to get past them as you want to do....meanwhile if say winston powers (sounds like a name. imagine. jimmy powers)#keep his feelings from being trampled via certain actions ppl want to take But. to have those feelings Known just makes them trampled in#another way b/c ppl aren't gonna choose to start actually respecting them / Not considering themselves Superiors#like i don't even wanna share them or say Yes That's How I Feel or even implicitly verify info by [oh okay Now we can do xyz] & yet?#am i forced to; are people gonna twist my arm; send someone to Be Sympathetic but really just to get the info for practical purposes#all scenarios soooo different from real life shit ppl can deal with all the time lmaooo....
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I NEED to get back into oc f/os. I just remembered my old casino themed anthro shark guy. He never got a solid enough ref sheet (or lore, really) for me to feel comfortable making him one of my f/os but maybe I should remedy that at some point. Big Jack.........
#his name is Jasper Roulette but everyone calls him Big Jack#he's a ''professional'' underground gambler and great white 'card shark'#insists he's an ex crime boss but won't tell anyone what that entailed#well... he WILL. but it's a different story every time. always a lie and often over the top#nobody knows for sure if any of it's true or not. but pretty much everyone either 100% believes it or is too scared to contest it#bc his persona around other casino goers is this rough and tough type guy and he has the looks and talk to back it up#really though even IF it's true he's pretty harmless now. his whole thing is ''yeah I used to do that but I'm turning my life around''#which others are skeptical about but is mostly true. he's kinda just chilling#he's a cheat and a showoff and an asshole but he's more intimidating than he is dangerous#and he has way more money than he cares to do anything with (where he got it who's to say) so he doesn't mind just handing it out#he was the first character I made for a little game / visual novel I wanted to make at one point but ended up giving up on#it was just about sharks in an underground casino#the idea was you could play little mini games and have conversations with them#and if you made the conversation go in the ''right'' direction there'd be little collectibles that opened new paths#but it never went anywhere other than some ideas and a very rough drawing of Big Jack (which actually came first lol)#unfortunately I designed him IMMEDIATELY before I got super into Sparker as one of my f/os so he got swept under the rug real bad#sorry sharky 😔#roz posts
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you don't have to read this i just have so much pent-up in my head.
(if you do tho the tags are just as important as the post.)
i wish i could make people unfollow me without blocking them? bc like. every single palestine ask i get (whether spam or real) they follow me. even though it's not set up so only followers can send asks. i think they do it because like, then they think i will be more willing to help? bc follower counts are so important on other platforms and to most people, it's probably like an exchange? They do the nicety of adding to my follower count and so i will be more willing to donate money to their cause? but like. i don't want followers just for followers. it makes me uncomfortable. i've got a little over 150 followers right now but probably a third are palestine fundraiser blogs (and a few bots i can't tell are bots or not and promotional spam). it makes me uncomfortable? it makes me feel like the numbers a lie? i want the people following me to be there because they actually care about my blog/me?
obviously i don't want to block these people! they are in a genocide trying to do whatever they can to survive! they are on here trying to ask anyone and everyone so that out of the hundred of people they ask maybe one or two can donate a few dollars! they are trying every tactic they can to make people listen to them! following! posting photos! using eye-catching colours and fonts! writing out their stories! all things that are emotionally and or/physicaly exhausting and draining all in an attempt to just get someone to listen! and honestly it's sort of unfair that they have to follow random people and clog up their dash with random stuff just so people are more willing to help (obviously most of these people didn't have tumblr before and aren't here for the dash, but i imagine a dash full of palestine help would be less overwhelming than a huge mass of random fandoms while you go find people to ask).
#i also get. so. many. palestine asks. and i do think a good chunk are spam but a good chunk are real too and i can't tell the difference#but it really stresses me out how i get so many bc like. i do not have the money to help you people.#and i have said that on every ask ive answered#and the majority of my following doesn't really have the money either. and plenty of them aare struggling for money and asking for help#& now im mounted with tens & tens & tens of asks in my ask box of people i cant help my following cant help & i don't know are real or not#but i have this duty to share them anyways bc even if i can't donate just sharing helps#but again i don't even know which are real#and it's overwhelming and stressful#but then how pathetic/inappropriate is it to feel that way compared to what they are going through?#they are in a genocide and i'm “uncomfortable” at the amount of asks pleading for help in my ask box???#that's fucked up!!!#and why am i even saying i don't have the money to help? i don't have a job and have never had one but i've saved up a bit for a few years#for a special occasion like my birthday or a legal name change or something#who cares if i get that? they can't either! and they are a lot worse of without it than i am without it!#and i have money from a car accident a few years ago from when i was in a car accident that will be all the money to my name once i cut my#parents off. it's all i'll have to try getting housing and maybe film school and such before i can get a job#but why not give them all of that too! who cares if i give away all my money and i live in a cardboard box in the side of the road!#a cardboard box on the side of the road would still be better living conditions than what they are going through!#and if i can make their life better without making my life worse than theirs don't a have a moral obligation to?#so why don't i do that!#what is wrong with me!#unityrain.txt#moral ocd#obsessive compulsive disorder#ocd#actually ocd#maube i shouldn't tag this as palestine#palestine.#<-with a period.#so that way it doesn't show up in people following the normal tag
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doodling ace and suddenly having a lil mental breakdown over him, daily occurrences and all that
#probably the most bastard thing oda ever did to him was making him so heavily family oriented and give him#THE WORST#family situation ever#he took his mom's surname#keeps dadan's beads#spends all his time talking about his lil bro and how much he loves him#and more his whole downfall was how much he loved his new family#his happiness was being called son and brother#the horrible thing is that everything we know about roger makes it obvious he was a great dude#ace would have ADORED him#he'd have been So Happy with him#and instead he spent his whole life hating him isn't that tragic? doesn't it just kill you?#that had his parents been alive he'd have loved them so much he'd have made it his whole personality#and instead the world used them to make him miserable and convinced he's undeserving of love??#when he could have been so bright with them his whole life instead I'm gonna sob I'm gonna cry for real#don't EVEN make me start on sabo and how ace must have felt for the past ten years of his life about him#and he never even got to know he was alive!!! he had his jolly roger on his arm!!! inside his name!!!!!#i know that the reason why i love ace sm is bc oda wrote him like this but at the same time fuck oda for writing him like this
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Ur so new to this its making me giggle. also you should share more I need to Know
gloomy I can't stress enough how bad I am at this. once we got past stats and I had to actually come up with real character things it was awful. dragged kicking and screaming through character creation. also I'm realizing as I type this how little I still have in mind for this character bc I never even decided what gender they are. we've been referring to them interchangeably as "my new cringfail losergirl oc" and "my new weird little guy"
#gonna be real though it’s probably a girl. and she'll be a lesbian. why would I ever choose anything else#ok but she doesn't even have a name yet. idk how to name things that is gonna suck#she's a blacksmith though. and a tiefling druid but I think you saw me tell theo that already in the replies of the other post#and she has a fascination with fire bc I got in a projecting mood#and that sounds stupid as hell I hate saying that actually bc it makes me think of that very annoying internet time#where every single gay person on tiktok was like “ooh be gay do crime!! arson!! mother mother!!”#but I cannot stress enough this is a genuine trait of mine if you leave me with a lighter and something flammable#I will set it on fire just to watch it burn#my family won't let me light birthday candles because they don't like giving me lighters#I set a paper towel on fire in our camper once when no one was in there#and then they went in later and were like “why does it smell like smoke in here?”#and I had to admit I lit a paper towel on fire#AND THEY WOULD NOT LET IT GO!!#they rag on me about it all the time like “rori you were gonna light our camper on fire!!”#and I have to be like “NO I PUT IT IN THE SINK”#but yeah saying oh here's my lesbian who likes fire sounds stupid and annoying but that's. that's a genuine trait of mine#anyway also as for the oc creation taking 5 hours. I will say I was doing this on discord call with several people#and only ONE of them was actually helping me in character creation. so the conversation kept getting sidetracked by everyone#we debated on if a hotdog was a sandwich at some point (it is)#ask#gloomybirdie#hi gloomy!
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(Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3)
— März (my child), you who never saw light, know not of even the concept of sight. März (my child), you embraced my back And said “Mother, the light is warm,” and laughed innocently Ah… I’m sorry, I’m sorry, so sorry… I am… I am the one who gave birth to you… 《I》, full of sins… Even if I pray to God, my cries will never reach, and I won’t even pray while embracing sin. I want to do everything I could for that child at least, because I just can’t stand being idle in lament. (Ah, sacrifice!) My lovely, cute child, who was once embraced by the winter... Your mother wished for you to live within the sunlight of spring and smile... But her feelings are all but in vain now, even the Momentary sunlight is forcibly taken by caprice! LOOK! Ah… Look at this comedy! Then I shall become a true 《witch》 that curses the world…! "Yes, that’s what I’ll become… Ahaha… Ahahahahaha! Aaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!”
――And 【The Seventh Comedy】 will continue to repeat... ―― [Und 【die siebte Komödie】 wird sich wiederholen]...
— 7 “What burns this body is” 6 “Deceptive flames that extol purification.” 5 “What burns this heart is” (Ah-ah-ah-ah) 4 “Hateful flames that sing of revenge.” (Ah-ah-ah-ah) 3 “Hunger and disease, suspicion and slaughter.” (Ah-ah-ah-ah) 2 “O, dark era dwelling in the depths of Id.” (Ah-ah-ah-ah) 1 “Start a chain reaction like the black death. (Ah-ah-ah-ah) März, even if you fell into hell—”
“— I・ still・ love・ you”
#erin talks#video#erin's music rec tag#maybe flashing lights warning and there's a creepy doll towards the end#the countdown section doesn't make me sad but I wanted to include it bc I still think that connecting idoido to marchen by using therese's#scream to transition to yoiyami no uta And to use the melody from Fur Elise (Elise is the name of the doll) using hatsune miku is the#coolest shit; I wanted to post some more of yoiyami no uta but it got too long so I'll make another post#but anyway like (breaking bad walter yelling meme) therese!!! it wasn't your fault!!! none of it!!! you did your best for your child!!!#you were just an easy scapegoat for the bubonic plague since you knew how to compound herbal medicine!!! Therese please none of it was your#fault!!!! 😭😭😭 I always feel so bad listening to her apologize over and over for being 'sinful'#obviously when she's about to be burnt at the stake is the saddest part like . she just wanted to give her child a good life :(#valid reasons to become a Real witch and curse the entire world
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