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Okay 3 things
1. I was thinking about an aroace Sonic who says things that can be taken as wildly flirty/romantic but he just means them genuinely. āYou have beautiful eyes, I keep getting distracted while looking at them,ā not cause heās interested romantically in them but because eyes can be really cool and pretty man I dunno what to tell you he likes looking at cool things and he thinks his friends are neat. āYouāre the most beautiful person here,ā because he really thinks that, he loves his friends
2. Sonic randomly dropping heartfelt genuine comments on his friends out of the blue completely blindsiding them and then moves on like nothing happened while theyāre left going ?????? Bonus points if he does something immensely stupid or jerkish just before or immediately afterwards and they canāt tell if he was serious or not with the compliment (yes he was)
3. Sonic usually being so allergic to truly vulnerable moments that when he expresses something heartfelt randomly Tails thinks heās been stabbed or something and does not believe him when he reassures him that heās fine heās fine heās not dying yeesh
#KNOX ART (me)#Sonic the Hedgehog#Aroace Sonic#Rouge the Bat#miles tails prower#amy rose#knuckles the echidna#Shadow the Hedgehog#how to explain the fact that I think Amy crushing on aroace sonic is lovely. I love you but not like that and you liking me doesnāt make me#uncomfortable so you can keep doing it its okay i wonātā ask you to get over it quickly no ones as fast as me#dysfunctional in the sense of Sonic says stuff like that without meaning it in that way and it feeds into Amyās crush even though she knows#heās not going to return her feelings#ALSO I DREW ROUGE!! SHEāS LOVELY!! OUGH!! I LOVE DRAWING WOMEN!!!!!#sonic dropping the fact that he views shadow in a very positive light after theyāve been at each others throats arguing for thirty minutes#multi-ship but make it mostly one-sided who isnātā a little bit in love with sonic romantically or platonically or anything else in between#look at him#then he scarfs down a chili dog and no one can take him seriously#drives them all absolutely insane with his nonsense#imagine hearing this dude say something genuinely heartfelt and for a second it flips your perspective of him#and then heās telling you your eyeliner is crooked or pointing and laughing at you cause you stumbled or doing a handstand and bragging#about it and nope heās exactly the same except IS HE?#hyper-competent sonic that leaves everyone wary of him#heartfelt sonic that makes so no one can ever quite hate him#jerk sonic so that no one can ever quite worry for him#Iām mentally ill over the hedgehog can you tell CAN YOU TELL????#HAPPY AROMANTIC AWARENESS WEEK IG THIS IS NICELY TIMED HGLKJSDLFAKS;LDJ#are we getting into ooc territory? I honestly couldnāt begin to tell you Iāve seen 3 clips of of rouge and Amy between the two of them HGLK#i forgot i wanted to do one of sonic asking shadow ācan i hold your hand nowā and shadow looking at him like heās insane
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KILL YOU GET RID OF YOU OPEN UP YOUR RIBCAGE TAKE OUT MY HEART THAT BEATS IN YOUR CHEST!!!
#in stars and time#isat#isat spoilers#2hats spoilers#siffrin#loop#isat act 6 secret encounter spoilers#tw strangulation#...hey so would it be fucked up to tag this as sifloop or#sin arts#i think about this scene a lot... ultimately i think if either of the two outcomes of the loop fight is the 'true' end itd be siffrin wins#because i genuinely dont think loop wanted to win that fight in the first place#but uhhhhhhhh. the dialogue for loop winning though. oh my god they make me feel so unwell#not 100% happy with how this turned out. may end up revisiting this concept someday. or maybe ill be normal and not do that. who knows
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|| The Fawn & The Fox ||
in the eyes of the adults in his life, Spider is the fox, having the worst was always assumed of him because he simply tries to survive. he was alone and desperate for scraps of love.
Neteyam was the fawn, everyone saw him and knew he was *good*. as a child, he was seen as pure and vulnerable. Harmless. unlike his brother. he was better than Spider could ever be. he was set above him.
a fox and a stag could never be brothers. they're too different. not enemies. but they are divided. a scavenger and prey. it could never last.
and then the stag, still young and spotted, falls. he falls and the fox, whether he wants it or not, is there to snatch at the scraps of love left behind by his death. to curl up in the hole he left behind. a son for a son. but a fox can never be a stag.
Spider will always suffer the consequences of how others view him. how they decide when and how he deserves love. when he is sly and conniving, and when he is simply a child in need of love.
he will always be a fox in their eyes.
even as he is pushed to fill the empty space left by their son, whether he wants to fill that space or not.
Spider is in such an awkward place, he desperately needs love and attention and space to heal, the Sully's are his only option, Jake might actually accept him now. he can't turn them down, out of desperation or out of fear of being seen as disrespectful. but can he take his brother's place? it's almost an insult to finally show the kid decency after years of pain and the death of his friend and brother they forced away from him.






#Jake's ās son for a sonā line and the possibility he will genuinely try and take care of Spider like a son going forward#genuinely makes me feel ill#like Neytiri is not opening her arms to him. and the children always have.#it's really Jake I worry about#considering *everything*#he's the wolf in sheeps skin. or fox in deers skin. that allowed Spider to be treated as less then.#as a feral stray#as a conniving fox that had to be kept at a distance#and the idea he might just. actually step up ad if that didn't happen.#makes me so angry#especially because he's hust going to continue to make the dynamic between Spider and Neytiri worse than he already allowed it to become#so that's what I mean by āSully'sā#I mean Jake and the awkward dynamic that's gonna form within the family#prev ->#something something Spider being the fox. having the worst assumed of him. seen as a pest up to no good.#something about Neteyam being the fawn. assumed to be pure and fragile. above a mangey fox.#them being friends. brothers. until driven apart by other's views of them#Neteyam never growing into a stag. not truly.#Spider still being the stray fox. left scraps.#now. whether he means to or not. whether he wants to or not. he will feast on the scraps of love left behind from Neteyam's death#a son for a son#but a fox will never be a deer. never be a stag.#avatar 2#avatar the way of water#spider socorro#miles spider socorro#miles socorro#avatar#neteyam#neteyam sully
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I dunno guys, I think he did nothing wrong ever
#dmc#devil may cry#dmc netflix#dmc netflix anime#dmc netflix spoilers#netflix dmc#netflix devil may cry#white rabbit#the white rabbit#dmc white rabbit#GENUINELY have no idea how to tag this lmao#PLEASEEE CAN HE JUST HAVE A NAME#my art#anyway. like i said in my last post i watched the anime lol#i still have mixed feelings about it though i mostly enjoyed it#it was a fine bit of entertainment and i will certainly tune in to see what happens next but it doesnt hold a candle to the og#(predictably)#i did really really really like the white rabbit tho#me when a man with beautiful brown eyes and long black hair tries to genocide humanity. whatever you say gorgeous#ANYWAY if you hated the anime pls dont leave lol i only have like one more piece of art to get out of my system about it#and then ill be back to just og dmc#i hope future seasons give us more to chew on re: spardacest#bc tbh thinking on it the anime was FINE but my main gripe is the no interaction between dv#i think its objectively a better written story than the reboot but i enjoy the reboot more#bc at least i can grab my little dolls and make them kiss#and thats all i have to say on that lol
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so uhhhhhhhh. not to be cryptic and bitchy on main but congratulations to everyone in my messages for like 5 months on being right i guess
#ramble#ughhhhhhhhhhhh ok so#i will delete this later bc idk if this person has tumblr and i genuinely mean no ill will i just need an outside opinion#i vented about it on my close friends story already but i need like. a neutral party#i won't say their name but if you're on other socials you probably know who it is#basically for a while i've been getting messages saying 'this person has hacked your art style' or 'is REDACTED your alt account'#and in the beginning there were like. similarities? but nothing i could really claim and also i don't want to accuse someone of theft#like i don't own any stylistic choices or anything. i've used things from other artists i like. honestly it's kind of flattering#and we are actually really friendly in DMs now and we even joke about it. we message eachother any time we get a comment about it#i made a joke literally 2 weeks ago about how we're two different people i swear#but after adding some Very specific things to my art (like the paper texture/hatching/shiny lighting). they also added them#and i gave them the benefit of the doubt bc i don't like to believe anyone has bad intent with stuff like that. and i've done the same obvs#but recently they dropped some tav lore and it was. basically a panel for panel copy of one of my cyra comics down to the HAND PLACEMENT#and obviously i don't own the Bitch Mother trope or anything but it's just. mmmmm it makes me feel weird#idk it just feels like it's gone a bit far now and i'm not sure what to do about it#like you would think after we became moots they would get scared and stop but i think i was too openly trusting and they just kept going#recently someone on THEIR PATREON thought they were me and they weren't even one of mine (which by itself is funny but. y'know)#i don't want to call anyone out or upset anyone bc it only causes more problems but like. i Know. and idk if they should know that i know#maybe i'm just stupid idk i really trusted that it wasn't happening but it is and i don't know how to feel#hONESTLY I'M JUST MAD THAT I CAN'T DO ANY MORE CYRA LORE NOW BC PEOPLE ARE GOING TO ACCUSE **ME**#also PLEASE do not witch hunt this person i want to deal with this as quietly as possible#i really felt like i was in the twilight zone or just being paranoid so i had to ask
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the more people say "marinette is becoming gabriel!!!"
all i can think of is the scene from the owl house season 3 episode 3 where luz thinks she's just as bad as belos and the titan is like "the fuck??? no??? belos is genuinely awful and hurt alot of people, you are literally a teenage girl"






anyway the same thing is happening here sort of-
JUST AUGHHH
#dont get me wrong i love the parallels of gabriel and marinette but saying marinette is as bad as him???#GUYS#SHE'S A TEENAGE GIRL#SHE'S GONNA MAKE MISTAKES#SHE'S GONNA MAKE DECISIONS THAT AREN'T GREAT AND SHE'LL FEEL BAD ABOUT THEM#WHY ARE WE HOLDING HER TO THE SAME STANDARD AS A GROWN ASS MAN WHO KNEW WHAT HE WAS DOING???#AUGGGGHHHHHH#leave my silly girl ALONE#i wont defend her actions BUT ILL DEFEND MARINETE BECAUSE SHES 14 GUYS CHILL#SHE ALREADY BLAMES HERSELF AND FEELS BAD SHE'S BEING GENUINE#GABRIEL WANTED POWER AND CONTROL AND THE MIRACULOUS#GAHHHH#miraculous#miraculous ladybug#mlb#ml#miraculous lb#ladybug and chat noir#marinette dupain cheng#gabriel agreste#the owl house#toh#luz noceda
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grisped. grabbed. snatched. both a symbolic illustration the hold life has had on me lately and a canon event from the Blusleeves storyline
#art#my art#oc:captain#probably ford's hands too but this is so dumb im not tagging that#gt#giant#tiny#gt art#tw:firearm#cw:firearm#been busy with sports things and the like recently so arhghh#theres a few animatics i want to get out at least within this month#so art may be slow grr#maybe ill post sketchbook stuff or fanart again#guys guys im so insane#i feel so guilty for playing videogames instead of working on creative projects n the like BUT#but i cant force art#its a universal rule#i genuinely just cant#but pressure (ew ew roblox player ew i know SHUT UP) has had me in a CHOKEHOLD#im... unfortunately obsessed#should i make a sideblog for fanart stuff#or just unashamedly post it here#im honestly beyond caring about cringe anymore#ill just post it here if it comes out good hmm#ANYWAYSSS#love u all so much <3#have un buen dia :)
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the sun/moon-ness of sylusmc
him flat out saying mc reminds him of the sun but also the way he always floats around her, unable to leave her orbit by choice, drawn to her like a gravitational force.
the sun as a giver of life, the same way it was the sorcereressā curse that brought the ill-fated fiend back to life
āflowers can bloom all over tarus city, but only for one person,ā as if sheās the key to their photosynthesis
sylus as the mysterious moon, never fully seen or understood, but always reflecting the light of that one bright star
#i feel sick to my stomach they make me genuinely ill#i love him so much i love the way he loves so deeply and completely#he thinks the WORLD of his lover it makes me weak#love and deepspace#lnds sylus#love and deepspace sylus#l&ds sylus#lads sylus#sylus x mc
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sketches and a wip. i dont like thinking too much before posting, head empty this is the stuff i have in my gallery take or or leave it the void is nice
#swissaus#what are u even expecting i domt knowwww#maybe im too much but im genuine in my house sighhh#edelweiss#belbel#belgbel#bel2#the environments on twt and instagram have been calling thrm bel2 and its#my fav name so far#like#bell²#bel²#awesome equation#that wip is old atp but i will go back to it as soon as i finish my schoolwork#which im in hell for atm#im watching sherlock bbc and rendering comics free meeeee#pausing to post on tumblr cuz this shit is getting to me i feel unwell#i forgot i had amerus yuri here tooi drew it for my oomf julie#amerus#this is the second time i post a wip of sum edelweiss w that songšššdid u guys know i like new order? no ok#one day ill share my edelweiss playlist and cereal will make crazy fun of me never let ur best friends stalk ur shir#sorry today felt#like yapping#goodnight to whoever reads tags
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I don't want to keep clogging my blog with vent posts but uh... I guess this is a more general concern/observation
But it's getting real hard to stay motivated in fandom spaces when there's little compensation, and annoying occurrences are more frequent than good ones.
Mainly there's been less engagement/people showing interest in creators and their art (such as sending asks, making comments and reblogging with tags) and MORE parasocial interactions. This goes for both artists and writers.
Over this year I've noticed a vast disinterest within my public in general. Asks about ocs, my art, or just nice simple comments of ''I love your art'' has been getting more and more scarce. My follower number is bigger than 2-3 years ago sure and I get more likes on my posts but they are feeling more like just numbers and statistics than actual people who supposedly like my stuff.
And while people being parasocial with creators has always been a thing, I feel like it's gotten way worse... in general? People sending personal pictures out of the blue in hopes of being validated, unwanted psychological advice or assumptions about the creator without any established connection first ( <- these happened to me in the same week.) ventdump, just insensitive/lacking of common sense comments in general, unreasonable demands (mostly with writers)... I wondered at first if it was just me, but a handful of mutuals/acquaintances who are artists and writers seems to be going through it as well.
It's annoying. It's tough. It's getting exhausting. Creators pour so much of themselves into their workācountless hours, effort, and passion, all to share something meaningful or entertaining with others (and for FREE) The LEAST anyone can do is show respect, even if opinions differ. When a writer posts a fanfic, don't just say ''omg post next chapter!'', when an artist posts a drawing of their favorite character, don't just say ''omg draw (character) next!'' as if they're faceless content machines that are expected to churn out more '''content''' for you without acknowledgment, encouragement, or appreciation.
''I want to support creators but I don't know what to say and I feel intimidated by their talent so I just lurk silently :((('' I swear to you, no creator (at least not the majority) is making up an intimidating persona to discourage you from interacting with them. They WANT your comments. A single ''I love your art/writing/videos'' or even something as silly as ''I want to eat your art'' is enough to keep a creator sighing dreamily for WEEKS. It doesn't have to be deep! It's heartfelt and that's what it matters!! (Just remember to keep it relevant and thoughtful... It takes just a bit of common sense NOT to comment things like ''this looks like (another character)'' or ''this but with (another unrelated ship/character/show)''. No one wants to hear comparisons or unrelated ideas when theyāve poured their soul into something.)
In fact, the ''I like your art but I think you're intimidating'' feels more hurtful than flattering. It makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong, acting wrong. š
If you love that fanfic that changed your brain psyche forever and want to gush about it, go tell the writer. If you loved so much a piece of art that you saved it a million times in your phone and can't stop thinking about it, go tell the artist. Push away the ''they probably won't care about my comment/it won't make a difference'' thoughts. DO IT NOW. You won't know when they might go inactive forever or deactivate. You can't know if that is the last piece they will ever post. Make sure you show appreciation to creators NOW, while they are still here. While they're still not being replaced by AI.
#fandoms#to those users who always reblog my art with tags and comments I SEE YOU. YOU MAKE A WHOLE DIFFERENCE. YOU GIVE ME STRENGTH TO GO ON#to people who send asks about my oc or show genuine interest and appreciation for my art/me even if I take a whole ass year to answer#I still APPRECIATE IT so much and one day (hopefully) ill answer it with a cute lil doodle š#one time I made a rlly heartfelt comment of appreciation for one my fav jp artists on twitter which I thought was ''intimidating''#i thought they were gonna think my comment was obnoxious or rude for not being in japanese but I made sure to be respectful#to my surprise the artist responded me with a small drawing as a thankyou... and they did that JUST for me šš not anyone else#it really opened my eyes#people can FEEL your love and passion for their work even with language barrier#its literally SO easy to be nice. and also SO easy to not be a parasocial dick.#but more often its none of those#if people cared about artists there wouldnt be AI art/writing
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hoptal
#library of ruina#yesod lor#yesod#netzach lor#netzach#PRETEND ITS THE 14TH FOR ME OKAY!! god this thing made me feel so tired but its over. its over. am i happy w it? no.#ahhhghg the dialog is subpar. you can see visibly where i started and stopped some days. yk what. its. done.#ill do a whole different reblog from the sideblog on just ramblings of getting through it plus choices made. tldr aroace and harder to writ#romance that feels genuine. either way its done!! i was going to have it not as detailed but since i already missed the date by a lot might#as well put more effort into it yk. the last one made me want to die though. its really iffy compaired to the others . struggled so hard to#make it look right. ended up just going w one of the other previous sketches and just giving up and shading it in. i dobnot gaf it can look#weird but be done. HUZZAH!!!#ohbright forgot#netsod#probablt will do the text reblog abouuutt ???? 2 hours after og goes up. just to properly format it and collect thoughts and write#to who ever sent that anonymous ask. hope u like it. sorry it took so long#if this isnt in order i will melt into the floor and be consumed into the earth. PLEASEPELASPELASPLEASE#i onow i will make a seperate post abt it. but also. still just very. eh? i wanted to try and be true to what i had originally come to enjoy#with lor. but also i know im not capable of replicating such aspects and works and craftsmanship. but i still want to keep to what i can or#try to express facets that drew me into it all. which makes me a bit skittish abt writing dialog or drawing them in any other situation that#isnt just like. white void or the like. but still... .. .. . ahgh. skittish and overthinking. i cant tell what is attempting to handle with#adoration and care and what is just being overly terrified of having words or intent misconstrued#rechecking and rechecking and rechecking and .. . .. ect ect. i cannot look at it lest i explode
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āhe was mentally ill. this monster was a- was a sick fantasy. a product of his dementia.ā
āā¦i saw it too. does that make me disturbed? demented? does⦠that make me sick too?ā
#txf#the x files#dana scully#fox mulder#folie a deux#this episode ⦠this EPISODE!!!!!!#genuinely so indicative of how much they trust each otherā¦.#between mulder just . having to rely on scully for the last part of the ep#scully thinking heās off his fucking rocker and still looking into what he asks her to look into bc she TRUSTS him . bc she LOVES him !!!!#and maybe heās a little nuts but goddamnit she will at least check it out !! just in case heās right!!!#AND she lies for him all the time . i mean she always does this whenever he decides to go nuts But specifically in this epā¦#looks skinner in the eye and goes . yea man im totally fully with mulder on this . and heās definitely not being weird and i definitely kno#whatās going on with him#she lies for mulder all the time its sooooā¦#anyways . drawing wise this drove me nuts i hate drawing mulder . heās so hard for me to draw#theyāre kinda kirie and shuichi coded in the bottom part but . well . why not . might as well be#ALSOOO i chose that quote for the bottom bc . well . does she think heās crazy? like actually for real?#i feel like every time scully talks about mulder (up to season five at least as thats where im at) its contained in some way?#in her reports . to family . to skinner . to mulder !#i think the only time sheās Really honest is in the confessional but even thenā¦#bc its not like sheās against speaking her mind . i mean generally and situational but for ppl sheās close to she usually isnt#but when it comes to mulder it always feels contained and like sheās making excuses for him (he is always her exception .#llike whenevrr he gets some disease or affliction or whatever she ALWAYS jumps to going ābut well⦠sometimes thereās this excuseā and she#does this w a lot considering shes science focused but w mulder shes always like . well he ISNT crazy because uhhhh .#this hyperspecific scenario that is in no fuckin way the case)#but does she think heās crazy? does HE think she thinks heās crazy?#is he asking about this specific case or is he asking in general? over the entirety of the show?#its been five years scully. is he crazy? sick? demented?#has this all been a sick fantasy fueled by mental illness? youre the doctor scully . surely you have the answer?#anyways i dont think she knows . and if that is the case ā what does that mean for her?
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Taco angst it's all taco angst TACO ANGST
#inanimate insanity#ii taco#taco ii#ii mic#mic ii#tacomic#ii mepad#mepad ii#tacopad#pickle ii#ii pickle#its all angst#angst#so i was making memes in advance#since ill be busy on the next scheduled meme day unfortunately#and then i saw an angst quote#and now here we are#this probably will be the only time i do this (?)#loomys crying about tacopad#it has happened before#it will happen again#the evening of november 24th was genuinely like#the worst meltdown ive ever had#and it was bc id see the london screen that day and had been in shock for hours#that my mepad was dead#i fucking loved the finale#i do not feel too much in general but ii?#that makes me FEEL#uh ok tag oversharing over byeeeee
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And some days, I just wish you wouldn't look at me at all.
#ffxiv#sketch#wol#meteor survivor#zenos yae galvus#adventurer zenos#oh no#its the consequences of his actions#everything is fine until the only man on the star you care about looks at you with the same contempt your father did#(Meteor's not doing it intentionally- its a reflex after he comes back for quite a bit)#and zenos is getting bodied because its been a while since... you know... him being able to really feel anything at all#and no- its not him regretting anything that had to do with varis- just him regretting the thought meteor could look at him like that#little does Meteor know he's emotionally bodying the man he's trying to be cordial with#its a little okay because in how I write adventurer zenos this serves as one of his main wake-up calls to make some changes#and realizing both the mistakes he's made with meteor and that meteor hating him in any way is actually -not at all- what he wants#but not okay on the end that every time meteor does this he has to watch zenos actively dissociate right in front of him#until zenos just kinda autopilots and walks away#the second time (or perhaps third) in the last 11 years that zenos has felt regret to any major capacity-#on meteor's end I just enjoy seeing the progression of the WoL through subtext#and why meteor is willing to even entertain the idea despite how much he hates zenos- his decisions and the path he's walked#is the realization that there is high chance that he could actually be a direct catalyst for zenos' growth#and the realization the wol has that they were the only one zenos has ever genuinely reached out to#besides- i just like the idea of having your equal other half fighting back to back with you- or being able to handle threats you cant#and i find their dynamic neat- of meteor not forgiving zenos but giving him his last chance- and growing to enjoy being around him#and zenos being able to work on moving past being the weapon or the monster- finding the connections he's longed for#and giving himself purpose to finally truly just live- for him to learn to experience and have the freedom to find what he enjoys#(and curiously him having estinien's brand of accidently helping people even in StB gives me ideas...)#but enough tag ranting- ill get to zenos' actual adventuring in another post lol
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When Callie told her mom that she's the same age Shauna was when they crashed, it 100% destroyed Shauna more than she let on.
She now has to face the fact that at this point, her daughter is just as capable of the evil that she was. Shauna wants to believe that she is the only person that could comprehend her trauma, but here is Callie who could totally go to the same lengths as Shauna. We've seen Callie manipulate and mistreat people to get what she wants, just like her mother. Shauna is horrified by the possibility that Callie could ever do what she did, because if there's one thing we all know about Shauna, it's that she hates herself more than anybody else. To see that mirrored in Callie must have ruined her.
#callie sadecki#shauna sadecki#shauna shipman#yellowjackets#Callie and Shauna make me feel ill#apple tree#yj season 3#they are genuinely so tragic
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