#gay dean Winchester

[reverseteehee]

meme

[thedeaddiscodame]

Crazy that they fuckin were all like, 'oh, well, Charlie's a lesbian so SHE can't talk to guys!!! She doesn't know how!!! She's physically incapable of it!!!' and then went, 'so the obvious solution is that dean flirt with men FOR her!'

Like baby boy

the call is coming from inside the house

[sirlancenotalot]

[loosethreadsofyoursoul]

while i will always love and appreciate the bisexual dean winchester agenda, i truly believe that if he was raised differently—or maybe if he grew up today instead—that boy would have been gay. like his love for women in a romantic/sexual context was always such a caricature and was continuously used as a symbol of masculinity that played against the roles assigned to him by his father growing up for the sake of suppressing any queerness he might exhibit. now whether that suppression was purposely written into his character or was a reaction to the character they had created, i’m not sure, but it’s there regardless.

i don’t mean to dismiss the love he felt for cassie or lisa, but particularly with lisa, i’m not sure he was ever in love with her, despite the fact that he did care for both her and ben. i get so frustrated watching the end of s5 because him going to her house and his perfect “apple pie life” being with her in suburbia genuinely came out of nowhere and i’ve never understood a) why it had to happen, and b) why it had to be lisa. but thinking about it in this sense, she was the closest thing he had in his life to everything he was raised to believe he should want by one john winchester, who lost his perfect wife, perfect family, perfect apple pie life and sent all of them down this path in the first place. so of course to dean, his happy ending would be with someone like lisa. but that’s the important part. someone like lisa, not lisa herself. he may have had love for her and he may have been able to picture a life with her, but it wasn’t necessarily because she was everything he wanted; she was a symbol of the things that tore his family apart and so to be with her felt like he was finally able to put some of it back together. and that makes me so sad for him because all of that is a result of the sense of responsibility ingrained in him growing up by john, not something he wanted for himself.

but back to his general attitude towards women, there was an excellent post that said he only acts like the typical womanizer he has a reputation for being around women deemed “stereotypical” by the misogynistic perspective. otherwise, he tends to take on a fairly brotherly role; he doesn’t tend to pursue any women he can “take seriously,” and is more intimidated or impressed by them than anything else. with the exception of cassie (which was pre-series and we never got full context for in the first place), he only ever pursued women with whom he would have a definitive ending—by that i mean women who he knows he’ll never see again or who would have a clearly defined role during the time they’re together that wouldn’t threaten the status quo. and yes these could also be the traits of a commitment-phobe or someone chronically on the move, but for one, sam doesn’t tend to do the same thing (see ruby, amelia, and eileen), and for two, given the things i mentioned already, it makes me consider it more of a result of him not actually being interested in women romantically.

his reaction to women when not purposely used as the butt of a joke or to perpetuate the “womanizer dean winchester” agenda is often so innately fraternal, caring in a way that doesn’t have any expectations behind it. and when there is a romantic context, so much of the relationship can be attributed to the way john raised him and the beliefs he has as a direct result; it’s never simply been built on the foundation of love.

every time he is dismissed as this macho het guy, it also dismisses so much of what makes him a wonderful character, and yes a lot of that is his queerness. so in a world where he didn’t grow up with roles and responsibilities that shaped him into someone he knew his dad hated and forced him to create this character for himself in order to survive? i think he would have been gay and he would have been okay with that.

[nostalgicbones]

dean winchester | mirrorball

i’m still a believer, but i don’t know why // i’ve never been a natural, all i do is try try try

( youtube | other amvs )

or, dean + his performance of self (through a queer lens) — bonus thumbnail under the cut!

[headcanonforthought]

SPN headcanon thing?

Dean goes undercover to bust a crazy church cult. There doing "conversion therapy" and gay men go missing after they begin attending. Dean goes in and pretends to be struggling with gay thoughts. He uses Cas as his example and says Cas is a work freind he's got a crush on. Of course, Dean thinks he's describing a very normal relationship between him and Cas, in fact he's worried the cult will suss out that he's lying to them. Instead...

Cult leader; "oh goodness Dean, thank the Lord above you came in when you did! I'm afraid you are one more meeting away from commiting the act of homosexuality with Cas!"

Dean; "I mean... I wouldn't say, that was, an issue..."

Cult leader; "Yes your seduced and in love with this deceiver! The way you speak, I've not seen a man so tempted ever before in my life!"

Dean; *pulling out his gun*

Dean; "NOW WAIT JUST ONE MINUTE JACKASS!"

Sam; "He's blowing his cover!"

Cas; "Was the crazed man correct? Does Dean wish to blow me?"

[roublardise]

"As if Cas had been planning to stop by eventually. As if them meeting again was some kind of scheduled appointment. As if their story didn't get its very clear-cut ending seven years ago." Dean made his brother's wedding his top priority, and he has everything under control. No surprise, no headache, his to do list is set like clockwork. Until two days prior. When Cas shows up at Sioux Falls. Pushed towards the rearview and forced to look back on their past choices, will they manage to untangle their truth.. and find what they're truly longing for?

cw: Referenced (past) alcoholism ; Anxiety Attacks ; Daddy issues ; Canon level of physical violence - rated T

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This fic is completed! I will drop a chapter every three days or so through February, for a total of 5 chapters and ~54k.

-> read on ao3 <-

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[foxedfriend]

Supernatural spoilers for like the whole show//

Thinking about how it was ok to make God canonically bisexual in Supernatural, but Dean Winchester wasn’t allowed to be.

It was so easy for them too. SO EASY. They were just like “oh btw god has had bfs as well as gfs!” And that was it. No hints, no subtext, no dramatic buildup and easing the audience into it. None of that. Just. God’s bi I guess 🤷‍♂️. Even though it seems like a throwaway, practically a funny gotcha! line. It’s still there.

That’s what hurts the most for me. Just how easy, how effortless queer rep seemed to be for the show in later seasons. Nothing crazy. Nothing extreme. A simple sentence. A romantic interest who happens to be of the same gender.

Even for God. Something from our reality that a lot of people believe in. Religious people generally don’t like it when people make things up about him because it messes with their image of something they genuinely believe in. But the show did it anyway. They didn’t really seem to care about upsetting people. Even though their target audience was originally macho cis het men (those who are generally more conservative and Christian leaning). Oh yeah just make him bi.

But not Dean. No, never Dean. There’s no way they could make him bi or gay or anything like that. He’s our manly hero. Our main good guy.

No, that’d be crazy. You’re crazy. Oh yeah all of these random side characters are queer and engage in queer behaviours: evil witches, the king of hell, the most macho burly hunter you’ve ever seen (not Dean tho), LITERALLY GOD HIMSELF. But not Dean. Don’t be stupid now. Oh yeah Cas is queer and in love with Dean. Maybe. But Dean would never reciprocate that. Dean isn’t gay. He can’t be. For some reason.

And that’s how the show ended.

I appreciate everything said and done by actors and writers later on and I know what’s true in my heart and have my own interpretations of the text of the show, but it kind of would’ve just been nice to have something concrete and official in the show. A small line. You know. Would’ve made me feel a little less crazy. A little less alone.

[annmariethrush]

What if Psalm 40:2 was the only literature ever? What then?

[sammygender]

something about john winchester mischaracterisation just needles me inexplicably. i can deal with it if a fic is good otherwise but cmon. you have to Get Him. he loves the boys and he ruins their lives like come on….. if you don’t get that he loves them then how r u even getting dean’s character considering that dean is The Same in this manner. love can be bad love doesn’t change abuse it just complicates it etc etc.

unrelatedly but also relatedly, i don’t think he’d be actually homophobic because i don’t think he has time to care. i do however think dean would be absolutely convinced he is incredibly homophobic for unknown reasons. john probably makes like an offhanded comment about something being gay once and 15 year old dean (very attracted to men. genuinely no idea whatsoever. still feels intense rush of panic at the word) decides it must mean john desperately and intensely HATES gay people and proceeds to become world’s best baby homophobe for like a year before he starts to think Maybe Sammy’s gay (sam likes to read books) and cools down on the homophobia. also his heart was never really in it. but he still thinks john is homophobic and has also decided sam’s probably gay (sam is more attracted to women than dean is) so he worries about this a lot.

then one day john says extremely casually about sam Sometimes I wonder if he’s not a little queer, you know, and dean’s heart stops and he’s like What no of course not what and john’s like If it means he doesn’t get into as much trouble with girls as you seem to, I honestly don’t mind and dean’s just like. What. but by this point it’s far too late and all fragments of homosexuality have been far buried beneath the surface by his subconscious. Also it’s important that john WOULD be kind of annoyed by dean being gay. he already thinks sam is weird and has decided to love him anyway (although i’m not sure sam got the memo about being loved anyway so the effort was useless) so it’s ok if sam is gay (privilege of being the family freak!) but dean is meant to be mini him. #picking up girls. see that journal entry. he’d get over it though.

[soft-pine]

i’ve whispered and walked on eggshells just to choose misery over dispute

some blueberry pie life: chapter 23

hi! i've gotten a few new followers since i last posted a chap of this so i wanted to do a quick re-intro post as well as a chapter update. this fic is my magnum opus, my precious baby. basically it's like a million one-shots that touch on themes from canon-time spn and how they tie into pre-canon and eventually post canon. it's pretty heavy and the beginning is much more of a dean character study than DeanCas per say but we are heading there.

title from Misery Over Dispute by Waxahatchee

notes below!

August, 2002

Sam leaving is mentioned throughout season 1 but this specific convo is a reference to the conversation between Sam and John in 1.20

The house that they were staying in when Sam left for Stanford is shown in 5.16

The reference to Sam begging to come hunting is from 11.08

Dean dropping out of high school and therefore needing to get a GED is a reference to 5.01 and 5.13

The chick-flick comment is a reference to 1.01 and 11.23.

May, 2013

Takes place during and right after 9.03

The reference to Cas falling asleep in the car before was from 5.22

May, 1993

John sending Dean away when he really pissed him off is something Dean talks about in 14.12

[fizz-pop-thwip]

Everrryyyone yapping abt their headcannons so ig I will too 🤭

Sam

Transgender blood freak

Fuck nasty

He/him

Came out at like 15 to Dean (he was very supportive.. maybe a lil confused. He had the spirit that's all that counts.)

Bisexual pref for women

He didn't really 'come out' as bi but Dean saw him with a dude and found out

Sam was very nonchalant abt it, Dean was going crazy.

Dean

'straight' (Gay man.)

Literally he just has severe internalised homophobia

Discovering Sam was Bi probably helped him feel more comfortable to come out

Probably also gave him a crisis 'sam just likes guys, as a guy, normally. And that's fine. Ofc it's fine. It's okay. (I'm okay)"

Didn't tell Sam till like season 11. Sam knew tho but was very supportive.

kinda wasn't Dean's fault he left it so late he had a lot of internal struggles

He/him (sorry to all the genderqueer dean truthers )

Cas

Literally doesn't care

Like hes up for anything

Any pronouns, literally no gender, any fuck is a good fuck.

Cas understands he's perceived in a masculine way. He does not care. People always use 'he'. He does not care. If someone were to use 'she' or 'they' He would not care. Use anything you want, no worries here.

Angel gendered freak cutie

Wears skirts sometimes. Those long flowy ones that reach your ankles.

[thedeaddiscodame]

I do hate when people say that dean was so in the closet that even he didn't know he was gay. Like, it's so much more intriguing and interesting and HEARTBREAKING, even just on a narrative level, if, the whole time, he KNOWS. He knows and he knows and he knows and that knowledge is CRUSHING him. He is drowning but he can't let go of the rock holding him underneath the water because he is so, So fucking scared. He knows, he HAS known, his ENTIRE fucking life, that he is supposed to be one thing and one thing only: The Son Of John Winchester. And The Son Of John Winchester is a good little soldier who falls in fucking line. The Son Of John Winchester does as he is told. The Son Of John Winchester comes when he is called, and he loves beer, and cars, and guns, and women- and most of fucking all, The Son Of John Winchester is not. Fucking. Gay. But god, oh fuck: He is. And that's killing him all over again.

[sirlancenotalot]

[genderimpala]

HUSBAND????????????

[ye-olde-tardis]

I like "Dean is a repressed bisexual"

I like "Dean knows he's gay and just doesn't want to talk about it"

I like "Castiel was dean's gay awakening and he didn't have any experience with liking men beforehand"

I like "Dean has always liked men and women"

I like Dean so much, and I like all of you creative people, and you should all interpret media the way you wish to babes ♥️