#fuck you Medicare

[doilyboily]

God knew if he made me not have treatment resistant depression, that I would become an unstoppable force to be reckoned with. Or, a rant.

I'm going through Venlafaxine/Effexor withdrawals and HOLY FUCK this is terrible, I spent months tapering down to 75mg but I couldn't wait any longer to get off this capsule of hell. But now I'm going to try Bupropion AKA Zyban which isn't covered by the PBS for depression, it's only covered for smoking cessation, which makes no fucking sense bc its apparently quite an effective antidepressant, which means that it costs ONE HUNDRED AND EIGHT SIX DOLLARS (186 AUD or 125USD) which means that I'll probably only try this one only until the box runs out bc I do NOT have the money to spend on a medication that, with my luck, wont even fucking work and I'll feel waaay too guilty if my dad pays for it, even though he can afford it and it is his legal obligation... so my options for treating my depression, not including therapy bc that is also too expensive and I'm too self aware for it to work, are:

spend over 1,200 dollars per year and take the Bupropion/Zyban, if it does work.

try MAOIs, which means I'll have to go through MORE withdrawals and most likely have to stop taking my ADHD meds.

try and see if Ketamine therapy is legal where I live for minors and just in general, then try and get a job to pay for it bc holy shit it is expensive.

try even MORE SSRI's even though I've already tried six different ones since I was eight years old and I'm almost seventeen.

try electroconvulsive therapy, which will most likely not be covered by either my insurance OR Medicare and will one hundred percent cost a LOT of money to have done regularly.

and my final option, which is to follow in the footsteps of my paternal half siblings and all my paternal first cousins, which would be succumbing to drug addiction as a way to numb myself and pretend that everything is fine.

Basically, I'll either spend a ton of money which I do not have, and also need to save for top surgery, which may or may not end up actually treating me, or I follow in the footsteps of pretty much everyone on my dads side of the family and repeat the cycle of generational trauma.

So, either way, I am absolutely fucked.

[abiteofhoney]

coworker suddenly telling me to do something differently after 3 years of doing it a certain way. fine but don’t bitch at me when it’s wrong. i tried to tell you that this isn’t how it’s done.

[itshomobirb]

if my parents keep talking to me im going to (remembers that suicide jokes are bad for mental health) go outside and dig a hole to narnia

[violet-jessop]

two nights in a row gripping ice cubes like i'm 14 this is fucking pathetic

[anteroom-of-death]

I think the only thing Drake can do now is shoot Kendrick.

[explode-this]

The phrases “during covid times” and “during the pandemic” drive me bonkers because hi babes, it’s not over. If you mean the lock down period, say that. But covid is still very much around and mutating like a motherfucker, so if you care about the immunocompromised people in your life for the love of god take some precautions and stop acting like it’s done. The effects of covid are far-reaching (for e.g., I’ve been told I have to be “past this covid cough” to have abdominal surgery or I’ll “tear everything open,” like sir, I don’t really have much of a choice in what my lungs are doing now or how long it will take for them to calm down, if ever). Those of us with shitty immune systems aren’t “scared” for no reason. If you’ve ever gone from “perfectly healthy” to “need a steroid shot to not die” then you’ll understand.

FUUUUUUUUUUUCK.

[kg-clark-inthedark]

Trying to finish writing my week 4 dhkinktober smutfic while everything is on fire at work and I’m hopelessly anxious and depressed is… challenging lmao

[fromkenari]

Goddamnit, Oklahoma.

[mrgaminduck]

My friend has asked that I share this.

Her grandma has had a massive stroke and she and her family are struggling to pay the bills for hospital care and rehabilitation.

If you can afford to donate that would be awesome.

[tiktaalic]

Being in a society is great you go can I have a raise and the CEO who makes CEO money goes ummmmmmm.no and then it’s lab week and they’re like to show our deep sincere appreciation. Here is a notebook or cup with our company name on it. You may have free food for a week

[lunarflare64]

AUSTRALIA'S ME/CFS CLINICAL GUIDELINES ARE BEING UPDATED! THE GOVERNMENT APPROVED FUNDING FOR THE RESEARCH! FUCK YEAH!

[datastate]

who allowed this

[spinyax]

I hate my job actually

[lesbiangummybearmafia]

Current mood... due to pms or state of my life or both I'm not sure.

[unloneliest]

at the point of really needing to get off my adderall and maybe get on ritalin instead bc on the lowest possible adderall doses i still can't sleep for shit it's 2 in the morning and i took my med at 8 am. but i'm uninsured rn and also moving states. hell

[jainkoa]

I can’t wait to wake up early as fuck in the morning tomorrow just to see a dentist that will do fuck all to help me with my wisdom teeth removal 😍😍😍😍😍