#fuck you Medicare
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God knew if he made me not have treatment resistant depression, that I would become an unstoppable force to be reckoned with. Or, a rant.
I'm going through Venlafaxine/Effexor withdrawals and HOLY FUCK this is terrible, I spent months tapering down to 75mg but I couldn't wait any longer to get off this capsule of hell. But now I'm going to try Bupropion AKA Zyban which isn't covered by the PBS for depression, it's only covered for smoking cessation, which makes no fucking sense bc its apparently quite an effective antidepressant, which means that it costs ONE HUNDRED AND EIGHT SIX DOLLARS (186 AUD or 125USD) which means that I'll probably only try this one only until the box runs out bc I do NOT have the money to spend on a medication that, with my luck, wont even fucking work and I'll feel waaay too guilty if my dad pays for it, even though he can afford it and it is his legal obligation... so my options for treating my depression, not including therapy bc that is also too expensive and I'm too self aware for it to work, are:
spend over 1,200 dollars per year and take the Bupropion/Zyban, if it does work.
try MAOIs, which means I'll have to go through MORE withdrawals and most likely have to stop taking my ADHD meds.
try and see if Ketamine therapy is legal where I live for minors and just in general, then try and get a job to pay for it bc holy shit it is expensive.
try even MORE SSRI's even though I've already tried six different ones since I was eight years old and I'm almost seventeen.
try electroconvulsive therapy, which will most likely not be covered by either my insurance OR Medicare and will one hundred percent cost a LOT of money to have done regularly.
and my final option, which is to follow in the footsteps of my paternal half siblings and all my paternal first cousins, which would be succumbing to drug addiction as a way to numb myself and pretend that everything is fine.
Basically, I'll either spend a ton of money which I do not have, and also need to save for top surgery, which may or may not end up actually treating me, or I follow in the footsteps of pretty much everyone on my dads side of the family and repeat the cycle of generational trauma.
So, either way, I am absolutely fucked.
#depressing shit#major depressive disorder#treatment resistant depression#psychiatry#australia#fuck you PBS#fuck you Medicare#fuck you Anthony Albanese#antidepressants#ssri withdrawal#effexor#venlafaxine#i fucking hate this country
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coworker suddenly telling me to do something differently after 3 years of doing it a certain way. fine but don’t bitch at me when it’s wrong. i tried to tell you that this isn’t how it’s done.
#my manager has specifically told me#that medicare voucher totals do not get changed#no matter if there’s overpayment recovery.#but now suddenly i’m supposed to change this one#ok 👍#sure#and i’ll fix it on the next folder when your totals are wrong#like its literally offset in a batch last week#bc that’s how medicare works#but i checked with you#i tried to tell you#so when it’s fucking off#don’t come to me
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two nights in a row gripping ice cubes like i'm 14 this is fucking pathetic
#i feel like my bones are filled with concrete#i spent the day doing all the things i've been putting off#emails to orthodontist and dentist and accountant#found a gp to hopefully get a mental health plan set up with#and went searching for a psych#but fuck me that's been less that fruitful#it feels like a waste of time and energy and money#as soon as you set suicidal ideation as an issue the pool of psychs goes from 1251 to 152#and adding queer filters to that?#psychology today says go die fag#and of those how many do you reckon is eligible for the medicare rebate?#because i've emailed 4 and of those i think maybe 1 will be eligible#BUT!#they cost so much that even WITH the rebate I'd be paying $130 for a 50 minute session#it's just a waste of money#i could see a therapist every day and still see no improvement#medicare offers a rebate for 10 sessions IF i'm lucky#so that's $1300 for 50 minutes a month#i judt can't see how that's going to do anyone any good#alternatively i can sit down with rika and get my will sorted and that money can go somewhere useful#that math isn't right#it'd be $1800 for 50 minutes a month#even more wasteful#i think i'm better off finding a comfortable and private place to decay#mum might be mental but maybe she was right when she told me i should just kill myself when i was 14#i've been inhaling smoke for so long
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I think the only thing Drake can do now is shoot Kendrick.
#personal#drake#kendrick lamar#you have no other options#hes this close to leaking your fucking tax id and medicare number#you cant back out now#aubreyyyyy you did wrong
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if my parents keep talking to me im going to (remembers that suicide jokes are bad for mental health) go outside and dig a hole to narnia
#borbtalks#'borb u got a letter from vsp. why are you paying for vsp. i dont think u need it bc of xyz. oh you're getting mail from y insurance?#they're a good company. im also covered under them. are they cheaper than ur previous one? they must be. did u know medicare has a page#online where u can compare all the plans? well did you? ik you've been on medicare longer than me but idk if you knew :/#sooo do u have a valid drivers license? oh when did u get it renewed? when does it expire? we were looking at car insurance earlier...#oh btw when are they gonna reevaluate u for disability? do u know? when did they last reevaluate u? when do they reevaluate others?#ANYWAY. what if i brought over x's dog. the dog that stresses ur cats out so much that they puke everywhere and spend all day hiding :)#wdym it'll stress [cat] out. what if he. didn't get stressed? :)'#like SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP#cant even walk into the bathroom without her trying to talk to me. can't make dinner w/o her trying to talk to me#and of course im the bad guy in telling her not to stress the cat out#just by saying 'vet says he's not supposed to get stressed out. he's at a higher risk for blockage if he does#which will KILL him.'#same woman who sat next to me while i was the phone w/ the phone company. petting the cat and whispering 'oh borb abuses u doesn't he?#maybe ill just steal you away one day. keep u away from borb. oh yes borb treats u oh so horribly.'#and my dad. sitting on the other side of me. said absolutely nothing.#i get it. im the family's designated fuck up!! the designated brat !!!! and no one gives a shit if my feelings get hurt !!!!!!!#i swear. my mother could smack me and everyone would rush to her side and comfort her stinging hand
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The phrases “during covid times” and “during the pandemic” drive me bonkers because hi babes, it’s not over. If you mean the lock down period, say that. But covid is still very much around and mutating like a motherfucker, so if you care about the immunocompromised people in your life for the love of god take some precautions and stop acting like it’s done. The effects of covid are far-reaching (for e.g., I’ve been told I have to be “past this covid cough” to have abdominal surgery or I’ll “tear everything open,” like sir, I don’t really have much of a choice in what my lungs are doing now or how long it will take for them to calm down, if ever). Those of us with shitty immune systems aren’t “scared” for no reason. If you’ve ever gone from “perfectly healthy” to “need a steroid shot to not die” then you’ll understand.
FUUUUUUUUUUUCK.
#we’re not in a post-covid world kids#we’re very much in a ‘this IS our world now’ world#you probably *should* be afraid of the effects of multiple infections#i put partial blames on the shitty medical infrastructure in the U.S.#so many people have to puff up in the face of sickness and act like it isn’t a threat#because they don’t have health insurance and it’s how they fool themselves into getting past medical issues#having your insurance tied to a job is one of the cruelest yokes#or tied to a spouse#Medicare for all now#UBI for all now#this country… it is beyond fucked
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Trying to finish writing my week 4 dhkinktober smutfic while everything is on fire at work and I’m hopelessly anxious and depressed is… challenging lmao
#clark barks#horny? in this economy??#I go to write over emotional shit for my longfic and fly through it#but porn?#ugggghhb such a struggle rn#im tryin though I already have 5k words down#(also I want to burn every health insurance company to the ground)#(just know if you use medicaid or medicare in the US)#(you care is only getting approved bc people like me fight tooth and nail to get the govt to provide you what they fucking promised)#(if it even gets approved at all)#(god bless america or whatever 🦅 🇺🇸 🖕)
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Goddamnit, Oklahoma.
#title x#oklahoma#united states#supreme court#this is gonna fuck up so many things if it happens#oklahoma v hhs#medicare#medicaid#healthcare#over a fucking call in line for neutral information about abortions#are you fucking shitting me#you're risking millions of people losing the basic right to healthcare#fucking damnit#out of credits
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My friend has asked that I share this.
Her grandma has had a massive stroke and she and her family are struggling to pay the bills for hospital care and rehabilitation.
If you can afford to donate that would be awesome.
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Being in a society is great you go can I have a raise and the CEO who makes CEO money goes ummmmmmm.no and then it’s lab week and they’re like to show our deep sincere appreciation. Here is a notebook or cup with our company name on it. You may have free food for a week
#it’s just so funny all the time.#either you aren’t turning a profit doing MEDICAL TESTING in which case you definitely failed your business class on coloring pages#or you are turning a profit on MEDICAL TESTING (fucking duh) and from your several hundred k salary tower are hand wringing and going ummm y#you know how it is with the Medicare charges#etxt
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AUSTRALIA'S ME/CFS CLINICAL GUIDELINES ARE BEING UPDATED! THE GOVERNMENT APPROVED FUNDING FOR THE RESEARCH! FUCK YEAH!
#literally the only reason we arent getting real treatment is because we cant afford it#because the government doesnt recognise any treatment for it yet#so no medicare coverage. at all.#we cant afford $70 a month for meds. we're pensioners the government doesnt give us that much wiggle room#trying not to get our hopes too high - australia hasnt really shown that it gives a shit about this yet#you know shits fucked when america does better than your country at something medical
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who allowed this
#head in my hands. these were just meant to be headshots#SORRY FOR BEING UNWELL ABT THE CHIDOUINS. IIT WILL HAPPEN AGAIN.#i love you atsuko you are so morally fucked up but it's okay. i understand. i would also do abhorrent things for good medicare#jestersvaguely#my wips
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I hate my job actually
#some fucker (with a shitty mix mind you) randomly called up and accused me of being a scammer????#like first he said our number was being used as a Medicare scam then said I was a scammer because Mississippi doesn’t have an area code with#with 228 like bitch!!!!!!! it fucking does!!!!!!!#and I’m just trying to figure out if the guy needs anything or has a car in the shop or something#and I can barely fucking hear his because he kept cutting out and he sounded like he was in 144p#well apparently he’s reporting us so good luck grandpa die in a hole 💖💖💖💖
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Current mood... due to pms or state of my life or both I'm not sure.
#my life#current mood#fuck the system#fuck mental health experts#fuck toxic people#fuck toxic family members#fuck people expecting you to listen to their bullshit but won't listen to yours#fuck my mental diseases#fuck everyone that stigmatizes any of with mental diseases#fuck mental health stigmas#fuck anxiety#fuck depression#fuck ptsd#fuck smart ass mouth 15 y.o. little shits#fuck the republican party for wanting to cut ssi snap medicare medicaid#just fuck the republican party un general#fuck billionaires#free the free market#fuck trickle down economics#fuck capitalism#fuck money the root of all evil#fuck my dna that made me genetically predisposition to have mental illnesses#fuck the sun i want to be gloomy motherfucker#fuck all the bullshit#i feel like getting into a fist fight#FUCK IT ALL!!!!!
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at the point of really needing to get off my adderall and maybe get on ritalin instead bc on the lowest possible adderall doses i still can't sleep for shit it's 2 in the morning and i took my med at 8 am. but i'm uninsured rn and also moving states. hell
#i think there is a chance i'm experiencing mild medical neglect also because i can tell you for damn sure nobody has ever told me i need#to take occasional breaks from adderall and it's been like 7 years#at least i am not still having untreated thyroid problems w similar enough cognitive effects to adhd that i'm overmedicated to the max and#also drinking daily redbull. two 20 mg rapid release adderalls daily + a redbull was a genuinely insane way to live and i'm so glad i'm#better but jesus christ i'm still not living optimally!#alaska insurance thru the medicare or medicaid will not likely be processed until we fucking. have been living in portland a month#jam posts#drugs m/ i suppose#i just want to be able to sleep during the night and be engaged with my life during the day that's all.
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I can’t wait to wake up early as fuck in the morning tomorrow just to see a dentist that will do fuck all to help me with my wisdom teeth removal 😍😍😍😍😍
#all they do is make you come to appointments just to tell you that you have to go on a waiting list for months#just for another appointment 😍😍#I love it how our Medicare system does not give a fuck about dental health and mental health 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍
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