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Keanu Reeves & River Phoenix // Romeo & Juliet
#forever mourning what could have been#keanu reeves#river phoenix#my own private idaho#mopi#90s movies#90s#actors#90s actors#romeo and juliet#i love you to death
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I want a sequel for so many reasons but omgsh I really want TZP and Nick to do proper promo.
we deserve a proper promo season 😭
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sorry for putting carnival row on your dash again i just had the craziest dream and i got nostalgic
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Can you believe this is more than 10 years after Daniel appeared on Teen Wolf. And STILL the amount of chemistry between these 2 is crazy. Like I have watched alot of Daniel content and this is one of the only times you hear him truly laugh. I just feel like this is proof that Scisaac could have been something if they went with it. I will forever be mad they didn't.
#isaac lahey#scisaac#scott mccall#fanfiction#teen wolf#daniel sharman#tyler posey#why did this never happen?#I will forever mourn what could have been#Instagram
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Maya, Andy & Ryan | Station 19 - 1x05 "Shock to the System"
#I'll forever mourn what could have been#station 19#station 19 rewatch#danielle savre#maya bishop#andy herrera#ryan tanner#station19#st19 1x05#station19edit#s19edit#my gifs
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it’s clear that this team just can’t multitask they either play good in the league or in the champions league but not both
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i wish tlh hadn’t been the penultimate series sandwiched between the more popular modern day series of tda and twp, overshadowed by the original tmi series and being the lesser known sequel to its parent prequel tid
plus its publication dates were so unfortunate that it all blends into a horrible concoction of most people not having read/been invested in it
#will forever mourn what could have been bc tlh is def the underdog that deserved a larger fanbase#shadowhunters#tlh#the last hours#james herondale#cordelia carstairs#chain of thorns#cassandra clare#chain of gold#chain of iron#tsc
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Hey do you ever think about how Ygraine's death probably impacted Arthur a lot more than "Morgause's" "death" did? Mordred was just a baby when the saxons took him in, at the very least he was young enough to have no lasting memories of Arthur. But in hnoc we see how strongly Arthur loves, how the death of any of his partners is not acceptable to him even if it means he could have power on par with a God's. The loss of his wife (one of two) would be absolutely devastating to him, especially so close after their child was born.
Do you think Mordred would ever consider telling Arthur his original identity, if he ever hears Arthur recounting the tale of the caravan, but stops himself upon seeing Arthur speak of Morgause's fate and not once shedding a tear until he speaks of Ygraine?
Imagine being the only one to come back when a large part of family dies and knowing, despite your father's joy to hold you in his arms again, there is someone else he wished returned more so than you. And that, more than anything else, is a feeling you cannot share with him, as the mother who died as you laid against her is not even half as much of a mother to you as is the one who tore you out of her arms.
#mordred hnoc#arthur hnoc#high noon over camelot#hnoc#the mechanisms#Their dynamic honestly kills me they give me so much emotions#The impact of a loss of a baby and forever dreaming of what could have been is strong don't get me wrong#But with how young Mordred was said to have been and how hardened the wastelands have made Arthur#I don't think he'd have had enough time to get really attached. At least not enough to be on par to how much he loved Mordred's mother.#And he will mourn that loss of a chance for the rest if his life#But more so he will mourn the one who he fell so in love with it made him put aside the thoughts of their world only being a hell and#take the chance of a future and starting a life together
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JUSTICE FOR DAVINA CLAIRE I'M SO FUCKING SERIOUS FUCK OFF OH MY FUCKING GOD
#CAMI AND DAVINA GONE IN ONE EPISODE??!?!!??#YOU CAN'T BE FUCKING FOR REAL#(davina perma died an episode later both they both died in one episode right before that)#also this season has been slacking on marcel and the ep post-davina's death kicked him up several notches#he said all the shit i take issue with about the always and forever family bs#he hit that shit out of the park#also camille's death being all about comforting klaus fucking pissed me off#it was until she was scared right at the end that it was more about her#and her last words COULD have beenthe immortality line. but then they had to have her bolster klaus again instead#at least we got others mourning her after#but davina????#those bitchass ancestors forced her boyfriend to kill her then nearly shredded her soul#and she could've been resurrected. but of course fucking family came first#she had to die screaming for mercy alone as the ancestors tried to carve her soul from fucking existence#(and though i'm mad at elijah and freya for it it makes sense for them to do it#(what pissed me off was them and klaus then telling marcel that they were justified and he should just suck it up and understand)#(like no take the consequences let the man mourn)#(freya claiming family to kol too like girl i don't know you. and this 'family' loves you more than it ever loved me)#(y'all only love me on my deathbed)#(if being family means we kill each other's partners [which happens time and time again] then fuck being in this family)#like i don't actually want the mikaelsons dead. but also i hope super vampire marcel kills you all#hope kol gets away from you people because you are not family to him. you aren't.#but mostly davina. poor fucking davina#her and kol are my bonnie and enzo - finally finding someone who will choose them not just use them#only for death at the hand of allies#davina clair was an abused teenager you all used and who justifiably hated y'all#and she deserved more than to die like this. die basically three fucking times over still helping in the end#truly have not seen a witch this blatantly used and mistreated since the bonnie bennet#davina claire#the originals
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I do wish that DATV would actually put your rook/inquisitors names that you take the time to type into the game just, in the text as the person speaking. Idk. They hardlocked us into last names too for??? Say it cowards. Say my last name if I can't change it. let me be like "ah ahhhh for safety please call me Rook. For your safety. For my safety." Like? Whats the POINT uuhhghh
** mourn watch gets a few mentions of theirs i do know that, congratulations crypt babies 👏💕
#i got really sad looking at my screenshots and Minnie's name was nowhere to be found. I don't think I saw Bishop's on any codex#on any missive#and it was disappointing#drage#datv#arlo speaks#i just wish as much love could have gone into veilguard as it deserved#if they had actually spent the full ten years perfecring it veilguard could have been a masterpiece but realisticly its a fine game#that probably only cooked for four/five#im happy it actually happened at all though im grateful for crumbs BUT will forever mourn what it could have been#i put in Minnie's full name Min'Esta because after dai after solas after having to rebuild herself no one gets to pet name her#and i was kinda excited to see the power in that for her. even if it was in my own mind in passing#her full name her new tattoos it was suppose to be more#idk
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Omg I actually enjoyed this episode quite a bit!!!
#It wasn't... Particularly extraordinary but it still felt almost meeting the season 4 standard#Things are still going super super fast 😭😭#Like it may be that I'm just... Slow to process info but I seriously feel like I can't keep up with what they say#I can't believe at this point they've basically caught up with the manga 😭😭#In the next ep they'll reach the moment when *I* caught up with the manga when I read bsd for the first time which is just insane to me.#Like my brain can't conceive it#It's such a shame to think that means we aren't getting another bsd anime season for another five years... My heart cries#Even more since at this point it's probably going to stop right before sskk meet again and it's going to be so frustrating for me#But the Aya / Bram scenes were so cute!!! In them I felt like the pace was actually okay for the first time since forever.#It may be that they weren't very information packed so they kind of flew smoothly but I thought the pace was enjoyable���#and the animation too was pretty good!!!#There's always a black shadow wrapping my heart tight whenever I notice the animation gets better–#because I can't help but mourn what the sskk fight could have been and can't stop the resentment...#But in the end I'm happy if the budget goes to a little girl that's what she deserves :')#In the next episode we're probably going to get a little Atsushi screentime too!!!!#Man I'm so starved for Atsushi screentime every time he appears on screen for 0.06 seconds there's a whole crowd cheering in my head#random rambles
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I'm so fucking happy that juke is endgame 😭 but at the same time I'M SO PISSED THAT WE WERE ROBBED OF SEEING JUKE BECOME ENDGAME
And 5 seasons??? WE COULD HAVE SEEN IT HAPPEN ACROSS 5 SEASONS?? NOT TO MENTION THE DEVELOPMENT OF WILLEX TOO. AND STORYLINES FOR REGGIE AND CARRIE AND EVERYONE AS INDIVIDUALS. ALL THAT MUSIC WE COULD HAVE HAD, ALL THE CUTE FLUFFY MOMENTS BETWEEN OUR JULIE AND OUR PHANTOMS AND THEIR FRIENDS. THEY WERE ROBBED. WE WERE ROBBED.
Thank you Kenny Ortega, the true MVP, for fighting so hard for jatp and trying to buy the rights to it so we could have had them back 😭💓 And to Netflix? Fuck you.
#no one speak to me im gonna go mourn what could have been#everyone loved the show so much#and the cast and crew put in so much love and effort#the potential was great#they were literally on the edge of great ok#damn u netflix#jatp you will forever be loved#julie and the phantoms#jatp#kenny ortega
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I found a Youtube channel of some local, uhm, blue light enthusiasts? Basically people SUPER into everything EMS and stuff and super into the vehicles lol.
Anyway, not sure how I feel about videos taken RIGHT outside my work filming the yard entrance with just. Documenting which Great Amazing Cars come out and why (like, sometimes with history of the individual car?).
I don't think it's anyone who works here or at least not on a regular basis, because usually people are like "the ambulance fan people are back and I'm uneasy ;_;" when they station outside lol.
Like. Good hobby? Love this shit? Love cars, too, love big cars, love ambulances? But somehow it's scary to get filmed and not talked to, because people are... fans of your work. (We have literally no entrance requirements lmao come join us it's what I did lmao.)
Was glad to see they pixilate our faces tho because every time they happen to film my car I make this O_O deer in the headlight "I'm autistic and I don't like my picture taken" face gdjrzjfz.
Like, I really don't wanna shit on their hobby, but I think I'd be more at ease to be filmed at like. The hospital. Where all our cars inevitably congregate anyway. Than actually being filmed driving the car out of the garage and onto the street at our home station. Where we just. Exist.
Oh, I think I get it, you know?
"Outside", like at a hospital, we are actively in Work Mode and whatever, document the Work and the Vehicles as long as you're not being a nuisance.
But when we're just leaving the station, we're only Getting Into Work Mode and also it's our place to just. Exist. Chill. Not in Work Mode. (It's something like a home tbh.)
Anyway, much rambling.
I don't wanna shit on their hobby, I just don't personally feel at ease with people filming us at the entrance of our home lol. Wait at the hospitals, maybe. Dunno. It's uncomfortable to me, personally. Not forbidding anyone anything and also maybe I just don't Get it. (The cars are amazing ok big reason I choose the job. They're so good.)
Ramble ramble.
#the hopeless part of me watched the videos to maybe make out my colleague#i miss him so much we all do#a piece is missing#we'll forever be one man down#i might look into mourning patches for my work jacket tbh#so much What Could Have Been#the other dark part of me is asking if we 'deserve' to mourn when we don't mourn every patient.#which is so silly bc the patients get mourned by THEIR loved ones and also often us a little bit but with distance#sigh#anyway i don't like getting filmed while at the station we're just chilling there we are people ok#it'd weird to have a camera pointed at our yard#outside in the city it's different#for me the yard entrance thing is just. weird and invasive and i don't like it.#can't make rules for other people tho i just. think it's weird. lol#maybe I'm being a grinch#ems stuff
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going 2 get wayyy too personal in the tags have fun if u decide 2 read 👍
#mourning the life i could have lived tonight besties 👍 what if everything had been different#like realistically it isn’t possible . I couldn’t have changed things even if I tried#but what if i didn’t have so many mental illnesses and what if I hadn’t moved here and what if I hadn’t kept dropping out of college#and what if i wasn’t sick#and i hate that term bc sick sounds like something that will get better but I think whatever is up with my body is probably forever#what if I wasn’t me <3 what then . maybe things would’ve been better#it isn’t Possible and it’s not worth thinking about but . so many things could have been different and better#im trying to be grateful for what I have and rmr how lucky I am but like#at the end of the day I’m a girl stuck in bed because everything hurts so bad#no real life goals just a shitty job that I have to go back to in the morning that will keep making my body worse#and ive pushed so many people out of my life for stupid reasons and what if i do it again and have no one left .#god .#okay focusing my mind on a single image now (nostalgia is a liar ex friends are bitches etc) im being NORMAL.#probably going to delete this immediately but who can say 👍 going to rot in bed some more I guess
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Setbacks are unavoidable but giving up is unforgivable.
#personal#I’ve been extremely suicidal that last few days for personal reasons#then the election happened and the winner wasn’t who I wanted#I’m terrified of the future but it is so easy to catastrophize#we don’t know what the future holds and we have to hang on to hope#because despair means an end#we can be angry and hurt and mourn what could have been#I know I sure am#and in truth I’m writing this mostly for me bc I’ve needed a lot of help from my best friend to remember this#but I know the election results increased my suicidal ideation for sure#it’s difficult right now but it’s temporary#it won’t last forever#just gotta hold on for now because giving up is unacceptable#Ainsley is okay#mostly
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Lost in a Wild Rune
“Jayce— p-please slow down.” You whined. Throat straining against his hand.
He had you pressed against the wall of his abandoned workshop. Entering you with one thrust of his hips.
You came to his workshop to mourn his memory. Walk around the now ice cold fire pit and touch all those unfinished projects he had laying around.
Instead you found a broken Jayce, longer hair and full beard. Beautiful amber eyes uneasy and intense like never before. Talis hammer distorted with a Gem stone no longer blue.
A short emotion filled reunion. Hands grasping his dirty ruined coat. Nails digging into his clothing to see if this all was real. That he was flesh and bone.
You had so many questions about what and why. Before you could even get them out your mouth he claimed you with a kiss. Stripping you of your bottoms and shoved into a cold wall.
“I missed you so much, baby. I’ve become crazy without you.” He moan into your ear. Teeth sinking into your neck. Marking your skin red.
What happened to the man that used to make love to you so tenderly? The one that would give and give, and never take.
You refuse to believe that the man that was fucking you so hard was your lover.
He was pounding away at your entrance. Leg brace scrapping the outsides of your thighs. Your ass bouncing against his pelvis each time he thrusted into your weeping cunt. Other hand holding your arms behind your back making your wrists hurt.
He was so hairless before. Claiming he liked to be groomed for you. But seeing him shirtless with hair on his chest and a happy trail pointing to his cock made your cunt drool.
Jayce smelled of musk. The hand on your neck calloused by the lack of gloves. He wasn’t the council member you last saw.
He was just a man with the primal urge to fuck. And that made you unbelievably willing.
“Jayce, please, i-it’s too much!” tears were escaping your eyes. Your moans and cries echoed through the workshop walls. As if those walls were mocking you.
“My beautiful girl.”
He growled like an animal, having your velvety walls contract on his shaft was pure heaven. After months of pain and mental strain your skin was a much needed pill.
Balls slapping against your little abused clit deliciously. They were so backed up and heavy. Full of creamy seed. Head of his cock hitting your sweet spot just right. Squirming to get out of his hold, fearing of cumming too quickly. You wanted to savor his lust.
You almost forgot how big he was. Without any prep the shock of having him inside you was great, the burn was mouthwatering.
“How I’ve missed this pussy. Fuck, can’t wait to breed you.” He moaned between hollow breaths.“Should have done it sooner. I need to make you mine, baby.”
You were his the moment you met. Forever and always.
“Make me yours, Jayce. Fuck me full with your fat cock!”
He let go of your arms and neck. You braced yourself on the cold concrete. Palms violently grabbing the flesh of your hips, dragging them to meet the start of his shaft and all the way to the tip.
“Give yourself to me, muñeca—”
He came screaming your name, coating your cervix in white.
“Ohhh, fuck.” Jayce pulled you flat on his chest.
His hands pressing on your lower tummy. The pressure made you see stars, throwing your head back on his shoulder. Arching your back. Jayce captured your lips in a kiss, beard scratchy against your chin.
He made quick work of your clit with his fingers. Slapping her a few times making your body shiver and whine out.
“Jayceeeeee— I’m gonna cum!”
“Cream all over my cock, baby.” You came on his shaft. Body convulsing by the lack of release you haven’t had in months.
“That’s it, that’s it…” Jayce slowly pulled out with a hiss. Spreading your cheeks apart to see his cum dripping out of your swollen lips.
Your legs were like jelly, if it wasn’t for him turning his back against the wall and sliding you down to the floor your knees you have been bleeding.
Jayce wrapped his arms around you. They were more muscular than you remembered. You were all fucked out. Hair in every direction, sweat coating your brow. But this Jayce didn’t care.
He was smelling your body, nuzzling his nose into every crevice of your skin. Licking and tasting you as if you were going to disappear.
A giggle filled Jayce’s ears.
“Your beard is tickling me, baby.”
He smiled like a lunatic. Kissing the back of your hand. “It is? Do you like it?”
“Mmm I love it, Jayce. And the hair too.” You said tracing his jaw with your knuckles.
You missed each other’s joy so much.
You saw the pain in his eyes, one of a massive headache that cannot even be controlled by morphine. The way the lines of his nose scrunched up in discomfort. What happened to your lover?
The hormones of sex and bliss slowly diminishing.
“What happend to you? Why did you leave me alone?” You broke down in his chest. Ugly crying like he has never seen before.
“Sshhh, baby, please don’t cry. I’m right here with you.” Jayce cradled your head in his large palms. Bringing his lips up to your eyes and drinking your tears.
“I don’t even know where to begin…”
“Start with why the Hexcore has tuned into an angry human tissue sample.”
You pushed a strand of hair behind his ears. Massaging the sides of his temple with little pressure. Making him sigh in relief.
His gaze was focused, like the young inventor you saw for the first time in his blown-up apartment.
“Ok. Well, it all happened so fast after the attack—”
#arcane#arcane league of legends#chubby reader#arcane x reader#jayce x reader#jayce talis#jayce the defender of tomorrow#jayce talis x reader
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