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I still sort of like the movie CASINO (1995) even though it's objectively pretty bad. Everyone says it's inferior to Scorsese and Pileggi's earlier GOODFELLAS, which is true, but GOODFELLAS does nothing for me: I don't hate it, but I also don't see why people are nuts for it and I don't think it has any particular claim to Cinematic Greatness.
CASINO doesn't either, except maybe for Sharon Stone's performance (she has to work three times as hard because she's the only woman in the movie with more than two lines of dialogue), but its period design manages to look actually lush and attractive rather than campy (a feat more recent shows and movies set in the same period constantly fail to match), and I enjoy the documentary quality of the overlapping voiceovers that allow Sam (De Niro) and Nicky (Joe Pesci) to explain the ins and outs of the characters' various scams. (It IS based on a true story, although all the names have been changed.) The voiceovers are sometimes clunky, but without them, you'd be left with the weak story, and I think it would be unbearable. As it is, it's a movie I can put on in the background for three hours to satisfying effect, I guess sort of like people who like podcasts and video essays use podcasts and video essays.
#movies#hateration holleration#casino#martin scorsese#nicholas pileggi#robert de niro#joe pesci#sharon stone#frank rosenthal#is the real guy on whom sam rothstein is based#i don't like podcasts#and video essays are the least convenient imaginable way#for me to absorb information
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Good evening freaks
#i have been absorbing all of the information and calculating the data#reaching my final result... i think they're neat#as well as all the Xmen. obviously#just give me a min#x men#xmen prequels#x men movies#xmen fanart#charles xavier#charles x erik#erik lehnsherr#cherik#professor x#magneto#digital art#xmen first class#for a moment I'll imagine them still in time#xmen
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This is the devil’s hole pupfish! A tiny species that lives only in One water-filled limestone cavern in Nevada. It was one of the first animals on the endangered species list. At the last count in 2022 there were 263 pupfish observed - the most in 19 years! They’re tracked pretty carefully, as their 215 square foot habitat (the smallest of any know vertebrate) is fragile and has been disturbed in the past by groundwater extraction and other human interference.
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#fish#fishes#fishblr#devils hole pupfish#icthyology#they were apparently controversial little guys in the 70s bc a family bought the land they’re on and tried to build a bunch of wells#and some agencies were like hey don’t build those here there are these pupfish#and I guess they went to court and it was a whole publicized thing and folks were getting bumper stickers that said either#save the pupfish or kill the pupfish#and the concept of being so self absorbed that you’re like I would rather a species go extinct forever than for one human family to have#wasted some money#and I’m gonna get a bumper sticker that informs you of this#is so fucking funny to me
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I can’t wait to wake up tomorrow to a dash of
#I HOPE EVERYONE GOING HAD THE ABSOLUTE BEST TIME#ITS SO EXCITING#I am going to be so god damn tempted just to click that show me the post#but I have to remain strong#I can hold out to December right??!??#but I also will be absorbing all the information that doesn’t have to do with the show it’s self#like meet and greet#pre show playlist#vip merch things cause I gotta know what I have got myself into#PLEASE TELL ME SOMEONE GETS THE PRE SHOW PLAYLIST#someone will for sure#I’m so hyped#anyway#goodnight:)))#it’s been a long as fuck day#dan and phil#phan#aiyah rambles
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Do you ever think about how sad and messed up it is to grow up in this world as a little girl who likes to read. Because you are a child, and you don't get that there's a difference in who writes the books, you read everything you like, you read the adventures and the fantasy and the mysteries and the traumatic stuff and if you're also very isolated and lonely, these books build your worldview. Because why wouldn't they? They're written by humans, so they have the attitudes, opinions, perceptions, morals and spirits of human beings in them, they're telling you what humans think and feel about things, how they go about situations, what they imagine, what they desire. What your role in all this is, or what it could potentially be.
But, since you are not capable of differentiating the material, and you just read what is available to you, you end up reading a lot of books written by m*n. You also have to go thru the required reading at school - 90% written by m*n. And so slowly, since young age, without even socializing or learning it thru interaction, you find yourself in a world shaped by minds who do not have empathy for women, especially not for little girls. You find yourself relating to the male protagonists, but you also find out that girls only play a passive role in their stories. You find that m*n problems are centered, made important, their suffering and violence critical points in the story, while women are cast aside as helpers, servants, givers, caretakers, and generally just exist in the background, not a thought given to what they are going thru.
You learn thru books written by m*n, that your experience is secondary. Even if you cast yourself as the adventuring, immensely important and struggling protagonist, even then the other women in your mind end up being just background characters, caregivers who do not need a thought spared for their suffering.
Books written by m*n, even for children, will trivialize female suffering to the point where they shape the child's mind into one that looks at the world from a male perspective. Where women either don't matter, or are capable only of giving and aiding, to be cast aside for more important matters, such as male aspirations for their own lives.
Thinking back, I understand why I felt myself unimportant and trivial in any social setting - I understood my role from the written word, and I knew adults found me trivial, secondary, only a background figure to someone else's adventure or mission. As much as I could fight it in my fantasies, and make myself the main character, it felt like a pipe dream, like something that was incredible self-indulged and selfish and would never translate to reality.
I wish it had been different. I wish I had been introduced specifically and only to books written by women, for women. I wish I had found empathy for myself in those books. I wish I had found myself standing on high ground, equal ground, with other women, our desires centered, our lives translated into tales of epic importance - because that's what they are. I wish I had been born into a world where female perspective is available from the start, not after years of growing up and finding feminist literature and having to re-write my own role in my brain, from all of those years of reading male perspective as the default.
I don't think any little girl should be exposed to literature that shape her world as a place where she doesn't matter. I don't think books written by males and shaped by their worldview should be allowed into children's literature, or teenage or for young adults. Girls should not be learning from fiction that their most important value is empathy and understanding for male problems, and their second, to be desired and/or helpful to them, all while being treated as nothing but service and background noise until you're desired for something. We need to open books and find out that we matter too. That our lives can be the center of our existence, rather than being in the service of someone else's life.
#reading as a little girl#analysis of male written literature#radical feminism#feminism#worldview shaped by books#radfem#radblr#thinking of all of the books i absorbed in my childhood where women didn't matter :(#and how messed up thoughts i ended up having of trying to be helpful and useful in order to have value#but i would never have value#because i was a girl in a misognystic world#and the books were informing me of that#and all i wanted was a bit of escape from reality#fiction written by men is garbage :(
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When someone else’s art is so good you physically can’t look at it because of artistic jealousy
#Y’all do this to me on a daily basis I swear#I literally can’t follow some people because their stuff is so good it breaks my heart#I think the art world has a lot of envy and competitiveness that no one really talks about#Sure we’re all for self expression but so many of us are so used to being “the art kid” that anyone else taking or sharing that spot feels#like losing a peice of your identity.#I’ve had some artist friends who dealt with their jealousy by tearing others down or justifying their art by going#”Well you’re bad at ____ but I’m better at ____”#Or they would give unsolicited critique that was more like gently worded criticism than friendly advice to help someone reach their goals#And because of those experiences… I never want to become that person#I definitely get the surges of jealousy… But I very much try to remind myself that fellow artists are my friends-not my rivals#The people I feel the most envy for are often the people I hype up the most#And beyond that- nobody in the art community is trying to gatekeep information from you.#If you want to learn skills from other people- don’t hesitate to ask them. Most artists happily spill their brains for you in a conversatio#(Foolish artist… they don’t even know how many brain juices of theirs I’m absorbing-MWAHAHAHA)#(I’m gonna come come back stronger as an artist… And then I can learn and grow EVEN MORE BWAHAHAHA)#So anyway… Jealousy is a valid and very real thing… but what you choose to do about it can either hinder or help you.#That’s all folks#art meme#art
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originally for my thesis i was gonna like, focus on each aspect of the prague astronomical clock like its history, its function, and its design separately - but even other than this scope was way too big for me, the design IS the function. like, obviously, It's A Clock........ but! the reason the face plate has multiple colors is because they represent the time of day. the blue field is day, the orange is dawn and dusk, and the black circle is night. the placement of the sun symbol indicates the placement in the day cycle. I Know I Know It's A Clock Of Course It Does That but it's different to how we're used to reading clocks in this day and age.
anyway it reminded me of first year of watchmaker school, when we were learning to blue steel, a process that gives steel a specific material quality and also turns it blue. you might see high end watched that have blue hands and blue screws, for example, and it's not Just for the aesthetic, it's a sign of quality, but it has BECOME a preferred aesthetic BECAUSE of the quality. my teacher asked me if i, as a former art history student, knew whether it was common for something to Become Beautiful because it was a Desired Quality. i didn't have a good answer at the time but i have clearly not stopped thinking about it. i think it's a kind of survivorship bias - something can be the most aesthetically pleasing and beautiful but it won't really matter if it crumbles to dust within a couple years and there's no way for future generations to appreciate it. it doesn't make it less beautiful, only that we have no clue it ever existed. so in that sense, the beauty of functionality persists
#clockblogging#it's embarassing but i feel like i only finally Understood how the orloj is read yesterday when i had to explain it properly#like i got what it Showed but my brain has been so flat and ive struggled to absorb information#so only when i finally properly focused and digested it and re-explained it.#i finally get how it shows the babylonian time. yippeee yayyyy good job meeee#the sidereal time and babylonian time is like... the same clock. sidereal time is more of a calendar. these two together Show The Exact Tim#the pointer that shows the italian time and german time is like. separate from That in a sense#and that pointer is able to indicate two different time systems at the same time how?#hohoho. by having the outher ring move independently of the rest of the clock face#that's honestly so cool.#anyway have more clock facts. it's all i have in me right now
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I'm so scared people are gonna try and mansplain Minecraft story mode on me just because people are "apologizing" to it.
Bitch it's been my special interest ever since danTDM started playing that shit!
#mcsm#minecraft story mode#minecraft#If this does happen I'm killing myself#I just find it hard to absorb some of the information in this game but I literally have rewatched it like 5 times#Not a bunch but it's all several hours long gameplay and I have ADHD#So it's a lot for me.
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Dearest mutuals of mine
What monster/ cryptid am I? I genuinely just wanna know :3
This can be purely based off of vibes, or my name, or something you know about me
@vvanillavveins @kaithegremlin @robyn-i-guess @buried-in-the-archives @a-hundred-jewels @be-gay-and-deviant @nerdyeli @capn-atlas
#feel free to share your favourite cryptids in the tags btw#more information for me to absorb :333#raccs trashcan#monster#cryptid#halloween
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collecting bsd mutuals like pokemon rn lmao
#u guys should like.. comment below if u like bsd and are an artist/writer i need more of you#literally shock of my life when i scroll through my followers and i see a tumblrfamous artist/writer that has been following me for MONTHS#but my dumbass notifs regretted to inform me#so i meekly have to creep up to their inbox and kneel in front of them and be like “ty for gracing my humble blog with ur presence”#before hitting follow#actually gives me anxiety that they must think im so self absorbed that i wouldn't want to follow them back#like “oh she thought she made ONE good post and shes suddenly entitled” NO NO NO I PROMISE THATS NO IT#anyway. opened up there a little too much💀#bsd ppl come forth rn
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i think its interesting to point out that azula and katara are both people that value and strive for control, however they value different types of control
katara is someone who's been forced to become an adult at a very young age. she was given the responsibilities of a caregiver without the room to be a child. i think she focusses on an orderly, stable emotional/domestic dynamic and laboriously denies her own needs to achieve that. its also the fact she is, no doubt, attempting to emulate her mother in a way that a child cannot really comprehend. there's an expectation afterall for her to fulfil that empty space. so it comes off as controlling, perhaps even emotionally manipulating at times, while she in turn can be stubborn and wild with her own emotions. it's a fascinating dynamic because she constantly needs to be controlling people, not so much their action but their manner, headspace and so on, but also accepts help from others (when shes not being stubborn)! it's not healthy, per say, but she accepts people as people with their own thoughts, feelings and desires, and moves to accommodate that after they push back
azula on the other hand needs to control everything, all aspects, at all times. she too was forced to be an adult as a child, but she also never had a healthy example of an adult to begin with. her caregivers either left her at a key developmental stage or were. ozai. and as a princess, she's been taught to be a certain role with a country wide responsibility as soon as she could talk. alongside her military training, too! (all of this is taught, might i add, by people who are required to maintain a professional distance. even if she's a child, their society requires her emotional isolation) azula values absolute control and order in all aspects of her life, she's never allowed herself room to contemplate what a fufilling emotional dynamic is. she views everything on a wider scale, so much so she's always a politician, military leader and absolute ruler in every aspect. and in turn, everyone else is not allowed to have their own desires in the face of that. azula quite literally cannot approach people on an equal level, her background and her desperate need to control actively dehumanises them. while intellectually, she's a genius with an innate knowledge as to how people tick, they are always below her in class, in skill, and in her eyes, maturity in itself. which is ironic, really, since that very mindset is more childish than anything - viewing people like toys to play with, rather than humans with thoughts and desires outside her own
there's just. no separation for azula between her inner self and outer self need to control - unlike katara. because despite katara's need for control too, she's FAR more conscious of how a relationship should function. she's far more mature, really, than azula ever will be. in fact i'd argue katara being 'immature' is more an indicator of how stable she is than azula's demeanour. she feels her emotions, feels others emotions, and takes them at a human level. azula tantrums when someone doesnt dance to her tune
#i think their cultural backgrounds also HEAVILY inform this#katara is from a low context culture. she says what she means and means what she says#so to speak#azula is high context. motherless. and adopts a role that was beaten into her. theres so much going on w her#i dont even think she really percieved herself as a child at a certain point#but she was also never EXPECTED to be a child either#while the adults in her life are immature and toxic around her she absorbs that and internalises it. like purposefully or not in ursa's cas#it leads to azula attempting to be the mature one. trying to balance ozai's tantrums and be an emotional regulator as a CHILD#it skews her MASSIVELY. her background is so incredibly divorced from normal emotional progression#that like. she's unbelievably childish under this impenatrable wall of forced maturity and overwhelming responsibility#as well as the expectation for women of her stature to not be outwardly emotional or forthcoming to begin with#shes from a high context high control society after all. and is expected as a fire bender to maintain UTMOST discipline#anyway. ramblings from me#as an azutara enjoyer i think they are SO complex and parallel each other wonderfully#and they should in fact kiss about it#or maybe kill each other. or both!
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hey. hey you. yeah, yoU!! the one who actually looks at clothing!!! i request help. i need images of wedding dresses that you think would fit the starter trio [yaku, ed, oli]. pls send images........ of any ideas you have🙏
#i have an image in my brain but in order to draw it i have to look at reference#but i have no interest in staring at clothing#if i were to subject myself to looking at wedding dresses i know exactly what will happen#i will enter the eternal abyss of intricate details and minor differences#things like... collar style. bust style. decorative trim this. sleeve style that.#my research brain will FERVENTLY dig in deeper because it doesn't want to draw some vague generic dress on all 3#BUT MY LIMIT ON ABSORBING CLOTHING INFORMATION IS SO LOW#so after all that research i'll be so bored and tired that i'll never actually draw the thing#so idk i'm asking the masses to help cover for my weakness here#do you have a dress in mind? something that you just know fits their personality??#the blobs in my head are giving me some version of#yaku in a really well covered dress. ed in that slightly slutty style of his. oli is holy-robe level scandalous#but... artistic freedom means i can subject any of them to whatever level of slutty i desire (regardless of what they would actually choose#doesn't have to be the traditional western white dress but that WAS my initial thought.#hm. well. now i'm thinking of yaku in one of those ridiculous qipao that only fit really skinny people 😰#but the allure of having all three of them wearing the same white dress... buT STYLED DIFFERENTLY ACCORDING TO PERSONALITY#.......multiple drawings can be made...........
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i really gotta get better about listening to my own brain and needs when i'm making things. i've been working on a video and i'm almost finished (yippee!!), but drawing this One Specific Frame was giving me trouble. i could have just brute-forced my way through it and finalized the initial sketch, since it was relatively good enough. but instead i left it and took a day off from working on the project, let myself recharge, and came back to the sketch with fresh eyes today. and what do you know, my redrawn sketch today is WAY better! now, i can finalize that frame and be genuinely proud of it, instead of just powering through on something i was less than happy with.
i hadn't done any other art stuff that day when i couldn't get my sketches to look right, so letting myself stop and have a break from the project felt sort of "unearned" i guess. but it's just. what i needed! and the break did what i needed it to do; i was able to come back later and make something i could be proud of.
anyway i guess this is me saying that, if you're like me and have this weird morality-complex about letting yourself rest, it's ok to take breaks, even if you feel like you haven't "earned" one yet :)
#rye.txt#growing up i got very accustomed to ignoring my own needs and just 'powering through' when i wanted/needed to get something done#which worked out relatively ok for me in school (banging my head against a wall until my brain absorbed information leading to exhaustion)#but now that im doing work that is ostensibly for my own enjoyment#i have a hard time divorcing myself from that mindset#i feel guilty if im not constantly working#which is. not great! so im trying to unlearn that#trying to let myself think 'ok my brain isn't brain-ing right now. so i should stop and rest/do something else'#my actual job is Very Emotionally Draining so sometimes i just. can't find the energy to work on my art#which sucks!! cause i love making art!! and then i think to myself 'maybe making art will make you feel better'#but then when i try it's like scraping the bottom of a dry well. trying to find water#when what i need to do is rest and let the water well up from the ground itself#but resting is HARD when you tie your self-worth to how much you can work#ough ok this got a little vent-y sorry guys#I don't want to let myself fall into the 'content creation' mindset. cause I don't think i make 'content' i make ART#and art isn't something you can just pump out mindlessly#good art. art that i can be PROUD of. that takes time and intent and energy. and I can't make that if im just scraping the bottom of a well#vent in tags#this whole post is just 'riley vs the concept that taking breaks is a moral failing'
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#it's been TEN YEARS!!!!!!! NO ONE CARES!!!!!!!!#thomas.txt#im about to lose my whimsy. sorry. hold on#people think they're such geniuses for picking up on the ham-handed signals the game throws at them and#then absolutely fail to absorb the worldbuilding that informs why a percentage of the characters feel strongly abt those material condition#-s bc they're too busy jerking themselves off over how leftist it is to believe in wizard rights. like it matters#this reminds me of that fic writer back in 2014-16 era who wrote some modern au where her white lavellan got pulled over by a cop#for being an elf. or an elf mage. idk or care#& it blew up bc this dipshit thought that western fantasy analogs could be legitimately applied to the horrors of white supremacist reality#i promise you people who actually work in these systems or have been affected by them think you're fucking stupid!#anyway. but i stay silly! xD
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one of my earliest WOT book-related memories is reading the brief wikipedia summaries for each book and getting to one of the slog books that mentioned "perrin continues searching for his wife" and i thought "damn, he still hasn't found her yet?" little did i know
#i was about to defend myself and say it was only the book jacket blurb summaries and not full spoiler summaries#but i just looked at a couple again and no yeah it's the full spoiler summaries that are on wikipedia djkjfg#however all i had for context was 1 season of the show (possibly less i forget when during s1's airing i read all this)#so these summaries were literally almost 100% incomprehensible to me i absorbed basically no information at all#i think i just kinda skimmed them anyway didn't read them super closely (because they were incomprehensible to me)#i also remember first reading the general series overview on wikipedia and just being like 'what the fuck does any of this mean????'#wot is a great series for being protected from spoilers by pure dint of the fact that they just don't make any sense without context!#wot#wot book spoilers
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Flooded by assignments but blessed beautiful mornings, all. <3 I didn’t get time to properly interact or check in with people that day so, playing my part now. I do hope everyone has been well. <3
#god i miss the cute little absolutely nonsensical morning and evening messages I used to leave.#i fear it’ll take me a few days before I get into my usual flow but I’m existing til then certainly !#redoing my tagging system first and foremost because none of them appear in my recommended tags despite prominent use#sigh.#well. no. doing that second#first thing is scrolling on everyone’s blogs and absorbing information.
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