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#text#our mom got 10000 for this 3 day trip#for gas and food and everything#plus 2500 she borrowed from me#now theres like. 1000 left of that. its the 2nd day.#mind. 10000 is what i get to survive for a month#and she blew it all in like 2 days#my fuck#oh this is not in us currency by the way I dont live in the us#before anyone gets alarmed
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#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#yakuza series#ryu ga gotoku 7#yakuza like a dragon#yakuza 7#ichiban kasuga#masato arakawa#ryo aoki#snap sketches#edit: two versions cause im indecisive about everything ever#this one goes out to anon ..... hi ....#Truly ask really did just. make me wanna draw em LMAO#idk why i decided they should get takoyaki afterwards but idk. best thing to do before you go to jail vjaLRKVKE#tbh i just know that whenever i was upset my sis would take me out to get food#it wasnt often since shes not home much but on the off chance she caught me on a bad day we'd always get ice cream or somn#ironically my sister's coming home from a trip later today and my sister's always been my best friend tbh so. funny timin for this doodle#i wont go on a mile long tangent like i usually do so ill just say my sister's really cool and important to me and i cant wait to see her#def why y7 hits hard for me ..... the FAMILY bro ........ beating aoki with a metal pipe as we speak#nuff of that tho. for now i sleep for ten seconds bye everyone
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can i get a fucking Break
#ok so basically#grandma realized that she couldnt exert control over what i eat anymore (since i pay for basically ALL my food)#so now my WATER and GAS PRIVILEGES ARE BEING RESTRICTED#which is arguably worse!!!#i can show up hungry to work but stinky????#for context my total shower time of the ENTIRE WEEK is like 25 minutes. i take one long 10 minute shower on sundays to wash my hair#and even THEN half of them are with cold water because were nearing summer and i like them#for MORE CONTEXT#1. my parents give her money for bills 2. the government give her money for bills#and more importantly 3. I EVEN OFFERED TO GIVE HER MONEY FROM MY OWN 'I NEED TO GTFO' SAVINGS!!!#she just sneered and said You dont have money. huh???#she genuinely thinks i sleep around for food lmao#tldr; this is just another power play and i need to Get Out#i cant even save up for top surgery because all my money goes to food and my escape fund#please help lmao i will draw you pictures and everything
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woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.
#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void#shits rough dawg#I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts#haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier#it’s cold#saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early.#and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed.#went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours#guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left#even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are#I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh#my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week#maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done.#I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting#woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside#hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning#can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding)#actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so…#I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience#anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments#I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired.#I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die.#is this relatable?#just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda.#gonna look at pictures of butts now#ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever#you can ignore this#text
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i really appreciate ur detailed response! however, "i never think there's anything to analyze about my writing'' is wild to me bc i think of every word u use... speaking of, thank you again. you and @madsmilfelsen gave me much food for thought. oh, and for the halloween parties, I recommend a classic—go as a witch. thrilled for the idler wheel pt 2!:)
i am going to kiss you on the mouth
kidding ahhahaha but seriously thank you so much, that means loads to someone in stem 😭😭😭 thank you lots and lots and LOTS for putting in that ask!!
and wahhh i was SO starstruck when i saw @madsmilfelsen with that reply i was like 😃😃😃😃😃 hey 😃😃😃😃
thank you for the halloween costume suggestion, im honestly going to take you up on that !!
#rust cohle rhymes with ‘save me from my anatomy test’ right#in an ideal world im a lamb frolicking through a sunny field of flowers#at least i quit my shitty little food service job#pulling pints? noooo im crying over o chem#my friend suggested barden bellas as group costume for one party#but best believe im witching up those other two#will make a potion (true story: once at a house party these two boys mixed everything under the kitchen cabinets together#and im pretty sure they formed chlorine gas)#im going to sink into riders in the sky as soon as i press post on this fucking fic#and you’ll just never see me again
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the way food costs money. insane.
#airika txt.#everything is so expensive 😭#trying this new thing where i don’t eat fast food or use doordash whatever#but i’m like making this burrito bowl at home is the same price as just buying the damn thing already made 💀#i got so many gift cards for fast food places but all of them are 20+ minutes away like i’m not wasting gas for a burger i’m gonna eat#before i make it to the first stoplight
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Not dealing with the grief well at all today
#had another dream about him adnwoke ip thinking he was at the foot of my bed. when i fed mish this morning i almost put food in sammys bowl#i havent moved it from where it usually sits.#misha saw me staring at it and squeaked at me. hes laying under the blankets with.me now#just wanna ignore everything and go to.sleep#but i cant.#make matters worse my grandpa has. c//ncer and i was gonna be able to visit him this weekend . but my brakes are shit and i have no gas#and it wouldve been one of the few times i can cause hes gettin a white blood cell shot#for his immuno system. he rarely gets those#idk#lost my cat.probably gonna lose my grandpa. im so exhausted#sorry#vent#feel free to ignoreee. sorrz#seraph.txt
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me and the generic extra strong Tylenol and the pure rage in my system
#Every once in a while I think. It’s not too bad home. I’m over dramatic. It’s not bad and it won’t be bad when I go home and never been bad#Then actually think and remember#I shouldn’t have been hit as a small child. I thank god that my parents stopped that with me.#But also. I should have been taken seriously when I went To them with concerns and shouldn’t have been brushed off.#But also to be a 14 something year old and to realize your parents aren’t in love is a crushing feeling#Since that must have been when. 13-14. Appa passed. Pandemic times. I’m sure my father. Since this would have been the last time I saw Appa#We went down to visit. Dad didn’t go he had work. He sent us off. I remember sitting in the passenger seat by mom in driver#Dad praying for our safe travel and for him going in for a kiss and the moment of hesitation and unwant from my mother#And the awkward silence and the way everything seemed to just shift to the side#That was summer of 2019. My first time realizing my parents weren’t both in love happened when I was 13-14.#I wouldn’t wish that on anyone.#And going to college has me feeling so guilty. Like I fucking ditched my siblings? The kids I raised as a child myself?#(I had to go. I don’t know if my scholarship would have held I don’t know if my financial aid would have held. I couldn’t have waited. )#(I would have likely done something bad to myself. Genuinely. If I weren’t able to be here. If I had to stay. I wouldn’t survive that.)#my siblings are fine. They have no responsibilities. My sister is manipulative. They will manage. They want me to get the education I need#They aren’t going to have to use their own college money to pay to be able to eat because the parents won’t feed them for the summer#I went into college with at least a couple hundred less than I should have. Because I had to parent. I had to feed my siblings.#And I had to pay to fill the gas tank on my father’s gas eater truck. We couldn’t be home because of the selling home situation.#I had to do something to get us out and to feed us but I didn’t get paid back for anywhere near all of it#I don’t regret it. But a kid shouldn’t have to pay for them and their siblings to live.#But then I remember the dread I have for returning ‘home’ for the breaks. I don’t know what I’m going to do.#If I can’t work all of the breaks then I either won’t be able to pay next semester#Or I’ll have almost no money in savings. Like nothing to my name. Can’t buy gas. Can’t do anything. Can’t buy food.#Unless the next scholarship stuff I’m doing pulls through. But I’m willing to work the whole break just to get away from either house.#I want to violently shake my parents and get them to comprehend#Father you have dropped 260$ into my bank account in the last two weeks. Why could this not be earlier in the semester.#Why couldn’t that be in the time and fashion you FUCKING PROMISED for helping me pay my schooling?#You have money to spare. Stupid. Why couldn’t you help like you promised.#Mom you fucker. I get that you are kinda with a new man now. But you’re leading yourself into a relationship with a man you said yourself#You don’t want to date because he wants to move away with his sister and because he hates it here
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It has been such a busy weekend and I’ve spent time with so many people. Unfortunately everything costs money 😭
#this shit is crazy how is everything so expensive#sigh#but I got to see my friends for what will be the last time for certain#so that was nice#but man is food and gas and hotel rooms expensive
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just the two of us. plus one.
#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#ryu ga gotoku 7#yakuza series#yakuza like a dragon#yakuza 7#arasawa#masumi arakawa#jo sawashiro#ichiban kasuga#snap sketches#ichi just makin sure everythings going ok yk </3#why did this take so long. its cause i colored a comic for once STOP#i want food so bad i might finally go out to get sushi... but im also supposed to get sushi tomorrow......#ill crawl into my kitchen at some point
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Nah im not gonna let mr man convince himself im mad at him when he actually made me really fucking sad and HE should apologize, not me
#bro had an insane disproportional reaction to me saying we were gonna listen to mamma Mia in the car tomorrow#and now I haven’t spoken to him since and he went to bed but like. I’m still sad#mamma Mia was lowkey really important to me and it really hurts he was so vehemently against listening to it#and we had a small argument earlier bc I have spent minimum 600 dollars on this vacation and all I asked was for him to do food for 4 days#and he’s been stingy and made me pay for my own stuff like 3 times?? i did gas (3000+ mile road trip) and hotels (300$ at least)#he makes more per hour and works more hours a week than I do and he has no student loans#and he makes me feel awful for asking for him to buy me food for 4 days?#idk. he’s my everything but sometimes he really makes me sad#boy post
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anyways sry its not srs eventually ill get it together . and be a person again. one day
#its just like atm everything that i need is like . not possible. which is oartially my brain being like We have to do this before we this#which sometimes isnt true but sometimes is#like i cant get medicated again or back seeing a psych or back on t until i get a job again#but i cant get a job again utnil i get my ged <- partially untrue but ged would make it a lot easier#but i cant get my ged until i have a job bc it costs money <- if i asked my parents they would probably help me If they had money 2 spare#since like. yk. they want ne to be able to work again so i have money again and ill be another source of income and they care abt me also .#affirmations . ppl donot just see me as a piggy bank they do see me as a person im not judt someone to squeeze money out of thats not how#ppl view me and its fine its fine its fine its fine . it feels so stupid being scared abt that i feel like a rich person whos like She only#likes me for my money 😭 like stfuuu annoying ass. i just ummmm. have a massive fear of debt and like. ppl demanding money from me#unexpectedly or expecting i am going to give them money. not in like a Ohhh fucking ppl want me to donate not it at all im happy to donate#but in like. god this is dumb. eveeytime i got birthday or christmas money as a kid i had to give it to my parents so they could buy food or#gas or whatever. and it never got paid bsck and it felt like shit. but i couldnt ever say no bc then itd be My fault we didnt have food that#week . yk. my first paycheck i had to give it all to my mom for groceries and we got in a fight in the store bc she was like Ok im gonna go#buy pop and my dumbass got upset abt it bc like. my mom told me itd be Necessities nd like. yk. wtvr. it was fucking stupid my entire family#r caffeine addicts so pop is a necessity i was just. rly upset and it felt like my parents saw my money as just. theirs but they had to ask#abt it so i wouldnt get pissy. yk. and they ask me for money a lot usually for food and i dont mind but it like. idk im rly paranoid abt#being a provider and ive got a Lot of guilt abt like. anytime we dont have enough food it feels like my fault bc it was my fault when i wasa#kid if i didnt give up my christmas money for pizza. or whatever. idk its so dramatic like i didnt need the money i was 8 it was selfish of#me to wanna buy fucking. toys or whatever that wasnt more important than My parents being able to get to work or my siblings being able to#fucking. literally eat. or paying bills. like its selfish that im like wahhh wahhh but i wanted to buy vibeo game wif my bday money i#shouldve judt been fucking grateful i was able to help my family. wtvr. I hate connor. wtvr#n then the shit with ugh last year like. yk. and stuff. and then the them stealing 1000 from me not getting into it b4 i get mad. idk.#and im just lazy now i need to get a job again but all the shit like. as i was saying earlier b4 i started whining. idk. i should be happy#that i get to help w bills and stuff that was my dream as a kid#like ever since i was 5 when i was fantasizing abt my future i was like Im gonna marry a prince and then ill be able to afford to pay all of#my families bills and my parents and siblings will be able to go to college and be happy and maybe never have to work bc ill be able to#handle it and ive always like. yk. when i was a dumbass kid i was like Ill go to college so i can get a good job and be useful. of course i#cant ever go to college bc im fucking. useless. and itd just be another burden on my family if i was in debt bc i couldnt help them as much#if i had debt and itd be selfish. and it doesnt matter bc im too stupid to go to college anyway. idk. i wish i could just fix everything#it just feels awful rn im literally just a drain and my family doesnt say it to me yk like. ik theyre happy imback i think they are
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i should learn how to grow and farm vegetables and grains. i would love to grow my own rice, onions, and potatoes someday
#i've always had a passing interest in botany#and i've become really keen on sustainability lately#if i could grow my own food i wouldn't have to worry so much about how expensive everything is#plus it would be less wasteful because of packaging and gas spent going to the store#even if my homegrown stuff only replaced a portion of what i would buy it'd still be better than nothing
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#the problem is one day i feel awful the next day i feel manageable#but i have to commit or i will feel worse than yesterday#i cut my mum and brother from the Netflix and yt premium (i hate ads.)#I'm planning to pay less for gas and electricity cause there's no reason i should be putting in £250 a month for both#food im not eating so I'm not paying for it (oh but you need food → my case off it)#like i can't tell you how upset i am and how angry ive become and how incompetent i am at everything#I'm lucky that one of my brain pilots doesn't want to quit this job#but i just need some time to bounce back#can you believe this push came from a fat joke?#to some of may sounds stupid like you ended up taking a mental health break because of a fat joke#but it was the final nail in the coffin#i try to do everything to be nice and to be a good kid and none of that matters because I'm fat#fine#okay yeah sure#and they bitch about me behind my back about how I'm bad with money and how i gain weight and how my depression is an inconvenience#cause it's not because they care#it's never been because they care it's because they know I won't fight back about it#i said i wasn't sad and i was managble but I'm not#but i think anyone else in my situation would be angrier and sadder#my own family makes me feel lonely#the entire family#because people only call me when they need something#and i wanted to act like i do it to people please#i don't#if i don't do it they act like I'm selfish for putting myself first
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yay yippee yay
#rice rambles#everytime my friend messages me about the ren faire my mood gets so much better lmao#I'm so excited!! my friend paid for my ticket. he's paying for gas too and our other friend is paying for their food#I'll be feeding myself (allergies)#and I have a good amount of spending money :3#*vibrates with excitement*#I just have to work tonight and tomorrow then I have all of Friday to make sure I have everything
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#i think once i get my bank account in my name i will do commissions. maybe just a few#idk when that will be. its a source of active contention rn#and im definitely not in a spot to push it#this is so frustrating#idk if its divine karma or what#but nothing is going my way#ugh. ily guys but please dont ask to send money to me— im scared that itll get noticed if i accept#i try to use cash for everything to stay off redacted’s radar#so…… yanno#idk when i’ll be able to have everything in my name#im beginning to think theyre going to keep this stuff from me til i can move out#but nobody will hire me#i cant count how many job applications ive sent#they keep dangling the string above me saying come in for another app do you want a second interview we’ll be in touch#then they ghost me or say nvm#atleast i can watch people’s fucking dogs. every few months#ig im not completely hopeless#but my food and gas wont pay for its fucking self#im hungry man#at least my aunt orders pizza for us
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