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Intimate Authoritarianism: The Ideology of Abuse Lee Shevek 10 min read Jan 11 For far too long have radical communities and their discourses treated domestic violence and abuse as external from the considerations of revolutionary struggle. Abuse is seen as simply an interpersonal issue, springing from individual pathology which we must address by correcting certain behaviors and teaching better communication skills. The intervention tools of choice are frequently limited to restorative or transformative justice practices, with the ultimate aim of protecting and maintaining the abuser’s place in the community, often at the cost of survivor safety, participation, and empowerment. There is a fear that ousting abusers and challenging them as adversaries to revolutionary struggle rather than as wayward members of it will ultimately weaken us collectively, because, after all, they are still our comrades.

What we fail to see, within this framework, is that abuse is not individual pathology. Abuse is not an unfortunate mistake. Abuse is the form that systematic oppression takes on an interpersonal level. It is an agent of patriarchy, ableism, capitalism, and white supremacy. It is intimate authoritarianism, and must be resisted just as strongly as we endeavor to challenge authoritarianism on a structural level. Until we do so, the logic of authoritarianism will continue to run rampant within our movements, alienate the most vulnerable among us, and weaken our ability to fight authoritarianism on a larger scale. What is Intimate Authoritarianism? Put simply: intimate authoritarianism is the logic of authoritarianism — the enforcement or advocacy of obedience to authority at the expense of autonomy — applied on an interpersonal level. It is the belief that there are certain people in one’s life that it is acceptable (and often encouraged) to harm in order gain power and control over them. While all abusers subscribe to and act within the values of intimate authoritarianism, they are less aberrations from the common belief system than they are people who take mainstream messages about love, power, relationships, parenthood, and the family — that many people to varying degrees accept as true — to their logical conclusions. Intimate authoritarianism as an ideology proliferates throughout our entire society in much the same way that other forms of authoritarianism do, even though not everyone capitalizes on its values in the same way.

About romantic love we are taught that we will receive a romantic partner who can and should fulfill our every need and fantasy, and that it is acceptable to do whatever necessary to find and bind that person to us so that they can serve as the fulfiller of our every wish. We are taught that in pursuance of that person, it is acceptable to stalk, threaten, coerce, manipulate, and harass, so long as it is, in name at least, done “for love.” We are taught that jealousy and possessive behavior is an important expression of our love. We are taught that when the people close to us do not fill their role as wish-fulfillers well enough that we are justified in responding to their perceived failure with punishment and manipulation until they submit to our demands to our satisfaction. We are taught to turn interpersonal connections into private property relations, and there is a host of ready-made justifications at our disposal to excuse any number of abusive acts so long as they are done in service of keeping our “property” under our control, whether they are a romantic partner, a child, an elderly parent, or even a close friend.

By virtue of our closeness to someone, the kind of relationship we have with them, many of us are taught and come to believe that we are granted some kind of authority over them, and common social practices within our communities as well as state institutions like that of marriage and the family affirm that authority.

Among domestic violence researchers, there has been, for decades, heated debate about whether or not abuse is a gendered phenomenon. Statistically, there are far more women in need of support in fleeing situations of domestic violence than there are men. However, studies that measure the use of interpersonal violence (emotional and physical) find that people of all genders tend to use violence against their partners at almost identical rates. The typical approach amongst domestic violence researchers tends to be to land on one “side” of the issue (abuse is a gendered issue vs. all genders are equally abusive,) my research and experience as a queer abuse survivor has led me to a different conclusion.

Intimate Authoritarianism in Practice There are many more people who see forms of structural authoritarianism (ex: fascism, neoliberalism, capitalism) as justified than there are people who manage to use that ideology to bolster their own power, and the same is true for intimate authoritarianism. Not everyone who believes intimate authoritarianism is justifiable ends up becoming an abuser in the same way that not everyone who believes using harm to gain and maintain power and control over an employee, tenant, or prisoner is justifiable ends up becoming a boss, landlord, or cop. Rather, the ideology of authoritarianism proliferates throughout all social groups in such a way that some gain authority through it, others remain complicit with that authority in ways that bolster their own power and status to varying degrees, and still others are made the primary victims of that power and have their agency constrained, reduced, and co-opted by those who wield the power of authority. This brings us to the important question: who uses the values of intimate authoritarianism to successfully become an abuser and how do they do it?

This is but one perspective of a much larger picture. Women in general are more likely to experience the entrapment that characterizes abuse than men, but so too are people of color, youth, disabled people, queer people, trans people, and poor people. This is because the overarching message we all receive in a society characterized by hierarchy, domination, and authoritarianism is who it is acceptable to victimize. Whose pain most people are comfortable to ignore. Who is vulnerable, and how to use power over them to empower oneself. This certainly includes women, but not only women. We receive these messages from many directions, and they are enforced by the coercive control of the State that privileges some social groups at the expense of others, that allows and encourages certain people to be dominated and controlled so value can be extracted from them to enrich the lives of the powerful.

Abuse is not separable from systems. It is, in fact, in large part created and reinforced by them. Abuse, as we explored above, is itself is a product of ideology — intimate authoritarianism — and it is the logical conclusion of many of the mainstream messages we all receive about love. We are all taught that an intimate partnership is the key to our success, and also reflects that success. We are taught that love is possessive, and the more possessive someone is the more they love you. We are taught that we can expect that there is a “soulmate” out there made specially for us, who will meet all our needs, and fill our every desire. Romantic relationships are depicted as sites for fantasy fulfillment, not necessarily mutual connection, respect, or freedom. Further, these expectations are not taught in a gender neutral fashion. We are taught that a woman’s “place” in a relationship is one of subservience. Women are expected to do all of the reproductive labor of the household, provide emotional support, and fulfill men’s sexual desires on demand, and that anything less is nothing but a failure of duty that should be met with punishment. These ideas are not just on an interpersonal level, but are enforced by broader structures: as evidenced by attacks on reproductive rights and women’s marginalization in the workplace that forces them into economic dependence. Social expectations enforced by community/family/friends combined with material conditions that make economic independence virtually impossible, women go into relationships already disempowered.

The most successful abusers are those who can leverage interpersonal, ideological, systemic and communal factors to gain coercive control. The more access one has to leveraging these factors, the easier it will be for them to gain and maintain coercive control over another person. It should be no wonder, then, that the people most successful at doing so are those who are most empowered by the authoritarian status quo, and that those most victimized are similarly those most disempowered by the system. This framework can help us make sense of those abusers who are not cis men (you don’t have to be a cis man to be an intimate authoritarian or to leverage enough kinds of power to entrap someone else), without having to deny the reality that abuse is characterized by power, and thus that the groups more frequently abused will tend to mirror the groups who are most disempowered in authoritarian society.

Abuse, contrary to popular belief, is not characterized by individual acts of violence, but rather is the context of many different tools of control utilized by the abuser. If abusers could only mobilize individual acts of violence, they would meet with far less success in keeping their victims entrapped. However, abusers mobilize a vast array of tools within and outside of the relationship. They refer to the dominant ideology of intimate authoritarianism — which their victims also grew up surrounded by — to justify their actions. They use the support of community members like family and friends to gaslight their victims into disbelieving their own experience. They frequently rely on larger systems — like that of the family that awards them private property rights over their spouse or children, reproductive control, threats of calling the police or border control, economic privilege, systemic transphobia, racism, homophobia, ableism, etc. to make their victims afraid to challenge them, and more — to help enforce their control at home.

I believe that we must move away from our dependence on restorative/transformative justice to address abuse and towards a similar set of tactics that are used in anti-fascist work. In anti-fascist work we prioritize destroying fascists’ capability to carry out harm, not their rehabilitation. Individual fascists are of course welcome to choose to radically change (and there are plenty of people who will help them with that), but it can’t be our central goal. This is because the reality is that most abusers (like fascists and all authoritarians) are not interested in changing, no matter how many emotional appeals you make. They get (or expect to get) something out of being abusers (power and control), and they see the harm they do as entirely justified. Additionally, we have distinct limits on our available resources and it makes little sense to funnel so much of our energy into trying, and rarely succeeding, to save the souls of the people who are currently enacting the most violence.

Abuse is highly contextual exactly because we all have vastly different kinds of power and vulnerabilities within the system, which is why the way abuse plays out can look so different from relationship to relationship. But it always includes utilization of oppressive systems. Abuse is not independent from systems of oppression, it is an intimate expression of those systems. Abusers are agents of oppression, empowered by its utility, and they should be responded to and challenged accordingly. Anti-Authoritarian Response to Abuse Taking into consideration that abuse is authoritarianism on an interpersonal scale, and is itself bolstered by larger structures of authoritarianism at the same time as it enforces those structures in intimate life, we can now understand that abuse can no longer be seen as something apart from the struggle for liberation. Abuse is another front on which we must fight the enemy of domination and control, and to do so we must oust the logic of intimate authoritarianism wherever we find it, even (and especially) when we find it lurking within ourselves and our comrades.

Our priority in anti-fascist work and anti-abuse work is to leverage what resources and skills we do have at our disposal to end cycles of harm and to interrupt/destroy people’s ability to enact that harm. It must be survivor centered. It must recognize the structural and ideological nature of abuse as intimate authoritarianism, and we need to shape our response with that reality in mind, rather than continuously defaulting to treating abuse as an unfortunate expression of individual pathology.

(For a more expanded exploration of how we might respond to abuse, read my essay Against a Liberal Abolitionism) Conclusion Both abusers and the State work to create a narrative of inevitability, and act on the same core logic of authoritarianism, even as their scope may differ. The victim of the abuser or the State is constrained, their agency co-opted, their horizon of choice limited, and value is forcibly extracted from them to empower authoritarians. Under our current system, they are made to feel as if there is no escape and that their only hope lies in the gradual reform of their captor. They are both systems of domination and control, enabled not only by the actions of those who hold and wield authority (abusers, politicians, etc.) but also by a larger social system of complicity from people who, regardless of the values they claim to hold, value order over justice.

Liberation from either, then, does not demand we appeal to the better natures of authoritarians nor even the masses of people who act in complicity with their violence, but that we open up possibilities to build survivor autonomy and learn to trust in the power of their agency. It demands, similarly to anti-fascist work, that we attack the ability of authoritarians to organize their power.

Survivors (whether of State or interpersonal abuses) cannot find relief nor freedom in struggling within the very confines authority has set before us. It requires a breaking out. A trust in our own choices. A desire to build something different outside of that system of control. A rejection of simplistic reform that leaves many of us languishing under the control of others. And, ultimately, the ousting of authoritarian values and the destruction of every social system of domination.

It ultimately suits abusers’ and the State’s ends that we limit ourselves only to their reform. All that it ultimately accomplishes (if it accomplishes anything at all) is a more benevolent form of power and control that still steadfastly denies us any real expression of agency. We don’t need a more benevolent authoritarianism. We need to determine the trajectory of our own lives. To labor and care because it is something we wish to do, a gift we want to give, a path we are eager to explore, instead of being forced to expand someone else’s wealth and power. If you appreciated this piece and want to offer support in my work to make anarchist political analysis more clear and accessible to others. You can sign up to support my patreon or send a one-time gift to Cashapp: $butchanarchy or Venmo: @ genderchaos.

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stormblessed95 · 2 years ago

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Doesn't than mean he sleeps alone everytime? If he is in a relationship won't they even sleep together? Or couple doesn't need to sleep together atleast few days to be a couple ?

JK: "I used to have a cuddle pillow when I was little. Now I don't and I toss and turn alot in my sleep"

You: "so this means he is single and sleeps alone right?"

Please explain to me how you twisted his words so throughly? Lmfao

Is it me? Am I the problem? Is it the fact that I read so much that I am expecting too much of people to be able to comprehend a sentence as it is said without difficulty? I suggest practice anon! You didnt give me a lot trope wise to work with here, but I recommend Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo if you haven't read it yet. The romance isn't the main focus, the heist is. But wow, you can read about how much intimacy can come in various forms and still be insanely beautiful expressions of love. And that found family trope is perfection

Description: Ketterdam: a bustling hub of international trade where anything can be had for the right price—and no one knows that better than criminal prodigy Kaz Brekker. Kaz is offered a chance at a deadly heist that could make him rich beyond his wildest dreams. But he can’t pull it off alone. . . .

A convict with a thirst for revenge

A sharpshooter who can’t walk away from a wager

A runaway with a privileged past

A spy known as the Wraith

A Heartrender using her magic to survive the slums

A thief with a gift for unlikely escapes

Kaz’s crew is the only thing that might stand between the world and destruction—if they don’t kill each other first.

Kaz and Inej are everything to me, that slow burn. Ugh 😍

“I would come for you. And if I couldn’t walk, I’d crawl to you, and no matter how broken we were, we’d fight our way out together—knives drawn, pistol blazing. Because that’s what we do. We never stop fighting.”

And guess what anon? They never sleep in the same bed and they even only touch sometimes and with careful consent because of their traumas, their boundaries look different than what you'd typically see in a couple, fictional or not. And yet, that intimacy, that love 😍

Content warnings: Ableism and ableist language, persecution for witchcraft (central theme), indentured servitude and slavery, Forced underaged sex work recounted, Child abuse recounted, abandonment and disownment, Substance and gambling addiction, panic attack (implied) and nightmares, Coerced suicide (implied), Alcohol consumption, recreational drug use, drugging without consent, forced and coerced drug dependency, Blood and gore depiction, graphic physical injuries, eyeball trauma, emesis, medical experimentation, dead bodies, plague, body modifications (with consent), Grief depiction and death of a father, brother, family and friend, Murder, attempted murder, physical assault, knife and gun violence, torture, strangulation, explosions, Kidnapping, captivity, incarceration, loss of autonomy, drowning, Animal death, animal attack, death by an animal attack and animal fighting rings, Bullying

Representation: Some POC main characters, 2 Bisexual and a gay main character, an mlm relationship, disability own voices, ptsd and other mental health rep too.

This IS a TV show on Netflix too which is great. But does differ from the book in ways and the book is spectacular, so I highly recommend reading it! And watching the show if you want!

The other relationships? Also total perfection. They are right up there as favorites for me too.

#it would be funny #if yall didnt try to keep making it my problem #lmfao the reading comprehension skills #nonexistent #storm book recommendations

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anikahoneycat · 3 months ago

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On-screen assault of a disabled person

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About Shuchun & Chia-Hao (MASSIVE SPOILERS)

Portraying Shuchun and Chia-Hao's relationship was immensely difficult and horrifying. As much as I would love for my characters to grow and be happy, I also wanted to portray the reality that disabled people often get trapped in abusive relationships, and there was no exception for Shuchun. l imagine she never ends up euthanized in the bonus ending because Chia-Hao would've never allowed her. He would've kept fighting for her, and while that sounds sweet, it can also be interpreted so horribly that he made her suffer all those years with nobody but him to depend on. Oftentimes, there are no happy endings for the disabled, but I want to believe that Chia-Hao could've changed and provided for her properly! We CAN change. We must be better.

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daddyd0nt · 1 month ago

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I don’t disagree with a lot of what you are saying and I feel your heart is in the right place. And unfortunately violence against AFAB people by AMAB people is common enough that we need to segregate first by sex. Even if you are intersex (I am technically intersex myself) you are in almost every case designated either AFAB or AMAB (medical intervention to correct this and make an intersex body fully resemble one sex is usually abusive and medically unnecessary but almost always the person will have the traits of one sex more than the other). I’m not at all against another split and normalizing 4 spaces or having more gender neutral options than sex specific ones but AFAB people need to have their own space to maintain safety. Again these spaces are not organic or natural, they are something we put in place because AMAB people proved they couldn’t be trusted in mixed spaces.

And it sucks like I genuinely know it sucks but there is no completely safe way to allow AMAB people into AFAB spaces. Even if it results in 1/1000000 AFAB people being attacked by the one bad AMAB apple in the bunch, any more than 0 women is unacceptable as a sacrifice to validate AMAB identity/feelings. I spend a fair amount of time institutionalized and having the general spaces be mixed is scary enough I would never feel safe in a high security psych ward if I had to let them give me drugs to sleep at night and I would be left in the room with somebody who could not only theoretically rape but possibly impregnate me. AMAB people have spent all of human culture making their penises into weapons, I’m not overreacting to feel like in that kind of situation an AMAB person is armed but I’m not, I don’t feel any better about a possibly criminally insane person sleeping next to me with a penis than a knife even if I’m confident that they won’t use it to hurt me the fact that the opportunity is there and I can’t defend myself or even hurt than as bad as they could hurt me is enough to make it totally unacceptable.

Also as a masc presenting/gnc AFAB person I’m terrified of the prospect of forcing trans men into AMAB spaces especially hospitals also and prisons AFAB trans people have a greater chance of being abused especially by AMAB people than AMAB trans people do. One of the biggest factors in my detransition was the face that I was regularly in and out of institutions and also involved in a fair amount of flying too close to the sun legally for a while so the threat of being locked up in an AMAB space due to my gender presentation was really real to me.

I agree that most of our problems are due to capitalism, but patriarchy exists even independently of capitalism just like racism and ableism do.

But honestly our hearts are in the same place I also want to see everybody succeed and feel good and spend the vast majority of the time looking for similarities and opportunities to bond with each other and fight together for common causes. I think trans and cis women can fight 99% of our fights together and love each other and genuinely be comrades. I’m absolutely in support of trans people creating their own trans-specific safe spaces that is wonderful I couldn’t be more behind wanting a safe and comfortable and validating space for all my wonderful trans siblings. But we cannot throw away something as material as the physical safety of AFAB bodies to validate something as nebulous as AMAB feelings. I’m really not coming from a place of hate or even dislike at all like I said I fully support the creation of safe and validating spaces for trans people but that can’t come at the expense of the safe spaces AFAB people have fought for.

"OP is a terf" is a thought-terminating cliche meant to keep you from questioning the status quo and keep you afraid of being labeled a heretic should you come to your own conclusions about anything.

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subbyfoxelf · 2 years ago

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[tv review] ds9 3x11 & 3x12 "past tense" (1995)

okay lemme see if i can wrap my head around this super farfetched, grim dystopian future as presented by this speculative science fiction program as a cautionary tale. so, there’s just huge swaths of people living in squalor while others live in unthinkable luxury literally a few blocks away.

for the purpose of dramatizing the situation, let’s pick a totally random city that certainly won’t be an extremely visible example of this in real life–like, it’s happening kinda everywhere, but it’s happening the most in, say… san francisco. y’know, just to pick one at random.

(cw: ableism)

oh and the privileged few living in absolutely morally repugnant luxury? we should have an example of those kinds of people. what should his deal be? oh, hey! how about communication & media. like, a sort of media… where you communicate… socially? and like, with technology & stuff? yeah, cool, let’s go with that.

i know this is going to require a lot of suspension of disbelief, but does it sound like we might have something here?

okay, to step outside the bit, there’s a lot this gets wrong, but holy shit it is scary how much the 2024(!!!) in this two-parter from 1995 resembles the lived experiences of us living here in *checks calendar* … huh. 2023.

uh-oh.

the one thing that really stops me from giving this an s-rank is the bit towards the end of part 2 where dax needs to get her combadge back from a guy with serious mental health problems and the episode just totally plays the whole thing for laughs. it’s basically just outright bullying (not the fun kind). it’s just so out of place in an episode that otherwise has quite a bit of insight & empathy on display.

but like, yeah obviously i would love to punch this script up, not just to remove the ableism but to bring greater emphasis to the police violence. but like, fuck guys, this episode (from 1995!!!) depicts homeless people organizing to fight for their rights and people feeling hopeless because the problems they’re facing just seem too big for them to tackle on their own. this needs like half a nudge to cross those two wires & explicitly tell the audience that what they need to do is organize & work together in solidarity, but fuck it is so close, and it is from almost 30 years ago, so i think it deserves quite a bit of credit for what it did nail. a-rank

#star trek #star trek deep space nine #star trek ds9 #deep space nine #ds9 #tv review #reviews #tv #cw: ableism

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threetrenchcoatsinatrenchcoat · 3 years ago

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Everything Everywhere All At Once thoughts, all of them:

Stephanie Hsu sang a song about wanting to play different parts, then went and played all the parts. I want your outfits.

Stephanie could do the genie, but Robin Williams couldn’t do Jobu Tupaki

The scene with Alpha Waymond praising Evelyn for being so bad at everything had most of the theater laughing, but being an ADHDer, after Evelyn had been shamed by Deirdre for failing at so many hobbies, hearing just the capacity for experiences praised and considered as elements of identity, I was sobbing and ya know also laughing

This explanation is told in a hilarious way, is the most thorough and convincing reason an everywoman should become any sort of chosen one, and it’s also the best way to construct a superhero story while deconstructing the inherent ableism in the genre.

Daniels talked about a couple cut scenes that more thoroughly resolved Evelyn’s and Jenny Slate’s relationship, one with the same character and one where Jenny plays a talking macaroni boy. It was somewhat clear that Evelyn was being racist in the beginning, but still uncomfortable it didn’t resolve that further

The feet in the Debussy looked um super accurate to the notes at first glance. If they really did pull that off that’s my favorite miracle of the movie

So Daniel Scheinert gave himself the job of being spanked by Michelle Yeoh in the kink-positive climax of the movie.

I want to see more people talking about this ending: this movie reinvents sci-fi action, then makes non-violence look cooler. Evelyn could’ve gotten up those stairs faster with punches, but she wouldn’t have been able to stay grounded enough to care without committing 100% to Waymond’s principles, learning to love even the hot dog verse. And after all that they make rebuilding lines of communication look even cooler.

For all the feats this crew accomplished, they got this movie made cause Michelle Yeoh signed on, and they got Michelle Yeoh by simply writing a complex East Asian woman. Indie creators in all media take note.

Alpha Waymond could have given himself the last paper cut on the other hand.

It would feel disrespectful to the point of the movie to not somehow adapt the themes of the second half, but I know for a fact the mechanics of the first half of EEAAO would be a blast to run as a ttrpg: “Roll me two d100? Ok you’ll be able to pick this lock, but first you have to either hiccup or bark like a dog.”

While we should be talking about the wild things that we are talking about, it’s worth celebrating how well this movie coheres. By constant attention to context, visual references, sound design, whatever it was, I was never once confused which universe we were in. I get lost in normal movies.

I can’t wait to watch a hundred rip-offs of the first act of EEAAO that attempt 10% of what EEAAO succeeds at (sincere).

The trend of fight scenes set to pop songs is over. Long live fight scenes set to remixed Chinese opera.

If Liam Neeson can start an action stardom at 56, we can easily launch Ke Huy Quan at 50.

Son Lux could do Inception, but Hans Zimmer couldn’t do EEAAO

Settling into my post-EEAAO self, I love how much easier it is to feel pride in my skills that have never been visibly useful, and to feel patience for the disappointments and paths I never followed. Somewhere another me is helped by my skills, and somewhen my disappointments will help me access another me.

So them Daniels keep starting with weird concepts then figuring out how to make it about parenting. Dan Kwan wasn’t even a dad when Swiss Army Man dropped and still made a movie about the pain and joy and values we pass on.

Lot of direct movie references: kung fu movies, domestic romance dramas, the chef world is all Pixar, the movie star world is shot with Wong Kar-Wai’s step printing (a type of motion blur) in the wide shots, the hot dog world uses 2001, Evelyn is enamored with MGMish musicals

#i will take it personally if this movie doesn't make a gazillion dollars #to everyone anti-mcu on this site if you can see this movie safely do it this is how we kill disney #everything everywhere all at once #eeaao #daniels

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bobosbillionsknives · 8 months ago

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AUTISTIC TRIGUN IS SO REAL AND TRUE I WILL SCREAM IT FROM THE ROOFTOPS !!!!!!!!!!!!

HORAAAYYY !!! I'm so glad I've been any kind of influence at all. This is too sweet :'D !!! ahhh !! <3<3

I do have some thoughts about the masking in particular tho..🤔

I see it less as Knives actively accepting his autistic traits, and more as him not being able to control them. He desperately craves control over himself. He's even been shown as self-critical of his past outbursts, referring to it as a "sin". I thought this scene was very interesting, especially with how much Knives is projecting here. "Without self control" "unable to think of anything but themselves"

sounds like someone we know, girl. ✋🙄

100% agree that Vash was the favorite child tho. Lol. Vash and Knives had very different needs as children, and Rem was way more equipped to help Vash. I actually headcanon kid Vash as very shy and reserved, wanting to always follow the rules. While Knives was very loud, outgoing, and opinionated. Knives' meltdowns have always been explosive, I don't think he'd have much of an outlet outside of violence, and Rem definitely didn't have the experience to give him the tools that he needed. Rem really did love him, but that preferential treatment for sure caused him to feel very unloved and isolated. He hates feeling like a burden, (Vash is similar in that way) he's afraid he's going to be chewed up and spit back out if he's not useful enough. "Do you think i'll be eaten some day?"

He grew to resent Vash for his ability to control himself. To mask and be "normal." For being easier to love. He is SO jealous of Vash it's not even funny. He's losing the idgaf war so badly. This is why he keeps trying to make Vash lash out at him (like in July). It's a petty attempt to get him to understand Knives' suffering first hand. He self victimizes so bad y'all. When he sends the Gung ho guns after Vash, he seems to have no worry of his safety at all. Likely cause he sees Vash as such a perfect angel golden child, any pain actually inflicted is because Vash let it happen. He has the utmost faith in Vashes ability to fight, and is very quick to blame Vash for getting hurt in the fights that HE caused. He probably doesn't think Vash struggles in life at all. That's why he's compelled to make him suffer. (Not that any of these thoughts are very conscious, just deeply rooted insecurities he picked up from childhood. Lol.) Knives feels so fundamentally broken, unlovable, and alienated that he's essentially made it his entire personality. His superiority complex is just as much of a mask as Vashes smile. They do it to protect themselves.

Also. The Vash internalized ableism point is SOOOO true and correct☝️. Vash is completely numb. He's dissociative, and doesn't even remember half of his own life or likely his childhood. He continues to mask because it's all he knows. The only coping mechanism he's used his whole life, it's comforting now. He doesn't really know who he is outside of that mask and he definitely doesn't want to find out. He's terrified of losing control and hurting someone. He's scared of ending up like Knives. To go back to the childhood headcanons for a sec, I think in a way, they were both neglected. Because of how much more attention Knives needed to mitigate his meltdowns, Vashes needs were essentially ignored. He learned at an early age that his problems were not as important. He learned to completely depend on himself and value others as inherently above him. He loved Rem, the last thing he wanted was for her to be any more overworked. So he did whatever she said, never complained, and everyone assumed he was fine. He doesn't need help like Knives does. Knives can't take care of himself like Vash can. He felt solely responsible for Knives when Rem was gone, and crushingly guilty for (rightfully) leaving him, "don't leave Knives on his own." He does view Knives as a burden, and that makes him feel even guiltier. But this would also make Vash feel pretty entitled, I'm suffering too. But I don't bitch about it. What's his excuse?

There's a lot of disabilities that could be read into with Knives specifically, I even project my own experiences with physical disability onto him !! Knives is weaker than Vash is, both in plant powers and probably in general tbh. Knives is definitely the one getting noogied in the sibling fights. (Also why he chopped his arm off...even the playing field a bit lmfao.) Theres no way Knives had any clue Vash was going to blast an entire city and half of his body with it. If Knives was capable of leveling entire cities, he would've done it by now. All the displays of his power are more of a flashy "don't get close I'm dangerous I'll get ya" message than anything world ending. He's just not strong enough. He uses his big brain a lot more for that stuff, like taking all the plants away so the humans starve lol. I headcanon Knives as pretty sickly in general, what with his fainting spells and what not. I feel like Knives' insecurities are his absolute biggest motivator.

Knives has always deeply craved acceptance. But he's convinced himself that he'll never get it. So he lashes out instead, letting his emotions consume him, because that's all he knows how to do.

Trigun is a very autism media to me. The twins themselves are full of amazing metaphors for autism!!

The plants wings are a physical metaphor for autism! To me Rem’s and other humans fear of seeing Vash’s overtly autistic traits is shown in their reactions to his wings. We see Knives isn’t afraid of showing off his plant powers ever. The twins have a very cool dichotomy about masking. I see Vash was favored because he masked, while Knives never cared to.

When Vash and Knives see Tesla Rem goes to comfort Vash first. This seems to be slightly on favoritism, but also because she’s shocked that Vash is having a large emotional reaction. I think the fandom sees Vash as hyper-emotinal and Knives as hypo-emotional, but to me it’s switched.

Knives does not hide his emotions. And absolutely does not hide his outbursts! He has meltdowns all the time and is not ashamed of his autistic traits. He doesn’t care about being unsettling or being accepted by humans/neurotypical society. (Even more interesting to consider that all of the Gung-Ho Guns are disabled/neurodiverse in some way). Knives allows his emotions to control him, where Vash is guided by his obligations. He does what he wants, based on his wants. And what he wants is to be with the only other autistic person he knows-his brother. He also desperately wants his brother to be free from his internalized ableism and the pain of masking.

Vash on the otherhand spends all his time masking and denying his autistic traits so he can fit in with “normal“ humans. He also again, in contrast to Knives, acts based on how his mother told him to behave. He hates acting out/standing out. He still operates on Rem’s instructions to be “normal“ and unnoticeable. He does occasionally show strong emotions but they’re not his positive emotions. To be these are less examples of Vash being over emotional, but instead are examples of outbursts. The overflow of negative emotions reminds me of my meltdowns! As well most of the emotions we do see Vash show are also parts of his masking. They are deeply constructed displays of emotion. All set to Vash‘s derived sense of what’s normal. It’s what he thinks positive emotions look like. His mask is baked into everything he does. And only one person sees through it-Wolfwood!!

Wolfwood is also set apart by the narrative. He has been modified. In my view this is the story portraying that Wolfwood is also neurodivergent in some way. He is capable of seeing through Vash‘s mask, and from Vash‘s reaction is the first one to call him out on it. He also goes from being afraid of Vash‘s autistic traits-his wings-to supporting him. His last words are him encouraging Vash to express his emotions genuinely(to not worry about his “unsettling“ autism smile).

Trigun as a media deals to deeply with disability and autism(if someone remind me I’ll make another little essay thing about Meryl and Milly‘s autism). I hope this is coherent!!

Anyways! Happy Autism Month!!

#trigun #vash the stampede #millions knives #trigun maximum #thank you for the excuse to talk about this...😇 lalalaaa I love knives I love knives I love autistic knives lalaalaaa #lalalaaa imagine me with a big lolipop rolling around on a unicycle #I love talking about this so MUUCCHH #Vash pull yourself up by your bootstraps Stampede #my headcanons are a mix of both 98 and trimax btw :d #not even to mention how Rem literally taught Vash to hide himself from humans like aaaauhhh fucked up #disappear into the crowd type shit #this is so funn #also I gotta hear that milly and meryl analysis bro ....#other peoples based takes #my based takes

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joannechocolat · 3 years ago

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White feminists, I’m looking at you.

Another week, another raft of Press articles by self-professed white “feminists”, defending their own prejudice by bashing other women. It’s as if they can’t stop themselves, these women of a certain age, a certain class and a (very) certain privilege, who seem quite happy to see women abused, as long as those women are different from their own privileged circle of friends.

These are the women who “don’t see” race, and who think that counts as a virtue.

These are the women who “don’t see” class, or disability, or neurodiversity, or gender, except perhaps for that one friend, who represents all others, and will be used as proof of their tolerance and lack of prejudice whenever the question arises.

These are the women I interact with every day, many of whom I think of as being decent, well-meaning people.

But in actual fact, not seeing race (or gender, or class, or disability) just means you don’t see your own prejudice. I get it: it’s very convenient not to be able to see how one’s privilege impacts on others. Because as soon as you can see that, things start to get uncomfortable. Criticisms people make of you start to seem more justified. It becomes harder and harder to hide behind your comforting circle of friends - all of whom are telling you that you’re right, you’re good, you’re kind, in fact, you’re the real victim if ever your prejudices are called out– your friends, who think just like you.

But here’s the thing. We’re all privileged. We all have unconscious bias. Just because we’re women in a patriarchal society, doesn’t mean we’re not capable of punching down at someone more vulnerable, or causing another person – or group of people - to do so. And let’s face it; those people are usually men. Misogyny loves it when women attack other women. And it’s intersectional. Look closer, and you’ll find how often it leads to racism, ableism and transphobia.

I’m looking at you, white feminists. Using the patriarchy to confirm your own social and racial prejudices, rather than hearing the voices of those women who most need your support. Women of colour. Trans women. (And no, I’m not going to let you deflect by arguing about what exactly makes a woman – there are plenty of people who have done that. Read them if you want to.) What really matters is not whether someone looks or thinks or behaves like you. What really matters is who suffers harm, and who benefits from your actions.

Women are in a majority. Sometimes we forget this. We fight against sexism and prejudice as if we were a minority group. We’re not – or at least, we wouldn’t be, if we didn’t keep splitting into factions, attacking each other, then looking all surprised when the patriarchy keeps rolling on, harming women everywhere. And the saddest part is that we have so much potential energy. If only that energy were directed to bashing the actual patriarchy, rather than by heaping blame upon the women who are its victims, we might be making progress instead of tearing each other apart.

I’m looking at you, white feminists. I know how angry you must feel when people call you prejudiced. I know you’re used to the moral high ground, to the feeling that you’re the real victims of a system that’s loaded against you. And I know that when people call you racist, or ableist, or transphobic, it feels like abuse. It feels that way because you’ve never really considered your privilege in all this. You’ve never really considered the impact your words – amplified by social media, or published in the national Press - might have on real-life people.

You really need to do that. And no, it isn’t easy. First, you have to suppress that urge you have to tell the world that you’re special and different, and therefore have no unconscious prejudice. You’re not, and you do. The fact that you don’t think you have any is precisely because it’s unconscious prejudice. Unconscious prejudice is like a black hole: only detectable through its actions. And if your actions cause POC harm - or trans people, or autistic people, or any other marginalized group likely to receive abuse, or worse, because of something you said, or did – then you need to understand what you did, and acknowledge it.

The first and most important thing is to understand is that this isn’t about you. Too many people fixate on whether or not they’re really racist (or sexist, or ableist, or transphobic) instead of looking further. I get it. It’s easier to focus on the words and what they mean, rather than the reason they were used in the first place. So stop thinking about the words, and think about what you did, instead. Consider whether you said or did something that was harmful. You’re not in the best position to judge. (Unconscious bias, remember?) So listen to your critics. Instead of feeling offended that someone used an ugly word, ask yourself why they used it. Look at their reasons, not yours. Understand their perspective.

That means first putting aside all your excuses and justifications. This isn’t about you, remember? No-one cares why you made a mistake. You might have done it by accident. You might have done it out of ignorance. You might have stuff going on in your life that made you careless or vulnerable. But this isn’t about you. No-one cares why you caused harm. All that matters is that you did. The harm might be direct – causing offense to someone through your words or actions – or indirect – for instance, reinforcing harmful stereotypes, or attracting the kind of negative attention that might result in trolling, doxxing or violence.

Whatever it was, if that happens, the first thing to do is to acknowledge it. Own it without making excuses, or arguing over semantics, or talking about your feelings, or making the process about you.

And no, it isn’t easy. It involves centring the conversation around someone other than you. You may not be used to doing this. It may make you feel uncomfortable. It may even upset you. But remember, this isn’t about how you feel. The fact that you’re instinctively trying to make this about you, even now, should be telling you something.

So yes, get over your feelings. If you said or did something that’s likely to cause harm to someone, own it. Educate yourself. Apologize. Move on, with a greater awareness of what you need to do to improve. That’s all. We’re none of us perfect: we all make mistakes. But when we do, we need to put ego aside, and try to stop repeating them.

Only then will feminism stop tearing itself apart. Only then will feminism be truly deserving of the name - when white women finally understand that if they continue to support and care for only the women who look and think as they do, then the patriarchy wins, and that they are doing its work.

White feminists, I’m looking at you.

White feminists, I’m looking at me.

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drifting-pieces-blog-blog · 2 years ago

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sorry for the spam i just LOVED your gatekeeper jake meta!!

i do have a question as you seem like a pretty good source, if i were to read any of the comics which runs would you recommend?

Hello friend! No such thing as spam in Tumblr land. Like and reblog it all. Go nuts.

(Shameless plug: Check out my other meta that can be found in my intro)

It is true I have read all of moon knight comics. It is also true I have a serious memory problem.

BUT. General consensus, and I agree 100%, is that you need to read the Lemire x Smallwood run.

I'm going to be controversial. Start with Ellis (see long rant below to see why). 100% read Lemire. If you read nothing else, read Lemire. Then read Mackay.

I also recommend you pick up and read some of the original stuff, just to see where it all started. There's a lot of it. It suffers from old comic book syndrome, but some of it is really quite good and beautiful.

If you REALLY want to know more... Here's a Brief Timeline!

So the first Moon Knight was in Werewolf by Night, in which he was hired to hunt down Jack Russel.

They liked his character and design and he got his own comic!

This is the Moench run collection that spanned from the 70s through the 80s.

Then there was a long dry spell. LONG dry spell. He popped up now and then in the background and various other one shots.

But then Huston got his mits on him in 2006 with "The Bottom"

This is actually where I started because it is the more modern run.

However, this period is also very rough. He's called Schizophrenic, they use outdated terminology (Multiple Personality instead of DID). It highlights the crazy aspect and is very violent oriented.

But it's also a little fun and there are a lot of good classic moments found in these runs. You are also going to start finding some pretty amazing artwork in these runs (Deodato!)

The Huston and later Benson runs (The Bottom, Midnight Sun, God and Country, Death of Marc Spector, and Down South) are a good look at how messed up Marc lets himself get. Full of angst and him pushing people away. You don't see a lot of Steven and very little Jake in these. Marc is crawling through his mental health issues and you also get a look at his relationship with Marlene.

NEXT: 2009. The Hurwitz runs! (Shock and Awe, Killed Not Dead, and Shadowland.)

This run was actually pretty good. If memory serves me well (and it doesn't), I enjoyed the stories that were told here. You get a more messed up Marc, but Marc was TRYING. You see him struggle with his mental health and struggle to do good.

PLUS. Shock and Awe has THE MOST BEAUTIFUL ART. I loved the design of his suit and it showed peak Marc Spector fighting style of "I'm just going to throw my body at things until they don't get back up". You also get to see him interacting with other Marvel characters (Avengers, Captain America, Punisher, ect.). This is always interesting because they don't know what to do with him. You start to see the ableism set in and how much he's not just fighting himself but he's also fighting how others see him.

NEXT UP: 2011. Bendis. "The Heroic Age". This man nearly ended Moon Knight. It was bad. IT WAS SO BAD. No one talks about this run. It didn't happen. Skip it. Don't even pretend to buy it. If you want it, steal it. Get it from the library. Don't waste your money.

Bendis labled Moon Knight a Psychophrenic lunatic, sent him to L.A. to work on a 'team' then messed up his whole characterization and everything he stood for. It was bad.

NOTICE THE GAP HERE. NEXT RUN WASN'T UNTIL 2014!!!! That's how bad Bendis fucked up.

Warren Ellis and Declan Shalvey took Moon Knight over in "From the Dead".

The story here is seriously lacking, but the art is amazing. This is ALSO where you are going to meet Mr. Knight for the first time and he is glorious.

Ellis is known in comic land for writing some of the darkest Punisher content that Marvel put out. He's known for blood and guts and violence. So… just keep that in mind.

But here we see someone that refuses to acknowledge who he is. There is no Steven Grant, no Jake Lockley, and he refuses Marc Spector. This is a man that had a serious mental break and is clawing up from the mudd and trying so hard to fix himself by not being himself. One might even say he's in a dissociative state this whole run.

Next we have "Dead Will Rise" by Brian Wood and Smallwood. It follows where Ellis left off and you start to get some of that Delicious Smallwood art. The story does pick up a bit here, but it's still very ambiguous and barely holds the Moon Knight title.

You see, Bendis really fucked up things and they didn't want him to be seen as "That crazy guy" anymore. So they play it safe and you get more of the original supernatural stuff that happened back in the day with Werewolf by night.

"In the Night" is next in this series by Cullen Bunn and Ron Ackins. Again, art is pretty good here and you start to get some of the old Marc Spector back in this. He crashes more vehicles and you see his reckless style start to creep back in. Story is still barely there, but it's descent. Again, we see Marc start to decline in mental health. He's alone, he's destructive, he's violent.

NEXT UP: 2016. ENTER LEMIRE. Bless this man.

Lemire saw the Smallwood art in "Dead will Rise". Smallwood loved working on Moon Knight.

But Smallwood is a busy man in the comic universe. Lemire knew Smallwood was going to struggle to keep up with the schedule. And Lemire had a hell of a story to tell.

THIS MAN. He broke his story up into three other parts and hired three other artists that had VERY unique and distinctive styles.

This let him break his story up so that you knew each part by the art!!

WTF. When the story was important and back on the main plot, Smallwood would come back in and tell it with his smooth and amazing art.

Then as the series progresses and gets more and more into it, you see all the art styles crash into the pages until he brings it back home in one final breath taking scene where Smallwood collects them again and sends them off.

Gonna fucking cry here. Gimme a minute.

So anyways: The Lemire run. (Lunatic, Reincarnations, Birth and Death.) Three volumes in which we see Marc Spector's mental break down, the fall out, and how he builds himself back up. We see his friends from the past, we see Steven and Jake find their place, and we see Marc start to accept that he is a broken man. It's a beautiful story. It's hard to follow sometimes and a little confusing at first, but once you get to the end it all makes sense and it's so beautiful. Lemire is what inspired the MCU show, in case you were unaware.

Ugh. Next. BEMIS. 2017. Fucking Bemis. "Legacy" (Crazy runs in the family and Phases) Bemis took what Lemire did and shit all over it. I swear this man did no research into the character. He just went, "Crazy huh? What if he's SUPER CRAZY AND EATS RABID DOLPHINS" (this happened. I'm not kidding). He tries to reboot Moon Knight. He fucking UGH. He tries to explain what caused his DID. He just… UGH. Antisemetic bullshit and he should have known better. UGH. Only good thing to come out of it is that you find out Marc and Marlene had a daughter and she's pretty badass.

Then in 2018 we got "Avengers Age of Khonshu" by Jason Aaron. This was a marvel tie in event. I have THOUGHTS about tie in events and none of them are good. Basically Khonshu tries to take over the world. He uses Marc. Now the Avengers think Moon Knight is a threat and needs to be watched in case his god tries to do anything again. Khonshu gets locked up in Asgard and Marc is now on his own.

Jason Aaron, much like Ellis, is also known for his incredibly dark and gritty comics. He also did Punisher Max and is a huge name in the comic world, but you have to have the stomach for him. I guarantee there will be vomit, spitting, and blood in everything he does. It's like a trademark.

This brings us to 2021" MACKAY! (Midnight Mission, Too Tough to Die, and Halfway to Sanity)

Mackay looks back at Lemire and goes, "Hey… what happened?" This man does the unthinkable. He doesn't reboot. He starts with the Mr. Knight that was given to us by Ellis and Wood, takes the story that Lemire gave us, and then acknowledges the bad in Bemis and Aaron.

HE TIES IT ALL TOGETHER. We see Marc that has started his heaing journey from Lemire but stumbled into his old bad habbits from Bemis. We see Marc trying to repair his reputation from Aaron and desperate to hate himself and forget himself.

We see him build back to his old habbits until Jake and Steven re-enter the picture and I couldn't be happier with how he does it.

He understands and runs with real DID awareness. He talks about Marc's PTSD. He lets the work as a system. He tells a story. He's bringing in Fucking Dracula. This man knows his memes.

The run is still going and I am excited to see what he does next. Can he just keep Moon Knight in his pocket for a while? I would love that. Just… Let him hold him a while longer.

.........TLDR: Depends on what you like. If you are new to comics and just want to get your food in the door, read Lemire then skip to Mackay.

If you like what you see and want to get more in depth. You want to know who Frenchie and Gena are (I love them so much) dip your toe into the early stuff with the OG Moench. If you want to see where Marc started to break down and a more modern Moon Knight came about, go to Huston and work your way through it. If you just want to see enough to get you to Mackay, start with Ellis.

#Got asked #I rambled #Does...does this make sense?#I haven't slept and I'm pretty out of it #I need to go back and just reread it all #new years resolution: reread all of moon knight and take notes #Weren't expecting this when you asked me that were you?#haha oops

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this-world-of-beautiful-monsters · 2 years ago

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psspspsppspspsp

do you

do you have more leo angst fic reccs? /nf

preferably rise or 2012! but idm others!

Okay, so there’s a whole fucking bunch of these, including some of my own shit (although I removed some of my own Leo-angst fics because the post was just too dang long). You can also find the full list of recs on my AO3.

2018

Everything that We Are by fireworksinthenight - Leo and his family deal with the fallout of the Kraang invasion as best they can (tw trauma, guilt)

Withstanding all the Time, Changes and Seasons by guide_to_the_galaxy - Leo struggles to keep his family together during the apocalypse (tw body horror, mild gore, trauma, doomed timelines)

Of Late Nights and French Movies by pleasantnonsense - Leo tries to comfort Donnie after his brother has a bad dream (tw trauma)

cracked windows, falling by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo comes to terms with his multiversal legacy (tw trauma, nightmares, unreality, violence)

“say sorry to the lions, right now” from covered with dead flowers / it was cold it was cold yes it was / cold by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo confronts Donnie after discovering one of his brothers’s darkest secrets (tw past mind control, betrayal, trauma, implied ableism)

You can find a whole lot more of recs from an earlier collection here.

TMNT 2012

and I shall name you.. "Karai you lil shit" by @gekroent - A great piece of art about Leorai gone wrong (tw implied mind control, blood)

let's see just how far you'll go by leones @leonsi - Leo is determined to do whatever it takes to keep his family safe and Mikey stumbles upon the downsides (tw blood, self-harm, past child abuse)

evil is a relay sport by leones @leonsi - Leo doesn’t have the strength to hold Donnie back anymore (tw blood, speceism, violence)

Don't Judge Me by DarkxKitsune - Mikey is more accepting of Leo’s desire than Leo himself is (tw tcest, explicit, internalized kink shaming)

you're faking all your pain, you're bleeding on a stage by leones @leonsi - Leo struggles with accepting a mobility (tw trauma, internalized ableism)

i want to break you in pieces, fight me by Anonymous - An alternate reality where Leo is chased out of the sewers by his father and into the perhaps-overly-loving arms of Tiger Claw (tw csa, codependency, blood, violence, rape/noncon, underage sex, PTSD, past child abuse, self-esteem issues, unhealthy relationships, mental health issues, intense age gap)

some sunday in autumn by guide_to_the_galaxy- Leo and his family real from a horrifying loss (tw grief, guilt, trauma, injuries, torture, child abuse)

RL,Hot & Cold by @ringingt - Raph and Leo struggle to survive in the dark together (tw torture, possible tcest)

a quick something my sick depressed mind produced to carry on. by @arishynya - Leo and Karai deal with the return of the space turtles, and the fallout is ugly (tw a form of self-harm, injuries, scars, trauma, mental instability)

This art by @arishynya- Art of a 2012 Foot Leo au (tw implied mind control)

Leorai week day 1 - Injured by @arishynya - Karai struggles to keep Leo safe at a time of crisis (tw blood, injuries)

Something weird by @arishynya - Leo and Karai’s relationship enters a painful stage (tw implied breakup)

This art by !youngtitan213 - Leo deals with the fallout of Karai’s mutation (tw vaguely suggestive?)

The Salamandria Saga - Leo and Donnie try to survive the end of the world together (tw PTSD, turtlecest, explicit, apocalyptic imagery, family imagery)

it's not revolutionary by leones @leonsi - Raph tries to help Leo work out some of his darker feelings (tw implied self-harm, internalized ableism)

Leo, you fierce precious baby by @lornaka - Leo fights for his life during the invasion (tw implied violence)

urges burning through your skin by leones @leonsi - Leo does his best to keep his shit together while having tea with Chloe (tw self-harm, self-hatred, self-esteem issues)

(Tmnt , Au of Vengeance is Mine) by @sabindark - Leo is the one that gets mutated following vengeance is mind (tw identity issues)

save him by haru-kaze - Usagi finds out the reason for Leo’s maturity (tw trauma)

We Captured A Moment by Crowdog @50-shades-of-cloaca - Leo wakes up in the wrong timeline and stumbles into an unusual relationship (tw Splintercest, time travel sexual weirdness, homelessness, violence, injury, speciesm)

ghosts (old conversations) by notebookpapers - Leo has been bearing a lot of weight from a young age (tw child-as-parent, trauma)

Cliché (it was too late for me) by leones @leonsi - Leo stumbles into a relationship with a redhead in the coffee shop (tw trauma, anxiety, background tcest, speciesm, eating disorders)

Leonardo Hamato, The Righteous Hand of (God) Splinter by @floozdooz - Leo’s relationships with his father manifested as worship (tw daddy issues, religious imagery)

My Life Was Ended By Your Hand, the Kind of Murder Where Nobody Dies by PrincessGemma12 @princessgemma12 - Leo and Raph have some ugly shared childhood memories (tw child rape, csa, emotional manipulation, forced incest, future child loss)

There's Nothing More Than Empty Sheets Between Our Love” from I Keep Telling Myself This Might Be Nothing by PrincessGemma12 @princessgemma12 - Leo wrestles with loneliness on his first night awake at the farmhouse (tw implied underage sex, implied tcest)

We're still here, Fearless, don't worry. by @uggables - Leo’s family helps him keep it together after Fungus Humungous (tw trauma)

h, but I'm not bitter. i'm just tired. by leones @leonsi - Leo’s brothers help him sort through the remains of his relationship with Karai (tw break-up, past relationship dysfunction)

please don't tell me we share the same name (i don't want to be associated with that kind of pain) by leones @leonsi - Raph encourages Leo to push his limits, and Leo finds himself stumbling down a dark path (tw past csa, past child abuse, alcohol abuse, PTSD, nausea, unreliable narrator)

clinging to hope (what else is there to live for?) by leones @leonsi - Usagi offers a strange revelation while trying to help Leo pull himself together (tw implied suicide, suicidal thoughts, mental health issues, PTSD, past violence)

Aggressive Empathy in the Abyss (AEITA) by Gemma Winchester (PrincessGemma12), PrincessGemma12@princessgemma12 - Leo and Raph try to wrestle with the past together (tw tcest, explicit, trauma, past rape, past underage rape, PTSD)

ride it out by leones @leonsi - Raph helps Leo deal with a rough patch (tw dissociation, trauma, PTSD, possible tcest)

Both Leos lost someone importante at the end of their stories so I wanted them to meet again even if they are not the same people... by @lyse-474 - Two versions of Leonardo try to work out past losses in alternate realities (tw grief, trauma)

eating disorder fics by leones @leonsi - A primarily Leo-centric collection of stories about his struggle with his body and mind (tw neglect, vomit, unhealthy coping mechanisms, denial, unreliable narrator)

Curled In by Luescris - Raph tries to help Leo literally come out of his shell at the farmhouse (tw panic attacks, trauma, injury)

Don't Get Too Close by runawaydirtbag - A brilliant and terrifying collection of Leo-centric Angstpril stories (tw mental health issues, underage drug use, trauma, child abuse, self-hatred)

To the Victor by squishyturtlefuckfics for Melodistic - Shredder savors his new control over Leo (tw rape, implied torture, mindbreak, bad ending, explicit)

maybe that's the point by leones @leonsi - Donnie helps Leo work out some dark thoughts (tw PTSD, suicidal thoughts, flashbacks)

"i am so sick of being so scared all the time." by @leonsi - Leo is overwhelmed by his PTSD (tw trauma)

memory is the foulest gift by leones @leonsi - Mikey and Leo comes to terms with a long-buried secret (tw child rape, rape, past csa, trauma, family dysfunction, self-hatred, internalized victim blaming, suicidal thoughts, suicide attempt)

This art by @nei-ning - Leo receives horrible news (tw grief, tcest)

i can feel your eyes stare (and i'm not gonna lie, i get a little bit scared) by leones - Leo tries to work out his feelings regarding Usagi (tw past rape/noncon, hurt/comfort)

Monster by CityFallArc (orphan_account) - Leo wakes up in time to be left with nothing (tw mind control, past violence)

“Colors (Leonardo) ” from Visions: One Word Prompts by Gemma Winchester (PrincessGemma12) @princessgemma12 - 10 sentences of Leo across the universes (tw trauma, blood and gore, tcest, animal cruelty)

Deepest Darkest by FormlessVoid , with this art by 10yrsy - Leo struggles with the fallout of Fungus Humungous, but at least he’s got Raph on his side (tw trauma, loneliness, nightmares)

“You don’t have to face this alone.” by leos-wormstache - Raph and Splinter both help Leo deal with his fears (tw nightmares)

Hostage by ringingt - Leo struggles to survive Tiger Claw’s captivity (tw forced feeding, blood, injury, torture, sickness)

Inward by Captain_Jade - Leo and his family find themselves caught up in a web of dreams and nightmares (tw unreality, trauma, gore, grief)

Father vs. Sensei by SleepingSeeker - Splinter’s latest training regime takes more out of Leo than usual (tw child abuse, poisoning)

Do you feel it? by Riu_wiu - Raph tries to help Leo with his guilt over their relationship (tw turtlecest, family dysfunction)

Return of Honor by Firebird Scratches - Leo discovers what his newly recovered father can and cannot do for the family (tw violence, injury)

Captain Ryan Wouldn't by Flynne - Leo is growing beyond his childhood heroes (tw violence, fire, pain)

These Scars Remind Me The Past Is Real by xXNerdFighterXx - Leo tries to figure out Raph’s coddling new attitude after he wakes up at the farmhouse (tw family dysfunction, injury, trauma)

The Devil In I by Kareh - Leo is taken from his family and returned as something nearly unrecognizable (tw brainwashing, torture, abuse, trauma, violence)

Sacrifice by Silvermoon27 - Leo sacrificed himself for his family and takes the long road coming home (tw deception, grief, violence, family dysfunction, injury)

If it makes you happy by samstoleaburger - Mikey comforts Leo after a bad day (tw bullying mention, light family dysfunction, self-doubt)

10 ways to say i love you by orphan_account - Leo connects with Casey in ways both beautiful and painful (tw injury, fear)

Hanging By A Moment. by Chandrakantya - A collection of Leo and Casey's first kisses and everything they meant (tw trauma, self-doubt)

I'll Remember You by MusicRocks807 - Leo tries to find Karai, but it’s hard when she’s forgotten almost everything (tw identity issues)

the more things change by breeisonfire - Leo and his family try to put themselves together after coming home from space (tw past grief, trauma)

These nightmares always hang on past the dream. by Werepirechick - Leo and his clan try to keep together in space (tw nightmares, PTSD)

“ One Double-Drabble ” from The Secret Anthology by Amitica Revenant - Leo deals with his impending sacrifice in the Techndrome (tw near-death experiences, drowning)

Coping by FishiesGoneFiction @fishiesgonefiction - Leo does what he can for Karai (tw trauma, dysfunctional relationships)

Dark side of the Sun and Shattered Spirit, Conquered Soul by Shanalaa - A series where Leo pays the price for his family’s inner darkness (tw rape, tcest, forced tcest, sexual abuse, past underage, trauma, victim blaming, internalized victim blaming)

“ xli-l ” of Diffraction by AngelDormais - Leo and his family fight for Leo’s life after fleeing New York (tw injury, trauma)

Unseen by Pheonix500 - Leorai with undertones of fantasy and mind control (tw violence, brainwashing, dubious consent)

Okay by MoTexas55 (CupNoodles55) - Leo deals with a dream of what he can’t have (tw separation, unreality)

You Have Always Wanted This by Adoradork - There is something very wrong with Karai–if only Leo could figure out what (tw implied sexual coercion, mind control)

“You came back. (Splinter&Leo)” from Drabble Collection by starsofyoursoul (Apothecary_Rose) - Splinter comforts Leo after a hard fight (tw injury, guilt, self-doubt, implied trauma, past violence)

can't let a cold heart be free. by Chandrakantya - Karai and Leo’s relationship is always shifting, often painfully (tw implied sexual content, unhealthy relationships, past violence) it's only love, not a timebomb (there's no way out of this) by authenticaussie - Leo can’t help being worried for Casey (tw injury, past violence)

“Used to Know (Mikey & Leo)” from The Shinobi's Garden by taizi @taizi - There’s something wrong with Mikey; Leo helps as best he can (tw violence, nonconsensual drug use, mind control)

“Incompetent (Leo - Problem Child AU)” from The Shinobi's Garden by taizi - Human AU where Leo still has so many fears to wrestle with (tw past homelessness, trauma)

someone will come running by taizi - Leo has to leave to come back (tw family separation, trauma, grief)

in the bitter watches by impossiblewanderings - Raph watches over his sleeping brother (tw trauma, injury, family separation)

My Cub by squishyturtlefuckfics - Tiger Claw carefully breaks down Leo’s walls (tw dubcon/noncon, possible underage, imprisonment, explicit)

Know my name (as it's called again) by moogsthewriter - ATLA AU where Leo, Donnie, and Raph seek out a missing brother (tw family separation)

The Need to Escape by orphan_account - Leo and his family try to find a world outside the shadow of their master, the Shredder (tw trauma, violence, child abuse, implied unhealthy relationships/csa, child abuse, family dysfunction, speciesm, tcest, dehumanization)

Haunted by Kiraynn - Raph helps Leo from a traumatizing attack (tw past rape/noncon, trauma, explicit, tcest)

Broken Brother by Koalagriton - Bringing Raph back isn’t easy, but Leo won’t get up (tw alcohol, tcest, mind control)

On Beautiful Nights and Their Consequences by Anonymous for Crowdog - Karai gives Leo a very strange gift (tw post breakup, surprise parenting)

Stealth and Sacrifice by GoblinCatKC - Leo undoes himself for his brothers in more ways than one (tw violence, blood, self-harm, identity issues)

Sleeping Beauty by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo suffers a devastating betrayal without even realizing it (tw rape/noncon, explicit, betrayal, tcest, abuse, sexism, homophobia, guilt)

Strange Little Shadows by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - 50 sentences about Leo, Raph and Karai (tw trauma, tcest, major character death, brainwashing, violence)

I See Things That Nobody Else Sees by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo tries to protect his memories of his relationships with his father and brother in the face of harsh reality (tw sexual abuse, rape/noncoon, parent/child incest, tcest, emotional manipulation, unreliable narrator, physical abuse, emotional/psychological abuse, gaslighting)

No Safe Place by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Karai discovers one of Leo’s ugliest secrets (tw csa, underage rape/noncon, past manipulation, past violence, explicit, parent/child incest, identity issues)

“Quick” from TMNT ABC III: Lives And Times Of The Turtles by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo, Mikey, and the nature of monsters (tw violence, attempted rape, vomit, gore)

“Gone” from TMNT ABC IV: Turtles Forever And Ever And Ever by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo tries to keep his brothers alive when their father disappears (tw childhood trauma, speciesm, self-harm, hunger)

“They don't give a fuck about you, like I do” from Red-Light District by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Tiger Claw takes Leo apart after an escape attempt (tw child abuse, csa, rape/noncon, imprisonment, implied violence, injury, torture, unreliable narrator)

“Stop Worrying And Love (The Bomb)” from Midnight Whispers by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo and his family do what they need to survive (tw sort-of-abortion, cannibalism, tcest, apocalypse, implied character death)

and if you have nightmares, we'll dance on the bed by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Shini and Karai have to rescue Leo from an ugly situation (tw gore, captivity, torture, mentioned sexism, mentioned sexual assault, dissociation, trauma, past underage rape/noncon, fire)

feeling like a boulder hurtling by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo is particularly frustrated by two of his new enemies (tw brainwashing, underage rape/noncon, mind control, violence, emotional manipulation, abuse, unreliable narrator)

sew this hole up that you ripped in my head by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Inspired by @leones’s magnificent relax. by leones (which I’ve recced elsewhere); an accidental trip through the multiverse forces Leo to confront the past (tw past csa, past underage rape/noncon, trauma)

“constellation” from with friends like these, who needs by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Chloe loves Mr. Turtle, even when she doesn’t always understand him (tw trauma, implied injury)

“cursed” from with friends like these, who needs by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo has a question that only the forest can answer (tw grief, implied ableism, mentioned eating disorders, trauma, family dysfunction)

You can find a whole lot more of recs from an earlier collection here .

TMNT IDW

Dawn Into the Dark by Cass_Phoenix- Leo relapses after escaping from Shredder (tw violence, mind control)

This coincidence has been carefully planned - Lavinia/Shredder by Ibenholt

@Ibenholt - Genderbent AU where Saki claws his way into Lavinia’s life, over and over again (tw rape/noncon, mutilation, violence, trauma, mind control)

some Dark Leo doodles just for fun by @mooncalfe - Reflections on a different Foot Leo costume (tw implied mind control)

some doodles by @mooncalfe - Leo tries to deal with the City Fall fallout (tw trauma, past mind control, creepiness, identity issues, past abuse, past manipulation)

This art by @ringingt - Leonardo has an ugly confrontation with his Foot self (tw violence, self-harm/suicide undertones, major character death imagery, identity issues, implied mind control)

CITY FALL by @puna-nezuki - Raph encounters Foot Leonardo in the rain (tw implied mind control)

This art by @robinsondraws1 - Leo is fracturing, just a little bit (tw mental health issues, identity issues)

Blue and Red to Black by dearjoanwallace - A poem about Foot Leonardo (tw violence, mind control, major character death)

“(Shredder/Leo) Accidental” by Sink Deeper (Hypnovember 2021) by squishyturtlefuckfics - An unexpected memory drags Leo down (tw explicit, sexual assault, underage rape/noncon, mind control)

This art by @72stars - Leo’s family do their best to comfort him after City Fall (tw past mind control, trauma)

Tamashi No Tatakai by dearjoanwallace - Leo’s dreams are not his own (tw violence, unreality, emotion manipulation, mind control)

Leo - Foot slave by teddyparty - Leo finds himself caught in an ugly trap (tw slavery, imprisonment, implied mind control)

come back for us by blackdragon-sama - Raph tries to pull Leo back from the Foot (tw incest, mpreg, implied mind control)

[TMNT IDW] City Fall Leo EDIT -Here- by Pizzainator - Leo’s part of the Foot Clan now, but he doesn’t belong (tw flashing lights/colors, violence, manipulation, grief, blood)

Glued Leaves by Pebr - Leo’s perspective as he decides whether to spare Koya’s life (tw violence, blood, trauma)

For doing what I could not. by leospigtails - Leo tries to comfort both Mikey and himself (tw past child abuse, explicit, tcest)

The Games We Play by orphan_account - Karai and Leo are caught up in a dangerous game (tw implied brainwashing, consent issues, explicit, identity issues)

Dark Leo by dearjoanwallace - Leo’s plans for the future are dark, determined, and not his own design (tw violent thoughts, discussions of character death, unreliable narrator)

Goodbye For Now by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo and Karai try to figure things out before her departure (tw grief, trauma, past manipulation, past abuse)

Darkness Eating Me Alive by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Raph gives Leo a shoulder to lean on in the aftermath of City Fall (tw past mind control, past abuse, violence, gore, simulated character death, trauma, guilt, nightmares, unreality)

Screaming Into The Void by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo receives solace from an unusual source (tw eating disorders, self-harm, trauma, grief, abandonment, past mind control, violence, fire)

“Zombies” from ABC TMNT by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo’s reality is less stable than he’d like (tw past mind control, csa, trauma, hallucinations, gore, horror, rot, internalized ableism)

“Confrontation” from ABC TMNT II: Out Of The Ooze by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo tries to come to terms with what Kitsune did to him (tw past mind control, emotional manipulation; still relatively tame compared to my other City Fall stuff)

“You” from ABC TMNT II: Out Of The Ooze by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo and Jenny try to reckon with the weight of their new bodies (tw past character death, body image issues)

“Kindling” from TMNT ABC III: Lives And Times Of The Turtles by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo’s father is slipping into a dark place and Leo can’t save him, only stop him (tw violence, imprisonment, child abuse, mental health issues, child death, fire)

give my regards from the underground by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters, inspired by @ibenholt‘s writing - Rule 63 City Fall AU where Hamato Lavinia does her best to put herself back together (tw past underage rape/noncon, past mind control, past csa, blood and gore, nightmares, unreality, trauma)

TMNT 2003

Silk and Steel by katanashipping (stopbeingbored)- Leo is fracturing at the edges, even with Usagi’s help (tw mental health issues, trauma, implied violence)

spectrum by m00nie - Leo is autistic and struggling to keep it together (tw meltdowns, internalized ableism)

martyrs and holy men by comatoseroses- Leo tries to figure Raph, and himself, out (tw family dysfunction, blood, injury, trauma)

Solitude's Price by Skywinder - Leo’s role in the family cuts him off from the rest (tw family dysfunction, self-isolation)

Heights by ASWF - A character study told in leaps and falls (tw trauma, mental health issues, implied violence)

Compassion Is Not Optional by Crowdog @50-shades-of-cloaca - Leo’s family is determined to take care of him, despite the Ninja Tribunal’s attempts to stand in their way (tw injury, trauma, ableism)

You Build A Wall by HamsterMasterSamster - Leo and April bond in the aftermath of Shredder’s attack (tw trauma, past destruction, injury recovery)

Blindspot by Valpoet - Leo tries to figure out survival in a SAINW universe (tw mentioned depression, past self-harm, PTSD)

Words Best On Paper by TheAngelofFate for BrightLotusMoon - Mikey uses his journal to cope with Leo’s escalating issues (tw trauma, family dysfunction)

The Katana Chronicles by Windify - A collection of Leo-centric stories (tw violence, child abuse, self-harm, drug use, trauma, violence, injury)

Soft by Koalagriton - Usagi struggles to keep Leo alive after a dangerous encounter on his world (tw poison, near-death experiences, brief suicidal ideations)

Love Endures All by SleepingSeeker - Leo tries not to be destroyed by Karai’s fractured edges (tw abuse, dysfunctional relationships, torture, self-esteem issues)

With a Touch of Blue by Windify - The Hamato family is abruptly reunited with a missing sibling (tw trauma, torture, amnesia, forced cannibalism, mind control)

Avocado by Capricornicis - Leo tries and fails to have some “normal” playtime with Casey (tw explicit)

Vanishing by governmentcontractor - Leo and Mikey deal with the edge Leo is approaching (tw family dysfunction, elements of abuse, trauma)

“In The Hands Of The Enemy,” “I've Got You,” “I Think I've Broken Something,” “Panic! At The Disco + What's a Whumpee Gotta Do To Get Some Sleep Around Here?,” “I Think We Need A Doctor ” and “Today's Special: Torture ” from Whumptober 2020 by ceraxxxx - Leo-centric stories from Whumptober (tw major character death, guns, injury, family dysfunction, guilt, grief, trauma, paranoia, exhaustion)

Them by SeaThreePeeO - Leo can’t get the blood off his hands (tw violence, gore, guilt)

Whispered by Pebr - A demon finds its way into the sewers, setting its sights on Leo and his brothers (tw violence, self-harm, MCD imagery, possession, manipulation, amnesia, trauma, self-esteem issues, identity issues)

“Leader: Splinter,” “Emotion: Leonardo,” and “Rectitude: Splinter” from Drabbles Forever by Mikell - A collection of Leo-centric stories (tw emotional issues, childhood trauma)

Point of View by MissMoMo1990 - Alternating POV during one of Leo and Raph’s more destructive squabbles (tw violence, family dysfunction, unhealthy relationships)

Paperthin by stopbeingbored - Leo and Usagi’s relationship comes under Casey’s scrutiny, and Leo doesn’t know how to deal with that (tw violence, homophobia)

Strategy by Meg720 - Leo finds his own way to comfort Donnie (tw trauma, past character death)

Maybe Just the End by nightwalker for amaronith - Day of Tomorrow AU where Leo and Donnie fight for their lives in a stalled elevator (tw apocalypse, minor character death)

Chronic by suitboxers (orphan_account) - Leo’s struggle to cope spins out of control (tw drug addiction, ableism)

Whumptober 2020: Leaving Tonight by Pebr - Leo-centric whump drabbles (tw injury, torture, blood and injury, starvation, imprisonment, unreliable narrator)

My soul is bigger than my body (I don’t know myself at all) by GreenGoddessSmoothie - Leo has had so much to bear over his short life (tw trauma, unhealthy relationships)

It Always Comes Back to You by zangetsugirl - 50 sentences about Leo, some happy and some not (tw implied violence, past destruction, trauma, guilt)

I Call The Shots by ClothesBeam - Leo finds himself caught in Karai’s web (tw slavery, abuse, torture, rape, tcest, explicit)

The Legacy by Nekotsuki - Leo discovers that some threats aren’t as dead as he’d hoped (tw nonconsensual drug use, blood, violence, forced transformation)

Not Enough by Starkangejr - Leo can only be so close to what Raph wants (tw dubcon, noncon, tcest, explicit, unhealthy relationships)

Release From Guilt by babygirl127 - Donnie tries to help Leo work out his emotions after Raph gets hurt (tw possible self-harm, complicated BDSM etiquette, consent issues, trauma, guilt, tcesty undertones, non-erotic spanking, past violence, injury)

Deterioration by hummerhouse @hummerhouse - Leo and his brothers get caught up in Bishop’s latest scheme and discover they have more to lose than they ever considered possible (tw violence, tcest, possession, nonconsensual-touching, manipulation, violence)

Underdark by Nekotsuki - Leo and MIkey fight to survive a cave-in together (tw injury, near-death experiences, sensory loss, blood)

Past to Present by crabapplered- Leo leads his brothers once more by giving Donnie a very special welcome home (tw past violence, family dysfunction, internalized ableism, trauma, tcest, explicit)

i promise that you'll breathe again by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo and his surviving brothers mourn their dead (tw grief, alcohol, past alcoholism, trauma, tcest)

All Media Types

you make holes in me and little slits (you use as mouths for you to kiss) by Anonymous for This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Raph has some really bad ideas about how to handle Leo’s self-harm (tw torture, rape, underage, gore, implied self-harm, abuse)

A Choice by Deliciousdame - An imprisoned Leo faces a decision (tw captivity, manipulation, discussions of betrayal)

A Petal Falling by FoxTheWriter - Leo deals with the sometimes ugly side of duty (tw anxiety, panic attacks, eating disorders, suicidal thoughts)

Tonight by cndrow - Leo and Raph deal with bumps in the road of their relationship (tw tcest, dysfunctional relationships)

Lure Rebound by Various - A collection of Leoraph art, including heavy angst (tw blood, explicit, turtlecest)

"This isn't just about you..." from Chapter 2 of Quotes by what_should_i_post_here - Leo and Raph struggle to overcome Leo’s inhibitions (tw tcest, implied family dysfunction)

A Different Path by VenusTheMarvelTurtle - A darkly brilliant Foot!Leo AU centered around toxic Leoraph (tw abuse, torture, rape/noncon, underage rape, csa, manipulation, drug use, violence, gore, explicit, tcest, unhealthy relationships, self-loathing)

Problem Solving by Goblin Cat KC - The loss of Donnie’s mathbooks leads into a much bigger mystery, with Leo at the center (tw learning issues, self-esteem issues)

Insanity Disguised by NRATQH - Leo comes to terms with the steps he must take to protect his brothers (tw self-harm, neglect, family dysfunction, self-loathing, guns, violence, speciesm)

Quiet by Fight_As_One - Leo and his family fight for their lives at the end of the world (tw violence, major character death, guilt, trauma)

Pet Turtle by GoblinCatKC - Leo gets tangled up with two unsavory customers (tw explicit, rape, gore, violent death)

“Chapter 26” through “Chapter 29” from Of Flowers and Things by Mystic Medjai - Mikey gets hurt and Leo struggles with the aftermath (tw violence, injury, guilt)

“S2 Chapter 74 ” from Of Flowers and Things by Mystic Medjai - Leo tries to work out his feelings for Karai (tw unhealthy relationships)

Never Never by crazycatlady713 - Leo comes to terms with his father’s vulnerability and the burden of growing up

“Inside - Part 1” and “Inside - Part 2” from The Secret Anthology by Amitica Revenant - Leo watches helpless as Donnie disappears into his own mind

Ignore the Ghosts by Bunny MacCool - Leo is beyond repair when he comes home (tw mental break, images of gore and character death, implied torture, unreality)

Three Sheets to the Wind by Bunny MacCool - Leo’s brothers’ attempt at family bonding leads to some painful revelations (tw underage drinking, implied forced alcohol consumption, trauma, self-doubt, self-esteem issues)

Eldest by Ironi Numair - Leo’s very personal version of the turtles origin story (tw animal death)

If You Had To Choose by DarkestSight (Daylight) - Leo and Raph try to decide who they’d save (tw self-sacrificial/suicidal undertones, implied violence)

The Only Thing Left by Connie Nervegas - Raph and Leo are the only ones left, and they might not be enough (tw gore, smoking, alcohol, suicide attempt, major character death, family dysfunction)

A Paper Trail by sleepyxcoffee - Leo’s attempt to find his father lead to some ugly places, and his brothers must race to save them both (tw violence, gore, torture, misogyny, racism, speciesm)

Waking Up by fren - Leo has spent a lifetime in a world that didn’t exist, and wakes off not sure which reality he prefers (tw heartbreak, implied sexual content, implied suicidality, imaginary major character death)

xxxiii. ink from “ xxxi-xl ” of Diffraction by AngelDormais - From a young age, Leo has trouble taking things for himself

More than a sword. by leospigtails - Leo and his brothers find themselves in a dimension-spanning adventure with terrifying implications (tw turtlecest, violence, major character death, manipulation, selfcest, trauma)

Other by VenusTheMarvelTurtle - Leo’s mind is under attack and splintering from within (tw rape, tcest, explicit, underage rape, implied casa, blood and gore, mind break, humiliation, psychological torture)

Between the Lines , What Doesn't Hurt , and From the Depths of Dreams by jusXtrust - Karai is determined to have Leo one way or another (tw torture, rape, imprisonment, trauma, sexual coercion, explicit, humiliation)

“Remembered” from The 100 by Alessa_D - Leo tries to deal with his father’s approaching end

Icosahedron by AngelDormais - Leo’s family refuses to let him die for them (tw self-sacrifice/suicidal behavior, destruction)

“Fear” from Turtles by Neko_HaniChan - Leo deals with a devastating loss (tw major character death, violence, suicidal thoughts)

“If ” from 100 Challange - TMNT by Kamefootninja (Kame630) - Leo is paralyzed by possibilities (tw implied character death)

“Work ” 100 Challange - TMNT by Kamefootninja (Kame630) - Leo does his best to keep his emotions under control

All by sleepingseeker - Karai takes a captive Leo apart (tw imprisonment, implied torture, dubcon, explicit, threats of mutilation)

Silenced by DreamerofCurses - Leo has a permanent injury, a new perspective on life, and nowhere to hide from his father (tw child abuse, past violence)

Purgatory by GoneBunny Leo wrestles with some particularly painful desires (tw explicit, violence, blood) Redux by vacant houses (the_lost_robot) - Leo’s reality is being stolen out from under him (tw major character death, unreality, torture, violence, horror)

Where Do I Even Start (It's All Falling Apart) by Kareh - Leo does something terrible and Leo doesn’t know how to cope (tw suicidal impulses, rape/noncon, trauma, victim blaming, nonconsensual drug use)

Give me a reason by GoneBunny, Watchword - Karai helps Leo learn not to die (tw suicide attempt, past child abuse, implied violence, sexual content)

bloodlines from Kay the Cricketed - Star Wars AU where Leo does not forget his brothers (tw family separation, identity issues)

Lockdown from Kay the Cricketed - Leo keeps a secret and accidentally sucks his family into a frightening new battle (tw injury, hiding injury, poisoning, drug mention)

The Teapot Dilemma from Kay the Cricketed - Raph helps Leo deal with all the little ways loss creeps up on you (tw grief, past character death)

Careful Where You Go from Kay the Cricketed - Leo says goodbye to Donnie (tw violence, blood, injury, major character death)

A Beautiful Moment and Paper Thin Wishes from Kay the Cricketed - Leo has so much to say and not enough time to say it (tw major character death)

Flicker from Kay the Cricketed - Leo follows Raph into danger and matters split out of control (tw blood, major character death in one version, violence, grief, trauma, guilt)

Clarity, Her Tomb from Kay the Cricketed - Leo tries to make his way out of a fracturing reality, with only warped versions of his brothers to guide him (tw blood and gore, violence, unreality, manipulation)

Wallower from Kay the Cricketed - The darker parts of Leo’s mind come crawling out during a fever (tw sickness, implied injury, unreality, possible body horror, self-esteem issues, mentions of self-harm)

The Lake from Kay the Cricketed - Leo tries to deal with the fact that Donnie isn’t coming back (tw grief, trauma, past major character death)

Footsteps that Follow from Kay the Cricketed - Leo is forced to confront the stranger parts of psyche (tw mental attacks, unreality, manipulation, implied violence)

The Bartering Room by kay_cricketed - A magical-realism AU where the tools for Leo’s family’s survival lie in his own undoing (tw memory loss, self-sacrificial/suicidal behavior, major character death, self-destruction)

inside the telescope by guide_to_the_galaxy - Leo tries to cope with the steady, relentless loss of his sight (tw bad parenting, ableism, trauma, manipulation, unreality)

sub!Leo prompts by GoblinCatKC - A collection of sexy Leo stories dealing around various levels of consent (tw rape/noncon, sexual abuse, torture, panic attacks, anxiety, explicit, objectification, nonconsensual issues, mind break, nonconsensual body modification)

Tsunami Dream by GoblinCatKC - Leo and Mikey try to survive a radically changed New York (tw unreality, apocalypse, destruction)

Candles Drowning by GoblinCatKC - Leo experiences a frightening transformation with ugly ramification for his family (tw noncon/dubcon, mind control, violence, gore, identity issues, unreliable narrator, captivity, torture, tcest, explicit, family dysfunction)

Routine by Ibenholt @ibenholt - Leo struggles to keep himself and his brothers alive under Shredder’s thumb (tw sexual slavery, rape/noncon, hostage situations, implied control, nonconsensual bodily modification, emotional/psychological abuse, violence)

Not Our Problem by Kyn - Leo takes a child from a dumpster and sends the remains of his clan spiraling (tw violence, poverty, attempted child murder, suicide attempts, family separation, past torture, past captivity, dystopia, guns, attempted rape, explicit, identity issues)

Casting Stones at the River by GoblinCatKC - Leo and his brothers wield the double-edged sword of immortality (tw violence, character death, tcest, explicit, consent issues, family dysfunction, possible abuse, imprisonment, explosions, apocalypse)

Lio by GoblinCatKC - Leo faces a choice only he can make (tw fears of misgendering and misogyny, implied abortion)

Stumbling in Fog by GoblinCatKC - Silent Hill crossover where Leo searches for his brothers in a disorienting hellscape (tw violence, suspect, horror)

Bad Places by GoblinCatKC - Leo comes back from a bad palace with a heart full of secrets (tw gore, blood, violence, mental health issues, identity issues)

Mirage Comics

Something About Ajax and the Inevitable from Kay the Cricketed - Leo loses everything bit by bit (tw family separation, grief, trauma)

The Greatest Enemy from Kay the Cricketed - Leo contemplates the burning body of the Shredder (tw past violence, very roundabout references to rape)

Ten Minutes by kay_cricketed - Leo pushes himself dangerously far in his struggle for perfection (tw insecurity, anxiety, self-harm)

TMNT 2007

Reflection by KameTerra- Leo tries not to go to pieces in the jungle (tw loneliness, family separation)

Scars by KameTerra - Leo’s reflections on the past are interrupted by a hope for the future (tw grief, major character death, past violence)

Jungle Fever by Elphaba-Rose - Leo and Raph get sent to the jungle together (tw injury, tcest, explicit, brief references to sexual assault not involving main characters)

Never Again by Winnychan - Leo shares a dark story with Karai (tw implied child trafficking, past violence, past manipulation, trauma, guilt)

“His Own Grave ” from The Secret Anthology by Amitica Revenant - Leo comes home far too late to prevent a permanent sundering (tw family dysfunction, separation, heartbreak)

Send Your Lifeboats Out For Me by Crowdog @50-shades-of-cloaca - Leo comes home from Central America with a secret he took to the jungle with him and his brothers try to put the pieces together (tw rape, graphic depictions of violence, bathroom issues, violence, gore, torture, sexual torture, tcest, explicit, genital mutilation, child abuse, victim blaming, panic attacks, suicidal thoughts)

“xxiii. vapor” from xxi-xxx of Diffraction by AngelDormais - Neither Donnie nor Leo know what to deal with Leo’s impending departure

Countdown to Clarity by LittleKy - The crumbling of Leo and Raph’s relationship in reverse (tw violence, family dysfunction)

“Moon” from 100 Challange - TMNT by Kamefootninja (Kame630) - The moon hasn’t changed, but Leo and his family have (tw family separation)

Homecoming Child - Leo comes home too late (tw major character death, implied character death, family separation)

The Lost World from Kay the Cricketed - Leo tries to figure out who he is in the wild heart of the jungle (tw family separation, identity issues, past violence)

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The guilt you dont deserve [comic] by Traitmill - Leo and his family deal with the fallout from their latest trauma (tw turtlecest, blood and gore, gore, trauma)

Lean Into the Hard Left by bright_roaring_blue - Leo struggles to cope with his father’s unveiled secret (tw implied sexual content, family issues)

The gift horse's mouth. by leospigtails - Leo experiences a transformation with painful implication for the whole family (tw nonconsensual drug use, tcest, bad parenting)

Home by Ponaco - Leo learns to step up at a young age (tw violence, childhood trauma, speciesm)

Out of the Shadows by cptsuke - Leo struggle to take care of his brothers, even when they don’t really understand his methods (tw implied violence, family dysfunction, speciesm)

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